Alreadythereareinnuendoes,threats,hintsthrownout,andevenawfulinstancesfabricatedoutofinadequatematerials,butitishistoricallyunthinkablethatthePolandofthefuture,withitssacredtraditionoffreedomanditshereditarysenseofrespectfortherightsofindividualsandStates,shouldseekitsprosperityinaggressiveactionorinmoralviolenceagainstthatpartofitsoncefellow-citizenswhoareRutheniansorLithuanians。Theonlyinfluencethatcannotberestrainedissimplytheinfluenceoftime,whichdisengagestruthfromallfactswithamercilesslogicandprevailsoverthepassingopinions,thechangingimpulsesofmen。Therecanbenodoubtthatthemoralimpulsesandthematerialinterestsofthenewnationalities,whichseemtoplaynowthegameofdisintegrationforthebenefitoftheworld'senemies,willintheendbringthemnearertothePolandofthiswar'screation,willunitethemsoonerorlaterbyaspontaneousmovementtowardstheStatewhichhadadoptedandbroughtthemupinthedevelopmentofitsownhumaneculture——theoffspringoftheWest。
ANOTEONTHEPOLISHPROBLEM——1916
Wemuststartfromtheassumptionthatpromisesmadebyproclamationatthebeginningofthiswarmaybebindingontheindividualswhomadethemunderthestressofcomingevents,butcannotberegardedasbindingtheGovernmentsaftertheendofthewar。
Polandhasbeenpresentedwiththreeproclamations。TwoofthemwereinsuchcontrastwiththeavowedprinciplesandthehistoricactionforthelasthundredyearssincetheCongressofViennaofthePowersconcerned,thattheyweremorelikecynicalinsultstothenation'sdeepestfeelings,itsmemoryanditsintelligence,thanstatepapersofaconciliatorynature。
TheGermanpromisesawokenothingbutindignantcontempt;theRussianabitterincredulityofthemostcompletekind。TheAustrianproclamation,whichmadenopromisesandcontenteditselfwithpointingouttheAustro-Polishrelationsforthelastforty-
fiveyears,wasreceivedinsilence。ForitisafactthatinAustrianPolandalonePolishnationalitywasrecognisedasanelementoftheEmpire,andindividualscouldbreathetheairoffreedom,ofcivillife,ifnotofpoliticalindependence。
ButforPolestobeGermanophileisunthinkable。TobeRussophileorAustrophileisatbestacounselofdespairinviewofaEuropeansituationwhich,becauseofthegroupingofthepowers,seemstoshutfromthemeveryhope,expressedorunexpressed,ofanationalfuturenursedthroughmorethanahundredyearsofsufferingandoppression。
Throughmostoftheseyears,andespeciallysince1830,PolandI
usethisexpressionsincePolandexistsasaspiritualentitytodayasdefinitelyasiteverexistedinherpasthasputherfaithintheWesternPowers。Politicallyitmayhavebeennothingmorethanaconsolingillusion,andthenationhadahalf-consciousnessofthis。ButwhatPolandwaslookingforfromtheWesternPowerswithoutdiscouragementandwithunbrokenconfidencewasmoralsupport。
Thisisafactofthesentimentalorder。Butsuchfactshavetheirpositivevalue,fortheiridealismderivesfromperhapsthehighestkindofreality。Asentimentassertsitsclaimbyitsforce,persistenceanduniversality。InPolandthatsentimentalattitudetowardstheWesternPowersisuniversal。Itextendstoallclasses。Theverychildrenareaffectedbyitassoonastheybegintothink。
Thepoliticalvalueofsuchasentimentconsistsinthis,thatitisbasedonprofoundresemblances。Thereforeonecanbuildonitasifitwereamaterialfact。Forthesamereasonitwouldbeunsafetodisregarditifoneproposedtobuildsolidly。ThePoles,whomsuperficialorill-informedtheoristsaretryingtoforceintothesocialandpsychologicalformulaofSlavonism,areintruthnotSlavonicatall。Intemperament,infeeling,inmind,andeveninunreason,theyareWestern,withanabsolutecomprehensionofallWesternmodesofthought,evenofthosewhichareremotefromtheirhistoricalexperience。
ThatelementofracialunitywhichmaybecalledPolonism,remainedcompressedbetweenPrussianGermanismononesideandtheRussianSlavonismontheother。ForGermanismitfeelsnothingbuthatred。
ButbetweenPolonismandSlavonismthereisnotsomuchhatredasacompleteandineradicableincompatibility。
NopoliticalworkofreconstructingPolandeitherasamatterofjusticeorexpediencycouldbesoundwhichwouldleavethenewcreationindependencetoGermanismortoSlavonism。
Thefirstneednotbeconsidered。Thesecondmustbe——unlessthePowerselecttodropthePolishquestioneitherunderthecoverofvagueassurancesorwithoutanydisguisewhatever。
ButifitisconsidereditwillbeseenatoncethattheSlavonicsolutionofthePolishQuestioncanoffernoguaranteesofdurationorholdthepromiseofsecurityforthepeaceofEurope。
TheonlybasisforitwouldbetheGrandDuke'sManifesto。ButthatManifesto,signedbyapersonagenowremovedfromEuropetoAsia,andbyaman,moreover,whoiftruetohimself,tohisconceptionofpatriotismandtohisfamilytraditioncouldnothaveputhishandtoitwithanysincerityofpurpose,isnowdivestedofallauthority。Theforciblevaguenessofitspromises,itsstartlinginconsistencywiththehundredyearsofruthlesslydenationalisingoppressionpermitonetodoubtwhetheritwasevermeanttohaveanyauthority。
Butinanycaseitcouldhavehadnoeffect。Theverynatureofthingswouldhavebroughttonoughtitsprofessedintentions。
ItisimpossibletosupposethataStateofRussia'spowerandantecedentswouldtolerateaprivilegedcommunityof,toRussia,unnationalcomplexionwithinthebodyoftheEmpire。Allhistoryshowsthatsuchanarrangement,howeverhedgedinbythemostsolemntreatiesanddeclarations,cannotlast。Inthiscaseitwouldleadtoatragicissue。TheabsorptionofPolonismisunthinkable。ThelasthundredyearsofEuropeanHistoryprovesitundeniably。Thereremainsthenextirpation,aprocessofbloodandiron;andthelastactofthePolishdramawouldbeplayedthenbeforeaEuropetoowearytointerfere,andtotheapplauseofGermany。
ItwouldnotbejusttosaythatthedisappearanceofPolonismwouldaddanystrengthtotheSlavonicpowerofexpansion。Itwouldaddnostrength,butitwouldremoveapossiblyeffectivebarrieragainstthesurprisesthefutureofEuropemayholdinstorefortheWesternPowers。
ThusthequestionwhetherPolonismisworthsavingpresentsitselfasaproblemofpoliticswithapracticalbearingonthestabilityofEuropeanpeace——asabarrierorperhapsbetterinviewofitsdetachedpositionasanoutpostoftheWesternPowersplacedbetweenthegreatmightofSlavonismwhichhasnotyetmadeupitsmindtoanything,andtheorganisedGermanismwhichhasspokenitsmindwithnouncertainvoice,beforetheworld。
LookedatinthatlightalonePolonismseemsworthsaving。ThatithaslivedsolongonitstrustinthemoralsupportoftheWesternPowersmaygiveitanotherandevenstrongerclaim,basedonatruthofamoreprofoundkind。PolonismhadresistedtheutmosteffortsofGermanismandSlavonismformorethanahundredyears。
Why?BecauseofthestrengthofitsidealsconsciousoftheirkinshipwiththeWest。Suchapowerofresistancecreatesamoralobligationwhichitwouldbeunsafetoneglect。Thereisalwaysariskinthrowingawayatoolofprovedtemper。
InthisprofoundconvictionofthepracticalandidealworthofPolonismoneapproachestheproblemofitspreservationwithaveryvividsenseofthepracticaldifficultiesderivedfromthegroupingofthePowers。TheuncertaintyoftheextentandoftheactualformofvictoryfortheAllieswillincreasethedifficultyofformulatingaplanofPolishregenerationatthepresentmoment。
Poland,tostrikeitsrootsagainintothesoilofpoliticalEurope,willrequireaguaranteeofsecurityforthehealthydevelopmentandfortheuntrammelledplayofsuchinstitutionsasshemaybeenabledtogivetoherself。
ThoseinstitutionswillbeanimatedbythespiritofPolonism,which,havingbeenafactorinthehistoryofEuropeandhavingproveditsvitalityunderoppression,hasestablisheditsrighttolive。Thatspirit,despisedandhatedbyGermanyandincompatiblewithSlavonismbecauseofmoraldifferences,cannotavoidbeinginitsrenewedassertionanobjectofdislikeandmistrust。
AsanunavoidableconsequenceofthepastPolandwillhavetobeginitsexistenceinanatmosphereofenmitiesandsuspicions。ThatadvancedoutpostofWesterncivilisationwillhavetoholditsgroundinthemidstofhostilecamps:alwaysitshistoricalfate。
AgainstthemenaceofsuchaspeciallydangeroussituationthepaperandinkofpublicTreatiescannotbeaneffectivedefence。
Nothingbuttheactual,living,activeparticipationofthetwoWesternPowersintheestablishmentofthenewPolishcommonwealth,andinthefirsttwentyyearsofitsexistence,willgivethePolesasufficientguaranteeofsecurityintheworkofrestoringtheirnationallife。
AnAnglo-Frenchprotectoratewouldbetheidealformofmoralandmaterialsupport。ButRussia,asanally,musttakeherplaceinitonsuchafootingaswillallaytothefullestextentherpossibleapprehensionsandsatisfyhernationalsentiment。Thatnecessitywillhavetobeformallyrecognised。
InrealityRussiahasceasedtocaremuchforherPolishpossessions。PublicrecognitionofamistakeinpoliticalmoralityandavoluntarysurrenderofterritoryinthecauseofEuropeanconcord,cannotdamagetheprestigeofapowerfulState。Thenewspheresofexpansioninregionsmoreeasilyassimilable,willmorethancompensateRussiaforthelossofterritoryontheWesternfrontieroftheEmpire。
TheexperienceofDualControlsandsimilarcombinationshasbeensounfortunateinthepastthatthesuggestionofaTripleProtectoratemaywellappearatfirstsightmonstrouseventounprejudicedminds。Butitmustberememberedthatthisisauniquecaseandaproblemaltogetherexceptional,justifyingtheemploymentofexceptionalmeansforitssolution。Tothosewhowoulddoubtthepossibilityofevenbringingsuchaschemeintoexistencetheanswermaybemadethattherearepsychologicalmomentswhenanymeasuretendingtowardstheendsofconcordandjusticemaybebroughtintobeing。Anditseemsthattheendofthewarwouldbethemomentforbringingintobeingthepoliticalschemeadvocatedinthisnote。
ItssuccessmustdependonthesinglenessofpurposeinthecontractingPowers,andonthewisdom,thetact,theabilities,thegood-willofmenentrustedwithitsinitiationanditsfurthercontrol。Finallyitmaybepointedoutthatthisplanistheonlyoneofferingseriousguaranteestoallthepartiesoccupyingtheirrespectivepositionswithinthescheme。
Ifherexistenceasastateisadmittedasjust,expedientandnecessary,Polandhasthemoralrighttoreceiveherconstitutionnotfromthehandofanoldenemy,butfromtheWesternPowersalone,thoughofcoursewiththefullestconcurrenceofRussia。
Thisconstitution,elaboratedbyacommitteeofPolesnominatedbythethreeGovernments,willafterduediscussionandamendmentbytheHighCommissionersoftheProtectingPowersbepresentedtoPolandastheinitialdocument,thecharterofhernewlife,freelyofferedandunreservedlyaccepted。
Itshouldbeassimpleandshortasawrittenconstitutioncanbe——
establishingthePolishCommonwealth,settlingthelinesofrepresentativeinstitutions,theformofjudicature,andleavingthegreatestmeasurepossibleofself-governmenttotheprovincesformingpartofthere-createdPoland。
ThisconstitutionwillbepromulgatedimmediatelyafterthethreePowershadsettledthefrontiersofthenewState,includingthetownofDanzicfreeportandaproportionofseaboard。ThelegislaturewillthenbecalledtogetherandageneraltreatywillregulatePoland'sinternationalportionasaprotectedstate,thestatusoftheHighCommissionersandsuch-likematters。Thelegislaturewillratify,thusmakingPoland,asitwere,apartyintheestablishmentoftheprotectorate。Apointofimportance。
OthergeneraltreatieswilldefinePoland'spositionintheAnglo-
Franco-Russianalliance,fixthenumbersofthearmy,andsettletheparticipationofthePowersinitsorganisationandtraining。
POLANDREVISITED——1915
Ihaveneverbelievedinpoliticalassassinationasameanstoanend,andleastofallinassassinationofthedynasticorder。I
don'tknowhowfarmurdercaneverapproachtheperfectionofafineart,butlookeduponwiththecoldeyeofreasonitseemsbutacrudeexpedientofimpatienthopeorhurrieddespair。Therearefewmenwhoseprematuredeathcouldinfluencehumanaffairsmorethanonthesurface。Thedeeperstreamofcausesdependsnotonindividualswho,likethemassofmankind,arecarriedonbyadestinywhichnomurderhaseverbeenabletoplacate,divert,orarrest。
InJulyoflastyearIwasastrangerinastrangecityintheMidlandsandparticularlyoutoftouchwiththeworld'spolitics。
Neveraverydiligentreaderofnewspapers,therewereatthattimereasonsofaprivateorderwhichcausedmetobeevenlessinformedthanusualonpublicaffairsaspresentedfromdaytodayinthatnecessarilyatmosphereless,perspectivelessmannerofthedailypapers,whichsomehow,foramanpossessedofsomehistoricsense,robsthemofallrealinterest。Idon'tthinkIhadlookedatadailyforamonthpast。
ButthoughastrangerinastrangecityIwasnotlonely,thankstoafriendwhohadtravelledthereoutofpurekindnesstobearmecompanyinaconjuncturewhich,inamostprivatesense,wassomewhattrying。
Itwasthisfriendwho,onemorningatbreakfast,informedmeofthemurderoftheArchdukeFerdinand。
Theimpressionwasmediocre。Iwasbarelyawarethatsuchamanexisted。IrememberedonlythatnotlongbeforehehadvisitedLondon。Therecollectionwasratherofacloudofinsignificantprintedwordshispresenceinthiscountryprovoked。
Variousopinionshadbeenexpressedofhim,buthisimportancewasArchducal,dynastic,purelyaccidental。CantherebeintheworldofrealmenanythingmoreshadowythananArchduke?Andnowhewasnomore;removedwithanatrocityofcircumstanceswhichmadeonemoresensibleofhishumanitythanwhenhewasinlife。I
connectedthatcrimewithBalkanicplotsandaspirationssolittlethatIhadactuallytoaskwhereithadhappened。MyfriendtoldmeitwasinSerajevo,andwonderedwhatwouldbetheconsequencesofthatgraveevent。HeaskedmewhatIthoughtwouldhappennext。
ItwaswithperfectsinceritythatIanswered“Nothing,“andhavingagreatrepugnancetoconsidermurderasafactorofpolitics,I
dismissedthesubject。Itfittedwithmyethicalsensethatanactcruelandabsurdshouldbealsouseless。IhadalsothevisionofacrowdofshadowyArchdukesinthebackground,outofwhichonewouldstepforwardtotaketheplaceofthatdeadmaninthelightoftheEuropeanstage。Andthen,tospeakthewholetruth,therewasnomancapableofformingajudgmentwhoattendedsolittletothemarchofeventsasIdidatthattime。WhatforwantofamoredefinitetermImustcallmymindwasfixeduponmyownaffairs,notbecausetheywereinabadposture,butbecauseoftheirfascinatingholiday-promisingaspect。IhadbeenobtainingmyinformationastoEuropeatsecondhand,fromfriendsgoodenoughtocomedownnowandthentoseeus。Theyarrivedwiththeirpocketsfullofcrumplednewspapers,andansweredmyqueriescasually,withgentlesmilesofscepticismastotherealityofmyinterest。AndyetIwasnotindifferent;butthetensionintheBalkanshadbecomechronicaftertheacutecrisis,andonecouldnothelpbeinglessconsciousofit。Ithadweariedoutone'sattention。Whocouldhaveguessedthatonthatwildstagewehadjustbeenlookingataminiaturerehearsalofthegreatworld-
drama,thereducedmodeloftheverypassionsandviolencesofwhatthefutureheldinstoreforthePowersoftheOldWorld?Hereandthere,perhaps,raremindshadasuspicionofthatpossibility,whiletheywatchedOldEuropestage-managingfussilybymeansofnotesandconferences,thepropheticreproductionofitsawaitingfate。Itwaswonderfullyexactinthespirit;sameroarofguns,sameprotestationsofsuperiority,samewordsintheair;race,liberation,justice——andthesamemoodoftrivialdemonstrations。
Onecouldnottaketo-dayaticketforPetersburg。“YoumeanPetrograd,“wouldsaythebookingclerk。ShortlyafterthefallofAdrianopleafriendofminepassingthroughSophiaaskedforsomeCAFETURCattheendofhislunch。
“MonsieurveutdireCafebalkanique,“thepatrioticwaitercorrectedhimausterely。
IwillnotsaythatIhadnotobservedsomethingofthatinstructiveaspectofthewaroftheBalkansbothinitsfirstandinitssecondphase。ButthosewithwhomItoucheduponthatvisionwerepleasedtoseeinittheevidenceofmyalarmistcynicism。Astoalarm,Ipointedoutthatfearisnaturaltoman,andevensalutary。Ithasdoneasmuchascourageforthepreservationofracesandinstitutions。ButfromachargeofcynicismIhavealwaysshrunkinstinctively。Itislikeachargeofbeingblindinoneeye,amoraldisablement,asortofdisgracefulcalamitythatmusthecarriedoffwithajauntybearing——asortofthingIamnotcapableof。RatherthanbethoughtamerejauntycrippleIallowedmyselftobeblindedbythegrossobviousnessoftheusualarguments。ItwaspointedouttomethattheseEasternnationswerenotfarremovedfromasavagestate。Theireconomicswereyetatthestageofscratchingtheearthandfeedingthepigs。Thehighly-developedmaterialcivilisationofEuropecouldnotallowitselftobedisturbedbyawar。Theindustryandthefinancecouldnotallowthemselvestobedisorganisedbytheambitionsofanidleclass,oreventheaspirations,whatevertheymightbe,ofthemasses。
Veryplausibleallthissounded。Wardoesnotpay。Therehadbeenabookwrittenonthattheme——anattempttoputpacificismonamaterialbasis。Nothingmoresolidinthewayofargumentcouldhavebeenadvancedonthistradingandmanufacturingglobe。Warwas“badbusiness!“Thiswasfinal。
But,truthtosay,onthisJulydayIreflectedbutlittleontheconditionofthecivilisedworld。Whateversinisterpassionswereheavingunderitssplendidandcomplexsurface,Iwastooagitatedbyasimpleandinnocentdesireofmyown,tonoticethesignsorinterpretthemcorrectly。Themostinnocentofpassionswilltaketheedgeoffone'sjudgment。Thedesirewhichpossessedmewassimplythedesiretotravel。AndthatbeingsoitwouldhavetakensomethingveryplaininthewayofsymptomstoshakemysimpletrustinthestabilityofthingsontheContinent。Mysentimentandnotmyreasonwasengagedthere。Myeyeswereturnedtothepast,nottothefuture;thepastthatonecannotsuspectandmistrust,theshadowyandunquestionablemoralpossessionthedarkeststrugglesofwhichwearahaloofgloryandpeace。
IntheprecedingmonthofMaywehadreceivedaninvitationtospendsomeweeksinPolandinacountryhouseintheneighbourhoodofCracow,butwithintheRussianfrontier。Theenterpriseatfirstseemedtomeconsiderable。Sinceleavingthesea,towhichI
havebeenfaithfulforsomanyyears,Ihavediscoveredthatthereisinmycompositionverylittlestufffromwhichtravellersaremade。Iconfessthatmyfirstimpulseaboutaprojectedjourneyistoleaveitalone。Buttheinvitationreceivedatfirstwithasortofdismayendedbyrousingthedormantenergyofmyfeelings。
CracowisthetownwhereIspentwithmyfatherthelasteighteenmonthsofhislife。ItwasinthatoldroyalandacademicalcitythatIceasedtobeachild,becameaboy,hadknownthefriendships,theadmirations,thethoughtsandtheindignationsofthatage。ItwaswithinthosehistoricalwallsthatIbegantounderstandthings,formaffections,layupastoreofmemoriesandafundofsensationswithwhichIwastobreakviolentlybythrowingmyselfintoanunrelatedexistence。Itwasliketheexperienceofanotherworld。Thewingsoftimemadeagreatduskoverallthis,andIfearedatfirstthatifIventuredbodilyinthereIwoulddiscoverthatIwhohavehadtodowithagoodmanyimaginaryliveshavebeenembracingmereshadowsinmyyouth。I
feared。Butfearinitselfmaybecomeafascination。Menhavegone,aloneandtrembling,intograveyardsatmidnight——justtoseewhatwouldhappen。Andthisadventurewastobepursuedinsunshine。Neitherwoulditbepursuedalone。Theinvitationwasextendedtousall。Thisjourneywouldhavesomethingofamigratorycharacter,theinvasionofatribe。Mypresent,allthatgavesolidityandvaluetoit,atanyrate,wouldstandbymeinthistestoftherealityofmypast。IwaspleasedwiththeideaofshowingmycompanionswhatPolishcountrylifewaslike;tovisitthetownwhereIwasatschoolbeforetheboysbymysideshouldgrowtooold,andgaininganindividualpastoftheirown,shouldlosetheirunsophisticatedinterestinmine。Itisonlyintheshortinstantsofearlyyouththatwehavethefacultyofcomingoutofourselvestoseedimlythevisionsandsharetheemotionsofanothersoul。Foryouthallisrealityinthisworld,andwithjustice,sinceitapprehendssovividlyitsimagesbehindwhichalongerlifemakesonedoubtwhetherthereisanysubstance。
Itrustedtothefreshreceptivityoftheseyoungbeingsinwhom,unlessHeredityisanemptyword,thereshouldhavebeenafibrewhichwouldanswertothesight,totheatmosphere,tothememoriesofthatcorneroftheearthwheremyownboyhoodhadreceiveditsearliestindependentimpressions。
ThefirstdaysofthethirdweekinJuly,whilethetelegraphwireshummedwiththewordsofenormousimportwhichweretofillbluebooks,yellowbooks,whitebooks,andtoarousethewonderofmankind,passedforusinlight-heartedpreparationsforthejourney。WhatwasitbutjustarushthroughGermany,togetacrossasquicklyaspossible?
Germanyisthepartoftheearth'ssolidsurfaceofwhichIknowtheleast。InallmylifeIhadbeenacrossitonlytwice。ImaywellsayofitVIDITANTUM;andtheverylittleIsawwasthroughthewindowofarailwaycarriageatexpressspeed。Thosejourneysofminehadbeenmorelikepilgrimageswhenonehurriesontowardsthegoalforthesatisfactionofadeeperneedthancuriosity。Inthislastinstance,too,IwassoincuriousthatIwouldhavelikedtohavefallenasleepontheshoresofEnglandandopenedmyeyes,ifitwerepossible,onlyontheothersideoftheSilesianfrontier。Yet,intruth,asmanyothershavedone,Ihad“sensedit“——thatpromisedlandofsteel,ofchemicaldyes,ofmethod,ofefficiency;thatraceplantedinthemiddleofEurope,assumingingrotesquevanitytheattitudeofEuropeansamongsteffeteAsiaticsorbarbarousniggers;and,withaconsciousnessofsuperiorityfreeingtheirhandsfromallmoralbonds,anxioustotakeup,ifI
mayexpressmyselfso,the“perfectman'sburden。”Meantime,inaclearingoftheTeutonicforest,theirsageswererearingaTreeofCynicalWisdom,asortofUpastree,whoseshademaybeseennowlyingovertheprostratebodyofBelgium。Itmustbesaidthattheylabouredopenlyenough,wateringitwiththemostauthenticsourcesofallmadness,andwatchingwiththeirbe-spectacledeyestheslowripeningofthegloriousblood-redfruit。Thesincerestwordsofpeace,wordsofmenace,andIverilybelievewordsofabasement,eveniftherehadbeenavoicevileenoughtoutterthem,wouldhavebeenwastedontheirecstasy。Forwhenthefruitripensonabranchitmustfall。Thereisnothingonearththatcanpreventit。
II。
Forreasonswhichatfirstseemedtomesomewhatobscure,thatoneofmycompanionswhosewishesarelawdecidedthatourtravelsshouldbegininanunusualwaybythecrossingoftheNorthSea。
WeshouldproceedfromHarwichtoHamburg。Besidesbeingthirty-
sixtimeslongerthantheDover-CalaispassagethisratherunusualroutehadanairofadventureinbetterkeepingwiththeromanticfeelingofthisPolishjourneywhichforsomanyyearshadbeenbeforeusinastateofaprojectfullofcolourandpromise,butalwaysretreating,elusivelikeanenticingmirage。
And,afterall,ithadturnedouttobenomirage。Nowondertheywereexcited。It'snomeanexperiencetolayyourhandsonamirage。Thedayofdeparturehadcome,theveryhourhadstruck。
Theluggagewascomingdownstairs。Itwasmostconvincing。Polandthen,iferasedfromthemap,yetexistedinreality;itwasnotamerePAYSDUREVE,whereyoucantravelonlyinimagination。Fornoman,theyargued,notevenfather,anhabitualpursuerofdreams,wouldpushtheloveofthenovelist'sartofmake-believetothepointofburdeninghimselfwithrealtrunksforavoyageAU
PAYSDUREVE。
Asweleftthedoorofourhouse,nestlingin,perhaps,themostpeacefulnookinKent,thesky,afterweeksofperfectlybrazenserenity,veileditsbluedepthsandstartedtoweepfinetearsfortherefreshmentoftheparchedfields。Apearlyblursettledoverthem,andalightsiftedofallglare,ofeverythingunkindlyandsearchingthatdwellsinthesplendourofunveiledskies。Allunconsciousofgoingtowardstheveryscenesofwar,Icarriedoffinmyeye,thistinyfragmentofGreatBritain;afewfields,awoodedrise;aclumpoftreesortwo,withashortstretchofroad,andhereandthereagleamofredwallandtiledroofabovethedarkeninghedgeswrappedupinsoftmistandpeace。AndIfeltthatallthishadaverystrongholdonmeastheembodimentofabeneficentandgentlespirit;thatitwasdeartomenotasaninheritance,butasanacquisition,asaconquestinthesenseinwhichawomanisconquered——bylove,whichisasortofsurrender。
Thesewerestrange,asifdisproportionatethoughtstothematterinhand,whichwasthesimplestsortofaContinentalholiday。AndIamcertainthatmycompanions,nearastheyaretome,feltnoothertroublebutthesuppressedexcitementofpleasurableanticipation。Theformsandthespiritofthelandbeforetheireyesweretheirinheritance,nottheirconquest——whichisathingprecarious,and,therefore,themostprecious,possessingyouifonlybythefearofunworthinessratherthanpossessedbyyou。
Moreover,aswesattogetherinthesamerailwaycarriage,theywerelookingforwardtoavoyageinspace,whereasIfeltmoreandmoreplainly,thatwhatIhadstartedonwasajourneyintime,intothepast;afearfulenoughprospectforthemostconsistent,buttohimwhohadnotknownhowtopreserveagainsthisimpulsestheorderandcontinuityofhislife——sothatattimesitpresenteditselftohisconscienceasaseriesofbetrayals——stillmoredreadful。
Idownherethesethoughtssoexclusivelypersonal,toexplainwhytherewasnoroominmyconsciousnessfortheapprehensionofaEuropeanwar。Idon'tmeantosaythatIignoredthepossibility;
Isimplydidnotthinkofit。Anditmadenodifference;forifI
hadthoughtofit,itcouldonlyhavebeeninthelameandinconclusivewayofthecommonuninitiatedmortals;andIamsurethatnothingshortofintellectualcertitude——obviouslyunattainablebythemaninthestreet——couldhavestayedmeonthatjourneywhichnowthatIhadstartedonitseemedanirrevocablething,anecessityofmyself-respect。
London,theLondonbeforethewar,flauntingitsenormousglare,asofamonstrousconflagrationupintotheblacksky——withitsbestVenice-likeaspectofrainyevenings,thewetasphaltedstreetslyingwiththesheenofsleepingwaterinwindingcanals,andthegreathousesofthecitytoweringalldark,likeemptypalaces,abovethereflectedlightsoftheglisteningroadway。
Everythinginthesubduedincompletenight-lifearoundtheMansionHousewentonnormallywithitsfascinatingairofadeadcommercialcityofsombrewallsthroughwhichtheinextinguishableactivityofitsmillionsstreamedEastandWestinabrilliantflowoflightedvehicles。
InLiverpoolStreet,asusualtoo,throughthedoublegates,acontinuouslineoftaxi-cabsglideddowntheinclinedapproachandupagain,likeanendlesschainofdredger-buckets,pouringinthepassengers,anddippingthemoutofthegreatrailwaystationundertheinexorablepallidfaceoftheclocktellingoffthediminishingminutesofpeace。Itwasthehouroftheboat-trainstoHolland,toHamburg,andthereseemedtobenolackofpeople,fearless,reckless,orignorant,whowantedtogototheseplaces。Thestationwasnormallycrowded,andiftherewasagreatflutterofeveningpapersinthemultitudeofhandstherewerenosignsofextraordinaryemotiononthatmultitudeoffaces。TherewasnothinginthemtodistractmefromthethoughtthatitwassingularlyappropriatethatIshouldstartfromthisstationontheretracedwayofmyexistence。Forthiswasthestationatwhich,thirty-sevenyearsbefore,IarrivedonmyfirstvisittoLondon。
Notthesamebuilding,butthesamespot。Atnineteenyearsofage,afteraperiodofprobationandtrainingIhadimposeduponmyselfasordinaryseamanonboardaNorthSeacoaster,IhadcomeupfromLowestoft——myfirstlongrailwayjourneyinEngland——to“signon“foranAntipodeanvoyageinadeep-watership。StraightfromarailwaycarriageIhadwalkedintothegreatcitywithsomethingofthefeelingofatravellerpenetratingintoavastandunexploredwilderness。Noexplorercouldhavebeenmorelonely。I
didnotknowasinglesoulofallthesemillionsthatallaroundmepeopledthemysteriousdistancesofthestreets。IcannotsayI
wasfreefromalittleyouthfulawe,butatthatageone'sfeelingsaresimple。Iwaselated。Iwaspursuingaclearaim,Iwascarryingoutadeliberateplanofmakingoutofmyself,inthefirstplace,aseamanworthyoftheservice,goodenoughtoworkbythesideofthemenwithwhomIwastolive;andinthesecondplace,Ihadtojustifymyexistencetomyself,toredeematacitmoralpledge。Boththeseaimsweretobeattainedbythesameeffort。Howsimpleseemedtheproblemoflifethen,onthathazydayofearlySeptemberintheyear1878,whenIenteredLondonforthefirsttime。
Fromthatpointofview——Youthandastraight-forwardschemeofconduct——itwascertainlyayearofgrace。AllthehelpIhadtogetintouchwiththeworldIwasinvadingwasapieceofpapernotmuchbiggerthanthepalmofmyhand——inwhichIheldit——tornoutofalargerplanofLondonforthegreaterfacilityofreference。
Ithadbeentheobjectofcarefulstudyforsomedayspast。ThefactthatIcouldtakeaconveyanceatthestationneveroccurredtomymind,no,notevenwhenIgotoutintothestreet,andstood,takingmyanxiousbearings,inthemidst,sotospeak,oftwentythousandhansoms。Astrangeabsenceofmindorunconsciousconvictionthatonecannotapproachanimportantmomentofone'slifebymeansofahiredcarriage?Yes,itwouldhavebeenapreposterousproceeding。AndindeedIwastomakeanAustralianvoyageandencircletheglobebeforeeverenteringaLondonhansom。
Anotherdocument,acuttingfromanewspaper,containingtheaddressofanobscureshippingagent,wasinmypocket。AndI
needednottotakeitout。Thataddresswasasifgravendeepinmybrain。ImuttereditswordstomyselfasIwalkedon,navigatingtheseaofLondonbythechartconcealedinthepalmofmyhand;forIhadvowedtomyselfnottoinquiremywayfromanyone。Youthisthetimeofrashpledges。HadItakenawrongturningIwouldhavebeenlost;andiffaithfultomypledgeI
mighthaveremainedlostfordays,forweeks,haveleftperhapsmybonestobediscoveredbleachinginsomeblindalleyoftheWhitechapeldistrict,asithadhappenedtolonelytravellerslostinthebush。ButIwalkedontomydestinationwithouthesitationormistake,showingthere,forthefirsttime,someofthatfacultytoabsorbandmakemyowntheimagedtopographyofachart,whichinlateryearswastohelpmeinregionsofintricatenavigationtokeeptheshipsentrustedtomeofftheground。TheplaceIwasboundtowasnoteasytofind。Itwasoneofthosecourtshiddenawayfromthechartedandnavigablestreets,lostamongthethickgrowthofhouseslikeadarkpoolinthedepthsofaforest,approachedbyaninconspicuousarchwayasifbysecretpath;aDickensiannookofLondon,thatwondercity,thegrowthofwhichbearsnosignofintelligentdesign,butmanytracesoffreakishlysombrephantasytheGreatMasterknewsowellhowtobringoutbythemagicofhisunderstandinglove。AndtheofficeIenteredwasDickensiantoo。ThedustoftheWaterlooyearlayonthepanesandframesofitswindows;earlyGeorgiangrimeclungtoitssombrewainscoting。
Itwasoneo'clockintheafternoon,butthedaywasgloomy。Bythelightofasinglegas-jetdependingfromthesmokedceilingI
sawanelderlyman,inalongcoatofblackbroadcloth。Hehadagreybeard,abignose,thicklips,andheavyshoulders。HiscurlywhitehairandthegeneralcharacterofhisheadrecalledvaguelyaburlyapostleintheBAROCCOstyleofItalianart。Standingupatatall,shabby,slantingdesk,hissilver-rimmedspectaclespusheduphighonhisforehead,hewaseatingamutton-chop,whichhadbeenjustbroughttohimfromsomeDickensianeating-houseroundthecorner。
Withoutceasingtoeatheturnedtomehisflorid,BAROCCO
apostle'sfacewithanexpressionofinquiry。
IproducedelaboratelyaseriesofvocalsoundswhichmusthavebornesufficientresemblancetothephoneticsofEnglishspeech,forhisfacebrokeintoasmileofcomprehensionalmostatonce——
“Oh,it'syouwhowrotealettertometheotherdayfromLowestoftaboutgettingaship。”
IhadwrittentohimfromLowestoft。Ican'trememberasinglewordofthatletternow。ItwasmyveryfirstcompositionintheEnglishlanguage。Andhehadunderstoodit,evidently,forhespoketothepointatonce,explainingthathisbusiness,mainly,wastofindgoodshipsforyounggentlemenwhowantedtogotoseaaspremiumapprenticeswithaviewofbeingtrainedforofficers。
Buthegatheredthatthiswasnotmyobject。Ididnotdesiretobeapprenticed。Wasthatthecase?
Itwas。Hewasgoodenoughtosaythen,“OfcourseIseethatyouareagentleman。ButyourwishistogetaberthbeforethemastasanAbleSeamanifpossible。Isthatit?“
Itwascertainlymywish;buthestateddoubtfullythathefearedhecouldnothelpmemuchinthis。TherewasanActofParliamentwhichmadeitpenaltoprocureshipsforsailors。“AnAct-of-
Parliament。Alaw,“hetookpainstoimpressitagainandagainonmyforeignunderstanding,whileIlookedathiminconsternation。
IhadnotbeenhalfanhourinLondonbeforeIhadrunmyheadagainstanActofParliament!Whatahopelessadventure!However,theBAROCCOapostlewasaresourcefulpersoninhisway,andwemanagedtogetroundthehardletterofitwithoutdamagetoitsfinespirit。Yet,strictlyspeaking,itwasnottheconductofagoodcitizen;andinretrospectthereisanunfilialflavouraboutthatearlysinofmine。ForthisActofParliament,theMerchantShippingActoftheVictorianera,hadbeeninamannerofspeakingafatherandmothertome。Formanyyearsithadregulatedanddisciplinedmylife,prescribedmyfoodandtheamountofmybreathingspace,hadlookedaftermyhealthandtriedasmuchaspossibletosecuremypersonalsafetyinariskycalling。Itisn'tsuchabadthingtoleadalifeofhardtoilandplaindutywithinthefourcornersofanhonestActofParliament。AndIamgladtosaythatitsseventieshaveneverbeenappliedtome。
Intheyear1878,theyearof“PeacewithHonour,“IhadwalkedasloneasanyhumanbeinginthestreetsofLondon,outofLiverpoolStreetStation,tosurrendermyselftoitscare。Andnow,intheyearofthewarwagedforhonourandconsciencemorethanforanyothercause,Iwasthereagain,nolongeralone,butamanofinfinitelydearandclosetiesgrownsincethattime,ofworkdone,ofwordswritten,offriendshipssecured。Itwasliketheclosingofathirty-six-yearcycle。
AllunawareoftheWarAngelalreadyawaiting,withthetrumpetathislips,thestrokeofthefatalhour,Isatthere,thinkingthatthislifeofoursisneitherlongnorshort,butthatitcanappearverywonderful,entertaining,andpathetic,withsymbolicimagesandbizarreassociationscrowdedintoonehalf-hourofretrospectivemusing。
Ifelt,too,thatthisjourney,sosuddenlyenteredupon,wasboundtotakemeawayfromdailylife'sactualitiesateverystep。I
feltitmorethaneverwhenpresentlywesteamedoutintotheNorthSea,onadarknightfitfulwithgustsofwind,andIlingeredondeck,aloneofallthetaleoftheship'spassengers。Thatseawastomesomethingunforgettable,somethingmuchmorethananame。Ithadbeenforsometimetheschool-roomofmytrade。Onit,Imaysafelysay,Ihadlearned,too,myfirstwordsofEnglish。Awildandstormyabode,sometimes,wasthatconfined,shallow-wateracademyofseamanshipfromwhichIlaunchedmyselfonthewideoceans。MyteachershadbeenthesailorsoftheNorfolkshore;
coastmen,withsteadyeyes,mightylimbs,andgentlevoice;menofveryfewwords,whichatleastwereneverbareofmeaning。Honest,strong,steadymen,soberedbydomesticties,oneandall,asfarasIcanremember。
ThatiswhatyearsagotheNorthSeaIcouldheargrowlinginthedarkallroundtheshiphadbeenforme。AndIfanciedthatImusthavebeencarryingitsvoiceinmyeareversince,fornothingcouldbemorefamiliarthanthoseshort,angrysoundsIwaslisteningtowithasmileofaffectionaterecognition。
Icouldnotguessthatbeforemanydaysmyoldschoolroomwouldbedesecratedbyviolence,litteredwithwrecks,withdeathwalkingitswaves,hidingunderitswaters。PerhapswhileIamwritingthesewordsthechildren,ormaybethegrandchildren,ofmypacificteachersareoutintrawlers,undertheNavalflag,dredgingforGermansubmarinemines。
III。
IhavesaidthattheNorthSeawasmyfinishingschoolofseamanshipbeforeIlaunchedmyselfonthewideroceans。Confinedasitisincomparisonwiththevaststageofthiswater-girtglobe,Ididnotknowitinallitsparts。Myclass-roomwastheregionoftheEnglishEastCoastwhich,intheyearofPeacewithHonour,hadlongforgottenthewarepisodesbelongingtoitsmaritimehistory。Itwasapeacefulcoast,agricultural,industrial,thehomeoffishermen。Atnightthelightsofitsmanytownsplayedontheclouds,orinclearweatherlaystill,hereandthere,inbrilliantpoolsabovetheink-blackoutlineoftheland。
OnmanyanightIhavehauledatthebracesundertheshadowofthatcoast,envying,assailorswill,thepeopleonshoresleepingquietlyintheirbedswithinsoundofthesea。Iimaginethatnotoneheadonthoseenviedpillowswasmadeuneasybytheslightestpremonitionoftherealitiesofnavalwartheshortlifetimeofonegenerationwastobringsoclosetotheirhomes。
ThoughfarawayfromthatregionofkindlymemoriesandtraversingapartoftheNorthSeamuchlessknowntome,Iwasdeeplyconsciousofthefamiliarityofmysurroundings。Itwasacloudy,nastyday:andtheaspectsofNaturedon'tchange,unlessinthecourseofthousandsofyears——or,perhaps,centuries。ThePhoenicians,itsfirstdiscoverers,theRomans,thefirstimperialrulersofthatsea,hadexperienceddayslikethis,sodifferentinthewintryqualityofthelight,evenonaJulyafternoon,fromanythingtheyhadeverknownintheirnativeMediterranean。Formyself,averylatecomerintothatsea,anditsformerpupil,I
accordedamusedrecognitiontothecharacteristicaspectsowellrememberedfrommydaysoftraining。Thesameoldthing。Agrey-
greenexpanseofsmudgywatersgrinningangrilyatonewithwhitefoam-ridges,andoverallacheerless,unglowingcanopy,apparentlymadeofwetblotting-paper。Fromtimetotimeaflurryoffinerainblewalonglikeapuffofsmokeacrossthedotsofdistantfishingboats,veryfew,veryscattered,andtossingrestlesslyonaneverdissolving,everre-formingsky-line。
Thoseflurries,andthesteadyrollingoftheship,accountedfortheemptinessofthedecks,favouringmyreminiscentmood。Itmighthavebeenadayoffiveandthirtyyearsago,whentherewereonthisandeveryotherseamoresailsandlesssmoke-stackstobeseen。Yet,thankstotheunchangeableseaIcouldhavegivenmyselfuptotheillusionofarevisedpast,haditnotbeenfortheperiodicaltransitacrossmygazeofaGermanpassenger。Hewasmarchingroundandroundtheboatdeckwithcharacteristicdetermination。Twosturdyboysgambolledroundhiminhisprogressliketwodisorderlysatellitesroundtheirparentplanet。Hewasbringingthemhome,fromtheirschoolinEngland,fortheirholiday。WhatcouldhaveinducedsuchasoundTeutontoentrusthisoffspringtotheunhealthyinfluencesofthateffete,corrupt,rottenandcriminalcountryIcannotimagine。Itcouldhardlyhavebeenfrommotivesofeconomy。Ididnotspeaktohim。HetrodthedeckofthatdecadentBritishshipwithascornfulfootwhilehisbreastandtoalargeextenthisstomach,tooappearedexpandedbytheconsciousnessofasuperiordestiny。LaterIcouldobservethesametruculentbearing,touchedwiththeracialgrotesqueness,inthemenoftheLANDWEHRcorps,thatpassedthroughCracowtoreinforcetheAustrianarmyinEasternGalicia。Indeed,thehaughtypassengermightverywellhavebeen,mostprobablywas,anofficeroftheLANDWEHR;andperhapsthosetwofineactiveboysareorphansbynow。Thusthingsacquiresignificancebythelapseoftime。Acitizen,afather,awarrior,amoteinthedust-cloudofsixmillionfightingparticles,anunconsideredtrifleforthejawsofwar,hishumanitywasnotconsciouslyimpressedonmymindatthetime。Mainly,forme,hewasasharptappingofheelsroundthecornerofthedeck-house,awhiteyachtingcapandagreenovercoatgettingperiodicallybetweenmyeyesandtheshiftingcloud-horizonoftheashy-greyNorthSea。Hewasbutashadowyintrusionandadisregardedone,for,farawaytheretotheWest,inthedirectionoftheDoggerBank,wherefishermengoseekingtheirdailybreadandsometimesfindtheirgraves,Icouldbeholdanexperienceofmyowninthewinterof'81,notofwar,truly,butofafairlylivelycontestwiththeelementswhichwereveryangryindeed。
Therehadbeenatroublesomeweekofit,includingonehatefulnight——oranightofhateitisn'tfornothingthattheNorthSeaisalsocalledtheGermanOcean——whenallthefurystoredinitsheartseemedconcentratedononeshipwhichcoulddonobetterthanfloatonhersideinanunnatural,disagreeable,precarious,andaltogetherintolerablemanner。Therewereonboard,besidesmyself,seventeenmenallgoodandtrue,includingaroundenormousDutchmanwho,inthosehoursbetweensunsetandsunrise,managedtolosehisblown-outappearancesomehow,becameasitweredeflated,andthereafterforagoodlongtimemovedinourmidstwrinkledandslackalloverlikeahalf-collapsedballoon。Thewhimperingofourdeck-boy,askinny,impressionablelittlescarecrowoutofatraining-ship,forwhom,becauseofthetenderimmaturityofhisnerves,thisdisplayofGermanOceanfrightfulnesswastoomuchbeforetheyearwasouthedevelopedintoasufficientlycheekyyoungruffian,hisdesolatewhimpering,Isay,heardbetweenthegustsofthatblack,savagenight,wasmuchmorepresenttomymindandindeedtomysensesthanthegreenovercoatandthewhitecapoftheGermanpassengercirclingthedeckindefatigably,attendedbyhistwogyratingchildren。
“That'saverynicegentleman。”Thisinformation,togetherwiththefactthathewasawidowerandaregularpassengertwiceayearbytheship,wascommunicatedtomesuddenlybyourcaptain。Atintervalsthroughthedayhewouldpopoutofthechart-roomandoffermeshortsnatchesofconversation。Heownedasimplesoulandanotveryentertainingmind,andhewaswithoutmaliceand,I
believe,quiteunconsciously,awarmGermanophil。Andnowonder!
Ashetoldmehimself,hehadbeenfifteenyearsonthatrun,andspentalmostasmuchofhislifeinHamburgasinHarwich。
“Wonderfulpeopletheyare,“herepeatedfromtimetotime,withoutenteringintoparticulars,butwithmanynodsofsagaciousobstinacy。Whatheknewofthem,Isuppose,wereafewcommercialtravellersandsmallmerchants,mostlikely。ButIhadobservedlongbeforethatGermangeniushasahypnotisingpoweroverhalf-
bakedsoulsandhalf-lightedminds。Thereisanimmenseforceofsuggestioninhighlyorganisedmediocrity。HaditnothypnotisedhalfEurope?MymanwasverymuchunderthespellofGermanexcellence。Ontheotherhand,hiscontemptforFrancewasequallygeneralandunbounded。Itriedtoadvancesomeargumentsagainstthisposition,butIonlysucceededinmakinghimhostile。“I
believeyouareaFrenchmanyourself,“hesnarledatlast,givingmeanintenselysuspiciouslook;andforthwithbrokeoffcommunicationswithamanofsuchunsoundsympathies。
Hourbyhourtheblotting-paperskyandthegreatflatgreenishsmudgeoftheseahadbeentakingonadarkertone,withoutanychangeintheircolouringandtexture。EveningwascomingonovertheNorthSea。Blackuninterestinghummocksoflandappeared,dottingtheduskinessofwaterandcloudsintheEasternboard:
topsofislandsfringingtheGermanshore。WhileIwaslookingattheiranticsamongstthewaves——andforalltheirsoliditytheywereveryelusivethingsinthefailinglight——anotherpassengercameoutondeck。Thisoneworeadarkovercoatandagreycap。
Theyellowleatherstrapofhisbinocularcasecrossedhischest。
Hiselderlyredcheeksnourishedbutaverythincropofshortwhitehairs,andtheendofhisnosewassoperfectlyroundthatitdeterminedthewholecharacterofhisphysiognomy。Indeednothingelseinithadtheslightestchancetoassertitself。Hisdisposition,unlikethewidower's,appearedtobemildandhumane。
Heofferedmetheloanofhisglasses。Hehadawifeandsomesmallchildrenconcealedinthedepthsoftheship,andhethoughttheywereverywellwheretheywere。Hiseldestsonwasaboutthedeckssomewhere。
“WeareAmericans,“heremarkedweightily,butinaratherpeculiartone。HespokeEnglishwiththeaccentofourcaptain's“wonderfulpeople,“andproceededtogivemethehistoryofthefamily'scrossingtheAtlanticinaWhiteStarliner。TheyremainedinEnglandjustthetimenecessaryforarailwayjourneyfromLiverpooltoHarwich。Hispeoplethoseinthedepthsoftheship
werenaturallyalittletired。
Atthatmomentayoungmanofabouttwenty,hisson,rusheduptousfromthefore-deckinastateofintenseelation。“Hurrah,“hecriedunderhisbreath。“ThefirstGermanlight!Hurrah!“
AndthosetwoAmericancitizensshookhandsonitwiththegreatestfervour,whileIturnedawayandreceivedfullintheeyesthebrilliantwinkoftheBorkumlighthousesquattinglowdowninthedarkness。TheshadeofthenighthadsettledontheNorthSea。
IdonotthinkIhaveeverseenbeforeanightsofulloflights。
Thegreatchangeofsealifesincemytimewasbroughthometome。
Ihadbeenconsciousalldayofaninterminableprocessionofsteamers。Theywentonandonasifinchaseofeachother,theBaltictrade,thetradeofScandinavia,ofDenmark,ofGermany,pitchingheavilyintoaheadseaandboundforthegatewayofDoverStraits。Singly,andinsmallcompaniesoftwoandthree,theyemergedfromthedull,colourless,sunlessdistancesaheadasifthesupplyofratherroughlyfinishedmechanicaltoyswereinexhaustibleinsomemysteriouscheapstoreawaythere,belowthegreycurveoftheearth。Cargosteamvesselshavereachedbythistimeaheightofutilitarianuglinesswhich,whenonereflectsthatitistheproductofhumaningenuity,strikeshopelessaweintoone。Thesedismalcreationslookstilluglieratseathaninport,andwithanaddedtouchoftheridiculous。Theirrollingwaddlewhenseenatacertainangle,theirabruptclockworknoddinginasea-way,sounlikethesoaringliftandswingofacraftundersail,haveinthemsomethingcaricatural,asuggestionofalowparodydirectedatnoblepredecessorsbyanimprovedgenerationofdull,mechanicaltoilers,conceitedandwithoutgrace。
Whentheyswitchedoneachoftheseunlovelycargotankscarriedtamelightningwithinitsslab-sidedbody,whentheyswitchedontheirlampstheyspangledthenightwiththecheap,electric,shop-
glitter,here,there,andeverywhere,asofsomeHighStreet,brokenupandwashedouttosea。Later,Heligolandcutintotheoverheaddarknesswithitspowerfulbeam,infinitelyprolongedoutofunfathomablenightundertheclouds。
Iremainedondeckuntilwestoppedandasteampilot-boat,sooverlightedamidshipsthatonecouldnotmakeouthercompleteshape,glidedacrossourbowsandsentapilotonboard。Ifearthattheoar,asaworkingimplement,willbecomepresentlyasobsoleteasthesail。Thepilotboardedusinamotor-dinghy。
Moreandmoreismankindreducingitsphysicalactivitiestopullingleversandtwirlinglittlewheels。Progress!Yettheoldermethodsofmeetingnaturalforcesdemandedintelligencetoo;
anequallyfinereadinessofwits。Andreadinessofwitsworkingincombinationwiththestrengthofmusclesmadeamorecompleteman。
Itwasreallyasurprisinglysmalldinghyanditrantoandfrolikeawater-insectfussingnoisilydowntherewithimmenseself-
importance。WithinhailofusthehulloftheElbelightshipfloatedalldarkandsilentunderitsenormousround,servicelantern;afaithfulblackshadowwatchingthebroadestuaryfulloflights。
SuchwasmyfirstviewoftheElbeapproachedunderthewingsofpeacereadyforflightawayfromthelucklessshoresofEurope。
OurvisualimpressionsremainwithussopersistentlythatIfinditextremelydifficulttoholdfasttotherationalbeliefthatnoweverythingisdarkoverthere,thattheElbelightshiphasbeentowedawayfromitspostofduty,thetriumphantbeamofHeligolandextinguished,andthepilot-boatlaidup,orturnedtowarlikeusesforlackofitsproperworktodo。Andobviouslyitmustbeso。
Anytrickleofoverseatradethatpassesyetthatwaymustbecreepingalongcautiouslywiththeunlighted,war-blightedblackcoastcloseononehand,andsuddendeathontheother。ForallthespacewesteamedthroughthatSundayeveningmustnowbeonegreatminefield,sownthicklywiththeseedsofhate;whilesubmarinesstealouttosea,overtheveryspotperhapswheretheinsect-dinghyputapilotonboardofuswithsomuchfussyimportance。Mines;Submarines。Thelastwordinsea-warfare!
Progress——impressivelydisclosedbythiswar。
Therehavebeenotherwars!Warsnotinferiorinthegreatnessofthestakeandinthefierceanimosityoffeelings。DuringthatonewhichwasfinishedahundredyearsagoithappenedthatwhiletheEnglishFleetwaskeepingwatchonBrest,anAmerican,perhapsFultonhimself,offeredtotheMaritimePrefectoftheportandtotheFrenchAdmiral,aninventionwhichwouldsinkalltheunsuspectingEnglishshipsoneafteranother——or,atanyratemostofthem。Theofferwasnoteventakenintoconsideration;andthePrefectendshisreporttotheMinisterinPariswithafinephraseofindignation:“Itisnotthesortofdeathonewoulddealtobravemen。”
Andbehold,beforehistoryhadtimetohatchanotherwarofthelikeproportionsintheintensityofarousedpassionsandthegreatnessofissues,thedeadflavourofarchaismdescendedonthemanlysentimentofthoseself-denyingwords。Mankindhasbeendemoralisedsincebyitsownmasteryofmechanicalappliances。Itsspiritisapparentlysoweaknow,anditsfleshhasgrownsostrong,thatitwillfaceanydeadlyhorrorofdestructionandcannotresistthetemptationtouseanystealthy,murderouscontrivance。Ithasbecometheintoxicatedslaveofitsowndetestableingenuity。Itistrue,too,thatsincetheNapoleonictimeanothersortofwar-doctrinehasbeeninculcatedinanation,andheldouttotheworld。
IV
Onthisjourneyofours,whichformewasessentiallynotaprogress,butaretracingoffootstepsontheroadoflife,IhadnobeaconstolookforinGermany。Ihadneverlingeredinthatlandwhich,onthewhole,issosingularlybarrenofmemorablemanifestationsofgeneroussympathiesandmagnanimousimpulses。Anineradicable,invincible,provincialismofenvyandvanityclingstotheformsofitsthoughtlikeafrowsygarment。EvenwhileyetveryyoungIturnedmyeyesawayfromitinstinctivelyasfromathreateningphantom。Ibelievethatchildrenanddogshave,intheirinnocence,aspecialpowerofperceptionasfarasspectralapparitionsandcomingmisfortunesareconcerned。
IletmyselfbecarriedthroughGermanyasifitwerepurespace,withoutsights,withoutsounds。Nowhispersofthewarreachedmyvoluntaryabstraction。Andperhapsnotsoveryvoluntaryafterall!Eachofusisafascinatingspectacletohimself,andIhadtowatchmyownpersonalityreturningfromanotherworld,asitwere,torevisittheglimpsesofoldmoons。Consideringtheconditionofhumanity,Iam,perhaps,notsomuchtoblameforgivingmyselfuptothatoccupation。Weprizethesensationofourcontinuity,andwecanonlycaptureitinthatway。Bywatching。
WearrivedinCracowlateatnight。Afterascramblysupper,I
saidtomyeldestboy,“Ican'tgotobed。Iamgoingoutforalookround。Coming?“
Hewasreadyenough。Forhim,allthiswaspartoftheinterestingadventureofthewholejourney。Westeppedoutoftheportalofthehotelintoanemptystreet,verysilentandbrightwithmoonlight。Iwas,indeed,revisitingtheglimpsesofthemoon。I
feltsomuchlikeaghostthatthediscoverythatIcouldremembersuchmaterialthingsastherightturntotakeandthegeneraldirectionofthestreetgavemeamomentofwistfulsurprise。
Thestreet,straightandnarrow,ranintothegreatMarketSquareofthetown,thecentreofitsaffairsandofthelightersideofitslife。Wecouldseeatthefarendofthestreetapromisingwideningofspace。Atthecorneranunassumingbutarmed
policeman,wearingceremoniouslyatmidnightapairofwhitegloveswhichmadehisbighandsextremelynoticeable,turnedhisheadtolookatthegrizzledforeignerholdingforthinastrangetonguetoayouthonwhosearmheleaned。
TheSquare,immenseinitssolitude,wasfulltothebrimofmoonlight。Thegarlandoflightsatthefootofthehousesseemedtoburnatthebottomofabluishpool。InoticedwithinfinitesatisfactionthattheunnecessarytreestheMunicipalityinsisteduponstickingbetweenthestoneshadbeensteadilyrefusingtogrow。TheywerenotabitbiggerthanthepoorvictimsIcouldremember。Also,thepavingoperationsseemedtobeexactlyatthesamepointatwhichIleftthemfortyyearsbefore。Therewerethedull,torn-uppatchesonthatbrightexpanse,thepilesofpavingmateriallookingominouslyblack,likeheadsofrocksonasilverysea。WhowasitthatsaidthatTimeworkswonders?Whatanexplodedsuperstition!Asfarasthesetreesandthesepavingstoneswereconcerned,ithadworkednothing。Thesuspicionoftheunchangeablenessofthingsalreadyvaguelysuggestedtomysensesbyourrapiddrivefromtherailwaystationwasagreeablystrengthenedwithinme。
“WearenowonthelineA。B。,“Isaidtomycompanion,importantly。
ItwasthenamebestowedinmytimeononeofthesidesoftheSquarebytheseniorstudentsofthattownofclassicallearningandhistoricalrelics。Thecommoncitizensknewnothingofit,and,eveniftheyhad,wouldnothavedreamedoftakingitseriously。Hewhouseditwasoftheinitiated,belongedtotheSchools。Weyoungstersregardedthatnameasafinejest,theinventionofamostexcellentfancy。EvenasIutteredittomyboyIexperiencedagainthatsenseofmyprivilegedinitiation。
Andthen,happeningtolookupatthewall,Isawinthelightofthecornerlamp,awhite,cast-irontabletfixedthereon,bearinganinscriptioninraisedblackletters,thus:“LineA。B。”
Heavens!Thenamehadbeenadoptedofficially!Anytownurchin,anyguttersnipe,anyherb-sellingwomanofthemarket-place,anywanderingBoeotian,wasfreetotalkofthelineA。B。,towalkonthelineA。B。,toappointtomeethisfriendsonthelineA。B。Ithadbecomeamerenameinadirectory。Iwasstunnedbytheextrememutabilityofthings。Timecouldworkwonders,andnomistake。AMunicipalityhadstolenaninventionofexcellentfancy,andafinejesthadturnedintoahorridpieceofcast-iron。
Iproposedthatweshouldwalktotheotherendoftheline,usingtheprofanedname,notonlywithoutgusto,butwithpositivedistaste。Andthis,too,wasoneofthewondersofTime,forabareminutehadworkedthatchange。TherewasattheendofthelineacertainstreetIwantedtolookat,Iexplainedtomycompanion。
ToourrighttheunequalmassivetowersofSt。Mary'sChurchsoaredaloftintotheetherealradianceoftheair,veryblackontheirshadedsides,glowingwithasoftphosphorescentsheenontheothers。InthedistancetheFlorianGate,thickandsquatunderitspointedroof,barredthestreetwiththesquareshouldersoftheoldcitywall。Inthenarrow,brilliantlypalevistaofbluishflagstonesandsilveryfrontsofhouses,itsblackarchwaystoodoutsmallandverydistinct。
Therewasnotasoulinsight,andnoteventheechoofafootstepforourears。Intothiscoldlyilluminatedanddumbemptinessthereissuedoutofmyarousedmemory,asmallboyofeleven,wendinghisway,notveryfast,toapreparatoryschoolforday-
pupilsonthesecondfloorofthethirdhousedownfromtheFlorianGate。Itwasinthewintermonthsof1868。Ateighto'clockofeverymorningthatGodmade,sleetorshine,IwalkedupFlorianStreet。Butofthat,myfirstschool,Irememberverylittle。I
believethatoneofmyco-suffererstherehasbecomeamuchappreciatededitorofhistoricaldocuments。ButIdidn'tsuffermuchfromthevariousimperfectionsofmyfirstschool。Iwasratherindifferenttoschooltroubles。Ihadaprivategnawingwormofmyown。Thiswasthetimeofmyfather'slastillness。
Everyeveningatseven,turningmybackontheFlorianGate,I
walkedallthewaytoabigoldhouseinaquietnarrowstreetagooddistancebeyondtheGreatSquare。There,inalargedrawing-
room,panelledandbare,withheavycornicesandaloftyceiling,inalittleoasisoflightmadebytwocandlesinadesertofdusk,Isatatalittletabletoworryandinkmyselfallovertillthetaskofmypreparationwasdone。Thetableofmytoilfacedatallwhitedoor,whichwaskeptclosed;nowandthenitwouldcomeajarandanuninawhitecoifwouldsqueezeherselfthroughthecrack,glideacrosstheroom,anddisappear。Thereweretwoofthesenoiselessnursingnuns。Theirvoiceswereseldomheard。For,indeed,whatcouldtheyhavehadtosay?Whentheydidspeaktomeitwaswiththeirlipshardlymoving,inaclaustral,clearwhisper。Ourdomesticmatterswereorderedbytheelderlyhousekeeperofourneighbouronthesecondfloor,aCanonoftheCathedral,lentfortheemergency。She,too,spokebutseldom。
Sheworeablackdresswithacrosshangingbyachainonheramplebosom。Andthoughwhenshespokeshemovedherlipsmorethanthenuns,sheneverlethervoiceriseaboveapeacefullymurmuringnote。Theairaroundmewasallpiety,resignation,andsilence。
Idon'tknowwhatwouldhavebecomeofmeifIhadnotbeenareadingboy。Myprep。finishedIwouldhavehadnothingtodobutsitandwatchtheawfulstillnessofthesickroomflowoutthroughthecloseddoorandcoldlyenfoldmyscaredheart。IsupposethatinafutilechildishwayIwouldhavegonecrazy。ButIwasareadingboy。Thereweremanybooksabout,lyingonconsoles,ontables,andevenonthefloor,forwehadnothadtimetosettledown。Iread!WhatdidInotread!Sometimestheeldernun,glidingupandcastingamistrustfullookontheopenpages,wouldlayherhandlightlyonmyheadandsuggestinadoubtfulwhisper,“Perhapsitisnotverygoodforyoutoreadthesebooks。”Iwouldraisemyeyestoherfacemutely,andwithavaguegestureofgivingitupshewouldglideaway。
Laterintheevening,butnotalways,Iwouldbepermittedtotip-
toeintothesickroomtosaygood-nighttothefigureproneonthebed,whichoftencouldnotacknowledgemypresencebutbyaslowmovementoftheeyes,putmylipsdutifullytothenervelesshandlyingonthecoverlet,andtip-toeoutagain。ThenIwouldgotobed,inaroomattheendofthecorridor,andoften,notalways,crymyselfintoagoodsoundsleep。
Ilookedforwardtowhatwascomingwithanincredulousterror。I
turnedmyeyesfromitsometimeswithsuccess,andyetallthetimeIhadanawfulsensationoftheinevitable。Ihadalsomomentsofrevoltwhichstrippedoffmesomeofmysimpletrustinthegovernmentoftheuniverse。Butwhentheinevitableenteredthesickroomandthewhitedoorwasthrownwideopen,Idon'tthinkI
foundasingleteartoshed。IhaveasuspicionthattheCanon'shousekeeperlookedonmeasthemostcallouslittlewretchonearth。
Thedayofthefuneralcameinduecourseandallthegenerous“YouthoftheSchools,“thegraveSenateoftheUniversity,thedelegationsoftheTrade-guilds,mighthaveobtainediftheycaredDEVISUevidenceofthecallousnessofthelittlewretch。
Therewasnothinginmyachingheadbutafewwords,somesuchstupidsentencesas,“It'sdone,“or,“It'saccomplished“inPolishitismuchshorter,orsomethingofthesort,repeatingitselfendlessly。Thelongprocessionmovedoutofthenarrowstreet,downalongstreet,pasttheGothicfrontofSt。Mary'sunderitsunequaltowers,towardstheFlorianGate。
Inthemoonlight-floodedsilenceoftheoldtownofglorioustombsandtragicmemories,Icouldseeagainthesmallboyofthatdayfollowingahearse;aspacekeptclearinwhichIwalkedalone,consciousofanenormousfollowing,theclumsyswayingofthetallblackmachine,thechantingofthesurplicedclergyatthehead,theflamesoftaperspassingunderthelowarchwayofthegate,therowsofbaredheadsonthepavementswithfixed,seriouseyes。
HalfthepopulationhadturnedoutonthatfineMayafternoon。
Theyhadnotcometohonouragreatachievement,orevensomesplendidfailure。Thedeadandtheywerevictimsalikeofanunrelentingdestinywhichcutthemofffromeverypathofmeritandglory。Theyhadcomeonlytorenderhomagetotheardentfidelityofthemanwhoselifehadbeenafearlessconfessioninwordanddeedofacreedwhichthesimplestheartinthatcrowdcouldfeelandunderstand。
ItseemedtomethatifIremainedlongerthereinthatnarrowstreetIshouldbecomethehelplesspreyoftheShadowsIhadcalledup。Theywerecrowdinguponme,enigmaticandinsistentintheirclingingairofthegravethattastedofdustandofthebittervanityofoldhopes。
“Let'sgobacktothehotel,myboy,“Isaid。“It'sgettinglate。”
ItwillbeeasilyunderstoodthatIneitherthoughtnordreamtthatnightofapossiblewar。ForthenexttwodaysIwentaboutamongstmyfellowmen,whowelcomedmewiththeutmostconsiderationandfriendliness,butunanimouslyderidedmyfearsofawar。Theywouldnotbelieveinit。Itwasimpossible。OntheeveningoftheseconddayIwasinthehotel'ssmokingroom,anirrationallyprivateapartment,asanctuaryforafewchoicemindsofthetown,alwayspervadedbyadimreligiouslight,andmorehushedthananyclubreading-roomIhaveeverbeenin。Gatheredintoasmallknot,wewerediscussingthesituationinsubduedtonessuitabletothegeniusoftheplace。
Agentlemanwithafineheadofwhitehairsuddenlypointedanimpatientfingerinmydirectionandapostrophisedme。
“WhatIwanttoknowiswhether,shouldtherebewar,Englandwouldcomein。”
Thetimetodrawabreath,andIspokeoutfortheCabinetwithoutfaltering。
“Mostassuredly。IshouldthinkallEuropeknowsthatbythistime。”
Hetookholdofthelapelofmycoat,and,givingitaslightjerkforgreateremphasis,saidforcibly:
“Then,ifEnglandwill,asyousay,andalltheworldknowsit,therecanbenowar。Germanywon'tbesomadasthat。”
OnthemorrowbynoonwereadoftheGermanultimatum。Thedayaftercamethedeclarationofwar,andtheAustrianmobilisationorder。Wewerefairlycaught。Allthatremainedformetodowastogetmypartyoutofthewayofeventualshells。ThebestmovewhichoccurredtomewastosnatchthemupinstantlyintothemountainstoaPolishhealthresortofgreatrepute——whichIdidattherateofonehundredmilesinelevenhoursbythelastciviliantrainpermittedtoleaveCracowforthenextthreeweeks。
AndthereweremainedamongstthePolesfromallpartsofPoland,notofficiallyinterned,butsimplyunabletoobtainthepermissiontotravelbytrain,orroad。Itwasawonderful,apoignanttwomonths。Thisisnotthetime,and,perhaps,nottheplace,toenlargeuponthetragiccharacterofthesituation;awholepeopleseeingtheculminationofitsmisfortunesinafinalcatastrophe,unabletotrustanyone,toappealtoanyone,tolookforhelpfromanyquarter;deprivedofallhopeandevenofitslastillusions,andunable,inthetroubleofmindsandtheunrestofconsciences,totakerefugeinstoicalacceptance。Ihaveseenallthis。AndI
amgladIhavenotsomanyyearsleftmetorememberthatappallingfeelingofinexorablefate,tangible,palpable,comeaftersomanycruelyears,afigureofdread,murmuringwithironlipsthefinalwords:Ruin——andExtinction。
Butenoughofthis。ForourlittlebandtherewastheawfulanguishofincertitudeastotherealnatureofeventsintheWest。
Itisdifficulttogiveanideahowuglyanddangerousthingslookedtousoverthere。Belgiumknockeddownandtrampledoutofexistence,Francegivinginunderrepeatedblows,amilitarycollapselikethatof1870,andEnglandinvolvedinthatdisastrousalliance,herarmysacrificed,herpeopleinapanic!Polishpapers,ofcourse,hadnootherbutGermansourcesofinformation。
Naturally,wedidnotbelieveallweread,butitwassometimesexcessivelydifficulttoreactwithsufficientfirmness。
Weusedtoshutourdoor,andthere,awayfromeverybody,wesatweighingthenews,huntingupdiscrepancies,scentinglies,findingreasonsforhopefulness,andgenerallycheeringeachotherup。Butitwasabeastlytime。Peopleusedtocometomewithveryseriousnewsandask,“Whatdoyouthinkofit?“Andmyinvariableanswerwas:“Whateverhashappened,orisgoingtohappen,whoeverwantstomakepeace,youmaybecertainthatEnglandwillnotmakeit,notfortenyears,ifnecessary。”'
Butenoughofthis,too。ThroughtheunremittingeffortsofPolishfriendsweobtainedatlastthepermissiontotraveltoVienna。
Oncethere,thewingoftheAmericanEaglewasextendedoverouruneasyheads。WecannotbesufficientlygratefultotheAmericanAmbassadorwho,allalong,interestedhimselfinourfateforhisexertionsonourbehalf,hisinvaluableassistanceandtherealfriendlinessofhisreceptioninVienna。OwingtoMr。Penfield'sactionweobtainedthepermissiontoleaveAustria。Anditwasanearthing,forhisExcellencyhasinformedmyAmericanpublisherssincethataweeklaterorderswereissuedtohaveusdetainedtilltheendofthewar。However,weeffectedourhair's-breadthescapeintoItaly;and,reachingGenoa,tookpassageinaDutchmailsteamer,homeward-boundfromJavawithLondonasaportofcall。
Onthatsea-routeImighthavepickedupamemoryateverymileifthepasthadnotbeeneclipsedbythetremendousactuality。WesawthesignsofitintheemptinessoftheMediterranean,theaspectofGibraltar,themistyglimpseintheBayofBiscayofanoutward-
boundconvoyoftransports,inthepresenceofBritishsubmarinesintheChannel。InnumerabledriftersflyingtheNavalflagdottedthenarrowwaters,andtwoNavalofficerscomingonboardofftheSouthForeland,pilotedtheshipthroughtheDowns。
TheDowns!Theretheywere,thickwiththememoriesofmysea-
life。Butwhatweretomenowthefutilitiesofanindividualpast?Asourship'sheadswungintotheestuaryoftheThames,adeep,yetfaint,concussionpassedthroughtheair,ashockratherthanasound,whichmissingmyearfounditswaystraightintomyheart。Turninginstinctivelytolookatmyboys,Ihappenedtomeetmywife'seyes。Shealsohadfeltprofoundly,comingfromfarawayacrossthegreydistancesofthesea,thefaintboomofthebiggunsatworkonthecoastofFlanders——shapingthefuture。
FIRSTNEWS——1918