Thenextflarecame。Bathshebawasonthegroundnow,shoulderinganothersheaf,andsheboreitsdazzlewithoutflinching-thunderandall-andagainascendedwiththeload。Therewasthenasilenceeverywhereforfourorfiveminutes,andthecrunchofthespars,asGabrielhastilydrovethemin,couldagainbedistinctlyheard。Hethoughtthecrisisofthestormhadpassed。Buttherecameaburstoflight。
`Holdon!’saidGabriel,takingthesheaffromhershoulder,andgraspingherarmagain。
Heavenopenedthen,indeed。Theflashwasalmosttoonovelforitsinexpressiblydangerousnaturetobeatoncerealized,andtheycouldonlycomprehendthemagnificenceofitsbeauty。Itsprangfromeast,west,north,south,andwasaperfectdanceofdeath。Theformsofskeletonsappearedintheair,shapedwithbluefireforbones-dancing,leaping,striding,racingaround,andminglingaltogetherinunparalleledconfusion。Withthesewereintertwinedundulatingsnakesofgreen,andbehindthesewasabroadmassoflesserlight。Simultaneouslycamefromeverypartofthetumblingskywhatmaybecalledashout;since,thoughnoshoutevercamenearit,itwasmoreofthenatureofashoutthanofanythingelseearthly。InthemeantimeoneofthegrislyformshadalighteduponthepointofGabriel’srod,toruninvisiblydownit,downthechain,andintotheearth。Gabrielwasalmostblinded,andhecouldfeelBathsheba’swarmarmtrembleinhishand-asensationnovelandthrillingenough;butlove,life,everythinghuman,seemedsmallandtriflinginsuchclosejuxtapositionwithaninfuriateduniverse。
Oakhadhardlytimetogatheruptheseimpressionsintoathought,andtoseehowstrangelytheredfeatherofherhatshoneinthislight,whenthetalltreeonthehillbeforementionedseemedonfiretoawhiteheat,andanewoneamongtheseterriblevoicesmingledwiththelastcrashofthosepreceding。Itwasastupefyingblast,harshandpitiless,anditfellupontheirearsinadead,flatblow,withoutthatreverberationwhichlendsthetonesofadrumtomoredistantthunder。Bythelustrereflectedfromeverypartoftheearthandfromthewidedomicalscoopaboveit,hesawthatthetreewassliceddownthewholelengthofitstall,straightstem,ahugeribandofbarkbeingapparentlyflungoffTheotherportionremainederect,andrevealedthebaredsurfaceasastripofwhitedownthefront。Thelightninghadstruckthetree。Asulphuroussmellfilledtheair;thenallwassilent,andblackasacaveinHinnom。
`Wehadanarrowescape!’saidGabrielhurriedly。`Youhadbettergodown。’
Bathshebasaidnothing;buthecoulddistinctlyhearherrhythmicalpants,andtherecurrentrustleofthesheafbesideherinresponsetoherfrightenedpulsations。Shedescendedtheladder,and,onsecondthoughts,hefollowedher。Thedarknesswasnowimpenetrablebythesharpestvision。
Theybothstoodstillatthebottom,sidebyside。Bathshebaappearedtothinkonlyoftheweather-Oakthoughtonlyofherjustthen。Atlasthesaid——
`Thestormseemstohavepassednow,atanyrate。’
`Ithinksotoo,’saidBathsheba。`Thoughtherearemultitudesofgleams,look!’
Theskywasnowfilledwithanincessantlight,frequentrepetitionmeltingintocompletecontinuity,asanunbrokensoundresultsfromthesuccessivestrokesonagong。
`Nothingserious,’saidhe。`Icannotunderstandnorainfalling。ButHeavenbepraised,itisallthebetterforus。Iamgoingupagain。’
`Gabriel,youarekinderthanIdeserve!Iwillstayandhelpyouyet。
O,whyarenotsomeoftheothershere!’
`Theywouldhavebeenhereiftheycould,’saidOak,inahesitatingway。
`O,Iknowitall-all,’shesaid,addingslowly:`Theyareallasleepinthebarn,inadrunkensleep,andmyhusbandamongthem。That’sit,isitnot?Don’tthinkIamatimidwomanandcan’tendurethings。’
`Iamnotcertain,’saidGabriel。`Iwillgoandsee。’
Hecrossedtothebarn,leavinghertherealone。Helookedthroughthechinksofthedoor。Allwasintotaldarkness,ashehadleftit,andtherestillarose,asattheformertime,thesteadybuzzofmanysnores。
Hefeltazephyrcurlingabouthischeek,andturned。ItwasBathsheba’sbreath-shehadfollowedhim,andwaslookingintothesamechink。
Heendeavouredtoputofftheimmediateandpainfulsubjectoftheirthoughtsbyremarkinggently,`Ifyou’llcomebackagain,miss-ma’am,andhandupafewmore,itwouldsavemuchtime。’
ThenOakwentbackagain,ascendedtothetop,steppedofftheladderforgreaterexpedition,andwentonthatching。Shefollowed,butwithoutasheaf。
`Gabriel,’shesaid,inastrangeandimpressivevoice。
Oaklookedupather。Shehadnotspokensinceheleftthebarn。Thesoftandcontinualshimmerofthedyinglightningshowedamarblefacehighagainsttheblackskyoftheoppositequarter。Bathshebawassittingalmostontheapexofthestack,herfeetgatheredupbeneathher,andrestingonthetoproundoftheladder。
`Yes,mistress,’hesaid。
`IsupposeyouthoughtthatwhenIgallopedawaytoBaththatnightitwasonpurposetobemarried?’
`Ididatlast-notatfirst,’heanswered,somewhatsurprisedattheabruptnesswithwhichthisnewsubjectwasbroached。
`Andothersthoughtso,too!’
`Yes。’
`Andyoublamedmeforit?’
`Well-alittle。’
`Ithoughtso。Now,Icarealittleforyourgoodopinion,andIwanttoplainsomething-IhavelongedtodoiteversinceIreturned,andyoulookedsogravelyatme。ForifIweretodie-andImaydiesoon-itwouldbedreadfulthatyoushouldalwaysthinkmistakenlyofme。Now,listen。’
Gabrielceasedhisrustling。
`IwenttoBaththatnightinthefillintentionofbreakingoffmyengagementtoMrTroy。ItwasowingtocircumstanceswhichoccurredafterIgottherethat-thatweweremarried。Now,doyouseethematterinanewlight?’
`Ido-somewhat。’
`Imust,Isuppose,saymore,nowthatIhavebegun。Andperhapsit’snoharm,foryouarecertainlyundernodelusionthatIeverlovedyou,orthatIcanhaveanyobjectinspeaking,morethanthatobjectIhavementioned。Well,Iwasaloneinastrangecity,andthehorsewaslame。
AndatlastIdidn’tknowwhattodo。Isaw,whenitwastoolate,thatscandalmightseizeholdofmeformeetinghimaloneinthatway。ButI
wascomingaway,whenhesuddenlysaidhehadthatdayseenawomanmorebeautifulthanI,andthathisconstancycouldnotbecountedonunlessIatoncebecamehis……AndIwasgrievedandtroubled——’Sheclearedhervoice,andwaitedamoment,asiftogatherbreath。`Andthen,betweenjealousyanddistraction,Imarriedhim!’shewhisperedwithdesperateimpetuosity。
Gabrielmadenoreply。
`Hewasnottoblame,foritwasperfectlytrueabout-abouthisseeingsomebodyelse,’shequicklynodded。`AndnowIdon’twishforasingleremarkfromyouuponthesubject-indeed,Iforbidit。Ionlywantedyoutoknowthatmisunderstoodbitofmyhistorybeforeatimecomeswhenyoucouldneverknowit-Youwantsomemoresheaves?’
Shewentdowntheladder,andtheworkproceeded。Gabrielsoonperceivedalanguorinthemovementsofhismistressupanddown,andhesaidtoher,gentlyasamother——
`Ithinkyouhadbettergoindoorsnow,youaretired。Icanfinishtherestalone。Ifthewinddoesnotchangetherainislikelytokeepoff。’
`IfIamuselessIwillgo,’saidBathsheba,inaflaggingcadence。
`ButO,ifyourlifeshouldbelost!’
`Youarenotuseless;butIwouldrathernottireyoulonger。Youhavedonewell。’
`Andyoubetter!’shesaidgratefully。`Thankyouforyourdevotion,athousandtimes,Gabriel!Good-night-Iknowyouaredoingyourverybestforme。’
Shediminishedinthegloom,andvanished,andheheardthelatchofthegatefallasshepassedthrough。Heworkedinareverienow,musinguponherstory,anduponthecontradictorinessofthatfeminineheartwhichhadcausedhertospeakmorewarmlytohimto-nightthansheeverhaddonewhilstunmarriedandfreetospeakaswarmlyasshechose。
Hewasdisturbedinhismeditationbyagratingnoisefromthecoach-house。
Itwasthevaneontheroofturninground,andthischangeinthewindwasthesignalforadisastrousrain。
CHAPTERTHIRTY-EIGHTRain-OneSolitarymeetsanotherItwasnowfiveo’clock,andthedawnwaspromisingtobreakinhuesofdrabandash。
Theairchangeditstemperatureandstirreditselfmorevigorously。
CoolbreezescoursedintransparenteddiesroundOak’sface。Thewindshiftedyetapointortwoandblewstronger。Intenminuteseverywindofheavenseemedtoberoamingatlarge。Someofthethatchingonthewheat-stackswasnowwhirledfantasticallyaloft,andhadtobereplacedandweightedwithsomerailsthatlaynearathand。Thisdone,Oakslavedawayagainatthebarley。Ahugedropofrainsmotehisface,andthewindsnarledroundeverycorner,thetreesrockedtothebasesoftheirtrunks,andthetwigsclashedinstrife。Drivinginsparsatanypointandonanysystem,inchbyinchhecoveredmoreandmoresafelyfromruinthisdistractingimpersonationofsevenhundredpounds。Theraincameoninearnest,andOaksoonfeltthewatertobetrackingcoldandclammyroutesdownhisback。Ultimatelyhewasreducedwell-nightoahomogeneoussop,andthedyesofhisclothestrickleddownandstoodinapoolatthefootoftheladder。Therainstretchedobliquelythroughthedullatmosphereinliquidspines,unbrokenincontinuitybetweentheirbeginningsinthecloudsandtheirpointsinhim。
Oaksuddenlyrememberedthateightmonthsbeforethintimehehadbeenfightingagainstfireinthesamespotasdesperatelyashewasfightingagainstwaternow-andforafutileloveofthesamewoman。Asforher-ButOakwasgenerousandtrue,anddismissedhisreflections。
Itwasaboutseveno’clockinthedarkleadenmorningwhenGabrielcamedownfromthelaststack,andthankfullyexclaimed,`Itisdone!’Hewasdrenched,weary,andsad,andyetnotsosadasdrenchedandweary,forhewascheeredbyasenseofsuccessinagoodcause。
Faintsoundscamefromthebarn,andhelookedthatway。Figuressteppedsinglyandinpairsthroughthedoors-allwalkingawkwardly,andabashed,savetheforemost,whoworearedjacket,andadvancedwithhishandsinhispockets,whistling。Theothersshambledafterwithaconscience-strickenair;thewholeprocessionwasnotunlikeFlaxman’sgroupofthesuitorstotteringontowardstheinfernalregionsundertheconductofMercury:
Thegnarledshapespassedintothevillage,Troy,theirleader,enteringthefarmhouse。Notasingleoneofthemhadturnedhisfacetothericks,orapparentlybestowedonethoughtupontheircondition。
SoonOaktoowenthomeward,byadifferentroutefromtheirs。Infrontofhimagainstthewetglazedsurfaceofthelanehesawapersonwalkingyetmoreslowlythanhimselfunderanumbrella。Themanturnedandplainlystarted;hewasBoldwood。
`Howareyouthismorning,sir?’saidOak。
`Yes,itisawetday-Oh,Iamwell,verywell,Ithankyou;quitewell。’`Iamgladtohearit,sir。’
Boldwoodseemedtoawaketothepresentbydegrees。`Youlooktiredandill,Oak,’hesaidthen,desultorilyregardinghiscompanion。
`Iamtired。Youlookstrangelyaltered,sir。’
`I?Notabitofit:Iamwellenough。Whatputthatintoyourhead?’
`Ithoughtyoudidn’tlookquitesotoppingasyouusedto,thatwasall。’
`Indeed,thenyouaremistaken,’saidBoldwoodshortly。`Nothinghurtsme。Myconstitutionisanironone。’
`I’vebeenworkinghardtogetourrickscovered,andwasbarelyintime。Neverhadsuchastruggleinmylife……Yoursofcoursearesafe,sir。’
`Oyes。’Boldwoodadded,afteranintervalofsilence:`Whatdidyouask,Oak?’
`Yourricksareallcoveredbeforethistime?’
`No。’
`Atanyrate,thelargeonesuponthestonestaddles?’
`Theyarenot。’
`Themunderthehedge?’
`No。Iforgottotellthethatchertosetaboutit。’
`Northelittleonebythestile?’
`Northelittleonebythestile。Ioverlookedthericksthisyear。’
`Thennotatenthofyourcornwillcometomeasure,sir。’
`Possiblynot。’
`Overlookedthem,’repeatedGabrielslowlytohimself。ItisdifficulttodescribetheintenselydramaticeffectthatannouncementhaduponOakatsuchamoment。Allthenighthehadbeenfeelingthattheneglecthewaslabouringtorepairwasabnormalandisolated-theonlyinstanceofthekindwithinthecircuitofthecounty。Yetatthisverytime,withinthesameparish,agreaterwastehadbeengoingon,uncomplainedofanddisregarded。AfewmonthsearlierBoldwood’sforgettinghishusbandrywouldhavebeenaspreposterousanideaasasailorforgettinghewasinaship。
OakwasjustthinkingthatwhateverhehimselfmighthavesufferedfromBathsheba’smarriage,herewasamanwhohadsufferedmore,whenBoldwoodspokeinachangedvoice-thatofonewhoyearnedtomakeaconfidenceandrelievehisheartbyanoutpouring。
`Oak,youknowaswellasIthatthingshavegonewrongwithmelately。
Imayaswellownit。Iwasgoingtogetalittlesettledinlife,butinsomewaymyplanhascometonothing。’
`Ithoughtmymistresswouldhavemarriedyou,’saidGabriel,notknowingenoughofthefilldepthsofBoldwood’slovetokeepsilenceonthefarmer’saccount,anddeterminednottoevadedisciplinebydoingsoonhisown。
`However,itissosometimes,andnothinghappensthatweexpect,’headded,withthereposeofamanwhommisfortunehadinuredratherthansubdued。
`IdaresayIamajokeabouttheparish,’saidBoldwood,asifthesubjectcameirresistiblytohistongue,andwithamiserablelightnessmeanttoexpresshisindifference。
`Ono-Idon’tthinkthat。’
`-Buttherealtruthofthematteristhattherewasnot,assomefancy,anyjiltingon-herpart。NoengagementeverexistedbetweenmeandMissEverdene。Peoplesayso,butitisuntrue,sheneverpromisedme!’BoldwoodstoodstillnowandturnedhiswildfacetoOak,`O,Gabriel,’
hecontinued,`Iamweakandfoolish,andIdon’tknowwhat,andIcan’tfendoffmymiserablegrief。IhadsomefaintbeliefinthemercyofGodtillIlostthatwoman。Yes,Hepreparedagourdtoshademe,andliketheprophetIthankedHimandwasglad。ButthenextdayHepreparedawormtosmitethegourdandwitherit;andIfeelitisbettertodiethantolive!’
Asilencefollowed。Boldwoodarousedhimselffromthemomentarymoodofconfidenceintowhichhehaddrifted,andwalkedonagain,resuminghisusualreserve。
`No,Gabriel,’heresumed,withacarelessnesswhichwaslikethesimileonthecountenanceofaskull:`itwasmademoreofbyotherpeoplethaneveritwasbyus。Idofeelalittleregretoccasionally,butnowomaneverhadpowerovermeforanylengthoftime。Well,goodmorning;Icantrustyounottomentiontootherswhathaspassedbetweenustwohere。
CHAPTERTHIRTY-NINEComingHome-CryOntheturnpikeroad,betweenCasterbridgeandWeatherbury,andaboutthreemilesfromtheformerplaceisYalburyHill,oneofthosesteeplongascentswhichpervadethehighwaysofthisundulatingpartofSouthWessex。Inreturningfrommarketitisusualforthefarmersandothergig-gentrytoalightatthebottomandwalkup。
OneSaturdayeveninginthemonthofOctoberBathsheba’svehiclewasdulycreepingupthisincline。Shewassittinglistlesslyinthesecondseatofthegig,whilstwalkingbesideherinafarmer’smarketingsuitofunusuallyfashionablecutwasanerect,well-madeyoungman。Thoughonfoot,heheldthereinsandwhip,andoccasionallyaimedlightrutsatthehorse’searwiththeendofthelash,asarecreation。Thismanwasherhusband,formerlySergeantTroy,who,havingboughthisdischargewithBathsheba’smoney,wasgraduallytransforminghimselfintoafarmerofaspiritedandverymodernschool。Peopleofunalterableideasstillinsisteduponcallinghim`Sergeant’whentheymethim,whichwasinsomedegreeowingtohishavingstillretainedthewell-shapedmoustacheofhismilitarydays,andthesoldierlybearinginseparablefromhisformandtraining。
`Yes,ifithadn’tbeenforthatwretchedrainIshouldhaveclearedtwohundredaseasyaslooking,mylove,’hewassaying。`Don’tyousee,italteredallthechances?TospeaklikeabookIonceread,wetweatheristhenarrative,andfinedaysaretheepisodes,ofourcountry’shistory;
now,isn’tthattrue?’
`Butthetimeofyeariscomeforchangeableweather。’
`Well,yes。Thefactis,theseautumnracesaretheruinofeverybody。
NeverdidIseesuchadayas’twas!’Tisawildopenplace,justoutofBudmouth,andadrabsearolledintowardsuslikeliquidmisery。Windandrain-goodLord!Dark?Why,’twasasblackasmyhatbeforethelastracewasrun。’Twasfiveo’clock,andyoucouldn’tseethehorsestilltheywerealmostin,leavealonecolours。Thegroundwasasheavyaslead,andalljudgementfromafellow’sexperiencewentfornothing。Horses,riders,people,wereallblownaboutlikeshipsatsea。Threeboothswereblownover,andthewretchedfolkinsidecrawledoutupontheirhandsandknees;andinthenextfieldwereasmanyasadozenhatsatonetime。
Ay,Pimpernelregularlystuckfast,whenaboutsixtyyardsoff,andwhenIsawPolicysteppingon,itdidknockmyheartagainsttheliningofmyribs,Iassureyou,mylove!’
`Andyoumean,Frank,’saidBathshebasadly-hervoicewaspainfullyloweredfromthefullnessandvivacityoftheprevioussummer-`thatyouhavelostmorethanahundredpoundsinamonthbythisdreadfulhorse-racing?
O,Frank,itiscruel;itisfoolishofyoutotakeawaymymoneyso。Weshallhavetoleavethefarm;thatwillbetheendofit!’
`Humbugaboutcruel。Now,there’tisagain-turnonthewaterworks;
that’sjustlikeyou。’
`Butyou’llpromisemenottogotoBudmouthsecondmeeting,won’tyou?’
sheimplored。Bathshebawasatthehilldepthfortears,butshemaintainedadryeye。
`Idon’tseewhyIshould;infact,ifitturnsouttobeafineday,Iwasthinkingoftakingyou。’
`Never,never!I’llgoahundredmilestheotherwayfirst。Ihatethesoundoftheveryword!’
`Butthequestionofgoingtoseetheraceorstayingathomehasverylittletodowiththematter。Betsareallbookedsafelyenoughbeforetheracebegins,youmaydepend。Whetheritisabadraceformeoragoodone,willhaveverylittletodowithourgoingtherenextMonday。’
`Butyoudon’tmeantosaythatyouhaveriskedanythingonthisonetoo!’sheexclaimed,withanagonisedlook。
`Therenow,don’tyoubealittlefool。Waittillyouaretold。Why,Bathsheba,youhavelostallthepluckandsaucinessyouformerlyhad,anduponmylifeifIhadknownwhatachicken-heartedcreatureyouwereunderallyourboldness,I’dneverhave-Iknowwhat。’
AflashofindignationmighthavebeenseeninBathsheba’sdarkeyesasshelookedresolutelyaheadafterthisreply。Theymovedonwithoutfartherspeech,someearly-witheredleavesfromthetreeswhichhoodedtheroadatthisspotoccasionallyspinningdownwardacrosstheirpathtotheearth。
Awomanappearedonthebrowofthehill。Theridgewasinacutting,sothatshewasverynearthehusbandandwifebeforeshebecamevisible。
Troyhadturnedtowardsthegigtoremount,andwhilstputtinghisfootonthestepthewomanpassedbehindhim。
Thoughtheovershadowingtreesandtheapproachofeventideenvelopedthemingloom,Bathshebacouldseeplainlyenoughtodiscerntheextremepovertyofthewoman’sgarb,andthesadnessofherface。
`Please,sir,doyouknowatwhattimeCasterbridgeUnion-houseclosesatnight?’
ThewomansaidthesewordstoTroyoverhisshoulder。
Troystartedvisiblyatthesoundofthevoice;yetheseemedtorecoverpresenceofmindsufficienttopreventhimselffromgivingwaytohisimpulsetosuddenlyturnandfaceher。Hesaid,slowly——
`Idon’tknow。’
Thewoman,onhearinghimspeak,quicklylookedup,examinedthesideofhisface,andrecognizedthesoldierundertheyeoman’sgarb。Herfacewasdrawnintoanexpressionwhichhadgladnessandagonybothamongitselements。Sheutteredanhystericalcry,andfelldown。
`O,poorthing!’exclaimedBathsheba,instantlypreparingtoalight。
`Staywhereyouare,andattendtothehorse!’saidTroyperemptorily,throwingherthereinsandthewhip。`Walkthehorsetothetop;I’llseetothewoman。’
`ButI——’
`Doyouhear?Clk-Poppet!’
Thehorse,gig,andBathshebamovedon。
`Howonearthdidyoucomehere?Ithoughtyouweremilesaway,ordead!
Whydidn’tyouwritetome?’saidTroytothewoman,inastrangelygentle,yethurriedvoice,asheliftedherup。
`Ifearedto。’
`Haveyouanymoney?’
`None。’
`GoodHeavens-IwishIhadmoretogiveyou!Here’s-wretched-themeresttrifle。ItiseveryfarthingIhaveleft。Ihavenonebutwhatmywifegivesme,youknow,andIcan’taskhernow。’
Thewomanmadenoanswer。
`Ihaveonlyanothermoment,’continuedTroy;`andnowlisten。Whereareyougoingto-night?CasterbridgeUnions’
`Yes;Ithoughttogothere。’
`Youshan’tgothere;yet,wait。Yes,perhapsfortonight;Icandonothingbetter-worseluck!Sleepthereto-night,andstaythereto-morrow。
MondayisthefirstfreedayIhave;andonMondaymorning,attenexactly,meetmeonGrey’sBridge,justoutofthetown。I’llbringallthemoneyIcanmuster。Youshan’twant-I’llseethat,Fanny;thenI’llgetyoualodgingsomewhere。Good-byetillthen。Iamabrute-butgood-bye!’
Afteradvancingthedistancewhichcompletedtheascentofthehill,Bathshebaturnedherhead。Thewomanwasuponherfeet,andBathshebasawherwithdrawingfromTroy,andgoingfeeblydownthehillbythethirdmilestonefromCasterbridge。Troythencameontowardshiswife,steppedintothegig,tookthereinsfromherhand,andwithoutmakinganyobservationwhippedthehorseintoatrot。Hewasratheragitated。
`Doyouknowwhothatwomanwas?’saidBathsheba,lookingsearchinglyintohisface。
`Ido,’hesaid,lookingboldlybackintohers。
`Ithoughtyoudid,’saidshe,withangryhauteur,andstillregardinghim。`Whoisshe?’
Hesuddenlyseemedtothinkthatfranknesswouldbenefitneitherofthewomen。
`Nothingtoeitherofus,’hesaid。`Iknowherbysight。’
`Whatishername?’
`HowshouldIknowhername?’
`Ithinkyoudo。’
`Thinkifyouwill,andbe——’ThesentencewascompletedbyasmartcutofthewhiproundPoppet’sflank,whichcausedtheanimaltostartforwardatawildpace。Nomorewassaid。
CHAPTERFORTYOnCasterbridgeHighwayForaconsiderabletimethewomanwalkedon。Herstepsbecamefeebler,andshestrainedhereyestolookafaruponthenakedroad,nowindistinctamidthepenumbræ;ofnight。Atlengthheronwardwalkdwindledtothemeresttotter,andsheopenedagatewithinwhichwasahaystack。Underneaththisshesatdownandpresentlyslept。
Whenthewomanawokeitwastofindherselfinthedepthsofamoonlessandstarlessnight。Aheavyunbrokencrustofcloudstretchedacrossthesky,shuttingouteveryspeckofheaven;andadistanthalowhichhungoverthetownofCasterbridgewasvisibleagainsttheblackconcave,theluminosityappearingthebrighterbyitsgreatcontrastwiththecircumscribingdarkness。Towardsthisweak,softglowthewomanturnedhereyes。
`IfIcouldonlygetthere!’shesaid。`Meethimthedayafterto-morrow:
Godhelpme!PerhapsIshallbeinmygravebeforethen。’
Amanor-houseclockfromthefardepthsofshadowstruckthehour,one,inasmall,attenuatedtone。Aftermidnightthevoiceofaclockseemstoloseinbreadthasmuchasinlength,andtodiminishitssonorousnesstoathinfalsetto。
Afterwardsalight-twolights-arosefromtheremoteshade,andgrewlarger。Acarriagerolledalongtheroad,andpassedthegate。Itprobablycontainedsomelatediners-out。Thebeamsfromonelampshoneforamomentuponthecrouchingwoman,andthrewherfaceintovividrelief。Thefacewasyounginthegroundwork,oldinthefinish;thegeneralcontourswereflexuousandchildlike,butthefinerlineamentshadbeguntobesharpandthin。
Thepedestrianstoodup,apparentlywithareviveddetermination,andlookedaround。Theroadappearedtobefamiliartoher,andshecarefullyscannedthefenceassheslowlywalkedalong。Presentlytherebecamevisibleadimwhiteshape;itwasanothermilestone。Shedrewherfingersacrossitsfacetofeelthemarks。
`Twomore!’shesaid。
Sheleantagainstthestoneasameansofrestforashortinterval,thenbestirredherself,andagainpursuedherway。Foraslightdistancesheboreupbravely,afterwardsflaggingasbefore。Thiswasbesidealonecopsewood,whereinheapsofwhitechipsstrewnupontheleafygroundshowedthatwoodmenhadbeenfaggotingandmakinghurdlesduringtheday。Nowtherewasnotarustle,notabreeze,notthefaintestclashoftwigstokeephercompany。Thewomanlookedoverthegate,openedit,andwentin。
Closetotheentrancestoodarowoffaggots,boundandunbound,togetherwithstakesofallsizes。
Forafewsecondsthewayfarerstoodwiththattensestillnesswhichsignifiesitselftobenottheend,butmerelythesuspension,ofapreviousmotion。Herattitudewasthatofapersonwholistens,eithertotheexternalworldofsound,ortotheimagineddiscourseofthought。Aclosecriticismmighthavedetectedsignsprovingthatshewasintentonthelatteralternative。
Moreover,aswasshownbywhatfollowed,shewasoddlyexercisingthefacultyofinventionuponthespecialityofthecleverJacquetDroz,thedesignerofautomaticsubstitutesforhumanlimbs。
BytheaidoftheCasterbridgeaurora,andbyfeelingwithherhands,thewomanselectedtwosticksfromtheheaps。Thesestickswerenearlystraighttotheheightofthreeorfourfeet,whereeachbranchedintoa,forkliketheletterY。Shesatdown,snappedoffthesmalluppertwigs,andcarriedtheremainderwithherintotheroad。Sheplacedoneoftheseforksundereacharmasacrutch,testedthem,timidlythrewherwholeweightuponthem-solittlethatitwas-andswungherselfforward。Thegirlhadmadeforherselfamaterialaid。
Thecrutchesansweredwell。Thepatofherfeet,andthetapofhersticksuponthehighway,wereallthesoundsthatcamefromthetravellernow。Shehadpassedthelastmilestonebyagoodlongdistance,andbegantolookwistfullytowardsthebankasifcalculatinguponanothermilestonesoon。Thecrutches,thoughsoveryuseful,hadtheirlimitsofpower。Mechanismonlytransferslabour,beingpowerlesstosupersedeit,andtheoriginalamountofexertionwasnotclearedaway;itwasthrownintothebodyandarms。Shewasexhausted,andeachswingforwardbecamefainter。Atlastsheswayedsideways,andfell。
Hereshelay,ashapelessheap,fortenminutesandmore。Themorningwindbegantoboomdullyovertheflats,andtomoveafreshdeadleaveswhichhadlainstillsinceyesterday。Thewomandesperatelyturnedrounduponherknees,andnextrosetoherfeet。Steadyingherselfbythehelpofonecrutch,sheessayedastep,thenanother,thenathird,usingthecrutchesnowaswalking-sticksonly。ThussheprogressedtilldescendingMellstockHillanothermilestoneappeared,andsoonthebeginningofaniron-railedfencecameintoview。Shestaggeredacrosstothefirstpost,clungtoit,andlookedaround。
TheCasterbridgelightswerenowindividuallyvisible。Itwasgettingtowardsmorning,andvehiclesmightbehopedfor,ifnotexpectedsoon。
Shelistened。Therewasnotasoundoflifesavethatacmeandsublimationofalldismalsounds,thebarkofafox,itsthreehollownotesbeingrenderedatintervalsofaminutewiththeprecisionofafuneralbell。
`Lessthanamile!’thewomanmurmured。`No;more,’sheadded,afterapause。`Themileistothecounty-hall,andmyresting-placeisontheothersideCasterbridge。Alittleoveramile,andthereIam!’Afteranintervalsheagainspoke。`Fiveorsixstepstoayard-sixperhaps。I
havetogoseventeenhundredyards。Ahundredtimessix,Fixhundred。Seventeentimesthat。Opityme,Lord!’
Holdingtotherails,sheadvanced,thrustingonehandforwardupontherail,thentheother,thenleaningoveritwhilstshedraggedherfeetonbeneath。
Thiswomanwasnotgiventosoliloquy;butextremityoffeelinglessenstheindividualityoftheweak,asitincreasesthatofthestrong。Shesaidagaininthesametone,`I’llbelievethattheendliesfivepostsforward,andnofurther,andsogetstrengthtopassthem’
Thiswasapracticalapplicationoftheprinciplethatahalf-feignedandfictitiousfaithisbetterthannofaithatall。
Shepassedfivepostsandheldontothefifth。
`I’llpassfivemorebybelievingmylonged-forspotisatthenextfifth。Icandoit。’
Shepassedfivemore。
`Itliesonlyfivefarther。’
Shepassedfivemore。
`Butitisfivefarther。’
Shepassedthem。
`Thatstonebridgeistheendofmyjourney,’shesaid,whenthebridgeovertheFroomwasinview。
Shecrawledtothebridge。Duringtheefforteachbreathofthewomanwentintotheairasifnevertoreturnagain。
`Nowforthetruthofthematter,’shesaid,sittingdown。`Thetruthis,thatIhavelessthanhalfamile。’Self-beguilementwithwhatshehadknownallthetimetobefalsehadgivenherstrengthtocomeoverhalfamilethatshewouldhavebeenpowerlesstofaceinthelump。Theartificeshowedthatthewoman,bysomemysteriousintuition,hadgraspedtheparadoxicaltruththatblindnessmayoperatemorevigorouslythanprescience,andtheshort-sightedeffectmorethanthefar-seeing;thatlimitation,andnotcomprehensiveness,isneededforstrikingablow。
Thehalf-milestoodnowbeforethesickandwearywomanlikeastolidJuggernaut。ItwasanimpassiveKingofherworld。TheroadhereranacrossDurnoverMoor,opentotheroadoneitherside。Shesurveyedthewidespace,thelights,herself,sighed,andlaydownagainstaguardstoneofthebridge。
Neverwasingenuityexercisedsosorelyasthetravellerhereexercisedhers。Everyconceivableaid,method,stratagem,mechanism,bywhichtheselastdesperateeighthundredyardscouldbeoverpassedbyahumanbeingunperceived,wasrevolvedinherbusybrain,anddismissedasimpracticable。
Shethoughtofsticks,wheels,crawling-sheeventhoughtofrolling。
Buttheexertiondemandedbyeitheroftheselattertwowasgreaterthantowalkerect。Thefacultyofcontrivancewaswornout。Hopelessnesshadcomeatlast。
`Nofarther!’shewhispered,andclosedhereyes。
Fromthestripeofshadowontheoppositesideofthebridgeaportionofshadeseemedtodetachitselfandmoveintoisolationuponthepalewhiteoftheroad。Itglidednoiselesslytowardstherecumbentwoman。
Shebecameconsciousofsomethingtouchingherhand;itwassoftnessanditwaswarmth。Sheopenedhereyes,andthesubstancetouchedherface。
Adogwaslickinghercheek。
Hewasahuge,heavy,andquietcreature,standingdarklyagainstthelowhorizon,andatleasttwofeethigherthanthepresentpositionofhereyes。WhetherNewfoundland,mastiffbloodhound,orwhatnot,itwasimpossibletosay。Heseemedtobeoftoostrangeandmysteriousanaturetobelongtoanyvarietyamongthoseofpopularnomenclature。Beingthusassignabletonobreed,hewastheidealembodimentofcaninegreatness-ageneralizationfromwhatwascommontoall。Night,initssad,solemn,andbenevolentaspect,apartfromitsstealthyandcruelside,waspersonifiedinthisform。Darknessendowsthesmallandordinaryonesamongmankindwithpoeticalpower,andeventhesufferingwomanthrewherideaintofigure。
Inherrecliningpositionshelookeduptohimjustasinearliertimesshehad,whenstanding,lookeduptoman。Theanimal,whowasashomelessasshe,respectfullywithdrewasteportwowhenthewomanmoved,and,seeingthatshedidnotrepulsehim,helickedherhandagain。
Athoughtmovedwithinherlikelightning。`PerhapsIcanmakeuseofhim-Imightdoitthen!’
ShepointedinthedirectionofCasterbridge,andthedogseemedtomisunderstand:hetrottedon。Then,findingshecouldnotfollow,hecamebackandwhined。
Theultimateandsaddestsingularityofwoman’seffortandinventionwasreachedwhen,withaquickenedbreathing,sherosetoastoopingposture,and,restinghertwolittlearmsupontheshouldersofthedog,leantfirmlythereon,andmurmuredstimulatingwords。Whilstshesorrowedinherheartshecheeredwithhervoice,andwhatwasstrangerthanthatthestrongshouldneedencouragementfromtheweakwasthatcheerfulnessshouldbesowellstimulatedbysuchutterdejection。Herfriendmovedforwardslowly,andshewithsmallmincingstepsmovedforwardbesidehim,halfherweightbeingthrownupontheanimal。Sometimesshesankasshehadsunkfromwalkingerect,fromthecrutches,fromtherails。Thedog,whonowthoroughlyunderstoodherdesireandherincapacity,wasfranticinhisdistressontheseoccasions;
hewouldtugatherdressandrunforward。Shealwayscalledhimback,anditwasnowtobeobservedthatthewomanlistenedforhumansoundsonlytoavoidthem。Itwasevidentthatshehadanobjectinkeepingherpresenceontheroadandherforlornstateunknown。
Theirprogresswasnecessarilyveryslow。Theyreachedthebottomofthetown,andtheCasterbridgelampslaybeforethemlikefallenPleiadsastheyturnedtotheleftintothedenseshadeofadesertedavenueofchestnuts,andsoskirtedtheborough。Thusthetownwaspassed,andthegoalwasreached。
Onthismuch-desiredspotoutsidethetownroseapicturesquebuilding。
Originallyithadbeenamerecasetoholdpeople。Theshellhadbeensothin,sodevoidofexcrescence,andsocloselydrawnovertheaccommodationgranted,thatthegrimcharacterofwhatwasbeneathshowedthroughit,astheshapeofabodyisvisibleunderawinding-sheet。
ThenNature,asifoffended,lentahand。Massesofivygrewup,completelycoveringthewalls,tilltheplacelookedlikeanabbey;anditwasdiscoveredthattheviewfromthefront,overtheCasterbridgechimneys,wasoneofthemostmagnificentinthecounty。Aneighbouringearloncesaidthathewouldgiveupayear’srentaltohaveathisowndoortheviewenjoyedbytheinmatesfromtheirs-andveryprobablytheinmateswouldhavegivenuptheviewforhisyear’srental。
Thisstoneedificeconsistedofacentralmassandtwowings,whereonstoodassentinelsafewslimchimneys,nowgurglingsorrowfullytotheslowwind。Inthewallwasagate,andbythegateabell-pullformedofahangingwire。Thewomanraisedherselfashighaspossibleuponherknees,andcouldjustreachthehandle。Shemoveditandfellforwardsinabowedattitude,herfaceuponherbosom。
Itwasgettingontowardssixo’clock,andsoundsofmovementweretobeheardinsidethebuildingwhichwasthehavenofresttothisweariedsoul。Alittledoorbythelargeonewasopened,andamanappearedinside。
Hediscernedthepantingheapofclothes,wentbackforalight,andcameagain。Heenteredasecondtime,andreturnedwithtwowomen。
Theseliftedtheprostratefigureandassistedherinthroughthedoorway。
Themanthenclosedthedoor。
`Howdidshegethere?’saidoneofthewomen。
`Thelordknows,’saidtheother。
`Thereisadogoutside,’murmuredtheovercometraveller。`Whereishegone?Hehelpedme。’
`Istonedhimaway,’saidtheman。
Thelittleprocessionthenmovedforward-themaninfrontbearingthelight,thetwobonywomennext,supportingbetweenthemthesmallandsuppleone。Thustheyenteredthehouseanddisappeared。
CHAPTERFORTY-ONESuspicion-FannyissentforBathshebasaidverylittletoherhusbandallthateveningoftheirreturnfrommarket,andhewasnotdisposedtosaymuchtoher。Heexhibitedtheunpleasantcombinationofarestlessconditionwithasilenttongue。Thenextday,whichwasSunday,passednearlyinthesamemannerasregardedtheirtaciturnity,Bathshebagoingtochurchbothmorningandafternoon。
ThiswasthedaybeforetheBudmouthraces。IntheeveningTroysaid,suddenly——
`Bathsheba,couldyouletmehavetwentypounds?’
Hercountenanceinstantlysank。`Twentypounds?’shesaid。
`Thefactis,Iwantitbadly。’TheanxietyuponTroy’sfacewasunusualandverymarked。Itwasaculminationofthemoodhehadbeeninalltheday。
`Ah!forthoseracesto-morrow。’
Troyforthemomentmadenoreply。Hermistakehaditsadvantagestoamanwhoshrankfromhavinghismindinspectedashedidnow。`Well,supposeIdowantitforraces?’hesaid,atlast。
`O,Frank!’Bathshebareplied,andtherewassuchavolumeofentreatyinthewords。`OnlysuchafewweeksagoyousaidthatIwasfarsweeterthanallyourotherpleasuresputtogether,andthatyouwouldgivethemallupforme;andnow,won’tyougiveupthisone,whichismoreaworrythanapleasure?Do,Frank。Come,letmefascinateyoubyallIcando-byprettywordsandprettylooks,andeverythingIcanthinkof-tostayathome。Sayyestoyourwife-sayyes!’
ThetenderestandsoftestphasesofBathsheba’snaturewereprominentnow-advancedimpulsivelyforhisacceptance,withoutanyofthedisguisesanddefenceswhichthewarinessofhercharacterwhenshewascooltoofrequentlythrewoverthem。Fewmencouldhaveresistedthearchyetdignifiedentreatyofthebeautifulface,thrownalittlebackandsidewaysinthewell-knownattitudethatexpressesmorethanthewordsitaccompanies,andwhichseemstohavebeendesignedforthesespecialoccasions。Hadthewomannotbeenhiswife,Troywouldhavesuccumbedinstantly;asitwas,hethoughthewouldnotdeceiveherlonger。
`Themoneyisnotwantedforracingdebtsatall,’hesaid。
`Whatisitfor?’sheasked。`Youworrymeagreatdealbythesemysteriousresponsibilities,Frank。’
Troyhesitated。Hedidnotnowloveherenoughtoallowhimselftobecarriedtoofarbyherways。Yetitwasnecessarytobecivil。`Youwrongmebysuchasuspiciousmanner,hesaid。`Suchstrait-waistcoatingasyoutreatmetoisnotbecominginyouatsoearlyadate。’
`IthinkthatIhavearighttogrumblealittleifIpay,’shesaidwithfeaturesbetweenasmileandapout。
`Exactly;and,theformerbeingdone,supposeweproceedtothelatter。
Bathsheba,funisallverywell,butdon’tgotoofar,oryoumayhavecausetoregretsomething。’
Shereddened。`Idothatalready,’shesaidquickly。`Whatdoyouregret?’
`Thatmyromancehascometoanend。’
`Allromancesendatmarriage。’
`Iwishyouwouldn’ttalklikethat。Yougrievemetomysoulbybeingsmartatmyexpense。
`Youaredullenoughatmine。Ibelieveyouhateme。’
`Notyou-onlyyourfaults。Idohatethem。’
`’Twouldbemuchmorebecomingifyousetyourselftocurethem。Come,let’sstrikeabalancewiththetwentypounds,andbefriends。’
Shegaveasighofresignation。`Ihaveaboutthatsumhereforhouseholdexpenses。Ifyoumusthaveit,takeit。’
`Verygood。Thankyou。IexpectIshallhavegoneawaybeforeyouareintobreakfasttomorrow。
`Andmustyougo?Ah!therewasatime,Frank,whenitwouldhavetakenagoodmanypromisestootherpeopletodragyouawayfromme。Youusedtocallmedarling,then。Butitdoesn’tmattertoyouhowmydaysarepassednow。’
`Imustgo,inspiteofsentiment。’Troy,ashespoke,lookedathiswatch,and,apparentlyactuatedbynonlucendoprinciples,openedthecaseattheback,revealing,snuglystowedwithinit,asmallcoilofhair。
Bathsheba’seyeshadbeenaccidentallyliftedatthatmoment,andshesawtheactionandsawthehair。Sheflushedinpainandsurprise,andsomewordsescapedherbeforeshehadthoughtwhetherornotitwaswisetoutterthem。`Awoman’scurlofhair!’shesaid。`O,Frank,whoseisthat?’
Troyhadinstantlyclosedhiswatch。Hecarelesslyreplied,asonewhocloakedsomefeelingsthatthesighthadstirred:`Why,yours,ofcourse。
Whoseshoulditbe?IhadquiteforgottenthatIhadit。’
`Whatadreadfulfib,Frank!’
`ItellyouIhadforgottenit!’hesaidloudly。
`Idon’tmeanthat-itwasyellowhair。’
`Nonsense。’
`That’sinsultingme。Iknowitwasyellow。Nowwhosewasit?Iwanttoknow。’
`Verywell-I’lltellyou,somakenomoreado。ItisthehairofayoungwomanIwasgoingtomarrybeforeIknewyou。’
`Yououghttotellmehername,then。’
`Icannotdothat。’
`Isshemarriedyet?’
`No。’
`Isshealive?’
`Yes。’
`Isshepretty?’
`Yes。’
`Itiswonderfulhowshecanbe,poorthing,undersuchanawfulaffliction!’
`Affliction-whataffliction?’heinquiredquickly。
`Havinghairofthatdreadfulcolour。’
`Oh-ho-Ilikethat!’saidTroy,recoveringhimself。`Why,herhairhasbeenadmiredbyeverybodywhohasseenhersinceshehaswornitloose,whichhasnotbeenlong。Itisbeautifulhair。Peopleusedtoturntheirheadstolookatit,poorgirl!’
`Pooh!that’snothing!’sheexclaimed,inincipientaccentsofpique。
`IfIcaredforyourloveasmuchasIusedtoIcouldsaypeoplehadturnedtolookatmine。’
`Bathsheba,don’tbesofitfulandjealous。Youknewwhatmarriedlifewouldbelike,andshouldn’thaveentereditifyoufearedthesecontingencies。’
Troyhadbythistimedrivenhertobitterness:herheartwasbiginherthroat,andtheductstohereyeswerepainfullyfull。Ashamedasshewastoshowemotion,atlastsheburstout:——
`ThisisallIgetforlovingyousowell!Ah!whenImarriedyouyourlifewasdearertomethanmyown。Iwouldhavediedforyou-howtrulyIcansaythatIwouldhavediedforyou!Andnowyousneeratmyfoolishnessinmarryingyou。O!isitkindtometothrowmymistakeinmyface?Whateveropinionyoumayhaveofmywisdom,youshouldnottellmeofitsomercilessly,nowthatIaminyourpower。’
`Ican’thelphowthingsfallout,’saidTroy;`uponmyheart,womenwillbethedeathofme!’
`Well,youshouldn’tkeeppeople’shair。You’llburnit,won’tyou,Frank?’
Frankwentonasifhehadnotheardher。`Thereareconsiderationsevenbeforemyconsiderationforyou;reparationstobemade-tiesyouknownothingof。Ifyourepentofmarrying,sodoI。’
Tremblingnow,sheputherhanduponhisarm,saying,inmingledtonesofwretchednessandcoaxing,`Ionlyrepentitifyoudon’tlovemebetterthananywomanintheworld!Idon’totherwise,Frank。Youdon’trepentbecauseyoualreadylovesomebodybetterthanyouloveme,doyou?’
`Idon’tknow。Whydoyousaythat?’
`Youwon’tburnthatcurl。Youlikethewomanwhoownsthatprettyhair-yes;itispretty-morebeautifulthanmymiserableblackmane!Well,itisnouse;Ican’thelpbeingugly。Youmustlikeherbest,ifyouwill!’
`Untilto-day,whenItookitfromadrawer,Ihaveneverlookeduponthatbitofhairforseveralmonths-thatIamreadytoswear。’
`Butjustnowyousaid“ties“;andthen-thatwomanwemet?’
`’Twasthemeetingwithherthatremindedmeofthehair。’
`Isithers,then?’
`Yes。There,nowthatyouhavewormeditoutofme,Ihopeyouarecontent。
`Andwhataretheties?’
`Oh!thatmeantnothing-amerejest。’
`Amerejest!’shesaid,inmournfulastonishment。`CanyoujestwhenIamsowretchedlyinearnest?Tellmethetruth,Frank。Iamnotafool,youknow,althoughIamawoman,andhavemywoman’smoments。Come!treatmefairly,’shesaid,lookinghonestlyandfearlesslyintohisface。`I
don’twantmuch;barejustice-that’sall!Ah!onceIfeltIcouldbecontentwithnothinglessthanthehighesthomagefromthehusbandIshouldchoose。Now,anythingshortofcrueltywillcontentme。Yes!theindependentandspiritedBathshebaiscometothis!’
`ForHeaven’ssakedon’tbesodesperate!’Troysaidsnappishly,risingashedidso,andleavingtheroom。
Directlyhehadgone,Bathshebaburstintogreatsobs-dry-eyedsobs,whichcutastheycame,withoutanysofteningbytears。Butshedeterminedtorepressallevidencesoffeeling。Shewasconquered;butshewouldneverownitaslongasshelived。Herpridewasindeedbroughtlowbydespairingdiscoveriesofherspoliationbymarriagewithaledpurenaturethanherown。Shechafedtoandfroinrebelliousness,likeacagedleopard;herwholesoulwasinarms,andthebloodfiredherface。UntilshehadmetTroy,Bathshebahadbeenproudofherpositionasawoman;ithadbeenaglorytohertoknowthatherlipshadbeentouchedbynoman’sonearth-thatherwaisthadneverbeenencircledbyalover’sarm。Shehatedherselfnow。Inthoseearlierdaysshehadalwaysnourishedasecretcontemptforgirlswhoweretheslavesofthefirstgood-lookingyoungfellowwhoshouldchoosetosalutethem。Shehadnevertakenkindlytotheideaofmarriageintheabstractasdidthemajorityofwomenshesawabouther。Intheturmoilofheranxietyforherlovershehadagreedtomarryhim;buttheperceptionthathadaccompaniedherhappiesthoursonthisaccountwasratherthatofselfsacrificethanofpromotionandhonour。Althoughshescarcelyknewthedivinity’sname,DianawasthegoddesswhomBathshebainstinctivelyadored。Thatshehadnever,bylook,word,orsign,encouragedamantoapproachher-thatshehadfeltherselfsufficienttoherself,andhadintheindependenceofhergirlishheartfanciedtherewasacertaindegradationinrenouncingthesimplicityofamaidenexistencetobecomethehumblerhalfofanindifferentmatrimonialwhole-werefactsnowbitterlyremembered。O,ifshehadneverstoopedtofollyofthiskind,respectableasitwas,andcouldonlystandagain,asshehadstoodonthehillatNorcombe,anddareTroyoranyothermantopolluteahairofherheadbyhisinterference!
Thenextmorningsheroseearlierthanusual,andhadthehorsesaddledforherrideroundthefarminthecustomaryway。Whenshecameinathalf-pasteight-theirusualhourforbreakfasting-shewasinformedthatherhusbandhadrisen,takenhisbreakfast,anddrivenofftoCasterbridgewiththegigandPoppet。
Afterbreakfastshewascoolandcollected-quiteherselfinfactandsherambledtothegate,intendingtowalktoanotherquarterofthefarm,whichshestillpersonallysuperintendedaswellasherdutiesinthehousewouldpermit,continually,however,findingherselfprecededinforethoughtbyGabrielOak,forwhomshebegantoentertainthegenuinefriendshipofasister。Ofcourse,shesometimesthoughtofhiminthelightofanoldlover,andhadmomentaryimaginingsofwhatlifewithhimasahusbandwouldhavebeenlike;alsooflifewithBoldwoodunderthesameconditions。
ButBathsheba,thoughshecouldfeel,wasnotmuchgiventofutiledreaming,andhermusingsunderthisheadwereshortandentirelyconfinedtothetimeswhenTroy’sneglectwasmorethanordinarilyevident。
ShesawcominguptheroadamanlikeMrBoldwood。ItwasMrBoldwood。
Bathshebablushedpainfully,andwatched。Thefarmerstoppedwhenstillalongwayoff,andhelduphishandtoGabrielOak,whowasinafootpathacrossthefield。Thetwomenthenapproachedeachotherandseemedtoengageinearnestconversation。
Thustheycontinuedforalongtime。JosephPoorgrassnowpassednearthem,wheelingabarrowofapplesupthehilltoBathsheba’sresidence。
BoldwoodandGabrielcalledtohim,spoketohimforafewminutes,andthenallthreeparted,Josephimmediatelycomingupthehillwithhisbarrow。
Bathsheba,whohadseenthispantomimewithsomesurprise,experiencedgreatreliefwhenBoldwoodturnedbackagain。`Well,what’sthemessage,Joseph?’shesaid。
Hesetdownhisbarrow,and,puttinguponhimselftherefinedaspectthataconversationwithaladyrequired,spoketoBathshebaoverthegate。
`You’llneverseeFannyRobinnomore-usenorprincipal-ma’am。’
`Why?’
`Becauseshe’sdeadintheUnion。`Fannydead-never!’
`Yes,ma’am。’
`Whatdidshediefrom?’
`Idon’tknowforcertain;butIshouldbeinclinedtothinkitwasfromgeneralneshnessofconstitution。Shewassuchalimbermaidthat’acouldstandnohardship,evenwhenIknowedher,and’awentlikeacandle-snoff,so’tissaid。Shewastookbadinthemorning,and,beingquitefeebleandwornout,shediedintheevening。Shebelongsbylawtoourparish;andMrBoldwoodisgoingtosendawaggonatthreethisafternoontofetchherhomehereandburyher。’
`IndeedIshallnotletMrBoldwooddoanysuchthing-Ishalldoit!
Fannywasmyuncle’sservant,and,althoughIonlyknewherforacoupleofdays,shebelongstome。Howvery,verysadthisis!-theideaofFannybeinginaworkhouse。’Bathshebahadbeguntoknowwhatsufferingwas,andshespokewithrealfeeling……`SendacrosstoMrBoldwood’s,andsaythatMrsTroywilltakeuponherselfthedutyoffetchinganoldservantofthefamily。Weoughtnottoputherinawaggon;we’llgetahearse。’
`Therewillhardlybetime,ma’am,willthere?’
`Perhapsnot,’shesaid,musingly。`Whendidyousaywemustbeatthedoor-threeo’clock?’
`Threeo’clockthisafternoon,ma’am,sotospeakit。’
`Verywell-yougowithit。Aprettywaggonisbetterthananuglyhearse,afterall。Joseph,havethenewspringwaggonwiththebluebodyandredwheels,andwashitveryclean。And,Joseph——’
`Yes,ma’am。’
`Carrywithyousomeevergreensandflowerstoputuponhercoffin-
indeed,gatheragreatmany,andcompletelyburyherinthem。Getsomeboughsoflaurustinus,andvariegatedbox,andyew,andboy’s-love;ay,andsomebunchesofchrysanthemum。AndletoldPleasantdrawher,becausesheknewhimsowell。’
`Iwill,ma’am。IoughttohavesaidthattheUnion,intheformoffourlabouringmen,willmeetmewhenIgetstoourchurchyardgate,andtakeherandburyheraccordingtotheritesoftheBoardofGuardians,asbylawordained。’
`Dearme-CasterbridgeUnion-andisFannycometothis?’saidBathsheba,musing。`IwishIhadknownofitsooner。Ithoughtshewasfaraway。Howlonghasshelivedthere?’
`On’ybeenthereadayortwo。’
`Oh!-thenshehasnotbeenstayingthereasaregularinmate?’
`No。Shefirstwenttoliveinagarrison-townt’othersideo’Wessex,andsincethenshe’sbeenpickingupalivingatseampsteringinMelchesterforseveralmonths,atthehouseofaveryrespectablewidow-womanwhotakesinworkofthatsort。SheonlygothandytheUnion-houseonSundaymorning’ab’lieve,and’tissupposedhereandtherethatshehadtraipsedeverystepofthewayfromMelchester。WhysheleftherplaceIcan’tsay,forIdon’tknow;andastoalie,why,Iwouldn’ttellit。That’stheshortofthestory,ma’am。’
`Ah-h!’
Nogemeverflashedfromarosyraytoawhiteonemorerapidlythanchangedtheyoungwife’scountenancewhilstthiswordcamefromherinalong-drawnbreath。`Didshewalkalongourturnpike-road?’shesaid,inasuddenlyrestlessandeagervoice。
`Ibelieveshedid……Ma’am,shallIcallLiddy?Youbain’twell,ma’am,surely?Youlooklikealily-sopaleandfainty!’
`No;don’tcallher;itisnothing。WhendidshepassWeatherbury?’
`LastSaturdaynight。’
`Thatwilldo,Joseph;nowyoumaygo。’
`Certainly,ma’am。’
`Joseph,comehitheramoment。WhatwasthecolourofFannyRobin’shair?’
`Really,mistress,nowthat’tisputtomesojudge-and-jurylike,I
can’tcalltomind,ifye’llbelieveme!’
`Nevermind;goonanddowhatItoldyou。Stop-well,no,goon。’
Sheturnedherselfawayfromhim,thathemightnolongernoticethemoodwhichhadsetitssignsovisiblyuponher,andwentindoorswithadistressingsenseoffaintnessandabeatingbrow。Aboutanhourafter,sheheardthenoiseofthewaggonandwentout,stillwithapainfulconsciousnessofherbewilderedandtroubledlook’Joseph,dressedinhisbestsuitofclothes,wasputtinginthehorsetostart。Theshrubsandflowerswereallpiledinthewaggon,asshehaddirected。Bathshebahardlysawthemnow。
`Whosesweetheartdidyousay,Joseph?’
`Idon’tknow,ma’am。’
`Areyouquitesure?’
`Yes,ma’am,quitesure。’
`Sureofwhat?’
`I’msurethatallIknowisthatshearrivedinthemorninganddiedintheeveningwithoutfartherparley。WhatOakandMrBoldwoodtoldmewasonlythesefewwords“LittleFannyRobinisdead,Joseph。”Gabrielsaid,lookinginmyfaceinhissteadyoldway。Iwasverysorry,andI
said,“Ah!-andhowdidshecometodie?““Well,she’sdeadinCasterbridgeUnion。”hesaid;“andperhaps’tisn’tmuchmatterabouthowshecametodie。ShereachedtheUnionearlySundaymorning,anddiedintheafternoon-that’sclearenough。”ThenIaskedwhatshe’dbeendoinglately,andMrBoldwoodturnedroundtomethen,andleftoffspittingathistlewiththeendofhisstick。HetoldmeaboutherhavinglivedbyseampsteringinMelchester,asImentionedtoyou,andthatshewalkedtherefromattheendoflastweek,passingnearhereSaturdaynightinthedusk。TheythensaidIhadbetterjustnameahentofherdeathtoyou,andawaytheywent。Herdeathmighthavebeenbroughtonbybidinginthenightwind,youknow,ma’am;forpeopleusedtosayshe’dgooffinadecline:sheusedtocoughagooddealinwintertime。However,’tisn’tmuchoddstousaboutthatnow,for’tisallover。’
`Haveyouheardadifferentstoryatall?’ShelookedathimsointentlythatJoseph’seyesquailed。
`Notaword,mistress,Iassure’ee!’hesaid。`Hardlyanybodyintheparishknowsthenewsyet。’
`IwonderwhyGabrieldidn’tbringthemessagetomehimself。Hemostlymakesapointofseeingmeuponthemosttriflingerrand。’Thesewordsweremerelymurmured,andshewaslookingupontheground。
`Perhapshewasbusy,ma’am,’Josephsuggested。`Andsometimesheseemstosufferfromthingsuponhismind,connectedwiththetimewhenhewasbetteroffthan’aisnow。’A’sratheracuriousitem,butaveryunderstandingshepherd,andlearnedinbooks。’
`Didanythingseemuponhismindwhilsthewasspeakingtoyouaboutthis?’
`Icannotbutsaythattheredid,ma’am。Hewasterribledown,andsowasFarmerBoldwood。’
`Thankyou,Joseph。Thatwilldo。Goonnow,oryou’llbelate。’