TheprideCaptainCuttlehad,ingivinghisarmtoFlorence,andescortinghersometwoorthreehundredyards,keepingabrightlook-outallthetime,andattractingtheattentionofeveryonewhopassedthem,byhisgreatvigilanceandnumerousprecautions,wasextreme。Arrivedattheshop,theCaptainfeltitapointofdelicacytoretireduringthemakingofthepurchases,astheyweretoconsistofwearingapparel;buthepreviouslydepositedhistincanisteronthecounter,andinformingtheyoungladyoftheestablishmentthatitcontainedfourteenpoundtwo,requestedher,incasethatamountofpropertyshouldnotbesufficienttodefraytheexpensesofhisniece'slittleoutfit——attheword`niece,'
hebestowedamostsignificantlookonFlorence,accompaniedwithpantomime,expressiveofsagacityandmystery——tohavethegoodnessto`singout,'
andhewouldmakeupthedifferencefromhispocket。Casuallyconsultinghisbigwatch,asadeepmeansofdazzlingtheestablishment,andimpressingitwithasenseofproperty,theCaptainthenkissedhishooktohisniece,andretiredoutsidethewindow,whereitwasachoicesighttoseehisgreatfacelookinginfromtimetotime,amongthesilksandribbons,withanobviousmisgivingthatFlorencehadbeenspiritedawaybyabackdoor。
`DearCaptainCuttle,'saidFlorence,whenshecameoutwithaparcel,thesizeofwhichgreatlydisappointedtheCaptain,whohadexpectedtoseeaporterfollowingwithabaleofgoods,`Idon'twantthismoney,indeed。Ihavenotspentanyofit。Ihavemoneyofmyown。'
`Myladylass,'returnedthebaffledCaptain,lookingstraightdownthestreetbeforethem,`takecareonitforme,willyoubesogood,tillsuchtimeasIaskyeforit?'
`MayIputitbackinitsusualplace,'saidFlorence,`andkeepitthere?'
TheCaptainwasnotatallgratifiedbythisproposal,butheanswered,`Aye,aye,putitanywheres,myladylass,solongasyouknowwheretofinditagain。Itan'to'nousetome,'saidtheCaptain。
`IwonderIhaven'tchuckeditawayaforenow。'
TheCaptainwasquitedisheartenedforthemoment,butherevivedatthefirsttouchofFlorence'sarm,andtheyreturnedwiththesameprecautionsastheyhadcome;theCaptainopeningthedoorofthelittleMidshipman'sberth,anddivingin,withasuddennesswhichhisgreatpracticeonlycouldhavetaughthim。DuringFlorence'sslumberinthemorning,hehadengagedthedaughterofanelderlylady,whousuallysatunderablueumbrellainLeadenhallMarket,sellingpoultry,tocomeandputherroominorder,andrenderheranylittleservicessherequired;andthisdamselnowappearing,Florencefoundeverythingaboutherasconvenientandorderly,ifnotashandsome,asintheterribledreamshehadoncecalledHome。
Whentheywerealoneagain,theCaptaininsistedonhereatingasliceofdrytoast,anddrinkingaglassofspicedneguswhichhemadetoperfection;and,encouragingherwitheverykindwordandinconsequentialquotationhecouldpossiblythinkof,ledherupstairstoherbedroom。
Buthetoohadsomethingonhismind,andwasnoteasyinhismanner。
`Goodnight,dearheart,'saidCaptainCuttletoheratherchamber-door。
Florenceraisedhislipstohisface,andkissedhim。
AtanyothertimetheCaptainwouldhavebeenoverbalancedbysuchatokenofheraffectionandgratitude;butnow,althoughhewasverysensibleofit,helookedinherfacewithevenmoreuneasinessthanhehadtestifiedbefore,andseemedunwillingtoleaveher。
`PoorWal'r!'saidtheCaptain。
`Poor,poorWalter!'sighedFlorence。
`Drownded,an'the?'saidtheCaptain。
Florenceshookherhead,andsighed。
`Goodnight,myladylass!'saidCaptainCuttle,puttingouthishand。
`Godblessyou,dear,kindfriend!'
ButtheCaptainlingeredstill。
`Isanythingthematter,dearCaptainCuttle?'saidFlorence,easilyalarmedinherthenstateofmind。`Haveyouanythingtotellme?'
`Totellyou,ladylass!'repliedtheCaptain,meetinghereyesinconfusion。`No,no;whatshouldIhavetotellyou,pretty!Youdon'texpectasI'vegotanythinggoodtotellyou,sure?'
`No!'saidFlorence,shakingherhead。
TheCaptainlookedatherwistfully,andrepeated`No,'——stilllingering,andstillshowingembarrassment。
`PoorWal'r!'saidtheCaptain。`MyWal'r,asIusedtocallyou!
OldSolGills'snevy!Welcometoallasknowedyou,astheflowersinMay!
Whereareyougotto,braveboy?Drownded,an'the?'
ConcludinghisapostrophewiththisabruptappealtoFlorence,theCaptainbadehergoodnight,anddescendedthestairs,whileFlorenceremainedatthetop,holdingthecandleouttolighthimdown。Hewaslostintheobscurity,and,judgingfromthesoundofhisrecedingfootsteps,wasintheactofturningintothelittleparlour,whenhisheadandshouldersunexpectedlyemergedagain,asfromthedeep,apparentlyfornootherpurposethantorepeat,`Drownded,an'the,pretty?'Forwhenhehadsaidthatinatoneoftendercondolence,hedisappeared。
Florencewasverysorrythatsheshouldunwittingly,thoughnaturally,haveawakenedtheseassociationsinthemindofherprotector,bytakingrefugethere;andsittingdownbeforethelittletablewheretheCaptainhadarrangedthetelescopeandsong-book,andthoseotherrarities,thoughtofWalter,andofallthatwasconnectedwithhiminthepast,untilshecouldhavealmostwishedtoliedownonherbedandfadeaway。Butinherlonelyyearningtothedeadwhomshehadloved,nothoughtofhome——nopossibilityofgoingback——nopresentationofitasyetexisting,orasshelteringherfather——onceenteredherthoughts。Shehadseenthemurderdone。Inthelastlingeringnaturalaspectinwhichshehadcherishedhimthroughsomuch,hehadbeentornoutofherheart,defaced,andslain。
Thethoughtofitwassoappallingtoher,thatshecoveredhereyes,andshrunktremblingfromtheleastremembranceofthedeed,orofthecruelhandthatdidit。Ifherfondheartcouldhaveheldhisimageafterthat,itmusthavebroken;butitcouldnot;andthevoidwasfilledwithawilddreadthatfledfromallconfrontingwithitsshatteredfragments——withsuchadreadascouldhaverisenoutofnothingbutthedepthsofsuchalove,sowronged。
Shedarednotlookintotheglass;forthesightofthedarkeningmarkuponherbosommadeherafraidofherself,asifsheboreabouthersomethingwicked。Shecovereditup,withahasty,falteringhand,andinthedark;andlaidherwearyheaddown,weeping。
TheCaptaindidnotgotobedforalongtime。Hewalkedtoandfrointheshopandinthelittleparlour,forafullhour,and,appearingtohavecomposedhimselfbythatexercise,satdownwithagraveandthoughtfulface,andreadoutofaPrayer-booktheformsofprayerappointedtobeusedatsea。Thesewerenoteasilydisposedof;thegoodCaptainbeingamightyslow,gruffreader,andfrequentlystoppingatahardwordtogivehimselfsuchencouragementas`Now,mylad!Withawill!'or,`Steady,Ed'ardCuttle,steady!'whichhadagreateffectinhelpinghimoutofanydifficulty。Moreover,hisspectaclesgreatlyinterferedwithhispowersofvision。Butnotwithstandingthesedrawbacks,theCaptain,beingheartilyinearnest,readtheservicetotheverylastline,andwithgenuinefeelingtoo;andapprovingofitverymuchwhenhehaddone,turnedinunderthecounterbutnotbeforehehadbeenupstairs,andlistenedatFlorence'sdoor,withaserenebreast,andamostbenevolentvisage。
TheCaptainturnedoutseveraltimesinthecourseofthenight,toassurehimselfthathischargewasrestingquietly;andonce,atdaybreak,foundthatshewasawake:forshecalledtoknowifitwerehe,onhearingfootstepsnearherdoor。
`Yes,myladylass,'repliedtheCaptain,inagrowlingwhisper。
`Areyouallright,di'mond?'
Florencethankedhim,andsaid`Yes。'
TheCaptaincouldnotlosesofavourableanopportunityofapplyinghismouthtothekeyhole,andcallingthroughit,likeahoarsebreeze,`PoorWal'r!Drownded,an'the?'Afterwhichhewithdrew,andturninginagain,slepttillseveno'clock。
Norwashefreefromhisuneasyandembarrassedmannerallthatday;thoughFlorence,beingbusywithherneedleinthelittleparlour,wasmorecalmandtranquilthanshehadbeenonthedaypreceding。Almostalwayswhensheraisedhereyesfromherwork,sheobservedtheCaptainlookingather,andthoughtfullystrokinghischin;andhesooftenhitchedhisarm-chairclosetoher,asifheweregoingtosaysomethingveryconfidential,andhitcheditawayagain,asnotbeingabletomakeuphismindhowtobegin,thatinthecourseofthedayhecruisedcompletelyroundtheparlourinthatfrailbark,andmorethanoncewentashoreagainstthewainscotortheclosetdoor,inaverydistressedcondition。
ItwasnotuntilthetwilightthatCaptainCuttle,fairlydroppinganchor,atlast,bythesideofFlorence,begantotalkatallconnectedly。
Butwhenthelightofthefirewasshiningonthewallsandceilingofthelittleroom,andontheteaboardandthecupsandsaucersthatwererangeduponthetable,andonhercalmfaceturnedtowardstheflame,andreflectingitinthetearsthatfilledhereyes,theCaptainbrokealongsilencethus:
`Youneverwasatsea,myown?'
`No,'repliedFlorence。
`Aye,'saidtheCaptain,reverentially;`it'saalmightyelement。
There'swondersinthedeep,mypretty。Thinkonitwhenthewindsisroaringandthewavesisrowling。Thinkonitwhenthestormynightsissopitchdark,'saidtheCaptain,solemnlyholdinguphishook,`asyoucan'tseeyourhandaforeyou,exceptingwhenthewiwidlightningrewealsthesame;
andwhenyoudrive,drive,drivethroughthestormanddark,asifyouwasadriving,headon,totheworldwithoutend,evermore,amen,andwhenfoundmakinganoteof。Them'sthetimes,mybeauty,whenamanmaysaytohismessmatepreviouslyaoverhaulingofthewollume,“Astiffnor'wester'sblowing,Bill;harkdon'tyouhearitroarnow!Lordhelp'em,howIpitysallunhappyfolksashorenow!”'Whichquotation,asparticularlyapplicabletotheterrorsoftheocean,theCaptaindeliveredinamostimpressivemanner,concludingwithasonorous`Standby!'
`Wereyoueverinadreadfulstorm?'askedFlorence。
`Whyaye,myladylass,I'veseenmyshareofbadweather,'saidtheCaptain,tremulouslywipinghishead,`andI'vehadmyshareofknockingabout;but——butitan'tmyselfasIwasameaningtospeak。Ourdearboy,'
drawingclosertoher,`Wal'r,darling,aswasdrownded。'
TheCaptainspokeinsuchatremblingvoice,andlookedatFlorencewithafacesopaleandagitated,thatsheclungtohishandinaffright。
`Yourfaceischanged,'criedFlorence。`Youarealteredinamoment。Whatisit?DearCaptainCuttle,itturnsmecoldtoseeyou!'
`What!Ladylass,'returnedtheCaptain,supportingherwithhishand,`don'tbetookaback。No,no!All'swell,all'swell,mydear。AsIwasasaying——Wal'r——he's——he'sdrownded。An'the?'
Florencelookedathimintently;hercolourcameandwent;andshelaidherhanduponherbreast。
`There'sperilsanddangersonthedeep,mybeauty,'saidtheCaptain;`andovermanyabraveship,andmanyandmanyabouldheart,thesecretwatershasclosedup,andnevertoldnotales。Butthere'sescapesuponthedeep,too,andsometimesonemanoutofascore,——ah!maybeoutofahundred,pretty,——hasbeensavedbythemercyofGod,andcomehomeafterbeinggivenoverfordead,andtoldofallhandslost。I——Iknowastory,Heart'sDelight,'stammeredtheCaptain,`o'thisnatur,aswastoldtomeonce;andbeingonthisheretack,andyouandmesittingalonebythefire,maybeyou'dliketohearmetellit。Wouldyou,deary?'
Florence,tremblingwithanagitationwhichshecouldnotcontrolorunderstand,involuntarilyfollowedhisglance,whichwentbehindherintotheshop,wherealampwasburning。Theinstantthatsheturnedherhead,theCaptainsprungoutofhischair,andinterposedhishand。
`There'snothingthere,mybeauty,'saidtheCaptain。`Don'tlookthere。'
`Whynot?'askedFlorence。
TheCaptainmurmuredsomethingaboutitsbeingdullthatway,andaboutthefirebeingcheerful。Hedrewthedoorajar,whichhadbeenstandingopenuntilnow,andresumedhisseat。Florencefollowedhimwithhereyes,andlookedintentlyinhisface。
`Thestorywasaboutaship,myladylass,'begantheCaptain,`assailedoutofthePortofLondon,withafairwindandinfairweather,boundfor——don'tbetookaback,myladylass,shewasonlyout'ardbound,pretty,onlyout'ardbound!'
TheexpressiononFlorence'sfacealarmedtheCaptain,whowashimselfveryhotandflurried,andshowedscarcelylessagitationthanshedid。
`ShallIgoon,Beauty?'saidtheCaptain。
`Yes,yes,pray!'criedFlorence。
TheCaptainmadeagulpasiftogetdownsomethingthatwasstickinginhisthroat,andnervouslyproceeded:
`Thatthereunfort'nateshipmetwithsuchfoulweather,outatsea,asdon'tblowonceintwentyyear,mydarling。Therewashurricanesashoreastoreupforestsandbloweddowntowns,andtherewasgalesatseainthemlatitudes,asnotthestoutestwesseleverlaunchedcouldlivein。Dayarterdaythatthereunfort'nateshipbehavednoble,I'mtold,anddidherdutybrave,mypretty,butatoneblowa'mostherbulwarkswasstovein,hermastsandruddercarriedaway,herbestmensweptoverboard,andshelefttothemercyofthestormashadnomercybutblowedharderandharderyet,whilethewavesdashedoverher,andbeatherin,andeverytimetheycomeathunderingather,brokeherlikeashell。Everyblackspotineverymountainofwaterthatrolledawaywasabito'theship'slifeoralivingman,andsoshewenttopieces,Beauty,andnograsswillnevergrowuponthegravesofthemasmannedthatship。'
`Theywerenotalllost!'criedFlorence。`Someweresaved!——Wasone?'
`Aboardo'thatthereunfort'natewessel,'saidtheCaptain,risingfromhischair,andclenchinghishandwithprodigiousenergyandexultation,`wasalad,agallantlad——asI'veheerdtell——thathadloved,whenhewasaboy,toreadandtalkaboutbraveactionsinshipwrecks——I'veheerdhim!I'veheerdhim!——andherememberedof'eminhishourofneed;forwhenthestoutestheartsandoldesthandswashovedown,hewasfirmandcheery。Itwarn'tthewantofobjectstolikeandloveashorethatgavehimcourage,itwashisnat'ralmind。I'veseenitinhisface,whenhewasnomorethanachild——aye,manyatime!——andwhenIthoughtitnothingbuthisgoodlooks,blesshim!'
`Andwashesaved!'criedFlorence。`Washesaved!'
`Thatbravelad,'saidtheCaptain,——`lookatme,pretty!Don'tlookround——'
Florencehadhardlypowertorepeat,`Whynot?'
`Becausethere'snothingthere,mydeary,'saidtheCaptain。`Don'tbetookaback,prettycreetur!Don't,forthesakeofWal'r,aswasdeartoallonus!Thattherelad,'saidtheCaptain,`arterworkingwiththebest,andstandingbythefaint-hearted,andnevermakingnocomplaintnorsignoffear,andkeepingupaspiritinallhandsthatmade'emhonourhimasifhe'dbeenaadmiral——thatlad,alongwiththesecondmateandoneseaman,wasleft,ofallthebeatin'heartsthatwentaboardthatship,theonlylivingcreeturs——lashedtoafragmentofthewreck,anddriftin'
onthestormysea。'
`Weretheysaved?'criedFlorence。
`Daysandnightstheydriftedonthemendlesswaters,'saidtheCaptain,`untilatlast——No!Don'tlookthatway,pretty!——asailboredownupon'em,andtheywas,bytheLord'smercy,tookaboard:twolivingandonedead。'
`Whichofthemwasdead?'criedFlorence。
`NottheladIspeakon,'saidtheCaptain。
`ThankGod!ohthankGod!'
`Amen!'returnedtheCaptainhurriedly。`Don'tbetookaback!
Aminutemore,myladylass!withagoodheart!——aboardthatship,theywentalongvoyage,rightawayacrossthechartfortherewarn'tnotouchingnowhere,andonthatvoyagetheseamanaswaspickedupwithdimdied。
Buthewasspared,and'
TheCaptain,withoutknowingwhathedid,hadcutasliceofbreadfromtheloaf,andputitonhishookwhichwashisusualtoasting-fork,onwhichhenowheldittothefire;lookingbehindFlorencewithgreatemotioninhisface,andsufferingthebreadtoblazeandburnlikefuel。
`Wasspared,'repeatedFlorence,`and?'
`Andcomehomeinthatship,'saidtheCaptain,stilllookinginthesamedirection,`and——don'tbefrightened,pretty——andlanded;andonemorningcomecautiouslytohisowndoortotakeaobserwation,knowingthathisfriendswouldthinkhimdrownded,whenhesheeredoffattheunexpected'
`Attheunexpectedbarkingofadog?'criedFlorencequickly。
`Yes,'roaredtheCaptain。`Steady,darling!courage!Don'tlookroundyet。Seethere!uponthewall!'
Therewastheshadowofamanuponthewallclosetoher。Shestartedup,lookedround,andwithapiercingcry,sawWalterGaybehindher!
Shehadnothoughtofhimbutasabrother,abrotherrescuedfromthegrave;ashipwreckedbrothersavedandatherside;andrushedintohisarms。Inalltheworld,heseemedtobeherhope,hercomfort,refuge,naturalprotector。`TakecareofWalter,IwasfondofWalter!'
Thedearremembranceoftheplaintivevoicethatsaidso,rusheduponhersoul,likemusicinthenight。`Ohwelcomehome,dearWalter!Welcometothisstrickenbreast!'Shefeltthewords,althoughshecouldnotutterthem,andheldhiminherpureembrace。
CaptainCuttle,inafitofdelirium,attemptedtowipehisheadwiththeblackenedtoastuponhishook:andfindingitanuncongenialsubstanceforthepurpose,putitintothecrownofhisglazedhat,puttheglazedhatonwithsomedifficulty,essayedtosingaverseofLovelyPeg,brokedownatthefirstword,andretiredintotheshop,whencehepresentlycameback,express,withafaceallflushedandbesmeared,andthestarchcompletelytakenoutofhisshirt-collar,tosaythesewords:
`Wal'r,mylad,hereisalittlebitofpropertyasIshouldwishtomakeover,jintly!'
TheCaptainhastilyproducedthebigwatch,theteaspoons,thesugar-tongs,andthecanister,andlayingthemonthetable,sweptthemwithhisgreathandintoWalter'shat;butinhandingthatsingularstrongboxtoWalter,hewassoovercomeagain,thathewasfaintomakeanotherretreatintotheshop,andabsenthimselfforalongerspaceoftimethanonhisfirstretirement。
ButWaltersoughthimout,andbroughthimback;andthentheCaptain'sgreatapprehensionwas,thatFlorencewouldsufferfromthisnewshock。Hefeltitsoearnestly,thatheturnedquiterational,andpositivelyinterdictedanyfurtherallusiontoWalter'sadventuresforsomedaystocome。CaptainCuttlethenbecamesufficientlycomposedtorelievehimselfofthetoastinhishat,andtotakehisplaceattheteaboard;
butfindingWalter'sgraspuponhisshoulder,ononeside,andFlorencewhisperinghertearfulcongratulationsontheother,theCaptainsuddenlyboltedagain,andwasmissingforagoodtenminutes。
ButneverinallhislifehadtheCaptain'sfacesoshoneandglistened,aswhen,atlast,hesatstationaryatthetea-board,lookingfromFlorencetoWalter,andfromWaltertoFlorence。Norwasthiseffectproducedoratallheightenedbytheimmensequantityofpolishinghehadadministeredtohisfacewithhiscoat-sleeveduringthelasthalf-hour。
Itwassolelytheeffectofhisinternalemotions。TherewasagloryanddelightwithintheCaptainthatspreaditselfoverhiswholevisage,andmadeaperfectilluminationthere。
ThePridewithwhichtheCaptainlookeduponthebronzedcheekandthecourageouseyesofhisrecoveredboy;withwhichhesawthegenerousfervourofhisyouth,andallitsfrankandhopefulqualities,shiningoncemore,inthefresh,wholesomemanner,andtheardentface,wouldhavekindledsomethingofthislightinhiscountenance。TheadmirationandsympathywithwhichheturnedhiseyesonFlorence,whosebeauty,grace,andinnocencecouldhavewonnotruerormorezealouschampionthanhimself,wouldhavehadanequalinfluenceuponhim。Butthefulnessoftheglowheshedaroundhimcouldonlyhavebeenengenderedinhiscontemplationofthetwotogether,andinallthefanciesspringingoutofthatassociation,thatcamesparklingandbeamingintohishead,anddancedaboutit。
HowtheytalkedofpooroldUncleSol,anddweltoneverylittlecircumstancerelatingtohisdisappearance;howtheirjoywasmoderatedbytheoldman'sabsenceandbythemisfortunesofFlorence;howtheyreleasedDiogenes,whomtheCaptainhaddecoyedupstairssometimebefore,lestheshouldbarkagain;theCaptain,thoughhewasinonecontinualflutter,andmademanymoreshortplungesintotheshop,fullycomprehended。ButhenomoredreamedthatWalterlookedonFlorence,asitwere,fromanewandfar-offplace;thatwhilehiseyesoftensoughtthelovelyface,theyseldommetitsopenglanceofsisterlyaffection,butwithdrewthemselveswhenherswereraisedtowardshim;thanbebelievedthatitwasWalter'sghostwhosatbesidehim。Hesawthemtheretogetherintheiryouthandbeauty,andheknewthestoryoftheiryoungerdays,andhehadnoinchofroombeneathhisgreatbluewaistcoatforanythingsaveadmirationofsuchapair,andgratitudefortheirbeingreunited。
Theysatthus,untilitgrewlate。TheCaptainwouldhavebeencontenttositsoforaweek。ButWalterrose,totakeleaveforthenight。
`Going,Walter!'saidFlorence。`Where?'
`Heslingshishammockforthepresent,ladylass,'saidCaptainCuttle,`roundatBrogley's。Withinhail,Heart'sDelight。'
`Iamthecauseofyourgoingaway,Walter,'saidFlorence。`Thereisahouselesssisterinyourplace。'
`DearMissDombey,'repliedWalter,hesitating——`ifitisnottooboldtocallyouso!——'
`——Walter!'sheexclaimed,surprised。
`Ifanythingcouldmakemehappierinbeingallowedtoseeandspeaktoyou,woulditnotbethediscoverythatIhadanymeansonearthofdoingyouamoment'sservice!WherewouldInotgo,whatwouldInotdoforyoursake?'
Shesmiled,andcalledhimbrother。
`Youaresochanged,'saidWalter——
`Ichanged!'sheinterrupted。
`Tome,'saidWalter,softly,asifhewerethinkingaloud,`changedtome。Ileftyousuchachild,andfindyou——oh!somethingsodifferent——'
`Butyoursister,Walter。Youhavenotforgottenwhatwepromisedtoeachother,whenweparted?'
`Forgotten!'Buthesaidnomore。
`Andifyouhad——ifsufferinganddangerhaddrivenitfromyourthoughts——whichithasnot——youwouldrememberitnow,Walter,whenyoufindmepoorandabandoned,withnohomebutthis,andnofriendsbutthetwowhohearmespeak!'
`Iwould!HeavenknowsIwould!'saidWalter。
`Oh,Walter,'exclaimedFlorence,throughhersobsandtears。
`Dearbrother!Showmesomewaythroughtheworld——somehumblepaththatImaytakealone,andlabourin,andsometimesthinkofyouasonewhowillprotectandcareformeasforasister!Oh,helpme,Walter,forIneedhelpsomuch!'
`MissDombey!Florence!Iwoulddietohelpyou。Butyourfriendsareproudandrich。Yourfather'
`No,no!Walter!'Sheshrieked,andputherhandsuptoherhead,inanattitudeofterrorthattransfixedhimwherehestood。`Don'tsaythatword!'
Henever,fromthathour,forgotthevoiceandlookwithwhichshestoppedhimatthename。Hefeltthatifheweretoliveahundredyears,henevercouldforgetit。
Somewhere——anywhere——butneverhome!Allpast,allgone,alllost,andbrokenup!Thewholehistoryofheruntoldslightandsufferingwasinthecryandlook;andhefelthenevercouldforgetit,andheneverdid。
ShelaidhergentlefaceupontheCaptain'sshoulder,andrelatedhowandwhyshehadfled。Ifeverysorrowingtearsheshedindoingso,hadbeenacurseupontheheadofhimshenevernamedorblamed,itwouldhavebeenbetterforhim,Walterthought,withawe,thantoberenouncedoutofsuchastrengthandmightoflove。
`There,precious!'saidtheCaptain,whensheceased;anddeepattentiontheCaptainhadpaidtoherwhileshespoke;listening,withhisglazedhatallawryandhismouthwideopen。`Awast,awast,myeyes!
Wal'r,dearlad,sheeroffforto-night,andleavetheprettyonetome!'
Waltertookherhandinbothofhis,andputittohislips,andkissedit。Heknewnowthatshewas,indeed,ahomelesswanderingfugitive;
but,richertohimso,thaninallthewealthandprideofherrightstation,sheseemedfartheroffthanevenontheheightthathadmadehimgiddyinhisboyishdreams。
CaptainCuttle,perplexedbynosuchmeditations,guardedFlorencetoherroom,andwatchedatintervalsuponthecharmedgroundoutsideherdoor——forsuchittrulywastohim——untilhefeltsufficientlyeasyinhismindabouther,toturninunderthecounter。Onabandoninghiswatchforthatpurpose,hecouldnothelpcallingonce,rapturously,throughthekeyhole,`Drownded。An'the,pretty?'——or,whenhegotdownstairs,makinganothertrialatthatverseofLovelyPeg。Butitstuckinhisthroatsomehow,andhecouldmakenothingofit;sohewenttobed,anddreamedthatoldSolGillswasmarriedtoMrs。MacStinger,andkeptprisonerbythatladyinasecretchamberonashortallowanceofvictuals。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter50[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERLMr。Toots'sComplaintTHEREwasanemptyroomabove-stairsattheWoodenMidshipman's,which,indaysofyore,hadbeenWalter'sbedroom。Walter,rousinguptheCaptainbetimesinthemorning,proposedthattheyshouldcarrythithersuchfurnitureoutofthelittleparlouraswouldgraceitbest,sothatFlorencemighttakepossessionofitwhensherose。AsnothingcouldbemoreagreeabletoCaptainCuttlethanmakinghimselfveryredandshortofbreathinsuchacause,heturnedtoashehimselfsaidwithawill;and,inacoupleofhours,thisgarretwastransformedintoaspeciesofland-cabin,adornedwithallthechoicestmoveablesoutoftheparlour,inclusiveevenoftheTartarfrigate,whichtheCaptainhungupoverthechimneypiecewithsuchextremedelight,thathecoulddonothingforhalf-an-hourafterwardsbutwalkbackwardfromit,lostinadmiration。
TheCaptaincouldbeinducedbynopersuasionofWalter'stowindupthebigwatch,ortotakebackthecanister,ortotouchthesugar-tongsandteaspoons。`No,no,mylad,'wastheCaptain'sinvariablereplytoanysolicitationofthekind,`I'vemadethattherelittlepropertyover,jintly。'Thesewordsherepeatedwithgreatunctionandgravity,evidentlybelievingthattheyhadthevirtueofanActofParliament,andthatunlesshecommittedhimselfbysomenewadmissionofownership,noflawcouldbefoundinsuchaformofconveyance。
Itwasanadvantageofthenewarrangement,thatbesidesthegreaterseclusionitaffordedFlorence,itadmittedoftheMidshipmanbeingrestoredtohisusualpostofobservation,andalsooftheshopshuttersbeingtakendown。Thelatterceremony,howeverlittleimportancetheunconsciousCaptainattachedtoit,wasnotwhollysuperfluous;for,onthepreviousday,somuchexcitementhadbeenoccasionedintheneighbourhood,bytheshuttersremainingunopened,thattheInstrument-maker'shousehadbeenhonouredwithanunusualshareofpublicobservation,andhadbeenintentlystaredatfromtheoppositesideoftheway,bygroupsofhungrygazers,atanytimebetweensunriseandsunset。TheidlersandvagabondshadbeenparticularlyinterestedintheCaptain'sfate;constantlygrovellinginthemudtoapplytheireyestothecellar-grating,undertheshop-window,anddelightingtheirimaginationswiththefancythattheycouldseeapieceofhiscoatashehunginacorner;thoughthissettlementofhimwasstoutlydisputedbyanoppositefaction,whowereofopinionthathelaymurderedwithahammer,onthestairs。Itwasnotwithoutexcitingsomediscontent,therefore,thatthesubjectoftheserumourswasseenearlyinthemorningstandingathisshop-doorashaleandheartyasifnothinghadhappened;andthebeadleofthatquarter,amanofanambitiouscharacter,whohadexpectedtohavethedistinctionofbeingpresentatthebreakingopenofthedoor,andofgivingevidenceinfulluniformbeforethecorner,wentsofarastosaytoanoppositeneighbour,thatthechapintheglazedhathadbetternottryitonthere——withoutmoreparticularlymentioningwhat——andfurther,thathe,theBeadle,wouldkeephiseyeuponhim。
`CaptainCuttle,'saidWalter,musing,whentheystoodrestingfromtheirlaboursattheshop-door,lookingdowntheoldfamiliarstreet;
itbeingstillearlyinthemorning;`nothingatallofUncleSol,inallthattime!'
`Nothingatall,mylad,'repliedtheCaptain,shakinghishead。
`Goneinsearchofme,dear,kindoldman,'saidWalter:`yetneverwritetoyou!Butwhynot?Hesays,ineffect,inthispacketthatyougaveme,'takingthepaperfromhispocket,whichhadbeenopenedinthepresenceoftheenlightenedBunsby,`thatifyouneverhearfromhimbeforeopeningit,youmaybelievehimdead。Heavenforbid!Butyouwouldhaveheardofhim,evenifheweredead!Someonewouldhavewritten,surely,byhisdesire,ifhecouldnot;andhavesaid,“onsuchaday,therediedinmyhouse,“or“undermycare,“orsoforth,“Mr。SolomonGillsofLondon,wholeftthislastremembranceandthislastrequesttoyou。“'
TheCaptain,whohadneverclimbedtosuchaclearheightofprobabilitybefore,wasgreatlyimpressedbythewideprospectitopened,andanswered,withathoughtfulshakeofhishead,`Wellsaid,mylad;werywellsaid。'
`Ihavebeenthinkingofthis,or,atleast,'saidWalter,colouring,`Ihavebeenthinkingofonethingandanother,allthroughasleeplessnight,andIcannotbelieve,CaptainCuttle,butthatmyUncleSolLordblesshim!isalive,andwillreturn。Idon'tsomuchwonderathisgoingaway,because,leavingoutofconsiderationthatspiceofthemarvellouswhichwasalwaysinhischaracter,andhisgreataffectionforme,beforewhicheveryotherconsiderationofhislifebecamenothing,asnooneoughttoknowsowellasIwhohadthebestoffathersinhim,'——Walter'svoicewasindistinctandhuskyhere,andhelookedaway,alongthestreet,——`leavingthatoutofconsideration,Isay,Ihaveoftenreadandheardofpeoplewho,havingsomenearanddearrelative,whowassupposedtobeshipwreckedatsea,havegonedowntoliveonthatpartofthesea-shorewhereanytidingsofthemissingshipmightbeexpectedtoarrive,thoughonlyanhourortwosoonerthanelsewhere,orhaveevengoneuponhertracktotheplacewhithershewasbound,asiftheirgoingwouldcreateintelligence。
IthinkIshoulddosuchathingmyself,assoonasanother,orsoonerthanmany,perhaps。Butwhymyuncleshouldn'twritetoyou,whenhesoclearlyintendedtodoso,orhowheshoulddieabroad,andyounotknowitthroughsomeotherhand,Icannotmakeout。'
CaptainCuttleobserved,withashakeofhishead,thatJackBunsbyhimselfhadn'tmadeitout,andthathewasamanascouldgiveaprettytautopiniontoo。
`Ifmyunclehadbeenaheedlessyoungman,likelytobeentrappedbyjovialcompanytosomedrinking-place,wherehewastobegotridofforthesakeofwhatmoneyhemighthaveabouthim,'saidWalter;`orifhehadbeenarecklesssailor,goingashorewithtwoorthreemonths'payinhispocket,Icouldunderstandhisdisappearing,andleavingnotracebehind。But,beingwhathewas——andis,Ihope——Ican'tbelieveit。'
`Wal'r,mylad,'inquiredtheCaptainwistfullyeyeinghimasheponderedandpondered,`Whatdoyoumakeofit,then?'
`CaptainCuttle,'returnedWalter,`Idon'tknowwhattomakeofit。Isupposeheneverhaswritten!Thereisnodoubtaboutthat?'
`IfsobeasSolGillswrote,mylad,'repliedtheCaptain,argumentatively,`where'shisdispatch?'
`Saythatheintrustedittosomeprivatehand,'suggestedWalter,`andthatithasbeenforgotten,orcarelesslythrownaside,orlost。Eventhatismoreprobabletome,thantheotherevent。Inshort,Inotonlycannotbeartocontemplatethatotherevent,CaptainCuttle,butIcan't,andwon't。'
`Hope,yousee,Wal'r,'saidtheCaptain,sagely,`Hope。It'sthatasanimatesyou。Hopeisabuoy,forwhichyouoverhaulyourLittleWarbler,sentimentaldiwision,butLord,mylad,likeanyotherbuoy,itonlyfloats;itcan'tbesteerednowhere。Alongwiththefigure-headofHope,'saidtheCaptain,`there'saanchor;butwhat'sthegoodofmyhavingaanchor,ifIcan'tfindnobottomtoletitgoin?'
CaptainCuttlesaidthisratherinhischaracterofasagaciouscitizenandhouseholder,boundtoimpartamorselfromhisstoresofwisdom,toaninexperiencedyouth,thaninhisownproperperson。Indeed,hisfacewasquiteluminousashespoke,withnewhope,caughtfromWalter;andheappropriatelyconcludedbyslappinghimontheback;andsaying,withenthusiasm,`Hooroar,mylad!Indiwidually,I'mo'youropinion。'
Walter,withhischeerfullaugh,returnedthesalutation,andsaid:
`Onlyonewordmoreaboutmyuncleatpresent,CaptainCuttle。
Isupposeitisimpossiblethathecanhavewrittenintheordinarycourse——bymailpacket,orshipletter,youunderstand——'
`Aye,aye,mylad,'saidtheCaptainapprovingly。
`——Andthatyouhavemissedtheletteranyhow?'
`Why,Wal'r,'saidtheCaptain,turninghiseyesuponhimwithafaintapproachtoasevereexpression,`an'tIbeenonthelookoutforanytidingsofthatmano'science,oldSolGills,youruncle,dayandnight,eversinceIlosthim?'An'tmyheartbeenheavyandwatchfulalways,alongofhimandyou?Sleepingandwaking,an'tIbeenuponmypost,andwouldn'tIscorntoquititwhilethishereMidshipmanheldtogether!'
`Yes,CaptainCuttle,'repliedWalter,graspinghishand,`Iknowyouwould,andIknowhowfaithfulandearnestallyousayandfeelis。
Iamsureofit。Youdon'tdoubtthatIamassureofitasIamthatmyfootisagainuponthisdoor-steporthatIagainhaveholdofthistruehand。Doyou?'
`No,no,Wal'r,'returnedtheCaptain,withhisbeamingface。
`I'llhazardnomoreconjectures,'saidWalter,ferventlyshakingthehardhandoftheCaptain,whoshookhiswithnolessgood-will。`AllIwilladdis,HeavenforbidthatIshouldtouchmyuncle'spossessions,CaptainCuttle!Everythingthathelefthere,shallremaininthecareofthetruestofstewardsandkindestofmen——andifhisnameisnotCuttle,hehasnoname!Now,bestoffriends,about——MissDombey。'
TherewasachangeinWalter'smanner,ashecametothesetwowords;andwhenheutteredthem,allhisconfidenceandcheerfulnessappearedtohavedesertedhim。
`Ithought,beforeMissDombeystoppedmewhenIspokeofherfatherlastnight,'saidWalter,`——yourememberhow?'
TheCaptainwellremembered,andshookhishead。
`Ithought,'saidWalter,`beforethat,thatwehadbutoneharddutytoperform,andthatitwas,toprevailuponhertocommunicatewithherfriends,andtoreturnhome。'
TheCaptainmutteredafeeble`Awast!'ora`Standby!'orsomethingorother,equallypertinenttotheoccasion;butitwasrenderedsoextremelyfeeblebythetotaldiscomfiturewithwhichhereceivedthisannouncement,thatwhatitwas,ismerematterofconjecture。
`But,'saidWalter,`thatisover。Ithinksonolonger。Iwouldsoonerbeputbackagainuponthatpieceofwreck,onwhichIhavesooftenfloated,sincemypreservation,inmydreams,andtherelefttodrift,anddrive,anddie!'
`Hooroar,mylad!'exclaimedtheCaptain,inaburstofuncontrollablesatisfaction。`Hooroar!hooroar!hooroar!'
`Tothinkthatshe,soyoung,sogood,andbeautiful,'saidWalter,`sodelicatelybroughtup,andborntosuchadifferentfortune,shouldstrivewiththeroughworld!Butwehaveseenthegulfthatcutsoffallbehindher,thoughnoonebutherselfcanknowhowdeepitis;andthereisnoreturn。'
CaptainCuttle,withoutquiteunderstandingthis,greatlyapprovedofit,andobservedinatoneofstrongcorroboration,thatthewindwasquiteabaft。
`Sheoughtnottobealonehere;oughtshe,CaptainCuttle?'saidWalter,anxiously。
`Well,mylad,'repliedtheCaptain,afteralittlesagaciousconsideration。`Idon'tknow。Youbeingheretokeephercompany,yousee,andyoutwobeingjintly'
`DearCaptainCuttle!'remonstratedWalter。`Ibeinghere!MissDombey,inherguilelessinnocentheart,regardsmeasheradoptedbrother;
butwhatwouldtheguileandguiltofmyheartbe,ifIpretendedtobelievethatIhadanyrighttoapproachher,familiarly,inthatcharacter——ifIpretendedtoforgetthatIambound,inhonour,nottodoit?'
`Wal'r,mylad,'hintedtheCaptain,withsomerevivalofhisdiscomfiture,`an'ttherenoothercharacteras'
`Oh!'returnedWalter,`wouldyouhavemedieinheresteem——insuchesteemashers——andputaveilbetweenmyselfandherangel'sfaceforever,bytakingadvantageofherbeinghereforrefuge,sotrustingandsounprotected,toendeavourtoexaltmyselfintoherlover?WhatdoIsay?ThereisnooneintheworldwhowouldbemoreopposedtomeifIcoulddoso,thanyou。'
`Wal'r,mylad,'saidtheCaptain,droopingmoreandmore,`prowidingasthereisanyjustcauseorimpedimentwhytwopersonsshouldnotbejinedtogetherinthehouseofbondage,forwhichyou'lloverhaultheplaceandmakeanote,IhopeIshoulddeclareitaspromisedandwowedinthebanns。Sotherean'tnoothercharacter;an'tthere,mylad?'
Walterbrisklywavedhishandinthenegative。
`Well,mylad,'growledtheCaptainslowly,`Iwon'tdenybutwhatIfindmyselfwerymuchdownbythehead,alongo'thishere,orbutwhatI'vegonecleanabout。ButastoLady-lass,Wal'r,mindyou,wot'srespectanddutytoherisrespectanddutyinmyarticles,howsumiverdisapinting;andthereforeIfollowsinyourwake,mylad,andfeelasyouare,nodoubt,actinguptoyourself。Andtherean'tnoothercharacter,an'tthere?'saidtheCaptain,musingovertheruinsofhisfallencastlewithaverydespondentface。
`Now,CaptainCuttle,'saidWalter,startingafreshpointwithagayerair,tocheertheCaptainup——butnothingcoulddothat;hewastoomuchconcerned——`IthinkweshouldexertourselvestofindsomeonewhowouldbeaproperattendantforMissDombeywhilesheremainshere,andwhomaybetrusted。Noneofherrelationsmay。It'sclearMissDombeyfeelsthattheyareallsubservienttoherfather。WhathasbecomeofSusan?'
`Theyoungwoman?'returnedtheCaptain。`It'smybeliefasshewassentawayagainthewillofHeart'sDelight。ImadeasignalforherwhenLady-lassfirstcome,andsheratedofherweryhigh,andsaidshehadbeengonealongtime。'
`Then,'saidWalter,`doyouaskMissDombeywhereshe'sgone,andwe'lltrytofindher。Themorning'sgettingon,andMissDombeywillsoonberising。Youareherbestfriend。Waitforherupstairs,andleavemetotakecareofalldownhere。'
TheCaptain,verycrest-fallenindeed,echoedthesighwithwhichWaltersaidthis,andcomplied。Florencewasdelightedwithhernewroom,anxioustoseeWalter,andoverjoyedattheprospectofgreetingheroldfriendSusan。ButFlorencecouldnotsaywhereSusanwasgone,exceptthatitwasinEssex,andnoonecouldsay,sheremembered,unlessitwereMr。
Toots。
WiththisinformationthemelancholyCaptainreturnedtoWalter,andgavehimtounderstandthatMr。Tootswastheyounggentlemanwhomhehadencounteredonthedoor-step,andthathewasafriendofhis,andthathewasayounggentlemanofproperty,andthathehopelesslyadoredMissDombey。TheCaptainalsorelatedhowtheintelligenceofWalter'ssupposedfatehadfirstmadehimacquaintedwithMr。Toots,andhowtherewassolemntreatyandcompactbetweenthem,thatMr。Tootsshouldbemuteuponthesubjectofhislove。
Thequestionthenwas,whetherFlorencecouldtrustMr。Toots;
andFlorencesaying,withasmile,`Oh,yes,withherwholeheart!'itbecameimportanttofindoutwhereMr。Tootslived。ThisFlorencedidn'tknow,andtheCaptainhadforgotten;andtheCaptainwastellingWalter,inthelittleparlour,thatMr。Tootswassuretobetheresoon,whenincameMr。Tootshimself。
`CaptainGills,'saidMr。Toots,rushingintotheparlourwithoutanyceremony,`I'minastateofmindborderingondistraction!'
Mr。Tootshaddischargedthosewords,asfromamortar,beforeheobservedWalter,whomherecognisedwithwhatmaybedescribedasachuckleofmisery。
`You'llexcuseme,Sir,'saidMr。Toots,holdinghisforehead,`butI'matpresentinthatstatethatmybrainisgoing,ifnotgone,andanythingapproachingtopolitenessinanindividualsosituatedwouldbeahollowmockery。CaptainGills,Ibegtorequestthefavourofaprivateinterview。'
`Why,Brother,'returnedtheCaptain,takinghimbythehand,`youarethemanaswewasonthelook-outfor。'
`Oh,CaptainGills,'saidMr。Toots,`whatalook-outthatmustbe,ofwhichIamtheobject!Ihaven'tdaredtoshave,I'minthatrashstate。Ihaven'thadmyclothesbrushed。Myhairismatteredtogether。
ItoldtheChickenthatifheofferedtocleanmyboots,I'dstretchhimacorpsebeforeme!'
AlltheseindicationsofadisorderedmindwereverifiedinMr。
Toots'sappearance,whichwaswildandsavage。
`Seehere,Brother,'saidtheCaptain。`Thishere'soldSolGills'snevyWal'r。Himaswassupposedtohaveperishedatsea。'
Mr。Tootstookhishandfromhisforehead,andstaredatWalter。
`Goodgraciousme!'stammeredMr。Toots。`Whatacomplicationofmisery!How-de-do?I——I——I'mafraidyoumusthavegotverywet。CaptainGills,willyouallowmeawordintheshop?'
HetooktheCaptainbythecoat,andgoingoutwithhimwhispered:
`Thatthen,CaptainGills,isthepartyyouspokeof,whenyousaidthatheandMissDombeyweremadeforoneanother?'
`Why,aye,mylad,'repliedthedisconsolateCaptain;`Iwasofthatmindonce。'
`Andatthistime!'exclaimedMr。Toots,withhishandtohisforeheadagain。`Ofallothers!——ahatedrival!Atleast,hean'tahatedrival,'saidMr。Toots,stoppingshort,onsecondthoughts,andtakingawayhishand;`whatshouldIhatehimfor?No。Ifmyaffectionhasbeentrulydisinterested,CaptainGills,letmeproveitnow!'
Mr。Tootsshotbackabruptlyintotheparlour,andsaid,wringingWalterbythehand:
`How-de-do?Ihopeyoudidn'ttakeanycold。I——Ishallbeverygladifyou'llgivemethepleasureofyouracquaintance。Iwishyoumanyhappyreturnsoftheday。Uponmywordandhonour,'saidMr。Toots,warmingashebecamebetteracquaintedwithWalter'sfaceandfigure,`I'mverygladtoseeyou!'
`Thankyou,heartily,'saidWalter。`Icouldn'tdesireamoregenuineandgenialwelcome。'
`Couldn'tyou,though?'saidMr。Toots,stillshakinghishand。
`It'sverykindofyou。I'mmuchobligedtoyou。How-de-do?Ihopeyoulefteverybodyquitewelloverthe——thatis,uponthe——Imeanwhereveryoucamefromlast,youknow。'
Allthesegoodwishes,andbetterintentions,Walterrespondedtomanfully。
`CaptainGills,'saidMr。Toots,`Ishouldwishtobestrictlyhonourable;butItrustImaybeallowednow,toalludetoacertainsubjectthat'
`Aye,aye,mylad,'returnedtheCaptain。`Freely,freely。'
`Then,CaptainGills,'saidMr。Toots,`andLieutenantWalters,areyouawarethatthemostdreadfulcircumstanceshavebeenhappeningatMr。Dombey'shouse,andthatMissDombeyherselfhasleftherfather,who,inmyopinion,'saidMr。Toots,withgreatexcitement,`itaBrute,thatitwouldbeaflatterytocalla——amarblemonument,orabirdofprey,——andthatsheisnottobefound,andhasgonenooneknowswhere?'
`MayIaskhowyouheardthis?'inquiredWalter。
`LieutenantWalters,'saidMr。Toots,whohadarrivedatthatappellationbyaprocesspeculiartohimself;probablybyjumblinguphisChristiannamewiththeseafaringprofession,andsupposingsomerelationshipbetweenhimandtheCaptain,whichwouldextend,asamatterofcourse,totheirtitles;`LieutenantWalters,Icanhaveonobjectiontomakeastraightforwardreply。Thefactis,thatfeelingextremelyinterestedineverythingthatrelatestoMissDombey——notforanyselfishreason,LieutenantWalters,forIamwellawarethatthemostagreeablethingIcoulddoforallpartieswouldbetoputanendtomyexistence,whichcanonlyberegardedasaninconvenience——Ihavebeeninthehabitofbestowingatriflenowandthenuponafootman;amostrespectableyoungman,ofthenameofTowlinson,whohaslivedinthefamilysometime;andTowlinsoninformedme,yesterdayevening,thatthiswasthestateofthings。Sincewhich,CaptainGills——andLieutenantWalters——Ihavebeenperfectlyfrantic,andhavebeenlyingdownonthesofaallnight,theRuinyoubehold。'
`Mr。Toots,'saidWalter,`Iamhappytobeabletorelieveyourmind。Praycalmyourself。MissDombeyissafeandwell。'
`Sir!'criedMr。Toots,startingfromhischairandshakinghandswithhimanew,`thereliefissoexcessive,andunspeakable,thatifyouweretotellmenowthatMissDombeywasmarriedeven,Icouldsmile。Yes,CaptainGills,'saidMr。Toots,appealingtohim,`uponmysoulandbody,Ireallythink,whateverImightdotomyselfimmediatelyafterwards,thatIcouldsmile,Iamsorelieved。'
`Itwillbeagreaterreliefanddelightstill,tosuchagenerousmindasyours,'saidWalter,notatallslowinreturninghisgreeting,`tofindthatyoucanrenderservicetoMissDombey。CaptainCuttle,willyouhavethekindnesstotakeMr。Tootsupstairs?'
TheCaptainbeckonedtoMr。Toots,whofollowedhimwithabewilderedcountenance,and,ascendingtothetopofthehouse,wasintroduced,withoutawordofpreparationfromhisconductor,intoFlorence'snewretreat。
PoorMr。Toots'samazementandpleasureatsightofherweresuch,thattheycouldfindaventinnothingbutextravagance。Heranuptoher,seizedherhand,kissedit,droppedit,seizeditagain,fellupononeknee,shedtears,chuckled,andwasquiteregardlessofhisdangerofbeingpinnedbyDiogenes,who,inspiredbythebeliefthattherewassomethinghostiletohismistressinthesedemonstrations,workedroundandroundhim,asifonlyundecidedatwhatparticularpointtogoinfortheassault,butquiteresolvedtodohimafearfulmischief。
`OhDi,youbad,forgetfuldog!DearMr。Toots,Iamsorejoicedtoseeyou!'
`Thankee,'saidMr。Toots,`Iamprettywell,I'mmuchobligedtoyou,MissDombey。Ihopeallthefamilyarethesame。'
Mr。Tootssaidthiswithouttheleastnotionofwhathewastalkingabout,andsatdownonachair,staringatFlorencewiththeliveliestcontentionofdelightanddespairgoingoninhisfacethatanyfacecouldexhibit。
`CaptainGillsandLieutenantWaltershavementioned,MissDombey,'
gaspedMr。Toots,`thatIcandoyousomeservice。IfIcouldbyanymeanswashouttheremembranceofthatdayatBrighton,whenIconductedmyself——muchmorelikeaParricidethanapersonofindependentproperty,'saidMr。
Toots,withsevereself-accusation,`Ishouldsinkintothesilenttombwithagleamofjoy。'
`Pray,Mr。Toots,'saidFlorence,`donotwishmetoforgetanythinginouracquaintance。Inevercan,believeme。Youhavebeenfartookindandgoodtomealways。'
`MissDombey,'returnedMr。Toots,`yourconsiderationformyfeelingsisapartofyourangeliccharacter。Thankyouathousandtimes。
It'sofnoconsequenceatall。'
`Whatwethoughtofaskingyou,'saidFlorence,`is,whetheryourememberwhereSusan,whomyouweresokindastoaccompanytothecoach-officewhensheleftme,istobefound。'
`WhyIdonotcertainly,MissDombey,'saidMr。Toots,afteralittleconsideration,`remembertheexactnameoftheplacethatwasonthecoach;andIdorecollectthatshesaidshewasnotgoingtostopthere,butwasgoingfartheron。But,MissDombey,ifyourobjectistofindher,andtohaveherhere,myselfandtheChickenwillproduceherwitheverydispatchthatdevotiononmypart,andgreatintelligenceontheChicken's,caninsure。'
Mr。Tootswassomanifestlydelightedandrevivedbytheprospectofbeinguseful,andthedisinterestedsincerityofhisdevotionwassounquestionable,thatitwouldhavebeencrueltorefusehim。Florence,withaninstinctivedelicacy,forboretourgetheleastobstacle,thoughshedidnotforbeartoover-powerhimwiththanks;andMr。Tootsproudlytookthecommissionuponhimselfforimmediateexecution。
`MissDombey,'saidMr。Toots,touchingherprofferedhand,withapangofhopelesslovevisiblyshootingthroughhim,andflashingoutinhisface,`Good-bye!Allowmetotakethelibertyofsaying,thatyourmisfortunesmakemeperfectlywretched,andthatyoumaytrustme,nexttoCaptainGillshimself。Iamquiteaware,MissDombey,ofmyowndeficiencies——they'renotoftheleastconsequence,thankyou——butIamentirelytobereliedupon,Idoassureyou,MissDombey。'
WiththatMr。Tootscameoutoftheroom,againaccompaniedbytheCaptain,who,standingatalittledistance,holdinghishatunderhisarmandarranginghisscatteredlockswithhishook,hadbeenanotuninterestedwitnessofwhatpassed。Andwhenthedoorclosedbehindthem,thelightofMr。Toots'slifewasdarklycloudedagain。
`CaptainGills,'saidthatgentleman,stoppingnearthebottomofthestairs,andturninground,`totellyouthetruth,Iamnotinaframeofmindatthepresentmoment,inwhichIcouldseeLieutenantWalterswiththatentirelyfriendlyfeelingtowardshimthatIshouldwishtoharbourinmybreast。Wecannotalwayscommandourfeelings,CaptainGills,andIshouldtakeitasaparticularfavourifyou'dletmeoutattheprivatedoor。'
`Brother,'returnedtheCaptain,`youshallshapeyourowncourse。
Wotevercourseyoutake,isplainandseamanlike,I'mwerysure。'
`CaptainGills,'saidMr。Toots,`you'reextremelykind。Yourgoodopinionisaconsolationtome。Thereisonething,'saidMr。Toots,standinginthepassage,behindthehalf-openeddoor,`thatIhopeyou'llbearinmind,CaptainGills,andthatIshouldwishLieutenantWalterstobemadeacquaintedwith。Ihavequitecomeintomypropertynow,youknow,and——andIdon'tknowwhattodowithit。IfIcouldbeatallusefulinapecuniarypointofview,Ishouldglideintothesilenttombwitheaseandsmoothness。'
Mr。Tootssaidnomore,butslippedoutquietlyandshutthedooruponhimself,tocuttheCaptainofffromanyreply。
Florencethoughtofthisgoodcreature,longafterhehadlefther,withmingledemotionsofpainandpleasure。Hewassohonestandwarm-hearted,thattoseehimagainandbeassuredofhistruthtoherinherdistress,wasajoyandcomfortbeyondallprice;butforthatveryreason,itwassoaffectingtothinkthatshecausedhimamoment'sunhappiness,orruffled,byabreath,theharmlesscurrentofhislife,thathereyesfilledwithtears,andherbosomoverflowedwithpity。CaptainCuttle,inhisdifferentway,thoughtmuchofMr。Tootstoo;andsodidWalter;andwhentheeveningcame,andtheywereallsittingtogetherinFlorence'snewroom,Walterpraisedhiminamostimpassionedmanner,andtoldFlorencewhathehadsaidonleavingthehouse,witheverygracefulsetting-offinthewayofcommentandappreciationthathisownhonestyandsympathycouldsurrounditwith。
Mr。Tootsdidnotreturnuponthenextday,orthenext,orforseveraldays;andinthemeanwhileFlorence,withoutanynewalarm,livelikeaquietbirdinacage,atthetopoftheoldInstrument-maker'shouse。
ButFlorencedroopedandhungherheadmoreandmoreplainly,asthedayswenton;andtheexpressionthathadbeenseeninthefaceofthedeadchild,wasoftenturnedtotheskyfromherhighwindow,asifitsoughthisangelout,onthebrightshoreofwhichhehadspoken:lyingonhislittlebed。
Florencehadbeenweakanddelicateoflate,andtheagitationshehadundergonewasnotwithoutitsinfluencesonherhealth。Butitwasnobodilyillnessthataffectedhernow。Shewasdistressedinmind;
andthecauseofherdistresswasWalter。
Interestedinher,anxiousforher,proudandgladtoserveher,andshowingallthiswiththeenthusiasmandardourofhischaracter,Florencesawthatheavoidedher。Allthelongdaythrough,heseldomapproachedherroom。Ifsheaskedforhim,hecame,againforthemomentasearnestandasbrightassherememberedhimwhenshewasalostchildinthestaringstreets;buthesoonbecameconstrained——herquickaffectionwastoowatchfulnottoknowit——anduneasy,andsoonlefther。Unsought,henevercame,allday,betweenthemorningandthenight。Whentheeveningclosedin,hewasalwaysthere,andthatwasherhappiesttime,forthenshehalfbelievedthattheoldWalterofherchildhoodwasnotchanged。But,eventhen,sometrivialword,look,orcircumstancewouldshowherthattherewasanindefinabledivisionbetweenthemwhichcouldnotbepassed。
AndshecouldnotbutseethattheserevealingsofagreatalterationinWaltermanifestedthemselvesindespiteofhisutmosteffortstohidethem。Inhisconsiderationforher,shethought,andintheearnestnessofhisdesiretospareheranywoundfromhiskindhand,heresortedtoinnumerablelittleartificesanddisguises。SomuchthemoredidFlorencefeelthegreatnessofthealterationinhim;somuchtheoftenerdidsheweepatthisestrangementofherbrother。
ThegoodCaptain——heruntiring,tender,everzealousfriend——sawit,too,Florencethought,anditpainedhim。Hewaslesscheerfulandhopefulthanhehadbeenatfirst,andwouldsteallooksatherandWalter,byturns,whentheywereallthreetogetherofanevening,withquiteasadface。
Florenceresolved,atlast,tospeaktoWalter。Shebelievedsheknewnowwhatthecauseofhisestrangementwas,andshethoughtitwouldbearelieftoherfullheart,andwouldsethimmoreatease,ifshetoldhimshehadfounditout,andquitesubmittedtoit,anddidnotreproachhim。
ItwasonacertainSundayafternoon,thatFlorencetookthisresolution。ThefaithfulCaptain,inanamazingshirt-collar,wassittingbyher,readingwithhisspectacleson,andsheaskedhimwhereWalterwas。
`Ithinkhe'sdownbelow,myladylass,'returnedtheCaptain。
`Ishouldliketospeaktohim,'saidFlorence,risinghurriedlyasiftogodownstairs。
`I'llrousehimuphere,Beauty,'saidtheCaptain,`inatrice。'
ThereupontheCaptain,withmuchalacrity,shoulderedhisbook——forhemadeitapointofdutytoreadnonebutverylargebooksonaSunday,ashavingamorestaidappearance:andhadbargained,yearsago,foraprodigiousvolumeatabook-stall,fivelinesofwhichutterlyconfoundedhimatanytime,insomuchthathehadnotyetascertainedofwhatsubjectittreated——andwithdrew。Waltersoonappeared。
`CaptainCuttletellsme,MissDombey,'heeagerlybeganoncomingin——butstoppedwhenhesawherface。
`Youarenotsowellto-day。Youlookdistressed。Youhavebeenweeping。'
Hespokesokindly,andwithsuchaferventtremorinhisvoice,thatthetearsgushedintohereyesatthesoundofhiswords。
`Walter,'saidFlorence,gently,`Iamnotquitewell,andIhavebeenweeping。Iwanttospeaktoyou。'
Hesatdownoppositetoher,lookingatherbeautifulandinnocentface:andhisownturnedpale,andhislipstrembled。
`Yousaid,uponthenightwhenIknewthatyouweresaved——andoh!dearWalter,whatIfeltthatnight,andwhatIhoped!'——
Heputhistremblinghanduponthetablebetweenthem,andsatlookingather——
`thatIwaschanged。Iwassurprisedtohearyousayso,butIunderstand,now,thatIam。Don'tbeangrywithme,Walter。Iwastoomuchoverjoyedtothinkofit,then。'
Sheseemedachildtohimagain。Itwastheingenuous,confiding,lovingchildhesawandheard。Notthedearwoman,atwhosefeethewouldhavelaidtherichesoftheearth。
`YourememberthelasttimeIsawyou,Walter,beforeyouwentaway?'
Heputhishandintohisbreast,andtookoutalittlepurse。
`Ihavealwayswornitroundmyneck!IfIhadgonedowninthedeep,itwouldhavebeenwithmeatthebottomofthesea。'
`Andyouwillwearitstill,Walter,formyoldsake?'
`UntilIdie!'
Shelaidherhandonhis,asfearlesslyandsimply,asifnotadayhadintervenedsinceshegavehimthelittletokenofremembrance。
`Iamgladofthat。Ishallbealwaysgladtothinkso,Walter。
Doyourecollectthatathoughtofthischangeseemedtocomeintoourmindsatthesametimethatevening,whenweweretalkingtogether?'
`No!'heanswered,inawonderingtone。
`Yes,Walter。Ihadbeenthemeansofinjuringyourhopesandprospectseventhen。Ifearedtothinkso,then,butIknowitnow。Ifyouwereable,then,inyourgenerosity,tohidefrommethatyouknewittoo,youcannotdosonow,althoughyoutryasgenerouslyasbefore。
Youdo。Ithankyouforit,Walter,deeply,truly;butyoucannotsucceed。Youhavesufferedtoomuchinyourownhardships,andinthoseofyourdearestrelation,quitetooverlooktheinnocentcauseofalltheperilandafflictionthathasbefallenyou。Youcannotquiteforgetmeinthatcharacter,andwecanbebrotherandsisternolonger。But,dearWalter,donotthinkthatIcomplainofyouinthis。Imighthaveknownit——oughttohaveknownit——butforgotitinmyjoy。AllIhopeisthatyoumaythinkofmelessirksomelywhenthisfeelingisnomoreasecretone;andallIaskis,Walter,inthenameofthepoorchildwhowasyoursisteronce,thatyouwillnotstrugglewithyourself,andpainyourself,formysake,nowthatIknowall!'
Walterhadlookeduponherwhileshesaidthis,withafacesofullofwonderandamazement,thatithadroomfornothingelse。Nowhecaughtupthehandthattouchedhis,soentreatingly,andhelditbetweenhisown。
`Oh,MissDombey,'hesaid,`isitpossiblethatwhileIhavebeensufferingsomuch,instrivingwithmysenseofwhatisduetoyou,andmustberenderedtoyou,Ihavemadeyousufferwhatyourwordsdisclosetome?Never,never,beforeHeaven,haveIthoughtofyoubutasthesingle,bright,pure,blessedrecollectionofmyboyhoodandmyyouth。NeverhaveIfromthefirst,andnevershallItothelast,regardyourpartinmylife,butassomethingsacred,nevertobelightlythoughtof,nevertobeesteemedenough,never,untildeath,tobeforgotten。Againtoseeyoulook,andhearyouspeak,asyoudidonthatnightwhenweparted,ishappinesstomethattherearenowordstoutter;andtobelovedandtrustedasyourbrother,isthenextgreatgiftIcouldreceiveandprize!'
`Walter,'saidFlorence,lookingathimearnestly,butwithachangingface,`whatisthatwhichisduetome,andmustberenderedtome,atthesacrificeofallthis?'
`Respect,'saidWalter,inalowtone。`Reverence。'