Themen,afterrecognizingTroy’sfeatures,withdrewacrosstheorchardasquietlyastheyhadcome。TheairwasbigwithBathsheba’sfortunesto-night:everywordeverywhereconcernedher。Whentheywerequiteoutofearshotallbyoneinstinctpaused。
`Itgavemequiteaturn-hisface,’saidTall,breathing。
`Andsoitdidme,’saidSamway。`What’stobedone?’
`Idon’tseethat’tisanybusinessofours,’Smallburymurmureddubiously。
`Butitis!’Tisathingwhichiseverybody’sbusiness,’saidSamway。
`Weknowverywellthatmaster’sonawrongtack,andthatshe’squiteinthedark,andweshouldlet’emknowatonce。Laban,youknowherbest-you’dbettergoandasktespeaktoher。’
`Ibain’tfitforanysuchthing,’saidLaban,nervously。`IshouldthinkWilliamoughttodoitifanybody。He’soldest。’
`Ishallhavenothingtodowithit,’saidSmallbury。`’Tisaticklishbusinessaltogether。Why,he’llgoontoherhimselfinafewminutes,ye’llsee。’
`Wedon’tknowthathewill。Come,Laban。’
`Verywell,ifImustImust,Isuppose,’Tallreluctantlyanswered。
`WhatmustIsay?’
`Justasktoseemaster。’
`Ono;Ishan’tspeaktoMrBoldwood。IfItellanybody,’twillbemistress。’
`Verywell,’saidSamway。
Labanthenwenttothedoor。Whenheopeneditthehumofbustlerolledoutasawaveuponastillstrand-theassemblagebeingimmediatelyinsidethehall-andwasdeadenedtoamurmurashecloseditagain。Eachmanwaitedintently,andlookedaroundatthedarktreetopsgentlyrockingagainsttheskyandoccasionallyshiveringinaslightwind,asifhetookinterestinthescene,whichneitherdid。Oneofthembeganwalkingupanddown,andthencametowherehestartedfromandstoppedagain,withasensethatwalkingwasathingnotworthdoingnow。
`IshouldthinkLabanmusthaveseenmistressbythistime,’saidSmallbury,breakingthesilence。`Perhapsshewon’tcomeandspeaktohim。’
Thedooropened。Tallappeared,andjoinedthem。`Well?’saidboth。
`Ididn’tliketoaskforherafterall,’Labanfalteredout。`Theywereallinsuchastir,tryingtoputalittlespiritintotheparty。
Somehowthefanseemstohangfire,thougheverything’stherethataheartcandesire,andIcouldn’tformysoulinterfereandthrowdampuponit-if’twastosavemylife,Icouldn’t!’
`Isupposewehadbetterallgointogether,’saidSamway,gloomily。
`PerhapsImayhaveachanceofsayingawordtomaster。’
Sothemenenteredthehall,whichwastheroomselectedandarrangedforthegatheringbecauseofitssize。Theyoungermenandmaidswereatlastjustbeginningadance。Bathshebahadbeenperplexedhowtoact,forshewasnotmuchmorethanaslimyoungmaidherself,andtheweightofstatelinesssatheavyuponher。Sometimesshethoughtsheoughtnottohavecomeunderanycircumstances;thensheconsideredwhatcoldunkindnessthatwouldhavebeen,andfinallyresolveduponthemiddlecourseofstayingforaboutanhouronly,andglidingoffunobserved,havingfromthefirstmadeuponhermindthatshecouldonnoaccountdance,sing,ortakeanyactivepartintheproceedings。
HerallottedhourhavingbeenpassedinchattingandlookingonBathshebatoldLiddynottohurryherselfandwenttothesmallparlourtopreparefordeparture,which,likethehall,wasdecoratedwithhollyandivy,andwelllightedup。
Nobodywasintheroom,butshehadhardlybeenthereamomentwhenthemasterofthehouseentered。
`MrsTroy-youarenotgoing?’hesaid。`We’vehardlybegun!’
`Ifyou’llexcuseme,Ishouldliketogonow。’Hermannerwasrestiveforsherememberedherpromise,andimaginedwhathewasabouttosay。
`Butasitisnotlate,’sheadded,`Icanwalkhome,andleavemymanandLiddytocomewhentheychoose。’
`I’vebeentryingtogetanopportunityofspeakingtoyou,’saidBoldwood。
`YouknowperhapswhatIlongtosay?’
Bathshebasilentlylookedonthefloor。
`Youdogiveit?’hesaid,eagerly。
`What?’shewhispered。
`Now,that’sevasion!Why,thepromise。Idon’twanttointrudeuponyouatall,ortoletitbecomeknowntoanybody。Butdogiveyourword!
Amerebusinesscompact,youknow,betweentwopeoplewhoarebeyondtheinfluenceofpassion。’Boldwoodknewhowfalsethispicturewasasregardedhimself;buthehadprovedthatitwastheonlytoneinwhichshewouldallowhimtoapproachher。`Apromisetomarrymeattheendoffiveyearsandthreequarters。Youoweittome!’
`IfeelthatIdo,’saidBathsheba;`thatis,ifyoudemandit。ButIamachangedwoman-anunhappywoman-andnot-not——’
`Youarestillaverybeautifulwoman,’saidBoldwood。Honestyandpureconvictionsuggestedtheremark,unaccompaniedbyanyperceptionthatitmighthavebeenadoptedbybluntflatterytosootheandwinher。
However,ithadnotmucheffectnow,forshesaid,inapassionlessmurmurwhichwasinitselfaproofofherwords:`Ihavenofeelinginthematteratall。AndIdon’tatallknowwhatisrighttodoinmydifficultposition,andIhavenobodytoadviseme。ButIgivemypromise,ifImust。
Igiveitastherenderingofadebt,conditionally,ofcourse,onmybeingawidow。’
`You’llmarrymebetweenfiveandsixyearshence?’
`Don’tpressmetoohard。I’llmarrynobodyelse。’
`Butsurelyyouwillnamethetime,orthere’snothinginthepromiseatall?’
`OIdon’tknow,prayletmego!’shesaid,herbosombeginningtorise。
`Iamafraidwhattodo!Iwanttobejusttoyou,andtobethatseemstobewrongingmyself,andperhapsitisbreakingthecommandments。Thereisconsiderabledoubtofhisdeath,andthenitisdreadful;letmeaskasolicitor,MrBoldwood,ifIoughtorno!’
`Saythewords,dearone,andthesubjectshallbedismissed;ablissfullovingintimacyofsixyears,andthenmarriage-OBathsheba,saythem!’
hebeggedinahuskyvoice,unabletosustaintheformsofmerefriendshipanylonger。`Promiseyourselftome;Ideserveit,indeedIdo,forIhavelovedyoumorethananybodyintheworld!AndifIsaidhastywordsandshoweduncalled-forheatofmannertowardsyou,believeme,dear,Ididnotmeantodistressyou;Iwasinagony,Bathsheba,andIdidnotknowwhatIsaid。Youwouldn’tletadogsufferwhatIhavesuffered,couldyoubutknowit!SometimesIshrinkfromyourknowingwhatIhavefeltforyou,andsometimesIamdistressedthatallofityouneverwillknow。
Begracious,andgiveupalittletome,whenIwouldgiveupmylifeforyou!’
Thetrimmingsofherdress,astheyquiveredagainstthelight,showedhowagitatedshewas,andatlastsheburstoutcrying。`Andyou’llnot-pressme-aboutanythingmore-ifIsayinfiveorsixyears?’shesobbed,whenshehadpowertoframethewords。
`Yes,thenI’llleaveittotime。’
`Verywell。Ifhedoesnotreturn,I’llmarryyouinsixyearsfromthisday,ifwebothlive,’shesaidsolemnly。
`Andyou’lltakethisasatokenfromme。’
Boldwoodhadcomeclosetoherside,andnowheclaspedoneofherhandsinbothhisown,andliftedittohisbreast。
`Whatisit?OhIcannotweararing!’sheexclaimed,onseeingwhatheheld;`besides,Iwouldn’thaveasoulknowthatit’sanengagement!
Perhapsitisimproper?Besides,wearenotengagedintheusualsense,arewe?Don’tinsist,MrBoldwood-don’t!’Inhertroubleatnotbeingabletogetherhandawayfromhimatonce,shestampedpassionatelyonthefloorwithonefoot,andtearscrowdedtohereyesagain。
`Itmeanssimplyapledge-nosentiment-thesealofapracticalcompact,’
hesaidmorequietly,butstillretainingherhandinhisfirmgrasp。`Come,now!’AndBoldwoodslippedtheringonherfinger。
`Icannotwearit,’shesaid,weepingasifherheartwouldbreak。`Youfrightenme,almost。Sowildascheme!Pleaseletmegohome!’
`Onlyto-night:wearitjustto-night,topleaseme!’
Bathshebasatdowninachair,andburiedherfaceinherhandkerchief,thoughBoldwoodkeptherhandyet。Atlengthshesaid,inasortofhopelesswhisper——
`Verywell,then,Iwillto-night,ifyouwishitsoearnestly。Nowloosenmyhand;Iwill,indeedIwillwearitto-night。’
`Anditshallbethebeginningofapleasantsecretcourtshipofsixyears,withaweddingattheend?’
`Itmustbe,Isuppose,sinceyouwillhaveitso!’shesaid,fairlybeatenintonon-resistance。
Boldwoodpressedherhand,andallowedittodropinherlap。`Iamhappynow,’hesaid。`Godblessyou!’
Helefttheroom,andwhenhethoughtshemightbesufficientlycomposedsentoneofthemaidstoher。Bathshebacloakedtheeffectsofthelatesceneasshebestcould,followedthegirl,andinafewmomentscamedownstairswithherhatandcloakon,readytogo。Togettothedooritwasnecessarytopassthroughthehall,andbeforedoingsoshepausedonthebottomofthestaircasewhichdescendedintoonecorner,totakealastlookatthegathering。
Therewasnomusicordancinginprogressjustnow。Atthelowerend,whichhadbeenarrangedforthework-folkspeciallyagroupconversedinwhispers,andwithcloudedlooks。Boldwoodwasstandingbythefireplace,andhe,too,thoughsoabsorbedinvisionsarisingfromherpromisethathescarcelysawanything,seemedatthatmomenttohaveobservedtheirpeculiarmanner,andtheirlooksaskance。
`Whatisityouareindoubtabout,men?’hesaid。
Oneofthemturnedandreplieduneasily:`ItwassomethingLabanheardof,that’sall,sir。’
`News?Anybodymarriedorengaged,bornordead?’inquiredthefarmer,gaily。`Tellittous,Tall。Onewouldthinkfromyourlooksandmysteriouswaysthatitwassomethingverydreadfulitindeed。
`Ono,sir,nobodyisdead,’saidTall。
`Iwishsomebodywas,’saidSamway,inawhisper。
`Whatdoyousay,Samway?’saidBoldwood,somewhatsharply。`Ifyouhaveanythingtosay,speakout;ifnot,getupanotherdance。
`MrsTroyhascomedownstairs,’saidSamwaytoTall。`Ifyouwanttotellher,youhadbetterdoitnow。’
`Doyouknowwhattheymean?’thefarmeraskedBathsheba,acrosstheroom。
`Idon’tintheleast,’saidBathsheba。
Therewasasmartrappingatthedoor。Oneofthemenopeneditinstantly,andwentoutside。
`MrsTroyiswanted,’hesaid,onreturning。
`Quiteready,’saidBathsheba。`ThoughIdidn’ttellthemtosend。’
`Itisastranger,ma’am,’saidthemanbythedoor。
`Astranger?’shesaid。
`Askhimtocomein,’saidBoldwood。
Themessagewasgiven,andTroy,wrappeduptohiseyesaswehaveseenhim,stoodinthedoorway。
Therewasanunearthlysilence,alllookingtowardsthenewcomer。Thosewhohadjustlearntthathewasintheneighbourhoodrecognizedhiminstantly;
thosewhodidnotwereperplexed。NobodynotedBathsheba。Shewasleaningonthestairs。Herbrowhadheavilycontracted;herwholefacewaspallid,herlipsapart,hereyesrigidlystaringattheirvisitor。
BoldwoodwasamongthosewhodidnotnoticethathewasTroy。`Comein,comein!’herepeated,cheerfully,`anddrainaChristmasbeakerwithus,stranger!’
Troynextadvancedintothemiddleoftheroom,tookoffhiscap,turneddownhiscoat-collar,andlookedBoldwoodintheface。EventhenBoldwooddidnotrecognizethattheimpersonatorofHeaven’spersistentironytowardshim,whohadoncebeforebrokeninuponhisbliss,scourgedhim,andsnatchedhisdelightaway,hadcometodothesethingsasecondtime。Troybegantolaughamechanicallaugh:Boldwoodrecognizedhimnow。
TroyturnedtoBathsheba。Thepoorgirl’swretchednessatthistimewasbeyondallfancyornarration。Shehadsunkdownontheloweststair;
andthereshesat,hermouthblueanddry,andherdarkeyesfixedvacantlyuponhim,asifshewonderedwhetheritwerenotallaterribleillusion。
ThenTroyspoke。`Bathsheba,Icomehereforyou!’
Shemadenoreply。
`Comehomewithme:come!’
Bathshebamovedherfeetalittle,butdidnotrise。
Troywentacrosstoher。
`Come,madam,doyouhearwhatIsay?’hesaid,peremptorily。
Astrangevoicecamefromthefireplace-avoicesoundingfaroffandconfined,asiffromadungeon。HardlyasoulintheassemblyrecognizedthethintonestobethoseofBoldwood。Suddendespairhadtransformedhim。
`Bathsheba,gowithyourhusband!’
Nevertheless,shedidnotmove。ThetruthwasthatBathshebawasbeyondthepaleofactivity-andyetnotinaswoon。Shewasinastateofmentalguttaserena;hermindwasfortheminutetotallydeprivedoflightatthesametimethatnoobscurationwasapparentfromwithout。
Troystretchedouthishandtopullhertowardshim,whenshequicklyshrankback。ThisvisibledreadofhimseemedtoirritateTroy,andheseizedherarmandpulleditsharply。Whetherhisgrasppinchedher,orwhetherhismeretouchwasthecause,wasneverknown,butatthemomentofhisseizureshewrithed,andgaveaquick,lowscream。
Thescreamhadbeenheardbutafewsecondswhenitwasfollowedbyasuddendeafeningreportthatechoedthroughtheroomandstupefiedthemall。Theoakpartitionshookwiththeconcussion,andtheplacewasfilledwithgreysmoke。
InbewildermenttheyturnedtheireyestoBoldwood。Atthisback,ashestoodbeforethefireplace,wasagun-rack,asisusualinfarmhouses,constructedtoholdtwoguns。WhenBathshebahadcriedoutinherhusband’sgrasp,Boldwood’sfaceofgnashingdespairhadchanged。Theveinshadswollen,andafrenziedlookhadgleamedinhiseye。Hehadturnedquickly,takenoneoftheguns,cockedit,andatoncedischargeditatTroy。
Troyfell。Thedistanceapartofthetwomenwassosmallthatthechargeofshotdidnotspreadintheleast,butpassedlikeabulletintohisbody。Heutteredalonggutturalsigh-therewasacontraction-anextension-thenhismusclesrelaxed,andhelaystill。
Boldwoodwasseenthroughthesmoketobenowagainengagedwiththegun。Itwasdouble-barrelled,andhehad,meanwhile,insomewayfastenedhishandkerchieftothetrigger,andwithhisfootontheotherendwasintheactofturningthesecondbarreluponhimselfSamwayhismanwasthefirsttoseethis,andinthemidstofthegeneralhorrordarteduptohim。Boldwoodhadalreadytwitchedthehandkerchief,andthegunexplodedasecondtime,sendingitscontents,byatimelyblowfromSamway,intothebeamwhichcrossedtheceiling。
`Well,itmakesnodifference!’Boldwoodgasped。`Thereisanotherwayformetodie。’
ThenhebrokefromSamway,crossedtheroomtoBathsheba,andkissedherhand。Heputonhishat,openedthedoor,andwentintothedarkness,nobodythinkingofpreventinghim。
CHAPTERFIFTY-FOURAftertheShockBoldwoodpassedintothehighroad,andturnedinthedirectionofCasterbridge。
Herehewalkedataneven,steadypaceoverYalburyHill,alongthedeadlevelbeyond,mountedMellstockHill,andbetweenelevenandtwelveo’clockcrossedtheMoorintothetown。Thestreetswerenearlydesertednow,andthewavinglamp-flamesonlylighteduprowsofgreyshop-shutters,andstripsofwhitepavinguponwhichhisstepechoedashepassedalong。Heturnedtotheright,andhaltedbeforeanarchwayofheavystonework,whichwasclosedbyaniron-studdedpairofdoors。Thiswastheentrancetothegaol,andoveritalampwasfixed,thelightenablingthewretchedtravellertofindabell-pull。
Thesmallwicketatlastopened,andaporterappeared。Boldwoodsteppedforward,andsaidsomethinginalowtone,when,afteradelay,anothermancame。Boldwoodentered,andthedoorwasclosedbehindhim,andhewalkedtheworldnomore。
LongbeforethistimeWeatherburyhadbeenthoroughlyaroused,andthewilddeedwhichhadterminatedBoldwood’smerrymakingbecameknowntoall。
OfthoseoutofthehouseOakwasoneofthefirsttohearofthecatastrophe,andwhenheenteredtheroom,whichwasaboutfiveminutesafterBoldwood’sexit,thescenewasterrible。Allthefemaleguestswerehuddledaghastagainstthewallslikesheepinastorm,andthemenwerebewilderedastowhattodo。AsforBathsheba,shehadchanged。ShewassittingonthefloorbesidethebodyofTroyhisheadpillowedinherlap,whereshehadherselfliftedit。Withonehandsheheldherhandkerchieftohisbreastandcoveredthewound,thoughscarcelyasingledropofbloodhadflowed,andwiththeothershetightlyclaspedoneofhis。Thehouseholdconvulsionhadmadeherherselfagain。Thetemporarycomahadceased,andactivityhadcomewiththenecessityforitDeedsofendurancewhichseemordinaryinphilosophyarerareinconduct,andBathshebawasastonishingallaroundhernow,forherphilosophywasherconduct,andsheseldomthoughtpracticablewhatshedidnotpractise。Shewasofthestuffofwhichgreatmen’smothersaremade。Shewasindispensabletohighgenerationhatedatteaparties,fearedinshops,andlovedatcrises。Troyrecumbentinhiswife’slapformednowthesolespectacleinthemiddleofthespaciousroom。
`Gabriel,’shesaid,automatically,whenheentered,turningupafaceofwhichonlythewell-knownlinesremainedtotellhimitwashers,allelseinthepicturehavingfadedquite。`RidetoCasterbridgeinstantlyforasurgeon。Itis,Ibelieve,useless,butgo。MrBoldwoodhasshotmyhusband。’
Herstatementofthefactinsuchquietandsimplewordscamewithmoreforcethanatragicdeclamation,andhadsomewhattheeffectofsettingthedistortedimagesineachmindpresentintoproperfocus。Oak,almostbeforehehadcomprehendedanythingbeyondthebriefestabstractoftheevent,hurriedoutoftheroom,saddledahorseandrodeaway。Nottillhehadriddenmorethanamilediditoccurtohimthathewouldhavedonebetterbysendingsomeothermanonthiserrand,remaininghimselfinthehouse。WhathadbecomeofBoldwood?Heshouldhavebeenlookedafter。Washemad-hadtherebeenaquarrel?ThenhowhadTroygotthere?Wherehadhecomefrom?Howdidthisremarkablereappearanceeffectitselfwhenhewassupposedbymanytobeatthebottomofthesea?OakhadinsomemeasurebeenpreparedforthepresenceofTroybyhearingarumourofhisreturnjustbeforeenteringBoldwood’shouse;butbeforehehadweighedthatinformation,thisfataleventhadbeensuperimposed。However,itwastoolatenowtothinkofsendinganothermessenger,andherodeon,intheexcitementoftheseself-inquiriesnotdiscerning,whenaboutthreemilesfromCasterbridge,asquare-figuredpedestrianpassingalongunderthedarkhedgeinthesamedirectionashisown。
Themilesnecessarytobetraversed,andotherhindrancesincidentaltothelatenessofthehourandthedarknessofthenight,delayedthearrivalofMrAldritch,thesurgeon;andmorethanthreehourspassedbetweenthetimeatwhichtheshotwasfiredandthatofhisenteringthehouse。
OakwasadditionallydetainedinCasterbridgethroughhavingtogivenoticetotheauthoritiesofwhathadhappened;andhethenfoundthatBoldwoodhadalsoenteredthetown,anddeliveredhimselfup。
Inthemeantimethesurgeon,havinghastenedintothehallatBoldwood’s,founditindarknessandquitedeserted。Hewentontothebackofthehouse,wherehediscoveredinthekitchenanoldman,ofwhomhemadeinquiries。
`She’shadhimtookawaytoherownhouse,sir,’saidhisinformant。
`Whohas?’saidthedoctor。
`MrsTroy。’Awasquitedead,sir。’
Thiswasastonishinginformation。`Shehadnorighttodothat,’saidthedoctor。`Therewillhavetobeaninquest,andsheshouldhavewaitedtoknowwhattodo。’
`Yes,sir;itwashintedtoherthatshehadbetterwaittillthelawwasknown。Butshesaidlawwasnothingtoher,andshewouldn’tletherdearhusband’scorpsebideneglectedforfolkstostareatforallthecrownersinEngland。’
MrAldritchdroveatoncebackagainupthehilltoBathsheba’s。ThefirstpersonhemetwaspoorLiddy,whoseemedliterallytohavedwindledsmallerinthesefewlatterhours。Whathasbeendone?’hesaid。
`Idon’tknow,sir,’saidLiddy,withsuspendedbreath。`Mymistresshasdoneitall。’
`Whereisshe?’
`Upstairswithhim,sir。Whenhewasbroughthomeandtakenupstairs,shesaidshewantednofartherhelpfromthemen。Andthenshecalledme,andmademefillthebath,andafterthattoldmeIhadbettergoandliedownbecauseIlookedsoill。Thenshelockedherselfintotheroomalonewithhim,andwouldnotletanursecomein,oranybodyatall。ButIthoughtI’dwaitinthenextroomincasesheshouldwantme。Iheardhermovingaboutinsideformorethananhour,butsheonlycameonce,andthatwasformorecandles,becausehershadburntdownintothesocket。ShesaidweweretoletherknowwhenyouorMrThirdlycame,sir。’
Oakenteredwiththeparsonatthismoment,andtheyallwentupstairstogether,precededbyLiddySmallbury。Everythingwassilentasthegravewhentheypausedonthelanding。Liddyknocked,andBathsheba’sdresswasheardrustlingacrosstheroom:thekeyturnedinthelock,andsheopenedthedoor。Herlookswerecalmandnearlyrigid,likeaslightlyanimatedbustofMelpomene。
`Oh,MrAldritch,youhavecomeatlast,’shemurmuredfromherlipsmerely,andthrewbackthedoor。`Ah,andMrThirdly。Well,allisdone,andanybodyintheworldmayseehimnow。’Shethenpassedbyhim,crossedthelanding,andenteredanotherroom。
Lookingintothechamberofdeathshehadvacatedtheysawbythelightofthecandleswhichwereonthedrawersatallstraightshapelyingatthefartherendofthebedroom,wrappedinwhite。Everythingaroundwasquiteorderly。Thedoctorwentin,andafterafewminutesreturnedtothelandingagain,whereOakandtheparsonstillwaited。
`Itisalldone,indeed,asshesays,’remarkedMrAldritch,inasubduedvoice。`Thebodyhasbeenundressedandproperlylaidoutingrave-clothes。
GraciousHeaven-thismeregirl!Shemusthavethenerveofastoic!’
`Theheartofawifemerely,’floatedinawhisperabouttheearsofthethree,andturningtheysawBathshebainthemidstofthem。Then,asifatthatinstanttoprovethatherfortitudehadbeenmoreofwillthanofspontaneity,shesilentlysankdownbetweenthemandwasashapelessheapofdraperyonthefloor。Thesimpleconsciousnessthatsuperhumanstrainwasnolongerrequiredhadatonceputaperiodtoherpowertocontinueit。
Theytookherawayintoafartherroom,andthemedicalattendancewhichhadbeenuselessinTroy’scasewasinvaluableinBathsheba’s,whofellintoaseriesoffainting-fitsthathadaseriousaspectforatime。Thesuffererwasgottobed,andOak,findingfromthebulletinsthatnothingreallydreadfulwastobeapprehendedonherscoreleftthehouse。LiddykeptwatchinBathsheba’schamber,wheresheheardhermistressmoaninginwhispersthroughthedullslowhoursofthatwretchednight:`Oitismyfault-howcanIlive!OHeaven,howcanIlive!’
CHAPTERFIFTY-FIVETheMarchFollowing-`BathshebaBoldwood’WepassrapidlyonintothemonthofMarch,toabreezydaywithoutsunshine,frost,ordew。OnYalburyHill,aboutmidwaybetweenWeatherburyandCasterbridge,wheretheturnpikeroadpassesoverthecrest,anumerousconcourseofpeoplehadgathered,theeyesofthegreaternumberbeingfrequentlystretchedafarinanortherlydirection。Thegroupsconsistedofathrongofidlers,apartyofjavelin-men,andtwotrumpeters,andinthemidstwerecarriages,oneofwhichcontainedthehighsheriffWiththeidlers,manyofwhomhadmountedtothetopofacuttingformedfortheroad,wereseveralWeatherburymenandboys-amongothersPoorgrass,Coggan,andCainBall。
Attheendofhalf-an-hourafaintdustwasseenintheexpectedquarter,andshortlyafteratravelling-carriage,bringingoneofthetwojudgesontheWesternCircuit,cameupthehillandhaltedonthetop。Thejudgechangedcarriageswhilstaflourishwasblownbythebig-cheekedtrumpeters,andaprocessionbeingformedofthevehiclesandjavelin-men,theyallproceededtowardsthetown,exceptingtheWeatherburymen,whoassoonastheyhadseenthejudgemoveoffreturnedhomeagaintotheirwork。
`Joseph,Izeedyousqueezingclosetothecarriage,’saidCoggan,astheywalked。`Didyenoticemylordjudge’sface?’
`Idid,’saidPoorgrass,`Ilookedhardaten,asifIwouldreadhisverysoul;andtherewasmerryinhiseyes-ortospeakwiththeexacttruthrequiredofusatthissolemntime,intheeyethatwastowardsme。
`Well,Ihopeforthebest,’saidCoggan,`thoughbadthatmustbe。
However,Ishan’tgotothetrial,andI’dadvisetherestofyethatbain’twantedtobideaway。’Twilldisturbhismindmorethananythingtoseeustherestaringathimasifhewereashow。’
`TheverythingIsaidthismorning,’observedJoseph。“`Justiceiscometoweighhiminthebalances。”Isaidinmyreflectiousway,“andifhe’sfoundwanting,sobeituntohim。”andabystandersaid“Hear,hear!Amanwhocantalklikethatoughttobeheard。”ButIdon’tlikedwellinguponit,formyfewwordsaremyfewwords,andriotmuch;thoughthespeechofsomemenisrumouredabroadasthoughbynatureformedforsuch。’
`So’tis,Joseph。Andnow,neighbours,asIsaid,everymanbideathome。’
Theresolutionwasadheredto;andallwaitedanxiouslyforthenewsnextday。Theirsuspensewasdiverted,however,byadiscoverywhichwasmadeintheafternoon,throwingmorelightonBoldwood’sconductandconditionthananydetailswhichhadprecededit。
ThathehadbeenfromthetimeofGreenhillFairuntilthefatalChristmasEveinexcitedandunusualmoodswasknowntothosewhohadbeenintimatewithhim;butnobodyimaginedthattherehadshowninhimunequivocalsymptomsofthementalderangementwhichBathshebaandOak,aloneofallothersandatdifferenttimes,hadmomentarilysuspected。Inalockedclosetwasnowdiscoveredanextraordinarycollectionofarticles。Therewereseveralsetsofladies’dressesinthepiece,ofsundryexpensivematerials;silksandsatins,poplinsandvelvets,allofcolourswhichfromBathsheba’sstyleofdressmighthavebeenjudgedtobeherfavourites。Thereweretwomuffs,sableandermine。Abovealltherewasacaseofjewellery,containingfourheavygoldbraceletsandseverallocketsandrings,alloffinequalityandmanufacture。ThesethingshadbeenboughtinBathandothertownsfromtimetotime,andbroughthomebystealth。Theywereallcarefullypackedinpaper,andeachpackagewaslabelled`BathshebaBoldwood’,adatebeingsubjoinedsixyearsinadvanceineveryinstance。
ThesesomewhatpatheticevidencesofamindcrazedwithcareandlovewerethesubjectofdiscourseinWarren’smalt-housewhenOakenteredfromCasterbridgewithtidingsofthesentence。Hecameintheafternoon,andhisface,asthekilnglowshoneuponit,toldthetalesufficientlywell。
Boldwood,aseveryonesupposedhewoulddo,hadpleadedguilty,andhadbeensentencedtodeath。
TheconvictionthatBoldwoodhadnotbeenmorallyresponsibleforhislateractsnowbecamegeneral。Factselicitedprevioustothetrialhadpointedstronglyinthesamedirection,buttheyhadnotbeenofsufficientweighttoleadtoanorderforanexaminationintothestateofBoldwood’smind。Itwasastonishing,nowthatapresumptionofinsanitywasraised,howmanycollateralcircumstanceswererememberedtowhichaconditionofmentaldiseaseseemedtoaffordtheonlyexplanation-amongothers,theunprecedentedneglectofhiscornstacksintheprevioussummer。
ApetitionwasaddressedtotheHomeSecretary,advancingthecircumstanceswhichappearedtojustifyarequestforareconsiderationofthesentence。
Itwasnot`numerouslysigned’bytheinhabitantsofCasterbridge,asisusualinsuchcases,forBoldwoodhadnevermademanyfriendsoverthecounter。Theshopsthoughtitverynaturalthatamanwho,byimportingdirectfromtheproducer,haddaringlysetasidethefirstgreatprincipleofprovincialexistence,namely,thatGodmadecountryvillagestosupplycustomerstocountrytowns,shouldhaveconfusedideasabouttheDecalogue。
Theprompterswereafewmercifulmenwhohadperhapstoofeelinglyconsideredthefactslatterlyunearthed,andtheresultwasthatevidencewastakenwhichitwashopedmightremovethecrime,inamoralpointofview,outofthecategoryofwilfulmurder,andleadittoberegardedasasheeroutcomeofmadness。
TheupshotofthepetitionwaswaitedforinWeatherburywithsolicitousinterest。Theexecutionhadbeenfixedforeighto’clockinaSaturdaymorningaboutafortnightafterthesentencewaspassed,anduptoFridayafternoonnoanswerhadbeenreceived。AtthattimeGabrielcamefromCasterbridgeGaol,whitherhehadbeentowishBoldwoodgood-bye,andturneddownaby-streettoavoidthetown。Whenpastthelasthouseheheardahammering,andlifting,’hisbowedheadhelookedbackforamoment。Overthechimneyshecouldseetheupperpartofthegaolentrance,richandglowingintheafternoonsun,andsomefigureswerethere。Theywerecarpentersliftingpostintoaverticalpositionwithintheparapet。Hewithdrewhiseyesquicklyandhastenedon。
Itwasdarkwhenhereachedhome,andhalfthevillagewasouttomeethim。
`Notidings,’Gabrielsaid,wearily。`AndI’mafraidthere’snohope。
I’vebeenwithhimmorethantwohours。’
`Doyouthinkhereallywasoutofhismindwhenhedidit?’
saidSmallbury。
`Ican’thonestlysaythatIdo,’Oakreplied。`However,thatwecantalkofanothertime。Hastherebeenanychangeinmistressthisafternoon?’
`Noneatall。’
`Isshedownstairs?’
`No。Andgettingonsonicelyasshewastoo。She’sbutverylittlebetternowagainthanshewasatChristmas。Shekeepsonaskingifyoubecome,andifthere’snews,tillone’sweariedoutwi’answeringher。
ShallIgoandsayyou’vecome?’
`No,’saidOak。`There’sachanceyet;butIcouldn’tstayintownanylonger-afterseeinghimtoo。SoLaban-Labanishere,isn’the?’
`Yes,’saidTall。
`WhatI’vearrangedis,thatyoushallridetotownthelastthingtonight;leavehereaboutnine,andwaitawhilethere,gettinghomeabouttwelve。Ifnothinghasbeenreceivedbyelevento-night,theysaythere’snochanceatall。’
`Idosohopehislifewithbespared,’saidLiddy。`Ifitisnot,she’llgooutofhermindtoo。Poorthing;hersufferingshavebeendreadful;
shedeservesanybody’spity。’
`Isshealteredmuch?’saidCoggan。
`Ifyouhaven’tseenpoormistresssinceChristmas,youwouldn’tknowher,’saidLiddy。`Hereyesaresomiserablethatshe’snotthesamewoman。
Onlytwoyearsagoshewasarompinggirl,andnowshe’sthis!’
Labandepartedasdirected,andateleveno’clockthatnightseveralofthevillagersstrolledalongtheroadtoCasterbridgeandawaitedhisarrival-amongthemOak,andnearlyalltherestofBathsheba’smen。Gabriel’sanxietywasgreatthatBoldwoodmighthesaved,eventhoughinhisconsciencehefeltthatheoughttodie;fortherehadbeenqualitiesinthefarmerwhichOakloved。Atlast,whentheyallwerewearythetrampofahorsewasheardinthedistance——Firstdead,asifonturfittrode,Then,clattering,onthevillageroadInotherpacethanforthheyode。`Weshallsoonknownow,onewayorother,’saidCoggan,andtheyallsteppeddownfromthebankonwhichtheyhadbeenstandingintotheroad,andtheriderprancedintothemidstofthem。
`Isthatyou,Laban?’saidGabriel。
`Yes——’tiscome。He’snottodie。’TisconfinementduringHerMajesty’spleasure。’
`Hurrah!’saidCoggan,withaswellingheart。`God’sabovethedevilyet!’
CHAPTERFIFTY-SIXBeautyinLoneliness-AfterAllBathshebarevivedwiththespring。Theutterprostrationthathadfollowedthelowfeverfromwhichshehadsuffereddiminishedperceptiblywhenalluncertaintyuponeverysubjecthadcometoanend。
Butsheremainedalonenowforthegreaterpartofhertime,andstayedinthehouse,oratfurthestwentintothegarden。Sheshunnedeveryone,evenLiddy,andcouldbebroughttomakenoconfidences,andtoaskfornosympathy。
Asthesummerdrewonshepassedmoreofhertimeintheopenair,andbegantoexamineintofarmingmattersfromsheernecessity,thoughsheneverrodeoutorpersonallysuperintendedasatformertimes。OneFridayeveninginAugustshewalkedalittlewayalongtheroadandenteredthevillageforthefirsttimesincethesombreeventoftheprecedingChristmas。
Noneoftheoldcolourhadasyetcometohercheek,anditsabsolutepalenesswasheightenedbythejetblackofhergown,tillitappearedpreternatural。
Whenshereachedalittleshopattheotherendoftheplace,whichstoodnearlyoppositetothechurchyard,Bathshebaheardsinginginsidethechurch,andsheknewthatthesingerswerepracticing。Shecrossedtheroad,openedthegate,andenteredthegraveyard,thehighsillsofthechurchwindowseffectuallyscreeningherfromtheeyesofthosegatheredwithin。HerstealthywalkwastothenookwhereinTroyhadworkedatplantingflowersuponFannyRobin’sgrave,andshecametothemarbletombstone。
Amotionofsatisfactionenlivenedherfaceasshereadthecompleteinscription。FirstcamethewordsofTroyhimself:——ERECTEDBYFRANCISTROYINBELOVEDMEMORYOFFANNYROBIN,WHO
DIEDOCTOBER9,18-,AGED20YEARS。Underneaththiswasnowinscribedinnewletters:——INTHESAMEGRAVELIETHEREMAINSOFTHEAFORESAIDFRANCIS
TROY,WHODIEDDECEMBER24TH,18-,AGED26YEARS。Whilstshestoodandreadandmeditatedthetonesoftheorganbeganagaininthechurch,andshewentwiththesamelightsteproundtotheporchandlistened。Thedoorwasclosed,andthechoirwaslearninganewhymn。
Bathshebawasstirredbyemotionswhichlatterlyshehadassumedtobealtogetherdeadwithinher。Thelittleattenuatedvoicesofthechildrenbroughttoherearindistinctutterancethewordstheysangwithoutthoughtorcomprehension——Lead,kindlyLight,amidtheencirclinggloom,LeadThoumeon。Bathsheba’sfeelingwasalwaystosomeextentdependentuponherwhim,asisthecasewithmanyotherwomen。Somethingbigcameintoherthroatandanuprisingtohereyes-andshethoughtthatshewouldallowtheimminenttearstoflowiftheywished。Theydidflowandplenteously,andonefelluponthestonebenchbesideher。Onceshehadbeguntocryforshehardlyknewwhat,shecouldnotleaveoffforcrowdingthoughtssheknewtoowell。Shewouldhavegivenanythingintheworldtobe,asthosechildrenwere,unconcernedatthemeaningoftheirwords,becausetooinnocenttofeelthenecessityforanysuchexpression。Alltheimpassionedscenesofherbriefexperienceseemedtorevivewithaddedemotionatthatmoment,andthosesceneswhichhadbeenwithoutemotionduringenactmenthademotionthen。Yetgriefcametoherratherasaluxurythanasthescourgeofformertimes。
OwingtoBathsheba’sfacebeingburiedinherhandsshedidnotnoticeaformwhichcamequietlyintotheporch,andonseeingher,firstmovedasiftoretreat,thenpausedandregardedher。Bathshebadidnotraiseherheadforsometime,andwhenshelookedroundherfacewaswet,andhereyesdrownedanddim。`MrOak,’exclaimedshe,disconcerted,`howlonghaveyoubeenhere?’
`Afewminutes,ma’am,’saidOak,respectfully。
`Areyougoingin?’saidBathsheba;andtherecamefromwithinthechurchasfromaprompter——Ilovedthegarishday,and,spiteoffears,Prideruledmywill:remembernotpastyears。`Iwas,’saidGabriel。`Iamoneofthebasssingers,youknow。Ihavesungbassforseveralmonths。’
`Indeed:Iwasn’tawareofthat。I’llleaveyou,then。’WhichIhavelovedlongsince,andlostawhile,sangthechildren。
`Don’tletmedriveyouaway,mistress。IthinkIwon’tgointo-night。’
`Ono-youdon’tdrivemeaway。’
Thentheystoodinastateofsomeembarrassment,Bathshebatryingtowipeherdreadfullydrenchedandinflamedfacewithouthisnoticingher。
AtlengthOaksaid,`I’venotseenyou-Imeanspokentoyou-sinceeversolong,haveI?’Buthefearedtobringdistressingmemoriesback,andinterruptedhimselfwith:`Wereyougoingintochurch?’
`No,’shesaid。`Icametoseethetombstoneprivately-toseeiftheyhadcuttheinscriptionasIwished。MrOak,youneedn’tmindspeakingtome,ifyouwishto,onthematterwhichisinbothourmindsatthismoment。
`Andhavetheydoneitasyouwished?’saidOak。
`Yes。Comeandseeit,ifyouhavenotalready。’
Sotogethertheywentandreadthetomb。`Eightmonthsago!’Gabrielmurmuredwhenhesawthedate。`Itseemslikeyesterdaytome。’
`Andtomeasifitwereyearsago-longyears,andIhadbeendeadbetween。AndnowIamgoinghome,MrOak。’
Oakwalkedafterher。`IwantedtonameasmallmattertoyouassoonasIcould,’hesaidwithhesitation。`Merelyaboutbusiness,andIthinkImayjustmentionitnow,ifyou’llallowme。’
`Oyes,certainly。’
`ItisthatImaysoonhavetogiveupthemanagementofyourfarm,MrsTroy。Thefactis,IamthinkingofleavingEngland-notyet,youknow-nextspring。’
`LeavingEngland!’shesaid,insurpriseandgenuinedisappointment。
`Why,Gabriel,whatareyougoingtodothatfor?’
`Well,I’vethoughtitbest,’Oakstammeredout。`CaliforniaisthespotI’vehadinmymindtotry。’
`ButitisunderstoodeverywherethatyouaregoingtotakepoorMrBoldwood’sfarmonyourownaccount?’
`I’vehadtherefusalo’it’tistrue;butnothingissettledyet,andIhavereasonsforgieingup。Ishallfinishoutmyyearthereasmanagerforthetrustees,butnomore。’
`AndwhatshallIdowithoutyou?Oh,Gabriel,Idon’tthinkyououghttogoaway。You’vebeenwithmesolong-throughbrighttimesanddarktimes-sucholdfriendsasweare-thatitseemsunkindalmost。Ihadfanciedthatifyouleasedtheotherfarmasmaster,youmightstillgiveahelpinglookacrossatmine。Andnowgoingaway!’
`Iwouldhavewillingly。’
`YetnowthatIammorehelplessthaneveryougoaway!’
`Yes,that’stheillfortuneo’it,’saidGabriel,inadistressedtone。
`AnditisbecauseofthatveryhelplessnessthatIfeelboundtogo。Goodafternoon,ma’am,’heconcluded,inevidentanxietytogetawayandatoncewentoutofthechurchyardbyapathshecouldfollowonnopretencewhatever。
Bathshebawenthome,hermindoccupiedwithanewtrouble,whichbeingratherharassingthandeadlywascalculatedtodogoodbydivertingherfromthechronicgloomofherlife。ShewassetthinkingagreatdealaboutOakandofhiswishtoshunher;andthereoccurredtoBathshebaseveralincidentsofherlatterintercoursewithhim,which,trivialwhensinglyviewed,amountedtogethertoaperceptibledisinclinationforhersociety。
Itbrokeuponheratlengthasagreatpainthatherlastolddisciplewasabouttoforsakeherandflee。Hewhohadbelievedinherandarguedonhersidewhenalltherestoftheworldwasagainsther,hadatlastliketheothersbecomewearyandneglectfuloftheoldcause,andwasleavinghertofightherbattlesalone。
Threeweekswenton,andmoreevidenceofhiswantofinterestinherwasforthcoming。Shenoticedthatinsteadofenteringthesmallparlourorofficewherethefarmaccountswerekept,andwaiting,orleavingamemorandumashehadhithertodoneduringherseclusion,Oaknevercameatallwhenshewaslikelytobethere,onlyenteringatunseasonablehourswhenherpresenceinthatpartofthehousewasleasttobeexpected。Wheneverhewanteddirectionhesentamessage,ornotewithneitherheadingnorsignature,towhichshewasobligedtoreplyinthesameoffhandstyle。
PoorBathshebabegantosuffernowfromthemosttorturingstingofall-asensationthatshewasdespised。
Theautumnworeawaygloomilyenoughamidthesemelancholyconjectures,andChristmas-daycame,completingayearofherlegalwidowhood,andtwoyearsandaquarterofherlifealone。Onexaminingherheartitappearedbeyondmeasurestrangethatthesubjectofwhichtheseasonmighthavebeensupposedsuggestive-theeventinthehallatBoldwood’s-wasnotagitatingheratall;butinstead,anagonizingconvictionthateverybodyabjuredher-forwhatshecouldnottell-andthatOakwastheringleaderoftherecusants。ComingoutofchurchthatdayshelookedroundinhopethatOak,whosebassvoiceshehadheardrollingoutfromthegalleryoverheadinamostunconcernedmanner,mightchancetolingerinherpathintheoldway。Therehewas,asusual,comingdownthepathbehindher。ButonseeingBathshebaturn,helookedaside,andassoonashegotbeyondthegate,andtherewasthebarestexcuseforadivergence,hemadeone,andvanished。
Thenextmorningbroughttheculminatingstroke;shehadbeenexpectingitlong。ItwasaformalnoticebyletterfromhimthatheshouldnotrenewhisengagementwithherforthefollowingLady-day。
Bathshebaactuallysatandcriedoverthislettermostbitterly。ShewasaggrievedandwoundedthatthepossessionofhopelesslovefromGabriel,whichshehadgrowntoregardasherinalienablerightforlife,shouldhavebeenwithdrawnjustathisownpleasureinthisway。Shewasbewilderedtoobytheprospectofhavingtorelyonherownresourcesagain:itseemedtoherselfthatshenevercouldagainacquireenergysufficienttogotomarket,barter,andsell。SinceTroy’sdeathOakhadattendedallsalesandfairsforher,transactingherbusinessatthesametimewithhisown。
Whatshouldshedonow?Herlifewasbecomingadesolation。
SodesolatewasBathshebathisevening,thatinanabsolutehungerforpityandsympathy,andmiserableinthatsheappearedtohaveoutlivedtheonlytruefriendshipshehadeverowned,sheputonherbonnetandcloakandwentdowntoOak’shousejustaftersunset,guidedonherwaybythepaleprimroseraysofacrescentmoonafewdaysold。
Alivelyfirelightshonefromthewindow,butnobodywasvisibleintheroom。Shetappednervously,andthenthoughtitdoubtfulifitwererightforasinglewomantocalluponabachelorwholivedalone,althoughhewashermanager,andshemightbesupposedtocallonbusinesswithoutanyrealimpropriety。Gabrielopenedthedoor,andthemoonshoneuponhisforehead。
`MrOak,’saidBathshebafaintly。
`Yes;IamMrOak,’saidGabriel。`WhohaveIthehonour-Ohowstupidofme,nottoknowyou,mistress!’
`Ishallnotbeyourmistressmuchlonger,shallI,Gabriel?’shesaidinpathetictones。
`Well,no。Isuppose-Butcomein,ma’am。Oh-andI’llgetalight,’
Oakreplied,withsomeawkwardness。
`No;notonmyaccount。’
`ItissoseldomthatIgetaladyvisitorthatI’mafraidIhaven’tproperaccommodation。Willyousitdown,please?Here’sachairandthere’sone,too。Iamsorrythatmychairsallhavewoodseats,andareratherhard,butI-wasthinkingofgettingsomenewones。’Oakplacedtwoorthreeforher。
`Theyarequiteeasyenoughforme。’
Sodownshesat,anddownhesat,thefiredancingintheirfaces,andupontheoldfurniture,alla-sheenenWi’longyearsO’handlen,thatformedOak’sarrayofhouseholdpossessions,whichsentbackadancingreflectioninreply。Itwasveryoddtothesetwopersons,whokneweachotherpassingwell,thatthemerecircumstanceoftheirmeetinginanewplaceandinanewwayshouldmakethemsoawkwardandconstrained。Inthefields,oratherhouse,therehadneverbeenanyembarrassment;butnowthatOakhadbecometheentertainertheirlivesseemedtobemovedbackagaintothedayswhentheywerestrangers。
`You’llthinkitstrangethatIhavecome,but——’
`Ono;notatall。’
`ButIthought-Gabriel,IhavebeenuneasyinthebeliefthatIhaveoffendedyou,andthatyouaregoingawayonthataccount。Itgrievedmeverymuch,andIcouldn’thelpcoming。’
`Offendedme!Asifyoucoulddothat,Bathsheba!’
`Haven’tI?’sheasked,gladly。`But,whatareyougoingawayforelse?’
`Iamnotgoingtoemigrate,youknow;Iwasn’tawarethatyouwouldwishmenottowhenItold’ee,orIshouldn’thavethoughtofdoingit,’
hesaid,simply。`IhavearrangedforLittleWeatherburyFarm,andshallhaveitinmyownhandsatLady-day。YouknowI’vehadashareinitforsometime。Still,thatwouldn’tpreventmyattendingtoyourbusinessasbefore,hadn’titbeenthatthingshavebeensaidaboutus。’
`What?’saidBathshebainsurprise。`Thingssaidaboutyouandme!Whatarethey?’
`Icannottellyou。’
`Itwouldbewiserifyouwereto,Ithink。Youhaveplayedthepartofmentortomemanytimes,andIdon’tseewhyyoushouldfeartodoitnow。’
`Itisnothingthatyouhavedone,thistime。Thetopandtailo’tisthis-thatI’msniffingabouthere,andwaitingforpoorBoldwood’sfarm,withathoughtofgettingyousomeday。’
`Gettingme!Whatdoesthatmean?’
`Marryingof’ee,inplainBritish。Youaskedmetotell,soyoumustn’tblameme。’
Bathshebadidnotlookquitesoalarmedasifacannonhadbeendischargedbyherear,whichwaswhatOakhadexpected。`Marryingme!Ididn’tknowitwasthatyoumeant,’shesaid,quietly。`Suchathingasthatistooabsurd-toosoon-tothinkofbyfar!’
`Yes;ofcourse,itistooabsurd。Idon’tdesireanysuchthing;I
shouldthinkthatwasplainenoughbythistime。Surely,surelyyoubethelastpersonintheworldIthinkofmarrying。Itistooabsurd,asyousay。
“`Too-s-s-soon“werethewordsIused。’
`Imustbegyourpardonforcorrectingyou,butyousaid,“tooabsurd“,andsodoI。’
`Ibegyourpardontoo!’shereturned,withtearsinhereyes。“`Toosoon“waswhatIsaid。Butitdoesn’tmatterabit-notatall-butI
onlymeant,“toosoon“。Indeed,Ididn’t,MrOak,andyoumustbelieveme!’Gabriellookedherlongintheface,butthefirelightbeingfainttherewasnotmuchtobeseen。`Bathsheba,’hesaid,tenderlyandinsurprise,andcomingcloser:`IfIonlyknewonething-whetheryouwouldallowmetoloveyouandwinyou,andmarryyouafterall-ifIonlyknewthat!’
`Butyouneverwillknow,’shemurmured。
`Why?’
`Becauseyouneverask。’
`Oh-Oh!’saidGabriel,withalowlaughofjoyousness。`Myowndear——’
`Yououghtnottohavesentmethatharshletterthismorning,’sheinterrupted。`Itshowsyoudidn’tcareabitaboutme,andwerereadytodesertmelikealltherestofthem!Itwasverycruelofyou,consideringIwasthefirstsweetheartthatyoueverhad,andyouwerethefirstI
everhad;andIshallnotforgetit!’
`Now,Bathsheba,waseveranybodysoprovoking?’hesaid,laughing。
`YouknowitwaspurelythatI,asanunmarriedman,carryingonabusinessforyouasaverytakingyoungwoman,hadaproperhardparttoplay-
moreparticularthatpeopleknewIhadasortoffeelingfor’ee;andI
fancied,fromthewaywewerementionedtogether,thatitmightinjureyourgoodname。NobodyknowstheheatandfretIhavebeencausedbyit。’
`Andwasthatall?’
`All。’
`O,howgladIamIcame!’sheexclaimed,thankfully,assherosefromherseat。`IhavethoughtsomuchmoreofyousinceIfanciedyoudidnotwanteventoseemeagain。ButImustbegoingnoworIshallbemissed。
Why,Gabriel,’shesaid,withaslightlaugh,astheywenttothedoor,`itseemsexactlyasifIhadcomecourtingyou-howdreadful!’
`Andquiteright,too,’saidOak。`I’vedancedatyourskittishheels,mybeautifulBathsheba,formanyalongmile,andmanyalongday;anditishardtobegrudgemethisonevisit。’
Heaccompaniedherupthehill,explainingtoherthedetailsofhisforthcomingtenureoftheotherfarm。Theyspokeverylittleoftheirmutualfeelings;prettyphrasesandwarmexpressionsbeingprobablyunnecessarybetweensuchtriedfriends。Theirswasthatsubstantialaffectionwhicharisesifanyarisesatallwhenthetwowhoarethrowntogetherbeginfirstbyknowingtheroughersidesofeachother’scharacter,andnotthebesttillfurtheron,theromancegrowingupintheintersticesofamassofhardprosaicreality。Thisgood-fellowship-camaraderie-usuallyoccurringthroughsimilarityofpursuits,isunfortunatelyseldomsuperaddedtolovebetweenthesexes,becausemenandwomenassociate,notintheirlabours,butintheirpleasuresmerely。Where,however,happycircumstancepermitsitsdevelopment,thecompoundedfeelingprovesitselftobetheonlylovewhichisstrongasdeath-thatlovewhichmanywaterscannotquench,northefloodsdrown,besidewhichthepassionusuallycalledbythenameisevanescentassteam。
CHAPTERFIFTY-SEVENAFoggyNightandMorning-Conclusion`Themostprivate,secret,plainestweddingthatitispossibletohave。’
ThosehadbeenBathsheba’swordstoOakoneevening,sometimeaftertheeventoftheprecedingchapter,andhemeditatedahillhourbytheclockuponhowtocarryoutherwishestotheletter。
`Alicense-Oyes,itmustbealicense,’hesaidtohimselfatlast。
`Verywell,then;first,alicense。’
Onadarknight,afewdayslater,Oakcamewithmysteriousstepsfromthesurrogate’sdoorinCasterbridge。Onthewayhomeheheardaheavytreadinfrontofhim,and,overtakingtheman,foundhimtobeCoggan。
Theywalkedtogetherintothevillageuntiltheycametoalittlelanebehindthechurch,leadingdowntothecottageofLabanTall,whohadlatelybeeninstalledasclerkoftheparish,andwasyetinmortalterroratchurchonSundayswhenheheardhislonevoiceamongcertainhardwordsofthePsalms,whithernomanventuredtofollowhim。
`Well,good-night,Coggan,’saidOak,`I’mgoingdownthisway。’
`Oh!’saidCoggan,surprised;`what’sgoingonto-night,then,makesobold,MrOak?’
ItseemedratherungenerousnottotellCoggan,underthecircumstances,forCogganhadbeentrueassteelallthroughthetimeofGabriel’sunhappinessaboutBathsheba,andGabrielsaid,`Youcankeepasecret,Coggan?’
`You’veprovedme,andyouknow。’
`Yes,Ihave,andIdoknow。Well,then,mistressandImeantogetmarriedtomorrowmorning。’
`Heaven’shightower!AndyetI’vethoughtofsuchathingfromtimetotime;true,Ihave。Butkeepingitsoclose!Well,there,’tisnoconsarnofmine,andIwish’eejoyo’her。’
`Thankyou,Coggan。ButIassure’eethatthisgreathushisnotwhatIwishedforatall,orwhateitherofuswouldhavewishedifithadn’tbeenforcertainthingsthatwouldmakeagayweddingseemhardlythething。
Bathshebahasagreatwishthatalltheparishshrillnotbeinchurch,lookingather-she’sshy-likeandnervousaboutit,infact-soI
bedoingthistohumourher。’
`Ay,Isee:quiteright,too,IsupposeImustsay。Andyoubenowgoingdowntotheclerk。’
`Yes;youmayaswellcomewithme。’
`Iamafeardyourlabourinkeepingitclosewillbethrowedaway,’
saidCoggan,astheywalkedalong。`LabeTall’soldwomanwillhornitalloverparishinhalf-an-hour。’
`Soshewill,uponmylife;Ineverthoughtofthat,’saidOak,pausing。
`YetImusttellhimto-night,Isuppose,forhe’sworkingsofaroff,andleavesearly。’
`I’lltell’eehowwecouldtackleher,’saidCoggan。`I’llknockandasktospeaktoLabanoutsidethedoor,youstandinginthebackground。
Thenhe’llcomeout,andyoutellyertale。She’llneverguesswhatIwantenfor;andI’llmakeupafewwordsaboutthefarm-work,asablind。’
Thisschemewasconsideredfeasible;andCogganadvancedboldly,andrappedatMrsTall’sdoor。MrsTallherselfopenedit。
`IwantedtohaveawordwithLaban。’
`He’snotathome,andwon’tbethissideofeleveno’clock。He’vebeenforcedtogoovertoYalburysinceshuttingoutwork。Ishalldoquiteaswell。’
`Ihardlythinkyouwill。Stopamoment,’andCoggansteppedroundthecorneroftheporchtoconsultOak。
`Who’st’otherman,then?’saidMrsTall。
`Onlyafriend,’saidCoggan。
`Sayhe’swantedtomeetmistressnearchurch-hatchto-morrowmorningatten,’saidOak,inawhisper。`Thathemustcomewithoutfail,andwearhisbestclothes。’
`Theclotheswillfloorusassafeashouses!’saidCoggan。
`Itcan’tbehelped,’saidOak。`Tellher。’
SoCoggandeliveredthemessage。`Mind,hetorwet,bloworsnow,hemustcome,’addedJan。`’Tisveryparticular,indeed。Thefactis,’tistowitnesshersignsomelaw-workabouttakingshareswi’anotherfarmerforalongspano’years。There,that’swhat’tis,andnowI’vetold’ee,MotherTall,inawayIshouldn’tha’doneifIhadn’tloved’eesohopelesswell。’
Cogganretiredbeforeshecouldaskanyfurther;andnexttheycalledatthevicar’sinamannerwhichexcitednocuriosityatall。ThenGabrielwenthome,andpreparedforthemorrow。
`Liddy,’saidBathsheba,ongoingtobedthatnight,`Iwantyoutocallmeatseveno’clockto-morrow,incaseIshouldn’twake。’
`Butyoualwaysdowakeaforethen,ma’am。’
`Yes,butIhavesomethingimportanttodo,whichI’lltellyouofwhenthetimecomes,andit’sbesttomakesure。’
Bathsheba,however,awokevoluntarilyatfour,norcouldshebyanycontrivancegettosleepagain。Aboutsix,beingquitepositivethatherwatchhadstoppedduringthenight,shecouldwaitnolonger。ShewentandtappedatLiddy’sdoor,andaftersomelabourawokeher。
`ButIthoughtitwasIwhohadtocallyou?’saidthebewilderedLiddy。
`Anditisn’tsixyet。’
`Indeeditis;howcanyoutellsuchastory,Liddy!Iknowitmustbeeversomuchpastseven。Cometomyroomassoonasyoucan;Iwantyoutogivemyhairagoodbrushing。’
WhenLiddycametoBathsheba’sroomhermistresswasalreadywaiting。
Liddycouldnotunderstandthisextraordinarypromptness。`Whateverisgoingon,ma’am?’shesaid。
`Well,I’lltellyou,’saidBathsheba,withamischievoussmileinherbrighteyes。`FarmerOakiscomingheretodinewithmeto-day!’
`FarmerOak-andnobodyelse?-youtwoalone?’
`Yes。’
`Butisitsafe,ma’am,afterwhat’sbeensaid?’askedhercompanion,dubiously。`Awoman’sgoodnameissuchaperishablearticlethat——’
Bathshebalaughedwithaflushedcheek,andwhisperedinLiddy’sear,althoughtherewasnobodypresent。ThenLiddystaredandexclaimed,`Soulsalive,whatnews!Itmakesmyheartgoquitebumpity-bump!’
`Itmakesmineratherfurious,too,’saidBathsheba。`However,there’snogettingoutofitnow!’
Itwasadampdisagreeablemorning。Nevertheless,attwentyminutestoteno’clock,Oakcameoutofhishouse,andWentupthehillsideWiththatsortofstrideAmanputsoutwhenwalkinginsearchofabride,andknockedatBathsheba’sdoor。Tenminuteslateralargeandasmallerumbrellamighthavebeenseenmovingfromthesamedoor,andthroughthemistalongtheroadtothechurch。Thedistancewasnotmorethanaquarterofamile,andthesetwosensiblepersonsdeemeditunnecessarytodrive。
AnobservermusthavebeenverycloseindeedtodiscoverthattheformsundertheumbrellaswerethoseofOakandBathsheba,arm-in-armforthefirsttimeintheirlives,Oakinagreatcoatextendingtohisknees,andBathshebainacloakthatreachedherclods。Yet,thoughsoplainlydressed,therewasacertainrejuvenatedappearanceabouther:——Asthougharoseshouldshutandbeabudagain。Reposehadagainincarnadinedhercheeks;andhaving,atGabriel’srequest,arrangedherhairthismorningasshehadwornityearsagoonNorcombeHill,sheseemedinhiseyesremarkablylikethegirlofthatfascinatingdream,which,consideringthatshewasnowonlythreeorfour-and-twenty,wasperhapsnotverywonderful。InthechurchwereTall,Liddy,andtheparson,andinaremarkablyshortspaceoftimetoedeedwasdone。
ThetwosatdownveryquietlytoteainBathsheba’sparlourintheeveningofthesameday,forithadbeenarrangedthatfarmerOakshouldgotheretolive,sincehehadasyetneithermoney,house,norfurnitureworthyofthename,thoughhewasonasurewaytowardsthem,whilstBathshebawas,comparatively,inaplethoraofallthree。
JustasBathshebawaspouringoutacupoftea,theirearsweregreetedbythefiringofacannon,followedbywhatseemedlikeatremendousblowingoftrumpets,inthefrontofthehouse。
`There!’saidOak,laughing,`Iknewthosefellowswereuptosomething,bythelookontheirfaces。’
Oaktookupthelightandwentintotheporch,followedbyBathshebawithashawloverherhead。Theraysfelluponagroupofmalefiguresgathereduponthegravelinfront,who,whentheysawthenewly-marriedcoupleintheporch,setupaloud`Hurrah!’andatthesamemomentbangagainwentthecannoninthebackgroundfollowedbyahideousclangofmusicfromadrum,tambourine,clarionet,serpent,hautboy,tenor-viol,anddouble-bass-theonlyremainingrelicsofthetrueandoriginalWeatherburyband-venerableworm-eateninstruments,whichhadcelebratedintheirownpersonsthevictoriesofMarlborough,underthefingersoftheforefathersofthosewhoplayedthemnow。Theperformerscameforward,andmarcheduptothefront。
`Thosebrightboys,MarkClarkandJan,areatthebottomofallthis,’
saidOak。`Comein,souls,andhavesomethingtoeatanddrinkwi’meandmywife。’
`Notto-night,’saidMarkClark,withevidentself-denial。`Thankyeallthesame;butwe’llcallatamoreseemlytime。However,wecouldn’tthinkoflettingthedaypasswithoutanoteofadmirationofsomesort。
Ifyecouldsendadropofsom’atdowntoWarren’s,whysoitis。Here’slonglifeandhappinesstoneighbourOakandhiscomelybride!’
`Thankye;thankyeall!’saidGabriel。`AbitandadropshallbesenttoWarren’sforyeatonce。Ihadathoughtthatwemightverylikelygetasaluteofsomesortfromouroldfriends,andIwassayingsotomywifebutnow。’
`Faith,’saidCoggan,inacriticaltone,turningtohiscompanions,`themanhevlearnttosay“mywife“inawonderfulnaterelway,consideringhowveryyouthfulheisinwedlockasyet-hey,neighboursall?’
`Ineverheerdaskilfuloldmarriedfelleroftwentyyears’standingpipe“mywife“inamoreusednotethan’adid,’saidJacobSmallbury。
`Itmighthavebeenalittlemoretruetonaterif’thadbeenspokealittlechillier,butthatwasn’ttobeexpectedjustnow。’
`Thatimprovementwillcomewi’time,’saidJan,twirlinghiseye。ThenOaklaughed。Bathshebasmiledforsheneverlaughedreadilynow,andtheirfriendsturnedtogo。
`Yes;Isupposethat’sthesizeo’t,’saidJosephPoorgrasswithacheerfulsighastheymovedaway;`andIwishhimjoyo’her;thoughIwereonceortwiceuponsayingtodaywithholyHosea,inmyscripturemanner,whichismysecondnature,“Ephraimisjoinedtoidols:lethimalone。”Butsince’tisas’tis,why,itmighthavebeenworse,andIfeelmythanksaccordingly。’