Theywent。Itwascoldandratherdismal。Shewaitedforhim,tobewarmandtenderwithher,insteadofwhichheseemedhardly,awareofher。Hesatintherailway-carriage,lookingout,andwas,startledwhenshespoketohim。Hewasnotdefinitelythinking。
  Thingsseemedasiftheydidnotexist。Shewentacrosstohim。
  “Whatisitdear?”sheasked。
  “Nothing!”hesaid。”Don’tthosewindmillsailslookmonotonous?”
  Hesatholdingherhand。Hecouldnottalknorthink。
  Itwasacomfort,however,tositholdingherhand。Shewas,dissatisfiedandmiserable。Hewasnotwithher;shewasnothing。
  Andintheeveningtheysatamongthesandhills,lookingat,theblack,heavysea。
  “Shewillnevergivein,“hesaidquietly。
  Clara’sheartsank。
  “No,“shereplied。
  “Therearedifferentwaysofdying。Myfather’speople,arefrightened,andhavetobehauledoutoflifeintodeath,likecattleintoaslaughter-house,pulledbytheneck;
  butmymother’speoplearepushedfrombehind,inchbyinch。
  Theyarestubbornpeople,andwon’tdie。”
  “Yes,“saidClara。
  “Andshewon’tdie。Shecan’t。Mr。Renshaw,theparson,wasin,theotherday。’Think!’hesaidtoher;’youwillhaveyourmother,andfather,andyoursisters,andyourson,intheOtherLand。’
  Andshesaid:,’Ihavedonewithoutthemforalongtime,andCAN
  dowithoutthemnow。ItisthelivingIwant,notthedead。’
  Shewantstoliveevennow。”
  “Oh,howhorrible!”saidClara,toofrightenedtospeak。
  “Andshelooksatme,andshewantstostaywithme,“hewent,onmonotonously。”She’sgotsuchawill,itseemsasifshewould,nevergo——never!”
  “Don’tthinkofit!”criedClara。
  “Andshewasreligious——sheisreligiousnow——butitisnogood。
  Shesimplywon’tgivein。Anddoyouknow,IsaidtoheronThursday:,’Mother,ifIhadtodie,I’ddie。
  I’dWILLtodie。’,Andshesaidtome,sharp:,’DoyouthinkI
  haven’t?,Doyouthinkyoucandiewhenyoulike?’“
  Hisvoiceceased。Hedidnotcry,onlywentonspeaking,mo-notonously。Clarawantedtorun。Shelookedround。
  Therewastheblack,re-echoingshore,thedarkskydownonher。
  Shegotupterrified。Shewantedtobewheretherewaslight,wheretherewereotherpeople。Shewantedtobeawayfromhim。
  Hesatwithhisheaddropped,notmovingamuscle。
  “AndIdon’twanthertoeat,“hesaid,“andsheknowsit。
  WhenIaskher:,’Shallyouhaveanything’she’salmostafraidto,say’Yes。’,’I’llhaveacupofBenger’s,’shesays。’It’llonlykeep,yourstrengthup,’Isaidtoher。’Yes’——andshealmostcried——’but,there’ssuchagnawingwhenIeatnothing,Ican’tbearit。’
  SoIwentandmadeherthefood。It’sthecancerthatgnawslike,thatather。Iwishshe’ddie!”
  “Come!”saidClararoughly。”I’mgoing。”
  Hefollowedherdownthedarknessofthesands。Hedid,notcometoher。Heseemedscarcelyawareofherexistence。
  Andshewasafraidofhim,anddislikedhim。
  InthesameacutedazetheywentbacktoNottingham。
  Hewasalwaysbusy,alwaysdoingsomething,alwaysgoingfromone,totheotherofhisfriends。
  OntheMondayhewenttoseeBaxterDawes。Listlessandpale,themanrosetogreettheother,clingingtohischairasheheld,outhishand。
  “Youshouldn’tgetup,“saidPaul。
  Dawessatdownheavily,eyeingMorelwithasortofsuspicion。
  “Don’tyouwasteyourtimeonme,“hesaid,“ifyou’veowt,bettertodo。”
  “Iwantedtocome,“saidPaul。”Here!,Ibroughtyousomesweets。”
  Theinvalidputthemaside。
  “It’snotbeenmuchofaweek-end,“saidMorel。
  “How’syourmother?”askedtheother。
  “Hardlyanydifferent。”
  “Ithoughtshewasperhapsworse,beingasyoudidn’tcome,onSunday。”
  “IwasatSkegness,“saidPaul。”Iwantedachange。”
  Theotherlookedathimwithdarkeyes。Heseemedtobe,waiting,notquitedaringtoask,trustingtobetold。
  “IwentwithClara,“saidPaul。
  “Iknewasmuch,“saidDawesquietly。
  “Itwasanoldpromise,“saidPaul。
  “Youhaveityourownway,“saidDawes。
  ThiswasthefirsttimeClarahadbeendefinitelymentioned,betweenthem。
  “Nay,“saidMorelslowly;“she’stiredofme。”
  AgainDaweslookedathim。
  “SinceAugustshe’sbeengettingtiredofme,“Morelrepeated。
  Thetwomenwereveryquiettogether。Paulsuggestedagame,ofdraughts。Theyplayedinsilence。
  “Is’llgoabroadwhenmymother’sdead,“saidPaul。
  “Abroad!”repeatedDawes。
  “Yes;Idon’tcarewhatIdo。”
  Theycontinuedthegame。Daweswaswinning。
  “Is’llhavetobeginanewstartofsomesort,“saidPaul;
  “andyouaswell,Isuppose。”
  HetookoneofDawes’spieces。
  “Idunnowhere,“saidtheother。
  “Thingshavetohappen,“Morelsaid。”It’snogooddoing,anything——atleast——no,Idon’tknow。Givemesometoffee。”
  Thetwomenatesweets,andbegananothergameofdraughts。
  “Whatmadethatscaronyourmouth?”askedDawes。
  Paulputhishandhastilytohislips,andlookedoverthegarden。
  “Ihadabicycleaccident,“hesaid。
  Dawes’shandtrembledashemovedthepiece。
  “Youshouldn’tha’laughedatme,“hesaid,verylow。
  “When?”
  “ThatnightonWoodboroughRoad,whenyouandherpassed,me——youwithyourhandonhershoulder。”
  “Ineverlaughedatyou,“saidPaul。
  Daweskepthisfingersonthedraught-piece。
  “Ineverknewyouweretheretilltheverysecondwhenyoupassed,“
  saidMorel。
  “Itwasthatasdidme,“Dawessaid,verylow。
  Paultookanothersweet。
  “Ineverlaughed,“hesaid,“exceptasI’malwayslaughing。”
  Theyfinishedthegame。
  ThatnightMorelwalkedhomefromNottingham,inordertohave,somethingtodo。ThefurnacesflaredinaredblotchoverBulwell;
  theblackcloudswerelikealowceiling。Ashewentalongtheten,milesofhighroad,hefeltasifhewerewalkingoutoflife,betweentheblacklevelsoftheskyandtheearth。Butattheend,wasonlythesick-room。Ifhewalkedandwalkedforever,therewas,onlythatplacetocometo。
  Hewasnottiredwhenhegotnearhome,orHedidnotknowit。
  Acrossthefieldhecouldseetheredfirelightleapinginher,bedroomwindow。
  “Whenshe’sdead,“hesaidtohimself,“thatfirewillgoout。”
  Hetookoffhisbootsquietlyandcreptupstairs。
  Hismothersdoorwaswideopen,becauseshesleptalonestill。
  Theredfirelightdasheditsglowonthelanding。Softasashadow,hepeepedinherdoorway。
  “Paul!”shemurmured。
  Hisheartseemedtobreakagain。Hewentinandsatbythebed。
  “Howlateyouare!”shemurmured。
  “Notvery,“hesaid。
  “Why,whattimeisit?”Themurmurcameplaintiveandhelpless。
  “It’sonlyjustgoneeleven。”
  Thatwasnottrue;itwasnearlyoneo’clock。
  “Oh!”shesaid;“Ithoughtitwaslater。”
  Andheknewtheunutterablemiseryofhernightsthatwould,notgo。
  “Can’tyousleep,mypigeon?”hesaid。
  “No,Ican’t,“shewailed。
  “Nevermind,Little!”Hesaidcrooning。”Nevermind,mylove。
  I’llstopwithyouhalfanhour,mypigeon;thenperhapsitwill,bebetter。”
  Andhesatbythebedside,slowly,rhythmicallystrokingher,browswithhisfinger-tips,strokinghereyesshut,soothingher,holdingherfingersinhisfreehand。Theycouldhearthesleepers’
  breathingintheotherrooms。
  “Nowgotobed,“shemurmured,lyingquitestillunderhis,fingersandhislove。
  “Willyousleep?”heasked。
  “Yes,Ithinkso。”
  “Youfeelbetter,myLittle,don’tyou?”
  “Yes,“shesaid,likeafretful,half-soothedchild。
  Stillthedaysandtheweekswentby。Hehardlyeverwenttosee,Claranow。Buthewanderedrestlesslyfromonepersontoanother,forsomehelp,andtherewasnoneanywhere。Miriamhadwritten,tohimtenderly。Hewenttoseeher。Herheartwasverysore,whenshesawhim,white,gaunt,withhiseyesdarkandbewildered。
  Herpitycameup,hurtinghertillshecouldnotbearit。
  “Howisshe?”sheasked。
  “Thesame——thesame!”hesaid。”Thedoctorsaysshecan’tlast,butIknowshewill。She’llbehereatChristmas。”
  Miriamshuddered。Shedrewhimtoher;shepressedhimtoherbosom;
  shekissedhimandkissedhim。Hesubmitted,butitwastorture。
  Shecouldnotkisshisagony。Thatremainedaloneandapart。
  Shekissedhisface,androusedhisblood,whilehissoulwasapart,writhingwiththeagonyofdeath。Andshekissedhimandfingered,hisbody,tillatlast,feelinghewouldgomad,hegotawayfromher。
  Itwasnotwhathewantedjustthen——notthat。Andshethoughtshe,hadsoothedhimanddonehimgood。
  Decembercame,andsomesnow。Hestayedathomeallthewhilenow。
  Theycouldnotaffordanurse。Anniecametolookafterhermother;
  theparishnurse,whomtheyloved,cameinmorningandevening。
  PaulsharedthenursingwithAnnie。Often,intheevenings,whenfriendswereinthekitchenwiththem,theyalllaughedtogether,andshookwithlaughter。Itwasreaction。Paulwassocomical,Anniewassoquaint。Thewholepartylaughedtilltheycried,tryingtosubduethesound。AndMrs。Morel,lyingaloneinthe,darknessheardthem,andamongherbitternesswasafeeling,ofrelief。
  ThenPaulwouldgoupstairsgingerly,guiltily,toseeifshe,hadheard。
  “ShallIgiveyousomemilk?”heasked。
  “Alittle,“sherepliedplaintively。
  Andhewouldputsomewaterwithit,sothatitshouldnot,nourishher。Yethelovedhermorethanhisownlife。
  Shehadmorphiaeverynight,andherheartgotfitful。
  Anniesleptbesideher。Paulwouldgoinintheearlymorning,whenhissistergotup。Hismotherwaswastedandalmostashen,inthemorningwiththemorphia。Darkeranddarkergrewhereyes,allpupil,withthetorture。Inthemorningsthewearinessandache,weretoomuchtobear。Yetshecouldnot——wouldnot——weep,oreven,complainmuch。
  “Yousleptabitlaterthismorning,littleone,“hewould,saytoher。
  “DidI?”sheanswered,withfretfulweariness。
  “Yes;it’snearlyeighto’clock。”
  Hestoodlookingoutofthewindow。Thewholecountry,wasbleakandpallidunderthesnow。Thenhefeltherpulse。
  Therewasastrongstrokeandaweakone,likeasoundanditsecho。
  Thatwassupposedtobetokentheend。Shelethimfeelherwrist,knowingwhathewanted。
  Sometimestheylookedineachother’seyes。Thentheyalmost,seemedtomakeanagreement。Itwasalmostasifhewereagreeing,todiealso。Butshedidnotconsenttodie;shewouldnot。
  Herbodywaswastedtoafragmentofash。Hereyesweredarkand,fulloftorture。
  “Can’tyougivehersomethingtoputanendtoit?”heasked,thedoctoratlast。
  Butthedoctorshookhishead。
  “Shecan’tlastmanydaysnow,Mr。Morel,“hesaid。
  Paulwentindoors。
  “Ican’tbearitmuchlonger;weshallallgomad,“saidAnnie。
  Thetwosatdowntobreakfast。
  “Goandsitwithherwhilewehavebreakfast,Minnie,“saidAnnie。
  Butthegirlwasfrightened。
  Paulwentthroughthecountry,throughthewoods,overthesnow。
  Hesawthemarksofrabbitsandbirdsinthewhitesnow。
  Hewanderedmilesandmiles。Asmokyredsunsetcameonslowly,painfully,lingering。Hethoughtshewoulddiethatday。Therewas,adonkeythatcameuptohimoverthesnowbythewood’sedge,andputitsheadagainsthim,andwalkedwithhimalongside。
  Heputhisarmsroundthedonkey’sneck,andstrokedhischeeks,againsthisears。
  Hismother,silent,wasstillalive,withherhardmouth,grippedgrimly,hereyesofdarktortureonlyliving。
  ItwasnearingChristmas;therewasmoresnow。Annieand,hefeltasiftheycouldgoonnomore。Stillherdarkeyes,werealive。Morel,silentandfrightened,obliteratedhimself。
  Sometimeshewouldgointothesick-roomandlookather。
  Thenhebackedout,bewildered。
  Shekeptherholdonlifestill。Theminershadbeenout,onstrike,andreturnedafortnightorsobeforeChristmas。
  Minniewentupstairswiththefeeding-cup。Itwastwodaysafter,themenhadbeenin。
  “Havethemenbeensayingtheirhandsaresore,Minnie?”
  sheasked,inthefaint,querulousvoicethatwouldnotgivein。
  Minniestoodsurprised。
  “NotasIknowof,Mrs。Morel,“sheanswered。
  “ButI’llbettheyaresore,“saidthedyingwoman,asshe,movedherheadwithasighofweariness。”But,atanyrate,there’llbesomethingtobuyinwiththisweek。”
  Notathingdidsheletslip。
  “Yourfather’spitthingswillwantwellairing,Annie,“shesaid,whenthemenweregoingbacktowork。
  “Don’tyoubotheraboutthat,mydear,“saidAnnie。
  OnenightAnnieandPaulwerealone。Nursewasupstairs。
  “She’llliveoverChristmas,“saidAnnie。Theywerebothfull,ofhorror。”Shewon’t,“herepliedgrimly。”Is’llgivehermorphia。”
  “Which?”saidAnnie。
  “AllthatcamefromSheffield,“saidPaul。
  “Ay——do!”saidAnnie。
  Thenextdayhewaspaintinginthebedroom。Sheseemed,tobeasleep。Hesteppedsoftlybackwardsandforwardsathis,painting。Suddenlyhersmallvoicewailed:
  “Don’twalkabout,Paul。”
  Helookedround。Hereyes,likedarkbubblesinherface,werelookingathim。
  “No,mydear,“hesaidgently。Anotherfibreseemedtosnap,inhisheart。
  Thateveninghegotallthemorphiapillstherewere,andtook,themdownstairs。Carefullyhecrushedthemtopowder。
  “Whatareyoudoing?”saidAnnie。
  “Is’llput’eminhernightmilk。”
  Thentheybothlaughedtogetherliketwoconspiringchildren。
  Ontopofalltheirhorrorflickedthislittlesanity。
  NursedidnotcomethatnighttosettleMrs。Moreldown。
  Paulwentupwiththehotmilkinafeeding-cup。Itwasnine,o’clock。
  Shewasrearedupinbed,andheputthefeeding-cupbetweenher,lipsthathewouldhavediedtosavefromanyhurt。Shetookasip,thenputthespoutofthecupawayandlookedathimwithherdark,wonderingeyes。Helookedather。
  “Oh,itISbitter,Paul!”shesaid,makingalittlegrimace。
  “It’sanewsleepingdraughtthedoctorgavemeforyou,“hesaid。
  “Hethoughtitwouldleaveyouinsuchastateinthemorning。”
  “AndIhopeitwon’t,“shesaid,likeachild。
  Shedranksomemoreofthemilk。
  “ButitIShorrid!”shesaid。
  Hesawherfrailfingersoverthecup,herlipsmaking,alittlemove。
  “Iknow——Itastedit,“hesaid。”ButI’llgiveyousomeclean,milkafterwards。”
  “Ithinkso,“shesaid,andshewentonwiththedraught。
  Shewasobedienttohimlikeachild。Hewonderedifsheknew。
  Hesawherpoorwastedthroatmovingasshedrankwithdifficulty。
  Thenherandownstairsformoremilk。Therewerenograinsinthebottom,ofthecup。
  “Hasshehadit?”whisperedAnnie。
  “Yes——andshesaiditwasbitter。”
  “Oh!”laughedAnnie,puttingherunderlipbetweenherteeth。
  “AndItoldheritwasanewdraught。Where’sthatmilk?”
  Theybothwentupstairs。
  “Iwonderwhynursedidn’tcometosettlemedown?”
  complainedthemother,likeachild,wistfully。
  “Shesaidshewasgoingtoaconcert,mylove,“repliedAnnie。
  “Didshe?”
  Theyweresilentaminute。Mrs。Morelgulpedthelittle,cleanmilk。
  “Annie,thatdraughtWAShorrid!”shesaidplaintively。
  “Wasit,mylove?,Well,nevermind。”
  Themothersighedagainwithweariness。Herpulsewas,veryirregular。
  “LetUSsettleyoudown,“saidAnnie。”Perhapsnursewill,besolate。”
  “Ay,“saidthemother——“try。”
  Theyturnedtheclothesback。PaulsawhismotherLIkeagirl,curledupinherflannelnightdress。Quicklytheymadeonehalf,ofthebed,movedher,madetheother,straightenedhernightgown,overhersmallfeet,andcoveredherup。
  “There,“saidPaul,strokinghersoftly。”There!——nowyou’llsleep。”
  “Yes,“shesaid。”Ididn’tthinkyoucoulddothebedsonicely,“
  sheadded,almostgaily。Thenshecurledup,withhercheek,onherhand,herheadsnuggedbetweenhershoulders。Paulput,thelongthinplaitofgreyhairoverhershoulderandkissedher。
  “You’llsleep,mylove,“hesaid。
  “Yes,“sheansweredtrustfully。”Good-night。”
  Theyputoutthelight,anditwasstill。
  Morelwasinbed。Nursedidnotcome。AnnieandPaulcame,tolookatheratabouteleven。Sheseemedtobesleepingasusual,afterherdraught。Hermouthhadcomeabitopen。
  “Shallwesitup?”saidPaul。
  “Is’llliewithherasIalwaysdo,“saidAnnie。”Shemight,wakeup。”
  “Allright。Andcallmeifyouseeanydifference。”
  “Yes。”
  Theylingeredbeforethebedroomfire,feelingthenightbig,andblackandsnowyoutside,theirtwoselvesaloneintheworld。
  Atlasthewentintothenextroomandwenttobed。
  Hesleptalmostimmediately,butkeptwakingeverynowandagain。
  Thenhewentsoundasleep。HestartedawakeatAnnie’swhispered,“Paul,Paul!”Hesawhissisterinherwhitenightdress,withher,longplaitofhairdownherback,standinginthedarkness。
  “Yes?”hewhispered,sittingup。
  “Comeandlookather。”
  Heslippedoutofbed。Abudofgaswasburninginthe,sickchamber。Hismotherlaywithhercheekonherhand,curledup,asshehadgonetosleep。Buthermouthhadfallenopen,andshe,breathedwithgreat,hoarsebreaths,likesnoring,andtherewere,longintervalsbetween。
  “She’sgoing!”hewhispered。
  “Yes,“saidAnnie。
  “Howlonghasshebeenlikeit?”
  “Ionlyjustwokeup。”
  Anniehuddledintothedressing-gown,Paulwrappedhimself,inabrownblanket。Itwasthreeo’clock。Hemendedthefire。
  Thenthetwosatwaiting。Thegreat,snoringbreathwastaken——held,awhile——thengivenback。Therewasaspace——alongspace。
  Thentheystarted。Thegreat,snoringbreathwastakenagain。
  Hebentclosedownandlookedather。
  “Isn’titawful!”whisperedAnnie。
  Henodded。Theysatdownagainhelplessly。Againcamethegreat,snoringbreath。Againtheyhungsuspended。Againitwasgivenback,longandharsh。Thesound,soirregular,atsuchwideintervals,soundedthroughthehouse。Morel,inhisroom,slepton。
  PaulandAnniesatcrouched,huddled,motionless。Thegreatsnoring,soundbeganagain——therewasapainfulpausewhilethebreathwas,held——backcametheraspingbreath。Minuteafterminutepassed。
  Paullookedatheragain,bendinglowoverher。
  “Shemaylastlikethis,“hesaid。
  Theywerebothsilent。Helookedoutofthewindow,andcould,faintlydiscernthesnowonthegarden。
  “Yougotomybed,“hesaidtoAnnie。”I’llsitup。”
  “No,“shesaid,“I’llstopwithyou。”
  “I’dratheryoudidn’t,“hesaid。
  AtlastAnniecreptoutoftheroom,andhewasalone。
  Hehuggedhimselfinhisbrownblanket,crouchedinfrontof,hismother,watching。Shelookeddreadful,withthebottomjaw,fallenback。Hewatched。Sometimeshethoughtthegreatbreath,wouldneverbeginagain。Hecouldnotbearit——thewaiting。
  Thensuddenly,startlinghim,camethegreatharshsound。
  Hemendedthefireagain,noiselessly。Shemustnotbedisturbed。
  Theminuteswentby。Thenightwasgoing,breathbybreath。
  Eachtimethesoundcamehefeltitwringhim,tillatlasthecould,notfeelsomuch。
  Hisfathergotup。Paulheardtheminerdrawinghis,stockingson,yawning。ThenMorel,inshirtandstockings,entered。
  “Hush!”saidPaul。
  Morelstoodwatching。Thenhelookedathisson,helplessly,andinhorror。
  “HadIbetterstopa-whoam?”hewhispered。
  “No。Gotowork。She’lllastthroughto-morrow。”
  “Idon’tthinkso。”
  “Yes。Gotowork。”
  Theminerlookedatheragain,infear,andwentobediently,outoftheroom。Paulsawthetapeofhisgartersswingingagainst,hislegs。
  Afteranotherhalf-hourPaulwentdownstairsanddrankacup,oftea,thenreturned。Morel,dressedforthepit,cameupstairsagain。
  “AmItogo?”hesaid。
  “Yes。”
  AndinafewminutesPaulheardhisfather’sheavystepsgo,thuddingoverthedeadeningsnow。Minerscalledinthestreets,astheytrampedingangstowork。Theterrible,long-drawnbreaths,continued——heave——heave——heave;thenalongpause——then——ah-h-h-h-h!
  asitcameback。Farawayoverthesnowsoundedthehooters,oftheironworks。Oneafteranothertheycrowedandboomed,somesmallandfaraway,somenear,theblowersofthecollieries,andtheotherworks。Thentherewassilence。Hemendedthefire。
  Thegreatbreathsbrokethesilence——shelookedjustthesame。
  Heputbacktheblindandpeeredout。Stillitwasdark。
  Perhapstherewasalightertinge。Perhapsthesnowwasbluer。
  Hedrewuptheblindandgotdressed。Then,shuddering,hedrank,brandyfromthebottleonthewash-stand。ThesnowWASgrowingblue。
  Heheardacartclankingdownthestreet。Yes,itwasseveno’clock,anditwascomingalittlebitlight。Heheardsomepeoplecalling。
  Theworldwaswaking。Agrey,deathlydawncreptoverthesnow。
  Yes,hecouldseethehouses。Heputoutthegas。Itseemed,verydark。Thebreathingcamestill,buthewasalmostusedtoit。
  Hecouldseeher。Shewasjustthesame。Hewonderedifhepiled,heavyclothesontopofheritwouldstop。Helookedather。
  Thatwasnother——notherabit。Ifhepiledtheblanketandheavycoats,onher——
  Suddenlythedooropened,andAnnieentered。Shelooked,athimquestioningly。
  “Justthesame,“hesaidcalmly。
  Theywhisperedtogetheraminute,thenhewentdownstairs,togetbreakfast。Itwastwentytoeight。SoonAnniecamedown。
  “Isn’titawful!,Doesn’tshelookawful!”shewhispered,dazedwithhorror。
  Henodded。
  “Ifshelookslikethat!”saidAnnie。
  “Drinksometea,“hesaid。
  Theywentupstairsagain。Soontheneighbourscamewiththeir,frightenedquestion:
  “Howisshe?”
  Itwentonjustthesame。Shelaywithhercheekinherhand,hermouthfallenopen,andthegreat,ghastlysnorescameandwent。
  Atteno’clocknursecame。Shelookedstrangeandwoebegone。
  “Nurse,“criedPaul,“she’lllastlikethisfordays?”
  “Shecan’t,Mr。Morel,“saidnurse。”Shecan’t。”
  Therewasasilence。
  “Isn’titdreadful!”wailedthenurse。”Whowouldhavethought,shecouldstandit?,Godownnow,Mr。Morel,godown。”
  Atlast,atabouteleveno’clock,hewentdownstairs,andsatintheneighbour’shouse。Anniewasdownstairsalso。
  NurseandArthurwereupstairs。Paulsatwithhisheadinhishand。
  SuddenlyAnniecameflyingacrosstheyardcrying,halfmad:
  “Paul——Paul——she’sgone!”
  Inasecondhewasbackinhisownhouseandupstairs。
  Shelaycurledupandstill,withherfaceonherhand,andnurse,waswipinghermouth。Theyallstoodback。Hekneeleddown,andputhisfacetohersandhisarmsroundher:
  “Mylove——mylove——oh,mylove!”hewhisperedagainandagain。
  “Mylove——oh,mylove!”
  Thenheheardthenursebehindhim,crying,saying:
  “She’sbetter,Mr。Morel,she’sbetter。”
  Whenhetookhisfaceupfromhiswarm,deadmotherhewent,straightdownstairsandbeganblackinghisboots。
  Therewasagooddealtodo,letterstowrite,andsoon。
  Thedoctorcameandglancedather,andsighed。
  “Ay——poorthing!”hesaid,thenturnedaway。”Well,call,atthesurgeryaboutsixforthecertificate。”
  Thefathercamehomefromworkataboutfouro’clock。He,draggedsilentlyintothehouseandsatdown。Minniebustledto,givehimhisdinner。Tired,helaidhisblackarmsonthetable。
  Therewereswedeturnipsforhisdinner,whichheliked。
  Paulwonderedifheknew。Itwassometime,andnobodyhadspoken。
  Atlastthesonsaid:
  “Younoticedtheblindsweredown?”
  Morellookedup。
  “No,“hesaid。”Why——hasshegone?”
  “Yes。”
  “Whenworthat?”
  “Abouttwelvethismorning。”
  “H’m!”
  Theminersatstillforamoment,thenbeganhisdinner。
  Itwasasifnothinghadhappened。Heatehisturnipsinsilence。
  Afterwardshewashedandwentupstairstodress。Thedoorofherroom,wasshut。
  “Haveyouseenher?”Annieaskedofhimwhenhecamedown。
  “No,“hesaid。
  Inalittlewhilehewentout。Anniewentaway,andPaul,calledontheundertaker,theclergyman,thedoctor,theregistrar。
  Itwasalongbusiness。Hegotbackatnearlyeighto’clock。The,undertakerwascomingsoontomeasureforthecoffin。Thehouse,wasemptyexceptforher。Hetookacandleandwentupstairs。
  Theroomwascold,thathadbeenwarmforsolong。Flowers,bottles,plates,allsick-roomlitterwastakenaway;everythingwas,harshandaustere。Shelayraisedonthebed,thesweepofthesheet,fromtheraisedfeetwaslikeacleancurveofsnow,sosilent。
  Shelaylikeamaidenasleep。Withhiscandleinhishand,hebent,overher。Shelaylikeagirlasleepanddreamingofherlove。
  Themouthwasalittleopenasifwonderingfromthesuffering,butherfacewasyoung,herbrowclearandwhiteasiflifehad,nevertouchedit。Helookedagainattheeyebrows,atthesmall,winsomenoseabitononeside。Shewasyoungagain。Onlythehair,asitarchedsobeautifullyfromhertempleswasmixedwithsilver,andthetwosimpleplaitsthatlayonhershoulderswerefiligree,ofsilverandbrown。Shewouldwakeup。Shewouldlifthereyelids。
  Shewaswithhimstill。Hebentandkissedherpassionately。
  Buttherewascoldnessagainsthismouth。Hebithis,lipswithhorror。Lookingather,hefelthecouldnever,neverlet,hergo。No!,Hestrokedthehairfromhertemples。That,too,wascold。Hesawthemouthsodumbandwonderingatthehurt。
  Thenhecrouchedonthefloor,whisperingtoher:
  “Mother,mother!”
  Hewasstillwithherwhentheundertakerscame,youngmen,whohadbeentoschoolwithhim。Theytouchedherreverently,andinaquiet,businesslikefashion。Theydidnotlookather。
  Hewatchedjealously。HeandAnnieguardedherfiercely。
  Theywouldnotletanybodycometoseeher,andtheneighbours,wereoffended。
  AfterawhilePaulwentoutofthehouse,andplayedcards,atafriend’s。Itwasmidnightwhenhegotback。Hisfatherrose,fromthecouchasheentered,sayinginaplaintiveway:
  “Ithoughtthawornivercomin’,lad。”
  “Ididn’tthinkyou’dsitup,“saidPaul。
  Hisfatherlookedsoforlorn。Morelhadbeenamanwithout,fear——simplynothingfrightenedhim。Paulrealisedwithastartthat,hehadbeenafraidtogotobed,aloneinthehousewithhisdead。
  Hewassorry。
  “Iforgotyou’dbealone,father,“hesaid。
  “Dostwantowttoeat?”askedMorel。
  “No。”
  “Sithee——Imadetheeadropo’hotmilk。Getitdownthee;
  it’scoldenoughforowt。”
  Pauldrankit。
  AfterawhileMorelwenttobed。Hehurriedpastthecloseddoor,andlefthisowndooropen。Soonthesoncameupstairsalso。
  Hewentintokisshergood-night,asusual。Itwascoldanddark。
  Hewishedtheyhadkeptherfireburning。Stillshedreamedher,youngdream。Butshewouldbecold。
  “Mydear!”hewhispered。”Mydear!”
  Andhedidnotkissher,forfearsheshouldbecold,andstrangetohim。Iteasedhimshesleptsobeautifully。
  Heshutherdoorsoftly,nottowakeher,andwenttobed。
  InthemorningMorelsummonedhiscourage,hearingAnnie,downstairsandPaulcoughingintheroomacrossthelanding。
  Heopenedherdoor,andwentintothedarkenedroom。Hesawthe,whiteupliftedforminthetwilight,butherhedarednotsee。
  Bewildered,toofrightenedtopossessanyofhisfaculties,hegot,outoftheroomagainandlefther。Heneverlookedatheragain。
  Hehadnotseenherformonths,becausehehadnotdaredtolook。
  Andshelookedlikehisyoungwifeagain。
  “Haveyouseenher?”Annieaskedofhimsharplyafterbreakfast。
  “Yes,“hesaid。
  “Anddon’tyouthinkshelooksnice?”
  “Yes。”
  Hewentoutofthehousesoonafter。Andallthetime,Heseemedtobecreepingasidetoavoidit。
  Paulwentaboutfromplacetoplace,doingthebusinessof,thedeath。HemetClarainNottingham,andtheyhadteatogether,inacafe,whentheywerequitejollyagain。Shewasinfinitely,relievedtofindhedidnottakeittragically。
  Later,whentherelativesbegantocomeforthefuneral,theaffairbecamepublic,andthechildrenbecamesocialbeings。
  Theyputthemselvesaside。Theyburiedherinafuriousstorm,ofrainandwind。Thewetclayglistened,allthewhiteflowers,weresoaked。Anniegrippedhisarmandleanedforward。
  DownbelowshesawadarkcornerofWilliam’scoffin。Theoak,boxsanksteadily。Shewasgone。Therainpouredinthegrave。
  Theprocessionofblack,withitsumbrellasglistening,turnedaway。
  Thecemeterywasdesertedunderthedrenchingcoldrain。
  Paulwenthomeandbusiedhimselfsupplyingtheguestswithdrinks。
  HisfathersatinthekitchenwithMrs。Morel’srelatives,“superior“people,andwept,andsaidwhatagoodlassshe’dbeen,andhowhe’dtriedtodoeverythinghecouldforher——everything。
  Hehadstrivenallhislifetodowhathecouldforher,andhe’d,nothingtoreproachhimselfwith。Shewasgone,buthe’ddone,hisbestforher。Hewipedhiseyeswithhiswhitehandkerchief。
  He’dnothingtoreproachhimselffor,herepeated。Allhislifehe’d,donehisbestforher。
  Andthatwashowhetriedtodismissher。Henever,thoughtofherpersonally。Everythingdeepinhimhedenied。
  Paulhatedhisfatherforsittingsentimentalisingoverher。
  Heknewhewoulddoitinthepublic-houses。Fortherealtragedy,wentoninMorelinspiteofhimself。Sometimes,later,hecame,downfromhisafternoonsleep,whiteandcowering。
  “IHAVEbeendreamingofthymother,“hesaidinasmallvoice。
  “Haveyou,father?,WhenIdreamofherit’salwaysjustasshe,waswhenshewaswell。Idreamofheroften,butitseemsquite,niceandnatural,asifnothinghadaltered。”
  ButMorelcrouchedinfrontofthefireinterror。
  Theweekspassedhalf-real,notmuchpain,notmuchofanything,perhapsalittlerelief,mostlyanuitblanche。Paulwentrestless,fromplacetoplace。Forsomemonths,sincehismotherhadbeenworse,hehadnotmadelovetoClara。Shewas,asitwere,dumbtohim,ratherdistant。Dawessawherveryoccasionally,butthetwo,couldnotgetaninchacrossthegreatdistancebetweenthem。
  Thethreeofthemweredriftingforward。
  Dawesmendedveryslowly。Hewasintheconvalescenthome,atSkegnessatChristmas,nearlywellagain。Paulwenttothe,seasideforafewdays。HisfatherwaswithAnnieinSheffield。
  DawescametoPaul’slodgings。Histimeinthehomewasup。
  Thetwomen,betweenwhomwassuchabigreserve,seemedfaithful,toeachother。DawesdependedonMorelnow。HeknewPaulandClara,hadpracticallyseparated。
  TwodaysafterChristmasPaulwastogobacktoNottingham。
  TheeveningbeforehesatwithDawessmokingbeforethefire。
  “YouknowClara’scomingdownforthedayto-morrow?”
  hesaid。
  Theothermanglancedathim。
  “Yes,youtoldme,“hereplied。
  Pauldranktheremainderofhisglassofwhisky。
  “Itoldthelandladyyourwifewascoming,“hesaid。
  “Didyou?”saidDawes,shrinking,butalmostleavinghimself,intheother’shands。Hegotupratherstiffly,andreached,forMorel’sglass。
  “Letmefillyouup,“hesaid。
  Pauljumpedup。
  “Yousitstill,“hesaid。
  ButDawes,withrathershakyhand,continuedtomixthedrink。
  “Saywhen,“hesaid。
  “Thanks!”repliedtheother。”Butyou’venobusinesstogetup。”
  “Itdoesmegood,lad,“repliedDawes。”Ibegintothink,I’mrightagain,then。”
  “Youareaboutright,youknow。”
  “Iam,certainlyIam,“saidDawes,noddingtohim。
  “AndLensayshecangetyouoninSheffield。”
  Dawesglancedathimagain,withdarkeyesthatagreedwith,everythingtheotherwouldsay,perhapsatrifledominatedbyhim。
  “It’sfunny,“saidPaul,“startingagain。Ifeelinalot,biggermessthanyou。”
  “Inwhatway,lad?”
  “Idon’tknow。Idon’tknow。It’sasifIwasinatangled,sortofhole,ratherdarkanddreary,andnoroadanywhere。”
  “Iknow——Iunderstandit,“Dawessaid,nodding。”Butyou’ll,findit’llcomeallright。”
  Hespokecaressingly。
  “Isupposeso,“saidPaul。
  Dawesknockedhispipeinahopelessfashion。
  “You’venotdoneforyourselflikeIhave,“hesaid。
  Morelsawthewristandthewhitehandoftheotherman,grippingthestemofthepipeandknockingouttheash,asifhe,hadgivenup。
  “Howoldareyou?”Paulasked。
  “Thirty-nine,“repliedDawes,glancingathim。
  Thosebrowneyes,fulloftheconsciousnessoffailure,almostpleadingforreassurance,forsomeonetore-establishtheman,inhimself,towarmhim,tosethimupfirmagain,troubledPaul。
  “You’lljustbeinyourprime,“saidMorel。”Youdon’tlook,asifmuchlifehadgoneoutofyou。”
  Thebrowneyesoftheotherflashedsuddenly。
  “Ithasn’t,“hesaid。”Thegoisthere。”
  Paullookedupandlaughed。
  “We’vebothgotplentyoflifeinusyettomakethingsfly,“
  hesaid。
  Theeyesofthetwomenmet。Theyexchangedonelook。
  Havingrecognisedthestressofpassioneachintheother,theyboth,dranktheirwhisky。
  “Yes,begod!”saidDawes,breathless。