AttheHallFarmTHEfirstautumnalafternoonsunshineof1801——morethaneighteenmonthsafterthatpartingofAdamandArthurintheHermitage——wasontheyardattheHallFarm;andthebull-dogwasinoneofhismostexcitedmoments,foritwasthathourofthedaywhenthecowswerebeingdrivenintotheyardfortheirafternoonmilking。
Nowonderthepatientbeastsranconfusedlyintothewrongplaces,forthealarmingdinofthebull-dogwasmingledwithmoredistantsoundswhichthetimidfemininecreatures,withpardonablesuperstition,imaginedalsotohavesomerelationtotheirownmovements——withthetremendouscrackofthewaggoner’swhip,theroarofhisvoice,andtheboomingthunderofthewaggon,asitlefttherick-yardemptyofitsgoldenload。
ThemilkingofthecowswasasightMrs。Poyserloved,andatthishouronmilddaysshewasusuallystandingatthehousedoor,withherknittinginherhands,inquietcontemplation,onlyheightenedtoakeenerinterestwhentheviciousyellowcow,whohadoncekickedoverapailfulofpreciousmilk,wasabouttoundergothepreventivepunishmentofhavingherhinder-legsstrapped。
To-day,however,Mrs。Poysergavebutadividedattentiontothearrivalofthecows,forshewasineagerdiscussionwithDinah,whowasstitchingMr。Poyser’sshirt-collars,andhadbornepatientlytohaveherthreadbrokenthreetimesbyTottypullingatherarmwithasuddeninsistencethatsheshouldlookat"Baby,"thatis,atalargewoodendollwithnolegsandalongskirt,whosebaldheadTotty,seatedinhersmallchairatDinah’sside,wascaressingandpressingtoherfatcheekwithmuchfervour。Tottyislargerbymorethantwoyears’growththanwhenyoufirstsawher,andshehasonablackfrockunderherpinafore。Mrs。Poysertoohasonablackgown,whichseemstoheightenthefamilylikenessbetweenherandDinah。Inotherrespectsthereislittleoutwardchangenowdiscernibleinouroldfriends,orinthepleasanthouse-place,brightwithpolishedoakandpewter。
"Ineversawtheliketoyou,Dinah,"Mrs。Poyserwassaying,"whenyou’veoncetookanythingintoyourhead:there’snomoremovingyouthantherootedtree。Youmaysaywhatyoulike,butI
don’tbelievethat’sreligion;forwhat’stheSermonontheMountabout,asyou’resofondo’readingtotheboys,butdoingwhatotherfolks’udhaveyoudo?Butifitwasanythingunreasonabletheywantedyoutodo,liketakingyourcloakoffandgivingitto’em,orletting’emslapyoui’theface,Idaresayyou’dbereadyenough。It’sonlywhenone’udhaveyoudowhat’splaincommonsenseandgoodforyourself,asyou’reobstinateth’otherway。"
"Nay,dearAunt,"saidDinah,smilingslightlyasshewentonwithherwork,"I’msureyourwish’udbeareasonformetodoanythingthatIdidn’tfeelitwaswrongtodo。"
"Wrong!Youdrivemepastbearing。Whatistherewrong,Ishouldliketoknow,i’stayingalongwi’yourownfriends,asareth’
happierforhavingyouwith’eman’arewillingtoprovideforyou,evenifyourworkdidn’tmorenorpay’emforthebito’
sparrow’svictualy’eatandthebito’ragyouputon?An’whoisit,Ishouldliketoknow,asyou’reboundt’helpandcomforti’theworldmorenoryourownfleshandblood——an’meth’onlyauntyou’vegotabove-ground,an’ambroughttothebrinko’thegravewellyeverywinterascomes,an’there’sthechildassitsbesideyou’ullbreakherlittleheartwhenyougo,an’thegrandfathernotbeendeadatwelvemonth,an’youruncle’ullmissyousoasneverwas——a-lightinghispipean’waitingonhim,an’
nowIcantrustyouwi’thebutter,an’havehadallthetroubleo’teachingyou,andthere’sallthesewingtobedone,an’Imusthaveastrangegellouto’Treddles’ontodoit——an’allbecauseyoumustgobacktothatbareheapo’stonesastheverycrowsflyoveran’won’tstopat。"
"DearAuntRachel,"saidDinah,lookingupinMrs。Poyser’sface,"it’syourkindnessmakesyousayI’musefultoyou。Youdon’treallywantmenow,forNancyandMollyarecleverattheirwork,andyou’reingoodhealthnow,bytheblessingofGod,andmyuncleisofacheerfulcountenanceagain,andyouhaveneighboursandfriendsnotafew——someofthemcometositwithmyunclealmostdaily。Indeed,youwillnotmissme;andatSnowfieldtherearebrethrenandsistersingreatneed,whohavenoneofthosecomfortsyouhavearoundyou。IfeelthatIamcalledbacktothoseamongstwhommylotwasfirstcast。IfeeldrawnagaintowardsthehillswhereIusedtobeblessedincarryingthewordoflifetothesinfulanddesolate。"
"Youfeel!Yes,"saidMrs。Poyser,returningfromaparentheticglanceatthecows,"that’sallaysthereasonI’mtositdownwi’,whenyou’veamindtodoanythingcontrairy。Whatdoyouwanttobepreachingformorethanyou’repreachingnow?Don’tyougooff,theLordknowswhere,everySundaya-preachingandpraying?
An’haven’tyougotMethodistsenowatTreddles’ontogoandlookat,ifchurch-folks’sfacesaretoohandsometopleaseyou?An’
isn’ttherethemi’thisparishasyou’vegotunderhand,andthey’relikeenoughtomakefriendswi’OldHarryagainassoonasyourback’sturned?There’sthatBessyCranage——she’llbeflauntingi’newfinerythreeweeksafteryou’regone,I’llbebound。She’llnomoregooninhernewwayswithoutyouthanadog’ullstandonitshind-legswhenthere’snobodylooking。ButIsupposeitdoesnamattersomuchaboutfolks’ssoulsi’thiscountry,elseyou’dbeforstayingwithyourownaunt,forshe’snonesogoodbutwhatyoumighthelphertobebetter。"
TherewasacertainsomethinginMrs。Poyser’svoicejustthen,whichshedidnotwishtobenoticed,sosheturnedroundhastilytolookattheclock,andsaid:"Seethere!It’stea-time;an’ifMartin’si’therick-yard,he’lllikeacup。Here,Totty,mychicken,letmotherputyourbonneton,andthenyougooutintotherick-yardandseeifFather’sthere,andtellhimhemustn’tgoawayagainwithoutcomingt’haveacupo’tea;andtellyourbrotherstocomeintoo。"
Tottytrottedoffinherflappingbonnet,whileMrs。Poysersetoutthebrightoaktableandreacheddownthetea-cups。
"Youtalko’themgellsNancyandMollybeingcleveri’theirwork,"shebeganagain;"it’sfinetalking。They’reallthesame,cleverorstupid——onecan’ttrust’emouto’one’ssightaminute。
Theywantsomebody’seyeon’emconstantifthey’retobekepttotheirwork。An’supposeI’millagainthiswinter,asIwasthewinterbeforelast?Who’stolookafter’emthen,ifyou’regone?
An’there’sthatblessedchild——something’ssuret’happentoher——
they’lllethertumbleintothefire,orgetatthekettlewi’
theboilinglardin’t,orsomemischiefas’ulllameherforlife;
an’it’llbeallyourfault,Dinah。"
"Aunt,"saidDinah,"Ipromisetocomebacktoyouinthewinterifyou’reill。Don’tthinkIwilleverstayawayfromyouifyou’reinrealwantofme。But,indeed,itisneedfulformyownsoulthatIshouldgoawayfromthislifeofeaseandluxuryinwhichIhaveallthingstoorichlytoenjoy——atleastthatI
shouldgoawayforashortspace。Noonecanknowbutmyselfwhataremyinwardneeds,andthebesetmentsIammostindangerfrom。
YourwishformetostayisnotacallofdutywhichIrefusetohearkentobecauseitisagainstmyowndesires;itisatemptationthatImustresist,lesttheloveofthecreatureshouldbecomelikeamistinmysoulshuttingouttheheavenlylight。"
"Itpassesmycunningtoknowwhatyoumeanbyeaseandluxury,"
saidMrs。Poyser,asshecutthebreadandbutter。"It’struethere’sgoodvictualenoughaboutyou,asnobodyshalleversayI
don’tprovideenoughandtospare,butifthere’severabito’
oddsan’endsasnobodyelse’udeat,you’resuretopickitout……butlookthere!There’sAdamBedea-carryingthelittleunin。Iwonderhowitishe’scomesoearly。"
Mrs。Poyserhastenedtothedoorforthepleasureoflookingatherdarlinginanewposition,withloveinhereyesbutreproofonhertongue。
"Ohforshame,Totty!Littlegellso’fiveyearoldshouldbeashamedtobecarried。Why,Adam,she’llbreakyourarm,suchabiggellasthat;setherdown——forshame!"
"Nay,nay,"saidAdam,"Icanliftherwithmyhand——I’venoneedtotakemyarmtoit。"
Totty,lookingasserenelyunconsciousofremarkasafatwhitepuppy,wassetdownatthedoor-place,andthemotherenforcedherreproofwithashowerofkisses。
"You’resurprisedtoseemeatthishouro’theday,"saidAdam。
"Yes,butcomein,"saidMrs。Poyser,makingwayforhim;"there’snobadnews,Ihope?"
"No,nothingbad,"Adamanswered,ashewentuptoDinahandputouthishandtoher。Shehadlaiddownherworkandstoodup,instinctively,asheapproachedher。Afaintblushdiedawayfromherpalecheekassheputherhandinhisandlookedupathimtimidly。
"It’sanerrandtoyoubroughtme,Dinah,"saidAdam,apparentlyunconsciousthathewasholdingherhandallthewhile;"mother’sabitailing,andshe’ssetherheartonyourcomingtostaythenightwithher,ifyou’llbesokind。ItoldherI’dcallandaskyouasIcamefromthevillage。Sheoverworksherself,andI
can’tpersuadehertohavealittlegirlt’helpher。Idon’tknowwhat’stobedone。"
AdamreleasedDinah’shandasheceasedspeaking,andwasexpectingananswer,butbeforeshehadopenedherlipsMrs。
Poysersaid,"Looktherenow!Itoldyoutherewasfolksenowt’
helpi’thisparish,wi’outgoingfurtheroff。There’sMrs。Bedegettingasoldandcas’altyascanbe,andshewon’tletanybodybutyougoa-nighherhardly。ThefolksatSnowfieldhavelearntbythistimetodobetterwi’outyounorshecan。"
"I’llputmybonnetonandsetoffdirectly,ifyoudon’twantanythingdonefirst,Aunt,"saidDinah,foldingupherwork。
"Yes,Idowantsomethingdone。Iwantyout’haveyourtea,child;it’sallready——andyou’llhaveacup,Adam,ify’arenaintoobigahurry。"
"Yes,I’llhaveacup,please;andthenI’llwalkwithDinah。I’mgoingstraighthome,forI’vegotaloto’timbervaluationstowriteout。"
"Why,Adam,lad,areyouhere?"saidMr。Poyser,enteringwarmandcoatless,withthetwoblack-eyedboysbehindhim,stilllookingasmuchlikehimastwosmallelephantsarelikealargeone。
"Howisitwe’vegotsighto’yousolongbeforefoddering-time?"
"IcameonanerrandforMother,"saidAdam。"She’sgotatouchofheroldcomplaint,andshewantsDinahtogoandstaywithherabit。"
"Well,we’llspareherforyourmotheralittlewhile,"saidMr。
Poyser。"Butwewonnaspareherforanybodyelse,on’yherhusband。"
"Husband!"saidMarty,whowasatthemostprosaicandliteralperiodoftheboyishmind。"Why,Dinahhasn’tgotahusband。"
"Spareher?"saidMrs。Poyser,placingaseed-cakeonthetableandthenseatingherselftopouroutthetea。"Butwemustspareher,itseems,andnotforahusbandneither,butforherownmegrims。Tommy,whatareyoudoingtoyourlittlesister’sdoll?
Makingthechildnaughty,whenshe’dbegoodifyou’dlether。
Youshannahaveamorselo’cakeifyoubehaveso。"
Tommy,withtruebrotherlysympathy,wasamusinghimselfbyturningDolly’sskirtoverherbaldheadandexhibitinghertruncatedbodytothegeneralscorn——anindignitywhichcutTottytotheheart。
"WhatdoyouthinkDinah’sbeena-tellingmesincedinner-time?"
Mrs。Poysercontinued,lookingatherhusband。
"Eh!I’mapoorunatguessing,"saidMr。Poyser。
"Why,shemeanstogobacktoSnowfieldagain,andworki’themill,andstarveherself,assheusedtodo,likeacreaturashasgotnofriends。"
Mr。Poyserdidnotreadilyfindwordstoexpresshisunpleasantastonishment;heonlylookedfromhiswifetoDinah,whohadnowseatedherselfbesideTotty,asabulwarkagainstbrotherlyplayfulness,andwasbusyingherselfwiththechildren’stea。Ifhehadbeengiventomakinggeneralreflections,itwouldhaveoccurredtohimthattherewascertainlyachangecomeoverDinah,forsheneverusedtochangecolour;but,asitwas,hemerelyobservedthatherfacewasflushedatthatmoment。Mr。Poyserthoughtshelookedtheprettierforit:itwasaflushnodeeperthanthepetalofamonthlyrose。Perhapsitcamebecauseherunclewaslookingathersofixedly;butthereisnoknowing,forjustthenAdamwassaying,withquietsurprise,"Why,IhopedDinahwassettledamongusforlife。Ithoughtshe’dgivenupthenotiono’goingbacktoheroldcountry。"
"Thought!Yes,"saidMrs。Poyser,"andsowouldanybodyelseha’
thought,ashadgottheirrightendup’ards。ButIsupposeyoumustbeaMethodisttoknowwhataMethodist’ulldo。It’sillguessingwhatthebatsareflyingafter。"
"Why,whathavewedonetoyou。Dinah,asyoumustgoawayfromus?"saidMr。Poyser,stillpausingoverhistea-cup。"It’slikebreakingyourword,welly,foryourauntneverhadnothoughtbutyou’dmakethisyourhome。"
"Nay,Uncle,"saidDinah,tryingtobequitecalm。"WhenIfirstcame,Isaiditwasonlyforatime,aslongasIcouldbeofanycomforttomyaunt。"
"Well,an’whosaidyou’deverleftoffbeingacomforttome?"
saidMrs。Poyser。"Ifyoudidnameantostaywi’me,you’dbetterneverha’come。Themasha’neverhadacushiondon’tmissit。"
"Nay,nay,"saidMr。Poyser,whoobjectedtoexaggeratedviews。
"Theemustnasayso;weshouldha’beenilloffwi’outher,Ladydaywasatwelvemont’。Wemunbethankfulforthat,whethershestaysorno。ButIcannathinkwhatshemunleaveagoodhomefor,togobackint’acountrywheretheland,moston’t,isnaworthtenshillingsanacre,rentandprofits。"
"Why,that’sjustthereasonshewantstogo,asfurasshecangiveareason,"saidMrs。Poyser。"Shesaysthiscountry’stoocomfortable,an’there’stoomucht’eat,an’folksarenamiserableenough。Andshe’sgoingnextweek。Icannaturnher,saywhatIwill。It’sallaysthewaywi’themmeek-facedpeople;
youmay’swellpeltabago’feathersastalkto’em。ButIsayitisnareligion,tobesoobstinate——isitnow,Adam?"
AdamsawthatDinahwasmoredisturbedthanhehadeverseenherbyanymatterrelatingtoherself,and,anxioustorelieveher,ifpossible,hesaid,lookingatheraffectionately,"Nay,Ican’tfindfaultwithanythingDinahdoes。Ibelieveherthoughtsarebetterthanourguesses,let’embewhattheymay。Ishouldha’
beenthankfulforhertostayamongus,butifshethinkswelltogo,Iwouldn’tcrossher,ormakeithardtoherbyobjecting。Weowehersomethingdifferenttothat。"
Asitoftenhappens,thewordsintendedtorelieveherwerejusttoomuchforDinah’ssusceptiblefeelingsatthismoment。Thetearscameintothegreyeyestoofasttobehiddenandshegotuphurriedly,meaningittobeunderstoodthatshewasgoingtoputonherbonnet。
"Mother,what’sDinahcryingfor?"saidTotty。"Sheisn’tanaughtydell。"
"Thee’stgoneabittoofur,"saidMr。Poyser。"We’venorightt’
interferewithherdoingasshelikes。An’thee’dstbeasangryascouldbewi’me,ifIsaidawordagainstanythingshedid。"
"Becauseyou’dverylikebefindingfaultwi’outreason,"saidMrs。Poyser。"Butthere’sreasoni’whatIsay,elseIshouldnasayit。It’seasytalkingforthemascan’tlovehersowellasherownauntdoes。An’megotsousedtoher!Ishallfeelasuneasyasanewshearedsheepwhenshe’sgonefromme。An’tothinkofherleavingaparishwhereshe’ssolookedon。There’sMr。Irwinemakesasmuchofherasifshewasalady,forallherbeingaMethodist,an’wi’thatmaggoto’preachinginherhead——
Godforgi’emeifI’mi’thewrongtocallitso。"
"Aye,"saidMr。Poyser,lookingjocose;"buttheedostnatellAdamwhathesaidtotheeaboutitoneday。Themissiswassaying,Adam,asthepreachingwastheonlyfaulttobefoundwi’Dinah,andMr。Irwinesays,’Butyoumustn’tfindfaultwithherforthat,Mrs。Poyser;youforgetshe’sgotnohusbandtopreachto。
I’llanswerforit,yougivePoysermanyagoodsermon。’Theparsonhadtheethere,"Mr。Poyseradded,laughingunctuously。"I
toldBartleMasseyonit,an’helaughedtoo。"
"Yes,it’sasmalljokesetsmenlaughingwhentheysita-staringatoneanotherwithapipei’theirmouths,"saidMrs。Poyser。
"GiveBartleMasseyhiswayandhe’dhaveallthesharpnesstohimself。Ifthechaff-cutterhadthemakingofus,weshouldallbestraw,Ireckon。Totty,mychicken,goupstairstocousinDinah,andseewhatshe’sdoing,andgiveheraprettykiss。"
ThiserrandwasdevisedforTottyasameansofcheckingcertainthreateningsymptomsaboutthecornersofthemouth;forTommy,nolongerexpectantofcake,wasliftinguphiseyelidswithhisforefingersandturninghiseyeballstowardsTottyinawaythatshefelttobedisagreeablypersonal。
"You’rerareandbusynow——eh,Adam?"saidMr。Poyser。"Burge’sgettingsobadwi’hisasthmy,it’swellifhe’lleverdomuchridingaboutagain。"
"Yes,we’vegotaprettybito’buildingonhandnow,"saidAdam,"whatwiththerepairsonth’estate,andthenewhousesatTreddles’on。"
"I’llbetapennythatnewhouseBurgeisbuildingonhisownbito’landisforhimandMarytogoto,"saidMr。Poyser。"He’llbeforlayingbybusinesssoon,I’llwarrant,andbewantingyoutotaketoitallandpayhimsomuchbyth’’ear。Weshallseeyoulivingonth’hillbeforeanothertwelvemont’sover。"
"Well,"saidAdam,"Ishouldliket’havethebusinessinmyownhands。Itisn’tasImindmuchaboutgettinganymoremoney。
We’veenoughandtosparenow,withonlyourtwoselvesandmother;butIshouldliket’havemyownwayaboutthings——Icouldtryplansthen,asIcan’tdonow。"
"Yougetonprettywellwi’thenewsteward,Ireckon?"saidMr。
Poyser。
"Yes,yes;he’sasensiblemanenough;understandsfarming——he’scarryingonthedraining,andallthat,capital。YoumustgosomedaytowardstheStonyshiresideandseewhatalterationsthey’remaking。Buthe’sgotnonotionaboutbuildings。Youcansoseldomgetholdofamanascanturnhisbrainstomorenoronething;it’sjustasiftheyworeblinkersliketh’horsesandcouldseenothingo’onesideof’em。Now,there’sMr。Irwinehasgotnotionso’buildingmorenormostarchitects;forasforth’
architects,theysetuptobefinefellows,butthemostof’emdon’tknowwheretosetachimneysoasitshan’tbequarrellingwithadoor。Mynotionis,apracticalbuilderthat’sgotabito’tastemakesthebestarchitectforcommonthings;andI’vetentimesthepleasurei’seeingaftertheworkwhenI’vemadetheplanmyself。"
Mr。PoyserlistenedwithanadmiringinteresttoAdam’sdiscourseonbuilding,butperhapsitsuggestedtohimthatthebuildingofhiscorn-rickhadbeenproceedingalittletoolongwithoutthecontrolofthemaster’seye,forwhenAdamhaddonespeaking,hegotupandsaid,"Well,lad,I’llbidyougood-byenow,forI’mofftotherick-yardagain。"
Adamrosetoo,forhesawDinahentering,withherbonnetonandalittlebasketinherhand,precededbyTotty。
"You’reready,Isee,Dinah,"Adamsaid;"sowe’llsetoff,forthesoonerI’mathomethebetter。"
"Mother,"saidTotty,withhertreblepipe,"Dinahwassayingherprayersandcryingeverso。"
"Hush,hush,"saidthemother,"littlegellsmustn’tchatter。"
Whereuponthefather,shakingwithsilentlaughter,setTottyonthewhitedealtableanddesiredhertokisshim。Mr。andMrs。
Poyser,youperceive,hadnocorrectprinciplesofeducation。
"Comebackto-morrowifMrs。Bededoesn’twantyou,Dinah,"saidMrs。Poyser:"butyoucanstay,youknow,ifshe’sill。"
So,whenthegood-byeshadbeensaid,DinahandAdamlefttheHallFarmtogether。
IntheCottageADAMdidnotaskDinahtotakehisarmwhentheygotoutintothelane。Hehadneveryetdoneso,oftenastheyhadwalkedtogether,forhehadobservedthatsheneverwalkedarm-in-armwithSeth,andhethought,perhaps,thatkindofsupportwasnotagreeabletoher。Sotheywalkedapart,thoughsidebyside,andtheclosepokeofherlittleblackbonnethidherfacefromhim。
"Youcan’tbehappy,then,tomaketheHallFarmyourhome,Dinah?"Adamsaid,withthequietinterestofabrother,whohasnoanxietyforhimselfinthematter。"It’sapity,seeingthey’resofondofyou。"
"Youknow,Adam,myheartisastheirheart,sofarasloveforthemandcarefortheirwelfaregoes,buttheyareinnopresentneed。Theirsorrowsarehealed,andIfeelthatIamcalledbacktomyoldwork,inwhichIfoundablessingthatIhavemissedoflateinthemidstoftooabundantworldlygood。IknowitisavainthoughttofleefromtheworkthatGodappointsus,forthesakeoffindingagreaterblessingtoourownsouls,asifwecouldchooseforourselveswhereweshallfindthefulnessoftheDivinePresence,insteadofseekingitwherealoneitistobefound,inlovingobedience。Butnow,Ibelieve,Ihaveaclearshowingthatmyworklieselsewhere——atleastforatime。Intheyearstocome,ifmyaunt’shealthshouldfail,orsheshouldotherwiseneedme,Ishallreturn。"
"Youknowbest,Dinah,"saidAdam。"Idon’tbelieveyou’dgoagainstthewishesofthemthatloveyou,andareakintoyou,withoutagoodandsufficientreasoninyourownconscience。I’venorighttosayanythingaboutmybeingsorry:youknowwellenoughwhatcauseIhavetoputyouaboveeveryotherfriendI’vegot;andifithadbeenorderedsothatyoucouldha’beenmysister,andlivedwithusallourlives,Ishouldha’counteditthegreatestblessingascouldhappentousnow。ButSethtellsmethere’snohopeo’that:yourfeelingsaredifferent,andperhapsI’mtakingtoomuchuponmetospeakaboutit。"
Dinahmadenoanswer,andtheywalkedoninsilenceforsomeyards,tilltheycametothestonestile,where,asAdamhadpassedthroughfirstandturnedroundtogiveherhishandwhileshemountedtheunusuallyhighstep,shecouldnotpreventhimfromseeingherface。Itstruckhimwithsurprise,forthegreyeyes,usuallysomildandgrave,hadthebrightuneasyglancewhichaccompaniessuppressedagitation,andtheslightflushinhercheeks,withwhichshehadcomedownstairs,washeightenedtoadeeprose-colour。ShelookedasifshewereonlysistertoDinah。Adamwassilentwithsurpriseandconjectureforsomemoments,andthenhesaid,"IhopeI’venothurtordispleasedyoubywhatI’vesaid,Dinah。PerhapsIwasmakingtoofree。I’venowishdifferentfromwhatyouseetobebest,andI’msatisfiedforyoutolivethirtymileoff,ifyouthinkitright。IshallthinkofyoujustasmuchasIdonow,foryou’reboundupwithwhatI
cannomorehelprememberingthanIcanhelpmyheartbeating。"
PoorAdam!Thusdomenblunder。Dinahmadenoanswer,butshepresentlysaid,"Haveyouheardanynewsfromthatpooryoungman,sincewelastspokeofhim?"
DinahalwayscalledArthurso;shehadneverlosttheimageofhimasshehadseenhimintheprison。
"Yes,"saidAdam。"Mr。Irwinereadmepartofaletterfromhimyesterday。It’sprettycertain,theysay,thatthere’llbeapeacesoon,thoughnobodybelievesit’lllastlong;buthesayshedoesn’tmeantocomehome。He’snoheartforityet,andit’sbetterforothersthatheshouldkeepaway。Mr。Irwinethinkshe’sintherightnottocome。It’sasorrowfulletter。HeasksaboutyouandthePoysers,ashealwaysdoes。There’sonethinginthelettercutmeagooddeal:’Youcan’tthinkwhatanoldfellowIfeel,’hesays;’Imakenoschemesnow。I’mthebestwhenI’veagoodday’smarchorfightingbeforeme。’"
"He’sofarash,warm-heartednature,likeEsau,forwhomIhavealwaysfeltgreatpity,"saidDinah。"Thatmeetingbetweenthebrothers,whereEsauissolovingandgenerous,andJacobsotimidanddistrustful,notwithstandinghissenseoftheDivinefavour,hasalwaystouchedmegreatly。Truly,IhavebeentemptedsometimestosaythatJacobwasofameanspirit。Butthatisourtrial:wemustlearntoseethegoodinthemidstofmuchthatisunlovely。"
"Ah,"saidAdam,"IliketoreadaboutMosesbest,inth’OldTestament。Hecarriedahardbusinesswellthrough,anddiedwhenotherfolksweregoingtoreapthefruits。Amanmusthavecouragetolookathislifeso,andthinkwhat’llcomeofitafterhe’sdeadandgone。Agoodsolidbito’worklasts:ifit’sonlylayingafloordown,somebody’sthebetterforitbeingdonewell,besidesthemanasdoesit。"
Theywerebothgladtotalkofsubjectsthatwerenotpersonal,andinthiswaytheywentontilltheypassedthebridgeacrosstheWillowBrook,whenAdamturnedroundandsaid,"Ah,here’sSeth。Ithoughthe’dbehomesoon。Doesheknowofyou’regoing,Dinah?"
"Yes,ItoldhimlastSabbath。"
AdamrememberednowthatSethhadcomehomemuchdepressedonSundayevening,acircumstancewhichhadbeenveryunusualwithhimoflate,forthehappinesshehadinseeingDinaheveryweekseemedlongtohaveoutweighedthepainofknowingshewouldnevermarryhim。Thiseveninghehadhishabitualairofdreamybenignantcontentment,untilhecamequiteclosetoDinahandsawthetracesoftearsonherdelicateeyelidsandeyelashes。Hegaveonerapidglanceathisbrother,butAdamwasevidentlyquiteoutsidethecurrentofemotionthathadshakenDinah:heworehiseverydaylookofunexpectantcalm。SethtriednottoletDinahseethathehadnoticedherface,andonlysaid,"I’mthankfulyou’recome,Dinah,forMother’sbeenhungeringafterthesightofyouallday。Shebegantotalkofyouthefirstthinginthemorning。"
Whentheyenteredthecottage,Lisbethwasseatedinherarm-
chair,tootiredwithsettingouttheeveningmeal,ataskshealwaysperformedalongtimebeforehand,togoandmeetthematthedoorasusual,whensheheardtheapproachingfootsteps。
"Coom,child,thee’tcoomatlast,"shesaid,whenDinahwenttowardsher。"Whatdostmanebylavin’meaweekan’ne’ercoomin’a-nighme?"
"Dearfriend,"saidDinah,takingherhand,"you’renotwell。IfI’dknownitsooner,I’dhavecome。"
"An’how’stheet’knowiftheedostnacoom?Th’ladson’yknowwhatItell’em。Aslongasyecanstirhandandfootthementhinkye’rehearty。ButI’mnonesobad,on’yabitofacoldsetsmeachin’。An’th’ladsteasemesot’ha’somebodywi’met’dothework——theymakemeacheworsewi’talkin’。Ifthee’dstcomeandstaywi’me,they’dletmealone。ThePoyserscannawanttheesobadasIdo。Buttakethybonnetoff,an’letmelookatthee。"
Dinahwasmovingaway,butLisbethheldherfast,whileshewastakingoffherbonnet,andlookedatherfaceasonelooksintoanewlygatheredsnowdrop,torenewtheoldimpressionsofpurityandgentleness。
"What’sthematterwi’thee?"saidLisbeth,inastonishment;
"thee’stbeena-cryin’。"
"It’sonlyagriefthat’llpassaway,"saidDinah,whodidnotwishjustnowtocallforthLisbeth’sremonstrancesbydisclosingherintentiontoleaveHayslope。"Youshallknowaboutitshortly——we’lltalkofitto-night。Ishallstaywithyouto-
night。"
Lisbethwaspacifiedbythisprospect。AndshehadthewholeeveningtotalkwithDinahalone;fortherewasanewroominthecottage,youremember,builtnearlytwoyearsago,intheexpectationofanewinmate;andhereAdamalwayssatwhenhehadwritingtodoorplanstomake。Sethsattheretoothisevening,forheknewhismotherwouldliketohaveDinahalltoherself。
Thereweretwoprettypicturesonthetwosidesofthewallinthecottage。Ononesidetherewasthebroad-shouldered,large-
featured,hardyoldwoman,inherbluejacketandbuffkerchief,withherdim-eyedanxiouslooksturnedcontinuallyonthelilyfaceandtheslightformintheblackdressthatwereeithermovinglightlyaboutinhelpfulactivity,orseatedclosebytheoldwoman’sarm-chair,holdingherwitheredhand,witheyeslifteduptowardshertospeakalanguagewhichLisbethunderstoodfarbetterthantheBibleorthehymn-book。Shewouldscarcelylistentoreadingatallto-night。"Nay,nay,shutthebook,"shesaid。
"Wemuntalk。Iwantt’knowwhattheewascryin’about。Hastgottroubleso’thyown,likeotherfolks?"
Ontheothersideofthewalltherewerethetwobrotherssolikeeachotherinthemidstoftheirunlikeness:Adamwithknitbrows,shaggyhair,anddarkvigorouscolour,absorbedinhis"figuring";
Seth,withlargeruggedfeatures,theclosecopyofhisbrother’s,butwiththin,wavy,brownhairandbluedreamyeyes,asoftenasnotlookingvaguelyoutofthewindowinsteadofathisbook,althoughitwasanewlyboughtbook——Wesley’sabridgmentofMadameGuyon’slife,whichwasfullofwonderandinterestforhim。SethhadsaidtoAdam,"CanIhelptheewithanythinginhereto-night?
Idon’twanttomakeanoiseintheshop。"
"No,lad,"Adamanswered,"there’snothingbutwhatImustdomyself。Thee’stgotthynewbooktoread。"
Andoften,whenSethwasquiteunconscious,Adam,ashepausedafterdrawingalinewithhisruler,lookedathisbrotherwithakindsmiledawninginhiseyes。Heknew"th’ladlikedtositfullo’thoughtshecouldgivenoaccountof;they’dnevercomet’
anything,buttheymadehimhappy,"andinthelastyearorso,AdamhadbeengettingmoreandmoreindulgenttoSeth。Itwaspartofthatgrowingtendernesswhichcamefromthesorrowatworkwithinhim。
ForAdam,thoughyouseehimquitemasterofhimself,workinghardanddelightinginhisworkafterhisinborninalienablenature,hadnotoutlivedhissorrow——hadnotfeltitslipfromhimasatemporaryburden,andleavehimthesamemanagain。Doanyofus?
Godforbid。Itwouldbeapoorresultofallouranguishandourwrestlingifwewonnothingbutouroldselvesattheendofit——
ifwecouldreturntothesameblindloves,thesameself-
confidentblame,thesamelightthoughtsofhumansuffering,thesamefrivolousgossipoverblightedhumanlives,thesamefeeblesenseofthatUnknowntowardswhichwehavesentforthirrepressiblecriesinourloneliness。Letusratherbethankfulthatoursorrowlivesinusasanindestructibleforce,onlychangingitsform,asforcesdo,andpassingfrompainintosympathy——theonepoorwordwhichincludesallourbestinsightandourbestlove。NotthatthistransformationofpainintosympathyhadcompletelytakenplaceinAdamyet。Therewasstillagreatremnantofpain,andthishefeltwouldsubsistaslongasherpainwasnotamemory,butanexistingthing,whichhemustthinkofasrenewedwiththelightofeverynewmorning。Butwegetaccustomedtomentalaswellasbodilypain,without,forallthat,losingoursensibilitytoit。Itbecomesahabitofourlives,andweceasetoimagineaconditionofperfecteaseaspossibleforus。Desireischastenedintosubmission,andwearecontentedwithourdaywhenwehavebeenabletobearourgriefinsilenceandactasifwewerenotsuffering。Foritisatsuchperiodsthatthesenseofourliveshavingvisibleandinvisiblerelations,beyondanyofwhicheitherourpresentorprospectiveselfisthecentre,growslikeamusclethatweareobligedtoleanonandexert。
ThatwasAdam’sstateofmindinthissecondautumnofhissorrow。
Hiswork,asyouknow,hadalwaysbeenpartofhisreligion,andfromveryearlydayshesawclearlythatgoodcarpentrywasGod’swill——wasthatformofGod’swillthatmostimmediatelyconcernedhim。Butnowtherewasnomarginofdreamsforhimbeyondthisdaylightreality,noholiday-timeintheworking-dayworld,nomomentinthedistancewhendutywouldtakeoffherirongloveandbreast-plateandclasphimgentlyintorest。Heconceivednopictureofthefuturebutonemadeupofhard-workingdayssuchashelivedthrough,withgrowingcontentmentandintensityofinterest,everyfreshweek。Love,hethought,couldneverbeanythingtohimbutalivingmemory——alimbloppedoff,butnotgonefromconsciousness。Hedidnotknowthatthepoweroflovingwasallthewhilegainingnewforcewithinhim;thatthenewsensibilitiesboughtbyadeepexperienceweresomanynewfibresbywhichitwaspossible,nay,necessarytohim,thathisnatureshouldintertwinewithanother。Yethewasawarethatcommonaffectionandfriendshipweremoreprecioustohimthantheyusedtobe——thatheclungmoretohismotherandSeth,andhadanunspeakablesatisfactioninthesightorimaginationofanysmalladditiontotheirhappiness。ThePoysers,too——hardlythreeorfourdayspassedbuthefelttheneedofseeingthemandinterchangingwordsandlooksoffriendlinesswiththem。Hewouldhavefeltthis,probably,evenifDinahhadnotbeenwiththem,buthehadonlysaidthesimplesttruthintellingDinahthatheputheraboveallotherfriendsintheworld。Couldanythingbemorenatural?Forinthedarkestmomentsofmemorythethoughtofheralwayscameasthefirstrayofreturningcomfort。TheearlydaysofgloomattheHallFarmhadbeengraduallyturnedintosoftmoonlightbyherpresence;andinthecottage,too,forshehadcomeateverysparemomenttosootheandcheerpoorLisbeth,whohadbeenstrickenwithafearthatsubduedevenherquerulousnessatthesightofherdarlingAdam’sgrief-wornface。Hehadbecomeusedtowatchingherlightquietmovements,herprettylovingwaystothechildren,whenhewenttotheHallFarm;tolistenforhervoiceasforarecurrentmusic;tothinkeverythingshesaidanddidwasjustright,andcouldnothavebeenbetter。Inspiteofhiswisdom,hecouldnotfindfaultwithherforheroverindulgenceofthechildren,whohadmanagedtoconvertDinahthepreacher,beforewhomacircleofroughmenhadoftentrembledalittle,intoaconvenienthouseholdslave——thoughDinahherselfwasratherashamedofthisweakness,andhadsomeinwardconflictastoherdeparturefromthepreceptsofSolomon。Yes,therewasonethingthatmighthavebeenbetter;shemighthavelovedSethandconsentedtomarryhim。Hefeltalittlevexed,forhisbrother’ssake,andhecouldnothelpthinkingregretfullyhowDinah,asSeth’swife,wouldhavemadetheirhomeashappyasitcouldbeforthemall——howshewastheonebeingthatwouldhavesoothedtheirmother’slastdaysintopeacefulnessandrest。
"It’swonderfulshedoesn’tloveth’lad,"Adamhadsaidsometimestohimself,"foranybody’udthinkhewasjustcutoutforher。
Butherheart’ssotakenupwithotherthings。She’soneo’thosewomenthatfeelnodrawingtowardshavingahusbandandchildreno’theirown。Shethinkssheshouldbefilledupwithherownlifethen,andshe’sbeenusedsotolivinginotherfolks’scares,shecan’tbearthethoughtofherheartbeingshutupfrom’em。Iseehowitis,wellenough。She’scutouto’differentstufffrommostwomen:Isawthatlongago。She’snevereasybutwhenshe’shelpingsomebody,andmarriage’udinterferewithherways——that’strue。I’venorighttobecontrivingandthinkingit’udbebetterifshe’dhaveSeth,asifIwaswiserthansheis——
orthanGodeither,forHemadeherwhatsheis,andthat’soneo’
thegreatestblessingsI’veeverhadfromHishands,andothersbesidesme。"
Thisself-reproofhadrecurredstronglytoAdam’smindwhenhegatheredfromDinah’sfacethathehadwoundedherbyreferringtohiswishthatshehadacceptedSeth,andsohehadendeavouredtoputintothestrongestwordshisconfidenceinherdecisionasright——hisresignationeventohergoingawayfromthemandceasingtomakepartoftheirlifeotherwisethanbylivingintheirthoughts,ifthatseparationwerechosenbyherself。Hefeltsuresheknewquitewellenoughhowmuchhecaredtoseehercontinually——totalktoherwiththesilentconsciousnessofamutualgreatremembrance。Itwasnotpossiblesheshouldhearanythingbutself-renouncingaffectionandrespectinhisassurancethathewascontentedforhertogoaway;andyetthereremainedanuneasyfeelinginhismindthathehadnotsaidquitetherightthing——that,somehow,Dinahhadnotunderstoodhim。
Dinahmusthaverisenalittlebeforethesunthenextmorning,forshewasdownstairsaboutfiveo’clock。SowasSeth,for,throughLisbeth’sobstinaterefusaltohaveanywoman-helperinthehouse,hehadlearnedtomakehimself,asAdamsaid,"veryhandyinthehousework,"thathemightsavehismotherfromtoogreatweariness;onwhichgroundIhopeyouwillnotthinkhimunmanly,anymorethanyoucanhavethoughtthegallantColonelBathunmanlywhenhemadethegruelforhisinvalidsister。Adam,whohadsatuplateathiswriting,wasstillasleep,andwasnotlikely,Sethsaid,tobedowntillbreakfast-time。OftenasDinahhadvisitedLisbethduringthelasteighteenmonths,shehadneversleptinthecottagesincethatnightafterThias’sdeath,when,youremember,Lisbethpraisedherdeftmovementsandevengaveamodifiedapprovaltoherporridge。ButinthatlongintervalDinahhadmadegreatadvancesinhouseholdcleverness,andthismorning,sinceSethwastheretohelp,shewasbentonbringingeverythingtoapitchofcleanlinessandorderthatwouldhavesatisfiedherAuntPoyser。Thecottagewasfarfromthatstandardatpresent,forLisbeth’srheumatismhadforcedhertogiveupheroldhabitsofdilettantescouringandpolishing。Whenthekitchenwastohermind,Dinahwentintothenewroom,whereAdamhadbeenwritingthenightbefore,toseewhatsweepinganddustingwereneededthere。Sheopenedthewindowandletinthefreshmorningair,andthesmellofthesweet-brier,andthebrightlow-slantingraysoftheearlysun,whichmadeagloryaboutherpalefaceandpaleauburnhairassheheldthelongbrush,andswept,singingtoherselfinaverylowtone——likeasweetsummermurmurthatyouhavetolistenforveryclosely——oneofCharlesWesley’shymns:
EternalBeamofLightDivine,Fountainofunexhaustedlove,InwhomtheFather’sgloriesshine,Throughearthbeneathandheavenabove;
Jesus!thewearywanderer’srest,Givemethyeasyyoketobear;
Withsteadfastpatiencearmmybreast,Withspotlessloveandholyfear。
Speaktomywarringpassions,"Peace!"
Saytomytremblingheart,"Bestill!"
Thypowermystrengthandfortressis,Forallthingsservethysovereignwill。
Shelaidbythebrushandtookuptheduster;andifyouhadeverlivedinMrs。Poyser’shousehold,youwouldknowhowthedusterbehavedinDinah’shand——howitwentintoeverysmallcorner,andoneveryledgeinandoutofsight——howitwentagainandagainroundeverybarofthechairs,andeveryleg,andunderandovereverythingthatlayonthetable,tillitcametoAdam’spapersandrulersandtheopendesknearthem。Dinahdusteduptotheveryedgeoftheseandthenhesitated,lookingatthemwithalongingbuttimideye。Itwaspainfultoseehowmuchdusttherewasamongthem。Asshewaslookinginthisway,sheheardSeth’sstepjustoutsidetheopendoor,towardswhichherbackwasturned,andsaid,raisinghercleartreble,"Seth,isyourbrotherwrathfulwhenhispapersarestirred?"
"Yes,very,whentheyarenotputbackintherightplaces,"saidadeepstrongvoice,notSeth’s。
ItwasasifDinahhadputherhandsunawaresonavibratingchord。Shewasshakenwithanintensethrill,andfortheinstantfeltnothingelse;thensheknewhercheekswereglowing,anddarednotlookround,butstoodstill,distressedbecauseshecouldnotsaygood-morninginafriendlyway。Adam,findingthatshedidnotlookroundsoastoseethesmileonhisface,wasafraidshehadthoughthimseriousabouthiswrathfulness,andwentuptoher,sothatshewasobligedtolookathim。
"What!YouthinkI’macrossfellowathome,Dinah?"hesaid,smilingly。
"Nay,"saidDinah,lookingupwithtimideyes,"notso。Butyoumightbeputaboutbyfindingthingsmeddledwith;andeventhemanMoses,themeekestofmen,waswrathfulsometimes。"
"Come,then,"saidAdam,lookingatheraffectionately,"I’llhelpyoumovethethings,andput’embackagain,andthentheycan’tgetwrong。You’regettingtobeyouraunt’sownniece,Isee,forparticularness。"
Theybegantheirlittletasktogether,butDinahhadnotrecoveredherselfsufficientlytothinkofanyremark,andAdamlookedatheruneasily。Dinah,hethought,hadseemedtodisapprovehimsomehowlately;shehadnotbeensokindandopentohimassheusedtobe。Hewantedhertolookathim,andbeaspleasedashewashimselfwithdoingthisbitofplayfulwork。ButDinahdidnotlookathim——itwaseasyforhertoavoidlookingatthetallman——andwhenatlasttherewasnomoredustingtobedoneandnofurtherexcuseforhimtolingernearher,hecouldbearitnolonger,andsaid,inratherapleadingtone,"Dinah,you’renotdispleasedwithmeforanything,areyou?I’venotsaidordoneanythingtomakeyouthinkillofme?"
Thequestionsurprisedher,andrelievedherbygivinganewcoursetoherfeeling。Shelookedupathimnow,quiteearnestly,almostwiththetearscoming,andsaid,"Oh,no,Adam!howcouldyouthinkso?"
"Icouldn’tbearyounottofeelasmuchafriendtomeasIdotoyou,"saidAdam。"Andyoudon’tknowthevalueIsetontheverythoughtofyou,Dinah。ThatwaswhatImeantyesterday,whenI
saidI’dbecontentforyoutogo,ifyouthoughtright。Imeant,thethoughtofyouwasworthsomuchtome,IshouldfeelIoughttobethankful,andnotgrumble,ifyouseerighttogoaway。YouknowIdomindpartingwithyou,Dinah?"
"Yes,dearfriend,"saidDinah,trembling,buttryingtospeakcalmly,"Iknowyouhaveabrother’shearttowardsme,andweshalloftenbewithoneanotherinspirit;butatthisseasonIaminheavinessthroughmanifoldtemptations。Youmustnotmarkme。
Ifeelcalledtoleavemykindredforawhile;butitisatrial——
thefleshisweak。"
Adamsawthatitpainedhertobeobligedtoanswer。
"Ihurtyoubytalkingaboutit,Dinah,"hesaid。"I’llsaynomore。Let’sseeifSeth’sreadywithbreakfastnow。"
Thatisasimplescene,reader。Butitisalmostcertainthatyou,too,havebeeninlove——perhaps,even,morethanonce,thoughyoumaynotchoosetosaysotoallyourfemininefriends。Ifso,youwillnomorethinktheslightwords,thetimidlooks,thetremuloustouches,bywhichtwohumansoulsapproacheachothergradually,liketwolittlequiveringrain-streams,beforetheymingleintoone——youwillnomorethinkthesethingstrivialthanyouwillthinkthefirst-detectedsignsofcomingspringtrivial,thoughtheybebutafaintindescribablesomethingintheairandinthesongofthebirds,andthetiniestperceptiblebuddingonthehedge-rowbranches。Thoseslightwordsandlooksandtouchesarepartofthesoul’slanguage;andthefinestlanguage,I
believe,ischieflymadeupofunimposingwords,suchas"light,"
"sound,""stars,""music"——wordsreallynotworthlookingat,orhearing,inthemselves,anymorethan"chips"or"sawdust。"Itisonlythattheyhappentobethesignsofsomethingunspeakablygreatandbeautiful。Iamofopinionthatloveisagreatandbeautifulthingtoo,andifyouagreewithme,thesmallestsignsofitwillnotbechipsandsawdusttoyou:theywillratherbelikethoselittlewords,"light"and"music,"stirringthelong-
windingfibresofyourmemoryandenrichingyourpresentwithyourmostpreciouspast。
SundayMorningLISBETH’StouchofrheumatismcouldnotbemadetoappearseriousenoughtodetainDinahanothernightfromtheHallFarm,nowshehadmadeuphermindtoleaveherauntsosoon,andateveningthefriendsmustpart。"Foralongwhile,"Dinahhadsaid,forshehadtoldLisbethofherresolve。
"Thenit’llbeforallmylife,an’Ishallne’erseetheeagain,"
saidLisbeth。"Longwhile!I’ngotnolongwhilet’live。An’I
shallbetookbadan’die,an’theecanstne’ercomea-nighme,an’Ishalldiea-longingforthee。"
Thathadbeenthekey-noteofherwailingtalkallday;forAdamwasnotinthehouse,andsosheputnorestraintonhercomplaining。ShehadtriedpoorDinahbyreturningagainandagaintothequestion,whyshemustgoaway;andrefusingtoacceptreasons,whichseemedtohernothingbutwhimand"contrairiness";andstillmore,byregrettingthatshe"couldna’
ha’oneo’thelads"andbeherdaughter。
"Theecouldstnaputupwi’Seth,"shesaid。"Heisnacliverenoughforthee,happen,buthe’dha’beenverygoodt’thee——he’sashandyascanbeatdoin’thingsformewhenI’mbad,an’he’sasfondo’theBiblean’chappellin’astheeartthysen。Buthappen,thee’dstlikeahusbandbetterasisnajustthecuto’
thysen:therunnin’brookisnaathirstforth’rain。Adam’udha’
doneforthee——Iknowhewould——an’hemightcomet’liketheewellenough,ifthee’dststop。Buthe’sasstubbornasth’ironbar——there’snobendinghimnowaybut’sown。Buthe’dbeafinehusbandforanybody,betheywhotheywill,solooked-onan’socliverasheis。Andhe’dberarean’lovin’:itdoesmegoodon’yalooko’thelad’seyewhenhemeanskindtow’rtme。"
DinahtriedtoescapefromLisbeth’sclosestlooksandquestionsbyfindinglittletasksofhouseworkthatkepthermovingabout,andassoonasSethcamehomeintheeveningsheputonherbonnettogo。IttouchedDinahkeenlytosaythelastgood-bye,andstillmoretolookroundonherwayacrossthefieldsandseetheoldwomanstillstandingatthedoor,gazingafterhertillshemusthavebeenthefaintestspeckinthedimagedeyes。"TheGodofloveandpeacebewiththem,"Dinahprayed,asshelookedbackfromthelaststile。"Makethemgladaccordingtothedayswhereinthouhastafflictedthem,andtheyearswhereintheyhaveseenevil。ItisthywillthatIshouldpartfromthem;letmehavenowillbutthine。"
LisbethturnedintothehouseatlastandsatdownintheworkshopnearSeth,whowasbusyinghimselftherewithfittingsomebitsofturnedwoodhehadbroughtfromthevillageintoasmallwork-box,whichhemeanttogivetoDinahbeforeshewentaway。
"Thee’tseeheragaino’Sundayaforeshegoes,"wereherfirstwords。"Iftheewastgoodforanything,thee’dstmakehercomeinagaino’Sundaynightwi’thee,andseemeoncemore。"
"Nay,Mother,"saidSeth。"Dinah’udbesuretocomeagainifshesawrighttocome。Ishouldhavenoneedtopersuadeher。Sheonlythinksit’udbetroublingtheefornought,justtocomeintosaygood-byeoveragain。"
"She’dne’ergoaway,Iknow,ifAdam’udbefondonheran’marryher,buteverything’ssocontrairy,"saidLisbeth,withaburstofvexation。
Sethpausedamomentandlookedup,withaslightblush,athismother’sface。"What!Hasshesaidanythingo’thatsorttothee,Mother?"hesaid,inalowertone。
"Said?Nay,she’llsaynothin’。It’son’ythemenashavetowaittillfolkssaythingsaforetheyfind’emout。"
"Well,butwhatmakestheethinkso,Mother?What’sputitintothyhead?"
"It’snomatterwhat’sputitintomyhead。Myhead’snonesohollowasitmustgetin,an’noughttoputitthere。Iknowshe’sfondonhim,asIknowth’wind’scomin’inatthedoor,an’
that’sanoof。An’hemightbewillin’tomarryherifheknow’dshe’sfondonhim,buthe’llne’erthinkon’tifsomebodydoesnaputitinto’shead。"
Hismother’ssuggestionaboutDinah’sfeelingtowardsAdamwasnotquiteanewthoughttoSeth,butherlastwordsalarmedhim,lestsheshouldherselfundertaketoopenAdam’seyes。HewasnotsureaboutDinah’sfeeling,andhethoughthewassureaboutAdam’s。
"Nay,Mother,nay,"hesaid,earnestly,"theemustnathinko’
speakingo’suchthingstoAdam。Thee’stnorighttosaywhatDinah’sfeelingsareifshehasnatoldthee,andit’uddonothingbutmischieftosaysuchthingstoAdam。HefeelsverygratefulandaffectionatetowardDinah,buthe’snothoughtstowardsherthat’udinclinehimtomakeherhiswife,andIdon’tbelieveDinah’udmarryhimeither。Idon’tthinkshe’llmarryatall。"
"Eh,"saidLisbeth,impatiently。"Theethink’stso’causeshewouldnaha’thee。She’llne’ermarrythee;theemightstaswelllikehert’ha’thybrother。"
Sethwashurt。"Mother,"hesaid,inaremonstratingtone,"don’tthinkthatofme。Ishouldbeasthankfult’haveherforasisterastheewouldstt’haveherforadaughter。I’venomorethoughtsaboutmyselfinthatthing,andIshalltakeithardifevertheesay’stitagain。"
"Well,well,thentheeshouldstnacrossmewi’sayin’thingsarenaasIsaytheyare。"
"But,Mother,"saidSeth,"thee’dstbedoingDinahawrongbytellingAdamwhattheethink’stabouther。It’uddonothingbutmischief,forit’udmakeAdamuneasyifhedoesnafeelthesametoher。AndI’mprettysurehefeelsnothingo’thesort。"
"Eh,donnatellmewhatthee’tsureon;theeknow’stnoughtaboutit。What’sheallaysgoin’tothePoysers’for,ifhedidnawantt’seeher?Hegoestwicewhereheusedt’goonce。Happenheknowsnaashewantst’seeher;heknowsnaasIputsaltin’sbroth,buthe’dmissitprettyquickifitwarnathere。He’llne’erthinko’marryingifitisnaputinto’shead,an’ifthee’dstanyloveforthymother,thee’dstputhimupto’tan’notlethergoawayouto’mysight,whenImightha’hertomakeabito’comfortformeaforeIgotobedtomyoldmanunderthewhitethorn。"
"Nay,Mother,"saidSeth,"theemustnathinkmeunkind,butI
shouldbegoingagainstmyconscienceifItookuponmetosaywhatDinah’sfeelingsare。Andbesidesthat,IthinkIshouldgiveoffencetoAdambyspeakingtohimatallaboutmarrying;andIcounseltheenottodo’t。Theemay’stbequitedeceivedaboutDinah。Nay,I’mprettysure,bywordsshesaidtomelastSabbath,asshe’snomindtomarry。"
"Eh,thee’tascontrairyasthereston’em。IfitwarsummatI
didnawant,it’udbedonefastenough。"
Lisbethrosefromthebenchatthis,andwentoutoftheworkshop,leavingSethinmuchanxietylestsheshoulddisturbAdam’smindaboutDinah。Heconsoledhimselfafteratimewithreflectingthat,sinceAdam’strouble,Lisbethhadbeenverytimidaboutspeakingtohimonmattersoffeeling,andthatshewouldhardlydaretoapproachthistenderestofallsubjects。Evenifshedid,hehopedAdamwouldnottakemuchnoticeofwhatshesaid。
SethwasrightinbelievingthatLisbethwouldbeheldinrestraintbytimidity,andduringthenextthreedays,theintervalsinwhichshehadanopportunityofspeakingtoAdamweretoorareandshorttocauseheranystrongtemptation。ButinherlongsolitaryhoursshebroodedoverherregretfulthoughtsaboutDinah,tilltheyhadgrownverynearthatpointofunmanageablestrengthwhenthoughtsareapttotakewingoutoftheirsecretnestinastartlingmanner。AndonSundaymorning,whenSethwentawaytochapelatTreddleston,thedangerousopportunitycame。
SundaymorningwasthehappiesttimeinalltheweektoLisbeth,forastherewasnoserviceatHayslopechurchtilltheafternoon,Adamwasalwaysathome,doingnothingbutreading,anoccupationinwhichshecouldventuretointerrupthim。Moreover,shehadalwaysabetterdinnerthanusualtoprepareforhersons——veryfrequentlyforAdamandherselfalone,Sethbeingoftenawaytheentireday——andthesmelloftheroastmeatbeforetheclearfireinthecleankitchen,theclocktickinginapeacefulSundaymanner,herdarlingAdamseatednearherinhisbestclothes,doingnothingveryimportant,sothatshecouldgoandstrokeherhandacrosshishairifsheliked,andseehimlookupatherandsmile,whileGyp,ratherjealous,pokedhismuzzleupbetweenthem——allthesethingsmadepoorLisbeth’searthlyparadise。
ThebookAdammostoftenreadonaSundaymorningwashislargepicturedBible,andthismorningitlayopenbeforehimontheroundwhitedealtableinthekitchen;forhesatthereinspiteofthefire,becauseheknewhismotherlikedtohavehimwithher,anditwastheonlydayintheweekwhenhecouldindulgeherinthatway。YouwouldhavelikedtoseeAdamreadinghisBible。
Heneveropeneditonaweekday,andsohecametoitasaholidaybook,servinghimforhistory,biography,andpoetry。Heheldonehandthrustbetweenhiswaistcoatbuttons,andtheotherreadytoturnthepages,andinthecourseofthemorningyouwouldhaveseenmanychangesinhisface。Sometimeshislipsmovedinsemi-
articulation——itwaswhenhecametoaspeechthathecouldfancyhimselfuttering,suchasSamuel’sdyingspeechtothepeople;
thenhiseyebrowswouldberaised,andthecornersofhismouthwouldquiveralittlewithsadsympathy——something,perhapsoldIsaac’smeetingwithhisson,touchedhimclosely;atothertimes,overtheNewTestament,averysolemnlookwouldcomeuponhisface,andhewouldeverynowandthenshakehisheadinseriousassent,orjustliftuphishandandletitfallagain。Andonsomemornings,whenhereadintheApocrypha,ofwhichhewasveryfond,thesonofSirach’skeen-edgedwordswouldbringadelightedsmile,thoughhealsoenjoyedthefreedomofoccasionallydifferingfromanApocryphalwriter。ForAdamknewtheArticlesquitewell,asbecameagoodchurchman。
Lisbeth,inthepausesofattendingtoherdinner,alwayssatoppositetohimandwatchedhim,tillshecouldrestnolongerwithoutgoinguptohimandgivinghimacaress,tocallhisattentiontoher。ThismorninghewasreadingtheGospelaccordingtoSt。Matthew,andLisbethhadbeenstandingclosebyhimforsomeminutes,strokinghishair,whichwassmootherthanusualthismorning,andlookingdownatthelargepagewithsilentwondermentatthemysteryofletters。Shewasencouragedtocontinuethiscaress,becausewhenshefirstwentuptohim,hehadthrownhimselfbackinhischairtolookatheraffectionatelyandsay,"Why,Mother,theelook’strareandheartythismorning。
Eh,Gypwantsmet’lookathim。Hecan’tabidetothinkIlovetheethebest。"Lisbethsaidnothing,becauseshewantedtosaysomanythings。Andnowtherewasanewleaftobeturnedover,anditwasapicture——thatoftheangelseatedonthegreatstonethathasbeenrolledawayfromthesepulchre。ThispicturehadonestrongassociationinLisbeth’smemory,forshehadbeenremindedofitwhenshefirstsawDinah,andAdamhadnosoonerturnedthepage,andliftedthebooksidewaysthattheymightlookattheangel,thanshesaid,"That’sher——that’sDinah。"
Adamsmiled,and,lookingmoreintentlyattheangel’sface,said,"Itisabitlikeher;butDinah’sprettier,Ithink。"
"Well,then,iftheethink’sthersopretty,whyarn’tfondonher?"
Adamlookedupinsurprise。"Why,Mother,dostthinkIdon’tsetstorebyDinah?"
"Nay,"saidLisbeth,frightenedatherowncourage,yetfeelingthatshehadbrokentheice,andthewatersmustflow,whatevermischieftheymightdo。"What’sth’useo’settin’storebythingsasarethirtymileoff?Iftheewastfondenoughonher,theewouldstnalethergoaway。"
"ButI’venorightt’hinderher,ifshethinkswell,"saidAdam,lookingathisbookasifhewantedtogoonreading。Heforesawaseriesofcomplaintstendingtonothing。Lisbethsatdownagaininthechairoppositetohim,asshesaid:
"Butshewouldnathinkwelliftheewastnasocontrairy。"Lisbethdarednotventurebeyondavaguephraseyet。
"Contrairy,mother?"Adamsaid,lookingupagaininsomeanxiety。
"WhathaveIdone?Whatdostmean?"
"Why,thee’tneverlookatnothin’,northinko’nothin’,butthyfigurin,an’thywork,"saidLisbeth,half-crying。"An’dostthinktheecanstgoonsoallthylife,asiftheewastamancutouto’timber?An’whatwutdowhenthymother’sgone,an’nobodytotakecareontheeastheegett’stabito’victualcomfortablei’themornin’?"
"Whathastgoti’thymind,Mother?"saidAdam,vexedatthiswhimpering。"Icannaseewhatthee’tdrivingat。IsthereanythingIcoulddofortheeasIdon’tdo?"
"Aye,an’thatthereis。Theemight’stdoasIshouldha’
somebodywi’metocomfortmeabit,an’waitonmewhenI’mbad,an’begoodtome。"
"Well,Mother,whosefaultisitthereisnasometidybodyi’th’
houset’helpthee?Itisnabymywishastheehastastrokeo’
worktodo。Wecanaffordit——I’vetoldtheeoftenenough。It’udbeadealbetterforus。"
"Eh,what’stheuseo’talkingo’tidybodies,whentheemean’stoneo’th’wenchesouto’th’village,orsomebodyfromTreddles’onasIne’erseteyesoni’mylife?I’dsoonermakeashiftan’getintomyowncofflnaforeIdie,norha’themfolkstoputmein。"
Adamwassilent,andtriedtogoonreading。ThatwastheutmostseverityhecouldshowtowardshismotheronaSundaymorning。
ButLisbethhadgonetoofarnowtocheckherself,andafterscarcelyaminute’squietnessshebeganagain。
"Theemightstknowwellenoughwho’tisI’dliket’ha’wi’me。
ItisnamanyfolksIsendfort’comean’seeme。Ireckon。An’
thee’sthadthefetchin’onhertimesenow。"
"Theemean’stDinah,Mother,Iknow,"saidAdam。"Butit’snousesettingthymindonwhatcan’tbe。IfDinah’udbewillingtostayatHayslope,itisn’tlikelyshecancomeawayfromheraunt’shouse,wheretheyholdherlikeadaughter,andwhereshe’smoreboundthansheistous。Ifithadbeensothatshecouldha’marriedSeth,that’udha’beenagreatblessingtous,butwecan’thavethingsjustaswelikeinthislife。Theemusttryandmakeupthymindtodowithouther。"
"Nay,butIcannama’upmymind,whenshe’sjustcutoutforthee;an’noughtshallma’mebelieveasGoddidnamakeheran’
sendherthereo’purposeforthee。What’sitsinnifyaboutherbein’aMethody!It’udhappenwearoutonherwi’marryin’。"
Adamthrewhimselfbackinhischairandlookedathismother。Heunderstoodnowwhatshehadbeenaimingatfromthebeginningoftheconversation。Itwasasunreasonable,impracticableawishasshehadeverurged,buthecouldnothelpbeingmovedbysoentirelynewanidea。Thechiefpoint,however,wastochaseawaythenotionfromhismother’smindasquicklyaspossible。
"Mother,"hesaid,gravely,"thee’ttalkingwild。Don’tletmeheartheesaysuchthingsagain。It’snogoodtalkingo’whatcanneverbe。Dinah’snotformarrying;she’sfixedherheartonadifferentsorto’life。"
"Verylike,"saidLisbeth,impatiently,"verylikeshe’snoneformarr’ing,whenthemasshe’dbewillin’t’marrywonnaaxher。I
shouldnaha’beenformarr’ingthyfeytherifhe’dne’eraxedme;
an’she’sasfondo’theease’erIwaro’Thias,poorfellow。"
ThebloodrushedtoAdam’sface,andforafewmomentshewasnotquiteconsciouswherehewas。Hismotherandthekitchenhadvanishedforhim,andhesawnothingbutDinah’sfaceturneduptowardshis。Itseemedasiftherewerearesurrectionofhisdeadjoy。Buthewokeupveryspeedilyfromthatdreamthewakingwaschillandsad,foritwouldhavebeenveryfoolishinhimtobelievehismother’swords——shecouldhavenogroundforthem。Hewaspromptedtoexpresshisdisbeliefverystrongly——
perhapsthathemightcallforththeproofs,iftherewereanytobeoffered。
"Whatdostsaysuchthingsfor,Mother,whenthee’stgotnofoundationfor’em?Theeknow’stnothingasgivestheearighttosaythat。"
"ThenIknownanoughtasgi’esmearighttosayastheyear’sturned,forallIfeelitfustthingwhenIgetupi’th’morning。
Sheisnafondo’Seth,Ireckon,isshe?ShedoesnawanttomarryHIM?ButIcanseeasshedoesnabehavetow’rttheeasshedaestow’rtSeth。Shemakesnomoreo’Seth’scominga-nighhernorifhewarGyp,butshe’sallofatremblewhenthee’ta-sittin’downbyheratbreakfastan’a-lookingather。Theethink’stthymotherknowsnought,butshewaraliveaforetheewastborn。"
"Buttheecanstnabesureasthetremblingmeanslove?"saidAdamanxiously。
"Eh,whatelseshoulditmane?Itisnahate,Ireckon。An’whatshouldshedobutlovethee?Thee’tmadetobeloved——forwhere’sthereastraighterclivererman?An’what’sitsinnifyherbein’
aMethody?It’son’ythemarigoldi’th’parridge。"
Adamhadthrusthishandsinhispockets,andwaslookingdownatthebookonthetable,withoutseeinganyoftheletters。Hewastremblinglikeagold-seekerwhoseesthestrongpromiseofgoldbutseesinthesamemomentasickeningvisionofdisappointment。
Hecouldnottrusthismother’sinsight;shehadseenwhatshewishedtosee。Andyet——andyet,nowthesuggestionhadbeenmadetohim,herememberedsomanythings,veryslightthings,likethestirringofthewaterbyanimperceptiblebreeze,whichseemedtohimsomeconfirmationofhismother’swords。
Lisbethnoticedthathewasmoved。Shewenton,"An’thee’tfindoutasthee’tpoorlyaffwhenshe’sgone。Thee’tfonderonhernortheeknow’st。Thyeyesfollowherabout,wellyasGyp’sfollowthee。"
Adamcouldsitstillnolonger。Herose,tookdownhishat,andwentoutintothefields。
Thesunshinewasonthem:thatearlyautumnsunshinewhichweshouldknowwasnotsummer’s,eveniftherewerenotthetouchesofyellowonthelimeandchestnut;theSundaysunshinetoo,whichhasmorethanautumnalcalmnessfortheworkingman;themorningsunshine,whichstillleavesthedew-crystalsonthefinegossamerwebsintheshadowofthebushyhedgerows。
Adamneededthecalminfluence;hewasamazedatthewayinwhichthisnewthoughtofDinah’slovehadtakenpossessionofhim,withanovermasteringpowerthatmadeallotherfeelingsgivewaybeforetheimpetuousdesiretoknowthatthethoughtwastrue。
Strange,thattillthatmomentthepossibilityoftheireverbeinglovershadnevercrossedhismind,andyetnow,allhislongingsuddenlywentouttowardsthatpossibility。Hehadnomoredoubtorhesitationastohisownwishesthanthebirdthatfliestowardstheopeningthroughwhichthedaylightgleamsandthebreathofheavenenters。
TheautumnalSundaysunshinesoothedhim,butnotbypreparinghimwithresignationtothedisappointmentifhismother——ifhehimself——provedtobemistakenaboutDinah。Itsoothedhimbygentleencouragementofhishopes。Herlovewassolikethatcalmsunshinethattheyseemedtomakeonepresencetohim,andhebelievedinthembothalike。AndDinahwassoboundupwiththesadmemoriesofhisfirstpassionthathewasnotforsakingthem,butrathergivingthemanewsacrednessbylovingher。Nay,hisloveforherhadgrownoutofthatpast:itwasthenoonofthatmorning。
ButSeth?Wouldtheladbehurt?Hardly;forhehadseemedquitecontentedoflate,andtherewasnoselfishjealousyinhim;hehadneverbeenjealousofhismother’sfondnessforAdam。Buthadheseenanythingofwhattheirmothertalkedabout?Adamlongedtoknowthis,forhethoughthecouldtrustSeth’sobservationbetterthanhismother’s。HemusttalktoSethbeforehewenttoseeDinah,and,withthisintentioninhismind,hewalkedbacktothecottageandsaidtohismother,"DidSethsayanythingtotheeaboutwhenhewascominghome?Willhebebacktodinner?"
"Aye,lad,he’llbebackforawonder。HeisnagonetoTreddles’on。He’sgonesomewhereelsea-preachin’anda-prayin’。"
"Hastanynotionwhichwayhe’sgone?"saidAdam。
"Nay,butheaftengoestoth’Common。Theeknow’stmoreo’sgoingsnorIdo。"
AdamwantedtogoandmeetSeth,buthemustcontenthimselfwithwalkingaboutthenearfieldsandgettingsightofhimassoonaspossible。Thatwouldnotbeformorethananhourtocome,forSethwouldscarcelybeathomemuchbeforetheirdinner-time,whichwastwelveo’clock。ButAdamcouldnotsitdowntohisreadingagain,andhesaunteredalongbythebrookandstoodleaningagainstthestiles,witheagerintenseeyes,whichlookedasiftheysawsomethingveryvividly;butitwasnotthebrookorthewillows,notthefieldsorthesky。Againandagainhisvisionwasinterruptedbywonderatthestrengthofhisownfeeling,atthestrengthandsweetnessofthisnewlove——almostlikethewonderamanfeelsattheaddedpowerhefindsinhimselfforanartwhichhehadlaidasideforaspace。Howisitthatthepoetshavesaidsomanyfinethingsaboutourfirstlove,sofewaboutourlaterlove?Aretheirfirstpoemstheirbest?Orarenotthosethebestwhichcomefromtheirfullerthought,theirlargerexperience,theirdeeper-rootedaffections?Theboy’sflutelikevoicehasitsownspringcharm;butthemanshouldyieldaricherdeepermusic。
Atlast,therewasSeth,visibleatthefartheststile,andAdamhastenedtomeethim。Sethwassurprised,andthoughtsomethingunusualmusthavehappened,butwhenAdamcameup,hisfacesaidplainlyenoughthatitwasnothingalarming。
"Wherehastbeen?"saidAdam,whentheyweresidebyside。
"I’vebeentotheCommon,"saidSeth。"Dinah’sbeenspeakingtheWordtoalittlecompanyofhearersatBrimstone’s,astheycallhim。They’refolksasnevergotochurchhardly——themontheCommon——butthey’llgoandhearDinahabit。She’sbeenspeakingwithpowerthisforenoonfromthewords,’Icamenottocalltherighteous,butsinnerstorepentance。’Andtherewasalittlethinghappenedaswasprettytosee。Thewomenmostlybringtheirchildrenwith’em,butto-daytherewasonestoutcurlyheadedfellowaboutthreeorfouryearold,thatIneversawtherebefore。HewasasnaughtyascouldbeatthebeginningwhileI
waspraying,andwhilewewassinging,butwhenweallsatdownandDinahbegantospeak,th’youngunstoodstockstillallatonce,andbegantolookatherwith’smouthopen,andpresentlyheranawayfrom’smotherandwenttoDinah,andpulledather,likealittledog,forhertotakenoticeofhim。SoDinahliftedhimupandheldth’ladonherlap,whileshewentonspeaking;andhewasasgoodascouldbetillhewenttosleep——andthemothercriedtoseehim。"
"It’sapitysheshouldnabeamotherherself,"saidAdam,"sofondasthechildrenareofher。Dostthinkshe’squitefixedagainstmarrying,Seth?Dostthinknothing’udturnher?"
Therewassomethingpeculiarinhisbrother’stone,whichmadeSethstealaglanceathisfacebeforeheanswered。
"It’udbewrongofmetosaynothing’udturnher,"heanswered。
"Butiftheemean’stitaboutmyself,I’vegivenupallthoughtsasshecaneverbemywife。Shecallsmeherbrother,andthat’senough。"
"Butdostthinkshemightevergetfondenoughofanybodyelsetobewillingtomarry’em?"saidAdamrathershyly。
"Well,"saidSeth,aftersomehesitation,"it’scrossedmymindsometimeso’lateasshemight;butDinah’udletnofondnessforthecreaturedrawherouto’thepathasshebelievedGodhadmarkedoutforher。IfshethoughttheleadingwasnotfromHim,she’snotonetobebroughtunderthepowerofit。Andshe’sallaysseemedclearaboutthat——asherworkwastoministert’
others,andmakenohomeforherselfi’thisworld。"
"Butsuppose,"saidAdam,earnestly,"supposetherewasamanas’udletherdojustthesameandnotinterferewithher——shemightdoagooddealo’whatshedoesnow,justaswellwhenshewasmarriedaswhenshewassingle。Otherwomenofhersorthavemarried——that’stosay,notjustlikeher,butwomenaspreachedandattendedonthesickandneedy。There’sMrs。Fletcherasshetalksof。"
AnewlighthadbrokeninonSeth。Heturnedround,andlayinghishandonAdam’sshoulder,said,"Why,wouldstlikehertomarryTHEE,Brother?"
AdamlookeddoubtfullyatSeth’sinquiringeyesandsaid,"Wouldstbehurtifshewastobefondero’methano’thee?"
"Nay,"saidSethwarmly,"howcanstthinkit?HaveIfeltthytroublesolittlethatIshouldnafeelthyjoy?"
Therewassilenceafewmomentsastheywalkedon,andthenSethsaid,"I’dnonotionasthee’dsteverthinkofherforawife。"
"Butisito’anyusetothinkofher?"saidAdam。"Whatdostsay?Mother’smademeasIhardlyknowwhereIam,withwhatshe’sbeensayingtomethisforenoon。Shesaysshe’ssureDinahfeelsformemorethancommon,and’udbewillingt’haveme。ButI’mafraidshespeakswithoutbook。Iwanttoknowifthee’stseenanything。"
"It’sanicepointtospeakabout,"saidSeth,"andI’mafraido’
beingwrong;besides,we’venorightt’intermeddlewithpeople’sfeelingswhentheywouldn’ttell’emthemselves。"
Sethpaused。
"Buttheemightstaskher,"hesaidpresently。"Shetooknooffenceatmeforasking,andthee’stmorerightthanIhad,onlythee’tnotintheSociety。ButDinahdoesn’tholdwi’themasareforkeepingtheSocietysostricttothemselves。Shedoesn’tmindaboutmakingfolksentertheSociety,soasthey’refitt’enterthekingdomo’God。Someo’thebrethrenatTreddles’onaredispleasedwithherforthat。"
"Wherewillshebetheresto’theday?"saidAdam。
"Shesaidsheshouldn’tleavethefarmagainto-day,"saidSeth,"becauseit’sherlastSabbaththere,andshe’sgoingt’readouto’thebigBiblewi’thechildren。"
Adamthought——butdidnotsay——"ThenI’llgothisafternoon;forifIgotochurch,mythoughts’ullbewithherallthewhile。
Theymustsingth’anthemwithoutmeto-day。"