TheMashkinUplandwasmown,thelastswathsfinished,thepeasantshadputontheircoatsandweregailytrudginghome。Levingotonhishorse,and,partingregretfullyfromthepeasants,rodehomeward。Onthehillsidehelookedback;hecouldnotseetheminthemistthathadrisenfromthevalley;hecouldonlyheartheirrough,good-humoredvoices,theirlaughter,andthesoundofclankingscythes。
SergeiIvanovichhadlongagofinisheddinner,andwasdrinkingicedlemonadeinhisownroom,lookingthroughthereviewsandpaperswhichhehadjustreceivedbypost,whenLevinrushedintotheroom,talkingmerrily,withhiswetandmattedhairstickingtohisforehead,andhisbackandchestgrimedandmoist。
`Wemowedthewholemeadow!Oh,itisfine,wonderful!Andhowhaveyoubeengettingon?’saidLevin,completelyforgettingthedisagreeableconversationofthepreviousday。
`Dearme!Whatyoulooklike!’saidSergeiIvanovich,forthefirstmomentlookingroundwithsomedissatisfaction。`Andthedoor-doshutthedoor!’hecried。`Youmusthaveletinadozenatleast。’
SergeiIvanovichcouldnotendureflies,andinhisownroomheneveropenedthewindowexceptatnight,andcarefullykeptthedoorshut。
`Notone,onmyhonor。ButifIhave,I’llcatchthem。Youwouldn’tbelievewhatapleasuremowingis!Howhaveyouspenttheday?’
`Verywell。Buthaveyoureallybeenmowingthewholeday?Iexpectyou’reashungryasawolf。Kouzmahasgoteverythingreadyforyou。’
`No,Idon’tfeelhungryeven。Ihadsomethingtoeatthere。ButI’llgoandwash。’
`Yes,goalong,goalong,andI’llcometoyoudirectly,’saidSergeiIvanovich,shakinghisheadashelookedathisbrother。`Goalong,makehaste,’headdedsmiling,and,gatheringuphisbooks,hepreparedtogotoo。He,too,feltsuddenlygood-humoredanddisinclinedtoleavehisbrother’sside。`Butwhatdidyoudowhileitwasraining?’
`Rain?Why,therewasscarcelyadrop。I’llcomedirectly。Soyouhadagooddaytoo?That’sfirst-rate。’AndLevinwentofftochangehisclothes。
Fiveminuteslaterthebrothersmetinthediningroom。AlthoughitseemedtoLevinthathewasnothungry,andhesatdowntodinnersimplysoasnottohurtKouzma’sfeelings,yetwhenhebegantoeatthedinnerstruckhimasextraordinarilygood。SergeiIvanovichwatchedhimwithasmile。
`Oh,bytheway,there’saletterforyou,’saidhe。`Kouzma,bringitfrombelow,please。Andmindyoushutthedoors。’
TheletterwasfromOblonsky。Levinreaditaloud。OblonskywrotetohimfromPeterburg:`IhavehadaletterfromDolly;she’satErgushovo,andeverythingseemsgoingwrongthere。Dorideoverandseeher,please;helpherwithadvice;youknowallaboutit。Shewillbesogladtoseeyou。She’squitealone,poorthing。Mymother-in-lawandallofthemarestillabroad。’
`That’scapital!Iwillcertainlyrideovertoher,’saidLevin。`Orwe’llgotogether。She’ssuchagoodwoman,isn’tshe?’
`They’renotfarfromhere,then?’
`Thirtyverstas。Orperhapsforty。Butacapitalroad。Itwillbeacapitaldrive。’
`Ishallbedelighted,’saidSergeiIvanovich,stillsmiling。
Thesightofhisyoungerbrother’sappearancehadimmediatelyputhiminagoodhumor。
`Well,youhaveanappetite!’hesaid,lookingathisdark-red,sunburnedfaceandneckbentovertheplate。
`Splendid!Youcan’timaginewhataneffectiveremedyitisforeverysortoffoolishness。Iwanttoenrichmedicinewithanewword:Arbeitskur。’
`Well,butyoudon’tneedit,Ishouldfancy。’
`No-butforallsortsofnervousinvalids。’
`Yes,itoughttobetried。Ihadmeanttocometothemowingtolookatyou,butitwassounbearablyhotthatIgotnofurtherthantheforest。Isattherealittle,andwentonbytheforesttothevillage,metyouroldnurse,andsoundedherastothepeasant’sviewofyou。AsfarasIcanmakeout,theydon’tapproveofthis。Shesaid:``It’snotagentleman’swork。’Altogether,Ifancythatinthepeople’sideasthereareveryclearanddefinitenotionsofcertain,astheycallit,``gentlemanly’linesofaction。Andtheydon’tsanctionthegentlefolk’smovingoutsideboundsclearlylaiddownintheirideas。’
`Maybeso;butanyway,it’sapleasuresuchasIhaveneverknowninmylife。Andthere’snoharminit,youknow。Isthere?’answeredLevin。`Ican’thelpitiftheydon’tlikeit。ThoughIdobelieveit’sallright。Eh?’
`Altogether,’pursuedSergeiIvanovich,`you’resatisfiedwithyourday?’
`Quitesatisfied。Wecutthewholemeadow。AndImadefriendswithsuchasplendidoldmanthere!Youcan’tfancyhowdelightfulhewas!’
`Well,soyou’resatisfiedwithyourday。AndsoamI。First,Isolvedtwochessproblems,andoneaveryprettyone-apawnopening。I’llshowittoyou。Andthen-Ithoughtoverourconversationofyesterday。’
`Eh!Ourconversationofyesterday?’saidLevin,blissfullydroppinghiseyelidsanddrawingdeepbreathsafterfinishinghisdinner,andabsolutelyincapableofrecallingwhattheirconversationofyesterdayhadbeenabout。
`Ithinkyouarepartlyright。Ourdifferenceofopinionamountstothis:thatyoumakethemainspringself-interest,whileIcontendthatinterestinthecommonwealisboundtoexistineverymanofacertaindegreeofadvancement。Possiblyyouarerighttoo-thatactionfoundedonmaterialinterestwouldbemoredesirable。Youarealtogether,astheFrenchsay,tooprimesautièreanature;youmusthaveintense,energeticaction,ornothing。’
Levinlistenedtohisbrotheranddidnotunderstandasingleword,anddidnotwanttounderstand。Hewasonlyafraidhisbrothermightaskhimsomequestionwhichwouldmakeitevidenthehadnotheard。
`Sothat’swhatIthinkitis,mydearboy,’saidSergeiIvanovich,touchinghimontheshoulder。
`Yes,ofcourse。But,doyouknow?Iwon’tstandupformyview,’answeredLevin,withaguilty,childlikesmile。`WhateverwasitIwasdisputingabout?’hewondered。`Ofcourse,I’mright,andhe’sright,andit’sallfirst-rate。OnlyImustgoroundtothecountinghouseandseetothings。’Hegotup,stretchingandsmiling。
SergeiIvanovichsmiledtoo。
`Ifyouwanttogoout,let’sgotogether,’hesaid,disinclinedtobepartedfromhisbrother,whoseemedpositivelybreathingoutfreshnessandenergy。`Come,we’llgotothecountinghouse,ifyouhavetogothere。’
`Oh,heavens!’shoutedLevin,soloudlythatSergeiIvanovichwasquitefrightened。
`What,whatisthematter?
`How’sAgathyaMikhailovna’shand?’saidLevin,slappinghimselfonthehead。`I’dpositivelyforgottenher。’
`It’smuchbetter。’
`Well,anyway,I’llrundowntoher。Beforeyou’vetimetogetyourhaton,I’llbeback。’
Andherandownstairs,clatteringwithhisheelslikeaspringrattle。
StepanArkadyevichhadgonetoPeterburgtoperformthemostnaturalandessentialofficialduty-sofamiliartoeveryoneinthegovernmentservice,thoughincomprehensibletooutsiders-thatdutybutforwhichonecouldhardlybeingovernmentservice:ofremindingtheministryofhisexistence;andhaving,forthedueperformanceofthisrite,takenalltheavailablecashfromhome,wasgailyandagreeablyspendinghisdaysattheracesandinthesummervillas。MeanwhileDollyandthechildrenhadmovedintothecountry,tocutdownexpensesasmuchaspossible。ShehadgonetoErgushovo,theestatethathadbeenherdowry,andtheonewhereinspringtheforesthadbeensold。ItwasnearlyfiftyverstasfromLevin’sPokrovskoe。
ThebigoldhouseatErgushovohadbeenpulleddownlongago,andtheoldPrincehadhadthewingdoneupandaddedto。Twentyyearsbefore,whenDollywasachild,thewinghadbeenroomyandcomfortable,though,likeallwings,itstoodsidewaystotheentranceavenue,andtothesouth。Butbynowthiswingwasoldanddilapidated。WhenStepanArkadyevichhadgonedowninthespringtoselltheforest,Dollyhadbeggedhimtolookoverthehouseandorderwhatrepairsmightbeneeded。StepanArkadyevich,likeanunfaithfulhusbandsindeed,wasverysolicitousforhiswife’scomfort,andhehadhimselflookedoverthehouse,andgiveninstructionsabouteverythingthatheconsiderednecessary。Whatheconsiderednecessarywastocoverallthefurniturewithnewcretonne,toputupcurtains,toweedthegarden,tomakealittlebridgeonthepond,andtoplantflowers。Butheforgotmanyotheressentialmatters,thewantofwhichgreatlydistressedDaryaAlexandrovnalateron。
InspiteofStepanArkadyevich’seffortstobeanattentivefatherandhusband,henevercouldkeepinhismindthathehadawifeandchildren。Hehadbachelortastes,anditwasinaccordancewiththemthatheshapedhislife。OnhisreturntoMoscowheinformedhiswifewithpridethateverythingwasready,thatthehousewouldbeaprettytoy,andthathemostcertainlyadvisedhertogo。Hiswife’sstayingawayinthecountrywasveryagreeabletoStepanArkadyevichfromeverypointofview:itdidthechildrengood,itdecreasedexpenses,anditlefthimmoreatliberty。DaryaAlexandrovnaregardedstayinginthecountryforthesummerasessentialforthechildren,especiallyforthelittlegirl,whohadnotsucceededinregainingherstrengthafterthescarlatina,andalsoasameansofescapingthepettyhumiliations,thelittlebillsowingtothewoodmerchant,thefishmonger,theshoemaker,whichmadehermiserable。Besidesthis,shewaspleasedtogoawaytothecountrybecauseshewasdreamingofgettinghersisterKittytostaywithherthere。Kittywastobebackfromabroadinthemiddleofthesummer,andbathinghadbeenprescribedforher。KittywrotethatnoprospectwassoalluringastospendthesummerwithDollyatErgushovo,fullofchildhoodassociationsforbothofthem。
ThefirstdaysofherexistenceinthecountrywereveryhardforDolly。Sheusedtostayinthecountryasachild,andtheimpressionshehadretainedofitwasthatthecountrywasarefugefromalltheunpleasantnessofthetown,thatlifethere,thoughnotluxurious-Dollycouldeasilymakeuphermindtothat-wascheapandcomfortable;thattherewasplentyofeverything,everythingwascheap,everythingcouldbegot,andchildrenwerehappy。Butnow,comingtothecountryastheheadofafamily,sheperceivedthatitwasallutterlyunlikewhatshehadfancied。
Thedayaftertheirarrivaltherewasaheavyfallofrainandinthenightthewatercamethroughinthecorridorandinthenursery,sothatthebedshadtobecarriedintothedrawingroom。Therewasnokitchenmaidtobefound;oftheninecows,itappearedfromthewordsofthecowherdwomanthatsomewereabouttocalve,othershadjustcalved,otherswereold,andothersagainhard-uddered;therewasneitherbutternormilkenoughevenforthechildren。Therewerenoeggs。Theycouldgetnofowls;old,purplish,stringyroosterswerealltheyhadforroastingandboiling。Impossibletogetwomentoscrubthefloors-allwerepotatohoeing。Drivingwasoutofthequestion,becauseoneofthehorseswasrestive,andboltedintheshafts。Therewasnoplacewheretheycouldbathe;thewholeoftheriverbankwastrampledbythecattleandopentotheroad;evenwalkswereimpossible,forthecattlestrayedintothegardenthroughagapinthehedge,andtherewasoneterriblebull,whobellowed,andthereforemightbeexpectedtogoresomebody。Therewerenopropercupboardsfortheirclothes;whatcupboardstherewereeitherwouldnotcloseatall,orflewopenwheneveranyonepassedbythem。Therewerenopotsandkettles;therewasnoboilerinthewashhouse,norevenanironingboardinthemaids’room。
Findinginsteadofpeaceandrestallthese,fromherpointofview,fearfulcalamities,DaryaAlexandrovnawasatfirstindespair。Sheexertedherselftotheutmost,feltthehopelessnessoftheposition,andwaseveryinstantsuppressingthetearsthatstartedintohereyes。Thebailiff,aretiredquartermaster,whomStepanArkadyevichhadtakenafancytoandhadappointedbailiffonaccountofhishandsomeandrespectfulappearanceasahallporter,showednosympathyforDaryaAlexandrovna’swoes。Hewouldsayrespectfully,`Nothingcanbedone,thepeasantsaresuchawretchedlot,’anddidnothingtohelpher。
Thepositionseemedhopeless。ButintheOblonskys’household,asinallfamiliesindeed,therewasoneinconspicuousbutmostvaluableandusefulperson-MatrionaPhilimonovna。Shesoothedhermistress,assuredherthateverythingwouldcomerounditwasherexpression,andMatveihadborroweditfromher,andwithoutfussorhurryproceededtosettoworkherself。
Shehadimmediatelymadefriendswiththebailiff’swife,andontheveryfirstdayshedrankteawithherandthebailiffundertheacacias,andreviewedallthecircumstancesoftheposition。VerysoonMatrionaPhilimonovnahadestablishedherclub,sotosay,undertheacacias,andthereitwas,inthisclub,consistingofthebailiff’swife,thevillageelder,andthecountinghouseclerk,thatthedifficultiesofexistenceweregraduallysmoothedaway,andinaweek’stimeeverythingactuallyhadcomeround。Theroofwasmended,akitchenmaidwasfound-acronyofthevillageelder’s-henswerebought,thecowsbegangivingmilk,thegardenhedgewasstoppedupwithstakes,thecarpentermadeamangle,hookswereputinthecupboards,andtheyceasedtoflyopenspontaneouslyandanironingboardcoveredwitharmyclothwasplacedacrossfromthearmofachairtothechestofdrawers,andtherewasasmellofflatironsinthemaids’room。
`Justsee,now,andyouwerequiteindespair,’saidMatrionaPhilimonovna,pointingtotheironingboard。
Theyevenriggedupabathingshedofstrawhurdles。Lilybegantobathe,andDaryaAlexandrovnabegantorealize,ifonlyinpart,herexpectations,ifnotofapeaceful,atleastofacomfortable,lifeinthecountry。PeacefulwithsixchildrenDaryaAlexandrovnacouldnotbe。Onewouldfallill,anothermighteasilybecomeso,athirdwouldbewithoutsomethingnecessary,afourthwouldshowsymptomsofabaddisposition,andsoon。Rareindeedwerethebriefperiodsofpeace。ButthesecaresandanxietieswereforDaryaAlexandrovnathesolehappinesspossible。Haditnotbeenforthem,shewouldhavebeenleftalonetobroodoverherhusbandwhodidnotloveher。Andbesides,hardthoughitwasforthemothertobearthedreadofillness,theillnessesthemselves,andthegriefofseeingsignsofevilpropensitiesinherchildren-thechildrenthemselveswereevennowrepayingherinsmalljoysforherpains。Thosejoysweresosmallthattheypassedunnoticed,likegoldinsand,andatbadmomentsshecouldseenothingbutthepain,nothingbutsand;butthereweregoodmomentstoowhenshesawnothingbutthejoy,nothingbutgold。
Now,inthesolitudeofthecountry,shebegantobemoreandmorefrequentlyawareofthosejoys。Often,lookingatthem,shewouldmakeeverypossibleefforttopersuadeherselfthatshewasmistaken,thatsheasamotherwaspartialtoherchildren。Allthesame,shecouldnothelpsayingtoherselfthatshehadcharmingchildren,allsixofthemindifferentways,butasetofchildrensuchasisnotoftentobemetwith-andshewashappyinthem,andproudofthem。
TowardtheendofMay,wheneverythinghadbeenmoreorlesssatisfactorilyarranged,shereceivedherhusband’sanswertohercomplaintsofthedisorganizedstateofthingsinthecountry。Hewrotebeggingherforgivenessfornothavingthoughtofeverythingbefore,andpromisedtocomedownatthefirstchance。Thischancedidnotpresentitself,andtillthebeginningofJuneDaryaAlexandrovnastayedaloneinthecountry。
OntheSundayinSt。Peter’sweekDaryaAlexandrovnadrovetomasstohaveallherchildrentakethesacrament。DaryaAlexandrovnainherintimate,philosophicaltalkswithhersister,hermother,andherfriendsveryoftenastonishedthembythefreedomofherviewsinregardtoreligion。Shehadastrangereligion,allherown,ofthetransmigrationofsouls,inwhichshehadfirmfaith,troublingherselflittleaboutthedogmasoftheChurch。ButinherfamilyshewasstrictincarryingoutallthatwasrequiredbytheChurch-andnotmerelyinordertosetanexample,butwithallherheart。Thefactthatthechildrenhadnotbeenatthesacramentfornearlyayearworriedherextremely,andwiththefullapprovalandsympathyofMatrionaPhilimonovnashedecidedthatthisshouldtakeplacenow,inthesummer。
ForseveraldaysbeforeDaryaAlexandrovnawasbusilydeliberatingonhowtodressallthechildren。Frocksweremade,oralteredandwashed,seamsandflounceswereletout,buttonsweresewnonandribbonsgotready。Onedress,Tania’s,whichtheEnglishgovernesshadundertaken,costDaryaAlexandrovnamuchlossoftemper。TheEnglishgovernessinalteringithadmadetheseamsinthewrongplace,hadtakenupthesleevestoomuch,andaltogetherspoiledthedress。ItwassonarrowonTania’sshouldersthatitwasquitepainfultolookather。ButMatrionaPhilimonovnahadthehappythoughtofputtingingussets,andaddingalittleshoulder-cape。Thedresswassetright,buttherewasnearlyaquarrelwiththeEnglishgoverness。Inthemorning,however,allwashappilyarranged,andaboutnineo’clock-thetimeatwhichtheyhadaskedthepriesttowaitforthemforthemass-thechildrenintheirnewdressesstoodwithbeamingfacesonthestepbeforethecarriage,waitingfortheirmother。
Inthecarriage,insteadoftherestiveRaven,theyhadharnessed,thankstotherepresentationsofMatrionaPhilimonovna,thebailiff’shorse,Brownie,andDaryaAlexandrovna,delayedbyanxietyoverherownattire,cameoutandgotin,dressedinawhitemuslingown。
DaryaAlexandrovnahaddoneherhair,anddressedwithcareandexcitement。Intheolddaysshehaddressedforherownsake,tolookprettyandbeadmired;lateron,asshegotolder,dressbecamemoreandmoredistastefultoher;shesawthatshewaslosinghergoodlooks。Butnowshebegantofeelpleasureandinterestindressagain。Nowshedidnotdressforherownsake,norforthesakeofherownbeauty,butsimplythat,asthemotherofthoseexquisitecreatures,shemightnotspoilthegeneraleffect。Andlookingatherselfforthelasttimeinthelookingglassshewassatisfiedwithherself。Shelookedwell。Notaswellasshewishedtolookintheolddays,ataball,butwellfortheobjectshenowhadinview。
Inthechurchtherewasnoonebutthepeasants,theservants,andtheirwomenfolk。ButDaryaAlexandrovnasaw,orfanciedshesaw,thesensationproducedbyherchildrenandherself。Thechildrenwerenotonlybeautifultolookatintheirsmartlittledresses,buttheywerecharminginthewaytheybehaved。Aliosha,itistrue,didnotstandquitecorrectly;hekeptturninground,tryingtolookathislittlejacketfrombehind;butallthesamehewaswonderfullysweet。Taniabehavedlikeagrown-upperson,andlookedafterthelittleones。Andthesmallest,Lily,wasbewitchinginhernaiveastonishmentateverything,anditwasdifficultnottosmilewhen,aftertakingthesacrament,shesaidinEnglish,`Please,somemore。’
Onthewayhomethechildrenfeltthatsomethingsolemnhadhappened,andwereverysedate。
Everythingwenthappilyathometoo;butatlunchGrishabeganwhistling,and,whatwasworse,wasdisobedienttotheEnglishgoverness,andwasforbiddentohaveanytart。DaryaAlexandrovnawouldnothaveletthingsgoasfarasthepunishmentonsuchadayhadshebeenpresent;butshehadtosupporttheEnglishgoverness’sauthority,andsheupheldherdecisionthatGrishashouldhavenotart。Thisratherspoiledthegeneralgoodhumor。
Grishacried,declaringthatNikolinkahadwhistledtoo,yetwasnotpunished,andthathewasn’tcryingforthetart-hedidn’tcare-butatbeingunjustlytreated。Thiswasreallytootragic,andDaryaAlexandrovnamadeuphermindtopersuadetheEnglishgovernesstoforgiveGrisha,andshewenttospeaktoher。Butonherway,asshepassedthedrawingroom,shebeheldascene,fillingherheartwithsuchpleasurethatthetearscameintohereyes,andsheforgavethedelinquentherself。
Theculpritwassittingatthewindowinthecornerofthedrawingroom;besidehimwasstandingTaniawithaplate。Onthepretextofwantingtogivesomedinnertoherdolls,shehadaskedthegoverness’spermissiontotakehershareoftarttothenursery,andhadtakenitinsteadtoherbrother。Whilestillweepingovertheinjusticeofhispunishment,hewaseatingthetart,andkeptsayingthroughhissobs,`Eatyourself;let’seatittogether……together。’
TaniahadatfirstbeenundertheinfluenceofherpityforGrisha,thenofasenseofhernobleaction,andtearswerestandinginhereyestoo;butshedidnotrefuse,andatehershare。
Oncatchingsightoftheirmothertheyweredismayed,but,lookingintoherface,theysawtheywerenotdoingwrong。Theyburstoutlaughing,and,withtheirmouthsfulloftart,theybeganwipingtheirsmilinglipswiththeirhands,andsmearingtheirradiantfacesalloverwithtearsandjam。
`Mercy!Yournewwhitefrock-Tania!Grisha!’saidtheirmother,tryingtosavethefrock,butwithtearsinhereyes,smilingablissful,rapturoussmile。
Thenewfrocksweretakenoff,andordersweregivenforthelittlegirlstohavetheirblousesputon,andtheboystheiroldjackets,andthewidedroshkytobeharnessed-withBrownie,tothebailiff’sannoyance,againintheshafts-todriveoutformushroompickingandbathing。Aroarofdelightedshrieksaroseinthenursery,andneverceasedtilltheyhadsetoffforthebathingplace。
Theygatheredawholebasketfulofmushrooms;evenLilyfoundabirchmushroom。IthadalwayshappenedbeforethatMissHoolefoundthemandpointedthemouttoher;butthistimeshefoundabigonequitebyherself,andtherewasageneralscreamofdelight;`Lilyhasfoundamushroom!’
Thentheyreachedtheriver,putthehorsesunderthebirchtrees,andwenttothebathingplace。Thecoachman,Terentii,hitchedthehorses,whokeptwhiskingawaythehorseflies,toatree,and,treadingdownthegrass,laydownintheshadeofabirchandsmokedhisshag,whilethenever-ceasingshrieksofdelightofthechildrenfloatedacrosstohimfromthebathingplace。
Thoughitwashardworktolookafterallthechildrenandrestraintheirpranks,thoughitwasdifficult,too,tokeepone’sheadandnotmixupallthestockings,littlebreeches,andshoesforthedifferentlegs,andtoundoandtodoupagainallthetapesandbuttons,DaryaAlexandrovna,whohadalwayslikedbathingherself,andbelievedittobeverygoodforthechildren,enjoyednothingsomuchasbathingwithallthechildren。Togooverallthosefatlittlelegs,pullingontheirstockings,totakeinherarmsanddipthoselittlenakedbodies,andtoheartheirscreamsofdelightandalarm,toseethebreathlessfaceswithwide-open,scared,andhappyeyesofallhersplashingcherubs,wasagreatpleasuretoher。
Whenhalfthechildrenhadbeendressed,somepeasantwomeninholidaydress,outpickingherbs,cameuptothebathingshedandstoppedshyly。MatrionaPhilimonovnacalledoneofthemandhandedherasheetandashirtthathaddroppedintothewaterforhertodrythem,andDaryaAlexandrovnabegantotalktothewomen。Atfirsttheylaughedbehindtheirhandsanddidnotunderstandherquestions,butsoontheygrewbolderandbegantotalk,winningDaryaAlexandrovna’sheartatoncebythegenuineadmirationofthechildrenthattheyshowed。
`My,whatabeauty!Aswhiteassugar,’saidone,admiringTanechka,andshakingherhead,`butthin……’
`Yes,shehasbeenill。’
`Lookee,they’vebeenbathinghimtoo,’saidanother,pointingtothebreastbaby。
`No;he’sonlythreemonthsold,’answeredDaryaAlexandrovnawithpride。
`Yousee!’
`Andhaveyouanychildren?’
`I’vehadfour;I’vetwoliving-aboyandagirl。Iweanedherlastcarnival。’
`Howoldisshe?’
`Why,morethanoneyearold。’
`Whydidyounursehersolong?’
`It’sourcustom;forthreefasts……’
AndtheconversationbecamemostinterestingtoDaryaAlexandrovna。Whatsortoftimedidshehave?Whatwasthematterwiththeboy?Wherewasherhusband?Diditoftenhappen?
DaryaAlexandrovnafeltdisinclinedtoleavethepeasantwomen,sointerestingtoherwastheirconversation,socompletelyidenticalwerealltheirinterests。Whatpleasedhermostofallwasthatshesawclearlywhatallthewomenadmiredmorethananythingwasherhavingsomanychildren,andsuchfineones。ThepeasantwomenevenmadeDaryaAlexandrovnalaugh,andoffendedtheEnglishgoverness,becauseshewasthecauseofthelaughtershedidnotunderstand。OneoftheyoungerwomenkeptstaringattheEnglishwoman,whowasdressingafteralltherest,andwhensheputonherthirdpetticoatshecouldnotrefrainfromtheremark,`My,shekeepsputtingonandputtingon,andshe’llneverhavedone!’shesaid,andtheyallwentoffintopealsoflaughter。
Onthedrivehome,asDaryaAlexandrovna,withallherchildrenroundher,theirheadsstillwetfromtheirbaths,andakerchieftiedoverherownhead,wasgettingnearthehouse,thecoachmansaid:`There’ssomegentlemancoming:themasterofPokrovskoe,Idobelieve。’
DaryaAlexandrovnapeepedoutinfront,andwasdelightedwhensherecognizedinthegrayhatandgraycoatthefamiliarfigureofLevinwalkingtomeetthem。Shewasgladtoseehimatanytime,butatthismomentshewasspeciallygladheshouldseeherinallherglory。NoonewasbetterabletoappreciatehergrandeurthanLevin。
Seeingher,hefoundhimselffacetofacewithoneofthepicturesofhisdaydreamoffamilylife。
`You’relikeahenwithyourbrood,DaryaAlexandrovna。’
`Ah,howgladIamtoseeyou!’shesaid,holdingoutherhandtohim。
`Gladtoseeme-butyoudidn’tletmeknow。Mybrother’sstayingwithme。IgotanotefromStivathatyouwerehere。’
`FromStiva?’DaryaAlexandrovnaaskedwithsurprise。
`Yes;hewritesthatyouarehere,andthathethinksyoumightallowmetobeofusetoyou,’saidLevin,andashesaidithebecamesuddenlyembarrassed,and,stoppingabruptly,hewalkedoninsilencebythedroshky,snappingoffthebudsofthelimetreesandnibblingthem。HewasembarrassedthroughasensethatDaryaAlexandrovnawouldbeannoyedbyreceivingfromanoutsiderhelpthatshouldbyrightshavecomefromherownhusband。DaryaAlexandrovnacertainlydidnotlikethislittlewayofStepanArkadyevich’soffoistinghisdomesticdutiesonothers。AndshewasatonceawarethatLevinwasawareofthis。Itwasjustforthisfinenessofperception,forthisdelicacy,thatDaryaAlexandrovnalikedLevin。
`Iknow,ofcourse,’saidLevin,`thatthissimplymeansthatyouwouldliketoseeme,andI’mexceedinglyglad。ThoughIcanfancythat,usedtotownhousekeepingasyouare,youmustfeelyouareinthewildshere,andifthere’sanythingwanted,I’maltogetheratyourdisposal。’
`Oh,no!’saidDolly。`Atfirstthingswereratheruncomfortable,butnowwe’vesettledeverythingcapitally-thankstomyoldnurse,’shesaid,indicatingMatrionaPhilimonovna,who,seeingthattheywerespeakingofher,smiledbrightlyandcordiallytoLevin。Sheknewhim,andknewthathewouldbeagoodmatchforheryounglady,andwasverykeentoseethemattersettled。
`Won’tyougetin,sir,we’llmakeroomonthisside!’shesaidtohim。
`No,I’llwalk。Children,who’dliketoracethehorseswithme?’
ThechildrenknewLevinverylittle,andcouldnotrememberwhentheyhadseenhim,buttheyexperiencedinregardtohimnoneofthatstrangefeelingofshynessandhostilitywhichchildrensooftenexperiencetowardhypocritical,grown-uppeople,andforwhichtheyaresooftenandmiserablypunished。Hypocrisyinanythingwhatevermaydeceivethecleverestandmostpenetratingman,buttheleastwide-awakeofchildrenrecognizesit,andisrevoltedbyit,howeveringeniouslyitmaybedisguised。WhateverfaultsLevinhad,therewasnotatraceofhypocrisyinhim,andsothechildrenshowedhimthesamefriendlinessthattheysawintheirmother’sface。Onhisinvitation,thetwoelderonesatoncejumpedouttohimandranwithhimassimplyastheywouldhavedonewiththeirnurse,orMissHoole,ortheirmother。Lily,too,beganbeggingtogotohim,andhermotherhandedherovertohim;hesatheronhisshoulderandranalongwithher。
`Don’tbeafraid,don’tbeafraid,DaryaAlexandrovna!’hesaid,smilinggood-humoredlytothemother;`there’snochanceofmyhurtingordroppingher。’
And,lookingathisstrong,agile,assiduouslycarefulandextremelystrainedmovements,themotherfelthermindatrest,andsmiledgailyandapprovinglyasshewatchedhim。
Here,inthecountry,withchildren,andwithDaryaAlexandrovna,withwhomhewasinsympathy,Levinwasinamoodnotinfrequentwithhim,ofchildlikelightheartednessthatsheparticularlylikedinhim。Asheranwiththechildren,hetaughtthemgymnasticfeats,setMissHoolelaughingwithhisqueerEnglishaccent,andtalkedtoDaryaAlexandrovnaofhispursuitsinthecountry。
Afterdinner,DaryaAlexandrovna,sittingalonewithhimonthebalcony,begantospeakofKitty。
`Youknow,Kitty’scominghere,andisgoingtospendthesummerwithme。’
`Really,’hesaid,flushing;andatonce,tochangetheconversation,hesaid:`ThenI’llsendyoutwocows,shallI?Ifyouinsistonabillyoushallpaymefiveroublesamonth-ifyouaren’tashamed。’
`No,thankyou。Wecanmanageverywellnow。’
`Oh,well,then,I’llhavealookatyourcows,andifyou’llallowme,I’llgivedirectionsabouttheirfood。Everythingdependsontheirfood。’
AndLevin,toturntheconversation,explainedtoDaryaAlexandrovnathetheoryofcowkeeping,basedontheprinciplethatthecowissimplyamachineforthetransformationoffoodintomilk,andsoon。
Hetalkedofthis,andpassionatelylongedtohearmoreofKitty,and,atthesametime,wasafraidofhearingit。Hedreadedthebreakingupoftheinwardpeacehehadgainedwithsucheffort。
`Yes,butstillallthishastobelookedafter,andwhoistheretolookafterit?’DaryaAlexandrovnarespondedreluctantly。
Shehadbynowgotherhouseholdmatterssosatisfactorilyarranged,thankstoMatrionaPhilimonovna,thatshewasdisinclinedtomakeanychangeinthem;besides,shehadnofaithinLevin’sknowledgeoffarming。Generalprinciples,astothecowbeingamachinefortheproductionofmilk,shelookedonwithsuspicion。Itseemedtoherthatsuchprinciplescouldonlybeahindranceinfarmmanagement。Itallseemedtoherafarsimplermatter:allthatwasneeded,asMatrionaPhilimonovnahadexplained,wastogiveBrindleandWhitebreastmorefoodanddrink,andnottoletthecookcarryallthekitchenslopstothelaundrymaid’scow。Thatwasclear。Butgeneralpropositionsastofeedingonmealandongrassweredoubtfulandobscure。And,whatwasmostimportant,shewantedtotalkaboutKitty。
`Kittywritestomethatthere’snothingshelongsforsomuchasquietandsolitude,’Dollysaidafterthesilencethathadfollowed。
`Andhowisshe-better?’Levinaskedinagitation。
`ThankGod,she’squitewellagain。Ineverbelievedherlungswereaffected。’
`Oh,I’mveryglad!’saidLevin,andDollyfanciedshesawsomethingtouching,helpless,inhisfaceashesaidthisandlookedsilentlyintoherface。
`Letmeaskyou,KonstantinDmitrievich,’saidDaryaAlexandrovna,smilingherkindlyandrathermockingsmile,`whyareyouangrywithKitty?’
`I?I’mnotangrywithher,’saidLevin。
`Yes,youare。WhywasityoudidnotcometoseeusorthemwhenyouwereinMoscow?’
`DaryaAlexandrovna,’hesaid,blushinguptotherootsofhishair,`Iwonderreallythatwithyourkindheartyoudon’tfeelthis。Howitisyoufeelnopityforme,ifnothingelse,whenyouknow……’
`WhatdoIknow?’
`YouknowthatIproposedandwasrefused,’saidLevin,andallthetendernesshehadbeenfeelingforKittyaminutebeforewasreplacedbyafeelingofangerfortheslighthehadsuffered。
`WhatmakesyousupposeIknow?’
`Becauseeverybodyknowsit……’
`That’sjustwhereyouaremistaken;Ididnotknowit,thoughIhadguesseditwasso。’
`Well,nowyouknowit。’
`AllIknewwasthatsomethinghadhappenedthatmadeherdreadfullymiserable,andthatshebeggedmenevertospeakofit。Andifshewouldnottellme,shewouldcertainlynotspeakofittoanyoneelse。Butwhatdidpassbetweenyou?Tellme。’
`Ihavetoldyou。’
`Whenwasit?’
`WhenIwasattheirhousethelasttime。’
`Doyouknow,’saidDaryaAlexandrovna,`Iamawfully,awfullysorryforher。Yousufferonlyfrompride……’
`Perhapsso,’saidLevin,`but……’
Sheinterruptedhim。
`Butshe,poorgirl……Iamawfully,awfullysorryforher。NowIseeitall。’
`Well,DaryaAlexandrovna,youmustexcuseme,’hesaid,gettingup。`Good-by,DaryaAlexandrovna,tillwemeetagain。’
`No,waitaminute,’shesaid,clutchinghimbythesleeve。`Waitaminute,sitdown。’
`Please,please,don’tletustalkofthis,’hesaid,sittingdown,andatthesametimefeelingriseupandstirwithinhisheartahopehehadbelievedtobeburied。
`IfIdidnotlikeyou,’shesaid,andtearscameintohereyes;`ifIdidnotknowyou,asIdoknowyou……’
Thefeelingthathadseemeddeadrevivedmoreandmore,roseupandtookpossessionofLevin’sheart。
`Yes,Iunderstanditallnow,’saidDaryaAlexandrovna。`Youcan’tunderstandit;foryoumen,whoarefreeandmakeyourownchoice,it’salwaysclearwhomyoulove。Butagirl’sinapositionofsuspense,withallawoman’sormaiden’smodesty,agirlwhoseesyoumenfromafar,whotakeseverythingontrust-agirlmayhave,andoftenhas,suchafeelingthatshecannottellwhattosay。’
`Yes,iftheheartdoesnotspeak……’
`No,theheartdoesspeak;butjustconsider:youmenhaveviewsaboutagirl,youcometothehouse,youmakefriends,youcriticize,youwaittoseeifyouhavefoundwhatyoulove,andthen,whenyouaresureyouloveher,youpropose……’
`Well,that’snotquiteit。’
`Anywayyoupropose,whenyourloveisripe,orwhenthebalancehascompletelyturnedbetweenthetwoyouarechoosingfrom。Butagirlisnotasked。Sheisexpectedtomakeherchoice,andyetshecannotchoose-shecanonlyanswer``yes’or``no。’’
`Yes,tochoosebetweenmeandVronsky,’thoughtLevin,andthedeadthingthathadcometolifewithinhimdiedagain,andonlyweighedonhisheartandsetitaching。
`DaryaAlexandrovna,’hesaid,`that’showonechoosesanewdress,orsomepurchaseorother-notlove。Thechoicehasbeenmade,andsomuchthebetter……Andtherecanbenorepetition。’
`Ah,pride,pride!’saidDaryaAlexandrovna,asthoughdespisinghimforthebasenessofthisfeelingincomparisonwiththatotherfeelingwhichonlywomenknow。`AtthetimewhenyouproposedtoKittyshewasjustinapositioninwhichshecouldnotanswer。Shewasindoubt。DoubtbetweenyouandVronsky。Himshewasseeingeveryday,andyoushehadnotseenforalongwhile。Supposingshehadbeenolder……I,forinstance,inherplace,couldhavefeltnodoubt。Ialwaysdislikedhim,andmydislikeprovedtobejustified。’
LevinrecalledKitty’sanswer。Shehadsaid:`No,thatcannotbe……’
`DaryaAlexandrovna,’hesaiddryly,`Iappreciateyourconfidenceinme;Ibelieveyouaremakingamistake。ButwhetherIamrightorwrong,thatprideyousodespisemakesanythoughtofKaterinaAlexandrovnaoutofthequestionforme;youunderstand-utterlyoutofthequestion。’
`Iwillonlysayonethingmore:youknowthatIamspeakingofmysister,whomIloveasIlovemyownchildren。Idon’tsayshecaredforyou;allImeanttosayisthatherrefusalatthatmomentprovesnothing。’
`Idon’tknow!’saidLevin,jumpingup。`youonlyknewhowyouarehurtingme。It’sjustasifachildofyoursweredead,andtheyweretosaytoyou:Hewouldhavebeenlikethisandlikethat,andhemighthavelived,andhowhappyyouwouldhavebeeninhim。Buthe’sdead,dead,dead!……’
`Howabsurdyouare!’saidDaryaAlexandrovna,lookingwithmournfultendernessatLevin’sexcitement。`Yes,Iseeitallmoreandmoreclearly,’shewentonmusingly。`Soyouwon’tcometoseeus,then,whenKitty’shere?’
`No,Ishan’tcome。OfcourseIwon’tavoidmeetingKaterinaAlexandrovna;but,asfarasIcan,Iwilltrytosavehertheannoyanceofmypresence。’
`Youarevery,veryabsurd,’repeatedDaryaAlexandrovna,lookingwithtendernessintohisface。`Verywellthen,letitbeasthoughwehadnotspokenofthis。Whathaveyoucomefor,Tania?’shesaidinFrenchtothelittlegirlwhohadcomein。
`Where’smyspade,mamma?’
`IspeakFrench,andyoumusttoo。’
ThelittlegirltriedtosayitinFrench,butcouldnotremembertheFrenchforspade;themotherpromptedher,andthentoldherinFrenchwheretolookforthespade。AndthismadeadisagreeableimpressiononLevin。
EverythinginDaryaAlexandrovna’shouseandchildrenstruckhimnowasbynomeanssocharmingasalittlewhilebefore。
`AndwhydoesshetalkFrenchwiththechildren?’hethought。`Howunnaturalandfalseitis!Andthechildrenfeelitso:LearningFrenchandunlearningsincerity,’hethoughttohimself,unawarethatDaryaAlexandrovnahadthoughtallthatovertwentytimesalready,andyet,evenatthecostofsomelossofsincerity,believeditnecessarytoteachherchildrenFrenchinthatway。
`Butwhyareyougoing?Dostayalittle。’
Levinstayedtotea;buthisgoodhumorhadvanished,andhefeltillatease。
Afterteahewentoutintothehalltoorderhishorsestobeputin,and,whenhecameback,hefoundDaryaAlexandrovnagreatlydisturbed,withatroubledface,andtearsinhereyes。WhileLevinhadbeenoutside,anincidenthadoccurredwhichhadallatonceshatteredallthehappinessshehadbeenfeelingthatday,andherprideinherchildren。GrishaandTaniahadbeenfightingoveraball。DaryaAlexandrovna,hearingascreaminthenursery,raninandsawaterriblesight。TaniawaspullingGrisha’shair,whilehe,withafacehideouswithrage,wasbeatingherwithhisfistswhereverhecouldgetather。SomethingsnappedinDaryaAlexandrovna’sheartwhenshesawthis。Itwasasifdarknesshadswoopeddownuponherlife;shefeltthatthesechildrenofhers,thatshewassoproudof,werenotmerelymostordinary,butpositivelybad,ill-bredchildren,withcoarse,brutalpropensities-wickedchildren。
Shecouldnottalkorthinkofanythingelse,andshecouldnothelpspeakingtoLevinofhermisery。
Levinsawshewasunhappyandtriedtocomforther,sayingthatitshowednothingbad,thatallchildrenfight;but,evenashesaidit,hewasthinkinginhisheart:`No,Iwon’tbeartificialandtalkFrenchwithmychildren;butmychildrenwon’tbelikethat。Allonehastodoisnotspoilchildren,nottodistorttheirnature,andthey’llbedelightful。No,mychildrenwon’tbelikethat。’
Hesaidgood-byanddroveaway,andshedidnottrytodetainhim。
InthemiddleofJulytheelderofthevillageonLevin’ssister’sestate,abouttwentyverstasfromPokrovskoe,cametoLevintoreportaboutthehay,andhowthingsweregoingthere。Thechiefsourceofincomeonhissister’sestatewasfromthewatermeadows。Informeryearsthehayhadbeenboughtbythepeasantsfortwentyroublesthedessiatina。WhenLevintookoverthemanagementoftheestate,hethoughtonexaminingthegrasslandsthattheywereworthmore,andhefixedthepriceattwenty-fiveroublesthedessiatina。Thepeasantswouldnotgivethatprice,and,asLevinsuspected,keptoffotherpurchasers。ThenLevinhaddrivenoverhimself,andarrangedtohavethegrasscut,partlybyhiredlabor,partlyatapaymentofacertainproportionofthecrop。Thepeasantsofthisvillageputeveryhindrancetheycouldinthewayofthisnewarrangement,butitwascarriedout,andthefirstyearthemeadowshadyieldedaprofitalmostdouble。Twoyearsagoandthepreviousyearthepeasantshadmaintainedthesameoppositiontothearrangement,andthehayhadbeencutonthesamesystem。Thisyearthepeasantsweredoingallthemowingforathirdofthehaycrop,andthevillageelderhadcomenowtoannouncethatthehayhadbeencut,andthat,fearingrain,hehadinvitedthecountinghouseclerkover,haddividedthecropinhispresence,andhadrakedtogetherelevenstacksastheowner’sshare。Fromthevagueanswerstohisquestionhowmuchhayhadbeencutontheprincipalmeadow,fromthehurryofthevillageelderwhohadmadethedivision,withoutaskingleave,fromthewholetoneofthepeasant,Levinperceivedthattherewassomethingwronginthedivisionofthehay,andmadeuphismindtodriveoverhimselftolookintothematter。
Arrivingbydinnertimeatthevillage,andleavinghishorseatthecottageofanoldfriendofhis,thehusbandofhisbrother’swetnurse,Levinwenttoseetheoldmaninhisbeehouse,wantingtofindoutfromhimthetruthaboutthehay。Parmenich,atalkative,comelyoldman,gaveLevinaverywarmwelcome,showedhimallhewasdoing,toldhimeverythingabouthisbeesandtheswarmsofthatyear;butgavevagueandunwillinganswerstoLevin’sinquiriesaboutthemowing。ThisconfirmedLevinstillmoreinhissuspicions。Hewenttothehayfieldsandexaminedthestacks。Thehaystackscouldnotpossiblycontainfiftywagonloadseach,andtoconvictthepeasantsLevinorderedthewagonsthathadcarriedthehaytobebroughtupdirectly,toliftonestack,andcarryitintothebarn。Thereturnedouttobeonlythirty-twoloadsinthestack。Inspiteofthevillageelder’sassertionsaboutthecompressibilityofhay,anditshavingsettleddowninthestacks,andhisswearingthateverythinghadbeendoneinfearofGod,Levinstucktohispointthatthehayhadbeendividedwithouthisorders,andthat,therefore,hewouldnotacceptthathayasfiftyloadstoastack。Afteraprolongeddisputethematterwasdecidedbythepeasantstaking,astheirshare,theseelevenstacks,reckoningthemasfiftyloadseach,andapportioningtheowner’sshareanew。Theargumentsandthedivisionofthehaycockslastedthewholeafternoon。Whenthelastofthehayhadbeendivided,Levin,entrustingthesuperintendenceoftheresttothecountinghouseclerk,satdownonahaycockmarkedoffbyastakeofwillow,andlookedadmiringlyatthemeadowswarmingwithpeasants。
Infrontofhim,inthebendoftheriverbeyondthelittlemarsh,movedabright-coloredlineofpeasantwomen,merrilychatteringwiththeirringingvoices,andthescatteredhaywasbeingrapidlyformedintograywindingrowsoverthepalegreenaftermath。Afterthewomencamethemenwithpitchforks,andfromthegrayrowsthereweregrowingupbroad,high,softhaycocks。Tothelefttelegaswererumblingoverthemeadowthathadbeenalreadycleared,andoneafteranotherthehaycocksvanished,flungupinhugeforkfuls,andintheirplacetherewererisingheavycartloadsoffragranthayhangingoverthehorses’hindquarters。
`Whatweatherforhaying!Whathayit’llbe!’saidanoldman,squattingdownbesideLevin。`It’stea,nothayIt’slikescatteringgraintotheducks,thewaytheypickitup!’headded,pointingtothegrowinghaycocks。`Sincedinnertimethey’vecarriedagoodhalfofit。’
`Thelastload,eh?’heshoutedtoayoungpeasant,whodroveby,standinginthefrontofanemptytelegabox,shakingthereinsofhemp。
`Thelast,dad!’theladshoutedback,pullinginthehorse,and,smiling,helookedroundatabright,rosy-cheekedpeasantgirlwhosatinthetelegabox,smilingtoo,anddroveon。
`Who’sthat?Yourson?’askedLevin。
`Mydearyoungest,’saidtheoldmanwithatendersmile。
`Whatafinefellow!’
`Thelad’sallright。’
`Marriedalready?’
`Yes,it’stwoyearslastSt。Philip’sday。’
`Anychildren?’
`Children,indeed!Why,foroverayearhewasinnocentasababehimself,andbashfultoo,’answeredtheoldman。`Whathaythisis!It’steaindeed!’herepeated,wishingtochangethesubject。
LevinlookedmoreattentivelyatVankaParmenovandhiswife。Theywereloadingahaycockontothewagonnotfarfromhim。IvanParmenovwasstandingonthewagon,taking,layinginplace,andstampingdownthehugebundlesofhay,whichhisprettyyoungwifedeftlyhandeduptohim,atfirstinarmfuls,andthenonthepitchfork。Theyoungwifeworkedeasily,merrily,anddeftly。Theclose-packedhaydidnotoncebreakawaybyherfork。Firstsheteddedit,stucktheforkintoit,thenwitharapid,supplemovementleanedthewholeweightofherbodyonit,andatoncewithabendofherbackundertheredbeltshedrewherselfup,andarchingherfullbosomunderthelongwhiteapron,withadeftturnswungtheforkinherarms,andflungthebundleofhayhighontothewagon。Ivan,obviouslydoinghisbesttosavehereveryminuteofunnecessarylabor,madehaste,openingwidehisarmstoclutchthebundleandlayitinthewagon。Assherakedtogetherwhatwasleftofthehay,theyoungwifeshookoffthebitsofhaythathadfallenonherneck,and,arrangingtheredkerchiefthatwasgonebackwardbaringherwhitebrow,notbrownedbythesun,shecreptunderthewagontotieuptheload。Ivandirectedherhowtofastenthecordtothecrosspiece,andatsomethingshesaidhelaughedaloud。Intheexpressionsofbothfaceswastobeseenvigorous,young,freshlyawakenedlove。
Theloadwastiedon。Ivanjumpeddownandtookthequiet,sleekhorsebythebridle。Theyoungwifeflungtherakeupontheload;withaboldstep,swingingherarms,shewenttojointhewomen,whowereformingaringforthehaymakers’dance。Ivandroveofftotheroadandfellintolinewiththeotherloadedwagons。Thepeasantwomen,withtheirrakesontheirshoulders,gaywithbrightflowers,andchatteringwithringing,merryvoices,walkedbehindthehaywagon。Onewilduntrainedfemalevoicebrokeintoasong,andsangitalonethroughaverse,andthenthesameversewasunanimouslytakenupandrepeatedbyhalfahundredstronghealthyvoices,ofallsorts,coarseandfine。
Thewomen,allsinging,begantocomeclosetoLevin,andhefeltasthoughastormwereswoopingdownuponhimwithathunderofmerriment。Thestormswoopeddown,envelopedhimandthehaycockonwhichhewaslying,andtheotherhaycocks,andwagonloads,andthewholemeadowanddistantfieldsallseemedtobeshakingandsingingtothemeasuresofthiswildmerrysong,withitsshoutsandwhistlesandclapping。Levinfeltenviousofthishealthandmirthfulness;helongedtotakepartintheexpressionofthisjoyoflife。Buthecoulddonothing,andhadtolieandlookonandlisten。Whenthepeasants,withtheirsinging,hadvanishedoutofsightandhearing,awearyfeelingofdespondencyathisownisolation,hisphysicalinactivity,hisalienationfromthisworld,cameoverLevin。
Someoftheverypeasantswhohadbeenmostactiveinwranglingwithhimoverthehay,somewhomhehadtreatedwithcontumely,andwhohadtriedtocheathim-thoseverypeasantshadgreetedhimgood-humoredly,andevidentlyhadnot,wereincapableofhaving,anyfeelingofrancoragainsthim,anyregret,anyrecollectionevenofhavingtriedtodeceivehim。Allthatwasdrownedinaseaofmerrycommonlabor。Godgavetheday,Godgavethestrength。Andthedayandthestrengthwereconsecratedtolabor,andthatlaborwasitsownreward。Forwhomthelabor?Whatwouldbeitsfruits?Thesewereidleconsiderations-besidethepoint。
OftenLevinhadadmiredthislife,oftenhehadasenseofenvyofthemenwholedthislife;buttoday,forthefirsttime,especiallyundertheinfluenceofwhathehadseenintheattitudeofIvanParmenovtohisyoungwife,theideapresenteditselfdefinitelytohismindthatitwasinhispowertoexchangethedreary,artificial,idle,andindividualisticlifehewasleadingforthislaborious,pure,andgenerallydelightfullife。
Theoldmanwhohadbeensittingbesidehimhadlongagogonehome;thepeoplehadallgonetheirdifferentways。Thosewholivednearhadgonehome,whilethosewhocamefromafarweregatheredintoagroupforsupper,andtospendthenightinthemeadow。Levin,unobservedbythepeasants,stilllayonthehaycock,andstilllookedon,andlistened,andmused。Thepeasantswhoremainedforthenightinthemeadowscarcelysleptalltheshortsummernight。Atfirsttherewasthesoundofmerrytalkandgenerallaughingoverthesupper,thensingingagain,andlaughter。
Allthelongdayoftoilhadleftnotraceinthemsavelightnessofheart。Beforetheearlydawnallwashushed。Nothingwastobeheardbutthenightsoundsofthefrogsthatneverceasedinthemarsh,andthehorsessnortinginthemistthatroseoverthemeadowbeforemorning。Rousinghimself,Levingotupfromthehaycock,and,lookingatthestars,hesawthatthenightwasover。
`Well,whatamIgoingtodo?HowamItosetaboutit?’hesaidtohimself,tryingtoexpresstohimselfallthethoughtsandfeelingshehadpassedthroughinthisbriefnight。Allthethoughtsandfeelingshehadpassedthroughfellintothreeseparatetrainsofthought。Onewastherenunciationofhisoldlife,ofhisutterlyuselesseducation。Thisrenunciationgavehimsatisfaction,andwaseasyandsimple。Anotherseriesofthoughtsandmentalimagesrelatedtothelifehelongedtolivenow。Thesimplicity,thepurity,thesanityofthislifehefeltclearly,andhewasconvincedhewouldfindinititscontent,itspeace,anditsdignity,ofthelackofwhichhewassomiserablyconscious。Butathirdseriesofideasturneduponthequestionofhowtoeffectthistransitionfromtheoldlifetothenew。Andtherenothingtookclearshapeforhim。`Awife。Workandthenecessityofwork。LeavePokrovskoe?Buyland?Becomeamemberofapeasantcommunity?Marryapeasantgirl?HowamItosetaboutit?’heaskedhimselfagain,andcouldnotfindananswer。`Ihaven’tsleptallnight,though,andIcan’tthinkitoutclearly,’hesaidtohimself。`I’llworkitoutlater。Onething’scertain-thisnighthasdecidedmyfate。Allmyolddreamsofhomelifewereabsurd,nottherealthing,’hetoldhimself。`It’salleversomuchsimplerandbetter……’
`Howbeautiful!’hethought,lookingatthestrange,asitwere,mother-of-pearlshellofwhitefleecycloudletsrestingrightoverhisheadinthemiddleofthesky。`Howexquisiteitallisinthisexquisitenight!Andwhenwastheretimeforthatcloudshelltoform?JustnowIlookedatthesky,andtherewasnothinginit-onlytwowhitestreaks。Yes,andsoimperceptibly,too,myviewsoflifechanged!’
Hewentoutofthemeadowandwalkedalongthehighroadtowardthevillage。Aslightwindarose,andtheskylookedgrayandsullen。Thegloomymomenthadcomethatusuallyprecedesthedawn,thefulltriumphoflightoverdarkness。
Shrinkingfromthecold,Levinwalkedrapidly,lookingattheground。`What’sthat?Someonecoming,’hethought,catchingthetinkleofbells,andliftinghishead。Fortypacesfromhimacarriageandfourwiththeluggageonitstopwasdrivingtowardhimalongthegrassyhighroadonwhichhewaswalking。Theshafthorsesweretiltedagainsttheshaftsbytheruts,butthedexterousdriversittingontheboxheldtheshaftovertheruts,sothatthewheelsranonthesmoothpartoftheroad。
ThiswasallLevinnoticed,andwithoutwonderingwhoitcouldbe,hegazedabsentlyatthecoach。
Inthecoachwasanoldladydozinginonecorner,andatthewindow,evidentlyonlyjustawake,satayounggirlholdinginbothhandstheribbonsofawhitecap。Withafacefulloflightandthought,fullofasubtle,complexinnerlife,thatwasremotefromLevin,shewasgazingfromthewindowattheglowofthesunrise。
Attheveryinstantwhenthisapparitionwasvanishing,thetruthfuleyesglancedathim。Sherecognizedhim,andherfacelightedupwithwonderingdelight。
Hecouldnotbemistaken。Therewerenoothereyeslikethoseinalltheworld。Therewasonlyonecreatureintheworldthatcouldconcentrateforhimallthebrightnessandmeaningoflife。Itwasshe。ItwasKitty。HecomprehendedthatshewasdrivingtoErgushovofromtherailwaystation。AndeverythingthathadbeenstirringLevinduringthissleeplessnight,alltheresolutionshehadmade,allvanishedatonce。Herecalledwithhorrorhisdreamsofmarryingapeasantgirl。Thereonly,inthiscarriagethathadcrossedovertotheothersideoftheroad,andwasrapidlydisappearing-thereonlycouldhefindthesolutionoftheriddleofhislife,whichhadweighedsoagonizinglyuponhimoflate。
Shedidnotlookoutagain。Thesoundofthecarriagespringswasnolongeraudible,thebellscouldscarcelybeheard。Thebarkingofdogsshowedthecarriagehadreachedthevillage,andallthatwasleftwastheemptyfieldsallround,thevillageinfront,andhehimselfisolatedandapartfromitall,wanderinglonelyalongthedesertedhighroad。
Heglancedatthesky,expectingtofindtherethecloudshellhehadbeenadmiringandtakingasthesymboloftheideasandfeelingsofthatnight。Therewasnothingintheskyintheleastlikeashell。There,intheremoteheightsabove,amysteriouschangehadbeenaccomplished。Therewasnotraceofashell,andtherewasstretchedoverfullyhalftheskyanevencoveroftiny,andevertinier,cloudlets。Theskyhadgrownblueandbright;andwiththesamesoftness,butwiththesameremoteness,itmethisquestioninggaze。
`No,’hesaidtohimself,`howevergoodthatlifeofsimplicityandtoilmaybe,Icannotgobacktoit。Iloveher。’
NonebutthosewhoweremostintimatewithAlexeiAlexandrovichknewthat,whileonthesurfacethecoldestandmostrationalofmen,hehadoneweaknessquiteopposedtothegeneraltrendofhischaracter。AlexeiAlexandrovichcouldnothearorseeachildorwomancryingwithoutbeingmoved。Thesightoftearsthrewhimintoastateofnervousagitation,andheutterlylostallpowerofreflection。Theheadclerkofhisboardandthesecretarywereawareofthis,andusedtowarnwomenwhocamewithpetitionsonnoaccounttogivewaytotears,iftheydidnotwanttoruintheirchances。`Hewillgetangry,andwillnotlistentoyou,’theyusedtosay。And,asafact,insuchcasestheemotionaldisturbancesetupinAlexeiAlexandrovichbythesightoftearsfoundexpressioninhastyanger。`Icandonothing。Kindlyleavetheroom!’hewouldusuallyshoutinsuchcases。
When,returningfromtheraces,AnnahadinformedhimofherrelationswithVronsky,andimmediatelyafterwardhadburstintotears,hidingherfaceinherhands,AlexeiAlexandrovich,forallthefuryarousedinhimagainsther,wasawareatthesametimeofarushofthatemotionaldisturbancealwaysproducedinhimbytears。Consciousofit,andconsciousthatanyexpressionofhisfeelingsatthatminutewouldbeoutofkeepingwiththesituation,hetriedtosuppresseverymanifestationoflifeinhimself,andsoneitherstirrednorlookedather。ThiswaswhathadcausedthatstrangeexpressionofdeathlikerigidityinhisfacewhichhadsoimpressedAnna。
Whentheyreachedthehousehehelpedhertogetoutofthecarriage,and,makinganefforttomasterhimself,tookleaveofherwithhisusualurbanity,andutteredthatphrasethatboundhimtonothing;hesaidthattomorrowhewouldletherknowhisdecision。
Hiswife’swords,confirminghisworstsuspicions,hadsentacruelpangtotheheartofAlexeiAlexandrovich。Thatpangwasintensifiedbythestrangefeelingofphysicalpityforherengenderedbyhertears。ButwhenhewasallaloneinthecarriageAlexeiAlexandrovich,tohissurpriseanddelight,feltcompletereliefbothfromthispityandfromthedoubtsandagoniesofjealousy。
Heexperiencedthesensationsofamanwhohashadatoothoutaftersufferinglongfromtoothache。Afterafearfulagonyandasenseofsomethinghuge,biggerthantheheaditself,beingtornoutofhisjaw,thesufferer,hardlyabletobelieveinhisowngoodluck,feelsallatoncethatwhathassolongenvenomedhisexistenceandenchainedhisattention,existsnolonger,andthathecanliveandthinkagain,andtakeaninterestinotherthingsbesideshistooth。ThisfeelingAlexeiAlexandrovichwasexperiencing。Theagonyhadbeenstrangeandterrible,butnowitwasover;hefeltthathecouldliveagainandthinkofsomethingotherthanhiswife。
`Nohonor,noheart,noreligion;acorruptwoman。Ialwaysknewitandalwayssawit,thoughItriedtodeceivemyselftospareher,’hesaidtohimself。Anditactuallyseemedtohimthathealwayshadseenit:herecalledincidentsoftheirpastlife,inwhichhehadneverseenanythingwrongbefore-nowtheseincidentsprovedclearlythatshehadalwaysbeenacorruptwoman。`Imadeamistakeinlinkingmylifetohers;buttherewasnothingwronginmymistake,andsoIcannotbeunhappy。It’snotIwhoamtoblame,’hetoldhimself,`butshe。ButIhavenothingtodowithher。Shedoesnotexistforme。’
Allthatwouldbefallherandherson,towardwhomhissentimentswereasmuchchangedastowardher,ceasedtointeresthim。Theonlythingthatinterestedhimnowwasthequestioninwhatwayhecouldbest,withmostproprietyandcomfortforhimself,andsowithmostjustice,shakeclearthemudwithwhichshehadspatteredhiminherfall,andthenproceedalonghispathofactive,honorable,andusefulexistence。
`Icannotbemadeunhappybythefactthatacontemptiblewomanhascommittedacrime。Ihaveonlytofindthebestwayoutofthedifficultpositioninwhichshehasplacedme。AndIshallfindit,’hesaidtohimself,frowningmoreandmore。`I’mneitherthefirstnorthelast。’AndtosaynothingofhistoricalinstancesdatingfromMenelaus,recentlyrevivedinthememoryofallbyLaBelleHélène,awholelistofcontemporaryexamplesofhusbandswithunfaithfulwivesinthehighestsocietyrosebeforeAlexeiAlexandrovich’simagination。`Daryalov,Poltavsky,PrinceKaribanov,CountPaskudin,Dram……Yes,evenDram……suchanhonest,capablefellow……Semionov,Chagin,Sigonin,’AlexeiAlexandrovichremembered。`Admittingthatacertainquiteirrationalridiculefallstothelotofthesemen,yetIneversawanythingbutamisfortuneinit,andalwaysfeltsympathyforit,’AlexeiAlexandrovichsaidtohimself,thoughindeedthiswasnotthefact,andhehadneverfeltsympathyformisfortunesofthatkind,butthemoreoftenhehadheardofinstancesofunfaithfulwivesbetrayingtheirhusbands,themorehighlyhehadthoughtofhimself。`Itisamisfortunewhichmaybefallanyone。Andthismisfortunehasbefallenme。Theonlythingtobedoneistomakethebestofthesituation。’Andhebeganpassinginreviewthemethodsofproceedingofmenwhohadbeeninthesamepositionthathewasin。
`Daryalovfoughtaduel……’
TheduelhadparticularlyfascinatedthethoughtsofAlexeiAlexandrovichinhisyouth,justbecausehewasphysicallyafaintheartedman,andwashimselfwellawareofthefact。AlexeiAlexandrovichcouldnotwithouthorrorcontemplatetheideaofapistolaimedathimself,andnevermadeuseofanyweaponinhislife。Thishorrorhadinhisyouthsethimoftenponderingondueling,andpicturinghimselfinapositioninwhichhewouldhavetoexposehislifetodanger。Havingattainedsuccessandanestablishedpositionintheworld,hehadlongagoforgottenthisfeeling;butthehabitualbentoffeelingreasserteditself,anddreadofhisowncowardiceprovedevennowsostrongthatAlexeiAlexandrovichspentalongwhilethinkingoverthequestionofduelinginallitsaspects,andhuggingtheideaofaduel,thoughhewasfullyawarebeforehandthathewouldneverunderanycircumstancesfightone。
`There’snodoubtoursocietyisstillsobarbarousit’snotthesameinEnglandthatverymany’-andamongthesewerethosewhoseopinionAlexeiAlexandrovichparticularlyvalued-`lookfavorablyontheduel;butwhatresultisattainedbyit?SupposeIcallhimout,’AlexeiAlexandrovichwentontohimself,andvividlypicturingthenighthewouldspendafterthechallenge,andthepistolaimedathim,heshuddered,andknewthatheneverwoulddoit-`supposeIcallhimout。SupposeIamtaught,’hewentonmusing,`Iamplaced,Ipressthetrigger,’hesaidtohimself,closinghiseyes,`anditturnsoutIhavekilledhim,’AlexeiAlexandrovichsaidtohimself,andheshookhisheadasthoughtodispelsuchsillyideas。`Whatsenseisthereinmurderingamaninordertodefineone’srelationtoaguiltywifeandson?IshouldstillhavetodecidewhatIoughttodowithher。Butwhatismoreprobable,andwhatwoulddoubtlesslyoccur-Ishouldbekilledorwounded。I,theinnocentperson,shouldbethevictim-killedorwounded。It’sevenmoresenseless。But,apartfromthat,achallengetofightwouldbeanacthardlyhonestonmyside。Don’tIknowbeforehandthatmyfriendswouldneverallowmetofightaduel-wouldneverallowthelifeofastatesman,neededbyRussia,tobeexposedtodanger?Whatwouldcomeofit?Itwouldcomeofitthat,knowingbeforehandthatthematterwouldnevercometorealdanger,itwouldamounttomysimplytryingtogainacertainshamreputationbysuchachallenge。Thatwouldbedishonest,thatwouldbefalse,thatwouldbedeceivingmyselfandothers。Aduelisquiteimpossible,andnooneexpectsitofme。Myaimissimplytosafeguardmyreputation,whichisessentialfortheuninterruptedpursuitofmypublicduties。’Officialduties,whichhadalwaysbeenofgreatconsequenceinAlexeiAlexandrovich’seyes,seemedofspecialimportancetohismindatthismoment。
Consideringandrejectingtheduel,AlexeiAlexandrovichturnedtodivorce-anothersolutionselectedbyseveralofthehusbandsheremembered。Passinginmentalreviewalltheinstancesheknewofdivorcestherewereplentyofthemintheveryhighestsocietywithwhichhewasveryfamiliar,AlexeiAlexandrovichcouldnotfindasingleexampleinwhichtheobjectofdivorcewasthatwhichhehadinview。Inalltheseinstancesthehusbandhadpracticallycededorsoldhisunfaithfulwife,andtheverypartywho,beinginfault,hadnottherighttocontractamarriage,hadformedcounterfeit,pseudo-matrimonialtieswithanewhusband。Inhisowncase,AlexeiAlexandrovichsawthatalegaldivorce,thatistosay,oneinwhichonlytheguiltywifewouldberepudiated,wasimpossibleofattainment。Hesawthatthecomplexconditionsofthelifetheyledmadethecoarseproofsofhiswife’sguilt,requiredbythelaw,outofthequestion;hesawthatacertainrefinementinthatlifewouldnotadmitofsuchproofsbeingbroughtforward,evenifhehadthem,andthattobringforwardsuchproofswoulddamagehiminthepublicestimationmorethanitwouldher。
Anattemptatdivorcecouldleadtonothingbutapublicscandal,whichwouldbeaperfectgodsendtohisenemiesforcalumnyandattacksonhishighpositioninsociety。Hischiefobject,todefinethepositionwiththeleastamountofdisturbancepossible,wouldnotbeattainedbydivorceeither。Moreover,intheeventofdivorce,orevenofanattempttoobtainadivorce,itwasobviousthatthewifebrokeoffallrelationswiththehusbandandthrewinherlotwiththelover。And,inspiteofthecomplete,ashesupposed,contemptandindifferencehenowfeltforhiswife,atthebottomofhisheartAlexeiAlexandrovichstillhadonefeelingleftinregardtoher-adisinclinationtoseeherfreetothrowinherlotwithVronsky,sothathercrimewouldbetoheradvantage。ThemerenotionofthissoexasperatedAlexeiAlexandrovich,thatdirectlyitrosetohismindhegroanedwithinwardagony,andgotupandchangedhisplaceinthecarriage,andforalongwhileafterhesatwithscowlingbrows,wrappinghisnumbedandbonylegsinthefleecyrug。
`Apartfromformaldivorce,onemightstilldoasKaribanov,Paskudin,andthatgoodfellowDramdid-thatis,separatefromone’swife,’hewentonthinking,whenhehadregainedhiscomposure。Butthissteptoopresentedthesamedrawbackofpublicscandalasadivorce,and,whatwasmore,aseparation,quiteasmuchasaregulardivorce,flunghiswifeintothearmsofVronsky。`No,it’soutofthequestion,outofthequestion!’hesaidaloud,twistinghisrugabouthimagain。`Icannotbeunhappy,butneithershenorheoughttobehappy。’
Thefeelingofjealousy,whichhadtorturedhimduringtheperiodofuncertainty,hadpassedawayattheinstantwhen,withagony,thetoothhadbeenextractedbyhiswife’swords。Butthatfeelinghadbeenreplacedbyanother-thedesire,notmerelythatsheshouldnottriumph,butthatsheshouldgetduepunishmentforhercrime。Hedidnotacknowledgethisfeeling,butatthebottomofhishearthelongedforhertosufferforhavingdestroyedhispeaceofmind,andhavingdishonoredhim。Andonceagaingoingovertheconditionsinseparablefromaduel,adivorce,aseparation,andonceagainrejectingthem,AlexeiAlexandrovichfeltconvincedthattherewasonlyonesolution-tokeepherwithhim,concealingwhathadhappenedfromtheworld,andusingeverymeasureinhispowertobreakofftheintrigue,andstillmore-thoughthishedidnotadmittohimself-topunishher。`Imustcommunicatetohermydecision;that,thinkingovertheterriblepositioninwhichshehasplacedherfamily,allothersolutionswillbeworseforbothsidesthananexternalstatusquo,andthatsuchIagreetoretain,onthestrictconditionofobedienceonherparttomywishes-thatistosay,cessationofallintercoursewithherlover。’Whenthisdecisionhadbeenfinallyadopted,anotherweightyconsiderationoccurredtoAlexeiAlexandrovichinsupportofit。`BysuchacourseonlyshallIbeactinginaccordancewiththedictatesofreligion,’hetoldhimself。`Inadoptingthiscourse,Iamnotcastingoffaguiltywife,butgivingherachanceofamendment;and,indeed,difficultasthetaskwillbetome,Ishalldevotepartofmyenergiestoherreformationandsalvation。’ThoughAlexeiAlexandrovichwasperfectlyawarethathecouldnotexertanymoralinfluenceoverhiswife,thatsuchanattemptatreformationcouldleadtonothingbutfalsity;thoughinpassingthroughthesedifficultmomentshehadnotoncethoughtofseekingguidanceinreligion;yetnow,whenhisconclusioncorresponded,asitseemedtohim,withtherequirementsofreligion,thisreligioussanctiontohisdecisiongavehimcompletesatisfaction,andtosomeextentrestoredhispeaceofmind。Hewaspleasedtothinkthat,eveninsuchanimportantcrisisinlife,noonewouldbeabletosaythathehadnotactedinaccordancewiththeprinciplesofthatreligionwhosebannerhehadalwaysheldaloftamidthegeneralcoolnessandindifference。Asheponderedoversubsequentdevelopments,AlexeiAlexandrovichdidnotsee,indeed,whyhisrelationswithhiswifeshouldnotremainpracticallythesameasbefore。Nodoubt,shecouldneverregainhisesteem,buttherewasnot,andtherecouldnotbe,anysortofreasonwhyhisexistenceshouldbetroubled,andwhyheshouldsufferbecauseshewasabadandfaithlesswife。`Yes,timewillpass-time,whicharrangesallthings;andtheoldrelationswillbereestablished,’AlexeiAlexandrovichtoldhimself;sofarreestablished,thatis,thatIshallnotbesensibleofabreakinthecontinuityofmylife。Sheisboundtobeunhappy,butIamnottoblame,andsoIcannotbeunhappy。’