`Oblonsky’scarriage!’theportershoutedinanangrybass。Thecarriagedroveupandbothgotin。Itwasonlyforthefirstfewmoments,whilethecarriagewasdrivingoutoftheclubhousegates,thatLevinwasstillundertheinfluenceoftheclubatmosphereofrepose,comfort,andunimpeachablegoodform。Butassoonasthecarriagedroveoutintothestreet,andhefeltitjoltingovertheunevenroad,heardtheangryshoutofadrivercomingtowardthem,sawintheuncertainlighttheredblindofatavernandtheshops,thisimpressionwasdissipated,andhebegantothinkoverhisactions,andtowonderwhetherhewasdoingrightingoingtoseeAnna。WhatwouldKittysay?ButStepanArkadyevichgavehimnotimeforreflection,and,asthoughdivininghisdoubts,hedispersedthem。
  `HowgladIam,’hesaid,`thatyoushouldknowher!YouknowDollyhaslongwishedforit。AndLvov’sbeentoseeher,andoftengoes。Thoughsheismysister,’StepanArkadyevichpursued,`Idon’thesitatetosaythatshe’saremarkablewoman……Butyouwillsee。Herpositionisverypainful,especiallynow。’
  `Whyespeciallynow?’
  `Wearecarryingonnegotiationswithherhusbandaboutadivorce。Andhe’sagreed;buttherearedifficultiesinregardtotheson,andthebusiness,whichoughttohavebeenarrangedlongago,hasbeendraggingonforthreemonthspast。Assoonasthedivorceisover,shewillmarryVronsky。Howstupidtheseoldritualformsare-``Isaiah,rejoice!’-whichnoonebelievesin,andwhichonlypreventpeoplebeingcomfortable!’StepanArkadyevichputin。`Well,thentheirpositionwillbeasregularasmine,asyours。’
  `Whatisthedifficulty?’saidLevin。
  `Oh,it’salongandtediousstoryThewholebusinessisinsuchanindefinitestatewithus。Butthepointis,shehasbeenforthreemonthsinMoscow,whereeveryoneknowsher,waitingforthedivorce;shegoesoutnowhere,seesnowomanexceptDolly,because,doyouunderstand,shedoesn’tcaretohavepeoplecomeasafavor。ThatfoolPrincessVarvara,evenshehaslefther,consideringthisabreachofpropriety。Well,yousee,insuchapositionanyotherwomanwouldnothavefoundresourcesinherself。Butyou’llseehowshehasarrangedherlife-howcalm,howdignifiedsheis。Totheleft,inthealleyoppositethechurch!’shoutedStepanArkadyevich,leaningoutofthewindowofthecarriage。`Phew!Howhotitis!’hesaid,inspiteoftwelvedegreesoffrost,flingingopenhisunbuttonedovercoatstillmore。
  `Butshehasadaughter:nodoubtshe’sbusylookingafterher?’saidLevin。
  `Ibelieveyoupictureeverywomansimplyasafemale,unecouveuse,’saidStepanArkadyevich。`Ifshe’soccupied,itmustbewithherchildren。No,shebringsherupcapitally,Ibelieve,butonedoesn’thearabouther。She’sbusy,inthefirstplace,withwhatshewrites。Iseeyou’resmilingironically,butyou’rewrong。She’swritingachildren’sbook,anddoesn’ttalkaboutittoanyone,butshereadittomeandIgavethemanuscripttoVorkuev……youknow,thepublisher……Andhe’sanauthorhimselftoo,Ifancy。Heunderstandsthosethings,andhesaysit’saremarkablepieceofwork。Butareyoufancyingshe’sawritingwoman?Notabitofit。She’sawomanwithaheart,beforeeverything,butyou’llsee。NowshehasalittleEnglishgirlwithher,andawholefamilyshe’slookingafter。’
  `Oh,somethinginaphilanthropicway?’
  `Why,youwilllookateverythingintheworstlight。It’snotfromphilanthropy,it’sfromtheheart。They-thatis,Vronsky-hadatrainer,anEnglishman,first-rateinhisownline,butadrunkard。He’scompletelygivenuptodrink-deliriumtremens-andthefamilywerecastontheworld。Shesawthem,helpedthem,gotmoreandmoreinterestedinthem,andnowthewholefamilyisonherhands。Butnotbywayofpatronage,youknow,helpingwithmoney;she’sherselfpreparingtheboysinRussianforthehighschool,andshe’stakenthelittlegirltolivewithher。Butyou’llseeherforyourself。’
  Thecarriagedroveintothecourtyard,andStepanArkadyevichrangloudlyattheentrancewhereasleighwasstanding。
  And,withoutaskingtheservantwhoopenedthedoorwhethertheladywereathome,StepanArkadyevichwalkedintothehall。Levinfollowedhim,moreandmoredoubtfulwhetherheweredoingrightorwrong。
  Lookingathimselfintheglass,Levinnoticedthathewasredintheface,buthefeltcertainhewasnotdrunk,andhefollowedStepanArkadyevichupthecarpetedstairs。AtthetopStepanArkadyevichinquiredofthefootman,whobowedtohimastoanintimatefriend,whowaswithAnnaArkadyevna,andreceivedtheanswerthatitwasM。Vorkuev。
  `Wherearethey?’
  `Inthestudy。’
  Passingthroughthediningroom,aroomnotverylarge,withdarkpaneledwalls,StepanArkadyevichandLevinwalkedoverthesoftcarpettothehalf-darkstudy,lightedupbyasinglelampwithabigdarkshade。Anotherlampwithareflectorwashangingonthewall,lightingupabigfull-lengthportraitofawoman,whichLevincouldnothelplookingat。ItwastheportraitofAnna,paintedinItalybyMikhailov。WhileStepanArkadyevichwentbehindthetreillage,andtheman’svoicewhichhadbeenspeakingpaused,Levingazedattheportrait,whichstoodoutfromtheframeinthebrilliantlightthrownonit,andhecouldnottearhimselfawayfromit。Hepositivelyforgotwherehewas,andnotevenhearingwhatwassaid,hecouldnottakehiseyesoffthemarvelousportrait。Itwasnotapicture,butaliving,charmingwoman,withblackcurlinghair,withbarearmsandshoulders,withapensivesmileonthelips,coveredwithsoftdown;triumphantlyandsoftlyshelookedathimwitheyesthatbaffledhim。Shewasnotliving,onlybecauseshewasmorebeautifulthananylivingwomancanbe。
  `Iamdelighted。’Heheardsuddenlynearhimavoice,unmistakablyaddressinghim,thevoiceoftheverywomanhehadbeenadmiringintheportrait。Annahadcomefrombehindthetreillagetomeethim,andLevinsawinthedimlightofthestudytheverywomanoftheportrait,inadark-bluegownofchangeableblue,notinthesamepositionnorwiththesameexpression,butwiththesameperfectionofbeautywhichtheartisthadcaughtintheportrait。Shewaslessdazzlinginreality,but,ontheotherhand,therewassomethingfreshandseductiveinthelivingwomanwhichwasnotintheportrait。
  Shehadrisentomeethim,withoutconcealingherpleasureatseeinghim;andinthequieteasewithwhichsheheldoutherlittleandvigoroushand,introducedhimtoVorkuev,andindicatedared-haired,prettylittlegirlwhowassittingatwork,callingherherpupil,Levinrecognizedandlikedthemannersofawomanofthegreatworld,alwaysself-possessedandnatural。
  `Iamdelighted,delighted,’sherepeated,andonherlipsthesesimplewordstookforLevin’searsaspecialsignificance。`Ihaveknownyouandlikedyouforalongwhile,bothfromyourfriendshipwithStivaandforyourwife’ssake……Iknewherforaveryshorttime,butsheleftonmetheimpressionofanexquisiteflower-justaflower。Andtothinkshewillsoonbeamother!’
  Shespokeeasilyandwithouthaste,lookingnowandthenfromLevintoherbrother,andLevinfeltthattheimpressionhewasmakingwasgood,andhefeltimmediatelyathome,ateaseandhappywithher,asthoughhehadknownherfromchildhood。
  `IvanPetrovichandIsettledinAlexei’sstudy,’shesaidinanswertoStepanArkadyevich’squestionwhetherhemightsmoke,`justsoastobeabletosmoke’-andglancingatLevin,insteadofaskingwhetherhewouldsmoke,shepulledcloseratortoise-shellcigarettecaseandtookacorn-leafcigarette。
  `Howareyoufeelingtoday?’herbrotheraskedher。
  `Oh,nothing。Nerves,asusual。’
  `Yes,isn’titextraordinarilyfine?’saidStepanArkadyevich,noticingthatLevinwasglancingatthepicture。
  `Ihaveneverseenabetterportrait。’
  `Andextraordinarilylike,isn’tit?’saidVorkuev。
  Levinlookedfromtheportraittotheoriginal。ApeculiarbrilliancelightedupAnna’sfacewhenshefelthiseyesonher。Levinflushed,andtocoverhisconfusionwouldhaveaskedwhethershehadseenDaryaAlexandrovnalately;butatthatmomentAnnaspoke:
  `Wewerejusttalking,IvanPetrovichandI,ofVashchenkov’slastpictures。Haveyouseenthem?’
  `Yes,Ihaveseenthem,’answeredLevin。
  `But,Ibegyourpardon,Iinterruptedyou……Youweresaying?……’
  LevinaskedifshehadseenDollylately。
  `Shewashereyesterday。ShewasveryindignantwiththehighschoolpeopleonGrisha’saccount。TheLatinteacher,itseems,hadbeenunfairtohim。’
  `Yes,Ihaveseenhispictures。Ididn’tcareforthemverymuch,’Levinwentbacktothesubjectshehadstarted。
  Levintalkednownotatallwiththatpurelybusinesslikeattitudetothesubjectwithwhichhehadbeentalkingallthemorning。Everywordinhisconversationwithherhadaspecialsignificance。Andtalkingtoherwaspleasant;stillpleasanterwasittolistentoher。
  Annatalkednotmerelynaturallyandcleverly,butcleverlyandcarelessly,attachingnovaluetoherownideasandgivinggreatweighttotheideasofthepersonshewastalkingto。
  Theconversationturnedonthenewmovementinart,onthenewillustrationsoftheBiblebyaFrenchartist。Vorkuevattackedtheartistforarealismcarriedtothepointofcoarseness。LevinsaidthattheFrenchhadcarriedconventionalityfurtherthananyone,andthatconsequentlytheyseeagreatmeritinthereturntorealism。Inthefactofnotlyingtheyseepoetry。
  NeverhadanythingcleversaidbyLevingivenhimsomuchpleasureasthisremark。Anna’sfacelightedupatonce,assheimmediatelyappreciatedthethought。Shelaughed。
  `Ilaugh,’shesaid,`asonelaughswhenoneseesaverytrueportrait。WhatyousaidsoperfectlyhitsoffFrenchartnow,painting-andliteraturetoo,indeed-Zola,Daudet。Butperhapsitisalwaysso,thatmenformtheirconceptionsfromfictitious,conventionaltypes,andthen-allthecombinaisonsmade-theyaretiredofthefictitiousfiguresandbegintoinventmorenatural,truefigures。’
  `That’sperfectlytrue,’saidVorkuev。
  `Soyou’vebeenattheclub?’shesaidtoherbrother。
  `Yes,yes,thisawoman!’Levinthought,forgettinghimselfandstaringpersistentlyatherlovely,mobileface,whichatthatmomentwasallatoncecompletelytransformed。Levindidnothearwhatshewastalkingofassheleanedovertoherbrother,buthewasstruckbythechangeofherexpression。Herface-sohandsomeamomentbeforeinitsrepose-suddenlyworealookofstrangecuriosity,anger,andpride。Butthislastedonlyaninstant。Shehalf-closedhereyes,asthoughrecollectingsomething。
  `Oh,well,butthat’sofnointeresttoanyone,’shesaid,andsheturnedtotheEnglishgirl。
  `Pleaseordertheteainthedrawingroom,’shesaidinEnglish。
  Thegirlgotupandwentout。
  `Well,howdidshegetthroughherexamination?’askedStepanArkadyevich。
  `Splendidly!She’saverygiftedchildandasweetcharacter。’
  `Itwillendinyourlovinghermorethanyourown。’
  `Thereamanspeaks。Inlovethere’snosuchthingasmoreorless。Ilovemydaughterwithonelove,andherwithanother。’
  `IwasjusttellingAnnaArkadyevna,’saidVorkuev,`thatifsheweretoputahundredthpartoftheenergyshedevotestothisEnglishgirltothepublicquestionoftheeducationofRussianchildren,shewouldbedoingagreatandusefulwork。’
  `Yes,butIcan’thelpit;Icouldn’tdoit。CountAlexeiKirillovichurgedmeverymuch’assheutteredthewordsCountAlexeiKirillovichsheglancedwithappealingtimidityatLevin,andheunconsciouslyrespondedwitharespectfulandreassuringlook,`heurgedmetotakeuptheschoolinthevillage。Ivisiteditseveraltimes。Thechildrenwereverydear,butIcouldnotfeeldrawntothework。Youspeakofenergy。Energyrestsuponlove;and,comeasitwill,there’snoforcingit。Itooktothischild-Icouldnotmyselfsaywhy。’
  AndsheglancedagainatLevin。Andhersmileandherglance-alltoldhimthatitwastohimonlyshewasaddressingherwords,valuinghisgoodopinion,andatthesametimesurebeforehandthattheyunderstoodoneanother。
  `Iquiteunderstandthat,’Levinanswered。`It’simpossibletogiveone’shearttoaschoolorsuchinstitutionsingeneral,andIbelievethatthat’sjustwhyphilanthropicinstitutionsalwaysgivesuchpoorresults。’
  Shewassilentforawhile,thenshesmiled。`Yes,yes,’sheagreed;`Inevercould。Jen’aipaslecoeurassezlargetoloveawholeasylumofhorridlittlegirls。Celanem’ajamaisréussi。Therearesomanywomenwhohavemadethemselvesunepositionsocialeinthatway。Andnowmorethanever,’shesaidwithamournful,confidingexpression,ostensiblyaddressingherbrother,butunmistakablyintendingherwordsonlyforLevin,`nowwhenIhavesuchneedofsomeoccupation,Icannot。’AndsuddenlyfrowningLevinsawthatshewasfrowningatherselffortalkingaboutherselfshechangedthesubject。`Iknowaboutyou,’shesaidtoLevin;`thatyou’renotapublic-spiritedcitizen,andIhavedefendedyoutothebestofmyability。’
  `Howhaveyoudefendedme?’
  `Oh,accordingtotheattacksmadeonyou。Butwon’tyouhavesometea?’Sheroseandtookupabookboundinmorocco。
  `Giveittome,AnnaArkadyevna,’saidVorkuev,indicatingthebook。`It’swellworthtakingup。’
  `Oh,no,it’sallsosketchy。’
  `Itoldhimaboutit,’StepanArkadyevichsaidtohissister,noddingatLevin。
  `Youshouldn’thave。MywritingissomethingafterthefashionofthoselittlebasketsandcarvingswhichLizaMertsalovausedtosellmefromtheprisons。Shehadthedirectionoftheprisondepartmentinthatsociety,’sheturnedtoLevin;`andtheyweremiraclesofpatience,theworkofthosepoorwretches。’
  AndLevinsawanewtraitinthiswoman,whoattractedhimsoextraordinarily。Besideswit,grace,andbeauty,shehadtruth。Shehadnowishtohidefromhimallthebitternessofherposition。Asshesaidthatshesighed,andherface,suddenlyassumingahardexpression,looked,asitwere,turnedtostone。Withthatexpressiononherfaceshewasmorebeautifulthanever;buttheexpressionwasnew;itwasutterlyunlikethatexpression,radiantwithhappinessandcreatinghappiness,whichhadbeencaughtbythepainterinherportrait。Levinlookedmorethanonceattheportraitandatherfigure,astakingherbrother’sarmshewalkedwithhimtothehighdoors,andhefeltforheratendernessandpityatwhichhewonderedhimself。
  SheaskedLevinandVorkuevtogointothedrawingroom,whileshestayedbehindtosayafewwordstoherbrother。`Aboutherdivorce,aboutVronsky,andwhathe’sdoingattheclub,aboutme?’wonderedLevin。AndhewassokeenlyinterestedbythequestionofwhatshewassayingtoStepanArkadyevich,thathescarcelyheardwhatVorkuevwastellinghimofthequalitiesofthestoryforchildrenAnnaArkadyevnahadwritten。
  Atteathesamepleasantsortoftalk,fullofinterestingmatter,continued。Therewasnotasingleinstantwhenasubjectforconversationwastoseek;onthecontrary,itwasfeltthatonehadhardlytimetosaywhatonehadtosay,andeagerlyheldbacktohearwhattheothersweresaying。Andallthatwassaid,notonlybyher,butbyVorkuevandStepanArkadyevich-all,soitseemedtoLevin,gainedpeculiarsignificancefromherattentiontohimandhercriticism。
  Whilehefollowedthisinterestingconversation,Levinwasallthetimeadmiringher-herbeauty,herintelligence,herculture,andatthesametimeherdirectnessandhercordiality。Helistenedandtalked,andallthewhilehewasthinkingofherinnerlife,tryingtodivineherfeelings。Andthoughhehadjudgedhersoseverelyhitherto,nowbysomestrangechainofreasoninghewasjustifyingherandalsowassorryforher,andafraidthatVronskydidnotfullyunderstandher。Atteno’clock,whenStepanArkadyevichgotuptogoVorkuevhadleftearlier,itseemedtoLevinthathehadonlyjustcome。RegretfullyLevintoorose。
  `Good-by,’shesaid,holdinghishandandglancingintohisfacewithawinninglook。`Iamverygladquelaglaceestrompue。’
  Shedroppedhishand,andhalf-closedhereyes。
  `TellyourwifethatIloveherasbefore,andthatifshecannotpardonmemyposition,thenmywishforheristhatshemayneverpardonme。Topardonit,onemustgothroughwhatIhavegonethrough,andmayGodspareherthat。’
  `Certainly,yes,Iwilltellher……’Levinsaid,blushing。
  `Whatamarvelous,sweetandunhappywoman!’hewasthinking,ashesteppedoutintothefrostyairwithStepanArkadyevich。
  `Well,didn’tItellyou?’saidStepanArkadyevich,seeingthatLevinhadbeencompletelywonover。
  `Yes,’saidLevinpensively,`anextraordinarywoman!It’snothercleverness,butshehassuchwonderfuldepthoffeeling。I’mawfullysorryforher!’
  `Now,pleaseGodeverythingwillsoonbesettled。Well,well,don’tbehardonpeopleinfuture,’saidStepanArkadyevich,openingthecarriagedoor。`Good-by;wedon’tgothesameway。’
  StillthinkingofAnna,ofeverything,eventhesimplestphraseintheirconversationwithher,andrecallingtheminutestchangesinherexpression,enteringmoreandmoreintoherposition,andfeelingsympathyforher,Levinreachedhome。
  AthomeKouzmatoldLevinthatKaterinaAlexandrovnawasquitewell,andthathersistershadjustgone,andhehandedhimtwoletters。Levinreadthematonceinthehall,thathemightnotoverlookthemlater。OnewasfromSokolov,hisbailiff。Sokolovwrotethatthewheatcouldnotbesold,thatthepricewasonlyfiveandahalfroubles,andthathedidnotknowwherehehadtogetthemoney。Theotherletterwasfromhissister。Shescoldedhimforherbusinessbeingstillunsettled。
  `Well,wemustsellitatfiveandahalfifwecan’tgetmore,’Levindecidedonthespotthefirstquestionwhichhadalwaysbeforeseemedsuchaweightyone,withextraordinaryfacility。`It’sextraordinaryhowallone’stimeistakenuphere,’hethought,consideringthesecondletter。Hefelthimselftoblamefornothavinggotdonewhathissisterhadaskedhimtodoforher。`Today,again,I’venotbeentocourt,buttodayI’vecertainlynothadtime。’Andresolvingthathewouldnotfailtodoitnextday,hewentuptohiswife。Ashewentin,Levinmentallyranrapidlythroughthedayhehadspent。Alltheeventsofthedaywereconversations:conversationshehadheardandtakenpartin。Alltheconversationswereuponsubjectswhich,ifhehadbeenaloneinthecountry,hewouldneverhavetakenup,butheretheywereveryinteresting。Andalltheseconversationswererightenough,onlyintwoplacestherewassomethingnotquiteright。Onewaswhathehadsaidaboutthecarp,theotherwassomethingnotquitethethinginthetendersympathyhewasfeelingforAnna。
  Levinfoundhiswifelow-spiritedanddull。Thedinnerofthethreesistershadgoneoffverywell,butthentheyhadwaitedandwaitedforhim,allofthemhadfeltdull,thesistershaddeparted,andshehadbeenleftalone。
  `Well,andwhathaveyoubeendoing?’sheaskedhim,lookingstraightintohiseyes,whichshonewithratherasuspiciousbrightness。Butthatshemightnotpreventhistellinghereverything,sheconcealedherclosescrutinyofhim,andwithanapprovingsmilelistenedtohisaccountofhowhehadspenttheevening。
  `Well,I’mverygladImetVronsky。Ifeltquiteateaseandnaturalwithhim。Youunderstand,Ishalltrynottoseehim,butI’mgladthatthisawkwardnessisallover,’hesaid,andrememberingthat,bywayoftryingnottoseehim,hehadimmediatelygonetocallonAnna,heblushed。`Wetalkaboutthepeasantsdrinking;Idon’tknowwhodrinksmost,thepeasantryorourownclass;thepeasantsdoitonholidays,but……’
  ButKittytooknottheslightestinterestindiscussingthedrinkinghabitsofthepeasants。Shesawthatheblushed,andshewantedtoknowwhy。
  `Well,andthenwheredidyougo?’
  `StivaurgedmeawfullytogoandseeAnnaArkadyevna。’
  Andashesaidthis,Levinblushedevenmore,andhisdoubtsastowhetherhehaddonerightingoingtoseeAnnaweresettledonceforall。Heknewnowthatheoughtnottohavedoneso。
  Kitty’seyesopenedinacuriouswayandgleamedatAnna’sname,butcontrollingherselfwithaneffort,sheconcealedheremotionanddeceivedhim。
  `Oh!’wasallshesaid。
  `I’msureyouwon’tbeangryatmygoing。Stivabeggedmeto,andDollywishedit,’Levinwenton。
  `Oh,no!’shesaid,buthesawinhereyesaconstraintthatbodedhimnogood。
  `Sheisaverysweet,avery,veryunhappy,goodwoman,’hesaid,tellingheraboutAnna,heroccupations,andwhatshehadtoldhimtosaytoher。
  `Yes,ofcourse,sheisverymuchtobepitied,’saidKitty,whenhehadfinished。`Whomwasyourletterfrom?’
  Hetoldher,andbelievinginhercalmtone,hewenttochangehiscoat。
  Comingback,hefoundKittyinthesameeasychair。Whenhewentuptoher,sheglancedathimandbrokeintosobs。
  `What?Whatisit?’heasked,knowingbeforehandwhat。
  `You’reinlovewiththathatefulwoman;shehasbewitchedyou!Isawitinyoureyes。Yes,yes!Whatcanitallleadto?Youweredrinkingattheclub,drinkingandgambling,andthenyouwent……Where?No,wemustgoaway……Ishallgoawaytomorrow。’
  ItwasalongwhilebeforeLevincouldsoothehiswife。Atlasthesucceededincalmingher,onlybyconfessingthatafeelingofpity,inconjunctionwiththewinehehaddrunk,hadbeentoomuchforhim;thathehadsuccumbedtoAnna’sartfulinfluence,andthathewouldavoidher。OnethinghedidwithmoresincerityconfesstowasthatlivingsolonginMoscow,alifeofnothingbutconversation,eatinganddrinking,hewasgrowingcrazy。Theytalkedtillthreeo’clockinthemorning。Onlyatthreeo’clockweretheysufficientlyreconciledtobeabletogotosleep。
  Aftertakingleaveofherguests,Annadidnotsitdown,butbeganwalkingupanddowntheroom。ShehadunconsciouslythewholeeveningdoneherutmosttoarouseinLevinafeelingoflove-asoflateshehadfallenintodoingwithallyoungmen-andsheknewshehadattainedheraim,asfaraswaspossibleinoneevening,withamarriedandconscientiousman。Shelikedhimverymuchindeed,and,inspiteofthestrikingdifference,fromthemasculinepointofview,betweenVronskyandLevin,asawomanshesawsomethingtheyhadincommon,whichhadmadeKittyabletoloveboth。Yetassoonashewasoutoftheroom,sheceasedtothinkofhim。
  Onethought,andoneonly,pursuedherindifferentforms,andrefusedtobeshakenoff。`IfIhavesomucheffectonothers,onthisman,wholoveshishomeandhiswife,whyisitheissocoldtome?……Notcoldexactly-helovesme,Iknowthat!Butsomethingnewisdrawingusapartnow。Whywasn’theherealltheevening?HetoldStivatosayhecouldnotleaveIashvin,andmustwatchoverhisplay。IsIashvinachild?Butsupposingit’strue。Henevertellsahe。Butthere’ssomethingelseinitifit’strue。Heisgladofanopportunityofshowingmethathehasotherduties;Iknowthat,Isubmittothat。Butwhyprovethattome?Hewantstoshowmethathisloveformeisnottointerferewithhisfreedom。ButIneednoproofs-Ineedlove。HeoughttounderstandallthebitternessofthislifeformehereinMoscow。Isthislife?Iamnotliving,butwaitingforanevent,whichiscontinuallyputoffandputoff。Noansweragain!AndStivasayshecannotgotoAlexeiAlexandrovich。AndIcan’twriteagain。Icandonothing,canbeginnothing,canalternothing;Iholdmyselfin,Iwait,inventingamusementsformyself-theEnglishfamily,writing,reading-butit’sallnothingbutasham,it’sallthesameasmorphine。Heoughttofeelforme,’shesaid,feelingtearsofself-pitycomingintohereyes。
  SheheardVronsky’sabruptringandhurriedlydriedhertears-notonlydriedhertears,butsatdownbyalampandopenedabook,affectingcomposure。Shewantedtoshowhimthatshewasdispleasedthathehadnotcomehomeashehadpromised-displeasedonly,andnotonanyaccounttolethimseeherdistress,and,leastofall,herself-pity。Shemightpityherself,buthemustnotpityher。Shedidnotwantstrife,sheblamedhimforwantingtoquarrel,butunconsciouslyputherselfintoanattitudeofantagonism。
  `Well,you’venotbeendull?’hesaid,eagerlyandgood-humoredly,goinguptoher。`Whataterriblepassionitis-gambling!’
  `No,I’venotbeendull;I’velearnedlongagonottobedull。Stivahasbeenhere,andLevin。’
  `Yes,theymeanttocomeandseeyou。Well,howdidyoulikeLevin?’hesaid,sittingdownbesideher。
  `Verymuch。Theyhavenotbeengonelong。WhatwasIashvindoing?’
  `Hewaswinning-seventeenthousand。Igothimaway。Hehadreallystartedhome,buthewentbackagain,andnowhe’slosing。’
  `Thenwhatdidyoustayfor?’sheasked,suddenlyliftinghereyestohim。Theexpressionofherfacewascoldandungracious。`YoutoldStivayouwerestayingontogetIashvinaway。Andyouhavelefthimthere。’
  Thesameexpressionofcoldreadinessfortheconflictappearedonhisfacetoo。
  `Inthefirstplace,Ididnotaskhimtogiveyouanymessage;andsecondly,Inevertelllies。Butthechiefpointis,Iwantedtostay,andIstayed,’hesaid,frowning。`Anna,whatisitfor,whywillyoudothis?’hesaidafteramoment’ssilence,bendingovertowardher;andheopenedhishand,hopingshewouldlayhersinit。
  Shewasgladofthisappealfortenderness。Butsomestrangeforceofevilwouldnotlethergiveherselfuptoherfeelings,asthoughtherulesofwarfarewouldnotpermithertosurrender。
  `Ofcourseyouwantedtostay,andyoustayed。Youdoeverythingyouwantto。Butwhatdoyoutellmethatfor?Withwhatobject?’shesaid,gettingmoreandmoreexcited。`Doesanyonecontestyourrights?Butyouwanttoberight,andyou’rewelcometoberight。’
  Hishandclosed,heturnedaway,andhisfaceworeastillmoreobstinateexpression。
  `Foryouit’samatterofobstinacy,’shesaid,watchinghimintentlyandsuddenlyfindingtherightwordforthatexpressionthatirritatedher,`simplyobstinacy。Foryouit’saquestionofwhetheryoukeeptheupperhandofme,whileforme……’Againshefeltsorryforherself,andshealmostburstintotears。`Ifyouknewwhatitisforme!WhenIfeelasIdonow,thatyouarehostile-yes,hostiletome-ifyouknewwhatthismeansforme!IfyouknewhowIfeelonthebrinkofcalamityatthisinstant,howafraidIamofmyself!’Andsheturnedaway,hidinghersobs。
  `Butwhatareyoutalkingabout?’hesaid,horrifiedatherexpressionofdespairandagainbendingoverher,hetookherhandandkissedit。`Whatisitfor?DoIseekamusementsoutsideourhome?Don’tIavoidthesocietyofwomen?’
  `Well,yes!Ifthatwereall!’shesaid。
  `Come,tellmewhatIoughttodotogiveyoupeaceofmind?Iamreadytodoanythingtomakeyouhappy,’hesaid,touchedbyherexpressionofdespair;`whatwouldn’tIdotosaveyoufromdistressofanysort,asnow,Anna!’hesaid。
  `It’snothing,nothing!’shesaid。`Idon’tknowmyselfwhetherit’sthesolitarylife,mynerves……Come,don’tletustalkofit。Whatabouttherace?Youhaven’ttoldme!’sheinquired,tryingtoconcealhertriumphatthevictory,whichhadbeenonhersideafterall。
  Heaskedforsupper,andbegantellingherabouttheraces;butinhistone,inhiseyes,whichbecamemoreandmorecold,shesawthathedidnotforgiveherforhervictory,thatthefeelingofobstinacywithwhichshehadbeenstrugglinghadasserteditselfagaininhim。Hewascoldertoherthanbefore,asthoughhewereregrettinghissurrender。Andshe,rememberingthewordsthathadgivenherthevictory,`howIfeelonthebrinkofcalamity,howafraidIamofmyself,’sawthatthisweaponwasadangerousone,andthatitcouldnotbeusedasecondtime。Andshefeltthatbesidethelovethatboundthemtogethertherehadgrownupbetweenthemsomeevilspiritofstrife,whichshecouldnotexorcisefromhisheart,andstilllessfromherown。
  Therearenoconditionstowhichamancannotbecomeused,especiallyifheseesthatallaroundhimarelivinginthesameway。Levincouldnothavebelievedthreemonthsbeforethathecouldhavegonequietlytosleepinthestateinwhichhewasthatday-thatleadinganaimless,irrationallife,alsolivingbeyondhismeans,afterdrinkingtoexcesshecouldnotcallwhathappenedattheclubanythingelse,forminginappropriatelyfriendlyrelationswithamanwithwhomhiswifehadoncebeeninlove,andafterastillmoreinappropriatecalluponawomanwhocouldonlybecalledalostwoman,afterbeingfascinatedbythatwomanandcausinghiswifedistress-hecouldstillgoquietlytosleep。Butundertheinfluenceoffatigue,asleeplessnight,andthewinehehaddrunk,hissleepwassoundanduntroubled。
  Atfiveo’clockthecreakofadooropeningwakedhim。Hejumpedupandlookedround。Kittywasnotinbedbesidehim。Buttherewasalightmovingbehindthescreen,andheheardhersteps。
  `Whatisit?……Whatisit?’hesaid,half-asleep。`Kitty!Whatisit?’
  `Nothing,’shesaid,comingfrombehindthescreenwithacandleinherhand。`Ifeltunwell,’shesaid,smilingaparticularlysweetandmeaningsmile。
  `What?Hasitbegun?’hesaidinterror。`Weoughttosend……’andhurriedlyhereachedafterhisclothes。
  `No,no,’shesaid,smilingandholdinghishand。`It’ssuretobenothing。Iwasratherunwell,onlyalittle。It’sallovernow。’
  And,gettingintobed,sheblewoutthecandle,laydownandwasstill。Thoughhethoughtherstillnesssuspicious,asthoughshewereholdingherbreath,andstillmoresuspicioustheexpressionofpeculiartendernessandexcitementwithwhich,asshecamefrombehindthescreen,shehadsaid`Nothing,’hewassosleepythathefellasleepatonce。Onlylaterherememberedthestillnessofherbreathing,andunderstoodallthatmusthavebeenpassinginhersweet,preciousheartwhileshelaybesidehim,notstirring,inanticipationofthegreatesteventinawoman’slife。Atseveno’clockhewaswakedbythetouchofherhandonhisshoulder,andagentlewhisper。Sheseemedstrugglingbetweenregretatwakinghim,andthedesiretotalktohim。
  `Kostia,don’tbefrightened。It’sallright。ButIfancy……WeoughttosendforLizavetaPetrovna。’
  Thecandlewaslightedagain。Shewassittingupinbed,holdingsomeknitting,whichshehadbeenbusyuponduringthelastfewdays。
  `Please,don’tbefrightened,it’sallright。I’mnotabitafraid,’shesaid,seeinghisscaredface,andshepressedhishandtoherbosomandthentoherlips。
  Hehurriedlyjumpedup,hardlyawake,andkepthiseyesfixedonher,asheputonhisdressinggown;thenhestopped,stilllookingather。Hehadtogo,buthecouldnottearhimselfawayfromhereyes。Hethoughthelovedherface,knewherexpression,hereyes,butneverhadheseenitlikethis。Howhatefulandhorribleheseemedtohimself,thinkingofthedistresshehadcausedheryesterday。Herflushedface,fringedwithsoftcurlinghairunderhernightcap,wasradiantwithjoyandcourage。
  ThoughtherewassolittlethatwasartificialorpretendedinKitty’scharacteringeneral,Levinwasstruckbywhatwasrevealednow,whensuddenlyalldisguiseswerethrownoffandtheverykernelofhersoulshoneinhereyes。Andinthissimplicityandnakednessofhersoul,she,theverywomanhelovedinher,wasmoremanifestthanever。Shelookedathim,smiling;butallatonceherbrowstwitched,shethrewupherhead,and,goingquicklyuptohim,clutchedhishandandpressedcloseuptohim,breathingherhotbreathuponhim。Shewasinpainandwas,asitwere,complainingtohimofhersuffering。Andforthefirstminute,fromhabit,itseemedtohimthathewastoblame。Butinhereyestherewasatendernessthattoldhimthatshewasfarfromreproachinghim,thatshelovedhimforhersufferings。`IfnotI,whoistoblameforit?’hethoughtunconsciously,seekingsomeoneresponsibleforthissufferingforhimtopunish;buttherewasnooneresponsible。Shewassuffering,complaining,andtriumphinginhersufferings,andrejoicinginthem,andlovingthem。Hesawthatsomethingsublimewasbeingaccomplishedinhersoul,butwhat?Hecouldnotmakeitout。Itwasbeyondhisunderstanding。
  `Ihavesenttomamma。YougoquicklytofetchLizavetaPetrovna……Kostia!……Nevermind-it’sover。’
  Shemovedawayfromhimandrangthebell。
  `Well,gonow;Pasha’scoming。Iamallright。’
  AndLevinsawwithastonishmentthatshehadtakenuptheknittingshehadbroughtininthenight,andhadbegunworkingatitagain。
  AsLevinwasgoingoutofonedoor,heheardthemaidservantcomeinattheother。HestoodatthedoorandheardKittygivingexactdirectionstothemaid,andbeginningtohelphermovethebedstead。
  Hedressed,andwhiletheywereputtinginhishorse,astherewerenohacksaboutasyet,heranagainuptothebedroom,notontiptoe,itseemedtohim,butonwings。Twomaidservantswerecarefullyshiftingsomethingaboutinthebedroom。Kittywaswalkingaboutknittingrapidlyandgivingdirections。
  `I’mgoingforthedoctor。TheyhavesentforLizavetaPetrovna,butI’llgoontheretoo。Isn’tthereanythingwanted?Yes-shallIgotoDolly’s?’
  Shelookedathim,obviouslynothearingwhathewassaying。
  `Yes,yes。Dogo,’shesaidquickly,frowningandwavingherhandtohim。
  Hehadjustgoneintothedrawingroom,whensuddenlyaplaintivemoansoundedfromthebedroom,smotheredinstantly。Hestoodstill,andforalongwhilehecouldnotunderstand。
  `Yes,thatisshe,’hesaidtohimself,and,clutchingathishead,herandownstairs。
  `Lordhavemercyonus!Forgiveus!Helpus!’herepeatedthewordsthatforsomereasoncamesuddenlytohislips。Andhe,anunbeliever,repeatedthesewordsnotwithhislipsonly。Atthatinstantheknewthatallhisdoubts,eventheimpossibilityofbelievingwithhisreason,ofwhichhewasawareinhimself,didnotintheleasthinderhisturningtoGod。Allofthatnowfloatedoutofhissoullikedust。TowhomwashetoturnifnottoHiminwhosehandshefelthimself,hissoul,andhislove?
  Thehorsewasnotyetready,butfeelingapeculiarconcentrationofhisphysicalforcesandhisintellectonwhathehadtodo,he,losingnominute,startedoffonfootwithoutwaitingforthehorse,andtoldKouzmatoovertakehim。
  Atthecornerhemetanighthackdrivinghurriedly。Inthelittlesleigh,wrappedinavelvetcloak,satLizavetaPetrovnawithakerchiefroundherhead。`ThankGod!thankGod!’hesaid,overjoyedtorecognizeherlittlefairfacewhichworeapeculiarlyserious,evensternexpression。Tellingthedrivernottostop,heranalongbesideher。
  `Fortwohours,then?Notmore?’sheinquired。`YoushouldletPiotrDmitrievichknow,butdon’thurryhim。Andgetsomeopiumatthechemist’s。’
  `Soyouthinkthatitwillgowell?Lordhavemercyonusandhelpus!’Levinsaid,seeinghisownhorsedrivingoutofthegate。JumpingintothesleighbesideKouzma,hetoldhimtodrivetothedoctor’s。
  Thedoctorwasnotyetup,andthefootmansaidthat`hehadbeenuplate,andhadgivenordersnottobewaked,butwouldgetupsoon。’Thefootmanwascleaningthelampchimneys,andseemedverybusyaboutthem。Thisconcentrationofthefootmanuponhislamps,andhisindifferencetowhatwaspassinginLevin,atfirstastoundedhim,butimmediatelyonconsideringthequestionherealizedthatnoonekneworwasboundtoknowhisfeelings,andthatitwasallthemorenecessarytoactcalmly,sensibly,andresolutelytogetthroughthiswallofindifferenceandattainhisaim。`Don’tbeinahurryorletanythingslip,’Levinsaidtohimself,feelingagreaterandgreaterflowofphysicalenergyandattentiontoallhehadyettodo。
  Havingascertainedthatthedoctorwasnotgettingup,Levinconsideredvariousplans,anddecidedonthefollowingone;thatKouzmashouldgoforanotherdoctor,whilehehimselfshouldgotothechemist’sforopium,andif,whenhecameback,thedoctorhadnotyetbeguntogetup,hewould,eitherbytippingthefootman,orbyforce,wakethedoctoratallhazards。
  Atthechemist’sthelankpharmacistwaferedapacketofpowdersforacoachmanwhostoodwaiting,andrefusedhimopiumwiththesamecallousnesswithwhichthedoctor’sfootmanhadcleanedhislampchimneys。Tryingnottogetflusteredoroutoftemper,Levinmentionedthenamesofthedoctorandmidwife,andexplainingwhattheopiumwasneededfor,triedtopersuadehim。TheassistantinquiredinGermanwhetherheshouldgiveit,andreceivinganaffirmativereplyfrombehindthepartition,hetookoutabottleandafunnel,deliberatelypouredtheopiumfromabiggerbottleintoalittleone,stuckonalabel,sealeditup,inspiteofLevin’srequestthathewouldnotdoso,andwasabouttowrapituptoo。ThiswasmorethanLevincouldstand;hetookthebottlefirmlyoutofhishands,andrantothebigglassdoors。Thedoctorwasnotevennowgettingup,andthefootman,busynowinputtingdowntherugs,refusedtowakehim。Levindeliberatelytookoutaten-roublenote,andcarefultospeakslowly,thoughlosingnotimeoverthebusiness,hehandedhimthenote,andexplainedthatPiotrDmitrievichwhatagreatandimportantpersonageheseemedtoLevinnow,thisPiotrDmitrievich,whohadbeenofsolittleconsequenceinhiseyesbeforehadpromisedtocomeatanytime;thathewouldcertainlynotbeangry!Andthathemustthereforewakehimatonce。
  Thefootmanagreed,andwentupstairs,takingLevinintothewaitingroom。
  Levincouldhearthroughthedoorthedoctorcoughing,movingabout,washing,andsayingsomething。Threeminutespassed;itseemedtoLevinthatmorethananhourhadgoneby。Hecouldnotwaitanylonger。
  `PiotrDmitrievich,PiotrDmitrievich?’hesaidinanimploringvoiceattheopendoor。`ForGod’ssake,forgiveme!Seemeasyouare。It’sbeengoingonmorethantwohoursalready。’
  `Inaminute;inaminute!’answeredavoice,andtohisamazementheardthatthedoctorwassmilingashespoke。
  `Foroneinstant!’……
  `Inaminute。’
  Twominutesmorepassedwhilethedoctorwasputtingonhisboots,andtwominutesmorewhilethedoctorputonhiscoatandcombedhishair。
  `PiotrDmitrievich!’Levinwasbeginningagaininaplaintivevoice,justasthedoctorcamein,dressedandready。`Thesepeoplehavenoconscience,’thoughtLevin。`Combinghishair,whilewe’redying!’
  `Goodmorning!’thedoctorsaidtohim,shakinghands,and,asitwere,teasinghimwithhiscomposure。`There’snohurry。Well,now?’
  Tryingtobeasaccurateaspossible,Levinbegantotellhimeveryunnecessarydetailofhiswife’scondition,interruptinghisaccountrepeatedlywithentreatiesthatthedoctorwouldcomewithhimatonce。
  `Oh,youneedn’tbeinanyhurry。Youdon’tunderstand,youknow。I’mcertainI’mnotwanted;stillI’vepromised,and,ifyoulike,I’llcome。Butthere’snohurry。Pleasesitdown;won’tyouhavesomecoffee?’
  Levinstaredathimwitheyesthataskedwhetherhewaslaughingathim;butthedoctorhadnonotionofmakingfunofhim。
  `Iknow,Iknow,’thedoctorsaid,smiling;`I’mamarriedmanmyself;andatthesemomentswehusbandsareverymuchtobepitied。I’veapatientwhosehusbandalwaystakesrefugeinthestablesonsuchoccasions。’
  `Butwhatdoyouthink,PiotrDmitrievich?Doyousupposeitwillgoallright?’
  `Everythingpointstoafavorableissue。’
  `Soyou’llcomeimmediately?’saidLevin,lookingwrathfullyattheservantwhowasbringinginthecoffee。
  `Injustanhour。’
  `Oh,forGod’ssake!’
  `Well,letmedrinkmycoffee,anyway。’
  Thedoctorstarteduponhiscoffee。Bothweresilent。
  `TheTurksarereallygettingbeaten,though。Didyoureadyesterday’stelegrams?’saidthedoctor,thoroughlymasticatingaroll。
  `No,Ican’tstandit!’saidLevin,jumpingup。`Soyou’llbewithusinaquarterofanhour?’
  `Inhalfanhour。’
  `Onyourhonor?’
  WhenLevingothome,hedroveupatthesametimeasthePrincess,andtheywentuptothebedroomtogether。ThePrincesshadtearsinhereyes,andherhandswereshaking。SeeingLevin,sheembracedhim,andburstintotears。
  `Well,mydearLizavetaPetrovna?’shequeried,claspingthehandofthemidwife,whocameouttomeetthemwithabeamingandanxiousface。
  `Everythingisgoingonwell,’shesaid;`persuadehertoliedown。Shewillfeeleasierthatway。’
  Fromthemomentwhenhehadwakedupandunderstoodwhatwasgoingon,Levinhadpreparedhismindtobearresolutelywhatwasbeforehim,andwithoutconsideringoranticipatinganything,toavoidupsettinghiswife,and,onthecontrary,tosootheherandkeepuphercourage。Withoutallowinghimselfeventothinkofwhatwastocome,ofhowitwouldend,judgingfromhisinquiriesastotheusualdurationoftheseordeals,Levinhadinhisimaginationbracedhimselftobearupandtokeepatightreinonhisfeelingsforfivehours,andithadseemedtohimhecoulddothis。Butwhenhecamebackfromthedoctor’sandsawhersufferingsagain,hefelltorepeatingmoreandmorefrequently:`Lord,havemercyonus,andsuccorus!’Hesighed,andflunghisheadup,andbegantofeelafraidhecouldnotbearit,thathewouldburstintotearsorrunaway-suchagonyitwastohim。Yetonlyonehourhadpassed。
  Butafterthathourtherepassedanotherhour,twohours,three,thefullfivehourshehadfixedasthefurthestlimitofhissufferings,andthesituationwasstillunchanged;andhewasstillbearingitbecausetherewasnothingtobedonebutbearit-everyinstantfeelingthathehadreachedtheutmostlimitsofhisendurance,andthathisheartwouldbreakwithsympathyandpain。
  Butstilltheminutespassedby,andthehours,andstillmorehours,andhismiseryandhorrorgrewandweremoreandmoreintense。
  Alltheordinaryconditionsoflife,withoutwhichonecanformnoconceptionofanything,hadceasedtoexistforLevin。Helostallsenseoftime。Minutes-thoseminuteswhenshesentforhimandheheldhermoisthand,thatwouldsqueezehishandwithextraordinaryviolenceandthenpushitaway-seemedtohimhours,andhoursseemedtohimminutes。HewassurprisedwhenLizavetaPetrovnaaskedhimtolightacandlebehindascreen,andhefoundthatitwasfiveo’clockintheafternoon。Ifhehadbeentolditwasonlyteno’clockinthemorninghewouldnothavebeensurprised。Wherehewasallthistime,heknewaslittleasthetimeofanything。Hesawherswollenface,sometimesbewilderedandinagony,sometimessmilingandtryingtoreassurehim。HesawtheoldPrincesstoo,flushedandoverwrought,withhergraycurlsindisorder,forcingherselftogulpdownhertears,bitingherlips;hesawDollytoo,andthedoctor,smokingthickcigarettes,andLizavetaPetrovnawithafirm,resolute,reassuringface,andtheoldPrincewalkingupanddownthehallwithafrowningface。Butwhytheycameinandwentout,wheretheywere,hedidnotknow。ThePrincesswaswiththedoctorinthebedroom,theninthestudy,whereatablesetfordinnersuddenlyappeared;thenshewasnotthere,butDollywas。ThenLevinrememberedhehadbeensentsomewhere。Oncehehadbeensenttomoveatableandsofa。Hehaddonethiseagerly,thinkingithadtobedoneforhersake,andonlylateronhefounditwashisownbedhehadbeengettingready。Thenhehadbeensenttothestudytoaskthedoctorsomething。Thedoctorhadansweredandthenhadsaidsomethingabouttheirregularitiesinthemunicipalcouncil。ThenhehadbeensenttothebedroomtohelptheoldPrincessmovetheholyimageinitssilver-giltsetting,andwiththePrincess’soldwaitingmaidhehadclamberedonashelftoreachitandhadbrokenthelampad,andtheoldservanthadtriedtoreassurehimaboutthelampadandabouthiswife,andhecarriedtheholyimageinandsetitattheheadofKitty’sbed,carefullytuckingtheimageinbehindthepillow。Butwhere,when,andwhyallthishadhappened,hecouldnottell。HedidnotunderstandwhytheoldPrincesstookhishand,andlookingcompassionatelyathim,beggedhimnottoworryhimself,andDollypersuadedhimtoeatsomethingandledhimoutoftheroom,andeventhedoctorlookedseriouslyandwithcommiserationathim,andofferedhimadropofsomething。
  AllheknewandfeltwasthatwhatwashappeningwaswhathadhappenednearlyayearbeforeinthehotelofthecountrytownatthedeathbedofhisbrotherNikolai。Butthathadbeengrief-thiswasjoy。Yetthatgriefandthisjoywerealikeoutsidealltheordinaryconditionsoflife;theywereloopholes,asitwere,inthatordinarylife,throughwhichtherecameglimpsesofsomethingsublime。Andinthecontemplationofthissublimesomethingthesoulwasexaltedtoinconceivableheightsofwhichithadbeforehadnoconception,whilereasonlaggedbehind,unabletokeepupwithit。
  `Lord,havemercyonus,andsuccorus!’herepeatedtohimselfincessantly,feeling,inspiteofhislongand,asitseemed,completealienationfromreligion,thatheturnedtoGodjustastrustfullyandsimplyashehadinhischildhoodandfirstyouth。
  Allthistimehehadtwodistinctmoods。Onewasawayfromher,withthedoctor,whokeptsmokingonethickcigaretteafteranotherandextinguishingthemontheedgeofafullashtray;withDolly,andwiththeoldPrince,wheretherewastalkaboutdinner,aboutpolitics,aboutMariaPetrovna’sillness,andwhereLevinsuddenlyforgotforaminutewhatwashappening,andfeltasthoughhehadwakedupfromsleep;theothermoodwasinherpresence,atherpillow,wherehisheartseemedbreaking,andstilldidnotbreak,fromsympatheticsuffering,andheprayedtoGodwithoutceasing。Andeverytimehewasbroughtbackfromamomentofoblivionbyascreamreachinghimfromthebedroom,hefellintothesamestrangeterrorthathadcomeuponhimthefirstminute。Everytimeheheardashriek,hejumpedup,rantojustifyhimself,rememberedonthewaythathewasnottoblame,andhelongedtodefendher,tohelpher。Butashelookedather,hesawagainthathelpwasimpossible,andhewasfilledwithterrorandprayed:`Lord,havemercyonus,andhelpus!’Andastimewenton,boththesemoodsbecamemoreintense;thecalmerhebecameawayfromher,completelyforgettingher,themoreagonizingbecamebothhersufferingsandhisfeelingofhelplessnessbeforethem。Hejumpedup,wouldhavelikedtorunaway,butrantoher。
  Sometimes,whenagainandagainshecalleduponhim,heblamedher;butseeinghersubmissive,smilingface,andhearingthewords`Iamworryingyou,’hethrewtheblameonGod;butthinkingofGod,atoncehefellbeseechingGodtoforgivehimandhavemercy。
  Hedidnotknowwhetheritwaslateorearly。Thecandleshadallburnedout。Dollyhadjustbeeninthestudyandhadsuggestedtothedoctorthatheshouldliedown。Levinsatlisteningtothedoctor’sstoriesofaquackmesmerizerandlookingattheashesofhiscigarette。Therehadbeenaperiodofrepose,andhehadsunkintooblivion。Hehadcompletelyforgottenwhatwasgoingonnow。Heheardthedoctor’schatandunderstoodit。Suddenlytherecameanunearthlyshriek。TheshriekwassoawfulthatLevindidnotevenjumpup,but,holdinghisbreath,gazedinterrifiedinquiryatthedoctor。Thedoctorputhisheadononeside,listened,andsmiledapprovingly。EverythingwassoextraordinarythatnothingcouldstrikeLevinasstrange。`Isupposeitmustbeso,’hethought,andstillsatwherehewas。Whosescreamwasthis?Hejumpedup,ranontiptoetothebedroom,edgedroundLizavetaPetrovnaandthePrincess,andtookuphispositionatKitty’spillow。Thescreamhadsubsided,buttherewassomechangenow。Whatitwashedidnotseeanddidnotcomprehend,andhehadnowishtoseeorcomprehend。ButhesawitbythefaceofLizavetaPetrovna。LizavetaPetrovna’sfacewassternandpale,andstillasresolute,thoughherjawsweretwitching,andhereyeswerefixedintentlyonKitty。Kitty’sswollenandagonizedface,atressofhairclingingtohermoistbrow,wasturnedtohimandsoughthiseyes。Herliftedhandsaskedforhishands。Clutchinghischillhandsinhermoistones,shebegansqueezingthemtoherface。
  `Don’tgo,don’tgo!I’mnotafraid,I’mnotafraid!’shesaidrapidly。`Mamma,takemyearrings。Theybotherme。You’renotafraid?Soon,soon,LizavetaPetrovna……’
  Shespokequickly,veryquickly,andtriedtosmile。Butsuddenlyherfacewasdrawn-shepushedhimaway。
  `Oh,thisisawful!I’mdying,I’mdying!Goaway!’sheshrieked,andagainheheardthatunearthlyscream。
  Levinclutchedathisheadandranoutoftheroom。
  `It’snothing,it’snothing,it’sallright,’Dollycalledafterhim。
  Buttheymightsaywhattheyliked,heknewnowthatallwasover。Hestoodinthenextroom,hisheadleaningagainstthedoorpost,andheardshrieks,howls,suchashehadneverheardbefore,andheknewthatwhathadbeenKittywasutteringtheseshrieks。Hehadlongagoceasedtowishforthechild。Bynowheloathedthischild。Hedidnotevenprayforherlifenow-allhelongedforwasthecessationofthisawfulanguish。
  `Doctor!Whatisit?Whatisit?MyGod!’hesaid,snatchingatthedoctor’shandashecameup。
  `It’stheend,’saidthedoctor。Andthedoctor’sfacewassograveashesaiditthatLevintooktheendasmeaningherdeath。
  Besidehimself,heranintothebedroom。ThefirstthinghesawwasthefaceofLizavetaPetrovna。Itwasevenmorefrowningandstern。Kitty’sfacehedidnotknow。Intheplacewhereithadbeenwassomethingthatwasfearfulinitsstraineddistortionandinthesoundsthatcamefromit。Hefelldownwithhisheadonthewoodenframeworkofthebed,feelingthathisheartwasbursting。Theawfulscreamneverpaused,itbecamestillmoreawful,andasthoughithadreachedtheutmostlimitofterror,suddenlyitceased。Levincouldnotbelievehisears,buttherecouldbenodoubt;thescreamhadceasedandheheardasubduedstirandbustle,andhurriedbreathing,andhervoice,gasping,alive,tender,andblissful,utteredsoftly:`It’sover!’
  Heliftedhishead。Withherhandshangingexhaustedonthequilt,lookingextraordinarilylovelyandserene,shelookedathiminsilenceandtriedtosmile,andcouldnot。
  Andsuddenly,fromthemysteriousandawfulfarawayworldinwhichhehadbeenlivingforthelasttwenty-twohours,Levinfelthimselfallinaninstantbornebacktotheoldeverydayworld,thoughglorifiednowbysucharadianceofhappinessthathecouldnotbearit。Thestrainedchordssnapped;sobsandtearsofjoywhichhehadneverforeseenroseupwithsuchviolencethathiswholebodyshook,andforlongtheypreventedhimfromspeaking。
  Fallingonhiskneesbeforethebed,heheldhiswife’shandbeforehislipsandkissedit,andthehand,withaweakmovementofthefingers,respondedtohiskiss。Andmeanwhile,thereatthefootofthebed,inthedefthandsofLizavetaPetrovna,likeaflickeringlightinalamp,laythelifeofahumancreature,whichhadneverexistedbefore,andwhichwouldnowwiththesameright,withthesameimportancetoitself,liveandcreateinitsownimage。
  `Alive!alive!Andaboytoo!Setyourmindatrest!’LevinheardLizavetaPetrovnasaying,assheslappedthebaby’sbackwithashakinghand。
  `Mamma,isittrue?’saidKitty’svoice。
  ThePrincess’ssobswerealltheanswershecouldmake。
  Andinthemidstofthesilencetherecameinunmistakablereplytothemother’squestion,avoicequiteunlikethesubduedvoicesspeakingintheroom。Itwasthebold,clamorous,self-assertivesquallofthenewhumanbeing,whichhadsoincomprehensiblyappeared。
  IfLevinhadbeentoldbeforethatKittywasdead,andthathehaddiedwithher,andthattheirchildrenwereangels,andthatGodwasstandingbeforehim,hewouldhavebeensurprisedatnothing。Butnow,comingbacktotheworldofreality,hehadtomakegreatmentaleffortstotakeinthatshewasaliveandwell,andthatthecreaturesquallingsodesperatelywashisson。Kittywasalive,heragonywasover。Andhewasunutterablyhappy。Thatheunderstood;andhewascompletelyhappyinit。Butthebaby?Whence,why,whowashe?……Hecouldnotgetusedtotheidea。Itseemedtohimsomethingextraneous,superfluous,towhichhecouldnotaccustomhimself。
  Atteno’clocktheoldPrince,SergeiIvanovich,andStepanArkadyevich,weresittingatLevin’s。HavinginquiredafterKitty,theyhaddroppedintoconversationuponothersubjects。Levinheardthem,andunconsciously,astheytalked,goingoverthepast,overwhattheyhadbeenuptothatmorning,hethoughtofhimselfashehadbeenyesterdaytillthatpoint。Itwasasthoughahundredyearshadpassedsincethen。Hefelthimselfexaltedtounattainableheights,fromwhichhestudiouslyloweredhimselfsoasnottowoundthepeoplehewastalkingto。Hetalked,andwasallthetimethinkingofhiswife,ofherpresentcondition,ofhisson,inwhoseexistencehetriedtoschoolhimselfintobelieving。Thewholeworldofwoman,whichhadtakenforhimsincehismarriageanewvaluehehadneversuspectedbefore,wasnowsoexaltedthathisimaginationcouldnotembraceit。Heheardthemtalkofyesterday’sdinnerattheclub,andthought:`Whatishappeningwithhernow?Issheasleep?Howisshe?Whatisshethinkingof?Ishecrying-mysonDmitrii?’Andinthemiddleoftheconversation,inthemiddleofasentence,hejumpedupandwentoutoftheroom。
  `SendmewordifIcanseeher,’saidthePrince。
  `Verywell,inaminute,’answeredLevin,andwithoutstopping,hewenttoherroom。
  Shewasnotasleep,shewastalkinggentlywithhermother,makingplansaboutthechristening。
  Carefullysettorights,withhairwellbrushed,inasmartlittlecapwithsomeblueinit,herarmsoutonthequilt,shewaslyingonherback。Meetinghiseyes,hereyesdrewhimtoher。Herface,brightbefore,brightenedstillmoreashedrewnearher。Therewasthesamechangeinitfromearthlytounearthlythatisseeninthefaceofthedead。Butthereitmeansfarewell-hereitmeantwelcome。Againarushofemotion,suchashehadfeltatthemomentofthechild’sbirth,floodedhisheart。Shetookhishandandaskedhimifhehadslept。Hecouldnotanswer,andturnedaway,realizinghisweakness。
  `Ihavehadanap,Kostia!’shesaidtohim。`AndIamsocomfortablenow。’
  Shelookedathim,butsuddenlyherexpressionchanged。
  `Givehimtome,’shesaid,hearingthebaby’scry。`Givehimtome,LizavetaPetrovna,andheshalllookathim。’
  `Tobesure,hispapashalllookathim,’saidLizavetaPetrovna,gettingupandbringingsomethingred,andqueerandwriggling。`Waitaminute,we’llarrayourselvesfirst,’andLizavetaPetrovnalaidtheredwobblingthingonthebed,beganuntrussingandtrussingupthebaby,liftingitupandturningitoverwithonefingerandpowderingitwithsomething。
  Levin,lookingatthetiny,pitifulcreature,madestrenuouseffortstodiscoverinhisheartsometracesoffatherlyfeelingforit。Hefeltnothingtowarditbutdisgust。Butwhenitwasundressedandhecaughtaglimpseofwee,wee,littlehands,littlefeet,saffron-colored,withlittletoes,too;andevenwithalittlebigtoedifferentfromtherest,andwhenhesawLizavetaPetrovnaclosingthewide-openlittlehands,asthoughtheyweresoftsprings,andputtingthemintolinengarments,suchpityforthelittlecreaturecameuponhim,andsuchterrorthatshewouldhurtit,thatheheldherhandback。
  LizavetaPetrovnalaughed。
  `Don’tbefrightened,don’tbefrightened!’
  Whenthebabyhadbeenarrayedandtransformedintoasoliddoll,LizavetaPetrovnadandleditasthoughproudofherhandiwork,andstoodalittleawaysothatLevinmightseehissoninallhisglory。
  Kittylookedsidewaysinthesamedirection,nevertakinghereyesoffthebaby。`Givehimtome!Givehimtome!’shesaid,andevenmadeasthoughshewouldsitup。
  `Whatareyouthinkingof,KaterinaAlexandrovna,youmustn’tmovelikethat!Waitaminute。I’llgivehimtoyou。Herewe’reshowingpapawhatafinefellowweare!’
  AndLizavetaPetrovna,withonehandsupportingthewobblinghead,liftedupontheotherarmthestrange,limp,redcreature,whoseheadwaslostinitsswaddlingclothes。Butithadanose,too,andslantingeyes,andsmackinglips。
  `Asplendidbaby!’saidLizavetaPetrovna。
  Levinsighedwithmortification。Thissplendidbabyexcitedinhimnofeelingbutdisgustandcompassion。Itwasnotatallthefeelinghehadlookedforwardto。
  HeturnedawaywhileLizavetaPetrovnaputthebabytotheunaccustomedbreast。
  Suddenlylaughtermadehimlookround。Thebabyhadtakenthebreast。
  `Comethat’senough,that’senough!’saidLizavetaPetrovna,butKittywouldnotletthebabygo。Hefellasleepinherarms。
  `Look,now,’saidKitty,turningthebabysothathecouldseeit。Theaged-lookinglittlefacesuddenlypuckeredupstillmore,andthebabysneezed。
  Smiling,hardlyabletorestrainhistears,Levinkissedhiswifeandwentoutofthedarkroom。
  Whathefelttowardthislittlecreaturewasutterlyunlikewhathehadexpected。Therewasnothingcheerfulandjoyousinthefeeling;onthecontrary,itwasanewtortureofapprehension。Itwastheconsciousnessofanewsphereofliabilitytopain。Andthissensewassopainfulatfirst,theapprehensionlestthishelplesscreatureshouldsufferwassointense,thatitpreventedhimfromnoticingthestrangethrillofsenselessjoyandevenpridethathehadfeltwhenthebabyhadsneezed。
  StepanArkadyevich’saffairswereinaverybadway。
  Themoneyfortwo-thirdsoftheforesthadallbeenspentalready,andhehadborrowedfromthemerchantinadvanceattenpercentdiscountalmostalltheremainingthird。Themerchantwouldnotgivemore,especiallyasDaryaAlexandrovna,forthefirsttimethatwinterinsistingonherrighttoherownproperty,hadrefusedtosignthereceiptforthepaymentofthelastthirdoftheforest。Allhissalarywentonhouseholdexpensesandinpaymentofpettydebtsthatcouldnotbeputoff。Therewaspositivelynomoney。
  Thiswasunpleasantandawkward,andinStepanArkadyevich’sopinionthingscouldnotgoonlikethis。Theexplanationofthepositionwas,inhisview,tobefoundinthefactthathissalarywastoosmall。Theposthefilledhadbeenunmistakablyverygoodfiveyearsago,butitwassonolonger。Petrov,thebankdirector,hadtwelvethousand;Sventitsky,acompanydirector,hadseventeenthousand;Mitin,whohadfoundedabank,receivedfiftythousand。`ClearlyI’vebeennapping,andthey’veoverlookedme,’StepanArkadyevichthoughtabouthimself。Andhebegankeepinghiseyesandearsopen,andtowardtheendofthewinterhehaddiscoveredaverygoodberthandhadformedaplanofattackuponit,atfirstfromMoscowthroughaunts,uncles,andfriends,andthen,whenthematterwaswelladvanced,inthespring,hewenthimselftoPeterburg。Itwasoneofthoseberthswithincomesrangingfromonethousandtofiftythousandroubles,ofwhichtherearesomanymorenowadaysthanthereweresnug,bribableonesinthepast。ItwasthepostofsecretaryofthecommitteeoftheamalgamatedagencyoftheSouthernRailways,andofcertainbankingcompanies。Thisposition,likeallsuchappointments,calledforsuchimmenseenergyandsuchvariedqualifications,thatitwasdifficultforthemtobefoundunitedinanyoneman。Andsinceamancombiningallthequalificationswasnottobefound,itwasatleastbetterthatthepostbefilledbyanhonestthanbyadishonestman。AndStepanArkadyevichwasnotmerelyanhonestman,unemphatically,inthecommonacceptationoftheword;hewasanhonestman,emphatically,inthatspecialsensewhichthewordhasinMoscow,whentheytalkofan`honest’politician,an`honest’writer,an`honest’newspaper,an`honest’institution,an`honest’tendency,meaningnotsimplythatthemanortheinstitutionisnotdishonest,butthattheyarecapableonoccasionofstingingtheauthorities。StepanArkadyevichmovedinthosecirclesinMoscowinwhichthatexpressionhadcomeintouse,wasregardedthereasanhonestman,andsohadmorerighttothisappointmentthanothers。
  Theappointmentyieldedanincomeoffromseventotenthousandayear,andOblonskycouldfillitwithoutgivinguphisgovernmentposition。Itwasinthehandsoftwoministers,onelady,andtwoJews,andallthesepeople,thoughthewayhadbeenpavedalreadywiththem,StepanArkadyevichhadtoseeinPeterburg。Besidesthisbusiness,StepanArkadyevichhadpromisedhissisterAnnatoobtainfromKareninadefiniteansweronthequestionofdivorce。AndbeggingfiftyroublesfromDolly,hesetoffforPeterburg。
  StepanArkadyevichsatinKarenin’sstudylisteningtohisreportonthecausesoftheunsatisfactorypositionofRussianfinance,andonlywaitingforthemomentwhenhewouldfinishtospeakabouthisownbusinessoraboutAnna。
  `Yes,that’sverytrue,’hesaid,whenAlexeiAlexandrovichtookoffthepince-nez,withoutwhichhecouldnotreadnow,andlookedinquiringlyathisquondambrother-in-law,`that’sverytrueinparticularcases,butstill,theprincipleofourdayisfreedom。’
  `Yes,butIlaydownanotherprinciple,embracingtheprincipleoffreedom,’saidAlexeiAlexandrovich,withemphasisontheword`embracing’,andheputonhispince-nezagain,soastoreadthepassageinwhichthisstatementwasmade。
  Andturningoverthebeautifullywritten,wide-marginedmanuscript,AlexeiAlexandrovichreadaloudtheconclusivepassageoncemore。
  `Idon’tadvocateprotectionforthesakeofprivateinterest,butforthepublicweal-andforthelowerandupperclassesequally,’hesaid,lookingoverhispince-nezatOblonsky。`Buttheycannotgraspthat,theyaretakenupnowwithpersonalinterests,andcarriedawaybyphrases。’
  StepanArkadyevichknewthatwhenKareninbegantotalkofwhattheyweredoingandthinking,thepersonswhowouldnotaccepthisreportandwerethecauseofeverythingwronginRussia,thatitwascomingneartheend。Andsonowheeagerlyabandonedtheprincipleoffreetrade,andfullyagreed。AlexeiAlexandrovichpaused,thoughtfullyturningoverthepagesofhismanuscript。
  `Oh,bytheway,’saidStepanArkadyevich,`Iwantedtoaskyou,sometimewhenyouseePomorsky,todrophimahintthatIshouldbeverygladtogetthatnewappointmentofmemberofthecommitteeoftheamalgamatedagencyoftheSouthernRailwaysandbankingcompanies。’StepanArkadyevichwasfamiliarbynowwiththetitleoftheposthecoveted,andhebroughtitoutrapidlywithoutmistake。
  AlexeiAlexandrovichquestionedhimastothedutiesofthisnewcommittee,andpondered。Hewasconsideringwhetherthenewcommitteewouldnotbeactinginsomewaycontrarytotheviewshehadbeenadvocating。Butastheinfluenceofthenewcommitteewasofaverycomplexnature,andhisviewswereofverywideapplication,hecouldnotdecidethisstraightoff,andtakingoffhispince-nez,hesaid:
  `Ofcourse,Icanmentionittohim;butwhatisyourreasonpreciselyforwishingtoobtaintheappointment?’
  `It’sagoodsalary,risingtoninethousand,andmymeans……’
  `Ninethousand!’repeatedAlexeiAlexandrovich,andhefrowned。
  ThehighfigureofthesalarymadehimreflectthatonthatsideStepanArkadyevich’sproposedpositionrancountertothemaintendencyofhisownprojectsofreform,whichalwaysleanedtowardeconomy。
  `Iconsider,andIhaveembodiedmyviewsinanoteonthesubject,thatinourdaytheseimmensesalariesareevidenceoftheunsoundeconomicassietteofourfinances。’
  `Butwhat’stobedone?’saidStepanArkadyevich。`Supposeabankdirectorgetstenthousand-well,he’sworthit;oranengineergetstwentythousand-afterall,it’sagrowingthing,youknow!’
  `Iassumethatasalaryisthepricepaidforacommodity,anditoughttoconformwiththelawofsupplyanddemand。Ifthesalaryisfixedwithoutanyregardforthatlaw,as,forinstance,whenIseetwoengineersleavingcollegetogether,bothequallywelltrainedandefficient,andonegettingfortythousandwhiletheotherissatisfiedwithtwo;orwhenIseelawyersandhussars,havingnospecialqualifications,appointeddirectorsofbankingcompanieswithimmensesalaries,Iconcludethatthesalaryisnotfixedinaccordancewiththelawofsupplyanddemand,butsimplythroughpersonalinterest。Andthisisanabuseofgreatgravityinitself,andonethatreactsinjuriouslyonthegovernmentservice。Iconsider……’
  StepanArkadyevichmadehastetointerrupthisbrother-in-law。
  `Yes;butyoumustagreethatthenewinstitutionbeingstartedisofundoubtedutility。Afterall,youknow,it’sagrowingthing!Whattheylayparticularstressonisthethingbeingcarriedonhonestly,’saidStepanArkadyevichwithemphasis。
  ButtheMoscowsignificanceofthewordhonestwaslostonAlexeiAlexandrovich。
  `Honestyisonlyanegativequalification,’hesaid。
  `Well,you’lldomeagreatservice,anyway,’saidStepanArkadyevich,`byputtinginawordtoPomorsky-justinthewayofconversation……’
  `ButIfancyitdependsmoreonBolgarinov,’saidAlexeiAlexandrovich。
  `Bolgarinovhasfullyassented,asfarashe’sconcerned,’saidStepanArkadyevich,turningred。StepanArkadyevichreddenedatthementionofthatname,becausehehadbeenthatmorningattheJewBolgarinov’s,andthevisithadleftanunpleasantrecollection。
  StepanArkadyevichbelievedmostpositivelythatthecommitteeinwhichhewastryingtogetanappointmentwasanew,genuine,andhonestpublicbody,butthatmorningwhenBolgarinovhad-intentionally,beyondadoubt-kepthimtwohourswaitingwithotherpetitionersinhiswaitingroom,hehadsuddenlyfeltuneasy。
  Whetherhewasuncomfortablebecausehe,adescendantofRurik,PrinceOblonsky,hadbeenkeptfortwohourswaitingtoseeaJew,orthatforthefirsttimeinhisfifehewasnotfollowingtheexampleofhisancestorsinservingthegovernment,butwasturningoffintoanewcareer-atanyratehewasveryuncomfortable。DuringthosetwohoursinBolgarinov’swaitingroomStepanArkadyevich,steppingjauntilyabouttheroom,pullinghissidewhiskers,enteringintoconversationwiththeotherpetitioners,andinventingacalembourdealingwithhiswaitintheJew’santeroom,assiduouslyconcealedfromothers,andevenfromhimself,thefeelinghewasexperiencing。
  Butallthetimehewasuncomfortableandperturbed,hecouldnothavesaidwhy-whetherbecausehecouldnotgethiscalembourjustright,orfromsomeotherreason。WhenatlastBolgarinovhadreceivedhimwithexaggeratedpolitenessandunmistakabletriumphathishumiliation,andhadallbutrefusedthefavoraskedofhim,StepanArkadyevichhadmadehastetoforgetitallassoonaspossible。Andnow,atthemererecollection,heblushed。