Thebloodrushedtoherface。Hehadhisreasons,then——shewassurenowthathehadhisreasons!Inthetenyearsoftheirmarriage,howoftenhadeitherofthemstoppedtoconsidertheideasonwhichitwasfounded?Howoftendoesamandigaboutthebasementofhishousetoexamineitsfoundation?Thefoundationisthere,ofcourse——thehouserestsonit——butonelivesabovestairsandnotinthecellar。Itwasshe,indeed,whointhebeginninghadinsistedonreviewingthesituationnowandthen,onrecapitulatingthereasonswhichjustifiedhercourse,onproclaiming,fromtimetotime,heradherencetothereligionofpersonalindependence;butshehadlongceasedtofeeltheneedofanysuchidealstandards,andhadacceptedhermarriageasfranklyandnaturallyasthoughithadbeenbasedontheprimitiveneedsoftheheart,andneedednospecialsanctiontoexplainorjustifyit。
  “OfcourseIstillbelieveinourideas!”sheexclaimed。
  “ThenIrepeatthatIdon'tunderstand。Itwasapartofyourtheorythatthegreatestpossiblepublicityshouldbegiventoourviewofmarriage。Haveyouchangedyourmindinthatrespect?”
  Shehesitated。“Itdependsoncircumstances——onthepubliconeisaddressing。ThesetofpeoplethattheVanSiderensgetaboutthemdon'tcareforthetruthorfalsenessofadoctrine。Theyareattractedsimplybyitsnovelty。“
  “AndyetitwasinjustsuchasetofpeoplethatyouandImet,andlearnedthetruthfromeachother。“
  “Thatwasdifferent。“
  “Inwhatway?”
  “Iwasnotayounggirl,tobeginwith。Itisperfectlyunfittingthatyounggirlsshouldbepresentat——atsuchtimes——
  shouldhearsuchthingsdiscussed——“
  “IthoughtyouconsidereditoneofthedeepestsocialwrongsthatsuchthingsneverAREdiscussedbeforeyounggirls;butthatisbesidethepoint,forIdon'trememberseeinganyyounggirlinmyaudienceto-day——“
  “ExceptUnaVanSideren!”
  Heturnedslightlyandpushedbackthelampathiselbow。
  “Oh,MissVanSideren——naturally——“
  “Whynaturally?”
  “Thedaughterofthehouse——wouldyouhavehadhersentoutwithhergoverness?”
  “IfIhadadaughterIshouldnotallowsuchthingstogooninmyhouse!”
  Westall,strokinghismustache,leanedbackwithafaintsmile。
  “IfancyMissVanSiderenisquitecapableoftakingcareofherself。“
  “Nogirlknowshowtotakecareofherself——tillit'stoolate。“
  “Andyetyouwoulddeliberatelydenyherthesurestmeansofself-defence?”
  “Whatdoyoucallthesurestmeansofself-defence?”
  “Somepreliminaryknowledgeofhumannatureinitsrelationtothemarriagetie。“
  Shemadeanimpatientgesture。“Howshouldyouliketomarrythatkindofagirl?”
  “Immensely——ifsheweremykindofgirlinotherrespects。“
  Shetookuptheargumentatanotherpoint。
  “Youarequitemistakenifyouthinksuchtalkdoesnotaffectyounggirls。Unawasinastateofthemostabsurdexaltation——“
  Shebrokeoff,wonderingwhyshehadspoken。
  Westallreopenedamagazinewhichhehadlaidasideatthebeginningoftheirdiscussion。“Whatyoutellmeisimmenselyflatteringtomyoratoricaltalent——butIfearyouoverrateitseffect。IcanassureyouthatMissVanSiderendoesn'thavetohaveherthinkingdoneforher。She'squitecapableofdoingitherself。“
  “Youseemveryfamiliarwithhermentalprocesses!”flashedunguardedlyfromhiswife。
  Helookedupquietlyfromthepageshewascutting。
  “Ishouldliketobe,“heanswered。“Sheinterestsme。“
  II
  Iftherebeadistinctioninbeingmisunderstood,itwasonedeniedtoJuliaWestallwhensheleftherfirsthusband。Everyonewasreadytoexcuseandeventodefendher。TheworldsheadornedagreedthatJohnArmentwas“impossible,“andhostessesgaveasighofreliefatthethoughtthatitwouldnolongerbenecessarytoaskhimtodine。
  Therehadbeennoscandalconnectedwiththedivorce:neithersidehadaccusedtheotheroftheoffenceeuphemisticallydescribedas“statutory。“TheArmentshadindeedbeenobligedtotransfertheirallegiancetoaStatewhichrecognizeddesertionasacausefordivorce,andconstruedthetermsoliberallythattheseedsofdesertionwereshowntoexistineveryunion。EvenMrs。Arment'ssecondmarriagedidnotmaketraditionalmoralitystirinitssleep。Itwasknownthatshehadnotmethersecondhusbandtillaftershehadpartedfromthefirst,andshehad,moreover,replacedarichmanbyapoorone。ThoughClementWestallwasacknowledgedtobearisinglawyer,itwasgenerallyfeltthathisfortuneswouldnotriseasrapidlyashisreputation。TheWestallswouldprobablyalwayshavetolivequietlyandgoouttodinnerincabs。CouldtherebebetterevidenceofMrs。Arment'scompletedisinterestedness?
  Ifthereasoningbywhichherfriendsjustifiedhercoursewassomewhatcruderandlesscomplexthanherownelucidationofthematter,bothexplanationsledtothesameconclusion:JohnArmentwasimpossible。Theonlydifferencewasthat,tohiswife,hisimpossibilitywassomethingdeeperthanasocialdisqualification。Shehadoncesaid,inironicaldefenceofhermarriage,thatithadatleastpreservedherfromthenecessityofsittingnexttohimatdinner;butshehadnotthenrealizedatwhatcosttheimmunitywaspurchased。JohnArmentwasimpossible;butthestingofhisimpossibilitylayinthefactthathemadeitimpossibleforthoseabouthimtobeotherthanhimself。Byanunconsciousprocessofeliminationhehadexcludedfromtheworldeverythingofwhichhedidnotfeelapersonalneed:hadbecome,asitwere,aclimateinwhichonlyhisownrequirementssurvived。Thismightseemtoimplyadeliberateselfishness;buttherewasnothingdeliberateaboutArment。Hewasasinstinctiveasananimalorachild。Itwasthischildishelementinhisnaturewhichsometimesforamomentunsettledhiswife'sestimateofhim。Wasitpossiblethathewassimplyundeveloped,thathehaddelayed,somewhatlongerthanisusual,thelaboriousprocessofgrowingup?Hehadthekindofsporadicshrewdnesswhichcausesittobesaidofadullmanthatheis“nofool“;anditwasthisqualitythathiswifefoundmosttrying。Eventothenaturalistitisannoyingtohavehisdeductionsdisturbedbysomeunforeseenaberrancyofformorfunction;andhowmuchmoresotothewifewhoseestimateofherselfisinevitablyboundupwithherjudgmentofherhusband!
  Arment'sshrewdnessdidnot,indeed,implyanylatentintellectualpower;itsuggested,rather,potentialitiesoffeeling,ofsuffering,perhaps,inablindrudimentaryway,onwhichJulia'ssensibilitiesnaturallydeclinedtolinger。Shesofullyunderstoodherownreasonsforleavinghimthatshedislikedtothinktheywerenotascomprehensibletoherhusband。
  Shewashaunted,inheranalyticmoments,bythelookofperplexity,tooinarticulateforwords,withwhichhehadacquiescedtoherexplanations。
  Thesemomentswererarewithher,however。Hermarriagehadbeentooconcreteamiserytobesurveyedphilosophically。Ifshehadbeenunhappyforcomplexreasons,theunhappinesswasasrealasthoughithadbeenuncomplicated。Soulismorebruisablethanflesh,andJuliawaswoundedineveryfibreofherspirit。Herhusband'spersonalityseemedtobeclosinggraduallyinonher,obscuringtheskyandcuttingofftheair,tillshefeltherselfshutupamongthedecayingbodiesofherstarvedhopes。Asenseofhavingbeendecoyedbysomeworld-oldconspiracyintothisbondageofbodyandsoulfilledherwithdespair。Ifmarriagewastheslowlife-longacquittalofadebtcontractedinignorance,thenmarriagewasacrimeagainsthumannature。She,forone,wouldhavenoshareinmaintainingthepretenceofwhichshehadbeenavictim:thepretencethatamanandawoman,forcedintothenarrowestofpersonalrelations,mustremaintheretilltheend,thoughtheymayhaveoutgrownthespanofeachother'snaturesasthematuretreeoutgrowstheironbraceaboutthesapling。
  ItwasinthefirstheatofhermoralindignationthatshehadmetClementWestall。Shehadseenatoncethathewas“interested,“andhadfoughtoffthediscovery,dreadinganyinfluencethatshoulddrawherbackintothebondageofconventionalrelations。Towardofftheperilshehad,withanalmostcrudeprecipitancy,revealedheropinionstohim。Tohersurprise,shefoundthathesharedthem。Shewasattractedbythefranknessofasuitorwho,whilepressinghissuit,admittedthathedidnotbelieveinmarriage。Herworstaudacitiesdidnotseemtosurprisehim:hehadthoughtoutallthatshehadfelt,andtheyhadreachedthesameconclusion。Peoplegrewatvaryingrates,andtheyokethatwasaneasyfitfortheonemightsoonbecomegallingtotheother。Thatwaswhatdivorcewasfor:thereadjustmentofpersonalrelations。Assoonastheirnecessarilytransitivenaturewasrecognizedtheywouldgainindignityaswellasinharmony。Therewouldbenofartherneedoftheignobleconcessionsandconnivances,theperpetualsacrificeofpersonaldelicacyandmoralpride,bymeansofwhichimperfectmarriageswerenowheldtogether。Eachpartnertothecontractwouldbeonhismettle,forcedtoliveuptothehigheststandardofself-development,onpainoflosingtheother'srespectandaffection。Thelownaturecouldnolongerdragthehigherdown,butmuststruggletorise,orremainaloneonitsinferiorlevel。Theonlynecessaryconditiontoaharmoniousmarriagewasafrankrecognitionofthistruth,andasolemnagreementbetweenthecontractingpartiestokeepfaithwiththemselves,andnottolivetogetherforamomentaftercompleteaccordhadceasedtoexistbetweenthem。Thenewadulterywasunfaithfulnesstoself。
  Itwas,asWestallhadjustremindedher,onthisunderstandingthattheyhadmarried。Theceremonywasanunimportantconcessiontosocialprejudice:nowthatthedoorofdivorcestoodopen,nomarriageneedbeanimprisonment,andthecontractthereforenolongerinvolvedanydiminutionofself-respect。Thenatureoftheirattachmentplacedthemsofarbeyondthereachofsuchcontingenciesthatitwaseasytodiscussthemwithanopenmind;andJulia'ssenseofsecuritymadeherdwellwithatenderinsistenceonWestall'spromisetoclaimhisreleasewhenheshouldceasetoloveher。Theexchangeofthesevowsseemedtomakethem,inasense,championsofthenewlaw,pioneersintheforbiddenrealmofindividualfreedom:theyfeltthattheyhadsomehowachievedbeatitudewithoutmartyrdom。
  This,asJulianowreviewedthepast,sheperceivedtohavebeenhertheoreticalattitudetowardmarriage。Itwasunconsciously,insidiously,thathertenyearsofhappinesswithWestallhaddevelopedanotherconceptionofthetie;areversion,rather,totheoldinstinctofpassionatedependencyandpossessorshipthatnowmadeherbloodrevoltatthemerehintofchange。Change?
  Renewal?Wasthatwhattheyhadcalledit,intheirfoolishjargon?Destruction,exterminationrather——thisrendingofamyriadfibresinterwovenwithanother'sbeing!Another?Buthewasnotother!Heandshewereone,oneinthemysticsensewhichalonegavemarriageitssignificance。Thenewlawwasnotforthem,butforthedisunitedcreaturesforcedintoamockeryofunion。Thegospelshehadfeltcalledontoproclaimhadnobearingonherowncase……Shesentforthedoctorandtoldhimshewassuresheneededanervetonic。
  Shetookthenervetonicdiligently,butitfailedtoactasasedativetoherfears。Shedidnotknowwhatshefeared;butthatmadeheranxietythemorepervasive。HerhusbandhadnotrevertedtothesubjectofhisSaturdaytalks。Hewasunusuallykindandconsiderate,withasofteningofhisquickmanner,atouchofshynessinhisconsideration,thatsickenedherwithnewfears。Shetoldherselfthatitwasbecauseshelookedbadly——
  becauseheknewaboutthedoctorandthenervetonic——thatheshowedthisdeferencetoherwishes,thiseagernesstoscreenherfrommoraldraughts;buttheexplanationsimplyclearedthewayforfreshinferences。
  Theweekpassedslowly,vacantly,likeaprolongedSunday。OnSaturdaythemorningpostbroughtanotefromMrs。VanSideren。
  WoulddearJuliaaskMr。Westalltocomehalfanhourearlierthanusual,astherewastobesomemusicafterhis“talk“?
  Westallwasjustleavingforhisofficewhenhiswifereadthenote。Sheopenedthedrawing-roomdoorandcalledhimbacktodeliverthemessage。
  Heglancedatthenoteandtosseditaside。“Whatabore!I
  shallhavetocutmygameofracquets。Well,Isupposeitcan'tbehelped。Willyouwriteandsayit'sallright?”
  Juliahesitatedamoment,herhandstiffeningonthechair-backagainstwhichsheleaned。
  “Youmeantogoonwiththesetalks?”sheasked。
  “I——whynot?”hereturned;andthistimeitstruckherthathissurprisewasnotquiteunfeigned。Thediscoveryhelpedhertofindwords。
  “Yousaidyouhadstartedthemwiththeideaofpleasingme——“
  “Well?”
  “Itoldyoulastweekthattheydidn'tpleaseme。“
  “Lastweek?Oh——“Heseemedtomakeaneffortofmemory。“I
  thoughtyouwerenervousthen;yousentforthedoctorthenextday。“
  “ItwasnotthedoctorIneeded;itwasyourassurance——“
  “Myassurance?”
  Suddenlyshefeltthefloorfailunderher。Shesankintothechairwithachokingthroat,herwords,herreasonsslippingawayfromherlikestrawsdownawhirlingflood。
  “Clement,“shecried,“isn'titenoughforyoutoknowthatI
  hateit?”
  Heturnedtoclosethedoorbehindthem;thenhewalkedtowardherandsatdown。“Whatisitthatyouhate?”heaskedgently。
  Shehadmadeadesperateefforttorallyherroutedargument。
  “Ican'tbeartohaveyouspeakasif——asif——ourmarriage——wereliketheotherkind——thewrongkind。WhenIheardyouthere,theotherafternoon,beforeallthoseinquisitivegossipingpeople,proclaimingthathusbandsandwiveshadarighttoleaveeachotherwhenevertheyweretired——orhadseensomeoneelse——“
  Westallsatmotionless,hiseyesfixedonapatternofthecarpet。
  “YouHAVEceasedtotakethisview,then?”hesaidasshebrokeoff。“YounolongerbelievethathusbandsandwivesARE
  justifiedinseparating——undersuchconditions?”
  “Undersuchconditions?”shestammered。“Yes——Istillbelievethat——buthowcanwejudgeforothers?Whatcanweknowofthecircumstances——?”
  Heinterruptedher。“Ithoughtitwasafundamentalarticleofourcreedthatthespecialcircumstancesproducedbymarriagewerenottointerferewiththefullassertionofindividualliberty。“Hepausedamoment。“IthoughtthatwasyourreasonforleavingArment。“
  Sheflushedtotheforehead。Itwasnotlikehimtogiveapersonalturntotheargument。
  “Itwasmyreason,“shesaidsimply。
  “Well,then——whydoyourefusetorecognizeitsvaliditynow?”
  “Idon't——Idon't——Ionlysaythatonecan'tjudgeforothers。“
  Hemadeanimpatientmovement。“Thisismerehair-splitting。
  Whatyoumeanisthat,thedoctrinehavingservedyourpurposewhenyouneededit,younowrepudiateit。“
  “Well,“sheexclaimed,flushingagain,“whatifIdo?Whatdoesitmattertous?”
  Westallrosefromhischair。Hewasexcessivelypale,andstoodbeforehiswifewithsomethingoftheformalityofastranger。
  “Itmatterstome,“hesaidinalowvoice,“becauseIdoNOT
  repudiateit。“
  “Well——?”
  “AndbecauseIhadintendedtoinvokeitas“——
  Hepausedanddrewhisbreathdeeply。Shesatsilent,almostdeafenedbyherheart-beats——
  “asacompletejustificationofthecourseIamabouttotake。“
  Juliaremainedmotionless。“Whatcourseisthat?”sheasked。
  Heclearedhisthroat。“Imeantoclaimthefulfilmentofyourpromise。“
  Foraninstanttheroomwaveredanddarkened;thensherecoveredatorturingacutenessofvision。Everydetailofhersurroundingspresseduponher:thetickoftheclock,theslantofsunlightonthewall,thehardnessofthechair-armsthatshegrasped,wereaseparatewoundtoeachsense。
  “Mypromise——“shefaltered。
  “Yourpartofourmutualagreementtoseteachotherfreeifoneortheothershouldwishtobereleased。“
  Shewassilentagain。Hewaitedamoment,shiftinghispositionnervously;thenhesaid,withatouchofirritability:“Youacknowledgetheagreement?”
  Thequestionwentthroughherlikeashock。Sheliftedherheadtoitproudly。“Iacknowledgetheagreement,“shesaid。
  “And——youdon'tmeantorepudiateit?”
  Alogonthehearthfellforward,andmechanicallyheadvancedandpusheditback。
  “No,“sheansweredslowly,“Idon'tmeantorepudiateit。“
  Therewasapause。Heremainednearthehearth,hiselbowrestingonthemantel-shelf。Closetohishandstoodalittlecupofjadethathehadgivenherononeoftheirweddinganniversaries。Shewonderedvaguelyifhenoticedit。
  “Youintendtoleaveme,then?”shesaidatlength。
  Hisgestureseemedtodeprecatethecrudenessoftheallusion。
  “Tomarrysomeoneelse?”
  Againhiseyeandhandprotested。Sheroseandstoodbeforehim。
  “Whyshouldyoubeafraidtotellme?IsitUnaVanSideren?”
  Hewassilent。
  “Iwishyougoodluck,“shesaid。
  III
  Shelookedup,findingherselfalone。Shedidnotrememberwhenorhowhehadlefttheroom,orhowlongafterwardshehadsatthere。Thefirestillsmoulderedonthehearth,buttheslantofsunlighthadleftthewall。
  Herfirstconsciousthoughtwasthatshehadnotbrokenherword,thatshehadfulfilledtheveryletteroftheirbargain。Therehadbeennocryingout,novainappealtothepast,noattemptattemporizingorevasion。Shehadmarchedstraightuptotheguns。
  Nowthatitwasover,shesickenedtofindherselfalive。Shelookedabouther,tryingtorecoverherholdonreality。Heridentityseemedtobeslippingfromher,asitdisappearsinaphysicalswoon。“Thisismyroom——thisismyhouse,“sheheardherselfsaying。Herroom?Herhouse?Shecouldalmosthearthewallslaughbackather。
  Shestoodup,adullacheineverybone。Thesilenceoftheroomfrightenedher。Sheremembered,now,havingheardthefrontdoorclosealongtimeago:thesoundsuddenlyre-echoedthroughherbrain。Herhusbandmusthaveleftthehouse,then——herHUSBAND?
  Shenolongerknewinwhattermstothink:thesimplestphraseshadapoisonededge。Shesankbackintoherchair,overcomebyastrangeweakness。Theclockstruckten——itwasonlyteno'clock!
  Suddenlysherememberedthatshehadnotordereddinner……orweretheydiningoutthatevening?DINNER——DININGOUT——theoldmeaninglessphraseologypursuedher!Shemusttrytothinkofherselfasshewouldthinkofsomeoneelse,asomeonedissociatedfromallthefamiliarroutineofthepast,whosewantsandhabitsmustgraduallybelearned,asonemightspyoutthewaysofastrangeanimal……
  Theclockstruckanotherhour——eleven。Shestoodupagainandwalkedtothedoor:shethoughtshewouldgoupstairstoherroom。HERroom?Againthewordderidedher。Sheopenedthedoor,crossedthenarrowhall,andwalkedupthestairs。Asshepassed,shenoticedWestall'ssticksandumbrellas:apairofhisgloveslayonthehalltable。Thesamestair-carpetmountedbetweenthesamewalls;thesameoldFrenchprint,initsnarrowblackframe,facedheronthelanding。Thisvisualcontinuitywasintolerable。Within,agapingchasm;without,thesameuntroubledandfamiliarsurface。Shemustgetawayfromitbeforeshecouldattempttothink。But,onceinherroom,shesatdownonthelounge,astuporcreepingoverher……
  Graduallyhervisioncleared。Agreatdealhadhappenedintheinterval——awildmarchingandcountermarchingofemotions,arguments,ideas——afuryofinsurgentimpulsesthatfellbackspentuponthemselves。Shehadtried,atfirst,torally,toorganizethesechaoticforces。Theremustbehelpsomewhere,ifonlyshecouldmastertheinnertumult。Lifecouldnotbebrokenoffshortlikethis,forawhim,afancy;thelawitselfwouldsidewithher,woulddefendher。Thelaw?Whatclaimhadsheuponit?Shewastheprisonerofherownchoice:shehadbeenherownlegislator,andshewasthepredestinedvictimofthecodeshehaddevised。Butthiswasgrotesque,intolerable——amadmistake,forwhichshecouldnotbeheldaccountable!Thelawshehaddespisedwasstillthere,mightstillbeinvoked……
  invoked,buttowhatend?CouldsheaskittochainWestalltoherside?SHEhadbeenallowedtogofreewhensheclaimedherfreedom——shouldsheshowlessmagnanimitythanshehadexacted?
  Magnanimity?Thewordlashedherwithitsirony——onedoesnotstrikeanattitudewhenoneisfightingforlife!Shewouldthreaten,grovel,cajole……shewouldyieldanythingtokeepherholdonhappiness。Ah,butthedifficultylaydeeper!Thelawcouldnothelpher——herownapostasycouldnothelpher。Shewasthevictimofthetheoriessherenounced。Itwasasthoughsomegiantmachineofherownmakinghadcaughtherupinitswheelsandwasgrindinghertoatoms……
  Itwasafternoonwhenshefoundherselfout-of-doors。Shewalkedwithanaimlesshaste,fearingtomeetfamiliarfaces。Thedaywasradiant,metallic:oneofthosesearchingAmericandayssocalculatedtorevealtheshortcomingsofourstreet-cleaningandtheexcessesofourarchitecture。Thestreetslookedbareandhideous;everythingstaredandglittered。Shecalledapassinghansom,andgaveMrs。VanSideren'saddress。Shedidnotknowwhathadleduptotheact;butshefoundherselfsuddenlyresolvedtospeak,tocryoutawarning。itwastoolatetosaveherself——butthegirlmightstillbetold。ThehansomrattledupFifthAvenue;shesatwithhereyesfixed,avoidingrecognition。
  AttheVanSiderens'doorshesprangoutandrangthebell。
  Actionhadclearedherbrain,andshefeltcalmandself-
  possessed。Sheknewnowexactlywhatshemeanttosay。
  Theladieswerebothout……theparlor-maidstoodwaitingforacard。Julia,withavaguemurmur,turnedawayfromthedoorandlingeredamomentonthesidewalk。Thensherememberedthatshehadnotpaidthecab-driver。Shedrewadollarfromherpurseandhandedittohim。Hetouchedhishatanddroveoff,leavingheraloneinthelongemptystreet。Shewanderedawaywestward,towardstrangethoroughfares,whereshewasnotlikelytomeetacquaintances。Thefeelingofaimlessnesshadreturned。
  OnceshefoundherselfintheafternoontorrentofBroadway,sweptpasttawdryshopsandflamingtheatricalposters,withasuccessionofmeaninglessfacesglidingbyintheoppositedirection……
  Afeelingoffaintnessremindedherthatshehadnoteatensincemorning。Sheturnedintoasidestreetofshabbyhouses,withrowsofash-barrelsbehindbentarearailings。InabasementwindowshesawthesignLADIES'RESTAURANT:apieandadishofdoughnutslayagainstthedustypanelikepetrifiedfoodinanethnologicalmuseum。Sheentered,andayoungwomanwithaweakmouthandabrazeneyeclearedatableforhernearthewindow。
  Thetablewascoveredwitharedandwhitecottonclothandadornedwithabunchofceleryinathicktumblerandasalt-
  cellarfullofgrayishlumpysalt。Juliaorderedtea,andsatalongtimewaitingforit。Shewasgladtobeawayfromthenoiseandconfusionofthestreets。Thelow-ceilingedroomwasempty,andtwoorthreewaitresseswiththinpertfacesloungedinthebackgroundstaringatherandwhisperingtogether。Atlasttheteawasbroughtinadiscoloredmetalteapot。Juliapouredacupanddrankithastily。Itwasblackandbitter,butitflowedthroughherveinslikeanelixir。Shewasalmostdizzywithexhilaration。Oh,howtired,howunutterablytiredshehadbeen!
  Shedrankasecondcup,blackerandbitterer,andnowhermindwasoncemoreworkingclearly。Shefeltasvigorous,asdecisive,aswhenshehadstoodontheVanSiderens'door-step——
  butthewishtoreturntherehadsubsided。Shesawnowthefutilityofsuchanattempt——thehumiliationtowhichitmighthaveexposedher……Thepityofitwasthatshedidnotknowwhattodonext。Theshortwinterdaywasfading,andsherealizedthatshecouldnotremainmuchlongerintherestaurantwithoutattractingnotice。Shepaidforherteaandwentoutintothestreet。Thelampswerealight,andhereandthereabasementshopcastanoblongofgas-lightacrossthefissuredpavement。Inthedusktherewassomethingsinisterabouttheaspectofthestreet,andshehastenedbacktowardFifthAvenue。
  Shewasnotusedtobeingoutaloneatthathour。
  AtthecornerofFifthAvenueshepausedandstoodwatchingthestreamofcarriages。Atlastapolicemancaughtsightofherandsignedtoherthathewouldtakeheracross。Shehadnotmeanttocrossthestreet,butsheobeyedautomatically,andpresentlyfoundherselfonthefarthercorner。Thereshepausedagainforamoment;butshefanciedthepolicemanwaswatchingher,andthissentherhasteningdownthenearestsidestreet……Afterthatshewalkedalongtime,vaguely……Nighthadfallen,andnowandthen,throughthewindowsofapassingcarriage,shecaughttheexpanseofaneveningwaistcoatortheshimmerofanoperacloak……
  Suddenlyshefoundherselfinafamiliarstreet。Shestoodstillamoment,breathingquickly。Shehadturnedthecornerwithoutnoticingwhitheritled;butnow,afewyardsaheadofher,shesawthehouseinwhichshehadoncelived——herfirsthusband'shouse。Theblindsweredrawn,andonlyafainttranslucencemarkedthewindowsandthetransomabovethedoor。Asshestoodtheresheheardastepbehindher,andamanwalkedbyinthedirectionofthehouse。Hewalkedslowly,withaheavymiddle-
  agedgait,hisheadsunkalittlebetweentheshoulders,theredcreaseofhisneckvisibleabovethefurcollarofhisovercoat。
  Hecrossedthestreet,wentupthestepsofthehouse,drewforthalatch-key,andlethimselfin……
  Therewasnooneelseinsight。Julialeanedforalongtimeagainstthearea-railatthecorner,hereyesfixedonthefrontofthehouse。Thefeelingofphysicalwearinesshadreturned,butthestrongteastillthrobbedinherveinsandlitherbrainwithanunnaturalclearness。Presentlysheheardanotherstepdrawnear,andmovingquicklyaway,shetoocrossedthestreetandmountedthestepsofthehouse。Theimpulsewhichhadcarriedherthereprolongeditselfinaquickpressureoftheelectricbell——thenshefeltsuddenlyweakandtremulous,andgraspedthebalustradeforsupport。Thedooropenedandayoungfootmanwithafreshinexperiencedfacestoodonthethreshold。
  Juliaknewinaninstantthathewouldadmither。
  “IsawMr。Armentgoinginjustnow,“shesaid。“Willyouaskhimtoseemeforamoment?”
  Thefootmanhesitated。“IthinkMr。Armenthasgoneuptodressfordinner,madam。“
  Juliaadvancedintothehall。“Iamsurehewillseeme——Iwillnotdetainhimlong,“shesaid。Shespokequietly,authoritatively,inthetonewhichagoodservantdoesnotmistake。Thefootmanhadhishandonthedrawing-roomdoor。
  “Iwilltellhim,madam。Whatname,please?”
  Juliatrembled:shehadnotthoughtofthat。“Merelysayalady,“shereturnedcarelessly。
  Thefootmanwaveredandshefanciedherselflost;butatthatinstantthedooropenedfromwithinandJohnArmentsteppedintothehall。Hedrewbacksharplyashesawher,hisfloridfaceturningsallowwiththeshock;thenthebloodpouredbacktoit,swellingtheveinsonhistemplesandreddeningthelobesofhisthickears。
  ItwaslongsinceJuliahadseenhim,andshewasstartledatthechangeinhisappearance。Hehadthickened,coarsened,settleddownintotheenclosingflesh。Butshenotedthisinsensibly:
  heroneconsciousthoughtwasthat,nowshewasfacetofacewithhim,shemustnotlethimescapetillhehadheardher。Everypulseinherbodythrobbedwiththeurgencyofhermessage。
  Shewentuptohimashedrewback。“Imustspeaktoyou,“shesaid。
  Armenthesitated,redandstammering。Juliaglancedatthefootman,andherlookactedasawarning。Theinstinctiveshrinkingfroma“scene“predominatedovereveryotherimpulse,andArmentsaidslowly:“Willyoucomethisway?”
  Hefollowedherintothedrawing-roomandclosedthedoor。
  Julia,assheadvanced,wasvaguelyawarethattheroomatleastwasunchanged:timehadnotmitigateditshorrors。Thecontadinastilllurchedfromthechimney-breast,andtheGreekslaveobstructedthethresholdoftheinnerroom。Theplacewasalivewithmemories:theystartedoutfromeveryfoldoftheyellowsatincurtainsandglidedbetweentheanglesoftherosewoodfurniture。Butwhilesomesubordinateagencywascarryingtheseimpressionstoherbrain,herwholeconsciouseffortwascentredintheactofdominatingArment'swill。Thefearthathewouldrefusetohearhermountedlikefevertoherbrain。Shefeltherpurposemeltbeforeit,wordsandargumentsrunningintoeachotherintheheatofherlonging。Foramomenthervoicefailedher,andsheimaginedherselfthrustoutbeforeshecouldspeak;
  butasshewasstrugglingforaword,Armentpushedachairforward,andsaidquietly:“Youarenotwell。“
  Thesoundofhisvoicesteadiedher。Itwasneitherkindnorunkind——avoicethatsuspendedjudgment,rather,awaitingunforeseendevelopments。Shesupportedherselfagainstthebackofthechairanddrewadeepbreath。“ShallIsendforsomething?”hecontinued,withacoldembarrassedpoliteness。
  Juliaraisedanentreatinghand。“No——no——thankyou。Iamquitewell。“
  Hepausedmidwaytowardthebellandturnedonher。“ThenmayI
  ask——?”
  “Yes,“sheinterruptedhim。“IcameherebecauseIwantedtoseeyou。ThereissomethingImusttellyou。“
  Armentcontinuedtoscrutinizeher。“Iamsurprisedatthat,“hesaid。“Ishouldhavesupposedthatanycommunicationyoumaywishtomakecouldhavebeenmadethroughourlawyers。“
  “Ourlawyers!”Sheburstintoalittlelaugh。“Idon'tthinktheycouldhelpme——thistime。“
  Arment'sfacetookonabarricadedlook。“Ifthereisanyquestionofhelp——ofcourse——“
  Itstruckher,whimsically,thatshehadseenthatlookwhensomeshabbydevilcalledwithasubscription-book。Perhapshethoughtshewantedhimtoputhisnamedownforsomuchinsympathy——oreveninmoney……Thethoughtmadeherlaughagain。Shesawhislookchangeslowlytoperplexity。Allhisfacialchangeswereslow,andsheremembered,suddenly,howithadoncedivertedhertoshiftthatlumberingscenerywithaword。Forthefirsttimeitstruckherthatshehadbeencruel。“ThereISaquestionofhelp,“shesaidinasofterkey:“youcanhelpme;butonlybylistening……Iwanttotellyousomething……“
  Arment'sresistancewasnotyielding。“Woulditnotbeeasierto——write?”hesuggested。
  Sheshookherhead。“Thereisnotimetowrite……anditwon'ttakelong。“Sheraisedherheadandtheireyesmet。“Myhusbandhasleftme,“shesaid。
  “Westall——?”hestammered,reddeningagain。
  “Yes。Thismorning。JustasIleftyou。Becausehewastiredofme。“
  Thewords,utteredscarcelyaboveawhisper,seemedtodilatetothelimitoftheroom。Armentlookedtowardthedoor;thenhisembarrassedglancereturnedtoJulia。
  “Iamverysorry,“hesaidawkwardly。
  “Thankyou,“shemurmured。
  “ButIdon'tsee——“
  “No——butyouwill——inamoment。Won'tyoulistentome?
  Please!”Instinctivelyshehadshiftedherpositionputtingherselfbetweenhimandthedoor。“Ithappenedthismorning,“
  shewentoninshortbreathlessphrases。“Ineversuspectedanything——Ithoughtwewere——perfectlyhappy……Suddenlyhetoldmehewastiredofme……thereisagirlhelikesbetter……
  Hehasgonetoher……“Asshespoke,thelurkinganguishroseuponher,possessingheroncemoretotheexclusionofeveryotheremotion。Hereyesached,herthroatswelledwithit,andtwopainfultearsburntawaydownherface。
  Arment'sconstraintwasincreasingvisibly。“This——thisisveryunfortunate,“hebegan。“ButIshouldsaythelaw——“
  “Thelaw?”sheechoedironically。“Whenheasksforhisfreedom?”
  “Youarenotobligedtogiveit。“
  “Youwerenotobligedtogivememine——butyoudid。“
  Hemadeaprotestinggesture。
  “Yousawthatthelawcouldn'thelpyou——didn'tyou?”shewenton。“ThatiswhatIseenow。Thelawrepresentsmaterialrights——itcan'tgobeyond。Ifwedon'trecognizeaninnerlaw……
  theobligationthatlovecreates……beinglovedaswellasloving……thereisnothingtopreventourspreadingruinunhindered……isthere?”Sheraisedherheadplaintively,withthelookofabewilderedchild。“ThatiswhatIseenow……
  whatIwantedtotellyou。Heleavesmebecausehe'stired……
  butIwasnottired;andIdon'tunderstandwhyheis。That'sthedreadfulpartofit——thenotunderstanding:Ihadn'trealizedwhatitmeant。ButI'vebeenthinkingofitallday,andthingshavecomebacktome——thingsIhadn'tnoticed……whenyouandI……“Shemovedclosertohim,andfixedhereyesonhiswiththegazethattriestoreachbeyondwords。“IseenowthatYOU
  didn'tunderstand——didyou?”
  Theireyesmetinasuddenshockofcomprehension:aveilseemedtobeliftedbetweenthem。Arment'sliptrembled。
  “No,“hesaid,“Ididn'tunderstand。“
  Shegavealittlecry,almostoftriumph。“Iknewit!Iknewit!Youwondered——youtriedtotellme——butnowordscame……
  Yousawyourlifefallinginruins……theworldslippingfromyou……andyoucouldn'tspeakormove!”
  Shesankdownonthechairagainstwhichshehadbeenleaning。
  “NowIknow——nowIknow,“sherepeated。
  “Iamverysorryforyou,“sheheardArmentstammer。
  Shelookedupquickly。“That'snotwhatIcamefor。Idon'twantyoutobesorry。Icametoaskyoutoforgiveme……fornotunderstandingthatYOUdidn'tunderstand……That'sallI
  wantedtosay。“Sherosewithavaguesensethattheendhadcome,andputoutagropinghandtowardthedoor。
  Armentstoodmotionless。Sheturnedtohimwithafaintsmile。
  “Youforgiveme?”
  “Thereisnothingtoforgive——“
  “Thenwillyoushakehandsforgood-by?”Shefelthishandinhers:itwasnerveless,reluctant。
  “Good-by,“sherepeated。“Iunderstandnow。“
  Sheopenedthedoorandpassedoutintothehall。Asshedidso,Armenttookanimpulsivestepforward;butjustthenthefootman,whowasevidentlyalivetohisobligations,advancedfromthebackgroundtoletherout。SheheardArmentfallback。Thefootmanthrewopenthedoor,andshefoundherselfoutsideinthedarkness。
  TheEndofTheReckoningVerseBOTTICELLI'SMADONNAINTHELOUVRE。
  WHATstrangepresentiment,OMother,liesOnthywastebrowandsadly-foldedlips,ForefeelingtheLight'sterribleeclipseOnCalvary,asiflovemadetheewise,AndthoucouldstreadinthosedearinfanteyesThesorrowthatbeneaththeirsmilingsleeps,AndguesswhatbittertearsamotherweepsWhenthecrossdarkensheruncloudedskies?
  SadLady,ifsomemother,passingthee,Shouldfeelathrobofthyforebodingpain,Andthink——“Mychildathomeclingssotome,Withthesamesmile……andyetinvain,invain,SinceeventhisJesusdiedonCalvary“——
  Saytoherthen:“Healsoroseagain。“
  THETOMBOFILARIAGIUNIGI。
  ILARIA,thouthatwertsofairanddearThatdeathwouldfaindisownthee,griefmadewiseWithprophecythyhusband'swidowedeyesAndbadehimcallthemaster'sarttorearThyperfectimageonthesculpturedbier,Withdreaminglids,handslaidinpeacefulguiseBeneaththebreastthatseemstofallandrise,Andlipsthatatlove'scallshouldanswer,“Here!”
  First-bornoftheRenascence,whenthysoulCastthesweetrobingofthefleshaside,Intotheseloveliermarblelimbsitstole,Regenerateinart'ssunriseclearandwideAssaintswho,havingkeptfaith'sraimentwhole,Changeitaboveforgarmentsglorified。
  THESONNET。
  PUREform,thatlikesomechaliceofoldtimeContain'sttheliquidofthepoet'sthoughtWithinthycurvinghollow,gem-enwroughtWithinterwoventraceriesofrhyme,Whileo'erthybrimthebubblingfanciesclimb,WhatthingamI,thatundismayedhavesoughtTopourmyversewithtremblinghanduntaughtIntoashapesosmallyetsosublime?
  Becauseperfectionhauntstheheartsofmen,BecausethysacredchalicegatheredupThewineofPetrarch,Shakspere,Shelley——thenReceivethesetearsoffailureastheydropSolevintageofmylife,sinceIamfainTopourtheminaconsecratedcup。
  TWOBACKGROUNDS。
  I。
  LAVIERGEAUDONATEUR。
  HEREbytheampleriver'sargentsweep,Bosomedintilthandvintagetoherwalls,Atower-crownedCybeleinarmoredsleepThecitylies,fatplentyinherhalls,Withcalm,parochialspiresthatholdinfeeThefriendlygablesclusteredattheirbase,And,equipoisedo'ertowerandmarket-place,TheGothicminster'swingedimmensity;
  Andinthatnarrowburgh,withequalmood,Twoplacidhearts,toalllife'sgoodresigned,Might,fromthealtartothelych-gate,findLongyearsofpeaceanddreamlessplenitude。
  II。
  MONALISA。
  YonstrangebluecitycrownsascarpedsteepNomortalfoothathbloodlesslyessayed;
  Dreamsandillusionsbeaconfromitskeep,ButatthegateanAngelbareshisblade;
  AndtalesaretoldofthosewhothoughttogainAtdawnitsramparts;butwheneveningfellFarofftheysaweachfadingpinnacleLitwithwildlightningsfromtheheavenofpain;
  Yettheretwosouls,whomlife'sperversitiesHadmockedwithwantinplenty,tearsinmirth,Mightmeetindreams,ungarmentedofearth,AnddrainJoy'sawfulchalicetothelees。
  EXPERIENCE。
  I。
  LIKECrusoewiththebootlessgoldwestandUponthedesertvergeofdeath,andsay:
  “WhatshallavailthewoesofyesterdayTobuyto-morrow'swisdom,inthelandWhosecurrencyisstrangeuntoourhand?
  Inlife'ssmallmarkettheyhaveservedtopaySomelate-foundrapture,couldwebutdelayTillTimehathmatchedourmeanstoourdemand。“
  ButotherwiseFatewillsit,for,behold,Ourgatheredstrengthofindividualpain,WhenTime'slongalchemyhathmadeitgold,Dieswithus——hoardedalltheseyearsinvain,SincethosethatmightbeheirtoitthemouldRenew,andcointhemselvesnewgriefsagain。
  II。
  O,Death,wecomefull-handedtothygate,Richwithstrangeburdenofthemingledyears,Gainsandrenunciations,mirthandtears,Andlove'soblivion,andrememberinghate,NorknowwewhatcompulsionlaidsuchfreightUponoursouls——andshallourhopesandfearsBuynothingofthee,Death?Beholdourwares,Andsellustheonejoyforwhichwewait。
  Hadwelivedlonger,lifehadsuchforsale,Withthelastcoinofsorrowpurchasedcheap,Butnowwestandbeforethyshadowypale,Andallourlongingsliewithinthykeep——
  Death,canitbetheyearsshallnaughtavail?
  “Notso,“Deathanswered,“theyshallpurchasesleep。“
  CHARTRES。
  I。
  IMMENSE,august,likesomeTitanicbloom,Themightychoirunfoldsitslithiccore,Petalledwithpanesofazure,gulesandor,SplendidlylambentintheGothicgloom,AndstamenedwithkeenflameletsthatillumeThepalehigh-altar。Ontheprayer-wornfloor,Bysurgingworshippersthick-throngedofyore,Afewbrowncrones,familiarsofthetomb,ThestrandeddriftwoodofFaith'sebbingsea——
  Forthesealonethefinialsfrettheskies,Thetopmostbossesshaketheirblossomsfree,Whilefromthetripleportals,withgraveeyes,Tranquil,andfixeduponeternity,Thecloudofwitnessesstilltestifies。
  II。
  Thecrimsonpaneslikeblood-dropsstigmatizeThewesternfloor。Theaislesaremuteandcold。
  ArigidfetichinherrobeofgoldTheVirginofthePillar,withblankeyes,Enthronedbeneathhervotivecanopies,Gathersameagreremnanttoherfold。
  Therestissolitude;thechurch,grownold,Standsstarkandgraybeneaththeburningskies。
  Wellnighagainitsmightyframe-workgrowsTobeapartofnature'sself,withdrawnFromhothumanity'simpatientwoes;
  Thefloorisridgedlikesomerudemountainlawn,AndintheeastonegiantwindowshowsTheroseatecoldnessofanAlpatdawn。
  LIFE。
  LIFE,likeamarbleblock,isgiventoall,Ablank,inchoatemassofyearsanddays,WhenceonewithardentchiselswiftessaysSomeshapeofstrengthorsymmetrytocall;
  Oneshattersitinbitstomendawall;
  Oneinacraftierhandthechisellays,Andone,towakethemirthinLesbia'sgaze,Carvesitapaceintoysfantastical。
  Butleastishewho,withenchantedeyesFilledwithhighvisionsoffairshapestobe,MuseswhichgodheshallimmortalizeIntheproudParian'sperpetuity,TilltwilightwarnshimfromthepunctualskiesThatthenightcomethwhereinnoneshallsee。
  ANAUTUMNSUNSET
  I
  LEAGUEREDinfireThewildblackpromontoriesofthecoastextendTheirsavagesilhouettes;
  Thesuninuniversalcarnagesets,And,haltinghigher,Themotionlessstorm-cloudsmasstheirsullenthreats,Likeanadvancingmobinsword-pointspenned,That,balked,yetstandsatbay。
  Mid-zenithhangsthefascinateddayInwind-lustratedhollowscrystalline,AwanvalkyriewhosewidepinionsshineAcrosstheensanguinedruinsofthefray,Andinherliftedhandswingshigho'erhead,Abovethewasteofwar,Thesilvertorch-lightoftheeveningstarWherewithtosearchthefacesofthedead。
  II
  Lagoonedingold,SeemnotthosejettypromontoriesratherTheoutpostsofsomeancientlandforlorn,Uncomfortedofmorn,Whereoldoblivionsgather,Themelancholy,unconsolingfoldOfallthingsthatgoutterlytodeathAndmixnomore,nomoreWithlife'sperpetuallyawakeningbreath?
  ShallTimenotferrymetosuchashore,Oversuchsaillessseas,Towalkwithhope'sslainimportunitiesInmiserablemarriage?Nay,shallnotAllthingsbethereforgot,Savethesea'sgoldenbarrierandtheblackClosecrouchingpromontories?
  Deadtoallshames,forgottenofallglories,ShallInotwanderthere,ashadow'sshade,Aspectreself-destroyed,SopurgedofallremembranceandsuckedbackIntotheprimalvoid,ThatshouldweonthatshorephantasmalmeetIshouldnotknowthecomingofyourfeet?
  End