Walter'sheartfeltheavyashelookedroundhisoldbedroom,upamongtheparapetsandchimney-pots,andthoughtthatonemorenightalreadydarkeningwouldclosehisacquaintancewithit,perhapsforever。
Dismantledofhislittlestockofbooksandpictures,itlookedcoldlyandreproachfullyonhimforhisdesertion,andhadalreadyaforeshadowinguponitofitscomingstrangeness。`Afewhoursmore,'thoughtWalter,`andnodreamIeverhadherewhenIwasaschoolboywillbesolittlemineasthisoldroom。Thedreammaycomebackinmysleep,andImayreturnwakingtothisplace,itmaybe:butthedreamatleastwillservenoothermaster,andtheroommayhaveascore,andeveryoneofthemmaychange,neglect,misuseit。'
Buthisunclewasnottobeleftaloneinthelittlebackparlour,wherehewasthensittingbyhimself;forCaptainCuttle,considerateinhisroughness,stayedawayagainsthiswill,purposelythattheyshouldhavesometalktogetherunobserved:soWalter,newlyreturnedhomefromhislastday'sbustle,descendedbriskly,tobearhimcompany。
`Uncle,'hesaidgaily,layinghishandupontheoldman'sshoulder,`whatshallIsendyouhomefromBarbados?'
`Hope,mydearWally。Hopethatweshallmeetagain,onthissideofthegrave。Sendmeasmuchofthatasyoucan。'
`SoIwill,Uncle:Ihaveenoughandtospare,andI'llnotbecharyofit!Andastolivelyturtles,andlimesforCaptainCuttle'spunch,andpreservesforyouonSundays,andallthatsortofthing,whyI'llsendyouship-loads,Uncle:whenI'mrichenough。'
OldSolwipedhisspectacles,andfaintlysmiled。
`That'sright,Uncle!'criedWalter,merrily,andclappinghimhalfadozentimesmoreupontheshoulder。`Youcheerupme!I'llcheerupyou!We'llbeasgayaslarksto-morrowmorning,Uncle,andwe'llflyashigh!Astomyanticipations,theyaresingingoutofsightnow。'
`Wally,mydearboy,'returnedtheoldman,I'lldomybest,I'lldomybest。'
`Andyourbest,Uncle,'saidWalter,withhispleasantlaugh,`isthebestbestthatIknow。You'llnotforgetwhatyou'retosendme,Uncle?'
`No,Wally,no,'repliedtheoldman;`everythingIhearaboutMissDombey,nowthatsheisleftalone,poorlamb,I'llwrite。Ifearitwon'tbemuchthough,Wally。'
`Why,I'lltellyouwhat,Uncle,'saidWalter,afteramoment'shesitation,`Ihavejustbeenupthere。'
`Ay,ay,ay?'murmuredtheoldman,raisinghiseyebrows,andhisspectacleswiththem。
`Nottoseeher,'saidWalter,`thoughIcouldhaveseenher,Idaresay,ifIhadasked,Mr。Dombeybeingoutoftown:buttosayapartingwordtoSusan。IthoughtImightventuretodothat,youknow,underthecircumstances,andrememberingwhenIsawMissDombeylast。'
`Yes,myboy,yes,'repliedhisUncle,rousinghimselffromatemporaryabstraction。
`SoIsawher,'pursuedWalter,`Susan,Imean:andItoldherIwasoffandawayto-morrow。AndIsaid,Uncle,thatyouhadalwayshadaninterestinMissDombeysincethatnightwhenshewashere,andalwayswishedherwellandhappy,andalwayswouldbeproudandgladtoserveherintheleast:IthoughtImightsaythat,youknow,underthecircumstances。
Don'tyouthinkso?'
`Yes,myboy,yes,'repliedhisUncle,inthetoneasbefore。
`AndIadded,'pursuedWalter,`thatifshe——Susan,Imean——couldeverletyouknow,eitherthroughherself,orMrs。Richards,oranybodyelsewhomightbecomingthisway,thatMissDombeywaswellandhappy,youwouldtakeitverykindly,andwouldwritesomuchtome,andIshouldtakeitverykindlytoo。There!Uponmyword,Uncle,'saidWalter,`Iscarcelysleptalllastnightthroughthinkingofdoingthis;andcouldnotmakeupmykindwhenIwasout,whethertodoitornot;andyetI
amsureitisthetruefeelingofmyheart,andIshouldhavebeenquitemiserableafterwardsifIhadnotrelievedit。'
Hishonestvoiceandmannercorroboratedwhathesaid,andquiteestablisheditsingenuousness。
`So,ifyoueverseeher,Uncle,'saidWalter,`ImeanMissDombeynow——andperhapsyoumay,whoknows!——tellherhowmuchIfeltforher;
howmuchIusedtothinkofherwhenIwashere;howIspokeofher,withthetearsinmyeyes,uncle,onthislastnightbeforeIwentaway。TellherthatIsaidInevercouldforgethergentlemanner,orherbeautifulface,orhersweetkinddispositionthatwasbetterthanall。AndasI
didn'ttakethemfromawoman'sfeet,orayounglady's:onlyalittleinnocentchild's,'saidWalter:`tellher,ifyoudon'tmind,Uncle,thatIkeptthoseshoes——she'llrememberhowoftentheyfelloff,thatnight——andtookthemawaywithmeasaremembrance!'
TheywereatthatverymomentgoingoutatthedoorinoneofWalter'strunks。AportercarryingoffhisbaggageonatruckforshipmentatthedocksonboardtheSonandHeir,hadgotpossessionofthem;andwheeledthemawayundertheveryeyeoftheinsensibleMidshipmanbeforetheirownerhadwellfinishedspeaking。
Butthatancientmarinermighthavebeenexcusedhisinsensibilitytothetreasureasitrolledaway。For,underhiseyeatthesamemoment,accuratelywithinhisrangeofobservation,comingfullintothesphereofhisstartledandintenselywide-awakelook-out,wereFlorenceandSusanNipper:Florencelookingupintohisfacehalftimidly,andreceivingthewholeshockofhiswoodenogling!
Morethanthis,theypassedintotheshop,andpassedinattheparlourdoorbeforetheywereobservedbyanybodybuttheMidshipman。AndWalter,havinghisbacktothedoor,wouldhaveknownnothingoftheirapparitioneventhen,butforseeinghisunclespringoutofhisownchair,andnearlytumbleoveranother。
`Why,Uncle!'exclaimedWalter。`What'sthematter?'
OldSolomonreplied,`MissDombey!'
`Isitpossible?'criedWalter,lookingroundandstartingupinhisturn。`Here!'
Why,itwassopossibleandsoactual,that,whilethewordswereonhislips,Florencehurriedpasthim;tookUncleSol'ssnuff-colouredlappels,oneineachhand;kissedhimonthecheek;andturning,gaveherhandtoWalterwithasimpletruthandearnestnessthatwasherown,andnooneelse'sintheworld!
`Goingaway,Walter!'saidFlorence。
`Yes,MissDombey,'hereplied,butnotsohopefullyasheendeavoured:
`Ihaveavoyagebeforeme。'
`AndyourUncle,'saidFlorence,lookingbackatSolomon。`Heissorryyouaregoing,Iamsure。Ah!Iseeheis!DearWalter,Iamverysorrytoo。'
`Goodnessknows,'exclaimedMissNipper,`there'samanywecouldspareinstead,ifnumbersisaobject,Mrs。Pipchinasaoverseerwouldcomecheapatherweightingold,andifaknowledgeofblackslaveryshouldberequired,themBlimbersistheverypeopleforthesitiwation。'
WiththatMissNipperuntiedherbonnetstrings,andafterlookingvacantlyforsomemomentsintoalittleblackteapotthatwassetforthwiththeusualhomelyserviceonthetable,shookherheadandatincanister,andbeganunaskedtomakethetea。
InthemeantimeFlorencehadturnedagaintotheInstrument-maker,whowasasfullofadmirationassurprise。`Sogrown!'saidoldSol。`Soimproved!Andyetnotaltered!Justthesame!'
`Indeed!'saidFlorence。
`Ye——Yes,'returnedoldSol,rubbinghishandsslowly,andconsideringthematterhalfaloud,assomethingpensiveinthebrighteyeslookingathimarrestedhisattention。`Yes,thatexpressionwasintheyoungerface,too!'
`Yourememberme,'saidFlorencewithasmile,`andwhatalittlecreatureIwasthen?'
`Mydearyounglady,'returnedtheInstrument-maker,`howcouldIforgetyou,oftenasIhavethoughtofyouandheardofyousince!Attheverymoment,indeed,whenyoucamein,Wallywastalkingaboutyoutome,andleavingmessagesforyou,and——'
`Washe?'saidFlorence。`Thankyou,Walter!Ohthankyou,Walter!
Iwasafraidyoumightbegoingawayandhardlythinkingofme;'andagainshegavehimherlittlehandsofreelyandsofaithfullythatWalterhelditforsomemomentsinhisown,andcouldnotbeartoletitgo。
YetWalterdidnotholditashemighthavehelditonce,nordiditstouchawakenthoseoldday-dreamsofhisboyhoodthathadfloatedpasthimsometimesevenlately,andconfusedhimwiththeirindistinctandbrokenshapes。Thepurityandinnocenceofherendearingmanner,anditsperfecttrustfulness,andtheundisguisedregardforhimthatlaysodeeplyseatedinherconstanteyes,andgloweduponherfairfacethroughthesmilethatshaded——foralas!itwasasmiletoosadtobrighten——it,werenotoftheirromanticrace。Theybroughtbacktohisthoughtstheearlydeathbedhehadseenhertending,andthelovethechildhadborneher;andonthewingsofsuchremembrancessheseemedtoriseup,farabovehisidlefancies,intoclearerandserenerair。
`I——IamafraidImustcallyouWalter'sUncle,Sir,'saidFlorencetotheoldman,`ifyou'llletme。'
`Mydearyounglady,'criedoldSol。`Letyou!Goodgracious!'
`Wealwaysknewyoubythatname,andtalkedofyou,'saidFlorence,glancinground,andsighinggently。`Theniceoldparlour!Justthesame!
HowwellIrecollectit!'
OldSollookedfirstather,thenathisnephew,andthenrubbedhishands,andrubbedhisspectacles,andsaidbelowhisbreath,`Ah!time,time,time!'
Therewasashortsilence:duringwhichSusanNipperskilfullyimpoundedtwoextracupsandsaucersfromthecupboard,andawaitedthedrawingoftheteawithathoughtfulair。
`IwanttotellWalter'sUncle,'saidFlorence,layingherhandtimidlyupontheoldman'sasitrestedonthetable,tobespeakhisattention,`somethingthatIamanxiousabout。Heisgoingtobeleftalone,andifhewillallowme——nottotakeWalter'splace,forthatIcouldn'tdo,buttobehistruefriendandhelphimifIevercanwhileWalterisaway,Ishallbeverymuchobligedtohimindeed。Willyou?MayI,Walter'sUncle?'
TheInstrument-maker,withoutspeaking,putherhandtohislips,andSusanNipper,leaningbackwithherarmscrossed,inthechairofpresidencyintowhichshehadvotedherself,bitoneendofherbonnetstrings,andheavedagentlesighasshelookedupattheskylight。
`Youwillletmecometoseeyou,'saidFlorence,`whenIcan;
andyouwilltellmeeverythingaboutyourselfandWalter;andyouwillhavenosecretsfromSusanwhenshecomesandIdonot,butwillconfideinus,andtrustus,andrelyuponus。Andyou'lltrytoletusbeacomforttoyou?Willyou,Walter'sUncle?'
Thesweetfacelookingintohis,thegentlepleadingeyes,thesoftvoice,andthelighttouchonhisarmmadethemorewinningbyachild'srespectandhonourforhisage,thatgavetoallanairofgracefuldoubtandmodesthesitation——these,andhernaturalearnestness,soovercamethepooroldInstrument-maker,thatheonlyanswered:
`Wally!sayawordforme,mydear。I'mverygrateful。'
`No,Walter,'returnedFlorencewithherquietsmile。`Saynothingforhim,ifyouplease。Iunderstandhimverywell,andwemustlearntotalktogetherwithoutyou,dearWalter。'
Theregretfultoneinwhichshesaidtheselatterwords,touchedWaltermorethanalltherest。
`MissFlorence,'hereplied,withanefforttorecoverthecheerfulmannerhehadpreservedwhiletalkingwithhisuncle,`Iknownomorethanmyuncle,whattosayinacknowledgmentofsuchkindness,Iamsure。ButwhatcouldIsay,afterall,ifIhadthepoweroftalkingforanhour,exceptthatitislikeyou?'
SusanNipperbeganuponanewpartofherbonnetstring,andnoddedattheskylight,inapprovalofthesentimentexpressed。
`Oh!but,Walter,'saidFlorence,`thereissomethingthatIwishtosaytoyoubeforeyougoaway,andyoumustcallmeFlorence,ifyouplease,andnotspeaklikeastranger。'
`Likeastranger!'returnedWalter。`No。Icouldn'tspeakso。
Iamsure,atleast,Icouldn'tfeellikeone。'
`Aye,butthatisnotenough,andisnotwhatImean。For,Walter,'
addedFlorence,burstingintotears,`helikedyouverymuch,andsaidbeforehediedthathewasfondofyou,andsaid“RememberWalter!”andifyou'llbeabrothertome,Walter,nowthatheisgoneandIhavenoneonearth,I'llbeyoursisterallmylife,andthinkofyoulikeonewhereverwemaybe!ThisiswhatIwishedtosay,dearWalter,butIcannotsayitasIwould,becausemyheartisfull。'
Andinitsfulnessanditssweetsimplicity,sheheldoutbothherhandstohim。Waltertakingthem,stoopeddownandtouchedthetearfulfacethatneithershrunknorturnedaway,norreddenedashedidso,butlookedupathimwithconfidenceandtruth。Inthatonemoment,everyshadowofdoubtoragitationpassedawayfromWalter'ssoul。Itseemedtohimthatherespondedtoherinnocentappeal,besidethedeadchild'sbed:
and,inthesolemnpresencehehadseenthere,pledgedhimselftocherishandprotectherveryimage,inhisbanishment,withbrotherlyregard;togarneruphersimplefaith,inviolate;andholdhimselfdegradedifhebreatheduponitanythoughtthatwasnotinherownbreastwhenshegaveittohim。
SusanNipper,whohadbittenbothherbonnetstringsatonce,andimpartedagreatdealofprivateemotiontotheskylight,duringthistransaction,nowchangedthesubjectbyinquiringwhotookmilkandwhotooksugar;andbeingenlightenedonthesepoints,pouredoutthetea。
Theyallfourgatheredsociallyaboutthelittletable,andtookteaunderthatyounglady'sactivesuperintendence;andthepresenceofFlorenceinthebackparlour,brightenedtheTartarfrigateonthewall。
HalfanhouragoWalter,forhislife,wouldhavehardlycalledherbyhername。Buthecoulddosonowwhensheentreatedhim。Hecouldthinkofherbeingthere,withoutalurkingmisgivingthatitwouldhavebeenbetterifshehadnotcome。Hecouldcalmlythinkhowbeautifulshewas,howfullofpromise,whatahomesomehappymanwouldfindinsuchaheartoneday。Hecouldreflectuponhisownplaceinthatheart,withpride;andwithabravedetermination,ifnottodeserveit——hestillthoughtthatfarabovehim——nevertodeserveitless。
SomefairyinfluencemustsurelyhavehoveredroundthehandsofSusanNipperwhenshemadethetea,engenderingthetranquilairthatreignedinthebackparlourduringitsdiscussion。Somecounter-influencemustsurelyhavehoveredroundthehandsofUncleSol'schronometer,andmovedthemfasterthantheTartarfrigateeverwentbeforethewind。Bethisasitmay,thevisitorshadacoachinwaitingataquietcornernotfaroff;andthechronometer,onbeingincidentallyreferredto,gavesuchapositiveopinionthatithadbeenwaitingalongtime,thatitwasimpossibletodoubtthefact,especiallywhenstatedonsuchunimpeachableauthority。
IfUncleSolhadbeengoingtobehangedbyhisowntime,heneverwouldhaveallowedthatthechronometerwastoofast,bytheleastfractionofasecond。
Florenceatpartingrecapitulatedtotheoldmanallthatshehadsaidbefore,andboundhimtotheircompact。UncleSolattendedherlovinglytothelegsoftheWoodenMidshipman,andthereresignedhertoWalter,whowasreadytoescortherandSusanNippertothecoach。
`Walter,'saidFlorencebytheway,`Ihavebeenafraidtoaskbeforeyouruncle。Doyouthinkyouwillbeabsentverylong?'
`Indeed,'saidWalter,`Idon'tknow。Ifearso。Mr。Dombeysignifiedasmuch,Ithought,whenheappointedme。'
`Isitafavour,Walter?'inquiredFlorence,afteramoment'shesitation,andlookinganxiouslyinhisface。
`Theappointment?'returnedWalter。
`Yes。'
Walterwouldhavegivenanythingtohaveansweredintheaffirmative,buthisfaceansweredbeforehislipscould,andFlorencewastooattentivetoitnottounderstanditsreply。
`Iamafraidyouhavescarcelybeenafavouritewithpapa,'shesaid,timidly。
`Thereisnoreason,'repliedWalter,smiling,`WhyIshouldbe。'
`Noreason,Walter!'
`Therewasnoreason,'saidWalter,understandingwhatshemeant。`Therearemanypeopleemployedinthehouse。BetweenMr。Dombeyandayoungmanlikeme,there'sawidespaceofseparation。IfIdomyduty,IdowhatIought,anddonomorethanalltherest。'
HadFlorenceanymisgivingofwhichshewashardlyconscious:
anymisgivingthathadsprungintoanindistinctandundefinedexistencesincethatrecentnightwhenshehadgonedowntoherfather'sroom:thatWalter'saccidentalinterestinher,andearlyknowledgeofher,mighthaveinvolvedhiminthatpowerfuldispleasureanddislike?HadWalteranysuchidea,oranysuddenthoughtthatitwasinhermindatthatmoment?
Neitherofthemhintedatit。Neitherofthemspokeatall,forsomeshorttime。Susan,walkingontheothersideofWalter,eyedthembothsharply;
andcertainlyMissNipper'sthoughtstravelledinthatdirection,andveryconfidentlytoo。
`Youmaycomebackverysoon,'saidFlorence,`perhaps,Walter。'
`Imaycomeback,'saidWalter,`anoldman,andfindyouanoldlady。ButIhopeforbetterthings。'
`Papa,'saidFlorence,afteramoment,`will——willrecoverfromhisgrief,and——speakmorefreelytomeoneday,perhaps;andifheshould,IwilltellhowmuchIwishtoseeyoubackagain,andaskhimtorecallyouformysake。'
Therewasatouchingmodulationinthesewordsaboutherfather,thatWalterunderstoodtoowell。
Thecoachbeingcloseathand,hewouldhaveleftherwithoutspeaking,fornowhefeltwhatparting;butFlorenceheldhishandwhenshewasseated,andthenhefoundtherewasalittlepacketinherown。
`Walter,'shesaid,lookingfulluponhimwithheraffectionateeyes,`likeyou,Ihopeforbetterthings。Iwillprayforthem,andbelievethattheywillarrive。ImadethislittlegiftforPaul。Praytakeitwithmylove,anddonotlookatituntilyouaregoneaway。Andnow,Godblessyou,Walter!neverforgetme。Youaremybrother,dear!'
HewasgladthatSusanNippercamebetweenthem,orhemighthaveleftherwithasorrowfulremembranceofhim。Hewasgladtoothatshedidnotlookoutofthecoachagain,butwavedthelittlehandtohiminstead,aslongashecouldseeit。
Inspiteofherrequest,hecouldnothelpopeningthepacketthatnightwhenhewenttobed。Itwasalittlepurse:andtherewasmoneyinit。
Brightrosethesunnextmorning,fromhisabsenceinstrangecountries,anduproseWalterwithittoreceivetheCaptain,whowasalreadyatthedoor:havingturnedoutearlierthanwasnecessary,inordertogetunderweighwhileMrs。MacStingerwasyetslumbering。TheCaptainpretendedtobeintip-topspirits,andbroughtaverysmokytongueinoneofthepocketsofthebroadbluecoatforbreakfast。
`And,Wal'r,'saidtheCaptain,Whentheytooktheirseatsattable,`ifyouruncle'sthemanIthinkhim,he'llbringoutthelastbottleoftheMadeiraonthepresentoccasion。'
`No,no,Ned,'returnedtheoldman。`No!ThatshallbeopenedwhenWaltercomeshomeagain。'
`Wellsaid!'criedtheCaptain。`Hearhim!'
`Thereitlies,'saidSolGills,`downinthelittlecellar,coveredwithdirtandcobwebs。Theremaybedirtandcobwebsoveryouandmeperhaps,Ned,beforeitseesthelight。'
`Hearhim!'criedtheCaptain。`Goodmorality!Wal'rmylad。Trainupafig-treeinthewayitshouldgo,andwhenyouareoldsitundertheshadeonit。Overhaulthe——Well,'saidtheCaptainonsecondthoughts,`Ian'tquitecertainwherethat'stobefound,butwhenfound,makeanoteof。SolGills,heaveaheadagain!'
`Butthere,orsomewhere,itshalllie,Ned,untilWallycomesbacktoclaimit,'saidtheoldman。`That'sallImeanttosay。'
`Andwellsaidtoo,'returnedtheCaptain;`andifwethreedon'tcrackthatbottleincompany,I'llgiveyoutwoleavetodrinkmyallowance!'
NotwithstandingtheCaptain'sexcessivejoviality,hemadebutapoorhandatthesmokytongue,thoughhetriedveryhard,whenanybodylookedathim,toappearasifhewereeatingwithavastappetite。Hewasterriblyafraid,likewise,ofbeingleftalonewitheitheruncleornephew;appearingtoconsiderthathisonlychanceofsafetyastokeepingupappearances,wasintherebeingalwaysthreetogether。ThisterroronthepartoftheCaptain,reducedhimtosuchingeniousevasionsasrunningtothedoor,whenSolomonwenttoputhiscoaton,underpretenceofhavingseenanextraordinaryhackney-coachpass:anddartingoutintotheroadwhenWalterwentupstairstotakeleaveofthelodgers,onafeintofsmellingfireinaneighbouringchimney。TheseartificesCaptainCuttledeemedinscrutablebyanyuninspiredobserver。
Walterwascomingdownfromhispartingexpeditionupstairs,andwascrossingtheshoptogobacktothelittleparlour,whenhesawafadedfaceheknew,lookinginatthedoor,anddartedtowardsit。
`Mr。Carker!'criedWalter,pressingthehandofJohnCarkertheJunior。`Praycomein!Thisiskindofyou,tobeheresoearlytosaygood-byetome。Youknewhowgladitwouldmakemetoshakehandswithyou,once,beforegoingaway。IcannotsayhowgladIamtohavethisopportunity。
Praycomein。'
`Itisnotlikelythatwemayevermeetagain,Walter,'returnedtheother,gentlyresistinghisinvitation,`andIamgladofthisopportunitytoo。Imayventuretospeaktoyou,andtotakeyoubythehand,ontheeveofseparation。Ishallnothavetoresistyourfrankapproaches,Walteranymore。'
Therewasamelancholyinhissmileashesaidit,thatshowedhehadfoundsomecompanyandfriendshipforhisthoughtseveninthat。
`Ah,Mr。Carker!'returnedWalter,`Whydidyourresistthem?
Youcouldhavedonemenothingbutgood,Iamverysure。'
Heshookhishead。`Iftherewereanygood,'hesaid,`Icoulddoonthisearth,Iwoulddoit,Walter,foryou。Thesightofyoufromdaytoday,hasbeenatoncehappinessandremorsetome。Butthepleasurehasoutweighedthepain。Iknowthat,now,byknowingwhatIlose。'
`Comein,Mr。Carker,andmakeacquaintancewithmygoodolduncle,'
urgedWalter。`Ihaveoftentalkedtohimaboutyou,andhewillbegladtotellyouallhehearsfromme。Ihavenot,'saidWalter,noticinghishesitation,andspeakingwithembarrassmenthimself:`Ihavenottoldhimanythingaboutourlastconversation,Mr。Carker;notevenhim,believeme。'
ThegreyJuniorpressedhishand,andtearsroseinhiseyes。
`IfIevermakeacquaintancewithhim,Walter,'hereturned,`itwillbethatImayheartidingsofyou。Relyonmynotwrongingyourforbearanceandconsideration。Itwouldbetowrongit,nottotellhimallthetruth,beforeIsoughtawordofconfidencefromhim。ButIhavenofriendoracquaintanceexceptyou:andevenforyoursake,amlittlelikelytomakeany。'
`Iwish,'saidWalter,`youhadsufferedmetobeyourfriendindeed。Ialwayswishedit,Mr。Carker,asyouknow;butneverhalfsomuchasnow,whenwearegoingtopart。'
`Itisenough,'repliedtheother,`thatyouhavebeenthefriendofmyownbreast,andthatwhenIhaveavoidedyoumost,myheartinclinedthemosttowardsyou,andwasfullestofyou。Walter,good-bye!'
`Good-bye,Mr。Carker。Heavenbewithyou,Sir!'criedWalter,withemotion。
`If,'saidtheother,retaininghishandwhilehespoke;`ifwhenyoucomeback,youmissmefrommyoldcorner,andshouldhearfromanyonewhereIamlying,comeandlookuponmygrave。ThinkthatImighthavebeenashonestandashappyasyou!Andletmethink,whenIknowmytimeiscomingon,thatsomeonelikemyformerselfmaystandthere,foramoment,andremembermewithpityandforgiveness!Walter,good-bye!'
Hisfigurecreptlikeashadowdownthebright,sun-lightedstreet,socheerfulyetsosolemnintheearlysummermorning;andslowlypassedaway。
TherelentlesschronometeratlastannouncedthatWaltermustturnhisbackupontheWoodenMidshipman:andawaytheywent,himself,hisuncle,andtheCaptain,inahackney-coachtoawharf,wheretheyweretotakesteam-boatforsomeReachdowntheriver,thenameofwhich,astheCaptaingaveitout,wasahopelessmysterytotheearsoflandsmen。
ArrivedatthisReachwhithertheshiphadrepairedbylastnight'stide,theywereboardedbyvariousexcitedwatermen,andamongothersbyadirtyCyclopsoftheCaptain'sacquaintance,who,withhisoneeye,hadmadetheCaptainoutsomemileandahalfoff,andhadbeenexchangingunintelligibleroarswithhimeversince。Becomingthelawfulprizeofthispersonage,whowasfrightfullyhoarseandconstitutionallyinwantofshaving,theywereallthreeputaboardtheSonandHeir。AndtheSonandHeirwasinaprettystateofconfusion,withsailslyingallbedraggledonthewetdecks,looseropestrippingpeopleup,meninredshirtsrunningbarefoottoandfro,casksblockadingeveryfootofspace,and,inthethickestofthefray,ablackcookinablackcabooseuptohiseyesinvegetablesandblindedwithsmoke。
TheCaptainimmediatelydrewWalterintoacorner,andwithagreateffort,thatmadehisfaceveryred,pulledupthesilverwatch,whichwassobig,andsotightinhispocket,thatitcameoutlikeabung。
`Wal'rsaidtheCaptain,handingitover,andshakinghimheartilybythehand,`apartinggift,mylad。Putitbackhalfanhoureverymorning,andaboutanotherquartertowardstheafternoon,andit'sawatchthat'lldoyoucredit。'
`CaptainCuttle!Icouldn'tthinkofit!'criedWalter,detaininghim,forhewasrunningaway。`Praytakeitback。Ihaveonealready。'
`Then,Wal'r,'saidtheCaptain,suddenlydivingintooneofhispocketsandbringingupthetwoteaspoonsandthesugar-tongs,withwhichhehadarmedhimselftomeetsuchanobjection,`takethisheretrifleofplate,instead。'
`No,no,Icouldn'tindeed!'criedWalter,`athousandthanks!
Don'tthrowthemaway,CaptainCuttle!'fortheCaptainwasabouttojerkthemoverboard。`They'llbeofmuchmoreusetoyouthanme。Givemeyourstick。IhaveoftenthoughtIshouldliketohaveit。There!Good-bye,CaptainCuttle!Takecareofmyuncle!UncleSol,Godblessyou!'
Theywereoverthesideintheconfusion,beforeWaltercaughtanotherglimpseofeither;andwhenheranuptothestern,andlookedafterthem,hesawhisunclehangingdownhisheadintheboat,andCaptainCuttlerappinghimonthebackwiththegreatsilverwatchitmusthavebeenverypainful,andgesticulatinghopefullywiththeteaspoonsandsugartongs。CatchingsightofWalter,CaptainCuttledroppedthepropertyintothebottomoftheboatwithperfectunconcern,beingevidentlyobliviousofitsexistence,andpullingofftheglazedhathailedhimlustily。Theglazedhatmadequiteashowinthesunwithitsglistening,andtheCaptaincontinuedtowaveituntilhecouldbeseennolonger。Thentheconfusiononboard,whichhadbeenrapidlyincreasing,reacheditsheight;twoorthreeotherboatswentawaywithacheer;thesailsshonebrightandfullabove,asWalterwatchedthemspreadtheirsurfacetothefavourablebreeze;
thewaterflewinsparklesfromtheprow;andoffuponhervoyagewenttheSonandHeir,ashopefullyandtrippinglyasmanyanothersonandheir,gonedown,hadstartedonhiswaybeforeher。
Dayafterday,oldSolandCaptainCuttlekeptherreckoninginthelittlebackparlourandworkedouthercourse,withthechartspreadbeforethemontheroundtable。Atnight,whenoldSolclimbedupstairs,solonely,totheatticwhereitsometimesblewgreatguns,helookedupatthestarsandlistenedtothewind,andkeptalongerwatchthanwouldhavefallentohislotonboardtheship。ThelastbottleoftheoldMadeira,whichhadhaditscruisingdays,andknownitsdangersofthedeep,laysilentlybeneathitsdustandcobwebs,inthemeanwhile,undisturbed。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter20[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERXXMr。DombeygoesuponaJourney`MR。DOMBEY,Sir,'saidMajorBagstock,`JoeyB。isnotingeneralamanofsentiment,forJosephistough。ButJoehashisfeelings,Sir,andwhentheyareawakened——Damme,Mr。Dombey,'criedtheMajorwithsuddenferocity,`thisisweakness,andIwon'tsubmittoit!'
MajorBagstockdeliveredhimselfoftheseexpressionsonreceivingMr。DombeyashisguestattheheadofhisownstaircaseinPrincess'sPlace。Mr。DombeyhascometobreakfastwiththeMajor,previoustotheirsettingforthontheirtrip;andtheill-starredNativehadalreadyundergoneaworldofmiseryarisingoutofthemuffins,while,inconnexionwiththegeneralquestionofboiledeggs,lifewasaburdentohim。
`ItisnotforanoldsoldieroftheBagstockbreed,'observedtheMajor,relapsingintoamildstate,`todeliverhimselfup,apreytohisownemotions;but——damme,Sir,'criedtheMajor,inanotherspasmofferocity,`Icondolewithyou!'
TheMajor'spurplevisagedeepenedinitshue,andtheMajor'slobstereyesstoodoutinbolderrelief,asheshookMr。Dombeybythehand,impartingtothatpeacefulactionasdefiantacharacterasifithadbeenthepreludetohisimmediatelyboxingMr。DombeyforathousandpoundsasideandthechampionshipofEngland。Witharotatorymotionofhishead,andawheezeverylikethecoughofahorse,theMajorthenconductedhisvisitortothesitting-room,andtherewelcomedhimhavingnowcomposedhisfeelingswiththefreedomandfranknessofatravellingcompanion。
`Dombey,'saidtheMajor,`I'mgladtoseeyou。I'mproudtoseeyou。TherearenotmanymeninEuropetowhomJ。Bagstockwouldsaythat——forJoshisblunt。Sir:it'shisnature——butJoeyB。isproudtoseeyou,Dombey。'
`Major,'returnedMr。Dombey,`youareveryobliging。'
`No,Sir,'saidtheMajor,`Devilabit!That'snotmycharacter。
IfthathadbeenJoe'scharacter。Joemighthavebeen,bythistime,Lieutenant-GeneralSirJosephBagstock,K。C。B。,andmighthavereceivedyouinverydifferentquarters。Youdon'tknowoldJoeyet,Ifind。Butthisoccasion,beingspecial,isasourceofpridetome。BytheLord,Sir,'saidtheMajorresolutely,`it'sanhonourtome!'
Mr。Dombey,inhisestimationofhimselfandhismoney,feltthatthiswasverytrue,andthereforedidnotdisputethepoint。ButtheinstinctiverecognitionofsuchatruthbytheMajor,andhisplainavowalofit,wereveryagreeable。ItwasaconfirmationtoMr。Dombey,ifhehasrequiredany,ofhisnotbeingmistakenintheMajor。Itwasanassurancetohimthathispowerextendedbeyondhisownimmediatesphere;andthattheMajor,asanofficerandagentleman,hadanolessbecomingsenseofit,thanthebeadleoftheRoyalExchange。
Andifitwereeverconsolatorytoknowthis,orthelikeofthis,itwasconsolatorythen,whentheimpotenceofhiswill,theinstabilityofhishopes,thefeeblenessofwealth,hadbeensodirefullyimpresseduponhim。Whatcoulditdo,hisboyhadaskedhim。Sometimes,thinkingofthebabyquestion,hecouldhardlyforbearinquiring,himself,whatcoulditdoindeed:whathaditdone?
Butthesewerelonelythoughts,bredlateatnightinthesullendespondencyandgloomofhisretirement,andprideeasilyfounditsreassuranceinmanytestimoniestothetruth,asunimpeachableandpreciousastheMajor's。Mr。Dombey,inhisfriendlessness,inclinedtotheMajor。Itcannotbesaidthathewarmedtowardshim,buthethawedalittle。TheMajorhadhadsomepart——andnottoomuch——inthedaysbytheseaside。Hewasamanoftheworld,andknewsomegreatpeople。Hetalkedmuch,andtoldstories;
andMr。Dombeywasdisposedtoregardhimasachoicespiritwhoshoneinsociety,andwhohadnotthatpoisonousingredientofpovertywithwhichchoicespiritsingeneralaretoomuchadulterated。Hisstationwasundeniable。
AltogethertheMajorwasacreditablecompanion,wellaccustomedtoalifeofleisure,andtosuchplacesasthattheywereabouttovisit,andhavinganairofgentlemanlyeaseabouthimthatmixedwellenoughwithhisownCitycharacter,anddidnotcompetewithitatall。IfMr。DombeyhadanylingeringideathattheMajor,asamanaccustomed,inthewayofhiscalling,tomakelightoftheruthlesshadthathandlatelycrushedhishopes,mightunconsciouslyimpartsomeusefulphilosophytohim,andscareawayhisweakregrets,hehiditfromhimself,andleftitlyingatthebottomofhispride,unexamined。
`Whereismyscoundrel?'saidtheMajor,lookingwrathfullyroundtheroom。
TheNative,whohadnoparticularname,butansweredtoanyvituperativeepithet,presentedhimselfinstantlyatthedoorandventuredtocomenonearer。
`Youvillain!'saidthecholericMajor,`where'sthebreakfast?'
Thedarkservantdisappearedinsearchofit,andwasquicklyheardreascendingthestairsinsuchatremulousstate,thattheplatesanddishesonthetrayhecarried,tremblingsympatheticallyashecame,rattledagain,allthewayup。
`Dombey,'saidtheMajor,glancingattheNativeashearrangedthetable,andencouraginghimwithanawfulshakeofhisfistwhenheupsetaspoon,`hereisadevilledgrill,asavourypie,adishofkidneys,andsoforth。Praysitdown。OldJoecangiveyounothingbutcampfare,yousee。'
`Veryexcellentfare,Major,'repliedhisguest;andnotinmerepolitenesseither;fortheMajoralwaystookthebestpossiblecareofhimself,andindeedaterathermoreofrichmeatsthanwasgoodforhim,insomuchthathisImperialcomplexionwasmainlyreferredbythefacultytothatcircumstance。
`Youhavebeenlookingovertheway,Sir,'observedtheMajor。
`Haveyouseenourfriend?'
`YoumeanMissTox,'retortedMr。Dombey。`No。'
`Charmingwoman,Sir,'saidtheMajor,withafatlaughrisinginhisshortthroat,andnearlysuffocatinghim。
`MissToxisaverygoodsortofperson,Ibelieve,'repliedMr。
Dombey。
ThehaughtycoldnessofthereplyseemedtoaffordMajorBagstockinfinitedelight。Heswelledandswelled,exceedingly:andevenlaiddownhisknifeandforkforamoment,torubhishands。
`OldJoe,Sir,'saidtheMajor,`wasabitofafavouriteinthatquarteronce。ButJoehashadhisday。J。Bagstockisextinguished——outrivalled——floored,Sir。Itellyouwhat,Dombey。'TheMajorpausedinhiseating,andlookedmysteriouslyindignant。`That'sade-vilishambitiouswoman,Sir。'
Mr。Dombeysaid`Indeed?'withfrigidindifference:mingledperhapswithsomecontemptuousincredulityastoMissToxhavingthepresumptiontoharboursuchasuperiorquality。
`Thatwoman,Sir,'saidtheMajor,`is,inherway,aLucifer。
JoeyB。hashadhisday,Sir,buthekeepshiseyes。Hesees,doesJoe。
HisRoyalHighnessthelateDukeofYorkobservedofJoey,atalevee,thathesaw。'
TheMajoraccompaniedthiswithsuchalook,and,betweeneating,drinking,hottea,devilledgrill,muffins,andmeaning,wasaltogethersoswollenandinflamedaboutthehead,thatevenMr。Dombeyshowedsomeanxietyforhim。
`Thatridiculousoldspectacle,Sir,'pursuedtheMajor,`aspires。
Sheaspiressky-high,Sir。Matrimonially,Dombey。'
`Iamsorryforher,'saidMr。Dombey。
`Don'tsaythat,Dombey,'returnedtheMajorinawarningvoice。
`WhyshouldInot,Major?'saidMr。Dombey。
TheMajorgavenoanswerbutthehorse'scough,andwentoneatingvigorously。
`Shehastakenaninterestinyourhousehold,'saidtheMajor,stoppingshortagain,`andhasbeenafrequentvisitoratyourhouseforsometimenow。'
`Yes,'repliedMr。Dombeywithgreatstateliness,`MissToxwasoriginallyreceivedthere,atthetimeofMrs。Dombey'sdeath,asafriendofmysister's;andbeingawell-behavedperson,andshowingalikingforthepoorinfant,shewaspermitted——Imaysayencouraged——torepeathervisitswithmysister,andgraduallytooccupyakindoffootingoffamiliarityinthefamily。Ihave,'saidMr。Dombey,inthetoneofamanwhowasmakingagreatandvaluableconcession,`IhavearespectforMissTox。Shehasbeensoobligingastorendermanylittleservicesinmyhouse:triflingandinsignificantservicesperhaps,Major,butnottobedisparagedonthataccount:andIhopeIhavehadthegoodfortunetobeenabledtoacknowledgethembysuchattentionandnoticeasithasbeeninmypowertobestow。
IholdmyselfindebtedtoMissTox,Major,'addedMr。Dombey,withaslightwaveofhishand,`forthepleasureofyouracquaintance。'
`Dombey,'saidtheMajor,warmly:`no!No,Sir!JosephBagstockcanneverpermitthatassertiontopassuncontradicted。YourknowledgeofoldJoe,Sir,suchasheis,andoldJoe'sknowledgeofyou,Sir,haditsorigininanoblefellow,Sir——inagreatcreature,Sir。Dombey!'saidtheMajor,withastrugglewhichitwasnotverydifficulttoparade,hiswholelifebeingastruggleagainstallkindsofapoplecticsymptoms,`wekneweachotherthroughyourboy。'
Mr。Dombeyseemedtouched,asitisnotimprobabletheMajordesignedheshouldbe,bythisallusion。Helookeddownandsighed:andtheMajor,rousinghimselffiercely,againsaid,inreferencetothestateofmindintowhichhefelthimselfindangeroffalling,thatthiswasweakness,andnothingshouldinducehimtosubmittoit。
`Ourfriendhasaremoteconnexionwiththatevent,'saidtheMajor,`andallthecreditthatbelongstoher,J。B。iswillingtogiveher,Sir。Notwithstandingwhich,Ma'am,'headded,raisinghiseyesfromhisplate,andcastingthemacrossPrincess'sPlace,towhereMissToxwasatthatmomentvisibleatherwindowwateringherflowers,`you'reaschemingjade,Ma'am,andyourambitionisapieceofmonstrousimpudence。
Ifitonlymadeyourselfridiculous,Ma'am,'saidtheMajor,rollinghisheadattheunconsciousMissTox,whilehisstartingeyesappearedtomakealeaptowardsher,`youmightdothattoyourheart'scontent,Ma'am,withoutanyobjection,Iassureyou,onthepartofBagstock。'HeretheMajorlaughedfrightfullyupinthetipsofhisearsandintheveinsofhishead。`Butwhen,Ma'am,'saidtheMajor,`youcompromiseotherpeople,andgenerous,unsuspiciouspeopletoo,asarepaymentfortheircondescension,youstirthebloodofoldJoeinhisbody。'
`Major,'saidMr。Dombey,reddening,`IhopeyoudonothintatanythingsoabsurdonthepartofMissToxas——'
`Dombey,'returnedtheMajor,`Ihintatnothing。ButJoeyB。
haslivedintheworld,Sir:livedintheworldwithhiseyesopen,Sir,andhisearscocked:andJoetellsyou,Dombey,thatthere'sade-vilishartfulandambitiouswomanovertheway。'
Mr。Dombeyinvoluntarilyglancedovertheway;andanangryglancehesentinthatdirection,too。
`That'sallonsuchasubjectthatshallpassthelipsofJosephBagstock,'saidtheMajorfirmly。`Joeisnotatalebearer,buttherearetimeswhenhemustspeak,whenhewillspeak!——confoundyourarts,Ma'am,'criedtheMajor,againapostrophisinghisfairneighbour,withgreatire,——`whentheprovocationistoostrongtoadmitofhisremainingsilent。'
TheemotionofthisoutbreakthrewtheMajorintoaparoxysmofhorse'scoughs,whichheldhimforalongtime。Onrecoveringheadded:
`Andnow,Dombey,asyouhaveinvitedJoe——oldJoe,whohasnoothermerit,Sir,butthatheistoughandhearty——tobeyourguestandguideatLeamington,commandhiminanywayyouplease,andheiswhollyyours。Idon'tknow,Sir,'saidtheMajor,wagginghisdoublechinwithajocoseair,`whatitisyoupeopleseeinJoetomakeyouholdhiminsuchgreatrequest,allofyou;butthisIknow,Sir,thatifhewasn'tprettytough,andobstinateinhisrefusals,you'dkillhimamongyouwithyourinvitationsandsoforth,indouble-quicktime。'
Mr。Dombey,inafewwords,expressedhissenseofthepreferencehereceivedoverthoseotherdistinguishedmembersofsocietywhowereclamouringforthepossessionofMajorBagstock。ButtheMajorcuthimshortbygivinghimtounderstandthathefollowedhisowninclinations,andthattheyhadrisenupinabodyandsaidwithoneaccord,`J。B。,Dombeyisthemanforyoutochooseasafriend。'
TheMajorbeingbythistimeinastateofrepletion,withessenceofsavourypieoozingoutatthecornersofhiseyes,anddevilledgrillandkidneystighteninghiscravat:andthetimemoreoverapproachingforthedepartureoftherailwaytraintoBirmingham,bywhichtheyweretoleavetown:theNativegothimintohisgreat-coatwithimmensedifficulty,andbuttonedhimupuntilhisfacelookedstaringandgasping,overthetopofthatgarment,asifhewereinabarrel。TheNativethenhandedhimseparately,andwithadecentintervalbetweeneachsupply,hiswash-leathergloves,histhickstick,andhishat;whichlatterarticletheMajorworewitharakishairononesideofhishead,bywayoftoningdownhisremarkablevisage。TheNativehadpreviouslypacked,inallpossibleandimpossiblepartsofMr。Dombey'schariot,whichwasinwaiting,anunusualquantityofcarpet-bagsandsmallportmanteaus,nolessapoplecticinappearancethantheMajorhimself:andhavingfilledhisownpocketswithSeltzerwater,EastIndiasherry,sandwiches,shawls,telescopes,maps,andnewspapers,anyorallofwhichlightbaggagetheMajormightrequireatanyinstantofthejourney,heannouncedthateverythingwasready。Tocompletetheequipmentofthisunfortunateforeignercurrentlybelievedtobeaprinceinhisowncountry,whenhetookhisseatintherumblebythesideofMr。Towlinson,apileoftheMajor'scloaksandgreat-coatswashurleduponhimbythelandlord,whoaimedathimfromthepavementwiththosegreatmissileslikeaTitan,andsocoveredhimup,thatheproceeded,inalivingtomb,totherailroadstation。
Butbeforethecarriagemovedaway,andwhiletheNativewasintheactofsepulture,MissToxappearingatherwindow,wavedalily-whitehandkerchief。Mr。Dombeyreceivedthispartingsalutationverycoldly——verycoldlyevenforhim——andhonouringherwiththeslightestpossibleinclinationofhishead,leanedbackinthecarriagewithaverydiscontentedlook。
HismarkedbehaviourseemedtoaffordtheMajorwhowasallpolitenessinhisrecognitionofMissToxunboundedsatisfaction;andhesatforalongtimeafterwards,leering,andchoking,likeanover-fedMephistopheles。
Duringthebustleofpreparationattherailway,Mr。Dombeyandthemajorwalkedupanddowntheplatformsidebyside;theformertaciturnandgloomy,andthelatterentertaininghim,orentertaininghimself,withavarietyofanecdotesandreminiscences,inmostofwhichJoeBagstockwastheprincipalperformer。Neitherofthetwoobservedthatinthecourseofthesewalks,theyattractedtheattentionofaworkingmanwhowasstandingneartheengine,andwhotouchedhishateverytimetheypassed;forMr。
Dombeyhabituallylookedoverthevulgarherd,notatthem;andtheMajorwaslooking,atthetime,intothecoreofoneofhisstories。Atlength,however,thismansteppedbeforethemastheyturnedround,andpullinghishatoff,andkeepingitoff,duckedhisheadtoMr。Dombey。
`Begyourpardon,Sir,'saidtheman,`butIhopeyou'readoin'
prettywell,Sir。'
Hewasdressedinacanvasssuitabundantlybesmearedwithcoal-dustandoil,andcindersinhiswhiskers,andasmellofhalf-slakedashesalloverhim。Hewasnotabad-lookingfellow,norevenwhatcouldbefairlycalledadirty-lookingfellow,inspiteofthis;and,inshort,hewasMr。Toodle,professionallyclothed。
`Ishallhavethehonourofstokin'ofyoudown,Sir,'saidMr。
Toodle。`Begyourpardon,Sir。Ihopeyoufindyourselfacominground?'
Mr。Dombeylookedathim,inreturnforhistoneofinterest,asifamanlikethatwouldmakehisveryeyesightdirty。
`'Scusetheliberty,Sir,'saidToodle,seeinghewasnotclearlyremembered,`butmywifePolly,aswascalledRichardsinyourfamily——'
AchangeinMr。Dombey'sface,whichseemedtoexpressrecollectionofhim,andsoitdid,butitexpressedinamuchstrongerdegreeandangrysenseofhumiliation,stoppedMr。Toodleshort。
`Yourwifewantsmoney,Isuppose,'saidMr。Dombey,puttinghishandinhispocket,andspeakingbutthathealwaysdidhaughtily。
`Nothank'ee,Sir,'returnedToodle,`Ican'tsayshedoes。Idon't。'
Mr。Dombeywasstoppedshortnowinhisturn:andawkwardly:withhishandinhispocket。
`No,Sir,'saidToodle,turninghisoilskincaproundandround;
`we'readoin'prettywell,Sir;wehaven'tnocausetocomplainintheworldlyway,Sir。We'vehadfourmoresincethen,Sir,butwerubson。'
Mr。Dombeywouldhaverubbedontohisowncarriage,thoughinsodoinghehadrubbedthestokerunderneaththewheels;buthisattentionwasarrestedbysomethinginconnexionwiththecapstillgoingslowlyroundandroundintheman'shand。
`Welostonebabby,'observedToodle,`there'snodenyin。'
`Lately,'addedMr。Dombey,lookingatthecap。
`No,Sir,up'ardofthreeyearsago,butalltherestishearty。
Andinthemattero'readin',Sir,'saidToodle,duckingagain,asiftoremindMr。Dombeyofwhathadpassedbetweenthemonthatsubjectlongago,`themboyso'mine,theylearnedme,among'em,arterall。They'vemadeawerytolerablescholarofme,Sir,themboys。'
`Come,Major!'saidMr。Dombey。
`Begyourpardon,Sir,'resumedToodle,takingastepbeforethemanddeferentiallystoppingthemagain,stillcapinhand:`Iwouldn'thavetroubledyouwithsuchapintexceptasawayofgettin'inthenameofmysonBiler——christenedRobin——himasyouwassogoodastomakeaCharitableGrinderon。'
`Well,man,'saidMr。Dombeyinhisseverestmanner。`Whatabouthim?'
`Why,Sir,'returnedToodle,shakinghisheadwithafaceofgreatanxietyanddistress,`I'mforcedtosay,Sir,thathe'sgonewrong。'
`Hehasgonewrong,hashe?'saidMr。Dombey,withahardkindofsatisfaction。
`Hehasfellintobadcompany,yousee,gentlemen,'pursuedthefather,lookingwistfullyatboth,andevidentlytakingtheMajorintotheconversationwiththehopeofhavinghissympathy。`Hehasgotintobadways。Godsendhemaycometoagain,gentlemen,buthe'sonthewrongtracknow!Youcouldhardlybeoffhearingofitsomehow,Sir,'saidToodle,againaddressingMr。Dombeyindividually;`andit'sbetterIshouldoutandsaymyboy'sgoneratherwrong。Polly'sdreadfuldownaboutit,genelmen,'
saidToodlewiththesamedejectedlook,andanotherappealtotheMajor。
`Asonofthisman'swhomIcausedtobeeducated,Major,'saidMr。Dombey,givinghimhisarm。`Theusualreturn!'
`TakeadvicefromplainoldJoe,andnevereducatethatsortofpeople,Sir,'returnedtheMajor。`Damme,Sir,itneverdoes!Ialwaysfails!'
Thesimplefatherwasbeginningtosubmitthathehopedhisson,thequondamGrinder,huffedandcuffed,andfloggedandbadged,andtaught,asparrotsare,byabrutejobbedintohisplaceofschoolmasterwithasmuchfitnessforitasahound,mightnothavebeeneducatedonquitearightplaninsomeundiscoveredrespect,whenMr。Dombeyangrilyrepeating`Theusualreturn!'ledtheMajoraway。AndtheMajorbeingheavytohoistintoMr。Dombey'scarriageelevatedinmidair,andhavingtostopandswearthathewouldflaytheNativealive,andbreakveryboneinhisskin,andvisitotherphysicaltormentsuponhim,everytimehecouldn'tgethisfootonthestep,andfellbackonthatdarkexile,hadbarelytimebeforetheystartedtorepeathoarselythatitwouldneverdo:thatitalwaysfailed:andthatifheweretoeducate`hisownvagabond,'hewouldcertainlybehanged。
Mr。Dombeyassentedbitterly;buttherewassomethingmoreinhisbitterness,andinhismoodywayoffallingbackinthecarriage,andlookingwithknittedbrowsatthechangingobjectswithout,thatthefailureofthatnobleeducationalsystemadministeredbytheGrinders'Company。
Hehadseenupontheman'sroughcapapieceofnewcrape,andhehadassuredhimself,fromhismannerandhisanswers,thatheworeitforhisson。
So!fromhightolow,athomeorabroad,fromFlorenceinhisgreathousetothecoarsechurlwhowasfeedingthefirethensmokingbeforethem,everyonesetupsomeclaimorothertoashareinhisdeadboy,andwasabidderagainsthim!Couldheeverforgethowthatwomanhadweptoverhispillow,andcalledhimherownchild!orhowhe,wakingfromhissleep,hadaskedforher,andhadraisedhimselfinhisbedandbrightenedwhenshecamein!
Tothinkofthispresumptuousrakeramongcoalsandashesgoingonbeforethere,withhissignofmourning!Tothinkthathedaredtoenter,evenbyacommonshowlikethat,intothetrialanddisappointmentofaproudgentleman'ssecretheart!Tothinkthatthislostchild,whowastohavedividedwithhimhisriches,andhisprojects,andhispower,andalliedwithwhomhewastohaveshutoutalltheworldaswithadoubledoorofgold,shouldhaveletinsuchaherdtoinsulthimwiththeirknowledgeofhisdefeatedhopes,andtheirboastsofclaimingcommunityoffeelingwithhimself,sofarremoved:ifnotofhavingcreptintotheplacewhereinhewouldhavelordedit,alone!
Hefoundnopleasureorofreliefinthejourney。Torturedbythesethoughtshecarriedmonotonywithhim,throughtherushinglandscape,andhurriedheadlong,notthrougharichandvariedcountry,butawildernessofblightedplansandgnawingjealousies。Theveryspeedatwhichthetrainwaswhirledalongmockedtheswiftcourseoftheyounglifethathadbeenborneawaysosteadilyandsoinexorablytoitsforedoomedend。Thepowerthatforceditselfuponitsironway——itsown——defiantofallpathsandroads,piercingthroughtheheartofeveryobstacle,anddragginglivingcreaturesofallclasses,ages,anddegreesbehindit,wasatypeofthetriumphantmonster,Death。
Away,withashriek,andaroar,andarattle,fromthetown,burrowingamongthedwellingsofmenandmakingthestreetshum,flashingoutintothemeadowsforamoment,mininginthroughthedampearth,boomingonindarknessandheavyair,burstingoutagainintothesunnydaysobrightandwide;away,withashriek,andaroar,andarattle,throughthefields,throughthewoods,throughthecorn,throughthehay,throughthechalk,throughthemould,throughtheclay,throughtherock,amongobjectscloseathandandalmostinthegrasp,everflyingfromthetraveller,andadeceitfuldistanceevermovingslowlywithinhim:likeasinthetrackoftheremorselessmonster,Death!
Throughthehallow,ontheheight,bytheheath,bytheorchard,bythepark,bythegarden,overthecanal,acrosstheriver,wherethesheeparefeeding,wherethemillisgoing,wherethebargeisfloating,wherethedeadarelying,wherethefactoryissmoking,wherethestreamisrunning,wherethevillageclusters,wherethegreatcathedralrises,wherethebleakmoorlies,andthewildbreezesmoothsorrufflesitatitsinconstantwill;away,withashriek,andaroar,andarattle,andnotracetoleavebehindbutdustandvapour:likeasinthetrackoftheremorselessmonster,Death!
Breastingthewindandlight,theshowerandsunshine,away,andstillaway,itrollsandroars,fierceandrapid,smoothandcertain,andgreatworksandmassivebridges,crossingupabove,falllikeabeamofshadowaninchbroad,upontheeye,andthenarelost。Away,andstillaway,onwardandonwardever:glimpsesofcottage-homes,ofhouses,mansions,richestates,ofhusbandryandhandicraft,ofpeople,ofoldroadsandpathsthatlookdeserted,small,andinsignificantastheyareleftbehind:
andsotheydo,andwhatelseistherebutsuchglimpses,inthetrackoftheindomitablemonster,Death!
Away,withashriek,andaroar,andarattle,plungingdownintotheearthagain,andworkingoninsuchastormofenergyandperseverance,thatamidstthedarknessandwhirlwindthemotionseemsreversed,andtotendfuriouslybackward,untilarayoflightuponthewetwallshowsitssurfaceflyingpastlikeafiercestream。Awayoncemoreintotheday,andthroughtheday,withashrillyellofexultation,roaring,rattling,tearingon,spurningeverythingwithitsdarkbreath,sometimespausingforaminutewhereacrowdoffacesare,thatinaminutemorearenot;
sometimeslappingwatergreedily,andbeforethespoutatwhichitdrinkshasceasedtodripupontheground,shrieking,roaring,rattlingthroughthepurpledistance!
Louderandlouderyet,itshrieksandcriesasitcomestearingonresistlesstothegoal:andnowitsway,stilllikethewayofDeath,isstrewnwithashesthickly。Everythingaroundisblackened。Therearedarkpoolsofwater,muddylanes,andmiserablehabitationsfarbelow。
Therearejaggedwallsandfallinghousescloseathand,andthroughthebatteredroofsandbrokenwindows,wretchedroomsareseen,wherewantandfeverhidethemselvesinmanywretchedshapes,whilesmokeandcrowdedgables,anddistortedchimneys,anddeformityofbrickandmortarpenningupdeformityofmindandbody,chokethemurkydistance。AsMr。Dombeylooksoutofhiscarriagewindow,itisneverinhisthoughtsthatthemonsterwhohasbroughthimtherehasletthelightofdayinonthesethings:notmadeorcausedthem。Itwasthejourney'sfittingend,andmighthavebeentheendofeverything;itwassoruinousanddreary。
So,pursuingtheonecourseofthought,hehadtheonerelentlessmonsterstillbeforehim。Allthingslookedblack,andcold,anddeadlyuponhim,andheonthem。Hefoundalikenesstohismisfortuneeverywhere。
Therewasaremorselesstriumphgoingonabouthim,anditgalledandstunghiminhisprideandjealousy,whateverformittook:thoughmostofallwhenitdividedwithhimtheloveandmemoryofhislostboy。
Therewasaface——hehadlookeduponit,onthepreviousnight,anditonhimwitheyesthatreadhissoul,thoughtheyweredimwithtears,andhiddensoonbehindtwoquiveringhands——thatoftenhadattendedhiminfancy,onthisride。Hehadseenit,withtheexpressionoflastnight,timidlypleadingtohim。Itwasnotreproachful,buttherewassomethingofdoubt,almostofhopefulincredulityinit,which,asheoncemoresawthatfadeawayintoadesolatecertaintyofhisdislike,waslikereproach。
ItwasatroubletohimtothinkofthisfaceofFlorence。
Becausehefeltanynewcompunctiontowardsit?No。Becausethefeelingitawakenedinhim——ofwhichhehadhadsomeoldforeshadowinginoldertimes——wasfull-formednow,andspokeoutplainly,movinghimtoomuch,andthreateningtogrowtoostrongforhiscomposure。Becausethefacewasabroad,intheexpressionofdefeatandpersecutionthatseemedtoencirclehimliketheair。Becauseitbarbedthearrowofthatcruelandremorselessenemyonwhichhisthoughtssoran,andputintoitsgraspadouble-handedsword。Becauseheknewfullwell,inhisownbreast,ashestoodthere,tingingthesceneoftransitionbeforehimwiththemorbidcoloursofhisownmind,andmakingitaruinandapictureofdecay,insteadofhopefulchange,andpromiseofbetterthings,thatlifehadquiteasmuchtodowithhiscomplainingsasdeath。Onechildwasgone,andonechildleft。Whywastheobjectofhishoperemovedinsteadofher?
Thesweet,calm,gentlepresenceinhisfancy,movedhimtonoreflectionbutthat。Shehadbeenunwelcometohimfromthefirst;shewasanaggravationofhisbitternessnow。Ifhissonhadbeenhisonlychild,andthesameblowhadfallenonhim,itwouldhavebeenheavytobear;butinfinitelylighterthannow,whenitmighthavefallenonherwhomhecouldhavelost,orhebelievedit,withoutapang,andhadnot。
Herlovingandinnocentfacerisingbeforehim,andhadnosofteningorwinninginfluence。Herejectedtheangel,andtookupwiththetormentingspiritcrouchinginhisbosom。Herpatience,goodness,youth,devotion,love,wereassomanyatomsintheashesuponwhichhesethisheel。Hesawherimageintheblightandblacknessallaroundhim,notirradiatingbutdeepeningthegloom。Morethanonceuponthisjourney,andhowagainashestoodponderingatthisjourney'send,tracingfiguresinthedustwithhisstick,thethoughtcameintohismind,whatwastherehecouldinterposebetweenhimselfandit?
TheMajor,whohadbeenblowingandpantingallthewaydown,likeanotherengine,andwhoseeyehadoftenwanderedfromhisnewspapertoleerattheprospect,asiftherewereaprocessionofdiscomfitedMissToxespouringoutinthesmokeofthetrain,andflyingawayoverthefieldstohidethemselvesinanyplaceofrefuge,arousedhisfriendbyinforminghimthatthepost-horseswereharnessedandthecarriageready。
`Dombey,'saidtheMajor,rappinghimonthearmwithhiscane,`don'tbethoughtful。It'sabadhabit。OldJoe,Sir,wouldn'tbeastoughasyouseehim,ifhehadeverencouragedit。Youaretoogreataman,Dombey,tobethoughtful。Inyourposition,Sir,you'refarabovethatkindofthing。'
TheMajoreveninhisfriendlyremonstrances,thusconsultingthedignityandhonourofMr。Dombey,andshowingalivelysenseoftheirimportance,Mr。Dombeyfeltmorethaneverdisposedtodefertoagentlemanpossessingsomuchgoodsenseandsuchawell-regulatedmind;accordinglyhemadeanefforttolistentotheMajor'sstories,astheytrottedalongtheturnpikeroad;andtheMajor,findingboththepaceandtheroadagreatdealbetteradaptedtohisconversationalpowersthanthemodeoftravellingtheyhadjustrelinquished,cameoutforhisentertainment。
Inthisflowofspiritsandconversation,onlyinterruptedbyhisusualplethoricsymptoms,andbyintervalsoflunch,andfromtimetotimebysomeviolentassaultupontheNative,whoworeapairofear-ringsinhisdark-brownears,andonwhomhisEuropeanclothessatwithanoutlandishimpossibilityofadjustment——being,oftheirownaccord,andwithoutanyreferencetothetailor'sart,longwheretheyoughttobeshort,shortwheretheyoughttobelong,tightwheretheyoughttobeloose,andloosewheretheyoughttobetight——andtowhichheimpartedanewgrace,whenevertheMajorattackedhim,byshrinkingintothemlikeashrivellednut,oracoldmonkey——inthisflowofspiritsandconversation,theMajorcontinuedallday:sothatwheneveningcameon,andfoundthemtrottingthroughthegreenandleafyroadnearLeamington,theMajor'svoice,whatwithtalkingandeatingandchucklingandchoking,appearedtobeintheboxundertherumble,orinsomeneighbouringhay-stack。NordidtheMajorimproveitattheRoyalHotel,whereroomsanddinnerhadbeenordered,andwherehesooppressedhisorgansofspeechbyeatinganddrinking,thatwhenheretiredtobedhehadnovoiceatall,excepttocoughwith,andcouldonlymakehimselfintelligibletothedarkservantbygaspingathim。
Henotonlyrosenextmorning,however,likeagiantrefreshed,butconductedhimself,atbreakfast,likeagiantrefreshing。Atthismealtheyarrangedtheirdailyhabits。TheMajorwastotaketheresponsibilityororderingeverythingtoeatanddrink;andtheyweretohavealatebreakfasttogethereverymorning,andalatedinnertogethereveryday。Mr。Dombeywouldpreferremaininginhisownroom,orwalkinginthecountrybyhimself,onthatfirstdayoftheirsojournatLeamington;butnextmorninghewouldbehappytoaccompanytheMajortothePump-room,andaboutthetown。Sotheyparteduntildinner-time。Mr。Dombeyretiredtonursehiswholesomethoughtsinhisownway。TheMajor,attendedbytheNativecarryingacamp-stool,agreat-coast,andanumbrella,swaggeredupanddownthroughallthepublicplaces:lookingintosubscriptionbookstofindoutwhowasthere,lookingupoldladiesbywhomhewasmuchadmired,reportingJ。B。tougherthanever,andpuffinghisrichfriendDombeywhereverhewent。ThereneverwasamanwhostoodbyafriendmorestaunchlythantheMajor,wheninpuffinghim,hepuffedhimself。