Duringthisconversation,Walterhadlookedfromonebrothertotheother,withpainandamazement。HewhowastheSeniorinyears,andJuniorinthehouse,stood,withhiseyescastupontheground,andhisheadbowed,humblylisteningtothereproachesoftheother。Thoughthesewererenderedverybitterbythetoneandlookwithwhichtheywereaccompanied,andbythepresenceofWalterwhomtheysomuchsurprisedandshocked,heenterednootherprotestagainstthemthanbyslightlyraisinghisrighthandinadeprecatorymanner,asifhewouldhavesaid,`Spareme!'So,hadtheybeenblows,andheabraveman,understrongconstraint,andweakenedbybodilysuffering,hemighthavestoodbeforetheexecutioner。
Generousandquickinallhisemotions,andregardinghimselfastheinnocentoccasionofthesetaunts,Walternowstruckin,withalltheearnestnesshefelt。
`Mr。Carker,'hesaid,addressinghimselftotheManager。`Indeed,indeed,thisismyfaultsolely。Inakindofheedlessness,forwhichI
cannotblamemyselfenough,Ihave,Ihavenodoubt,mentionedMr。CarkertheJuniormuchoftenerthanwasnecessary;andhaveallowedhisnamesometimestoslipthroughmylips,whenitwasagainstyourexpresswish。Butithasbeenmyownmistake,Sir。Wehaveneverexchangedoneworduponthesubject——veryfew,indeed,onanysubject。Andithasnotbeen,'addedWalter,afteramoment'spause,`allheedlessnessonmypart,Sir;forIhavefeltaninterestinMr。CarkereversinceIhavebeenhere,andhavehardlybeenabletohelpspeakingofhimsometimes,whenIhavethoughtofhimsomuch!'
Waltersaidthisfromhissoul,andwiththeverybreathofhonour。
Forhelookeduponthebowedhead,andthedowncasteyes,andupraisedhand,andthought,`Ihavefeltit;andwhyshouldInotavowitinbehalfofthisunfriended,brokenman!'
`Intruth,youhaveavoidedme,Mr。Carker,'saidWalter,withthetearsrisingtohiseyes;sotruewashiscompassion。`Iknowit,tomydisappointmentandregret。WhenIfirstcamehere,andeversince,I
amsureIhavetriedtobeasmuchyourfriend,asoneofmyagecouldpresumetobe;butithasbeenofnouse。'
`Andobserve,'saidtheManager,takinghimupquickly,`itwillbeofstilllessuse,Gay,ifyoupersistinforcingMr。JohnCarker'snameonpeople'sattention。ThatisnotthewaytobefriendMr。JohnCarker。
Askhimifhethinksitis。'
`Itisnoservicetome,'saidthebrother。`Itonlyleadstosuchaconversationasthepresent,whichIneednotsayIcouldhavewellspared。Noonecanbeabetterfriendtome:'hespokehereverydistinctly,asifhewouldimpressituponWalter:`thaninforgettingme,andleavingmetogomyway,unquestionedandunnoticed。'
`Yourmemorynotbeingretentive,Gay,ofwhatyouaretoldbyothers,'saidMr。CarkertheManager,warminghimselfwithgreatandincreasedsatisfaction,`Ithoughtitwellthatyoushouldbetoldthisfromthebestauthority,'noddingtowardshisbrother。`Youarenotlikelytoforgetitnow,Ihope。That'sall,Gay。Youcango。'
Walterpassedoutatthedoor,andwasabouttocloseitafterhim,when,hearingthevoiceofthebrothersagain,andalsothementionofhisownname,hestoodirresolutely,withhishanduponthelock,andthedoorajar,uncertainwhethertoreturnorgoaway。Inthispositionhecouldnothelpoverhearingwhatfollowed。
`Thinkofmemoreleniently,ifyoucan,James,'saidJohnCarker,`whenItellyouIhavehad——howcouldIhelphaving,withmyhistory,writtenhere'——strikinghimselfuponthebreast——`mywholeheartawakenedbymyobservationofthatboy,WalterGay。Isawinhimwhenhefirstcamehere,almostmyotherself。'
`Yourotherself!'repeatedtheManager,disdainfully。
`NotasIam,butasIwaswhenIfirstcameheretoo;assanguine,giddy,youthful,inexperienced;flushedwiththesamerestlessandadventurousfancies;andfullofthesamequalities,fraughtwiththesamecapacityofleadingontogoodorevil。'
`Ihopenot,'saidhisbrother,withsomehiddenandsarcasticmeaninginhistone。
`Youstrikemesharply;andyourhandissteady,andyourthrustisverydeep,'returnedtheother,speakingorsoWalterthoughtasifsomecruelweaponactuallystabbedhimashespoke。`Iimaginedallthiswhenhewasaboy。Ibelievedit。Itwasatruthtome。Isawhimlightlywalkingontheedgeofanunseengulfwheresomanyotherswalkwithequalgaiety,andfromwhich——'
`Theoldexcuse,'interruptedhisbrother,ashestirredthefire。
`Somany。Goon。Say,somanyfall。'
`FromwhichONEtravellerfell,'returnedtheother,`whosetforward,onhisway,aboylikehim,andmissedhisfootingmoreandmore,andslippedalittleandalittlelower,andwentonstumblingstill,untilhefellheadlongandfoundhimselfbelowashatteredman。
ThinkwhatIsuffered,whenIwatchedthatboy。'
`Youhaveonlyyourselftothankforit,'returnedthebrother。
`Onlymyself,'heassentedwithasigh。`Idon'tseektodividetheblameorshame。'
`Youhavedividedtheshame,'JamesCarkermutteredthroughhisteeth。Andthroughsomanyandsuchcloseteeth,hecouldmutterwell。
`Ah,James,'returnedhisbrother,speakingforthefirsttimeinanaccentofreproach,andseeming,bythesoundofhisvoice,tohavecoveredhisfacewithhishands,`Ihavebeen,sincethen,ausefulfoiltoyou。Youhavetroddenonmefreelyinyourclimbingup。Don'tspurnmewithyourheel!'
Asilenceensued。Afteratime,Mr。CarkertheManagerwasheardrustlingamonghispapers,asifhehadresolvedtobringtheinterviewtoaconclusion。Atthesametimehisbrotherwithdrewnearertothedoor。
`That'sall,'hesaid。`Iwatchedhimwithsuchtremblingandsuchfear,aswassomelittlepunishmenttome,untilhepassedtheplacewhereI
firstfell;andthen,thoughIhadbeenhisfather,IbelieveInevercouldhavethankedGodmoredevoutly。Ididn'tdaretowarnhim,andadvisehim;
butifIhadseendirectcause,Iwouldhaveshownhimmyexample。Iwasafraidtobeseenspeakingwithhim,lestitshouldbethoughtIdidhimharm,andtemptedhimtoevil,andcorruptedhim:orlestIreallyshould。
Theremaybesuchcontagioninme;Idon'tknow。Pieceoutmyhistory,inconnexionwithyoungWalterGay,andwhathehasmademefeel;andthinkofmemoreleniently,James,ifyoucan。'
WiththesewordshecameouttowhereWalterwasstanding。Heturnedalittlepalerwhenhesawhimthere,andpaleryetwhenWaltercaughthimbythehand,andsaidinawhisper:
`Mr。Carker,prayletmethankyou!LetmesayhowmuchIfeelforyou!HowsorryIam,tohavebeentheunhappycauseofallthis!HowIalmostlookuponyounowasmyprotectorandguardian!Howvery,verymuch,Ifeelobligedtoyouandpityyou!'saidWalter,squeezingbothhishands,andhardlyknowing,inhisagitation,whathedidorsaid。
`Mr。Morfin'sroombeingcloseathandandempty,andthedoorwideopen,theymovedthitherbyoneaccord:thepassagebeingseldomfreefromsomeonepassingtoorfro。Whentheywerethere,andWaltersawinMr。Carker'sfacesometracesoftheemotionwithin,healmostfeltasifhehadneverseenthefacebefore;itwassogreatlychanged。
`Walter,'hesaid,layinghishandonhisshoulder。`Iamfarremovedfromyou,andmayIeverbe。DoyouknowwhatIam?'
`Whatyouare!'appearedtohangonWalter'slips,asheregardedhimattentively。
`Itwasbegun,'saidCarker,`beforemytwenty-firstbirthday——ledupto,longbefore,butnotbeguntillnearthattime。IhadrobbedthemwhenIcameofage。Irobbedthemafterwards。Beforemytwenty-secondbirthday,itwasallfoundout;andthen,Walter,fromallmen'ssociety,Idied。'
AgainhislastfewwordshungtremblinguponWalter'slips,buthecouldneitherutterthem,noranyofhisown。
`TheHousewasverygoodtome。MayHeavenrewardtheoldmanforhisforbearance!Thisone,too,hisson,whowasthennewlyinthefirm,whereIhadheldgreattrust!Iwascalledintothatroomwhichisnowhis——Ihaveneverentereditsince——andcameout,whatyouknowme。
FormanyyearsIsatinmypresentseat,aloneasnow,butthenaknownandrecognisedexampletotherest。Theywereallmercifultome,andI
lived。Timehasalteredthatpartofmypoorexpiation;andIthink,exceptthethreeheadsoftheHouse,thereisnooneherewhoknowsmystoryrightly。
Beforethelittleboygrowsup,andhasittoldtohim,mycornermaybevacant。Iwouldratherthatitmightbeso!Thisistheonlychangetomesincethatday,whenIfeltallyouth,andhope,andgoodmen'scompany,behindmeinthatroom。Godblessyou,Walter!Keepyou,andalldeartoyou,inhonesty,orstrikethemdead!'
Somerecollectionofhistremblingfromheadtofoot,asifwithexcessivecold,andofhisburstingintotears,wasallthatWaltercouldaddtothis,whenhetriedtorecallexactlywhathadpassedbetweenthem。
WhenWaltersawhimnext,hewasbendingoverhisdeskinhisoldsilent,drooping,humbledway。Then,observinghimathiswork,andfeelinghowresolvedheevidentlywasthatnofurtherintercourceshouldarisebetweenthem,andthinkingagainandagainonallhehadseenandheardthatmorninginsoshortatime,inconnexionwiththehistoryofboththeCarkers,WaltercouldhardlybelievethathewasunderordersfortheWestIndies,andwouldsoonbelosttoUncleSol,andCaptainCuttle,andtoglimpsesfewandfarbetweenofFlorenceDombey——no,hemeantPaul——andtoallheloved,andliked,andlookedfor,inhisdailylife。
Butitwastrue,andthenewshadalreadypenetratedtotheouteroffice;forwhilehesatwithaheavyheart,ponderingonthesethings,andrestinghisheaduponhisarm,Perchthemessenger,descendingfromhismahoganybracket,andjogginghiselbow,beggedhispardon,butwishedtosayinhisear,DidhethinkhecouldarrangetosendhometoEnglandajarofpreservedGinger,cheap,forMrs。Perch'sowneating,inthecourseofherrecoveryfromhernextconfinement?
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter14[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERXIVPaulgrowsmoreandmoreOld-fashioned,andgoesHomefortheHolidaysWHENtheMidsummervacationapproached,noindecentmanifestationsofjoywereexhibitedbytheleaden-eyedyounggentlemenassembledatDoctorBlimber's。
Anysuchviolentexpressionas`breakingup,'wouldhavebeenquiteinapplicabletothatpoliteestablishment。Theyounggentlemenoozedaway,semi-annually,totheirownhomes;buttheyneverbrokeup。Theywouldhavescornedtheaction。
Tozer,whowasconstantlygalledandtormentedbyastarchedwhitecambricneckerchief,whichheworeattheexpressdesireofMrs。Tozer,hisparent,who,designinghimfortheChurch,wasofopinionthathecouldn'tbeinthatforwardstateofpreparationtoosoon——Tozersaid,indeed,thatchoosingbetweentwoevils,hethoughthewouldratherstaywherehewas,thangohome。HoweverinconsistentthisdeclarationmightappearwiththatpassageinTozer'sEssayonthesubject,whereinhehadobserved`thatthethoughtsofhomeandallitsrecollections,awakenedinhismindthemostpleasingemotionsofanticipationanddelight,'andhadalsolikenedhimselftoaRomanGeneral,flushedwitharecentvictoryovertheIceni,orladenwithCarthaginianspoil,advancingwithinafewhours'marchoftheCapitol,presupposed,forthepurposesofthesimile,tobethedwelling-placeofMrs。Tozer,stillitwasverysincerelymade。ForitseemedthatTozerhadadreadfuluncle,whonotonlyvolunteeredexaminationsofhim,intheholidays,onabstrusepoints,buttwistedinnocenteventsandthings,andwrenchedthemtothesamefellpurpose。SothatifthisuncletookhimtothePlay,or,onasimilarpretenceofkindness,carriedhimtoseeaGiant,oraDwarf,oraConjuror,oranything,Tozerknewhehadreadupsomeclassicalallusiontothesubjectbefore-hand,andwasthrownintoastateofmortalapprehension:notforeseeingwherehemightbreakout,orwhatauthorityhemightnotquoteagainsthim。
AstoBriggs,hisfathermadenoshowofartificeaboutit。Heneverwouldleavehimalone。Sonumerousandseverewerethementaltrialsofthatunfortunateyouthinvacationtime,thatthefriendsofthefamilythenresidentnearBays-water,LondonseldomapproachedtheornamentalpieceofwaterinKensingtonGardens,withoutavagueexpectationofseeingMasterBriggs'shatfloatingonthesurface,andanunfinishedexerciselyingonthebank。Briggs,therefore,wasnotatallsanguineonthesubjectofholidays;andthesetwosharersoflittlePaul'sbedroomweresofairasampleoftheyounggentlemeningeneral,thatthemostelasticamongthemcontemplatedthearrivalofthosefestiveperiodswithgenteelresignation。
ItwasfarotherwisewithlittlePaul。TheendofthesefirstholidayswastowitnesshisseparationfromFlorence,butwhoeverlookedforwardtotheendofholidayswhosebeginningwasnotyetcome!NotPaul,assuredly。Asthehappytimedrewnear,thelionsandtigersclimbingupthebedroomwalls,becamequitetameandfrolicsome。Thegrimslyfacesinthesquaresanddiamondsofthefloor-cloth,relaxedandpeepedoutathimwithlesswickedeyes。Thegraveoldclockhadmoreofpersonalinterestinthetoneofitsformalinquiry;andtherestlessseawentrollingonallnight,tothesoundingofamelancholystrain——yetitwaspleasanttoo——thatroseandfellwiththewaves,androckedhim,asitwere,tosleep。
Mr。Feeder,B。A。,seemedtothinkthathe,too,wouldenjoytheholidaysverymuch。Mr。Tootsprojectedalifeofholidaysfromthattimeforth;for,asheregularlyinformedPauleveryday,itwashis`lasthalf'
atDoctorBlimber's,andhewasgoingtobegintocomeintohispropertydirectly。
ItwasperfectlyunderstoodbetweenPaulandMr。Toots,thattheywereintimatefriends,notwithstandingtheirdistanceinpointofyearsandstation。Asthevacationapproached,andMr。TootsbreathedharderandstaredoftenerinPaul'ssociety,thanhehaddonebefore,Paulknewthathemeanthewassorrytheyweregoingtolosesightofeachother,andfeltverymuchobligedtohimforhispatronageandgoodopinion。
ItwasevenunderstoodbyDoctorBlimber,Mrs。Blimber,andMissBlimber,aswellasbytheyounggentlemeningeneral,thatTootshadsomehowconstitutedhimselfprotectorandguardianofDombey,andthecircumstancebecamesonotorious,eventoMrs。Pipchin,thatthegoodoldcreaturecherishedfeelingsofbitternessandjealousyagainstToots;and,inthesanctuaryofherownhome,repeatedlydenouncedhimasa`chuckle-headednoodle。'
WhereastheinnocentTootshadnomoreideaofawakeningMrs。Pipchin'swrath,thanhehadofanyotherdefinitepossibilityorproposition。Onthecontrary,hewasdisposedtoconsiderherratheraremarkablecharacter,withmanypointsofinterestabouther。Forthisreasonhesmiledonherwithsomuchurbanity,andaskedherhowshedid,sooften,inthecourseofhervisitstolittlePaul,thatatlastsheonenighttoldhimplainly,shewasn'tusedtoit,whateverhemightthink;andshecouldnot,andshewouldnotbearit,eitherfromhimselforanyotherpuppythenexisting:
atwhichunexpectedacknowledgmentofhiscivilities,Mr。Tootswassoalarmedthathesecretedhimselfinaretiredspotuntilshehadgone。
NordidheeveragainfacethedoughtyMrs。Pipchin,underDoctorBlimber'sroof。
Theywerewithintwoorthreeweeksoftheholidays,when,oneday,CorneliaBlimbercalledPaulintoherroom,andsaid,`Dombey,Iamgoingtosendhomeyouranalysis。'
`Thankyou,Ma'am,'returnedPaul。
`YouknowwhatImean,doyou,Dombey?'inquiredMissBlimber,lookinghardathimthroughthespectacles。
`No,Ma'am,'saidPaul。
`Dombey,Dombey,'saidMissBlimber,`Ibegintobeafraidyouareasadboy。Whenyoudon'tknowthemeaningofanexpression,whydon'tyouseekforinformation?'
`Mrs。PipchintoldmeIwasn'ttoaskquestions,'returnedPaul。
`ImustbegyounottomentionMrs。Pipchintome,onanyaccount,Dombey,'returnedMissBlimber。`Icouldn'tthinkofallowingit。Thecourseofstudyhere,isveryfarremovedfromanythingofthatsort。Arepetitionofsuchallusionswouldmakeitnecessaryformetorequesttohear,withoutamistake,beforebreakfast-timeto-morrowmorning,fromVerbumpersonaledowntosimillimacygno。'
`Ididn'tmean,Ma'am——'beganlittlePaul。
`Imusttroubleyounottotellmethatyoudidn'tmean,ifyouplease,Dombey,'saidMissBlimber,whopreservedanawfulpolitenessinheradmonitions。`ThatisalineofargumentIcouldn'tdreamofpermitting。'
Paulfeltitsafesttosaynothingatall,soheonlylookedatMissBlimber'sspectacles。MissBlimberhavingshakenherheadathimgravely,referredtoapaperlyingbeforeher。
`“AnalysisofthecharacterofP。Dombey。“Ifmyrecollectionservesme,'saidMissBlimberbreakingoff,`thewordanalysisasopposedtosynthesis,isthusdefinedbyWalker。“Theresolutionofanobject,whetherofthesensesoroftheintellect,intoitsfirstelements。“Asopposedtosynthesis,youobserve。Nowyouknowwhatanalysisis,Dombey。'
Dombeydidn'tseemtobeabsolutelyblindedbythelightletinuponhisintellect,buthemadeMissBlimberalittlebow。
`“Analysis,“'resumedMissBlimber,castinghereyeoverthepaper,`“ofthecharacterofP。Dombey。“IfindthatthenaturalcapacityofDombeyisextremelygood;andthathisgeneraldispositiontostudymaybestatedinanequalratio。Thus,takingeightasourstandardandhighestnumber,IfindthesequalitiesinDombeystatedeachatsixthree-fourths!'
MissBlimberpausedtoseehowPaulreceivedthisnews。Beingundecidedwhethersixthree-fourthsmeantsixpoundsfifteen,orsixpencethreefarthings,orsixfootthree,orthreequarterspastsix,orsixsomethingsthathehadn'tlearntyet,withthreeunknownsomethingelsesover,PaulrubbedhishandsandlookedstraightatMissBlimber。Ithappenedtoansweraswellasanythingelsehecouldhavedone;andCorneliaproceeded。
`“Violencetwo。Selfishnesstwo。Inclinationtolowcompany,asevincedinthecaseofapersonnamedGlubb,originallyseven,butsincereduced。Gentlemanlydemeanourfour,andimprovingwithadvancingyears。“
NowwhatIparticularlywishtocallyourattentionto,Dombey,isthegeneralobservationatthecloseofthisanalysis。'
Paulsethimselftofollowitwithgreatcare。
`“ItmaybegenerallyobservedofDombey,“'saidMissBlimber,readinginaloudvoice,andateverysecondworddirectingherspectaclestowardsthelittlefigurebeforeher:`“thathisabilitiesandinclinationsaregood,andthathehasmadeasmuchprogressasunderthecircumstancescouldhavebeenexpected。Butitistobelamentedofthisyounggentlemanthatheissingularwhatisusuallytermedold-fashionedinhischaracterandconduct,andthatwithoutpresentinganythingineitherwhichdistinctlycallsforreprobation,heisoftenveryunlikeotheryounggentlemenofhisageandsocialposition。“Now,Dombey,'saidMissBlimber,layingdownthepaper,`doyouunderstandthat?'
`IthinkIdo,Ma'am,'saidPaul。
`Thisanalysis,yousee,Dombey,'MissBlimbercontinued,isgoingtobesenthometoyourrespectedparent。Itwillnaturallybeverypainfultohimtofindthatyouaresingularinyourcharacterandconduct。Itisnaturallypainfultous;forwecan'tlikeyou,youknow,Dombey,aswellaswecouldwish。'
Shetouchedthechilduponatenderpoint。Hehadsecretlybecomemoreandmoresolicitousfromdaytoday,asthetimeofhisdeparturedrewmorenear,thatallthehouseshouldlikehim。Fromsomehiddenreason,veryimperfectlyunderstoodbyhimself——ifunderstoodatall——hefeltagraduallyincreasingimpulseofaffection,towardsalmosteverythingandeverybodyintheplace。Hecouldnotbeartothinkthattheywouldbequiteindifferenttohimwhenhewasgone。Hewantedthemtorememberhimkindly;
andhehadmadeithisbusinesseventoconciliateagreathoarseshaggydog,chainedupatthebackofthehouse,whohadpreviouslybeentheterrorofhislife;thatevenhemightmisshimwhenhewasnolongerthere。
Littlethinkingthatinthis,heonlyshowedagainthedifferencebetweenhimselfandhiscompeers,poortinyPaulsetitforthtoMissBlimberaswellashecould,andbeggedher,indespiteoftheofficialanalysis,tohavethegoodnesstotryandlikehim。ToMrs。Blimber,whohadjoinedthem,hepreferredthesamepetition:andwhenthatladycouldnotforbear,eveninhispresence,fromgivingutterancetoheroften-repeatedopinion,thathewasanoddchild,Paultoldherthathewassureshewasquiteright;thathethoughtitmustbehisbones,buthedidn'tknow;andthathehopedshewouldoverlookit,forhewasfondofthemall。
`Notsofond,'saidPaul,withamixtureoftimidityandperfectfrankness,whichwasoneofthemostpeculiarandmostengagingqualitiesofthechild,`notsofondasIamofFlorence,ofcourse;thatcouldneverbe。Youcouldn'texpectthat,couldyou,Ma'am?'
`Oh!theold-fashionedlittlesoul!'criedMrs。Blimber,inawhisper。
`ButIlikeeverybodyhereverymuch,'pursuedPaul,`andIshouldgrievetogoaway,andthinkthatanyonewasgladthatIwasgone,ordidn'tcare。'
Mrs。BlimberwasnowquitesurethatPaulwastheoddestchildintheworld;andwhenshetoldtheDoctorwhathadpassed,theDoctordidnotcontroverthiswife'sopinion。Buthesaid,ashehadsaidbefore,whenPaulfirstcame,thatstudywoulddomuch;andhealsosaid,ashehadsaidonthatoccasion,`Bringhimon,Cornelia!Bringhimon!'
Corneliahadalwaysbroughthimonasvigorouslyasshecould;
andPaulhadhadahardlifeofit。Butoverandabovethegettingthroughhistasks,hehadlonghadanotherpurposealwayspresenttohim,andtowhichhestillheldfast。Itwas,tobeagentle,useful,quietlittlefellow,alwaysstrivingtosecuretheloveandattachmentoftherest;
andthoughhewasyetoftentobeseenathisoldpostonthestairs,orwatchingthewavesandcloudsfromhissolitarywindow,hewasoftenerfound,too,amongtheotherboys,modestlyrenderingthemsomelittlevoluntaryservice。Thusitcametopass,thatevenamongthoserigidandabsorbedyounganchorites,whomortifiedthemselvesbeneaththeroofofDoctorBlimber,Paulwasanobjectofgeneralinterest;afragilelittleplaythingthattheyallliked,andthatnoonewouldhavethoughtoftreatingroughly。
Buthecouldnotchangehisnature,orre-writetheanalysis;andsotheyallagreedthatDombeywasold-fashioned。
Thereweresomeimmunities,however,attachingtothecharacterenjoyedbynooneelse。Theycouldhavebettersparedanewer-fashionedchild,andthatalonewasmuch。WhentheothersonlybowedtoDoctorBlimberandfamilyonretiringforthenight,Paulwouldstretchouthismorselofahand,andboldlyshaketheDoctor's;alsoMrs。Blimber's;alsoCornelia's。
Ifanybodywastobebeggedofffromimpendingpunishment,Paulwasalwaysthedelegate。Theweak-eyedyoungmanhimselfhadonceconsultedhim,inreferencetoalittlebreakageofglassandchina。Anditwasdarklyrumouredthatthebutler,regardinghimwithfavoursuchasthatsternmanhadnevershownbeforetomortalboy,hadsometimesmingledporterwithhistable-beertomakehimstrong。
Overandabovetheseextensiveprivileges,PaulhadfreerightofentrytoMr。Feeder'sroom,fromwhichapartmenthehadtwiceledMr。
Tootsintotheopenairinastateoffaintness,consequentonanunsuccessfulattempttosmokeaverybluntcigar:oneofabundlewhichthatyounggentlemanhadcovertlypurchasedontheshinglefromamostdesperatesmuggler,whohadacknowledged,inconfidence,thattwohundredpoundswasthepricesetuponhishead,deadoralive,bytheCustomHouse。Itwasasnugroom,Mr。Feeder's,withhisbedinanotherlittleroominsideofit;andaflute,whichMr。Feedercouldn'tplayyet,butwasgoingtomakeapointoflearning,hesaid,hangingupoverthefireplace。Thereweresomebooksinit,too,andafishing-rod;forMr。Feedersaidheshouldcertainlymakeapointoflearningtofish,whenhecouldfindtime。Mr。Feederhadamassed,withsimilarintentions,abeautifullittlecurlysecondhandkey-bugle,achess-boardandmen,aSpanishGrammar,asetofsketchingmaterials,andapairofboxing-gloves。Theartofself-defenceMr。Feedersaidheshouldundoubtedlymakeapointoflearning,asheconsidereditthedutyofeverymantodo;foritmightleadtotheprotectionofafemaleindistress。
ButMr。Feeder'sgreatpossessionwasalargegreenjarofsnuff,whichMr。Tootshadbroughtdownasapresent,atthecloseofthelastvacation;andforwhichhehadpaidahighprice,ashavingbeenthegenuinepropertyofthePrinceRegent。NeitherMr。TootsnotMr。Feedercouldpartakeofthisoranyothersnuff,eveninthemoststintedandmoderatedegree,withoutbeingseizedwithconvulsionsofsneezing。Neverthelessitwastheirgreatdelighttomoistenabox-fullwithcoldtea,stirituponapieceofparchmentwithapaper-knife,anddevotethemselvestoitsconsumptionthenandthere。Inthecourseofwhichcrammingoftheirnoses,theyenduredsurprisingtormentswiththeconstancyofmartyrs:and,drinkingtable-beeratintervals,feltallthegloriesofdissipation。
TolittlePaulsittingsilentintheircompany,andbythesideofhischiefpatron,Mr。Toots,therewasadreadcharmintheserecklessoccasions:andwhenMr。FeederspokeofthedarkmysteriesofLondon,andtoldMr。Tootsthathewasgoingtoobserveithimselfcloselyinallitsramificationsintheapproachingholidays,andforthatpurposehadmadearrangementstoboardwithtwooldmaidenladiesatPeckham,Paulregardedhimasifheweretheheroofsomebookoftravelsorwildadventure,andwasalmostafraidofsuchaslashingperson。
Goingintothisroomoneevening,whentheholidayswereverynear,PaulfoundMr。Feederfillinguptheblanksinsomeprintedletters,whilesomeothers,alreadyfilledupandstrewnbeforehim,werebeingfoldedandsealedbyMr。Toots。Mr。Feedersaid,`Aha,Dombey,thereyouare,areyou?'——fortheywerealwayskindtohim,andgladtoseehim——andthensaid,tossingoneoftheletterstowardshim,`Andthereyouare,too,Dombey。That'syours。'
`Mine,Sir?'saidPaul。
`Yourinvitation,'returnedMr。Feeder。
Paul,lookingatit,found,incopper-plateprint,withtheexceptionofhisownnameandthedate,whichwereinMr。Feeder'sPenmanship,thatDoctorandMrs。BlimberrequestedthepleasureofMr。P。Dombey'scompanyatanearlypartyonWednesdayEveningtheSeventeenthInstant;andthatthehourwashalf-pastseveno'clock;andthattheobjectwasQuadrilles。
Mr。Tootsalsoshowedhim,byholdingupacompanionsheetofpaper,thatDoctorandMrs。BlimberrequestedthepleasureofMr。Toots'scompanyatanearlypartyonWednesdayEveningtheSeventeenthInstant,whenthehourwashalf-pastseveno'clock,andwhentheobjectwasQuadrilles。Healsofound,onglancingatthetablewhereMr。Feedersat,thatthepleasureofMr。Briggs'scompany,andofMr。Tozer'scompany,andofeveryyounggentleman'scompany,wasrequestedbyDoctorandMrs。Blimberonthesamegenteeloccasion。
Mr。Feederthentoldhim,tohisgreatjoy,thathissisterwasinvited,andthatitwasahalf-yearlyevent,andthat,astheholidaysbeganthatday,hecouldgoawaywithhissisteraftertheparty,ifheliked,whichPaulinterruptedhimtosayhewouldlike,verymuch。
Mr。FeederthengavehimtounderstandthathewouldbeexpectedtoinformDoctorandMrs。Blimber,insuperfinesmall-hand,thatMr。P。Dombeywouldbehappytohavethehonourofwaitingonthem,inaccordancewiththeirpoliteinvitation。Lastly,Mr。Feedersaid,hehadbetternotrefertothefestiveoccasion,inthehearingofDoctorandMrs。Blimber;asthesepreliminaries,andthewholeofthearrangements,wereconductedonprinciplesofclassicalityandhighbreeding;andthatDoctorandMrs。Blimberontheonehand,andtheyounggentlemenontheother,weresupposed,intheirscholasticcapacities,nottohavetheleastideaofwhatwasinthewind。
PaulthankedMr。Feederforthesehints,andpocketinghisinvitation,satdownonastoolbythesideofMr。Tootsasusual。ButPaul'shead,whichhadlongbeenailingmoreorless,andwassometimesveryheavyandpainful,feltsouneasythatnight,thathewasobligedtosupportitonhishand。Andyetitdroppedso,thatbylittleandlittleitsunkonMr。
Toots'sknee,andrestedthere,asifithadnocaretobeeverliftedupagain。
Thatwasnoreasonwhyheshouldbedeaf,buthemusthavebeen,hethought,for,byandby,heheardMr。Feedercallinginhisear,andgentlyshakinghimtorousehisattention。Andwhenheraisedhishead,quitescared,andlookedabouthim,hefoundthatDoctorBlimberhadcomeintotheroom;andthatthewindowwasopen,andthathisforeheadwaswetwithsprinkledwater;thoughhowallthishadbeendonewithouthisknowledge,wasverycuriousindeed。
`Ah!Come,come!That'swell!Howismylittlefriendnow?'saidDoctorBlimber,encouragingly。
`Oh,quitewell,thankyou,Sir,'saidPaul。
Butthereseemedtobesomethingthematterwiththefloor,forhecouldn'tstanduponitsteadily;andwiththewallstoo,fortheywereinclinedtoturnroundandround,andcouldonlybestoppedbybeinglookedatveryhardindeed。Mr。Toots'sheadhadtheappearanceofbeingatoncebiggerandfartheroffthanwasquitenatural:andwhenhetookPaulinhisarms,tocarryhimupstairs,Paulobservedwithastonishmentthatthedoorwasinquiteadifferentplacefromthatinwhichhehadexpectedtofindit,andalmostthought,atfirst,thatMr。Tootswasgoingtowalkstraightupthechimney。
ItwasverykindofMr。Tootstocarryhimtothetopofthehousesotenderly;andPaultoldhimthatitwas。ButMr。Tootssaidhewoulddoagreatdealmorethanthat,ifhecould;andindeedhedidmoreasitwas:forhehelpedPaultoundress,andhelpedhimtobed,inthekindestmannerpossible,andthensatdownbythebedsideandchuckledverymuch;
whileMr。Feeder,B。A。,leaningoverthebottomofthebedstead,setallthelittlebristlesonhisheadboltuprightwithhisbonyhands,andthenmadebelievetosparatPaulwithgreatscience,onaccountofhisbeingallrightagain,whichwassouncommonlyfacetious,andkindtooinMr。
Feeder,thatPaul,notbeingabletomakeuphismindwhetheritwasbesttolaughorcryathim,didbothatonce。
HowMr。Tootsmeltedaway,andMr。FeederchangedintoMrs。Pipchin,Paulneverthoughtofasking;neitherwasheatallcurioustoknow;butwhenhesawMrs。Pipchinstandingatthebottomofthebed,insteadofMr。Feeder,hecriedout,`Mrs。Pipchin,don'ttellFlorence!'
`Don'ttellFlorencewhat,mylittlePaul?'saidMrs。Pipchin,comingroundtothebedside,andsittingdowninthechair。
`Aboutme,'saidPaul。
`No,no,'saidMrs。Pipchin。
`WhatdoyouthinkImeantodowhenIgrowup,Mrs。Pipchin?'
inquiredPaul,turninghisfacetowardsheronhispillow,andrestinghischinwistfullyonhisfoldedhands。
Mrs。Pipchincouldn'tguess。
`Imean,'saidPaul,`toputmymoneyalltogetherinoneBank,nevertrytogetanymore,goawayintothecountrywithmydarlingFlorence,haveabeautifulgarden,fields,andwoods,andlivetherewithherallmylife!'
`Indeed!'criedMrs。Pipchin。
`Yes,'saidPaul。`That'swhatImeantodo,whenI——'Hestopped,andponderedforamoment。
Mrs。Pipchin'sgreyeyescannedhisthoughtfulface。
`IfIgrowup,'saidPaul。ThenhewentonimmediatelytotellMrs。Pipchinallabouttheparty,aboutFlorence'sinvitation,aboutthepridehewouldhaveintheadmirationthatwouldbefeltforherbyalltheboys,abouttheirbeingsokindtohimandfondofhim,abouthisbeingsofondofthem,andabouthisbeingsogladofit。ThenhetoldMrs。Pipchinabouttheanalysis,andabouthisbeingcertainlyold-fashioned,andtookMrs。Pipchin'sopiniononthatpoint,andwhethersheknewwhyitwas,andwhatitmeant。Mrs。Pipchindeniedthefactaltogether,astheshortestwayofgettingoutofthedifficulty;butPaulwasfarfromsatisfiedwiththatreply,andlookedsosearchinglyatMrs。Pipchinforatrueranswer,thatshewasobligedtogetupandlookoutofthewindowtoavoidhiseyes。
TherewasacertaincalmApothecary,whoattendedattheestablishmentwhenanyoftheyounggentlemenwereill,andsomehowhegotintotheroomandappearedatthebedside,withMrs。Blimber。Howtheycamethere,orhowlongtheyhadbeenthere,Pauldidn'tknow;butwhenhesawthem,hesatupinbed,andansweredalltheApothecary'squestionsatfulllength,andwhisperedtohimthatFlorencewasnottoknowanythingaboutit,ifhepleased,andthathehadsethisminduponhercomingtotheparty。HewasverychattywiththeApothecary,andtheypartedexcellentfriends。Lyingdownagainwithhiseyesshut,heheardtheApothecarysay,outoftheroomandquitealongwayoff——orhedreamedit——thattherewasawantofvitalpowerwhatwasthat,Paulwonderedandgreatconstitutionalweakness。Thatasthelittlefellowhadsethisheartonpartingwithhisschool-matesontheseventeenth,itwouldbebettertoindulgethefancyifhegrewnoworse。ThathewasgladtohearfromMrs。Pipchin,thatthelittlefellowwouldgotohisfriendsinLondonontheeighteenth。ThathewouldwritetoMr。Dombey,whenheshouldhavegainedabetterknowledgeofthecase,andbeforethatday。Thattherewasnoimmediatecausefor——what?
Paullostthatword。Andthatthelittlefellowhadafinemind,butwasanold-fashionedboy。
Whatoldfashioncouldthatbe,Paulwonderedwithapalpitatingheart,thatwassovisiblyexpressedinhim;soplainlyseenbysomanypeople!
Hecouldneithermakeitout,nottroublehimselflongwiththeeffort。Mrs。Pipchinwasagainbesidehim,ifshehadeverbeenawayhethoughtshehadgoneoutwiththeDoctor,butitwasalladreamperhaps,andpresentlyabottleandglassgotintoherhandsmagically,andshepouredoutthecontentsforhim。Afterthat,hehadsomerealgoodjelly,whichMrs。Blimberbroughttohimherself;andthenhewassowell,thatMrs。Pipchinwenthome,athisurgentsolicitation,andBriggsandTozercametobed。PoorBriggsgrumbledterriblyabouthisownanalysis,whichcouldhardlyhavediscomposedhimmoreifithadbeenachemicalprocess;
buthewasverygoodtoPaul,andsowasTozer,andsowerealltherest,fortheyeveryonelookedinbeforegoingtobed,andsaid,`Howareyounow,Dombey?'`Cheerup,littleDombey!'andsoforth。AfterBriggshadgotintobed,helayawakeforalongtime,stillbemoaninghisanalysis,andsayingheknewitwasallwrong,andtheycouldn'thaveanalysedamurdererworse,andhowwouldDoctorBlimberlikeitifhispocket-moneydependedonit?Itwasveryeasy,Briggssaid,tomakeagalley-slaveofaboyallthehalf-year,andthenscorehimupidle;andtocribtwodinnersa-weekoutofhisboard,andthenscorehimupgreedy:butthatwasn'tgoingtobesubmittedto,hebelieved,wasit?Oh!Ah!
Beforetheweak-eyedyoungmanperformedonthegongnextmorning,hecameupstairstoPaulandtoldhimhewastoliestill,whichPaulverygladlydid。Mrs。PipchinreappearedalittlebeforetheApothecary,andalittleafterthegoodyoungwomanwhomPaulhadseencleaningthestoveonthatfirstmorninghowlongagoitseemednow!hadbroughthimhisbreakfast。Therewasanotherconsultationalongwayoff,orelsePauldreameditagain;andthentheApothecary,comingbackwithDoctorandMrs。Blimber,said:
`Yes,Ithink,DoctorBlimber,wemayreleasethisyounggentlemanfromhisbooksjustnow;thevacationbeingsoverynearathand。'
`Byallmeans,'saidDoctorBlimber。`Mylove,youwillinformCornelia,ifyouplease。'
`Assuredly,'saidMrs。Blimber。
TheApothecarybendingdown,lookedcloselyintoPaul'seyes,andfelthishead,andhispulse,andhisheart,withsomuchinterestandcare,thatPaulsaid,`Thankyou,sir。'
`Ourlittlefriend,'observedDoctorBlimber,`hasnevercomplained。'
`Ohno!'repliedtheApothecary。`Hewasnotlikelytocomplain。'
`Youfindhimgreatlybetter?'saidDoctorBlimber。
`Oh!heisgreatlybetter,Sir,'returnedtheApothecary。
Paulhadbeguntospeculate,inhisownoddway,onthesubjectthatmightoccupytheApothecary'smindjustatthatmoment;somusinglyhadheansweredthetwoquestionsofDoctorBlimber。ButtheApothecaryhappeningtomeethislittlepatient'seyes,asthelattersetoffonthatmentalexpedition,andcominginstantlyoutofhisabstractionwithacheerfulsmile,Paulsmiledinreturnandabandonedit。
Helayinbedallthatday,dozinganddreaming,andlookingatMr。Toots:butgotuponthenext,andwentdownstairs。Loandbehold,therewassomethingthematterwiththegreatclock;andaworkmanonapairofstepshadtakenitsfaceoff,andwaspokinginstrumentsintotheworksbythelightofacandle!ThiswasagreateventforPaul,whosatdownonthebottomstair,andwatchedtheoperationattentively:nowandthenglancingattheclockface,leaningallaskew,againstthewallhardby,andfeelingalittleconfusedbyasuspicionthatitwasoglinghim。
Theworkmanonthestepswasverycivil;andashesaid,whenheobservedPaul,`Howdoyoudo,Sir?'Paulgotintoconversationwithhim,andtoldhimhehadn'tbeenquitewelllately。Theicebeingthusbroken,Paulaskedhimamultitudeofquestionsaboutchimesandclocks:
as,whetherpeoplewatchedupinthelonelychurchsteeplesbynighttomakethemstrike,andhowthebellswererungwhenpeopledies,andwhetherthoseweredifferentbellsfromweddingbells,oronlysoundeddismalinthefanciesoftheliving。FindingthathisnewacquaintancewasnotverywellinformedonthesubjectoftheCurfewBellofancientdays,Paulgavehimanaccountofthatinstitution;andalsoaskedhim,asapracticalman,whathethoughtaboutKingAlfred'sideaofmeasuringtimebytheburningofcandles;towhichtheworkmanreplied,thathethoughtitwouldbetheruinoftheclocktradeifitwastocomeupagain。Infine,Paullookedon,untiltheclockhadquiterecovereditsfamiliaraspect,andresumeditssedateinquiry:whentheworkman,puttingawayhistoolsinalongbasket,badehimgoodday,andwentaway。Thoughnotbeforehehadwhisperedsomething,onthedoor-mat,tothefootman,inwhichtherewasthephrase`old-fashioned'——forPaulheardit。
Whatcouldthatoldfashionbe,thatseemedtomakethepeoplesorry!whatcoulditbe!
Havingnothingtolearnnow,hethoughtofthisfrequently;thoughnotsooftenashemighthavedone,ifhehadhadfewerthingstothinkof。Buthehadagreatmany;andwasalwaysthinking,alldaylong。
First,therewasFlorencecomingtotheparty。Florencewouldseethattheboyswerefondofhim;andthatwouldmakeherhappy。Thiswashisgreattheme。LetFlorenceoncebesurethattheyweregentleandgoodtohim,andthathehadbecomealittlefavouriteamongthem,andthenshewouldalwaysthinkofthetimehehadpassedthere,withoutbeingverysorry。Florencemightbeallthehappiertooforthatperhaps,whenhecameback。
Whenhecameback!Fiftytimesaday,hisnoiselesslittlefeetwentupthestairstohisownroom,ashecollectedeverybookandscrap,andtriflethatbelongedtohim,andputthemalltogetherthere,downtotheminutestthing,fortakinghome!TherewasnoshadeofcomingbackonlittlePaul;nopreparationforit,orotherreferencetoit,grewoutofanythinghethoughtordid,exceptthisslightoneinconnexionwithhissister。Onthecontrary,hehadtothinkofeverythingfamiliartohim,inhiscontemplativemoodsandinhiswanderingsaboutthehouse,asbeingtobepartedwith;andhencethemanythingshehadtothinkof,alldaylong。
Hehadtopeepintothoseroomsup-stairs,andthinkhowsolitarytheywouldbewhenhewasgone,andwonderthroughhowmanysilentdays,weeks,months,andyears,theywouldcontinuejustasgraveandundisturbed。
Hehadtothink——wouldanyotherchildold-fashioned,likehimselfstraythereatanytime,towhomthesamegrotesquedistortionsofpatternandfurniturewouldmanifestthemselves;andwouldanybodytellthatboyoflittleDombey,whohadbeenthereonce?
Hehadtothinkofaportraitonthestairs,whichalwayslookedearnestlyafterhimashewentaway,eyeingitoverhisshoulder:andwhich,whenhepasseditinthecompanyofanyone,stillseemedtogazeathim,andnotathiscompanion。Hehadmuchtothinkof,inassociationwithaprintthathungupinanotherplace,where,inthecentreofawonderinggroup,onefigurethatheknew,afigurewithalightaboutitshead——benignant,mild,andmerciful——stoodpointingupward。
Athisownbedroomwindow,therewerecrowdsofthoughtsthatmixedwiththese,andcameon,oneuponanother,liketherollingwaves。
Wherethosewildbirdslived,thatwerealwayshoveringoutatseaintroubledweather;wherethecloudsroseandfirstbegan;whencethewindissuedonitsrushingflight,andwhereitstopped;whetherthespotwhereheandFlorencehadsooftensat,andwatched,andtalkedaboutthesethings,couldeverbeexactlyasitusedtobewithoutthem;whetheritcouldeverbethesametoFlorence,ifhewereinsomedistantplace,andsheweresittingtherealone。
Hehadtothink,too,ofMr。Toots,andMr。Feeder,B。A;ofalltheboys;andofDoctorBlimber,Mrs。Blimber,andMissBlimber;ofhome,andofhisauntandMissTox;ofhisfather,DombeyandSon,Walterwiththepooroldunclewhohadgotthemoneyhewanted,andthatgruff-voicedCaptainwiththeironhand。Besidesallthis,hehadanumberoflittlevisitstopay,inthecourseoftheday;totheschoolroom,toDoctorBlimber'sstudy,toMrs。Blimber'sprivateaapartment,toMissBlimber's,andtothedog。Forhewasfreeofthewholehousenow,torangeitashechose;
and,inhisdesiretopartwitheverybodyonaffectionateterms,heattended,inhisway,tothemall。SometimeshefoundplacesinbooksforBriggs,whowasalwayslosingthem;sometimeshelookedupwordsindictionariesforotheryounggentlemenwhowereinextremity;sometimesheheldskeinsofsilkforMrs。Blimbertowind;sometimesheputCornelia'sdesktorights;
sometimeshewouldevencreepintotheDoctor'sstudy,and,sittingonthecarpetnearhislearnedfeet,turntheglobessoftly,andgoroundtheworld,ortakeaflightamongthefar-offstars。
Inthosedaysimmediatelybeforetheholidays,inshort,whentheotheryounggentlemenwerelabouringfordearlifethroughageneralresumptionofthestudiesofthewholehalf-year,Paulwassuchaprivilegedpupilashadneverbeenseeninthathousebefore。Hecouldhardlybelieveithimself;buthislibertylastedfromhourtohour,andfromdaytoday;
andlittleDombeywascaressedbyeveryone。DoctorBlimberwassoparticularabouthim,thatherequestedJohnsontoretirefromthedinner-tableoneday,forhavingthoughtlesslyspokentohimas`poorlittleDombey;'whichPaulthoughtratherhardandsevere,thoughhehadflushedatthemoment,andwonderedwhyJohnsonshouldpityhim。Itwasthemorequestionablejustice,Paulthought,intheDoctor,fromhishavingcertainlyoverheardthatgreatauthoritygivehisassentonthepreviousevening,tothepropositionstatedbyMrs。BlimberthatpoordearlittleDombeywasmoreold-fashionedthanever。AndnowitwasthatPaulbegantothinkitmustsurelybeold-fashionedtobeverythin,andlight,andeasilytired,andsoondisposedtoliedownanywhereandrest;forhecouldn'thelpfeelingthattheseweremoreandmorehishabitseveryday。
Atlasttheparty-dayarrived;andDoctorBlimbersaidatbreakfast,`Gentlemen,wewillresumeourstudiesonthetwenty-fifthofnextmonth。'
Mr。Tootsimmediatelythrewoffhisallegiance,andputonhisring:andmentioningtheDoctorincasualconversationshortlyafterwards,spokeofhimas`Blimber!'Thisactoffreedominspiredtheolderpupilswithadmirationandenvy;buttheyoungerspiritswereappalled,andseemedtomarvelthatnobeamfelldownandcrushedhim。
Nottheleastallusionwasmadetotheceremoniesoftheevening,eitheratbreakfastoratdinner;buttherewasabustleinthehouseallday,andinthecourseofhisperambulations,Paulmadeacquaintancewithvariousstrangebenchesandcandlesticks,andmetaharpinagreengreatcoatstandingonthelandingoutsidethedrawing-roomdoor。Therewassomethingqueer,too,aboutMrs。Blimber'sheadatdinner-time,asifshehadscrewedherhairuptootight;andthoughMissBlimbershowedagracefulbunchofplaitedhaironeachtemple,sheseemedtohaveherownlittlecurlsinpaperunderneath,andinaplay-billtoo:forPaulread`TheatreRoyal'
overoneofhersparklingspectacles,and`Brighton'overtheother。
Therewasagrandarrayofwhitewaistcoatsandcravatsintheyounggentlemen'sbedroomsaseveningapproached;andsuchasmellofsingedhair,thatDoctorBlimbersentupthefootmanwithhiscompliments,andwishedtoknowifthehousewasonfire。Butitwasonlythehairdressercurlingtheyounggentlemen,andover-heatinghistongsintheardourofbusiness。
WhenPaulwasdressed——whichwasverysoondone,forhefeltunwellanddrowsy,andwasnotabletostandaboutitverylong——hewentdownintothedrawing-room;wherehefoundDoctorBlimberpacingupanddowntheroomfulldressed,butwithadignifiedandunconcerneddemeanour,asifhethoughtitbarelypossiblethatoneortwopeoplemightdropinbyandby。Shortlyafterwards,Mrs。Blimberappeared,lookinglovely,Paulthought;andattiredinsuchanumberofskirtsthatitwasquiteanexcursiontowalkroundher。MissBlimbercamedownsoonafterhermama;alittlesqueezedinappearance,butverycharming。
Mr。TootsandMr。Feederwerethenextarrivals。Eachofthesegentlemenbroughthishatinhishand,asifhelivedsomewhereelse;andwhentheywereannouncedbythebutler,DoctorBlimbersaid,`Aye,aye,aye!Godblessmysoul!'andseemedextremelygladtoseethem。Mr。Tootswasoneblazeofjewelleryandbuttons:andhefeltthecircumstancesostrongly,thatwhenhehadshakenhandswiththeDoctor,andhadbowedtoMrs。BlimberandMissBlimber,hetookPaulaside,andsaid,`Whatdoyouthinkofthis,Dombey?'
Butnotwithstandingthismodestconfidenceinhimself,Mr。Tootsappearedtobeinvolvedinagooddealofuncertaintywhether,onthewhole,itwasjudicioustobuttonthebottombuttonofhiswaistcoat,andwhether,onacalmrevisionofallthecircumstances,itwasbesttowearhiswristbandsturneduporturneddown。ObservingthatMr。Feeder'swereturnedup,Mr。
Tootsturnedhisup;butthewristbandsofthenextarrivalbeingturneddown,Mr。Tootsturnedhisdown。Thedifferencesinpointofwaistcoatbuttoning,notonlyatthebottom,butatthetoptoo,becamesonumerousandcomplicatedasthearrivalsthickened,thatMr。Tootswascontinuallyfingeringthatarticleofdress,asifhewereperformingonsomeinstrument;
andappearedtofindtheincessantexecutionitdemanded,quitebewildering。
Alltheyounggentlemen,tightlycravatted,curled,andpumped,andwiththeirbesthatsintheirhands,havingbeenatdifferenttimesannouncedandintroduced,Mr。Baps,thedancing-master,came,accompaniedbyMrs。Baps,towhomMrs。Blimberwasextremelykindandcondescending。
Mr。Bapswasaverygentleman,withaslowandmeasuredmannerofspeaking;
andbeforehehadstoodunderthelampfiveminutes,hebegantotalktoTootswhohadbeensilentlycomparingpumpswithhimaboutwhatyouweretodowithyourrawmaterialswhentheycameintoyourportsinreturnforyourdrainofgold。Mr。Toots,towhomthequestionseemedperplexing,suggested`Cook'em。'ButMr。Bapsdidnotappeartothinkthatwoulddo。
Paulnowslippedawayfromthecushionedcornerofasofa,whichhadbeenhispostofobservation,andwentdownstairsintothetea-roomtobereadyforFlorence,whomhehadnotseenfornearlyafortnight,ashehadremainedatDoctorBlimber'sonthepreviousSaturdayandSunday,lestheshouldtakecold。Presentlyshecame:lookingsobeautifulinhersimpleballdress,withherfreshflowersinherhand,thatwhenshekneltdownonthegroundtotakePaulroundtheneckandkisshimfortherewasnoonethere,buthisfriendandanotheryoungwomanwaitingtoserveoutthetea,hecouldhardlymakeuphismindtolethergoagain,ortotakeawayherbrightandlovingeyesfromhisface。
`Butwhatisthematter,Floy?'askedPaul,almostsurethathesawatearthere。
`Nothing,darling;nothing,'returnedFlorence。
Paultouchedhercheekgentlywithhisfinger——anditwasatear!`Why,Floy!'saidhe。
`We'llgohometogether,andI'llnurseyou,love,'saidFlorence。
`Nurseme!'echoedPaul。
Paulcouldn'tunderstandwhatthathadtodowithit,notwhythetwoyoungwomenlookedonsoseriously,norwhyFlorenceturnedawayherfaceforamoment,andthenturneditback,lightedupagainwithsmiles。
`Floy,'saidPaul,holdingaringletofherdarkhairinhishand。
`Tellme,dear。DoyouthinkIhavegrownold-fashioned?'
Hissisterlaughed,andfondledhim,andtoldhim`No。'
`BecauseIknowtheysayso,'returnedPaul,`andIwanttoknowwhattheymean,Floy。'
Butalouddoubleknockcomingatthedoor,andFlorencehurryingtothetable,therewasnomoresaidbetweenthem。PaulwonderedagainwhenhesawhisfriendwhispertoFlorence,asifshewerecomfortingher;
butanewarrivalputthatoutofhisheadspeedily。
ItwasSirBarnetSkettles,LadySkettles,andMasterSkettles。
MasterSkettleswastobeanewboyafterthevacation,andFamehadbeenbusy,inMr。Feeder'sroom,withhisfather,whowasintheHouseofCommons,andofwhomMr。FeederhadsaidthatwhenhedidcatchtheSpeaker'seyewhichhehadbeenexpectedtodoforthreeorfouryears,itwasanticipatedthathewouldrathertouchuptheRadicals。
`Andwhatroomisthisnow,forinstance?'saidLadySkettlestoPaul'sfriend,'Melia。
`DoctorBlimber'sstudy,ma'am,'wasthereply。
LadySkettlestookapanoramicsurveyofitthroughherglass,andsaidtoSirBarnetSkettles,withanodofapproval,`Verygood。'SirBarnetassented,butMasterSkettleslookedsuspiciousanddoubtful。
`Andthislittlecreature,now,'saidLadySkettles,turningtoPaul。`Isheoneofthe——'
`Younggentlemen,ma'am;yes,ma'am,'saidPaul'sfriend。
`Andwhatisyourname,mypalechild?'saidLadySkettles。
`Dombey,'answeredPaul。
SirBarnetSkettlesimmediatelyinterposed,andsaidthathehadhadthehonourofmeetingPaul'sfatheratapublicdinner,andthathehopedhewasverywell。ThenPaulheardhimsaytoLadySkettles,`City——veryrich——mostrespectable——Doctormentionedit。'AndthenhesaidtoPaul,`WillyoutellyourgoodpapathatSirBarnetSkettlesrejoicedtohearthathewasverywell,andsenthimhisbestcompliments?'
`Yes,Sir,'answeredPaul。
`Thatismybraveboy,'saidSirBarnetSkettles。`Barnet,'toMasterSkettles,whowasrevenginghimselfforthestudiestocome,ontheplum-cake,`thisisayounggentlemanyououghttoknow。Thisisayounggentlemanyoumayknow,Barnet,'saidSirBarnetSkettles,withanemphasisonthepermission。
`Whateyes!Whathair!Whatalovelyface!'exclaimedLadySkettlessoftly,asshelookedatFlorencethroughherglass。
`Mysister,'saidPaul,presentingher。
ThesatisfactionoftheSkettleseswasnowcomplete。AndasLadySkettleshadconceived,atfirstsight,alikingforPaul,theyallwentupstairstogether:SirBarnetSkettlestakingcareofFlorence,andyoungBarnetfollowing。
YoungBarnetdidnotremainlonginthebackgroundaftertheyhadreachedthedrawing-room,forDr。Blimberhadhimoutinnotime,dancingwithFlorence。HedidnotappeartoPaultobeparticularlyhappy,orparticularlyanythingbutsulky,ortocaremuchwhathewasabout;butasPaulheardLadySkettlessaytoMrs。Blimber,whileshebeattimewithherfan,thatherdearboywasevidentlysmittentodeathbythatangelofachild,MissDombey,itwouldseemthatSkettlesJuniorwasinastateofbliss,withoutshowingit。
LittlePaulthoughtitasingularcoincidencethatnobodyhadoccupiedhisplaceamongthepillows;andthatwhenhecameintotheroomagain,theyshouldallmakewayforhimtogobacktoit,rememberingitwashis。Nobodystoodbeforehimeither,whentheyobservedthathelikedtoseeFlorencedancing,buttheyleftthespaceinfrontquiteclear,sothathemightfollowherwithhiseyes。Theyweresokindtoo,eventhestrangers,ofwhomthereweresoonagreatmany,thattheycameandspoketohimeverynowandthen,andaskedhimhowhewas,andifhisheadached,andwhetherhewastired。Hewasverymuchobligedtothemforalltheirkindnessandattention,andrecliningproppedupinhiscorner,withMrs。BlimberandLadySkettlesonthesamesofa,andFlorencecomingandsittingbyhissideassoonaseverydancewasended,helookedonveryhappilyindeed。
Florencewouldhavesatbyhimallnight,andwouldnothavedancedatallofherownaccord,butPaulmadeher,bytellingherhowmuchitpleasedhim。Andhetoldherthetruth,too;forhissmallheartswelled,andhisfaceglowed,whenhesawhowmuchtheyalladmiredher,andhowshewasthebeautifullittlerosebudoftheroom。
Fromhisnestamongthepillows,Paulcouldseeandhearalmosteverythingthatpassed,asifthewholewerebeingdoneforhisamusement。
Amongotherlittleincidentsthattheobserved,heobservedMr。Bapsthedancing-mastergetintoconversationwithSirBarnetSkettles,andverysoonaskhim,ashehadaskedMr。Toots,whatyouweretodowithyourrawmaterials,whentheycameintoyourportsinreturnforyourdrainofgold——whichwassuchamysterytoPaulthathewasquitedesiroustoknowwhatoughttobedonewiththem。SirBarnetSkettleshadmuchtosayuponthequestion,andsaidit;butitdidnotappeartosolvethequestion,forMr。Bapsretorted,Yes,butsupposingRussiasteppedinwithhertallows;
whichstruckSirBarnetalmostdumb,forhecouldonlyshakehisheadafterthat,andsay,Whythenyoumustfallbackuponyourcottons,hesupposed。
SirBarnetSkettleslookedafterMr。BapswhenhewenttocheerupMrs。Bapswho,beingquitedeserted,waspretendingtolookoverthemusic-bookofthegentlemanwhoplayedtheharp,asifhethoughthimaremarkablekindofman;andshortlyafterwardshesaidsointhosewordstoDoctorBlimber,andinquiredifhemighttakethelibertyofaskingwhohewas,andwhetherhehadeverbeenintheBoardofTrade。DoctorBlimberansweredno,hebelievednot;andthatinfacthewasaProfessorof——
`Ofsomethingconnectedwithstatistics,I'llswear?'observedSirBarnetSkettles。
`Whyno,SirBarnet,'repliedDoctorBlimber,rubbinghischin。
No,notexactly。'
`Figuresofsomesort,Iwouldventureabet,'saidSirBarnetSkettles。
`Whyyes,'saidDoctorBlimber,'`yes,butnotofthatsort。Mr。
Bapsisaveryworthysortofman,SirBarnet,and——infacthe'sourprofessorofdancing。'
PaulwasamazedtoseethatthispieceofinformationquitealteredSirBarnetSkettles'opinionofMr。Baps,andthatSirBarnetflewintoaperfectrage,andgloweredatMr。Bapsoverontheothersideoftheroom。HeevenwentsofarastoDMr。BapstoLadySkettles,intellingherwhathadhappened,andtosaythatitwaslikehismostcon-sum-mateandconfoun-dedimpudence。
TherewasanotherthingthatPaulobserved。Mr。Feeder,afterimbibingseveralcustard-cupsofnegus,begantoenjoyhimself。Thedancingingeneralwasceremonious,andthemusicrathersolemn——alittlelikechurchmusicinfact——butafterthecustard——cups,Mr。FeedertoldMr。
Tootsthathewasgoingtothrowalittlespiritintothething。Afterthat,Mr。Feedernotonlybegantodanceasifhemeantdancingandnothingelse,butsecretlytostimulatethemusictoperformwildtunes。Further,hebecameparticularinhisattentionstotheladies;anddancingwithMissBlimber,whisperedtoher——whisperedtoher!——thoughnotsosoftlybutthatPaulheardhimsaythisremarkablepoetry,`HadIaheartforfalsehoodframed,Ine'ercouldinjureYou!'
ThisPaulheardhimrepeattoyoungladiesinsuccession。WellmightMr。FeedersaytoMr。Toots,thathewasafraidheshouldbetheworseforitto-morrow!
Mrs。Blimberwasalittlealarmedbythis——comparativelyspeaking——profligatebehaviour;andespeciallybythealterationinthecharacterofthemusic,which,beginningtocomprehendlowmelodiesthatwerepopularinthestreets,mightnotunnaturallybesupposedtogiveoffencetoLadySkettles。ButLadySkettleswassoverykindastobegMrs。Blimbernottomentionit;
andtoreceiveherexplanationthatMr。Feeder'sspiritssometimesbetrayedhimintoexcessesontheseoccasions,withthegreatestcourtesyandpoliteness;
observing,thatheseemedaverynicesortofpersonforhissituation,andthatsheparticularlylikedtheunassumingstyleofhishair——whichasalreadyhintedwasaboutaquarterofaninchlong。
Once,whentherewasapauseinthedancing,LadySkettlestoldPaulthatheseemedveryfondofmusic。Paulreplied,Thathewas;andifshewastoo,sheoughttohearhissister,Florence,sing。LadySkettlespresentlydiscoveredthatshewasdyingwithanxietytohavethatgratification;
andthoughFlorencewasatfirstverymuchfrightenedatbeingaskedtosingbeforesomanypeople,andbeggedearnestlytobeexcused,yet,onPaulcallinghertohim,andsaying,`Do,Floy!Please!Forme,mydear!'
shewentstraighttothepiano,andbegan。Whentheyalldrewalittleaway,thatPaulmightseeher;andwhenhesawhersittingthereallalone,soyoung,andgood,andbeautiful,andkindtohim;andheardherthrillingvoice,sonaturalandsweet,andsuchagoldenlinkbetweenhimandallhislife'sloveandhappiness,risingoutofthesilence;heturnedhisfaceaway,andhidhistears。Not,ashetoldthemwhentheyspoketohim,notthatthemusicwastooplaintiveortoosorrowful,butitwassodeartohim。
TheyalllovedFlorence!Howcouldtheyhelpit!Paulhadknownbeforehandthattheymustandwould;andsittinginhiscushionedcorner,withcalmlyfoldedhands,andoneleglooselydoubledunderhim,fewwouldhavethoughtwhattriumphanddelightexpandedhischildishbosomwhilehewatchedher,orwhatasweettranquillityhefelt。Lavishencomiumson`Dombey'ssister'reachedhisearsfromalltheboys:admirationoftheself-possessedandmodestlittlebeautywasoneverylip:reportsofherintelligenceandaccomplishmentsfloatedpasthim,constantly;and,asifborneinupontheairofthesummernight,therewasahalf-intelligiblesentimentdiffusedaround,referringtoFlorenceandhimself,andbreathingsympathyforboth,thatsoothedandtouchedhim。
Hedidnotknowwhy。Forallthatthechildobserved,andfelt,andthought,thatnight——thepresentandtheabsent;whatwasthenandwhathadbeen——wereblendedlikethecoloursintherainbow,orintheplumageofrichbirdswhenthesunisshiningonthem,orinthesofteningskywhenthesamesunissetting。Themanythingshehadhadtothinkoflately,passedbeforehiminthemusic;notasclaiminghisattentionoveragain,oraslikelyevermoretooccupyit,butaspeacefullydisposedofandgone。Asolitarywindow,gazedthroughyearsago,lookedoutuponanocean,milesandmilesaway;uponitswaters,fancies,busywithhimonlyyesterday,werehushedandlulledtorestlikebrokenwaves。Thesamemysteriousmurmurhehadwonderedat,whenlyingonhiscouchuponthebeach,hethoughthestillheardsoundingthroughhissister'ssong,andthroughthehumofvoices,andthetreadoffeet,andhavingsomepartinthefacesflittingby,andevenintheheavygentlenessofMr。Toots,whofrequentlycameuptoshakehimbythehand。Throughtheuniversalkindnesshestillthoughtheheardit,speakingtohim;andevenhisoldfashionedreputationseemedtobealliedtoit,heknewnothow。ThuslittlePaulsatmusing,listening,lookingon,anddreaming;andwasveryhappy。
Untilthetimearrivedfortakingleave:andthen,indeed,therewasasensationintheparty。SirBarnetSkettlesbroughtupSkettlesJuniortoshakehandswithhim,andaskedhimifhewouldremembertotellhisgoodpapa,withhisbestcompliments,thathe,SirBarnetSkettles,hadsaidhehopedthetwoyounggentlemenwouldbecomeintimatelyacquainted。
LadySkettleskissedhim,andpartedhishairuponhisbrow,andheldhiminherarms;andevenMrs。Baps——poorMrs。Baps!Paulwasgladofthat——cameoverfrombesidethemusic-bookofthegentlemanwhoplayedtheharp,andtookleaveofhimquiteasheartilyasanybodyintheroom。
`Good-bye,DoctorBlimber,'saidPaul,stretchingouthishand。
`Good-bye,mylittlefriend,'returnedtheDoctor。
`I'mverymuchobligedtoyou,Sir,'saidPaul,lookinginnocentlyupintohisawfulface。`AskthemtotakecareofDiogenes,ifyouplease。'
Diogeneswasthedog:whohadneverinhislifereceivedafriendintohisconfidence,beforePaul。TheDoctorpromisedthateveryattentionshouldbepaidtoDiogenesinPaul'sabsence,andPaulhavingagainthankedhim,andshakenhandswithhim,badeadieutoMrs。BlimberandCorneliawithsuchheartfeltearnestnessthatMrs。BlimberforgotfromthatmomenttomentionCicerotoLadySkettles,thoughshehadfullyintendeditalltheevening。Cornelia,takingbothPaul'shandsinhers,said,`Dombey,Dombey,youhavealwaysbeenmyfavouritepupil。Godblessyou!'Anditshowed,Paulthought,howeasilyonemightdoinjusticetoaperson;forMissBlimbermeantit——thoughshewasaForcer。
Abuzzthenwentroundamongtheyounggentlemen,of`Dombey'sgoing!'`LittleDombey'sgoing!'andtherewasageneralmoveafterPaulandFlorencedownthestaircaseandintothehall,inwhichthewholeBlimberfamilywereincluded。Suchacircumstance,Mr。Feedersaidaloud,ashadneverhappenedinthecaseofanyformeryounggentlemanwithinhisexperience;
butitwouldbedifficulttosayifthisweresoberfactorcustard-cups。
Theservants,withthebutlerattheirhead,hadallaninterestinseeingLittleDombeygo;andeventheweak-eyedyoungman,takingouthisbooksandtrunkstothecoachthatwastocarryhimandFlorencetoMrs。Pipchin'sforthenight,meltedvisibly。