Happyfamiliesareallalike;everyunhappyfamilyisunhappyinitsownway。
EverythingwasinconfusionintheOblonsky’shouse。ThewifehaddiscoveredthatthehusbandwascarryingonanintriguewithaFrenchgirl,whohadbeenagovernessintheirfamily,andshehadannouncedtoherhusbandthatshecouldnotgoonlivinginthesamehousewithhim。Thispositionofaffairshadnowlastedtwodays,andnotonlythehusbandandwifethemselves,butallthemembersoftheirfamilyandthehousehold,werepainfullyconsciousofit。Allthemembersofthefamilyandthehouseholdfeltthattherewasnosenseintheirlivingtogether,andthatevenstraypeoplebroughttogetherbychanceinanyinnhadmoreincommonwithoneanotherthanthey,themembersofthefamilyandthehouseholdoftheOblonskys。Thewifedidnotleaveherownapartments;thehusbandhadnotbeenhomefortwodays。Thechildrenranwildalloverthehouse;theEnglishgovernessquarreledwiththehousekeeper,andwrotetoafriendaskinghertolookoutforanewemployforher;themancookhadwalkedoffthedaybeforejustatdinnertime;thekitchenmaidandthecoachmanhadgivenwarning。
Twodaysafterthequarrel,PrinceStepanArkadyevichOblonsky-Stiva,ashewascalledinthefashionableworld-wokeupathisusualhour,thatis,ateighto’clockinthemorning,notinhiswife’sbedroom,butontheleather-coveredsofainhisstudy。Heturnedoverhisstout,well-cared-forpersononthespringysofa,asthoughhewouldsinkintoalongsleepagain;hevigorouslyembracedthepillowonitsothersideandburiedhisfaceinit;butallatoncehejumpedup,satuponthesofa,andopenedhiseyes。
`Yes,yes,howwasitnow?’hethought,goingoverhisdream。`Yes,howwasit?Yes!AlabinwasgivingadinneratDarmstadt;no,notDarmstadt,butsomethingAmerican。Yes,butthen,DarmstadtwasinAmerica。Yes,Alabinwasgivingadinneronglasstables,andthetablessang,Ilmiotesoro-no,notIlmiotesoro,butsomethingbetter,andthereweresomesortoflittledecantersonthetable,and,atthesametime,thesedecanterswerewomen,’herecalled。
StepanArkadyevich’seyestwinkledgaily,andheponderedwithasmile。`Yes,itwasjolly,veryjolly。Therewasagreatdealmorethatwasdelightful,onlythere’snoputtingitintowords,orevenexpressingitinone’swakingthoughts。’Andnoticingagleamoflightpeepinginbesideoneofthewoolen-clothcurtains,hecheerfullydroppedhisfeetovertheedgeofthesofaandfeltaboutwiththemforhisslippers,apresentonhislastbirthday,workedforhimbyhiswifeongold-coloredmorocco。And,asheusedtodoforthelastnineyears,hestretchedouthishand,withoutgettingup,towardtheplacewherehisdressinggownalwayshunginthebedroom。Andthereuponhesuddenlyrememberedthathewasnotsleepinginhiswife’sroom,butinhisstudy,aswellasthereason;thesmilevanishedfromhisfaceandheknithisbrows。
`Ah,ah,ah!Oo!’hemuttered,recallingeverythingthathadhappened。Andagaineverydetailofhisquarrelwithhiswifewaspresenttohisimagination,allthehopelessnessofhisposition,and,worstofall,hisownfault。
`Yes,shewon’tforgiveme,andshecan’tforgiveme。Andthemostawfulthingaboutitisthatit’sallmyfault-allmyfault,thoughI’mnottoblame。That’sthepointofthewholetragedy,’hereflected。`Oh,oh,oh!’hekeptrepeatingindespair,asherememberedtheacutelypainfulsensationscausedhimbythisquarrel。
Mostunpleasantofallwasthefirstminutewhen,oncomingfromthetheater,good-humoredandlighthearted,withahugepearinhishandforhiswife,hehadnotfoundhiswifeinthedrawingroom,tohissurprise,norinthestudy,butsawheratlastinherbedroom,clutchingtheunluckyletterthatrevealedeverything。
She,hisDolly,foreverfussingandworryingoverhouseholddetails,andlimitedinherideas,asheconsidered,wassittingmotionlesswiththeletterinherhand,lookingathimwithanexpressionofhorror,despairandindignation。
`Whatisthis?This?’sheasked,pointingtotheletter。
Andatthisrecollection,StepanArkadyevich,asissooftenthecase,wasnotsomuchannoyedatthefactitselfasatthewayinwhichhehadmethiswife’swords。
Therehappenedtohimatthatinstantthatwhichhappenstopeoplewhentheyareunexpectedlycaughtinsomethingverydisgraceful。Hedidnotsucceedinadaptinghisfacetothesituationinwhichhewasplacedtowardhiswifebythediscoveryofhisfault。Insteadofbeinghurt,denying,defendinghimself,beggingforgiveness;insteadofremainingindifferenteven-anythingwouldhavebeenbetterthanwhathediddo-hisfaceutterlywithouthisvolition`cerebralreflexes,’musedStepanArkadyevich,whowasfondofphysiologyhadassumeditshabitualgood-humored,andthereforestupid,smile。
Thisstupidsmilehecouldnotforgivehimself。CatchingsightofthatsmileDollyshudderedasthoughfromphysicalpain,brokeoutwithhercharacteristicheatintoafloodofcruelwords,andrushedoutoftheroom。Sincethenshehadrefusedtoseeherhusband。
`It’sallthefaultofthatstupidsmile,’StepanArkadyevichwasthinking。
`Butwhat’stobedone?What’stobedone?’hekeptsayingtohimselfindespair-andfoundnoanswer。
StepanArkadyevichwasatruthfulmaninhisrelationswithhimself。Hewasincapableofself-deceptionandofpersuadinghimselfthatherepentedhisconduct。Hecouldnotatthisdaterepentthefactthathe,handsome,susceptibletolove,amanofthirty-four,wasnotinlovewithhiswife,themotheroffivelivingandtwodeadchildren,andonlyayearyoungerthanhimself。Allherepentedwasthathehadnotsucceededbetterinhidingthisfromhiswife。Buthefeltallthedifficultyofhispositionandwassorryforhiswife,hischildren,andhimself。Possiblyhemighthavemanagedtoconcealhissinsbetterfromhiswifeifhehadanticipatedthattheknowledgeofthemwouldhavehadsuchaneffectuponher。Hehadneverclearlyreflectedonthesubject,buthehadvaguelyconceivedthathiswifemustlongagohavesuspectedhimofbeingunfaithfultoher,andhadshuthereyestothefact。Hehadevensupposedthatshe,aworn-outwomannolongeryoungorgood-looking,andinnowayremarkableoruncommon-merelyagoodmother-oughtfromasenseoffairnesstotakeanindulgentview。Ithadturnedoutquitetheotherway。
`Oh,it’sawful!Ohdear,ohdear!Awful!’StepanArkadyevichkeptrepeatingtohimself,andhecouldthinkofnothingtobedone。`Andhowwellthingsweregoinguptillnow!Howwellwegoton!Shewascontentedandhappyinherchildren;Ineverinterferedwithherinanything;Ilethermanagethechildrenandthehousejustassheliked。True,it’sbadherhavingbeenagovernessinourhouse。That’sbad!There’ssomethingcommon,vulgar,inflirtingwithone’sgoverness。Butwhatagoverness!’HevividlyrecalledtheroguishblackeyesofMlle。Rolandandhersmile。`Butafterall,whileshewasinthehouse,Ikeptmyselfinhand。Andtheworstofitallisthatshe’salready……Itseemsasifillluckwouldhaveitso!Oh,oh!Butwhat,whatistobedone?’
Therewasnosolution,savethatuniversalsolutionwhichlifegivestoallquestions,eventhemostcomplexandinsolvable:Onemustliveintheneedsoftheday-thatis,forgetoneself。Toforgethimselfinsleepwasimpossiblenow,atleasttillnighttime;hecouldnotgobacknowtothemusicsungbythedecanterwomen;sohemustforgethimselfinthedreamofdailylife。
`Thenweshallsee,’StepanArkadyevichsaidtohimself,andgettingupheputonagraydressinggownlinedwithbluesilk,tiedthetasselsinaknot,and,drawingadeepbreathofairintohisbroadchest,hewalkedtothewindowwithhisusualconfidentstep,turningouthisfeetthatcarriedhisfullframesoeasily。Hepulleduptheblindandrangthebellloudly。Itwasatonceansweredbytheappearanceofanoldfriend,hisvalet,Matvei,carryinghisclothes,hisbootsandatelegram。Matveiwasfollowedbythebarberwithallthenecessariesforshaving。
`Arethereanypapersfromtheboard?’askedStepanArkadyevich,takingthetelegramandseatinghimselfatthelookingglass。
`Onthetable,’repliedMatvei,glancingwithinquiringsympathyathismaster;and,afterashortpause,headdedwithaslysmile:
`They’vesentfromthecarriagejobber。’
StepanArkadyevichmadenoreply,butmerelyglancedatMatveiinthelookingglass。Theglance,inwhichtheireyesmetinthelookingglass,madeitclearthattheyunderstoodoneanother。StepanArkadyevich’seyesseemedtoask:`Whydoyoutellmethat?Don’tyouknow?’
Matveiputhishandsinhisjacketpockets,thrustoutoneleg,andgazedsilently,withagood-humored,faintsmile,athismaster。
`ItoldthemtocomeonSunday,andtillthennottotroubleyouorthemselvesfornothing,’hesaid。Hehadobviouslypreparedthesentencebeforehand。
StepanArkadyevichsawMatveiwantedtomakeajokeandattractattentiontohimself。Tearingopenthetelegram,hereaditthrough,guessingatthewords,misspelledastheyalwaysareintelegrams,andhisfacebrightened。
`Matvei,mysisterAnnaArkadyevnawillbeheretomorrow,’hesaid,checkingforaminutethesleek,plumphandofthebarber,cuttingapinkpathbetweenhislong,curlysidewhiskers。
`ThankGod!’saidMatvei,showingbythisresponsethathe,likehismaster,realizedthesignificanceofthisarrival:AnnaArkadyevna,thesisterhismasterwassofondof,mightbringaboutareconciliationbetweenhusbandandwife。
`Alone,orwithherhusband?’inquiredMatvei。
StepanArkadyevichcouldnotanswer,asthebarberwasatworkonhisupperlip,andheraisedonefinger。Matveinoddedatthelookingglass。
`Alone。Istheroomtobegotreadyupstairs?’
`InformDaryaAlexandrovna:wheresheorders。’
`DaryaAlexandrovna?’Matveirepeated,asthoughindoubt。
`Yes,informher。Here,takethetelegram;giveittoher,andthendowhatshetellsyou。’
`Youwanttotryitout,’Matveiguessed,butonlysaid:`Yes,sir。’
StepanArkadyevichwasalreadywashedandcombedandreadytobedressed,whenMatvei,steppingslowlyinhiscreakyboots,camebackintotheroomwiththetelegraminhishand。Thebarberhadgone。
`DaryaAlexandrovnatoldmetoinformyouthatsheisgoingaway。``Lethim’’-thatisyou-``doashelikes,’’’hesaid,laughingonlywithhiseyes,and,puttinghishandsinhispockets,hewatchedhismasterwithhisheadononeside。StepanArkadyevichwassilentaminute。Thenagood-humoredandratherpitifulsmileshoweditselfonhishandsomeface。
`Eh,Matvei?’hesaid,shakinghishead。
`Nevermind,sir;everythingwillcomeround,’saidMatvei。
`Comeround?’
`Justso,sir。’
`Doyouthinkso?-Who’sthere?’askedStepanArkadyevich,hearingtherustleofawoman’sdressatthedoor。
`It’sI,’saidafirm,pleasantfemininevoice,andthestern,pockmarkedfaceofMatrionaPhilimonovna,thenurse,wasthrustinatthedoor。
`Well,what’sthematter,Matriosha?’queriedStepanArkadyevich,meetingherinthedoorway。
AlthoughStepanArkadyevichwascompletelyinthewrongasregardshiswife,andwasconsciousofthishimself,almosteveryoneinthehouseeventhenurse,DaryaAlexandrovna’schiefallywasonhisside。
`Well,whatnow?’heaskedcheerlessly。
`Gotoher,sir;ownyourfaultagain。MaybeGodwillaidyou。Sheissufferingso,it’spitifultoseeher;andbesides,everythinginthehouseistopsy-turvy。Youmusthavepity,sir,onthechildren。Begherforgiveness,sir。There’snohelpforit!Onemustpaythepiper……’
`Butshewon’tseeme。’
`Youdoyourpart。Godismerciful;praytoGod,sir-praytoGod。’
`Come,that’lldo,youcango,’saidStepanArkadyevich,blushingsuddenly。`Well,now,let’sdress,’heturnedtoMatveiandresolutelythrewoffhisdressinggown。
Matveiwasalreadyholdinguptheshirtlikeahorse’scollar,and,blowingoffsomeinvisiblespeck,heslippeditwithobviouspleasureoverthewell-cared-forpersonofhismaster。
Whenhewasdressed,StepanArkadyevichsprinkledsomescentonhimself,pulleddownhisshirtcuffs,distributedintohispocketshiscigarettes,pocketbook,matchesandwatch,withitsdoublechainandseals,and,shakingouthishandkerchief,feelinghimselfclean,fragrant,healthyandphysicallyatease,inspiteofhismisfortune,hewalkedwithaslightswingofeachlegintothediningroom,wherecoffeewasalreadywaitingforhim-and,alongsideofhiscup,thelettersandpapersfromtheoffice。
Hereadtheletters。Onewasveryunpleasant,fromamerchantwhowasbuyingaforestonhiswife’sproperty。Tosellthisforestwasabsolutelyessential;butatpresent,untilhewasreconciledwithhiswife,thesubjectcouldnotbediscussed。Themostunpleasantthingofallwasthathispecuniaryinterestsshouldinthiswayenterintothequestionofhisreconciliationwithhiswife。Andtheideathathemightbeledonbyhisinterests,thathemightseekareconciliationwithhiswifeonaccountofthesaleoftheforest-thatideahurthim。
Whenhehadfinishedhisletters,StepanArkadyevichmovedtheofficepapersclosetohim,rapidlylookedthroughtwocases,madeafewnoteswithabigpencil,and,pushingawaythepapers,turnedtohiscoffee。Sippingit,heopenedastilldampmorningpaperandbegantoreadit。
StepanArkadyevichtookinandreadaliberalpaper,notanextremeone,butoneadvocatingtheviewsheldbythemajority。Andinspiteofthefactthatscience,artandpoliticshadnospecialinterestforhim,hefirmlyheldthoseviewsonallthesesubjectswhichwereheldbythemajorityandbyhispaper,andheonlychangedthemwhenthemajoritychangedthem-or,morestrictlyspeaking,hedidnotchangethem,buttheyimperceptiblychangedofthemselveswithinhim。
StepanArkadyevichhadnotchosenhispoliticalopinionsorhisviews-thesepoliticalopinionsandviewshadcometohimofthemselves-justashedidnotchoosetheshapesofhishatandcoat,butsimplyacceptedthosethatwerebeingworn。Andforhim,livinginacertainsociety-owingtotheneed,ordinarilydevelopedatyearsofdiscretion,forsomedegreeofmentalactivity-tohaveviewswasjustasindispensableastohaveahat。Iftherewasareasonforhispreferringliberaltoconservativeviews,whichwereheldalsobymanyofhiscircle,itarosenotfromhisconsideringliberalismmorerational,butfromitsbeingincloseraccordancewithhismanneroflife。TheliberalpartysaidthatinRussiaeverythingwaswrong,andindeedStepanArkadyevichhadmanydebtsandwasdecidedlyshortofmoney。Theliberalpartysaidthatmarriagewasaninstitutionquiteoutofdate,andthatitstoodinneedofreconstruction,andindeedfamilylifeaffordedStepanArkadyevichlittlegratification,andforcedhimintolyingandhypocrisy,whichweresorepulsivetohisnature。Theliberalpartysaid,orratherallowedittobeunderstood,thatreligionwasonlyacurbtokeepincheckthebarbarousclassesofthepeople,andindeedStepanArkadyevichcouldnotstandthroughevenashortservicewithouthislegsaching,andcouldnevermakeoutwhatwastheobjectofalltheterribleandhigh-flownlanguageaboutanotherworldwhenlifemightbesoveryamusinginthisworld。AndwithallthisStepanArkadyevich,wholikedamerryjoke,wasfondofembarrassingsomeplainmanbysayingthatifoneweretoprideoneselfonone’sorigin,oneoughtnottostopatRurikanddisownthefounderoftheline-themonkey。AndsoliberalismhadbecomeahabitofStepanArkadyevich,andhelikedhisnewspaper,ashedidhiscigarafterdinner,fortheslightfogitdiffusedinhisbrain。Hereadtheleadingarticle,whichmaintainedthatitwasquitesenselessinourdaytoraiseanoutcrythatradicalismwasthreateningtoswallowupallconservativeelements,andthatthegovernmentoughttotakemeasurestocrushtherevolutionaryhydra;that,onthecontrary,`inouropinionthedangerliesnotinthatimaginaryrevolutionaryhydra,butintheobstinacyoftraditionalismcloggingprogress,’etc。,etc。Hereadanotherarticle,too,afinancialone,whichalludedtoBenthamandMill,anddroppedsomeinnuendoesreflectingontheministry。Withhischaracteristicquick-wittednesshecaughtthedriftofeachinnuendo,divinedwhenceitcame,atwhomandonwhatgrounditwasaimed,andthataffordedhim,asitalwaysdid,acertaingratification。ButtodaythatgratificationwasembitteredbyMatrionaPhilimonovna’sadviceandtheunsatisfactorystateofhishousehold。Heread,too,thatCountBeistwasrumoredtohaveleftforWiesbaden,andthatoneneedhavenomoregrayhair,andofthesaleofalightcarriage,andofayoungpersonseekingasituation;buttheseitemsofinformationdidnotgivehim,asusual,aquiet,ironicalgratification。
Havingfinishedthepaper,asecondcupofcoffeeandarollandbutter,hegotup,shakingthecrumbsoffhiswaistcoat;and,squaringhisbroadchest,hesmiledjoyously;notbecausetherewasanythingparticularlyagreeableinhismind-thejoyoussmilewasevokedbyagooddigestion。
Butthisjoyoussmileatoncerecalledeverythingtohim,andhegrewthoughtful。
TwochildishvoicesStepanArkadyevichrecognizedthevoicesofGrisha,hisyoungestboy,andTania,hiseldestgirlwereheardoutsidethedoor。Theywerecarryingsomething,anddroppedit。
`Itoldyounottositpassengersontheroof,’saidthelittlegirlinEnglish;`there,pickthemup!’
`Everything’sinconfusion,’thoughtStepanArkadyevich;`therearethechildrenrunningaboutbythemselves。’Andgoingtothedoor,hecalledthem。Theyleftofftheboxthatrepresentedatrain,andcameintotheirfather。
Thelittlegirl,herfather’sfavorite,ranupboldly,embracedhimandhunglaughinglyonhisneck,enjoyingasshealwaysdidthewell-knownsmellofscentthatcamefromhiswhiskers。Atlastthelittlegirlkissedhisface,whichwasflushedfromhisstoopingpostureandbeamingwithtenderness,loosedherhands,andwasabouttorunawayagain;butherfatherheldherback。
`Howismamma?’heasked,passinghishandoverhisdaughter’ssmooth,softlittleneck。`Goodmorning,’hesaid,smilingtotheboy,whohadcomeuptogreethim。
Hewasconsciousthathelovedtheboyless,andalwaystriedtobefair;buttheboyfeltit,anddidnotsmileresponsivelytohisfather’schillysmile。
`Mamma?Sheisup,’answeredthegirl。
StepanArkadyevichsighed。
`Thatmeansshehasn’tsleptagainallnight,’hethought。
`Well,isshecheerful?’
Thelittlegirlknewthattherewasaquarrelbetweenherfatherandmother,andthathermothercouldnotbecheerful,andthatherfathermustbeawareofthis,andthathewaspretendingwhenheaskedaboutitsolightly。Andsheblushedforherfather。Heatonceperceivedit,andblushedtoo。
`Idon’tknow,’shesaid。`Shedidnotsaywemustdoourlessons,butshesaidweweretogoforawalkwithMissHooletograndmamma’s。’
`Well,go,Tania,mydarling。Oh,waitaminute,though,’hesaid,stillholdingherandstrokinghersoftlittlehand。
Hetookoffthemantelpiece,wherehehadputityesterday,alittleboxofsweets,andgavehertwo,pickingoutherfavorites,achocolateandabonbon。
`ForGrisha?’saidthelittlegirl,pointingtothechocolate。
`Yes,yes。’Andstillstrokingherlittleshoulder,hekissedthenapeofherneck,andlethergo。
`Thecarriageisready,’saidMatvei;`butthere’ssomeonetoseeyouwithapetition。’
`Beenherelong?’askedStepanArkadyevich。
`Halfanhourorso。’
`HowmanytimeshaveItoldyoutotellmeatonce?’
`Onemustletyoudrinkyourcoffeeinpeace,atleast,’saidMatvei,intheaffectionatelygrufftonewithwhichitwasimpossibletobeangry。
`Well,showthepersonupatonce,’saidOblonsky,frowningwithvexation。
Thepetitioner,thewidowofastaffcaptainKalinin,camewitharequestimpossibleandunreasonable;butStepanArkadyevich,ashegenerallydid,madehersitdown,heardhertotheendattentivelywithoutinterruptingher,andgaveherdetailedadviceastohowandtowhomtoapply,andevenwroteforher,easilyandclearly,inhislarge,sprawlingcalligraphicandlegiblehand,alittlenotetoapersonagewhomightbeofusetoher。Havinggotridofthestaffcaptain’swidow,StepanArkadyevichtookhishatandstoppedtorecollectwhetherhehadforgottenanything。Itappearedthathehadforgottennothingexceptwhathewantedtoforget-hiswife。
`Ah,yes!’Hebowedhishead,andhishandsomefaceassumedamelancholyexpression。`Togo,ornottogo?’hesaidtohimself;andaninnervoicetoldhimhemustnotgo,thatnothingcouldcomeofitbutfalsity;thattoamend,tosetrighttheirrelationswasimpossible,becauseitwasimpossibletomakeherattractiveagainandabletoinspirelove,ortomakehimanoldman,notsusceptibletolove。Exceptdeceitandlyingnothingcouldcomeofitnow;anddeceitandlyingwereopposedtohisnature。
`Itmustbesomeday,though:itcan’tgoonlikethis,’hesaid,tryingtogivehimselfcourage。Hesetstraighthischest,tookoutacigarette,lightedit,tooktwowhiffsatit,flungitintoamother-of-pearlashtray,andwithrapidstepswalkedthroughthedrawingroomandopenedtheotherdoorintohiswife’sbedroom。
DaryaAlexandrovna,inadressingjacket,andwithhernowscantyhaironceluxuriantandbeautifulfastenedupwithhairpinsonthenapeofherneck,withasunken,thinfaceandlarge,startledeyes,whichlookedprominentfromthethinnessofherface,wasstanding,amongalitterofallsortsofthingsscatteredallovertheroom,beforeanopenbureau,fromwhichshewastakingsomething。Hearingherhusband’ssteps,shestopped,lookingtowardthedoor,andtryinginvaintogiveherfeaturesasevereandcontemptuousexpression。Shefeltshewasafraidofhim,andafraidofthecominginterview。Shewasjustattemptingtodowhatshehadattemptedtodotentimesalreadyintheselastthreedays-tosortoutthechildren’sthingsandherown,soastotakethemtohermother’s-andagainshecouldnotbringherselftodothis;butnowagain,aseachtimebefore,shekeptsayingtoherself,thatthingscannotgoonlikethis,thatshemustundertakesomething,punishhim,puthimtoshame,avengeonhimsomelittlepartatleastofthesufferinghehadcausedher。Shestillcontinuedtotellherselfthatsheshouldleavehim,butshewasconsciousthatthiswasimpossible;itwasimpossiblebecauseshecouldnotgetoutofthehabitofregardinghimasherhusbandandoflovinghim。Besidesthis,sherealizedthatifevenhereinherownhouseshecouldhardlymanagetolookafterherfivechildrenproperly,theywouldbestillworseoffwhereshewasgoingwithallofthem。Asitwas,eveninthecourseofthesethreedays,theyoungestwasunwellfrombeinggivenunwholesomesoup,andtheothershadalmostgonewithouttheirdinnerthedaybefore。Shewasconsciousthatitwasimpossibletogoaway;but,cheatingherself,shewentonallthesamesortingoutherthingsandpretendingshewasgoing。
Seeingherhusband,shedroppedherhandsintothedrawerofthebureauasthoughlookingforsomething,andonlylookedroundathimwhenhehadcomequiteuptoher。Butherface,towhichshetriedtogiveasevereandresoluteexpression,expressedbewildermentandsuffering。
`Dolly!’hesaidinasubduedandtimidvoice。Hehadhuncheduphisshouldersandtriedtolookpitifulandhumble,butforallthathewasradiantwithfreshnessandhealth。Inarapidglanceshescannedhisfigure,beamingwithfreshnessandhealth。`Yes,heishappyandcontent!’shethought;`whileI……Andthatdisgustinggoodnaturewhicheveryonelikeshimforandpraises-Ihatethatgoodnatureofhis,’shethought。Hermouthstiffened,themusclesofthecheektrembledontherightsideofherpale,nervousface。
`Whatdoyouwant?’shesaidinarapid,deep,unnaturalvoice。
`Dolly!’herepeated,withaquiverinhisvoice。`Annaiscomingtoday。’
`Well,whatisthattome?Ican’tseeher!’shecried。
`Butyoumust,really,Dolly。
`Goaway,goaway,goaway!’sheshrieked,withoutlookingathim,asthoughthisshriekwerecalledupbyphysicalpain。
StepanArkadyevichcouldbecalmwhenhethoughtofhiswife,hecouldhopethateverythingwouldcomeround,asMatveiexpressedit,andhadbeenabletogoonreadinghispaperanddrinkinghiscoffee;butwhenhesawhertortured,sufferingface,heardthetoneofhervoice,submissivetofateandfullofdespair,hisbreathwascutshortandalumpcametothisthroat,andhiseyesbegantoshinewithtears。
`MyGod!WhathaveIdone?Dolly!ForGod’ssake!……Youknow……’Hecouldnotgoon;therewasasobinhisthroat。
Sheshutthebureauwithaslam,andglancedathim。
`Dolly,whatcanIsay?……Onething:forgiveme……Remember,cannotnineyearsofourlifeatoneforaninstant……’
Shedroppedhereyesandlistened,expectingwhathewouldsay,asifbeseechinghiminsomewayorothertomakeherbelievedifferently。
`……instantofpassion……’hesaid,andwouldhavegoneon,butatthatword,asatapangofphysicalpain,herlipsstiffenedagain,andagainthemusclesofherrightcheekworked。
`Goaway,gooutoftheroom!’sheshriekedstillmoreshrilly,`anddon’ttalktomeofyourpassionsandyourvilenesses。’
Shetriedtogoout,buttottered,andclungtothebackofachairtosupportherself。Hisfacerelaxed,hislipsbecamepuffy;tearswelledupinhiseyes。
`Dolly!’hesaid,sobbingnow。`Formercy’ssake,thinkofthechildren;theyarenottoblame!Iamtoblame-punishmethen,makemeexpiatemyfault。AnythingIcando,Iamreadytodo!Iamtoblame,nowordscanexpresshowmuchIamtoblame!But,Dolly,forgiveme!’
Shesatdown。Helistenedtoherhard,heavybreathing,andhewasunutterablysorryforher。Shemadeseveralattemptstospeak,butcouldnot。Hewaited。
`Yourememberthechildren,Stiva,toplaywiththem;butIremember,andknowthattheygotoruinnow,’shesaid-obviouslyoneofthephrasesshehadmorethanoncerepeatedtoherselfinthecourseofthelastthreedays。
Shehadcalledhim`Stiva,’andheglancedatherwithgratitudeandmovedtotakeherhand,butshedrewbackfromhimwithaversion。
`Irememberthechildren,andforthatreasonIwoulddoanythingintheworldtosavethem;butIdon’tmyselfknowthemeans。Bytakingthemawayfromtheirfather,orbyleavingthemwithaviciousfather-yes,aviciousfather……Tellme,afterwhat……hashappened,canwelivetogether?Isthatpossible?Dotellme-isitpossible?’sherepeated,raisinghervoice。`Aftermyhusband,thefatherofmychildren,entersintoaloveaffairwithhisownchildren’sgoverness……’
`Butwhat’stobedone?What’stobedone?’hekeptsayinginapitifulvoice,notknowingwhathewassaying,ashisheadsanklowerandlower。
`Youareloathsometome,repulsive!’sheshrieked,gettingmoreandmoreheated。`Yourtearsmeannothing!Youhaveneverlovedme;youhaveneitheraheartnorasenseofhonor!Youarehatefultome,disgusting,astranger-yes,acompletestranger!’Withpainandwrathsheutteredthewordsoterribletoherself-stranger。
Helookedather,andthefuryexpressedinherfacealarmedandamazedhim。Hedidnotunderstandthatitwashispityforherthatexasperatedher。Shesawinhimcompassionforher,butnotlove。`No,shehatesme。Shewillnotforgiveme,’hethought。
`ItisawfulAwful!’hesaid。
Atthatmomentinthenextroomachildbegantocry;probablyithadfallendown。DaryaAlexandrovnalistened,andherfacesuddenlysoftened。
Sheseemedpullingherselftogetherforafewseconds,asthoughshedidnotknowwhereshewasnorwhatshewasdoing,and,gettinguprapidly,shemovedtowardthedoor。
`Well,shelovesmychild,’hethought,noticingthechangeofherfaceatthechild’scry,`mychild:howcanshehatemethen?’
`Dolly,onewordmore,’hesaid,followingher。
`Ifyoufollowme,Iwillcallintheservants,andthechildren!Letthemallknowyouareascoundrel!Iamgoingawayatonce,andyoumayliveherewithyourmistress!’
Andshewentout,slammingthedoor。
StepanArkadyevichsighed,moppedhisface,andwithasubduedtreadwalkedoutoftheroom。`Matveisayseverythingwillcomeround;buthow?Idon’tseetheleastchanceofit。Ah,ah,howhorribleitis!Andhowvulgarlysheshouted,’hesaidtohimself,rememberinghershrieksandthewords-`scoundrel’and`mistress。’`Andverylikelythemaidswerelistening!Horriblyvulgar,horribly。’StepanArkadyevichstoodafewsecondsalone,wipedhiseyes,thrustouthischestandwalkedoutoftheroom。
ItwasFriday,andinthediningroomthewatchmaker,aGerman,waswindinguptheclock。StepanArkadyevichrememberedhisjokeaboutthispunctual,baldwatchmaker,`thattheGermanwaswoundupforawholelifetimehimself,towindupwatches,’andhesmiled。StepanArkadyevichwasfondofanicejoke。`Andmaybeitwillcomeround!’That’sagoodexpression,``comeround,’’hethought。`Imusttellthat。’
`Matvei!’heshouted。`ArrangeeverythingwithMaryainthesittingroomforAnnaArkadyevna,’hesaidtoMatveiwhenhecamein。
`Yes,sir。’
StepanArkadyevichputonhisfurcoatandwentoutonthefrontsteps。
`Youwon’tdineathome?’saidMatvei,seeinghimoff。
`Italldepends。Buthere’sforthehousekeeping,’hesaid,takingtenroublesfromhispocketbook。`Willitbeenough?’
`Enoughornotenough,wemustmakeitdo,’saidMatvei,slammingthecarriagedoorandgoingbacktothesteps。
DaryaAlexandrovnameanwhilehavingpacifiedthechild,andknowingfromthesoundofthecarriagethathehadgoneoff,wentbacktoherbedroom。Itwasheronlyrefugefromthehouseholdcareswhichcrowdeduponherdirectlyshewentoutfromit。Evennow,intheshorttimeshehadbeeninthenursery,theEnglishgovernessandMatrionaPhilimonovnahadsucceededinputtingseveralquestionstoher,whichdidnotadmitofdelay,andwhichonlyshecouldanswer:`Whatwerethechildrentoputonfortheirwalk?Shouldtheyhaveanymilk?Shouldnotanewcookbesentfor?’
`Ah,letmealone,letmealone!’shesaid,andgoingbacktoherbedroomshesatdowninthesameplaceshehadoccupiedwhentalkingtoherhusband,claspingtightlyherthinhands,herringsslippingdownonherbonyfingers,andfelltogoingoverherrecollectionsoftheentireinterview。`Hehasgone!Butwhathashefinallyarrivedatwithher?’shethought。`Canitbeheseesher?Whydidn’tIaskhim!No,no,reconciliationisimpossible。Evenifweremaininthesamehouse,wearestrangers-strangersforever!’Sherepeatedagainwithspecialsignificancethewordsodreadfultoher。`AndhowIlovedhim!myGod,howIlovedhim!……HowIlovedhim!Andnowdon’tIlovehim?Don’tIlovehimmorethanbefore?Themosthorriblethingis,’shebegan,butdidnotfinishherthought,becauseMatrionaPhilimonovnaputherheadinatthedoor。
`Letussendformybrother,’shesaid;`hecangetadinneranyway,orweshallhavethechildrengettingnothingtoeattillsixagain,likeyesterday。’
`Verywell,Iwillcomedirectlyandseeaboutit。Butdidyousendforsomenewmilk?’
AndDaryaAlexandrovnaplungedintothedutiesoftheday,anddrownedhergriefinthemforatime。
StepanArkadyevichhadlearnedeasilyatschool,thankstohisexcellentabilities,buthehadbeenidleandmischievous,andthereforewasoneofthelowestinhisclass。Butinspiteofhishabituallydissipatedmodeoflife,hisinferiorgradeintheservice,andhiscomparativeyouth,heoccupiedthehonorableandlucrativepositionofpresidentofoneofthegovernmentboardsatMoscow。ThisposthehadreceivedthroughhissisterAnna’shusband,AlexeiAlexandrovichKarenin,whoheldoneofthemostimportantpositionsintheministrytowhichtheMoscowofficebelonged。ButifKareninhadnotgothisbrother-in-lawthisberth,thenthroughahundredotherpersonages-brothers,sisters,cousins,unclesandaunts-StivaOblonskywouldhavereceivedthispostorsomeotherlikeit,togetherwiththesalaryofsixthousandabsolutelyneedfulforhim,ashisaffairs,inspiteofhiswife’sconsiderableproperty,wereinapoorstate。
HalfMoscowandPeterburgwerefriendsandrelationsofStepanArkadyevich。Hewasborninthemidstofthosewhohadbeen,andhadbecome,thepowerfulonesofthisworld。One-thirdofthemeninthegovernment,theoldermen,hadbeenfriendsofhisfather’s,andhadknownhiminpinafores;anotherthirdwerehisintimatechums,andtheremainderwerefriendlyacquaintances。Consequentlythedistributorsofearthlyblessingsintheshapeofposts,rents,concessionsandsuch,wereallhisfriends,andcouldnotoverlookoneoftheirownset;andOblonskyhadnoneedtomakeanyspecialexertiontogetalucrativepost。Hehadonlynottorefusethings,nottoshowjealousy,nottobequarrelsomeortakeoffense,allofwhichfromhischaracteristicgoodnatureheneverdid。Itwouldhavestruckhimasabsurdifhehadbeentoldthathewouldnotgetapositionwiththesalaryherequired,especiallyasheexpectednothingoutoftheway;heonlywantedwhatthemenofhisownageandstandingdidget,andhewasnoworsequalifiedforperformingdutiesofthiskindthananyotherman。
StepanArkadyevichwasnotmerelylikedbyallwhoknewhimforhisgoodhumor,hisbrightdispositionandhisunquestionablehonesty;inhim,inhishandsome,radiantfigure,hissparklingeyes,blackhairandeyebrows,andhiswhiteandpinkcomplexion,therewassomethingwhichproducedaphysicaleffectofkindlinessandgoodhumoronthepeoplewhomethim。`Aha!Stiva!Oblonsky!Themanhimself!’wasalmostalwayssaidwithasmileofdelightonmeetinghim。Eventhoughithappenedattimesthatafteraconversationwithhimitseemedthatnothingparticularlydelightfulhadhappened,thenextday,andthenext,everyonewasjustasdelightedtomeethimagain。
AfterfillingfortwoyearsthepostofpresidentofoneofthegovernmentboardsatMoscow,StepanArkadyevichhadwontherespect,aswellastheliking,ofhisfellowofficials,subordinatesandsuperiors,andallwhohadhadbusinesswithhim。TheprincipalqualitiesinStepanArkadyevichwhichhadgainedhimthisuniversalrespectintheserviceconsisted,inthefirstplace,ofhisextremeindulgenceforothers,foundedonaconsciousnessofhisownshortcomings;secondly,ofhisperfectliberalism-nottheliberalismhereadofinthepapers,buttheliberalismthatwasinhisblood,invirtueofwhichhetreatedallmenperfectlyequallyandexactlythesame,whatevertheirfortuneorrankmightbe;andthirdly-themostimportantpoint-ofhiscompleteindifferencetothebusinessinwhichhewasengaged,inconsequenceofwhichhewasnevercarriedaway,andmadenomistakes。
OnreachingtheofficesoftheboardStepanArkadyevich,escortedbyadeferentialporterwithaportfolio,wentintohislittleprivateroom,putonhisuniform,andwentintotheboardroom。Theclerksandofficialsallrose,greetinghimwithgood-humoreddeference。StepanArkadyevichmovedquickly,asalways,tohisplace,shookhandswiththemembersoftheboard,andsatdown。Hemadeajokeortwo,andtalkedjustasmuchaswasconsistentwithduedecorum,andbeganwork。NooneknewbetterthanStepanArkadyevichhowtohitonthatexactlimitoffreedom,simplicityandofficialstiffnesswhichisnecessaryfortheagreeableconductofbusiness。Asecretary,withthegood-humoreddeferencecommontoeveryoneinStepanArkadyevich’soffice,cameupwithpapers,andbegantospeakinthefamiliarandeasytonewhichhadbeenintroducedbyStepanArkadyevich。
`WehavesucceededingettingtheinformationfromthegovernmentdepartmentofPenza。Here,wouldyoucare?……’
`You’vegotitatlast?’saidStepanArkadyevich,layinghisfingeronthepaper。`Now,gentlemen……’
Andthesittingoftheboardbegan。
`Iftheybutknew,’hethought,inclininghisheadwithanimportantairandlisteningtothereport,`whataguiltylittleboytheirpresidentwashalfanhourago!’Andhiseyeswerelaughingduringthereadingofthereport。Tilltwoo’clockthesittingwouldgoonwithoutabreak-thentherewouldbeanintervalandluncheon。
Itwasnotyettwo,whenthelargeglassdoorsoftheboardroomsuddenlyopenedandsomeonecamein。
Allthemembersoftheboard,sittingatthetable,frombelowtheportraitoftheCzarandfrombehindthemirrorofjustice,delightedatanydistraction,lookedroundatthedoor;butthedoorkeeperstandingthereatoncedroveouttheintruder,andclosedtheglassdoorafterhim。
Whenthecasehadbeenreadthrough,StepanArkadyevichgotupandstretched,andbywayoftributetotheliberalismofthetimestookoutacigarette,beingintheboardroom,andwentintohisprivateroom。Twoofhisboardfellows,theoldveteranintheservice,Nikitin,andtheKammerjunkerGrinevich,wentinwithhim。
`Weshallhavetimetofinishafterlunch,’saidStepanArkadyevich。
`Tobesureweshall!’saidNikitin。
`AprettysharpfellowthisFominmustbe,’saidGrinevichofoneofthepersonstakingpartinthecasetheywereexamining。
StepanArkadyevichfrownedatGrinevich’swords,givinghimtherebytounderstandthatitwasimpropertopassjudgmentprematurely,andmadehimnoreply。
`Whowasitwhocamein?’heaskedthedoorkeeper。
`Somefellow,yourexcellency,sneakedinwithoutpermissiondirectlymybackwasturned。Hewasaskingforyou。Itoldhim:whenthememberscomeout,then……’
`Whereishe?’
`Maybehe’sgoneintothepassage,hewasstrollingheretillnow。That’she,’saidthedoorkeeper,pointingtoastronglybuilt,broadshoulderedmanwithacurlybeard,who,withouttakingoffhissheepskincap,wasrunninglightlyandrapidlyupthewornstepsofthestonestaircase。Oneoftheofficialsgoingdown-aleanfellowwithaportfolio-stoodoutofhisway,lookeddisapprovinglyatthelegsoftherunningman,andthenglancedinquiringlyatOblonsky。
StepanArkadyevichwasstandingatthetopofthestairs。Hisgood-naturedlybeamingfaceabovetheembroideredcollarofhisuniformbeamedmorethaneverwhenherecognizedthemancomingup。
`Why,it’sactuallyyou,Levin,atlast!’hesaidwithafriendlymockingsmile,gazingontheapproachingman。`Howisityouhavedeignedtolookmeupinthisden?’saidStepanArkadyevichand,notcontentwithshakinghands,hekissedhisfriend。`Haveyoubeenherelong?’
`Ihavejustcome,andverymuchwantedtoseeyou,’saidLevin,lookingabouthimshyly,and,atthesametime,angrilyanduneasily。
`Well,let’sgointomyroom,’saidStepanArkadyevich,whoknewhisfriend’ssensitiveandirritableshyness,and,takinghisarm,hedrewhimalong,asthoughguidinghimthroughdangers。
StepanArkadyevichwasonfamiliartermswithalmostallhisacquaintances,andcalledalmostallofthembytheirChristiannames:oldmenofsixty,boysoftwenty,actors,ministers,merchantsandadjutantgenerals,sothatmanyofhisintimatechumsweretobefoundattheextremeendsofthesocialladder,andwouldhavebeenverymuchsurprisedtolearnthattheyhad,throughthemediumofOblonsky,somethingincommon。Hewasthefamiliarfriendofeveryonewithwhomhetookaglassofchampagne,andhetookaglassofchampagnewitheveryone,andwheninconsequencehemetanyofhisdisreputablechums,asheusedinjoketocallmanyofhisfriends,inthepresenceofhissubordinates,hewellknewhow,withhischaracteristictact,todiminishanypossibledisagreeableimpression。Levinwasnotadisreputablechum,butOblonsky,withhisreadytact,feltthatLevinfanciedOblonskymightnotcaretoshowhisintimacywithhimbeforesubordinates,andsoStepanArkadyevichmadehastetotakehimoffintohisroom。
LevinwasalmostofthesameageasOblonsky;theirintimacydidnotrestmerelyonchampagne。Levinhadbeenthefriendandcompanionofhisearlyyouth。Theywerefondofoneanotherinspiteofthedifferenceoftheircharactersandtastes,asfriendsarefondofoneanotherwhohavebeentogetherinearlyyouth。Butinspiteofthis,eachofthem-asisoftenthewaywithmenwhohaveselectedcareersofdifferentkinds-thoughindiscussionhewouldevenjustifytheother’scareer,inhisheartdespisedit。Itseemedtoeachofthemthatthelifeheledhimselfwastheonlyreallife,andthelifeledbyhisfriendwasamerephantasm。OblonskycouldnotrestrainaslightmockingsmileatthesightofLevin。HowoftenhehadseenhimcomeuptoMoscowfromthecountrywherehewasdoingsomething,butwhatpreciselyStepanArkadyevichcouldneverquitemakeout,andindeedtooknointerestinthematter。LevinarrivedinMoscowalwaysexcitedandinahurry,ratherillateaseandirritatedbyhisownwantofease,andforthemostpartwithaperfectlynew,unexpectedviewofthings。StepanArkadyevichlaughedatthis,andlikedit。InthesamewayLevininhisheartdespisedthetownmodeoflifeofhisfriend,andhisofficialduties,whichhelaughedatandregardedastrifling。ButthedifferencewasthatOblonsky,sincehewasdoingthesameaseveryonedid,laughedassuredlyandgood-humoredly,whileLevinlaughedwithoutassurednessandsometimesangrily。
`Wehavelongbeenexpectingyou,’saidStepanArkadyevich,goingintohisroomandlettingLevin’shandgoasthoughtoshowthatherealldangerwasover。`Iamvery,verygladtoseeyou,’hewenton。`Well,whatnow?Howareyou?Whendidyoucome?’
Levinwassilent,lookingattheunfamiliarfacesofOblonsky’stwocompanions,andespeciallyattheelegantGrinevich’shands-withsuchlongwhitefingers,suchlongyellownails,curvedattheirend,andsuchhugeshiningstudsontheshirtcuff,thatapparentlythesehandsabsorbedallhisattention,andallowedhimnofreedomofthought。Oblonskynoticedthisatonce,andsmiled。
`Ah,tobesure,letmeintroduceyou,’hesaid。`Mycolleagues:PhilipIvanichNikitin,MikhailStanislavichGrinevich’-andturningtoLevin-`aZemstvomember,amodernZemstvoman,agymnastwholiftsfivepoodswithonehand,acattlebreederandsportsman,andmyfriend-ConstantinDmitrievichLevin,thebrotherofSergeiIvanovichKoznishev。’
`Delighted,’saidtheveteran。
`Ihavethehonorofknowingyourbrother,SergeiIvanovich,’saidGrinevich,holdingouthisslenderhandwithitslongnails。
Levinfrowned,shookhandscoldly,andatonceturnedtoOblonsky。Thoughhehadagreatrespectforhishalf-brother,anauthorwellknowntoallRussia,hecouldnotendureitwhenpeopletreatedhimnotasConstantinLevin,butasthebrotherofthecelebratedKoznishev。
`No,IamnolongeraZemstvoman。Ihavequarreledwiththemall,anddon’tgotothesessionsanymore,’hesaid,turningtoOblonsky。
`You’vebeenquickaboutit!’saidOblonskywithasmile。`Buthow?Why?’
`It’salongstory。Iwilltellyousometime,’saidLevin-butbegantellinghimatonce。`Well,toputitshortly,IwasconvincedthatnothingwasreallydonebytheZemstvocouncils,orevercouldbe,’hebegan,asthoughsomeonehadjustinsultedhim。`Ononesideit’saplaything;theyplayatbeingaparliament,andI’mneitheryoungenoughnoroldenoughtofindamusementinplaythings;andontheotherside’hestammered`it’sameansforthecoterieofthedistricttofeathertheirnests。Formerlytheydidthisthroughwardshipsandcourtsofjustice,nowtheydoitthroughtheZemstvo-insteadoftakingthebribes,theytaketheunearnedsalary,’hesaid,ashotlyasthoughoneofthosepresenthadopposedhisopinion。
`Aha!You’reinanewphaseagain,Isee-aconservative,’saidStepanArkadyevich。`However,wecangointothatlater。’
`Yes,later。ButIhadtoseeyou,’saidLevin,lookingwithhatredatGrinevich’shand。
StepanArkadyevichgaveascarcelyperceptiblesmile。
`Butyouusedtosayyou’dneverwearEuropeandressagain,’hesaid,gazingonLevin’snewsuit,obviouslycutbyaFrenchtailor。`So!Isee:anewphase。’
Levinsuddenlyblushed,notasgrownmenblush,slightly,withoutbeingthemselvesawareofit,butasboysblush,feelingthattheyareridiculousthroughtheirshyness,andconsequentlyashamedofit,andblushingstillmore,almosttothepointoftears。Anditwassostrangetoseethissensible,manlyfaceinsuchachildishplight,thatOblonskyleftofflookingathim。
`Oh,whereshallwemeet?YouknowIwantverymuchtotalktoyou,’saidLevin。
Oblonskyseemedtoponder。
`I’lltellyouwhat:let’sgotoGurin’stolunch,andtherewecantalk。Iamfreetillthree。’
`No,’answeredLevin,afteraninstant’sthought,`Ihaveanothervisittomake。’
`Allright,then,let’sdinetogether。’
`Dinetogether?ButIhavenothingveryparticular-justawordortwo,aquestion;thenalittlechatting。’
`Well,let’shaveyourwordortworightnow-andwe’lltalkitoverinthecourseofthedinner。’
`Well,it’sthis,’saidLevin,`however-it’sofnoimportance。’
Hisfacesuddenlyassumedanexpressionofangerfromtheefforthewasmakingtosurmounthisshyness。
`WhataretheShcherbatskysdoing?Everythingasitusedtobe?’hesaid。
StepanArkadyevich,whohadlongknownthatLevinwasinlovewithhissister-in-law,Kitty,gaveahardlyperceptiblesmile,andhiseyessparkledmerrily。
`You’vesaidyourwordortwo,butIcan’tanswerinafewwords,because……Excusemeforjustaminute……’
Asecretarycamein,withrespectfulfamiliarityandthemodestconsciousness,characteristicofeverysecretary,ofsuperioritytohischiefintheknowledgeofaffairs;hewentuptoOblonskywithsomepapers,andbegan,underpretenseofaskingaquestion,toexplainsomeobjection。StepanArkadyevich,withouthearinghimout,laidhishandgeniallyonthesecretary’ssleeve。
`No,youdoasItoldyou,’hesaid,smoothinghisremarkwithasmile,andwithabriefexplanationofhisviewofthematterhemovedawaythepapers,andsaid:`Sodoitthatway,ifyouplease,ZakharNikitich。’
Thesecretaryretiredinconfusion。DuringtheconsultationwiththesecretaryLevinhadcompletelyrecoveredfromhisembarrassment。Hewasstandingwithelbowsonthebackofachair,andonhisfacewasalookofironicalattention。
`Idon’tunderstandit-Idon’tunderstandit,’hesaid。
`Whatdon’tyouunderstand?’saidOblonsky,smilingjustascheerfully,andpickingupacigarette。HeexpectedsomequeeroutburstfromLevin。
`Idon’tunderstandwhatyouaredoing,’saidLevin,shrugginghisshoulders。`Howcanyoubeseriousaboutit?’
`Whynot?’
`Why,becausethere’snothinginit。’
`Youthinkso-yetwe’reoverwhelmedwithwork。’
`Onpaper。But,there,you’veagiftforit,’addedLevin。
`That’stosay,youthinkthere’salackofsomethinginme?’
`Perhapsso,’saidLevin。`ButallthesameIadmireyourgrandeur,andamproudtohavesuchagreatpersonasafriend。You’venotansweredmyquestion,though,’hewenton,withadesperateeffortlookingOblonskystraightintheface。
`Oh,that’sallverywell。Youwaitabit,andyou’llcometothisyourself。It’sveryniceforyoutohavethreethousanddessiatinasintheKarazinskydistrict,andsuchmuscles,andthefreshnessofagirloftwelve;stillyou’llbeoneofusoneday。Yes,astoyourquestion,thereisnochange,butit’sapityyou’vebeenawaysolong。’
`Oh,whyso?’Levinqueried,frightened。
`Oh,nothing,’respondedOblonsky。`We’lltalkitover。Butwhat’sbroughtyouuptotown?’
`Oh,we’lltalkaboutthat,too,lateron,’saidLevin,reddeningagainuptohisears。
`Allright。Isee,’saidStepanArkadyevich。`Ishouldaskyoutocometous,youknow,butmywife’snotquitewell。ButI’lltellyouwhat:ifyouwanttoseethem,they’resurenowtobeattheZoologicalGardensfromfourtofive。Kittyskates。Youdrivealongthere,andI’llcomeandfetchyou,andwe’llgoanddinesomewheretogether。’
`Capital。Sogood-bytillthen。’
`Nowmind,you’llforget-Iknowyou!-orrushoffhometothecountry!’StepanArkadyevichcalledoutlaughing。
`No,truly!’
AndLevinwentoutoftheroom,recallingonlywhenhewasinthedoorwaythathehadforgottentotakeleaveofOblonsky’scolleagues。
`Thatgentlemanmustbeamanofgreatenergy,’saidGrinevich,whenLevinhadgoneaway。
`Yes,mydearsir,’saidStepanArkadyevich,noddinghishead,`he’saluckyfellow!ThreethousanddessiatinasintheKarazinskydistrict;everythingbeforehim;andwhatyouthandvigor!Notlikesomeofus。’
`Butwhyareyoucomplaining,StepanArkadyevich?’
`Why,itgoeshardwithme,verybad,’saidStepanArkadyevichwithaheavysigh。
WhenOblonskyaskedLevinwhathadbroughthimtotown,Levinblushed,andwasfuriouswithhimselfforblushing,becausehecouldnotanswer:`Ihavecometomakeyoursister-in-lawaproposal,’thoughthatwassolelywhathehadcomefor。
ThefamiliesoftheLevinsandtheShcherbatskyswereold,nobleMoscowfamilies,andhadalwaysbeenonintimateandfriendlyterms。ThisintimacyhadgrownstillcloserduringLevin’sstudentdays。HehadbothpreparedfortheuniversitywiththeyoungPrinceShcherbatsky,thebrotherofKittyandDolly,andhadenteredatthesametimewithhim。InthosedaysLevinwasafrequentvisitoratthehouseoftheShcherbatskys,andhewasinlovewiththeShcherbatskyhousehold。Strangeasitmayappear,itwaswiththehousehold,thefamilythatConstantinLevinwasinlove,especiallywiththefemininehalfofthehousehold。Levindidnotrememberhisownmother,andhisonlysisterwasolderthanhewas,sothatitwasintheShcherbatsky’shousethathesawforthefirsttimethatinnerlifeofanold,noble,culturedandhonorablefamilyofwhichhehadbeendeprivedbythedeathofhisfatherandmother。Allthemembersofthatfamily,especiallythefemininehalf,werepicturedbyhim,asitwere,wrappedaboutwithamysteriouspoeticalveil,andhenotonlyperceivednodefectswhateverinthem,but,underthepoeticalveilthatshroudedthem,heassumedtheexistenceoftheloftiestsentimentsandeverypossibleperfection。WhyitwasthethreeyoungladieshadonedaytospeakFrench,andthenextEnglish;whyitwasthatatcertainhourstheyplayedbyturnsonthepiano,thesoundsofwhichwereaudibleintheirbrother’sroomabove,wherethestudentsusedtowork;whytheywerevisitedbythoseprofessorsofFrenchliterature,ofmusic,ofdrawing,ofdancing;whyatcertainhoursallthethreeyoungladies,withMademoiselleLinon,droveinthecoachtotheTverskoyboulevard,dressedintheirsatincloaks,Dollyinalongone,Natalieinahalf-longone,andKittyinonesoshortthathershapelylegsintightly-drawnredstockingswerevisibletoallbeholders;whyitwastheyhadtowalkabouttheTverskoyboulevardescortedbyafootmanwithagoldcockadeinhishat-allthisandmuchmorethatwasdoneintheirmysteriousworldhedidnotunderstand,buthewassurethateverythingthatwasdonetherewasverygood,andhewasinlovepreciselywiththemysteryoftheproceedings。
Inhisstudentdayshehadallbutbeeninlovewiththeeldest,Dolly,butshewassoonmarriedtoOblonsky。Thenhebeganbeinginlovewiththesecond。Hefelt,asitwere,thathehadtobeinlovewithoneofthesisters,onlyhecouldnotquitemakeoutwhich。ButNatalie,too,hadhardlymadeherappearanceintheworldwhenshemarriedthediplomatLvov。KittywasstillachildwhenLevinlefttheuniversity。YoungShcherbatskywentintothenavy,wasdrownedintheBalticandLevin’svisitstotheShcherbatskys,despitehisfriendshipwithOblonsky,becamelessfrequent。ButwhenearlyinthewinterofthisyearLevincametoMoscow,afterayearinthecountry,andsawtheShcherbatskys,herealizedwhichofthethreesistershewasindeeddestinedtolove。
Onewouldhavethoughtthatnothingcouldbesimplerthanforhim,amanofgoodfamily,ratherrichthanpoor,andthirty-twoyearsold,tomaketheyoungPrincessShcherbatskaiaanofferofmarriage;inalllikelihoodhewouldatoncehavebeenlookeduponasagoodmatch。ButLevinwasinlove,andsoitseemedtohimthatKittywassoperfectineveryrespect,acreaturesofaraboveeverythingearthly,whilehewasacreaturesolowandsoearthlythatitcouldnotevenbeconceivedthatotherpeopleandsheherselfcouldregardhimasworthyofher。
AfterspendingtwomonthsinMoscowinastateofbefuddlement,seeingKittyalmosteverydayinsociety,intowhichhewentsoastomeether,heabruptlydecidedthatitcouldnotbe,andwentbacktothecountry。
Levin’sconvictionthatitcouldnotbewasfoundedontheideathatintheeyesofherfamilyhewasadisadvantageousandworthlessmatchforthecharmingKitty,andthatKittyherselfcouldnotlovehim。Inherfamily’seyeshehadnoordinary,definitecareerandpositioninsociety,whilehiscomradesbythistime,whenhewasthirty-two,werealreadyoneacolonel,andanotheraprofessor,anotherdirectorofabankandrailways,orchairmanofaboard,likeOblonsky。Butheheknewverywellhowhemustappeartootherswasacountrygentleman,occupiedinbreedingcattle,shootinggameandbuildingbarns;inotherwords,afellowofnoability,whohadnotturnedoutwell,andwhowasdoingjustwhat,accordingtotheideasoftheworld,isdonebypeoplefitfornothingelse。
Themysterious,enchantingKittyherselfcouldnotlovesuchanuglypersonasheconceivedhimselftobe,and,aboveall,suchanordinary,innowaystrikingperson。Moreover,hisattitudetoKittyinthepast-theattitudeofagrown-uppersontoachild,arisingfromhisfriendshipwithherbrother-seemedtohimyetanotherobstacletolove。Anugly,good-naturedman,asheconsideredhimself,might,hesupposed,belikedasafriend;buttobelovedwithsuchaloveasthatwithwhichhelovedKitty,onewouldneedtobehandsomeand,stillmore,adistinguishedman。
Hehadheardthatwomenoftendidcareforuglyandordinarymen,buthedidnotbelieveit,forhejudgedbyhimself,andhecouldnothimselfhavelovedanybutbeautiful,mysteriousandexceptionalwomen。
But,afterspendingtwomonthsaloneinthecountry,hewasconvincedthatthiswasnotoneofthosepassionsofwhichhehadhadexperienceinhisearlyyouth;thatthisfeelinggavehimnotaninstant’srest;thathecouldnotlivewithoutdecidingthequestionastowhethershewouldorwouldnotbehiswife;thathisdespairhadarisenonlyfromhisownimaginings,andthathehadnosortofproofthathewouldberejected。SohehadnowcometoMoscowwithafirmdeterminationtomakeaproposal,andgetmarriedifhewereaccepted。Or……hecouldnotconceivewhatwouldbecomeofhimifhewererejected。
OnarrivinginMoscowbyamorningtrain,Levinhadputupatthehouseofhiselderhalf-brother,Koznishev。Afterchanginghisclotheshewentdowntohisbrother’sstudy,intendingtotalktohimatonceabouttheobjectofhisvisit,andtoaskhisadvice;buthisbrotherwasnotalone。Withhimtherewasawell-knownprofessorofphilosophy,whohadcomefromCharkovexpresslytoclearupadifferencethathadarisenbetweenthemonaveryimportantphilosophicalquestion。Theprofessorwascarryingonahotcrusadeagainstmaterialists。SergeiKoznishevhadbeenfollowingthiscrusadewithinterest,andafterreadingtheprofessor’slastarticlehadwrittenhimaletterstatinghisobjections。Heaccusedtheprofessorofmakingtoogreatconcessionstothematerialists。Andtheprofessorhadpromptlyappearedtoarguethematterout。Thepointindiscussionwasthequestiontheninvogue:Istherealinetobedrawnbetweenpsychicalandphysiologicalphenomenainman?Andifso,where?
SergeiIvanovichmethisbrotherwiththesmileofchillyfriendlinesshealwayshadforeveryone,and,introducinghimtotheprofessor,wentonwiththeconversation。
Alittlemaninspectacles,withanarrowforehead,torehimselffromthediscussionforaninstanttogreetLevin,andthenwentontalkingwithoutpayinganyfurtherattentiontohim。Levinsatdowntowaittilltheprofessorshouldgo,buthesoonbegantogetinterestedinthesubjectunderdiscussion。
Levinhadcomeacrossthemagazinearticlesaboutwhichtheyweredisputing,andhadreadthem,interestedinthemasadevelopmentofthefirstprinciplesofscience,familiartohimwhenanaturalsciencestudentattheuniversity。Buthehadneverconnectedthesescientificdeductionsastotheoriginofmanasananimal,astoreflexaction,biologyandsociology,withthosequestionsastothemeaningtohimselfoflifeanddeath,whichhadoflatebeenmoreandmoreofteninhismind。
Ashelistenedtohisbrother’sargumentwiththeprofessor,henoticedthattheyconnectedthesescientificquestionswiththosespiritualproblems-thatattimestheyalmosttouchedonthelatter;buteverytimetheywerecloseuponwhatseemedtohimthechiefpointtheypromptlybeatahastyretreat,andplungedagainintoaseaofsubtledistinctions,reservations,quotations,allusionsandappealstoauthorities,anditwaswithdifficultythatheunderstoodwhattheyweretalkingabout。
`Icannotadmitit,’saidSergeiIvanovich,withhishabitualclearnessanddistinctnessofexpression,andeleganceofdiction。`IcannotinanycaseagreewithKeissthatmywholeconceptionoftheexternalworldhasbeenderivedfromimpressions。Themostfundamentalidea-theideaofexistence-hasnotbeenreceivedbymethroughsensation;indeed,thereisnospecialsenseorganforthetransmissionofsuchanidea。’
`Yes,butthey-Wurst,andKnaust,andPripassov-wouldanswerthatyourconsciousnessofexistenceisderivedfromtheconjunctionofallyoursensations,thatthatconsciousnessofexistenceistheresultofyoursensations。Wurst,indeed,saysplainlythat,assumingtherearenosensations,itfollowsthatthereisnoideaofexistence。’
`Imaintainthecontrary,’beganSergeiIvanovich。
ButhereitseemedagaintoLevinthat,justastheywerecloseupontherealpointofthematter,theywereagainretreating,andhemadeuphismindtoputaquestiontotheprofessor。
`Accordingtothat,ifmysensesareannihilated,ifmybodyisdead,Icanhavenoexistenceofanysort?’hequeried。
Theprofessor,inannoyance,and,asitwere,mentalsufferingattheinterruption,lookedroundatthestrangeinquirer,morelikeahaulerofabargethanaphilosopher,andturnedhiseyesuponSergeiIvanovich,asthoughtoask:What’sonetosaytohim?ButSergeiIvanovich,whohadbeentalkingwithfarlessstressandone-sidednessthantheprofessor,andwhohadsufficientbreadthofmindtoanswertheprofessor,andatthesametimetocomprehendthesimpleandnaturalpointofviewfromwhichthequestionwasput,smiledandsaid:
`Thatquestionwehavenorighttoanswerasyet……’
`Wehavenottherequisitedata,’confirmedtheprofessor,andhewentbacktohisargument。`No,’hesaid;`Iwouldpointoutthefactthatif,asPripassovdirectlyasserts,sensationisbasedonimpression,thenweareboundtodistinguishsharplybetweenthesetwoconceptions。’
Levinlistenednomore,andsimplywaitedfortheprofessortogo。