CHAPTERX
ATTHEBACKOFTHENORTHWIND
IHAVEnowcometothemostdifficultpartofmystory。Andwhy?
BecauseIdonotknowenoughaboutit。AndwhyshouldInotknowasmuchaboutthispartasaboutanyotherpart?ForofcourseIcouldknownothingaboutthestoryexceptDiamondhadtoldit;
andwhyshouldnotDiamondtellaboutthecountryatthebackofthenorthwind,aswellasabouthisadventuresingettingthere?
Because,whenhecameback,hehadforgottenagreatdeal,andwhathedidrememberwasveryhardtotell。Thingstherearesodifferentfromthingshere!Thepeopletheredonotspeakthesamelanguageforonething。Indeed,Diamondinsistedthattheretheydonotspeakatall。Idonotthinkhewasright,butitmaywellhaveappearedsotoDiamond。Thefactis,wehavedifferentreportsoftheplacefromthemosttrustworthypeople。
Thereforeweareboundtobelievethatitappearssomewhatdifferenttodifferentpeople。All,however,agreeinageneralwayaboutit。
Iwilltellyousomethingofwhattwoverydifferentpeoplehavereported,bothofwhomknewmoreaboutit,Ibelieve,thanHerodotus。
Oneofthemspeaksfromhisownexperience,forhevisitedthecountry;
theotherfromthetestimonyofayoungpeasantgirlwhocamebackfromitforamonth’svisittoherfriends。TheformerwasagreatItalianofnoblefamily,whodiedmorethanfivehundredyearsago;
thelatteraScotchshepherdwhodiednotfortyyearsago。
TheItalian,then,informsusthathehadtoenterthatcountrythroughafiresohotthathewouldhavethrownhimselfintoboilingglasstocoolhimself。ThiswasnotDiamond’sexperience,butthenDurante——thatwasthenameoftheItalian,anditmeansLasting,forhisbookswilllastaslongasthereareenoughmenintheworldworthyofhavingthem——Durantewasanelderlyman,andDiamondwasalittleboy,andsotheirexperiencemustbealittledifferent。
Thepeasantgirl,ontheotherhand,fellfastasleepinawood,andwokeinthesamecountry。
Indescribingit,Durantesaysthatthegroundeverywheresmeltsweetly,andthatagentle,even-temperedwind,whichneverblewfasterorslower,breathedinhisfaceashewent,makingalltheleavespointoneway,notsoastodisturbthebirdsinthetopsofthetrees,but,onthecontrary,soundingabasstotheirsong。
Hedescribesalsoalittleriverwhichwassofullthatitslittlewaves,asithurriedalong,bentthegrass,fullofredandyellowflowers,throughwhichitflowed。Hesaysthatthepureststreamintheworldbesidethisonewouldlookasifitweremixedwithsomethingthatdidnotbelongtoit,evenalthoughitwasflowingeverinthebrownshadowofthetrees,andneithersunnormooncouldshineuponit。
HeseemstoimplythatitisalwaysthemonthofMayinthatcountry。
Itwouldbeoutofplacetodescribeherethewonderfulsightshesaw,forthemusicofthemisinanotherkeyfromthatofthisstory,andIshallthereforeonlyaddfromtheaccountofthistraveller,thatthepeopletherearesofreeandsojustandsohealthy,thateveryoneofthemhasacrownlikeakingandamitrelikeapriest。
Thepeasantgirl——Kilmenywashername——couldnotreportsuchgrandthingsasDurante,for,astheshepherdsays,tellingherstoryasItellDiamond’s——
“Kilmenyhadbeensheknewnotwhere,AndKilmenyhadseenwhatshecouldnotdeclare;
Kilmenyhadbeenwherethecocknevercrew,Wheretherainneverfell,andthewindneverblew。
Butitseemedastheharpoftheskyhadrung,Andtheairsofheavenplayedroundhertongue,Whenshespokeofthelovelyformsshehadseen,Andalandwheresinhadneverbeen;
Alandofloveandalandoflight,Withoutensun,ormoon,ornight;
Wheretheriverswayedalivingstream,Andthelightapureandcloudlessbeam:
Thelandofvisionitwouldseem,Andstillaneverlastingdream。”
Thelasttwolinesaretheshepherd’sownremark,andamatterofopinion。Butitisclear,Ithink,thatKilmenymusthavedescribedthesamecountryasDurantesaw,though,nothavinghisexperience,shecouldneitherunderstandnordescribeitsowell。
NowImustgiveyousuchfragmentsofrecollectionasDiamondwasabletobringbackwithhim。
Whenhecametohimselfafterhefell,hefoundhimselfatthebackofthenorthwind。NorthWindherselfwasnowheretobeseen。
Neitherwasthereavestigeofsnoworoficewithinsight。
Thesuntoohadvanished;butthatwasnomatter,fortherewasplentyofacertainstillraylesslight。Whereitcamefromheneverfoundout;buthethoughtitbelongedtothecountryitself。
Sometimeshethoughtitcameoutoftheflowers,whichwereverybright,buthadnostrongcolour。Hesaidtheriver——forallagreethatthereisariverthere——flowednotonlythrough,butovergrass:itschannel,insteadofbeingrock,stones,pebbles,sand,oranythingelse,wasofpuremeadowgrass,notoverlong。Heinsistedthatifitdidnotsingtunesinpeople’sears,itsungtunesintheirheads,inproofofwhichImaymentionthat,inthetroubleswhichfollowed,Diamondwasoftenheardsinging;andwhenaskedwhathewassinging,wouldanswer,“Oneofthetunestheriveratthebackofthenorthwindsung。”AndImayaswellsayatoncethatDiamondnevertoldthesethingstoanyonebut——no,Ihadbetternotsaywhoitwas;
butwhoeveritwastoldme,andIthoughtitwouldbewelltowritethemformychild-readers。
Hecouldnotsayhewasveryhappythere,forhehadneitherhisfathernormotherwithhim,buthefeltsostillandquietandpatientandcontented,that,asfarasthemerefeelingwent,itwassomethingbetterthanmerehappiness。Nothingwentwrongatthebackofthenorthwind。Neitherwasanythingquiteright,hethought。Onlyeverythingwasgoingtoberightsomeday。
HisaccountdisagreedwiththatofDurante,andagreedwiththatofKilmeny,inthis,thatheprotestedtherewasnowindthereatall。
Ifancyhemissedit。Atalleventswecouldnotdowithoutwind。
Italldependsonhowbigourlungsarewhetherthewindistoostrongforusornot。
Whenthepersonhetoldaboutitaskedhimwhetherhesawanybodyheknewthere,heanswered,“Onlyalittlegirlbelongingtothegardener,whothoughthehadlosther,butwasquitemistaken,forthereshewassafeenough,andwastocomebacksomeday,asIcameback,iftheywouldonlywait。”
“Didyoutalktoher,Diamond?”
“No。Nobodytalksthere。Theyonlylookateachother,andunderstandeverything。”
“Isitcoldthere?”
“No。”
“Isithot?”
“No。”
“Whatisitthen?”
“Youneverthinkaboutsuchthingsthere。”
“Whataqueerplaceitmustbe!“
“It’saverygoodplace。”
“Doyouwanttogobackagain?”
“No;Idon’tthinkIhaveleftit;Ifeelithere,somewhere。”
“Didthepeopletherelookpleased?”
“Yes——quitepleased,onlyalittlesad。”
“Thentheydidn’tlookglad?”
“Theylookedasiftheywerewaitingtobegladdersomeday。”
ThiswashowDiamondusedtoanswerquestionsaboutthatcountry。
AndnowIwilltakeupthestoryagain,andtellyouhowhegotbacktothiscountry。
CHAPTERXI
HOWDIAMONDGOTHOMEAGAIN
WHENoneatthebackofthenorthwindwantedtoknowhowthingsweregoingwithanyoneheloved,hehadtogotoacertaintree,climbthestem,andsitdowninthebranches。Inafewminutes,ifhekeptverystill,hewouldseesomethingatleastofwhatwasgoingonwiththepeopleheloved。
OnedaywhenDiamondwassittinginthistree,hebegantolongverymuchtogethomeagain,andnowonder,forhesawhismothercrying。
Durantesaysthatthepeopletheremayalwaysfollowtheirwishes,becausetheyneverwishbutwhatisgood。Diamond’swishwastogethome,andhewouldfainfollowhiswish。
Buthowwashetosetaboutit?IfhecouldonlyseeNorthWind!
Butthemomenthehadgottoherback,shewasgonealtogetherfromhissight。Hehadneverseenherback。Shemightbesittingonherdoorstepstill,lookingsouthwards,andwaiting,whiteandthinandblue-eyed,untilshewaswanted。Orshemighthaveagainbecomeamightycreature,withpowertodothatwhichwasdemandedofher,andgonefarawayuponmanymissions。Shemustbesomewhere,however。
Hecouldnotgohomewithouther,andthereforehemustfindher。
Shecouldneverhaveintendedtoleavehimalwaysawayfromhismother。
Iftherehadbeenanydangerofthat,shewouldhavetoldhim,andgivenhimhischoiceaboutgoing。ForNorthWindwasrighthonest。
HowtofindNorthWind,therefore,occupiedallhisthoughts。
Inhisanxietyabouthismother,heusedtoclimbthetreeeveryday,andsitinitsbranches。Howevermanyofthedwellerstheredidso,theyneverincommodedoneanother;forthemomentonegotintothetree,hebecameinvisibletoeveryoneelse;anditwassuchawide-spreadingtreethattherewasroomforeveryoneofthepeopleofthecountryinit,withouttheleastinterferencewitheachother。Sometimes,ongettingdown,twoofthemwouldmeetattheroot,andthentheywouldsmiletoeachothermoresweetlythanatanyothertime,asmuchastosay,“Ah,you’vebeenuptheretoo!“
Onedayhewassittingononeoftheouterbranchesofthetree,lookingsouthwardsafterhishome。Farawaywasablueshiningsea,dottedwithgleamingandsparklingspecksofwhite。Thoseweretheicebergs。Nearerhesawagreatrangeofsnow-cappedmountains,anddownbelowhimthelovelymeadow-grassofthecountry,withthestreamflowingandflowingthroughit,awaytowardsthesea。
Ashelookedhebegantowonder,forthewholecountrylaybeneathhimlikeamap,andthatwhichwasnearhimlookedjustassmallasthatwhichheknewtobemilesaway。Theridgeoficewhichencircleditappearedbutafewyardsoff,andnolargerthantherowofpebbleswithwhichachildwillmarkouttheboundariesofthekingdomhehasappropriatedonthesea-shore。HethoughthecoulddistinguishthevapouryformofNorthWind,seatedashehadlefther,ontheotherside。Hastilyhedescendedthetree,andtohisamazementfoundthatthemapormodelofthecountrystilllayathisfeet。
Hestoodinit。Withonestridehehadcrossedtheriver;
withanotherhehadreachedtheridgeofice;withthethirdhesteppedoveritspeaks,andsankwearilydownatNorthWind’sknees。
Forthereshesatonherdoorstep。Thepeaksofthegreatridgeoficewereasloftyaseverbehindher,andthecountryatherbackhadvanishedfromDiamond’sview。
NorthWindwasasstillasDiamondhadlefther。Herpalefacewaswhiteasthesnow,andhermotionlesseyeswereasblueasthecavernsintheice。ButtheinstantDiamondtouchedher,herfacebegantochangelikethatofonewakingfromsleep。
Lightbegantoglimmerfromtheblueofhereyes。
Amomentmore,andshelaidherhandonDiamond’shead,andbeganplayingwithhishair。Diamondtookholdofherhand,andlaidhisfacetoit。Shegavealittlestart。
“Howveryaliveyouare,child!“shemurmured。“Comenearertome。”
Bythehelpofthestonesallaroundheclamberedupbesideher,andlaidhimselfagainstherbosom。Shegaveagreatsigh,slowlyliftedherarms,andslowlyfoldedthemabouthim,untilsheclaspedhimclose。Yetamoment,andsherousedherself,andcamequiteawake;andthecoldofherbosom,whichhadpiercedDiamond’sbones,vanished。
“HaveyoubeensittinghereeversinceIwentthroughyou,dearNorthWind?”askedDiamond,strokingherhand。
“Yes。”sheanswered,lookingathimwithheroldkindness。
“Ain’tyouverytired?”
“No;I’veoftenhadtositlonger。Doyouknowhowlongyouhavebeen?”
“Oh!yearsandyears。”answeredDiamond。
“Youhavejustbeensevendays。”returnedNorthWind。
“IthoughtIhadbeenahundredyears!“exclaimedDiamond。
“Yes,Idaresay。”repliedNorthWind。“You’vebeenawayfromheresevendays;buthowlongyoumayhavebeeninthereisquiteanotherthing。Behindmybackandbeforemyfacethingsaresodifferent!Theydon’tgoatallbythesamerule。”
“I’mveryglad。”saidDiamond,afterthinkingawhile。
“Why?”askedNorthWind。
“BecauseI’vebeensuchalongtimethere,andsuchalittlewhileawayfrommother。Why,shewon’tbeexpectingmehomefromSandwichyet!“
“No。Butwemustn’ttalkanylonger。I’vegotmyordersnow,andwemustbeoffinafewminutes。”
NextmomentDiamondfoundhimselfsittingaloneontherock。
NorthWindhadvanished。Acreaturelikeagreathumble-beeorcockchaferflewpasthisface;butitcouldbeneither,fortherewerenoinsectsamongsttheice。Itpassedhimagainandagain,flyingincirclesaroundhim,andheconcludedthatitmustbeNorthWindherself,nobiggerthanTomThumbwhenhismotherputhiminthenutshelllinedwithflannel。Butshewasnolongervapouryandthin。Shewassolid,althoughtiny。Amomentmore,andsheperchedonhisshoulder。
“Comealong,Diamond。”shesaidinhisear,inthesmallestandhighestoftreblevoices;“itistimeweweresettingoutforSandwich。”
Diamondcouldjustseeher,byturninghisheadtowardshisshoulderasfarashecould,butonlywithoneeye,forhisnosecamebetweenherandtheother。
“Won’tyoutakemeinyourarmsandcarryme?”hesaidinawhisper,forheknewshedidnotlikealoudvoicewhenshewassmall。
“Ah!youungratefulboy。”returnedNorthWind,smiling“howdareyoumakegameofme?Yes,Iwillcarryyou,butyoushallwalkabitforyourimpertinencefirst。Comealong。”
Shejumpedfromhisshoulder,butwhenDiamondlookedforherupontheground,hecouldseenothingbutalittlespiderwithlonglegsthatmadeitswayovertheicetowardsthesouth。Itranveryfastindeedforaspider,butDiamondranalongwaybeforeit,andthenwaitedforit。Itwasupwithhimsoonerthanhehadexpected,however,andithadgrownagooddeal。Andthespidergrewandgrewandwentfasterandfaster,tillallatonceDiamonddiscoveredthatitwasnotaspider,butaweasel;andawayglidedtheweasel,andawaywentDiamondafterit,andittookalltheruntherewasinhimtokeepupwiththeweasel。Andtheweaselgrew,andgrew,andgrew,tillallatonceDiamondsawthattheweaselwasnotaweaselbutacat。Andawaywentthecat,andDiamondafterit。
Andwhenhehadrunhalfamile,hefoundthecatwaitingforhim,sittingupandwashingherfacenottolosetime。Andawaywentthecatagain,andDiamondafterit。Butthenexttimehecameupwiththecat,thecatwasnotacat,butahunting-leopard。
Andthehunting-leopardgrewtoajaguar,allcoveredwithspotslikeeyes。AndthejaguargrewtoaBengaltiger。AndatnoneofthemwasDiamondafraid,forhehadbeenatNorthWind’sback,andhecouldbeafraidofhernolongerwhatevershedidorgrew。
Andthetigerflewoverthesnowinastraightlineforthesouth,growinglessandlesstoDiamond’seyestillitwasonlyablackspeckuponthewhiteness;andthenitvanishedaltogether。
AndnowDiamondfeltthathewouldrathernotrunanyfarther,andthattheicehadgotveryrough。Besides,hewasneartheprecipicesthatboundedthesea,soheslackenedhispacetoawalk,sayingaloudtohimself:
“WhenNorthWindhaspunishedmeenoughformakinggameofher,shewillcomebacktome;Iknowshewill,forIcan’tgomuchfartherwithouther。”
“Youdearboy!Itwasonlyinfun。HereIam!“saidNorthWind’svoicebehindhim。
Diamondturned,andsawherashelikedbesttoseeher,standingbesidehim,atalllady。
“Where’sthetiger?”heasked,forheknewallthecreaturesfromapicturebookthatMissColemanhadgivenhim。“But,ofcourse。”
headded,“youwerethetiger。Iwaspuzzledandforgot。Isawitsuchalongwayoffbeforeme,andthereyouwerebehindme。
It’ssoodd,youknow。”
“Itmustlookveryoddtoyou,Diamond:Iseethat。Butitisnomoreoddtomethantobreakanoldpineintwo。”
“Well,that’soddenough。”remarkedDiamond。
“Soitis!Iforgot。Well,noneofthesethingsareoddertomethanitistoyoutoeatbreadandbutter。”
“Well,that’soddtoo,whenIthinkofit。”persistedDiamond。
“Ishouldjustlikeasliceofbreadandbutter!I’mafraidtosayhowlongitis——howlongitseemstome,thatis——sinceIhadanythingtoeat。”
“Comethen。”saidNorthWind,stoopingandholdingoutherarms。
“Youshallhavesomebreadandbutterverysoon。Iamgladtofindyouwantsome。”
Diamondhelduphisarmstomeethers,andwassafeuponherbosom。
NorthWindboundedintotheair。Hertressesbegantoliftandriseandspreadandstreamandflowandflutter;andwitharoarfromherhairandanansweringroarfromoneofthegreatglaciersbesidethem,whoseslowtorrenttumbledtwoorthreeicebergsatonceintothewavesattheirfeet,NorthWindandDiamondwentflyingsouthwards。
CHAPTERXII
WHOMETDIAMONDATSANDWICH
AsTHEYflew,sofasttheywentthattheseaslidawayfromunderthemlikeagreatwebofshotsilk,blueshotwithgrey,andgreenshotwithpurple。Theywentsofastthatthestarsthemselvesappearedtosailawaypastthemoverhead,“likegoldenboats。”
onablueseaturnedupsidedown。AndtheywentsofastthatDiamondhimselfwenttheotherwayasfast——ImeanhewentfastasleepinNorthWind’sarms。
Whenhewoke,afacewasbendingoverhim;butitwasnotNorthWind’s;
itwashismother’s。Heputouthisarmstoher,andsheclaspedhimtoherbosomandburstoutcrying。Diamondkissedheragainandagaintomakeherstop。Perhapskissingisthebestthingforcrying,butitwillnotalwaysstopit。
“Whatisthematter,mother?”hesaid。
“Oh,Diamond,mydarling!youhavebeensoill!“shesobbed。
“No,motherdear。I’veonlybeenatthebackofthenorthwind。”
returnedDiamond。
“Ithoughtyouweredead。”saidhismother。
Butthatmomentthedoctorcamein。
“Oh!there!“saidthedoctorwithgentlecheerfulness;“we’rebetterto-day,Isee。”
Thenhedrewthemotheraside,andtoldhernottotalktoDiamond,ortomindwhathemightsay;forhemustbekeptasquietaspossible。
AndindeedDiamondwasnotmuchinclinedtotalk,forhefeltverystrangeandweak,whichwaslittlewonder,seeingthatallthetimehehadbeenawayhehadonlysuckedafewlumpsofice,andtherecouldnotbemuchnourishmentinthem。
Nowwhileheislyingthere,gettingstrongagainwithchickenbrothandothernicethings,Iwilltellmyreaderswhathadbeentakingplaceathishome,fortheyoughttobetoldit。
TheymayhaveforgottenthatMissColemanwasinaverypoorstateofhealth。Nowtherewerethreereasonsforthis。
Inthefirstplace,herlungswerenotstrong。Inthesecondplace,therewasagentlemansomewherewhohadnotbehavedverywelltoher。
Inthethirdplace,shehadnotanythingparticulartodo。
Thesethreenotstogetherareenoughtomakealadyveryillindeed。
Ofcourseshecouldnothelpthefirstcause;butiftheothertwocauseshadnotexisted,thatwouldhavebeenoflittleconsequence;
shewouldonlyhavetobealittlecareful。Thesecondshecouldnothelpquite;butifshehadhadanythingtodo,andhaddoneitwell,itwouldhavebeenverydifficultforanymantobehavebadlytoher。
Andforthisthirdcauseofherillness,ifshehadhadanythingtodothatwasworthdoing,shemighthavebornehisbadbehavioursothateventhatwouldnothavemadeherill。Itisnotalwayseasy,Iconfess,tofindsomethingtodothatisworthdoing,butthemostdifficultthingsareconstantlybeingdone,andshemighthavefoundsomethingifshehadtried。Herfaultlayinthis,thatshehadnottried。But,tobesure,herfatherandmotherweretoblamethattheyhadneversethergoing。Onlythenagain,nobodyhadtoldherfatherandmotherthattheyoughttosethergoinginthatdirection。Soasnoneofthemwouldfinditoutofthemselves,NorthWindhadtoteachthem。
WeknowthatNorthWindwasverybusythatnightonwhichsheleftDiamondinthecathedral。ShehadinasensebeenblowingthroughandthroughtheColemans’housethewholeofthenight。
First,MissColeman’smaidhadleftachinkofhermistress’swindowopen,thinkingshehadshutit,andNorthWindhadwoundafewofherhairsroundthelady’sthroat。Shewasconsiderablyworsethenextmorning。Again,theshipwhichNorthWindhadsunkthatverynightbelongedtoMr。Coleman。NorwillmyreadersunderstandwhataheavylossthiswastohimuntilIhaveinformedthemthathehadbeengettingpoorerandpoorerforsometime。
Hewasnotsosuccessfulinhisspeculationsashehadbeen,forhespeculatedagreatdealmorethanwasright,anditwastimeheshouldbepulledup。Itisahardthingforarichmantogrowpoor;
butitisanawfulthingforhimtogrowdishonest,andsomekindsofspeculationleadamandeepintodishonestybeforehethinkswhatheisabout。Povertywillnotmakeamanworthless——hemaybeworthagreatdealmorewhenheispoorthanhewaswhenhewasrich;
butdishonestygoesveryfarindeedtomakeamanofnovalue——
athingtobethrownoutinthedust-holeofthecreation,likeabitofabrokenbasin,oradirtyrag。SoNorthWindhadtolookafterMr。Coleman,andtrytomakeanhonestmanofhim。
Soshesanktheshipwhichwashislastventure,andhewaswhathimselfandhiswifeandtheworldcalledruined。
Norwasthisallyet。ForonboardthatvesselMissColeman’sloverwasapassenger;andwhenthenewscamethatthevesselhadgonedown,andthatallonboardhadperished,wemaybesureshedidnotthinkthelossoftheirfinehouseandgardenandfurniturethegreatestmisfortuneintheworld。
Ofcourse,thetroubledidnotendwithMr。Colemanandhisfamily。
Nobodycansufferalone。Whenthecauseofsufferingismostdeeplyhiddenintheheart,andnobodyknowsanythingaboutitbutthemanhimself,hemustbeagreatandagoodmanindeed,suchasfewofushaveknown,ifthepaininsidehimdoesnotmakehimbehavesoastocauseallabouthimtobemoreorlessuncomfortable。
Butwhenamanbringsmoney-troublesonhimselfbymakinghastetoberich,thenmostofthepeoplehehastodowithmustsufferinthesamewaywithhimself。Theelm-treewhichNorthWindblewdownthatverynight,asifsmallandgreattrialsweretobegatheredinoneheap,crushedMissColeman’sprettysummer-house:
justsothefallofMr。Colemancrushedthelittlefamilythatlivedoverhiscoach-houseandstable。BeforeDiamondwaswellenoughtobetakenhome,therewasnohomeforhimtogoto。
Mr。Coleman——orhiscreditors,forIdonotknowtheparticulars——
hadsoldhouse,carriage,horses,furniture,andeverything。
HeandhiswifeanddaughterandMrs。CrumphadgonetoliveinasmallhouseinHoxton,wherehewouldbeunknown,andwhencehecouldwalktohisplaceofbusinessintheCity。
Forhewasnotanoldman,andhopedyettoretrievehisfortunes。
Letushopethathelivedtoretrievehishonesty,thetailofwhichhadslippedthroughhisfingerstotheverylastjoint,ifnotbeyondit。
Ofcourse,Diamond’sfatherhadnothingtodoforatime,butitwasnotsohardforhimtohavenothingtodoasitwasforMissColeman。
Hewrotetohiswifethat,ifhersisterwouldkeephertheretillhegotaplace,itwouldbebetterforthem,andhewouldbegreatlyobligedtoher。Meantime,thegentlemanwhohadboughtthehousehadallowedhisfurnituretoremainwhereitwasforalittlewhile。
Diamond’sauntwasquitewillingtokeepthemaslongasshecould。
AndindeedDiamondwasnotyetwellenoughtobemovedwithsafety。
Whenhehadrecoveredsofarastobeabletogoout,onedayhismothergothersister’shusband,whohadalittlepony-cart,tocarrythemdowntothesea-shore,andleavethemthereforafewhours。
HehadsomebusinesstodofurtheronatRamsgate,andwouldpickthemupashereturned。Awhiffofthesea-airwoulddothembothgood,shesaid,andshethoughtbesidesshecouldbesttellDiamondwhathadhappenedifshehadhimquitetoherself。
CHAPTERXIII
THESEASIDE
DIAMONDandhismothersatdownupontheedgeoftheroughgrassthatborderedthesand。Thesunwasjustfarenoughpastitshighestnottoshineintheireyeswhentheylookedeastward。
Asweetlittlewindblewontheirleftside,andcomfortedthemotherwithoutlettingherknowwhatitwasthatcomfortedher。
Awaybeforethemstretchedthesparklingwatersoftheocean,everywaveofwhichflashedoutitsowndelightbackinthefaceofthegreatsun,whichlookeddownfromthestillnessofitsbluehousewithglorioussilentfaceuponitsflashingchildren。
Oneachhandtheshoreroundedoutwards,formingalittlebay。
Therewerenowhitecliffshere,asfurthernorthandsouth,andtheplacewasratherdreary,buttheskygotatthemsomuchthebetter。
Notahouse,notacreaturewaswithinsight。Drysandwasabouttheirfeet,andunderthemthinwirygrass,thatjustmanagedtogrowoutofthepoverty-strickenshore。
“Ohdear!“saidDiamond’smother,withadeepsigh,“it’sasadworld!“
“Isit?”saidDiamond。“Ididn’tknow。”
“Howshouldyouknow,child?You’vebeentoowelltakencareof,Itrust。”
“Ohyes,Ihave。”returnedDiamond。“I’msorry!Ithoughtyouweretakencareoftoo。Ithoughtmyfathertookcareofyou。
Iwillaskhimaboutit。Ithinkhemusthaveforgotten。”
“Dearboy!“saidhismother。“yourfather’sthebestmanintheworld。”
“SoIthought!“returnedDiamondwithtriumph。“Iwassureofit!——Well,doesn’thetakeverygoodcareofyou?”
“Yes,yes,hedoes。”answeredhismother,burstingintotears。
“Butwho’stotakecareofhim?Andhowishetotakecareofusifhe’sgotnothingtoeathimself?”
“Ohdear!“saidDiamondwithagasp;“hasn’thegotanythingtoeat?Oh!Imustgohometohim。”
“No,no,child。He’snotcometothatyet。Butwhat’stobecomeofus,Idon’tknow。”
“Areyouveryhungry,mother?There’sthebasket。Ithoughtyouputsomethingtoeatinit。”
“Oyoudarlingstupid!Ididn’tsayIwashungry。”returnedhismother,smilingthroughhertears。
“ThenIdon’tunderstandyouatall。”saidDiamond。“Dotellmewhat’sthematter。”
“Therearepeopleintheworldwhohavenothingtoeat,Diamond。”
“ThenIsupposetheydon’tstopinitanylonger。They——they——
whatyoucall——die——don’tthey?”
“Yes,theydo。Howwouldyoulikethat?”
“Idon’tknow。Inevertried。ButIsupposetheygowheretheygetsomethingtoeat。”
“Likeenoughtheydon’twantit。”saidhismother,petulantly。
“That’sallrightthen。”saidDiamond,thinkingIdaresaymorethanhechosetoputinwords。
“Isitthough?Poorboy!howlittleyouknowaboutthings!
Mr。Coleman’slostallhismoney,andyourfatherhasnothingtodo,andweshallhavenothingtoeatbyandby。”
“Areyousure,mother?”
“Sureofwhat?”
“Surethatweshallhavenothingtoeat。”
“No,thankHeaven!I’mnotsureofit。Ihopenot。”
“ThenIcan’tunderstandit,mother。There’sapieceofgingerbreadinthebasket,Iknow。”
“Oyoulittlebird!Youhavenomoresensethanasparrowthatpickswhatitwants,andneverthinksofthewinterandthefrostand,thesnow。”
“Ah——yes——Isee。Butthebirdsgetthroughthewinter,don’tthey?”
“Someofthemfalldeadontheground。”
“Theymustdiesometime。Theywouldn’tliketobebirdsalways。
Wouldyou,mother?”
“Whatachilditis!“thoughthismother,butshesaidnothing。
“Oh!nowIremember。”Diamondwenton。“FathertoldmethatdayIwenttoEppingForestwithhim,thattherose-bushes,andthemay-bushes,andtheholly-busheswerethebird’sbarns,fortherewerethehips,andthehaws,andtheholly-berries,allreadyforthewinter。”
“Yes;that’sallverytrue。Soyouseethebirdsareprovidedfor。
Buttherearenosuchbarnsforyouandme,Diamond。”
“Ain’tthere?”
“No。We’vegottoworkforourbread。”
“Thenlet’sgoandwork。”saidDiamond,gettingup。
“It’snouse。We’venotgotanythingtodo。”
“Thenlet’swait。”
“Thenweshallstarve。”
“No。There’sthebasket。Doyouknow,mother,IthinkIshallcallthatbasketthebarn。”
“It’snotaverybigone。Andwhenit’sempty——wherearewethen?”
“Atauntie’scupboard。”returnedDiamondpromptly。
“Butwecan’teatauntie’sthingsallupandleavehertostarve。”
“No,no。We’llgobacktofatherbeforethat。He’llhavefoundacupboardsomewherebythattime。”
“Howdoyouknowthat?”
“Idon’tknowit。ButIhaven’tgotevenacupboard,andI’vealwayshadplentytoeat。I’veheardyousayIhadtoomuch,sometimes。”
“ButItellyouthat’sbecauseI’vehadacupboardforyou,child。”
“Andwhenyourswasempty,auntieopenedhers。”
“Butthatcan’tgoon。”
“Howdoyouknow?Ithinktheremustbeabigcupboardsomewhere,outofwhichthelittlecupboardsarefilled,youknow,mother。”
“Well,IwishIcouldfindthedoorofthatcupboard。”saidhismother。
Butthesamemomentshestopped,andwassilentforagoodwhile。
IcannottellwhetherDiamondknewwhatshewasthinking,butI
thinkIknow。Shehadheardsomethingatchurchthedaybefore,whichcamebackuponher——somethinglikethis,thatshehadn’ttoeatfortomorrowaswellasforto-day;andthatwhatwasnotwantedcouldn’tbemissed。So,insteadofsayinganythingmore,shestretchedoutherhandforthebasket,andsheandDiamondhadtheirdinner。
AndDiamonddidenjoyit。Forthedriveandthefreshairhadmadehimquitehungry;andhedidnot,likehismother,troublehimselfaboutwhattheyshoulddineoffthatdayweek。Thefactwashehadlivedsolongwithoutanyfoodatallatthebackofthenorthwind,thatheknewquitewellthatfoodwasnotessentialtoexistence;
thatinfact,undercertaincircumstances,peoplecouldlivewithoutitwellenough。
Hismotherdidnotspeakmuchduringtheirdinner。Afteritwasovershehelpedhimtowalkaboutalittle,buthewasnotableformuchandsoongottired。Hedidnotgetfretful,though。
Hewastoogladofhavingthesunandthewindagain,tofretbecausehecouldnotrunabout。Helaydownonthedrysand,andhismothercoveredhimwithashawl。Shethensatbyhisside,andtookabitofworkfromherpocket。ButDiamondfeltrathersleepy,andturnedonhissideandgazedsleepilyoverthesand。
Afewyardsoffhesawsomethingfluttering。
“Whatisthat,mother?”hesaid。
“Onlyabitofpaper。”sheanswered。
“Itfluttersmorethanabitofpaperwould,Ithink。”saidDiamond。
“I’llgoandseeifyoulike。”saidhismother。“Myeyesarenoneofthebest。”
Sosheroseandwentandfoundthattheywerebothright,foritwasalittlebook,partlyburiedinthesand。Butseveralofitsleaveswereclearofthesand,andthesethewindkeptblowingaboutinaveryflutterfulmanner。ShetookitupandbroughtittoDiamond。
“Whatisit,mother?”heasked。
“Somenurseryrhymes,Ithink。”sheanswered。
“I’mtoosleepy。”saidDiamond。“Doreadsomeofthemtome。”
“Yes,Iwill。”shesaid,andbeganone——“Butthisissuchnonsense!“
shesaidagain。“Iwilltrytofindabetterone。”
Sheturnedtheleavessearching,butthreetimes,withsuddenpuffs,thewindblewtheleavesrustlingbacktothesameverses。
“Doreadthatone。”saidDiamond,whoseemedtobeofthesamemindasthewind。“Itsoundedverynice。Iamsureitisagoodone。”
Sohismotherthoughtitmightamusehim,thoughshecouldn’tfindanysenseinit。Sheneverthoughthemightunderstandit,althoughshecouldnot。
NowIdonotexactlyknowwhatthemotherread,butthisiswhatDiamondheard,orthoughtafterwardsthathehadheard。
Hewas,however,asIhavesaid,verysleepy。Andwhenhethoughtheunderstoodtheverseshemayhavebeenonlydreamingbetterones。
Thisishowtheywent——
Iknowariverwhosewatersrunasleeprunruneversingingintheshallowsdumbinthehollowssleepingsodeepandalltheswallowsthatdiptheirfeathersinthehollowsorintheshallowsarethemerriestswallowsofallfortheneststheybakewiththeclaytheycakewiththewatertheyshakefromtheirwingsthatrakethewateroutoftheshallowsorthehollowswillholdtogetherinanyweatherandsotheswallowsarethemerriestfellowsandhavethemerriestchildrenandarebuiltsonarrowliketheheadofanarrowtocuttheairandgojustwherethenicestwaterisflowingandthenicestdustisblowingforeachsonarrowlikeheadofanarrowisonlyabarrowtocarrythemudhemakesfromthenicestwaterflowingandthenicestdustthatisblowingtobuildhisnestforherhelovesbestwiththenicestcakeswhichthesunshinebakesallfortheirmerrychildrenallsocallowwithbeaksthatfollowgapingandhollowwiderandwideraftertheirfatheroraftertheirmotherthefood-providerwhobringsthemaspiderorawormthepoorhiderdownintheearthsothere’snodearthfortheirbeaksasyellowasthebuttercupsgrowingbesidetheflowingofthesingingriveralwaysandevergrowingandblowingforfastasthesheepawakeorasleepcropthemandcropthemtheycannotstopthembutuptheycreepandontheygoblowingandsowiththedaisiesthelittlewhitepraisestheygrowandtheyblowandtheyspreadouttheircrownandtheypraisethesunandwhenhegoesdowntheirpraisingisdoneandtheyfolduptheircrownandtheysleepeveryonetillovertheplainhe’sshiningamainandthey’reatitagainpraisingandpraisingsuchlowsongsraisingthatnoonehearsthembutthesunwhorearsthemandthesheepthatbitethemarethequietestsheepawakeorasleepwiththemerriestbleatandthelittlelambsarethemerriestlambstheyforgettoeatforthefrolicintheirfeetandthelambsandtheirdamsarethewhitestsheepwiththewoolliestwoolandthelongestwoolandthetrailingesttailsandtheyshinelikesnowinthegrassesthatgrowbythesingingriverthatsingsforeverandthesheepandthelambsaremerryforeverbecausetheriversingsandtheydrinkitandthelambsandtheirdamsarequietandwhitebecauseoftheirdietforwhattheybiteisbuttercupsyellowanddaisieswhiteandgrassasgreenastherivercanmakeitwithwindasmellowtokissitandshakeitasneverwasseenbuthereinthehollowsbesidetheriverwherealltheswallowsaremerriestoffellowsfortheneststheymakewiththeclaytheycakeinthesunshinebaketilltheyarelikeboneasdryinthewindasamarblestonesofirmtheybindthegrassintheclaythatdriesinthewindthesweetestwindthatblowsbytheriverflowingforeverbutneveryoufindwhencecomesthewindthatblowsonthehollowsandovertheshallowswherediptheswallowsaliveitblowsthelifeasitgoesawakeorasleepintotheriverthatsingsasitflowsandthelifeitblowsintothesheepawakeorasleepwiththewoolliestwoolandthetrailingesttailsanditneverfailsgentleandcooltowavethewoolandtotossthegrassasthelambsandthesheepoveritpassandtugandbitewiththeirteethsowhiteandthenwiththesweepoftheirtrailingtailssmoothitagainanditgrowsamainandamainitgrowsandthewindasitblowstossestheswallowsoverthehollowsanddownontheshallowstilleveryfeatherdothshakeandquiverandalltheirfeathersgoalltogetherblowingthelifeandthejoysorifeintotheswallowsthatskimtheshallowsandhavetheyellowestchildrenforthewindthatblowsisthelifeoftheriverflowingforeverthatwashesthegrassesstillasitpassesandfeedsthedaisiesthelittlewhitepraisesandbuttercupsbonnysogoldenandsunnywithbutterandhoneythatwhitenthesheepawakeorasleepthatnibbleandbiteandgrowwhiterthanwhiteandmerryandquietonthesweetdietfedbytheriverandtossedforeverbythewindthattossestheswallowthatcrossesovertheshallowsdippinghiswingstogatherthewaterandbakethecakethatthewindshallmakeashardasaboneasdryasastoneit’sallinthewindthatblowsfrombehindandallintheriverthatflowsforeverandallinthegrassesandthewhitedaisiesandthemerrysheepawakeorasleepandthehappyswallowsskimmingtheshallowsandit’sallinthewindthatblowsfrombehindHereDiamondbecameawarethathismotherhadstoppedreading。
“Whydon’tyougoon,motherdear?”heasked。
“It’ssuchnonsense!“saidhismother。“Ibelieveitwouldgoonforever。”
“That’sjustwhatitdid。”saidDiamond。
“Whatdid?”sheasked。
“Why,theriver。That’salmosttheverytuneitusedtosing。”
Hismotherwasfrightened,forshethoughtthefeverwascomingonagain。Soshedidnotcontradicthim。
“Whomadethatpoem?”askedDiamond。
“Idon’tknow。”sheanswered。“Somesillywomanforherchildren,Isuppose——andthenthoughtitgoodenoughtoprint。”
“Shemusthavebeenatthebackofthenorthwindsometimeorother,anyhow。”saidDiamond。“Shecouldn’thavegotaholdofitanywhereelse。That’sjusthowitwent。”Andhebegantochantbitsofithereandthere;buthismothersaidnothingforfearofmakinghim,worse;andshewasverygladindeedwhenshesawherbrother-in-lawjoggingalonginhislittlecart。TheyliftedDiamondin,andgotupthemselves,andawaytheywent,“homeagain,homeagain,homeagain。”asDiamondsang。Buthesoongrewquiet,andbeforetheyreachedSandwichhewasfastasleepanddreamingofthecountryatthebackofthenorthwind。
CHAPTERXIV
OLDDIAMOND
AFTERthisDiamondrecoveredsofast,thatinafewdayshewasquiteabletogohomeassoonashisfatherhadaplaceforthemtogo。
Nowhisfatherhavingsavedalittlemoney,andfindingthatnosituationoffereditself,hadbeenthinkingoveranewplan。
Astrangeoccurrenceitwaswhichturnedhisthoughtsinthatdirection。
HehadafriendintheBloomsburyregion,wholivedbylettingoutcabsandhorsestothecabmen。Thisman,happeningtomeethimonedayashewasreturningfromanunsuccessfulapplication,saidtohim:
“Whydon’tyousetupforyourselfnow——inthecabline,Imean?”
“Ihaven’tenoughforthat。”answeredDiamond’sfather。
“Youmusthavesavedagoodishbit,Ishouldthink。JustcomehomewithmenowandlookatahorseIcanletyouhavecheap。Iboughthimonlyafewweeksago,thinkinghe’ddoforaHansom,butIwaswrong。
He’sgotboneenoughforawaggon,butawaggonain’taHansom。
Heain’tgotgoenoughforaHansom。YouseepartiesastakesHansomswantstogolikethewind,andheain’tgotwindenough,forheain’tsoyoungasheoncewas。Butforafour-wheelerastakesfamiliesandtheirluggages,he’stheveryhorse。
He’dcarryasmallhouseanyday。Iboughthimcheap,andI’llsellhimcheap。”
“Oh,Idon’twanthim。”saidDiamond’sfather。“Abodymusthavetimetothinkoveranaffairofsomuchimportance。Andthere’sthecabtoo。Thatwouldcometoadealofmoney。”
“Icouldfityouthere,Idaresay。”saidhisfriend。“Butcomeandlookattheanimal,anyhow。”
“SinceIlostmyownoldpair,aswasMr。Coleman’s。”
saidDiamond’sfather,turningtoaccompanythecab-master,“Iain’talmostgotthehearttolookahorseintheface。
It’sathousandpitiestopartmanandhorse。”
“Soitis。”returnedhisfriendsympathetically。
Butwhatwastheex-coachman’sdelight,when,ongoingintothestablewherehisfriendledhim,hefoundthehorsehewantedhimtobuywasnootherthanhisownoldDiamond,grownverythinandbonyandlong-legged,asifthey,hadbeendoingwhattheycouldtofithimforHansomwork!
“Heain’taHansomhorse。”saidDiamond’sfatherindignantly。
“Well,you’reright。Heain’thandsome,buthe’sagoodun“
saidhisowner。
“Whosaysheain’thandsome?He’soneofthehandsomesthorsesagentleman’scoachmaneverdruv。”saidDiamond’sfather;
remarkingtohimselfunderhisbreath——“thoughIsaysitasshouldn’t“——
forhedidnotfeelinclinedallatoncetoconfessthathisownoldhorsecouldhavesunksolow。
“Well。”saidhisfriend,“allIsayis——There’saanimalforyou,asstrongasachurch;an’llgolikeatrain,leastwaysaparly。”
headded,correctinghimself。
Butthecoachmanhadalumpinhisthroatandtearsinhiseyes。
Fortheoldhorse,hearinghisvoice,hadturnedhislongneck,andwhenhisoldfriendwentuptohimandlaidhishandonhisside,hewhinniedforjoy,andlaidhisbigheadonhismaster’sbreast。
Thissettledthematter。Thecoachman’sarmswereroundthehorse’sneckinamoment,andhefairlybrokedownandcried。
Thecab-masterhadneverbeensofondofahorsehimselfastohughimlikethat,buthesawinamomenthowitwas。Andhemusthavebeenagood-heartedfellow,forIneverheardofsuchanideacomingintotheheadofanyothermanwithahorsetosell:
insteadofputtingsomethingontothepricebecausehewasnowprettysureofsellinghim,heactuallytookapoundoffwhathehadmeanttoaskforhim,sayingtohimselfitwasashametopartoldfriends。
Diamond’sfather,assoonashecametohimself,turnedandaskedhowmuchhewantedforthehorse。
“Iseeyou’reoldfriends。”saidtheowner。
“It’smyownoldDiamond。Ilikedhimfarthebestofthepair,thoughtheotherwasgood。Youain’tgothimtoo,haveyou?”
“No;nothinginthestabletomatchhimthere。”
“Ibelieveyou。”saidthecoachman。“Butyou’llbewantingalongpriceforhim,Iknow。”
“No,notsomuch。Iboughthimcheap,andasIsay,heain’tformywork。”
TheendofitwasthatDiamond’sfatherboughtoldDiamondagain,alongwithafour-wheeledcab。Andasthereweresomeroomstobehadoverthestable,hetookthem,wrotetohiswifetocomehome,andsetupasacabman。
CHAPTERXV
THEMEWS
ITWASlateintheafternoonwhenDiamondandhismotherandthebabyreachedLondon。IwassofullofDiamondthatIforgottotellyouababyhadarrivedinthemeantime。Hisfatherwaswaitingforthemwithhisowncab,buttheyhadnottoldDiamondwhothehorsewas;
forhisfatherwantedtoenjoythepleasureofhissurprisewhenhefounditout。Hegotinwithhismotherwithoutlookingatthehorse,andhisfatherhavingputupDiamond’scarpet-bagandhismother’slittletrunk,gotupontheboxhimselfanddroveoff;andDiamondwasquiteproudofridinghomeinhisfather’sowncarriage。
Butwhenhegottothemews,hecouldnothelpbeingalittledismayedatfirst;andifhehadneverbeentothebackofthenorthwind,Iamafraidhewouldhavecriedalittle。Butinsteadofthat,hesaidtohimselfitwasafinethingalltheoldfurniturewasthere。
Andinsteadofhelpinghismothertobemiserableatthechange,hebegantofindoutalltheadvantagesoftheplace;foreveryplacehassomeadvantages,andtheyarealwaysbetterworthknowingthanthedisadvantages。Certainlytheweatherwasdepressing,forathick,dull,persistentrainwasfallingbythetimetheyreachedhome。Buthappilytheweatherisverychangeable;
andbesides,therewasagoodfireburningintheroom,whichtheirneighbourwiththedrunkenhusbandhadattendedtoforthem;andthetea-thingswereputout,andthekettlewasboilingonthefire。
Andwithagoodfire,andteaandbreadandbutter,thingscannotbesaidtobemiserable。
Diamond’sfatherandmotherwere,notwithstanding,rathermiserable,andDiamondbegantofeelakindofdarknessbeginningtospreadoverhisownmind。Butthesamemomenthesaidtohimself,“Thiswillneverdo。Ican’tgiveintothis。I’vebeentothebackofthenorthwind。Thingsgorightthere,andsoImusttrytogetthingstogorighthere。I’vegottofightthemiserablethings。
Theyshan’tmakememiserableifIcanhelpit。”Idonotmeanthathethoughttheseverywords。Theyareperhapstoogrown-upforhimtohavethought,buttheyrepresentthekindofthingthatwasinhisheartandhishead。Andwhenheartandheadgotogether,nothingcanstandbeforethem。
“Whatnicebreadandbutterthisis!“saidDiamond。
“I’mgladyoulikeit,mydear“saidhisfather。“Iboughtthebuttermyselfatthelittleshoproundthecorner。”
“It’sverynice,thankyou,father。Oh,there’sbabywaking!
I’lltakehim。”
“Sitstill,Diamond。”saidhismother。“Goonwithyourbreadandbutter。You’renotstrongenoughtolifthimyet。”
Soshetookthebabyherself,andsethimonherknee。ThenDiamondbegantoamusehim,andwentontillthelittlefellowwasshriekingwithlaughter。Forthebaby’sworldwashismother’sarms;
andthedrizzlingrain,andthedrearymews,andevenhisfather’stroubledfacecouldnottouchhim。Whatcaredbabyforthelossofahundredsituations?Yetneitherfathernormotherthoughthimhard-heartedbecausehecrowedandlaughedinthemiddleoftheirtroubles。Onthecontrary,hiscrowingandlaughingwereinfectious。Hislittleheartwassofullofmerrimentthatitcouldnotholditall,anditranoverintotheirs。Fatherandmotherbegantolaughtoo,andDiamondlaughedtillhehadafitofcoughingwhichfrightenedhismother,andmadethemallstop。
Hisfathertookthebaby,andhismotherputhimtobed。
Butitwasindeedachangetothemall,notonlyfromSandwich,butfromtheiroldplace,insteadofthegreatriverwherethehugebargeswiththeirmightybrownandyellowsailswenttackingfromsidetosidelikelittlepleasure-skiffs,andwherethelongthinboatsshotpastwitheightandsometimestwelverowers,theirwindowsnowlookedoutuponadirtypavedyard。AndtherewasnogardenmoreforDiamondtorunintowhenhepleased,withgayflowersabouthisfeet,andsolemnsun-filledtreesoverhishead。
NeitherwasthereawoodenwallatthebackofhisbedwithaholeinitforNorthWindtocomeinatwhensheliked。Indeed,therewassuchahighwall,andthereweresomanyhousesaboutthemews,thatNorthWindseldomgotintotheplaceatall,exceptwhensomethingmustbedone,andshehadagrandcleaningoutlikeotherhousewives;
whilethepartitionattheheadofDiamond’snewbedonlydivideditfromtheroomoccupiedbyacabmanwhodranktoomuchbeer,andcamehomechieflytoquarrelwithhiswifeandpinchhischildren。
ItwasdreadfultoDiamondtohearthescoldingandthecrying。
Butitcouldnotmakehimmiserable,becausehehadbeenatthebackofthenorthwind。
IfmyreaderfindithardtobelievethatDiamondshouldbesogood,hemustrememberthathehadbeentothebackofthenorthwind。
Ifheneverknewaboysogood,didheeverknowaboythathadbeentothebackofthenorthwind?ItwasnotintheleaststrangeofDiamondtobehaveashedid;onthecontrary,itwasthoroughlysensibleofhim。
Weshallseehowhegoton。
CHAPTERXVI
DIAMONDMAKESABEGINNING
THEwindblewloud,butDiamondsleptadeepsleep,andneverheardit。
MyownimpressionisthateverytimewhenDiamondsleptwellandrememberednothingaboutitinthemorning,hehadbeenallthatnightatthebackofthenorthwind。Iamalmostsurethatwashowhewokesorefreshed,andfeltsoquietandhopefulalltheday。
Indeedhesaidthismuch,thoughnottome——thatalwayswhenhewokefromsuchasleeptherewasasomethinginhismind,hecouldnottellwhat——couldnottellwhetheritwasthelastfar-offsoundsoftheriverdyingawayinthedistance,orsomeofthewordsoftheendlesssonghismotherhadreadtohimonthesea-shore。
Sometimeshethoughtitmusthavebeenthetwitteringoftheswallows——
overtheshallows,you,know;butitmayhavebeenthechirpingofthedingysparrowspickinguptheirbreakfastintheyard——
howcanItell?Idon’tknowwhatIknow,IonlyknowwhatIthink;
andtotellthetruth,Iammorefortheswallowsthanthesparrows。
Whenheknewhewascomingawake,hewouldsometimestryhardtokeepholdofthewordsofwhatseemedanewsong,onehehadnotheardbefore——asonginwhichthewordsandthemusicsomehowappearedtobeallone;butevenwhenhethoughthehadgotthemwellfixedinhismind,everashecameawaker——ashewouldsay——
onelinefadedawayoutofit,andthenanother,andthenanother,tillatlasttherewasnothingleftbutsomelovelypictureofwaterorgrassordaisies,orsomethingelseverycommon,butwithallthecommonnesspolishedoffit,andthelovelysoulofit,whichpeoplesoseldomsee,and,alas!yetseldomerbelievein,shiningout。
Butafterthathewouldsingtheoddest,loveliestlittlesongstothebaby——ofhisownmaking,hismothersaid;butDiamondsaidhedidnotmakethem;theyweremadesomewhereinsidehim,andheknewnothingaboutthemtilltheywerecomingout。
Whenhewokethatfirstmorninghegotupatonce,sayingtohimself,“I’vebeenilllongenough,andhavegivenagreatdealoftrouble;
Imusttryandbeofusenow,andhelpmymother。”Whenhewentintoherroomhefoundherlightingthefire,andhisfatherjustgettingoutofbed。Theyhadonlytheoneroom,besidesthelittleone,notmuchmorethanacloset,inwhichDiamondslept。Hebeganatoncetosetthingstorights,butthebabywakingup,hetookhim,andnursedhimtillhismotherhadgotthebreakfastready。
Shewaslookinggloomy,andhisfatherwassilent;andindeedexceptDiamondhaddoneallhepossiblycouldtokeepoutthemiserythatwastryingtogetinatdoorsandwindows,hetoowouldhavegrownmiserable,andthentheywouldhavebeenallmiserabletogether。
Buttotrytomakeotherscomfortableistheonlywaytogetrightcomfortableourselves,andthatcomespartlyofnotbeingabletothinksomuchaboutourselveswhenwearehelpingotherpeople。