AftershakinghandswithMr。ToodleandPolly,andkissingallthechildren,MissToxleftthehouse,therefore,withunlimitedpopularity,andcarryingawaywithhersolightaheartthatitmighthavegivenMrs。
Chickoffenceifthatgoodladycouldhaveweighedit。
RobtheGrinder,inhismodesty,wouldhavewalkedbehind,butMissToxdesiredhimtokeepbesideher,forconversationalpurposes;and,assheafterwardsexpressedittohismother,`drewhimout'upontheroad。
Hedrewoutsobright,andclear,andshining,thatMissToxwascharmedwithhim。ThemoreMissToxdrewhimout,thefinerhecame——likewire。Thereneverwasbetterormorepromisingyouth——amoreaffectionate,steady,prudent,sober,honest,meek,candidyoungman——thanRobdrewoutthatnight。
`Iamquiteglad,'saidMissTox,arrivedatherowndoor,`toknowyou。Ihopeyou'llconsidermeyourfriend,andthatyou'llcomeandseemeasoftenasyoulike。Doyoukeepamoney-box?'
`Yes,Ma'am,'returnedRob;`I'msavingupagainstI'vegotenoughtoputintheBank,ma'am。'
`Verylaudableindeed,'saidMissTox。`I'mgladtohearit。Putthishalf-crownintoit,ifyouplease。'
`Ohthankyou,Ma'am,'repliedRob,`butreallyIcouldn'tthinkofdeprivingyou。'
`Icommendyourindependentspirit,'saidMissTox,`butit'snodeprivation,Iassureyou。Ishallbeoffendedifyoudon'ttakeit,asamarkofmygood-will。Goodnight,Robin。'
`Goodnight,Ma'am,'saidRob,`andthankyou!'
Whoransniggeringofftogetchange,andtosseditwaywithapieman。
ButtheynevertaughthonourattheGrinders'School,wherethesystemthatprevailedwasparticularlystrongintheengenderingofhypocrisy。Insomuch,thatmanyofthefriendsandmastersofpastGrinderssaid,ifthiswerewhatcameofeducationforthecommonpeople,lethavenone。
Somemorerationalsaid,letushaveabetterone。ButthegoverningpowersoftheGrinders'Companywerealwaysreadyforthem,bypickingoutafewboyswhohadturnedoutwell,inspiteofthesystem,androundlyassertingthattheycouldhaveonlyturnedoutwellbecauseofit。Whichsettledthebusinessofthoseobjectorsoutofhand,andestablishedthegloryoftheGrinders'Institution。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter39[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERXXXIXFurtherAdventuresofCaptainEdwardCuttle,MarinerTIME,sureoffootandstrongofwill,hadsopressedonward,thattheyearenjoinedbytheoldInstrument-maker,asthetermduringwhichhisfriendshouldrefrainfromopeningthesealedpacketaccompanyingtheletterhehadleftforhim,wasnownearlyexpired,andCaptainCuttlebegantolookatit,ofanevening,withfeelingsofmysteryanduneasiness。
TheCaptain,inhishonour,wouldassoonhavethoughtofopeningtheparcelonehourbeforetheexpirationoftheterm,ashewouldhavethoughtofopeninghimself,tostudyhisownanatomy。Hemerelybroughtitout,atacertainstageofhisfirsteveningpipe,laiditonthetable,andsatgazingattheoutsideofit,throughthesmoke,insilentgravity,fortwoorthreehoursataspell。Sometimes,whenhehadcontemplateditthusforaprettylongwhile,theCaptainwouldhitchhischair,bydegrees,fartherandfartheroff,asiftogetbeyondtherangeofitsfascination;butifthiswerehisdesign,heneversucceeded:forevenwhenhewasbroughtupbytheparlourwall,thepacketstillattractedhim;orifhiseyes,inthoughtfulwandering,rovedtotheceilingorthefire,itsimageimmediatelyfollowed,andposteditselfconspicuouslyamongthecoals,ortookupanadvantageouspositiononthewhitewash。
InrespectofHeart'sDelight,theCaptain'sparentalregardandadmirationknewnochange。ButsincehislastinterviewwithMr。Carker,CaptainCuttlehadcometoentertaindoubtswhetherhisformerinterventioninbehalfofthatyoungladyandhisdearboyWal'r,hadprovedaltogethersofavourableashecouldhavewished,andasheatthetimebelieved。
TheCaptainwastroubledwithaseriousmisgivingthathehaddonemoreharmthangood,inshort;andinhisremorseandmodestyhemadethebestatonementhecouldthinkof,byputtinghimselfoutofthewaydoinganyharmtoanyone,and,asitwere,throwinghimselfoverboardforadangerousperson。
Self-buried,therefore,amongtheinstruments,theCaptainneverwentnearMr。Dombey'shouse,orreportedhimselfinanywaytoFlorenceorMissNipper。HeevenseveredhimselffromMr。Perch,ontheoccasionofhisnextvisit,bydrylyinformingthatgentleman,thatthethankedhimforhiscompany,buthadcuthimselfadriftfromallsuchacquaintance,ashedidn'tknowwhatmagazinehemightn'tblowup,withoutmeaningofit。Inthisself-imposedretirement,theCaptainpassedwholedaysandweekswithoutinterchangingawordwithanyonebutRobtheGrinder,whomheesteemedasapatternofdisinterestedattachmentandfidelity。Inthisretirement,theCaptain,gazingatthepacketofanevening,wouldsitsmoking,andthinkingofFlorenceandpoorWalter,untiltheybothseemedtohishomelyfancytobedead,andtohavepassedawayintoeternalyouth,thebeautifulandinnocentchildrenofhisfirstremembrance。
TheCaptaindidnot,however,inhismusings,neglecthisownimprovement,orthementalcultureofRobtheGrinder。ThatyoungmanwasgenerallyrequiredtoreadoutofsomebooktotheCaptain,foronehour,everyevening;andastheCaptainimplicitlybelievedthatallbooksweretrue,heaccumulated,bythismeans,manyremarkablefacts。OnSundaynights,theCaptainalwaysreadforhimself,beforegoingtobed,acertainDivineSermononcedeliveredonaMount;andalthoughhewasaccustomedtoquotethetext,withoutbook,afterhisownmanner,heappearedtoreaditwithasreverentanunderstandingofitsheavenlyspirit,asifhehadgotitallbyheartinGreek,andhadbeenabletowriteanynumberoffiercetheologicaldisquisitionsonitseveryphrase。
RobtheGrinder,whosereverencefortheinspiredwritings,undertheadmirablesystemoftheGrinders'School,hadbeendevelopedbyaperpetualbruisingofhisintellectualshinsagainstallthepropernamesofallthetribesofJudah,andbythemonotonousrepetitionofhardverses,especiallybywayofpunishment,andbytheparadingofhimatsixyearsoldinleatherbreeches,threetimesaSunday,veryhighup,inaveryhotchurch,withagreatorganbuzzingagainsthisdrowsyhead,likeanexceedinglybusybee——RobtheGrindermadeamightyshowofbeingedifiedwhentheCaptainceasedtoread,andgenerallyyawnedandnoddedwhilethereadingwasinprogress。ThelatterfactbeingneversomuchassuspectedbythegoodCaptain。
CaptainCuttle,also,asamanofbusiness,tooktokeepingbooks。
Intheseheenteredobservationsontheweather,andonthecurrentsofthewaggonsandothervehicles:whichheobserved,inthatquarter,tosetwestwardinthemorningandduringthegreaterpartoftheday,andeastwardtowardstheevening。Twoorthreestragglersappearinginoneweek,who`spokehim'——sothecaptainenteredit——onthesubjectofspectacles,andwho,withoutpositivelypurchasing,saidtheywouldlookinagain,theCaptaindecidedthatthebusinesswasimproving,andmadeanentryintheday-booktothateffect:thewindthenblowingwhichhefirstrecorded
prettyfresh,westandbynorth;havingchangedinthenight。
OneoftheCaptain'schiefdifficultieswasMr。Toots,whocalledfrequently,andwhowithoutsayingmuchseemedtohaveanideathatthelittlebackparlourwasaneligibleroomtochucklein,ashewouldsitandavailhimselfofitsaccommodationsinthatregardbythehalf-hourtogether,withoutatalladvancinginintimacywiththeCaptain。TheCaptain,renderedcautiousbyhislateexperience,wasunablequitetosatisfyhismindwhetherMr。Tootswasthemildsubjectheappearedtobe,orwasaprofoundlyartfulanddissimulatinghypocrite。HisfrequentreferencetoMissDombeywassuspicious;buttheCaptainhadasecretkindnessforMr。
Toots'sapparentrelianceonhim,andforboretodecideagainsthimforthepresent;merelyeyeinghim,withasagacitynottobedescribed,wheneverheapproachedthesubjectthatwasnearesttohisheart。
`CaptainGills,'blurtedoutMr。Toots,onedayallatonce,ashismannerwas,`doyouthinkyoucouldthinkfavourablyofthatpropositionofmine,andgivemethepleasureofyouracquaintance?'
`Why,Itellyouwhatitis,mylad,'repliedtheCaptain,whohadatlengthconcludedonacourseofaction;`I'vebeenturningthatthereover。'
`CaptainGills,it'sverykindofyou,'retortedMr。Toots。`I'mmuchobligedtoyou。Uponmywordandhonour,CaptainGills,itwouldbeacharitytogivemethepleasureofyouracquaintance。Itreallywould。'
`Yousee,brother,'arguedtheCaptainslowly,`Idon'tknowyou。'
`Butyounevercanknowme,CaptainGills,'repliedMr。
Toots,steadfasttohispoint,`ifyoudon'tgivemethepleasureofyouracquaintance。'
TheCaptainseemedstruckbytheoriginalityandpowerofthisremark,andlookedatMr。Tootsasifhethoughttherewasagreatdealmoreinhimthanhehadexpected。
`Wellsaid,mylad,'observedthecaptain,noddinghisheadthoughtfully;
`andtrue。Nowlook'eehere:You'vemadesomeobservationstome,whichgivesmetounderstandasyouadmireacertainsweetcreetur。Hey?'
`CaptainGills,'saidMr。Toots,gesticulatingviolentlywiththehandinwhichheheldhishat,`Admirationisnottheword。Uponmyhonour,youhavenoconceptionwhatmyfeelingsare。IfIcouldbedyedblack,andmadeMissDombey'sslave,Ishouldconsideritacompliment。
If,atthesacrificeofallmyproperty,IcouldgettransmigratedintoMissDombey'sdog——I——IreallythinkIshouldneverleaveoffwaggingmytail。Ishouldbesoperfectlyhappy,CaptainGills!'
Mr。Tootssaiditwithwateryeyes,andpressedhishatagainsthisbosomwithdeepemotion。
`Mylad,'returnedtheCaptain,movedtocompassion,`ifyou'reinarnest——'
`CaptainGills,'criedMr。Toots,`I'minsuchastateofmind,andamsodreadfullyinearnest,thatifIcouldsweartoituponahotpieceofiron,oralivecoal,ormeltedlead,orburningsealing-wax,oranythingofthatsort,Ishouldbegladtohurtmyself,asarelieftomyfeelings。'AndMr。Tootslookedhurriedlyabouttheroom,asifforsomesufficientlypainfulmeansofaccomplishinghisdreadpurpose。
TheCaptainpushedhisglazedhatbackuponhishead,strokedhisfacedownwithhisheavyhand——makinghisnosemoremottledintheprocess——andplantinghimselfbeforeMr。Toots,andhookinghimbythelapelofhiscoat,addressedhiminthesewords,whileMr。Tootslookedupintohisface,withmuchattentionandsomewonder。
`Ifyou'reinarnest,yousee,mylad,'saidtheCaptain,`you'reaobjectofclemency,andclemencyisthebrightestjewelinthecrownofaBriton'shead,forwhichyou'lloverhaultheconstitutionaslaiddowninRuleBritannia,and,whenfound,thatisthecharterasthemgardenangelswasasingingof,somanytimesover。Standby!Thishereproposalo'you'rntakesmealittleaback。Andwhy?BecauseIholdsmyownonly,youunderstand,intheseherewaters,andhaven'tgotnoconsort,andmaybedon'twishfornone。Steady!Youhailedmefirst,alongofacertainyounglady,asyouwascharteredby。Nowifyouandmeistokeeponeanother'scompanyatall,thatthereyoungcreetur'snamemustneverbenamednorreferredto。Idon'tknowwhatharmmayn'thavebeendonebynamingofittoofree,aforenow,andtherebyIbringsupshort。D'yemakemeoutprettyclear,brother?'
`Well,you'llexcuseme,CaptainGills,'repliedMr。Toots,`ifIdon'tquitefollowyousometimes。ButuponmywordI——it'sahardthing,CaptainGills,nottobeabletomentionMissDombey。Ireallyhavegotsuchadreadfulloadhere!'——Mr。Tootspatheticallytouchedhisshirt-frontwithbothhands——`thatIfeelnightandday,exactlyasifsomebodywassittinguponme。'
`Them,'saidtheCaptain,`isthetermsIoffer。Ifthey'reharduponyou,brother,asmayhaptheyare,give'emawideberth,sheeroff,andpartcompanycheerily!'
`CaptainGills,'returnedMr。Toots,`Ihardlyknowhowitis,butafterwhatyoutoldmewhenIcamehere,forthefirsttime,I——IfeelthatI'dratherthinkaboutMissDombeyinyoursocietythantalkaboutherinalmostanybodyelse's。Therefore,CaptainGills,ifyou'llgivemethepleasureofyouracquaintance,Ishallbeveryhappytoacceptitonyourownconditions。Iwishtobehonourable,CaptainGills,'saidMr。
Toots,holdingbackhisextendedhandforamoment,`andthereforeIamobligedtosaythatIcannothelpthinkingaboutMissDombey。It'simpossibleformetomakeapromisenottothinkabouther。'
`Mylad,'saidtheCaptain,whoseopinionofMr。Tootswasmuchimprovedbythiscandidavowal,`aman'sthoughtsislikethewinds,andnobodycan'tanswerfor'emforcertain,anylengthoftimetogether。Isitatreatyastowords?'
`Astowords,CaptainGills,'returnedMr。Toots,`IthinkIcanbindmyself。'
Mr。TootsgaveCaptainCuttlehishanduponit,thenandthere;
andtheCaptainwithapleasantandgraciousshowofcondescension,bestowedhisacquaintanceuponhimformally。Mr。Tootsseemedmuchrelievedandgladdenedbytheacquisition,andchuckledrapturouslyduringtheremainderofhisvisit。TheCaptain,forhispart,wasnotillpleasedtooccupythatpositionofpatronage,andwasexceedinglywellsatisfiedbyhisownprudenceandforesight。
ButrichasCaptainCuttlewasinthelatterquality,hereceivedasurprisethatsameeveningfromanolessingenuousandsimpleyouth,thanRobtheGrinder。Thatartlesslad,drinkingteaatthesametable,andbendingmeeklyoverhiscupandsaucer,havingtakensidelongobservationsofhismasterforsometime,whowasreadingthenewspaperwithgreatdifficulty,butmuchdignity,throughhisglasses,brokesilencebysaying——
`Oh!Ibegyourpardon,Captain,butyoumayn'tbeinwantofanypigeons,mayyou,Sir?'
`No,mylad,'repliedtheCaptain。
`BecauseIwaswishingtodisposeofmine,Captain,'saidRob。
`Aye,aye?'criedtheCaptain,liftinguphisbushyeyebrowsalittle。
`Yes;I'mgoing,Captain,ifyouplease,'saidRob。
`Going?Whereareyougoing?'askedtheCaptain,lookingroundathimovertheglasses。
`What?didn'tyouknowthatIwasgoingtoleaveyou,Captain?'
askedRob,withasneakingsmile。
TheCaptainputdownthepaper,tookoffhisspectacles,andbroughthiseyestobearonthedeserter。
`Ohyes,Captain,Iamgoingtogiveyouwarning。Ithoughtyou'dhaveknownthatbeforehand,perhaps,'saidRob,rubbinghishands,andgettingup。`Ifyoucouldbesogoodasprovideyourselfsoon,Captain,itwouldbeagreatconveniencetome。Youcouldn'tprovideyourselfbyto-morrowmorning,Iamafraid,Captain:couldyou,doyouthink?'
`Andyou'reagoingtodesertyourcolours,areyou,mylad?'
saidtheCaptain,afteralongexaminationofhisface。
`Oh,it'sveryharduponacove,Captain,'criedthetenderRob,injuredandindignantinamoment,`thathecan'tgivelawfulwarning,withoutbeingfrownedatinthatway,andcalledadeserter。Youhaven'tanyrighttocallapoorcovenames,Captain。Itain'tbecauseI'maservantandyou'reamaster,thatyou'retogoandlibelme。WhatwronghaveI
done?Come,Captain,letmeknowwhatmycrimeis,willyou?'
ThestrickenGrinderwept,andputhiscoat-cuffinhiseye。
`Come,Captain,'criedtheinjuredyouth,`givemycrimeaname!
WhathaveIbeenanddone?HaveIstolenanyoftheproperty?haveIsetthehousea-fire?IfIhave,whydon'tyougivemeincharge,andtryit?
Buttotakeawaythecharacterofaladthat'sbeenagoodservanttoyou,becausehecan'taffordtostandinhisownlightforyourgood,whatainjuryitis,andwhatabadreturnforfaithfulservice!Thisisthewayyoungcovesisspiledanddrovewrong。Iwonderatyou,Captain,Ido。'
AllofwhichtheGrinderhowledforthinalachrymosewhine,andbackingcarefullytowardsthedoor。
`Andsoyou'vegotanotherberth,haveyou,mylad?'saidtheCaptain,eyeinghimintently。
`Yes,Captain,sinceyouputitinthatshape,Ihavegotanotherberth,'criedRob,backingmoreandmore;`abetterberththanI'vegothere,andonewhereIdon'tsomuchaswantyourgoodword,Captain,whichisfort'nateforme,afterallthedirtyou'vethrow'datme,becauseI'mpoor,andcan'taffordtostandinmyownlightforyourgood。Yes,Ihavegotanotherberth;andifitwasn'tforleavingyouunprovided,Captain,I'dgotoitnow,soonerthanI'dtakethemnamesfromyou,becauseI'mpoor,andcan'taffordtostandinmyownlightforyourgood。Whydoyoureproachmeforbeingpoor,andnotstandinginmyownlightforyourgood,Captain?Howcanyousodemeanyourself?'
`Lookyehere,myboy,'repliedthepeacefulCaptain。`Don'tyoupayoutnomoreofthemwords。'
`Well,then,don'tyoupayinnomoreofyourwords,Captain,'
retortedtherousedinnocent,gettinglouderinhiswhine,andbackingintotheshop。`I'dsooneryoutookmybloodthanmycharacter。'
`Because,'pursuedtheCaptaincalmly,`youhaveheerd,maybe,ofsuchathingasarope'send。'
`Oh,haveIthough,Captain?'criedthetauntingGrinder。`NoIhaven't。Ineverheerdofanysuchaarticle!'
`Well,'saidtheCaptain,`it'smybeliefasyou'llknowmoreaboutitprettysoon,ifyoudon'tkeepabrightlook-out。Icanreadyoursignals,mylad。Youmaygo。'
`Oh!Imaygoatonce,mayI,Captain?'criedRob,exultinginhissuccess。
`Butmind!Ineveraskedtogoatonce,Captain。Youarenottotakeawaymycharacteragain,becauseyousendmeoffofyourownaccord。
Andyou'renottostopanyofmywages,Captain!'
HisemployersettledthelastpointbyproducingthetincanisterandtellingtheGrinder'smoneyoutinfulluponthetable。Rob,snivellingandsobbing,andgrievouslywoundedinhisfeelings,tookupthepiecesonebyone,withasobandasnivelforeach,andtiedthemupseparatelyinknotsinhispocket-handkerchief;thenheascendedtotheroofofthehouseandfilledhishatandpocketswithpigeons;then,camedowntohisbedunderthecounterandmadeuphisbundle,snivellingandsobbinglouderasifhewerecuttotheheartbyoldassociations;thenhewhined,`Goodnight,Captain。Ileaveyouwithoutmalice!'andthen,goingoutuponthedoor-step,pulledthelittleMidshipman'snoseasapartingindignity,andwentawaydownthestreetgrinningtriumph。
TheCaptain,lefttohimself,resumedhisperusalofthenewsasifnothingunusualorunexpectedhadtakenplace,andwentreadingonwiththegreatestassiduity。ButneveraworddidCaptainCuttleunderstand,thoughhereadavastnumber,forRobtheGrinderwasscamperinguponecolumnanddownanotherallthroughthenewspaper。
ItisdoubtfulwhethertheworthyCaptainhadeverfelthimselfquiteabandoneduntilnow;butnow,oldSolGills,Walter,andHeart'sDelightwerelosttohimindeed,andnowMr。Carkerdeceivedandjeeredhimcruelly。TheywereallrepresentedinthefalseRob,towhomhehadheldforthmanyatimeontherecollectionsthatwerewarmwithinhim;
hehadbelievedinthefalseRob,andhadbeengladtobelieveinhim;
hehadmadeacompanionofhimasthelastoftheoldship'scompany;hehadtakenthecommandofthelittleMidshipmanwithhimathisrighthand;
hehadmeanttodohisdutybyhim,andhadfeltalmostaskindlytowardstheboyasiftheyhadbeenshipwreckedandcastuponadesertplacetogether。
Andnow,thatthefalseRobhadbroughtdistrust,treachery,andmeannessintotheveryparlour,whichwasakindofsacredplace,CaptainCuttlefeltasiftheparlourmighthavegonedownnext,andnotsurprisedhimmuchbyitssinking,orgivenhimanyverygreatconcern。
ThereforeCaptainCuttlereadthenewspaperwithprofoundattentionandnocomprehension,andthereforeCaptainCuttlesaidnothingwhateveraboutRobtohimself,oradmittedtohimselfthathewasthinkingabouthim,orwouldrecogniseinthemostdistantmannerthatRobhadanythingtodowithhisfeelingaslonelyasRobinsonCrusoe。
Inthesamecomposed,business-likeway,theCaptainsteppedovertoLeadenhallMarketinthedusk,andeffectedanarrangementwithaprivatewatchmanondutythere,tocomeandputupandtakedowntheshuttersoftheWoodenMidshipmaneverynightandmorning。Hethencalledinattheeating-housetodiminishbyonehalfthedailyrationstheretoforesuppliedtotheMidshipman,andatthepublichousetostopthetraitor'sbeer。`Myyoungman,'saidtheCaptain,inexplanationtotheyoungladyatthebar,`myyoungmanhavingbetteredhimself,Miss。'Lastly,theCaptainresolvedtotakepossessionofthebedunderthecounter,andtoturninthereo'
nightsinsteadofupstairs,assoleguardianoftheproperty。
Fromthis,bedCaptainCuttledailyrosethenceforth,andclappedonhisglazedhatatsixo'clockinthemorning,withthesolitaryairofCrusoefinishinghistoiletwithhisgoat-skincap;andalthoughhisfearsofavisitationfromthesavagetribe,MacStinger,weresomewhatcooled,assimilarapprehensionsonthepartofthatlonemarinerusedtobebythelapseofalongintervalwithoutanysymptomsofthecannibals,hestillobservedaregularroutineofdefensiveoperations,andneverencounteredabonnetwithoutprevioussurveyfromhiscastleofretreat。
InthemeantimeduringwhichhereceivednocallfromMr。Toots,whowrotetosayhewasoutoftownhisownvoicebegantohaveastrangesoundinhisears;andheacquiredsuchhabitsofprofoundmeditationfrommuchpolishingandstowingawayofthestock,andfrommuchsittingbehindthecounterreading,orlookingoutofwindow,thattheredrimmadeonhisforeheadbythehardglazedhat,sometimesachedagainwithexcessofreflection。
Theyearbeingnowexpired,CaptainCuttledeemeditexpedienttoopenthepacket;butashehadalwaysdesigneddoingthisinthepresenceofRobtheGrinder,whohadbroughtittohim,andashehadanideathatitwouldberegularandship-shapetoopenitinthepresenceofsomebody,hewassadlyputtoitforwantofawitness。Inthisdifficulty,hehailedonedaywithunusualdelighttheannouncementintheShippingIntelligenceofthearrivaloftheCautiousClara,CaptainJohnBunsby,fromacoastingvoyage;andtothatphilosopherimmediatelydispatchedaletterbypost,enjoininginviolablesecrecyastohisplaceofresidence,andrequestingtobefavouredwithanearlyvisit,intheeveningseason。
Bunsby,whowasoneofthosesageswhoactuponconviction,tooksomedaystogettheconvictionthoroughlyintohismind,thathehadreceivedalettertothiseffect。Butwhenhehadgrappledwiththefact,andmasteredit,hepromptlysenthisboywiththemessage,`He'sacomingto-night。'
Whobeinginstructedtodeliverthosewordsanddisappear,fulfilledhismissionlikeatarryspirit,chargedwithamysteriouswarning。
TheCaptain,wellpleasedtoreceiveit,madepreparationofpipesandrumandwater,andawaitedhisvisitorinthebackparlour。Atthehourofeight,adeeplowing,asofanauticalBull,outsidetheshop-door,succeededbytheknockingofastickonthepanel,announcedtothelisteningearofCaptainCuttle,thatBunsbywasalongside:whomheinstantlyadmitted,shaggyandloose,andwithhisstolidmahoganyvisage,asusual,appearingtohavenoconsciousnessofanythingbeforeit,buttobeattentivelyobservingsomethingthatwastakingplaceinquiteanotherpartoftheworld。
`Bunsby,'saidtheCaptain,graspinghimbythehand,`whatcheer,mylad,whatcheer?'
`Shipmet,'repliedthevoicewithinBunsby,unaccompaniedbyanysignonthepartoftheCommanderhimself,`hearty,hearty。'
`Bunsby!'saidtheCaptain,renderingirrepressiblehomagetohisgenius,`hereyouare!amanascangiveanopinionasisbrighterthandi'monds——andgivemetheladwiththetarrytrousersasshinestomelikedi'mondsbright,forwhichyou'lloverhaultheStanfell'sBudget,andwhenfoundmakeanote。Hereyouare,amanasgaveanopinioninthishereveryplace,thathascometrue,everyletteronit,'whichtheCaptainsincerelybelieved。
`Aye,aye?'growledBunsby。
`Everyletter,'saidtheCaptain。
`Forwhy?'growledBunsby,lookingathisfriendforthefirsttime。`Whichway?Ifso,whynot?Therefore。'Withtheseoracularwords——theyseemedalmosttomaketheCaptaingiddy;theylaunchedhimuponsuchaseaofspeculationandconjecture——thesagesubmittedtobehelpedoffwithhispilotcoat,andaccompaniedhisfriendintothebackparlour,wherehishandpresentlyalightedontherum-bottle,fromwhichhebrewedastiffglassofgrog;andpresentlyafterwardsonapipe,whichhefilled,lighted,andbegantosmoke。
CaptainCuttle,imitatinghisvisitorinthematteroftheseparticulars,thoughtheraptandimperturbablemannerofthegreatCommanderwasfarabovehispowers,satintheoppositecornerofthefireside,observinghimrespectfully,andasifhewaitedforsomeencouragementorexpressionofcuriosityonBunsby'spartwhichshouldleadhimtohisownaffairs。
Butasthemahoganyphilosophergavenoevidenceofbeingsentientofanythingbutwarmthandtobacco,exceptonce,whentakinghispipefromhislipstomakeroomforhisglass,heincidentallyremarkedwithexceedinggruffness,thathisnamewasJackBunsby——adeclarationthatpresentedbutsmallopeningforconversation——theCaptainbespeakinghisattentioninashortcomplimentaryexordium,narratedthewholehistoryofUncleSol'sdeparture,withthechangeithadproducedinhisownlifeandfortunes;andconcludedbyplacingthepacketonthetable。
Afteralongpause,Mr。Bunsbynoddedhishead。
`Open?'saidtheCaptain。
Bunsbynoddedagain。
TheCaptainaccordinglybroketheseal,anddisclosedtoviewtwofoldedpapers,ofwhichheseverallyreadtheendorsements,thus:`LastWillandTestamentofSolomonGills。'`LetterforNedCuttle。'
Bunsby,withhiseyeonthecoastofGreenland,seemedtolistenforthecontents。TheCaptainthereforehemmedtoclearhisthroat,andreadtheletteraloud。
`“MydearNedCuttle。WhenIlefthomefortheWestIndies“'
HeretheCaptainstopped,andlookedhardatBunsby,wholookedfixedlyatthecoastofGreenland——
`“inforlornsearchofintelligenceofmydearboy,Iknewthatifyouwereacquaintedwithmydesign,youwouldthwartit,oraccompanyme;andthereforeIkeptitsecret。Ifyoueverreadthisletter,Ned,Iamlikelytobedead。Youwilleasilyforgiveanoldfriend'sfollythen,andwillfeelfortherestlessnessanduncertaintyinwhichhewanderedawayonsuchawildvoyage。Sonomoreofthat。Ihavelittlehopethatmypoorboywilleverreadthesewords,orgladdenyoureyeswiththesightofhisfrankfaceanymore。“No,no;nomore,'saidCaptainCuttle,sorrowfullymeditating;`nomore。Therehelays,allhisdays——'
Mr。Bunsby,whohadamusicalear,suddenlybellowed,`IntheBaysofBiscay,O!'whichsoaffectedthegoodCaptain,asanappropriatetributetodepartedworth,thatheshookhimbythehandinacknowledgment,andwasfaintowipehiseyes。
`Well,well!'saidtheCaptainwithasigh,astheLamentofBunsbyceasedtoringandvibrateintheskylight。`Afflictionsore,longtimehebore,andletusoverhaulthewollume,andtherefindit。'
`Physicians,'observedBunsby,`wasinvain。'
`Aye,aye,tobesure,'saidtheCaptain,`what'sthegoodo'themintwoorthreehundredfathomso'water!'Thenreturningtotheletter,hereadon:——`“Butifheshouldbeby,whenitisopened;“'
theCaptaininvoluntarilylookedround,andshookhishead;`“orshouldknowofitatanyothertime;“'theCaptainshookhisheadagain;`“myblessingonhim!Incasetheaccompanyingpaperisnotlegallywritten,itmattersverylittle,forthereisnooneinterestedbutyouandhe,andmyplainwishis,thatifheislivingheshouldhavewhatlittletheremaybe,andifasIfearotherwise,thatyoushouldhaveit,Ned。Youwillrespectmywish,Iknow。Godblessyouforit,andforallyourfriendlinessbesides,toSOLOMONGILLS。“Bunsby!'saidtheCaptain,appealingtohimsolemnly,`whatdoyoumakeofthis?Thereyousit,amanashashadhisheadbrokefrominfancyup'ards,andhasgotanewopinionintoitateveryseamashasbeenopened。Now,whatdoyoumakeo'this?'
`Ifsobe,'returnedBunsby,withunusualpromptitude,`ashe'sdead,myopinionishewon'tcomebacknomore。Ifsobeashe'salive,myopinionishewill。DoIsayhewill?No。Whynot?Becausethebearingsofthisobserwationlaysintheapplicationonit。'
`Bunsby!'saidCaptainCuttle,whowouldseemtohaveestimatedthevalueofhisdistinguishedfriend'sopinionsinproportiontotheimmensityofthedifficultyheexperiencedinmakinganythingoutofthem;`Bunsby,'
saidtheCaptain,quiteconfoundedbyadmiration,`youcarryaweightofmindeasy,aswouldswamponeofmytonnagesoon。Butinregardo'thisherewill,Idon'tmeantotakenostepstowardstheproperty——Lordforbid!——excepttokeepitforamorerightfulowner;andIhopeyetastherightfulowner,SolGills,islivingand'llcomeback,strangeasitisthatheain'tforwardednodispatches。Now,whatisyouropinion,Bunsby,astostowingoftheseherepapersawayagain,andmarkingoutsideastheywasopened,suchaday,inthepresenceofJohnBunsbyandEd'ardCuttle?'
Bunsby,descryingnoobjection,onthecoastofGreenlandorelsewhere,tothisproposal,itwascarriedintoexecution;andthatgreatman,bringinghiseyeintothepresentforamoment,affixedhissign-manualtothecover,totallyabstaining,withcharacteristicmodesty,fromtheuseofcapitalletters。CaptainCuttle,havingattachedhisownleft-handedsignature,andlockedupthepacketintheironsafe,entreatedhisguesttomixanotherglassandsmokeanotherpipe;anddoingthelikehimself,fellamusingoverthefireonthepossiblefortunesofthepooroldInstrument-maker。
Andnowasurpriseoccurred,sooverwhelmingandterrificthatCaptainCuttle,unsupportedbythepresenceofBunsby,musthavesunkbeneathit,andbeenalostmanfromthatfatalhour。
HowtheCaptain,eveninthesatisfactionofadmittingsuchaguest,couldhaveonlyshutthedoor,andnotlockedit,ofwhichnegligencehewasundoubtedlyguilty,isoneofthosequestionsthatmustforeverremainmerepointsofspeculation,orvaguechargesagainstdestiny。Butbythatunlockeddoor,atthisquietmoment,didthefellMacStingerdashintotheparlour,bringingAlexanderMacStingerinherparentalarms,andconfusionandvengeancenottomentionJulianaMacStinger,andthesweetchild'sbrother,CharlesMacStinger,popularlyknownaboutthescenesofhisyouthfulsports,asChowleyinhertrain。Shecamesoswiftlyandsosilently,likearushingairfromtheneighbourhoodoftheEastIndiaDocks,thatCaptainCuttlefoundhimselfintheveryactofsittinglookingather,beforethecalmfacewithwhichhehadbeenmeditating,changedtooneofhorroranddismay。
ButthemomentCaptainCuttleunderstoodthefullextentofhismisfortune,self-preservationdictatedanattemptatflight。Dartingatlittledoorwhichopenedfromtheparlouronthesteeplittlerangeofcellar-steps,theCaptainmadearush,head-foremost,atthelatter,likeamanindifferenttobruisesandcontusions,whoonlysoughttohidehimselfinthebowelsoftheearth。Inthisgallantefforthewouldprobablyhavesucceeded,butfortheaffectionatedispositionsofJulianaandChowley,whopinninghimbythelegs——oneofthosedearchildrenholdingontoeach——claimedhimastheirfriend,withlamentablecries。Inthemeantime,Mrs。MacStinger,whoneverentereduponanyactionofimportancewithoutpreviouslyinvertingAlexanderMacStinger,tobringhimwithintherangeofabriskbatteryofslaps,andthensittinghimdowntocoolasthereaderfirstbeheldhim,performedthatsolemnrite,asifonthisoccasionitwereasacrificetotheFuries;andhavingdepositedthevictimonthefloor,madeattheCaptainwithastrengthofpurposethatappearedtothreatenscratchestotheinterposingBunsby。
ThecriesofthetwoelderMacStingers,andthewailingofyoungAlexander,whomaybesaidtohavepassedapiebaldchildhood,forasmuchashewasblackinthefaceduringonehalfofthatfairyperiodofexistence,combinedtomakethisvisitationthemoreawful。Butwhensilencereignedagain,andtheCaptain,inaviolentperspiration,stoodmeeklylookingatMrs。MacStinger,itsterrorswereattheirheight。
`Oh,Cap'enCuttle,Cap'enCuttle!'saidMrs。MacStinger,makingherchinrigid,andshakingitinunisonwithwhat,butfortheweaknessofhersex,mightbedescribedasherfist。`Oh,Cap'enCuttle,Cap'enCuttle,doyoudaretolookmeintheface,andnotbestruckdownintheherth!'
TheCaptain,wholookedanythingbutdaring,feeblymuttered`Standby!'
`OhIwasaweakoftrustingFoolwhenItookyouundermyroof,Cap'enCuttle,Iwas!'criedMrs。MacStinger。`TothinkofthebenefitsI'veshoweredonthatman,andthewayinwhichIbroughtmychildrenuptoloveandhonourhimasifhewasafatherto'em,whentherean'ta'ousekeeper,nonoralodgerinourstreet,don'tknowthatIlostmoneybythatman,andbyhisguzzlingsandhismuzzlings'——Mrs。MacStingerusedthelastwordforthejointsakeofalliterationandaggravation,ratherthanfortheexpressionofanyidea——`andwhentheycriedoutoneandall,shameuponhimforputtinguponanindustriouswoman,upearlyandlateforthegoodofheryoungfamily,andkeepingherpoorplacesocleanthataindividualmighthaveatehisdinner,yes,andhisteatoo,ifhewassodisposed,offanyoneofthefloorsorstairs,inspiteofallhisguzzlingsandhismuzzlings,suchwasthecareandpainsbestoweduponhim!'
Mrs。MacStingerstoppedtofetchherbreath;andherfaceflushedwithtriumphinthissecondhappyintroductionofofCaptainCuttle'smuzzlings。
`Andherunsawa-a-a-y!'criedMrs。MacStinger,withalengtheningoutofthelastsyllablethatmadetheunfortunateCaptainregardhimselfasthemeanestofmen;`andkeepsawayatwelvemonth!Fromawoman!Sitchishisconscience!Hehasn'tthecouragetomeetherhi-i-i-igh;'longsyllableagain;`butstealsaway,likeafelion。Why,ifthatbabyofmine,'saidMrs。MacStinger,withsuddenrapidity,`wastooffertogoandstealaway,I'ddomydutyasamotherbyhim,tillhewascoveredwithwales!'
TheyoungAlexander,interpretingthisintoapositivepromise,tobeshortlyredeemed,tumbledoverwithfearandgrief,andlayuponthefloor,exhibitingthesolesofhisshoesandmakingsuchadeafeningoutcry,thatMrs。MacStingerfounditnecessarytotakehimupinherarms,whereshequietedhim,everandanon,ashebrokeoutagain,byashakethatseemedenoughtoloosenhisteeth。
`AprettysortofmanisCap'enCuttle,'saidMrs。MacStinger,withasharpstressonthefirstsyllableoftheCaptain'sname,`totakeonfor——andtolosesleepfor——andtofaintalongof——andtothinkdeadforsooth——andtogoupanddowntheblessedtownlikeamadwoman,askingquestionsafter!Oh,aprettysortofman!Hahahaha!He'sworthallthattroubleanddistressofmind,andmuchmore。That'snothing,blessyou!Hahahaha!Cap'enCuttle,'saidMrs。MacStinger,withseverereactioninhervoiceandmanner,`Iwishtoknowifyou'rea-cominghome?'
ThefrightenedCaptainlookedintohishat,asifhesawnothingforitbuttoputiton,andgivehimselfup。
`Cap'enCuttle,'repeatedMrs。MacStinger,inthesamedeterminedmanner,`Iwishtoknowifyou'rea-cominghome,Sir?'
TheCaptainseemedquitereadytogo,butfaintlysuggestedsomethingtotheeffectof`notmakingsomuchnoiseaboutit。'
`Aye,aye,aye,'saidBunsby,inasoothingtone。`Awast,mylass,awast!'
`AndwhomayYOUbe,ifyouplease!'retortedMrs。
MacStinger,withchasteloftiness。`DidyoueverlodgeatNumberNine,BrigPlace,Sir?Mymemorymaybebad,butnotwithme,Ithink。TherewasaMrs。JollsonlivedatNumberNinebeforeme,andperhapsyou'remistakingmeforher。Thatismyonlywaysofaccountingforyourfamiliarity,Sir。'
`Come,come,mylass,awast,awast!'saidBunsby。
CaptainCuttlecouldhardlybelieveit,evenofthisgreatman,thoughhesawitdonewithhiswakingeyes;butBunsby,advancingboldly,puthisshaggybluearmroundMrs。MacStinger,andsosoftenedherbyhismagicwayofdoingit,andbythesefewwords——hesaidnomore——thatshemeltedintotears,afterlookinguponhimforafewmoments,andobservedthatachildmightconquerhernow,shewassolowinhercourage。
Speechlessandutterlyamazed,theCaptainsawhimgraduallypersuadethisinexorablewomanintotheshop,returnforrumandwaterandacandle,takethemtoher,andpacifyherwithoutappearingtoutteroneword。Presentlyhelookedinwithhispilot-coaton,andsaid,`Cuttle,I'ma-goingtoactasconvoyhome;'andCaptainCuttle,moretohisconfusionthanifhehadbeenputinironshimself,forsafetransporttoBrigPlace,sawthefamilypacificallyfilingoff,withMrs。MacStingerattheirhead。
Hehadscarcelytimetotakedownhiscanister,andstealthilyconveysomemoneyintothehandsofJulianaMacStinger,hisformerfavourite,andChowley,whohadtheclaimuponhimthathewasnaturallyofamaritimebuild,beforetheMidshipmanwasabandonedbythemall;andBunsbywhisperingthathe'dcarryonsmart,andhailNedCuttleagainbeforehewentaboard,shutthedooruponhimself,asthelastmemberoftheparty。
Someuneasyideasthathemustbewalkinginhissleep,orthathehadbeentroubledwithphantoms,andnotafamilyoffleshandblood,besettheCaptainatfirst,whenhewentbacktothelittleparlour,andfoundhimselfalone。Illimitablefaithin,andimmeasurableadmirationof,theCommanderoftheCautiousClara,succeeded,andthrewtheCaptainintoawonderingtrance。
Still,astimeworeon,andBunsbyfailedtoreappear,theCaptainbegantoentertainuncomfortabledoubtsofanotherkind。WhetherBunsbyhadbeenartfullydecoyedtoBrigPlace,andwastheredetainedinsafecustodyashostageforhisfriend;inwhichcaseitwouldbecometheCaptain,asamanofhonour,toreleasehim,bythesacrificeofhisownliberty。
WhetherhehadbeenattackedanddefeatedbyMrs。MacStinger,andwasashamedtoshowhimselfafterhisdiscomfiture。WhetherMrs。MacStinger,thinkingbetterofit,intheuncertaintyofhertemper,hadturnedbacktoboardtheMidshipmanagain,andBunsby,pretendingtoconductherbyashortcut,wasendeavouringtolosethefamilyamidthewildsandsavageplacesoftheCity。Aboveall,whatitwouldbehovehim,CaptainCuttle,todo,incaseofhishearingnomore,eitheroftheMacStingersorofBunsby,which,inthesewonderfulandunforeseenconjunctionsofevents,mightpossiblyhappen。
Hedebatedallthisuntilhewastired;andstillnoBunsby。Hemadeuphisbedunderthecounter,allreadyforturningin;andstillnoBunsby。Atlength,whentheCaptainhadgivenhimup,forthatnightatleast,andhadbeguntoundress,thesoundofapproachingwheelswasheard,and,stoppingatthedoor,wassucceededbyBunsby'shail。
TheCaptaintrembledtothinkthatMrs。MacStingerwasnottobegotridof,andhadbeenbroughtbackinacoach。
Butno。Bunsbywasaccompaniedbynothingbutalargebox,whichhehauledintotheshopwithhisownhands,andassoonashehadhauledin,satupon。CaptainCuttleknewitforthechesthehadleftatMrs。
MacStinger'shouse,andlooking,candleinhand,atBunsbymoreattentively,believedthathewasthreesheetsinthewind,or,itplainwords,drunk。
Itwasdifficult,however,tobesureofthis;theCommanderhavingnotraceofexpressioninhisfacewhensober。
`Cuttle,'saidtheCommander,gettingoffthechest,andopeningthelid,`arethesehereyourtraps?'
CaptainCuttlelookedinandidentifiedhisproperty。
`Doneprettytautandtrim,hey,shipmet?'saidBunsby。
ThegratefulandbewilderedCaptaingraspedhimbythehand,andwaslaunchingintoareplyexpressiveofhisastonishedfeelings,whenBunsbydisengagedhimselfbyajerkofhiswrist,andseemedtomakeanefforttowinkwithhisrevolvingeye,theonlyeffectofwhichattempt,inhiscondition,wasnearlytooverbalancehim。Hethenabruptlyopenedthedoor,andshotawaytorejointheCautiousClarawithallspeed——supposedtobehisinvariablecustom,wheneverheconsideredhehadmadeapoint。
Asitwasnothishumourtobeoftensought,CaptainCuttledecidednottogoorsendtohimnextday,oruntilheshouldmakehisgraciouspleasureknowninsuchwise,orfailingthat,untilsomelittletimeshouldhaveelapsed。TheCaptain,therefore,renewedhissolitarylifenextmorning,andthoughtprofoundly,manymornings,noons,andnights,ofoldSolGills,andBunsby'ssentimentsconcerninghim,andthehopestherewereofhisreturn。MuchofsuchthinkingstrengthenedCaptainCuttle'shopes;andhehumouredthemandhimselfbywatchingfortheInstrument-makeratthedoorasheventuredtodonow,inhisstrangeliberty——andsettinghischairinitsplace,andarrangingthelittleparlourasitusedtobe,incaseheshouldcomehomeunexpectedly。Helikewise,inhisthoughtfulness,tookdownacertainlittleminiatureofWalterasaschoolboy,fromitsaccustomednail,lestitshouldshocktheoldmanonhisreturn。TheCaptainhadhispresentiments,too,sometimes,thathewouldcomeonsuchaday;
andoneparticularSunday,evenorderedadoubleallowanceofdinner,hewassosanguine。Butcome,oldSolomondidnot;andstilltheneighboursnoticedhowtheseafaringmanintheglazedhat,stoodattheshop-doorofanevening,lookingupanddownthestreet。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter40[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERXLDomesticRelationsITwasnotinthenatureofthingsthatamanofMr。Dombey'smood,opposedtosuchaspiritashehadraisedagainsthimself,shouldbesoftenedintheimperiousasperityofhistemper;orthatthecoldhardarmourofprideinwhichhelivedencased,shouldbemademoreflexiblebyconstantcollisionwithhaughtyscornanddefiance。Itisthecurseofsuchanature——itisamainpartoftheheavyretributiononitselfitbearswithinitself——thatwhiledeferenceandconcessionswellitsevilqualities,andarethefooditgrowsupon,resistanceandaquestioningofitsexactingclaims,fosterittoo,noless。Theevilthatisinitfindsequallyitsmeansofgrowthandpropagationinopposites。Itdrawssupportandlifefromsweetsandbitters;boweddownbefore,orunacknowledged,itstillenslavesthebreastinwhichithasitsthrone;and,worshippedorrejected,isashardamasterastheDevilindarkfables。
Towardshisfirstwife,Mr。Dombey,inhiscoldandloftyarrogance,hadbornehimselfliketheremovedBeinghealmostconceivedhimselftobe。Hehadbeen`Mr。Dombey'withherwhenshefirstsawhim,andhewas`Mr。Dombey'whenshedied。Hehadassertedhisgreatnessduringtheirwholemarriedlife,andshehadmeeklyrecognisedit。Hehadkepthisdistantseatofstateonthetopofhisthrone,andsheherhumblestationonitsloweststep;andmuchgoodithaddonehim,sotoliveinsolitarybondagetohisoneidea!Hehadimaginedthattheproudcharacterofhissecondwifewouldhavebeenaddedtohisown——wouldhavemergedintoit,andexaltedhisgreatness。Hehadpicturedhimselfhaughtierthanever,withEdith'shaughtinesssubservienttohis。Hehadneverentertainedthepossibilityofitsarrayingitselfagainsthim。Andnow,whenhefounditrisinginhispathateverystepandturnofhisdailylife,fixingitscold,defiant,andcontemptuousfaceuponhim,thisprideofhis,insteadofwithering,orhangingdownitsheadbeneaththeshock,putforthnewshoots,becamemoreconcentratedandintense,moregloomy,sullen,irksome,andunyielding,thanithadeverbeenbefore。
Whowearssucharmour,too,bearswithhimeveranotherheavyretribution。Itisofproofagainstconciliation,love,andconfidence!
againstallgentlesympathyfromwithout,alltrust,alltenderness,allsoftemotion;buttodeepstabsintheselflove,itisasvulnerableasthebarebreasttosteel;andsuchtormentingfestersranklethere,asfollowonnootherwounds,no,thoughdealtwiththemailedhandofPrideitself,onweakerpride,disarmedandthrowndown。
Suchwoundswerehis。Hefeltthemsharply,inthesolitudeofhisoldrooms;whitherhenowbeganoftentoretireagain,andpasslongsolitaryhours。Itseemedhisfatetobeeverproudandpowerful;everhumbledandpowerlesswherehewouldbemoststrong。Whoseemedfatedtoworkoutthatdoom?
Who?Whowasitwhocouldwinhiswifeasshehadwonhisboy?
Whowasitwhohadshownhimthatnewvictory,ashesatinthedarkcorner?
Whowasitwhoseleastworddidwhathisutmostmeanscouldnot?Whowasitwho,unaidedbyhislove,regardornotice,thrivedandgrewbeautifulwhenthosesoaideddied?Whocoulditbe,butthesamechildatwhomhehadoftenglanceduneasilyinhermotherlessinfancy,withakindofdread,lesthemightcometohateher;andofwhomhisforebodingwasfulfilled,forheDIDhateherinhisheart?
Yes,andhewouldhaveithatred,andhemadeithatred,thoughsomesparklesofthelightinwhichshehadappearedbeforehimonthememorablenightofhisreturnhomewithhisBride,occasionallyhungaboutherstill。Heknewnowthatshewasbeautiful;hedidnotdisputethatshewasgracefulandwinning,andthatinthebrightdawnofherwomanhoodshehadcomeuponhim,asurprise。Butheturnedeventhisagainsther。
Inhissullenandunwholesomebrooding,theunhappyman,withadullperceptionofhisalienationfromallhearts,andavagueyearningforwhathehadallhisliferepelled,madeadistortedpictureofhisrightsandwrongs,andjustifiedhimselfwithitagainsther。Theworthiershepromisedtobeofhim,thegreaterclaimhewasdisposedtoante-dateuponherdutyandsubmission?Whenhadsheevershownhimdutyandsubmission?Didshegracehislife——orEdith's?Hadherattractionsbeenmanifestedfirsttohim——orEdith?Why,heandshehadneverbeen,fromherbirth,likefatherandchild!Theyhadalwaysbeenestranged。Shehadcrossedhimeverywayandeverywhere。Shewasleaguedagainsthimnow。Herverybeautysoftenednaturesthatwereobduratetohim,andinsultedhimwithanunnaturaltriumph。
Itmayhavebeenthatinallthisthereweremutteringsofanawakenedfeelinginhisbreast,howeverselfishlyarousedbyhispositionofdisadvantage,incomparisonwithwhatshemighthavemadehislife。
Buthesilencedthedistantthunderwiththerollingofhisseaofpride。
Hewouldbearnothingbuthispride。Andinhispride,aheapofinconsistency,andmisery,andself-inflictedtorment,hehatedher。
Tothemoody,stubborn,sullendemon,thatpossessedhim,hiswifeopposedherdifferentprideinitsfullforce。Theynevercouldhaveledahappylifetogether;butnothingcouldhavemadeitmoreunhappy,thanthewilfulanddeterminedwarfareofsuchelements。Hispridewassetuponmaintaininghismagnificentsupremacy,andforcingrecognitionofitfromher。Shewouldhavebeenrackedtodeath,andturnedbutherhaughtyglanceofcalminflexibledisdainuponhim,tothelast。SuchrecognitionfromEdith!Helittleknewthroughwhatastormandstruggleshehadbeendrivenonwardtothecrowninghonourofhishand。Helittleknewhowmuchshethoughtshehadconceded,whenshesufferedhimtocallherwife。
Mr。Dombeywasresolvedtoshowherthathewassupreme。Theremustbenowillbuthis。Proudhedesiredthatsheshouldbe,butshemustbeproudfor,notagainsthim。Ashesatalone,hardening,hewouldoftenhearhergooutandcomehome,treadingtheroundofLondonlifewithnomoreheedofhislikingordisliking,pleasureordispleasure,thanifhehadbeenhergroom。Hercoldsupremeindifference——hisownunquestionedattributeusurped——stunghimmorethananyotherkindoftreatmentcouldhavedone;andhedeterminedtobendhertohismagnificentandstatelywill。
Hehadbeenlongcommuningwiththesethoughts,whenonenighthesoughtherinherownapartment,afterhehadheardherreturnhomelate。Shewasalone,inherbrilliantdress,andhadbutthatmomentcomefromhermother'sroom。Herfacewasmelancholyandpensive,whenhecameuponher;butitmarkedhimatthedoor;for,glancingatthemirrorbeforeit,hesawimmediately,asinapicture-frame,theknittedbrow,anddarkenedbeautythatheknewsowell。
`Mrs。Dombey,'hesaid,entering,`Imustbegleavetohaveafewwordswithyou。'
`To-morrow,'shereplied。
`Thereisnotimelikethepresent,Madam,'hereturned。`Youmistakeyourposition。Iamusedtochoosemyowntimes;nottohavethemchosenforme。IthinkyouscarcelyunderstandwhoandwhatIam,Mrs。
Dombey。'
`Ithink,'sheanswered,`thatIunderstandyouverywell。'
Shelookeduponhimasshesaidso,andfoldingherwhitearms,sparklingwithgoldandgems,uponherswellingbreast,turnedawayhereyes。
Ifshehadbeenlesshandsome,andlessstatelyinhercoldcomposure,shemightnothavehadthepowerofimpressinghimwiththesenseofdisadvantagethatpenetratedthroughhisutmostpride。Butshehadthepower,andhefeltitkeenly。Heglancedroundtheroom:sawhowthesplendidmeansofpersonaladornment,andtheluxuriesofdress,werescatteredhereandthere,anddisregarded;notinmerecapriceandcarelessnessorsohethought,butinasteadfasthaughtydisregardofcostlythings:andfeltitmoreandmore。Chapletsofflowers,plumesoffeathers,jewels,laces,silksandsatins;lookwherehewould,hesawriches,despised,pouredout,andmadeofnoaccount。Theverydiamonds——amarriagegift——thatroseandfellimpatientlyuponherbosom,seemedtopanttobreakthechainthatclaspedthemroundherneck,androlldownonthefloorwhereshemighttreaduponthem。
Hefelthisdisadvantage,andheshowedit。Solemnandstrangeamonghiswealthofcolourandvoluptuousglitter,strangeandconstrainedtowardsitshaughtymistress,whoserepellentbeautyitrepeated,andpresentedallaroundhim,asinsomanyfragmentsofamirror,hewasconsciousofembarrassmentandawkwardness。Nothingthatministeredtoherdisdainfulself-possessioncouldfailtogallhim。Galledandirritatedwithhimself,hesatdown,andwentoninnoimprovedhumour:
`Mrs。Dombey,itisverynecessarythatthereshouldbesomeunderstandingarrivedatbetweenus。YourconductdoesnotpleaseMe,madam。'
Shemerelyglancedathimagain,andagainavertedhereyes;butshemighthavespokenforanhour,andexpressedless。
`Irepeat,Mrs。Dombey,doesnotpleaseme。Ihavealreadytakenoccasiontorequestthatitmaybecorrected。Inowinsistuponit。'
`Youchoseafittingoccasionforyourfirstremonstrance,Sir,andyouadoptafittingmanner,andafittingwordforyoursecond。Youinsist!Tome!'
`Madam,'saidMr。Dombey,withhismostoffensiveairofstate,`Ihavemadeyoumywife。Youbearmyname。Youareassociatedwithmypositionandmyreputation。Iwillnotsaythattheworldingeneralmaybedisposedtothinkyouhonouredbythatassociation;butIwillsaythatIamaccustomedto“insist,“tomyconnectionsanddependents。'
`Whichmayyoubepleasedtoconsiderme?'sheasked。
`PossiblyImaythinkthatmywifeshouldpartake——ordoespartake,andcannothelpherself——ofbothcharacters,Mrs。Dombey。'
Shebenthereyesuponhimsteadily,andsethertremblinglips。
Hesawherbosomthrob,andsawherfaceflushandturnwhite。Allthishecouldknow,anddid:buthecouldnotknowthatonewordwaswhisperinginthedeeprecessesofherheart,tokeepherquiet;andthatthewordwasFlorence。
Blindidiot,rushingtoaprecipice!Hethoughtshestoodinaweofhim!
`Youaretooexpensive,Madam,'saidMr。Dombey。`Youareextravagant。
Youwasteagreatdealofmoney——orwhatwouldbeagreatdealinthepocketsofmostgentlemen——incultivatingakindofsocietythatisuselesstome,and,indeed,thatuponthewholeisdisagreeabletome。Ihavetoinsistuponatotalchangeinalltheserespects。IknowthatinthenoveltyofpossessingatitheofsuchmeansasFortunehasplacedatyourdisposal,ladiesareapttorunintoasuddenextreme。Therehasbeenmorethanenoughofthatextreme。IbegthatMrs。Granger'sverydifferentexperiencesmaynowcometotheinstructionofMrs。Dombey。'
Stillthefixedlook,thetremblinglips,thethrobbingbreast,thefacenowcrimsonandnowwhite;andstillthedeepwhisperFlorence,Florence,speakingtoherinthebeatingofherheart。
Hisinsolenceofself-importancedilatedashesawthisalterationinher。Swollennolessbyherpastscornofhim,andhissorecentfeelingofdisadvantage,thanbyherpresentsubmissionashetookittobe,itbecametoomightyforhisbreast,andburstallbounds。Why,whocouldlongresisthisloftywillandpleasure!Hehadresolvedtoconquerher,andlookhere!
`Youwillfurtherplease,Madam,'saidMr。Dombey,inatoneofsovereigncommand,`tounderstanddistinctly,thatIamtobedeferredtoandobeyed。ThatImusthaveapositiveshowandconfessionofdeferencebeforetheworld,Madam。Iamusedtothis。Irequireitasmyright。InshortIwillhaveit。Iconsideritnounreasonablereturnfortheworldlyadvancementthathasbefallenyou;andIbelievenobodywillbesurprised,eitheratitsbeingrequiredfromyou,oratyourmakingit——ToMe——ToMe!'headded,withemphasis。
Nowordfromher。Nochangeinher。Hereyesuponhim。
`Ihavelearntfromyourmother,Mrs。Dombey,'saidMr。Dombey,withmagisterialimportance,`whatnodoubtyouknow,namely,thatBrightonisrecommendedforherhealth。Mr。Carkerhasbeensogood'
Shechangedsuddenly。Herfaceandbosomglowedasiftheredlightofanangrysunsethadbeenflunguponthem。Notunobservantofthechange,andputtinghisowninterpretationuponit,Mr。Dombeyresumed:
`Mr。Carkerhasbeensogoodastogodownandsecureahousethere,foratime。OnthereturnoftheestablishmenttoLondon,IshalltakesuchstepsforitsbettermanagementasIconsidernecessary。Oneofthese,willbetheengagementatBrightonifitistobeeffected,ofaveryrespectablereducedpersonthere,aMrs。Pipchin,formerlyemployedinasituationoftrustinmyfamily,toactashousekeeper。Anestablishmentlikethis,presidedoverbutnominally,Mrs。Dombey,requiresacompetenthead。'
Shehadchangedherattitudebeforehearrivedatthesewords,andnowsat——stilllookingathimfixedly——turningabraceletroundandrounduponherarm;notwindingitaboutwithalight,womanlytouch,butpressinganddraggingitoverthesmoothskin,untilthewhitelimbshowedabarofred。
`Iobserved,'saidMr。Dombey——`andthisconcludeswhatIdeemitnecessarytosaytoyouatpresent,Mrs。Dombey——Iobservedamomentago,Madam,thatmyallusiontoMr。Carkerwasreceivedinapeculiarmanner。
Ontheoccasionofmyhappeningtopointouttoyou,beforethatconfidentialagent,theobjectionIhadtoyourmodeofreceivingmyvisitors,youwerepleasedtoobjecttohispresence。Youwillhavetogetthebetterofthatobjection,Madam,andtoaccustomyourselftoitveryprobablyonmanysimilaroccasions;unlessyouadopttheremedywhichisinyourownhands,ofgivingmenocauseofcomplaint。Mr。Carker,'saidMr。Dombey,who,aftertheemotionhehadjustseen,setgreatstorebythismeansofreducinghisproudwife,andwhowasperhapssufficientlywillingtoexhibithispowertothatgentlemaninanewandtriumphantaspect,`Mr。Carkerbeinginmyconfidence,Mrs。Dombey,mayverywellbeinyourstosuchanextent。
Ihope,Mrs。Dombey,'hecontinued,afterafewmoments,duringwhich,inhisincreasinghaughtiness,hehadimprovedonhisidea,`ImaynotfinditnecessaryevertointrustMr。Carkerwithanymessageofobjectionorremonstrancetoyou;butasitwouldbederogatorytomypositionandreputationtobefrequentlyholdingtrivialdisputeswithaladyuponwhomIhaveconferredthehighestdistinctionthatitisinmypowertobestow,IshallnotscrupletoavailmyselfofhisservicesifIseeoccasion。'
`Andnow,'hethought,risinginhismoralmagnificence,andrisingastifferandmoreimpenetrablemanthanever,`sheknowsmeandmyresolution。'
Thehandthathadsopressedthebraceletwaslaidheavilyuponherbreast,butshelookedathimstill,withanunalteredface,andsaidinalowvoice:
`Wait!ForGod'ssake!Imustspeaktoyou。'
Whydidshenot,andwhatwastheinwardstrugglethatrenderedherincapableofdoingso,forminutes,while,inthestrongconstraintsheputuponherface,itwasasfixedasanystatue's——lookinguponhimwithneitheryieldingnorunyielding,likingnorhatred,pridenorhumility:
nothingbutasearchinggaze?
`DidIevertemptyoutoseekmyhand?DidIeveruseanyarttowinyou?WasIevermoreconciliatingtoyouwhenyoupursuedme,thanIhavebeensinceourmarriage?WasIeverothertoyouthanIam?'
`Itiswhollyunnecessary,Madam,'saidMr。Dombey,`toenteruponsuchdiscussions。'
`DidyouthinkIlovedyou?DidyouknowIdidnot?Didyouevercare,Man!formyheart,orproposetoyourselftowintheworthlessthing?
Wasthereanypoorpretenceofanyinourbargain?Uponyourside,oronmine?'
`Thesequestions,'saidMr。Dombey,`areallwideofthepurpose,Madam。'
Shemovedbetweenhimandthedoortopreventhisgoingaway,anddrawinghermajesticfiguretoitsheight,lookedsteadilyuponhimstill。
`Youanswereachofthem。YouanswermebeforeIspeak,Isee。
Howcanyouhelpit;youwhoknowthemiserabletruthaswellasI?Now,tellme。IfIlovedyoutodevotion,couldIdomorethanrenderupmywholewillandbeingtoyou,asyouhavejustdemanded?Ifmyheartwerepureandalluntried,andyouitsidol,couldyouaskmore;couldyouhavemore?'
`Possiblynot,Madam,'hereturnedcoolly。
`YouknowhowdifferentIam。Youseemelookingonyounow,andyoucanreadthewarmthofpassionforyouthatisbreathinginmyface。'
Notacurloftheproudlip,notaflashofthedarkeye,nothingbutthesameintentandsearchinglook,accompaniedthesewords。`Youknowmygeneralhistory。Youhavespokenofmymother。Doyouthinkyoucandegrade,orbendorbreak,metosubmissionandobedience?'
Mr。Dombeysmiled,ashemighthavesmiledataninquirywhetherhethoughthecouldraisetenthousandpounds。
`Ifthereisanythingunusualhere,'shesaid,withaslightmotionofherhandbeforeherbrow,whichdidnotforamomentflinchfromitsimmovableandotherwiseexpressionlessgaze,`asIknowthereareunusualfeelingshere,'raisingthehandshepresseduponherbosom,andheavilyreturningit,`considerthatthereisnocommonmeaningintheappealI
amgoingtomakeyou。Yes,forIamgoing;'shesaiditasinpromptreplytosomethinginhisface;`toappealtoyou。'
Mr。Dombey,withaslightlycondescendingbendofhischinthatrustledandcrackledhisstiffcravat,satdownonasofathatwasnearhim,toheartheappeal。
`IfyoucanbelievethatIamofsuchanaturenow,'——hefanciedhesawtearsglisteninginhereyes,andhethought,complacently,thathehadforcedthemfromher,thoughnonefellonhercheek,andsheregardedhimassteadilyasever,——`aswouldmakewhatInowsayalmostincredibletomyself,saidtoanymanwhohadbecomemyhusband,but,aboveall,saidtoyou,youmay,perhaps,attachthegreaterweighttoit。Inthedarkendtowhichwearetending,andmaycome,weshallnotinvolveourselvesalonethatmightnotbemuchbutothers。'
Others!Heknewatwhomthatwordpointed,andfrownedheavily。
`Ispeaktoyouforthesakeofothers。Alsoyourownsake;andformine。Sinceourmarriage,youhavebeenarroganttome;andIhaverepaidyouinkind。Youhaveshowntomeandeveryonearoundus,everydayandhour,thatyouthinkIamgracedanddistinguishedbyyouralliance。
Idonotthinkso,andhaveshownthattoo。Itseemsyoudonotunderstand,orsofarasyourpowercangointendthateachofusshalltakeaseparatecourse;andyouexpectfrommeinstead,ahomageyouwillneverhave。'
Althoughherfacewasstillthesame,therewasemphaticconfirmationofthis`Never'intheverybreathshedrew。
`Ifeelnotendernesstowardsyou;thatyouknow。Youwouldcarenothingforit,ifIdidorcould。Iknowaswellthatyoufeelnonetowardsme。Butwearelinkedtogether;andintheknotthattiesus,asIhavesaid,othersareboundup。Wemustbothdie;wearebothconnectedwiththedeadalready,eachbyalittlechild。Letusforbear。'
Mr。Dombeytookalongrespiration,asifhewouldhavesaid,Oh!wasthisall!
`Thereisnowealth,'shewenton,turningpalerasshewatchedhim,whilehereyesgrewyetmorelustrousintheirearnestness,`thatcouldbuythesewordsofme,andthemeaningthatbelongstothem。Oncecastawayasidlebreath,nowealthorpowercanbringthemback。Imeanthem;Ihaveweighedthem;andIwillbetruetowhatIundertake。Ifyouwillpromisetoforbearonyourpart,Iwillpromisetoforbearonmine。
Weareamostunhappypair,inwhom,fromdifferentcauses,everysentimentthatblessesmarriage,orjustifiesit,isrootedout;butinthecourseoftime,somefriendship,orsomefitnessforeachother,mayarisebetweenus。Iwilltrytohopeso,ifyouwillmaketheendeavourtoo;andIwilllookforwardtoabetterandahappieruseofagethanIhavemadeofyouthorprime。'
Throughoutshehadspokeninalowplainvoice,thatneitherrosenorfell;ceasing,shedroppedthehandwithwhichshehadenforcedherselftobesopassionlessanddistinct,butnottheeyeswithwhichshehadsosteadilyobservedhim。
`Madam,'saidMr。Dombey,withhisutmostdignity,`Icannotentertainanyproposalofthisextraordinarynature。'
Shelookedathimyet,withouttheleastchange。
`Icannot,'saidMr。Dombey,risingashespoke,`consenttotemporiseortreatwithyou,Mrs。Dombey,uponasubjectastowhichyouareinpossessionofmyopinionsandexpectations。Ihavestatedmyultimatum,Madam,andhaveonlytorequestyourveryseriousattentiontoit。'
Toseethefacechangetoitsoldexpression,deepenedinintensity!
Toseetheeyesdroopasfromsomemeanandodiousobject!Toseethelightingofthehaughtybrow!Toseescorn,anger,indignation,andabhorrencestartingintosight,andthepaleblankearnestnessvanishlikeamist!Hecouldnotchoosebutlook,althoughhelookedtohisdismay。
`Go,Sir!'shesaid,pointingwithanimperioushandtowardsthedoor。`Ourfirstandlastconfidenceisatanend。Nothingcanmakeusstrangertoeachotherthanwearehenceforth。'
`Ishalltakemyrightfulcourse,Madam,'saidMr。Dombey,`undeterred,youmaybesure,byanygeneraldeclamation。'
Sheturnedherbackuponhim,and,withoutreply,satdownbeforeherglass。
`Iplacemyrelianceonyourimprovedsenseofduty,andmorecorrectfeeling,andbetterreflection,Madam,'saidMr。Dombey。
Sheanswerednotoneword。Hesawnomoreexpressionofanyheedofhim,inthemirror,thanifhehadbeenanunseenspideronthewall,orbeetleonthefloor,orrather,thanifhehadbeentheoneorother,seenandcrushedwhenshelastturnedfromhim,andforgottenamongtheignominiousanddeadverminoftheground。
Helookedback,ashewentoutatthedoor,uponthewelllightedandluxuriousroom,thebeautifulandglitteringobjectseverywheredisplayed,theshapeofEdithinitsrichdressseatedbeforeherglass,andthefaceofEdithastheglasspresentedittohim;andbetookhimselftohisoldchamberofcogitation,carryingawaywithhimavividpictureinhismindofallthesethings,andaramblingandunaccountablespeculationsuchassometimescomesintoaman'sheadhowtheywouldalllookwhenhesawthemnext。
Fortherest,Mr。Dombeywasverytaciturn,andverydignified,andveryconfidentofcarryingouthispurpose;andremainedso。
HedidnotdesignaccompanyingthefamilytoBrighton;buthegraciouslyinformedCleopatraatbreakfast,onthemorningofdeparture,whicharrivedadayortwoafterwards,thathemightbeexpecteddown,soon。TherewasnotimetobelostingettingCleopatratoanyplacerecommendedasbeingsalutary;for,indeed,sheseemeduponthewane,andturningoftheearth,earthy。
Withouthavingundergoneanydecidedsecondattackofhermalady,theoldwomanseemedtohavecrawledbackwardinherrecoveryfromthefirst。Shewasmoreleanandshrunken,moreuncertaininherimbecility,andmadestrangerconfusionsinhermindandmemory。Amongothersymptomsofthislastaffliction,shefellintothehabitofconfoundingthenamesofhertwosons-in-law,thelivingandthedeceased;andingeneralcalledMr。Dombey,either`Grangeby,'or`Domber,'orindifferently,both。
Butshewasyouthful,veryyouthfulstill;andinheryouthfulnessappearedatbreakfast,beforegoingaway,inanewbonnetmadeexpress,andatravellingrobethatwasembroideredandbraidedlikeanoldbaby's。
Itwasnoteasytoputherintoafly-awaybonnetnow,ortokeepthebonnetinitsplaceonthebackofherpoornoddinghead,whenitwasgoton。
Inthisinstance,ithadnotonlytheextraneouseffectofbeingalwaysononeside,butofbeingperpetuallytappedonthecrownbyFlowersthemaid,whoattendedinthebackgroundduringbreakfasttoperformthatduty。
`Now,mydearestGrangeby,'saidMrs。Skewton,`youmustposivelyprom,'shecutsomeofherwordsshort,andcutoutothersaltogether,`comedownverysoon。'
`Isaidjustnow,Madam,'returnedMr。Dombey,loudlyandlaboriously,`thatIamcominginadayortwo。'
`Blessyou,Domber!'
HeretheMajor,whowascometotakeleaveoftheladies,andwhowasstaringthroughhisapoplecticeyesatMrs。Skewton'sface,withthedisinterestedcomposureofanimmortalbeing,said:
`Begad,Ma'am,youdon'taskoldJoetocome!'
`Steriouswretch,who'she?'lispedCleopatra。ButataponthebonnetfromFlowersseemingtojoghermemory,sheadded,`Oh!Youmeanyourself,younaughtycreature!'
`Devilishqueer,Sir,'whisperedtheMajortoMr。Dombey。`Badcase。Neverdidwrapupenough;'theMajorbeingbuttonedtothechin。`WhywhoshouldJ。B。meanbyJoe,butoldJoeBagstock——Joseph——yourslave——Joe,Ma'am?Here!Here'stheman!HerearetheBagstockbellows,Ma'am!'criedtheMajor,strikinghimselfasoundingblowonthechest。
`MydearestEdith——Grangeby——it'smosttrordinrything,'saidCleopatra,pettishly,`thatMajor——'
`Bagstock!J。B。!'criedtheMajor,seeingthatshefalteredforhisname。
`Well,itdon'tmatter,'saidCleopatra。`Edith,mylove,youknowInevercouldremembernames——whatwasit?oh!——mosttrordinrythingthatsomanypeoplewanttocomedowntoseeme。I'mnotgoingforlong。
I'mcomingback。Surelytheycanwait,tillIcomeback!'
Cleopatralookedallroundthetableasshesaidit,andappearedveryuneasy。
`Iwon'thavevisitors——reallydon'twantvisitors,'shesaid;
`littlerepose——andallthatsortofthing——iswhatIquire。NoodiousbrutesmustproachmetillI'veshakenoffthisnumbness;'andinagrislyresumptionofhercoquettishways,shemadeadabattheMajorwithherfan,butoversetMr。Dombey'sbreakfastcupinstead,whichwasinquiteadifferentdirection。
ThenshecalledforWithers,andchargedhimtoseeparticularlythatwordwasleftaboutsometrivialalterationsinherroom,whichmustbeallmadebeforeshecameback,andwhichmustbesetaboutimmediately,astherewasnosayinghowsoonshemightcomeback;forshehadagreatmanyengagements,andallsortsofpeopletocallupon。Withersreceivedthesedirectionswithbecomingdeference,andgavehisguaranteefortheirexecution;butwhenhewithdrewapaceortwobehindher,itappearedasifhecouldn'thelplookingstrangelyattheMajor,whocouldn'thelplookingstrangelyatMr。Dombey,whocouldn'thelplookingstrangelyatCleopatra,whocouldn'thelpnoddingherbonnetoveroneeye,andrattlingherknifeandforkuponherplateinusingthem,asifshewereplayingcastanets。
Edithaloneneverliftedhereyestoanyfaceatthetable,andneverseemeddismayedbyanythinghermothersaidordid。Shelistenedtoherdisjointedtalk,oratleast,turnedherheadtowardsherwhenaddressed;
repliedinafewlowwordswhennecessary;andsometimesstoppedherwhenshewasrambling,orbroughtherthoughtsbackwithamonosyllable,tothepointfromwhichtheyhadstrayed。Themother,howeverunsteadyinotherthings,wasconstantinthis——thatshewasalwaysobservantofher。