AttheendofSeptemberthetimberhadbeencartedforbuildingthecattleyardonthelandthathadbeenallottedtotheassociationofpeasants,andthebutterfromthecowswassoldandtheprofitsdivided。InPracticethesystemworkedcapitally,or,atleast,soitseemedtoLevin。Inordertoworkoutthewholesubjecttheoreticallyandtocompletehisbook,which,inLevin’sdaydreams,wasnotmerelytoeffectarevolutioninpoliticaleconomy,buttoannihilatethatscienceentirelyandtolaythefoundationofanewscienceoftherelationofthepeopletothesoil,allthatwaslefttodowastomakeatourabroad,andtostudyonthespotallthathadbeendoneinthesamedirection,andtocollectconclusiveevidencethatallthathadbeendonetherewasnotwhatwaswanted。Levinwasonlywaitingforthedeliveryofhiswheattoreceivethemoneyforitandgoabroad。Buttherainsbeganpreventingtheharvestingofthecornandpotatoesleftinthefields,andputtingastoptoallwork,eventothedeliveryofthewheat。Themudwasimpassablealongtheroads;twomillswerecarriedawaybythespate,andtheweathergotworseandworse。
Onthe30thofSeptemberthesuncameoutinthemorning,and,hopingforfineweather,Levinbeganmakingfinalpreparationsforhisjourney。Hegaveordersforthewheattobedelivered,sentthebailifftothemerchanttogetthemoneyowinghim,andwentouthimselftogivesomefinaldirectionsontheestatebeforesettingoff。
Havingfinishedallhisbusiness,soakedthroughwiththestreamsofwaterwhichkeptrunningintohisleathercoatanddownhisneckandhisboottops,butinthekeenestandmostconfidenttemper,Levinturnedhomewardintheevening。Theweatherhadbecomeworsethanevertowardevening;thehaillashedthedrenchedmaresocruellythatshewentalongsideways,shakingherheadandears;butLevinwasallrightunderhishood,andhelookedcheerfullyabouthimatthemuddystreamsrunningunderthewheels,atthedropshangingoneverybaretwig,atthewhitenessofthepatchofunmeltedhailstonesontheplanksofthebridge,atthethicklayerofstillsucculent,fleshyleavesthatlayheapedupaboutthestrippedelmtree。Inspiteofthegloominessofnaturearoundhim,hefeltpeculiarlyeager。Thetalkshehadbeenhavingwiththepeasantsinthefarthervillagehadshownthattheywerebeginningtogetusedtotheirnewposition。Theinnkeeper,anoldman,towhoseinnhehadgonetogetdryevidentlyapprovedofLevin’splan,andofhisownaccordproposedtoenterthepartnershipforpurchasingofcattle。
`Ihaveonlytogoonstubbornlytowardmyaim,andIshallattainmyend,’thoughtLevin;`andit’ssomethingtoworkandtaketroublefor。Thisisnotamatterofmyselfindividually,thequestionofthepublicwelfarecomesintoit。Thewholesystemofagriculture,thechiefelementintheconditionofthepeople,mustbecompletelytransformed。Insteadofpoverty-generalprosperityandcontent;insteadofhostility-harmonyandunityofinterests。Inshort,abloodlessrevolution,butarevolutionofthegreatestmagnitude,beginninginthelittlecircleofourdistrict,thentheprovince,thenRussia,andthewholeworld。Becauseajustideacannotbutbefruitful。Yes,it’sanaimworthworkingfor。AndthefactthatitisI,KostiaLevin,whowenttoaballinablacktie,andwasrefusedbytheShcherbatskygirl,andwhoisintrinsicallysuchapitiful,worthlesscreaturetohimself-thatprovesnothing;IfeelsureFranklinfeltjustasworthless,andhetoohadnofaithinhimself,thinkingofhimselfasawhole。Thatmeansnothing。Andhetoo,mostlikely,hadanAgathyaMikhailovnatowhomheconfidedhissecrets。’
MusingonsuchthoughtsLevinreachedhomeinthedarkness。
Thebailiff,whohadbeentothemerchant,hadcomebackandbroughtpartofthemoneyforthewheat。Anagreementhadbeenmadewiththeoldinnkeeper,andontheroadthebailiffhadlearnedthateverywherethecornwasstillstandinginthefields,sothathisonehundredandsixtyshocksthathadnotbeencarriedwerenothingincomparisonwiththelossesofothers。
AfterdinnerLevinwassitting,asheusuallydid,inaneasychairwithabook,andashereadhewentonthinkingofthejourneybeforehiminconnectionwithhisbook。Todayallthesignificanceofhisbookrosebeforehimwithspecialdistinctness,andwholeperiodsrangedthemselvesinhismindinillustrationofhistheories。`Imustwritethatdown,’hethought。`Thatoughttoformabriefintroduction,whichIthoughtunnecessarybefore。’Hegotuptogotohiswritingtable,andLaska,lyingathisfeet,gotuptoo,stretchingandlookingathimasthoughtoinquirewheretogo。Buthehadnottimetowriteitdown,fortheoverseershadcomeforreceivingorders,andLevinwentoutintothehalltomeetthem。
Aftergivingorders,thatistosay,directionsaboutthelaborsofthenextday,andseeingallthepeasantswhohadbusinesswithhim,Levinwentbacktohisstudyandsatdowntowork。Laskalayunderthetable;AgathyaMikhailovnasettledherselfinherplacewithherstocking。
Afterwritingforalittlewhile,LevinsuddenlythoughtwithexceptionalvividnessofKitty,herrefusal,andtheirlastmeeting。Hegotupandbeganwalkingabouttheroom。
`What’stheuseofbeingdownhearted?’saidAgathyaMikhailovna。`Come,whydoyoustayonathome?Yououghttogotosomewarmsprings,especiallynowthatyou’rereadyforthejourney。’
`Well,Iamgoingawaythedayaftertomorrow,AgathyaMikhailovna;Imustfinishmywork。’
`There,there,yourwork,yousay!Asifyouhadn’tdoneenoughforthepeasants!Why,as’tis,they’resaying,``YourmasterwillbegettingsomehonorfromtheCzarforit。’Indeed,’tisastrangething:whyneedyouworryaboutthepeasants?’
`I’mnotworryingaboutthem;I’mdoingitformyowngood。’
AgathyaMikhailovnakneweverydetailofLevin’splansforhisland。Levinoftenputhisviewsbeforeherinalltheircomplexity,andnotuncommonlyhearguedwithheranddidnotagreewithhercomments。Butonthisoccasionsheentirelymisinterpretedwhathehadsaid。
`Ofone’ssoul’ssalvationweallknowandmustthinkbeforeallelse,’shesaidwithasigh。`ParfionDenissichnow,forallhewasnoscholar,diedadeathwhoselikemayGodgranttoeveryoneofus,’shesaid,referringtoaservantwhohaddiedrecently。`Tookthesacramentandall。’
`That’snotwhatImean,’saidhe。`ImeanthatI’mactingformyownadvantage。It’sallthebetterformeifthepeasantsdotheirworkbetter。’
`Well,whateveryoudo,ifhe’salazygood-for-naught,everything’llbeatsixesandsevens。Ifhehasaconscience,he’llwork,andifnot,there’snodoinganything。’
`Oh,come,yousayyourselfIvanhasbegunlookingafterthecattlebetter。’
`AllIsayis,’answeredAgathyaMikhailovna,evidentlynotspeakingatrandom,butinstrictsequenceofideas,`thatyououghttogetmarried-that’swhatIsay。’
AgathyaMikhailovna’sallusiontotheverysubjecthehadonlyjustbeenthinkingabouthurtandstunghim。Levinscowled,andwithoutansweringher,hesatdownagaintohiswork,repeatingtohimselfallthathehadbeenthinkingoftherealsignificanceofthatwork。OnlyatintervalshelistenedinthestillnesstotheclickofAgathyaMikhailovna’sneedles,and,recollectingwhathedidnotwanttoremember,hewouldfrownagain。
Atnineo’clocktheyheardthebellandthefaintvibrationofacarriageoverthemud。
`Well,here’svisitorscometous,andyouwon’tbedull,’saidAgathyaMikhailovna,gettingupandgoingtothedoor。ButLevinovertookher。Hisworkwasnotgoingwellnow,andhewasgladofavisitor,whoeveritmightbe。
Runninghalfwaydownthestaircase,Levincaughtasoundheknew,afamiliarcoughinthehall。Buthehearditindistinctlythroughthesoundofhisownfootsteps,andhopedhewasmistaken。Thenhecaughtsightofalong,bony,familiarfigure,andnowitseemedtherewasnopossibilityofmistake;andyethestillwentonhopingthatthistallmantakingoffhisfurcloakandcoughingwasnothisbrotherNikolai。
Levinlovedhisbrother,butbeingwithhimwasalwaysatorture。Justnow,whenLevin,undertheinfluenceofthethoughtsthathadcometohim,andAgathyaMikhailovna’shint,wasinatroubledanduncertainhumor,thismeetingwithhisbrotherwhichhehadtofaceseemedparticularlydifficult。Insteadofalively,healthyvisitor,someoutsiderwhowould,hehoped,cheerhimupinhisuncertainhumor,hehadtoseehisbrother,whoknewhimthroughandthrough,whowouldcallforthallthethoughtsnearesthisheart,wouldforcehimtoshowhimselffully。Andthathewasnotdisposedtodo。
Angrywithhimselfforsobaseafeeling,Levinranintothehall;assoonashehadseenhisbrotherclose,thisfeelingofselfishdisappointmentvanishedinstantlyandwasreplacedbypity。TerribleashisbrotherNikolaihadbeenbeforeinhisemaciationandsickliness,nowhelookedstillmoreemaciated,stillmorewasted。Hewasaskeletoncoveredbyskin。
Hestoodinthehall,jerkinghislongthinneck,andpullingthescarfoffit,andsmiledastrangeandpitifulsmile。Whenhesawthatsmile,submissiveandhumble,Levinfeltsomethingclutchingathisthroat。
`Yousee,I’vecometoyou,’saidNikolaiinathickvoice,neverforonesecondtakinghiseyesoffhisbrother’sface。`I’vebeenmeaningtoalongwhile,butI’vebeenconstantlyunwell。NowI’meversomuchbetter,’hesaid,rubbinghisbeardwithhisbigthinhands。
`Yes,yes!’answeredLevin。Andhefeltstillmorefrightenedwhen,kissinghim,hefeltwithhislipsthedrynessofhisbrother’sskinandsawclosetohimhisbigeyes,fullofastrangelight。
Afewweeksbefore,KonstantinLevinhadwrittentohisbrotherthatthroughthesaleofthesmallpartofthepropertythathadremainedundivided,therewasasumofabouttwothousandroublestocometohimashisshare。
Nikolaisaidthathehadcomenowtotakehismoneyand,whatwasmoreimportant,tostayawhileintheoldnest,togetintouchwiththeearth,soastorenewhisstrengthliketheheroesofoldfortheworkthatlaybeforehim。Inspiteofhisexaggeratedstoop,andtheemaciationthatwassostrikingfromhisheight,hismovementswereasrapidandabruptasever。Levinledhimintohisstudy。
Hisbrotherdressedwithparticularcare-athingheneverusedtodo-combedhisscanty,lankhair,and,smiling,wentupstairs。
Hewasinthemostaffectionateandgood-humoredmood,justasLevinoftenrememberedhiminchildhood。HeevenreferredtoSergeiIvanovichwithoutrancor。WhenhesawAgathyaMikhailovna,hejokedwithherandaskedaftertheoldservants。ThenewsofthedeathofParfionDenissichmadeapainfulimpressiononhim。Alookoffearcrossedhisface,butheregainedhisserenityimmediately。
`Ofcoursehewasquiteold,’hesaid,andchangedthesubject。`Well,I’llspendamonthortwowithyou,andthenI’mofftoMoscow。Doyouknow,Miaghkovhaspromisedmeaplacethere,andI’mgoingintotheservice。NowI’mgoingtoarrangemylifequitedifferently,’hewenton。`YouknowIgotridofthatwoman。’
`MaryaNikolaevna?Why,whatfor?’
`Oh,shewasahorridwoman!Shecausedmeallsortsofannoyances。’Buthedidnotsaywhattheannoyanceswere。HecouldnotsaythathehaddrivenoffMaryaNikolaevnabecausetheteawasweak,and,aboveall,becauseshewouldlookafterhimasthoughhewereaninvalid。`Besides,Iwanttoturnoveranewleafcompletelynow。I’vedonesillythings,ofcourse,likeeveryoneelse,butmoney’sthelastconsideration;Idon’tregretit。Solongasthere’shealth-andmyhealth,thankGod,isquiterestored。’
Levinlistenedandrackedhisbrains,butcouldthinkofnothingtosay。Nikolaiprobablyfeltthesame;hebeganquestioninghisbrotherabouthisaffairs;andLevinwasgladtotalkabouthimself,becausethenhecouldspeakwithouthypocrisy。Hetoldhisbrotherofhisplansandhisdoings。
Hisbrotherlistened,butevidentlyhewasnotinterested。
Thesetwomenweresoakin,soneareachother,thattheslightestgesture,thetoneofvoice,toldbothmorethancouldbesaidinwords。
Bothofthemnowhadonlyonethought-theillnessofNikolaiandthenearnessofhisdeath-whichstifledallelse。Butneitherofthemdaredspeakofit,andso,whatevertheysaid-withoututteringtheonethoughtthatfilledtheirminds-wasallfalsehood。NeverhadLevinbeensogladwhentheeveningwasoveranditwastimetogotobed。Neverwithanyoutsideperson,neveronanyofficialvisit,hadhebeensounnaturalandfalseashewasthatevening。Andtheconsciousnessofthisunnaturalness,andtheremorsehefeltatit,madehimevenmoreunnatural。Hewantedtoweepoverhisdying,dearlylovedbrother,andhehadtolistenandkeepontalkingofhowhemeanttolive。
Asthehousewasdamp,andonlytheonebedroomhadbeenkeptheated,Levinputhisbrothertosleepinhisownbedroom,behindapartition。
Hisbrothergotintobed,andwhetherhesleptordidnotsleep,tossedaboutlikeasickman,coughed,andwhenhecouldnotgethisthroatclear,mumbledsomething。Sometimeswhenhisbreathingwaspainful,hesaid,`Oh,myGod!’Sometimeswhenhewaschokinghemutteredangrily,`Ah,thedevil!’Levincouldnotsleepforalongwhile,hearinghim。Histhoughtswereofthemostvariouskinds,buttheendofallhisthoughtswasthesame-death。
Death,theinevitableendofall,forthefirsttimepresenteditselftohimwithirresistibleforce。Anddeath,whichwashereinthislovedbrother,groaninghalf-asleepandfromhabitcallingwithoutdistinctiononGodandthedevil,wasnotsoremoteasithadhithertoseemedtohim。Itwasinhimself,too,thathefeltthis。Ifnottoday,tomorrow;ifnottomorrow,inthirtyyears-wasn’titallthesame?Andwhatwasthisinevitabledeath-hedidnotknow,hadneverthoughtaboutit,and,whatwasmore,hadnotthepower,hadnotthecouragetothinkaboutit。
`Iwork,Iwanttodosomething,butIhadforgottenitmustallend;Ihadforgotten-death。’
Hesatonhisbedinthedarkness,crouchedup,hugginghisknees,and,holdinghisbreathfromthestrainofthought,hepondered。Butthemoreintenselyhethought,thecleareritbecametohimthatitwasindubitablyso,that,inreality,lookinguponlife,hehadforgottenonelittlefact-thatdeathwillcome,andallends;thatnothingwasevenworthbeginning,andthattherewasnohelpingitanyway。Yes,itwasawful,butitwasso。
`ButIamalivestill。What’stobedonenow-what’stobedone?’heaskedindespair。Helightedacandle,gotupcautiously,wenttothelookingglass,andbeganlookingathisfaceandhair。Yes,thereweregrayhairsabouthistemples。Heopenedhismouth。Hisbackteethwerebeginningtodecay。Hebaredhismusculararms。Yes,therewasstrengthinthem。ButNikolenka,wholaytherebreathingwithwhatwasleftofhislungs,hadhadastrong,healthybodytoo。Andsuddenlyherecalledhowtheyusedtogotobedtogetheraschildren,andhowtheyonlywaitedtillFiodorBogdanichwasoutoftheroomtoflingpillowsateachotherandlaugh,laughirrepressibly,sothateventheiraweofFiodorBogdanichcouldnotchecktheeffervescing,overbrimmingsenseoflifeandhappiness。`Andnowthatwarped,hollowchest……AndI,notknowingwhatwillbecomeofme,orwherefore……’
`K-ha!K-ha!Damnation!Whydoyoukeepfidgeting-whydon’tyougotosleep?’hisbrother’svoicecalledtohim。
`Oh,Idon’tknow;I’mnotsleepy。’
`Ihavehadagoodsleep,I’mnotinasweatnow。Justsee,feelmyshirt-there’snosweat,isthere?’
Levinfeltit,withdrewbehindthepartition,andputoutthecandle,butforalongwhilehecouldnotsleep。Thequestionhowtolivehadhardlybeguntogrowalittleclearertohim,whenanew,insolvablequestionpresenteditself-death。
`Why,he’sdying-yes,he’lldieinthespring;andhowisonetohelphim?WhatcanIsaytohim?WhatdoIknowaboutit?I’devenforgottentheveryfactofit。’
Levinhadlongbeforemadetheobservationthatwhenoneisuncomfortablewithpeoplefromtheirbeingexcessivelyamenableandmeek,oneisaptverysoonaftertofindthingsintolerablefromtheirpretensionsandirritability。Hefeltthatthiswashowitwouldbewithhisbrother。AndhisbrotherNikolai’sgentlenessdidnot,infact,lastoutforlong。Theverynextmorninghebegantobeirritable,andseemeddoinghisbesttofindfaultwithhisbrother,attackinghimonhistenderestpoints。
Levinfelthimselftoblame,andcouldnotsetthingsright。Hefeltthatiftheyhadbothnotkeptupappearances,buthadspoken,asitiscalled,fromtheheart-thatistosay,hadsaidonlyjustwhattheywerethinkingandfeeling-theywouldsimplyhavelookedintoeachother’sfaces,andKonstantincouldonlyhavesaid:`You’redying,you’redying,’andNikolaicouldonlyhaveanswered:`IknowI’mdying,butI’mafraid,I’mafraid,I’mafraid!’Andtheycouldhavesaidnothingmore,iftheyhadsaidonlywhatwasintheirhearts。Butlifelikethatwasimpossible,andsoKonstantintriedtodowhathehadbeentryingtodoallhislife,andnevercouldlearntodo,though,asfarashecouldobserve,manypeopleknewsowellhowtodoit,andwithoutittherewasnolivingatall。Hetriedtosaywhathewasnotthinking,buthefeltcontinuallythatithadaringoffalsehood,thathisbrotherdetectedhiminit,andwasexasperatedatit。
ThethirddayNikolaiinducedhisbrothertoexplainhisplantohimagain,andbegannotmerelyattackingit,butintentionallyconfoundingitwithcommunism。
`You’vesimplyborrowedanideathat’snotyourown,butyou’vedistortedit,andaretryingtoapplyitwhereit’snotapplicable。’
`ButItellyouthere’snothingincommon。Theydenythejusticeofproperty,ofcapital,ofinheritance,whileIdonotdenythischiefstimulus。’Levinfeltdisgustedhimselfatusingsuchexpressions,buteversincehehadbeenengrossedbyhiswork,hehadunconsciouslycomemoreandmorefrequentlytousenon-Russianwords。`AllIwantistoregulatelabor。’
`Whichmeans,you’veborrowedanidea,strippeditofallthatgaveititsforce,andwanttomakebelievethatit’ssomethingnew,’saidNikolai,angrilytuggingathisnecktie。
`Butmyideahasnothingincommon……’
`Theother,atanyrate,’saidNikolaiLevin,withanironicalsmile,hiseyesflashingmalignantly,`hasthecharmof-what’sonetocallit?-geometricalsymmetry,ofclearness,ofdefiniteness。ItmaybeaUtopia。Ifoneonceallowsthepossibilityofmakingallthepastatabularasa-noproperty,nofamily-thenlaborwouldorganizeitself。Butyouhavenothing……’
`Whydoyoumixthingsup?I’veneverbeenacommunist。’
`ButIhave,andIconsiderit’spremature,butrational,andithasafuture,justlikeChristianityinitsfirstages。’
`AllthatImaintainisthatthelaborforceoughttobeinvestigatedfromthepointofviewofnaturalscience;thatistosay,itoughttobestudied,itsqualitiesascertained……’
`Butthat’sanutterwasteoftime。Thatforcefindsacertainformofactivityofitself,accordingtothestageofitsdevelopment。Therehavebeenslavesfirst,everywhere;thenmetayers;andwehavethemetayagesystem,rent,anddaylaborers。Whatareyoutryingtofind?’
Levinsuddenlylosthistemperatthesewords,becauseatthebottomofhishearthewasafraidthatitwastrue-truethathewastryingtoholdthebalanceevenbetweencommunismandthefamiliarforms,andthatthiswashardlypossible。
`Iamtryingtofindmeansofworkingproductivelyformyselfandforthelaborers。Iwanttoorganize……’heansweredhotly。
`Youdon’twanttoorganizeanything;it’ssimplythesameasyou’vebeenallyourlife-youwanttobeoriginal,toposeasnotsimplyexploitingthepeasants,butwithsomeideainview。’
`Oh,allright,that’swhatyouthink-andletmealone!’answeredLevin,feelingthemusclesofhisleftcheektwitchinguncontrollably。
`You’veneverhad,andneverhave,convictions;allyouwantistopleaseyourvanity。’
`Oh,verywell;letmealonethen!’
`AndIwillletyoualone!Andit’shightimeIdid,andgotothedevilwithyou!AndI’mverysorryIevercame!’
InspiteofallLevin’seffortstosoothehisbrotherafterward,Nikolaiwouldlistentonothinghesaid,declaringthatitwasbettertopart,andKonstantinsawthatitwassimplyacaseoflifebeingunbearabletohim。
Nikolaiwasjustgettingreadytogo,whenKonstantinwentintohimagainandbeggedhim,ratherunnaturally,toforgivehimifhehadhurthisfeelingsinanyway。
`Ah,generosity!’saidNikolai,andhesmiled。`Ifyouwanttoberight,Icangiveyouthatsatisfaction。You’reintheright;butI’mgoingallthesame。’
ItwasonlyjustatpartingthatNikolaikissedhim,andsaid,lookingwithsuddenstrangenessandseriousnessathisbrother:
`Anyway,don’trememberevilagainstme,Kostia!’andhisvoicequavered。
Theseweretheonlywordsthathadbeenspokensincerelybetweenthem。Levinknewthatthosewordsmeant,`Yousee,andyouknow,thatI’minabadway,andmaybeweshallneverseeeachotheragain。’Levinknewthis,andthetearsgushedfromhiseyes。Hekissedhisbrotheroncemore,buthecouldnotspeak,andknewnotwhattosay。
Twodaysafterhisbrother’sdeparture,Levintoosetoffforhisforeigntour。HappeningtomeetShcherbatsky,Kitty’scousin,intherailwaytrain,Levingreatlyastonishedhimbyhisdepression。
`What’sthematterwithyou?’Shcherbatskyaskedhim。
`Oh,nothing;there’snotmuchhappinessinlife。’
`Notmuch?YoucomewithmetoParisinsteadoftoMulhouse。Youshallseehowtobehappy。’
`No,I’vedonewithitall。It’stimeIwasdead。’
`Well,that’sagoodone!’saidShcherbatsky,laughing,`why,I’monlyjustgettingreadytobegin。’
`Yes,Ithoughtthesamenotlongago,butnowIknowIshallsoonbedead。’
Levinsaidwhathehadgenuinelybeenthinkingoflate。Hesawnothingbutdeath,oranapproachtodeathineverything。Buthischerishedschemeonlyengrossedhimthemore。Lifehadtobegotthroughsomehow,tilldeathdidcome。Darknesshadfallenuponeverythingforhim;butjustbecauseofthisdarknesshefeltthattheoneguidingclueinthedarknesswashiswork,andheclutchedit,andclungtoitwithallhisstrength。
TheKarenins,husbandandwife,continuedlivinginthesamehouse,meteveryday,butwerecompletestrangerstooneanother。AlexeiAlexandrovichmadeitaruletoseehiswifeeveryday,sothattheservantsmighthavenogroundsforsuppositions,butavoideddiningathome。VronskywasneveratAlexeiAlexandrovich’shouse,butAnnasawhimawayfromhome,andherhusbandwasawareofit。
Thepositionwasoneoftortureforallthree;andnotoneofthemwouldhavebeenequaltoenduringthispositionforasingleday,haditnotbeenfortheexpectationthatitwouldchange,thatitwasmerelyatemporarypainfuldifficultywhichwouldpassover。AlexeiAlexandrovichhopedthatthispassionwouldpass,aseverythingdoespass,thateveryonewouldforgetaboutit,andhisnamewouldremainunsullied。Anna,onwhomthepositiondepended,andforwhomitwasmorepoignantthanforanyother,endureditbecauseshenotmerelyhoped,butfirmlybelieved,thatitwouldallverysoonbesettledandcomeright。Shehadnottheleastideawhatwouldsettlethesituation,butshefirmlybelievedthatsomethingwouldnowverysoonturnup。Vronskyunaccountablyfollowedherlead,hopingtoothatsomething,independentofhim,wouldbesuretoclearupalldifficulties。
InthemiddleofthewinterVronskyspentaverytiresomeweek。AforeignPrince,whohadcomeonavisittoPeterburg,wasputunderhischarge,andhehadtoshowhimthesightsworthseeing。Vronskywasofdistinguishedappearance;hepossessed,moreover,theartofbehavingwithrespectfuldignity,andwasusedtohavingtodowithsuchgrandpersonages-thatwashowhecametobeputinchargeofthePrince。Buthefelthisdutiestobeveryirksome。ThePrincewasanxioustomissnothingaboutwhichhewouldbeaskedathome:HadheseenthisandthatinRussia?AndonhisownaccounthewasanxioustoenjoytotheutmostallRussianformsofamusement。Vronskywasobligedtobehisguideinsatisfyingboththeseinclinations。Themorningstheyspentdrivingtolookatplacesofinterest:theeveningstheypassedenjoyingthenationalamusements。TheprinceenjoyedahealthexceptionalevenamongPrinces。Bygymnasticsandcarefulattentiontohispersonhehadbroughthimselftosuchapointthatinspiteofhisexcessesinpleasurehelookedasfreshasabig,glossy,greenDutchcucumber。ThePrincehadtraveledagreatdeal,andconsideredoneofthechiefadvantagesofmodernfacilitiesofcommunicationtheaccessibilityofthepleasuresofallnations。HehadbeeninSpain,andtherehadindulgedinserenades,andhadmadefriendswithaSpanishgirlwhoplayedthemandolin。InSwitzerlandhehadkilledchamois。InEnglandhehadgallopedinaredcoatoverhedgesandkilledtwohundredpheasantsonabet。InTurkeyhehadgotintoaharem;inIndiahehadtraveledonanelephant;andnow,inRussia,hewishedtotasteallthepeculiarlyRussianformsofpleasure。
Vronsky,whowas,asitwere,chiefmasteroftheceremoniestohim,wasatgreatpainstodistributealltheRussianamusementssuggestedbyvariouspersonstothePrince。Theyhadracehorses,andRussianpancakesandbearhunts,andtroikas,andgypsychoruses,anddrinkingorgies,withtheRussianaccompanimentofbrokencrockery。AndthePrince,withsurprisingease,fellinwiththeRussianspirit;hesmashedtraysfullofcrockery,satwithagypsygirlonhisknee,andseemedtobeasking:Whatmore?OrdoesthewholeRussianspiritconsistinjustthis?
Inreality,ofalltheRussianentertainmentsthePrincelikedbestFrenchactresses,aballetdancer,andwhite-sealchampagne。VronskywasusedtoPrinces,but,eitherbecausehehadhimselfchangedoflate,orthathewasintoocloseproximitytothePrince,thatweekseemedfearfullywearisometohim。Thewholeofthatweekheexperiencedunceasinglyasensationsuchasamanmighthavewhohasbeenputinchargeofadangerousmadman,whoisafraidofthemadman,and,atthesametime,frombeingwithhim,fearsforhisownreason。Vronskywascontinuallyconsciousofthenecessityofneverforasecondrelaxingthetoneofsternofficialrespectfulness,sothathemightnothimselfbeinsulted。ThePrince’smanneroftreatingtheverypeoplewho,toVronsky’ssurprise,werereadytodescendtoanydepthstoprovidehimwithRussianamusements,wascontemptuous。HiscriticismsofRussianwomen,whomhewishedtostudy,morethanoncemadeVronskycrimsonwithindignation。ThechiefreasonwhythePrincewassoparticularlydisagreeabletoVronskywasthathecouldnothelpseeinghimselfinhim。Andwhathesawinthismirrordidnotgratifyhisself-esteem。Hewasaverystupidandaveryself-satisfiedandaveryhealthyandaverywell-washedman,andnothingelse。Hewasagentleman,itwastrue,andVronskycouldnotdenyit。Hewasequableandnotcringingwithhissuperiors,wasfreeandingratiatinginhisbehaviorwithhisequals,andwascontemptuouslyindulgentwithhisinferiors。Vronskywashimselfthesame,andregardeditasagreatmerittobeso。ButtothisPrincehewasaninferior,andhiscontemptuousandindulgentattitudetohimrevoltedhim。
`Brainlessbeef!CanIbelikethat?’hereflected。
Bethatasitmight,when,ontheseventhday,hepartedfromthePrince,whowasstartingforMoscow,andreceivedhisthanks,hewashappytoberidofhisuncomfortablepositionandtheunpleasantreflectionofhimself。Hesaidgood-bytohimatthestation,ontheirreturnfromabearhunt,atwhichtheyhadhadadisplayofRussianderring-dokeptupallnight。
Whenhegothome,VronskyfoundthereanotefromAnna。Shewrote:`Iamillandunhappy。Icannotcomeout,yetcannotgoonlongerwithoutseeingyou。Comeinthisevening。AlexeiAlexandrovichgoestotheCouncilatsevenandwillbetheretillten。’Afteraminute’sreflectiononthestrangenessofherbiddinghimcomestraighttoher,inspiteofherhusband’sinsistingonhernotreceivinghim,hedecidedtogo。
Vronskyhadthatwintergothispromotion,wasnowacolonel,hadlefttheregiment,andwaslivingalone。Afterhavingsomelunch,helaydownonthesofaimmediately,andinfiveminutesmemoriesofthehideoussceneshehadwitnessedduringthelastfewdayswerejumbledandjoinedtoamentalimageofAnnaandofthepeasant,oneoftheencompassingpeople,whohadplayedanimportantpartinthebearhunt,andVronskyfellasleep。Hewakedupinthedark,tremblingwithhorror,andmadehastetolightacandle。`Whatwasit?What?WhatwasthedreadfulthingIdreamed?Yes,yes;thepeasantbearhunter,Ithink;alittledirtymanwithadisheveledbeardwasstoopingdowndoingsomething,andallofasuddenhebegansayingsomestrangewordsinFrench。Yes,therewasnothingelseinthedream,’hesaidtohimself。`Butwhywasitsoawful?’HevividlyrecalledthepeasantagainandthoseincomprehensibleFrenchwordsthepeasanthaduttered,andachillofhorrorrandownhisspine。
`Whatnonsense!’thoughtVronsky,andglancedathiswatch。
Itwashalf-pasteightalready。Heranguphisservant,dressedinhaste,andwentoutonthesteps,completelyforgettingthedreamandonlyworriedatbeinglate。AshedroveuptotheKarenins’entrancehelookedathiswatchandsawitwastenminutestonine。Ahigh,narrowcarriagewithapairofgrayswasstandingattheentrance。HerecognizedAnna’scarriage。`Sheiscomingtome,’thoughtVronsky,`andbettersheshould。Idon’tlikegoingintothathouse。Butnomatter;Ican’thidemyself,’hethought,andwiththatmannerpeculiartohimfromchildhood,asofamanwhohasnothingtobeashamedof,Vronskygotoutofhissleighandwenttothedoor。Thedooropened,andthehallporterwitharugonhisarmcalledthecarriage。Vronsky,thoughhedidnotusuallynoticedetails,noticedatthismomenttheamazedexpressionwithwhichtheporterglancedathim。IntheverydoorwayVronskyalmostranupagainstAlexeiAlexandrovich。Thegasjetthrewitsfulllightonthebloodless,sunkenfaceundertheblackhat,andonthewhitecravat,brilliantagainstthebeaverofthecoat。Karenin’sfixed,dulleyeswerefasteneduponVronsky’sface。Vronskybowed,andAlexeiAlexandrovich,chewinghislips,liftedhishandtohishatandwenton。Vronskysawhimgetintothecarriagewithoutlookingback,receivetherugandtheoperaglassesthroughthewindow,anddisappear。Vronskywentintothehall。Hisbrowswerescowling,andhiseyesgleamedwithaproudandangrylightinthem。
`Whatasituation!’hethought。`Ifhewouldfight,wouldstandupforhishonor,Icouldact,couldexpressmyfeelings;butthisweaknessorbaseness……Heputsmeinthepositionofplayingfalse,whichInevermeantandnevermeantodo。’
Vronsky’sideashadchangedsincethedayofhisconversationwithAnnaintheVredegarden。UnconsciouslyyieldingtotheweaknessofAnna-whohadsurrenderedherselfuptohimutterly,andsimplylookedtohimtodecideherfate,readytosubmittoanything-hehadlongceasedtothinkthattheirliaisonmightendashehadthoughtthen。Hisambitiousplanshadretreatedintothebackgroundagain,andfeelingthathehadgotoutofthatcircleofactivityinwhicheverythingwasdefinite,hehadgivenhimselfupentirelytohispassion,andthatpassionwasbindinghimmoreandmorecloselytoher。
Hewasstillinthehallwhenhecaughtthesoundofherretreatingfootsteps。Herealizedshehadbeenexpectinghim,hadlistenedforhim,andwasnowgoingbacktothedrawingroom。
`No,’shecried,onseeinghim,andatthefirstsoundofhervoicethetearscameintohereyes。`No;ifthingsaretogoonlikethis,theendwillcomemuch,muchtoosoon。’
`Whatisit,dearone?’
`What?I’vebeenwaitinginagonyforanhour,twohours……No,Iwon’t……Ican’tquarrelwithyou。Ofcourseyoucouldn’tcome。No,Iwon’t。’
Shelaidhertwohandsonhisshoulders,andlookedalongwhileathimwithaprofound,passionate,and,atthesametime,searchinglook。Shewasstudyinghisfacetomakeupforthetimeshehadnotseenhim。Shewas,everytimeshesawhim,makingthepictureofhiminherimaginationincomparablysuperior,impossibleinrealityfitwithhimashereallywas。
`Youmethim?’sheasked,whentheyhadsatdownatthetableinthelamplight。`You’repunished,yousee,forbeinglate。’
`Yes;buthowwasit?Wasn’thetobeattheCouncil?’
`Hehadbeenandcomeback,andwasgoingoutsomewhereagain。Butthatdoesn’tmatter。Don’ttalkaboutit。Wherehaveyoubeen?WiththePrincestill?’
Shekneweverydetailofhisexistence。Hewasgoingtosaythathehadbeenupallnightandhaddroppedasleep,butlookingatherthrilledandrapturousface,hewasashamed。AndhesaidhehadhadtoreportonthePrince’sdeparture。
`Butit’sovernow?Heisgone?’
`ThankGodit’sover!Youwouldn’tbelievehowinsufferableit’sbeenforme。’
`Whyso?Isn’titthelifeallofyou-allyoungmen-alwayslead?’shesaid,knittingherbrows;and,takingupthecrochetworkthatwaslyingonthetable,shebegandrawingthehookoutofit,withoutlookingatVronsky。
`Igavethatlifeuplongago,’saidhe,wonderingatthechangeinherface,andtryingtodivineitsmeaning。`AndIconfess,’hesaid,withasmile,showinghisthick,whiteteeth,`thisweekI’vebeen,asitwere,lookingatmyselfinaglass,seeingthatlife,andIdidn’tlikeit。’
Sheheldtheworkinherhands,butdidnotcrochet,andlookedathimwithstrange,shining,andhostileeyes。
`ThismorningLizacametoseeme-they’renotafraidtocallonme,inspiteoftheCountessLidiaIvanovna,’sheputin-`andshetoldmeaboutyourAthenianevening。Howloathsome!’
`Iwasjustgoingtosay……’
Sheinterruptedhim。
`ItwasthatThérèseyouusedtoknow?’
`Iwasjustsaying……’
`Howdisgustingyouare,youmen!Howisityoucan’tunderstandthatawomancanneverforgetthat,’shesaid,gettingmoreandmoreangry,andsolettinghimseethecauseofherirritation,`especiallyawomanwhocannotknowyourlife?WhatdoIknow?WhathaveIeverknown?’shesaid。`Onlywhatyoutellme。AndhowdoIknowwhetheryoutellmethetruth?……’
`Anna,youhurtme。Don’tyoutrustme?Haven’tItoldyouthatIhaven’tathoughtIwouldn’tlaybaretoyou?’
`Yes,yes,’shesaid,evidentlytryingtosuppressherjealousthoughts。`ButifonlyyouknewhowwretchedIam!Ibelieveyou,Ibelieveyou……Whatwereyousaying?’
Buthecouldnotatoncerecallwhathehadbeengoingtosay。Thesefitsofjealousy,whichoflatehadbeenmoreandmorefrequentwithher,horrifiedhim,andhowevermuchhetriedtodisguisethefact,madehimfeelcoldtoher,althoughheknewthecauseofherjealousywasherloveforhim。Howoftenhehadtoldhimselfthatherlovewashappiness;andnowshelovedhimasawomancanlovewhenlovehasoutweighedforherallthegoodthingsoflife-andhewasmuchfurtherfromhappinessthanwhenhehadfollowedherfromMoscow。Thenhehadthoughthimselfunhappy,buthappinesswasbeforehim;nowhefeltthatthebesthappinesswasalreadyleftbehind。Shewasutterlyunlikewhatshehadbeenwhenhefirstsawher。Bothmorallyandphysicallyshehadchangedfortheworse。Shehadbroadenedoutallover,andinherfaceatthetimewhenshewasspeakingoftheactresstherewasanevilexpressionofhatredthatdistortedit。Helookedatherasamanlooksatafadedflowerhehasgathered,withdifficultyrecognizinginitthebeautyforwhichhepickedandruinedit。Andinspiteofthishefeltthatthen,whenhislovewasstronger,hecould,ifhehadgreatlywishedit,havetornthatloveoutofhisheart;butnowwhen,asatthismomentitseemedtohimhefeltnoloveforher,heknewthathisbondwithhercouldnotbebroken。
`Well,well,whatwasityouweregoingtosayaboutthePrince?Ihavedrivenawaythefiend,Ihave,’sheadded。Thefiendwasthenametheyhadgivenherjealousy。`WhatdidyoubegintotellmeaboutthePrince?Whydidyoufinditsotiresome?’
`Oh,itwasintolerable!’hesaid,tryingtopickupthethreadofhisinterruptedthought。`Hedoesnotimproveoncloseracquaintance。Ifyouwanthimdefined,hereheis:aprime,well-fedanimal,suchastakesmedalsatthecattleshows,andnothingmore,’hesaid,withatoneofvexationthatinterestedher。
`No;howso?’shereplied。`He’sseenagreatdeal,anyway;he’scultured?’
`It’sanutterlydifferentculture-theirculture。He’scultivated,onesees,simplytobeabletodespiseculture,astheydespiseeverythingbutanimalpleasures。’
`Butdon’tyouallcarefortheseanimalpleasures?’shesaid,andagainhenoticedadarklookinhereyesthatavoidedhim。
`Howisityou’redefendinghim?’hesaid,smiling。
`I’mnotdefendinghim,it’snothingtome;butIimagine,ifyouhadnotcaredforthosepleasuresyourself,youmighthavegotoutofthem。ButitaffordsyousatisfactiontogazeatThérèseintheattireofEve……’
`Again-againthedevil,’Vronskysaid,takingthehandshehadlaidonthetableandkissingit。
`Yes;butIcan’thelpit。Youdon’tknowwhatIhavesufferedwaitingforyou。IbelieveI’mnotjealous。I’mnotjealous:Ibelieveyouwhenyou’rehere,nearme;butwhenyou’reawaysomewhereleadingyourlifealone,soincomprehensibletome……’
Sheturnedawayfromhim,pulledthehookatlastoutofthecrochetwork,andrapidlywiththehelpofherforefinger,beganworkingloopafterloopofthewoolthatwasdazzlinglywhiteinthelamplight,whiletheslenderwristmovedswiftly,nervouslyinitsembroideredcuff。
`Howwasit,then?WheredidyoumeetAlexeiAlexandrovich?’Hervoicesoundedinanunnaturalandjarringtone。
`Weranagainsteachotherinthedoorway。’
`Andhebowedtoyoulikethis?’
Shedrewalongface,andhalf-closinghereyes,quicklytransformedherexpression,foldedherhands,andVronskysuddenlysawinherbeautifulfacetheveryexpressionwithwhichAlexeiAlexandrovichhadbowedtohim。Hesmiled,whileshelaughedgaily,withthatsweet,deeplaugh,whichwasoneofhergreatestcharms。
`Idon’tunderstandhimintheleast,’saidVronsky。`Ifafteryouravowaltohimatyoursummervillahehadbrokenwithyou,ifhehadchallengedme……ButthisIcan’tunderstand。Howcanheputupwithsuchaposition?Hefeelsit,that’sevident。’
`He?’shesaidsneeringly。`He’sperfectlysatisfied。’
`Whatareweallmiserablefor,wheneverythingmightbesowell?’
`Exceptforhim。Don’tIknowhim-thefalsityinwhichhe’sutterlysteeped?……Couldone,withanyfeeling,liveasheislivingwithme?Heunderstandsnothing,andfeelsnothing。Couldamanofanyfeelingliveinthesamehousewithhisunfaithfulwife?Couldhetalktoher,callher``mydear’?’
Andagainshecouldnothelpmimickinghim:`Anna,machère;Anna,dear!’
`He’snotaman,notahumanbeing-he’samannikin!Nooneknowshim;butIknowhim。Oh,ifI’dbeeninhisplace,I’dlongagohavekilled,havetorntopiecesawifelikeme。Iwouldn’thavesaid,``Anna,machère’!He’snotaman,he’saministerialmachine。Hedoesn’tunderstandthatI’myourwife,thathe’soutside,thathe’ssuperfluous……Don’tlet’stalkofhim!……’
`You’reunfair,veryunfair,dearest,’saidVronsky,tryingtosootheher。`Butnevermind,don’tlet’stalkofhim。Tellmewhatyou’vebeendoing。Whatisthematter?Whyareyouunwell,andwhatdidthedoctorsay?’
Shelookedathimwithmockingamusement。Evidentlyshehadhitonotherabsurdandgrotesqueaspectsinherhusbandandwasawaitingthemomenttogiveexpressiontothem。
Buthewenton:
`Iimaginethatit’snotillness,butyourcondition。Whenwillitbe?’
Theironicallightdiedawayinhereyes,butadifferentsmile,aconsciousnessofsomething,hedidnotknowwhat,andofquietmelancholy,cameoverherface。
`Soon,soon。Yousaythatourpositionismiserable,thatwemustputanendtoit。Ifyouknewhowterribleitistome-whatIwouldgivetobeabletoloveyoufreelyandunafraid!Ishouldnottorturemyselfandtortureyouwithmyjealousy……Anditwillcomesoon,butnotasweexpect。’
Andatthethoughtofhowitwouldcome,sheseemedsopitiabletoherselfthattearscameintohereyes,andshecouldnotgoon。Shelaidonhissleeveherhand,shiningwithitswhitenessanditsringsinthelamplight。
`Itwon’tcomeaswesuppose。Ididn’tmeantosaythistoyou,butyou’vemademe。Soon,soon,allwillbeover,andweshallall,allbeatpeace,andsuffernomore。’
`Idon’tunderstand,’hesaid,understandingher。
`Youaskedwhen?Soon。AndIshan’tlivethroughit。Don’tinterruptme!’andshemadehastetospeak。`Iknowit;Iknowforcertain。Ishalldie;andI’mverygladIshalldie,andreleasemyselfandyou。’
Tearsdroppedfromhereyes;hebentdownoverherhandandbegankissingit,tryingtohidehisemotion,which,heknew,hadnosortofgrounds,thoughhecouldnotcontrolit。
`Yes,it’sbetterso,’shesaid,tightlygrippinghishand。`That’stheonlyway-theonlywayleftus。’
Hehadrecoveredhimself,andliftedhishead。
`Howabsurd!Whatabsurdnonsenseyouaretalking!’
`No,it’sthetruth。’
`What-what’sthetruth?’
`ThatIshalldie。Ihavehadadream。’
`Adream?’repeatedVronsky,andinstantlyherecalledthepeasantofhisdream。
`Yes,adream,’shesaid。`It’salongwhilesinceIdreamedit。IdreamedthatIranintomybedroom,thatIhadtogetsomethingthere,tofindoutsomething;youknowhowitisindreams,’shesaid,hereyeswidewithhorror;`andinthebedroom,inthecorner,stoodsomething。’
`Oh,whatnonsense!Howcanyoubelieve……’
Butshewouldnotlethiminterrupther。Whatshewassayingwastooimportanttoher。
`Andthesomethingturnedround,andIsawitwasapeasantwithadisheveledbeard-alittleman,anddreadful。Iwantedtorunaway,buthebentdownoverasack,andwasfumblingtherewithhishands……’
Sheshowedhowhehadmovedhishands。Therewasterrorinherface。AndVronsky,rememberinghisdream,feltthesameterrorfillinghissoul。
`Hewasfumblingandkepttalkingquickly,quicklyinFrench,and,youknow,heburred:Ilfautlebattre,lefer,lebroyer,lepétrir……AndinmyhorrorItriedtowakeup,andwokeup……butwokeupinthedream。AndIbeganaskingmyselfwhatitmeant。AndKorneisaidtome:``Inchildbirthyou’lldie,ma’am,you’lldie……’AndIwokeup。’
`Whatnonsense,whatnonsense!’saidVronsky;buthefelthimselfthattherewasnoconvictioninhisvoice。
`Butdon’tlet’stalkofit。Ringthebell,I’llhavetea。Andstayalittle,now;it’snotlongIshall……’
Butallatonceshestopped。Theexpressionofherfaceinstantaneouslychanged。Horrorandexcitementweresuddenlyreplacedbyalookofsoft,solemn,blissfulattention。Hecouldnotcomprehendthemeaningofthechange。Shewaslisteningtothestirringofthenewlifewithinher。
AlexeiAlexandrovich,aftermeetingVronskyonhisownsteps,drove,ashehadintended,totheItalianopera。Hesatthroughtwoactsthere,andsaweveryonehewantedtosee。Onreturninghome,hecarefullyscrutinizedthehatstand,andnoticingthattherewasnotamilitaryovercoatthere,hewent,asusual,tohisownroom。But,contrarytohisusualhabit,hedidnotgotobed;hewalkedupanddownhisstudytillthreeo’clockinthemorning。Thefeelingoffuriousangerwithhiswife,whowouldnotobservetheproprietiesandkeeptotheonestipulationhehadlaidonher-nottoreceiveherloverinherownhouse-gavehimnopeace。Shehadnotcompliedwithhisrequest,andhewasboundtopunishherandcarryouthisthreat-obtainadivorceandtakeawayhisson。Heknewallthedifficultiesconnectedwiththiscourse,buthehadsaidhewoulddoit,andnowhemustcarryouthisthreat。CountessLidiaIvanovnahadhintedthatthiswasthebestwayoutofhisposition,andoflatetheobtainingofdivorceshadbeenbroughttosuchapitchofperfectionthatAlexeiAlexandrovichsawapossibilityofovercomingtheformaldifficulties。Misfortunesnevercomesingly,andtheaffairsofthereorganizationofthenativetribes,andoftheirrigationofthelandsoftheZaraiskyprovince,hadbroughtsuchofficialworriesuponAlexeiAlexandrovichthathehadbeenoflateinacontinualstateofextremeirritability。
Hedidnotsleepthewholenight,andhisfurygrowinginasortofvast,arithmeticalprogression,reacheditshighestlimitsinthemorning。Hedressedinhaste,and,asthoughcarryinghiscupfullofwrath,andfearingtospillanyover,fearingtolosewithhiswraththeenergynecessaryfortheinterviewwithhiswife,hewentintoherroomdirectlyheheardshewasup。
Anna,whohadthoughtsheknewherhusbandsowell,wasamazedathisappearancewhenhewentintoher。Hisbrowwasloweringandhiseyesstareddarklybeforehim,avoidinghereyes;hismouthwastightlyandcontemptuouslyshut。Inhiswalk,inhisgestures,inthesoundofhisvoicetherewasadeterminationandfirmnesssuchashiswifehadneverseeninhim。Hewentintoherroom,and,withoutgreetingher,walkedstraightuptoherwritingtable,and,takingherkeys,openedadrawer。
`Whatdoyouwant?’shecried。
`Yourlover’sletters,’hesaid。
`They’renothere,’shesaid,shuttingthedrawer;butfromthatactionhesawhehadguessedright,androughlypushingawayherhand,hequicklysnatchedaportfolioinwhichheknewsheusedtoputhermostimportantpapers。Shetriedtopulltheportfolioaway,buthepushedherback。
`Sitdown!Ihavetospeaktoyou,’hesaid,puttingtheportfoliounderhisarm,andsqueezingitsotightlywithhiselbowthathisshoulderstoodup。
Amazedandintimidated,shegazedathiminsilence。
`ItoldyouthatIwouldnotallowyoutoreceiveyourloverinthishouse。’
`Ihadtoseehimto……’
Shestopped,notfindingareason。
`Idonotenterintothedetailsofwhyawomanwantstoseeherlover。’
`Imeant,Ionly……’shesaid,flushinghotly。Thiscoarsenessofhisangeredher,andgavehercourage。`Surelyyoumustfeelhoweasyitisforyoutoinsultme?’shesaid。
`Anhonestmanandanhonestwomanmaybeinsulted,buttotellathiefhe’sathiefissimplylaconstatationd’unfait。’
`Thiscrueltyissomethingnew-Ididnotknowinyou。’
`Youcallitcrueltyforahusbandtogivehiswifeliberty,givingherthehonorableprotectionofhisname,simplyontheconditionofobservingtheproprieties:isthatcruelty?’
`It’sworsethatcruel-it’sbase,ifyouwanttoknow!’Annacried,inarushofhatred,and,gettingup,shewasabouttoleavetheroom。
`No!’heshriekedinhisshrillvoice,whichpitchedanoteevenhigherthanusual,andhisbighandsclutchingherbythearmsoviolentlythatredmarkswereleftfromthebracelethewassqueezing,heforciblymadehersitdowninherplace。`Base!Ifyoucaretousethatword,whatisbaseistoforsakehusbandandchildforalover,whileyoueatyourhusband’sbread!’
Shebowedherhead。Shedidnotsaywhatshehadsaidtheeveningbeforetoherlover,thathewasherhusband,andherhusbandwassuperfluous;shedidnoteventhinkofthat。Shefeltallthejusticeofhiswords,andonlysaidsoftly:
`YoucannotdescribemypositionasworsethanIfeelittobemyself;butwhatareyousayingallthisfor?’
`WhatamIsayingitfor?Whatfor?’hewenton,asangrily。`Sothatyoumayknowthat,sinceyouhavenotcarriedoutmywishesinregardtoobservingoutwarddecorum,Iwilltakemeasurestoputanendtothisstateofthings。’
`Soon,verysoon,itwillend,anyway,’shesaid;andagain,atthethoughtofdeathnearathandandnowdesired,tearscameintohereyes。
`Itwillendsoonerthanyouandyourloverhaveplanned!Ifyoumusthavethesatisfactionofanimalpassion……’
`AlexeiAlexandrovich!Iwon’tsayit’snotgenerous,butit’snotlikeagentlemantostrikeanyonewho’sdown。’
`Yes,youonlythinkofyourself!Butthesufferingsofamanwhowasyourhusbandhavenointerestforyou。Youdon’tcarethathiswholelifeisruined,thatheisseff……seff……’
AlexeiAlexandrovichwasspeakingsoquicklythathebegantostammer,andwasutterlyunabletoarticulatetheword`suffering’。Intheendhepronouncedit`saffering’。Shewantedtolaugh,andwasimmediatelyashamedthatanythingcouldamuseheratsuchamoment。Andforthefirsttime,foraninstant,shefeltforhim,putherselfinhisplace,andwassorryforhim。Butwhatcouldshesayordo?Herheadsank,andshesatsilent。Hetoowassilentforsometime,andthenbeganspeakinginafrigid,lessshrillvoice,emphasizingrandomwordsthathadnospecialsignificance。
Icametotellyou……’hesaid。
Sheglancedathim。`No;itwasmyfancy,’shethought,recallingtheexpressionofhisfacewhenhestumbledovertheword`suffering。’`No;canamanwiththosedulleyes,withthatself-satisfiedcomplacency,feelanything?’
`Icannotchangeanything,’shewhispered。
`IhavecometotellyouthatIamgoingtomorrowtoMoscow,andshallnotreturnagaintothishouse,andyouwillreceivenoticeofwhatIdecidethroughthelawyerintowhosehandsIshallentrustthetaskofgettingadivorce。Mysonisgoingtomysister’s,’saidAlexeiAlexandrovich,withaneffortrecallingwhathehadmeanttosayabouthisson。
`YoutakeSeriozhatohurtme,’shesaid,lookingathimfromunderherbrows。`Youdonotlovehim……LeavemeSeriozha!’
`Yes,Ihavelostevenmyaffectionformyson,becauseheisassociatedwiththerepulsionIfeelforyou。ButstillIshalltakehim。Good-by!’
Andhewasgoingaway,butnowshedetainedhim。
`AlexeiAlexandrovich,leavemeSeriozha!’shewhisperedoncemore。`Ihavenothingelsetosay。LeaveSeriozhatillmy……Ishallsoonbeconfined;leavehim!’
AlexeiAlexandrovichflaredup,and,snatchinghishandfromher,hewentoutoftheroomwithoutaword。
ThewaitingroomofthecelebratedPeterburglawyerwasfullwhenAlexeiAlexandrovichenteredit。Threeladies-anoldlady,ayounglady,andamerchant’swife,andthreegentlemen-oneaGermanbankerwitharingonhisfinger,thesecondamerchantwithabeard,andthethirdawrathful-lookinggovernmentclerkinofficialuniform,withacrossonhisneck-hadobviouslybeenwaitingalongwhilealready。Twoclerkswerewritingattableswithscratchingpens。Theappurtenancesofthewritingtables,aboutwhichAlexeiAlexandrovichwashimselfveryfastidious,wereexceptionallygood。Hecouldnothelpobservingthis。Oneoftheclerks,withoutgettingup,turnedfretfullytoAlexeiAlexandrovich,half-closinghiseyes。
`Whatisityouwish?’
`Mybusinesshastodowiththelawyer。’
`Heisengaged,’theclerkrespondedseverely,andhepointedwithhispenatthepersonswaiting,andwentonwriting。
`Can’thesparetimetoseeme?’saidAlexeiAlexandrovich。
`Hehasnotimefree;heisalwaysbusy。Kindlywaityourturn。’
`ThenImusttroubleyoutogivehimmycard,’AlexeiAlexandrovichsaidwithdignity,seeingtheimpossibilityofpreservinghisincognito。
Theclerktookthecardand,obviouslynotapprovingofwhathereadonit,wenttothedoor。
AlexeiAlexandrovichwasinprincipleinfavorofthepublicityoflegalproceedings,thoughforsomehigherofficialconsiderationshedislikedtheapplicationoftheprincipleinRussia,anddisapprovedofit,asfarashecoulddisapproveofanythinginstitutedbyauthorityoftheEmperor。Hiswholelifehadbeenspentinadministrativework,andconsequently,whenhedidnotapproveofanything,hisdisapprovalwassoftenedbytherecognitionoftheinevitabilityofmistakesandthepossibilityofreformineverydepartment。Inthenewpubliclawcourtshedislikedtherestrictionslaidonthelawyersconductingcases。Buttillthenhehadhadnothingtodowiththelawcourts,andsohaddisapprovedoftheirpublicitysimplyintheory;nowhisdisapprobationwasstrengthenedbytheunpleasantimpressionmadeonhiminthelawyer’swaitingroom。
`Hewillbeoutrightaway,’saidtheclerk;andtwominuteslatertheredidactuallyappearinthedoorwaythelargefigureofanoldstudentofjurisprudencewhohadbeenconsultingwiththelawyer,andthelawyerhimself。
Thelawyerwasalittle,squat,baldman,withadark,reddishbeard,light-coloredlongeyebrows,andbeetlingbrow。Hewasattiredasthoughforawedding,fromhiscravattohisdoublewatchchainandpatent-leathershoes。Hisfacewascleverandrustic,buthisdresswasdandifiedandinbadtaste。
`Praywalkin,’saidthelawyer,addressingAlexeiAlexandrovich;and,gloomilyusheringKarenininbeforehim,heclosedthedoor。`Won’tyousitdown?’Heindicatedanarmchairatawritingtablecoveredwithpapers。Hesatdownhimself,and,rubbinghislittlehandswithshortfingerscoveredwithwhitehairs,hebenthisheadononeside。Butassoonashewassettledinthispositionamothflewoverthetable。Thelawyer,withaswiftnessthatcouldneverhavebeenexpectedofhim,openedhishands,caughtthemoth,andresumedhisformerattitude。
`Beforebeginningtospeakofmybusiness,’saidAlexeiAlexandrovich,followingthelawyer’smovementswithwonderingeyes,`IoughttoobservethatthematteraboutwhichIhavetospeaktoyouistobeasecret。’
Thelawyer’sdroopingreddishmustacheswerestirredbyascarcelyperceptiblesmile。
`IshouldnotbealawyerifIcouldnotkeepthesecretsconfidedtome。Butifyouwouldlikeproof……’
AlexeiAlexandrovichglancedathisface,andsawthattheshrewd,grayeyeswerelaughing,andseemedtoknowallaboutitalready。
`Youknowmyname?’AlexeiAlexandrovichresumed。
`Iknowyouandthegood’-againhecaughtamoth-`workyouaredoing,likeeveryRussian,’saidthelawyer,bowing。
AlexeiAlexandrovichsighed,pluckinguphiscourage。But,havingoncemadeuphismind,hewentoninhisshrillvoice,withouttimidityorhesitation,accentuatingawordhereandthere。
`Ihavethemisfortune,’AlexeiAlexandrovichbegan,`tobeadeceivedhusband,andIdesiretobreakoffallrelationswithmywifebylegalmeans-thatis,tobedivorced;butdothissothatmysonmaynotremainwithhismother。’
Thelawyer’sgrayeyestriednottolaugh,buttheyweredancingwithirrepressibleglee,andAlexeiAlexandrovichsawthatitwasnotsimplythedelightofamanwhohasjustgotaprofitablejob:therewastriumphandjoy,therewasagleamlikethemalignantgleamhehadseeninhiswife’seyes。
`Youdesiremyassistanceinsecuringadivorce?’
`Yes,precisely;butIoughttowarnyouthatImaybewastingyourtimeandattention。Ihavecomesimplytoconsultyouasapreliminarystep。Iwantadivorce,buttheformwhichitmaytakeisofgreatconsequencetome。ItisverypossiblethatifthatformdoesnotcorrespondwithmyrequirementsImaygiveupalegalaction。’
`Oh,that’salwaysthecase,’saidthelawyer,`andthat’salwaysforyoutodecide。’
HelethiseyesrestonAlexeiAlexandrovich’sfeet,feelingthathemightoffendhisclientbythesightofhisirrepressibleamusement。Helookedatamoththatflewbeforehisnose,andmovedhishand,butdidnotcatchitfromregardforAlexeiAlexandrovich’ssituation。
`Thoughintheirgeneralfeaturesourlawsonthissubjectareknowntome,’pursuedAlexeiAlexandrovich,`Ishouldbegladtohaveanideaoftheformsinwhichsuchthingsaredone,inpractice。’
`Youwouldbeglad,’thelawyer,withoutliftinghiseyes,responded,adopting,withacertainsatisfaction,thetoneofhisclient’sremarks,`formetolaybeforeyouallthemethodsbywhichyoucouldsecurewhatyoudesire?’
AndonreceivinganassentingnodfromAlexeiAlexandrovich,hewenton,stealingaglancenowandthenatAlexeiAlexandrovich’sface,whichwasgrowingredinpatches。
`Divorcebyourlaws,’hesaid,withaslightshadeofdisapprobationofourlaws,`ispossible,asyouareaware,inthefollowingcases……Towait!’hecalledtoaclerkwhoputhisheadinatthedoor,buthegotupallthesame,saidafewwordstohim,andsatdownagain。`Inthefollowingcases:physicaldefectinthemarriedparties,desertionwithoutcommunicationforfiveyears,’hesaid,crookingashortfingercoveredwithhair,`adultery’thiswordhepronouncedwithobvioussatisfaction,`subdividedasfollows’hecontinuedtocrookhisfatfingers,thoughthecasesandtheirsubdivisionscouldobviouslynotbeclassifiedtogether:`physicaldefectofthehusbandorofthewife,adulteryofthehusbandorofthewife。’Asbynowallhisfingerswereusedup,hestraightenedthemandwenton:`Thisisthetheoreticalview;butIimagineyouhavedonemethehonortoapplytomeinordertolearnitsapplicationinpractice。Andtherefore,guidedbyprecedents,Imustinformyouthatinpracticecasesofdivorcemayallbereducedtothefollowing-there’snophysicaldefect,Imayassume,nordesertion?……’
AlexeiAlexandrovichbowedhisheadinassent。
`Theymaybereducedtothefollowing:adulteryofoneofthemarriedparties,andthedetectioninthefactoftheguiltypartybymutualagreement,and,failingsuchagreement,accidentaldetection。Itmustbeadmittedthatthelattercaseisrarelymetwithinpractice,’saidthelawyer,andstealingaglanceatAlexeiAlexandrovichhepaused,asamansellingpistols,afterenlargingontheadvantagesofeachweapon,mightawaithiscustomer’schoice。ButAlexeiAlexandrovichsaidnothing,andthereforethelawyerwenton:`Themostusualandsimple,thesensiblecourse,Iconsider,isadulterybymutualconsent。Ishouldnotpermitmyselftoexpressitso,speakingwithamanofnoeducation,’hesaid,`butIimaginethattoyouthisiscomprehensible。’
AlexeiAlexandrovichwas,however,soperturbedthathedidnotimmediatelycomprehendallthereasonablenessofadulterybymutualconsent,andhiseyesexpressedthisuncertainty;butthelawyerpromptlycametohisassistance。
`Peoplecannotgoonlivingtogether-hereyouhaveafact。Andifbothareagreedaboutit,thedetailsandformalitiesbecomeamatterofnoimportance。Andatthesametimethisisthesimplestandmostcertainmethod。’
AlexeiAlexandrovichunderstoodfullynow。Buthehadreligiousscruples,whichhinderedtheexecutionofsuchaplan。
`Thatisoutofthequestioninthepresentcase,’hesaid。`Onlyonealternativeispossible:involuntarydetection,supportedbyletterswhichIhave。’
Atthementionoflettersthelawyerpurseduphislips,andgaveutterancetoathinlittlecompassionateandcontemptuoussound。
`Kindlyconsider,’hebegan,`casesofthatkindare,asyouareaware,underecclesiasticaljurisdiction;thereverendfathersarefondofgoingintotheminutestdetailsincasesofthatkind,’hesaid,withasmilewhichbetrayedhissympathywiththetasteofthereverendfathers。`Lettersmay,ofcourse,beapartialconfirmation;butdetectionintheacttheremustbeofthemostdirectkind-thatis,byeyewitnesses。Infact,ifyoudomethehonortotrustmewithyourconfidence,youwilldowelltoleavemethechoiceofthemeasurestobeemployed。Ifonewantstheresult,onemustallowthemeans。’
`Ifitisso……’AlexeiAlexandrovichbegan,suddenlyturningwhite;butatthatmomentthelawyerroseandagainwenttothedoortospeaktotheintrudingclerk。
`Tellherwedon’thaggleoverfees!’hesaid,andreturnedtoAlexeiAlexandrovich。
Onhiswaybackhecaught,unobserved,anothermoth。`Nicestatemyrepcurtainswillbeinbythesummer!’hethought,frowning。
`Andsoyouweresaying?……’hesaid。
`Iwillcommunicatemydecisiontoyoubyletter,’saidAlexeiAlexandrovich,gettingup,andheclutchedatthetable。Afterstandingamomentinsilence,hesaid:`FromyourwordsImayconsequentlyconcludethatadivorcemaybeobtained?Iwouldaskyoutoletmeknowwhatyourtermsare。’
`Itmaybeobtainedifyougivemecompletelibertyofaction,’saidthelawyer,withoutansweringhisquestion。`WhencanIcountonreceivingwordfromyou?’heaskedmovingtowardthedoor,hiseyesandhispatent-leathershoesshining。
`Inaweek’stime。Youwillbekindenoughtocommunicatetomeyouranswerastowhetheryouwillundertaketoconductthecase,andonwhatterms。’
`Verygood,sir。’
Thelawyerbowedrespectfully,lethisclientoutofthedoor,and,leftalone,gavehimselfuptohissenseofamusement。Hefeltsomirthfulthat,contrarytohisrule,hemadeareductioninhistermstothehagglinglady,andgaveupcatchingmoths,finallydecidingthatnextwinterhemusthavethefurniturecoveredwithvelvet,likeSigonin’s。