TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart6,Chapter09[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter9`Well,now,what’sourplanofcampaign?Tellusallaboutit,’saidStepanArkadyevich。
`Ourplanisthis。Nowwe’redrivingtoGvozdiov。InGvozdiovthere’sadoublesnipemarshonthisside,andbeyondGvozdiovcomesomemagnificentjacksnipemarshes,wheretherearedoublesnipetoo。It’shotnow,andwe’llgetthere-it’stwentyverstas-towardevening,andhavesomeeveningshooting;we’llspendthenightthereandgoontomorrowtothebiggermoors。’
`Andistherenothingontheway?’
`Yes;butwe’llsaveourselves;besides,it’shot。Therearetwogoodlittleplaces,butIdoubttherebeinganythingtoshoot。’
Levinwouldhimselfhavelikedtogointotheselittleplaces,buttheywerenearhome;hecouldshootthemoveranytime,andtheywereonlylittleplaces-therewouldhardlyberoomforthreetoshoot。Andso,withsomeinsincerity,hesaidthathedoubtedtherebeinganythingtoshoot。WhentheyreachedalittlemarshLevinwouldhavedrivenby,butStepanArkadyevich,withtheexperiencedeyeofasportsman,atoncedetectedasoggyspotvisiblefromtheroad。
`Shan’twetrythat?’hesaid,pointingtothelittlemarsh。
`Levin,do,please!Howdelightful!’VassenkaVeslovskybeganbegging,andLevincouldnotbutconsent。
Beforetheyhadtimetostop,thedogshadflownonebeforetheotherintothemarsh。
`Krak!Laska!……’
Thedogscameback。
`Therewon’tberoomforthree。I’llstayhere,’saidLevin,hopingtheywouldfindnothingbutpewits,whichhadbeenstartledbythedogs,and,turningoverintheirflight,wereplaintivelywailingoverthemarsh。
`No!Comealong,Levin,let’sgotogether!’Veslovskycalled。
`Really,there’snoroom。Laska,back,Laska!Youwon’twantanotherdog,willyou?’
Levinremainedwiththedroshky,andlookedenviouslyatthesportsmen。
Theywalkedacrossthemarsh。Exceptonemoorhenandpewits,ofwhichVassenkakilledone,therewasnothinginthemarsh。
`Come,youseenowthatitwasnotthatIgrudgedthemarsh,’
saidLevin,`onlyit’swastingtime。’
`Oh,no,itwasjollyallthesame。Didyouseeus?’saidVassenkaVeslovsky,clamberingawkwardlyintothedroshkywithhisgunandhispewitinhishands。`HowsplendidlyIshotthisbird!Didn’tI?Well,shallwesoonbegettingtotherealplace?’
Thehorsesstartedoffsuddenly,Levinknockedhisheadagainstthestockofsomeone’sgun,andtherewasthereportofashot。Thegundidactuallygoofffirst,butthatwashowitseemedtoLevin。ItappearedthatVassenkaVeslovskymakingthecockssafehadpressedonetrigger,andhadheldbacktheothercock。Thechargeflewintothegroundwithoutdoingharmtoanyone。StepanArkadyevichshookhisheadandlaughedreprovinglyatVeslovsky。ButLevinhadnotthehearttoreprovehim。Inthefirstplace,anyreproachwouldhaveseemedtobecalledforthbythedangerhehadincurredandthebumpthathadcomeuponLevin’sforehead。Andbesides,Veslovskywasatfirstsonaï;velydistressed,andthenlaughedsogood-humoredlyandinfectiouslyattheirgeneraldismay,thatonecouldnotbutlaughwithhim。
Whentheyreachedthesecondmarsh,whichwasfairlylarge,andwouldinevitablytakesometimetoshootover,Levintriedtopersuadethemtopassitby。ButVeslovskyagaintalkedhimover。Again,asthemarshwasnarrow,Levin,likeagoodhost,remainedwiththecarriages。
Krakmadestraightforhummocks;VassenkaVeslovskywasthefirsttorunafterthedog。BeforeStepanArkadyevichhadtimetocomeup,adoublesnipeflewout。Veslovskymisseditanditflewintoanunmownmeadow。
ThisdoublesnipewasleftforVeslovskytofollowup。Krakfounditagainandpointed,andVeslovskyshotitandwentbacktothecarriages。
`NowyougoandI’llstaywiththehorses,’hesaid。
Levinhadbeguntofeelthepangsofasportsman’senvy。HehandedthereinstoVeslovskyandwalkedintothemarsh。
Laska,whohadbeenplaintivelywhiningandfrettingagainsttheinjusticeofhertreatment,flewstraightaheadtoanunfailingplace,coveredwithmossyhummocks,thatLevinknewwell,andthatKrakhadnotyetcomeupon。
`Whydon’tyoustopher?’shoutedStepanArkadyevich。
`Shewon’tscarethem,’answeredLevin,sympathizingwithhisbitch’spleasureandhurryingafterher。
AsshecamenearerandnearertothefamiliarhummockstherewasmoreandmoreearnestnessinLaska’sexploration。Alittlemarshbirddidnotdivertherattentionformorethananinstant。Shemadeonecircuitroundthehummocks,wasbeginningasecond,andsuddenlyquiveredwithexcitementandstoodstock-still。
`Come,come,Stiva!’shoutedLevin,feelinghisheartbeginningtobeatmoreviolently;andallofasudden,asthoughsomesortofshutterhadbeendrawnbackfromhisstrainingears,allsounds,confusedbutloud,begantobeatonhishearing,losingallsenseofdistance。HeheardthestepsofStepanArkadyevich,mistakingthemforthetrampofthehorsesinthedistance;heheardthebrittlesoundofthetussockwhichcameoffwithitsrootswhenhehadtroddenonahummock,andhetookthissoundfortheflightofadoublesnipe。Heheardtoo,notfarbehindhim,asplashinginthewater,whichhecouldnotexplaintohimself。
Pickinghissteps,hemoveduptothedog。
`Fetchit!’
Notadoublebutajacksnipeflewupfrombesidethedog。Levinhadliftedhisgun,butattheveryinstantwhenhewastakingaim,thesoundofsplashinggrewlouder,camecloser,andwasjoinedwiththesoundofVeslovsky’svoice,shoutingsomethingwithstrangeloudness。Levinsawhehadhisgunpointedbehindthesnipe,butstillhefired。
Whenhehadmadesurehehadmissed,Levinlookedroundandsawthehorsesandthedroshkynotontheroadbutinthemarsh。
Veslovsky,eagertoseetheshooting,haddrivenintothemarsh,andgotthehorsesstuckinthemud。
`Damnthefellow!’Levinsaidtohimself,ashewentbacktothecarriagethathadsunkinthemire。`Whatdidyoudriveinfor?’hesaidtohimdryly,and,callingthecoachmanhebeganpullingthehorsesout。
Levinwasvexedbothatbeinghinderedfromshootingandathishorsesgettingstuckinthemud,andstillmoreatthefactthatneitherStepanArkadyevichnorVeslovskyhelpedhimandthecoachmantounharnessthehorsesandgetthemout,sinceneitherofthemhadtheslightestnotionofharnessing。WithoutansweringasyllabletoVassenka’sprotestationsthatithadbeenquitedrythere,Levinworkedinsilencewiththecoachmanatextricatingthehorses。Butthen,ashegotwarmattheworkandsawhowassiduouslyVeslovskywastuggingatthedroshkybyoneofthesplashboards,sothathebrokeitindeed,Levinblamedhimselfforhavingundertheinfluenceofyesterday’sfeelingsbeentoocoldtoVeslovsky,andtriedtobeparticularlygenialsoastosmoothoverhischilliness。Wheneverythinghadbeenputright,andthevehicleshadbeenbroughtbacktotheroad,Levinhadthelunchserved。
`Bonappé;tit-bonneconscience!Cepouletvatomberjusqu’aufonddemesbottes,’Vassenka,whohadrecoveredhisspirits,quotedtheFrenchsayingashefinishedhissecondchicken。`Well,nowourtroublesareover,noweverything’sgoingtogowell。Only,toatoneformysins,I’mboundtositonthebox。That’sso?Eh?No,no!I’llbeyourAutomedon。YoushallseehowI’llgetyoualong,’heanswered,withoutlettinggotherein,whenLevinbeggedhimtoletthecoachmandrive。`No,Imustatoneformysins,andI’mverycomfortableonthebox。’Andhedrove。
Levinwasalittleafraidhewouldexhaustthehorses,especiallytheleftofthem,thechestnut,whomhedidnotknowhowtoholdin;butunconsciouslyhefellundertheinfluenceofhisgaietyandlistenedtothesongshesangallthewayonthebox,orthedescriptionsandrepresentationshegaveofdrivingintheEnglishfashion,four-in-hand;anditwasintheverybestofspiritsthatafterlunchtheydrovetotheGvozdiovmarsh。
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TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart6,Chapter10[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter10Vassenkadrovethehorsessofastthattheyreachedthemarshtooearly,whileitwasstillhot。
Astheydrewnearthismoreimportantmarsh,thechiefaimoftheirexpedition,LevincouldnothelpconsideringhowhecouldgetridofVassenkaandbefreeinhismovements。StepanArkadyevichevidentlyhadthesamedesire,andonhisfaceLevinsawthelookofanxietyalwayspresentinatruesportsmanwhenbeginningshooting,togetherwithacertaingood-humoredslynesspeculiartohim。
`Howshallwego?It’sasplendidmarsh,Isee,andtherearehawks,’saidStepanArkadyevich,pointingtotwogreatbirdshoveringoverthesedge。`Wheretherearehawks,thereissuretobegame。’
`Now,gentlemen,’saidLevin,pullinguphisbootsandexaminingthelockofhisgunwithasomewhatsomberexpression,`doyouseethatsedge?’Hepointedtoanoasisofblackishgreeninthehugehalf-mownwetmeadowthatstretchedalongtherightbankoftheriver。`Themarshbeginshere,straightinfrontofus,doyousee-whereitisgreener?
Fromhereitrunstotherightwherethehorsesare;therearehummocksthere,anddoublesnipe,andallroundthatsedgeasfarasthataldertree,andrightuptothemill。Overthere,doyousee,wherethecreekis?That’sthebestplace。ThereIonceshotseventeenjacksnipe。We’llseparatewiththedogsandgoindifferentdirections,andthenmeetoverthereatthemill。’
`Well,who’llgoleft,andwhototheright?’askedStepanArkadyevich。
`It’swidertotheright;youtwogothatwayandI’lltaketheleft,’
hesaidwithapparentcarelessness。
`Capital!We’llmakethebiggerbag!Yes,comealong,comealong!’
Vassenkaexclaimed。
Levincoulddonothingbutagree,andtheydivided。
Assoonastheyenteredthemarsh,thetwodogsbeganhuntingabouttogetherandmadetowardtherust-coloredspot。LevinknewLaska’smethod,waryandindefinite;heknewtheplacetoo,andexpectedawholecoveyofsnipe。
`Veslovsky,walkbesideme-besideme!’hesaidinafaintvoicetohiscompanionsplashinginthewaterbehindhim。Levincouldnothelpfeelinganinterestinthedirectionhisgunwaspointed,afterthatcasualshotneartheKolpenskymarsh。
`Oh,Iwon’tgetinyourway,don’ttroubleaboutme。’
ButLevincouldnothelptroubling,andrecalledKitty’swordsatparting:`Mindyoudon’tshootoneanother。’Thedogscamenearerandnearer,passedeachother,eachpursuingitsownscent。TheexpectationofsnipewassointensethattoLevinthesmackingsoundofhisownheel,ashedrewitupoutoftherustymire,seemedtobethecallofasnipe,andheclutchedandpressedthebuttofhisgun。
Bang!bang!soundedalmostinhisear。Vassenkahadfiredataflockofduckswhichwashoveringoverthemarshandflyingatthatmomenttowardthesportsmen,faroutofrange。BeforeLevinhadtimetolookround,therewasthewhirofonesnipe,another,athird,andsomeeightmoreroseoneafteranother。
StepanArkadyevichhitoneattheverymomentwhenitwasbeginningitszigzagmovements,andthesnipefellasaclodintothequagmire。Oblonskyaimeddeliberatelyatanother,stillflyinglowtowardthesedge,andtogetherwiththereportoftheshot,thatsnipetoofell,anditcouldbeseenflutteringoutwherethesedgehadbeencut,itsunhurtwingshowingwhitebeneath。
Levinwasnotsolucky:heaimedathisfirstbirdtoolow,andmissed;heaimedatitagain,justasitwasrising,butatthatinstantanothersnipeflewupathisveryfeet,distractinghimsothathemissedagain。
Whiletheywerereloadingtheirguns,anothersniperose,andVeslovsky,whohadhadtimetoreloadagain,senttwochargesofsmallshotintothewater。StepanArkadyevichpickeduphissnipe,andwithsparklingeyeslookedatLevin。
`Well,nowletusseparate,’saidStepanArkadyevich,andlimpingonhisleftfoot,holdinghisguninreadinessandwhistlingtohisdog,hewalkedoffinonedirection。LevinandVeslovskywalkedoffintheother。
ItalwayshappenedwithLevinthatwhenhisfirstshotswereafailurehegotheatedandoutoftemper,andshotbadlythewholeday。
Sowasitthatday。Thesnipeshowedthemselvesinnumbers。Theykeptflyingupfromjustunderthedogs,fromunderthesportsmen’slegs,andLevinmighthaveretrievedhisillluck。Butthemoreheshot,themorehefeltdisgracedintheeyesofVeslovsky,whokeptpoppingawaymerrilyandindiscriminately,killingnothing,andnotintheslightestabashedbyhisillsuccess。Levin,infeverishhaste,couldnotrestrainhimself,gotmoreandmoreoutoftemper,andendedbyshootingalmostwithoutahopeofhitting。Laska,indeed,seemedtounderstandthis。Shebegansearchingmorelistlessly,andgazedbackatthesportsmenwithapparentperplexityorreproachinhereyes。Shotsfollowedshotsinrapidsuccession。Thesmokeofthepowderhungaboutthesportsmen,whileinthegreatroomynetofthegamebagtherewereonlythreelight,smallsnipe。AndoftheseonehadbeenkilledbyVeslovskyalone,andonebybothofthemtogether。Meanwhile,fromtheothersideofthemarsh,camethesoundofStepanArkadyevich’sshots,notfrequent,but,asLevinfancied,welldirected,foralmostaftereachtheyheard`Krak,Krak,apporte!’
ThisexcitedLevinstillmore。Thesnipewerefloatingcontinuallyintheairoverthesedge。Theirwhirringwingsclosetotheearth,andtheirharshcrieshighintheair,couldbeheardonallsides;thesnipethathadrisenfirstandflownupintotheair,settledagainbeforethesportsmen。Insteadoftwohawkstherewerenowdozensofthemhoveringwithshrillcriesoverthemarsh。
Afterwalkingthroughthelargerhalfofthemarsh,LevinandVeslovskyreachedtheplacewherethepeasants’mowinggrasswasdividedintolongstripsreachingtothesedge,markedoffinoneplacebythetrampledgrass,inanotherbyapathmownthroughit。Halfofthesestripshadalreadybeenmown。
Thoughtherewasnotsomuchhopeoffindingbirdsintheuncutpartasthecutpart,LevinhadpromisedStepanArkadyevichtomeethim,andsohewalkedonwithhiscompanionthroughthecutanduncutpatches。
`Hi,hunters!’shoutedoneofagroupofpeasants,sittingonanunharnessedtelega:`Comeandhavesomelunchwithus!Haveadropofwine!’
Levinlookedround。
`Comealong,it’sallright!’shoutedagood-humored-lookingbeardedpeasantwitharedface,showinghiswhiteteethinagrin,andholdingupagreenishbottlethatflashedinthesunlight。
`Qu’est-cequ’ilsdisent?’askedVeslovsky。
`Theyinviteyoutohavesomevodka。Mostlikelythey’vebeendividingthemeadowintolots。Ishouldhavesome,’saidLevin,notwithoutsomeguile,hopingVeslovskywouldbetemptedbythevodka,andwouldgoofftothem。
`Whydotheyofferit?’
`Oh,they’remerrymaking。Really,youshouldjointhem。Youwouldbeinterested。’
`Allons,c’estcurieux。’
`Yougo,yougo,you’llfindthewaytothemill!’criedLevin,andlookingroundheperceivedwithsatisfactionthatVeslovsky,bentandstumblingwithweariness,holdinghisgunoutatarm’slength,wasmakinghiswayoutofthemarshtowardthepeasants。
`Youcometoo!’thepeasantshoutedtoLevin。`Neverfear!Tasteourpie!’
Levinfeltastronginclinationforadrinkofvodkaandabiteofbread。Hewasexhausted,andfeltitagreatefforttodraghisstaggeringlegsoutofthemire,andforaminutehehesitated。ButLaskawaspointing。
Andimmediatelyallhiswearinessvanished,andhewalkedlightlythroughtheswamptowardthedog。Asnipeflewupathisfeet;hefiredandkilledit。Laskastillpointed-`Fetchit!’Anotherbirdflewupclosetothedog。Levinfired。Butitwasanunluckydayforhim;hemissedit,andwhenhewenttolookfortheonehehadshot,hecouldnotfindthateither。
Hewanderedallaboutthesedge,butLaskadidnotbelievehehadshotit,andwhenhesenthertofindit,shepretendedtohuntforit,butdidnotreallydoso。
AndintheabsenceofVassenka,onwhomLevinthrewtheblameofhisfailure,thingswentnobetter。Therewasplentyofsnipestill,butLevinmadeonemissafteranother。
Theslantingraysofthesunwerestillhot;hisclothes,soakedthroughwithperspiration,stucktohisbody;hisleftbootfullofwaterweighedheavilyonhislegandsquelchedateverystep;thesweatranindropsdownhispowder-grimedface,hismouthwasfullofabittertaste,hisnoseofthesmellofpowderandstagnantwater,hisearswereringingwiththeincessantwhirofthesnipe;hecouldnottouchthebarrelofhisgun,itwassohot;hisheartbeatwithshort,rapidthrobs;hishandsshookwithexcitement,andhiswearylegsstumbledandstaggeredoverthehummocksandintheswamp,butstillhewalkedonandstillheshot。Atlast,afteradisgracefulmiss,heflunghisgunandhishatontheground。
`No,Imustcontrolmyself,’hesaidtohimself。Pickinguphisgunandhishat,hecalledLaska,andwentoutoftheswamp。Whenhegotontodrygroundhesatdownonahummock,pulledoffhisbootandemptiedit,thenwalkedtothemarsh,dranksomerust-tastingwater,moistenedtheburninghotbarrelofhisgun,andwashedhisfaceandhands。Feelingrefreshed,hewentbacktothespotwhereasnipehadsettled,firmlyresolvedtokeepcool。
Hetriedtobecalm,butitwasthesameagain。Hisfingerpressedthetriggerbeforehehadtakenagoodaimatthebird。Itgotworseandworse。
Hehadonlyfivebirdsinhisgamebagwhenhewalkedoutofthemarshtowardthealders,wherehewastorejoinStepanArkadyevich。
BeforehecaughtsightofStepanArkadyevichhesawhisdog。Krak,blackalloverwiththestinkingmireofthemarsh,dartedoutfrombehindthetwistedrootofanalder,and,withtheairofaconqueror,sniffedLaska。BehindKraktherecameintoviewintheshadeofthealdertreetheshapelyfigureofStepanArkadyevich。Hecametomeethim,redandperspiring,withunbuttonedneckband,stilllimpinginthesameway。
`Well?Youhavebeenpoppingaway!’hesaid,smilinggood-humoredly。
`Howhaveyougoton?’queriedLevin。Buttherewasnoneedtoask,forhehadalreadyseenthefullgamebag。
`Oh,prettyfair。’
Hehadfourteenbirds。
`Asplendidmarsh!I’venodoubtVeslovskygotinyourway。It’sawkwardtoo,shootingwithonedog,’saidStepanArkadyevich,tosoftenhistriumph。
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TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart6,Chapter11[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter11WhenLevinandStepanArkadyevichreachedthepeasant’shutwhereLevinalwaysusedtostay,Veslovskywasalreadythere。Hewassittinginthemiddleofthehut,clingingwithbothhandstothebenchfromwhichhewasbeingpulledbyasoldier,thebrotherofthepeasant’swife,whowashelpinghimoffwithhismiryboots。Veslovskywaslaughinghisinfectious,good-humoredlaugh。
`I’veonlyjustcome。Ilsonté;té;charmants。
Justfancytheygavemedrink,andfedme!Suchbread-itwasexquisite!Dé;licieux!Andthevodka-Inevertastedanybetter。Andtheywouldnottakeapennyforanything。Andtheykeptsaying:``Excuseourhomelyways。’’
`Whatshouldtheytakeanythingfor?Theywereentertainingyou,tobesure。Doyousupposetheykeepvodkaforsale?’saidthesoldier,succeedingatlastinpullingthesoakedbootoff,togetherwiththeblackenedstocking。
Inspiteofthedirtinessofthehut,whichwasallmuddiedbytheirbootsandthefilthydogslickingthemselvesclean,andthesmellsofthemarshandthepowderthatfilledtheroom,andtheabsenceofknivesandforks,thepartydranktheirteaandatetheirsupperwitharelishonlyknowntosportsmen。Washedandclean,theywentintoahaybarnsweptreadyforthem,wherethecoachmenhadbeenmakingupbedsforthegentlemen。
Thoughitwasdusk,notoneofthemwantedtogotosleep。
Afterwaveringamongreminiscencesandanecdotesofguns,ofdogs,andofformershootingparties,theconversationrestedonatopicthatinterestedallofthem。AfterVassenkahadseveraltimesoverexpressedhisappreciationofthisdelightfulsleepingplaceamongthefragranthay,thisdelightfulbrokentelegahesupposedittobebrokenbecausetheshaftshadbeentakenout,ofthegoodnatureofthepeasantswhohadtreatedhimtovodka,ofthedogswholayatthefeetoftheirrespectivemasters,OblonskybegantellingthemofadelightfulshootingpartyatMalthus’swherehehadstayedtheprevioussummer。Malthuswasawell-knowncapitalist,whohadmadehismoneybyspeculationinrailwayshares。StepanArkadyevichdescribedwhatsnipemoorsthisMalthushadtakenonleaseintheTverprovince,andhowtheywerepreserved,andofthecarriagesanddogcartsinwhichtheshootingpartyhadbeendriven,andtheluncheonpavilionthathadbeenriggedupatthemarsh。
`Idon’tunderstandyou,’saidLevin,sittingupinthehay;`howisitsuchpeopledon’tdisgustyou?IcanunderstandalunchwithLafitteisallverypleasant,butdon’tyoudislikejustthatverysumptuousness?
Allthesepeople,justlikeourtaxfarmersintheolddays,gettheirmoneyinawaythatgainsthemthecontemptofeveryone。Theydon’tcarefortheircontempt,andthentheyusetheirdishonestgainstobuyoffthecontempttheyhavedeserved。’
`Perfectlytrue!’chimedinVassenkaVeslovsky。`Perfectly!Oblonsky,ofcourse,goesoutofbonhomie,butotherpeoplesay:``Well,Oblonskystayswiththem。’’
`Notabitofit。’LevincouldhearthatOblonskywassmilingashespoke。`Isimplydon’tconsiderhimmoredishonestthananyotherwealthymerchantornobleman。They’veallmadetheirmoneyalike-bytheirworkandtheirintelligence。’
`Oh,bywhatwork?Doyoucallitworktogetholdofconcessionsandspeculatewiththem?’
`Ofcourseit’swork。Workinthissense,thatifitwerenotforhimandotherslikehim,therewouldhavebeennorailways。’
`Butthat’snotwork,liketheworkofapeasant,orinalearnedprofession。’
`Granted,butit’sworkinthesensethathisactivityproducesaresult-therailways。Butofcourseyouthinktherailwaysuseless。’
`No,that’sanotherquestion;Iamdisposedtoadmitthatthey’reuseful。Butallprofitthatisoutofproportiontothelaborexpendedisdishonest。’
`Butwhoistodefinewhatisproportionate?’
`Makingprofitbydishonestmeans,bytrickery,’saidLevin,consciousthathecouldnotdrawadistinctlinebetweenhonestyanddishonesty。
`Suchasbanking,forinstance,’hewenton。`It’sanevil-theamassingofhugefortuneswithoutlabor,justthesamethingaswiththetaxfarmers-it’sonlytheformthat’schanged。Leroiestmort,viveleroi!
Nosoonerwerethetaxfarmersabolishedthantherailwayscameup,andbankingcompanies;that,too,isprofitwithoutwork。’
`Yes,thatmayallbeverytrueandclever……Liedown,Krak!’
StepanArkadyevichcalledtohisdog,whowasscratchingandturningoverallthehay。Hewasobviouslyconvincedofthecorrectnessofhisposition,andsotalkedserenelyandwithouthaste。`Butyouhavenotdrawnthelinebetweenhonestanddishonestwork。ThatIreceiveabiggersalarythanmychiefclerk,thoughheknowsmoreabouttheworkthanIdo-that’sdishonest,Isuppose?’
`Ican’tsay。’
`Well,butIcantellyou:yourreceivingsomefivethousand,let’ssay,foryourworkontheland,whileourhost,thepeasanthere,howeverhardheworks,cannevergetmorethanfiftyroubles,isjustasdishonestasmyearningmorethanmychiefclerk,andMalthusgettingmorethanarailwayexpert。No,quitethecontrary;Iseethatsocietytakesupasortofantagonisticattitudetothesepeople,whichisutterlybaseless,andIfancythere’senvyatthebottomofit……’
`No,that’sunfair,’saidVeslovsky;`howcouldenvycomein?
Thereissomethinguncleanaboutthatsortofbusiness。’
`Yousay,’Levinwenton,`thatit’sunjustformetoreceivefivethousand,whilethepeasanthasfiftyroubles;that’strue。Itisunfair,andIfeelit,but……’
`Itreallyis。Whyisitwespendourtimeriding,drinking,shooting,doingnothingwhiletheyareforeveratwork?’saidVassenkaVeslovsky,obviouslyforthefirsttimeinhislifereflectingonthequestion,andconsequentlyconsideringitwithperfectsincerity。
`Yes,youfeelit,butyoudon’tgivehimyourproperty,’saidStepanArkadyevich,intentionally,asitseemed,provokingLevin。
Therehadarisenoflatesomethinglikeasecretantagonismbetweenthetwobrothers-in-law;asthough,sincetheyhadmarriedsisters,akindofrivalryhadsprungupbetweenthemastowhichwasorderinghislifebest,andnowthishostilityshoweditselfintheconversation,asitbegantotakeapersonalnote。
`Idon’tgiveitaway,becausenoonedemandsthatfromme,andifIwantedto,Icouldnotgiveitaway,’answeredLevin,`andhavenoonetogiveitto。’
`Giveittothispeasant,hewouldnotrefuseit。’
`Yes,buthowamItogiveitup?AmItogotohimandmakeatitledeed?’
`Idon’tknow;butifyouareconvincedthatyouhavenoright……’
`I’mnotatallconvinced。Onthecontrary,Ifeelhavenorighttogiveitup,thatIhavedutiesbothtothelandandtomyfamily。’
`No,excuseme,butifyouconsiderthisinequalityisunjust,whyisityoudon’tactaccordingly?……’
`Well,Idoactnegativelyonthatidea,sofarasnottryingtoincreasethedifferenceofpositionexistingbetweenhimandme。’
`No,excuseme,that’saparadox。’
`Yes,there’ssomethingofasophistryaboutthat,’Veslovskyagreed。`Ah!Ourhost!’hesaidtothepeasantwhocameintothebarn,openingthecreakingdoor。`Howisityou’renotasleepyet?’
`No,how’sonetosleep!Ithoughtourgentlemenwouldbeasleep,butIheardthemchattering。Iwanttogetahookfromhere。Shewon’tbite?’headded,steppingcautiouslywithhisbarefeet。
`Andwhereareyougoingtosleep?’
`Wearegoingoutfornightwatching。’
`Ah,whatanight!’saidVeslovsky,lookingoutattheedgeofthehutandtheunharnesseddroshkythatcouldbeseeninthefaintlightoftheeveningglowinthegreatframeoftheopendoors。`Butlisten,therearewomen’svoicessinging,and,onmyword,notbadlytoo!Who’sthatsinging,myfriend?’
`That’sthehousemaidsfromhardbyhere。’
`Let’sgo-let’stakeawalk!Weshan’tgotosleep,youknow。
Oblonsky,comealong!’
`Ifonecouldonlydoboth,liehereandgo,’answeredOblonsky,stretching。`It’scapitallyinghere。’
`Well,Ishallgobymyself,’saidVeslovsky,gettingupeagerly,andputtingonhisbootsandstockings。`Good-by,gentlemen。Ifit’sfun,I’llfetchyou。You’vetreatedmetosomegoodsport,andIwon’tforgetyou。’
`Hereallyisacapitalfellow,isn’the?’saidStepanArkadyevichwhenVeslovskyhadgoneoutandthepeasanthadclosedthedoorafterhim。
`Yes,capital,’answeredLevin,stillthinkingofthesubjectoftheirconversationjustbefore。Itseemedtohimthathehadclearlyexpressedhisthoughtsandfeelingstothebestofhiscapacity,andyetbothofthem,straightforwardmenandnotfools,hadsaidwithonevoicethathewascomfortinghimselfwithsophistries。Thisdisconcertedhim。
`It’sjustthis,mydearboy。Onemustdooneoftwothings:eitheradmitthattheexistingorderofsocietyisjust,andthenstickupforone’srightsinit;oracknowledgethatyouareenjoyingunjustprivileges,asIdo,andthenenjoythemandbesatisfied。’
`No,ifitwereunjust,youcouldnotenjoytheseadvantagesandbesatisfied-atleastIcouldnot。ThegreatthingformeistofeelthatI’mnottoblame。’
`Whatdoyousay-whynotgoafterall?’saidStepanArkadyevich,evidentlywearyofthestrainofthought。`Weshan’tgotosleep,youknow。
Come,let’sgo!’
Levindidnotanswer。Whattheyhadsaidintheconversationthatheactedjustlyonlyinanegativesenseabsorbedhisthoughts。`Canitbethatit’sonlypossibletobejustnegatively?’hewasaskinghimself。
`Howstrongthesmellofthefreshhayis,though,’saidStepanArkadyevich,gettingup。`There’snotachanceofsleeping。Vassenkahasbeengettingupsomefunthere。Doyouhearthelaughterandhisvoice?
Hadn’twebettergo?Comealong!’
`No,I’mnotcoming,’answeredLevin。
`Surelythat’snotamatterofprincipletoo,’saidStepanArkadyevich,smiling,ashefeltaboutinthedarkforhiscap。
`It’snotamatterofprinciple,butwhyshouldIgo?’
`Butdoyouknowyouarepreparingtroubleforyourself,’saidStepanArkadyevich,findinghiscapandgettingup。
`Howso?’
`DoyousupposeIdon’tseethelineyou’vetakenupwithyourwife?Iheardhowit’saquestionofthegreatestconsequence,whetherornotyou’retobeawayforacoupleofdays’shooting。That’sallverywellasanidyllicepisode,butforyourwholelifethatwon’tanswer。
Amanmustbeindependent;hehashismasculineinterests。Amanhastobemanly,’saidOblonsky,openingthedoor。
`Inwhatway?Togorunningafterservantgirls?’saidLevin。
`Whynot,ifitamuseshim?Ç;anetirepasà;
consequence。Itwon’tdomywifeanyharm,andit’llamuseme。Thegreatthingistorespectthesanctityofthehome。Thereshouldbenothinginthehome。Butdon’ttieyourownhands。’
`Perhapsso,’saidLevindryly,andheturnedonhisside。`Tomorrow,early,Iwanttogoshooting,andIwon’twakeanyone,andshallsetoffatdaybreak。’
`Messieurs,venezvite!’theyheardthevoiceofVeslovskycomingback。`Charmante!I’vemadesuchadiscovery。Charmante!
AperfectGretchen,andI’vealreadymadefriendswithher。Really,exceedinglypretty,’hedeclaredinatoneofapproval,asthoughshehadbeenmadeprettyentirelyonhisaccount,andhewereexpressinghissatisfactionwiththeentertainmentthathadbeenprovidedforhim。
Levinpretendedtobeasleep,whileOblonsky,puttingonhisslippers,andlightingacigar,walkedoutofthebarn,andsoontheirvoiceswerelost。
ForalongwhileLevincouldnotgettosleep。Heheardhishorsesmunchinghay,thenheheardthepeasantandhiselderboygettingready,andthengoingoffforthenightwatching,thenheheardthesoldierarranginghisbedontheothersideofthebarn,withhisnephew,theyoungersonoftheirpeasanthost。Heheardtheboyinhisshrilllittlevoicetellinghisunclewhathethoughtaboutthedogs,whoseemedtohimhugeandterriblecreatures,andaskingwhatthedogsweregoingtohuntnextday,andthesoldierinahusky,sleepyvoice,tellinghimthesportsmenweregoinginthemorningtothemarsh,andwouldshootwiththeirguns;andthen,tochecktheboy’squestions,hesaid,`Gotosleep,Vaska;gotosleeporyou’llcatchit,’andsoonafterhebegansnoringhimself,andeverythingwasstill。Hecouldonlyheartheneighofthehorses,andthegutturalcryofasnipe。`Isitreallyonlynegative?herepeatedtohimself。`Well,whatofit?It’snotmyfault。’Andhebeganthinkingaboutthenextday。
`TomorrowI’llgooutearly,andI’llmakeapointofkeepingcool。Therearelotsofsnipe;andtherearedoublesnipetoo。WhenIcomebackthere’llbethenotefromKitty。Yes,Stivamayberight,I’mnotmanlywithher,I’mtiedtoherapronstrings……Well,itcan’tbehelped!
Negativeagain……’
Halfasleep,heheardthelaughterandmirthfultalkofVeslovskyandStepanArkadyevich。Foraninstantheopenedhiseyes:themoonwasup,andintheopendoorway,brightlylightedupbythemoonlight,theywerestandingtalking。StepanArkadyevichwassayingsomethingofthefreshnessofonegirl,comparinghertoafreshlypeelednut,andVeslovskywithhisinfectiouslaughwasrepeatingsomewords,probablysaidtohimbyapeasant:`Ah,you’dbettergetroundyourownwife!’Levin,halfasleep,said:
`Gentlemen,tomorrowbeforedaylight!’andfellasleep。
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TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart6,Chapter12[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter12Wakingupatearliestdawn,Levintriedtowakehiscompanions。Vassenka,lyingonhisstomach,withoneleginastockingthrustout,wassleepingsosoundlythathecouldelicitnoresponse。Oblonsky,halfasleep,declinedtogetupsoearly。EvenLaska,whowasasleep,curledupinthehay,gotupunwillingly,andlazilystretchedoutandstraightenedherhindlegsoneaftertheother。Gettingonhisboots,takinghisgun,andcarefullyopeningthecreakingdoorofthebarn,Levinwentoutintotheroad。Thecoachmenweresleepingneartheircarriages;thehorsesweredozing。Onlyonewaslazilyeatingoats,scatteringtheminthemangerwhensnorting。
Itwasstillgrayout-of-doors。
`Whyareyouupsoearly,mydear?’theoldwoman,theirhostess,said,comingoutofthehutandaddressinghimaffectionatelyasanoldfriend。
`Goingshooting,auntie。DoIgothiswaytothemarsh?’
`Straightoutattheback;byourthreshingfloor,mydear,andhemppatches;there’salittlefootpath。’
Steppingcarefullywithhersunburned,barefeet,theoldwomanconductedLevin,andmovedbackthegateforhimbythethreshingfloor。
`Straightahead,andyou’llcometothemarsh。Ourladsdrovethehorsesthereyesterdayevening。’
Laskaraneagerlyforwardalongthelittlepath。Levinfollowedherwithalight,rapidstep,continuallylookingatthesky。Hehopedthesunwouldnotbeupbeforehereachedthemarsh。Butthesundidnotdelay。Themoon,whichhadbeenbrightwhenhewentout,bynowshoneonlylikeacrescentofquicksilver。Therosyflushofdawn,whichonecouldnothelpseeingbefore,nowhadtobesoughttobediscernedatall。Whatbeforehadbeenundefined,vagueblursinthedistantcountryside,couldnowbedistinctlyseen。Theyweresheavesofrye。Thedew,notvisibletillthesunwasup,wettedLevin’slegsandhisblouseabovehisbeltinthehigh-growing,fragranthemppatch,fromwhichthemaleplantshadalreadybeengatheredin。Inthetransparentstillnessofmorningthesmallestsoundswereaudible。AbeeflewbyLevin’searwiththewhizzingsoundofabullet。Helookedcarefully,andsawasecondandathird。Theywereallflyingfromthebeehivesbehindthehedge,andtheydisappearedoverthehemppatchinthedirectionofthemarsh。Thepathledstraighttothemarsh。Themarshcouldberecognizedbythemistwhichrosefromit,thickerinoneplaceandthinnerinanother,sothatthesedgeandwillowbushesswayedlikeislandsinthismist。Attheedgeofthemarshandtheroadpeasantboysandmen,whohadbeenherdingforthenight,werelying,andinthedawnallwereasleepundertheircoats。Notfarfromthemwerethreehobbledhorses。Oneofthemclankedachain。Laskawalkedbesidehermaster,pressingalittleforwardandlookinground。Passingthesleepingpeasantsandreachingthefirstreeds,Levinexaminedhispercussioncapsandunleashedhisdog。Oneofthehorses,asleek,dark-brownthree-year-old,seeingthedog,startedaway,switcheditstailandsnorted。Theotherhorsestoowerefrightened,andsplashingthroughthewaterwiththeirhobbledlegs,anddrawingtheirhoofsoutofthethickmudwithasquelchingsound,theyboundedoutofthemarsh。Laskastopped,lookingironicallyatthehorsesandinquiringlyatLevin。LevinpattedLaska,andwhistledasasignthatshemightbegin。
Laskaranjoyfullyandanxiouslythroughthequagmirethatquakedunderher。
Runningintothemarshamongthefamiliarscentsofroots,marshplants,anddross,andtheextraneoussmellofhorsemanure,Laskadetectedatonceasmellthatpervadedthewholemarsh,thescentofthatstrong-smellingbirdthatalwaysexcitedhermorethananyother。Hereandthereamongthemossandmarshplantsthisscentwasverystrong,butitwasimpossibletodetermineinwhichdirectionitgrewstrongerorfainter。Tofindthedirection,shehadtogetfartherawayfromthewind。Notfeelingthemotionofherlegs,Laskaboundedwithastillgallop,sothatateachboundshecouldstopshort,totheright,awayfromthewindthatblewfromtheeastbeforesunrise,andturnedfacingthewind。Sniffingintheairwithdilatednostrils,shefeltatoncethatnottheirtracesonly,buttheythemselves,wereherebeforeher-notone,butmany。Laskaslackenedherspeed。Theywerehere,butwherepreciselyshecouldnotyetdetermine。Tofindtheveryspot,shebegantomakeacircle,whensuddenlyhermaster’svoicedrewheroff。`Laska!Here!’hesaid,pointinghertoadifferentdirection。
Shestopped,askinghimifshehadbetternotgoondoingasshehadbegun。
Butherepeatedhiscommandinanangryvoice,pointingtoahummockspotcoveredwithwater,wheretherecouldnotbeanything。Sheobeyedhim,pretendingshewassearchingsoastopleasehim,wentroundit,andwentbacktoherformerposition,andwasatonceawareofthescentagain。
Nowwhenhewasnothinderingher,sheknewwhattodo,and,withoutlookingatwhatwasunderherfeet,andtohervexationstumblingoverahummockintothewater,butrightingherselfwithherstrong,supplelegs,shebeganmakingthecircuitwhichwastomakeallcleartoher。Thescentofthemreachedher,strongerandstronger,andmoreandmoredefined,andallatonceitbecameperfectlycleartoherthatoneofthemwashere,behindthishummock,fivepacesinfrontofher;shestopped,andherwholebodywasstillandrigid。Onhershortlegsshecouldseenothinginfrontofher,butbythescentsheknewitwassittingnotmorethanfivepacesoff。Shestoodstill,feelingmoreandmoreconsciousofit,andenjoyingitinanticipation。Hertailwasstretchedstraightandtense,andonlywaggedattheextremetip。Hermouthwasslightlyopen,herearsraised。
Oneearhadbeenturnedwrongsideoutassheranup,andshebreathedheavilybutwarily,andstillmorewarilysheturnedaround,butmorewithhereyesthanherhead,tohermaster。Hewascomingalongwiththefacesheknewsowell,thoughtheeyeswerealwaysterribletoher。Hestumbledoverthehummocksashecame,andmoved,asshethought,extraordinarilyslowly。Shethoughthecameslowly,buthewasrunning。
NoticingLaska’sspecialattitudeasshecrouchedontheground,asitwere,scratchingbigprintswithherhindpaws,andwithhermouthslightlyopen,Levinknewshewaspointingatdoublesnipe,andwithaninwardprayerforluck,especiallywiththefirstbird,heranuptoher。
Comingquitecloseuptoher,hecouldfromhisheightlookbeyondher,andhesawwithhiseyeswhatshewasseeingwithhernose。Inaspacebetweentwolittlehummocks,atacoupleofyards’distance,hecouldseeadoublesnipe。Turningitshead,itwaslistening。Thenlightlypreeningandfoldingitswings,itdisappearedroundacornerwithaclumsywagofitstail。
`Fetchit,fetchit!’shoutedLevin,givingLaskaashovefrombehind。
`ButIcan’tgo,’thoughtLaska。`WhereamItogo?FromhereIfeelthem,butifImoveforwardIshallknownothingofwheretheyare,orwhotheyare。’Butthenheshovedherwithhisknee,andinanexcitedwhispersaid,`Fetchit,Lassochka,fetchit。’
`Well,ifthat’swhathewishes,I’lldoit,butIcan’tanswerformyselfnow,’shethought,anddartedforwardasfastasherlegswouldcarryherbetweenthehummocks。Shescentednothingnow;shecouldonlyseeandhear,withoutunderstandinganything。
Tenpacesfromherformerplaceadoublesniperosewithagutturalcryandthepeculiarconvexsoundofitswings。Andimmediatelyaftertheshotitsplashedheavilywithitswhitebreastonthewetmire。Anotherbirddidnotlinger,butrosebehindLevin,withoutthedog’soffices。
WhenLevinturnedtowardit,itwasalreadysomewayoff。Buthisshotcaughtit。Flyingtwentypacesfarther,theseconddoublesniperoseupward,and,whirlingroundlikeaball,droppedheavilyonadryplace。
`Come,thisisgoingtobesomegood!’thoughtLevin,packingthewarmandfatsnipeintohisgamebag。`Eh,Laska,willitbegood?’
WhenLevin,afterreloadinghisgun,movedon,thesunhadfullyrisen,thoughunseenbehindclouds。Themoonhadlostallofitsluster,andwaslikeawhitecloudinthesky。Notasinglestarcouldbeseen。
Thesoggyplaces,silverywithdewbefore,nowshonelikegold。Therustypoolswerealllikeamber。Theblueofthegrasshadchangedtoyellowgreen。Themarshbirdstwitteredandswarmedaboutthebrookanduponthebushesthatglitteredwithdewandcastlongshadows。Ahawkwokeupandsettledonahaycock,turningitsheadfromsidetosideandlookingdiscontentedlyatthemarsh。Crowswereflyingaboutthefield,andabareleggedboywasdrivingthehorsestoanoldman,whohadgotupfromunderhislongcoatandwascombinghishair。Thesmokefromthegunwaswhiteasmilkoverthegreenofthegrass。
OneoftheboysranuptoLevin。
`Uncle,therewereduckshereyesterday!’heshoutedtohim,andhewalkedalittlewayoffbehindhim。
AndLevinwasdoublypleased,insightoftheboy,whoexpressedhisapproval,atkillingthreejacksnipe,oneafteranother,straightoff。
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TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart6,Chapter13[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter13Thesportsman’ssaying,thatifthefirstbeastorthefirstbirdisnotmissed,theshootingwillbelucky,turnedoutcorrect。
Atteno’clockLevin,weary,hungry,andhappyafteratrampofthirtyverstas,returnedtohisnight’slodgingwithnineteenheadoffinegameandoneduck,whichhetiedtohisbelt,asitwouldnotgointothegamebag。Hiscompanionshadlongbeenawake,andhadhadtimetogethungryandhavebreakfast。
`Waitabit,waitabit,Iknowtherearenineteen,’saidLevin,countingasecondtimeoverthedoublesnipeandjacksnipe,thatlookedsomuchlessimportantnow,bentanddryandbloodstained,withheadscrookedlytooneside,thantheydidwhentheywereflying。
Thenumberwasverified,andStepanArkadyevich’senvypleasedLevin。HewaspleasedtooonreturningtofindthatthemansentbyKittywithanotewasalreadyhere。
`Iamperfectlywellandhappy。Ifyouwereuneasyaboutme,youcanfeeleasierthanever。I’veanewbodyguard,MaryaVlassyevna。’Thiswasthemidwife,anewandimportantpersonageinLevin’sdomesticlife。
`Shehascometohavealookatme。Shefoundmeperfectlywell,andweareholdinghertillyouareback。Allarehappyandwell,andplease,don’tbeinahurrytocomeback,but,ifthesportisgood,stayanotherday。’
Thesetwopleasures,hisluckyshootingandtheletterfromhiswife,weresogreatthattwoslightlydisagreeableincidentspassedlightlyoverLevin。Onewasthatthechestnuttracehorse,whohadbeenunmistakablyoverworkedonthepreviousday,wasoffhisfeedandoutofsorts。Thecoachmansaidthehorsewasoverstrained。
`Overdrivenyesterday,KonstantinDmitrievich!’hesaid。`Yes,indeed!Drivingtenmileswithoutanysense!’
Theotherunpleasantincident,whichforthefirstminutedestroyedhisgoodhumor,thoughlaterhelaughedatitagreatdeal,wastofindthatofalltheprovisionswhichKittyhadprovidedinsuchabundance,thatonewouldhavethoughttherewasenoughforaweek,nothingwasleft。
Onhiswayback,tiredandhungry,fromshooting,Levinhadsodistinctavisionofmeatpiesthatasheapproachedthehutheseemedtosmellandtastethem,asLaskahadsmeltthegame,andheimmediatelytoldPhiliptogivehimsome。Itappearedthattherewerenopiesleft-norevenanychicken。
`Well,thisfellow’sappetite!’saidStepanArkadyevich,laughingandpointingatVassenkaVeslovsky。`Ineversufferfromlossofappetite,buthe’sreallymarvelous!……’
`Well,itcan’tbehelped,’saidLevin,lookinggloomilyatVeslovsky。
`Well,Philip,givemesomebeef,then。’
`Thebeef’sbeeneaten,andthebonesgiventothedogs,’answeredPhilip。
Levinwassohurtthathesaid,inatoneofvexation:`Youmighthaveleftmesomething!’andhefeltreadytocry。
`Thendisembowelthegame,’hesaidinashakingvoicetoPhilip,tryingnottolookatVassenka,`andcoverthemwithsomenettles。Andyoumightatleastaskforsomemilkforme。’
Butwhenhehaddrunksomemilk,hefeltashamedimmediatelyathavingshownhisannoyancetoastranger,andhebegantolaughathishungrymortification。
Intheeveningtheywentshootingagain,andVeslovsky,too,hadseveralsuccessfulshots,andinthenighttheydrovehome。
Theirhomewardjourneywasaslivelyastheirdriveouthadbeen。
Veslovskysangsongsandrelatedwithenjoymenthisadventureswiththepeasants,whohadregaledhimwithvodka,andsaidtohim,`Excuseourhomelyways,’andhisnight’sadventureswithtugofwar,andtheservantgirl,andthepeasant,whohadaskedhimwashemarriedandonlearningthathewasnot,saidtohim:`Well,mindyoudon’trunafterothermen’swives-you’dbettergetroundyourown。’ThesewordshadparticularlyamusedVeslovsky。
`Altogether,I’veenjoyedouroutingawfully。Andyou,Levin?’
`Ihave,verymuch,’Levinsaidquitesincerely。ItwasparticularlydelightfultohimtohavegotridofthehostilityhehadbeenfeelingtowardVassenkaVeslovskyathome,andtofeelinsteadthemostfriendlydispositiontohim。
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TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart6,Chapter14[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter14Nextdayatteno’clockLevin,whohadalreadygonehisrounds,knockedattheroomwhereVassenkahadbeenputforthenight。
`Entrez!’Veslovskycalledtohim。`Excuseme,I’veonlyjustfinishedmyablutions,’hesaid,smiling,standingbeforehiminhisunderclothesonly。
`Don’tmindme,please,’Levinsatdowninthewindow。`Haveyousleptwell?’
`Likethedead。Whatsortofdayisitforshooting?’
`Whatwillyoutake,teaorcoffee?’
`Neither。I’llwaittilllunch。I’mreallyashamed。Isupposetheladiesaredown?Awalknowwouldbecapital。Youshowmeyourhorses。’
Afterwalkingaboutthegarden,visitingthestable,andevendoingsomegymnasticexercisestogetherontheparallelbars,Levinreturnedtothehousewithhisguest,andwentwithhimintothedrawingroom。
`Wehadsplendidshooting,andsomanydelightfulexperiences!’
saidVeslovsky,goinguptoKitty,whowassittingatthesamovar。`Whatapityladiesarecutofffromthesedelights!’
`Well,Isupposehemustsaysomethingtotheladyofthehouse,’
Levinsaidtohimself。Againhefanciedsomethinginthesmile,intheall-conqueringairwithwhichtheirguestaddressedKitty……
ThePrincess,sittingontheothersideofthetablewithMaryaVlassyevnaandStepanArkadyevich,calledLevintoherside,andbegantotalktohimaboutmovingtoMoscowforKitty’sconfinement,andgettingreadyroomsforthem。JustasLevinhaddislikedallthetrivialpreparationsforhiswedding,asderogatorytothegrandeuroftheevent,nowhefeltstillmoreoffensivethepreparationsfortheapproachingbirth,thedateofwhichtheyreckoned,itseemed,ontheirfingers。Hetriedtoturnadeafeartothesediscussionsofthebestpatternsoflongclothesforthecomingbaby;triedtoturnawayandavoidseeingthemysterious,endlessstripsofknitting,thetrianglesoflinen,towhichDollyattachedspecialimportance,andsoon。Thebirthofasonhewascertainitwouldbeasonwhichwaspromisedhim,butwhichhestillcouldnotbelievein-
somarvelousitseemed-presenteditselftohismind,ononehand,asahappinesssoimmense,andthereforesoincredible;ontheother,asaneventsomysterious,thatthisassumptionofadefiniteknowledgeofwhatwouldbe,andconsequentpreparationforit,asforsomethingordinarythatdidhappentopeople,jarredonhimasconfusingandhumiliating。
ButthePrincessdidnotunderstandhisfeelings,andputdownhisreluctancetothinkandtalkaboutittocarelessnessandindifference,andsoshegavehimnopeace。ShehadcommissionedStepanArkadyevichtolookatanapartment,andnowshecalledLevintoher。
`Iknownothingaboutit,Princess。Doasyouthinkfit,’hesaid。
`Youmustdecidewhenyouwillmove。’
`Ireallydon’tknow。IknowmillionsofchildrenarebornawayfromMoscow,anddoctors……Why……’
`Butifso……’
`Oh,no,asKittywishes。’
`Wecan’ttalktoKittyaboutit!Doyouwantmetofrightenher?
Why,thisspringNatalieGolitzinadiedfromhavinganignorantdoctor。’
`Iwilldojustwhatyousay,’hesaidgloomily。
ThePrincessbegantalkingtohim,buthedidnothearher。ThoughtheconversationwiththePrincesshadindeedjarreduponhim,hewasgloomynotonaccountofthatconversation,butfromwhathesawatthesamovar。
`No,it’simpossible,’hethought,glancingnowandthenatVassenkabendingoverKitty,tellinghersomethingwithhischarmingsmile,andather,flushedanddisturbed。
TherewassomethinguncleaninVassenka’sattitude,inhiseyes,inhissmile。LevinevensawsomethinguncleaninKitty’sattitudeandlook。Andagainthelightdiedawayinhiseyes。Again,asbefore,allofasudden,withouttheslightesttransition,hefeltcastdownfromapinnacleofhappiness,peace,anddignity,intoanabyssofdespair,rage,andhumiliation。Againeverythingandeveryonehadbecomehatefultohim。
`Youdojustasyouthinkbest,Princess,’hesaidagain,lookinground。
`Uneasyliestheheadthatwearsacrown!’StepanArkadyevichsaidplayfully,hinting,evidently,notsimplyatthePrincess’sconversation,butatthecauseofLevin’sagitation,whichhehadnoticed。`Howlateyouaretoday,Dolly!’
EveryonegotuptogreetDaryaAlexandrovna。Vassenkaonlyroseforaninstant,and,withthelackofcourtesytoladiescharacteristicofthemodernyoungman,hescarcelybowed,andresumedhisconversationagain,laughingatsomething。
`Mashahasbeenalmosttheendofme。Shedidnotsleepwell,andisdreadfullycapricioustoday,’saidDolly。
TheconversationVassenkahadstartedwithKittywasrunningonthesamelinesasonthepreviousevening-discussingAnna,andwhetherloveistobeputhigherthanworldlyconsiderations。Kittydislikedtheconversation,andshewasdisturbedbothbythesubjectandthetoneinwhichitwasconducted,andespeciallybytheknowledgeoftheeffectitwouldhaveonherhusband。Butshewastoosimpleandunsophisticatedtoknowhowtocutshortthisconversation,oreventoconcealthesuperficialpleasureaffordedherbytheyoungman’sveryobviousadmiration。Shewantedtostopthisconversation,butshedidnotknowwhattodo。Whatevershedid,sheknewitwouldbeobservedbyherhusband,andtheworstinterpretationputonit。And,infact,whensheaskedDollywhatwaswrongwithMasha,andVassenka,waitingtillthisuninterestingconversationwasover,begantogazeindifferentlyatDolly,thequestionstruckLevinasanunnaturalanddisgustingpieceofhypocrisy。
`Whatdoyousay,shallwegoandlookformushroomstoday?’saidDolly。
`Byallmeans,please,andIshallcometoo,’saidKitty,andsheblushed。ShewantedfrompolitenesstoaskVassenkawhetherhewouldcome,andshedidnotaskhim。`Whereareyougoing,Kostia?’sheaskedherhusbandwithaguiltyface,ashepassedbyherwitharesolutestep。
Thisguiltyairconfirmedallhissuspicions。
`ThemechaniciancamewhenIwasaway;Ihaven’tseenhimyet,’
hesaid,notlookingather。
Hewentdownstairs,butbeforehehadtimetoleavehisstudyheheardhiswife’sfamiliarfootstepsrunningwithrecklessspeedtohim。
`Whatdoyouwant?’hesaidtohershortly。`Wearebusy。’
`Ibegyourpardon,’shesaidtotheGermanmechanician;`Iwantafewwordswithmyhusband。’
TheGermanwouldhavelefttheroom,butLevinsaidtohim:
`Don’tdisturbyourself’
`Thetrainisatthree?’queriedtheGerman。`Imustn’tbelate。’
Levindidnotanswerhim,butwalkedouthimselfwithhiswife。
`Well,whathaveyoutosaytome?’hesaidtoherinFrench。
Hedidnotlookherintheface,anddidnotcaretoseethatsheinherconditionwastremblingallover,andhadapiteous,crushedlook。
`I……Iwanttosaythatwecan’tgoonlikethis;thatthisismisery……’shesaid。
`Theservantsarehereatthebuttery,’hesaidangrily;`don’tmakeascene。’
`Well,let’sgoinhere!’
Theywerestandinginthepassageroom。Kittywouldhavegoneintothenextroom,buttheretheEnglishgovernesswasgivingTaniaalesson。
`Well,comeintothegarden。’
Inthegardentheycameuponapeasantweedingthepath。Andnolongerconsideringthatthepeasantcouldseehertear-stainedandhisagitatedface,thattheylookedlikepeoplefleeingfromsomedisaster,theywentonwithrapidsteps,feelingthattheymustspeakoutandclearupmisunderstandings,mustbealonetogether,andsogetridofthemiserytheywerebothfeeling。
`Wecan’tgoonlikethis!It’smisery!Iamwretched;youarewretched。Whatfor?’shesaid,whentheyhadatlastreachedasolitarygardenseatataturninthelindentreeavenue。
`Buttellmeonething:wasthereinhistoneanythingunseemly,unclean,humiliatinglyhorrible?’hesaid,standingbeforeheragaininthesameposition,withhisclenchedfistsonhischest,ashehadstoodbeforeherthatnight。
`Yes,’shesaidinashakingvoice;`but,Kostia,surelyyouseeI’mnottoblame?AllthemorningI’vebeentryingtotakeatone……Butsuchpeople……Whydidhecome?Howhappywewere!’shesaid,breathlesswiththesobsthatshookher。
Althoughnothinghadbeenpursuingthem,andtherewasnothingtorunawayfrom,andtheycouldnotpossiblyhavefoundanythingverydelightfulonthatgardenseat,thegardenersawwithastonishmentthattheypassedhimontheirwayhomewithcomfortedandradiantfaces。
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DaryaAlexandrovna,forherpart,wasalsoingreatdistressthatday。
Shewaswalkingabouttheroom,talkingangrilytoalittlegirl,whostoodinthecornerbawling。
`Andyoushallstandalldayinthecorner,andhaveyourdinnerallalone,andnotseeoneofyourdolls,andIwon’tmakeyouanewfrock,’
shesaid,notknowinghowtopunishher。
`Oh,sheisadisgustingchild!’sheturnedtoLevin。`Wheredoesshegetsuchwickedpropensities?’
`Why,whathasshedone?’Levinsaidwithoutmuchinterest,forhehadwantedtoaskheradvice,andsowasannoyedthathehadcomeatanunluckymoment。
`Grishaandshewentintotheraspberries,andthere……Ican’ttellyoureallywhatshedid。It’sathousandpitiesMissElliot’snotwithus。Thisoneseestonothing-she’samachine……Figurez-vousquelapetite?……’
AndDaryaAlexandrovnadescribedMasha’scrime。
`Thatprovesnothing;it’snotaquestionofevilpropensitiesatall,it’ssimplymischief,’Levinassuredher。
`Butyouareupsetaboutsomething?Whathaveyoucomefor?’askedDolly。`What’sgoingonthere?’
AndinthetoneofherquestionLevinheardthatitwouldbeeasyforhimtosaywhathehadmeanttosay。
`I’venotbeeninthere,I’vebeenaloneinthegardenwithKitty。
We’vehadaquarrelforthesecondtimesince……Stivacame。’
Dollylookedathimwithhershrewd,comprehendingeyes。
`Come,tellme,honorbright,hastherebeen……NotinKitty,butinthatgentleman’sbehavior,atonewhichmightbeunpleasant-notunpleasant,buthorrible,offensivetoahusband?’
`Youmean,howshallIsay……Standthere-standinthecorner!’
shesaidtoMasha,who,detectingafaintsmileonhermother’sface,hadbeenturninground。`Theopinionoftheworldwouldbethatheisbehavingasyoungmendobehave。Ilfaitlecourà;unejeuneetjoliefemme,andahusbandwho’samanoftheworldshouldonlybeflatteredbyit。’
`Yes,yes,’saidLevingloomily;`butyounoticedit?’
`NotonlyI,butStivanoticedit。Justafterbreakfasthesaidtome:JecroisqueVeslovskyfaitunpetitbrindecourà;Kitty。’
`Well,that’sallrightthen;nowI’msatisfied。I’llsendhimaway,’saidLevin。
`Whatdoyoumean!Areyoucrazy?’Dollycriedinhorror。`Nonsense,Kostia,onlythink!’shesaid,laughing。`YoucangonowtoFanny,’shesaidtoMasha。`No,ifyouwishit,I’llspeaktoStiva。He’lltakehimaway。Hecansayyou’reexpectingvisitors。Altogetherhedoesn’tfitintothehouse。’
`No,no,I’lldoitmyself。’
`Butyou’llquarrelwithhim?’
`Notabit。Ishallsoenjoyit,’Levinsaid,hiseyesflashingwithrealenjoyment。`Come,forgiveher,Dolly,shewon’tdoitagain,’
hesaidofthelittlesinner,whohadnotgonetoFanny,butwasstandingirresolutelybeforehermother,waitingandlookingupfromunderherbrowstocatchhermother’seye。
Themotherglancedather。Thechildbrokeintosobs,hidherfaceonhermother’slap,andDollylaidherthin,tenderhandonherhead。
`Andwhatisthereincommonbetweenusandhim?’thoughtLevin,andhewentofftolookforVeslovsky。
Ashepassedthroughthehallhegaveordersforthecarriagetobegotreadytodrivetothestation。
`Thespringwasbrokenyesterday,’saidthefootman。
`Well,thetarantassthen,andmakehaste。Where’sthevisitor?’
`Thegentleman’sgonetohisroom。’
LevincameuponVassenkaatthemomentwhenthelatter,havingunpackedhisthingsfromhistrunk,andlaidoutsomenewsongs,wasputtingonhisleathergaiterstogooutriding。
WhethertherewassomethingexceptionalinLevin’sface,orthatVassenkawashimselfconsciousthatlepetitbrindecourhewasmakingwasoutofplaceinthisfamily;hewassomewhatasmuchasayoungmaninsocietycanbedisconcertedatLevin’sentrance。
`Yourideingaiters?’
`Yes,it’smuchcleaner,’saidVassenka,puttinghisfatlegonachair,fasteningthebottomhook,andsmilingwithsimpleheartedgoodhumor。
Hewasundoubtedlyagood-naturedfellow,andLevinfeltsorryforhimandashamedofhimself,ashishost,whenhesawtheshylookonVassenka’sface。
Onthetablelayapieceofstickwhichtheyhadbrokentogetherthatmorningatgymnastics,tryingtoraiseuptheswollenbars。Levintookthefragmentinhishandsandbeganbreakingoffthesplitendofthestick,notknowinghowtobegin。
`Iwanted……’Hepaused,butsuddenly,rememberingKittyandeverythingthathadhappened,hesaid,lookinghimresolutelyintheface:`Ihaveorderedthehorsestobeputtoforyou。’
`Howso?’Vassenkabeganinsurprise。`Todrivewhere?’
`Foryoutodrivetothestation,’Levinsaidgloomilypinchingofftheendofthestick。
`Areyougoingaway,orhassomethinghappened?’
`IthappensthatIexpectvisitors,’saidLevin,hisstrongfingersmoreandmorerapidlybreakingofftheendsofthesplitstick。`AndI’mnotexpectingvisitors,andnothinghashappened,butIbegyoutogoaway。
Youcanexplainmyrudenessasyoulike。’
Vassenkadrewhimselfup。
`Ibegyoutoexplain……’hesaidwithdignity,understandingatlast。
`Ican’texplain,’Levinsaidsoftlyanddeliberately,tryingtocontrolthetremblingofhisjaw;`andyou’dbetternotask。’
Andasthesplitendswereallbrokenoff,Levinclutchedthethickendsinhisfinger,splitthestickintwo,andcarefullycaughttheendasitfell。
Probablythesightofthosetensehands,ofthesamemuscleshehadprovedthatmorningatgymnastics,oftheglitteringeyes,thesoftvoice,andquiveringjaws,convincedVassenkabetterthananywords。Hebowed,shrugginghisshoulders,andsmilingcontemptuously。
`MayInotseeOblonsky?’
TheshrugandthesmiledidnotirritateLevin。`Whatelsewasthereforhimtodo?’hethought。
`I’llsendhimtoyouatonce。’
`Whatmadnessisthis?’StepanArkadyevichsaidwhen,afterhearingfromhisfriendthathewasbeingturnedoutofthehouse,hefoundLevininthegarden,wherehewaswalkingaboutwaitingforhisguest’sdeparture。
`Maisc’estridicule!Whatfleahasbittenyou?Maisc’estdudernierridicule!Whatdidyouthink,ifayoungman……’
ButtheplacewhereLevinhadbeenbittenwasevidentlystillsore,forheturnedpaleagain,whenStepanArkadyevichwouldhaveenlargedonthereason,andhehimselfcuthimshort。
`Pleasedon’tgointoit!Ican’thelpit。IfeelashamedofthewayI’mtreatingyouandhim。Butitwon’tbe,Iimagine,agreatgrieftohimtogo,andhispresencewasdistastefultomeandtomywife。’
`Butit’sinsultingtohim!Etpuisc’estridicule。’
`Andtomeit’sbothinsultinganddistressing!AndI’mnotinfaultinanyway,andthere’snoneedformetosuffer。’
`Well,thisIdidn’texpectofyou!Onpeutê;trejaloux,maisà;cepointc’estdudernierridicule!’
Levinturnedquickly,andwalkedawayfromhimintothedepthsoftheavenue,andhewentonwalkingupanddownalone。Soonheheardtherumbleofthetarantass,andsawfrombehindthetreeshowVassenka,sittinginthehayunluckilytherewasnoseatinthetarantass
inhisScotchcap,wasdrivenalongtheavenue,joltingupanddownovertheruts。
`What’sthis?’Levinthought,whenafootmanranoutofthehouseandstoppedthetarantass。Itwasthemechanician,whomLevinhadtotallyforgotten。Themechanician,bowinglow,saidsomethingtoVeslovsky,thenclamberedintothetarantassandtheydroveofftogether。
StepanArkadyevichandthePrincessweremuchupsetbyLevin’saction。Andhehimselffeltnotonlyinthehighestdegreeridicule,butalsoutterlyguiltyanddisgraced。Butrememberingwhatsufferingsheandhiswifehadbeenthrough,whenheaskedhimselfhowheshouldactanothertime,heansweredthathewoulddopreciselythesame。
Inspiteofallthis,towardtheendofthatday,everyone,exceptthePrincess,whocouldnotpardonLevin’saction,becameextraordinarilylivelyandgood-humored,likechildrenafterapunishment,orgrown-uppeopleafteradreary,ceremoniousreception,sothatbytheeveningVassenka’sdismissalwasspokenof,intheabsenceofthePrincess,asthoughitweresomeremoteevent。AndDolly,whohadinheritedherfather’sgiftofhumorousstorytelling,madeVarenkahelplesswithlaughterassherelatedforthethirdandfourthtime,alwayswithfreshhumorousadditions,howshehadjustputonhernewribandsforthebenefitofthevisitor,and,ongoingintothedrawingroom,hadsuddenlyheardtherumbleofthechariot。AndwhoshouldbeinthechariotbutVassenkahimself,withhisScotchcap,andhissongs,andhisgaiters,andall,sittinginthehay。
`Ifonlyyou’dorderedoutthecarriage!Butno!AndthenIhear:
``Stop!’Oh,Ithoughtthey’verelented。Ilookout-andafatGermanisbeingsatdownbyhim,andthey’redrivingaway……Andmynewribandsallfornothing!……’
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TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart6,Chapter16[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter16DaryaAlexandrovnacarriedoutherintentionandwenttoseeAnna。ShewassorrytoannoyhersisterandtodoanythingLevindisliked。ShequiteunderstoodhowrighttheLevinswereinnotwishingtohaveanythingtodowithVronsky。ButshefeltshemustgoandseeAnna,andshowherthatherfeelingscouldnotbechanged,inspiteofthechangeinherposition。
ThatshemightbeindependentoftheLevinsinthisexpedition,DaryaAlexandrovnasenttothevillagetohirehorsesforthedrive;butLevinlearningofitwenttohertoprotest。
`WhatmakesyousupposethatIdislikeyourgoing?But,evenifdiddislikeit,Ishouldstillmoredislikeyournottakingmyhorses,’
hesaid。`Younevertoldmethatyouweregoingdefinitely。Hiringhorsesinthevillageisdisagreeabletome,and,what’sofmoreimportance,they’llundertakethejobandnevergetyouthere。Ihavehorses。Andifyoudon’twanttowoundme,you’lltakemine。’
DaryaAlexandrovnahadtoconsent,andonthedayfixedLevinhadreadyforhissister-in-lawasetoffourhorsesandrelays,gettingthemtogetherfromthefarmandsaddlehorses-notatallasmart-lookingset,butcapableoftakingDaryaAlexandrovnathewholedistanceinasingleday。Atthatmoment,whenhorseswerewantedforthePrincess,whowasgoing,andforthemidwife,itwasadifficultmatterforLevintomakeupthenumber,butthedutiesofhospitalitywouldnotlethimallowDaryaAlexandrovnatohirehorseswhenstayinginhishouse。Moreover,hewaswellawarethatthetwentyroublesthatwouldbeaskedforthejourneywereaseriousmatterforher;DaryaAlexandrovna’specuniaryaffairs,whichwereinaveryunsatisfactorystate,weretakentoheartbytheLevinsasiftheyweretheirown。
DaryaAlexandrovna,byLevin’sadvice,startedbeforedaybreak。
Theroadwasgood,thecarriagecomfortable,thehorsestrottedalongmerrily,andonthebox,besidethecoachman,satthecountinghouseclerk,whomLevinwassendinginsteadofagroomforgreatersecurity。DaryaAlexandrovnadozedandwakeduponlyonreachingtheinnwherethehorsesweretobechanged。
Afterdrinkingteaatthesamewell-to-dopeasant’swithwhomLevinhadstayedonthewaytoSviiazhsky’s,andchattingwiththewomenabouttheirchildren,andwiththeoldmanaboutCountVronsky,whomthelatterpraisedveryhighly,DaryaAlexandrovna,atteno’clock,wentonagain。Athome,lookingafterherchildren,shehadnotimetothink。Sonow,afterthisjourneyoffourhours,allthethoughtsshehadsuppressedbeforerushedswarmingintoherbrain,andshethoughtoverallherlifeassheneverhadbefore,andfromthemostdifferentpointsofview。Herthoughtsseemedstrangeeventoherself。Atfirstshethoughtaboutthechildren,aboutwhomshewasuneasy,althoughthePrincessandKittyshereckonedmoreuponherhadpromisedtolookafterthem。`IfonlyMashadoesnotbeginhernaughtytricks,ifGrishaisn’tkickedbyahorse,andLily’sstomachisn’tupsetagain!’Butthesequestionsofthepresentweresucceededbyquestionsoftheimmediatefuture。ShebeganthinkinghowshehadtogetanewflatinMoscowforthecomingwinter,torenewthedrawing-roomfurniture,andtomakehereldergirlacloak。Thenquestionsofthemoreremotefutureoccurredtoher:howshewastoplaceherchildrenintheworld。`Thegirlsareallright,’shethought;`buttheboys?’
`It’sallveryfineformetobeteachingGrisha,butofcoursethat’sonlybecauseIamfreemyselfnow,I’mnotwithchild。Stiva,ofcourse,there’snocountingon。Andwiththehelpofgood-naturedfriendsIcanbringthemup;butifthere’sanotherbabycoming?……’Andthethoughtstruckherhowunjustlyitwassaid,thatthecurselaidonwomanwasthatinsorrowsheshouldbringforthchildren。`Thebirthitself,that’snothing;
butthemonthsofcarryingthechild-that’swhat’ssointolerable,’shethought,picturingtoherselfherlastpregnancy,andthedeathofthelastbaby。Andsherecalledtheconversationshehadjusthadwiththeyoungwomanattheinn。Onbeingaskedwhethershehadanychildren,thehandsomeyoungwomanhadansweredcheerfully。
`Ihadagirlbaby,butGodsetmefree;IburiedherlastLent。’
`Well,didyougrieveverymuchforher?’askedDaryaAlexandrovna。
`Whygrieve?Theoldmanhasgrandchildrenenoughasitis。Itwasonlyatrouble。Noworking,nornothing。Onlyatie。’
ThisanswerhadstruckDaryaAlexandrovnaasrevoltinginspiteofthegood-naturedandpleasingfaceoftheyoungwoman;butnowshecouldnothelprecallingthesewords。Inthosecynicalwordstherewasindeedagrainoftruth。
`Yes,ingeneral,’thoughtDaryaAlexandrovna,lookingbackoverherwholeexistenceduringthosefifteenyearsofhermarriedlife,`pregnancy,sickness,mentalincapacity,indifferencetoeverything-and,mostofall,hideousness。Kitty,youngandprettyassheis,evenKittyhaslostherlooks;andI,whenI’mwithchild,becomehideous,Iknowit。Thebirth,theagony,thehideousagonies,thatlastmoment……Thenthenursing,thesleeplessnights,thefearfulpains……’
DaryaAlexandrovnashudderedatthemererecollectionofthepainfromsorebreastswhichshehadsufferedwithalmosteverychild。`Thenthechildren’sillnesses,thateverlastingapprehension;thenbringingthemup;evilpropensities’shethoughtoflittleMasha’scrimeamongtheraspberries,`education,Latin-it’sallsoincomprehensibleanddifficult。And,onthetopofitall,thedeathofthesechildren。’Andthereroseagainbeforeherimaginationthecruelmemorythatalwaystorehermother’sheart,ofthedeathofherlastlittlebaby,whohaddiedofcroup;hisfuneral,thecallousindifferenceofallatthelittlepinkcoffin,andherowntornheart,andherlonelyanguishatthesightofthepalelittlebrowwiththecurlsfallingontemples,andtheopen,wonderinglittlemouthseeninthecoffinatthemomentwhenitwasbeingcoveredwiththelittlepinklidwithagalloonedcrossonit。
`Andallthis-what’sitfor?Whatistocomeofitall?This:
I’mwastingmylife,neverhavingamoment’speace,eitherwithchild,ornursingachild,foreverirritable,peevish,wretchedmyselfandworryingothers,repulsivetomyhusband,whilethechildrenaregrowingupunhappy,badlyeducatedandpenniless。Evennow,ifitweren’tforspendingthesummerattheLevins’,Idon’tknowhowweshouldbemanagingtolive。