Buttheveryintensityofhispurposebecamealmostasubstituteforactioninit。Whilehewasyetuninformedofthetraitor'sretreat,itservedtodiverthismindfromhisowncalamity,andtoentertainitwithanotherprospect。Thebrotherandsisterofhisfalsefavouritehadnosuchrelief;everythingintheirhistory,pastandpresent,gavehisdelinquencyamoreafflictingmeaningtothem。
Thesistermayhavesometimessadlythoughtthatifshehadremainedwithhim,thecompanionandfriendshehadbeenonce,hemighthaveescapedthecrimeintowhichhehadfallen。Ifsheeverthoughtso,itwasstillwithoutregretforwhatshehaddone,withouttheleastdoubtofherduty,withoutanypricingandenhancingofherself-devotion。Butwhenthispossibilitypresenteditselftotheerringandrepentantbrother,asitsometimesdid,itsmoteuponhisheartwithsuchakeen,reproachfultouchashecouldhardlybear。Noideaofretortuponhiscruelbrothercameintohismind。
Newaccusationofhimself,freshinwardlamentingsoverhisownunworthiness,andtheruininwhichitwasatoncehisconsolationandhisself-reproachthathedidnotstandalone,werethesolekindofreflectionstowhichthediscoverygaveriseinhim。
Itwasontheverysamedaywhoseeveningsetuponthelastchapter,andwhenMr。Dombey'sworldwasbusiestwiththeelopementofhiswife,thatthewindowoftheroominwhichthebrotherandsistersatattheirearlybreakfast,wasdarkenedbytheunexpectedshadowofamancomingtothelittleporch:whichmanwasPerchtheMessenger。
`I'vesteppedoverfromBallsPondataearlyhour,'saidMr。
Perch,confidentiallylookinginattheroomdoor,andstoppingonthemattowipehisshoesallround,whichhadnomuduponthem,`agreeabletomyinstructionslastnight。Theywas,tobesureandbringanotetoyou,Mr。Carker,beforeyouwentoutinthemorning。Ishouldhavebeenhereagoodhourandahalfago,'saidMr。Perch,meekly,`butforthestateofhealthMrs。P。,whoIthoughtIshouldhavelostinthenight,Idoassureyou,fivedistincttimes。'
`Isyourwifesoill?'askedHarriet。
`Why,yousee,'saidMr。Perch,firstturningroundtoshutthedoorcarefully,`shetakeswhathashappenedinourHousesomuchtoheart,Miss。Hernervesissoverydelicate,yousee,andsoonunstrung。Notbutwhatthestrongestnerveshadgoodneedtobeshook,I'msure。Youfeelitverymuchyourself,nodoubts。'
Harrietrepressedasigh,andglancedatherbrother。
`I'msureIfeelitmyself,inmyhumbleway,'Mr。Perchwentontosay,withashakeofhishead,`inamannerIcouldn'thavebelievedifIhadn'tbeencalledupontoundergo。Ithasalmosttheeffectofdrinkuponme。IliterallyfeelseverymorningasifIhadbeentakingmorethanwasgoodformeover-night。'
Mr。Perch'sappearancecorroboratedthisrecitalofhissymptoms。
Therewasanairoffeverishlassitudeaboutit,thatseemedreferabletodrams;and,which,infact,mightnodoubthavebeentracedtothosenumerousdiscoveriesofhimselfinthebarsofpublic-houses,beingtreatedandquestioned,whichhewasinthedailyhabitofmaking。
`ThereforeIcanjudge,'saidMr。Perch,shakinghisheadagain,andspeakinginasilverymurmur,`ofthefeelingsofsuchasisatallpeculiarlysitiwatedinthismostpainfulrewelation。'
HereMr。Perchwaitedtobeconfidedin;andreceivingnoconfidence,coughedbehindhishand。Thisleadingtonothing,hecoughedbehindhishat;andthatleadingtonothing,heputhishatonthegroundandsoughtinhisbreastpocketfortheletter。
`IfIrightlyrecollect,therewasnoanswer,'saidMr。Perch,withanaffablesmile;`butperhapsyou'llbesogoodascastyoureyeoverit,Sir。'
JohnCarkerbroketheseal,whichwasMr。Dombey's,andpossessinghimselfofthecontents,whichwereverybrief,replied,`No。Noanswerisexpected。'
`ThenIshallwishyougoodmorning,Miss,'saidPerch,takingasteptowardthedoor,`andhoping,I'msure,thatyou'llnotpermityourselftobemorereducedinmindthanyoucanhelp,bythelatepainfulrewelation。
ThePapers,'saidMr。Perch,takingtwostepsbackagain,andcomprehensivelyaddressingboththebrotherandsisterinawhisperofincreasedmystery,`ismoreeagerfornewsofitthanyou'dsupposepossible。OneoftheSundayones,inabluecloakandawhitehat,thathadpreviouslyofferedfortobribeme——needIsaywithwhatsuccess?——wasdodgingaboutourcourtlastnightaslateastwentyminutesaftereighto'clock。Iseehimmyself,withhiseyeatthecounting-housekeyhole,whichbeingpatentisimpervious。
Anotherone,'saidMr。Perch,`withmilintaryfrogs,isintheparlouroftheKing'sArmsalltheblessedday。Ihappened,lastweek,toletalittleobserwationfallthere,andnextmorning,whichwasSunday,Iseeitworkedupinprint,inamostsurprisingmanner。'
Mr。Perchresortedtohisbreastpocket,asiftoproducetheparagraph,butreceivingnoencouragement,pulledouthisbeavergloves,pickeduphishat,andtookhisleave;andbeforeitwashighnoon,Mr。
PerchhadrelatedtoseveralselectaudiencesattheKing'sArmsandelsewhere,howMissCarker,burstingintotears,hadcaughthimbybothhands,andsaid,`Oh!deardearPerch,thesightofyouisallthecomfortIhave'left!'andhowMr。JohnCarkerandsaid,inanawfulvoice,`Perch,I
disownhim。Neverletmehearhimmentionedasabrothermore!'
`DearJohn,'saidHarriet,whentheywereleftalone,andhadremainedsilentforsomefewmoments。`Therearebadtidingsinthatletter。'
`Yes。Butnothingunexpected,'hereplied。`Isawthewriteryesterday。'
`Thewriter?'
`Mr。Dombey。Hepassedtwicethroughthecounting-housewhileIwasthere。Ihadbeenabletoavoidhimbefore,butofcoursecouldnothopetodothatlong。Iknowhownaturalitwasthatheshouldregardmypresenceassomethingoffensive;Ifeltitmustbeso,myself。'
`Hedidnotsayso?'
`No;hesaidnothing:butIsawthathisglancerestedonmeforamoment,andIwaspreparedforwhatwouldhappen——forwhathashappened。Iamdismissed!'
Shelookedaslittleshockedandashopefulasshecould,butitwasdistressingnews,formanyreasons。
`“Ineednottellyou,“'saidJohnCarker,readingtheletter,`“whyyournamewouldhenceforthhaveanunnaturalsound,inhoweverremoteaconnexionwithmine,orwhythedailysightofanyonewhobearsit,wouldbeunendurabletome。Ihavetonotifythecessationofallengagementsbetweenus,fromthisdate,andtorequestthatnorenewalofanycommunicationwithme,ormyestablishment,beeverattemptedbyyou。“——Enclosedisanequivalentinmoneytoagenerouslylongnotice,andthisismydischarge。
Heavenknows,Harriet,itisalenientandconsiderateone,whenwerememberall!'
`Ifitbelenientandconsideratetopunishyouatall,John,forthemisdeedofanother,'sherepliedgently,`yes'。
`Wehavebeenanill-omenedracetohim,'saidJohnCarker。`Hehasreasontoshrinkfromthesoundofourname,andtothinkthatthereissomethingcursedandwickedinourblood。Ishouldalmostthinkittoo,Harriet,butforyou。'
`Brother,don'tspeaklikethis。Ifyouhaveanyspecialreason,asyousayyouhave,andthinkyouhave——thoughIsay,No!——toloveme,sparemethehearingofsuchwildmadwords!'
Hecoveredhisfacewithbothhishands;butsoonpermittedher,comingnearhim,totakeoneinherown。
`Aftersomanyyears,thispartingisamelancholything,Iknow,'
saidhissister,`andthecauseofitisdreadfultousboth。Wehavetolive,too,andmustlookaboutusforthemeans。Well,well!Wecandoso,undismayed。Itisourpride,notourtrouble,tostrive,John,andtostrivetogether!'
Asmileplayedonherlips,asshekissedhischeek,andentreatedhimtobeofgoodcheer。
`Oh,dearestsister!Tied,ofyourownnoblewill,toaruinedman!whosereputationisblighted;whohasnofriendhimself,andhasdriveneveryfriendofyoursaway!'
`John!'shelaidherhandhastilyuponhislips,`formysake!Inremembranceofourlongcompanionship!'Hewassilent。`Nowletmetellyou,dear,'quietlysittingbyhisside,`Ihave,asyouhave,expectedthis;andwhenIhavebeenthinkingofit,andfearingthatitwouldhappen,andpreparingmyselfforit,aswellasIcould,Ihaveresolvedtotellyou,ifitshouldbeso,thatIhavekeptasecretfromyou,andthatwehaveafriend。'
`What'sourfriend'sname,Harriet?'heansweredwithasorrowfulsmile。
`Indeed,Idon'tknow,butheoncemadeaveryearnestprotestationtomeofhisfriendshipandhiswishtoserveus:andtothisdayIbelievehim。'
`Harriet!'exclaimedherwonderingbrother,`wheredoesthisfriendlive?'
`NeitherdoIknowthat,'shereturned。`Butheknowsusboth,andourhistory——allourlittlehistory,John。Thatisthereasonwhy,athisownsuggestion,Ihavekeptthesecretofhiscominghere,fromyou,lesthisacquaintancewithitshoulddistressyou。'
`Here!Hashebeenhere,Harriet?'
`Here,inthisroom。Once。'
`Whatkindofman?'
`Notyoung。“Grey-headed,“ashesaid,“andfastgrowinggreyer。“
Butgenerous,andfrank,andgood,Iamsure。'
`Andonlyseenonce,Harriet?'
`Inthisroomonlyonce,'saidhissister,withtheslightestandmosttransientglowuponhercheek;`butwhenhere,heentreatedmetosufferhimtoseemeonceaweekashepassedby,intokenofourbeingwell,andcontinuingtoneednothingathishands。ForItoldhim,whenheprofferedusanyservicehecouldrender——whichwastheobjectofhisvisit——thatweneedednothing。'
`Andonceaweek'
`Onceeveryweeksincethen,andalwaysonthesameday,andatthesamehour,hehasgonepast;alwaysonfoot;alwaysgoinginthesamedirection——towardsLondon;andneverpausinglongerthantobowtome,andwavehishandcheerfully,asakindguardianmight。Hemadethatpromisewhenheproposedthesecuriousinterviews,andhaskeptitsofaithfullyandpleasantly,thatifIeverfeltanytriflinguneasinessabouttheminthebeginningwhichIdon'tthinkIdid,John;hismannerwassoplainandtrueitverysoonvanished,andleftmequitegladwhenthedaywascoming。LastMonday——thefirstsincethisterribleevent——hedidnotgoby;andIhavewonderedwhetherhisabsencecanhavebeeninanywayconnectedwithwhathashappened。'
`How?'inquiredherbrother。
`Idon'tknowhow。Ihaveonlyspeculatedonthecoincidence;
Ihavenottriedtoaccountforit。Ifeelsurehewillreturn。Whenhedoes,dearJohn,letmetellhimthatIhaveatlastspokentoyou,andletmebringyoutogether。Hewillcertainlyhelpustoanewlivelihood。
Hisentreatywasthathemightdosomethingtosmoothmylifeandyours;
andIgavehimmypromisethatifweeverwantedafriend,Iwouldrememberhim。Thenhisnamewastobenosecret。'
`Harriet,'saidherbrother,whohadlistenedwithcloseattention,`describehisgentlemantome。Isurelyoughttoknowonewhoknowsmesowell。'
Hissisterpainted,asvividlyasshecould,thefeatures,stature,anddressofhervisitor;butJohnCarker,eitherfromhavingnoknowledgeoftheoriginal,orfromsomefaultinherdescription,orfromsomeabstractionofhisthoughtsashewalkedtoandfro,pondering,couldnotrecognisetheportraitshepresentedtohim。
However,itwasagreedbetweenthemthatheshouldseetheoriginalwhenhenextappeared。Thisconcluded,thesisterappliedherself,withalessanxiousbreast,toherdomesticoccupations;andthegrey-hairedman,lateJuniorofDombey's,devotedthefirstdayofhisunwontedlibertytoworkinginthegarden。
Itwasquitelateatnight,andthebrotherwasreadingaloudwhilethesisterpliedherneedle,whentheywereinterruptedbyaknockingatthedoor。Intheatmosphereofvagueanxietyanddreadthatloweredabouttheminconnexionwiththeirfugitivebrother,thissound,unusualthere,becamealmostalarming。Thebrothergoingtothedoor,thesistersatandlistenedtimidly。Someonespoketohim,andherepliedandseemedsurprised;andafterafewwords,thetwoapproachedtogether。
`Harriet,'saidherbrother,lightingintheirlatevisitor,andspeakinginalowvoice,`Mr。Morfin——thegentlemansolonginDombey'sHousewithJames。'
Hissisterstartedback,asifaghosthadentered。Inthedoorwaystoodtheunknownfriend,withthedarkhairsprinkledwithgrey,theruddyface,thebroadclearbrow,andhazeleyes,whosesecretshehadkeptsolong!
`John!'shesaid,half-breathless。`ItisthegentlemanItoldyouof,to-day!'
`Thegentleman,MissHarriet,'saidthevisitor,comingin——forhehadstoppedamomentinthedoorway——`isgreatlyrelievedtohearyousaythat:hehasbeendevisingwaysandmeans,allthewayhere,ofexplaininghimself,andhasbeensatisfiedwithnone。Mr。John,Iamnotquiteastrangerhere。Youwerestrickenwithastonishmentwhenyousawmeatyourdoorjustnow。Iobserveyouaremoreastonishedatpresent。Well!That'sreasonableenoughunderexistingcircumstances。Ifwewerenotsuchcreaturesofhabitasweare,weshouldn'thavereasontobeastonishedhalfsooften。'
Bythistime,hehadgreetedHarrietwiththatagreeableminglingofcordialityandrespectwhichsherecollectedsowell,andhadsatdownnearher,pulledoffhisgloves,andthrownthemintohishatuponthetable。
`There'snothingastonishing,'hesaid,`inmyhavingconceivedadesiretoseeyoursister,Mr。John,orinmyhavinggratifieditinmyownway。Astotheregularityofmyvisitssincewhichshemayhavementionedtoyou,thereisnothingextraordinaryinthat。Theysoongrewintoahabit;andwearecreaturesofhabit——creaturesofhabit!'
Puttinghishandsintohispockets,andleaningbackinhischair,helookedatthebrotherandsisterasifitwereinterestingtohimtoseethemtogether;andwentontosay,withakingofirritablethoughtfulness:
`It'sthissamehabitthatconfirmssomeofus,whoarecapableofbetterthings,inLucifer'sownprideandstubbornness——thatconfirmsanddeepensothersofusinvillany——moreofusinindifference——thathardensusfromdaytoday,accordingtothetemperofourclay,likeimages,andleavesusassusceptibleasimagestonewimpressionsandconvictions。Youshalljudgeofitsinfluenceonme,John。FormoreyearsthanIneedname,I
hadmysmall,andexactlydefinedshare,inthemanagementofDombey'sHouse,andsawyourbrotherwhohasprovedhimselfascoundrel!Yoursisterwillforgivemybeingobligedtomentionitextendingandextendinghisinfluence,untilthebusinessanditsownerwerehisfootball;andsawyoutoilingatyourobscuredeskeveryday;andwasquitecontenttobeaslittletroubledasImightbe,outofmyownstripofduty,andtoleteverythingaboutmegoon,daybyday,unquestioned,likeagreatmachine——thatwasitshabitandmine——andtotakeitallforgranted,andconsideritallright。MyWednesdaynightscameregularlyround,ourquartettepartiescameregularlyoff,myvioloncellowasingoodtune,andtherewasnothingwronginmyworld——orifanythingnotmuch——orlittleormuch,itwasnoaffairofmine。'
`IcananswerforyourbeingmorerespectedandbelovedduringallthattimethananybodyintheHouse,Sir,'saidJohnCarker。
`Pooh!Good-naturedandeasyenough,Idaresay,'returnedtheother,`ahabitIhad。ItsuitedtheManager;itsuitedthemanhemanaged:
itsuitedmebestofall。Ididwhatwasallottedtometodo,madenocourttoeitherofthem,andwasgladtooccupyastationinwhichnonewasrequired。SoIshouldhavegoneontillnow,butthatmyroomhadathinwall。YoucantellyoursisterthatitwasdividedfromtheManager'sroombyawainscotpartition。'
`Theywereadjoiningrooms;hadbeenone,perhaps,originally;
andwereseparated,asMr。Morfinsays,'saidherbrother,lookingbacktohimfortheresumptionofhisexplanation。
`Ihavewhistled,hummedtunes,goneaccuratelythroughthewholeofBeethoven'sSonatainB,tolethimknowthatIwaswithinhearing,'
saidMr。Morfin;`butheneverheededme。IthappenedseldomenoughthatIwaswithinhearingofanythingofaprivatenature,certainly。ButwhenIwas,andcouldn'totherwiseavoidknowingsomethingofit,Iwalkedout。
Iwalkedoutonce,John,duringaconversationbetweentwobrothers,towhich,inthebeginning,youngWalterGaywasaparty。ButIoverheardsomeofitbeforeIlefttheroom。Yourememberitsufficiently,perhaps,totellyoursisterwhatitsnaturewas?'
`Itreferred,Harriet,'saidherbrotherinalowvoice,`tothepast,andtoourrelativepositionsintheHouse。'
`Itsmatterwasnotnewtome,butwaspresentedinanewaspect。
Itshookmeinmyhabit——thehabitofnine-tenthsoftheworld——ofbelievingthatallwasrightaboutme,becauseIwasusedtoit,'saidtheirvisitor;
`andinducedmetorecallthehistoryofthetwobrothers,andtoponderonit。IthinkitwasalmostthefirsttimeinmylifewhenIfellintothistrainofreflection——howwillmanythingsthatarefamiliar,andquitemattersofcoursetousnow,lookwhenwecometoseethemfromthatnewanddistantpointofviewwhichwemustalltakeup,onedayorother?
Iwassomethinglessgoodnatured,asthephrasegoes,afterthatmorning,lesseasyandcomplacentaltogether。'
Hesatforaminuteorso,drummingwithonehandonthetable;
andresumedinahurry,asifhewereanxioustogetridofhisconfession。
`BeforeIknewwhattodo,orwhetherIcoulddoanything,therewasasecondconversationbetweenthesametwobrothers,inwhichtheirsisterwasmentioned。Ihadnoscruplesofconscienceinsufferingallthewaifsandstraysofthatconversationtofloattomeasfreelyastheywould。Iconsideredthemminebyright。Afterthat,Icameheretoseethesisterformyself。ThefirsttimeIstoppedatthegardengate,Imadeapretextofinquiringintothecharacterofapoorneighbour;butIwanderedoutofthattract,andIthinkMissHarrietmistrustedme。ThesecondtimeIaskedleavetocomein;camein;andsaidwhatIwishedtosay。YoursistershowedmereasonswhichIdarednotdispute,forreceivingnoassistancefrommethen;butIestablishedameansofcommunicationbetweenus,whichremainedunbrokenuntilwithinthesefewdays,whenIwasprevented,byimportantmattersthathavelatelydevolveduponme,frommaintainingthem。'
`HowlittleIhavesuspectedthis,'saidJohnCarker,`whenI
haveseenyoueveryday,Sir!IfHarrietcouldhaveguessedyourname——'
`Why,totellyouthetruth,John,'interposedthevisitor,`I
keptittomyselffortworeasons。Idon'tknowthatthefirstmighthavebeenbindingalone;butonehasnobusinesstotakecreditforgoodintentions,andImadeupmymind,atallevents,nottodisclosemyselfuntilIshouldbeabletodoyousomerealserviceorother。Mysecondreasonwas,thatIalwayshopedtheremightbesomelingeringpossibilityofyourbrother'srelentingtowardsyouboth;andinthatcase,Ifeltthatwheretherewasthechanceofamanofhissuspicious,watchfulcharacter,discoveringthatyouhadbeensecretlybefriendedbyme,therewasthechanceofanewandfatalcauseofdivision。Iresolved,tobesure,attheriskofturninghisdispleasureagainstmyself——whichwouldhavebeennomatter——towatchmyopportunityofservingyouwiththeheadoftheHouse;butthedistractionsofdeath,courtship,marriage,anddomesticunhappiness,haveleftusnoheadbutyourbrotherforthislong,longtime。Anditwouldhavebeenbetterforus,'saidthevisitor,droppinghisvoice,`tohavebeenalifelesstrunk。'
Heseemedconsciousthattheselatterwordshadescapedhimagainsthiswill,andstretchingoutahandtothebrother,andahandtothesister,continued:
`AllIcoulddesiretosay,andmore,Ihavenowsaid。AllImeangoesbeyondwords,asIhopeyouunderstandandbelieve。Thetimehascome,John——thoughmostunfortunatelyandunhappilycome——whenImayhelpyouwithoutinterferingwiththatredeemingstruggle,whichhaslastedthroughsomanyyears;sinceyouweredischargedfromitto-daybynoactofyourown。Itislate;Ineedsaynomoreto-night。Youwillguardthetreasureyouhavehere,withoutadviceorreminderfromme。'
Withthesewordsherosetogo。
`Butgoyoufirst,John,'hesaidgood-humouredly,`withalight,withoutsayingwhatyouwanttosay,whateverthatmaybe;'JohnCarker'sheartwasfull,andhewouldhaverelieveditinspeech,ifhecould;`andletmehaveawordwithyoursister。Wehavetalkedalonebefore,andinthisroomtoo;thoughitlooksmorenaturalwithyouhere。'
Followinghimoutwithhiseyes,heturnedkindlytoHarriet,andsaidinalowervoice,andwithanalteredandgravermanner:
`Youwishtoaskmesomethingofthemanwhosesisteritisyourmisfortunetobe。'
`Idreadtoask,'saidHarriet。
`Youhavelookedsoearnestlyatmemorethanonce,'rejoinedthevisitor,`thatIthinkIcandivineyourquestion。Hashetakenmoney?
Isitthat?'
`Yes。'
`Hehasnot。'
`IthankHeaven!'saidHarriet。`ForthesakeofJohn。'
`Thathehasabusedhistrustinmanyways,'saidMr。Morfin;
`thathehasoftenerdealtandspeculatedtoadvantageforhimself,thanfortheHouseherepresented;thathehasledtheHouseon,toprodigiousventures,oftenresultinginenormouslosses;thathehasalwayspamperedthevanityandambitionofhisemployer,whenitwashisdutytohaveheldthemincheck,andshown,asitwasinhispowertodo,towhattheytendedhereorother;willnot,perhaps,surpriseyounow。Undertakingshavebeenenteredon,toswellthereputationofthehouseforvastresources,andtoexhibititinmagnificentcontrasttoothermerchants'houses,ofwhichitrequiresasteadyheadtocontemplatethepossibly——afewdisastrouschangesofaffairsmightrenderthemtheprobably——ruinousconsequences。
InthemidstofthemanytransactionsoftheHouse,inmostpartsoftheworld:agreatlabyrinthofwhichonlyhehasheldtheclue:hehashadtheopportunity,andheseemstohaveusedit,ofkeepingthevariousresultsafloat,whenascertained,andsubstitutingestimatesandgeneralitiesforfacts。Butlatterly——youfollowme,MissHarriet?'
`Perfectly,perfectly,'sheanswered,withherfrightenedfacefixedonhis。`Praytellmealltheworstatonce。'
`Latterly,heappearstohavedevotedthegreatestpainstomakingtheseresultssoplainandclear,thatreferencetotheprivatebooksenablesonetograspthem,numerousandvaryingastheyare,withextraordinaryease。Asifhehadresolvedtoshowhisemployeratonebroadviewwhathasbeenbroughtuponhimbyministrationtohisrulingpassion!Thatithasbeenhisconstantpracticetoministertothatpassionbasely,andtoflatteritcorruptly,isindubitable。Inthat,hiscriminality,asitisconnectedwiththeaffairsoftheHouse,chieflyconsists。'
`Oneotherwordbeforeyouleaveme,dearSir,'saidHarriet。
`Thereisnodangerinallthis?'
`Howdanger?'hereturned,withalittlehesitation。
`TothecreditoftheHouse?'
`Icannothelpansweringyouplainly,andtrustingyoucompletely,'
saidMr。Morfin,afteramoment'ssurveyofherface。
`Youmay。Indeedyoumay!'
`IamsureImay。DangertotheHouse'scredit?No;none。Theremaybedifficulty,greaterorlessdifficulty,butnodanger,unless——unless,indeed——theheadoftheHouse,unabletobringhismindtothereductionofitsenterprises,andpositivelyrefusingtobelievethatitis,orcanbe,inanypositionbutthepositioninwhichhehasalwaysrepresentedittohimself,shouldurgeitbeyonditsstrength。Thenitwouldtotter。'
`Butthereisnoapprehensionofthat?'saidHarriet。
`Thereshallbenohalf-confidence,'hereplied,shakingherhand,`betweenus。Mr。Dombeyisunapproachablebyanyone,andhisstateofmindishaughty,rash,unreasonable,andungovernable,now。Butheisdisturbedandagitatednowbeyondallcommonbounds,anditmaypass。Younowknowall,bothworstandbest。Nomoreto-night,andgoodnight!'
Withthathekissedherhand,and,passingouttothedoorwhereherbrotherstoodawaitinghiscoming,puthimcheerfullyasidewhenheessayedtospeak;toldhimthat,astheywouldseeeachothersoonandoften,hemightspeakatanothertime,ifhewould,buttherewasnoleisureforitthen;andwentawayataroundpace,inorderthatnowordofgratitudemightfollowhim。
Thebrotherandsistersatconversingbythefireside,untilitwasalmostday;madesleeplessbythisglimpseofthenewworldthatopenedbeforethem,andfeelingliketwopeopleshipwreckedlongago,uponasolitarycoast,towhomashiphadcomeatlast,whentheywereoldinresignation,andhadlostallthoughtofanyotherhome。Butanotheranddifferentkindofdisquietudekeptthemwakingtoo。Thedarknessoutofwhichthislighthadbrokenonthemgatheredaround;andtheshadowoftheirguiltybrotherwasinthehousewherehisfoothadnevertrod。
Norwasittobedrivenout,nordiditfadebeforethesun。Nextmorningitwasthere;atnoon;atnight。Darkestandmostdistinctatnight,asisnowtobetold。
JohnCarkerhadgoneout,inpursuanceofaletterofappointmentfromtheirfriend,andHarrietwasleftinthehousealone。Shehadbeenalonesomehouses。Adull,graveevening,andadeepeningtwilight,werenotfavourabletotheremovaloftheoppressiononherspirits。Theideaofthisbrother,longunseenandunknown,flittedaboutherinfrightfulshapes。Hewasdead,dying,callingtoher,staringather,frowningonher。Thepicturesinhermindweresoobtrusiveandexactthat,asthetwilightdeepened,shedreadedtoraiseherheadandlookatthedarkcornersoftheroom,lesthiswraith,theoffspringofherexcitedimagination,shouldbewaitingthere,tostartleher。Onceshehadsuchafancyofhisbeinginthenextroom,hiding——thoughsheknewquitewellwhatadistemperedfancyitwas,andhadnobeliefinit——thatsheforcedherselftogothere,forherownconviction。Butinvain。Theroomresumeditsshadowyterrors,themomentsheleftit;andshehadnomorepowertodivestherselfofthesevagueimpressionsofdread,thaniftheyhadbeenstonegiants,rootedinthesolidearth。
Itwasalmostdark,andshewassittingnearthewindow,withherheaduponherhand,lookingdown,when,sensibleofasuddenincreaseinthegloomoftheapartment,sheraisedhereyes,andutteredaninvoluntarycry。Closetotheglass,apalescaredfacegazedin;vacantly,foraninstant,assearchingforanobject;thentheeyesrestedonherself,andlightedup。
`Letmein!Letmein!Iwanttospeaktoyou!'andthehandrattledontheglass。
Sherecognisedimmediatelythewomanwiththelongdarkhair,towhomshehadgivenwarmth,food,andshelter,onewetnight。Naturallyafraidofher,rememberingherviolentbehaviour,Harriet,retreatingalittlefromthewindow,stoodundecidedandalarmed。
`Letmein!Letmespeaktoyou!Iamthankful——quiet——humble——anythingyoulike。Butletmespeaktoyou。'
Thevehementmanneroftheentreaty,theearnestexpressionoftheface,thetremblingofthetwohandsthatwereraisedimploringly,acertaindreadandterrorinthevoiceakintoherownconditionatthemoment,prevailedwithHarriet。Shehastenedtothedoorandopenedit。
`MayIcomein,orshallIspeakhere?'saidthewoman,catchingatherhand。
`Whatisitthatyouwant?Whatisitthatyouhavetosay?'
`Notmuch,butletmesayitout,orIshallneversayit。Iamtemptednowtogoaway。Thereseemtobehandsdraggingmefromthedoor。
Letmecomein,ifyoucantrustmeforthisonce!'
Herenergyagainprevailed,andtheypassedintothefirelightofthelittlekitchen,whereshehadbeforesat,andate,anddriedherclothes。
`Sitthere,'saidAlice,kneelingdownbesideher,`andlookatme。Yourememberme?'
`Ido。'
`YourememberwhatItoldyouIhadbeen,andwhereIcamefrom,raggedandlame,withthefiercewindandweatherbeatingonmyhead?'
`Yes。'
`YouknowhowIcamebackthatnight,andthrewyourmoneyinthedirt,andcursedyouandyourrace。Now,seemehere,uponmyknees。
AmIlessearnestnow,thanIwasthen?'
`Ifwhatyouask,'saidHarriet,gently,`isforgiveness——'
`Butit'snot!'returnedtheother,withaproud,fiercelook。
`WhatIaskistobebelieved。NowyoushalljudgeifIamworthyofbelief,bothasIwas,andasIam。'
Stilluponherknees,andwithhereyesuponthefire,andthefireshiningonherruinedbeautyandherwildblackhair,onelongtreesofwhichshepulledoverhershoulder,andwoundaboutherhand,andthoughtfullybitandtorewhilespeaking,shewenton:
`WhenIwasyoungandpretty,andthis,'pluckingcontemptuouslyatthehairsheheld,`wasonlyhandleddelicately,andcouldn'tbeadmiredenough,mymother,whohadnotbeenverymindfulofmeasachild,foundoutmymerits,andwasfondofme,andproudofme。Shewascovetousandpoor,andthoughttomakeasortofpropertyofme。Nogreatladyeverthoughtthatofadaughteryet,I'msure,oractedasifshedid——it'sneverdone,weallknow——andthatshowsthattheonlyinstancesofmothersbringinguptheirdaughterswrong,andevilcomingofit,areamongsuchmiserablefolksasus。'
Lookingatthefire,asifshewereforgetful,forthemoment,ofhavinganyauditor,shecontinuedinadreamywayasshewoundthelongtressofhairtightroundandroundherhand。
`Whatcameofthat,Ineedn'tsay。Wretchedmarriagesdon'tcomeofsuchthings,inourdegree;onlywretchednessandruin。Wretchednessandruincameonme——cameonme。'
Raisinghereyesswiftlyfromtheirmoodygazeuponthefire,toHarriet'sface,shesaid:
`Iamwastingtime,andthereisnonetospare;yetifIhadn'tthoughtofall,Ishouldn'tbeherenow。Wretchednessandruincameonme,Isay。Iwasmadeashort-livedtoy,andflungasidemorecruellyandcarelesslythanevensuchthingsare。Bywhosehanddoyouthink?'
`Whydoyouaskme?'saidHarriet。
`Whydoyoutremble?'rejoinedAlice,withaneagerlook。`HisusagemadeaDevilofme。Isunkinwretchednessandruin,lowerandloweryet。Iwasconcernedinarobbery——ineverypartofitbutthegains——andwasfoundout,andsenttobetried,withoutafriend,withoutapenny。
ThoughIwasbutagirl,IwouldhavegonetoDeath,soonerthanaskhimforaword,ifawordofhiscouldhavesavedme。Iwould!Toanydeaththatcouldhavebeeninvented。Butmymother,covetousalways,senttohiminmyname,toldthetruestoryofmycase,andhumblyprayedandpetitionedforasmalllastgift——fornotsomanypoundsasIhavefingersonthishand。Whowasit,doyouthink,whosnappedhisfingersatmeinmymisery,lying,ashebelieved,athisfeet,andleftmewithouteventhispoorsignofremembrance;wellsatisfiedthatIshouldbesentabroad,beyondthereachoffurthertroubletohim,andshoulddie,androtthere?Whowasthis,doyouthink?'
`Whydoyouaskme?'repeatedHarriet。
`Whydoyoutremble?'saidAlice,layingherhanduponherarm,andlookinginherface,`butthattheanswerisonyourlips!ItwasyourbrotherJames。'
Harriettrembledmoreandmore,butdidnotaverthereyesfromtheeagerlookthatrestedonthem。
`WhenIknewyouwerehissister——whichwasonthatnight——Icameback,wearyandlame,tospurnyourgift。IfeltthatnightasifIcouldhavetravelled,wearyandlame,overthewholeworld,tostabhim,ifI
couldhavefoundhiminalonelyplacewithnoonenear。DoyoubelievethatIwasearnestinallthat?'
`Ido!GoodHeaven,whyareyoucomeagain?'
`Sincethen,'saidAlice,withthesamegraspofherarm,andthesamelookinherface,`Ihaveseenhim!Ihavefollowedhimwithmyeyes,inthebroadday。Ifanysparkofmyresentmentslumberedinmybosom,itsprungintoablazewhenmyeyesrestedonhim。Youknowhehaswrongedaproudman,andmadehimhisdeadlyenemy。WhatifIhadgiveninformationofhimtothatman?'
`Information!'repeatedHarriet。
`WhatifIhadfoundoutonewhoknewyourbrother'ssecret;whoknewthemannerofhisflight;whoknewwhereheandthecompanionofhisflightweregone?WhatifIhadmadehimutterallhisknowledge,wordbyword,beforehisenemy,concealedtohearit?WhatifIhadsatbyatthetime,lookingintothisenemy'sface,andseeingitchangetillitwasscarcelyhuman?WhatifIhadseenhimrushaway,mad,inpursuit?
WhatifIknew,now,thathewasonhisroad,morefiendthanman,andmust,insomanyhours,comeupwithhim?'
`Removeyourhand!'saidHarriet,recoiling。`Goaway!Yourtouchisdreadfultome!'
`Ihavedonethis,'pursuedtheother,withhereagerlook,regardlessoftheinterruption。`DoIspeakandlookasifIreallyhad?DoyoubelievewhatIamsaying?'
`IfearImust。Letmyarmgo!'
`Notyet。Amomentmore。Youcanthinkwhatmyrevengefulpurposemusthavebeen,tolastsolong,andurgemetodothis?'
`Dreadful!'saidHarriet。
`Thenwhenyouseemenow,'saidAlicehoarsely,`hereagain,kneelingquietlyontheground,withmytouchuponyourarm,withmyeyesuponyourface,youmaybelievethatthereisnocommonearnestnessinwhatIsay,andthatnocommonstrugglehasbeenbattlinginmybreast。Iamashamedtospeakthewords,butIrelent。Idespisemyself;Ihavefoughtwithmyselfallday,andalllastnight;butIrelenttowardshimwithoutreason,andwishtorepairwhatIhavedone,ifitispossible。Iwouldn'thavethemcometogetherwhilehispursuerissoblindandheadlong。Ifyouhadseenhimashewentoutlastnight,youwouldknowthedangerbetter。'
`Howshallitbeprevented?'WhatcanIdo?'criedHarriet。
`Allnightlong,'pursuedtheother,hurriedly,`Ihaddreamsofhim——andyetIdidn'tsleep——inhisblood。Allday,Ihavehadhimnearme。'
`WhatcanIdo?'criedHarriet,shudderingatthesewords。
`Ifthereisanyonewho'llwrite,orsend,orgotohim,letthemlosenotime。HeisatDijon。Doyouknowthename,andwhereitis?'
`Yes。'
`Warnhimthatthemanhehasmadehisenemyisinafrenzy,andthathedoesn'tknowhimifhemakeslightofhisapproach。Tellhimthatheisontheroad——Iknowheis!——andhurryingon。Urgehimtogetawaywhilethereistime——ifthereistime——andnottomeethimyet。
Amonthorsowillmakeyearsofdifference。Letthemnotencounter,throughme。Anywherebutthere!Anytimebutnow!Lethisfoefollowhim,andfindhimforhimself,butnotthroughme!Thereisenoughuponmyheadwithout。'
Thefireceasedtobereflectedinherjetblackhair,upliftedface,andeagereyes;herhandwasgonefromHarriet'sarm;andtheplacewhereshehadbeenwasempty。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter54[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERLIVTheFugitivesTHEtime,anhourshortofmidnight;theplace,aFrenchapartment,comprisingsomehalf-dozenrooms;——adullcoldhallorcorridor,adining-roomadrawing-room,abed-chamber,andaninnerdrawing-room,orboudoir,smallerandmoreretiredthantherest。Alltheseshutinbyonelargepairofdoorsonthemainstaircase,buteachroomprovidedwithtwoorthreepairsofdoorsofitsown,establishingseveralmeansofcommunicationwiththeremainingportionoftheapartment,orwithcertainsmallpassageswithinthewall,leading,asisnotunusualinsuchhouses,tosomebackstairswithanobscureoutletbelow。ThewholesituatedonthefirstfloorofsolargeanHotel,thatitdidnotabsorboneentirerowofwindowsupononesideofthesquarecourt-yardinthecentre,uponwhichthewholefoursidesofthemansionlooked。
Anairofsplendour,sufficientlyfadedtobemelancholy,andsufficientlydazzlingtoclogandembarrassthedetailsoflifewithashowofstate,reignedintheserooms。Thewallsandceilingsweregildedandpainted;thefloorswerewaxedandpolished;crimsondraperyhunginfestoonsfromwindow,door,andmirror;candelabra,gnarledandintertwisted,likethebranchesoftrees,orhornsofanimals,stuckoutfromthepanelsofthewall。Butintheday-time,whenthelattice-blindsnowcloselyshutwereopened,andthelightletin,traceswerediscernibleamongthisfinery,ofwearandtearanddust,ofsunanddampandsmoke,andlengthenedintervalsofwantofuseandhabitation,whensuchshowsandtoysoflifeseemsensitivelikelife,andwasteasmenshutupinprisondo。Evennight,andclustersofburningcandles,couldnotwhollyeffacethem,thoughthegeneralglitterthrewthemintheshade。
Theglitterofbrighttapers,andtheirreflectioninlooking-glasses,scrapsofgildingandgaycolours,wereconfined,onthisnight,tooneroom——thatsmallerroomwithintherest,justnowenumerated。Seenfromthehall,wherealampwasfeeblyburning,throughthedarkperspectiveofopendoors,itlookedasshiningandpreciousasagem。Intheheartofitsradiancesatabeautifulwoman——Edith。
Shewasalone。Thesamedefiant,scornfulwomanstill。Thecheekalittleworn,theeyealittlelargerinappearance,andmorelustrous,butthehaughtybearingjustthesame。Noshameuponherbrow;nolaterepentancebendingherdisdainfulneck。Imperiousandstatelyyet,andyetregardlessofherselfandofallelse,shesatwithherdarkeyescastdown,waitingforsomeone。
Nobook,nowork,nooccupationofanykindbutherownthought,beguiledthetardytime。Somepurpose,strongenoughtofillupanypause,possessedher。Withherlipspressedtogether,andquiveringifforamomentshereleasedthemfromhercontrol;withhernostrilinflated;herhandsclaspedinoneanother;andherpurposeswellinginherbreast;shesat,andwaited。
Atthesoundofakeyintheouterdoor,andafootstepinthehall,shestartedup,andcried`Who'sthat?'TheanswerwasinFrench,andtwomencameinwithjinglingtrays,tomakepreparationforsupper。
`Whohadbadethemtodoso?'sheasked。
`Monsieurhadcommandedit,whenitwashispleasuretotaketheapartment。Monsieurhadsaid,whenhestayedthereforanhour,enroute,andlefttheletterforMadame——Madamehadreceiveditsurely?'
`Yes。'
`Athousandpardons!Thesuddenapprehensionthatitmighthavebeenforgottenhadstruckhim;'abaldman,withalargebeardfromaneighbouringrestaurant:`withdespair!Monsieurhadsaidthatsupperwastobereadyatthathour:alsothathehadforewarnedMadameofthecommandshehadgiven,inhisletter。MonsieurhaddonetheGoldenHeadthehonourtorequestthatthesuppershouldbechoiceanddelicate。MonsieurwouldfindthathisconfidenceintheGoldenHeadwasnotmisplaced。'
Edithsaidnomore,butlookedonthoughtfullywhiletheypreparedthetablefortwopersons,andsetthewineuponit。Shearosebeforetheyhadfinished,andtakingalamp,passedintothebed-chamberandintothedrawing-room,whereshehurriedlybutnarrowlyexaminedallthedoors;
particularlyoneintheformerroomthatopenedonthepassageinthewall。
Fromthisshetookthekey,andputitontheouterside。Shethencameback。
Themen——thesecondofwhomwasadark,bilioussubject,inajacket,closeshaved,andwithablackheadofhairclosecropped——hadcompletedtheirpreparationofthetable,andwerestandinglookingatit。Hewhohadspokenbefore,inquiredwhetherMadamethoughtitwouldbelongbeforeMonsieurarrived?
`Shecouldn'tsay。Itwasallone。'
`Pardon!Therewasthesupper!Itshouldbeeatenontheinstant。
MonsieurwhospokeFrenchlikeanAngel——oraFrenchman——itwasallthesamehadspokenwithgreatemphasisofhispunctuality。ButtheEnglishnationhadsograndageniusforpunctuality。Ah!whatnoise!GreatHeaven,herewasMonsieur。Beholdhim!'
Ineffect,Monsieur,admittedbytheotherofthetwo,came,withhisgleamingteeth,throughthedarkrooms,likeamouth;andarrivinginthatsanctuaryoflightandcolour,afigureatfulllength,embracedMadame,andaddressedherintheFrenchtongueashischarmingwife。
`MyGod!Madameisgoingtofaint。Madameisovercomewithjoy!'
Thebaldmanwiththebeardobservedit,andcriedout。
Madamehadonlyshrunkandshivered。Beforethewordswerespoken,shewasstandingwithherhanduponthevelvetbackofagreatchair;herfiguredrawnuptoitsfullheight,andherfaceimmoveable。
`FrancoishasflownovertotheGoldenHeadforsupper。Hefliesontheseoccasionslikeanangelorabird。ThebaggageofMonsieurisinhisroom。Allisarranged。Thesupperwillbeherethismoment。'
Thesefactsthebaldmannotifiedwithbowsandsmiles,andpresentlythesuppercame。
Thehotdisheswereonachafing-dish;thecoldalreadysetforth,withthechangeofserviceonasideboard。Monsieurwassatisfiedwiththisarrangement。Thesuppertablebeingsmall,itpleasedhimverywell。
Letthemsetthechafing-dishuponthefloor,andgo。Hewouldremovethedisheswithhisownhands。
`Pardon!'saidthebaldman,politely。`Itwasimpossible!'
Monsieurwasofanotheropinion。Herequirednofurtherattendancethatnight。
`ButMadame'thebaldmanhinted。
`Madame,'repliedMonsieur,`hadherownmaid。Itwasenough。'
`Amillionpardons!No!Madamehadnomaid!'
`Icameherealone,'saidEdith。`Itwasmychoicetodoso。I
amwellusedtotravelling;Iwantnoattendance。Theyneedsendnobodytome。'
Monsieuraccordingly,perseveringinhisfirstproposedimpossibility,proceededtofollowthetwoattendantstotheouterdoor,andsecureitafterthemforthenight。Thebaldmanturningroundtobow,ashewentout,observedthatMadamestillstoodwithherhanduponthevelvetbackofthegreatchair,andthatherfacewasquiteregardlessofhim,thoughshewaslookingstraightbeforeher。
AsthesoundofCarker'sfasteningthedoorresoundedthroughtheintermediaterooms,andseemedtocomehushedandstifledintothatlastdistantone,thesoundoftheCathedralclockstrikingtwelvemingledwithit,inEdith'sears。Sheheardhimpause,asifheheardittooandlistened;andthencamebacktowardsher,layingalongtrainoffootstepsthroughthesilence,andshuttingallthedoorsbehindhimashecamealong。
Herhand,foramoment,leftthevelvetchairtobringaknifewithinherreachuponthetable;thenshestoodasshehadstoodbefore。
`Howstrangetocomeherebyyourself,mylove!'hesaidasheentered。
`What?'shereturned。
Hertonewassoharsh;thequickturnofherheadsofierce;herattitudesorepellent;andherfrownsoblack;thathestood,withthelampinhishand,lookingather,asifshehadstruckhimmotionless。
`Isay,'heatlengthrepeated,puttingdownthelamp,andsmilinghismostcourtlysmile,`howstrangetocomeherealone!Itwasunnecessarycautionsurely,andmighthavedefeateditself。YouweretohaveengagedanattendantatHavreorRouen,andhavehadabundanceoftimeforthepurpose,thoughyouhadbeenthemostcapriciousanddifficultasyouarethemostbeautiful,myloveofwomen。'
Hereyesgleamedstrangelyonhim,butshestoodwithherhandrestingonthechair,andsaidnotaword。
`Ihavenever,'resumedCarker,`seenyoulooksohandsome,asyoudoto-night。EventhepictureIhavecarriedinmymindduringthiscruelprobation,andwhichIhavecontemplatednightandday,isexceededbythereality。'
Notaword。Notalook。Hereyescompletelyhiddenbytheirdroopinglashes,butherheadheldup。
`Hard,unrelentingtermstheywere!'saidCarker,withasmile,`buttheyareallfulfilledandpassed,andmakethepresentmoredeliciousandmoresafe。Sicilyshallbetheplaceofourretreat。Intheidlestandeasiestpartoftheworld,mysoul,we'llbothseekcompensationforoldslavery。'
Hewascominggailytowardsher,when,inaninstant,shecaughttheknifeupfromthetable,andstartedonepaceback。
`Standstill'shesaid,`orIshallmurderyou!'
Thesuddenchangeinher,thetoweringfuryandintenseabhorrencesparklinginhereyesandlightingupherbrow,madehimstopasifafirehadstoppedhim。
`Standstill!'shesaid,`comenonearerme,uponyourlife!'
Theybothstoodlookingateachother。Rageandastonishmentwereinhisface,buthecontrolledthemandsaidlightly,`Come,come!Tush,wearealone,andoutofeverybody'ssightandhearing。Doyouthinktofrightenmewiththesetricksofvirtue?'
`Doyouthinktofrightenme,'sheansweredfiercely,`fromanypurposethatIhave,andanycourseIamresolvedupon,byremindingmeofthesolitudeofthisplace,andtherebeingnohelpnear?Me,whoamherealone,designedly?IfIfearedyou,shouldInothaveavoidedyou?
IfIfearedyou,shouldIbehere,inthedeadofnight,tellingyoutoyourfacewhatIamgoingtotell?'
`Andwhatisthat,'hesaid,`youhandsomeshrew?Handsomerso,thananyotherwomaninherbesthumour?'
`Itellyounothing,'shereturned,`untilyougobacktothatchair——exceptthis,onceagain——Don'tcomenearme!Notastepnearer。
Itellyou,ifyoudo,asheavenseesus,Ishallmurderyou!'
`Doyoumistakemeforyourhusband?'heretorted,withagrin。
Disdainingtoreply,shestretchedherarmout,pointingtothechair。Hebithislip,frowned,laughed,andsatdowninit,withabaffled,irresolute,impatientair,hewasunabletoconceal;andbitinghisnailnervously,andlookingathersideways,withbitterdiscomfiture,evenwhilehefeignedtobeamusedbyhercaprice。
Sheputtheknifedownuponthetable,andtouchingherbosomwithherhand,said:
`Ihavesomethinglyingherethatisnolovetrinket;andsoonerthanendureyourtouchoncemore,Iwoulduseitonyou——andyouknowit,whileIspeak——withlessreluctancethanIwouldonanyothercreepingthingthatlives。'
Heaffectedtolaughjestingly,andentreatedhertoactherplayoutquickly,forthesupperwasgrowingcold。Butthesecretlookwithwhichheregardedher,wasmoresullenandlowering,andhestruckhisfootonceuponthefloorwithamutteredoath。
`Howmanytimes,'saidEdith,bendingherdarkestglanceuponhim,`hasyourboldknaveryassailedmewithoutrageandinsult?Howmanytimesinyoursmoothmanner,andmockingwordsandlooks,haveIbeentwittedwithmycourtshipandmymarriage?Howmanytimeshaveyoulaidbaremywoundofloveforthatsweet,injuredgirl,andlaceratedit?Howoftenhaveyoufannedthefireonwhich,fortwoyears,Ihavewrithed;andtemptedmetotakeadesperaterevenge,whenithasmosttorturedme?
`Ihavenodoubt,Ma'am,'hereplied,`thatyouhavekeptagoodaccount,andthatit'sprettyaccurate。Come,Edith。Toyourhusband,poorwretch,thiswaswellenough——'
`Why,if,'shesaid,surveyinghimwithahaughtycontemptanddisgust,thatheshrunkunder,lethimbraveitashewould,`ifallmyotherreasonsfordespisinghimcouldhavebeenblownawaylikefeathers,hishavingyouforhiscounsellorandfavourite,wouldhavealmostbeenenoughtoholdtheirplace。'
`Isthatareasonwhyyouhaverunawaywithme?'heaskedher,tauntingly。
`Yes,andwhywearefacetofaceforthelasttime。Wretch!Wemeetto-night,andpartto-night。FornotonemomentafterIhaveceasedtospeak,willIstayhere!'
Heturneduponherwithhisugliestlook,andgripedthetablewithhishand;butneitherrose,norotherwiseansweredorthreatenedher。
`Iamawoman,'shesaid,confrontinghimsteadfastly,`whofromherverychildhoodhasbeenshamedandsteeled。Ihavebeenofferedandrejected,putupandappraised,untilmyverysoulhassickened。Ihavenothadanaccomplishmentorgracethatmighthavebeenaresourcetome,butithasbeenparadedandvendedtoenhancemyvalue,asifthecommoncrierhadcalleditthroughthestreets。Mypoor,proudfriends,havelookedonandapproved;andeverytiebetweenushasbeendeadenedinmybreast。
ThereisnotoneofthemforwhomIcare,asIcouldcareforapetdog。
Istandaloneintheworld,rememberingwellwhatahollowworldithasbeentome,andwhatahollowpartofitIhavebeenmyself。Youknowthis,andyouknowthatmyfamewithitisworthlesstome。'
`Yes;Iimaginedthat,'hesaid。
`Andcalculatedonit,'sherejoined,`andsopursuedme。Growntooindifferentforanyoppositionbutindifference,tothedailyworkingofthehandsthathadmouldedmetothis;andknowingthatmymarriagewouldatleastpreventtheirhawkingofmeupanddown;Isufferedmyselftobesoldasinfamouslyasanywomanwithahalterroundherneckissoldinanymarket-place。Youknowthat。'
`Yes,'hesaid,showingallhisteeth。`Iknowthat。'
`Andcalculatedonit,'sherejoinedoncemore,`andsopursuedme。Frommymarriageday,Ifoundmyselfexposedtosuchnewshame——tosuchsolicitationandpursuitexpressedasclearlyasifithadbeenwritteninthecoarsestwords,andthrustintomyhandateveryturnfromonemeanvillain,thatIfeltasifIhadneverknownhumiliationtillthattime。Thisshamemyhusbandfixeduponme;hemmedmeroundwith,himself;
steepedmein,withhisownhands,andofhisownact,repeatedhundredsoftimes。Andthus——forcedbythetwofromeverypointofrestIhad——forcedbythetwotoyieldupthelastretreatofloveandgentlenesswithinme,ortobeanewmisfortuneonitsinnocentobject——drivenfromeachtoeach,andbesetbyonewhenIescapedtheother——myangerrosealmosttodistractionagainstboth。Idonotknowagainstwhichitrosehigher——themasterortheman!'
Hewatchedherclosely,asshestoodbeforehimintheverytriumphofherindignantbeauty。Shewasresolute,hesaw;undauntable;withnomorefearofhimthanofaworm。
`WhatshouldIsayofhonourorofchastitytoyou!'shewenton。`Whatmeaningwouldithavetoyou;whatmeaningwouldithavefromme!ButifItellyouthatthelightesttouchofyourhandmakesmybloodcoldwithantipathy;thatfromthehourwhenIfirstsawandhatedyou,tonow,whenmyinstinctiverepugnanceisenhancedbyeveryminute'sknowledgeofyouIhavesincehad,youhavebeenaloathsomecreaturetomewhichhasnotitslikeonearth;howthen?'
Heansweredwithafaintlaugh,`Aye!Howthen,myqueen?'
`Onthatnight,when,emboldenedbythesceneyouhadassistedat,youdaredcometomyroomandspeaktome,'shesaid,`whatpassed?'
Heshruggedhisshoulders,andlaughedagain。
`Whatpassed?'shesaid。
`Yourmemoryissodistinct,'hereturned,`thatIhavenodoubtyoucanrecallit。'
`Ican,'shesaid。`Hearit!Proposingthen,thisflight——notthisflight,buttheflightyouthoughtit——youtoldmethatinthehavinggivenyouthatmeeting,andleavingyoutobediscoveredthere,ifyousothoughtfit;andinthehavingsufferedyoutobealonewithmemanytimesbefore,——andhavingmadetheopportunities,yousaid,——andinthehavingopenlyavowedtoyouthatIhadnofeelingformyhusbandbutaversion,andnocareformyself——Iwaslost;Ihadgivenyouthepowertotraducemyname;andIlived,invirtuousreputation,atthepleasureofyourbreath。'
`Allstratagemsinlove——'heinterrupted,smiling。`Theoldadage——'
`Onthatnight,'saidEdith,`andthenthestrugglethatIlonghadhadwithsomethingthatwasnotrespectformygoodfame——thatwasIknownotwhat——perhapstheclingingtothatlastretreat——wasended。
Onthenight,andthen,Iturnedfromeverythingbutpassionandresentment。
Istruckablowthatlaidyourloftymasterinthedust,andsetyouthere,beforeme,lookingatmenow,andknowingwhatImean。'
Hesprungupfromhischairwithagreatoath。Sheputherhandintoherbosom,andnotafingertrembled,notahairuponherheadwasstirred。Hestoodstill:shetoo:thetableandchairbetweenthem。
`WhenIforgetthatthismanputhislipstominethatnight,andheldmeinhisarmsashehasdoneagainto-night,'saidEdith,pointingathim;`whenIforgetthetaintofhiskissuponmycheek——thecheekthatFlorencewouldhavelaidherguiltlessfaceagainst——whenIforgetmymeetingwithher,whilethattaintwashotuponme,andinwhatafloodtheknowledgerusheduponmewhenIsawher,thatinreleasingherfromthepersecutionIhadcausedbymylove,Ibroughtashameanddegradationonhernamethroughmine,andinalltimetocomeshouldbethesolitaryfigurerepresentinginhermindherfirstavoidanceofaguiltycreature——then,Husband,fromwhomIstanddivorcedhenceforth,Iwillforgettheselasttwoyears,andundowhatIhavedone,andundeceiveyou!'
Herflashingeyes,upliftedforamoment,lightedagainonCarker,andsheheldsomelettersoutinherlefthand。
`Seethese!'shesaid,contemptuously。`Youhaveaddressedthesetomeinthefalsenameyougoby;onehere,someelsewhereonmyroad。
Thesealsareunbroken。Takethemback!'
Shecrunchedtheminherhand,andtossedthemtohisfeet。Andasshelookeduponhimnow,asmilewasonherface。
`Wemeetandpartto-night,'shesaid。`YouhavefallenonSiciliandaysandsensualrest,toosoon。Youmighthavecajoled,andfawned,andplayedyourtraitor'spart,alittlelonger,andgrownricher。Youpurchaseyourvoluptuousretirementdear!'
`Edith!'heretorted,menacingherwithhishand。`Sitdown!Havedonewiththis!Whatdevilpossessesyou?'
`TheirnameisLegion,'shereplied,uprearingherproudformasifshewouldhavecrushedhim;`youandyourmasterhaveraisedtheminafruitfulhouse,andtheyshalltearyouboth。Falsetohim,falsetohisinnocentchild,falseeverywayandeverywhere,goforthandboastofme,andgnashyourteethforoncetoknowthatyouarelying!'
Hestoodbeforehermutteringandmenacing,andscowlingroundasifforsomethingthatwouldhelphimtoconquerher;butwiththesameindomitablespiritsheopposedhim,withoutfaltering。
`Ineveryvauntyoumake,'shesaid,`Ihavemytriumph。IsingleoutinyouthemeanestmanIknow,theparasiteandtooloftheproudtyrant,thathiswoundmaygothedeeperandmayranklemore。Boast,andrevengemeonhim!Youknowhowyoucamehereto-night;youknowhowyoustandcoweringthere;youseeyourselfincoloursquiteasdespicable,ifnotasodious,asthoseinwhichIseeyou。Boastthen,andrevengemeonyourself。'
Thefoamwasonhislips;thewetstoodonhisforehead。Ifshewouldhavefalteredonceforonlyonehalf-moment,hewouldhavepinionedher;butshewasasfirmasrock,andhersearchingeyesneverlefthim。
`Wedon'tpartso,'hesaid。`DoyouthinkIamdrivelling,toletyougoinyoumadtemper?'
`Doyouthink,'sheanswered,`thatIamtobestayed?'
`I'lltry,mydear,'hesaidwithaferociousgestureofhishead。
`God'smercyonyou,ifyoutrybycomingnearme!shereplied。
`Andwhat,'hesaid,`iftherearenoneofthesesameboastsandvauntsonmypart?WhatifIweretoturntoo?Come!'andhisteethfairlyshoneagain。`Wemustmakeatreatyofthis,orImaytakesomeunexpectedcourse。Sitdown,sitdown!'
`Toolate!'shecried,witheyesthatseemedtosparklefire。
`Ihavethrownmyfameandgoodnametothewinds!Ihaveresolvedtobeartheshamethatwillattachtome——resolvedtoknowthatitattachesfalsely——thatyouknowittoo——andthathedoesnot,nevercan,andnevershall。I'lldie,andmakenosign。ForthisIamherealonewithyou,atthedeadofnight。ForthisIhavemetyouhere,inafalsename,asyourwife。Forthis,Ihavebeenseenherebythosemen,andlefthere。Nothingcansaveyounow。'
Hewouldhavesoldhissoultoroother,inherbeauty,tothefloor,andmakeherarmsdropathersides,andhaveherathismercy。
Buthecouldnotlookather,andnotbeafraidofher。Hesawastrengthwithinherthatwasresistless。Hesawthatshewasdesperate,andthatherunquenchablehatredofhimwouldstopatnothing。Hiseyesfollowedthehandthatwasputwithsuchruggeduncongenialpurposeintoherwhitebosom,andhethoughtthatifitstruckathim,andfailed,itwouldstrikethere,justassoon。
Hedidnotventure,therefore,toadvancetowardsher:butthedoorbywhichhehadenteredwasbehindhim,andhesteppedbacktolockit。
`Lastly,takemywarning!Looktoyourself!'shesaid,andsmiledagain。`Youhavebeenbetrayed,asallbetrayersare。Ithasbeenmadeknownthatyouareinthisplace,orweretobe,orhavebeen。IfIlive,Isawmyhusbandinacarriageinthestreetto-night!'
`Strumpet,it'sfalse!'criedCarker。
Atthemoment,thebellrangloudlyinthehall。Heturnedwhite,assheheldherhanduplikeanenchantress,atwhoseinvocationthesoundhadcome。
`Hark!doyouhearit?'
Hesethisbackagainstthedoor;forhesawachangeinher,andfanciedshewascomingontopasshim。But,inamoment,shewasgonethroughtheoppositedoorscommunicatingwiththebed-chamber,andtheyshutuponher。
Onceturned,oncechangedinherinflexibleunyieldinglook,hefeltthathecouldcopewithher。Hethoughtasuddenterror,occasionedbythisnight-alarm,hadsubduedher;notthelessreadily,forheroverwroughtcondition。Throwingopenthedoors,hefollowed,almostinstantly。
Buttheroomwasdark;andasshemadenoanswertohiscall,hewasfaintogobackforthelamp。Hehelditup,andlookedroundeverywhere,expectingtoseehercrouchinginsomecorner;buttheroomwasempty。
So,intothedrawing-roomanddining-roomhewent,insuccession,withtheuncertainstepsofamaninastrangeplace;lookingfearfullyabout,andpryingbehindscreensandcouches;butshewasnotthere。No,norinthehall,whichwassobarethathecouldseethat,ataglance。
Allthistime,theringingatthebellwasconstantlyrenewed;
andthosewithoutwerebeatingatthedoor。Heputhislampdownatadistance,andgoingnearit,listened。Therewereseveralvoicestalkingtogether:
atleasttwooftheminEnglish;andthoughthedoorwasthick,andtherewasgreatconfusion,heknewoneofthesetoowelltodoubtwhosevoiceitwas。
Hetookuphislampagain,andcamebackquicklythroughalltherooms,stoppingashequittedeach,andlookingroundforher,withthelightraisedabovehishead。Hewasstandingthusinthebed-chamber,whenthedoor,leadingtothelittlepassageinthewall,caughthiseye。Hewenttoit,andfounditfastenedontheotherside;butshehaddroppedaveilingoingthrough,andshutitinthedoor。
Allthistimethepeopleonthestairswereringingatthebell,andknockingwiththeirhandsandfeet。
Hewasnotacoward:butthesesounds;whathadgonebefore;thestrangenessoftheplace,whichhadconfusedhim,eveninhisreturnfromthehall;thefrustrationofhisschemesfor,strangetosay,hewouldhavebeenmuchbolder,iftheyhadsucceeded;theunseasonabletime;therecollectionofhavingnooneneartowhomhecouldappealforanyfriendlyoffice;aboveall,thesuddensense,whichmadeevenhisheartbeatlikelead,thatthemanwhoseconfidencehehadoutraged,andwhomhehadsotreacherouslydeceived,wastheretorecogniseandchallengehimwithhismaskpluckedoffhisface;struckapanicthroughhim。Hetriedthedoorinwhichtheveilwasshut,butcouldn'tforceit。Heopenedoneofthewindows,andlookeddownthroughthelatticeoftheblind,intothecourt-yard;
butitwasahighleap,andthestoneswerepitiless。