Mr。Dombeymovedhishead,asifinasarcasticacknowledgmentoftheattention,andresumed。Butnotwithsomuchself-possessionasbefore;forEdith'sindifferencetohimandhiscensure,chafedandgalledhimlikeastiffeningwound。
`Mrs。Dombey,'saidhe,`itmaynotbeinconsistentwithmydaughter'simprovementtoknowhowverymuchtobelamented,andhownecessarytobecorrected,astubborndispositionis,especiallywhenitisindulgedin——unthankfullyindulgedin,Iwilladd——afterthegratificationofambitionandinterest。Bothofwhich,Ibelieve,hadsomeshareininducingyoutooccupyyourpresentstationatthisboard。'
`No!Iwouldnotrise,andgoaway,andsaveyoutheutteranceofoneword,'sherepeated,exactlyasbefore,`iftheroomwereburning。'
`Itmaybenaturalenough,Mrs。Dombey,'hepursued,`thatyoushouldbeuneasyinthepresenceofanyauditorsofthesedisagreeabletruths;thoughwhy'——hecouldnothidehisrealfeelingshere,orkeephiseyesfromglancinggloomilyatFlorence——`whyanyonecangivethemgreaterforceandpointthanmyself,whomtheysonearlyconcern,Idonotpretendtounderstand。Itmaybenaturalenoughthatyoushouldobjecttohear,inanybody'spresence,thatthereisarebelliousprinciplewithinyouwhichyoucannotcurbtoosoon;whichyoumustcurb,Mrs。Dombey;andwhich,Iregrettosay,Iremembertohaveseenmanifested——withsomedoubtanddispleasure,onmorethanoneoccasionbeforeourmarriage-towardsyourdeceasedmother。Butyouhavetheremedyinyourownhands。Ibynomeansforgot,whenIbegan,thatmydaughterwaspresent,Mrs。Dombey。
Ibegyouwillnotforget,to-morrow,thatthereareseveralpersonspresent;andthat,withsomeregardtoappearances,youwillreceiveyourcompanyinabecomingmanner。'
`Soitisnotenough,'saidEdith,`thatyouknowwhathaspassedbetweenyourselfandme;itisnotenoughthatyoucanlookhere,'pointingatCarker,whostilllistened,withhiseyescastdown,`andberemindedoftheaffrontsyouhaveputuponme;itisnotenoughthatyoucanlookhere,'pointingtoFlorencewithahandthatslightlytrembledforthefirstandonlytime,`andthinkofwhatyouhavedone,andoftheingeniousagony,daily,hourly,constant,youhavemademefeelindoingit;itisnotenoughthatthisday,ofallothersintheyear,ismemorabletomeforastrugglewell-deserved,butnotconceivablebysuchasyouinwhichIwishIhaddied!Youaddtoallthis,doyou,thelastcrowningmeannessofmakingherawitnessofthedepthtowhichIhavefallen;whenyouknowthatyouhavemademesacrificetoherpeace,theonlygentlefeelingandinterestofmylife,whenyouknowthatforhersake,Iwouldnowifcould——butIcannot,mysoulrecoilsfromyoutoomuch——submitmyselfwhollytoyourwillandbethemeekestvassalthatyouhave!'
ThiswasnotthewaytoministertoMr。Dombey'sgreatness。Theoldfeelingwasrousedbywhatshesaid,intoastrongerandfiercerexistencethanithadeverhad。Again,hisneglectedchild,atthisroughpassageofhislife,putforthbyeventhisrebelliouswoman,aspowerfulwherehewaspowerless,andeverythingwherehewasnothing!
HeturnedonFlorence,asifitwereshewhohadspoken,andbadeherleavetheroom。Florencewithhercoveredfaceobeyed,tremblingandweepingasshewent。
`Iunderstand,Madam,'saidMr。Dombey,withanangryflushoftriumph,`thespiritofoppositionthatturnedyouraffectionsinthatchannel,buttheyhavebeenmet,Mrs。Dombey;theyhavebeenmet,andturnedback!'
`Theworseforyou!'sheanswered,withhervoiceandmannerstillunchanged。`Aye!'forheturnedsharplywhenshesaidso,`whatistheworseforme,istwentymilliontimestheworseforyou。Heedthat,ifyouheednothingelse。'
Thearchofdiamondsspanningherdarkhair,flashedandglitteredlikeastarrybridge。Therewasnowarninginthem,ortheywouldhaveturnedasdullanddimastarnishedhonour。Carkerstillsatandlistened,withhiseyescastdown。
`Mrs。Dombey,'saidMr。Dombey,resumingasmuchashecouldofhisarrogantcomposure,`youwillnotconciliateme,orturnmefromanypurpose,bythiscourseofconduct。'
`Itistheonlytruealthoughitisafaintexpressionofwhatiswithinme,'shereplied。`ButifIthoughtitwouldconciliateyou,Iwouldrepressit,ifitwererepressiblebyanyhumaneffort。Iwilldonothingthatyouask。'
`Iamnotaccustomedtoask,Mrs。Dombey,'heobserved;`Idirect。'
`Iwillholdnoplaceinyourhouseto-morrow,oronanyrecurrenceofto-morrow。Iwillbeexhibitedtonoone,astherefractoryslaveyoupurchased,suchatime。IfIkeptmymarriage-day,Iwouldkeepitasadayofshame。Self-respect!appearancesbeforetheworld!whatarethesetome?Youhavedoneallyoucantomakethemnothingtome,andtheyarenothing。'
`Carker,'saidMr。Dombey,speakingwithknittedbrows,andafteramoment'sconsideration,`Mrs。Dombeyissoforgetfulofherselfandmeinallthis,andplacesmeinapositionsounsuitedtomycharacter,thatImustbringthisstateofmatterstoaclose。'
`Releaseme,then,'saidEdith,immoveableinvoice,inlook,andbearing,asshehadbeenthroughout,`fromthechainbywhichIambound。Letmego。'
`Madam?'exclaimedMr。Dombey。
`Looseme。Setmefree!'
`Madam?'herepeated。`Mrs。Dombey?'
`Tellhim,'saidEdith,addressingherproudfacetoCarker,`thatIwishforaseparationbetweenus。Thattherehadbetterbeone。ThatIrecommendittohim。Tellhimitmaytakeplaceonhisownterms——hiswealthisnothingtome——butthatitcannotbetoosoon。'
`GoodHeaven,Mrs。Dombey!'saidherhusband,withsupremeamazement,`doyouimagineitpossiblethatIcouldeverlistentosuchaproposition?
DoyouknowwhoIam,Madam?DoyouknowwhatIrepresent?DidyoueverhearofDombeyandSon?PeopletosaythatMr。Dombey——Mr。Dombey!——wasseparatedfromhiswife!CommonpeopletotalkofMr。Dombeyandhisdomesticaffairs!Doyouseriouslythink,Mrs。Dombey,thatIwouldpermitmynametobehandedaboutinsuchconnexion?Pooh,pooh,Madam!Fieforshame!
You'reabsurd。'Mr。Dombeyabsolutelylaughed。
Butnotasshedid。Shehadbetterhavebeendeadthanlaughasshedid,inreply,withherintentlookfixeduponhim。Hehadbetterhavebeendead,thansittingthere,inhismagnificence,tohearher。
`No,Mrs。Dombey,'heresumed。`No,Madam。Thereisnopossibilityofseparationbetweenyouandme,andthereforeIthemoreadviseyoutobeawakenedtoasenseofduty。And,Carker,asIwasabouttosaytoyou——'
Mr。Carker,whohadsatandlistenedallthistime,nowraisedhiseyes,inwhichtherewasabrightunusuallight。
`——AsIwasabouttosaytoyou,'resumedMr。Dombey,`Imustbegyou,nowthatmattershavecometothis,toinformMrs。Dombey,thatitisnottheruleofmylifetoallowmyselftobethwartedbyanybody——anybody,Carker——ortosufferanybodytobeparadedasastrongermotiveforobedienceinthosewhooweobediencetomethanIammyself。Thementionthathasbeenmadeofmydaughter,andtheusethatismadeofmydaughter,inoppositiontome,areunnatural。WhethermydaughterisinactualconcertwithMrs。
Dombey,Idonotknow,anddonotcare;butafterwhatMrs。Dombeyhassaidto-day,andmydaughterhasheardto-day,IbegyoutomakeknowntoMrs。Dombey,thatifshecontinuestomakethishousethesceneofcontentionithasbecome,Ishallconsidermydaughterresponsibleinsomedegree,onthatlady'sownavowal,andshallvisitherwithmyseveredispleasure。
Mrs。Dombeyhasasked“whetheritisnotenough,“thatshehaddonethisandthat。Youwillpleasetoanswerno,itisnotenough。'
`Amoment!'criedCarker,interposing,`permitme!painfulasmypositionis,atthebest,andunusuallypainfulinseemingtoentertainadifferentopinionfromyou,'addressingMr。Dombey,`Imustask,hadyounotbetterreconsiderthequestionofaseparation?Iknowhowincompatibleitappearswithyourhighpublicposition,andIknowhowdeterminedyouarewhenyougiveMrs。Dombeytounderstand'——thelightinhiseyesfelluponherasheseparatedhiswordseachfromeach,withthedistinctnessofsomanybells——`thatnothingbutdeathcaneverpartyou。Nothingelse。
ButwhenyouconsiderthatMrs。Dombey,bylivinginthishouse,andmakingitasyouhavesaid,asceneofcontention,notonlyhasherpartinthatcontention,butcompromisesMissDombeyeverydayforIknowhowdeterminedyouare,willyounotrelieveherfromacontinualirritationofspirit,andacontinualsenseofbeingunjusttoanother,almostintolerable?Doesthisnotseemlike——Idonotsayitis——sacrificingMrs。Dombeytothepreservationofyourpre-eminentandunassailableposition?'
Againthelightinhiseyesfelluponher,asshestoodlookingatherhusband:nowwithanextraordinaryandawfulsmileuponherface。
`Carker,'returnedMr。Dombey,withasuperciliousfrown,andinatonethatwasintendedtobefinal,`youmistakeyourpositioninofferingadvicetomeonsuchapoint,andyoumistakemeIamsurprisedtofindinthecharacterofyouradvice。Ihavenomoretosay。'
`Perhaps,'saidCarker,withanunusualandindefinabletauntinhisair,`youmistookmyposition,whenyouhonouredmewiththenegotiationsinwhichIhavebeenengagedhere'——withamotionofhishandtowardsMrs。Dombey。
`Notatall,Sir,notatall,'returnedtheotherhaughtily。`Youwereemployed——'
`Beinganinferiorperson,forthehumiliationofMrs。Dombey。
Iforgot。Oh,yes,itwasexpresslyunderstood!'saidCarker。`Ibegyourpardon!'
AshebenthisheadtoMr。Dombey,withanairofdeferencethataccordedillwithhiswords,thoughtheywerehumblyspoken,hemoveditroundtowardsher,andkepthiswatchingeyesthatway。
Shehadbetterhaveturnedhideousanddroppeddead,thanhavestoodupwithsuchasmileuponherface,insuchafallenspirit'smajestyofscornandbeauty。Sheliftedherhandtothetiaraofbrightjewelsradiantonherhead,and,pluckingitoffwithaforcethatdraggedandstrainedherrichblackhairwithheedlesscruelty,andbroughtittumblingwildlyonhershoulders,castthegemsupontheground。Fromeacharm,sheunclaspedadiamondbracelet,flungitdown,andtrodupontheglitteringheap。Withoutaword,withoutashadowonthefireofherbrighteye,withoutabatementofherawfulsmile,shelookedonMr。Dombeytothelast,inmovingtothedoor;andlefthim。
Florencehadheardenoughbeforequittingtheroom,toknowthatEdithlovedheryet;thatshehadsufferedforhersake;andthatshehadkepthersacrificesquiet,lesttheyshouldtroubleherpeace。Shedidnotwanttospeaktoherofthis——shecouldnot,rememberingtowhomshewasopposed——butshewished,inonesilentandaffectionateembrace,toassureherthatshefeltitall,andthankedher。
Herfatherwentoutalone,thatevening,andFlorenceissuingfromherownchambersoonafterwards,wentaboutthehouseinsearchofEdith,butunavailingly。Shewasinherownrooms,whereFlorencehadlongceasedtogo,anddidnotdaretoventurenow,lestsheshouldunconsciouslyengendernewtrouble。StillFlorencehopingtomeetherbeforegoingtobed,changedfromroomtoroom,andwanderedthroughthehousesosplendidandsodreary,withoutremaininganywhere。
Shewascrossingagalleryofcommunicationthatopenedatsomelittledistanceonthestaircase,andwasonlylightedongreatoccasions,whenshesaw,throughtheopening,whichwasanarch,thefigureofamancomingdownsomefewstairsopposite。Instinctivelyapprehensiveofherfather,whomshesupposeditwas,shestopped,inthedark,gazingthroughthearchintothelight。ButitwasMr。Carkercomingdownalone,andlookingovertherailingintothehall。Nobellwasrungtoannouncehisdeparture,andnoservantwasinattendance。Hewentdownquietly,openedthedoorforhimself,glidedout,andshutitsoftlyafterhim。
Herinvinciblerepugnancetothisman,andperhapsthestealthyactofwatchinganyone,which,evenundersuchinnocentcircumstances,isinamannerguiltyandoppressive,madeFlorenceshakefromheadtofoot。Herbloodseemedtoruncold。Assoonasshecould——foratfirstshefeltaninsurmountabledreadofmoving——shewentquicklytoherownroomandlockedherdoor;buteventhen,shutinwithherdogbesideher,feltachillsensationofhorror,asifthereweredangerbroodingsomewherenearher。
Itinvadedherdreamsanddisturbedthewholenight。Risinginthemorning,unrefreshed,andwithaheavyrecollectionofthedomesticunhappinessoftheprecedingday,shesoughtEdithagaininalltherooms,anddidso,fromtimetotime,allthemorning。Butsheremainedinherownchamber,andFlorencesawnothingofher。Learning,however,thattheprojecteddinnerathomewasputoff,Florencethoughtitlikelythatshewouldgooutintheeveningtofulfiltheengagementshehadspokenof;
andresolvedtotryandmeether,then,uponthestaircase。
Whentheeveninghadsetin,sheheard,fromtheroominwhichshesatonpurpose,afootsteponthestairsthatshethoughttobeEdith's。
Hurryingout,anduptowardsherroom,Florencemetherimmediately,comingdownalone。
WhatwasFlorence'saffrightandwonderwhen,atsightofher,withhertearfulface,andoutstretchedarms,Edithrecoiledandshrieked!
`Don'tcomenearme!'shecried。`Keepaway!Letmegoby!'
`Mama!'saidFlorence。
`Don'tcallmebythatname!Don'tspeaktome!Don'tlookatme!Florence!'shrinkingback,asFlorencemovedasteptowardsher,`don'ttouchme!'
AsFlorencestoodtransfixedbeforethehaggardfaceandstaringeyes,shenoted,asinadream,thatEdithspreadherhandsoverthem,andshudderingthroughallherform,andcrouchingdownagainstthewall,crawledbyherlikesomeloweranimal,sprangup,andfledaway。
Florencedroppeduponthestairsinaswoon;andwasfoundtherebyMrs。Pipchin,shesupposed。Sheknewnothingmore,untilshefoundherselflyingonherownbed,withMrs。Pipchinandsomeservantsstandingroundher。
`WhereisMama?'washerfirstquestion。
`Goneouttodinner,'saidMrs。Pipchin。
`AndPapa?'
`Mr。Dombeyisinhisownroom,MissDombey,'saidMrs。Pipchin,`andthebestthingyoucando,istotakeoffyourthingsandgotobedthisminute。'Thiswasthesagaciouswoman'sremedyforallcomplaints,particularlylownessofspirits,andinabilitytosleep;forwhichoffences,manyyoungvictimsinthedaysoftheBrightonCastlehadbeencommittedtobedatteno'clockinthemorning。
Withoutpromisingobedience,butonthepleaofdesiringtobeveryquiet,Florencedisengagedherself,assoonasshecould,fromtheministrationofMrs。Pipchinandherattendants。Leftalone,shethoughtofwhathadhappenedonthestaircase,atfirstindoubtofitsreality;
thenwithtears;thenwithanindescribableandterriblealarm,likethatshehadfeltthenightbefore。
ShedeterminednottogobeduntilEdithreturned,andifshecouldnotspeaktoher,atleasttobesurethatshewassafeathome。
WhatindistinctandshadowydreadmovedFlorencetothisresolution,shedidnotknow,anddidnotdaretothink。SheonlyknewthatuntilEdithcameback,therewasnoreposeforherachingheadorthrobbingheart。
Theeveningdeepenedintonight:midnightcame;noEdith。
Florencecouldnotread,orrestamoment。Shepacedherownroom,openedthedoorandpacedthestaircase-galleryoutside,lookedoutofwindowonthenight,listenedtothewindblowingandtherainfalling,satdownandwatchedthefacesinthefire,gotupandwatchedthemoonflyinglikeastorm-drivenshipthroughtheseaofclouds。
Allthehousewasgonetobed,excepttwoservantswhowerewaitingthereturnoftheirmistress,downstairs。
Oneo'clock。Thecarriagesthatrumbledinthedistance,turnedaway,orstoppedshort,orwentpast;thesilencegraduallydeepened,andwasmoreandmorerarelybroken,savebyarushofwindorsweepofrain。
Twoo'clock。NoEdith!
Florence,moreagitated,pacedherroom,andpacedthegalleryoutside;andlookedoutatthenight,blurredandwavywiththeraindropsontheglass,andthetearsinherowneyes;andlookedupatthehurryinthesky,sodifferentfromthereposebelow,andyetsotranquilandsolitary。Threeo'clock!Therewasaterrorineveryashthatdroppedoutofthefire。NoEdithyet。
MoreandMoreagitated,Florencepacedherroom,andpacedthegallery,andlookedoutatthemoonwithanewfancyofherlikenesstoapalefugitivehurryingawayandhidingherguiltyface。Fourstruck!
Five!NoEdithyet。
Butnowtheresomecautiousstirinthehouse;andFlorencefoundthatMrs。Pipchinhadbeenawakenedbyoneofthosewhosatup,hadrisenandhadgonedowntoherfather'sdoor。Stealinglowerdownthestairs,andobservingwhatpassed,shesawherfathercomeoutinhismorninggown,andstartwhenhewastoldhiswifehadnotcomehome。Hedispatchedamessengertothestablestoinquirewhetherthecoachmanwasthere;andwhilethemanwasgone,dressedhimselfveryhurriedly。
Themancameback,ingreathaste,bringingthecoachmanwithhim,whosaidhehadbeenathomeandinbedsinceteno'clock。HehaddrivenhismistresstoheroldhouseinBrookStreet,whereshehadbeenmetbyMr。Carker——
Florencestoodupontheveryspotwhereshehadseenhimcomingdown。Againsheshiveredwiththenamelessterrorofthatsight,andhadhardlysteadinessenoughtohearandunderstandwhatfollowed——
Whohadtoldhim,themanwentontosay,thathismistresswouldnotwantthecarriagetogohomein;andhaddismissedhim。
Shesawherfatherturnwhiteintheface,andheardhimaskinaquick,tremblingvoiceforMrs。Dombey'smaid。Thewholehousewasroused;
forshewasthere,inamoment,verypaletoo,andspeakingincoherently。
Shesaidshehaddressedhermistressearly——fulltwohoursbeforeshewentout——andhadbeentold,assheoftenwas,thatshewouldnotbewantedatnight。Shehadjustcomefromhermistress'srooms,but——
`Butwhat!whatwasit?'Florenceheardherfatherdemandlikeamadman。
`Buttheinnerdressing-roomwaslocked,andthekeygone。'
Herfatherseizedacandlethatwasflamingontheground——someonehadputitdownthere,andforgottenit——andcamerunningupstairswithsuchfury,thatFlorence,inherfear,hadhardlytimetoflybeforehim。Sheheardhimstrikinginthedoorassheranon,withherhandswidelyspread,andherhairstreaming,andherfacelikeadistractedperson's,backtoherownroom。
Whenthedooryielded,andherushedin,whatdidheseethere?
Nooneknew。Butthrowndowninacostlymassupontheground,waseveryornamentshehadhad,sinceshehadbeenhiswife:everydressshehadworn;andeverythingshehadpossessed。Thiswastheroominwhichhehadseen,inyondermirror,theproudfacediscardhim。Thiswastheroominwhichhehadwondered,idly,howthesethingswouldlookwhenheshouldseethemnext!
Heapingthembackintothedrawers,andlockingthemupinarageofhaste,hesawsomepapersonthetable。Thedeedofsettlementhehadexecutedontheirmarriage,andaletter。Hereadthatshewasgone。Hereadthathewasdishonoured。Hereadthatshehadfled,uponhershamefulwedding-day,withthemanwhomhehadchosenforherhumiliation;andhetoreoutoftheroom,andoutofthehouse,withafranticideaoffindingheryet,attheplacetowhichshehadbeentaken,andbeatingalltraceofbeautyoutofthetriumphantfacewithhisbarehand。
Florence,notknowingwhatshedid,putonashawlandbonnet,inadreamofrunningthroughthestreetsuntilshefoundEdith,andthenclaspingherinherarms,tosaveandbringherback。Butwhenshehurriedoutuponthestaircase,andsawthefrightenedservantsgoingupanddownwithlights,andwhisperingtogether,andfallingawayfromherfatherashepasseddown,sheawoketoasenseofherownpowerlessness;andhidinginoneofthegreatroomsthathadbeenmadegorgeousforthis,feltasifherheartwouldburstwithgrief。
Compassionforherfatherwasthefirstdistinctemotionthatmadeheadagainstthefloodofsorrowwhichoverwhelmedher。Herconstantnatureturnedtohiminhisdistress,asferventlyandfaithfully,asif,inhisprosperity,hehadbeentheembodimentofthatideawhichhadgraduallybecomesofaintanddim。Althoughshedidnotknow,otherwisethanthroughthesuggestionsofashapelessfear,thefullextentofhiscalamity,hestoodbeforeherwrongedanddeserted;andagainheryearningloveimpelledhertohisside。
Hewasnotlongaway:forFlorencewasyetweepinginthegreatroomandnourishingthesethoughts,whensheheardhimcomeback。Heorderedtheservantstosetabouttheirordinaryoccupations,andwentintohisownapartment,wherehetrodsoheavilythatshecouldhearhimwalkingupanddownfromendtoend。
Yieldingatoncetotheimpulseofheraffection,timidatallothertimes,butboldinitstruthtohiminhisadversity,andundauntedbypastrepulse,Florence,dressedasshewas,hurrieddownstairs。Asshesetherlightfootinthehall,hecameoutofhisroom。Shehastenedtowardshimunchecked,withherarmsstretchedout,andcrying`Ohdear,dearPapa!'
asifshewouldhaveclaspedhimroundtheneck。
Andsoshewouldhavedone。Butinhisfrenzy,helifteduphiscruelarm,andstruckher,crosswise,withthatheaviness,thatshetotteredonthemarblefloor;andashedealttheblow,hetoldherwhatEdithwas,andbadeherfollowher,sincetheyhadalwaysbeeninleague。
Shedidnotsinkdownathisfeet;shedidnotshutoutthesightofhimwithhertremblinghands;shedidnotweep;shedidnotutteronewordofreproach。Butshelookedathim,andacryofdesolationissuedfromherheart。Forasshelooked,shesawhimmurderingthatfondideatowhichshehadheldinspiteofhim。Shesawhiscruelty,neglect,andhatreddominantaboveit,andstampingitdown。Shesawshehadnofatheruponearth,andranout,orphaned,fromhishouse。
Ranoutofhishouse。Amoment,andherhandwasonthelock,thecrywasonherlips,hisfacewasthere,madepalerbytheyellowcandleshastilyputdownandgutteringaway,andbythedaylightcominginabovethedoor。Anothermoment,andtheclosedarknessoftheshut-uphouseforgottentobeopened,thoughitwaslongsincedayyieldedtotheunexpectedglareandfreedomofthemorning;andFlorence,withherheadbentdowntohideheragonyoftears,wasinthestreets。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter48[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERXLVIIITheFlightofFlorenceINthewildnessofhersorrow,shame,andterror,theforlorngirlhurriedthroughthesunshineofabrightmorning,asifitwerethedarknessofawinternight。Wringingherhandsandweepingbitterly,insensibletoeverythingbutthedeepwoundinherbreast,stunnedbythelossofallsheloved,leftlikethesolesurvivoronalonelyshorefromthewreckofagreatvessel,shefledwithoutathought,withoutahope,withoutapurpose,buttoflysomewhere——anywhere。
Thecheerfulvistaofthelongstreet,burnishedbythemorninglight,thesightoftheblueskyandairyclouds,thevigorousfreshnessoftheday,soflushedandrosyinitsconquestofthenight,awakenednoresponsivefeelingsinhersohurtbosom。Somewhere,anywhere,tohideherhead!somewhere,anywhere,forrefuge,nevermoretolookupontheplacefromwhichshefled!
Buttherewerepeoplegoingtoandfro;therewereopeningshops,andservantsatthedoorsofhouses;therewastherisingclashandroaroftheday'sstruggle。Florencesawsurpriseandcuriosityinthefacesflittingpasther;sawlongshadowscomingbackuponthepavement;andheardvoicesthatwerestrangetoheraskingherwhereshewent,andwhatthematterwas;andthoughthesefrightenedherthemoreatfirst,andmadeherhurryonthefaster,theydidherthegoodserviceofrecallingherinsomedegreetoherself,andremindingherofthenecessityofgreatercomposure。
Wheretogo?Stillsomewhere,anywhere!stillgoingon;butwhere!
ShethoughtoftheonlyothertimeshehadbeenlostinthewildwildernessofLondon——thoughnotlostasnow——andwentthatway。TothehomeofWalter'suncle。
Checkinghersobs,anddryingherswolleneyes,andendeavouringtocalmtheagitationofhermanner,soastoavoidattractingnotice,Florence,resolvingtokeeptothemorequietstreetsaslongasshecould,wasgoingonmorequietlyherself,whenafamiliarlittleshadowdartedpastuponthesunnypavement,stoppedshort,wheeledabout,cameclosetoher,madeoffagain,boundedroundandroundher,andDiogenes,pantingforbreath,andyetmakingthestreetringwithhisgladbark,wasatherfeet。
`Oh,Di!oh,dear,true,faithfulDi,howdidyoucomehere?HowcouldIeverleaveyou,Di,whowouldneverleaveme?'
Florencebentdownonthepavement,andlaidhisrough,old,loving,foolishheadagainstherbreast,andtheygotuptogether,andwentontogether;Dimoreoffthegroundthanonit,endeavouringtokisshismistressflying,tumblingoverandgettingupagainwithouttheleastconcern,dashingatbigdogsinajocosedefianceofhisspecies,terrifyingwithtouchesofhisnoseyounghousemaidswhowerecleaningdoorsteps,andcontinuallystopping,inthemidstofathousandextravagances,tolookbackatFlorence,andbarkuntilallthedogswithinhearinganswered,andallthedogswhocouldcomeout,cameouttostareathim。
Withthislastadherent,Florencehurriedawayintheadvancingmorning,andthestrengtheningsunshine,totheCity。Theroarsoongrewmoreloud,thepassengersmorenumerous,theshopsmorebusy,untilshewascarriedonwardinastreamoflifesettingthatway,andflowing,indifferently,pastmartsandmansions,prisons,churches,market-places,wealth,poverty,good,andevil,likethebroadriversidebysidewithit,awakenedfromitsdreamsofrushes,willows,andgreenmoss,androllingon,turbidandtroubled,amongtheworksandcaresofmen,tothedeepsea。
AtlengththequartersofthelittleMidshipmanaroseinview。
Neareryet,andthelittleMidshipmanhimselfwasseenuponhispost,intentaseveronhisobservations。Neareryet,andthedoorstoodopen,invitinghertoenter。Florence,whohadagainquickenedherpace,assheapproachedtheendofherjourney,ranacrosstheroadcloselyfollowedbyDiogenes,whomthebustlehadsomewhatconfused,ranin,andsankuponthethresholdofthewell-rememberedlittleparlour。
TheCaptain,inhisglazedhat,wasstandingoverthefire,makinghismorning'scocoa,withthateleganttrifle,hiswatch,uponthechimney-piece,foreasyreferenceduringtheprogressofthecookery。Hearingafootstepandtherustleofadress,theCaptainturnedwithapalpitatingremembranceofthedreadfulMrs。MacStinger,attheinstantwhenFlorencemadeamotionwithherhandtowardshim,reeled,andfelluponthefloor。
TheCaptain,paleasFlorence,paleintheveryknobsuponhisface,raisedherlikeababy,andlaidheronthesameoldsofauponwhichshehadslumberedlongago。
`It'sHeart'sDelight!'saidtheCaptain,lookingintentlyinherface。`It'sthesweetcreeturgrow'dawoman!'
CaptainCuttlewassorespectfulofher,andhadsuchareverenceforher,inthisnewcharacter,thathewouldnothaveheldherinhisarms,whileshewasunconscious,forathousandpounds。
`MyHeart'sDelight!'saidtheCaptain,withdrawingtoalittledistance,withthegreatestalarmandsympathydepictedonhiscountenance。
`IfyoucanhailNedCuttlewithafinger,doit!'
ButFlorencedidnotstir。
`MyHeart'sDelight!'saidthetremblingCaptain。`ForthesakeofWal'rdrowndedinthebrinydeep,turnto,andhisteupsomethingoranother,ifable。'
Findingherinsensibletothisimpressiveadjurationalso,CaptainCuttlesnatchedfromhisbreakfast-tableabasinofcoldwater,andsprinkledsomeuponherface。Yieldingtotheurgencyofthecase,theCaptainthen,usinghisimmensehandwithextraordinarygentleness,relievedherofherbonnet,moistenedherlipsandforehead,putbackherhair,coveredherfeetwithhisowncoatwhichhepulledoffforthepurpose,pattedherhand——sosmallinhis,thathewasstruckwithwonderwhenhetouchedit——andseeingthathereyelidsquivered,andthatherlipsbegantomove,continuedtheserestorativeapplicationswithabetterheart。
`Cheerily,'saidtheCaptain。`Cheerily!Standby,myprettyone,standby!There!You'rebetternow。Steady'stheword,andsteadyitis。
Keepherso!Drinkalittledropo'thishere,'saidtheCaptain。`Thereyouare!Whatcheernow,mypretty,whatcheernow?'
Atthisstageofherrecovery,CaptainCuttle,withanimperfectassociationofaWatchwithaPhysician'streatmentofapatient,tookhisowndownfromthemantel-shelf,andholdingitoutonhishook,andtakingFlorence'shandinhis,lookedsteadilyfromonetotheother,asexpectingthedialtodosomething。
`Whatcheer,mypretty?'saidtheCaptain。`Whatcheernow?You'vedonehersomegood,mylad,Ibelieve,'saidtheCaptain,underhisbreath,andthrowinganapprovingglanceuponhiswatch。`Putyoubackhalf-an-houreverymorning,andaboutanotherquartertowardstheafternoon,andyou'reawatchascanbeekalledbyfewandexcelledbynone。Whatcheer,myladylass?'
`CaptainCuttle!Isityou?'exclaimedFlorence,raisingherselfalittle。
`Yes,yes,myladylass,'saidtheCaptain,hastilydecidinginhisownminduponthesuperioreleganceofthatformofaddress,asthemostcourtlyhecouldthinkof。
`IsWalter'sunclehere?'askedFlorence。
`Here,pretty?'returnedtheCaptain。`Hean'tbeenherethismanyalongday。Hean'tbeenheerdon,sincehesheeredoffarterpoorWal'r。But,'saidtheCaptain,asaquotation,`Thoughlosttosight,tomemorydear,andEngland,Home,andBeauty!'
`Doyoulivehere?'askedFlorence。
`Yes,myladylass,'returnedtheCaptain。
`Oh,CaptainCuttle!'criedFlorence,puttingherhandstogether,andspeakingwildly。`Saveme!keepmehere!LetnooneknowwhereIam!
I'lltellyouwhathashappenedby-and-by,whenIcan。Ihavenooneintheworldtogoto。Donotsendmeaway!'
`Sendyouaway,myladylass!'exclaimedtheCaptain。`You,myHeart'sDelight!Stayabit!We'llputupthisheredeadlight,andtakeadoubleturnonthekey!'
Withthesewords,theCaptain,usinghisonehandandhishookwiththegreatestdexterity,gotouttheshutterofthedoor,putitup,madeitallfast,andlockedthedooritself。
WhenhecamebacktothesideofFlorence,shetookhishand,andkissedit。Thehelplessnessoftheaction,theappealitmadetohim,theconfidenceitexpressed,theunspeakablesorrowinherface,thepainofmindshehadtooplainlysuffered,andwassufferingthen,hisknowledgeofherpasthistory,herpresentlonely,worn,andunprotectedappearance,allsorusheduponthegoodCaptaintogether,thathefairlyoverflowedwithcompassionandgentleness。
`Myladylass,'saidtheCaptain,polishingthebridgeofhisnosewithhisarmuntilitshonelikeburnishedcopper,`don'tyousayawordtoEd'ardCuttle,untilsuchtimesasyoufindsyourselfaridingsmoothandeasy;whichwon'tbeto-day,noryetto-morrow。Andastogivingofyouup,orreportingwhereyouare,yesverily,andbyGod'shelp,soIwon't,Churchcatechism,makeanoteon!'
ThistheCaptainsaid,referenceandall,inonebreath,andwithmuchsolemnity;takingoffhishatat`yesverily,'andputtingitonagain,whenhehadquiteconcluded。
Florencecoulddobutonethingmoretothankhim,andtoshowhimhowshetrustedinhim;andshedidit。Clingingtothisroughcreatureasthelastasylumofherbleedingheart,shelaidherheaduponhishonestshoulder,andclaspedhimroundhisneck,andwouldhavekneeleddowntoblesshim,butthathedivinedherpurpose,andheldheruplikeatrueman。
`Steady!'saidtheCaptain。`Steady!You'retooweaktostand,yousee,mypretty,andmustliedownhereagain。There,there!'ToseetheCaptainliftheronthesofa,andcoverherwithhiscoat,wouldhavebeenworthahundredstatesights。`Andnow,'saidtheCaptain,`youmusttakesomebreakfast,ladylass,andthedogshallhavesometoo。AndarterthatyoushallgoalofttooldSolGills'sroom,andfallasleepthere,likeaangel。'
CaptainCuttlepattedDiogeneswhenhemadeallusiontohim,andDiogenesmetthatoverturegraciously,half-way。DuringtheadministrationoftherestorativeshehadclearlybeenintwomindswhethertoflyattheCaptainortoofferhimhisfriendship;andhehadexpressedthatconflictoffeelingbyalternatewaggingsofhistail,anddisplaysofhisteeth,withnowandthenagrowlorso。Butbythistimehisdoubtswereallremoved。ItwasplainthatheconsideredtheCaptainoneofthemostamiableofmen,andamanwhomitwasanhonourtoadogtoknow。
Inevidenceoftheseconvictions,DiogenesattendedontheCaptainwhilehemadesometeaandtoast,andshowedalivelyinterestinhishousekeeping。
ButitwasinvainforthekindCaptaintomakesuchpreparationsforFlorence,whosorelytriedtodosomehonourtothem,butcouldtouchnothing,andcouldonlyweepandweepagain。
`Well,well!'saidthecompassionateCaptain,`arterturningin,myHeart'sDelight,you'llgetmorewayuponyou。Now,I'llserveoutyourallowance,mylad。'ToDiogenes。`Andyoushallkeepguardonyourmistressaloft。'
Diogenes,however,althoughhehadbeeneyeinghisintendedbreakfastwithawateringmouthandglisteningeyes,insteadoffallingto,ravenously,whenitwasputbeforehim,prickeduphisears,dartedtotheshop-door,andbarkedtherefuriously:burrowingwithhisheadatthebottom,asifhewerebentonmininghiswayout。
`Cantherebeanybodythere!'askedFlorence,inalarm。
`No,myladylass,'returnedtheCaptain。`Who'dstaythere,withoutmakinganynoise!Keepupagoodheart,pretty。It'sonlypeoplegoingby。'
Butforallthat,Diogenesbarkedandbarked,andburrowedandburrowed,withpertinaciousfury;andwheneverhestoppedtolisten,appearedtoreceivesomenewconvictionintohismind,forhesetto,barkingandburrowingagain,adozentimes。Evenwhenhewaspersuadedtoreturntohisbreakfast,hecamejoggingbacktoit,withaverydoubtfulair;andwasoffagain,inanotherparoxysm,beforetouchingamorsel。
`Ifthereshouldbesomeonelisteningandwatching,'whisperedFlorence。`Someonewhosawmecome——whofollowedme,perhaps。'
`Itan'ttheyoungwoman,ladylass,isit?'saidtheCaptain,takenwithabrightidea。
`Susan?'saidFlorence,shakingherhead。`Ahno!Susanhasbeengonefrommealongtime。'
`Notdeserted,Ihope?'saidtheCaptain。`Don'tsaythatthatthereyoungwoman'srun,mypretty!'
`Oh,no,no!'criedFlorence。`Sheisoneofthetruestheartsintheworld!'
TheCaptainwasgreatlyrelievedbythisreply,andexpressedhissatisfactionbytakingoffhishardglazedhat,anddabbinghisheadalloverwithhishandkerchief,rolleduplikeaball,observingseveraltimes,withinfinitecomplacency,andwithabeamingcountenance,thatheknow'dit。
`Soyou'requietnow,areyou,brother?'saidtheCaptaintoDiogenes。
`Therewarn'tnobodythere,myladylass,blessyou!'
Diogeneswasnotsosureofthat。Thedoorstillhadanattractionforhimatintervals;andhewentsnuffingaboutit,andgrowlingtohimself,unabletoforgetthesubject。Thisincident,coupledwiththeCaptain'sobservationofFlorence'sfatigueandfaintness,decidedhimtoprepareSolGills'schamberasaplaceofretirementforherimmediately。Hethereforehastilybetookhimselftothetopofthehouse,andmadethebestarrangementofitthathisimaginationandhismeanssuggested。
Itwasverycleanalready;andtheCaptainbeinganorderlyman,andaccustomedtomakethingsship-shape,convertedthebedintoacouch,bycoveringitalloverwithacleanwhitedrapery。Byasimilarcontrivance,theCaptainconvertedthelittledressing-tableintoaspeciesofalter,onwhichhesetforthtwosilverteaspoons,aflower-pot,atelescope,hiscelebratedwatch,apocket-comb,andasong-book,asasmallcollectionofrarities,thatmadeachoiceappearance。Havingdarkenedthewindow,andstraightenedthepiecesofcarpetonthefloor,theCaptainsurveyedthesepreparationswithgreatdelight,anddescendedtothelittleparlouragain,tobringFlorencetoherbower。
NothingwouldinducetheCaptaintobelievethatitwaspossibleforFlorencetowalkupstairs。Ifhecouldhavegottheideaintohishead,hewouldhaveconsidereditanoutrageousbreachofhospitalitytoallowhertodoso。Florencewastooweaktodisputethepoint,andtheCaptaincarriedherupoutofhand,laidherdown,andcoveredherwithagreatwatch-coat。
`Myladylass!'saidtheCaptain,`you'reassafehereasifyouwasatthetopofSt。Paul'sCathedral,withtheladdercastoff。Sleepiswhatyouwant,aforeallotherthings,andmayyoubeabletoshowyourselfsmartwiththattherebalsamforthestillsmallwoiceofawowndedmind!
Whenthere'sanythingyouwant,myHeart'sDelight,asthisherehumblehouseortowncanoffer,passthewordtoEd'ardCuttle,as'llstandoffandonoutsidethatdoor,andthattheremanwillwibratewithjoy。'TheCaptainconcludedbykissingthehandthatFlorencestretchedouttohim,withthechivalryofanyoldknight-errant,andwalkingontip-toeoutoftheroom。
Descendingtothelittleparlour,CaptainCuttle,afterholdingahastycouncilwithhimself,decidedtoopentheshopdoorforafewminutes,andsatisfyhimselfthatnow,atallevents,therewasnooneloiteringaboutit。Accordinglyhesetitopen,andstooduponthethreshold,keepingabrightlook-out,andsweepingthewholestreetwithhisspectacles。
`Howdedo,CaptainGills?'saidavoicebesidehim。TheCaptain,lookingdown,foundthathehadbeenboardedbyMr。Tootswhilesweepingthehorizon。
`Howareyou,mylad?'repliedtheCaptain。
`Well,I'mprettywell,thank'ee,CaptainGills,'saidMr。Toots。
`YouknowI'mneverquitewhatIcouldwishtobe,now。Idon'texpectthatIevershallbeanymore。'
Mr。Tootsneverapproachedanynearerthanthistothegreatthemeofhislife,wheninconversationwithCaptainCuttle,onaccountoftheagreementbetweenthem。
`CaptainGills,'saidMr。Toots,`ifIcouldhavethepleasureofawordwithyou,it's——it'sratherparticular。'
`Why,yousee,mylad,'repliedtheCaptain,leadingthewayintotheparlour,`Ian'twhatyoumaycallexactlyfreethismorning;andthereforeifyoucanclaponabit,Ishouldtakeitkindly。'
`Certainly,CaptainGills,'repliedMr。Toots,whoseldomhadanynotionoftheCaptain'smeaning。`Toclapon,isexactlywhatIcouldwishtodo。Naturally。'
`Ifsobe,mylad,'returnedtheCaptain,`doit!'
TheCaptainwassoimpressedbythepossessionofhistremendoussecret——bythefactofMissDombeybeingatthatmomentunderhisroof,whiletheinnocentandunconsciousTootssatoppositetohim——thataperspirationbrokeoutonhisforehead,andhefounditimpossiblewhileslowlydryingthesame,glazedhatinhand,tokeephiseyesoffMr。Toots'sface。Mr。
Toots,whohimselfappearedtohavesomesecretreasonsforbeinginanervousstate,wassounspeakablydisconcertedbytheCaptain'sstare,thatafterlookingathimvacantlyforsometimeinsilence,andshiftinguneasilyonhischair,hesaid:
`Ibegyourpardon,CaptainGills,butyoudon'thappentoseeanythingparticularinme,doyou?'
`No,mylad,'returnedtheCaptain。`No。'
`Becauseyouknow,'saidMr。Tootswithachuckle,`IKNOWI'mwastingaway。Youneedn'tatallmindalludingtothat。I——Ishouldlikeit。BurgessandCo。havealteredmymeasure,I'minthatstateofthinness。It'sagratificationtome。I——I'mgladofit。I——I'dagreatdealrathergointoadecline,ifIcould。I'mamerebruteyouknow,grazinguponthesurfaceoftheearth,CaptainGills。'
ThemoreMr。Tootswentoninthisway,themoretheCaptainwasweigheddownbyhissecret,andstaredathim。Whatwiththiscauseofuneasiness,andhisdesiretogetridofMr。Toots,theCaptainwasinsuchascaredandstrangecondition,indeed,thatifhehadbeeninconversationwithaghost,hecouldhardlyhaveevincedgreaterdiscomposure。
`ButIwasgoingtosay,CaptainGills,'saidMr。Toots。`Happeningtobethiswayearlythismorning——totellyouthetruth,Iwascomingtobreakfastwithyou。Astosleep,youknow,Ineversleepnow。ImightbeaWatchman,exceptthatIdon'tgetanypay,andhe'sgotnothingonhismind。'
`Carryon,mylad!'saidtheCaptain,inanadmonitoryvoice。
`Certainly,CaptainGills,'saidMr。Toots。`Perfectlytrue!Happeningtobethiswayearlythismorninganhourorsoago,andfindingthedoorshut——'
`What!wereyouwaitingthere,brother?'demandedtheCaptain。
`Notatall,CaptainGills,'returnedMr。Toots。`Ididn'tstopamoment。Ithoughtyouwereout。Butthepersonsaid——bythebyeyoudon'tkeepadog,doyou,CaptainGills?'
TheCaptainshookhishead。
`Tobesure,'saidMr。Toots,`that'sexactlywhatIsaid。Iknewyoudidn't。Thereisadog,CaptainGills,connectedwith——butexcuseme。That'sforbiddenground。'
TheCaptainstaredatMr。Tootsuntilheseemedtoswelltotwicehisnaturalsize;andagaintheperspirationbrokeoutontheCaptain'sforehead,whenhethoughtofDiogenestakingitintohisheadtocomedownandmakeathirdintheparlour。
`Thepersonsaid,'continuedMr。Toots,`thathehadheardadogbarkingintheshop:whichIknewcouldn'tbe,andItoldhimso。Buthewasaspositiveasifhehadseenthedog。'
`Whatperson,mylad?'inquiredtheCaptain。
`Why,youseethereitis,CaptainGills,'saidMr。Toots,withaperceptibleincreaseinthenervousnessofhismanner。`It'snotformetosaywhatmayhavetakenplace,orwhatmaynothavetakenplace。
Indeed,Idon'tknow。IgetmixedupwithallsortsofthingsthatIdon'tquiteunderstand,andIthinkthere'ssomethingratherweakinmy——inmyhead,inshort。'
TheCaptainnoddedhisown,asamarkofassent。
`Butthepersonsaid,aswewerewalkingaway,'continuedMr。
Toots,`thatyouknewwhat,underexistingcircumstances,mightoccur——hesaid“Might,“verystrongly——andthatifyouwererequestedtoprepareyourself,youwould,nodoubt,comeprepared。'
`Person,mylad!'theCaptainrepeated。
`Idon'tknowwhatperson,I'msure,CaptainGills,'repliedMr。
Toots,`Ihaven'ttheleastidea。Butcomingtothedoor,Ifoundhimwaitingthere;andhesaidwasIcomingbackagain,andIsaidyes;andhesaiddidIknowyou,andIsaidyes,Ihadthepleasureofyouracquaintance——youhadgivenmethepleasureofyouracquaintance,aftersomepersuasion;
andhesaid,ifthatwasthecase,wouldIsaytoyouwhatIhavesaid,aboutexistingcircumstancesandcomingprepared,andassoonaseverIsawyou,wouldIaskyoutosteproundthecorner,ifitwasonlyforoneminute,onmostimportantbusiness,toMr。Brogley'stheBroker's。
Now,Itellyouwhat,CaptainGills——whateveritis,Iamconvincedit'sveryimportant;andifyouliketostepround,now,I'llwaitheretillyoucomeback。'
TheCaptain,dividedbetweenhisfearofcompromisingFlorenceinsomewaybynotgoing,andhishorrorofleavingMr。Tootsinpossessionofthehousewithachanceoffindingoutthesecret,wasaspectacleofmentaldisturbancethatevenMr。Tootscouldnotbeblindto。Butthatyounggentleman,consideringhisnauticalfriendasmerelyinastateofpreparationfortheinterviewhewasgoingtohave,wasquitesatisfied,anddidnotreviewhisowndiscreetconductwithoutchuckles。
AtlengththeCaptaindecided,asthelesseroftwoevils,torunroundtoBrogley'stheBroker's:previouslylockingthedoorthatcommunicatedwiththeupperpartofthehouse,andputtingthekeyinhispocket。`Ifsobe,'saidtheCaptaintoMr。Toots,withnotalittleshameandhesitation,`asyou'llexcusemydoingofit,brother。'
`CaptainGills,'returnedMr。Toots,`whateveryoudo,issatisfactorytome。'
TheCaptainthankedhimheartily,andpromisingtocomebackinlessthatfiveminutes,wentoutinquestofthepersonwhohadintrustedMr。Tootswiththismysteriousmessage。PoorMr。Toots,lefttohimself,laydownuponthesofa,littlethinkingwhohadreclinedtherelast,andgazingupattheskylightandresigninghimselftovisionsofMissDombey,lostallheedoftimeandplace。
Itwasaswellthathedidso;foralthoughtheCaptainwasnotgonelong,hewasgonemuchlongerthanhehadproposed。Whenhecameback,hewasverypaleindeed,andgreatlyagitated,andevenlookedasifhehadbeensheddingtears。Heseemedtohavelostthefacultyofspeech,untilhehadbeentothecupboardandtakenadramofrumfromthecase-bottle,whenhefetchedadeepbreath,andsatdowninachairwithhishandbeforehisface。
`CaptainGills,'saidToots,kindly,`Ihopeandtrustthere'snothingwrong?'
`Thank'ee,mylad,notabit,'saidtheCaptain。`Quitecontrary。'
`Youhavetheappearanceofbeingovercome,CaptainGills,'observedMr。Toots。
`Why,mylad,Iamtookaback,'theCaptainadmitted。`I
am。'
`IsthereanythingIcando,CaptainGills?'inquiredMr。Toots。
`Ifthereis,makeuseofme。'
TheCaptainremovedhishandfromhisface,lookedathimwitharemarkableexpressionofpityandtenderness,andtookhimbythehandandshookithard。
`No,thank'ee,'saidtheCaptain。`Nothing。OnlyI'lltakeitasafavourifyou'llpartcompanyforthepresent。Ibelieve,brother,'
wringinghishandagain,`that,afterWal'r,andonadifferentmodel,you'reasgoodaladaseverstepped。'
`Uponmywordandhonour,CaptainGills,'returnedMr。Toots,givingtheCaptain'shandapreliminaryslapbeforeshakingitagain,`it'sdelightfultometopossessyourgoodopinion。Thank'ee。'
`Andbearhandandcheerup,'saidtheCaptain,pattinghimontheback。`What!There'smorethanonesweetcreeturintheworld!'
`Nottome,CaptainGills,'repliedMr。Tootsgravely。`Nottome,Iassureyou。ThestateofmyfeelingstowardsMissDombeyisofthatunspeakabledescription,thatmyheartisadesertisland,andshelivesinitalone。I'mgettingmoreusedupeveryday,andI'mproudtobeso。
IfyoucouldseemylegswhenItakemybootsoff,you'dformsomeideaofwhatunrequitedaffectionis。Ihavebeenprescribedbark,butIdon'ttakeit,forIdon'twishtohaveanytonewhatevergiventomyconstitution。
I'drathernot。This,however,isforbiddenground。CaptainGills,good-bye!'
CaptainCuttlecordiallyreciprocatingthewarmthofMr。Toots'sfarewell,lockedthedoorbehindhim,andshakinghisheadwiththesameremarkableexpressionofpityandtendernessashehadregardedhimwithbefore,wentuptoseeifFlorencewantedhim。
TherewasanentirechangeintheCaptain'sfaceashewentupstairs。
Hewipedhiseyeswithhishandkerchief,andhepolishedthebridgeofhisnosewithhissleeveashehaddonealreadythatmorning,buthisfacewasabsolutelychanged。Now,hemighthavebeenthoughtsupremelyhappy;
now,hemighthavebeenthoughtsad;butthekindofgravitythatsatuponhisfeatureswasquitenewtothem,andwasasgreatanimprovementtothemasiftheyhadundergonesomesublimatingprocess。
Heknockedsoftly,withhishook,atFlorence'sdoor,twiceorthrice;but,receivingnoanswer,venturedfirsttopeepin,andthentoenter:emboldenedtotakethelatterstep,perhaps,bythefamiliarrecognitionofDiogenes,who,stretcheduponthegroundbythesideofhercouch,waggedhistail,andwinkedhiseyesattheCaptain,withoutbeingatthetroubleofgettingup。
Shewassleepingheavily,andmoaninginhersleep;andCaptainCuttle,withaperfectaweofheryouthandbeauty,andhersorrow,raisedherhead,andadjustedthecoatthatcoveredher,whereithadfallenoff,anddarkenedthewindowalittlemorethatshemightsleepon,andcreptoutagain,andtookhispostofwatchuponthestairs。Allthis,withatouchandtreadaslightasFlorence'sown。
Longmayitremaininthismixedworldapointnoteasyofdecision,whichisthemorebeautifulevidenceoftheAlmighty'sgoodness——thedelicatefingersthatareformedforsensitivenessandsympathyoftouch,andmadetoministertopainandgrief,ortheroughhardCaptainCuttlehand,thattheheartteaches,guides,andsoftensinamoment!
Florencesleptuponhercouch,forgetfulofherhomelessnessandorphanage,andCaptainCuttlewatcheduponthestairs。Aloudersobormoanthanusual,broughthimsometimestoherdoor;butbydegreesshesleptmorepeacefully,andtheCaptain'swatchwasundisturbed。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter49[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERXLIXTheMidshipmanmakesaDiscoveryITwaslongbeforeFlorenceawoke。Thedaywasinitsprime,thedaywasinitswane,andstill,uneasyinmindandbody,sheslepton;unconsciousofherstrangebed,ofthenoiseandturmoilinthestreet,andofthelightthatshoneoutsidetheshadedwindow。Perfectunconsciousnessofwhathadhappenedinthehomethatexistednomore,eventhedeepslumberofexhaustioncouldnotproduce。Someundefinedandmournfulrecollectionofit,dozinguneasilybutneversleeping,pervadedallherrest。Adullsorrow,likeahalf-lulledsenseofpain,wasalwayspresenttoher;andherpalecheekwasoftenerwetwithtearsthanthehonestCaptain,softlyputtinginhisheadfromtimetotimeatthehalf-closeddoor,couldhavedesiredtoseeit。
Thesunwasgettinglowinthewest,andglancingoutofaredmist,piercedwithitsraysoppositeloop-holesandpiecesoffret-workinthespiresofcitychurches,asifwithgoldenarrowsthatstruckthroughandthroughthem——andfarawayathwarttheriveranditsflatblanks,itwasgleaminglikeapathoffire——andoutatseaitwasirradiatingsailsofships——and,lookedtowards,fromquietchurchyards,uponhill-topsinthecountry,itwassteepingdistantprospectsinaflushandglowthatseemedtomingleearthandskytogetherinoneglorioussuffusion——whenFlorence,openingherheavyeyes,layatfirst,lookingwithoutinterestorrecognitionattheunfamiliarwallsaroundher,andlisteninginthesameregardlessmannertothenoisesinthestreet。Butpresentlyshestartedupuponhercouch,gazedroundwithasurprisedandvacantlook,andrecollectedall。
`Mypretty,'saidtheCaptain,knockingatthedoor,`whatcheer?'
`Dearfriend,'criedFlorence,hurryingtohim,`isityou?'
TheCaptainfeltsomuchprideinthename,andwassopleasedbythegleamofpleasureinherface,whenshesawhim,thathekissedhishook,bywayofreply,inspeechlessgratification。
`Whatcheer,brightdi'mond?'saidtheCaptain。
`Ihavesurelysleptverylong,'returnedFlorence。`WhendidIcomehere?Yesterday?'
`Thishereblessedday,myladylass,'repliedtheCaptain。
`Hastherebeennonight?Isitstillday?'askedFlorence。
`Gettingonforeveningnow,mypretty,'saidtheCaptain,drawingbackthecurtainofthewindow。`See!'
Florence,withherhandupontheCaptain'sarm,sosorrowfulandtimid,andtheCaptainwithhisroughfaceandburlyfigure,soquietlyprotectiveofher,stoodintherosylightofthebrighteveningsky,withoutsayingaword。Howeverstrangetheformofspeechintowhichhemighthavefashionedthefeeling,ifhehadhadtogiveitutterance,theCaptainfelt,assensiblyasthemosteloquentofmencouldhavedone,thattherewassomethinginthetranquiltimeandinitssoftenedbeautythatwouldmakethewoundedheartofFlorenceoverflow;andthatitwasbetterthatsuchtearsshouldhavetheirway。SonotawordspakeCaptainCuttle。Butwhenhefelthisarmclaspedcloser,andwhenhefeltthelonelyheadcomenearertoit,andlayitselfagainsthishomelycoarsebluesleeve,hepresseditgentlywithhisruggedhand,andunderstoodit,andwasunderstood。
`Betternow,mypretty!'saidtheCaptain。`Cheerily,cheerily;
I'llgodownbelow,andgetsomedinnerready。Willyoucomedownofyourownself,arterwards,pretty,orshallEd'ardCuttlecomeandfetchyou?'
AsFlorenceassuredhimthatshewasquiteabletowalkdownstairs,theCaptain,thoughevidentlydoubtfulofhisownhospitalityinpermittingit,lefthertodoso,andimmediatelysetaboutroastingafowlatthefireinthelittleparlour。Toachievehiscookerywiththegreaterskill,hepulledoffhiscoat,tuckeduphiswristbands,andputonhisglazedhat,withoutwhichassistantheneverappliedhimselftoanyniceordifficultundertaking。
AftercoolingherachingheadandburningfaceinthefreshwaterwhichtheCaptain'scarehadprovidedforherwhilesheslept,Florencewenttothelittlemirrortobindupherdisorderedhair。Thensheknew——inamoment,forsheshunneditinstantly——thatonherbreasttherewasthedarkeningmarkofanyangryhand。
Hertearsburstforthafreshatthesight;shewasashamedandafraidofit;butitmovedhertonoangeragainsthim。Homelessandfatherless,sheforgavehimeverything;hardlythoughtthatshehadneedtoforgivehim,orthatshedid;butshefledfromtheideaofhimasshehadfledfromthereality,andhewasutterlygoneandlost。TherewasnosuchBeingintheworld。
Whattodo,orwheretolive,Florence——poor,inexperiencedgirl!——couldnotyetconsider。Shehadindistinctdreamsoffinding,alongwayoff,somelittlesisterstoinstruct,whowouldbegentlewithher,andtowhom,undersomefeignedname,shemightattachherself,andwhowouldgrowupintheirhappyhome,andmarry,andbegoodtotheiroldgoverness,andperhapsintrusther,intime,withtheeducationoftheirowndaughters。
Andshethoughthowstrangeandsorrowfulitwouldbe,thustobecomeagrey-hairedwoman,carryinghersecrettothegrave,whenFlorenceDombeywasforgotten。Butitwasalldimandcloudedtohernow。SheonlyknewthatshehadnoFatheruponearth,andshesaidso,manytimes,withhersuppliantheadhiddenfromall,butherFatherwhowasinHeaven。
Herlittlestockofmoneyamountedtobutafewguineas。Withapartofthis,itwouldbenecessarytobuysomeclothes,forshehadnonebutthoseshewore。Shewastoodesolatetothinkhowsoonhermoneywouldbegone——toomuchachildinworldlymatterstobegreatlytroubledonthatscoreyet,evenifherothertroublehadbeenless。Shetriedtocalmherthoughtsandstayhertears;toquietthehurryinherthrobbinghead,andbringherselftobelievethatwhathadhappenedwerebuttheeventsofafewhoursago,insteadofweeksormonths,astheyappeared;
andwentdowntoherkindprotector。
TheCaptainhadspreadtheclothwithgreatcare,andwasmakingsomeegg-sauceinalittlesaucepan:bastingthefowlfromtimetotimeduringtheprocesswithastronginterest,asitturnedandbrownedonastringbeforethefire。HavingproppedFlorenceupwithcushionsonthesofa,whichwasalreadywheeledintoawarmcornerforhergreatercomfort,theCaptainpursuedhiscookingwithextraordinaryskill,makinghotgravyinasecondlittlesaucepan,boilingahandfulofpotatoesinathird,neverforgettingtheegg-sauceinthefirst,andmakinganimpartialroundofbastingandstirringwiththemostusefulofspoonseveryminute。Besidesthesecares,theCaptainhadtokeephiseyeonadiminutivefryingpan,inwhichsomesausageswerehissingandbubblinginamostmusicalmanner;
andtherewasneversucharadiantcookastheCaptainlooked,intheheightandheatofthesefunctions:itbeingimpossibletosaywhetherhisfaceorhisglazedhatshonethebrighter。
Thedinnerbeingatlengthquiteready,CaptainCuttledishedandserveditup,withnolessdexteritythanhehadcookedit。Hethendressedfordinner,bytakingoffhisglazedhatandputtingonhiscoat。
Thatdone,hewheeledthetablecloseagainstFlorenceonthesofa,saidgrace,unscrewedhishook,screwedhisforkintoitsplace,anddidthehonoursofthetable。
`Myladylass,'saidtheCaptain,`cheerup,andtrytoeatadeal。Standby,mydeary!Liverwingitis。Sarseitis。Sassageitis。
Andpotato!'allwhichtheCaptainrangedsymmetricallyonaplate,andpouringhotgravyonthewholewiththeusefulspoon,setbeforehischerishedguest。
`Thewholerowo'deadlightsisup,for'ard,ladylass,'observedtheCaptain,encouragingly,`andeverythingismadesnug。Tryandpickabit,mypretty。IfWal'rwashere——'
`Ah!IfIhadhimformybrothernow!'criedFlorence。
`Don't!don'ttakeon,mypretty!'saidtheCaptain,`awasttoobleegeme!Hewasyournat'ralbornfriendlike,warn'the,Pet?'
Florencehadnowordstoanswerwith。Sheonlysaid,`Oh,dear,dearPaul!oh,Walter!'
`Theweryplanksshewalkedon,'murmuredtheCaptain,lookingatherdroopingface,`wasashighesteemedbyWal'r,asthewaterbrooksisbythehartwhichneverrejices!Iseehimnow,thewerydayashewasratedonthemDombeybooks,aspeakingofherwithhisfaceaglisteningwithdoo——leastwayswithhismodestsentiments——likeanewblowedrose,atdinner。Well,well!IfourpoorWal'rwashere,myladylass——orifhecouldbe——forhe'sdrownded,an'the?'
Florenceshookherhead。
`Yes,yes;drownded,'saidtheCaptain,soothingly;`asIwassaying,ifhecouldbeherehe'dbegandprayofyou,myprecious,topickaleetlebit,withalook-outforyourownsweethealth。Whereby,holdyourown,myladylass,asifitwasforWal'r'ssake,andlayyourprettyheadtothewind。'
Florenceessayedtoeatamorsel,fortheCaptain'spleasure。
TheCaptain,meanwhile,whoseemedtohavequiteforgottenhisowndinner,laiddownhisknifeandfork,anddrewhischairtothesofa。
`Wal'rwasatrimlad,warn'the,precious?'saidtheCaptain,aftersittingforsometimesilentlyrubbinghischin,withhiseyesfixeduponher,`andabravelad,andagoodlad?'
Florencetearfullyassented。
`Andhe'sdrownded,Beauty,an'the?'saidtheCaptain,inasoothingvoice。
Florencecouldnotbutassentagain。
`Hewasolderthanyou,myladylass,'pursuedtheCaptain,`butyouwasliketwochildrentogether,atfirst;warn'tyou?'
Florenceanswered`Yes。'
`AndWal'r'sdrownded,'saidtheCaptain。`An'the?'
Therepetitionofthisinquirywasacurioussourceofconsolation,butitseemedtobeonetoCaptainCuttle,forhecamebacktoitagainandagain。Florence,faintopushfromherheruntasteddinner,andtoliebackonhersofa,gavehimherhand,feelingthatshehaddisappointedhim,thoughtrulywishingtohavepleasedhimafterallhistrouble,buthehelditinhisownwhichshookasheheldit,andappearingtohavequiteforgottenallaboutthedinnerandherwantofappetite,wentongrowlingatintervals,inaruminatingtoneofsympathy,`PoorWal'r。Aye,aye!Drownded。An'the?'Andalwayswaitedforheranswer,inwhichthegreatpointofthesesingularreflectionsappearedtoconsist。
Thefowlandsausageswerecold,andthegravyandtheegg-saucestagnant,beforetheCaptainrememberedthattheywereontheboard,andfelltowiththeassistanceofDiogenes,whoseunitedeffortsquicklydispatchedthebanquet。TheCaptain'sdelightandwonderatthequiethousewiferyofFlorenceinassistingtoclearthetable,arrangetheparlour,andsweepupthehearth——onlytobeequalledbythefervencyofhisprotestwhenshebegantoassisthim——weregraduallyraisedtothatdegree,thatatlasthecouldnotchoosebutdonothinghimself,andstandlookingatherasifsheweresomeFairy,daintilyperformingtheseofficesforhim;theredrimonhisforeheadglowingagain,inhisunspeakableadmiration。
ButwhenFlorence,takingdownhispipefromthemantelshelfgaveitintohishand,andentreatedhimtosmokeit,thegoodCaptainwassobewilderedbyherattentionthathehelditasifhehadneverheldapipeinallhislife。Likewise,whenFlorence,lookingintothelittlecupboard,tookoutthecasebottleandmixedaperfectglassofgrogforhim,unasked,andsetitathiselbow,hisruddynoseturnedpale,hefelthimselfsogracedandhonoured。Whenhehadfilledhispipeinanabsolutereverieofsatisfaction,Florencelighteditforhim——theCaptainhavingnopowertoobject,ortopreventher——andresumingherplaceontheoldsofa,lookedathimwithasmilesolovingandsograteful,asmilethatshowedhimsoplainlyhowherforlornheartturnedtohim,asherfacedid,throughgrief,thatthesmokeofthepipegotintotheCaptain'sthroatandmadehimcough,andgotintotheCaptain'seyes,andmadethemblinkandwater。
ThemannerinwhichtheCaptaintriedtomakebelievethatthecauseoftheseeffectslayhiddeninthepipeitself,andthewayinwhichhelookedintothebowlforit,andnotfindingitthere,pretendedtoblowitoutofthestem,waswonderfullypleasant。Thepipesoongettingintobettercondition,hefellintothatstateofreposebecomingagoodsmoker;butsatwithhiseyesfixedonFlorence,and,withabeamingplaciditynottobedescribed,andstoppingeverynowandthentodischargealittlecloudfromhislips,slowlypuffeditforth,asifitwereascrollcomingoutofhismouth,bearingthelegend`PoorWal'r,aye,aye。Drownded,an'the?'afterwhichhewouldresumehissmokingwithinfinitegentleness。
Unlikeastheywereexternally——andtherecouldscarcelybeamoredecidedcontrastthanbetweenFlorenceinherdelicateyouthandbeauty,andCaptainCuttlewithhisknobbyface,hisgreatbroadweather-beatenperson,andhisgruffvoice——insimpleinnocenceoftheworld'swaysandtheworld'sperplexitiesanddangers,theywerenearlyonalevel。NochildcouldhavesurpassedCaptainCuttleininexperienceofeverythingbutwindandweather;insimplicity,credulity,andgeneroustrustfulness。Faith,hope,andcharity,sharedhiswholenatureamongthem。Anoddsortofromance,perfectlyunimaginative,yetperfectlyunreal,andsubjecttonoconsiderationsofworldlyprudenceorpracticability,wastheonlypartnertheyhadinhischaracter。AstheCaptainsat,andsmoked,andlookedatFlorence,Godknowswhatimpossiblepictures,inwhichshewastheprincipalfigure,presentedthemselvestohismind。Equallyvagueanduncertain,thoughnotsosanguine,wereherownthoughtsofthelifebeforeher;andevenashertearsmadeprismaticcoloursinthelightshegazedatso,throughhernewandheavygrief,shealreadysawarainbowfaintlyshininginthefar-offsky。Awanderingprincessandagoodmonsterinastory-bookmighthavesatbythefireside,andtalkedasCaptainCuttleandpoorFlorencethought——andnothavelookedverymuchunlikethem。
TheCaptainwasnottroubledwiththefaintestideaofanydifficultyinretainingFlorence,orofanyresponsibilitytherebyincurred。Havingputuptheshuttersandlockedthedoor,hewasquitesatisfiedonthishead。IfshehadbeenaWardinChancery,itwouldhavemadenodifferenceatalltoCaptainCuttle。Hewasthelastmanintheworldtobetroubledbyanysuchconsiderations。
SotheCaptainsmokedhispipeverycomfortably,andFlorenceandhemeditatedaftertheirownmanner。Whenthepipewasout,theyhadsometea;andthenFlorenceentreatedhimtotakehertosomeneighbouringshop,whereshecouldbuythefewnecessariessheimmediatelywanted。Itbeingquitedark,theCaptainconsented;peepingcarefullyoutfirst,ashehadbeenwonttodoinhistimeofhidingfromMrs。MacStinger;andarminghimselfwithhislargestick,incaseofanappealtoarmsbeingrenderednecessarybyanyunforeseencircumstance。