Shetreatedhertherefore,withalltheindulgentfondnessofaparenttowardsafavouritechildonthelastdayofitsholidays。Mariannewastohavethebestplacebythefire,wastobetemptedtoeatbyeverydelicacyinthehouse,andtobeamusedbytherelationofallthenewsoftheday。
HadnotElinor,inthesadcountenanceofhersister,seenachecktoallmirth,shecouldhavebeenentertainedbyMrs。Jennings’sendeavourstocureadisappointmentinlove,byavarietyofsweetmeatsandolives,andagoodfire。
Assoon,however,astheconsciousnessofallthiswasforcedbycontinualrepetitiononMarianne,shecouldstaynolonger。WithahastyexclamationofMisery,andasigntohersisternottofollowher,shedirectlygotupandhurriedoutoftheroom。
“Poorsoul!”criedMrs。Jennings,assoonasshewasgone,“howitgrievesmetoseeher!,AndIdeclareifsheisnotgoneawaywithoutfinishingherwine!,Andthedriedcherriestoo!,Lord!nothingseemstodoheranygood。
IamsureifIknewofanythingshewouldlike,Iwouldsendalloverthetownforit。Well,itistheoddestthingtome,thatamanshouldusesuchaprettygirlsoill!,Butwhenthereisplentyofmoneyononeside,andnexttononeontheother,Lordblessyou!theycarenomoreaboutsuchthings!——“
“Theladythen——MissGreyIthinkyoucalledher——
isveryrich?”
“Fiftythousandpounds,mydear。Didyoueverseeher?asmart,stylishgirltheysay,butnothandsome。
Irememberherauntverywell,BiddyHenshawe;shemarriedaverywealthyman。Butthefamilyareallrichtogether。
Fiftythousandpounds!andbyallaccounts,itwon’tcomebeforeit’swanted;fortheysayheisalltopieces。
Nowonder!dashingaboutwithhiscurricleandhunters!
Well,itdon’tsignifytalking;butwhenayoungman,bewhohewill,comesandmakeslovetoaprettygirl,andpromisesmarriage,hehasnobusinesstoflyofffromhiswordonlybecausehegrowspoor,andarichergirlisreadytohavehim。Whydon’the,insuchacase,sellhishorses,lethishouse,turnoffhisservants,andmakeathoroughreformatonce?Iwarrantyou,MissMariannewouldhavebeenreadytowaittillmatterscameround。Butthatwon’tdonow-a-days;nothinginthewayofpleasurecaneverbegivenupbytheyoungmenofthisage。”
“DoyouknowwhatkindofagirlMissGreyis?
Isshesaidtobeamiable?”
“Ineverheardanyharmofher;indeedIhardlyeverheardhermentioned;exceptthatMrs。Taylordidsaythismorning,thatonedayMissWalkerhintedtoher,thatshebelievedMr。andMrs。EllisonwouldnotbesorrytohaveMissGreymarried,forsheandMrs。Ellisoncouldneveragree。”——
“AndwhoaretheEllisons?”
“Herguardians,mydear。Butnowsheisofageandmaychooseforherself;andaprettychoiceshehasmade!——Whatnow,“afterpausingamoment——“yourpoorsisterisgonetoherownroom,Isuppose,tomoanbyherself。
Istherenothingonecangettocomforther?,Poordear,itseemsquitecrueltoletherbealone。Well,by-and-byweshallhaveafewfriends,andthatwillamuseheralittle。
Whatshallweplayat?,ShehateswhistIknow;butistherenoroundgameshecaresfor?”
“Dearma’am,thiskindnessisquiteunnecessary。
Marianne,Idaresay,willnotleaveherroomagainthisevening。IshallpersuadeherifIcantogoearlytobed,forIamsureshewantsrest。”
“Aye,Ibelievethatwillbebestforher。
Lethernameherownsupper,andgotobed。Lord!nowondershehasbeenlookingsobadandsocastdownthislastweekortwo,forthismatterIsupposehasbeenhangingoverherheadaslongasthat。Andsotheletterthatcametodayfinishedit!
Poorsoul!,IamsureifIhadhadanotionofit,Iwouldnothavejokedheraboutitforallmymoney。
Butthenyouknow,howshouldIguesssuchathing?,Imadesureofitsbeingnothingbutacommonloveletter,andyouknowyoungpeopleliketobelaughedataboutthem。Lord!
howconcernedSirJohnandmydaughterswillbewhentheyhearit!,IfIhadmysensesaboutmeImighthavecalledinConduitStreetinmywayhome,andtoldthemofit。
ButIshallseethemtomorrow。”
“ItwouldbeunnecessaryIamsure,foryoutocautionMrs。PalmerandSirJohnagainstevernamingMr。Willoughby,ormakingtheslightestallusiontowhathaspassed,beforemysister。Theirowngood-naturemustpointouttothemtherealcrueltyofappearingtoknowanythingaboutitwhensheispresent;andthelessthatmayeverbesaidtomyselfonthesubject,themoremyfeelingswillbespared,asyoumydearmadamwilleasilybelieve。”
“Oh!Lord!yes,thatIdoindeed。Itmustbeterribleforyoutohearittalkedof;andasforyoursister,IamsureIwouldnotmentionawordaboutittoherfortheworld。YousawIdidnotalldinnertime。
NomorewouldSirJohn,normydaughters,fortheyareallverythoughtfulandconsiderate;especiallyifI
givethemahint,asIcertainlywill。Formypart,Ithinkthelessthatissaidaboutsuchthings,thebetter,thesooner’tisblownoverandforgot。Andwhatdoestalkingeverdoyouknow?”
“Inthisaffairitcanonlydoharm;moresoperhapsthaninmanycasesofasimilarkind,forithasbeenattendedbycircumstanceswhich,forthesakeofeveryoneconcernedinit,makeitunfittobecomethepublicconversation。ImustdoTHISjusticetoMr。Willoughby——hehasbrokennopositiveengagementwithmysister。”
“Law,mydear!,Don’tpretendtodefendhim。
Nopositiveengagementindeed!aftertakingheralloverAllenhamHouse,andfixingontheveryroomstheyweretoliveinhereafter!”
Elinor,forhersister’ssake,couldnotpressthesubjectfarther,andshehopeditwasnotrequiredofherforWilloughby’s;since,thoughMariannemightlosemuch,hecouldgainverylittlebytheenforcementoftherealtruth。
Afterashortsilenceonbothsides,Mrs。Jennings,withallhernaturalhilarity,burstforthagain。
“Well,mydear,’tisatruesayingaboutanill-wind,foritwillbeallthebetterforColonelBrandon。
Hewillhaveheratlast;aye,thathewill。Mindme,now,iftheyan’tmarriedbyMid-summer。Lord!howhe’llchuckleoverthisnews!,Ihopehewillcometonight。
Itwillbealltooneabettermatchforyoursister。
Twothousandayearwithoutdebtordrawback——exceptthelittlelove-child,indeed;aye,Ihadforgother;
butshemaybe’prenticedoutatasmallcost,andthenwhatdoesitsignify?,Delafordisaniceplace,Icantellyou;exactlywhatIcallaniceoldfashionedplace,fullofcomfortsandconveniences;quiteshutinwithgreatgardenwallsthatarecoveredwiththebestfruit-treesinthecountry;andsuchamulberrytreeinonecorner!
Lord!howCharlotteandIdidstufftheonlytimewewerethere!,Then,thereisadove-cote,somedelightfulstew-ponds,andaveryprettycanal;andeverything,inshort,thatonecouldwishfor;and,moreover,itisclosetothechurch,andonlyaquarterofamilefromtheturnpike-road,so’tisneverdull,forifyouonlygoandsitupinanoldyewarbourbehindthehouse,youmayseeallthecarriagesthatpassalong。
Oh!’tisaniceplace!,Abutcherhardbyinthevillage,andtheparsonage-housewithinastone’sthrow。
Tomyfancy,athousandtimesprettierthanBartonPark,wheretheyareforcedtosendthreemilesfortheirmeat,andhavenotaneighbournearerthanyourmother。
Well,IshallspirituptheColonelassoonasIcan。
Oneshoulderofmutton,youknow,drivesanotherdown。
IfweCANbutputWilloughbyoutofherhead!”
“Ay,ifwecandoTHAT,Ma’am,“saidElinor,“weshalldoverywellwithorwithoutColonelBrandon。”
Andthenrising,shewentawaytojoinMarianne,whomshefound,assheexpected,inherownroom,leaning,insilentmisery,overthesmallremainsofafire,which,tillElinor’sentrance,hadbeenheronlylight。
“Youhadbetterleaveme,“wasallthenoticethathersisterreceivedfromher。
“Iwillleaveyou,“saidElinor,“ifyouwillgotobed。”Butthis,fromthemomentaryperversenessofimpatientsuffering,sheatfirstrefusedtodo。
Hersister’searnest,thoughgentlepersuasion,however,soonsoftenedhertocompliance,andElinorsawherlayherachingheadonthepillow,andasshehoped,inawaytogetsomequietrestbeforeshelefther。
Inthedrawing-room,whithershethenrepaired,shewassoonjoinedbyMrs。Jennings,withawine-glass,fullofsomething,inherhand。
“Mydear,“saidshe,entering,“IhavejustrecollectedthatIhavesomeofthefinestoldConstantiawineinthehousethateverwastasted,soIhavebroughtaglassofitforyoursister。Mypoorhusband!howfondhewasofit!
Wheneverhehadatouchofhisoldcolickygout,hesaiditdidhimmoregoodthananythingelseintheworld。
Dotakeittoyoursister。”
“DearMa’am,“repliedElinor,smilingatthedifferenceofthecomplaintsforwhichitwasrecommended,“howgoodyouare!,ButIhavejustleftMarianneinbed,and,Ihope,almostasleep;andasIthinknothingwillbeofsomuchservicetoherasrest,ifyouwillgivemeleave,Iwilldrinkthewinemyself。”
Mrs。Jennings,thoughregrettingthatshehadnotbeenfiveminutesearlier,wassatisfiedwiththecompromise;
andElinor,assheswallowedthechiefofit,reflected,thatthoughitseffectsonacolickygoutwere,atpresent,oflittleimportancetoher,itshealingpowers,onadisappointedheartmightbeasreasonablytriedonherselfasonhersister。
ColonelBrandoncameinwhilethepartywereattea,andbyhismanneroflookingroundtheroomforMarianne,Elinorimmediatelyfanciedthatheneitherexpectednorwishedtoseeherthere,and,inshort,thathewasalreadyawareofwhatoccasionedherabsence。
Mrs。Jenningswasnotstruckbythesamethought;
forsoonafterhisentrance,shewalkedacrosstheroomtothetea-tablewhereElinorpresided,andwhispered——
“TheColonellooksasgraveaseveryousee。Heknowsnothingofit;dotellhim,mydear。”
Heshortlyafterwardsdrewachairclosetoher’s,and,withalookwhichperfectlyassuredherofhisgoodinformation,inquiredafterhersister。
“Marianneisnotwell,“saidshe。”Shehasbeenindisposedallday,andwehavepersuadedhertogotobed。”
“Perhaps,then,“hehesitatinglyreplied,“whatI
heardthismorningmaybe——theremaybemoretruthinitthanIcouldbelievepossibleatfirst。”
“Whatdidyouhear?”
“Thatagentleman,whomIhadreasontothink——inshort,thataman,whomIKNEWtobeengaged——buthowshallI
tellyou?,Ifyouknowitalready,assurelyyoumust,Imaybespared。”
“Youmean,“answeredElinor,withforcedcalmness,“Mr。Willoughby’smarriagewithMissGrey。Yes,weDO
knowitall。Thisseemstohavebeenadayofgeneralelucidation,forthisverymorningfirstunfoldedittous。
Mr。Willoughbyisunfathomable!,Wheredidyouhearit?”
“Inastationer’sshopinPallMall,whereI
hadbusiness。Twoladieswerewaitingfortheircarriage,andoneofthemwasgivingtheotheranaccountoftheintendedmatch,inavoicesolittleattemptingconcealment,thatitwasimpossibleformenottohearall。ThenameofWilloughby,JohnWilloughby,frequentlyrepeated,firstcaughtmyattention;andwhatfollowedwasapositiveassertionthateverythingwasnowfinallysettledrespectinghismarriagewithMissGrey——itwasnolongertobeasecret——itwouldtakeplaceevenwithinafewweeks,withmanyparticularsofpreparationsandothermatters。
Onething,especially,Iremember,becauseitservedtoidentifythemanstillmore:——assoonastheceremonywasover,theyweretogotoCombeMagna,hisseatinSomersetshire。Myastonishment!——butitwouldbeimpossibletodescribewhatIfelt。ThecommunicativeladyIlearnt,oninquiry,forIstayedintheshoptilltheyweregone,wasaMrs。Ellison,andthat,asI
havebeensinceinformed,isthenameofMissGrey’sguardian。”
“Itis。ButhaveyoulikewiseheardthatMissGreyhasfiftythousandpounds?,Inthat,ifinanything,wemayfindanexplanation。”
“Itmaybeso;butWilloughbyiscapable——atleastIthink“——hestoppedamoment;thenaddedinavoicewhichseemedtodistrustitself,“Andyoursister——
howdidshe——“
“Hersufferingshavebeenverysevere。
Ihaveonlytohopethattheymaybeproportionatelyshort。
Ithasbeen,itisamostcruelaffliction。Tillyesterday,Ibelieve,sheneverdoubtedhisregard;andevennow,perhaps——butIamalmostconvincedthatheneverwasreallyattachedtoher。Hehasbeenverydeceitful!and,insomepoints,thereseemsahardnessofheartabouthim。”
“Ah!”saidColonelBrandon,“thereis,indeed!
Butyoursisterdoesnot——Ithinkyousaidso——shedoesnotconsiderquiteasyoudo?”
“Youknowherdisposition,andmaybelievehoweagerlyshewouldstilljustifyhimifshecould。”
Hemadenoanswer;andsoonafterwards,bytheremovalofthetea-things,andthearrangementofthecardparties,thesubjectwasnecessarilydropped。Mrs。Jennings,whohadwatchedthemwithpleasurewhiletheyweretalking,andwhoexpectedtoseetheeffectofMissDashwood’scommunication,insuchaninstantaneousgaietyonColonelBrandon’sside,asmighthavebecomeamaninthebloomofyouth,ofhopeandhappiness,sawhim,withamazement,remainthewholeeveningmoreseriousandthoughtfulthanusual。
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Fromanightofmoresleepthanshehadexpected,Marianneawokethenextmorningtothesameconsciousnessofmiseryinwhichshehadclosedhereyes。
Elinorencouragedherasmuchaspossibletotalkofwhatshefelt;andbeforebreakfastwasready,theyhadgonethroughthesubjectagainandagain;andwiththesamesteadyconvictionandaffectionatecounselonElinor’sside,thesameimpetuousfeelingsandvaryingopinionsonMarianne’s,asbefore。SometimesshecouldbelieveWilloughbytobeasunfortunateandasinnocentasherself,andatothers,losteveryconsolationintheimpossibilityofacquittinghim。Atonemomentshewasabsolutelyindifferenttotheobservationofalltheworld,atanothershewouldsecludeherselffromitforever,andatathirdcouldresistitwithenergy。Inonething,however,shewasuniform,whenitcametothepoint,inavoiding,whereitwaspossible,thepresenceofMrs。Jennings,andinadeterminedsilencewhenobligedtoendureit。
HerheartwashardenedagainstthebeliefofMrs。Jennings’senteringintohersorrowswithanycompassion。
“No,no,no,itcannotbe,“shecried;
“shecannotfeel。Herkindnessisnotsympathy;
hergood-natureisnottenderness。Allthatshewantsisgossip,andsheonlylikesmenowbecauseIsupplyit。”
Elinorhadnotneededthistobeassuredoftheinjusticetowhichhersisterwasoftenledinheropinionofothers,bytheirritablerefinementofherownmind,andthetoogreatimportanceplacedbyheronthedelicaciesofastrongsensibility,andthegracesofapolishedmanner。
Likehalftherestoftheworld,ifmorethanhalftherebethatarecleverandgood,Marianne,withexcellentabilitiesandanexcellentdisposition,wasneitherreasonablenorcandid。Sheexpectedfromotherpeoplethesameopinionsandfeelingsasherown,andshejudgedoftheirmotivesbytheimmediateeffectoftheiractionsonherself。Thusacircumstanceoccurred,whilethesistersweretogetherintheirownroomafterbreakfast,whichsunktheheartofMrs。Jenningsstilllowerinherestimation;because,throughherownweakness,itchancedtoproveasourceoffreshpaintoherself,thoughMrs。Jenningswasgovernedinitbyanimpulseoftheutmostgoodwill。
Withaletterinheroutstretchedhand,andcountenancegailysmiling,fromthepersuasionofbringingcomfort,sheenteredtheirroom,saying,“Now,mydear,IbringyousomethingthatI
amsurewilldoyougood。”
Marianneheardenough。InonemomentherimaginationplacedbeforeheraletterfromWilloughby,fulloftendernessandcontrition,explanatoryofallthathadpassed,satisfactory,convincing;andinstantlyfollowedbyWilloughbyhimself,rushingeagerlyintotheroomtoinforce,atherfeet,bytheeloquenceofhiseyes,theassurancesofhisletter。
Theworkofonemomentwasdestroyedbythenext。
Thehandwritingofhermother,nevertillthenunwelcome,wasbeforeher;and,intheacutenessofthedisappointmentwhichfollowedsuchanecstasyofmorethanhope,shefeltasif,tillthatinstant,shehadneversuffered。
ThecrueltyofMrs。Jenningsnolanguage,withinherreachinhermomentsofhappiesteloquence,couldhaveexpressed;andnowshecouldreproachheronlybythetearswhichstreamedfromhereyeswithpassionateviolence——areproach,however,soentirelylostonitsobject,thataftermanyexpressionsofpity,shewithdrew,stillreferringhertotheletterofcomfort。
Buttheletter,whenshewascalmenoughtoreadit,broughtlittlecomfort。Willoughbyfilledeverypage。
Hermother,stillconfidentoftheirengagement,andrelyingaswarmlyaseveronhisconstancy,hadonlybeenrousedbyElinor’sapplication,tointreatfromMariannegreateropennesstowardsthemboth;andthis,withsuchtendernesstowardsher,suchaffectionforWilloughby,andsuchaconvictionoftheirfuturehappinessineachother,thatsheweptwithagonythroughthewholeofit。
Allherimpatiencetobeathomeagainnowreturned;
hermotherwasdearertoherthanever;dearerthroughtheveryexcessofhermistakenconfidenceinWilloughby,andshewaswildlyurgenttobegone。Elinor,unableherselftodeterminewhetheritwerebetterforMariannetobeinLondonoratBarton,offerednocounselofherownexceptofpatiencetilltheirmother’swishescouldbeknown;
andatlengthsheobtainedhersister’sconsenttowaitforthatknowledge。
Mrs。Jenningsleftthemearlierthanusual;
forshecouldnotbeeasytilltheMiddletonsandPalmerswereabletogrieveasmuchasherself;andpositivelyrefusingElinor’sofferedattendance,wentoutalonefortherestofthemorning。Elinor,withaveryheavyheart,awareofthepainshewasgoingtocommunicate,andperceiving,byMarianne’sletter,howillshehadsucceededinlayinganyfoundationforit,thensatdowntowritehermotheranaccountofwhathadpassed,andentreatherdirectionsforthefuture;whileMarianne,whocameintothedrawing-roomonMrs。Jennings’sgoingaway,remainedfixedatthetablewhereElinorwrote,watchingtheadvancementofherpen,grievingoverherforthehardshipofsuchatask,andgrievingstillmorefondlyoveritseffectonhermother。
Inthismannertheyhadcontinuedaboutaquarterofanhour,whenMarianne,whosenervescouldnotthenbearanysuddennoise,wasstartledbyarapatthedoor。
“Whocanthisbe?”criedElinor。”Soearlytoo!I
thoughtweHADbeensafe。”
Mariannemovedtothewindow——
“ItisColonelBrandon!”saidshe,withvexation。
“WeareneversafefromHIM。”
“Hewillnotcomein,asMrs。Jenningsisfromhome。”
“IwillnottrusttoTHAT,“retreatingtoherownroom。
“Amanwhohasnothingtodowithhisowntimehasnoconscienceinhisintrusiononthatofothers。”
Theeventprovedherconjectureright,thoughitwasfoundedoninjusticeanderror;forColonelBrandonDIDcomein;andElinor,whowasconvincedthatsolicitudeforMariannebroughthimthither,andwhosawTHATsolicitudeinhisdisturbedandmelancholylook,andinhisanxiousthoughbriefinquiryafterher,couldnotforgivehersisterforesteeminghimsolightly。
“ImetMrs。JenningsinBondStreet,“saidhe,afterthefirstsalutation,“andsheencouragedmetocomeon;andIwasthemoreeasilyencouraged,becauseIthoughtitprobablethatImightfindyoualone,whichIwasverydesirousofdoing。Myobject——mywish——mysolewishindesiringit——Ihope,Ibelieveitis——istobeameansofgivingcomfort;——no,Imustnotsaycomfort——notpresentcomfort——butconviction,lastingconvictiontoyoursister’smind。Myregardforher,foryourself,foryourmother——willyouallowmetoproveit,byrelatingsomecircumstanceswhichnothingbutaVERY
sincereregard——nothingbutanearnestdesireofbeinguseful——IthinkIamjustified——thoughwheresomanyhourshavebeenspentinconvincingmyselfthatIamright,istherenotsomereasontofearImaybewrong?”
Hestopped。
“Iunderstandyou,“saidElinor。”YouhavesomethingtotellmeofMr。Willoughby,thatwillopenhischaracterfarther。YourtellingitwillbethegreatestactoffriendshipthatcanbeshewnMarianne。MYgratitudewillbeinsuredimmediatelybyanyinformationtendingtothatend,andHERS
mustbegainedbyitintime。Pray,prayletmehearit。”
“Youshall;and,tobebrief,whenIquittedBartonlastOctober,——butthiswillgiveyounoidea——Imustgofartherback。Youwillfindmeaveryawkwardnarrator,MissDashwood;Ihardlyknowwheretobegin。Ashortaccountofmyself,Ibelieve,willbenecessary,anditSHALLbeashortone。Onsuchasubject,“sighingheavily,“canIhavelittletemptationtobediffuse。”
Hestoptamomentforrecollection,andthen,withanothersigh,wenton。
“Youhaveprobablyentirelyforgottenaconversation——
itisnottobesupposedthatitcouldmakeanyimpressiononyou——aconversationbetweenusoneeveningatBartonPark——itwastheeveningofadance——inwhichIalludedtoaladyIhadonceknown,asresembling,insomemeasure,yoursisterMarianne。”
“Indeed,“answeredElinor,“IhaveNOTforgottenit。”
Helookedpleasedbythisremembrance,andadded,“IfIamnotdeceivedbytheuncertainty,thepartialityoftenderrecollection,thereisaverystrongresemblancebetweenthem,aswellinmindasperson。Thesamewarmthofheart,thesameeagernessoffancyandspirits。
Thisladywasoneofmynearestrelations,anorphanfromherinfancy,andundertheguardianshipofmyfather。
Ourageswerenearlythesame,andfromourearliestyearswewereplayfellowsandfriends。IcannotrememberthetimewhenIdidnotloveEliza;andmyaffectionforher,aswegrewup,wassuch,asperhaps,judgingfrommypresentforlornandcheerlessgravity,youmightthinkmeincapableofhavingeverfelt。Her’s,forme,was,Ibelieve,ferventastheattachmentofyoursistertoMr。Willoughbyanditwas,thoughfromadifferentcause,nolessunfortunate。
Atseventeenshewaslosttomeforever。Shewasmarried——marriedagainstherinclinationtomybrother。
Herfortunewaslarge,andourfamilyestatemuchencumbered。
Andthis,Ifear,isallthatcanbesaidfortheconductofone,whowasatonceheruncleandguardian。
Mybrotherdidnotdeserveher;hedidnotevenloveher。
Ihadhopedthatherregardformewouldsupportherunderanydifficulty,andforsometimeitdid;butatlastthemiseryofhersituation,forsheexperiencedgreatunkindness,overcameallherresolution,andthoughshehadpromisedmethatnothing——buthowblindlyI
relate!,Ihavenevertoldyouhowthiswasbroughton。
WewerewithinafewhoursofelopingtogetherforScotland。
Thetreachery,orthefolly,ofmycousin’smaidbetrayedus。
Iwasbanishedtothehouseofarelationfardistant,andshewasallowednoliberty,nosociety,noamusement,tillmyfather’spointwasgained。Ihaddependedonherfortitudetoofar,andtheblowwasasevereone——
buthadhermarriagebeenhappy,soyoungasIthenwas,afewmonthsmusthavereconciledmetoit,oratleastIshouldnothavenowtolamentit。Thishoweverwasnotthecase。Mybrotherhadnoregardforher;
hispleasureswerenotwhattheyoughttohavebeen,andfromthefirsthetreatedherunkindly。Theconsequenceofthis,uponamindsoyoung,solively,soinexperiencedasMrs。Brandon’s,wasbuttoonatural。Sheresignedherselfatfirsttoallthemiseryofhersituation;
andhappyhaditbeenifshehadnotlivedtoovercomethoseregretswhichtheremembranceofmeoccasioned。Butcanwewonderthat,withsuchahusbandtoprovokeinconstancy,andwithoutafriendtoadviseorrestrainherformyfatherlivedonlyafewmonthsaftertheirmarriage,andIwaswithmyregimentintheEastIndiessheshouldfall?,HadIremainedinEngland,perhaps——butI
meanttopromotethehappinessofbothbyremovingfromherforyears,andforthatpurposehadprocuredmyexchange。Theshockwhichhermarriagehadgivenme,“
hecontinued,inavoiceofgreatagitation,“wasoftriflingweight——wasnothingtowhatIfeltwhenIheard,abouttwoyearsafterwards,ofherdivorce。ItwasTHATwhichthrewthisgloom,——evennowtherecollectionofwhatIsuffered——“
Hecouldsaynomore,andrisinghastilywalkedforafewminutesabouttheroom。Elinor,affectedbyhisrelation,andstillmorebyhisdistress,couldnotspeak。Hesawherconcern,andcomingtoher,tookherhand,pressedit,andkisseditwithgratefulrespect。Afewminutesmoreofsilentexertionenabledhimtoproceedwithcomposure。
“ItwasnearlythreeyearsafterthisunhappyperiodbeforeIreturnedtoEngland。Myfirstcare,whenIDIDarrive,wasofcoursetoseekforher;
butthesearchwasasfruitlessasitwasmelancholy。
Icouldnottraceherbeyondherfirstseducer,andtherewaseveryreasontofearthatshehadremovedfromhimonlytosinkdeeperinalifeofsin。Herlegalallowancewasnotadequatetoherfortune,norsufficientforhercomfortablemaintenance,andIlearntfrommybrotherthatthepowerofreceivingithadbeenmadeoversomemonthsbeforetoanotherperson。Heimagined,andcalmlycouldheimagineit,thatherextravagance,andconsequentdistress,hadobligedhertodisposeofitforsomeimmediaterelief。
Atlast,however,andafterIhadbeensixmonthsinEngland,IDIDfindher。Regardforaformerservantofmyown,whohadsincefallenintomisfortune,carriedmetovisithiminaspunging-house,wherehewasconfinedfordebt;
andthere,thesamehouse,underasimilarconfinement,wasmyunfortunatesister。Soaltered——sofaded——worndownbyacutesufferingofeverykind!hardlycouldI
believethemelancholyandsicklyfigurebeforeme,tobetheremainsofthelovely,blooming,healthfulgirl,onwhomIhadoncedoted。WhatIenduredinsobeholdingher——butIhavenorighttowoundyourfeelingsbyattemptingtodescribeit——Ihavepainedyoutoomuchalready。
Thatshewas,toallappearance,inthelaststageofaconsumption,was——yes,insuchasituationitwasmygreatestcomfort。Lifecoulddonothingforher,beyondgivingtimeforabetterpreparationfordeath;
andthatwasgiven。Isawherplacedincomfortablelodgings,andunderproperattendants;Ivisitedhereverydayduringtherestofhershortlife:Iwaswithherinherlastmoments。”
Againhestoppedtorecoverhimself;andElinorspokeherfeelingsinanexclamationoftenderconcern,atthefateofhisunfortunatefriend。
“Yoursister,Ihope,cannotbeoffended,“
saidhe,“bytheresemblanceIhavefanciedbetweenherandmypoordisgracedrelation。Theirfates,theirfortunes,cannotbethesame;andhadthenaturalsweetdispositionoftheonebeenguardedbyafirmermind,orahappiermarriage,shemighthavebeenallthatyouwilllivetoseetheotherbe。Buttowhatdoesallthislead?,Iseemtohavebeendistressingyoufornothing。
Ah!MissDashwood——asubjectsuchasthis——untouchedforfourteenyears——itisdangeroustohandleitatall!
IWILLbemorecollected——moreconcise。Shelefttomycareheronlychild,alittlegirl,theoffspringofherfirstguiltyconnection,whowasthenaboutthreeyearsold。
Shelovedthechild,andhadalwayskeptitwithher。
Itwasavalued,aprecioustrusttome;andgladlywouldIhavedischargeditinthestrictestsense,bywatchingoverhereducationmyself,hadthenatureofoursituationsallowedit;butIhadnofamily,nohome;
andmylittleElizawasthereforeplacedatschool。
IsawhertherewheneverIcould,andafterthedeathofmybrother,whichhappenedaboutfiveyearsago,andwhichlefttomethepossessionofthefamilyproperty,shevisitedmeatDelaford。Icalledheradistantrelation;
butIamwellawarethatIhaveingeneralbeensuspectedofamuchnearerconnectionwithher。Itisnowthreeyearsagoshehadjustreachedherfourteenthyear,
thatIremovedherfromschool,toplaceherunderthecareofaveryrespectablewoman,residinginDorsetshire,whohadthechargeoffourorfiveothergirlsofaboutthesametimeoflife;andfortwoyearsIhadeveryreasontobepleasedwithhersituation。ButlastFebruary,almostatwelvemonthback,shesuddenlydisappeared。
Ihadallowedher,imprudently,asithassinceturnedout,atherearnestdesire,togotoBathwithoneofheryoungfriends,whowasattendingherfatherthereforhishealth。Iknewhimtobeaverygoodsortofman,andIthoughtwellofhisdaughter——betterthanshedeserved,for,withamostobstinateandill-judgedsecrecy,shewouldtellnothing,wouldgivenoclue,thoughshecertainlyknewall。He,herfather,awell-meaning,butnotaquick-sightedman,couldreally,Ibelieve,givenoinformation;forhehadbeengenerallyconfinedtothehouse,whilethegirlswererangingoverthetownandmakingwhatacquaintancetheychose;andhetriedtoconvinceme,asthoroughlyashewasconvincedhimself,ofhisdaughter’sbeingentirelyunconcernedinthebusiness。
Inshort,Icouldlearnnothingbutthatshewasgone;
alltherest,foreightlongmonths,waslefttoconjecture。
WhatIthought,whatIfeared,maybeimagined;andwhatI
sufferedtoo。”
“Goodheavens!”criedElinor,“coulditbe——couldWilloughby!”——
“Thefirstnewsthatreachedmeofher,“hecontinued,“cameinaletterfromherself,lastOctober。
ItwasforwardedtomefromDelaford,andIreceiveditontheverymorningofourintendedpartytoWhitwell;
andthiswasthereasonofmyleavingBartonsosuddenly,whichIamsuremustatthetimehaveappearedstrangetoeverybody,andwhichIbelievegaveoffencetosome。
LittledidMr。Willoughbyimagine,Isuppose,whenhislookscensuredmeforincivilityinbreakinguptheparty,thatIwascalledawaytothereliefofonewhomhehadmadepoorandmiserable;butHADheknownit,whatwouldithaveavailed?,Wouldhehavebeenlessgayorlesshappyinthesmilesofyoursister?,No,hehadalreadydonethat,whichnomanwhoCANfeelforanotherwoulddo。Hehadleftthegirlwhoseyouthandinnocencehehadseduced,inasituationoftheutmostdistress,withnocreditablehome,nohelp,nofriends,ignorantofhisaddress!,Hehadlefther,promisingtoreturn;heneitherreturned,norwrote,norrelievedher。”
“Thisisbeyondeverything!”exclaimedElinor。
“Hischaracterisnowbeforeyou;expensive,dissipated,andworsethanboth。Knowingallthis,asIhavenowknownitmanyweeks,guesswhatImusthavefeltonseeingyoursisterasfondofhimasever,andonbeingassuredthatshewastomarryhim:guesswhatImusthavefeltforallyoursakes。WhenIcametoyoulastweekandfoundyoualone,Icamedeterminedtoknowthetruth;
thoughirresolutewhattodowhenitWASknown。
Mybehaviourmusthaveseemedstrangetoyouthen;
butnowyouwillcomprehendit。Tosufferyoualltobesodeceived;toseeyoursister——butwhatcouldIdo?
Ihadnohopeofinterferingwithsuccess;andsometimesIthoughtyoursister’sinfluencemightyetreclaimhim。
Butnow,aftersuchdishonorableusage,whocantellwhatwerehisdesignsonher。Whatevertheymayhavebeen,however,shemaynow,andhereafterdoubtlessWILL
turnwithgratitudetowardsherowncondition,whenshecomparesitwiththatofmypoorEliza,whensheconsidersthewretchedandhopelesssituationofthispoorgirl,andpictureshertoherself,withanaffectionforhimsostrong,stillasstrongasherown,andwithamindtormentedbyself-reproach,whichmustattendherthroughlife。
Surelythiscomparisonmusthaveitsusewithher。
Shewillfeelherownsufferingstobenothing。Theyproceedfromnomisconduct,andcanbringnodisgrace。
Onthecontrary,everyfriendmustbemadestillmoreherfriendbythem。Concernforherunhappiness,andrespectforherfortitudeunderit,muststrengtheneveryattachment。Useyourowndiscretion,however,incommunicatingtoherwhatIhavetoldyou。Youmustknowbestwhatwillbeitseffect;buthadInotseriously,andfrommyheartbelieveditmightbeofservice,mightlessenherregrets,Iwouldnothavesufferedmyselftotroubleyouwiththisaccountofmyfamilyafflictions,witharecitalwhichmayseemtohavebeenintendedtoraisemyselfattheexpenseofothers。”
Elinor’sthanksfollowedthisspeechwithgratefulearnestness;attendedtoowiththeassuranceofherexpectingmaterialadvantagetoMarianne,fromthecommunicationofwhathadpassed。
“Ihavebeenmorepained,“saidshe,“byherendeavorstoacquithimthanbyalltherest;foritirritateshermindmorethanthemostperfectconvictionofhisunworthinesscando。Now,thoughatfirstshewillsuffermuch,Iamsureshewillsoonbecomeeasier。
Haveyou,“shecontinued,afterashortsilence,“everseenMr。WilloughbysinceyoulefthimatBarton?”
“Yes,“herepliedgravely,“onceIhave。
Onemeetingwasunavoidable。”
Elinor,startledbyhismanner,lookedathimanxiously,saying,“What?haveyoumethimto——“
“Icouldmeethimnootherway。Elizahadconfessedtome,thoughmostreluctantly,thenameofherlover;
andwhenhereturnedtotown,whichwaswithinafortnightaftermyself,wemetbyappointment,hetodefend,Itopunishhisconduct。Wereturnedunwounded,andthemeeting,therefore,nevergotabroad。”
Elinorsighedoverthefanciednecessityofthis;
buttoamanandasoldiershepresumednottocensureit。
“Such,“saidColonelBrandon,afterapause,“hasbeentheunhappyresemblancebetweenthefateofmotheranddaughter!andsoimperfectlyhaveIdischargedmytrust!”
“Isshestillintown?”
“No;assoonassherecoveredfromherlying-in,forIfoundhernearherdelivery,Iremovedherandherchildintothecountry,andtheresheremains。”
Recollecting,soonafterwards,thathewasprobablydividingElinorfromhersister,heputanendtohisvisit,receivingfromheragainthesamegratefulacknowledgments,andleavingherfullofcompassionandesteemforhim。
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WhentheparticularsofthisconversationwererepeatedbyMissDashwoodtohersister,astheyverysoonwere,theeffectonherwasnotentirelysuchastheformerhadhopedtosee。NotthatMarianneappearedtodistrustthetruthofanypartofit,forshelistenedtoitallwiththemoststeadyandsubmissiveattention,madeneitherobjectionnorremark,attemptednovindicationofWilloughby,andseemedtoshewbyhertearsthatshefeltittobeimpossible。ButthoughthisbehaviourassuredElinorthattheconvictionofthisguiltWAScarriedhometohermind,thoughshesawwithsatisfactiontheeffectofit,inhernolongeravoidingColonelBrandonwhenhecalled,inherspeakingtohim,evenvoluntarilyspeaking,withakindofcompassionaterespect,andthoughshesawherspiritslessviolentlyirritatedthanbefore,shedidnotseeherlesswretched。Herminddidbecomesettled,butitwassettledinagloomydejection。
ShefeltthelossofWilloughby’scharacteryetmoreheavilythanshehadfeltthelossofhisheart;hisseductionanddesertionofMissWilliams,themiseryofthatpoorgirl,andthedoubtofwhathisdesignsmightONCEhavebeenonherself,preyedaltogethersomuchonherspirits,thatshecouldnotbringherselftospeakofwhatshefelteventoElinor;and,broodingoverhersorrowsinsilence,gavemorepaintohersisterthancouldhavebeencommunicatedbythemostopenandmostfrequentconfessionofthem。
TogivethefeelingsorthelanguageofMrs。
DashwoodonreceivingandansweringElinor’sletterwouldbeonlytogivearepetitionofwhatherdaughtershadalreadyfeltandsaid;ofadisappointmenthardlylesspainfulthanMarianne’s,andanindignationevengreaterthanElinor’s。
Longlettersfromher,quicklysucceedingeachother,arrivedtotellallthatshesufferedandthought;
toexpressheranxioussolicitudeforMarianne,andentreatshewouldbearupwithfortitudeunderthismisfortune。
BadindeedmustthenatureofMarianne’safflictionbe,whenhermothercouldtalkoffortitude!mortifyingandhumiliatingmustbetheoriginofthoseregrets,whichSHEcouldwishhernottoindulge!
Againsttheinterestofherownindividualcomfort,Mrs。DashwoodhaddeterminedthatitwouldbebetterforMariannetobeanywhere,atthattime,thanatBarton,whereeverythingwithinherviewwouldbebringingbackthepastinthestrongestandmostafflictingmanner,byconstantlyplacingWilloughbybeforeher,suchasshehadalwaysseenhimthere。Sherecommendedittoherdaughters,therefore,byallmeansnottoshortentheirvisittoMrs。Jennings;thelengthofwhich,thoughneverexactlyfixed,hadbeenexpectedbyalltocompriseatleastfiveorsixweeks。Avarietyofoccupations,ofobjects,andofcompany,whichcouldnotbeprocuredatBarton,wouldbeinevitablethere,andmightyet,shehoped,cheatMarianne,attimes,intosomeinterestbeyondherself,andevenintosomeamusement,muchastheideasofbothmightnowbespurnedbyher。
FromalldangerofseeingWilloughbyagain,hermotherconsideredhertobeatleastequallysafeintownasinthecountry,sincehisacquaintancemustnowbedroppedbyallwhocalledthemselvesherfriends。
Designcouldneverbringthemineachother’sway:
negligencecouldneverleavethemexposedtoasurprise;
andchancehadlessinitsfavourinthecrowdofLondonthanevenintheretirementofBarton,whereitmightforcehimbeforeherwhilepayingthatvisitatAllenhamonhismarriage,whichMrs。Dashwood,fromforeseeingatfirstasaprobableevent,hadbroughtherselftoexpectasacertainone。
Shehadyetanotherreasonforwishingherchildrentoremainwheretheywere;aletterfromherson-in-lawhadtoldherthatheandhiswifeweretobeintownbeforethemiddleofFebruary,andshejudgeditrightthattheyshouldsometimesseetheirbrother。
Mariannehadpromisedtobeguidedbyhermother’sopinion,andshesubmittedtoitthereforewithoutopposition,thoughitprovedperfectlydifferentfromwhatshewishedandexpected,thoughshefeltittobeentirelywrong,formedonmistakengrounds,andthatbyrequiringherlongercontinuanceinLondonitdeprivedheroftheonlypossiblealleviationofherwretchedness,thepersonalsympathyofhermother,anddoomedhertosuchsocietyandsuchscenesasmustpreventhereverknowingamoment’srest。
Butitwasamatterofgreatconsolationtoher,thatwhatbroughteviltoherselfwouldbringgoodtohersister;andElinor,ontheotherhand,suspectingthatitwouldnotbeinherpowertoavoidEdwardentirely,comfortedherselfbythinking,thatthoughtheirlongerstaywouldthereforemilitateagainstherownhappiness,itwouldbebetterforMariannethananimmediatereturnintoDevonshire。
HercarefulnessinguardinghersisterfromeverhearingWilloughby’snamementioned,wasnotthrownaway。
Marianne,thoughwithoutknowingitherself,reapedallitsadvantage;forneitherMrs。Jennings,norSirJohn,norevenMrs。Palmerherself,everspokeofhimbeforeher。
Elinorwishedthatthesameforbearancecouldhaveextendedtowardsherself,butthatwasimpossible,andshewasobligedtolistendayafterdaytotheindignationofthemall。
SirJohn,couldnothavethoughtitpossible。
“Amanofwhomhehadalwayshadsuchreasontothinkwell!
Suchagood-naturedfellow!,HedidnotbelievetherewasabolderriderinEngland!,Itwasanunaccountablebusiness。
Hewishedhimatthedevilwithallhisheart。Hewouldnotspeakanotherwordtohim,meethimwherehemight,foralltheworld!,No,notifitweretobebythesideofBartoncovert,andtheywerekeptwatchingfortwohourstogether。Suchascoundrelofafellow!suchadeceitfuldog!,ItwasonlythelasttimetheymetthathehadofferedhimoneofFolly’spuppies!andthiswastheendofit!”
Mrs。Palmer,inherway,wasequallyangry。
“Shewasdeterminedtodrophisacquaintanceimmediately,andshewasverythankfulthatshehadneverbeenacquaintedwithhimatall。ShewishedwithallherheartCombeMagnawasnotsonearCleveland;butitdidnotsignify,foritwasagreatdealtoofarofftovisit;shehatedhimsomuchthatshewasresolvednevertomentionhisnameagain,andsheshouldtelleverybodyshesaw,howgood-for-nothinghewas。”
TherestofMrs。Palmer’ssympathywasshewninprocuringalltheparticularsinherpoweroftheapproachingmarriage,andcommunicatingthemtoElinor。Shecouldsoontellatwhatcoachmaker’sthenewcarriagewasbuilding,bywhatpainterMr。Willoughby’sportraitwasdrawn,andatwhatwarehouseMissGrey’sclothesmightbeseen。
ThecalmandpoliteunconcernofLadyMiddletonontheoccasionwasahappyrelieftoElinor’sspirits,oppressedastheyoftenwerebytheclamorouskindnessoftheothers。ItwasagreatcomforttohertobesureofexcitingnointerestinONEpersonatleastamongtheircircleoffriends:agreatcomforttoknowthattherewasONEwhowouldmeetherwithoutfeelinganycuriosityafterparticulars,oranyanxietyforhersister’shealth。
Everyqualificationisraisedattimes,bythecircumstancesofthemoment,tomorethanitsrealvalue;
andshewassometimesworrieddownbyofficiouscondolencetorategood-breedingasmoreindispensabletocomfortthangood-nature。
LadyMiddletonexpressedhersenseoftheaffairaboutonceeveryday,ortwice,ifthesubjectoccurredveryoften,bysaying,“Itisveryshocking,indeed!”
andbythemeansofthiscontinualthoughgentlevent,wasablenotonlytoseetheMissDashwoodsfromthefirstwithoutthesmallestemotion,butverysoontoseethemwithoutrecollectingawordofthematter;
andhavingthussupportedthedignityofherownsex,andspokenherdecidedcensureofwhatwaswrongintheother,shethoughtherselfatlibertytoattendtotheinterestofherownassemblies,andthereforedeterminedthoughratheragainsttheopinionofSirJohn
thatasMrs。Willoughbywouldatoncebeawomanofeleganceandfortune,toleavehercardwithherassoonasshemarried。
ColonelBrandon’sdelicate,unobtrusiveenquirieswereneverunwelcometoMissDashwood。Hehadabundantlyearnedtheprivilegeofintimatediscussionofhersister’sdisappointment,bythefriendlyzealwithwhichhehadendeavouredtosoftenit,andtheyalwaysconversedwithconfidence。Hischiefrewardforthepainfulexertionofdisclosingpastsorrowsandpresenthumiliations,wasgiveninthepityingeyewithwhichMariannesometimesobservedhim,andthegentlenessofhervoicewheneverthoughitdidnotoftenhappen
shewasobliged,orcouldobligeherselftospeaktohim。
THESEassuredhimthathisexertionhadproducedanincreaseofgood-willtowardshimself,andTHESEgaveElinorhopesofitsbeingfartheraugmentedhereafter;
butMrs。Jennings,whoknewnothingofallthis,whoknewonlythattheColonelcontinuedasgraveasever,andthatshecouldneitherprevailonhimtomaketheofferhimself,norcommissionhertomakeitforhim,began,attheendoftwodays,tothinkthat,insteadofMidsummer,theywouldnotbemarriedtillMichaelmas,andbytheendofaweekthatitwouldnotbeamatchatall。
ThegoodunderstandingbetweentheColonelandMissDashwoodseemedrathertodeclarethatthehonoursofthemulberry-tree,thecanal,andtheyewarbour,wouldallbemadeovertoHER;andMrs。Jenningshad,forsometimeceasedtothinkatallofMrs。Ferrars。
EarlyinFebruary,withinafortnightfromthereceiptofWilloughby’sletter,Elinorhadthepainfulofficeofinforminghersisterthathewasmarried。
Shehadtakencaretohavetheintelligenceconveyedtoherself,assoonasitwasknownthattheceremonywasover,asshewasdesirousthatMarianneshouldnotreceivethefirstnoticeofitfromthepublicpapers,whichshesawhereagerlyexaminingeverymorning。
Shereceivedthenewswithresolutecomposure;
madenoobservationonit,andatfirstshednotears;
butafterashorttimetheywouldburstout,andfortherestoftheday,shewasinastatehardlylesspitiablethanwhenshefirstlearnttoexpecttheevent。
TheWilloughbyslefttownassoonastheyweremarried;
andElinornowhoped,astherecouldbenodangerofherseeingeitherofthem,toprevailonhersister,whohadneveryetleftthehousesincetheblowfirstfell,togooutagainbydegreesasshehaddonebefore。
AboutthistimethetwoMissSteeles,latelyarrivedattheircousin’shouseinBartlett’sBuildings,Holburn,presentedthemselvesagainbeforetheirmoregrandrelationsinConduitandBerkeleyStreets;
andwerewelcomedbythemallwithgreatcordiality。
Elinoronlywassorrytoseethem。Theirpresencealwaysgaveherpain,andshehardlyknewhowtomakeaverygraciousreturntotheoverpoweringdelightofLucyinfindingherSTILLintown。
“IshouldhavebeenquitedisappointedifI
hadnotfoundyouhereSTILL,“saidsherepeatedly,withastrongemphasisontheword。”ButIalwaysthoughtISHOULD。
IwasalmostsureyouwouldnotleaveLondonyetawhile;
thoughyouTOLDme,youknow,atBarton,thatyoushouldnotstayaboveaMONTH。ButIthought,atthetime,thatyouwouldmostlikelychangeyourmindwhenitcametothepoint。Itwouldhavebeensuchagreatpitytohavewentawaybeforeyourbrotherandsistercame。
Andnowtobesureyouwillbeinnohurrytobegone。
IamamazinglygladyoudidnotkeeptoYOURWORD。”
Elinorperfectlyunderstoodher,andwasforcedtouseallherself-commandtomakeitappearthatshedidNOT。
“Well,mydear,“saidMrs。Jennings,“andhowdidyoutravel?”
“Notinthestage,Iassureyou,“repliedMissSteele,withquickexultation;“wecamepostalltheway,andhadaverysmartbeautoattendus。Dr。Davieswascomingtotown,andsowethoughtwe’djoinhiminapost-chaise;
andhebehavedverygenteelly,andpaidtenortwelveshillingsmorethanwedid。”
“Oh,oh!”criedMrs。Jennings;“verypretty,indeed!andtheDoctorisasingleman,Iwarrantyou。”
“Therenow,“saidMissSteele,affectedlysimpering,“everybodylaughsatmesoabouttheDoctor,andI
cannotthinkwhy。MycousinssaytheyaresureIhavemadeaconquest;butformypartIdeclareIneverthinkabouthimfromonehour’sendtoanother。’Lord!herecomesyourbeau,Nancy,’mycousinsaidt’otherday,whenshesawhimcrossingthestreettothehouse。
Mybeau,indeed!saidI——Icannotthinkwhoyoumean。
TheDoctorisnobeauofmine。”
“Aye,aye,thatisveryprettytalking——butitwon’tdo——
theDoctoristheman,Isee。”
“No,indeed!”repliedhercousin,withaffectedearnestness,“andIbegyouwillcontradictit,ifyoueverhearittalkedof。”
Mrs。JenningsdirectlygaveherthegratifyingassurancethatshecertainlywouldNOT,andMissSteelewasmadecompletelyhappy。
“Isupposeyouwillgoandstaywithyourbrotherandsister,MissDashwood,whentheycometotown,“
saidLucy,returning,afteracessationofhostilehints,tothecharge。
“No,Idonotthinkweshall。”
“Oh,yes,Idaresayyouwill。”
Elinorwouldnothumourherbyfartheropposition。
“WhatacharmingthingitisthatMrs。Dashwoodcanspareyoubothforsolongatimetogether!”
“Longatime,indeed!”interposedMrs。Jennings。
“Why,theirvisitisbutjustbegun!”
Lucywassilenced。
“Iamsorrywecannotseeyoursister,MissDashwood,“
saidMissSteele。”Iamsorrysheisnotwell——“
forMariannehadlefttheroomontheirarrival。
“Youareverygood。Mysisterwillbeequallysorrytomissthepleasureofseeingyou;butshehasbeenverymuchplaguedlatelywithnervoushead-aches,whichmakeherunfitforcompanyorconversation。”
“Oh,dear,thatisagreatpity!butsucholdfriendsasLucyandme!——IthinkshemightseeUS;
andIamsurewewouldnotspeakaword。”
Elinor,withgreatcivility,declinedtheproposal。
Hersisterwasperhapslaiddownuponthebed,orinherdressinggown,andthereforenotabletocometothem。
“Oh,ifthat’sall,“criedMissSteele,“wecanjustaswellgoandseeHER。”
Elinorbegantofindthisimpertinencetoomuchforhertemper;butshewassavedthetroubleofcheckingit,byLucy’ssharpreprimand,whichnow,asonmanyoccasions,thoughitdidnotgivemuchsweetnesstothemannersofonesister,wasofadvantageingoverningthoseoftheother。
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Aftersomeopposition,Marianneyieldedtohersister’sentreaties,andconsentedtogooutwithherandMrs。Jenningsonemorningforhalfanhour。Sheexpresslyconditioned,however,forpayingnovisits,andwoulddonomorethanaccompanythemtoGray’sinSackvilleStreet,whereElinorwascarryingonanegotiationfortheexchangeofafewold-fashionedjewelsofhermother。
Whentheystoppedatthedoor,Mrs。Jenningsrecollectedthattherewasaladyattheotherendofthestreetonwhomsheoughttocall;andasshehadnobusinessatGray’s,itwasresolved,thatwhileheryoungfriendstransactedtheir’s,sheshouldpayhervisitandreturnforthem。
Onascendingthestairs,theMissDashwoodsfoundsomanypeoplebeforethemintheroom,thattherewasnotapersonatlibertytotendtotheirorders;andtheywereobligedtowait。Allthatcouldbedonewas,tositdownatthatendofthecounterwhichseemedtopromisethequickestsuccession;onegentlemanonlywasstandingthere,anditisprobablethatElinorwasnotwithouthopeofexcitinghispolitenesstoaquickerdespatch。
Butthecorrectnessofhiseye,andthedelicacyofhistaste,provedtobebeyondhispoliteness。
Hewasgivingordersforatoothpick-caseforhimself,andtillitssize,shape,andornamentsweredetermined,allofwhich,afterexamininganddebatingforaquarterofanhourovereverytoothpick-caseintheshop,werefinallyarrangedbyhisowninventivefancy,hehadnoleisuretobestowanyotherattentiononthetwoladies,thanwhatwascomprisedinthreeorfourverybroadstares;
akindofnoticewhichservedtoimprintonElinortheremembranceofapersonandface,ofstrong,natural,sterlinginsignificance,thoughadornedinthefirststyleoffashion。
Mariannewassparedfromthetroublesomefeelingsofcontemptandresentment,onthisimpertinentexaminationoftheirfeatures,andonthepuppyismofhismannerindecidingonallthedifferenthorrorsofthedifferenttoothpick-casespresentedtohisinspection,byremainingunconsciousofitall;forshewasaswellabletocollectherthoughtswithinherself,andbeasignorantofwhatwaspassingaroundher,inMr。Gray’sshop,asinherownbedroom。
Atlasttheaffairwasdecided。Theivory,thegold,andthepearls,allreceivedtheirappointment,andthegentlemanhavingnamedthelastdayonwhichhisexistencecouldbecontinuedwithoutthepossessionofthetoothpick-case,drewonhisgloveswithleisurelycare,andbestowinganotherglanceontheMissDashwoods,butsuchaoneasseemedrathertodemandthanexpressadmiration,walkedoffwithahappyairofrealconceitandaffectedindifference。
Elinorlostnotimeinbringingherbusinessforward,wasonthepointofconcludingit,whenanothergentlemanpresentedhimselfatherside。Sheturnedhereyestowardshisface,andfoundhimwithsomesurprisetobeherbrother。
TheiraffectionandpleasureinmeetingwasjustenoughtomakeaverycreditableappearanceinMr。Gray’sshop。
JohnDashwoodwasreallyfarfrombeingsorrytoseehissistersagain;itrathergavethemsatisfaction;
andhisinquiriesaftertheirmotherwererespectfulandattentive。
ElinorfoundthatheandFannyhadbeenintowntwodays。
“Iwishedverymuchtocalluponyouyesterday,“
saidhe,“butitwasimpossible,forwewereobligedtotakeHarrytoseethewildbeastsatExeterExchange;
andwespenttherestofthedaywithMrs。Ferrars。
Harrywasvastlypleased。THISmorningIhadfullyintendedtocallonyou,ifIcouldpossiblyfindasparehalfhour,butonehasalwayssomuchtodoonfirstcomingtotown。
IamcomeheretobespeakFannyaseal。ButtomorrowI
thinkIshallcertainlybeabletocallinBerkeleyStreet,andbeintroducedtoyourfriendMrs。Jennings。
Iunderstandsheisawomanofverygoodfortune。
AndtheMiddletonstoo,youmustintroducemetoTHEM。
Asmymother-in-law’srelations,Ishallbehappytoshowthemeveryrespect。Theyareexcellentneighbourstoyouinthecountry,Iunderstand。”
“Excellentindeed。Theirattentiontoourcomfort,theirfriendlinessineveryparticular,ismorethanI
canexpress。”
“Iamextremelygladtohearit,uponmyword;
extremelygladindeed。Butsoitoughttobe;theyarepeopleoflargefortune,theyarerelatedtoyou,andeverycivilityandaccommodationthatcanservetomakeyoursituationpleasantmightbereasonablyexpected。
Andsoyouaremostcomfortablysettledinyourlittlecottageandwantfornothing!,Edwardbroughtusamostcharmingaccountoftheplace:themostcompletethingofitskind,hesaid,thateverwas,andyouallseemedtoenjoyitbeyondanything。Itwasagreatsatisfactiontoustohearit,Iassureyou。”
Elinordidfeelalittleashamedofherbrother;
andwasnotsorrytobesparedthenecessityofansweringhim,bythearrivalofMrs。Jennings’sservant,whocametotellherthathismistresswaitedforthematthedoor。
Mr。Dashwoodattendedthemdownstairs,wasintroducedtoMrs。Jenningsatthedoorofhercarriage,andrepeatinghishopeofbeingabletocallonthemthenextday,tookleave。
Hisvisitwasdulypaid。Hecamewithapretenceatanapologyfromtheirsister-in-law,fornotcomingtoo;
“butshewassomuchengagedwithhermother,thatreallyshehadnoleisureforgoinganywhere。”,Mrs。Jennings,however,assuredhimdirectly,thatsheshouldnotstanduponceremony,fortheywereallcousins,orsomethinglikeit,andsheshouldcertainlywaitonMrs。JohnDashwoodverysoon,andbringhersisterstoseeher。
HismannerstoTHEM,thoughcalm,wereperfectlykind;
toMrs。Jennings,mostattentivelycivil;andonColonelBrandon’scominginsoonafterhimself,heeyedhimwithacuriositywhichseemedtosay,thatheonlywantedtoknowhimtoberich,tobeequallyciviltoHIM。
Afterstayingwiththemhalfanhour,heaskedElinortowalkwithhimtoConduitStreet,andintroducehimtoSirJohnandLadyMiddleton。Theweatherwasremarkablyfine,andshereadilyconsented。Assoonastheywereoutofthehouse,hisenquiriesbegan。
“WhoisColonelBrandon?,Isheamanoffortune?”
“Yes;hehasverygoodpropertyinDorsetshire。”
“Iamgladofit。Heseemsamostgentlemanlikeman;
andIthink,Elinor,Imaycongratulateyouontheprospectofaveryrespectableestablishmentinlife。”
“Me,brother!whatdoyoumean?”
“Helikesyou。Iobservedhimnarrowly,andamconvincedofit。Whatistheamountofhisfortune?”
“Ibelieveabouttwothousandayear。”
“Twothousanda-year;“andthenworkinghimselfuptoapitchofenthusiasticgenerosity,headded,“Elinor,IwishwithallmyheartitwereTWICEasmuch,foryoursake。”
“IndeedIbelieveyou,“repliedElinor;“butIamverysurethatColonelBrandonhasnotthesmallestwishofmarryingME。”
“Youaremistaken,Elinor;youareverymuchmistaken。
Averylittletroubleonyoursidesecureshim。
Perhapsjustatpresenthemaybeundecided;thesmallnessofyourfortunemaymakehimhangback;hisfriendsmayalladvisehimagainstit。Butsomeofthoselittleattentionsandencouragementswhichladiescansoeasilygivewillfixhim,inspiteofhimself。Andtherecanbenoreasonwhyyoushouldnottryforhim。Itisnottobesupposedthatanypriorattachmentonyourside——inshort,youknowastoanattachmentofthatkind,itisquiteoutofthequestion,theobjectionsareinsurmountable——
youhavetoomuchsensenottoseeallthat。ColonelBrandonmustbetheman;andnocivilityshallbewantingonmyparttomakehimpleasedwithyouandyourfamily。
Itisamatchthatmustgiveuniversalsatisfaction。
Inshort,itisakindofthingthat“——loweringhisvoicetoanimportantwhisper——“willbeexceedinglywelcometoALLPARTIES。”Recollectinghimself,however,headded,“Thatis,Imeantosay——yourfriendsarealltrulyanxioustoseeyouwellsettled;Fannyparticularly,forshehasyourinterestverymuchatheart,Iassureyou。
Andhermothertoo,Mrs。Ferrars,averygood-naturedwoman,Iamsureitwouldgivehergreatpleasure;shesaidasmuchtheotherday。”
Elinorwouldnotvouchsafeanyanswer。
“Itwouldbesomethingremarkable,now,“hecontinued,“somethingdroll,ifFannyshouldhaveabrotherandI
asistersettlingatthesametime。Andyetitisnotveryunlikely。”
“IsMr。EdwardFerrars,“saidElinor,withresolution,“goingtobemarried?”
“Itisnotactuallysettled,butthereissuchathinginagitation。Hehasamostexcellentmother。
Mrs。Ferrars,withtheutmostliberality,willcomeforward,andsettleonhimathousandayear,ifthematchtakesplace。TheladyistheHon。MissMorton,onlydaughterofthelateLordMorton,withthirtythousandpounds。
Averydesirableconnectiononbothsides,andIhavenotadoubtofitstakingplaceintime。Athousanda-yearisagreatdealforamothertogiveaway,tomakeoverforever;butMrs。Ferrarshasanoblespirit。Togiveyouanotherinstanceofherliberality:——Theotherday,assoonaswecametotown,awarethatmoneycouldnotbeveryplentywithusjustnow,sheputbank-notesintoFanny’shandstotheamountoftwohundredpounds。
Andextremelyacceptableitis,forwemustliveatagreatexpensewhilewearehere。”
Hepausedforherassentandcompassion;andsheforcedherselftosay,“Yourexpensesbothintownandcountrymustcertainlybeconsiderable;butyourincomeisalargeone。”
“Notsolarge,Idaresay,asmanypeoplesuppose。
Idonotmeantocomplain,however;itisundoubtedlyacomfortableone,andIhopewillintimebebetter。
TheenclosureofNorlandCommon,nowcarryingon,isamostseriousdrain。AndthenIhavemadealittlepurchasewithinthishalfyear;EastKinghamFarm,youmustremembertheplace,whereoldGibsonusedtolive。
Thelandwassoverydesirableformeineveryrespect,soimmediatelyadjoiningmyownproperty,thatIfeltitmydutytobuyit。Icouldnothaveansweredittomyconsciencetoletitfallintoanyotherhands。Amanmustpayforhisconvenience;anditHAScostmeavastdealofmoney。”
“Morethanyouthinkitreallyandintrinsicallyworth。”
“Why,Ihopenotthat。Imighthavesolditagain,thenextday,formorethanIgave:but,withregardtothepurchase-money,Imighthavebeenveryunfortunateindeed;
forthestockswereatthattimesolow,thatifIhadnothappenedtohavethenecessarysuminmybanker’shands,Imusthavesoldouttoverygreatloss。”
Elinorcouldonlysmile。
“OthergreatandinevitableexpensestoowehavehadonfirstcomingtoNorland。Ourrespectedfather,asyouwellknow,bequeathedalltheStanhilleffectsthatremainedatNorlandandveryvaluabletheywere
toyourmother。Farbeitfrommetorepineathisdoingso;hehadanundoubtedrighttodisposeofhisownpropertyashechose,but,inconsequenceofit,wehavebeenobligedtomakelargepurchasesoflinen,china,&c。tosupplytheplaceofwhatwastakenaway。
Youmayguess,afteralltheseexpenses,howveryfarwemustbefrombeingrich,andhowacceptableMrs。Ferrars’skindnessis。”
“Certainly,“saidElinor;“andassistedbyherliberality,Ihopeyoumayyetlivetobeineasycircumstances。”
“Anotheryearortwomaydomuchtowardsit,“
hegravelyreplied;“buthoweverthereisstillagreatdealtobedone。ThereisnotastonelaidofFanny’sgreen-house,andnothingbuttheplanoftheflower-gardenmarkedout。”
“Whereisthegreen-housetobe?”
“Upontheknollbehindthehouse。Theoldwalnuttreesareallcomedowntomakeroomforit。
Itwillbeaveryfineobjectfrommanypartsofthepark,andtheflower-gardenwillslopedownjustbeforeit,andbeexceedinglypretty。Wehaveclearedawayalltheoldthornsthatgrewinpatchesoverthebrow。”
Elinorkeptherconcernandhercensuretoherself;
andwasverythankfulthatMariannewasnotpresent,tosharetheprovocation。
Havingnowsaidenoughtomakehispovertyclear,andtodoawaythenecessityofbuyingapairofear-ringsforeachofhissisters,inhisnextvisitatGray’shisthoughtstookacheerfullerturn,andhebegantocongratulateElinoronhavingsuchafriendasMrs。Jennings。
“Sheseemsamostvaluablewomanindeed——Herhouse,herstyleofliving,allbespeakanexceedinggoodincome;
anditisanacquaintancethathasnotonlybeenofgreatusetoyouhitherto,butintheendmayprovemateriallyadvantageous——Herinvitingyoutotowniscertainlyavastthinginyourfavour;andindeed,itspeaksaltogethersogreataregardforyou,thatinallprobabilitywhenshediesyouwillnotbeforgotten——
Shemusthaveagreatdealtoleave。”
“Nothingatall,Ishouldrathersuppose;forshehasonlyherjointure,whichwilldescendtoherchildren。”
“Butitisnottobeimaginedthatshelivesuptoherincome。FewpeopleofcommonprudencewilldoTHAT;
andwhatevershesaves,shewillbeabletodisposeof。”
“Anddoyounotthinkitmorelikelythatsheshouldleaveittoherdaughters,thantous?”
“Herdaughtersarebothexceedinglywellmarried,andthereforeIcannotperceivethenecessityofherrememberingthemfarther。Whereas,inmyopinion,byhertakingsomuchnoticeofyou,andtreatingyouinthiskindofway,shehasgivenyouasortofclaimonherfutureconsideration,whichaconscientiouswomanwouldnotdisregard。Nothingcanbekinderthanherbehaviour;
andshecanhardlydoallthis,withoutbeingawareoftheexpectationitraises。”
“Butsheraisesnoneinthosemostconcerned。
Indeed,brother,youranxietyforourwelfareandprosperitycarriesyoutoofar。”
“Why,tobesure,“saidhe,seemingtorecollecthimself,“peoplehavelittle,haveverylittleintheirpower。
But,mydearElinor,whatisthematterwithMarianne?——
shelooksveryunwell,haslosthercolour,andisgrownquitethin。Issheill?”
“Sheisnotwell,shehashadanervouscomplaintonherforseveralweeks。”
“Iamsorryforthat。Athertimeoflife,anythingofanillnessdestroysthebloomforever!
Her’shasbeenaveryshortone!,ShewasashandsomeagirllastSeptember,asIeversaw;andaslikelytoattracttheman。Therewassomethinginherstyleofbeauty,topleasethemparticularly。IrememberFannyusedtosaythatshewouldmarrysoonerandbetterthanyoudid;
notbutwhatsheisexceedinglyfondofYOU,butsoithappenedtostrikeher。Shewillbemistaken,however。
IquestionwhetherMarianneNOW,willmarryamanworthmorethanfiveorsixhundreda-year,attheutmost,andIamverymuchdeceivedifYOUdonotdobetter。
Dorsetshire!,IknowverylittleofDorsetshire;but,mydearElinor,Ishallbeexceedinglygladtoknowmoreofit;
andIthinkIcananswerforyourhavingFannyandmyselfamongtheearliestandbestpleasedofyourvisitors。”
ElinortriedveryseriouslytoconvincehimthattherewasnolikelihoodofhermarryingColonelBrandon;
butitwasanexpectationoftoomuchpleasuretohimselftoberelinquished,andhewasreallyresolvedonseekinganintimacywiththatgentleman,andpromotingthemarriagebyeverypossibleattention。Hehadjustcompunctionenoughforhavingdonenothingforhissistershimself,tobeexceedinglyanxiousthateverybodyelseshoulddoagreatdeal;andanofferfromColonelBrandon,oralegacyfromMrs。Jennings,wastheeasiestmeansofatoningforhisownneglect。
TheywereluckyenoughtofindLadyMiddletonathome,andSirJohncameinbeforetheirvisitended。
Abundanceofcivilitiespassedonallsides。SirJohnwasreadytolikeanybody,andthoughMr。Dashwooddidnotseemtoknowmuchabouthorses,hesoonsethimdownasaverygood-naturedfellow:whileLadyMiddletonsawenoughoffashioninhisappearancetothinkhisacquaintanceworthhaving;andMr。Dashwoodwentawaydelightedwithboth。
“IshallhaveacharmingaccounttocarrytoFanny,“saidhe,ashewalkedbackwithhissister。
“LadyMiddletonisreallyamostelegantwoman!,SuchawomanasIamsureFannywillbegladtoknow。
AndMrs。Jenningstoo,anexceedinglywell-behavedwoman,thoughnotsoelegantasherdaughter。YoursisterneednothaveanyscrupleevenofvisitingHER,which,tosaythetruth,hasbeenalittlethecase,andverynaturally;
forweonlyknewthatMrs。Jenningswasthewidowofamanwhohadgotallhismoneyinalowway;andFannyandMrs。Ferrarswerebothstronglyprepossessed,thatneithershenorherdaughtersweresuchkindofwomenasFannywouldliketoassociatewith。ButnowIcancarryheramostsatisfactoryaccountofboth。”