ThereisreallyonlyonecircleofPeterburguppersociety:everyoneknowseveryoneelse,evenvisitseachother。Butthisgreatcirclehassubdivisionsofitsown。AnnaArkadyevnaKareninahadfriendsandclosetiesinthreedifferentcircles。Onecirclewasherhusband’ssetofcivilservantsandofficials,consistingofhiscolleaguesandsubordinates,broughttogetherinamostdiversifiedandcapriciousmanner,yetseparatedbysocialconditions。Annacouldnowrecallonlywithdifficultythefeelingofalmostpiousreverencewhichshehadatfirstborneforthesepersons。Nowsheknewallofthem,aspeopleknowoneanotherinaprovincialtown;sheknewtheirhabitsandweaknesses,andwheretheshoepinchedeachoneofthem。Sheknewtheirattitudestowardoneanotherandtothechiefcenter;knewwhobackedwhom,andhowandwherewithaleachonemaintainedhisposition,andwhoagreedordisagreedwithwhom;butthiscircleofpolitical,masculineinterestscouldnotinteresther,and,inspiteofCountessLidiaIvanovna’ssuggestions,sheavoidedit。
Anothersmallcircle,withwhichAnnawasintimate,wastheonebymeansofwhichAlexeiAlexandrovichhadmadehiscareer。ThecenterofthiscirclewastheCountessLidiaIvanovna。Thiswasacircleofelderly,homely,virtuousandpiouswomen,andclever,learnedandambitiousmen。Oneofthecleverpeoplebelongingtothissmallcirclehadcalledit`theconscienceofPeterburgsociety。’AlexeiAlexandrovichappreciatedthiscircleverymuch,andAnna,whoknewsowellhowtogetonwithall,hadintheearlydaysofherlifeinPeterburgfoundfriendseveninthiscircle。Butnow,uponherreturnfromMoscow,thissethadbecomeunbearabletoher。Itseemedtoherthatbothsheandallofthemweredissimulating,andsheexperiencedsuchboredomandlackofeaseintheirsocietythatshetriedtovisittheCountessLidiaIvanovnaasinfrequentlyaspossible。
And,finally,thethirdcirclewithwhichAnnahadtieswasthereallyfashionableworld-theworldofballs,ofdinners,ofsumptuousdresses;theworldthathungontothecourtwithonehand,inordernottosinktothelevelofthedemimonde,whichthemembersofthefashionableworldbelievedtheydespised-yetthetastesofbothwerenotonlysimilar,butpreciselythesame。HerconnectionwiththiscirclewasmaintainedthroughPrincessBetsyTverskaia,hercousin’swife,whohadanincomeofahundredandtwentythousandroubles,andwhohadtakenagreatlikingtoAnnaeversinceshefirstcameout,lookingafterheranddrawingherintoherowncircle,pokingfunatthatofCountessLidiaIvanovna。
`WhenI’moldandshallhavelostmylooks,I’llbethesame,’Betsyusedtosay;`butforayoungandprettywomanlikeyouit’smuchtooearlytojointhatOldLadies’Home。’
Annahadatfirstavoided,asmuchasshecould,PrincessTverskaia’sworld,becauseitnecessitatedexpendituresabovehermeans-and,besides,atsoulshepreferredthefirstcircle;butafterhertriptoMoscow,thingsfelloutquitetheotherway。Sheavoidedhermoralfriends,andwentoutintothefashionableworld。ThereshewouldmeetVronsky,andexperiencedanagitatingjoyatsuchmeetings。EspeciallyoftendidshemeetVronskyatBetsy’s,forBetsywasaVronskybybirth,andhiscousin。VronskywenteverywherewherehemightmeetAnna,and,ateverychancehehad,spoketoherofhislove。Sheofferedhimnoencouragement,yeteverytimeshemethimtherewaskindledinhersoulthatsamefeelingofanimationwhichhadcomeuponherthatdayintherailwaycarriagewhenshehadseenhimforthefirsttime。Shefeltherselfthatherdelightshoneinhereyesandpuckeredherlipsintoasmile-andshecouldnotquenchtheexpressionofthisdelight。
AtfirstAnnahadsincerelybelievedthatshewasdispleasedwithhimfordaringtopursueher;butnotlongafterherreturnfromMoscow,onarrivingatasoireewhereshehadanticipatedmeetinghim,yetnotfindinghimthere,sherealizedclearly,fromthefeelingofsadnesswhichovercameher,thatshehadbeendeceivingherself,andthatthispursuitwasnotmerelynotdistastefultoher,butthatitconstitutedalltheinterestofherlife。
Itwasthesecondperformanceofacelebratedcantatrice,andallthefashionableworldwasinthetheater。Vronsky,seeinghiscousinfromhisseatinthefrontrow,didnotwaittilltheentr’acte,butwenttoherbox。
`Whydidn’tyoucometodinner?’shesaidtohim。`Imarvelatthisclairvoyanceoflovers,’sheaddedwithasmile,sothatnoonebuthecouldhear,`shewasn’tthere。Butdocomeaftertheopera。’
Vronskylookedinquiringlyather。Shenodded。Hethankedherbyasmile,andsatdownbesideher。
`ButhowIrememberyourjeers!’continuedPrincessBetsy,whotookspecialdelightinfollowinguptheprogressofthispassion。`What’sbecomeofallthat?You’recaught,mydearfellow。’
`That’smyonedesire-tobecaught,’answeredVronsky,withhiscalm,good-naturedsmile。`IfIcomplainatall,it’sonlythatI’mnotcaughtenough,ifthetruthweretold。Ibegintolosehope。’
`Why,whateverhopecanyouexpect?’saidBetsy,offendedonbehalfofherfriend。`Entendonsnous……’Butinhereyesflittedgleamsoflight,whichproclaimedthatsheunderstoodverywell,evenasmuchashedid,whathopehemightentertain。
`Nonewhatever,’saidVronsky,laughingandshowinghiscloselysetteeth。`Excuseme,’headded,takingthebinocularsoutofherhand,andproceedingtoscrutinize,overherbareshoulder,therowofboxesoppositethem。`I’mafraidI’mbecomingridiculous。’
HewasverywellawarethatherannoriskofbeingridiculousintheeyesofBetsyandallotherfashionablepeople。Hewasverywellawarethatintheeyesofthesepeopletheroleofthehaplessloverofagirl,oringeneral,ofanywomanfreetomarry,mightberidiculous;buttheroleofamanpursuingamarriedwoman,and,regardlessofeverything,stakinghislifeondrawingherintoadultery-thatrolehassomethingbeautifulandmajesticaboutit,andcanneverberidiculous,andsoitwaswithaproudandgaysmileunderhismustachesthatheloweredthebinocularsandlookedathiscousin。
`Butwhydidn’tyoucometodinner?’shesaid,admiringhim。
`Imusttellyouaboutthat。Iwasbusy-andwithwhat,doyousuppose?I’llgiveyouahundredguesses,athousand……you’dneverguess。I’vebeenreconcilingahusbandwithamanwho’dinsultedhiswife。Yes,really!’
`Well,didyoureconcilethem?’
`Almost。’
`Youreallymusttellmeaboutit,’shesaid,gettingup。`Cometomeinthenextentr’acte。’
`Ican’t;I’mgoingtotheFrenchtheater。’
`LeavingNilsson?’Betsyqueriedinhorror,thoughshecouldnotherselfhavedistinguishedNilssonfromanychorusgirl。
`WhatcanIdo?I’veanappointmentthere,allbecauseofmymissionofpeace。’
`’Blessedarethepeacemakers;’’``theyshallbesaved’,’saidBetsy,recallingsomethingofthatsortshehadheardfromsomebodyorother。`Verywell,then,sitdown,andtellmewhatit’sallabout。’
Andsheresumedherseat。
`Thisisratherindiscreet,butit’ssocharmingthatoneisawfullytemptedtotellthestory,’saidVronsky,lookingatherwithlaughingeyes。`Idon’tintendtomentionanynames。’
`ButIshallguessthem-somuchthebetter。’
`Listen,then:twofestiveyoungmenweredrivingalong……’
`Officersofyourregiment,ofcourse?’
`Ididn’tsaytheywereofficers-justtwoyoungmenwhohadbeenlunching。’
`Inotherwords,drinking。’
`Possibly。Theyweredrivingontheirwaytodinnerwithafriendinthegayestofmoods。Andtheycatchsightofaprettywomaninahiredsleigh,whoovertakesthem,looksbackatthem,and-soitseemedtothem,atanyrate-nodstothemandlaughs。They,ofcourse,followher-gallopingatfullspeed。Totheiramazement,thefaironealightsattheentranceoftheveryhousetowhichtheyweregoing。Thefaironedartsupstairstothetopfloor。Alltheygotwasaglimpseofrosebudlipsunderashortveil,andofexquisitelittlefeet。’
`Youtellthiswithsuchfeelingthatitseemstomeyouyourselfmusthavebeenoneofthetwo。’
`Butwhatdidyoutellmejustnow?……Well,theyoungmenentertheircomrade’sapartment-hewasgivingafarewelldinner。Theretheycertainlydidtakeadroptoomuch,asisalwaysthecaseatfarewelldinners。Andatdinnertheyinquirewholivesatthetopinthathouse。Nooneknows;onlytheirhost’svalet,inanswertotheirinquirywhetherany``youngladies’arelivingonthetopfloor,answeredthattherewereagreatmanyofthem。Afterdinnerthetwoyoungmengointotheirhost’sstudy,andwritealettertothefairunknown。Theycomposedapassionateepistle,reallyadeclaration,andthencarrytheletterupstairsthemselves,soastoexplainwhatevermightprovenotaltogetherclearintheletter。’
`Whydoyoutellmesuchnastythings?Andthen?’
`Theyring。Amaidservantopensthedoor,theyhandhertheletter,andassureherthatthey’rebothsoenamoredthatthey’lldieonthespotatthedoor。Themaid,stupefied,carriesonthenegotiations。Suddenlyagentlemanappears-withsidewhiskerslikecountrysausages,heisasredasalobsterand,informingthemthatthereisnoonelivinginthatflatexcepthiswife,hesendsthembothpacking。’
`Howdoyouknowhehadsidewhiskerslikesausages,asyouputit?’
`Ah,dobutlisten。RecentlyIwenttomakepeacebetweenthem。’
`Well,andwhatwastheupshot?’
`That’sthemostinterestingpart。Thiscoupleturnedouttobeamosthappyone-agovernmentclerkandhislady。Thegovernmentclerklodgesacomplaint,whereuponIbecomeamediator-andwhatamediator!……IassureyouTalleyrandwasanobodycomparedtome。’
`Justwhatwasthedifficulty?’
`Ah,dobutlisten……Wemakefittingapologies:``Weareindespair;weentreatforgivenessfortheunfortunatemisunderstanding。’’Thegovernmentclerkwiththecountrysausagesbeginstomelt,andhe,too,desirestoexpresshissentiments,butnosoonerdoeshebegintoexpressthemthanhegetsheatedandsaysnastythings,andagainI’mobligedtotrotoutallmydiplomatictalents。``Iagreethattheiractionwasbad,butIbegofyoutotakeintoconsiderationthemisunderstanding,andtheiryouth;besides,theyoungmenhadjustcomefromtheirlunch。Youunderstand。Theirrepentanceisheartfeltandtheybegyoutoforgivetheirmisbehavior。’’Thegovernmentclerkwassoftenedoncemore。``Iconsent,Count,andamreadytoforgivebutyoumustunderstandthatmywife-mywife!-arespectablewomanissubjectedtoannoyances,andinsults,andimpertinencesbycertainmilksops,scou……’’Yet,youunderstand,themilksopispresent,anditisuptometomakepeacebetweenthem。AgainItrotoutallmydiplomacy,andagain,justasthematterisabouttobeconcluded,ourfriendthegovernmentclerkgetsheatedandturnsredwhilehiscountrysausagesbristleup,andIoncemoreexertdiplomaticfinesse。’
`Ah,youmusthearthisstory!’saidBetsy,laughing,toaladywhowasenteringthebox。`Hehasmademelaughsomuch……Well,bonnechance!’sheadded,givingVronskytheonefingerfreefromholdingherfan,andwithashrugofhershoulderslettingdownthebodiceofhergown,thathadworkedup,soastobefittinglyandfullynudeasshemovedforward,towardthefootlights,intothelightsofthegas,andwithinthekenofall。
VronskydrovetotheFrenchtheater,wherehereallyhadtoseethecolonelofhisregiment,whonevermissedasingleperformancethere;hewantedtotalkoverhispeacemaking,whichhadbeenoccupyingandamusinghimforthelastthreedays。Petritsky,whomheliked,wasimplicatedintheaffair,aswellasanotherfinefellowandexcellentcomrade,whohadlatelyjoinedtheregiment-theyoungPrinceKedrov。But,mainly,theinterestsoftheregimentwereinvolvedaswell。
BothculpritswereinVronsky’ssquadron。Thecoloneloftheregimenthadreceivedacallfromthegovernmentclerk,Venden,withacomplaintagainsthisofficers,whohadinsultedhiswife。Hisyoungwife,asVendentoldthestory-hehadbeenmarriedhalfayear-hadbeenatchurchwithhermother,and,suddenlyfeelingindisposed,duetoherinterestingcondition,foundthatshecouldnotremainstandinganddrovehomeinthefirstsleighwiththemettlesomecoachmanshecameacross。Itwasthenthattheofficerssetoffinpursuitofher;shewasalarmed,and,feelingstillworse,ranhomeupthestaircase。Vendenhimself,onreturningfromhisoffice,hadheardaringattheirbellandvoices,hadsteppedout,andseeingtheintoxicatedofficerswithaletter,hehadpushedthemout。Hewasaskingthattheculpritsbeseverelypunished。
`Youmaysaywhatyouwill,’saidthecoloneltoVronsky,whomhehadinvitedtocomeandseehim。`Petritskyisbecomingimpossible。Notaweekgoesbywithoutsomescrape。Thisclerkchapwon’tletmattersdrop-he’llgoonwiththething。’
Vronskysawallthethanklessnessofthebusiness,andthataduelwasoutofthequestionhere;thateverythingmustbedonetosoftenthisgovernmentclerk,andhushthematterup。ThecolonelhadcalledinVronskypreciselybecauseheknewhimtobeanhonorableandintelligentman,but,aboveall,onetowhomthehonoroftheregimentwasdear。Theytalkeditover,anddecidedthatPetritskyandKedrovmustgowithVronskytothisgovernmentclerkandapologize。ThecolonelandVronskywerebothfullyawarethatVronsky’snameandinsigniaofaide-de-campwereboundtogoalongwaytowardsofteningthegovernmentclerk。Andthesetwoinfluencesprovedinfactnotwithouteffect;thoughtheresultofthemediationremained,asVronskyhaddescribed,uncertain。
OnreachingtheFrenchtheater,Vronskyretiredtothefoyerwiththecolonel,andreportedtohimhissuccess-orlackofit。Thecolonel,thinkingitallover,decidednottogoonwiththematter;butthen,forhisowndelectation,proceededtoquestionVronskyaboutthedetailsofhisinterviewandforalongwhilecouldnotrestrainhislaughterashelistenedtoVronsky’sstoryofhowthegovernmentclerk,aftersubsidingforawhile,wouldsuddenlyflareupagain,asherecalledthedetails,andhowVronsky,atthelasthalf-wordofconciliation,hadskillfullymaneuveredaretreat,shovingPetritskyoutbeforehim。
`It’sadisgracefulscrape,butakillingone。Kedrovreallycan’tfightthisgentleman!Sohewasawfullywroughtup?’heaskedagain,laughing。`ButwhatdoyouthinkofClairetoday?She’sawonder!’hewenton,speakingofanewFrenchactress。`Nomatterhowoftenyouseeher,she’sdifferenteachtime。It’sonlytheFrenchwhocandothat。’
PrincessBetsydrovehomefromthetheaterwithoutwaitingfortheendofthelastact。Shehadjusttimeenoughtogointoherdressingroom,sprinkleherlong,palefacewithpowder,rubitoff,setherdresstorights,andorderteainthebigdrawingroom,whenoneafteranothercarriagesdroveuptoherhugehouseontheBolshaiaMorskaia。Herguestsdismountedatthewideentrance,andthestoutporter,whousedtoreadnewspapersmorningsbehindtheglassdoor,totheedificationofthepassers-by,noiselesslyopenedtheimmensedoor,lettingthevisitorspassbyhimintothehouse。
Almostatthesameinstantthatthehostess,withfreshlyarrangedcoiffureandfreshenedface,enteredatonedoor,herguestsenteredattheother,intothedrawingroom,alargeroomwithdarkwalls,downyrugsandabrightlylightedtable,gleamingwiththelightofcandles,thewhitenessofnapery,thesilverofthesamovarandtheteaserviceoftransparentporcelain。
Thehostesssatdownatthesamovarandtookoffhergloves。Chairsweresetwiththeaidoffootmen,movingalmostimperceptiblyabouttheroom;thepartysettleditself,dividedintotwogroups:oneroundthesamovarnearthehostess,theotherattheoppositeendofthedrawingroom,roundthehandsomewifeofanambassador,inblackvelvet,withsharplydefinedblackeyebrows。Inbothgroupsconversationwavered,asitalwaysdoes,forthefirstfewminutes,brokenupbymeetings,salutations,offersoftea,and,asitwere,seekingforsomepointincommon。
`She’sexceptionallyfineasanactress;onecanseeshe’sstudiedKaulbach,’saidadiplomatistinthecircleoftheambassador’swife。`Didyounoticehowshefelldown?……’
`Oh,please,don’tletustalkaboutNilsson!Noonecanpossiblysayanythingnewabouther,’saidafat,red-faced,flaxen-headedlady,withouteyebrowsandwithoutchignon,wearinganoldsilkdress。ThiswasPrincessMiaghkaia,notedforhersimplicityandtheroughnessofhermanners,andnicknamedenfantterrible。PrincessMiaghkaiawasseatedhalfwaybetweenthetwogroups,and,listeningtoboth,tookpartintheconversationfirstofoneandthenoftheother。`ThreepeoplehaveusedthatveryphraseaboutKaulbachtometoday,justasthoughtheyhadconspired。AndIdon’tknowwhythatphraseshouldbesomuchtotheirliking。’
Theconversationwascutshortbythisobservation,andagainanewsubjecthadtobethoughtof。
`Dotellussomethingamusing,yetnotspiteful,’saidtheambassador’swife,agreatproficientintheartofthatelegantconversationcalledbytheEnglishsmalltalk。Sheaddressedthediplomatist,whowasnowatalossjustwhattobeginupon。
`Thatissaidtobeadifficulttask-onlythatwhichisspitefulissupposedtobeamusing,’hebeganwithasmile。`However,I’llmaketheattempt。Givemeatheme。it’sallamatterofthetheme。Ifthethemebebutgiven,it’seasyenoughtoembroiderit。Ioftenthinkthatthecelebratedconversationalistsofthelastcenturywouldfinditdifficulttotalkcleverlynow。Everythingcleverhasbecomesuchabore……’
`Thathasbeensaidlongago,’theambassador’swifeinterruptedhim,laughing。
Theconversationhadbegunamiably,butjustbecauseitwastooamiable,itcametoastopagain。Theyhadtohaverecoursetothesure,never-failingremedy-maliciousgossip。
`Don’tyouthinkthere’ssomethingLouisQuinzeaboutTushkevich?’hesaid,glancingtowardahandsome,fair-hairedyoungman,standingatthetable。
`Oh,yes!He’sinthesamestyleasthedrawingroom,andthat’swhyitishe’ssooftenhere。’
Thisconversationwaskeptup,sinceitdependedonallusionstowhatcouldnotbetalkedofinthatroom-thatistosay,oftherelationsofTushkevichwiththeirhostess。
Roundthesamovarandthehostesstheconversationhaving,inthemeanwhile,vacillatedinpreciselythesamewaybetweenthethreeinevitabletopics-thelatestpieceofpublicnews,thetheater,andcensuringthefellowcreature-hadfinallycometorestonthelasttopic-thatis,maliciousgossip。
`HaveyouheardthateventheMaltishcheva-themother,notthedaughter-hasorderedacostumeindiablerosecolor?’
`Impossible!No,that’sjustcharming!’
`Iwonderthatwithhersense-forafterallshe’snofool-shedoesn’tseehowfunnysheis。’
EveryonehadsomethingtosayincensureorridiculeofthehaplessMaltishcheva,andtheconversationcrackledmerrily,likeablazingbonfire。
ThehusbandofPrincessBetsy,agood-naturedcorpulentman,anardentcollectorofengravings,hearingthathiswifehadvisitors,hadcomeintothedrawingroombeforeleavingforhisclub。Steppingnoiselesslyoverthethickrugs,heapproachedPrincessMiaghkaia。
`HowdidyoulikeNilsson?’heasked。
`Oh,howcanyoustealuponanyonelikethat!Howyoustartledme!’sheresponded。`Pleasedon’ttalktomeabouttheopera;youknownothingaboutmusic。I’drathercomedowntoyourownlevel,anddiscusswithyouyourmajolicaandengravings。Come,now,whattreasurehaveyoubeenbuyinglatelyattheragfair?’
`Wouldyoulikemetoshowyou?Butyoudon’tunderstandsuchthings。’
`Yes,showme。I’vebeenlearningaboutthematthose-what’stheirnames?……thosebankers……Theyhavesomesplendidengravings。Theyshowedthemtous。’
`Why,haveyoubeenattheSchutzburgs?’askedthehostessfrombehindthesamovar。
`Yes,machère。Theyaskedmyhusbandandmyselftodinner,andIwastoldthatthesauceatthatdinnercostathousandroubles,’PrincessMiaghkaiasaid,speakingloudly,consciousthatallwerelistening;`andverynastysauceitwas-somegreenmess。Wehadtoaskthem,andImadeasauceforeighty-fivekopecks,andeverybodywasverymuchpleasedwithit。Ican’taffordthousand-roublesauces。’
`She’sunique!’saidtheladyofthehouse。
`Amazing!’somebodyelseadded。
TheeffectproducedbyPrincessMiaghkaia’sspeecheswasalwaysthesame,andthesecretoftheeffectsheproducedlayinthefactthatthoughshespokenotalwaysappropriately,asnow,shesaidhomelytruths,notdevoidofsense。Inthesocietyinwhichshelivedsuchutteranceshadthesameresultasthemostpungentwit。PrincessMiaghkaiacouldneverseewhyithadthatresult,butsheknewithad,andtookadvantageofit。
SinceeveryonehadbeenlisteningwhilePrincessMiaghkaiaspoke,andtheconversationaroundtheambassador’swifehaddropped,PrincessBetsytriedtobringthewholepartytogether,andsheaddressedtheambassador’swife。
`Reallywon’tyouhavetea?Docomeandjoinus。’
`No,we’reverycomfortablehere,’theambassador’swiferespondedwithasmile,andwentonwiththeinterruptedconversation。
Itwasamostagreeableconversation。TheywerecensuringtheKarenins,husbandandwife。
`AnnaisquitechangedsinceherstayinMoscow。There’ssomethingstrangeabouther,’saidoneofherfemininefriends。
`ThegreatchangeisthatshehasbroughtbackwithhertheshadowofAlexeiVronsky,’saidtheambassador’swife。
`Well,whatofit?There’safableofGrimm’saboutamanwithoutashadow-amandeprivedofhisshadow。Asapunishmentforsomethingorother。Inevercouldunderstandjusthowthiswasapunishment。Yetawomanmustprobablyfeeluncomfortablewithoutashadow。’
`Yes,butwomenfollowedbyashadowusuallycometoabadend,’saidAnna’sfriend。
`Biteyourtongue!’saidPrincessMiaghkaiasuddenly。`Kareninaisasplendidwoman。Idon’tlikeherhusband-butherIlikeverymuch。’
`Whydon’tyoulikeherhusband?He’ssucharemarkableman,’saidtheambassador’swife。`MyhusbandsaystherearefewstatesmenlikehiminEurope。’
`Andmyhusbandtellsmejustthesame,butIdon’tbelieveit,’saidPrincessMiaghkaia。`Ifourhusbandsdidn’ttalktous,weshouldseethefactsastheyare。AlexeiAlexandrovich,tomythinking,issimplyafool。Isayitinawhisper……Butdoesn’titreallymakeeverythingclear?Before,whenIwastoldtoconsiderhimclever,Ikeptlookingforhisability,andthoughtmyselfafoolfornotseeingit;butdirectlyIsaid,he’safool,thoughonlyinawhisper,everythingbecameclear-isn’tthatso?’
`Howspitefulyouaretoday!’
`Notabit。I’dnootherwayoutofit。Oneofustwohadtobethefool。And,asyouknow,onecouldneversaythatofoneself。’
`Nooneissatisfiedwithhisfortune,andeveryoneissatisfiedwithhiswit,’thediplomatistrepeatedtheFrenchsaying。
`That’sit-that’sjustit,’PrincessMiaghkaiaturnedtohimpromptly。`ButthepointisthatIwon’tabandonAnnatoyourmercies。She’ssuchadear,socharming。Howcanshehelpitifthey’reallinlovewithher,andfollowheraboutlikeshadows?’
`Oh,Ihadnoideaofcensuringher,’Anna’sfriendsaidinself-defense。
`Ifwehavenoshadowsfollowingus,itdoesnotprovethatwe’veanyrighttoblameher。’
And,havingdulydisposedofAnna’sfriend,thePrincessMiaghkaiagotup,and,togetherwiththeambassador’swife,joinedthegroupatthetable,wherethegeneralconversationhadtodowiththekingofPrussia。
`Whatwereyougossipingsomaliciouslyabout?’askedBetsy。
`AbouttheKarenins。ThePrincessgaveusacharactersketchofAlexeiAlexandrovich,’saidtheambassador’swifewithasmile,asshesatdownatthetable。
`Pitywedidn’thearit!’saidPrincessBetsy,glancingtowardthedoor。`Ah,hereyouareatlast!’shesaid,turningwithasmiletoVronskywhowasentering。
Vronskywasnotmerelyacquaintedwithallthepersonswhomhewasmeetinghere;hesawthemalleveryday;andsohecameinwiththequietmannerwithwhichoneentersaroomfullofpeoplewhomonehadleftonlyashortwhileago。
`WheredoIcomefrom?’herepeatedthequestionoftheambassador’swife。`Well,there’snohelpforit-Imustconfess。Fromtheoperabouffe。IdobelieveI’veseenitahundredtimes,andalwayswithfreshenjoyment。It’sexquisite!Iknowit’sdisgraceful,butIgotosleepattheopera,yetIsitouttheoperabouffetothelastminute,andenjoyit。Thisevening……’
HementionedaFrenchactress,andwasabouttotellsomethingabouther;buttheambassador’swife,withplayfultrepidation,cuthimshort。
`Please,don’ttellusaboutthathorror。’
`Verywell,Iwon’t-especiallyaseveryoneknowsthosehorrors。’
`Andweshouldallgotoseethemifitwereacceptedasthecorrectthing,liketheopera,’chimedinPrincessMiaghkaia。
Stepswereheardatthedoor,andPrincessBetsy,knowingitwasMadameKarenina,glancedatVronsky。Hewaslookingtowardthedoor,andhisfaceworeastrangenewexpression。Joyfully,intently,andatthesametimetimidly,hegazedattheapproachingfigure,andslowlyherosetohisfeet。Annawalkedintothedrawingroom。Holdingherselfextremelyerect,asalways,lookingstraightbeforeher,andmovingwithherswift,resoluteandlightstep,thatdistinguishedherwalkfromthatofothersocietywomen,shecrossedthefewpacesthatseparatedherfromherhostess,shookhandswithher,smiled,andwiththesamesmilelookedaroundatVronsky。Vronskybowedlowandpushedachairupforher。
Sheacknowledgedthisonlybyaslightnod,flushed,andfrowned。Butimmediately,whilerapidlygreetingheracquaintances,andshakingthehandsprofferedtoher,sheaddressedPrincessBetsy:
`IhavebeenatCountessLidia’s,andmeanttohavecomehereearlier,butIstayedon。SirJohnwasthere。Amostinterestingman。’
`Oh,that’sthismissionary?’
`Yes;hetoldusaboutlifeinIndia,mostinterestingly。’
Theconversation,interruptedbyhercomingin,flickeredupagainlikethelightofalampbeingblownout。
`SirJohn!Yes,SirJohn。I’veseenhim。Hespeakswell。Vlassievaisaltogetherinlovewithhim。’
`AndisittruethattheyoungerVlassievaistomarryTopov?’
`Yes-theysayit’squitesettled。’
`Iwonderattheparents!Theysayit’samarriageofpassion。’
`Ofpassion?Whatantediluviannotionsyouhave!Whoevertalksofpassionnowadays?’saidtheambassador’swife。
`Whatwouldyoudo?Thissillyoldfashionisstillfarfromdead,’saidVronsky。
`Somuchtheworseforthosewhokeepupthefashion。TheonlyhappymarriagesIknowaremarriagesofprudence。’
`Yes,-butthen,howoftenthehappinessoftheseprudentmarriagesisscatteredlikedust,preciselybecausethatpassiontowhichrecognitionhasbeendeniedappearsonthescene,’saidVronsky。
`Butbymarriagesofprudencewemeanthoseinwhichbothpartieshavesowntheirwildoatsalready。That’slikescarlatina-onehastogothroughwithitandgetitoverwith。’
`Inthatcasewemustlearnhowtovaccinateforlove,likesmall-pox。’
`Iwasinloveinmyyoungdays-withachurchclerk,’saidthePrincessMiaghkaia。`Idon’tknowthatitdidmeanygood。’
`No;Ithink-alljokesaside-thattoknowlove,onemustfirstmakeafault,andthenmendit,’saidPrincessBetsy。
`Evenaftermarriage?’saidtheambassador’swifeplayfully。
`It’snevertoolatetomend,’thediplomatistrepeatedtheEnglishproverb。
`Justso,’Betsyagreed;`onemustmakeamistakeandrectifyit。Whatdoyouthinkaboutit?’SheturnedtoAnna,who,withabarelyperceptibleresolutesmileonherlips,waslisteningtotheconversation。
`Ithink’saidAnna,playingwiththegloveshehadtakenoff,`Ithink……ifthereareasmanymindsasthereareheads,thensurelytheremustbeasmanykindsofloveastherearehearts。’
VronskywasgazingatAnna,andwithaheartsinkingwaswaitingforwhatshewouldsay。Hesighedasafteradangerescapedwhenshehadutteredthesewords。
Annasuddenlyturnedtohim。
`Oh,IhavehadaletterfromMoscow。TheywritemethatKittyShcherbatskaia’sveryill。’
`Really?’saidVronsky,knittinghisbrows。
Annalookedsternlyathim。
`Thatdoesn’tinterestyou?’
`Onthecontrary,itdoes-verymuch。Whatisit,exactly,thattheywriteyou,ifmayknow?’heasked。
AnnagotupandwenttoBetsy。
`Givemeacupoftea,’shesaid,pausingbehindherchair。
WhileBetsywaspouringoutthetea,VronskywalkeduptoAnna。
`Whatisittheywriteyou?’herepeated。
`Ioftenthinkmenhavenounderstandingofwhatisdishonorable,thoughthey’reforevertalkingofit,’saidAnna,withoutansweringhim。`I’vewantedtotellyousomethingforalongwhile,’sheadded,and,movingafewstepsaway,shesatdownatacornertablewhichheldalbums。
`Idon’tquiteunderstandthesignificanceofyourwords,’hesaid,handingherthecup。
Sheglancedtowardsthesofabesideher,andheinstantlysatdown。
`Yes,I’vewantedtotellyou,’shesaid,withoutlookingathim。`Youractionwaswrong-wrong,verywrong。’
`DoyousupposeIdon’tknowthatI’veactedwrongly?Butwhowasthecauseofmydoingso?’
`Whydoyousaythattome?’shesaidlookingathimsternly。
`Youknowwhy,’heanswered,boldlyandjoyously,meetingherglanceandwithoutdroppinghiseyes。
Itwasnothe,butshe,whobecameconfused。
`Thatmerelyprovesyouhavenoheart,’shesaid。Buthereyessaidthatsheknewhehadaheart,andthatwaswhyshewasafraidofhim。
`Whatyouspokeofjustnowwasamistake,andnotlove。’
`RememberthatIhaveforbiddenyoutoutterthatword,thatdetestableword,’saidAnna,withashudder。Butatonceshefeltthatbythatveryword`forbidden’shehadshownthatsheacknowledgedcertainrightsoverhim,andbythatveryfactwasencouraginghimtospeakoflove。`Ihavelongmeanttotellyouthis,’shewenton,lookingresolutelyintohiseyes,andallaflamefromtheburningflushonhercheeks。`I’vecomeherepurposelythisevening,knowingIshouldmeetyou。Ihavecometotellyouthatthismustend。Ihaveneverblushedbeforeanyone,andyouforcemetofeelguiltyofsomething。’
Helookedatherandwasstruckbyanewspiritualbeautyinherface。
`Whatdoyouwishofme?’hesaid,simplyandgravely。
`IwantyoutogotoMoscowandaskforKitty’sforgiveness,’shesaid。
`Thatisnotyourwish,’hesaid。
Hesawshewassayingwhatshewasforcingherselftosay,notwhatshewantedtosay。
`Ifyouloveme,asyousay,’shewhispered,`youwilldothis,sothatImaybeatpeace。’
Hisfacegrewradiant。
`Don’tyouknowthatyou’reallmylifetome?ButIknownopeace,andIcan’tgiveittoyou;allofmyself,andlove-yes。Ican’tthinkofyouandmyselfapart。YouandIareonetome。AndIseenopossibilitybeforeusofpeace-eitherformeorforyou。Iseeapossibilityofdespair,ofwretchedness……OrelseIseeapossibilityofhappiness-andwhatahappiness!……Canitbeimpossible?’headded,hislipsbarelymoving-yetsheheard。
Shestrainedeveryeffortofhermindtosaywhatoughttobesaid。Butinsteadofthatshelethereyesrestonhim,fulloflove,andmadenoanswer。
`It’scome!’hethoughtinecstasy。`WhenIwasbeginningtodespair,anditseemedtherewouldbenoend-it’scome!Shelovesme!Sheownsit!’
`Thendothisforme:neversaysuchthingstome,andletusbefriends,’shesaidinwords;buthereyesspokequitedifferently。
`Friendsweshallneverbe-thatyouknowyourself。Whetherweshallbethehappiestorthemostwretchedofpeople-thatlieswithinyourpower。’
Shewouldhavesaidsomething,butheinterruptedher。
`ForIaskbutonething:Iaskfortherighttohope,tosuffer-evenasIamdoingnow。Butifeventhatcannotbe,commandmetodisappear,andIdisappear。Youshallnotseemeifmypresenceispainfultoyou。’
`Idon’twanttodriveyouaway。’
`Onlydon’tchangeanything-leaveeverythingasitis,’saidhe,inashakyvoice。`Here’syourhusband。’
AtthatinstantAlexeiAlexandrovichdidinfactwalkintotheroomwithhiscalm,ungainlygait。
GlancingathiswifeandVronsky,hewentuptotheladyofthehouse,and,sittingdownforacupoftea,begantalkinginhisunhasty,alwaysaudiblevoice,inhishabitualtoneofbanter,asifhewereteasingsomeone。
`YourRambouilletisinfullconclave,’hesaidlookingroundatalltheparty;`thegracesandthemuses。’
ButPrincessBetsycouldnotendurethattoneofhis-sneering,asshecalledit,usingtheEnglishword,andlikeacleverhostesssheatoncebroughthimaroundtoaseriousconversationonthesubjectofuniversalconscription。AlexeiAlexandrovichwasimmediatelycarriedawaybythesubject,andbeganseriouslydefendingthenewimperialdecreebeforePrincessBetsy,whohadattackedit。
VronskyandAnnastillsatatthelittletable。
`Thisisgettingindecorous,’whisperedonelady,withanexpressiveglanceatMadameKarenina,herhusbandandVronsky。
`WhatdidItellyou?’saidAnna’sfriend。
Butitwasnotonlytheseladieswhowatchedthem-almosteveryoneintheroom,eventhePrincessMiaghkaiaandBetsyherself,lookedseveraltimesinthedirectionofthetwowhohadwithdrawnfromthegeneralcircle,asthoughtheyfounditahindrance。AlexeiAlexandrovichwastheonlypersonwhodidnotoncelookintheirdirection,andwasnotdivertedfromtheinterestingdiscussionhehadenteredupon。
Noticingthedisagreeableimpressionthatwasbeingmadeoneveryone,PrincessBetsyslippedsomeoneelseintoherplacetolistentoAlexeiAlexandrovich,andwalkedovertoAnna。
`I’malwaysamazedattheclearnessandprecisionofyourhusband’slanguage,’shesaid。`Themosttranscendentideasseemtobewithinmygraspwhenhe’sspeaking。’
`Oh,yes!’saidAnna,radiantwithasmileofhappiness,andnotunderstandingawordofwhatBetsyhadsaid。Shecrossedovertothebigtableandtookpartinthegeneralconversation。
AlexeiAlexandrovich,afterstayinghalfanhour,walkeduptohiswifeandsuggestedthattheygohometogether。Butsheanswered,withoutlookingathim,thatshewasstayingtosupper。AlexeiAlexandrovichbowedhimselfout。
ThefatoldTatar,MadameKarenina’scoachman,inaglisteningleathercoat,waswithdifficultybridlingtheleftofherpairofgrays,chilledwiththecoldandrearingattheentrance。Afootmanstoodbythecarriagedoorhehadopened。Thehallporterstoodholdingopenthegreatdoorofthehouse。AnnaArkadyevna,withherquicklittlehand,wasunfasteningthelaceofhersleeve,caughtinthehookofherfurcloak,andwithbentheadwaslisteningrapturouslytothewordsVronskymurmuredashesawherdowntohercarriage。
`You’vesaidnothing,ofcourse,andIasknothing,’hewassaying;`butyouknowthatfriendshipisnotwhatIwant:thatthere’sonlyonehappinessinlifeforme-thatwordyoudislikeso……yes,love!……’
`Love……’sherepeatedslowly,inaninnervoice,andsuddenly,attheveryinstantsheunhookedthelace,sheadded,`Idon’tlikethewordpreciselybecauseitmeanstoomuchtome,farmorethanyoucanunderstand,’andsheglancedintohisface。`Good-by。’
Shegavehimherhand,andwithherrapid,springystepshepassedbytheporterandvanishedintothecarriage。
Herglance,thetouchofherhand,hadsearedhim。Hekissedthepalmofhishandwhereshehadtouchedit,andwenthome,happyintherealizationthathehadgotnearertotheattainmentofhisaimsthateveningthanduringthetwolastmonths。
AlexeiAlexandrovichhadseennothingstrikingorimproperinthefactthathiswifewassittingwithVronskyatatableapart,ineagerconversationwithhimaboutsomething。Buthenoticedthattotherestofthepartythisappearedassomethingstrikingandimproper,andforthatreasonitseemedtohim,too,tobeimproper。Hemadeuphismindthathemustspeakofittohiswife。
OnreachinghomeAlexeiAlexandrovichwenttohisstudy,asheusuallydid,seatedhimselfinhislowchair,openedabookonthePapacyattheplacehehadmarkedbyinsertingthepaperknife,readtilloneo’clock,justasheusuallydid。Butfromtimetotimehewouldrubhishighforeheadandshakehishead,asthoughtodriveawaysomething。Athisusualtimehegotupandmadehistoiletforthenight。AnnaArkadyevnahadnotyetcomein。Withabookunderhisarmhewentupstairs。Butthisevening,insteadofhisusualthoughtsandmeditationsuponofficialdetails,histhoughtswereabsorbedbyhiswifeandsomethingdisagreeableconnectedwithher。Contrarytohisusualhabit,hedidnotgetintobed,butfelltowalkingupanddowntheroomswithhishandsclaspedbehindhisback。Hecouldnotgotobed,feelingthatitwasabsolutelyneedfulforhimfirsttothinkthoroughlyoverthesituationthathadjustarisen。
WhenAlexeiAlexandrovichhadmadeuphismindthathemusthaveatalkwithhiswife,ithadseemedaveryeasyandsimplematter。Butnow,whenhebegantothinkoverthequestionthathadjustpresenteditself,itseemedtohimverycomplicatedanddifficult。
AlexeiAlexandrovichwasnotjealous。Jealousy,accordingtohisnotions,wasaninsulttoone’swife,andoneoughttohaveconfidenceinone’swife。Whyoneoughttohavethatconfidence-thatistosay,acompleteconvictionthathisyoungwifewouldalwayslovehim-hedidnotaskhimself。Buthehadneverexperiencedsuchalackofconfidence,becausehehadconfidenceinher,andtoldhimselfthatheoughttohaveit。Now,thoughhisconvictionthatjealousywasashamefulfeeling,andthatoneoughttofeelconfidence,hadnotbrokendown,hestillfeltthathewasstandingfacetofacewithsomethingillogicalandfatuous,anddidnotknowwhatoughttobedone。AlexeiAlexandrovichwasstandingfacetofacewithlife,withthepossibilityofhiswife’slovingsomeoneotherthanhimself,andthisseemedtohimveryfatuousandincomprehensible,becauseitwasoftheverystuffoflife。AllhislifeAlexeiAlexandrovichhadlivedandworkedinofficialspheres,havingtodomerelywiththereflectionsoflife。Andeverytimehehadstumbledagainstlifeitselfhehadshrunkawayfromit。Nowheexperiencedafeelingakintothatofamanwho,whilecalmlycrossingaprecipicebyabridge,shouldsuddenlydiscoverthatthebridgeisbroken,andthatthereisachasmbelow。Thatchasmwaslifeitself-thebridge,thatartificiallifeinwhichAlexeiAlexandrovichhadlived。Forthefirsttimethequestionpresenteditselftohimofthepossibilityofhiswife’slovingsomeoneelse,andhewashorrifiedatit。
Hedidnotundress,butwalkedupanddownwithhisregulartreadovertheresoundingparquetofthediningroom,whereonelampwasburning;overthecarpetofthedarkdrawingroom,inwhichthelightwasreflectedmerelyonthebignewportraitofhimselfhangingoverthesofa;andacrossherboudoir,wheretwocandlesburned,lightinguptheportraitsofherparentsandfemininefriends,andtheprettyknickknacksofherwritingtable,everyoneofwhichheknewsowell。Hewalkedacrossherboudoirtothebedroomdoorandturnedbackagain。
Ateachturninhiswalk,especiallyontheparquetofthewell-litdiningroom,hehaltedandsaidtohimself,`Yes,thisImustdecideandputastopto;Imustexpressmyviewofitandmydecision。’Andheturnedbackagain。`ButjustwhatshallIexpress?Andwhatdecision?’hewouldsaytohimselfinthedrawingroom-andfoundnoanswer。`But,afterall,’heaskedhimselfbeforeturningintotheboudoir,’whathasoccurred?Nothing。Shewastalkingalongwhilewithhim。Butwhatofthat?Surelywomeninsocietycantalktowhomtheyplease。Andthen,jealousymeansdebasingbothherandmyself,’hesoliloquizedasheenteredherboudoir;butthisdictum,whichhadalwayshadsuchweightwithhimbefore,hadnownoweightandnomeaningwhatsoever。Andfromthebedroomdoorheturnedbackagain;butasheenteredthedarkdrawingroomsomeinnervoicetoldhimthatitwasnotso,andthatifothershadnoticed,itmeantthattherewassomething。Andhesaidtohimselfagaininthediningroom:`Yes,Imustdecideandputastoptoit,andexpressmyviews……’Andagainattheturninthedrawingroomheaskedhimself:`Decidehow?’Andagainheaskedinwardly:`Whathasoccurred?’Andanswered:`Nothing,’andrecollectedthatjealousywasafeelinginsultingtohiswife;butagaininthedrawingroomhewasconvincedthatsomethinghadhappened。Histhoughts,likehisbody,weredescribingacompletecircle,withoutalightinguponanythingnew。Henoticedthis,rubbedhisforehead,andsatdowninherboudoir。
There,lookingathertable,withthemalachiteblottingcaselyingatthetop,andanunfinishedletter,histhoughtssuddenlychanged。Hebegantothinkofher,ofwhatherthoughtsandemotionsmustbe。Forthefirsttimehepicturedvividlytohimselfherpersonallife,herideas,herdesires,andthethoughtthatshecouldandmusthaveaseparatelifeofherownseemedtohimsoappallingthathemadehastetodriveitaway。Itwasthechasmwhichhewasafraidtopeepinto。Toputhimselfinthoughtandfeelinginanotherperson’splacewasaspiritualactionforeigntoAlexeiAlexandrovich。Helookedonthisspiritualactionasaharmfulanddangerousabuseofthefancy。
`Andtheworstofitall,’thoughthe,`isthatjustnow,attheverymomentwhenmygreatworkisapproachingcompletion’hewasthinkingoftheprojecthewasbringingforwardatthetime,`whenIstandinneedofallmymentalpeaceandallmyenergies-justnowthisstupidworryhastocomefallingaboutmyears。Butwhat’stobedone?I’mnotoneofthosemenwhosubmittouneasinessandworrywithouthavingtheforceofcharactertofacethem。’
`Imustthinkthisover,cometoadecision,andputitoutofmymind,’hesaidaloud。
`Thequestionofherfeelings,ofwhathaspassedandmaybepassinginhersoul-that’snotmyaffair;that’stheaffairofherconscience,andfallsundertheheadofreligion,’hesaidtohimself,feelingconsolationinthesensethathehadfoundtowhichdivisionofregulatingprinciplesthisnewcircumstancecouldbeproperlyreferred。
`Andso,’AlexeiAlexandrovichsaidtohimself,`questionsastoherfeelings,andsoon,arequestionsforherconscience,withwhichIcanhavenothingtodo。Mydutyisclearlydefined。Astheheadofthefamily,Iamapersonboundindutytoguideher,and,consequently,inpartthepersonresponsible;IamboundtopointoutthedangerIperceive,towarnher,eventousemyauthority。Ioughttospeakplainlytoher。’
AndeverythingthathewouldsaytonighttohiswifetookclearshapeinAlexeiAlexandrovich’shead。Thinkingoverwhathewouldsay,hesomewhatregrettedthatheshouldhavetousehistimeandmentalpowersfordomesticconsumption,withsolittletoshowforit,but,inspiteofthat,theformandconsistencyofthespeechbeforehimshapeditselfasclearlyanddistinctlyinhisheadasaministerialreport。`Imustspeakon,andexpressfully,thefollowingpoints:first,anexplanationofthevaluetobeattachedtopublicopinionandtodecorum;secondly,anexplanationofthereligioussignificanceofmarriage;thirdly,ifneedbe,areferencetothecalamitypossiblyensuingtoourson;fourthly,areferencetotheunhappinesslikelytoresulttoherself。’And,interlacinghisfingers,thepalmsdownward,AlexeiAlexandrovichstretchedhishands,andthejointsofthefingerscracked。
Thisgesture,thisbadhabit-thejoiningofhishandscrackinghisfingers,alwayssoothedhim,andgaveprecisiontohisthoughts,soneedfultohimnow。Therewasthesoundofacarriagedrivinguptothefrontdoor。AlexeiAlexandrovichhaltedinthemiddleoftheroom。
Awoman’sstepwasheardmountingthestairs。AlexeiAlexandrovich,readyforhisspeech,stoodsqueezinghiscrossedfingers,waitingfortheircracktocomeagain。Onejointcracked。
Already,fromthesoundoflightstepsonthestairs,hewasawarethatshewasclose,andthoughhewassatisfiedwithhisspeech,hefeltfrightenedbecauseoftheexplanationconfrontinghim。
Annacameinwithherheadbent,playingwiththetasselsofherhood。Herfacewasglowingwithavividglow;butthisglowwasnotoneofjoyousness-itrecalledthefearfulglowofaconflagrationinthemidstofadarknight。Onseeingherhusband,Annaraisedherheadandsmiled,asthoughshehadjustwakedup。
`You’renotinbed?Whatamiracle!’shesaidthrowingoffherhoodand,withoutstopping,shewentonintothedressingroom。`It’slate,AlexeiAlexandrovich,’shesaid,frombehindthedoor。
`Anna,Imusthaveatalkwithyou。’
`Withme?’shesaid,wonderingly。Shecameoutfromthedoor,andlookedathim。`Why,whatisit?Whatabout?’sheasked,sittingdown。`Well,let’stalk,ifit’ssonecessary。Butitwouldbebettertogotosleep。’
Annawassayingwhatevercametohertongue,andmarveled,hearingherself,atherowncapacityforlying。Howsimpleandnaturalwereherwords,andhowlikelythatshewassimplysleepyShefeltherselfcladinanimpenetrablearmoroffalsehood。Shefeltthatsomeunseenforcehadcometoheraidandwassupportingher。
`Anna,Imustwarnyou,’hebegan。
`Warnme?shesaid。`Ofwhat?
Shelookedathimsosimply,sobrightly,thatanyonewhodidnotknowherasherhusbandknewhercouldnothavenoticedanythingunnatural,eitherinthesoundorthesenseofherwords。Buttohim,knowingher,knowingthatwheneverhewenttobedfiveminuteslaterthanusual,shenoticedit,andaskedhimthereason-tohim,knowingthateveryjoy,everypleasureandpainthatshefeltshecommunicatedtohimatonce-tohimitmeantagreatdealtoseenowthatshedidnotcaretonoticehisstateofmind,thatshedidnotcaretosayawordaboutherself。Hesawthattheinmostrecessesofhersoul,thathadalwayshithertolainopenbeforehim,werenowclosedagainsthim。Morethanthat,hesawfromhertonethatshewasnotevenperturbedatthat,butseemedtobesayingstraightforwardlytohim:`Yes,itisclosednow,whichisasitshouldbe,andwillbesoinfuture。’Nowheexperiencedafeelingsuchasamanmighthavewho,returninghome,findshisownhouselockedup。`Butperhapsthekeymayyetbefound,’thoughtAlexeiAlexandrovich。
`Iwanttowarnyou,’hesaidinalowvoice,`thatthroughthoughtlessnessandlackofcautionyoumaycauseyourselftobetalkedaboutinsociety。YourtooanimatedconversationthiseveningwithCountVronsky’heenunciatedthenamefirmlyandwithquietintervals`attractedattention。’
Hetalkedandlookedatherlaughingeyes,whichfrightenedhimnowwiththeirimpenetrablelook,and,ashetalked,hefeltalltheuselessnessandfutilityofhiswords。
`You’realwayslikethat,’sheansweredasthoughcompletelymisapprehendinghim,andofallhehadsaidonlytakinginthelastphrase。`Onetimeyoudon’tlikemybeingdull,andanothertimeyoudon’tlikemybeinglively。Iwasn’tdull。Doesthatoffendyou?’
AlexeiAlexandrovichshivered,andbenthishandstomakethejointscrack。
`Oh,please,don’tdothat-Idislikeitso,’shesaid。
`Anna,isthisyou?’saidAlexeiAlexandrovichquietly,makinganeffortoverhimself,andrestrainingthemotionofhishands。
`Butwhatisitallabout?’shesaid,withsuchgenuineanddrollwonder。`Whatdoyouwantofme?’
AlexeiAlexandrovichpaused,andrubbedhisforeheadandhiseyes。Hesawthatinsteadofdoingashehadintended-thatistosay,warninghiswifeagainstamistakeintheeyesoftheworld-hehadunconsciouslybecomeagitatedoverwhatwastheaffairofherconscience,andwasstrugglingagainstsomeimaginarybarrier。
`ThisiswhatImeanttosaytoyou,’hewentoncoldlyandcomposedly,`andIbegyoutohearmetotheend。Iconsiderjealousy,asyouknow,ahumiliatinganddegradingfeeling,andIshallneverallowmyselftobeguidedbyit;buttherearecertainrulesofdecencywhichcannotbedisregardedwithimpunity。ThiseveningitwasnotIwhoobservedit-but,judgingbytheimpressionmadeonthecompany,everyoneobservedthatyourconductanddeportmentwerenotaltogetherwhatonewoulddesire。’
`Ipositivelydon’tunderstand,’saidAnna,shrugginghershoulders。`Hedoesn’tcare,’shethought。`Butotherpeoplenoticeditandthat’swhatupsetshim。’-`You’renotwell,AlexeiAlexandrovich,’sheadded,and,gettingup,wasabouttopassthroughthedoor;buthemovedforwardasthoughhewouldstopher。
Hisfacewasgloomyandforbidding,asAnnahadneverseenitbefore。Shestopped,andbendingherheadbackandtooneside,begantakingoutherhairpinswithherquick-dartinghand。
`Well,I’mlistening-whatdoesfollow?’shesaid,calmlyandironically;`and,indeed,Iamlisteningevenwithinterest,forIshouldliketounderstandwhatitisallabout。’
Shespoke,andmarveledattheconfident,calmandnaturaltoneinwhichshespoke,andatthechoiceofthewordssheused。
`ToenterintoallthedetailsofyourfeelingsIhavenoright,and,besides,Iregardthatasuselessandevenharmful,’beganAlexeiAlexandrovich。`Rummaginginoursouls,weoftenbringupsomethingthatmighthaveotherwiselainthereunnoticed。Yourfeelingsareanaffairofyourownconscience;butIamindutyboundtoyou,tomyselfandtoGod,topointouttoyouyourduties。Ourlifehasbeenjoined,notbyman,butbyGod。Thatunioncanonlybeseveredbyacrime,andacrimeofthatnaturebringsitsownchastisement。’
`Idon’tunderstandaword。And,ohdear!howsleepyIam,unluckily,’shesaid,rapidlypassingherhandthroughherhair,feelingfortheremaininghairpins。
`Anna,forGod’ssakedon’tspeaklikethat!’hesaidgently。`PerhapsIammistaken,butbelieveme,thatwhichIamsayingIsayasmuchformyselfasforyou。Iamyourhusband,andIloveyou。’
Foraninstantherfacefell,andthemockinggleaminhereyesdiedaway;butthephrase`Ilove’threwherintorevoltagain。Shethought:`Love?Canhelove?Ifhehadn’theardtherewassuchathingaslove,hewouldneverhaveusedtheword。Hedoesn’tevenknowwhatloveis。’
`AlexeiAlexandrovich,Ireallydonotunderstand,’shesaid。`Definewhatitisyouconsider……’
`Pardon,letmesayallIhavetosay。Iloveyou。ButIamnotspeakingofmyself;themostimportantpersonsinthismatterareoursonandyourself。Itmayverywellbe,Irepeat,thatmywordsseemtoyouutterlyunnecessaryandoutofplace;itmaybethattheyarecalledforthbymymistakenimpression。Inthatcase,Ibegyoutoforgiveme。Butifyouareconsciousyourselfofeventhesmallestfoundationforthem,thenIbegyoutothinkalittle,andifyourheartpromptsyou,tospeakouttome……’
AlexeiAlexandrovichwasunconsciouslysayingsomethingutterlyunlikewhathehadprepared。
`Ihavenothingtosay。Andbesidesshesaidsuddenly,withdifficultyrepressingasmile,`it’sreallytimetobeinbed。’
AlexeiAlexandrovichsighed,and,withoutsayingmore,wentintothebedroom。
Whenshecameintothebedroom,hewasalreadyinbed。Hislipsweresternlycompressed,andhiseyeslookedawayfromher。Annagotintoherbed,andlayexpectingeveryminutethathewouldbegintospeaktoheragain。Shebothfearedhisspeakingandwishedforit。Buthewassilent。Shewaitedforalongwhilewithoutmoving,andforgotabouthim。Shethoughtofthatother;shepicturedhim,andfelthowherheartwasfloodedwithemotionandguiltydelightatthethoughtofhim。Suddenlysheheardaneven,tranquilsnore。ForthefirstinstantAlexeiAlexandrovichseemed,asitwere,appalledathisownsnoring,andceased;butafterapauseofoneortwobreaths,thesnoresoundedagain,withanewtranquilrhythm。
`It’slate,it’slate,’shewhisperedwithasmile。Alongwhileshelay,withoutmoving,andwithopeneyes,whosebrillianceshealmostfanciedshecouldherselfseeinthedarkness。
FromthattimeanewlifebeganforAlexeiAlexandrovichandforhiswife。Nothingspecialhappened。Annawentoutintosociety,asshehadalwaysdone,wasparticularlyoftenatPrincessBetsy’s,andmetVronskyeverywhere。AlexeiAlexandrovichsawthis,butwaspowerlesstodoanything。Allhiseffortstodrawherintoopendiscussionsheconfrontedwithabarrierwhichhecouldnotpenetrate,madeupofasortofamusedperplexity。Outwardlyeverythingwasthesame,buttheirinnerrelationswerecompletelychanged。AlexeiAlexandrovich,amanofgreatpowerintheworldofpolitics,felthimselfhelplessinthismatter。Likeanoxwithheadbentsubmissively,hewaitedthefallofthepoleaxwhichhefeltwasliftedoverhim。Everytimehebegantothinkaboutit,hefeltthathemusttryoncemore;thatbykindness,tendernessandpersuasiontherewasstillhopeofsavingher,ofbringingherbacktoherself,andeverydayhewasonthevergeoftalkingtoher。Buteverytimehebeganhefeltthatthespiritofevilanddeceit,whichhadtakenpossessionofher,hadpossessionofhimtoo,andhetalkedtoherinatonequiteunlikethatwhichhehadmeanttouse。Involuntarilyhetalkedtoherinhishabitualtoneofbanteringatanyonewhoshouldsaywhathewassaying。Andinthattoneitwasimpossibletosaytoherwhattheoccasiondemanded。
ThatwhichtoVronskyhadbeenforalmostawholeyeartheoneabsorbingdesireofhislife,replacingallhisolddesires;thatwhichtoAnnahadbeenanimpossible,terrible,and,forthatveryreason,amoreentrancingdreamofhappiness-thatdesirehadbeenfulfilled。Hestoodbeforeher,pale,hislowerjawquivering,andbesoughthertobecalm,withouthimselfknowinghoworwhy。
`Anna!Anna!’hesaidwithaquiveringvoice,`Anna,forGod’ssake!……’
Butthelouderhespoke,thelowershecastdownheronceproudandgay,butnowshame-strickenhead,andsheboweddownandsankfromthesofawhereshewassitting-downonthefloor,athisfeet;shewouldhavefallenonthecarpetifhehadnotheldher。
`MyGod!’Forgiveme!’shesaid,sobbing,pressinghishandstoherbosom。
Shefeltsosinful,soguilty,thatnothingwasleftherbuttohumiliateherselfandbegforgiveness,andasnowtherewasnooneinherlifebuthim,tohim,too,sheaddressedherprayerforforgiveness。Lookingathim,shehadaphysicalsenseofherhumiliation,andshecouldsaynothingmore。Andhefeltasamurderermustfeelwhenhebeholdsthebodyhehasrobbedoflife。Thatbody,robbedbyhimoflife,wastheirlove,thefirststageoftheirlove。Therewassomethingawfulandrevoltinginthememoryofwhathadbeenboughtatthisfearfulpriceofshame。Shameatherspiritualnakednesscrushedherandinfectedhim。Butinspiteofallthemurderer’shorrorbeforethebodyofhisvictim,hemusthackittopieces,hidethebody,mustusewhatthemurdererhadgainedbyhismurder。
Andasthemurderer,withfury,and,asitwere,withpassion,fallsonthebody,anddragsit,andhacksatit-sohecoveredherfaceandshoulderswithkisses。Sheheldhishand,anddidnotstir。Yes,thesekisses-thatiswhathasbeenboughtbythisshame。Yes,andthisonehand,whichwillalwaysbemine-thehandofmyaccomplice。Sheliftedupthathandandkissedit。Hesankonhiskneesandtriedtoseeherface;butshehidit,andsaidnothing。Atlast,asthoughmakinganeffortoverherself,shegotupandpushedhimaway。Herfacewasstillasbeautiful,butitwasonlythemorepitifulforthat。
`Allisover,’shesaid;`Ihavenothingbutyou。Rememberthat。’
`Icanneverforgetwhatismywholelife。Foroneinstantofthishappiness……’
`Happiness!’shesaidwithhorrorandloathingandherhorrorunconsciouslyinfectedhim。`ForGod’ssake,notaword,notawordmore。’
Sherosequicklyandmovedawayfromhim。
`Notawordmore,’sherepeated,andwithalookofchilldespair,incomprehensibletohim,shepartedfromhim。Shefeltthatatthatmomentshecouldnotputintowordsthesenseofshame,ofrapture,andofhorroratthissteppingintoanewlife,andshedidnotwanttospeakofit,tovulgarizethisfeelingbyinappropriatewords。Butlatertoo,andthenextday,andthedayafter,shestillfoundnowordsinwhichshecouldexpressthecomplexityofthosefeelings;indeed,shecouldnotevenfindthoughtsinwhichshecouldclearlythinkoutallthatwasinhersoul。
Shesaidtoherself。`No,justnowIcan’tthinkofit-lateron,whenIamcalmer。’Butthiscalmforthoughtsnevercame;everytimethethoughtroseofwhatshehaddoneandwhatwouldhappentoher,andwhatsheoughttodo,ahorrorcameoverherandshedrovethosethoughtsaway。
`Later,later,’shesaid,`whenIamcalmer。’
Butinherdreams,whenshehadnocontroloverherthoughts,herpositionpresenteditselftoherinallitshideousnakedness。Onedreamhauntedheralmosteverynight。Shedreamedthatbothwerehusbandsatonce,thatbothwerelavishingcaressesonher。AlexeiAlexandrovichwasweeping,kissingherhands,andsaying,`Howhappywearenow!’AndAlexeiVronskywastheretoo,andhe,too,washerhusband。Andshewasmarvelingthatithadonceseemedimpossibletoher,wasexplainingtothem,laughing,thatthiswaseversomuchsimpler,andthatnowbothofthemwerehappyandcontented。Butthisdreamweighedonherlikeanightmare,andshewouldawakefromitinterror。