ButImust!Imust!Imust!Away,faintheartedness!’
  Levinrosetohisfeet,tookoffhisovercoat,and,gainingspeedovertheroughiceroundthepavilion,cameoutonthesmoothiceandskatedwithouteffort,asitwere,by,simpleexerciseofwill,increasingandslackeningspeedandturninghiscourse。Heapproachedherwithtimidity,butagainhersmilereassuredhim。
  Shegavehimherhand,andtheysetoffsidebyside,goingfasterandfaster,andthemorerapidlytheymovedthemoretightlyshegraspedhishand。
  `WithyouIshouldsoonlearn;Isomehowfeelconfidenceinyou,’
  shesaidtohim。
  `AndIhaveconfidenceinmyselfwhenyouareleaningonme,’
  hesaid,butwasatoncefrightenedatwhathehadsaid,andblushed。Andindeed,nosoonerhadheutteredthesewords,thanallatonce,likethesungoingbehindacloud,herfacelostallitstenderness,andLevindetectedthefamiliarchangeinherexpressionthatdenotedmentalconcentration;
  atinywrinklecameuponhersmoothbrow。
  `Isthereanythingtroublingyou?However,I’venorighttoasksuchaquestion,’hesaidhurriedly。
  `Oh,whyso?……No,Ihavenothingtotroubleme,’sherespondedcoldly,andimmediatelyadded:`Youhaven’tseenMlle。Linon,haveyou?’
  `Notyet。’
  `Goandspeaktoher-shelikesyousomuch。’
  `What’swrong?Ihaveoffendedher。Lordhelpme!’thoughtLevin,andheflewtowardstheoldFrenchwomanwiththegrayringlets,whowassittingonabench。Smilingandshowingherfalseteeth,shegreetedhimasanoldfriend。
  `Yes,youseewe’regrowingup,’shesaidtohim,glancingtowardKitty,`andgrowingold。Tinybearhasgrownbignow!’pursuedtheFrenchwoman,laughing,andsheremindedhimofhisjokeaboutthethreeyoungladieswhomhehadcomparedtothethreebearsintheEnglishnurserytale。`Doyourememberthat’swhatyouusedtocallthem?’
  Herememberedabsolutelynothing,butshehadbeenlaughingatthejokefortenyearsnowandwasfondofit。
  `Now,goandskate,goandskate。OurKittyhaslearnedtoskatenicely,hasn’tshe?’
  WhenLevindarteduptoKittyherfacewasnolongerstern;hereyeslookedathimwiththesamesincerityandtenderness,butLevinfanciedthatinhertendernesstherewasacertainnoteofdeliberatecomposure。
  Andhefeltdepressed。Aftertalkingalittleofheroldgovernessandherpeculiarities,shequestionedhimabouthislife。
  `Surely,youmustfeeldullinthecountryinthewinter,’shesaid。
  `No,I’mnotdull-Iamverybusy,’hesaid,feelingthatshewasmakinghimsubmittohercomposedtone,whichhewouldnothavethestrengthtobreakthrough-justashadbeenthecaseatthebeginningofthewinter。
  `Areyougoingtostayintownlong?’Kittyquestionedhim。
  `Idon’tknow,’heanswered,notthinkingofwhathewassaying。
  Thethoughtcameintohismindthatifhewereheldinsubmissionbyhertoneofquietfriendlinesshewouldendbygoingbackagainwithoutdecidinganything,andheresolvedtomutinyagainstit。
  `Howisityoudon’tknow?’
  `Idon’tknow。Itdependsuponyou,’hesaid,andwasimmediatelyhorror-strickenathisownwords。
  Whetheritwasthatshedidnothearhiswords,orthatshedidnotwanttohearthem,shemadeasortofstumble,twicestruckout,andhurriedlyskatedawayfromhim。SheskateduptoMlle。Linon,saidsomethingtoher,andwenttowardthepavilionwheretheladiestookofftheirskates。
  `MyGod!WhathaveIdone!MercifulGod!Helpme,guideme,’saidLevin,prayinginwardly,andatthesametime,feelinganeedofviolentexercise,heskatedabout,describingconcentricandeccentriccircles。
  Atthatmomentoneoftheyoungmen,thebestoftheskatersoftheday,cameoutofthecoffeehouseonhisskates,withacigaretteinhismouth。Takingarunhedasheddownthestepsonhisskates,crashingandleaping。Heflewdown,andwithoutevenchangingthefree-and-easypositionofhishands,skatedawayovertheice。
  `Ah,that’sanewtrick!’saidLevin,andhepromptlyranuptothetoptoperformthisnewtrick。
  `Don’tbreakyourneck!Thisneedspractice!’NikolaiShcherbatskyshoutedafterhim。
  Levinwenttothesteps,tookarunfromaboveasbesthecould,anddasheddown,preservinghisbalanceinthisunwontedmovementwithhishands。Onthelaststephestumbled,butbarelytouchingtheicewithhishand,withaviolenteffortrecoveredhimself,andskatedoff,laughing。
  `Whatafine,darlingchapheis!’Kittywasthinkingatthatmoment,asshecameoutofthepavilionwithMlle。Linonandlookedtowardhimwithasmileofquietkindness,asthoughhewereafavoritebrother。
  `Andcanitbemyfault,canIhavedoneanythingwrong?Theytalkofcoquetry。
  Iknowit’snothethatIlove;butstillIamhappywithhim,andhe’ssonice。Only,whydidhesaythat?……’shemused。
  CatchingsightofKittygoingaway,andhermothermeetingheratthesteps,Levin,flushedfromhisrapidexercise,stoodstillandponderedaminute。Hetookoffhisskates,andovertookthemotheranddaughterattheentranceofthegardens。
  `Delightedtoseeyou,’saidPrincessShcherbatskaia。`OnThursdayswearehome,asalways。’
  `Today,then?’
  `Weshallbepleasedtoseeyou,’thePrincesssaidstiffly。
  ThisstiffnesshurtKitty,andshecouldnotresistthedesiretosmoothoverhermother’scoldness。Sheturnedherhead,andwithasmilesaid:
  `Good-bytillthisevening。’
  AtthatmomentStepanArkadyevich,hishatcockedononeside,withbeamingfaceandeyes,strodeintothegardenlikeabuoyantconqueror。
  Butasheapproachedhismother-in-law,herespondedtoherinquiriesaboutDolly’shealthwithamournfulandguiltycountenance。Afteralittlesubduedanddejectedconversationwithherhesetstraighthischestagain,andtookLevinbythearm。
  `Well,shallwesetoff?’heasked。`I’vebeenthinkingaboutyouallthistime,andI’mvery,verygladyou’vecome,’hesaid,lookinghiminthefacewithasignificantair。
  `Yes,comealong,’answeredLevininecstasy,hearingunceasinglythesoundofthatvoicesaying,`Good-bytillthisevening,’andseeingthesmilewithwhichitwassaid。
  `ToEnglandorTheHermitage?’
  `It’sallthesametome。’
  `Well,then,Englanditis,’saidStepanArkadyevich,selectingthatrestaurantbecauseheowedmoretherethanatTheHermitage,andconsequentlyconsidereditmeantoavoidit。`Haveyougotasleigh?That’sfine-forIsentmycarriagehome。’
  Thefriendshardlyspokealltheway。LevinwaswonderingwhatthatchangeinKitty’sexpressionhadmeant,andalternatelyassuringhimselfthattherewashope,andfallingintodespair,seeingclearlythathishopeswereinsane,andyetallthewhilehefelthimselfquiteanotherman,utterlyunlikewhathehadbeenbeforehersmileandthosewords,`Good-bytillthisevening。’
  StepanArkadyevichwasabsorbedduringthedriveincomposingthemenuofthedinner。
  `Youliketurbot,don’tyou?’hesaidtoLevinastheywerearriving。
  `Eh?’respondedLevin。`Turbot?Yes,I’mawfullyfondofturbot。’
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  TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart1,Chapter10[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter10WhenLevinwentintotherestaurantwithOblonsky,hecouldnothelpnoticingacertainpeculiarityofexpression,asitwere,arestrainedradiance,aboutthefaceandwholefigureofStepanArkadyevich。Oblonskytookoffhisovercoat,andwithhishatoveroneearwalkedintothediningroom,givingdirectionstotheTatarwaiters,whowereclusteredabouthimineveningcoats,andwithnapkinsundertheirarms。Bowingrightandlefttoacquaintanceswho,hereaseverywhere,greetedhimjoyously,hewentuptothebar,tookalittlewineglassofvodkaandasnackoffish,andsaidtothepaintedFrenchwomandeckedinribbons,laceandringlets,behindthedesk,somethingsoamusingthateventhatFrenchwomanwasmovedtogenuinelaughter。LevinforhispartrefrainedfromtakinganyvodkaonlybecausehefoundmostoffensivethisFrenchwoman,allmadeup,itseemed,offalsehair,poudrederizandvinaigredetoilette。Hemadehastetomoveawayfromher,asfromadirtyplace。HiswholesoulwasfilledwithmemoriesofKitty,andtherewasasmileoftriumphandhappinessshininginhiseyes。
  `Thisway,YourExcellency,please。YourExcellencywon’tbedisturbedhere,’saidaparticularlypertinacious,white-headedoldTatarwithimmensehipsandcoattailsgapingwidelybehind。`Walkin,yourExcellency,’hesaidtoLevin-beingattentivetohisguestaswell,bywayofshowinghisrespecttoStepanArkadyevich。
  Instantlyflingingafreshclothovertheroundtableunderthebronzesconce,thoughitalreadyhadatableclothonit,hepushedupvelvetchairsandcametoastandstillbeforeStepanArkadyevichwithanapkinandabilloffareinhishands,awaitinghiscommands。
  `Ifyoupreferit,YourExcellency,aprivateroomwillbefreedirectly:PrinceGolitsinwithalady。Freshoystershavecomein。’
  `Ah,oysters!’StepanArkadyevichbecamethoughtful。
  `Howifweweretochangeourprogram,Levin?’hesaid,keepinghisfingeronthebilloffare。Andhisfaceexpressedserioushesitation。
  `Aretheoystersgood?Mind,now!’
  `They’reFlensburg,YourExcellency。We’venoOstend。’
  `Flensburgwilldo-butaretheyfresh?’
  `Onlyarrivedyesterday。’
  `Well,then,howifweweretobeginwithoysters,andsochangethewholeprogram?Eh?’
  `It’sallthesametome。Ishouldlikecabbagesoupandporridgebetterthananything;butofcoursethere’snothinglikethathere。’
  `Porridgeà;laRusse,YourHonorwouldlike?’saidtheTatar,bendingdowntoLevin,likeanursespeakingtoachild。
  `No,jokingapart,whateveryouchooseissuretobegood。I’vebeenskating,andI’mhungry。Anddon’timagine,’headded,detectingalookofdissatisfactiononOblonsky’sface,`thatIshan’tappreciateyourchoice。Idon’tobjecttoagooddinner。’
  `Ishouldhopeso!Afterall,it’soneofthepleasuresoflife,’
  saidStepanArkadyevich。`Well,then,myfriend,yougiveustwo-orbettersaythree-dozenoysters,clearsoupwithvegetables……’
  `Printaniere,’promptedtheTatar。ButStepanArkadyevichapparentlydidnotcaretoallowhimthesatisfactionofgivingtheFrenchnamesofthedishes。
  `Withvegetablesinit,youknow。Thenturbotwiththicksauce,then……roastbeef;andmindit’sgood。Yes,andcapons,perhaps,andthenstewedfruit。’
  TheTatar,recollectingthatitwasStepanArkadyevich’swaynottocallthedishesbythenamesintheFrenchbilloffare,didnotrepeatthemafterhim,butcouldnotresistrehearsingthewholemenutohimselfaccordingtothebill:`Soupeprintaniere,turbotsauceBeaumarchais,poulardà;l’estragon,Macé;doinedefruits……’andtheninstantly,asthoughworkedbysprings,layingdownoneboundbilloffare,hetookupanother,thelistofwines,andsubmittedittoStepanArkadyevich。
  `Whatshallwedrink?’
  `Whatyoulike,onlynottoomuch。Champagne,’saidLevin。
  `What!tostartwith?You’rerightthough,Idaresay。Doyoulikethewhiteseal?’
  `Cachetblanc,’promptedtheTatar。
  `Verywell,then,giveusthatbrandwiththeoysters,andthenwe’llsee。’
  `Yes,sir。Andwhattablewine?’
  `YoucangiveusNuits。Oh,no-bettertheclassicChablis。’
  `Yes,sir。Andyourcheese,YourExcellency?’
  `Oh,yes,Parmesan。Orwouldyoulikeanother?’
  `No,it’sallthesametome,’saidLevin,unabletosuppressasmile。
  AndtheTatarranoffwithflyingcoattails,andinfiveminutesdartedinwithadishofopenedoystersintheirnacreousshells,andabottlebetweenhisfingers。
  StepanArkadyevichcrushedthestarchynapkin,tuckeditintohiswaistcoat,and,settlinghisarmscomfortably,startedontheoysters。
  `Notbad,’hesaid,detachingthejelliedoystersfromtheirpearlyshellswithasmallsilverfork,andswallowingthemoneafteranother。
  `Notbad,’herepeated,turninghisdewy,brillianteyesnowuponLevin,nowupontheTatar。
  Levinatetheoysterstoo,thoughwhitebreadandcheesepleasedhimbetter。ButhewasadmiringOblonsky。EventheTatar,uncorkingthebottleandpouringthesparklingwineintothedelicatefunnel-shapedglasses,andadjustinghiswhitecravat,keptonglancingatStepanArkadyevichwithaperceptiblesmileofsatisfaction。
  `Youdon’tcaremuchforoysters,doyou?’saidStepanArkadyevich,emptyinghiswineglass,`orareyouworriedaboutsomething。Eh?’
  HewantedLevintobeingoodspirits。ButitwasnotthatLevinwasnotingoodspirits,hewasillatease。Withwhathehadinhissoul,hefelthardandawkwardintherestaurant,inthemidstofprivateroomswheremenwerediningwithladies,inallthisfussandbustle;thesurroundingsofbronzes,lookingglasses,gasandTatars-allofthiswasoffensivetohim。Hewasafraidofsullyingwhathissoulwasbrimfulof。
  `I?Yes,Iamworried;butbesidesthat,allthisbothersme,’
  hesaid。`Youcan’tconceivehowqueeritallseemstoacountrymanlikeme,asqueerasthatgentleman’snailsIsawatyouroffice……’
  `Yes,IsawhowmuchinterestedyouwereinpoorGrinevich’snails,’
  saidStepanArkadyevich,laughing。
  `It’stoomuchforme,’respondedLevin。`Dotry,now,toputyourselfinmyplace-takethepointofviewofacountryman。Weinthecountrytrytobringourhandsintosuchastateaswillbemostconvenientforworkingwith。Sowecutournails;sometimeswetuckupoursleeves。
  Andherepeoplepurposelylettheirnailsgrowaslongaspossible,andlinkonsmallsaucersbywayofstuds,sothattheycandonothingwiththeirhands。’
  StepanArkadyevichsmiledgaily。
  `Oh,yes,that’sjustasignthathehasnoneedtodocoarsework。Hisworkiswiththemind……’
  `Maybe。Butstillit’squeertome,justasatthismomentitseemsqueertomethatwecountryfolkstrytosatiateourselvesassoonaswecan,soastobereadyforwork,whileherearewetryingtodelaysatietyaslongaspossible,andwiththatobjectareeatingoysters……’
  `Why,ofcourse,’objectedStepanArkadyevich。`Butthat’sjusttheaimofculture-tomakeeverythingasourceofenjoyment。’
  `Well,ifthat’sitsaim,I’dratherbeasavage。’
  `Youareasavage,asitis。AllyouLevinsaresavages。’
  Levinsighed。HerememberedhisbrotherNikolai,andfeltashamedandpained,andhescowled;butOblonskybeganspeakingofasubjectwhichatoncedrewhisattention。
  `Oh,Isay,areyougoingtonighttoourpeople-theShcherbatsky’s,Imean?’hesaid,hiseyessparklingsignificantlyashepushedawaytheemptyroughshells,anddrewthecheesetowardhim。
  `Yes,Ishallcertainlygo,’repliedLevin;`thoughIfanciedthePrincesswasnotverywarminherinvitation。’
  `Whatnonsense!That’shermanner……Come,boy,thesoup!……
  That’shermanner-grandedame,’saidStepanArkadyevich。`I’mcoming,too,butIhavetogototheCountessBonin’srehearsal。Come,isn’tittruethatyou’reasavage?HowdoyouexplainthesuddenwayinwhichyouvanishedfromMoscow?TheShcherbatskyswerecontinuallyaskingmeaboutyou,asthoughIoughttoknow。TheonlythingIknowisthatyoualwaysdowhatnooneelsedoes。’
  `Yes,’saidLevin,slowlyandwithemotion,`you’reright。Iamasavage。Only,mysavagenessisnotinhavinggoneaway,butincomingnow。NowIhavecome……’
  `Oh,whataluckyfellowyouare!’brokeinStepanArkadyevich,lookingintoLevin’seyes。
  `Why?’
  `Icantellthegallantsteeds,’bysome……Idon’tknowwhat……
  ``pace’s;Icantellyouths``bytheirfaces,’’’declaimedStepanArkadyevich。
  `Everythingisbeforeyou。’
  `Why,isitoverforyoualready?’
  `No;notoverexactly,butthefutureisyours,andthepresentismine,andthepresent-well,it’sonlyfairtomiddling。’
  `Howso?’
  `Oh,thingsaren’tright。ButIdon’twanttotalkofmyself,besidesIcan’texplainitall,’saidStepanArkadyevich。`Well,whyhaveyoucometoMoscow,then?……Hi!clearthetable!’hecalledtotheTatar。
  `Areyoutryingtosurmise?’respondedLevin,hiseyes,gleamingintheirdepth,fixedonStepanArkadyevich。
  `Iam,butIcan’tbethefirsttotalkaboutit。YoucanseebythatwhetherIsurmiserightorwrong,’saidStepanArkadyevich,gazingatLevinwithasubtlesmile。
  `Well,andwhathaveyoutosaytome?’saidLevininaquiveringvoice,feelingthatallthemusclesofhisfacewerequiveringtoo。`Howdoyoulookatit?
  StepanArkadyevichslowlyemptiedhisglassofChablis,nevertakinghiseyesoffLevin。
  `I?’saidStepanArkadyevich。`There’snothingIdesiresomuchasthat-nothing!Itwouldbethebestthingthatcouldhappen。’
  `Butyou’renotmakingamistake?Youknowwhatwe’respeakingof?’saidLevin,piercinghimwithhiseyes。`Youthinkit’spossible?’
  `Ithinkit’spossible。Whynot?’
  `No!Doyoureallythinkit’spossible?No-tellmeallyouthink!
  Oh,butif……Ifrefusal’sinstoreforme!……IndeedIfeelsure……’
  `Whatmakesyouthinkso?’saidStepanArkadyevich,smilingathisexcitement。
  `Itseemssotomesometimes。Thatwillbeawfulforme,andforhertoo。’
  `Oh,well,anywaythere’snothingawfulinitforagirl。Everygirl’sproudofaproposal。’
  `Yes,everygirl,butnotshe。’
  StepanArkadyevichsmiled。HesowellknewthatfeelingofLevin’s,thatforhimallthegirlsintheworldweredividedintotwoclasses:
  oneclass-allthegirlsintheworldexcepther,andthosegirlswithallsortsofhumanfailings,andveryordinarygirls:theotherclass-
  shealone,havingnofailingsofanysortandhigherthanallhumanity。
  `Stay,takesomesauce,’hesaid,holdingbackLevin’shand,whowaspushingthesauceaway。
  Levinobedientlyhelpedhimselftosauce,butwouldnotletStepanArkadyevichgoonwithhisdinner。
  `No,stopaminute,stopaminute,’hesaid。`Youmustunderstandthatit’saquestionoflifeanddeathforme。Ihaveneverspokentoanyoneofthis。Andthere’snoonetowhomIcouldspeakofit,exceptyourself。
  Youknowwe’reutterlyunlikeeachother,differentintastes,andviews,andeverything;butIknowyou’refondofmeandunderstandme,andthat’swhyIlikeyouawfully。ButforGod’ssake,bequitestraightforwardwithme。’
  `ItellyouwhatIthink,’saidStepanArkadyevich,smiling。`ButI’llsaymore:mywifeisawonderfulwoman……’StepanArkadyevichsighed,recallinghisrelationswithhiswife,and,afteramoment’ssilence,resumed-`Shehasagiftofforeseeingthings。Sheseesrightthroughpeople;
  butthat’snotall;sheknowswhatwillcometopass,especiallyinthewayofmarriages。Sheforetold,forinstance,thatPrincessShahovskaiawouldmarryBrenteln。Noonewouldbelieveit,butitcametopass。Andshe’sonyourside。’
  `Howdoyoumean?’
  `It’snotonlythatshelikesyou-shesaysthatKittyiscertaintobeyourwife。’
  AtthesewordsLevin’sfacesuddenlylightedupwithasmile,asmilenotfarfromtouchingtears。
  `Shesaysthat!’criedoutLevin。`Ialwayssaidshewascharming,yourwife。There,that’senoughsaidaboutit,’hesaid,gettingupfromhisseat。
  `Well,butdositdown。’
  ButLevincouldnotsitdown。Hewalkedwithhisfirmtreadtwiceupanddownthelittlecageofaroom,blinkedhiseyelidsthathistearsmightnotfall,andonlythensatdowntothetable。
  `Youmustunderstand,’saidhe,`it’snotlove。I’vebeeninlove,butit’snotthat。It’snotmyfeeling,butasortofforceoutsidemethathastakenpossessionofme。Iwentaway,yousee,becauseImadeupmymindthatitcouldneverbe-youunderstand,likeahappinesswhichisnotofthisearth;butI’vestruggledwithmyself,andIseethere’snolivingwithoutit。Anditmustbesettled。’
  `Whatdidyougoawayfor?’
  `Ah,stopaminute!Ah,thethoughtsthatcomecrowdingonone!
  Thequestionsonemustaskoneself!Listen。Youcan’timaginewhatyou’vedoneformebywhatyousaid。I’msohappythatI’vebecomepositivelyhateful;I’veforgotteneverything。IheardtodaythatmybrotherNikolai……
  youknow,he’shere……Ihadforgottenevenhim。Itseemstomethathe’shappytoo。It’sasortofmadness。Butonething’sawful……Here,you’vebeenmarried,youknowthefeeling……It’sawfulthatwe-fullymature-withapast……apastnotoflove,butofsins……arebroughtallatoncesoneartoacreaturepureandinnocent;it’sloathsome,andthat’swhyonecan’thelpfeelingoneselfunworthy。’
  `Oh,well,youhaven’tmanysinsonyourconscience。’
  `Ah,still,’saidLevin,```When,withloathing,Igoo’ermylife,IshudderandIcurseandbitterlyregret……’’Yes。’
  `Whatwouldyouhave?That’sthewayoftheworld,’saidStepanArkadyevich。
  `There’sonecomfort,likethatoftheprayerwhichIalwaysliked:
  ``Forgivemenotaccordingtomydeeds,butaccordingtoThyloving-kindness。’’
  That’stheonlywayshecanforgiveme。’
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  TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart1,Chapter11[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter11Levinemptiedhisglass,andtheyweresilentforawhile。
  `There’soneotherthingIoughttotellyou。DoyouknowVronsky?’
  StepanArkadyevichaskedLevin。
  `No,Idon’t。Whydoyouask?’
  `Giveusanotherbottle,’StepanArkadyevichdirectedtheTatar,whowasfillinguptheirglassesandfidgetingroundthemjustwhenhewasleastwanted。
  `Why,yououghttoknowVronskybecausehe’soneofyourrivals。’
  `Who’sVronsky?’saidLevin,andhisfacewassuddenlytransformedfromthelookofchildlikeecstasywhichOblonskyhadjustbeenadmiringtoanangryandunpleasantexpression。
  `VronskyisoneofthesonsofCountKirillIvanovichVronsky,andoneofthefinestspecimensofthegildedyouthofPeterburg。ImadehisacquaintanceinTver,whenIwasthereonofficialbusiness,andhecamethereforthelevyofrecruits。Fearfullyrich,handsome,greatconnections,anaide-de-camp,andwithallthataveryfinegood-naturedfellow。Buthe’smorethansimplyagood-naturedfellow,asI’vefoundouthere-he’saculturedman,too,andveryintelligent;he’samanwho’llmakehismark。’
  Levinscowledandkeptsilent。
  `Well,heturnedupheresoonafteryou’dgone,and,asIcansee,he’soverheadandearsinlovewithKitty,andyouknowthathermother……’
  `Excuseme,butIknownothing,’saidLevin,frowninggloomily。
  AndimmediatelyherecalledhisbrotherNikolai,andhowvilehewastohavebeenabletoforgethim。
  `Youwaitabit-waitabit,’saidStepanArkadyevich,smilingandtouchinghishand。`I’vetoldyouwhatIknow,andIrepeatthatinthisdelicateandtendermatter,asfarasonecanconjecture,Ibelievethechancesareinyourfavor。’
  Levindroppedbackinhischair;hisfacewaspale。
  `ButIwouldadviseyoutosettlethethingassoonaspossible,’
  pursuedOblonsky,fillinguphisglass。
  `No,thanks,Ican’tdrinkanymore,’saidLevin,pushingawayhisglass。`Ishallgetdrunk……Come,tellmehowareyougettingon?’
  hewenton,obviouslyanxioustochangetheconversation。
  `Onewordmore:inanycaseIadviseyoutosettlethequestionsoon。TonightIdon’tadviseyoutospeak,’saidStepanArkadyevich。`Goroundtomorrowmorning,makeaproposalinclassicform,andGodblessyou……’
  `Oh,doyoustillthinkofcomingtomeforsomeshooting?Comenextspring,do,’saidLevin。
  NowhiswholesoulwasfullofremorsethathehadbegunthisconversationwithStepanArkadyevich。HispeculiarfeelingwasprofanedbytalkoftherivalryofsomePeterburgofficer,ofthesuppositionsandthecounselsofStepanArkadyevich。
  StepanArkadyevichsmiled。HeknewwhatwaspassinginLevin’ssoul。
  `I’llcomesomeday,’hesaid。`Yes,mydear,women-they’rethepivoteverythingturnsupon。Thingsareinabadwaywithme,verybad。Andit’sallthroughwomen。Tellmefrankly,now,’hepursued,pickingupacigarandkeepingonehandonhisglass;`givemeyouradvice。’
  `Why,whatisit?’
  `I’lltellyou。Supposeyou’remarried;youloveyourwife,butarefascinatedbyanotherwoman……’
  `Excuseme,butI’mabsolutelyunabletocomprehendhowjustasIcan’tcomprehendhowIcouldnow,aftermydinner,gostraighttoabaker’sshopandstealaloaf。’
  StepanArkadyevich’seyessparkledmorethanusual。
  `Whynot?Aloafwillsometimessmellsogoodthatonecan’tresistit。
  `Himmlischist’swennichbezwungenMeineirdischeBegier;
  Aberdochwenn’snichtgelungenHatt’ichauchrechthü;bschPlaisir!’Ashesaidthis,StepanArkadyevichsmiledsubtly。Levin,too,couldnothelpsmiling。
  `Yes,butjokingapart,’resumedOblonsky,`youmustunderstandthatthewoman,asweet,gentle,lovingcreature,poorandlonely,hassacrificedeverything。Now,whenthething’sdone,don’tyousee,canonepossiblycastheroff?Evensupposingonepartsfromher,soasnottobreakupone’sfamilylife,still,canonehelpfeelingforher,settingheronherfeet,lighteningherlot?’
  `Well,youmustexcusemethere。Youknowtomeallwomenaredividedintotwoclasses……Well,no……itwouldbetruertosay:therearewomen,andthereare……I’veneverseencharmingfallenbeings,andInevershallseethem,butsuchcreaturesasthatpaintedFrenchwomanatthecounterwiththeringletsarevermintomymind,andallfallenwomenarelikeher。’
  `ButtheMagdalen?’
  `Ah,dropthat!ChristwouldneverhavesaidthosewordsifHehadknownhowtheywouldbeabused。OfalltheGospelthosewordsaretheonlyonesremembered。However,I’mnotsayingsomuchwhatIthink,aswhatIfeel。Ihavealoathingforfallenwomen。You’reafraidofspiders,andIofthesevermin。Mostlikelyyou’venotmadeastudyofspidersanddon’tknowtheircharacter;andsoitiswithme。’
  `It’sverywellforyoutotalklikethat;it’sverymuchlikethatgentlemaninDickenswhousedtoflingalldifficultquestionsoverhisrightshoulderwithhislefthand。Butdenyingthefactsisnoanswer。
  What’stobedone-youtellmethat;what’stobedone?Yourwifegetsolder,whileyou’refulloflife。Beforeyou’vetimetolookround,youfeelthatyoucan’tloveyourwifewithlove,howevermuchyoumayesteemher。Andthenallatonceloveturnsup-andyou’redonefor;you’redonefor,’StepanArkadyevichsaidwithwearydespair。
  Levinsmiledslightly。
  `Yes,you’redonefor,’resumedOblonsky。`Butwhat’stobedone?’
  `Don’tstealloaves。’
  StepanArkadyevichlaughedoutright。
  `Oh,moralist!Butyoumustunderstand,therearetwowomen;oneinsistsonlyonherrights,andthoserightsareyourlove,whichyoucan’tgiveher;whiletheothersacrificeseverythingforyouandasksfornothing。
  Whatareyoutodo?Howareyoutoact?There’safearfultragedyinit。’
  `Ifyoucareformyprofessionoffaithasregardsthat,I’lltellyouthatIdon’tbelievetherewasanytragedyaboutit。Andthisiswhy。Tomymind,love……bothsortsoflove,whichyourememberPlatodefinesinhisBanquet,serveasthetouchstoneofmen。Somemenonlyunderstandonesort,andsomeonlytheother。Andthosewhoonlyknowthenonplatoniclovetalkinvainoftragedy。Insuchlovetherecanbenosortoftragedy。
  ``I’mmuchobligedforthegratification,myhumblerespects,’’-that’sallthetragedy。Andinplatoniclovetherecanbenotragedy,becauseinthatloveallisclearandpure,because……’
  AtthatinstantLevinrecollectedhisownsinsandtheinnerconflicthehadlivedthrough。Andheaddedunexpectedly:
  `Butperhapsyouareright。Verylikely……Idon’tknow-Ipositivelydon’tknow。’
  `Yousee,’saidStepanArkadyevich,`you’reverymuchallofapiece。That’syourqualityandyourfailing。Youhaveacharacterthat’sallofapiece,andyouwantthewholeoflifetobeofapiecetoo-butthat’snothowitis。Youdespisepublicofficialworkbecauseyouwanttherealitytobeconstantlycorrespondingwiththeaim-andthat’snothowitis。Youwantaman’swork,too,alwaystohaveadefinedaim,andloveandfamilylifealwaystobeundivided-andthat’snothowitis。
  Allthevariety,allthecharm,allthebeautyoflifeismadeupoflightandshadow。’
  Levinsighedandmadenoreply。Hewasthinkingofhisownaffairs,andwasnotlisteningtoOblonsky。
  Andsuddenlybothofthemfeltthatthoughtheywerefriends,thoughtheyhadbeendiningtogether,anddrunkwinewhichshouldhavedrawnthemcloser,yeteachwasthinkingonlyofhisownaffairs,andtheyhadnothingtodowithoneanother。Oblonskyhadmorethanonceexperiencedthisextremesenseofaloofness,insteadofintimacy,comingonafterdinner,andheknewwhattodoinsuchcases。
  `Let’shavethecheck!’hecalled,andhewentintothenextroom,wherehepromptlycameacrossanaide-de-campofhisacquaintanceanddroppedintoconversationwithhimaboutanactressandherprotector。Andatonce,inthisconversationwiththeaide-de-camp,OblonskyhadasenseofrelaxationandreliefafterhisconversationwithLevin,whichalwaysputhimtotoogreatamentalandspiritualstrain。
  WhentheTatarappearedwithacheckoftwenty-sixroublesandsomekopecks,besidesatipforhimself,Levin,whowouldanothertimehavebeenhorrified,likeanyonefromthecountry,athisshareoffourteenroubles,didnotnoticeit,paid,andsetoffhomewardtodressandgototheShcherbatsky’s,wherehisfatewastobedecided。
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  TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart1,Chapter12[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter12TheyoungprincessKittyShcherbatskaiawaseighteen。Itwasthefirstwinterthatshehadbeenoutintheworld。Hersuccessinsocietyhadbeengreaterthanthatofeitherofhereldersisters,andgreatereventhanhermotherhadanticipated。TosaynothingoftheyoungmenwhodancedattheMoscowballsbeingalmostallinlovewithKitty,twoserioussuitorshadalready,thefirstwinter,madetheirappearance:Levin,and,immediatelyafterhisdeparture,CountVronsky。
  Levin’sappearanceatthebeginningofthewinter,hisfrequentvisits,andevidentloveforKitty,hadledtothefirstseriousconversationsbetweenKitty’sparentsastoherfuture,andtodisputesbetweenthem。
  ThePrincewasonLevin’sside;hesaidhewishedfornothingbetterforKitty。ThePrincessforherpart,goingroundthequestioninthemannerpeculiartowomen,maintainedthatKittywastooyoung,thatLevinhaddonenothingtoprovethathehadseriousintentions,thatKittyfeltnogreatattractiontohim,andthereweresomeotherreasonstoo;butshedidnotstatetheprincipalpoint,whichwasthatshelookedforabettermatchforherdaughter,thatLevinwasnottoherliking,andthatshedidnotunderstandhim。WhenLevinhadabruptlydeparted,thePrincesswasdelighted,andsaidtoherhusbandtriumphantly:``Yousee,Iwasright。’’
  WhenVronskyappearedonthescene,shewasstillmoredelighted,confirmedinheropinionthatKittywastomakenotsimplyagood,butabrilliantmatch。
  Inthemother’seyestherecouldbenocomparisonbetweenVronskyandLevin。ThemotherdislikedinLevinhisstrangeanduncompromisingopinionsandhisshynessinsociety,foundedonhispride,asshesupposed,andhisqueersortoflife,assheconsideredit,absorbedincattleandpeasants。Shedidnotverymuchlikeitthathe,whowasinlovewithherdaughter,hadkeptcomingtothehouseforsixweeks,asthoughhewerewaitingforsomething,inspecting,asthoughhewereafraidhemightbedoingthemtoogreatanhonorbymakingaproposal,anddidnotrealizethatamanwhocontinuallyvisitsatahousewherethereisayoungunmarriedgirl,isboundtomakehisintentionsclear。Andsuddenly,withoutdoingso,hedisappeared。`It’saswellhe’snotattractiveenoughforKittytohavefalleninlovewithhim,’thoughtthemother。
  Vronskysatisfiedallthemother’sdesires。Verywealthy,clever,ofaristocraticfamily,onthehighroadtoabrilliantcareerinthearmyandatcourt,andafascinatingman。Nothingbettercouldbewishedfor。
  VronskyopenlyflirtedwithKittyatballs,dancedwithher,andcamecontinuallytothehouse;consequentlytherecouldbenodoubtoftheseriousnessofhisintentions。But,inspiteofthat,themotherhadspentthewholeofthatwinterinastateofterribleanxietyandagitation。
  PrincessShcherbatskaiahadherselfbeenmarriedthirtyyearsago,herauntarrangingthematch。Thewooer,aboutwhomeverythingwaswellknownbeforehand,hadcome,lookedathisintended,andbeenlookedat。Thematchmakingaunthadascertainedandcommunicatedtheirmutualimpression。Thatimpressionhadbeenfavorable。Afterward,onadayfixedbeforehand,theexpectedproposalwasmadetoherparents,andaccepted。
  Allhadpassedverysimplyandeasily。Soitseemed,atleast,tothePrincess。
  Butoverherowndaughtersshehadfelthowfarfromsimpleandeasyisthebusiness,apparentlysocommonplace,ofmarryingoffone’sdaughters。
  Thepanicsthathadbeenlivedthrough,thethoughtsthathadbeenbroodedover,themoneythathadbeenwasted,andthedisputeswithherhusbandovermarryingthetwoeldergirls,DaryaandNatalya!Now,sincetheyoungestbegantocomeoutintheworld,thePrincesswasgoingthroughthesameterrors,thesamedoubts,andstillmoreviolentquarrelswithherhusband,thanshehadovertheeldergirls。TheoldPrince,likeallfathersindeed,wasexceedinglyscrupulousonthescoreofthehonorandreputationofhisdaughters;hewasunreasonablyjealousoverhisdaughters,especiallyoverKitty,whowashisfavorite,andateveryturnhehadsceneswiththePrincessforcompromisingherdaughter。ThePrincesshadgrownaccustomedtothisalreadywithherotherdaughters,butnowshefeltthattherewasmoregroundforthePrince’sscrupulousness。Shesawthatoflateyearsmuchwaschangedinthemannersofsociety,thatamother’sdutieshadbecomestillmoredifficult。ShesawthatgirlsofKitty’sageformedsomesortofclubs,wenttosomesortoflectures,mixedfreelyinmen’ssociety,droveaboutthestreetsalone;manyofthemdidnotcurtsy;and,whatwasthemostimportantthing,allofthemwerefirmlyconvincedthattochoosetheirhusbandwastheirownaffair,andnottheirparent’s。`Marriagesaren’tmadenowadaysastheyusedtobe,’wasthoughtandsaidbyalltheseyounggirls,andevenbytheirelders。Butjusthowmarriagesweremadenowadays,thePrincesscouldnotlearnfromanyone。TheFrenchfashion-oftheparentsarrangingtheirchildren’sfuture-wasnotaccepted;
  itwascondemned。TheEnglishfashionofthecompleteindependenceofgirlswasalsonotaccepted,andnotpossibleinRussiansociety。TheRussianfashionofmatchmakingwasconsideredunseemly;itwasridiculedbyeveryone-evenbythePrincessherself。Buthowgirlsweretobemarried,andhowparentsweretomarrythem,nooneknew。EveryonewithwhomthePrincesshadchancedtodiscussthemattersaidthesamething:`Mercyonus,it’shightimeinourdaytocastoffallthatold-fashionedbusiness。It’stheyoungpeoplehavetomarry,andnottheirparents;andsoweoughttoleavetheyoungpeopletoarrangeitastheychoose。’Itwasveryeasyforanyonetosaywhohadnodaughters,butthePrincessrealizedthat,intheprocessofgettingtoknoweachother,herdaughtermightfallinlove,andfallinlovewithsomeonewhodidnotcaretomarryher,orwhowasquiteunfittobeherhusband。And,howevermuchitwasinstilledintothePrincessthatinourtimesyoungpeopleoughttoarrangetheirlivesforthemselves,shewasunabletobelieveit,justasshewouldhavebeenunabletobelievethat,atanytimewhatever,loadedpistolswerethemostsuitableplaythingsforchildrenfiveyearsold。AndsothePrincesswasmoreuneasyoverKittythanshehadbeenovertheelderdaughters。
  NowshewasafraidthatVronskymightconfinehimselftosimplyflirtingwithherdaughter。Shesawthatherdaughterwasinlovewithhim,buttriedtocomfortherselfwiththethoughtthathewasanhonorableman,andwouldnotdothis。Butatthesametimesheknewhoweasyitis,withthefreedomofmannersoftoday,toturnagirl’shead,andhowlightlymengenerallyregardsuchacrime。Theweekbefore,KittyhadtoldhermotherofaconversationshehadwithVronskyduringamazurka。ThisconversationhadpartlyreassuredthePrincess;yetherassurancecouldnotbeperfect。
  VronskyhadtoldKittythatbothheandhisbrotherweresousedtoobeyingtheirmotherthattheynevermadeuptheirmindstoanyimportantundertakingwithoutconsultingher。`And,justnow,Iamimpatientlyawaitingmymother’scomingfromPeterburg,asapeculiarpieceofluck,’hehadtoldher。
  Kittyhadrepeatedthiswithoutattachinganysignificancetothewords。Buthermothersawtheminadifferentlight。Sheknewthattheoldladywasexpectedfromdaytoday,thatshewouldbepleasedatherson’schoice,andshefeltitstrangethatheshouldnotmakehisproposalthroughfearofvexinghismother。However,shewassoanxiousforthemarriageitself,andstillmoreforrelieffromherfears,thatshebelieveditwasso。BitterasitwasforthePrincesstoseetheunhappinessofhereldestdaughter,Dolly,onthepointofleavingherhusband,heranxietyoverthedecisionofheryoungestdaughter’sfateengrossedallherfeelings。
  Today,withLevin’sreappearance,afreshsourceofanxietyarose。Shewasafraidthatherdaughter,whohadatonetime,asshefancied,afeelingforLevin,might,fromanextremesenseofhonesty,refuseVronsky,andthatLevin’sarrivalmightgenerallycomplicateanddelaytheaffair,nowsonearconclusion。
  `Why,hashebeenherelong?’thePrincessaskedaboutLevin,astheyreturnedhome。
  `Hecametoday,maman。’
  `There’sonethingIwanttosay……’beganthePrincess,andfromherseriousandalertface,Kittyguessedwhatitwouldbe。
  `Mamma,’shesaid,flushinghotlyandturningquicklytoher,`please,pleasedon’tsayanythingaboutthat。Iknow,Iknowallaboutit。’
  Shewishedwhathermotherwishedfor,butthemotivesofhermother’swisheshurther。
  `Ionlywanttosaythattoraisehopes……’
  `Mamma,darling,forgoodnes’ssake,don’ttalkaboutit。It’ssohorribletotalkaboutit。’
  `Iwon’t,’saidhermother,seeingthetearsinherdaughter’seyes;`butonething,mylove;youpromisedmeyouwouldhavenosecretsfromme。Youwon’t?’
  `Never,mamma-none,’answeredKitty,flushingandlookinghermotherstraightintheface;`butIhavenothingtotellyounow,andI……
  I……IfIwantedto,Idon’tknowwhattosayorhow……Idon’tknow……’
  `No,shecouldnottellanuntruthwiththoseeyes,’thoughtthemother,smilingatheragitationandhappiness。ThePrincesssmiled:soimmenseandsoimportantseemedtothepoorchildeverythingthatwastakingplacejustnowinhersoul。
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  TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart1,Chapter13[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter13Afterdinner,andtillthebeginningoftheevening,Kittywasexperiencingasensationakintothatofayoungmanbeforeabattle。Herheartthrobbedviolently,andherthoughtswouldnotrestonanything。
  Shefeltthatthisevening,whenboththesemenwouldmeetforthefirsttime,wouldbeaturningpointinherlife。Andshewascontinuallypicturingthemtoherself,atonemomenteachindividually,andthenbothtogether。Whenshemusedonthepast,shedweltwithpleasure,withtenderness,onthememoriesofherrelationswithLevin。ThememoriesofchildhoodandofLevin’sfriendshipwithherdeadbrotherhaveaspecialpoeticcharmtoherrelationswithhim。Hisloveforher,ofwhichshefeltcertain,wasflatteringanddelightfultoher;anditwaseasyforhertothinkofLevin。InhermemoriesofVronskytherealwaysenteredacertainelementofawkwardness,thoughhewasinthehighestdegreeafashionableandeven-temperedman,asthoughthereweresomefalsenote-notinVronsky,hewasverysimpleandcharming-butinherself;whilewithLevinshefeltherselfperfectlysimpleandclear。But,ontheotherhand,directlyshethoughtofthefuturewithVronsky,therearosebeforeheraperspectiveofbrillianthappiness;withLevinthefutureseemedmisty。
  Whenshewentupstairstodress,andlookedintothelookingglass,shenoticedwithjoythatitwasoneofhergooddays,andthatshewasincompletepossessionofallherforces-sheneededthissoforwhatlaybeforeher:shewasconsciousofexternalcomposureandfreegraceinhermovements。
  Athalf-pastsevenshehadonlyjustgonedownintothedrawingroom,whenthefootmanannounced,`ConstantinDmitrievichLevin。’ThePrincesswasstillinherroom,andthePrincehadnotcomein。`Soitistobe,’
  thoughtKitty,andallthebloodseemedtorushtoherheart。Shewashorrifiedatherpaleness,assheglancedintothelookingglass。
  Atthatmomentsheknewbeyonddoubtthathehadcomeearlyonpurposetofindheraloneandtoproposetoher。Andonlythenforthefirsttimethewholethingpresenteditselfinanew,differentaspect;
  onlythensherealizedthatthequestiondidnotaffectheronly-withwhomshewouldbehappy,andwhomsheloved-butthatshewouldhavethatmomenttowoundamanwhomsheliked。Andtowoundhimcruelly……Wherefore?
  Becausehe,dearfellow,lovedher,wasinlovewithher。Buttherewasnohelpforit;itmustbeso-itwouldhavetobeso。
  `MyGod!shallImyselfreallyhavetosayittohim?’shethought。
  `CanItellhimIdon’tlovehim?Thatwillbealie。WhatamItosaytohim?ThatIlovesomeoneelse?No,that’simpossible。I’mgoingaway-I’mgoingaway。’
  Shehadreachedthedoor,whensheheardhisstep。`NoIt’snothonest。WhathaveItobeafraidof?Ihavedonenothingwrong。Whatistobe,willbe!I’lltellthetruth。Andwithhimonecan’tbeillatease。
  Hereheis,’shesaidtoherself,seeinghispowerfulandtimidfigure,withhisshiningeyesfixedonher。Shelookedstraightintohisface,asthoughimploringhimtospareher,andgavehimherhand。
  `It’snottimeyet;IthinkI’mtooearly,’hesaidglancingroundtheemptydrawingroom。Whenhesawthathisexpectationswererealized,thattherewasnothingtopreventhimfromspeaking,hisfacebecamesomber。
  `Oh,no,’saidKitty,andsatdownatatable。
  `ButthiswasjustwhatIwanted,tofindyoualone,’hebegan,withoutsittingdown,andnotlookingather,soasnottolosecourage。
  `Mammawillbedowndirectly。Shewasverymuchtiredyesterday。
  Yesterday……’
  Shetalkedon,notknowingwhatherlipswereuttering,andnottakinghersupplicatingandcaressingeyesoffhim。
  Heglancedather;sheblushed,andceasedspeaking。
  `ItoldyouIdidnotknowwhetherIshouldbeherelong……thatitdependedonyou……’
  Shedroppedherheadlowerandlower,notknowingherselfwhatanswersheshouldmaketowhatwascoming。
  `Thatitdependedonyou,’herepeated。`Imeanttosay……Imeanttosay……Icameforthis……Tohaveyoubemywife!’heblurtedout,notknowingwhathewassaying,butfeelingthatthemostterriblethingwassaid,hestoppedshortandlookedather。
  Shewasbreathingheavily,withoutlookingathim。Shewasfeelingecstasy。Hersoulwasfloodedwithhappiness。Shehadneveranticipatedthathisutteranceoflovewouldproducesuchapowerfuleffectonher。
  Butitlastedonlyaninstant。SherememberedVronsky。Sheliftedherclear,truthfuleyes,and,seeingLevin’sdesperateface,sheansweredhastily:
  `Thatcannotbe……Forgiveme。’
  Amomentago,andhowcloseshehadbeentohim,ofwhatimportanceinhislife!Andhowaloofandremotefromhimshehadbecomenow!
  `Itcouldnothavebeenotherwise,’hesaid,withoutlookingather。Hebowed,andwasabouttoleave。
  [NextChapter][TableofContents]TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart1,Chapter14[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter14ButatthatverymomentthePrincesscamein。Therewasalookofhorroronherfacewhenshebeheldthemalone,andsawtheirdisturbedfaces。
  Levinbowedtoher,andsaidnothing。Kittyneitherspokenorliftedhereyes。`ThankGod,shehasrefusedhim,’thoughtthemother,andherfacelightedupwiththehabitualsmilewithwhichshegreetedherguestsonThursdays。ShesatdownandbeganquestioningLevinabouthislifeinthecountry。Hesatdownagain,waitingforothervisitorstoarrive,inordertogooffunnoticed。
  FiveminuteslatertherecameinafriendofKitty’s,marriedtheprecedingwinter-CountessNordstone。
  Shewasathin,sallow,sicklyandnervouswoman,withbrilliantblackeyes。ShewasfondofKitty,andheraffectionforhershoweditself,astheaffectionofmarriedwomenforgirlsalwaysdoes,inthedesiretomakeamatchforKittyafterherownidealofmarriedhappiness;shewantedhertomarryVronsky。LevinshehadoftenmetattheShcherbatsky’searlyinthewinter,andshehadalwaysdislikedhim。Herinvariableandfavoritepursuit,whentheymet,consistedinmakingfunofhim。
  `Idolikeitwhenhelooksdownatmefromtheheightofhisgrandeur,orbreaksoffhiswiseconversationwithmebecauseI’mafool,oriscondescendingtome。Ilikethatso-toseehimcondescending!I
  amsogladhecan’tbearme,’sheusedtosayofhim。
  Shewasright,forLevinactuallycouldnotbearher,anddespisedherforwhatshewasproudofandregardedasafinecharacteristic-hernervousness,herrefinedcontemptandindifferenceforeverythingcoarseandearthly。
  TheCountessNordstoneandLevinhadgotintothatmutualrelationnotinfrequentlyseeninsociety,whentwopersons,whoremainexternallyonfriendlyterms,despiseeachothertosuchadegreethattheycannoteventakeeachotherseriously,andcannotevenbeoffendedbyeachother。
  TheCountessNordstonepounceduponLevinatonce。
  `Ah,ConstantinDmitrievich!Soyou’vecomebacktoourcorruptBabylon,’shesaid,givinghimhertiny,yellowhandandrecallingwhathehadchancedtosayearlyinthewinter,thatMoscowwasaBabylon。`Come,isBabylonreformed,orhaveyoudegenerated?’sheadded,glancingwithasimperatKitty。
  `It’sveryflatteringforme,Countess,thatyouremembermywordssowell,’respondedLevin,whohadsucceededinrecoveringhiscomposure,andatoncefromhabitdroppedintohistoneofjokinghostilitytotheCountessNordstone。`Theymustcertainlymakeagreatimpressiononyou。’
  `Oh,Ishouldthinkso!Ialwaysnoteeverythingdown。Well,Kitty,haveyoubeenskatingagain?……’
  AndshebegantalkingtoKitty。AwkwardasitwasforLevintowithdrawnow,itwouldstillhavebeeneasierforhimtoperpetratethisawkwardnessthantoremainalltheeveningandseeKitty,whoglancedathimnowandthenandavoidedhiseyes。Hewasonthepointofgettingup,whenthePrincess,noticingthathewassilent,addressedhim。
  `ShallyoubelonginMoscow?You’rebusywiththeZemstvo,though,aren’tyou,andcan’tbeawayforlong?’
  `No,Princess,I’mnolongeramemberoftheboard,’hesaid。
  `Ihavecomeupforafewdays。’
  `There’ssomethingthematterwithhim,’thoughtCountessNordstone,glancingathisstern,seriousface。`Heisn’tinhisoldargumentativemood。ButI’lldrawhimout。IdolovemakingafoolofhimbeforeKitty,andI’lldoit。’
  `ConstantinDmitrievich,’shesaidtohim,`doexplaintomeplease,whatdoesitmean-youknowallaboutsuchthings-inourvillageofKalugaallthepeasantsandallthewomenhavedrunkupalltheypossessed,andnowtheycan’tpayusanyrent。What’sthemeaningofthat?Youalwayspraisethemouzhiksso。’
  Atthatinstantanotherladycameintotheroom,andLevingotup。
  `Excuseme,Countess,butIreallyknownothingaboutit,andcan’ttellyouanything,’hesaid,andlookedroundattheofficerwhocameinbehindthelady。
  `ThatmustbeVronsky,’thoughtLevin,and,tobesureofit,glancedatKitty。ShehadalreadyhadtimetolookatVronsky,andlookedroundatLevin。And,simplyfromthelookinhereyes,thatgrewunconsciouslybrighter,Levinknewthatshelovedthisman-knewitassurelyasifshehadtoldhiminsomanywords。Butwhatsortofamanwashe?
  Now,whetherforgoodorforill,Levincouldnotchoosebutremain;
  hemustfindoutwhatthemanwaslikewhomsheloved。
  Therearepeoplewho,onmeetingasuccessfulrival,nomatterinwhat,areatoncedisposedtoturntheirbacksoneverythinggoodinhim,andtoseeonlywhatisbad。Therearepeoplewho,onthecontrary,desireabovealltofindinthatsuccessfulrivalthequalitiesbywhichhehasworstedthem,andseekwithathrobbingacheatheartonlywhatisgood。Levinbelongedtothesecondclass。ButhehadnodifficultyinfindingwhatwasgoodandattractiveinVronsky。Itwasapparentatthefirstglance。Vronskywasasquarelybuilt,darkman,notverytall,withagood-humored,handsomeandexceedinglycalmandfirmface。Everythingabouthisfaceandfigure,fromhisshort-croppedblackhairandfreshlyshavenchindowntohislooselyfitting,brand-newuniform,wassimpleandatthesametimeelegant。Makingwayfortheladywhohadcomein,VronskywentuptothePrincessandthentoKitty。
  Asheapproachedher,hisbeautifuleyesshonewithanespeciallytenderlight,andwithafaint,happyandmodestlytriumphantsmilesoitseemedtoLevin,bowingcarefullyandrespectfullyoverher,heheldouthissmallbroadhandtoher。
  Greetingandsayingafewwordstoeveryone,hesatdownwithoutonceglancingatLevin,whohadnevertakenhiseyesoffhim。
  `Letmeintroduceyou,’saidthePrincess,indicatingLevin。`ConstantinDmitrievichLevin,CountAlexeiKirillovichVronsky。’
  Vronskygotupand,lookingcordiallyatLevin,shookhandswithhim。
  `IbelieveIwastohavedinedwithyouthiswinter,’hesaid,smilinghissimpleandopensmile;`butyouhadunexpectedlyleftforthecountry。’
  `ConstantinDmitrievichdespisesandhatesthetown,andustownspeople,’
  saidCountessNordstone。
  `Mywordsmustmakeadeepimpressiononyou,sinceyourememberthemsowell,’saidLevin,and,suddenlybecomingconsciousthathehadsaidjustthesamethingbefore,hereddened。
  VronskylookedatLevinandCountessNordstone,andsmiled。
  `Areyoualwaysinthecountry?’heinquired。`Ishouldthinkitmustbedullinthewinter。’
  `It’snotdullifonehasworktodo;besides,one’snotdullbyoneself,’Levinrepliedabruptly。
  `Iamfondofthecountry,’saidVronsky,noticing,yetaffectingnottonotice,Levin’stone。
  `ButIhope,Count,youwouldnotconsenttoliveinthecountryalways,’saidCountessNordstone。
  `Idon’tknow;Ihavenevertriedforlong。Iexperiencedaqueerfeelingonce,’hewenton。`Ineverlongedsoforthecountry-Russiancountry,withbastshoesandpeasants-aswhenIwasspendingawinterwithmymotherinNice。Niceitselfisdullenough,youknow。And,indeed,NaplesandSorrentoareonlypleasantforashorttime。Andit’sjusttherethatRussiacomesbacktoone’smindmostvividly,andespeciallythecountry。
  It’sasthough……’
  Hetalkedon,addressingbothKittyandLevin,turninghisserene,friendlyeyesfromonetotheother,andsayingobviouslyjustwhatcameintohishead。
  NoticingthatCountessNordstonewantedtosaysomething,hestoppedshortwithoutfinishingwhathehadbegun,andlistenedattentivelytoher。
  Theconversationdidnotflagforaninstant,sothattheoldPrincess,whoalwayskeptinreserve,incaseasubjectshouldbelacking,twoheavyguns-theclassicalandprofessionaleducation,anduniversalmilitaryservice-hadnottomoveouteitherofthem,whileCountessNordstonehadnochanceofchaffingLevin。
  Levinwantedto,andcouldnot,takepartinthegeneralconversation;
  sayingtohimselfeveryinstant,`Nowgo,’hestilldidnotgo,asthoughwaitingforsomething。
  Theconversationfellupontableturningandspirits,andCountessNordstone,whobelievedinspiritualism,begantodescribethemiraclesshehadseen。
  `Ah,Countess,youreallymusttakeme;forpity’ssakedotakemetoseethem!Ihaveneverseenanythingextraordinary,thoughIamalwaysonthelookoutforiteverywhere,’saidVronsky,smiling。
  `Verywell-nextSaturday,’answeredCountessNordstone。`Butyou,ConstantinDmitrievich-areyouabeliever?’sheaskedLevin。
  `Whydoyouaskme?YouknowwhatIshallsay。’
  `ButIwanttohearyouropinion。’
  `Myopinion,’answeredLevin,`ismerelythatthistableturningprovesthateducatedsociety-socalled-isnohigherthanthepeasants。
  Theybelieveintheevileye,andinwitchcraftandconjurations,whilewe……’
  `Oh,thenyouaren’tabeliever?’
  `Ican’tbelieve,Countess。’
  `ButifI’veseenformyself?’
  `Thepeasantwomen,too,tellustheyhaveseenhobgoblins。’
  `ThenyouthinkItellalie?’
  Andshelaughedamirthlesslaugh。
  `Oh,no,Masha,ConstantinDmitrievichmerelysaidhecouldnotbelieve,’saidKitty,blushingforLevin,andLevinsawthis,and,stillmoreexasperated,wouldhaveanswered;butVronskywithhisbrightfranksmilerushedtothesupportoftheconversation,whichwasthreateningtobecomedisagreeable。
  `Youdonotadmitthepossibilityatall?’hequeried。`Butwhynot?Weadmittheexistenceofelectricity,ofwhichweknownothing。Whyshouldtherenotbesomenewforce,stillunknowntous,which……’
  `Whenelectricitywasdiscovered,’Levininterruptedhurriedly,`itwasonlythephenomenonthatwasdiscovered,anditwasunknownfromwhatitproceededandwhatwereitseffects,andagespassedbeforeitsapplicationswereconceived。Butthespiritualists,onthecontrary,havebegunwithtableswritingforthem,andspiritsappearingtothem,andhaveonlylaterstartedsayingthatitisanunknownforce。’
  VronskylistenedattentivelytoLevin,ashealwaysdidlisten,obviouslyinterestedinhiswords。
  `Yes,butthespiritualistssaywedon’tknowatpresentwhatthisforceis,butthereisaforce,andthesearetheconditionsinwhichitacts。Letthescientificmenfindoutwhattheforceconsistsof。No,Idon’tseewhythereshouldnotbeanewforce,ifit……’
  `Why,becausewithelectricity,’Levininterruptedagain,`everytimeyourubtaragainstwool,acertainphenomenonismanifested;butinthiscaseitdoesnothappeneverytime,andsoitfollowsitisnotanaturalphenomenon。’
  Feelingprobablythattheconversationwastakingatonetooseriousforadrawingroom,Vronskymadenorejoinder,butbywayoftryingtochangetheconversation,hesmiledbrightly,andturnedtotheladies。
  `Doletustryatonce,Countess,’hesaid;butLevinwouldfinishsayingwhathethought。
  `Ithink,’hewenton,`thatthisattemptofthespiritualiststoexplaintheirmiraclesassomesortofnewnaturalforceismostfutile。
  Theyboldlytalkofspiritualforce,andthentrytosubjectittomaterialexperiment。’
  Everyonewaswaitingforhimtofinish,andhefeltthis。
  `Why,Ithinkyouwouldbeafirst-ratemedium,’saidCountessNordstone,`there’ssomethingenthusiasticaboutyou。’
  Levinopenedhismouth,wasabouttosaysomething,reddened,andsaidnothing。
  `Doletustrytableturningatonce,please,’saidVronsky。`Princess,willyouallowit?
  AndVronskystoodup,lookingaboutforalittletable。
  Kittygotuptofetchatable,and,asshepassed,hereyesmetLevin’s。Shefeltforhimwithherwholeheart,themorebecauseshewaspityinghimforasufferingofwhichshewasherselfthecause。`Ifyoucanforgiveme,forgiveme,’saidhereyes,`Iamsohappy。’
  `Ihatethemall,andyou,andmyself,’hiseyesresponded,andhetookuphishat。Buthewasnotdestinedtoescape。justastheywerearrangingthemselvesroundthetable,andLevinwasonthepointofretiring,theoldPrincecamein,and,aftergreetingtheladies,addressedLevin。
  `Ah!’hebeganjoyously。`Beenherelong,myboy?Ididn’tevenknowyouwereintown。Verygladtoseeyou。’TheoldPrinceembracedLevin,and,talkingtohim,didnotobserveVronsky,whohadrisen,andwascalmlywaitingtillthePrinceshouldturntohim。
  Kittyfelthowgrievousherfather’scordialitywastoLevinafterwhathadhappened。Shesaw,too,howcoldlyherfatherrespondedatlasttoVronsky’sbow,andhowVronskylookedwithamiableperplexityatherfather,tryingandfailingtounderstandhowandwhyanyonecouldbehostilelydisposedtowardhim,andsheflushed。
  `Prince,letushaveConstantinDmitrievich,’saidCountessNordstone,`wewanttotryanexperiment。’
  `Whatexperiment?Tableturning?Well,youmustexcuseme,ladiesandgentlemen,buttomyminditisbetterfuntoplaytheringgame,’
  saidtheoldPrince,lookingatVronsky,andguessingthatithadbeenhissuggestion。`There’ssomesenseinthat,anyway。’
  VronskylookedwonderinglyatthePrincewithhisfirmeyes,and,withafaintsmile,beganimmediatelytalkingtoCountessNordstoneofthegreatballthatwastocomeoffnextweek。
  `Ihopeyouwillbethere?’hesaidtoKitty。AssoonastheoldPrinceturnedawayfromhim,Levinslippedoutunnoticed,andthelastimpressionhecarriedawaywithhimofthateveningwasthesmiling,happyfaceofKittyansweringVronsky’sinquiryabouttheball。
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  TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart1,Chapter15[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter15AttheendoftheeveningKittytoldhermotherofherconversationwithLevin,andinspiteofallthepityshefeltforLevin,shewasgladatthethoughtthatshehadreceivedaproposal。Shehadnodoubtthatshehadactedrightly。Butaftershehadgonetobed,shecouldnotsleepforalongwhile。Oneimpressionpursuedherrelentlessly。ItwasLevin’sface,withhisscowlingbrows,andhiskindeyeslookingoutindarkdejectionbelowthem,ashestoodlisteningtoherfather,andglancingatherandatVronsky。Andshefeltsosorryforhimthattearscameintohereyes。
  Butimmediatelyshethoughtofthemanforwhomshehadgivenhimup。Shevividlyrecalledhismanly,firmface,hisnoblecalmness,andthegoodnaturesoconspicuoustowardeveryone。Sherememberedtheloveforherofthemansheloved,andoncemoreallwasgladnessinhersoul,andshelayonthepillowsmilingwithhappiness。`I’msorry,I’msorry;butwhatcouldIdo?It’snotmyfault,’shesaidtoherself;butaninnervoicetoldherotherwise。WhethershefeltremorseathavingcaptivatedLevin,orathavingrefusedhim,shedidnotknow。Butherhappinesswaspoisonedbydoubts。`Lord,havepityonus;Lord,havepity,Lord,havepity!’shesaidovertoherselftillshefellasleep。
  Meanwhiletheretookplacebelow,inthePrince’slittlestudy,oneofthescenessooftenrepeatedbetweentheparentsonaccountoftheirfavoritedaughter。
  `What?I’lltellyouwhat!’shoutedthePrince,brandishinghisarms,andatoncewrappinghissquirrel-lineddressinggownroundhimagain。
  `Thatyou’venopride,nodignity;thatyou’redisgracing,ruiningyourdaughterbythisvulgar,stupidmatchmaking!’
  `But,really,formercy’ssake,Prince,whathaveIdone?’saidthePrincess,almostcrying。
  She,pleasedandhappyafterherconversationwithherdaughter,hadgonetothePrincetosaygoodnightasusual,andthoughshehadnointentionoftellinghimofLevin’sproposalandKitty’srefusal,stillshehintedtoherhusbandthatshefanciedthingswerepracticallysettledwithVronsky,andwouldbedefinitelysoassoonashismotherarrived。
  Andthereupon,atthosewords,thePrincehadallatonceflownintoapassion,andbeguntouseunseemlylanguage。
  `Whathaveyoudone?I’lltellyouwhat。Firstofall,you’retryingtoallureaneligiblegentleman,andallMoscowwillbetalkingofit,andwithgoodreason。Ifyouhaveeveningparties,inviteeveryone,don’tpickoutthepossiblesuitors。Inviteallthesewhelps[sothePrincestyledtheyouthsofMoscow];engageapianoplayer,andletthemdance-andnotasyoudidtonight:onlythewooers,anddoingyourmatching。