Andalltheattachmentofhissoulwouldnotkeephim。Verywell,hewouldhavetogo。Buthewouldcomebackwhenhehadtiredofhis,newsensation。
  Hehackedattheearthtillshewasfrettedtodeath。Sherose。
  Hesatflinginglumpsofearthinthestream。
  “Wewillgoandhaveteahere?”heasked。
  “Yes,“sheanswered。
  Theychatteredoverirrelevantsubjectsduringtea。
  Heheldforthontheloveofornament——thecottageparlourmovedhim,thereto——anditsconnectionwithaesthetics。Shewascoldandquiet。
  Astheywalkedhome,sheasked:
  “Andweshallnotseeeachother?”
  “No——orrarely,“heanswered。
  “Norwrite?”sheasked,almostsarcastically。
  “Asyouwill,“heanswered。”We’renotstrangers——never,shouldbe,whateverhappened。Iwillwritetoyounowandagain。
  Youpleaseyourself。”
  “Isee!”sheansweredcuttingly。
  Buthewasatthatstageatwhichnothingelsehurts。
  Hehadmadeagreatcleavageinhislife。Hehadhadagreatshock,whenshehadtoldhimtheirlovehadbeenalwaysaconflict。
  Nothingmoremattered。Ifitneverhadbeenmuch,therewasnoneed,tomakeafussthatitwasended。
  Heleftheratthelane-end。Asshewenthome,solitary,inhernewfrock,havingherpeopletofaceattheotherend,hestoodstillwithshameandpaininthehighroad,thinkingof,thesufferinghecausedher。
  Inthereactiontowardsrestoringhisself-esteem,hewent,intotheWillowTreeforadrink。Therewerefourgirlswhohad,beenoutfortheday,drinkingamodestglassofport。Theyhad,somechocolatesonthetable。Paulsatnearwithhiswhisky。
  Henoticedthegirlswhisperingandnudging。Presentlyone,abonnydarkhussy,leanedtohimandsaid:
  “Haveachocolate?”
  Theotherslaughedloudlyatherimpudence。
  “Allright,“saidPaul。”Givemeahardone——nut。Idon’t,likecreams。”
  “Hereyouare,then,“saidthegirl;“here’sanalmondforyou。”
  Sheheldthesweetbetweenherfingers。Heopenedhismouth。
  Shepoppeditin,andblushed。
  “YouAREnice!”hesaid。
  “Well,“sheanswered,“wethoughtyoulookedovercast,andtheydaredmeofferyouachocolate。”
  “Idon’tmindifIhaveanother——anothersort,“hesaid。
  Andpresentlytheywerealllaughingtogether。
  Itwasnineo’clockwhenhegothome,fallingdark。Heentered,thehouseinsilence。Hismother,whohadbeenwaiting,roseanxiously。
  “Itoldher,“hesaid。
  “I’mglad,“repliedthemother,withgreatrelief。
  Hehunguphiscapwearily。
  “Isaidwe’dhavedonealtogether,“hesaid。
  “That’sright,myson,“saidthemother。”It’shardforhernow,butbestinthelongrun。Iknow。Youweren’tsuitedforher。”
  Helaughedshakilyashesatdown。
  “I’vehadsuchalarkwithsomegirlsinapub,“hesaid。
  Hismotherlookedathim。HehadforgottenMiriamnow。Hetold,heraboutthegirlsintheWillowTree。Mrs。Morellookedathim。
  Itseemedunreal,hisgaiety。Atthebackofitwastoomuchhorror,andmisery。
  “Nowhavesomesupper,“shesaidverygently。
  Afterwardshesaidwistfully:
  “Sheneverthoughtshe’dhaveme,mother,notfromthefirst,andsoshe’snotdisappointed。”
  “I’mafraid,“saidhismother,“shedoesn’tgiveuphopes,ofyouyet。”
  “No,“hesaid,“perhapsnot。”
  “You’llfindit’sbettertohavedone,“shesaid。
  “Idon’tknow,“hesaiddesperately。
  “Well,leaveheralone,“repliedhismother。Sohelefther,andshewasalone。Veryfewpeoplecaredforher,andsheforvery,fewpeople。Sheremainedalonewithherself,waiting。
  CHAPTERXII
  PASSION
  HEwasgraduallymakingitpossibletoearnalivelihoodby,hisart。Liberty’shadtakenseveralofhispainteddesigns,onvariousstuffs,andhecouldselldesignsforembroideries,foraltar-cloths,andsimilarthings,inoneortwoplaces。
  Itwasnotverymuchhemadeatpresent,buthemightextendit。
  Hehadalsomadefriendswiththedesignerforapotteryfirm,andwasgainingsomeknowledgeofhisnewacquaintance’sart。
  Theappliedartsinterestedhimverymuch。Atthesametime,helabouredslowlyathispictures。Helovedtopaintlargefigures,fulloflight,butnotmerelymadeupoflightsandcastshadows,liketheimpressionists;ratherdefinitefiguresthathadacertain,luminousquality,likesomeofMichaelAngelo’speople。Andthese,hefittedintoalandscape,inwhathethoughttrueproportion。
  Heworkedagreatdealfrommemory,usingeverybodyheknew。
  Hebelievedfirmlyinhiswork,thatitwasgoodandvaluable。
  Inspiteoffitsofdepression,shrinking,everything,hebelieved,inhiswork。
  Hewastwenty-fourwhenhesaidhisfirstconfidentthing,tohismother。
  “Mother,“hesaid,“Is’llmakeapainterthatthey’llattendto。”
  Shesniffedinherquaintfashion。Itwaslikeahalf-pleased,shrugoftheshoulders。
  “Verywell,myboy,we’llsee,“shesaid。
  “Youshallsee,mypigeon!,Youseeifyou’renotswanky,oneofthesedays!”
  “I’mquitecontent,myboy,“shesmiled。
  “Butyou’llhavetoalter。LookatyouwithMinnie!”
  Minniewasthesmallservant,agirloffourteen。
  “AndwhataboutMinnie?”askedMrs。Morel,withdignity。
  “Iheardherthismorning:,’Eh,Mrs。Morel!,Iwasgoing,todothat,’whenyouwentoutintherainforsomecoal,“hesaid。
  “Thatlooksalotlikeyourbeingabletomanageservants!”
  “Well,itwasonlythechild’sniceness,“saidMrs。Morel。
  “Andyouapologisingtoher:,’Youcan’tdotwothingsatonce,canyou?’“
  “SheWASbusywashingup,“repliedMrs。Morel。
  “Andwhatdidshesay?,’Itcouldeasyhavewaitedabit。
  Nowlookhowyourfeetpaddle!’“
  “Yes——brazenyoungbaggage!”saidMrs。Morel,smiling。
  Helookedathismother,laughing。Shewasquitewarmand,rosyagainwithloveofhim。Itseemedasifallthesunshine,wereonherforamoment。Hecontinuedhisworkgladly。
  Sheseemedsowellwhenshewashappythatheforgothergreyhair。
  AndthatyearshewentwithhimtotheIsleofWightfor,aholiday。Itwastooexcitingforthemboth,andtoobeautiful。
  Mrs。Morelwasfullofjoyandwonder。Buthewouldhaveher,walkwithhimmorethanshewasable。Shehadabadfaintingbout。
  Sogreyherfacewas,sobluehermouth!,Itwasagonytohim。
  Hefeltasifsomeonewerepushingaknifeinhischest。Thenshe,wasbetteragain,andheforgot。Buttheanxietyremainedinsidehim,likeawoundthatdidnotclose。
  AfterleavingMiriamhewentalmoststraighttoClara。
  OntheMondayfollowingthedayoftherupturehewentdownto,thework-room。Shelookedupathimandsmiled。Theyhadgrown,veryintimateunawares。Shesawanewbrightnessabouthim。
  “Well,QueenofSheba!”hesaid,laughing。
  “Butwhy?”sheasked。
  “Ithinkitsuitsyou。You’vegotanewfrockon。”
  Sheflushed,asking:
  “Andwhatofit?”
  “Suitsyou——awfully!,Icoulddesignyouadress。”
  “Howwoulditbe?”
  Hestoodinfrontofher,hiseyesglitteringasheexpounded。
  Hekepthereyesfixedwithhis。Thensuddenlyhetookholdofher。
  Shehalf-startedback。Hedrewthestuffofherblousetighter,smootheditoverherbreast。
  “MoreSO!”heexplained。
  Buttheywerebothofthemflamingwithblushes,andimmediately,heranaway。Hehadtouchedher。Hiswholebodywasquivering,withthesensation。
  Therewasalreadyasortofsecretunderstandingbetweenthem。
  Thenexteveninghewenttothecinematographwithherforafew,minutesbeforetrain-time。Astheysat,hesawherhandlying,nearhim。Forsomemomentshedarednottouchit。Thepictures,dancedanddithered。Thenhetookherhandinhis。Itwaslarge,andfirm;itfilledhisgrasp。Hehelditfast。Sheneither,movednormadeanysign。Whentheycameouthistrainwasdue。
  Hehesitated。
  “Good-night,“shesaid。Hedartedawayacrosstheroad。
  Thenextdayhecameagain,talkingtoher。Shewasrather,superiorwithhim。
  “ShallwegoawalkonMonday?”heasked。
  Sheturnedherfaceaside。
  “ShallyoutellMiriam?”sherepliedsarcastically。
  “Ihavebrokenoffwithher,“hesaid。
  “When?”
  “LastSunday。”
  “Youquarrelled?”
  “No!,Ihadmadeupmymind。ItoldherquitedefinitelyI
  shouldconsidermyselffree。”
  Claradidnotanswer,andhereturnedtohiswork。Shewas,soquietandsosuperb!
  OntheSaturdayeveningheaskedhertocomeanddrinkcoffee,withhiminarestaurant,meetinghimafterworkwasover。Shecame,lookingveryreservedandverydistant。Hehadthree-quarters,ofanhourtotrain-time。
  “Wewillwalkalittlewhile,“hesaid。
  Sheagreed,andtheywentpasttheCastleintothePark。
  Hewasafraidofher。Shewalkedmoodilyathisside,withakind,ofresentful,reluctant,angrywalk。Hewasafraidtotakeherhand。
  “Whichwayshallwego?”heaskedastheywalkedindarkness。
  “Idon’tmind。”
  “Thenwe’llgoupthesteps。”
  Hesuddenlyturnedround。TheyhadpassedtheParksteps。
  Shestoodstillinresentmentathissuddenlyabandoningher。
  Helookedforher。Shestoodaloof。Hecaughthersuddenlyin,hisarms,heldherstrainedforamoment,kissedher。Thenhelet,hergo。
  “Comealong,“hesaid,penitent。
  Shefollowedhim。Hetookherhandandkissedher,finger-tips。Theywentinsilence。Whentheycametothelight,heletgoherhand。Neitherspoketilltheyreachedthestation。
  Thentheylookedeachotherintheeyes。
  “Good-night,“shesaid。
  Andhewentforhistrain。Hisbodyactedmechanically。
  Peopletalkedtohim。Heheardfaintechoesansweringthem。
  Hewasinadelirium。HefeltthathewouldgomadifMondaydid,notcomeatonce。OnMondayhewouldseeheragain。Allhimself,waspitchedthere,ahead。Sundayintervened。Hecouldnotbearit。
  HecouldnotseehertillMonday。AndSundayintervened——hour,afterhouroftension。Hewantedtobeathisheadagainstthe,doorofthecarriage。Buthesatstill。Hedranksomewhisky,onthewayhome,butitonlymadeitworse。Hismothermustnot,beupset,thatwasall。Hedissembled,andgotquicklytobed。
  Therehesat,dressed,withhischinonhisknees,staringoutof,thewindowatthefarhill,withitsfewlights。Heneitherthoughtnorslept,butsatperfectlystill,staring。Andwhenatlasthewassocoldthat,hecametohimself,hefoundhiswatchhadstoppedathalf-pasttwo。
  Itwasafterthreeo’clock。Hewasexhausted,butstilltherewas,thetormentofknowingitwasonlySundaymorning。Hewenttobed,andslept。Thenhecycledalldaylong,tillhewasfaggedout。
  Andhescarcelyknewwherehehadbeen。ButthedayafterwasMonday。
  Heslepttillfouro’clock。Thenhelayandthought。Hewascoming,nearertohimself——hecouldseehimself,real,somewhereinfront。
  Shewouldgoawalkwithhimintheafternoon。Afternoon!,Itseemed,yearsahead。
  Slowlythehourscrawled。Hisfathergotup;heheardhim,potteringabout。Thentheminersetofftothepit,hisheavy,bootsscrapingtheyard。Cockswerestillcrowing。Acart,wentdowntheroad。Hismothergotup。Sheknockedthefire。
  Presentlyshecalledhimsoftly。Heansweredasifhewereasleep。
  Thisshellofhimselfdidwell。
  Hewaswalkingtothestation——anothermile!,Thetrain,wasnearNottingham。Woulditstopbeforethetunnels?
  Butitdidnotmatter;itwouldgettherebeforedinner-time。He,wasatJordan’s。Shewouldcomeinhalfanhour。Atanyrate,shewouldbenear。Hehaddonetheletters。Shewouldbethere。
  Perhapsshehadnotcome。Herandownstairs。Ah!hesawher,throughtheglassdoor。Hershouldersstoopingalittletoher,workmadehimfeelhecouldnotgoforward;hecouldnotstand。
  Hewentin。Hewaspale,nervous,awkward,andquitecold。
  Wouldshemisunderstandhim?,Hecouldnotwritehisrealself,withthisshell。
  “Andthisafternoon,“hestruggledtosay。”Youwillcome?”
  “Ithinkso,“shereplied,murmuring。
  Hestoodbeforeher,unabletosayaword。Shehidher,facefromhim。Againcameoverhimthefeelingthathewould,loseconsciousness。Hesethisteethandwentupstairs。Hehad,doneeverythingcorrectlyyet,andhewoulddoso。Allthemorning,thingsseemedalongwayoff,astheydotoamanunderchloroform。
  Hehimselfseemedunderatightbandofconstraint。Thentherewashis,otherself,inthedistance,doingthings,enteringstuffinaledger,andhewatchedthatfar-offhimcarefullytoseehemadenomistake。
  Buttheacheandstrainofitcouldnotgoonmuchlonger。
  Heworkedincessantly。Stillitwasonlytwelveo’clock。Asifhe,hadnailedhisclothingagainstthedesk,hestoodthereandworked,forcingeverystrokeoutofhimself。Itwasaquartertoone;
  hecouldclearaway。Thenherandownstairs。
  “YouwillmeetmeattheFountainattwoo’clock,“hesaid。
  “Ican’tbetheretillhalf-past。”
  “Yes!”hesaid。
  Shesawhisdark,madeyes。
  “Iwilltryataquarterpast。”
  Andhehadtobecontent。Hewentandgotsomedinner。
  Allthetimehewasstillunderchloroform,andeveryminute,wasstretchedoutindefinitely。Hewalkedmilesofstreets。
  Thenhethoughthewouldbelateatthemeeting-place。Hewasat,theFountainatfivepasttwo。Thetortureofthenextquarter,ofanhourwasrefinedbeyondexpression。Itwastheanguish,ofcombiningthelivingselfwiththeshell。Thenhesawher。
  Shecame!,Andhewasthere。
  “Youarelate,“hesaid。
  “Onlyfiveminutes,“sheanswered。
  “I’dneverhavedoneittoyou,“helaughed。
  Shewasinadarkbluecostume。Helookedatherbeautifulfigure。
  “Youwantsomeflowers,“hesaid,goingtothenearestflorist’s。
  Shefollowedhiminsilence。Heboughtherabunchofscarlet,brick-redcarnations。Sheputtheminhercoat,flushing。
  “That’safinecolour!”hesaid。
  “I’dratherhavehadsomethingsofter,“shesaid。
  Helaughed。
  “Doyoufeellikeablotofvermilionwalkingdownthestreet?”
  hesaid。
  Shehungherhead,afraidofthepeopletheymet。
  Helookedsidewaysatherastheywalked。Therewasawonderful,closedownonherfaceneartheearthathewantedtotouch。
  Andacertainheaviness,theheavinessofaveryfullearof,cornthatdipsslightlyinthewind,thattherewasabouther,madehisbrainspin。Heseemedtobespinningdownthestreet,everythinggoinground。
  Astheysatinthetramcar,sheleanedherheavyshoulder,againsthim,andhetookherhand。Hefelthimselfcominground,fromtheanaesthetic,beginningtobreathe。Herear,half-hiddenamong,herblondehair,wasneartohim。Thetemptationtokissitwas,almosttoogreat。Buttherewereotherpeopleontopofthecar。
  Itstillremainedtohimtokissit。Afterall,hewasnothimself,hewassomeattributeofhers,likethesunshinethatfellonher。
  Helookedquicklyaway。Ithadbeenraining。Thebigbluff,oftheCastlerockwasstreakedwithrain,asitrearedabove,theflatofthetown。Theycrossedthewide,blackspaceofthe,MidlandRailway,andpassedthecattleenclosurethatstoodoutwhite。
  ThentheyrandownsordidWilfordRoad。
  Sherockedslightlytothetram’smotion,andassheleaned,againsthim,rockeduponhim。Hewasavigorous,slenderman,withexhaustlessenergy。Hisfacewasrough,withrough-hewnfeatures,likethecommonpeople’s;buthiseyesunderthedeepbrowswere,sofulloflifethattheyfascinatedher。Theyseemedtodance,andyettheywerestilltremblingonthefinestbalanceoflaughter。
  Hismouththesamewasjustgoingtospringintoalaughoftriumph,yetdidnot。Therewasasharpsuspenseabouthim。Shebither,lipmoodily。Hishandwashardclenchedoverhers。
  Theypaidtheirtwohalfpenniesattheturnstileandcrossed,thebridge。TheTrentwasveryfull。Itsweptsilentandinsidious,underthebridge,travellinginasoftbody。Therehadbeenagreat,dealofrain。Ontheriverlevelswereflatgleamsoffloodwater。
  Theskywasgrey,withglistenofsilverhereandthere。InWilford,churchyardthedahliasweresoddenwithrain——wetblack-crimsonballs。
  Noonewasonthepaththatwentalongthegreenrivermeadow,alongtheelm-treecolonnade。
  Therewasthefaintesthazeoverthesilvery-darkwater,andthegreenmeadow-bank,andtheelm-treesthatwerespangled,withgold。Theriverslidbyinabody,utterlysilentandswift,intertwiningamongitselflikesomesubtle,complexcreature。
  Clarawalkedmoodilybesidehim。
  “Why,“sheaskedatlength,inratherajarringtone,“didyou,leaveMiriam?”
  Hefrowned。
  “BecauseIWANTEDtoleaveher,“hesaid。
  “Why?”
  “BecauseIdidn’twanttogoonwithher。AndIdidn’twant,tomarry。”
  Shewassilentforamoment。Theypickedtheirwaydownthemuddypath。
  Dropsofwaterfellfromtheelm-trees。
  “Youdidn’twanttomarryMiriam,oryoudidn’twanttomarry,atall?”sheasked。
  “Both,“heanswered——“both!”
  Theyhadtomanoeuvretogettothestile,becauseofthepools,ofwater。
  “Andwhatdidshesay?”Claraasked。
  “Miriam?,ShesaidIwasababyoffour,andthatIalways,HADbattledheroff。”
  Claraponderedoverthisforatime。
  “Butyouhavereallybeengoingwithherforsometime?”
  sheasked。
  “Yes。”
  “Andnowyoudon’twantanymoreofher?”
  “No。Iknowit’snogood。”
  Sheponderedagain。
  “Don’tyouthinkyou’vetreatedherratherbadly?”sheasked。
  “Yes;Ioughttohavedroppedityearsback。Butitwould,havebeennogoodgoingon。Twowrongsdon’tmakearight。”
  “HowoldAREyou?”Claraasked。
  “Twenty-five。”
  “AndIamthirty,“shesaid。
  “Iknowyouare。”
  “Ishallbethirty-one——orAMIthirty-one?”
  “Ineitherknownorcare。Whatdoesitmatter!”
  TheywereattheentrancetotheGrove。Thewet,redtrack,alreadystickywithfallenleaves,wentupthesteepbankbetween,thegrass。Oneithersidestoodtheelm-treeslikepillarsalong,agreataisle,archingoverandmakinghighuparooffromwhichthe,deadleavesfell。Allwasemptyandsilentandwet。Shestoodon,topofthestile,andheheldbothherhands。Laughing,shelooked,downintohiseyes。Thensheleaped。Herbreastcameagainsthis;
  heheldher,andcoveredherfacewithkisses。
  Theywentonuptheslippery,steepredpath。Presentlyshe,releasedhishandandputitroundherwaist。
  “Youpresstheveininmyarm,holdingitsotightly,“
  shesaid。
  Theywalkedalong。Hisfinger-tipsfelttherockingofherbreast。
  Allwassilentanddeserted。Onthelefttheredwetplough-land,showedthroughthedoorwaysbetweentheelm-bolesand,theirbranches。Ontheright,lookingdown,theycouldseethetree-tops,ofelmsgrowingfarbeneaththem,hearoccasionallythegurgleof,theriver。Sometimestherebelowtheycaughtglimpsesofthefull,soft-slidingTrent,andofwater-meadowsdottedwithsmallcattle。
  “IthasscarcelyalteredsincelittleKirkeWhiteusedtocome,“
  hesaid。
  Buthewaswatchingherthroatbelowtheear,wheretheflushwas,fusingintothehoney-white,andhermouththatpouteddisconsolate。
  Shestirredagainsthimasshewalked,andhisbodywaslike,atautstring。
  Halfwayupthebigcolonnadeofelms,wheretheGroverose,highestabovetheriver,theirforwardmovementfalteredtoanend。
  Heledheracrosstothegrass,underthetreesattheedgeofthepath。
  Thecliffofredearthslopedswiftlydown,throughtreesandbushes,totheriverthatglimmeredandwasdarkbetweenthefoliage。
  Thefar-belowwater-meadowswereverygreen。Heandshestoodleaning,againstoneanother,silent,afraid,theirbodiestouchingallalong。
  Therecameaquickgurglefromtheriverbelow。
  “Why,“heaskedatlength,“didyouhateBaxterDawes?”
  Sheturnedtohimwithasplendidmovement。Hermouthwas,offeredhim,andherthroat;hereyeswerehalf-shut;herbreast,wastiltedasifitaskedforhim。Heflashedwithasmalllaugh,shuthiseyes,andmetherinalong,wholekiss。Hermouthfused,withhis;theirbodiesweresealedandannealed。Itwassomeminutes,beforetheywithdrew。Theywerestandingbesidethepublicpath。
  “Willyougodowntotheriver?”heasked。
  Shelookedathim,leavingherselfinhishands。Hewent,overthebrimofthedeclivityandbegantoclimbdown。
  “Itisslippery,“hesaid。
  “Nevermind,“shereplied。
  Theredclaywentdownalmostsheer。Heslid,wentfromone,tuftofgrasstothenext,hangingontothebushes,makingfora,littleplatformatthefootofatree。Therehewaitedforher,laughingwithexcitement。Hershoeswerecloggedwithredearth。
  Itwashardforher。Hefrowned。Atlasthecaughtherhand,andshestoodbesidehim。Thecliffroseabovethemandfellaway,below。Hercolourwasup,hereyesflashed。Helookedatthebig,dropbelowthem。
  “It’srisky,“hesaid;“ormessy,atanyrate。Shallwe,goback?”
  “Notformysake,“shesaidquickly。
  “Allright。Yousee,Ican’thelpyou;Ishouldonlyhinder。
  Givemethatlittleparcelandyourgloves。Yourpoorshoes!”
  Theystoodperchedonthefaceofthedeclivity,underthetrees。
  “Well,I’llgoagain,“hesaid。
  Awayhewent,slipping,staggering,slidingtothenexttree,intowhichhefellwithaslamthatnearlyshookthebreathoutofhim。
  Shecameaftercautiously,hangingontothetwigsandgrasses。
  Sotheydescended,stagebystage,totheriver’sbrink。There,tohisdisgust,thefloodhadeatenawaythepath,andthered,declineranstraightintothewater。Heduginhisheelsandbrought,himselfupviolently。Thestringoftheparcelbrokewithasnap;
  thebrownparcelboundeddown,leapedintothewater,andsailed,smoothlyaway。Hehungontohistree。
  “Well,I’llbedamned!”hecriedcrossly。Thenhelaughed。
  Shewascomingperilouslydown。
  “Mind!”hewarnedher。Hestoodwithhisbacktothetree,waiting。”Comenow,“hecalled,openinghisarms。
  Sheletherselfrun。Hecaughther,andtogethertheystood,watchingthedarkwaterscoopattherawedgeofthebank。
  Theparcelhadsailedoutofsight。
  “Itdoesn’tmatter,“shesaid。
  Heheldhercloseandkissedher。Therewasonlyroom,fortheirfourfeet。
  “It’saswindle!”hesaid。”Butthere’sarutwhereaman,hasbeen,soifwegoonIguessweshallfindthepathagain。”
  Theriverslidandtwineditsgreatvolume。Ontheotherbank,cattlewerefeedingonthedesolateflats。Thecliffrosehigh,abovePaulandClaraontheirrighthand。Theystoodagainst,thetreeinthewaterysilence。
  “Letustrygoingforward,“hesaid;andtheystruggled,intheredclayalongthegrooveaman’snailedbootshadmade。
  Theywerehotandflushed。Theirbarkledshoeshungheavyon,theirsteps。Atlasttheyfoundthebrokenpath。Itwaslittered,withrubblefromthewater,butatanyrateitwaseasier。
  Theycleanedtheirbootswithtwigs。Hisheartwasbeatingthick,andfast。
  Suddenly,comingontothelittlelevel,hesawtwofigures,ofmenstandingsilentatthewater’sedge。Hisheartleaped。
  Theywerefishing。HeturnedandputhishandupwarninglytoClara。
  Shehesitated,buttonedhercoat。Thetwowentontogether。
  Thefishermenturnedcuriouslytowatchthetwointruders,ontheirprivacyandsolitude。Theyhadhadafire,butitwas,nearlyout。Allkeptperfectlystill。Thementurnedagainto,theirfishing,stoodoverthegreyglintingriverlikestatues。
  Clarawentwithbowedhead,flushing;hewaslaughingtohimself。
  Directlytheypassedoutofsightbehindthewillows。
  “Nowtheyoughttobedrowned,“saidPaulsoftly。
  Claradidnotanswer。Theytoiledforwardalongatinypath,ontheriver’slip。Suddenlyitvanished。Thebankwassheerred,solidclayinfrontofthem,slopingstraightintotheriver。
  Hestoodandcursedbeneathhisbreath,settinghisteeth。
  “It’simpossible!”saidClara。
  Hestooderect,lookinground。Justaheadweretwoislets,inthestream,coveredwithosiers。Buttheywereunattainable。
  Thecliffcamedownlikeaslopingwallfromfarabovetheirheads。
  Behind,notfarback,werethefishermen。Acrosstheriverthe,distantcattlefedsilentlyinthedesolateafternoon。Hecursed,againdeeplyunderhisbreath。Hegazedupthegreatsteepbank。
  Wastherenohopebuttoscalebacktothepublicpath?
  “Stopaminute,“hesaid,and,digginghisheelssideways,intothesteepbankofredclay,hebegannimblytomount。
  Helookedacrossateverytree-foot。Atlasthefoundwhathewanted。
  Twobeech-treessidebysideonthehillheldalittlelevelonthe,upperfacebetweentheirroots。Itwaslitteredwithdampleaves,butitwoulddo。Thefishermenwereperhapssufficientlyoutofsight。
  Hethrewdownhisrainproofandwavedtohertocome。
  Shetoiledtohisside。Arrivingthere,shelookedathim,heavily,dumbly,andlaidherheadonhisshoulder。Heheldherfast,ashelookedround。Theyweresafeenoughfromallbutthesmall,lonelycowsovertheriver。Hesunkhismouthonherthroat,wherehefeltherheavypulsebeatunderhislips。Everythingwas,perfectlystill。Therewasnothingintheafternoonbutthemselves。
  Whenshearose,he,lookingonthegroundallthetime,sawsuddenlysprinkledontheblackwetbeech-rootsmanyscarlet,carnationpetals,likesplasheddropsofblood;andred,small,splashesfellfromherbosom,streamingdownherdresstoherfeet。
  “Yourflowersaresmashed,“hesaid。
  Shelookedathimheavilyassheputbackherhair。
  Suddenlyheputhisfinger-tipsonhercheek。
  “Whydostlooksoheavy?”hereproachedher。
  Shesmiledsadly,asifshefeltaloneinherself。Hecaressed,hercheekwithhisfingers,andkissedher。
  “Nay!”hesaid。”Nevertheebother!”
  Shegrippedhisfingerstight,andlaughedshakily。
  Thenshedroppedherhand。Heputthehairbackfromherbrows,strokinghertemples,kissingthemlightly。
  “Butthashouldnaworrit!”hesaidsoftly,pleading。
  “No,Idon’tworry!”shelaughedtenderlyandresigned。
  “Yea,thadoes!,Dunnatheeworrit,“heimplored,caressing。
  “No!”sheconsoledhim,kissinghim。
  Theyhadastiffclimbtogettothetopagain。Ittookthem,aquarterofanhour。Whenhegotontothelevelgrass,hethrew,offhiscap,wipedthesweatfromhisforehead,andsighed。
  “Nowwe’rebackattheordinarylevel,“hesaid。
  Shesatdown,panting,onthetussockygrass。Hercheeks,wereflushedpink。Hekissedher,andshegavewaytojoy。
  “AndnowI’llcleanthybootsandmaketheefit,forrespectablefolk,“hesaid。
  Hekneeledatherfeet,workedawaywithastickandtufts,ofgrass。Sheputherfingersinhishair,drewhisheadtoher,andkissedit。
  “WhatamIsupposedtobedoing,“hesaid,lookingatherlaughing;
  “cleaningshoesordibblingwithlove?,Answermethat!”
  “JustwhicheverIplease,“shereplied。
  “I’myourboot-boyforthetimebeing,andnothingelse!”
  Buttheyremainedlookingintoeachother’seyesandlaughing。
  Thentheykissedwithlittlenibblingkisses。
  “T-t-t-t!”hewentwithhistongue,likehismother。
  “Itellyou,nothinggetsdonewhenthere’sawomanabout。”
  Andhereturnedtohisboot-cleaning,singingsoftly。
  Shetouchedhisthickhair,andhekissedherfingers。Heworked,awayathershoes。Atlasttheywerequitepresentable。
  “Thereyouare,yousee!”hesaid。”Aren’tIagreathandat,restoringyoutorespectability?,Standup!
  There,youlookasirreproachableasBritanniaherself!”
  Hecleanedhisownbootsalittle,washedhishandsinapuddle,andsang。TheywentonintoCliftonvillage。Hewasmadlyinlove,withher;everymovementshemade,everycreaseinhergarments,sentahotflashthroughhimandseemedadorable。
  Theoldladyatwhosehousetheyhadteawasrousedintogaiety,bythem。
  “Icouldwishyou’dhadsomethingofabetterday,“shesaid,hoveringround。
  “Nay!”helaughed。”We’vebeensayinghowniceitis。”
  Theoldladylookedathimcuriously。Therewasapeculiar,glowandcharmabouthim。Hiseyesweredarkandlaughing。
  Herubbedhismoustachewithagladmovement。
  “HaveyoubeensayingSO!”sheexclaimed,alightrousing,inheroldeyes。
  “Truly!”helaughed。
  “ThenI’msuretheday’sgoodenough,“saidtheoldlady。
  Shefussedabout,anddidnotwanttoleavethem。
  “Idon’tknowwhetheryou’dlikesomeradishesaswell,“
  shesaidtoClara;“butI’vegotsomeinthegarden——ANDacucumber。”
  Claraflushed。Shelookedveryhandsome。
  “Ishouldlikesomeradishes,“sheanswered。
  Andtheoldladypotteredoffgleefully。
  “Ifsheknew!”saidClaraquietlytohim。
  “Well,shedoesn’tknow;anditshowswe’reniceinourselves,atanyrate。Youlookquiteenoughtosatisfyanarchangel,andI’m,sureIfeelharmless——so——ifitmakesyoulooknice,andmakesfolk,happywhentheyhaveus,andmakesushappy——why,we’renotcheating,themoutofmuch!”
  Theywentonwiththemeal。Whentheyweregoingaway,theoldladycametimidlywiththreetinydahliasinfullblow,neatasbees,andspeckledscarletandwhite。ShestoodbeforeClara,pleasedwithherself,saying:
  “Idon’tknowwhether——“andholdingtheflowersforward,inheroldhand。
  “Oh,howpretty!”criedClara,acceptingtheflowers。
  “Shallshehavethemall?”askedPaulreproachfullyofthe,oldwoman。
  “Yes,sheshallhavethemall,“shereplied,beamingwithjoy。
  “Youhavegotenoughforyourshare。”
  “Ah,butIshallaskhertogivemeone!”heteased。
  “Thenshedoesasshepleases,“saidtheoldlady,smiling。
  Andshebobbedalittlecurtseyofdelight。
  Clarawasratherquietanduncomfortable。Astheywalkedalong,hesaid:
  “Youdon’tfeelcriminal,doyou?”
  Shelookedathimwithstartledgreyeyes。
  “Criminal!”shesaid。”No。”
  “Butyouseemtofeelyouhavedoneawrong?”
  “No,“shesaid。”Ionlythink,’Iftheyknew!’“
  “Iftheyknew,they’dceasetounderstand。Asitis,theydo,understand,andtheylikeit。Whatdotheymatter?,Here,withonly,thetreesandme,youdon’tfeelnottheleastbitwrong,doyou?”
  Hetookherbythearm,heldherfacinghim,holdinghereyes,withhis。Somethingfrettedhim。
  “Notsinners,arewe?”hesaid,withanuneasylittlefrown。
  “No,“shereplied。
  Hekissedher,laughing。
  “Youlikeyourlittlebitofguiltiness,Ibelieve,“hesaid。
  “IbelieveEveenjoyedit,whenshewentcoweringoutofParadise。”
  Buttherewasacertainglowandquietnessaboutherthatmade,himglad。Whenhewasaloneintherailway-carriage,hefound,himselftumultuouslyhappy,andthepeopleexceedinglynice,andthenightlovely,andeverythinggood。
  Mrs。Morelwassittingreadingwhenhegothome。Herhealth,wasnotgoodnow,andtherehadcomethativorypallorintoherface,whichhenevernoticed,andwhichafterwardsheneverforgot。
  Shedidnotmentionherownill-healthtohim。Afterall,shethought,itwasnotmuch。
  “Youarelate!”shesaid,lookingathim。
  Hiseyeswereshining;hisfaceseemedtoglow。Hesmiled,toher。
  “Yes;I’vebeendownCliftonGrovewithClara。”
  Hismotherlookedathimagain。
  “Butwon’tpeopletalk?”shesaid。
  “Why?,Theyknowshe’sasuffragette,andsoon。Andwhat,iftheydotalk!”
  “Ofcourse,theremaybenothingwronginit,“saidhismother。
  “Butyouknowwhatfolksare,andifonceshegetstalkedabout——“
  “Well,Ican’thelpit。Theirjawisn’tsoalmightyimportant,afterall。”
  “IthinkyououghttoconsiderHER。”
  “SoIDO!,Whatcanpeoplesay?——thatwetakeawalktogether。
  Ibelieveyou’rejealous。”
  “YouknowIshouldbeGLADifsheweren’tamarriedwoman。”
  “Well,mydear,shelivesseparatefromherhusband,andtalks,onplatforms;soshe’salreadysingledoutfromthesheep,and,asfar,asIcansee,hasn’tmuchtolose。No;herlife’snothingtoher,sowhat’stheworthofnothing?,Shegoeswithme——itbecomessomething。
  Thenshemustpay——webothmustpay!,Folkaresofrightenedofpaying;
  they’dratherstarveanddie。”
  “Verywell,myson。We’llseehowitwillend。”
  “Verywell,mymother。I’llabidebytheend。”
  “We’llsee!”
  “Andshe’s——she’sAWFULLYnice,mother;sheisreally!
  Youdon’tknow!”
  “That’snotthesameasmarryingher。”
  “It’sperhapsbetter。”
  Therewassilenceforawhile。Hewanted,toaskhismothersomething,butwasafraid。
  “Shouldyouliketoknowher?”Hehesitated。
  “Yes,“saidMrs。Morelcoolly。”Ishouldliketoknow,whatshe’slike。”
  “Butshe’snice,mother,sheis!,Andnotabitcommon!”
  “Ineversuggestedshewas。”
  “Butyouseemtothinkshe’s——notasgoodas——,She’sbetterthan,ninety-ninefolkoutofahundred,Itellyou!,She’sBETTER,sheis!
  She’sfair,she’shonest,she’sstraight!,Thereisn’tanything,underhandorsuperiorabouther。Don’tbemeanabouther!”
  Mrs。Morelflushed。
  “IamsureIamnotmeanabouther。Shemaybequite,asyousay,but——“
  “Youdon’tapprove,“hefinished。
  “Anddoyouexpectmeto?”sheansweredcoldly。
  “Yes!——yes!——ifyou’danythingaboutyou,you’dbeglad!
  DoyouWANTtoseeher?”
  “IsaidIdid。”
  “ThenI’llbringher——shallIbringherhere?”
  “Youpleaseyourself。”
  “ThenIWILLbringherhere——oneSunday——totea。Ifyouthink,ahorridthingabouther,Ishan’tforgiveyou。”
  Hismotherlaughed。
  “Asifitwouldmakeanydifference!”shesaid。Heknewhe,hadwon。
  “Oh,butitfeelssofine,whenshe’sthere!,She’ssuch,aqueeninherway。”
  OccasionallyhestillwalkedalittlewayfromchapelwithMiriam,andEdgar。Hedidnotgouptothefarm。She,however,wasverymuch,thesamewithhim,andhedidnotfeelembarrassedinherpresence。
  Oneeveningshewasalonewhenheaccompaniedher。Theybegan,bytalkingbooks:,itwastheirunfailingtopic。Mrs。Morelhad,saidthathisandMiriam’saffairwaslikeafirefedonbooks——if,therewerenomorevolumesitwoulddieout。Miriam,forherpart,boastedthatshecouldreadhimlikeabook,couldplaceherfinger,anyminuteonthechapterandtheline。He,easilytakenin,believedthatMiriamknewmoreabouthimthananyoneelse。Soit,pleasedhimtotalktoherabouthimself,likethesimplestegoist。
  Verysoontheconversationdriftedtohisowndoings。Itflattered,himimmenselythathewasofsuchsupremeinterest。
  “Andwhathaveyoubeendoinglately?”
  “I——oh,notmuch!,ImadeasketchofBestwoodfromthegarden,thatisnearlyrightatlast。It’sthehundredthtry。”
  Sotheywenton。Thenshesaid:
  “You’venotbeenout,then,lately?”
  “Yes;IwentupCliftonGroveonMondayafternoonwithClara。”
  “Itwasnotveryniceweather,“saidMiriam,“wasit?”
  “ButIwantedtogoout,anditwasallright。TheTrent,ISfull。”
  “AnddidyougotoBarton?”sheasked。
  “No;wehadteainClifton。”
  “DIDyou!,Thatwouldbenice。”
  “Itwas!,Thejolliestoldwoman!,Shegaveusseveral,pompomdahlias,asprettyasyoulike。”
  Miriambowedherheadandbrooded。Hewasquiteunconscious,ofconcealinganythingfromher。
  “Whatmadehergivethemyou?”sheasked。
  Helaughed。
  “Becauseshelikedus——becausewewerejolly,Ishouldthink。”
  Miriamputherfingerinhermouth。
  “Wereyoulatehome?”sheasked。
  Atlastheresentedhertone。
  “Icaughttheseven-thirty。”
  “Ha!”
  Theywalkedoninsilence,andhewasangry。
  “AndhowISClara?”askedMiriam。
  “Quiteallright,Ithink。”
  “That’sgood!”shesaid,withatingeofirony。”Bytheway,whatofherhusband?,Oneneverhearsanythingofhim。”
  “He’sgotsomeotherwoman,andisalsoquiteallright,“
  hereplied。”Atleast,soIthink。”
  “Isee——youdon’tknowforcertain。Don’tyouthinkaposition,likethatishardonawoman?”
  “Rottenlyhard!”
  “It’ssounjust!”saidMiriam。”Themandoesashelikes——“
  “Thenletthewomanalso,“hesaid。
  “Howcanshe?,Andifshedoes,lookatherposition!”
  “Whatofit?”
  “Why,it’simpossible!,Youdon’tunderstandwhatawomanforfeits——“
  “No,Idon’t。Butifawoman’sgotnothingbutherfairfame,tofeedon,why,it’sthintack,andadonkeywoulddieofit!”
  Sosheunderstoodhismoralattitude,atleast,andsheknew,hewouldactaccordingly。
  Sheneveraskedhimanythingdirect,butshegottoknowenough。
  Anotherday,whenhesawMiriam,theconversationturned,tomarriage,thentoClara’smarriagewithDawes。
  “Yousee,“hesaid,“sheneverknewthefearfulimportance,ofmarriage。Shethoughtitwasallintheday’smarch——itwould,havetocome——andDawes——well,agoodmanywomenwouldhavegiven,theirsoulstogethim;sowhynothim?,Thenshedevelopedinto,thefemmeincomprise,andtreatedhimbadly,I’llbetmyboots。”
  “Andshelefthimbecausehedidn’tunderstandher?”
  “Isupposeso。Isupposeshehadto。Itisn’taltogether,aquestionofunderstanding;it’saquestionofliving。Withhim,shewasonlyhalf-alive;therestwasdormant,deadened。Andthe,dormantwomanwasthefemmeincomprise,andsheHADtobeawakened。”
  “Andwhatabouthim。”
  “Idon’tknow。Iratherthinkhelovesherasmuchashecan,buthe’safool。”
  “Itwassomethinglikeyourmotherandfather,“saidMiriam。
  “Yes;butmymother,Ibelieve,gotrealjoyandsatisfaction,outofmyfatheratfirst。Ibelieveshehadapassionforhim;
  that’swhyshestayedwithhim。Afterall,theywereboundto,eachother。”
  “Yes,“saidMiriam。
  “That’swhatoneMUSTHAVE,Ithink,“hecontinued——“thereal,realflameoffeelingthroughanotherperson——once,onlyonce,ifitonlylaststhreemonths。See,mymotherlooksasifshe’d,HADeverythingthatwasnecessaryforherlivinganddeveloping。
  There’snotatinybitoffeelingofsterilityabouther。”
  “No,“saidMiriam。
  “Andwithmyfather,atfirst,I’msureshehadtherealthing。
  Sheknows;shehasbeenthere。Youcanfeetitabouther,andabouthim,andabouthundredsofpeopleyoumeeteveryday;and,onceithas,happenedtoyou,youcangoonwithanythingandripen。”
  “Whathappened,exactly?”askedMiriam。
  “It’ssohardtosay,butthesomethingbigandintensethat,changesyouwhenyoureallycometogetherwithsomebodyelse。
  Italmostseemstofertiliseyoursoulandmakeitthatyoucango,onandmature。”
  “Andyouthinkyourmotherhaditwithyourfather?”
  “Yes;andatthebottomshefeelsgratefultohimforgiving,ither,evennow,thoughtheyaremilesapart。”
  “AndyouthinkClaraneverhadit?”
  “I’msure。”
  Miriamponderedthis。Shesawwhathewasseeking——asort,ofbaptismoffireinpassion,itseemedtoher。Sherealised,thathewouldneverbesatisfiedtillhehadit。Perhapsitwas,essentialtohim,astosomemen,tosowwildoats;andafterwards,whenhewassatisfied,hewouldnotragewithrestlessnessanymore,butcouldsettledownandgiveherhislifeintoherhands。Well,then,ifhemustgo,lethimgoandhavehisfill——somethingbigandintense,hecalledit。Atanyrate,whenhehadgotit,hewouldnotwant,it——thathesaidhimself;hewouldwanttheotherthingthatshe,couldgivehim。Hewouldwanttobeowned,sothathecouldwork。
  Itseemedtoherabitterthingthathemustgo,butshecouldlet,himgointoaninnforaglassofwhisky,soshecouldlethimgo,toClara,solongasitwassomethingthatwouldsatisfyaneedinhim,andleavehimfreeforherselftopossess。
  “HaveyoutoldyourmotheraboutClara?”sheasked。
  Sheknewthiswouldbeatestoftheseriousnessofhis,feelingfortheotherwoman:,sheknewhewasgoingtoClarafor,somethingvital,notasamangoesforpleasuretoaprostitute,ifhetoldhismother。
  “Yes,“hesaid,“andsheiscomingtoteaonSunday。”
  “Toyourhouse?”
  “Yes;Iwantmatertoseeher。”
  “Ah!”
  Therewasasilence。Thingshadgonequickerthanshethought。
  Shefeltasuddenbitternessthathecouldleavehersosoon,andsoentirely。AndwasClaratobeacceptedbyhispeople,whohadbeensohostiletoherself?
  “ImaycallinasIgotochapel,“shesaid。”Itisalong,timesinceIsawClara。”
  “Verywell,“hesaid,astonished,andunconsciouslyangry。
  OntheSundayafternoonhewenttoKestontomeetClaraat,thestation。Ashestoodontheplatformhewastryingtoexamine,inhimselfifhehadapremonition。
  “DoIFEELasifshe’dcome?”hesaidtohimself,andhetried,tofindout。Hisheartfeltqueerandcontracted。Thatseemed,likeforeboding。ThenheHADaforebodingshewouldnotcome!
  Thenshewouldnotcome,andinsteadoftakingheroverthe,fieldshome,ashehadimagined,hewouldhavetogoalone。
  Thetrainwaslate;theafternoonwouldbewasted,andtheevening。
  Hehatedherfornotcoming。Whyhadshepromised,then,ifshe,couldnotkeepherpromise?,Perhapsshehadmissedhertrain——he,himselfwasalwaysmissingtrains——butthatwasnoreasonwhy,sheshouldmissthisparticularone。Hewasangrywithher;
  hewasfurious。
  Suddenlyhesawthetraincrawling,sneakingroundthecorner。
  Here,then,wasthetrain,butofcourseshehadnotcome。Thegreen,enginehissedalongtheplatform,therowofbrowncarriagesdrewup,severaldoorsopened。No;shehadnotcome!,No!,Yes;ah,there,shewas!,Shehadabigblackhaton!,Hewasathersideinamoment。
  “Ithoughtyouweren’tcoming,“hesaid。
  Shewaslaughingratherbreathlesslyassheputoutherhand,tohim;theireyesmet。Hetookherquicklyalongtheplatform,talkingatagreatratetohidehisfeeling。Shelookedbeautiful。
  Inherhatwerelargesilkroses,colouredliketarnishedgold。
  Hercostumeofdarkclothfittedsobeautifullyoverherbreast,andshoulders。Hispridewentupashewalkedwithher。
  Hefeltthestationpeople,whoknewhim,eyedherwithawe,andadmiration。
  “Iwassureyouweren’tcoming,“helaughedshakily。
  Shelaughedinanswer,almostwithalittlecry。
  “AndIwondered,whenIwasinthetrain,WHATEVERIshould,doifyouweren’tthere!”shesaid。
  Hecaughtherhandimpulsively,andtheywentalong,thenarrowtwitchel。TheytooktheroadintoNuttalland,overtheReckoningHouseFarm。Itwasablue,mildday。
  Everywherethebrownleaveslayscattered;manyscarlethips,stooduponthehedgebesidethewood。Hegatheredafewforhertowear。
  “Though,really,“hesaid,ashefittedthemintothebreast,ofhercoat,“yououghttoobjecttomygettingthem,becauseof,thebirds。Buttheydon’tcaremuchforrose-hipsinthispart,wheretheycangetplentyofstuff。Youoftenfindtheberries,goingrotteninthespringtime。”
  Sohechattered,scarcelyawareofwhathesaid,onlyknowing,hewasputtingberriesinthebosomofhercoat,whileshestood,patientlyforhim。Andshewatchedhisquickhands,sofulloflife,anditseemedtohershehadneverSEENanythingbefore。Tillnow,everythinghadbeenindistinct。
  Theycameneartothecolliery。Itstoodquitestillandblack,amongthecorn-fields,itsimmenseheapofslagseenrisingalmost,fromtheoats。
  “Whatapitythereisacoal-pitherewhereitissopretty!”
  saidClara。
  “Doyouthinkso?”heanswered。”Yousee,Iamsousedtoit,Ishouldmissit。No;andIlikethepitshereandthere。Ilikethe,rowsoftrucks,andtheheadstocks,andthesteaminthedaytime,andthelightsatnight。WhenIwasaboy,Ialwaysthought,apillarofcloudbydayandapillaroffirebynightwasapit,withitssteam,anditslights,andtheburningbank,——andIthought,theLordwasalwaysatthepit-top。”
  Astheydrewnearhomeshewalkedinsilence,andseemed,tohangback。Hepressedherfingersinhisown。Sheflushed,butgavenoresponse。
  “Don’tyouwanttocomehome?”heasked。
  “Yes,Iwanttocome,“shereplied。
  Itdidnotoccurtohimthatherpositioninhishomewould,beratherapeculiaranddifficultone。Tohimitseemedjustasif,oneofhismenfriendsweregoingtobeintroducedtohismother,onlynicer。
  TheMorelslivedinahouseinanuglystreetthatrandown,asteephill。Thestreetitselfwashideous。Thehousewasrather,superiortomost。Itwasold,grimy,withabigbaywindow,andit,wassemi-detached;butitlookedgloomy。ThenPaulopenedthedoor,tothegarden,andallwasdifferent。Thesunnyafternoonwasthere,likeanotherland。Bythepathgrewtansyandlittletrees。Infront,ofthewindowwasaplotofsunnygrass,witholdlilacsroundit。
  Andawaywentthegarden,withheapsofdishevelledchrysanthemums,inthesunshine,downtothesycamore-tree,andthefield,andbeyondonelookedoverafewred-roofedcottagestothehills,withalltheglowoftheautumnafternoon。
  Mrs。Morelsatinherrocking-chair,wearingherblack,silkblouse。Hergrey-brownhairwastakensmoothbackfromherbrow,andherhightemples;herfacewasratherpale。Clara,suffering,followedPaulintothekitchen。Mrs。Morelrose。Clarathought,heralady,evenratherstiff。Theyoungwomanwasverynervous。
  Shehadalmostawistfullook,almostresigned。
  “Mother——Clara,“saidPaul。
  Mrs。Morelheldoutherhandandsmiled。
  “Hehastoldmeagooddealaboutyou,“shesaid。
  ThebloodflamedinClara’scheek。
  “Ihopeyoudon’tmindmycoming,“shefaltered。
  “Iwaspleasedwhenhesaidhewouldbringyou,“repliedMrs。Morel。
  Paul,watching,felthisheartcontractwithpain。Hismother,lookedsosmall,andsallow,anddone-forbesidetheluxuriantClara。
  “It’ssuchaprettyday,mother!”hesaid。”Andwesawajay。”
  Hismotherlookedathim;hehadturnedtoher。Shethought,whatamanheseemed,inhisdark,well-madeclothes。Hewaspale,anddetached-looking;itwouldbehardforanywomantokeephim。
  Herheartglowed;thenshewassorryforClara。
  “Perhapsyou’llleaveyourthingsintheparlour,“
  saidMrs。Morelnicelytotheyoungwoman。
  “Oh,thankyou,“shereplied。
  “Comeon,“saidPaul,andheledthewayintothelittle,frontroom,withitsoldpiano,itsmahoganyfurniture,itsyellowing,marblemantelpiece。Afirewasburning;theplacewaslittered,withbooksanddrawing-boards。”Ileavemythingslyingabout,“
  hesaid。”It’ssomucheasier。”
  Shelovedhisartist’sparaphernalia,andthebooks,andthe,photosofpeople。Soonhewastellingher:,thiswasWilliam,thiswasWilliam’syoungladyintheeveningdress,thiswasAnnie,andherhusband,thiswasArthurandhiswifeandthebaby。
  Shefeltasifshewerebeingtakenintothefamily。Heshowed,herphotos,books,sketches,andtheytalkedalittlewhile。
  Thentheyreturnedtothekitchen。Mrs。Morelputasideherbook。
  Claraworeablouseoffinesilkchiffon,withnarrowblack-and-white,stripes;herhairwasdonesimply,coiledontopofherhead。
  Shelookedratherstatelyandreserved。
  “YouhavegonetolivedownSneintonBoulevard?”saidMrs。Morel。
  “WhenIwasagirl——girl,Isay!——whenIwasayoungwomanWElived,inMinervaTerrace。”
  “Oh,didyou!”saidClara。”Ihaveafriendinnumber6。”
  Andtheconversationhadstarted。TheytalkedNottingham,andNottinghampeople;itinterestedthemboth。Clarawasstill,rathernervous;Mrs。Morelwasstillsomewhatonherdignity。
  Sheclippedherlanguageveryclearandprecise。Buttheyweregoing,togetonwelltogether,Paulsaw。
  Mrs。Morelmeasuredherselfagainsttheyoungerwoman,andfoundherselfeasilystronger。Clarawasdeferential。
  SheknewPaul’ssurprisingregardforhismother,andshehad,dreadedthemeeting,expectingsomeoneratherhardandcold。
  Shewassurprisedtofindthislittleinterestedwomanchattingwith,suchreadiness;andthenshefelt,asshefeltwithPaul,thatshewouldnot,caretostandinMrs。Morel’sway。Therewassomethingsohard,andcertaininhismother,asifsheneverhadamisgivinginherlife。
  PresentlyMorelcamedown,ruffledandyawning,fromhis,afternoonsleep。Hescratchedhisgrizzledhead,heplodded,inhisstockingfeet,hiswaistcoathungopenoverhisshirt。
  Heseemedincongruous。
  “ThisisMrs。Dawes,father,“saidPaul。
  ThenMorelpulledhimselftogether。ClarasawPaul’smanner,ofbowingandshakinghands。
  “Oh,indeed!”exclaimedMorel。”Iamverygladtoseeyou——Iam,Iassureyou。Butdon’tdisturbyourself。No,nomakeyourself,quitecomfortable,andbeverywelcome。”
  Clarawasastonishedatthisfloodofhospitalityfrom,theoldcollier。Hewassocourteous,sogallant!,Shethought,himmostdelightful。
  “Andmayyouhavecomefar?”heasked。
  “OnlyfromNottingham,“shesaid。
  “FromNottingham!,Thenyouhavehadabeautifulday,foryourjourney。”
  Thenhestrayedintothescullerytowashhishandsandface,andfromforceofhabitcameontothehearthwiththetowelto,dryhimself。
  AtteaClarafelttherefinementandsang-froidofthehousehold。
  Mrs。Morelwasperfectlyatherease。Thepouringouttheteaand,attendingtothepeoplewentonunconsciously,withoutinterrupting,herinhertalk。Therewasalotofroomattheovaltable;thechina,ofdarkbluewillow-patternlookedprettyontheglossycloth。
  Therewasalittlebowlofsmall,yellowchrysanthemums。
  Clarafeltshecompletedthecircle,anditwasapleasuretoher。
  Butshewasratherafraidoftheself-possessionoftheMorels,fatherandall。Shetooktheirtone;therewasafeelingofbalance。
  Itwasacool,clearatmosphere,whereeveryonewashimself,andinharmony。Claraenjoyedit,buttherewasafeardeepatthe,bottomofher。
  PaulclearedthetablewhilsthismotherandClaratalked。
  Clarawasconsciousofhisquick,vigorousbodyasitcameandwent,seemingblownquicklybyawindatitswork。Itwasalmostlike,thehitherandthitherofaleafthatcomesunexpected。Mostofherself,wentwithhim。Bythewaysheleanedforward,asiflistening,Mrs。Morelcouldseeshewaspossessedelsewhereasshetalked,andagaintheelderwomanwassorryforher。
  Havingfinished,hestrolleddownthegarden,leavingthetwo,womentotalk。Itwasahazy,sunnyafternoon,mildandsoft。
  Claraglancedthroughthewindowafterhimasheloiteredamong,thechrysanthemums。Shefeltasifsomethingalmosttangiblefastened,hertohim;yetheseemedsoeasyinhisgraceful,indolentmovement,sodetachedashetiedupthetoo-heavyflowerbranchestotheirstakes,thatshewantedtoshriekinherhelplessness。
  Mrs。Morelrose。