ChapterVII
THELUREOFTHEMATERIAL——BEAUTYSPEAKSFORITSELF
Thetruemeaningofmoneyyetremainstobepopularlyexplained,andcomprehended。Wheneachindividualrealisesforhimselfthat,thisthingprimarilystandsforandshouldonlybeacceptedasa,moraldue——thatitshouldbepaidoutashonestlystoredenergy,andnotasausurpedprivilege——manyofoursocial,religious,andpoliticaltroubleswillhavepermanentlypassed。Asfor,Carrie,herunderstandingofthemoralsignificanceofmoneywas,thepopularunderstanding,nothingmore。Theolddefinition:
“Money:somethingeverybodyelsehasandImustget,“wouldhave,expressedherunderstandingofitthoroughly。Someofitshenow,heldinherhand——twosoft,greenten-dollarbills——andshefelt,thatshewasimmenselybetteroffforthehavingofthem。Itwas,somethingthatwaspowerinitself。Oneofherorderofmind,wouldhavebeencontenttobecastawayuponadesertislandwith,abundleofmoney,andonlythelongstrainofstarvationwould,havetaughtherthatinsomecasesitcouldhavenovalue。Even,thenshewouldhavehadnoconceptionoftherelativevalueof,thething;heronethoughtwould,undoubtedly,haveconcernedthe,pityofhavingsomuchpowerandtheinabilitytouseit。
ThepoorgirlthrilledasshewalkedawayfromDrouet。Shefelt,ashamedinpartbecauseshehadbeenweakenoughtotakeit,but,herneedwassodire,shewasstillglad。Nowshewouldhavea,nicenewjacket!,Nowshewouldbuyanicepairofprettybutton,shoes。Shewouldgetstockings,too,andaskirt,and,and——
untilalready,asinthematterofherprospectivesalary,she,hadgotbeyond,inherdesires,twicethepurchasingpowerofher,bills。
SheconceivedatrueestimateofDrouet。Toher,andindeedto,alltheworld,hewasanice,good-heartedman。Therewas,nothingevilinthefellow。Hegaveherthemoneyoutofagood,heart——outofarealisationofherwant。Hewouldnothavegiven,thesameamounttoapooryoungman,butwemustnotforgetthat,apooryoungmancouldnot,inthenatureofthings,have,appealedtohimlikeapooryounggirl。Femininityaffectedhis,feelings。Hewasthecreatureofaninborndesire。Yetno,beggarcouldhavecaughthiseyeandsaid,“MyGod,mister,I’m,starving,“buthewouldgladlyhavehandedoutwhatwas,consideredtheproperportiontogivebeggarsandthoughtnomore,aboutit。Therewouldhavebeennospeculation,no,philosophising。Hehadnomentalprocessinhimworthythe,dignityofeitherofthoseterms。Inhisgoodclothesandfine,health,hewasamerry,unthinkingmothofthelamp。Deprivedof,hisposition,andstruckbyafewoftheinvolvedandbaffling,forceswhichsometimesplayuponman,hewouldhavebeenas,helplessasCarrie——ashelpless,asnon-understanding,as,pitiable,ifyouwill,asshe。
Now,inregardtohispursuitofwomen,hemeantthemnoharm,becausehedidnotconceiveoftherelationwhichhehopedto,holdwiththemasbeingharmful。Helovedtomakeadvancesto,women,tohavethemsuccumbtohischarms,notbecausehewasa,cold-blooded,dark,schemingvillain,butbecausehisinborn,desireurgedhimtothatasachiefdelight。Hewasvain,hewas,boastful,hewasasdeludedbyfineclothesasanysilly-headed,girl。Atrulydeep-dyedvillaincouldhavehornswaggledhimas,readilyashecouldhaveflatteredaprettyshop-girl。Hisfine,successasasalesmanlayinhisgenialityandthethoroughly,reputablestandingofhishouse。Hebobbedaboutamongmen,a,veritablebundleofenthusiasm——nopowerworthythenameof,intellect,nothoughtsworthytheadjectivenoble,nofeelings,longcontinuedinonestrain。AMadameSapphowouldhavecalled,himapig;aShakespearewouldhavesaid“mymerrychild“;old,drinkingCaryoethoughthimaclever,successfulbusinessman。In,short,hewasasgoodashisintellectconceived。
Thebestproofthattherewassomethingopenandcommendable,aboutthemanwasthefactthatCarrietookthemoney。Nodeep,sinistersoulwithulteriormotivescouldhavegivenherfifteen,centsundertheguiseoffriendship。Theunintellectualarenot,sohelpless。Naturehastaughtthebeastsofthefieldtofly,whensomeunheraldeddangerthreatens。Shehasputintothe,small,unwiseheadofthechipmunktheuntutoredfearofpoisons。
“HekeepethHiscreatureswhole,“wasnotwrittenofbeasts,alone。Carriewasunwise,and,therefore,likethesheepinits,unwisdom,stronginfeeling。Theinstinctofself-protection,stronginallsuchnatures,wasrousedbutfeebly,ifatall,by,theoverturesofDrouet。
WhenCarriehadgone,hefelicitatedhimselfuponhergood,opinion。ByGeorge,itwasashameyounggirlshadtobeknocked,aroundlikethat。Coldweathercomingonandnoclothes。Tough。
HewouldgoaroundtoFitzgeraldandMoy’sandgetacigar。It,madehimfeellightoffootashethoughtabouther。
Carriereachedhomeinhighgoodspirits,whichshecould,scarcelyconceal。Thepossessionofthemoneyinvolvedanumber,ofpointswhichperplexedherseriously。Howshouldshebuyany,clotheswhenMinnieknewthatshehadnomoney?,Shehadno,soonerenteredtheflatthanthispointwassettledforher。It,couldnotbedone。Shecouldthinkofnowayofexplaining。
“Howdidyoucomeout?”askedMinnie,referringtotheday。
Carriehadnoneofthesmalldeceptionwhichcouldfeelonething,andsaysomethingdirectlyopposed。Shewouldprevaricate,but,itwouldbeinthelineofherfeelingsatleast。Soinsteadof,complainingwhenshefeltsogood,shesaid:
“Ihavethepromiseofsomething。”
“Where?”
“AttheBostonStore。”
“Isitsurepromised?”questionedMinnie。
“Well,I’mtofindoutto-morrow,“returnedCarriedislikingto,drawoutalieanylongerthanwasnecessary。
MinniefelttheatmosphereofgoodfeelingwhichCarriebrought,withher。ShefeltnowwasthetimetoexpresstoCarriethe,stateofHanson’sfeelingaboutherentireChicagoventure。
“Ifyoushouldn’tgetit——“shepaused,troubledforaneasyway。
“IfIdon’tgetsomethingprettysoon,IthinkI’llgohome。”
Minniesawherchance。
“Sventhinksitmightbebestforthewinter,anyhow。”
ThesituationflashedonCarrieatonce。Theywereunwillingto,keepheranylonger,outofwork。ShedidnotblameMinnie,she,didnotblameHansonverymuch。Now,asshesattheredigesting,theremark,shewasgladshehadDrouet’smoney。
“Yes,“shesaidafterafewmoments,“Ithoughtofdoingthat。”
Shedidnotexplainthatthethought,however,hadarousedall,theantagonismofhernature。ColumbiaCity,whatwastherefor,her?,Sheknewitsdull,littleroundbyheart。Herewasthe,great,mysteriouscitywhichwasstillamagnetforher。What,shehadseenonlysuggesteditspossibilities。Nowtoturnback,onitandlivethelittleoldlifeoutthere——shealmost,exclaimedagainstthethought。
Shehadreachedhomeearlyandwentinthefrontroomtothink。
Whatcouldshedo?,Shecouldnotbuynewshoesandwearthem,here。Shewouldneedtosavepartofthetwentytopayherfare,home。ShedidnotwanttoborrowofMinnieforthat。Andyet,howcouldsheexplainwheresheevengotthatmoney?,Ifshe,couldonlygetenoughtoletherouteasy。
Shewentoverthetangleagainandagain。Here,inthemorning,Drouetwouldexpecttoseeherinanewjacket,andthatcouldn’t,be。TheHansonsexpectedhertogohome,andshewantedtoget,away,andyetshedidnotwanttogohome。Inthelightofthe,waytheywouldlookonhergettingmoneywithoutwork,thetaking,ofitnowseemeddreadful。Shebegantobeashamed。Thewhole,situationdepressedher。Itwasallsoclearwhenshewaswith,Drouet。Nowitwasallsotangled,sohopeless——muchworsethan,itwasbefore,becauseshehadthesemblanceofaidinherhand,whichshecouldnotuse。
HerspiritssanksothatatsupperMinniefeltthatshemusthave,hadanotherhardday。Carriefinallydecidedthatshewouldgive,themoneyback。Itwaswrongtotakeit。Shewouldgodownin,themorningandhuntforwork。AtnoonshewouldmeetDrouetas,agreedandtellhim。Atthisdecisionherheartsank,untilshe,wastheoldCarrieofdistress。
Curiously,shecouldnotholdthemoneyinherhandwithout,feelingsomerelief。Evenafterallherdepressingconclusions,shecouldsweepawayallthoughtaboutthematterandthenthe,twentydollarsseemedawonderfulanddelightfulthing。Ah,money,money,money!,Whatathingitwastohave。Howplentyof,itwouldclearawayallthesetroubles。
Inthemorningshegotupandstartedoutalittleearly。Her,decisiontohuntforworkwasmoderatelystrong,butthemoneyin,herpocket,afterallhertroublingoverit,madethework,questiontheleastshadelessterrible。Shewalkedintothe,wholesaledistrict,butasthethoughtofapplyingcamewitheach,passingconcern,herheartshrank。Whatacowardshewas,she,thoughttoherself。Yetshehadappliedsooften。Itwouldbe,thesameoldstory。Shewalkedonandon,andfinallydidgo,intooneplace,withtheoldresult。Shecameoutfeelingthat,luckwasagainsther。Itwasnouse。
Withoutmuchthinking,shereachedDearbornStreet。Herewasthe,greatFairstorewithitsmultitudeofdeliverywagonsaboutits,longwindowdisplay,itscrowdofshoppers。Itreadilychanged,herthoughts,shewhowassowearyofthem。Itwasherethatshe,hadintendedtocomeandgethernewthings。Nowforrelieffrom,distress;shethoughtshewouldgoinandsee。Shewouldlookat,thejackets。
Thereisnothinginthisworldmoredelightfulthanthatmiddle,stateinwhichwementallybalanceattimes,possessedofthe,means,luredbydesire,andyetdeterredbyconscienceorwantof,decision。WhenCarriebeganwanderingaroundthestoreamidthe,finedisplaysshewasinthismood。Heroriginalexperiencein,thissameplacehadgivenherahighopinionofitsmerits。Now,shepausedateachindividualbitoffinery,wherebeforeshehad,hurriedon。Herwoman’sheartwaswarmwithdesireforthem。
Howwouldshelookinthis,howcharmingthatwouldmakeher!
Shecameuponthecorsetcounterandpausedinrichreverieas,shenotedthedaintyconcoctionsofcolourandlacethere,displayed。Ifshewouldonlymakeuphermind,shecouldhave,oneofthosenow。Shelingeredinthejewelrydepartment。She,sawtheearrings,thebracelets,thepins,thechains。What,wouldshenothavegivenifshecouldhavehadthemall!,She,wouldlookfinetoo,ifonlyshehadsomeofthesethings。
Thejacketswerethegreatestattraction。Whensheenteredthe,store,shealreadyhadherheartfixeduponthepeculiarlittle,tanjacketwithlargemother-of-pearlbuttonswhichwasallthe,ragethatfall。Stillshedelightedtoconvinceherselfthat,therewasnothingshewouldlikebetter。Shewentaboutamong,theglasscasesandrackswherethesethingsweredisplayed,and,satisfiedherselfthattheoneshethoughtofwastheproperone。
Allthetimeshewaveredinmind,nowpersuadingherselfthatshe,couldbuyitrightawayifshechose,nowrecallingtoherself,theactualcondition。Atlastthenoonhourwasdangerously,near,andshehaddonenothing。Shemustgonowandreturnthe,money。
Drouetwasonthecornerwhenshecameup。
“Hello,“hesaid,“whereisthejacketand“——lookingdown——“the,shoes?”
Carriehadthoughttoleaduptoherdecisioninsomeintelligent,way,butthissweptthewholefore-schemedsituationbythe,board。
“Icametotellyouthat——thatIcan’ttakethemoney。”
“Oh,that’sit,isit?”hereturned。”Well,youcomeonwithme。
Let’sgooverheretoPartridge’s。”
Carriewalkedwithhim。Behold,thewholefabricofdoubtand,impossibilityhadslippedfromhermind。Shecouldnotgetat,thepointsthatweresoserious,thethingsshewasgoingtomake,plaintohim。
“Haveyouhadlunchyet?,Ofcourseyouhaven’t。Let’sgoin,here,“andDrouetturnedintooneoftheverynicelyfurnished,restaurantsoffStateStreet,inMonroe。
“Imustn’ttakethemoney,“saidCarrie,aftertheyweresettled,inacoseycorner,andDrouethadorderedthelunch。”Ican’t,wearthosethingsoutthere。They——theywouldn’tknowwhereIgot,them。”
“Whatdoyouwanttodo,“hesmiled,“gowithoutthem?”
“IthinkI’llgohome,“shesaid,wearily。
“Oh,come,“hesaid,“you’vebeenthinkingitovertoolong。
I’lltellyouwhatyoudo。Yousayyoucan’twearthemout,there。Whydon’tyourentafurnishedroomandleavethemin,thatforaweek?”
Carrieshookherhead。Likeallwomen,shewastheretoobject,andbeconvinced。Itwasforhimtobrushthedoubtsawayand,clearthepathifhecould。
“Whyareyougoinghome?”heasked。
“Oh,Ican’tgetanythinghere。”
Theywon’tkeepyou?”heremarked,intuitively。
“Theycan’t,“saidCarrie。
“I’lltellyouwhatyoudo,“hesaid。”Youcomewithme。I’ll,takecareofyou。”
Carrieheardthispassively。Thepeculiarstatewhichshewasin,madeitsoundlikethewelcomebreathofanopendoor。Drouet,seemedofherownspiritandpleasing。Hewasclean,handsome,well-dressed,andsympathetic。Hisvoicewasthevoiceofa,friend。
“WhatcanyoudobackatColumbiaCity?”hewenton,rousingby,thewordsinCarrie’smindapictureofthedullworldshehad,left。”Thereisn’tanythingdownthere。Chicago’stheplace。
Youcangetaniceroomhereandsomeclothes,andthenyoucan,dosomething。”
Carrielookedoutthroughthewindowintothebusystreet。There,itwas,theadmirable,greatcity,sofinewhenyouarenotpoor。
Anelegantcoach,withaprancingpairofbays,passedby,carryinginitsupholstereddepthsayounglady。
“Whatwillyouhaveifyougoback?”askedDrouet。Therewasno,subtleundercurrenttothequestion。Heimaginedthatshewould,havenothingatallofthethingshethoughtworthwhile。
Carriesatstill,lookingout。Shewaswonderingwhatshecould,do。Theywouldbeexpectinghertogohomethisweek。
Drouetturnedtothesubjectoftheclothesshewasgoingtobuy。
“Whynotgetyourselfanicelittlejacket?,You’vegottohave,it。I’llloanyouthemoney。Youneedn’tworryabouttakingit。
Youcangetyourselfaniceroombyyourself。Iwon’thurtyou。”
Carriesawthedrift,butcouldnotexpressherthoughts。She,feltmorethaneverthehelplessnessofhercase。
“IfIcouldonlygetsomethingtodo,“shesaid。
“Maybeyoucan,“wentonDrouet,“ifyoustayhere。Youcan’tif,yougoaway。Theywon’tletyoustayoutthere。Now,whynot,letmegetyouaniceroom?,Iwon’tbotheryou——youneedn’tbe,afraid。Then,whenyougetfixedup,maybeyoucouldget,something。”
Helookedatherprettyfaceanditvivifiedhismental,resources。Shewasasweetlittlemortaltohim——therewasno,doubtofthat。Sheseemedtohavesomepowerbackofher,actions。Shewasnotlikethecommonrunofstore-girls。She,wasn’tsilly。
Inreality,Carriehadmoreimaginationthanhe——moretaste。It,wasafinermentalstraininherthatmadepossibleher,depressionandloneliness。Herpoorclotheswereneat,andshe,heldherheadunconsciouslyinadaintyway。
“DoyouthinkIcouldgetsomething?”sheasked。
“Sure,“hesaid,reachingoverandfillinghercupwithtea。
“I’llhelpyou。”
Shelookedathim,andhelaughedreassuringly。
“NowI’lltellyouwhatwe’lldo。We’llgooverhereto,Partridge’sandyoupickoutwhatyouwant。Thenwe’lllook,aroundforaroomforyou。Youcanleavethethingsthere。Then,we’llgototheshowto-night。”
Carrieshookherhead。
“Well,youcangoouttotheflatthen,that’sallright。You,don’tneedtostayintheroom。Justtakeitandleaveyour,thingsthere。”
Shehungindoubtaboutthisuntilthedinnerwasover。
“Let’sgooverandlookatthejackets,“hesaid。
Togethertheywent。Inthestoretheyfoundthatshineand,rustleofnewthingswhichimmediatelylaidholdofCarrie’s,heart。UndertheinfluenceofagooddinnerandDrouet’s,radiatingpresence,theschemeproposedseemedfeasible。She,lookedaboutandpickedajacketliketheonewhichshehad,admiredatTheFair。Whenshegotitinherhanditseemedso,muchnicer。Thesaleswomanhelpedheronwithit,and,by,accident,itfittedperfectly。Drouet’sfacelightenedashesaw,theimprovement。Shelookedquitesmart。
“That’sthething,“hesaid。
Carrieturnedbeforetheglass。Shecouldnothelpfeeling,pleasedasshelookedatherself。Awarmglowcreptintoher,cheeks。
“That’sthething,“saidDrouet。”Nowpayforit。”
“It’sninedollars,“saidCarrie。
“That’sallright——takeit,“saidDrouet。
Shereachedinherpurseandtookoutoneofthebills。Thewoman,askedifshewouldwearthecoatandwentoff。Inafewminutes,shewasbackandthepurchasewasclosed。
FromPartridge’stheywenttoashoestore,whereCarriewas,fittedforshoes。Drouetstoodby,andwhenhesawhownicethey,looked,said,“Wearthem。”Carrieshookherhead,however。She,wasthinkingofreturningtotheflat。Heboughtherapursefor,onething,andapairofglovesforanother,andletherbuythe,stockings。
“To-morrow,“hesaid,“youcomedownhereandbuyyourselfa,skirt。”
InallofCarrie’sactionstherewasatouchofmisgiving。The,deepershesankintotheentanglement,themoresheimaginedthat,thethinghunguponthefewremainingthingsshehadnotdone。
Sinceshehadnotdonethese,therewasawayout。
DrouetknewaplaceinWabashAvenuewheretherewererooms。He,showedCarrietheoutsideofthese,andsaid:“Now,you’remy,sister。”Hecarriedthearrangementoffwithaneasyhandwhenit,cametotheselection,lookingaround,criticising,opining。
“Hertrunkwillbehereinadayorso,“heobservedtothe,landlady,whowasverypleased。
Whentheywerealone,Drouetdidnotchangeintheleast。He,talkedinthesamegeneralwayasiftheywereoutinthestreet。
Carrieleftherthings。
“Now,“saidDrouet,“whydon’tyoumoveto-night?”
“Oh,Ican’t,“saidCarrie。
“Whynot?”
“Idon’twanttoleavethemso。”
Hetookthatupastheywalkedalongtheavenue。Itwasawarm,afternoon。Thesunhadcomeoutandthewindhaddieddown。As,hetalkedwithCarrie,hesecuredanaccuratedetailofthe,atmosphereoftheflat。
“Comeoutofit,“hesaid,“theywon’tcare。I’llhelpyouget,along。”
Shelisteneduntilhermisgivingsvanished。Hewouldshowher,aboutalittleandthenhelphergetsomething。Hereally,imaginedthathewould。Hewouldbeoutontheroadandshe,couldbeworking。
“Now,I’lltellyouwhatyoudo,“hesaid,“yougooutthereand,getwhateveryouwantandcomeaway。”
Shethoughtalongtimeaboutthis。Finallysheagreed。He,wouldcomeoutasfarasPeoriaStreetandwaitforher。Shewas,tomeethimathalf-pasteight。Athalf-pastfiveshereached,home,andatsixherdeterminationwashardened。
“Soyoudidn’tgetit?”saidMinnie,referringtoCarrie’sstory,oftheBostonStore。
Carrielookedatheroutofthecornerofhereye。“No,“she,answered。
“Idon’tthinkyou’dbettertryanymorethisfall,“saidMinnie。
Carriesaidnothing。
WhenHansoncamehomeheworethesameinscrutabledemeanour。He,washedinsilenceandwentofftoreadhispaper。Atdinner,Carriefeltalittlenervous。Thestrainofherownplanswere,considerable,andthefeelingthatshewasnotwelcomeherewas,strong。
“Didn’tfindanything,eh?”saidHanson。
“No。”
Heturnedtohiseatingagain,thethoughtthatitwasaburden,tohaveherheredwellinginhismind。Shewouldhavetogo,home,thatwasall。Onceshewasaway,therewouldbenomore,comingbackinthespring。
Carriewasafraidofwhatshewasgoingtodo,butshewas,relievedtoknowthatthisconditionwasending。Theywouldnot,care。Hansonparticularlywouldbegladwhenshewent。Hewould,notcarewhatbecameofher。
Afterdinnershewentintothebathroom,wheretheycouldnot,disturbher,andwrotealittlenote。
“Good-bye,Minnie,“itread。”I’mnotgoinghome。I’mgoingto,stayinChicagoalittlewhileandlookforwork。Don’tworry。
I’llbeallright。”
InthefrontroomHansonwasreadinghispaper。Asusual,she,helpedMinnieclearawaythedishesandstraightenup。Thenshe,said:
“IguessI’llstanddownatthedooralittlewhile。”Shecould,scarcelypreventhervoicefromtrembling。
MinnierememberedHanson’sremonstrance。
“Svendoesn’tthinkitlooksgoodtostanddownthere,“shesaid。
“Doesn’the?”saidCarrie。”Iwon’tdoitanymoreafterthis。”
Sheputonherhatandfidgetedaroundthetableinthelittle,bedroom,wonderingwheretoslipthenote。Finallysheputit,underMinnie’shair-brush。
Whenshehadclosedthehall-door,shepausedamomentand,wonderedwhattheywouldthink。Somethoughtofthequeernessof,herdeedaffectedher。Shewentslowlydownthestairs。She,lookedbackupthelightedstep,andthenaffectedtostrollup,thestreet。Whenshereachedthecornershequickenedherpace。
Asshewashurryingaway,Hansoncamebacktohiswife。
“IsCarriedownatthedooragain?”heasked。
“Yes,“saidMinnie;“shesaidshewasn’tgoingtodoitany,more。”
Hewentovertothebabywhereitwasplayingonthefloorand,begantopokehisfingeratit。
Drouetwasonthecornerwaiting,ingoodspirits。
“Hello,Carrie,“hesaid,asasprightlyfigureofagirldrew,nearhim。”Gotheresafe,didyou?,Well,we’lltakeacar。”
ChapterVIII
INTIMATIONSBYWINTER——ANAMBASSADORSUMMONED
Amongtheforceswhichsweepandplaythroughouttheuniverse,untutoredmanisbutawispinthewind。Ourcivilisationis,stillinamiddlestage,scarcelybeast,inthatitisnolonger,whollyguidedbyinstinct;scarcelyhuman,inthatitisnotyet,whollyguidedbyreason。Onthetigernoresponsibilityrests。
Weseehimalignedbynaturewiththeforcesoflife——heisborn,intotheirkeepingandwithoutthoughtheisprotected。Wesee,manfarremovedfromthelairsofthejungles,hisinnate,instinctsdulledbytoonearanapproachtofree-will,hisfree-
willnotsufficientlydevelopedtoreplacehisinstinctsand,affordhimperfectguidance。
Heisbecomingtoowisetohearkenalwaystoinstinctsand,desires;heisstilltooweaktoalwaysprevailagainstthem。As,abeast,theforcesoflifealignedhimwiththem;asaman,he,hasnotyetwhollylearnedtoalignhimselfwiththeforces。In,thisintermediatestagehewavers——neitherdrawninharmonywith,naturebyhisinstinctsnoryetwiselyputtinghimselfinto,harmonybyhisownfree-will。Heisevenasawispinthewind,movedbyeverybreathofpassion,actingnowbyhiswillandnow,byhisinstincts,erringwithone,onlytoretrievebytheother,fallingbyone,onlytorisebytheother——acreatureof,incalculablevariability。Wehavetheconsolationofknowing,thatevolutioniseverinaction,thattheidealisalightthat,cannotfail。Hewillnotforeverbalancethusbetweengoodand,evil。Whenthisjangleoffree-willinstinctshallhavebeen,adjusted,whenperfectunderstandinghasgiventheformerthe,powertoreplacethelatterentirely,manwillnolongervary。
Theneedleofunderstandingwillyetpointsteadfastand,unwaveringtothedistinctpoleoftruth。
InCarrie——asinhowmanyofourworldlingsdotheynot?——
instinctandreason,desireandunderstanding,wereatwarfor,themastery。Shefollowedwhitherhercravingled。Shewasas,yetmoredrawnthanshedrew。
WhenMinniefoundthenotenextmorning,afteranightofmingled,wonderandanxiety,whichwasnotexactlytouchedbyyearning,sorrow,orlove,sheexclaimed:“Well,whatdoyouthinkof,that?”
“What?”saidHanson。
“SisterCarriehasgonetolivesomewhereelse。”
Hansonjumpedoutofbedwithmoreceleritythanheusually,displayedandlookedatthenote。Theonlyindicationofhis,thoughtscameintheformofalittleclickingsoundmadebyhis,tongue;thesoundsomepeoplemakewhentheywishtourgeona,horse。
“Wheredoyousupposeshe’sgoneto?”saidMinnie,thoroughly,aroused。
“Idon’tknow,“atouchofcynicismlightinghiseye。“Nowshe,hasgoneanddoneit。”
Minniemovedherheadinapuzzledway。
“Oh,oh,“shesaid,“shedoesn’tknowwhatshehasdone。”
“Well,“saidHanson,afterawhile,stickinghishandsoutbefore,him,“whatcanyoudo?”
Minnie’swomanlynaturewashigherthanthis。Shefiguredthe,possibilitiesinsuchcases。
“Oh,“shesaidatlast,“poorSisterCarrie!”
Atthetimeofthisparticularconversation,whichoccurredat5
A。M。thatlittlesoldieroffortunewassleepingarather,troubledsleepinhernewroom,alone。
Carrie’snewstatewasremarkableinthatshesawpossibilities,init。Shewasnosensualist,longingtodrowsesleepilyinthe,lapofluxury。Sheturnedabout,troubledbyherdaring,gladof,herrelease,wonderingwhethershewouldgetsomethingtodo,wonderingwhatDrouetwoulddo。Thatworthyhadhisfuturefixed,forhimbeyondaperadventure。Hecouldnothelpwhathewas,goingtodo。Hecouldnotseeclearlyenoughtowishtodo,differently。Hewasdrawnbyhisinnatedesiretoacttheold,pursuingpart。HewouldneedtodelighthimselfwithCarrieas,surelyashewouldneedtoeathisheavybreakfast。Hemight,suffertheleastrudimentarytwingeofconscienceinwhateverhe,did,andinjustsofarhewasevilandsinning。Butwhatever,twingesofconsciencehemighthavewouldberudimentary,youmay,besure。
ThenextdayhecalleduponCarrie,andshesawhiminher,chamber。Hewasthesamejolly,enliveningsoul。
“Aw,“hesaid,“whatareyoulookingsoblueabout?Comeonout,tobreakfast。Youwanttogetyourotherclothesto-day。”
Carrielookedathimwiththehueofshiftingthoughtinher,largeeyes。
“IwishIcouldgetsomethingtodo,“shesaid。
“You’llgetthatallright,“saidDrouet。”What’stheuse,worryingrightnow?,Getyourselffixedup。Seethecity。I
won’thurtyou。”
“Iknowyouwon’t,“sheremarked,halftruthfully。
“Gotonthenewshoes,haven’tyou?,Stick’emout。George,they,lookfine。Putonyourjacket。”
Carrieobeyed。
“Say,thatfitslikeaT,don’tit?”heremarked,feelingtheset,ofitatthewaistandeyeingitfromafewpaceswithreal,pleasure。”Whatyouneednowisanewskirt。Let’sgoto,breakfast。”
Carrieputonherhat。
“Wherearethegloves?”heinquired。
“Here,“shesaid,takingthemoutofthebureaudrawer。
“Now,comeon,“hesaid。
Thusthefirsthourofmisgivingwassweptaway。
Itwentthiswayoneveryoccasion。Drouetdidnotleaveher,muchalone。Shehadtimeforsomelonewanderings,butmostlyhe,filledherhourswithsight-seeing。AtCarson,Pirie’shebought,heraniceskirtandshirtwaist。Withhismoneyshepurchased,thelittlenecessariesoftoilet,untilatlastshelookedquite,anothermaiden。Themirrorconvincedherofafewthingswhich,shehadlongbelieved。Shewaspretty,yes,indeed!,Hownice,herhatset,andweren’thereyespretty。Shecaughtherlittle,redlipwithherteethandfeltherfirstthrillofpower。
Drouetwassogood。
Theywenttosee“TheMikado“oneevening,anoperawhichwas,hilariouslypopularatthattime。Beforegoing,theymadeoff,fortheWindsordining-room,whichwasinDearbornStreet,a,considerabledistancefromCarrie’sroom。Itwasblowingup,cold,andoutofherwindowCarriecouldseethewesternsky,stillpinkwiththefadinglight,butsteelyblueatthetop,whereitmetthedarkness。Along,thincloudofpinkhungin,midair,shapedlikesomeislandinafar-offsea。Somehowthe,swayingofsomedeadbranchesoftreesacrossthewaybrought,backthepicturewithwhichshewasfamiliarwhenshelookedfrom,theirfrontwindowinDecemberdaysathome。
Shepausedandwrungherlittlehands。
“What’sthematter?”saidDrouet。
“Oh,Idon’tknow,“shesaid,herliptrembling。
Hesensedsomething,andslippedhisarmoverhershoulder,pattingherarm。
“Comeon,“hesaidgently,“you’reallright。”
Sheturnedtosliponherjacket。
“Betterwearthatboaaboutyourthroattonight。”
TheywalkednorthonWabashtoAdamsStreetandthenwest。The,lightsinthestoreswerealreadyshiningoutingushesofgolden,hue。Thearclightsweresputteringoverhead,andhighupwere,thelightedwindowsofthetallofficebuildings。Thechillwind,whippedinandoutingustybreaths。Homewardbound,thesix,o’clockthrongbumpedandjostled。Lightovercoatswereturnedup,abouttheears,hatswerepulleddown。Littleshop-girlswent,flutteringbyinpairsandfours,chattering,laughing。Itwasa,spectacleofwarm-bloodedhumanity。
SuddenlyapairofeyesmetCarrie’sinrecognition。Theywere,lookingoutfromagroupofpoorlydressedgirls。Theirclothes,werefadedandloose-hanging,theirjacketsold,theirgeneral,make-upshabby。
Carrierecognisedtheglanceandthegirl。Shewasoneofthose,whoworkedatthemachinesintheshoefactory。Thelatter,looked,notquitesure,andthenturnedherheadandlooked。
Carriefeltasifsomegreattidehadrolledbetweenthem。The,olddressandtheoldmachinecameback。Sheactuallystarted。
Drouetdidn’tnoticeuntilCarriebumpedintoapedestrian。
“Youmustbethinking,“hesaid。
Theydinedandwenttothetheatre。Thatspectaclepleased,Carrieimmensely。Thecolourandgraceofitcaughthereye。
Shehadvainimaginingsaboutplaceandpower,aboutfar-off,landsandmagnificentpeople。Whenitwasover,theclatterof,coachesandthethrongoffineladiesmadeherstare。
“Waitaminute,“saidDrouet,holdingherbackintheshowyfoyer,whereladiesandgentlemenweremovinginasocialcrush,skirts,rustling,lace-coveredheadsnodding,whiteteethshowingthrough,partedlips。“Let’ssee。”
“Sixty-seven,“thecoach-callerwassaying,hisvoiceliftedina,sortofeuphoniouscry。”Sixty-seven。”
“Isn’titfine?”saidCarrie。
“Great,“saidDrouet。Hewasasmuchaffectedbythisshowof,fineryandgayetyasshe。Hepressedherarmwarmly。Onceshe,lookedup,hereventeethglisteningthroughhersmilinglips,hereyesalight。Astheyweremovingouthewhispereddownto,her,“Youlooklovely!”Theywererightwherethecoach-caller,wasswingingopenacoach-doorandusheringintwoladies。
“Yousticktomeandwe’llhaveacoach,“laughedDrouet。
Carriescarcelyheard,herheadwassofulloftheswirloflife。
Theystoppedinatarestaurantforalittleafter-theatrelunch。
JustashadeofathoughtofthehourenteredCarrie’shead,but,therewasnohouseholdlawtogovernhernow。Ifanyhabitsever,hadtimetofixuponher,theywouldhaveoperatedhere。Habits,arepeculiarthings。Theywilldrivethereallynon-religious,mindoutofbedtosayprayersthatareonlyacustomandnota,devotion。Thevictimofhabit,whenhehasneglectedthething,whichitwashiscustomtodo,feelsalittlescratchinginthe,brain,alittleirritatingsomethingwhichcomesofbeingoutof,therut,andimaginesittobetheprickofconscience,the,still,smallvoicethatisurginghimevertorighteousness。If,thedigressionisunusualenough,thedragofhabitwillbeheavy,enoughtocausetheunreasoningvictimtoreturnandperformthe,perfunctorything。”Now,blessme,“sayssuchamind,“Ihave,donemyduty,“when,asamatteroffact,ithasmerelydoneits,old,unbreakabletrickonceagain。
Carriehadnoexcellenthomeprinciplesfixeduponher。Ifshe,had,shewouldhavebeenmoreconsciouslydistressed。Nowthe,lunchwentoffwithconsiderablewarmth。Undertheinfluenceof,thevariedoccurrences,thefine,invisiblepassionwhichwas,emanatingfromDrouet,thefood,thestillunusualluxury,she,relaxedandheardwithopenears。Shewasagainthevictimof,thecity’shypnoticinfluence。
“Well,“saidDrouetatlast,“wehadbetterbegoing。”
Theyhadbeendawdlingoverthedishes,andtheireyeshad,frequentlymet。Carriecouldnothelpbutfeelthevibrationof,forcewhichfollowed,which,indeed,washisgaze。Hehadaway,oftouchingherhandinexplanation,asiftoimpressafactupon,her。Hetoucheditnowashespokeofgoing。
Theyaroseandwentoutintothestreet。Thedowntownsection,wasnowbare,saveforafewwhistlingstrollers,afewowlcars,afewopenresortswhosewindowswerestillbright。OutWabash,Avenuetheystrolled,Drouetstillpouringforthhisvolumeof,smallinformation。HehadCarrie’sarminhis,andheldit,closelyasheexplained。Onceinawhile,aftersomewitticism,hewouldlookdown,andhiseyeswouldmeethers。Atlastthey,cametothesteps,andCarriestooduponthefirstone,herhead,nowcomingevenwithhisown。Hetookherhandandheldit,genially。Helookedsteadilyatherassheglancedabout,warmly,musing。
Ataboutthathour,Minniewassoundlysleeping,afteralong,eveningoftroubledthought。Shehadherelbowinanawkward,positionunderherside。Themusclessoheldirritatedafew,nerves,andnowavaguescenefloatedinonthedrowsymind。She,fanciedsheandCarrieweresomewherebesideanoldcoal-mine。
Shecouldseethetallrunwayandtheheapofearthandcoalcast,out。Therewasadeeppit,intowhichtheywerelooking;they,couldseethecuriouswetstonesfardownwherethewall,disappearedinvagueshadows。Anoldbasket,usedfor,descending,washangingthere,fastenedbyawornrope。
“Let’sgetin,“saidCarrie。
“Oh,no,“saidMinnie。
“Yes,comeon,“saidCarrie。
Shebegantopullthebasketover,andnow,inspiteofall,protest,shehadswungoverandwasgoingdown。
“Carrie,“shecalled,“Carrie,comeback“;butCarriewasfar,downnowandtheshadowhadswallowedhercompletely。
Shemovedherarm。
Nowthemysticscenerymergedqueerlyandtheplacewasbywaters,shehadneverseen。Theywereuponsomeboardorgroundor,somethingthatreachedfarout,andattheendofthiswas,Carrie。Theylookedabout,andnowthethingwassinking,and,Minnieheardthelowsipoftheencroachingwater。
“Comeon,Carrie,“shecalled,butCarriewasreachingfarther,out。Sheseemedtorecede,andnowitwasdifficulttocallto,her。
“Carrie,“shecalled,“Carrie,“butherownvoicesoundedfar,away,andthestrangewaterswereblurringeverything。Shecame,awaysufferingasthoughshehadlostsomething。Shewasmore,inexpressiblysadthanshehadeverbeeninlife。
Itwasthiswaythroughmanyshiftsofthetiredbrain,those,curiousphantomsofthespiritslippingin,blurringstrange,scenes,onewiththeother。Thelastonemadehercryout,for,Carriewasslippingawaysomewhereoverarock,andherfingers,hadletlooseandshehadseenherfalling。
“Minnie!,What’sthematter?,Here,wakeup,“saidHanson,disturbed,andshakingherbytheshoulder。
“Wha——what’sthematter?”saidMinnie,drowsily。
“Wakeup,“hesaid,“andturnover。You’retalkinginyour,sleep。”
AweekorsolaterDrouetstrolledintoFitzgeraldandMoy’s,spruceindressandmanner。
“Hello,Charley,“saidHurstwood,lookingoutfromhisoffice,door。
Drouetstrolledoverandlookedinuponthemanagerathisdesk。
“Whendoyougooutontheroadagain?”heinquired。
“Prettysoon,“saidDrouet。
“Haven’tseenmuchofyouthistrip,“saidHurstwood。
“Well,I’vebeenbusy,“saidDrouet。
Theytalkedsomefewminutesongeneraltopics。
“Say,“saidDrouet,asifstruckbyasuddenidea,“Iwantyouto,comeoutsomeevening。”
“Outwhere?”inquiredHurstwood。
“Outtomyhouse,ofcourse,“saidDrouet,smiling。
Hurstwoodlookedupquizzically,theleastsuggestionofasmile,hoveringabouthislips。HestudiedthefaceofDrouetinhis,wiseway,andthenwiththedemeanourofagentleman,said:
“Certainly;gladto。”
“We’llhaveanicegameofeuchre。”
“MayIbringanicelittlebottleofSec?”askedHurstwood。
“Certainly,“saidDrouet。”I’llintroduceyou。”
ChapterIX
CONVENTION’SOWNTINDER-BOX——THEEYETHATISGREEN
Hurstwood’sresidenceontheNorthSide,nearLincolnPark,wasa,brickbuildingofaverypopulartypethen,athree-storyaffair,withthefirstfloorsunkaverylittlebelowthelevelofthe,street。Ithadalargebaywindowbulgingoutfromthesecond,floor,andwasgracedinfrontbyasmallgrassyplot,twenty-
fivefeetwideandtenfeetdeep。Therewasalsoasmallrear,yard,walledinbythefencesoftheneighboursandholdinga,stablewherehekepthishorseandtrap。
Thetenroomsofthehousewereoccupiedbyhimself,hiswife,Julia,andhissonanddaughter,George,Jr。andJessica。There,werebesidestheseamaid-servant,representedfromtimetotime,bygirlsofvariousextraction,forMrs。Hurstwoodwasnotalways,easytoplease。
“George,IletMarygoyesterday,“wasnotanunfrequent,salutationatthedinnertable。
“Allright,“washisonlyreply。Hehadlongsinceweariedof,discussingtherancoroussubject。
Alovelyhomeatmosphereisoneoftheflowersoftheworld,than,whichthereisnothingmoretender,nothingmoredelicate,nothingmorecalculatedtomakestrongandjustthenatures,cradledandnourishedwithinit。Thosewhohaveneverexperienced,suchabeneficentinfluencewillnotunderstandwhereforethe,tearspringsglisteningtotheeyelidsatsomestrangebreathin,lovelymusic。Themysticchordswhichbindandthrilltheheart,ofthenation,theywillneverknow。
Hurstwood’sresidencecouldscarcelybesaidtobeinfusedwith,thishomespirit。Itlackedthattolerationandregardwithout,whichthehomeisnothing。Therewasfinefurniture,arrangedas,soothinglyastheartisticperceptionoftheoccupantswarranted。
Thereweresoftrugs,rich,upholsteredchairsanddivans,a,grandpiano,amarblecarvingofsomeunknownVenusbysome,unknownartist,andanumberofsmallbronzesgatheredfrom,heavenknowswhere,butgenerallysoldbythelargefurniture,housesalongwitheverythingelsewhichgoestomakethe,“perfectlyappointedhouse。”
Inthedining-roomstoodasideboardladenwithglistening,decantersandotherutilitiesandornamentsinglass,the,arrangementofwhichcouldnotbequestioned。Herewassomething,Hurstwoodknewabout。Hehadstudiedthesubjectforyearsinhis,business。HetooknolittlesatisfactionintellingeachMary,shortlyaftershearrived,somethingofwhattheartofthething,required。Hewasnotgarrulousbyanymeans。Onthecontrary,therewasafinereserveinhismannertowardtheentiredomestic,economyofhislifewhichwasallthatiscomprehendedbythe,popularterm,gentlemanly。Hewouldnotargue,hewouldnottalk,freely。Inhismannerwassomethingofthedogmatist。Whathe,couldnotcorrect,hewouldignore。Therewasatendencyinhim,towalkawayfromtheimpossiblething。
Therewasatimewhenhehadbeenconsiderablyenamouredofhis,Jessica,especiallywhenhewasyoungerandmoreconfinedinhis,success。Now,however,inherseventeenthyear,Jessicahad,developedacertainamountofreserveandindependencewhichwas,notinvitingtotherichestformofparentaldevotion。Shewasin,thehighschool,andhadnotionsoflifewhichweredecidedly,thoseofapatrician。Shelikedniceclothesandurgedforthem,constantly。Thoughtsofloveandelegantindividual,establishmentswererunninginherhead。Shemetgirlsatthe,highschoolwhoseparentsweretrulyrichandwhosefathershad,standinglocallyaspartnersorownersofsolidbusinesses。
Thesegirlsgavethemselvestheairsbefittingthethriving,domesticestablishmentsfromwhencetheyissued。Theywerethe,onlyonesoftheschoolaboutwhomJessicaconcernedherself。
YoungHurstwood,Jr。wasinhistwentiethyear,andwasalready,connectedinapromisingcapacitywithalargerealestatefirm。
Hecontributednothingforthedomesticexpensesofthefamily,butwasthoughttobesavinghismoneytoinvestinrealestate。
Hehadsomeability,considerablevanity,andaloveofpleasure,thathadnot,asyet,infringeduponhisduties,whateverthey,were。Hecameinandwentout,pursuinghisownplansand,fancies,addressingafewwordstohismotheroccasionally,relatingsomelittleincidenttohisfather,butforthemost,partconfininghimselftothosegeneralitieswithwhichmost,conversationconcernsitself。Hewasnotlayingbarehisdesires,foranyonetosee。Hedidnotfindanyoneinthehousewho,particularlycaredtosee。
Mrs。Hurstwoodwasthetypeofwomanwhohaseverendeavouredto,shineandhasbeenmoreorlesschagrinedattheevidencesof,superiorcapabilityinthisdirectionelsewhere。Herknowledge,oflifeextendedtothatlittleconventionalroundofsocietyof,whichshewasnot——butlongedtobe——amember。Shewasnot,withoutrealisationalreadythatthisthingwasimpossible,so,farasshewasconcerned。Forherdaughter,shehopedbetter,things。ThroughJessicashemightrisealittle。Through,George,Jr。’s,possiblesuccessshemightdrawtoherselfthe,privilegeofpointingproudly。EvenHurstwoodwasdoingwell,enough,andshewasanxiousthathissmallrealestateadventures,shouldprosper。Hispropertyholdings,asyet,wererather,small,buthisincomewaspleasingandhispositionwith,FitzgeraldandMoywasfixed。Boththosegentlemenwereon,pleasantandratherinformaltermswithhim。
Theatmospherewhichsuchpersonalitieswouldcreatemustbe,apparenttoall。Itworkedoutinathousandlittle,conversations,allofwhichwereofthesamecalibre。
“I’mgoinguptoFoxLaketo-morrow,“announcedGeorge,Jr。at,thedinnertableoneFridayevening。
“What’sgoingonupthere?”queriedMrs。Hurstwood。
“EddieFahrway’sgotanewsteamlaunch,andhewantsmetocome,upandseehowitworks。”
“Howmuchdiditcosthim?”askedhismother。
“Oh,overtwothousanddollars。Hesaysit’sadandy。”
“OldFahrwaymustbemakingmoney,“putinHurstwood。
“Heis,Iguess。JacktoldmetheywereshippingVegacurato,Australianow——saidtheysentawholeboxtoCapeTownlast,week。”
“Justthinkofthat!”saidMrs。Hurstwood,“andonlyfouryears,agotheyhadthatbasementinMadisonStreet。”
“Jacktoldmetheyweregoingtoputupasix-storybuildingnext,springinRobeyStreet。”
“Justthinkofthat!”saidJessica。
OnthisparticularoccasionHurstwoodwishedtoleaveearly。
“IguessI’llbegoingdowntown,“heremarked,rising。
“ArewegoingtoMcVicker’sMonday?”questionedMrs。Hurstwood,withoutrising。
“Yes,“hesaidindifferently。
Theywentondining,whilehewentupstairsforhishatandcoat。
Presentlythedoorclicked。
“Iguesspapa’sgone,“saidJessica。
Thelatter’sschoolnewswasofaparticularstripe。
“They’regoingtogiveaperformanceintheLyceum,upstairs,“
shereportedoneday,“andI’mgoingtobeinit。”
“Areyou?”saidhermother。
“Yes,andI’llhavetohaveanewdress。Someofthenicest,girlsintheschoolaregoingtobeinit。MissPalmerisgoing,totakethepartofPortia。”
“Isshe?”saidMrs。Hurstwood。
“They’vegotthatMarthaGriswoldinitagain。Shethinksshe,canact。”
“Herfamilydoesn’tamounttoanything,doesit?”saidMrs。
Hurstwoodsympathetically。”Theyhaven’tanything,havethey?”
“No,“returnedJessica,“they’repooraschurchmice。”
Shedistinguishedverycarefullybetweentheyoungboysofthe,school,manyofwhomwereattractedbyherbeauty。
“Whatdoyouthink?”sheremarkedtohermotheroneevening;
“thatHerbertCranetriedtomakefriendswithme。”
“Whoishe,mydear?”inquiredMrs。Hurstwood。
“Oh,noone,“saidJessica,pursingherprettylips。“He’sjusta,studentthere。Hehasn’tanything。”
TheotherhalfofthispicturecamewhenyoungBlyford,sonof,Blyford,thesoapmanufacturer,walkedhomewithher。Mrs。
Hurstwoodwasonthethirdfloor,sittinginarocking-chair,reading,andhappenedtolookoutatthetime。
“Whowasthatwithyou,Jessica?”sheinquired,asJessicacame,upstairs。
“It’sMr。Blyford,mamma,“shereplied。
“Isit?”saidMrs。Hurstwood。
“Yes,andhewantsmetostrolloverintotheparkwithhim,“
explainedJessica,alittleflushedwithrunningupthestairs。
“Allright,mydear,“saidMrs。Hurstwood。”Don’tbegonelong。”
Asthetwowentdownthestreet,sheglancedinterestedlyoutof,thewindow。Itwasamostsatisfactoryspectacleindeed,most,satisfactory。
InthisatmosphereHurstwoodhadmovedforanumberofyears,not,thinkingdeeplyconcerningit。Hiswasnottheorderofnature,totroubleforsomethingbetter,unlessthebetterwas,immediatelyandsharplycontrasted。Asitwas,hereceivedand,gave,irritatedsometimesbythelittledisplaysofselfish,indifference,pleasedattimesbysomeshowoffinerywhich,supposedlymadefordignityandsocialdistinction。Thelifeof,theresortwhichhemanagedwashislife。Therehespentmostof,histime。Whenhewenthomeeveningsthehouselookednice。
Withrareexceptionsthemealswereacceptable,beingthekind,thatanordinaryservantcanarrange。Inpart,hewasinterested,inthetalkofhissonanddaughter,whoalwayslookedwell。The,vanityofMrs。Hurstwoodcausedhertokeepherpersonrather,showilyarrayed,buttoHurstwoodthiswasmuchbetterthan,plainness。Therewasnolovelostbetweenthem。Therewasno,greatfeelingofdissatisfaction。Heropiniononanysubjectwas,notstartling。Theydidnottalkenoughtogethertocometothe,argumentofanyonepoint。Intheacceptedandpopularphrase,shehadherideasandhehadhis。Onceinawhilehewouldmeet,awomanwhoseyouth,sprightliness,andhumourwouldmakehis,wifeseemratherdeficientbycontrast,butthetemporary,dissatisfactionwhichsuchanencountermightarousewouldbe,counterbalancedbyhissocialpositionandacertainmatterof,policy。Hecouldnotcomplicatehishomelife,becauseitmight,affecthisrelationswithhisemployers。Theywantedno,scandals。Aman,toholdhisposition,musthaveadignified,manner,acleanrecord,arespectablehomeanchorage。Therefore,hewascircumspectinallhedid,andwheneverheappearedinthe,publicwaysintheafternoon,oronSunday,itwaswithhiswife,andsometimeshischildren。Hewouldvisitthelocalresorts,or,thosenearbyinWisconsin,andspendafewstiff,polisheddays,strollingaboutconventionalplacesdoingconventionalthings。
Heknewtheneedofit。
Whensomeoneofthemanymiddle-classindividualswhomheknew,whohadmoney,wouldgetintotrouble,hewouldshakehishead。
Itdidn’tdototalkaboutthosethings。Ifitcameupfor,discussionamongsuchfriendsaswithhimpassedforclose,he,woulddeprecatethefollyofthething。”Itwasallrighttodo,it——allmendothosethings——butwhywasn’thecareful?,Aman,can’tbetoocareful。”,Helostsympathyforthemanthatmadea,mistakeandwasfoundout。
Onthisaccounthestilldevotedsometimetoshowinghiswife,about——timewhichwouldhavebeenwearisomeindeedifithadnot,beenforthepeoplehewouldmeetandthelittleenjoymentswhich,didnotdependuponherpresenceorabsence。Hewatchedherwith,considerablecuriosityattimes,forshewasstillattractivein,awayandmenlookedather。Shewasaffable,vain,subjectto,flattery,andthiscombination,heknewquitewell,mightproduce,atragedyinawomanofherhomeposition。Owingtohisorderof,mind,hisconfidenceinthesexwasnotgreat。Hiswifenever,possessedthevirtueswhichwouldwintheconfidenceand,admirationofamanofhisnature。Aslongasshelovedhim,vigorouslyhecouldseehowconfidencecouldbe,butwhenthat,wasnolongerthebindingchain——well,somethingmighthappen。
Duringthelastyearortwotheexpensesofthefamilyseemeda,largething。Jessicawantedfineclothes,andMrs。Hurstwood,nottobeoutshonebyherdaughter,alsofrequentlyenlivenedher,apparel。Hurstwoodhadsaidnothinginthepast,butonedayhe,murmured。
“Jessicamusthaveanewdressthismonth,“saidMrs。Hurstwood,onemorning。
Hurstwoodwasarrayinghimselfinoneofhisperfectionvests,beforetheglassatthetime。
“Ithoughtshejustboughtone,“hesaid。
“Thatwasjustsomethingforeveningwear,“returnedhiswife,complacently。
“Itseemstome,“returnedHurstwood,“thatshe’sspendingagood,dealfordressesoflate。”
“Well,she’sgoingoutmore,“concludedhiswife,butthetoneof,hisvoiceimpressedherascontainingsomethingshehadnotheard,therebefore。
Hewasnotamanwhotraveledmuch,butwhenhedid,hehadbeen,accustomedtotakeheralong。Ononeoccasionrecentlyalocal,aldermanicjunkethadbeenarrangedtovisitPhiladelphia——a,junketthatwastolasttendays。Hurstwoodhadbeeninvited。
“Nobodyknowsusdownthere,“saidone,agentlemanwhoseface,wasaslightimprovementovergrossignoranceandsensuality。He,alwaysworeasilkhatofmostimposingproportions。”Wecan,haveagoodtime。”Hislefteyemovedwithjustthesemblanceof,awink。“Youwanttocomealong,George。”
ThenextdayHurstwoodannouncedhisintentiontohiswife。
“I’mgoingaway,Julia,“hesaid,“forafewdays。”
“Where?”sheasked,lookingup。
“ToPhiladelphia,onbusiness。”
Shelookedathimconsciously,expectingsomethingelse。
“I’llhavetoleaveyoubehindthistime。”
“Allright,“shereplied,buthecouldseethatshewasthinking,thatitwasacuriousthing。Beforehewentsheaskedhimafew,morequestions,andthatirritatedhim。Hebegantofeelthat,shewasadisagreeableattachment。
Onthistripheenjoyedhimselfthoroughly,andwhenitwasover,hewassorrytogetback。Hewasnotwillinglyaprevaricator,andhatedthoroughlytomakeexplanationsconcerningit。The,wholeincidentwasglossedoverwithgeneralremarks,butMrs。
Hurstwoodgavethesubjectconsiderablethought。Shedroveout,more,dressedbetter,andattendedtheatresfreelytomakeupfor,it。
Suchanatmospherecouldhardlycomeunderthecategoryofhome,life。Itranalongbyforceofhabit,byforceofconventional,opinion。Withthelapseoftimeitmustnecessarilybecomedryer,anddryer——musteventuallybetinder,easilylightedand,destroyed。
ChapterX
THECOUNSELOFWINTER——FORTUNE’SAMBASSADORCALLS
Inthelightoftheworld’sattitudetowardwomanandherduties,thenatureofCarrie’smentalstatedeservesconsideration。
Actionssuchashersaremeasuredbyanarbitraryscale。Society,possessesaconventionalstandardwherebyitjudgesallthings。
Allmenshouldbegood,allwomenvirtuous。Wherefore,villain,hastthoufailed?
ForalltheliberalanalysisofSpencerandourmodern,naturalisticphilosophers,wehavebutaninfantileperceptionof,morals。Thereismoreinthesubjectthanmereconformitytoa,lawofevolution。Itisyetdeeperthanconformitytothingsof,earthalone。Itismoreinvolvedthanwe,asyet,perceive。
Answer,first,whytheheartthrills;explainwhereforesome,plaintivenotegoeswanderingabouttheworld,undying;make,cleartherose’ssubtlealchemyevolvingitsruddylampinlight,andrain。Intheessenceofthesefactsliethefirstprinciples,ofmorals。
“Oh,“thoughtDrouet,“howdeliciousismyconquest。”
“Ah,“thoughtCarrie,withmournfulmisgivings,“whatisitI
havelost?”
Beforethisworld-oldpropositionwestand,serious,interested,confused;endeavouringtoevolvethetruetheoryofmorals——the,trueanswertowhatisright。
Intheviewofacertainstratumofsociety,Carriewas,comfortablyestablished——intheeyesofthestarveling,beatenby,everywindandgustysheetofrain,shewassafeinahalcyon,harbour。Drouethadtakenthreerooms,furnished,inOgden,Place,facingUnionPark,ontheWestSide。Thatwasalittle,green-carpetedbreathingspot,thanwhich,to-day,thereis,nothingmorebeautifulinChicago。Itaffordedavistapleasant,tocontemplate。Thebestroomlookedoutuponthelawnofthe,park,nowsearandbrown,wherealittlelakelaysheltered。
Overthebarelimbsofthetrees,whichnowswayedinthewintry,wind,rosethesteepleoftheUnionParkCongregationalChurch,andfaroffthetowersofseveralothers。
Theroomswerecomfortablyenoughfurnished。Therewasagood,Brusselscarpetonthefloor,richindullredandlemonshades,andrepresentinglargejardinieresfilledwithgorgeous,impossibleflowers。Therewasalargepier-glassmirrorbetween,thetwowindows。Alarge,soft,green,plush-coveredcouch,occupiedonecorner,andseveralrocking-chairsweresetabout。
Somepictures,severalrugs,afewsmallpiecesofbric-a-brac,andthetaleofcontentsistold。
Inthebedroom,offthefrontroom,wasCarrie’strunk,boughtby,Drouet,andinthewardrobebuiltintothewallquiteanarrayof,clothing——morethanshehadeverpossessedbefore,andofvery,becomingdesigns。Therewasathirdroomforpossibleuseasa,kitchen,whereDrouethadCarrieestablishalittleportablegas,stoveforthepreparationofsmalllunches,oysters,Welsh,rarebits,andthelike,ofwhichhewasexceedinglyfond;and,lastly,abath。Thewholeplacewascosey,inthatitwas,lightedbygasandheatedbyfurnaceregisters,possessingalsoa,smallgrate,setwithanasbestosback,amethodofcheerful,warmingwhichwasthenfirstcomingintouse。Byherindustry,andnaturalloveoforder,whichnowdeveloped,theplace,maintainedanairpleasingintheextreme。
Here,then,wasCarrie,establishedinapleasantfashion,free,ofcertaindifficultieswhichmostominouslyconfrontedher,ladenwithmanynewoneswhichwereofamentalorder,and,altogethersoturnedaboutinallofherearthlyrelationships,thatshemightwellhavebeenanewanddifferentindividual。
ShelookedintoherglassandsawaprettierCarriethanshehad,seenbefore;shelookedintohermind,amirrorpreparedofher,ownandtheworld’sopinions,andsawaworse。Betweenthesetwo,imagesshewavered,hesitatingwhichtobelieve。
“My,butyou’realittlebeauty,“Drouetwaswonttoexclaimto,her。
Shewouldlookathimwithlarge,pleasedeyes。
“Youknowit,don’tyou?”hewouldcontinue。
“Oh,Idon’tknow,“shewouldreply,feelingdelightinthefact,thatoneshouldthinkso,hesitatingtobelieve,thoughshe,reallydid,thatshewasvainenoughtothinksomuchofherself。