Butwhenshecameclosetowherehestood,henolongerdoubtedshewashuman——forhehadcaughtsightofhersunnyhair,andherclearblueeyes,andtheloveliestfaceandformthathehadeverseen。
Allatonceshebegansinginglikeanightingale,anddancingtoherownmusic,withhereyeseverturnedtowardsthemoon。
Shepassedclosetowherehestood,dancingonbytheedgeofthetreesandawayinagreatcircletowardstheotherside,untilhecouldseebutaspotofwhiteintheyellowishgreenofthemoonlitgrass。
Butwhenhefeareditwouldvanishquite,thespotgrew,andbecameafigureoncemore。Sheapproachedhimagain,singinganddancing,andwavingherarmsoverherhead,untilshehadcompletedthecircle。
Justoppositehistreeshestood,ceasedhersong,droppedherarms,andbrokeoutintoalongclearlaugh,musicalasabrook。Then,asiftired,shethrewherselfonthegrass,andlaygazingatthemoon。
Theprincewasalmostafraidtobreathelestheshouldstartleher,andsheshouldvanishfromhissight。Astoventuringnearher,thatnevercameintohishead。
Shehadlainforalonghourorlonger,whentheprincebeganagaintodoubtconcerningher。Perhapsshewasbutavisionofhisownfancy。
Orwassheaspiritofthewood,afterall?Ifso,hetoowouldhauntthewood,gladtohavelostkingdomandeverythingforthehopeofbeingnearher。Hewouldbuildhimahutintheforest,andtherehewouldliveforthepurechanceofseeingheragain。
Uponnightslikethisatleastshewouldcomeoutandbaskinthemoonlight,andmakehissoulblessed。Butwhilehethusdreamedshesprangtoherfeet,turnedherfacefulltothemoon,andbegansingingasshewoulddrawherdownfromtheskybythepowerofherentrancingvoice。Shelookedmorebeautifulthanever。
Againshebegandancingtoherownmusic,anddancedawayintothedistance。Oncemoreshereturnedinasimilarmanner;
butalthoughhewaswatchingaseagerlyasbefore,whatwithfatigueandwhatwithgazing,hefellfastasleepbeforeshecamenearhim。
Whenheawokeitwasbroaddaylight,andtheprincesswasnowhere。
Hecouldnotleavetheplace。Whatifsheshouldcomethenextnight!
Hewouldgladlyendureaday’shungertoseeheryetagain:
hewouldbucklehisbeltquitetight。Hewalkedroundthegladetoseeifhecoulddiscoveranyprintsofherfeet。Butthegrasswassoshort,andherstepshadbeensolight,thatshehadnotleftasingletracebehindher。Hewalkedhalf-wayroundthewoodwithoutseeinganythingtoaccountforherpresence。Thenhespiedalovelylittlehouse,withthatchedroofandloweaves,surroundedbyanexquisitegarden,withdovesandpeacockswalkinginit。Ofcoursethismustbewherethegraciousladywholovedthemoonlightlived。Forgettinghisappearance,hewalkedtowardsthedoor,determinedtomakeinquiries,butashepassedalittlepondfullofgoldandsilverfishes,hecaughtsightofhimselfandturnedtofindthedoortothekitchen。Thereheknocked,andaskedforapieceofbread。Thegood-naturedcookbroughthimin,andgavehimanexcellentbreakfast,whichtheprincefoundnothingtheworseforbeingservedinthekitchen。Whileheate,hetalkedwithhisentertainer,andlearnedthatthiswasthefavouriteretreatofthePrincessDaylight。Buthelearnednothingmore,bothbecausehewasafraidofseeminginquisitive,andbecausethecookdidnotchoosetobeheardtalkingabouthermistresstoapeasantladwhohadbeggedforhisbreakfast。
Asherosetotakehisleave,itoccurredtohimthathemightnotbesofarfromtheoldwoman’scottageashehadthought,andheaskedthecookwhethersheknewanythingofsuchaplace,describingitaswellashecould。Shesaidsheknewitwellenough,addingwithasmile——
“It’sthereyou’regoing,isit?”
“Yes,ifit’snotfaroff。”
“It’snotmorethanthreemiles。Butmindwhatyouareabout,youknow。”
“Whydoyousaythat?”
“Ifyou’reafteranymischief,she’llmakeyourepentit。”
“Thebestthingthatcouldhappenunderthecircumstances。”
remarkedtheprince。
“Whatdoyoumeanbythat?”askedthecook。
“Why,itstandstoreason。”answeredtheprince“thatifyouwishtodoanythingwrong,thebestthingforyouistobemadetorepentofit。”
“Isee。”saidthecook。“Well,Ithinkyoumayventure。
She’sagoodoldsoul。”
“Whichwaydoesitliefromhere?”askedtheprince。
Shegavehimfullinstructions;andheleftherwithmanythanks。
Beingnowrefreshed,however,theprincedidnotgobacktothecottagethatday:heremainedintheforest,amusinghimselfasbesthecould,butwaitinganxiouslyforthenight,inthehopethattheprincesswouldagainappear。Norwashedisappointed,for,directlythemoonrose,hespiedaglimmeringshapefaracrosstheglade。
Asitdrewnearer,hesawitwassheindeed——notdressedinwhiteasbefore:inapalebluelikethesky,shelookedlovelierstill。
Hethoughtitwasthatthebluesuitedheryetbetterthanthewhite;
hedidnotknowthatshewasreallymorebeautifulbecausethemoonwasnearerthefull。Infactthenextnightwasfullmoon,andtheprincesswouldthenbeatthezenithofherloveliness。
Theprincefearedforsometimethatshewasnotcomingnearhishiding-placethatnight;butthecirclesinherdanceeverwidenedasthemoonrose,untilatlasttheyembracedthewholeglade,andshecamestillclosertothetreeswherehewashidingthanshehadcomethenightbefore。Hewasentrancedwithherloveliness,foritwasindeedamarvellousthing。Allnightlonghewatchedher,butdarednotgonearher。Hewouldhavebeenashamedofwatchinghertoo,hadhenotbecomealmostincapableofthinkingofanythingbuthowbeautifulshewas。Hewatchedthewholenightlong,andsawthatasthemoonwentdownsheretreatedinsmallerandsmallercircles,untilatlasthecouldseehernomore。
Wearyashewas,hesetoutfortheoldwoman’scottage,wherehearrivedjustintimeforherbreakfast,whichshesharedwithhim。
Hethenwenttobed,andsleptformanyhours。Whenheawokethesunwasdown,andhedepartedingreatanxietylestheshouldloseaglimpseofthelovelyvision。But,whetheritwasbythemachinationsoftheswamp-fairy,ormerelythatitisonethingtogoandanothertoreturnbythesameroad,helosthisway。
Ishallnotattempttodescribehismiserywhenthemoonrose,andhesawnothingbuttrees,trees,trees。
Shewashighintheheavensbeforehereachedtheglade。
Thenindeedhistroublesvanished,fortherewastheprincesscomingdancingtowardshim,inadressthatshonelikegold,andwithshoesthatglimmeredthroughthegrasslikefireflies。
Shewasofcoursestillmorebeautifulthanbefore。Likeanembodiedsunbeamshepassedhim,anddancedawayintothedistance。
Beforeshereturnedinhercircle,thecloudshadbeguntogatheraboutthemoon。Thewindrose,thetreesmoaned,andtheirlighterbranchesleanedallonewaybeforeit。Theprincefearedthattheprincesswouldgoin,andheshouldseehernomorethatnight。
Butshecamedancingonmorejubilantthanever,hergoldendressandhersunnyhairstreamingoutupontheblast,wavingherarmstowardsthemoon,andintheexuberanceofherdelightorderingthecloudsawayfromoffherface。Theprincecouldhardlybelieveshewasnotacreatureoftheelements,afterall。
Bythetimeshehadcompletedanothercircle,thecloudshadgathereddeep,andthereweregrowlingsofdistantthunder。
Justasshepassedthetreewherehestood,aflashoflightningblindedhimforamoment,andwhenhesawagain,tohishorror,theprincesslayontheground。Hedartedtoher,thinkingshehadbeenstruck;butwhensheheardhimcoming,shewasonherfeetinamoment。
“Whatdoyouwant?”sheasked。
“Ibegyourpardon。Ithought——thelightning“saidtheprince,hesitating。
“There’snothingthematter。”saidtheprincess,wavinghimoffratherhaughtily。
Thepoorprinceturnedandwalkedtowardsthewood。
“Comeback。”saidDaylight:“Ilikeyou。Youdowhatyouaretold。
Areyougood?”
“NotsogoodasIshouldliketobe。”saidtheprince。
“Thengoandgrowbetter。”saidtheprincess。
Againthedisappointedprinceturnedandwent。
“Comeback。”saidtheprincess。
Heobeyed,andstoodbeforeherwaiting。
“Canyoutellmewhatthesunislike?”sheasked。
“No。”heanswered。“Butwhere’sthegoodofaskingwhatyouknow?”
“ButIdon’tknow。”sherejoined。
“Why,everybodyknows。”
“That’stheverything:I’mnoteverybody。I’veneverseenthesun。”
“Thenyoucan’tknowwhatit’sliketillyoudoseeit。”
“Ithinkyoumustbeaprince。”saidtheprincess。
“DoIlooklikeone?”saidtheprince。
“Ican’tquitesaythat。”
“Thenwhydoyouthinkso?”
“Becauseyoubothdowhatyouaretoldandspeakthetruth——
Isthesunsoverybright?”
“Asbrightasthelightning。”
“Butitdoesn’tgooutlikethat,doesit?”
“Oh,no。Itshineslikethemoon,risesandsetslikethemoon,ismuchthesameshapeasthemoon,onlysobrightthatyoucan’tlookatitforamoment。”
“ButIwouldlookatit。”saidtheprincess。
“Butyoucouldn’t。”saidtheprince。
“ButIcould。”saidtheprincess。
“Whydon’tyou,then?”
“BecauseIcan’t。”
“Whycan’tyou?”
“BecauseIcan’twake。AndInevershallwakeuntil——“
Hereshehidherfaceinherhands,turnedaway,andwalkedintheslowest,stateliestmannertowardsthehouse。Theprinceventuredtofollowheratalittledistance,butsheturnedandmadearepellentgesture,which,likeatruegentleman-prince,heobeyedatonce。
Hewaitedalongtime,butasshedidnotcomenearhimagain,andasthenighthadnowcleared,hesetoffatlastfortheoldwoman’scottage。
Itwaslongpastmidnightwhenhereachedit,but,tohissurprise,theoldwomanwasparingpotatoesatthedoor。Fairiesarefondofdoingoddthings。Indeed,howevertheymaydissemble,thenightisalwaystheirday。Andsoitiswithallwhohavefairybloodinthem。
“Why,whatareyoudoingthere,thistimeofthenight,mother?”
saidtheprince;forthatwasthekindwayinwhichanyyoungmaninhiscountrywouldaddressawomanwhowasmucholderthanhimself。
“Gettingyoursupperready,myson。”sheanswered。
“Oh,Idon’twantanysupper。”saidtheprince。
“Ah!you’veseenDaylight。”saidshe。
“I’veseenaprincesswhoneversawit。”saidtheprince。
“Doyoulikeher?”askedthefairy。
“Oh!don’tI?”saidtheprince。“Morethanyouwouldbelieve,mother。”
“Afairycanbelieveanythingthateverwasorevercouldbe。”
saidtheoldwoman。
“Thenareyouafairy?”askedtheprince。
“Yes。”saidshe。
“Thenwhatdoyoudoforthingsnottobelieve?”askedtheprince。
“There’splentyofthem——everythingthatneverwasnorevercouldbe。”
“Plenty,Igrantyou。”saidtheprince。“Butdoyoubelievetherecouldbeaprincesswhoneversawthedaylight?Doyoubelievethatnow?”
Thistheprincesaid,notthathedoubtedtheprincess,butthathewantedthefairytotellhimmore。
Shewastoooldafairy,however,tobecaughtsoeasily。
“Ofallpeople,fairiesmustnottellsecrets。Besides,she’saprincess。”
“Well,I’lltellyouasecret。I’maprince。”
“Iknowthat。”
“Howdoyouknowit?”
“Bythecurlofthethirdeyelashonyourlefteyelid。”
“Whichcornerdoyoucountfrom?”
“That’sasecret。”
“Anothersecret?Well,atleast,ifIamaprince,therecanbenoharmintellingmeaboutaprincess。”
“It’sjusttheprincesIcan’ttell。”
“Thereain’tanymoreofthem——arethere?”saidtheprince。
“What!youdon’tthinkyou’retheonlyprinceintheworld,doyou?”
“Oh,dear,no!notatall。ButIknowthere’sonetoomanyjustatpresent,excepttheprincess——“
“Yes,yes,that’sit。”saidthefairy。
“What’sit?”askedtheprince。
Buthecouldgetnothingmoreoutofthefairy,andhadtogotobedunanswered,whichwassomethingofatrial。
Nowwickedfairieswillnotbeboundbythelawwhichthegoodfairiesobey,andthisalwaysseemstogivethebadtheadvantageoverthegood,fortheyusemeanstogaintheirendswhichtheotherswillnot。
Butitisallofnoconsequence,forwhattheydoneversucceeds;nay,intheenditbringsabouttheverythingtheyaretryingtoprevent。
Soyouseethatsomehow,foralltheircleverness,wickedfairiesaredreadfullystupid,for,althoughfromthebeginningoftheworldtheyhavereallyhelpedinsteadofthwartingthegoodfairies,notoneofthemisabitwiserforit。Shewilltrythebadthingjustastheyalldidbeforeher;andsucceedsnobetterofcourse。
Theprincehadsofarstolenamarchupontheswamp-fairythatshedidnotknowhewasintheneighbourhooduntilafterhehadseentheprincessthosethreetimes。Whensheknewit,sheconsoledherselfbythinkingthattheprincessmustbefartooproudandtoomodestforanyyoungmantoventureeventospeaktoherbeforehehadseenhersixtimesatleast。Buttherewasevenlessdangerthanthewickedfairythought;for,howevermuchtheprincessmightdesiretobesetfree,shewasdreadfullyafraidofthewrongprince。Now,however,thefairywasgoingtodoallshecould。
Shesocontriveditbyherdeceitfulspells,thatthenextnighttheprincecouldnotbyanyendeavourfindhiswaytotheglade。
Itwouldtakemetoolongtotellhertricks。Theywouldbeamusingtous,whoknowthattheycouldnotdoanyharm,buttheyweresomethingotherthanamusingtothepoorprince。
Hewanderedabouttheforesttilldaylight,andthenfellfastasleep。
Thesamethingoccurredforsevenfollowingdays,duringwhichneithercouldhefindthegoodfairy’scottage。Afterthethirdquarterofthemoon,however,thebadfairythoughtshemightbeateaseabouttheaffairforafortnightatleast,fortherewasnochanceoftheprincewishingtokisstheprincessduringthatperiod。
Sothefirstdayofthefourthquarterhedidfindthecottage,andthenextdayhefoundtheglade。Fornearlyanotherweekhehauntedit。
Buttheprincessnevercame。Ihavelittledoubtshewasonthefartheredgeofitsomepartofeverynight,butatthisperiodshealwaysworeblack,and,therebeinglittleornolight,theprinceneversawher。Norwouldhehaveknownherifhehadseenher。
Howcouldhehavetakentheworndecrepitcreatureshewasnow,forthegloriousPrincessDaylight?
Atlast,onenightwhentherewasnomoonatall,heventurednearthehouse。Thereheheardvoicestalking,althoughitwaspastmidnight;
forherwomenwereinconsiderableuneasiness,becausetheonewhoseturnitwastowatchherhadfallenasleep,andhadnotseenwhichwayshewent,andthiswasanightwhenshewouldprobablywanderveryfar,describingacirclewhichdidnottouchtheopengladeatall,butstretchedawayfromthebackofthehouse,deepintothatsideoftheforest——apartofwhichtheprinceknewnothing。
Whenheunderstoodfromwhattheysaidthatshehaddisappeared,andthatshemusthavegonesomewhereinthesaiddirection,heplungedatonceintothewoodtoseeifhecouldfindher。
Forhoursheroamedwithnothingtoguidehimbutthevaguenotionofacirclewhichononesideborderedonthehouse,forsomuchhadhepickedupfromthetalkhehadoverheard。
Itwasgettingtowardsthedawn,butasyettherewasnostreakoflightinthesky,whenhecametoagreatbirch-tree,andsatdownwearyatthefootofit。Whilehesat——verymiserable,youmaybesure——
fulloffearfortheprincess,andwonderinghowherattendantscouldtakeitsoquietly,hebethoughthimselfthatitwouldnotbeabadplantolightafire,which,ifshewereanywherenear,wouldattracther。Thishemanagedwithatinder-box,whichthegoodfairyhadgivenhim。Itwasjustbeginningtoblazeup,whenheheardamoan,whichseemedtocomefromtheothersideofthetree。Hesprungtohisfeet,buthisheartthrobbedsothathehadtoleanforamomentagainstthetreebeforehecouldmove。
Whenhegotround,therelayahumanforminalittledarkheapontheearth。Therewaslightenoughfromhisfiretoshowthatitwasnottheprincess。Helifteditinhisarms,hardlyheavierthanachild,andcarriedittotheflame。Thecountenancewasthatofanoldwoman,butithadafearfullystrangelook。
Ablackhoodconcealedherhair,andhereyeswereclosed。
Helaidherdownascomfortablyashecould,chafedherhands,putalittlecordialfromabottle,alsothegiftofthefairy,intohermouth;tookoffhiscoatandwrappeditabouther,andinshortdidthebesthecould。Inalittlewhilesheopenedhereyesandlookedathim——sopitifully!Thetearsroseandflowedfromhergreywrinkledcheeks,butshesaidneveraword。
Sheclosedhereyesagain,butthetearskeptonflowing,andherwholeappearancewassoutterlypitifulthattheprincewasnearcryingtoo。Hebeggedhertotellhimwhatwasthematter,promisingtodoallhecouldtohelpher;butstillshedidnotspeak。
Hethoughtshewasdying,andtookherinhisarmsagaintocarryhertotheprincess’shouse,wherehethoughtthegood-naturedcookmightheabletodosomethingforher。Whenheliftedher,thetearsflowedyetfaster,andshegavesuchasadmoanthatitwenttohisveryheart。
“Mother,mother!“hesaid。“Poormother!“andkissedheronthewitheredlips。
Shestarted;andwhateyestheywerethatopeneduponhim!
Buthedidnotseethem,foritwasstillverydark,andhehadenoughtodotomakehiswaythroughthetreestowardsthehouse。
Justasheapproachedthedoor,feelingmoretiredthanhecouldhaveimaginedpossible——shewassuchalittlethinoldthing——
shebegantomove,andbecamesorestlessthat,unabletocarryheramomentlonger,hethoughttolayheronthegrass。Butshestooduprightonherfeet。Herhoodhaddropped,andherhairfellabouther。
Thefirstgleamofthemorningwascaughtonherface:thatfacewasbrightasthenever-agingDawn,andhereyeswerelovelyastheskyofdarkestblue。Theprincerecoiledinovermasteringwonder。
ItwasDaylightherselfwhomhehadbroughtfromtheforest!
Hefellatherfeet,nordaredtolookupuntilshelaidherhanduponhishead。Herosethen。
“YoukissedmewhenIwasanoldwoman:there!IkissyouwhenI
amayoungprincess。”murmuredDaylight——“Isthatthesuncoming?”
CHAPTERXXIX
RUBY
THEchildrenweredelightedwiththestory,andmademanyamusingremarksuponit。Mr。Raymondpromisedtosearchhisbrainforanother,andwhenhehadfoundonetobringittothem。DiamondhavingtakenleaveofNanny,andpromisedtogoandseeheragainsoon,wentawaywithhim。
NowMr。RaymondhadbeenturningoverinhismindwhathecoulddobothforDiamondandforNanny。HehadthereforemadesomeacquaintancewithDiamond’sfather,andhadbeengreatlypleasedwithhim。
Buthehadcometotheresolution,beforehedidanythingsogoodashewouldliketodoforthem,toputthemalltoacertaintest。
Soastheywalkedawaytogether,hebegantotalkwithDiamondasfollows:——
“Nannymustleavethehospitalsoon,Diamond。”
“I’mgladofthat,sir。”
“Why?Don’tyouthinkit’saniceplace?”
“Yes,very。Butit’sbettertobewellanddoingsomething,youknow,evenifit’snotquitesocomfortable。”
“Buttheycan’tkeepNannysolongastheywouldlike。Theycan’tkeephertillshe’squitestrong。Therearealwayssomanysickchildrentheywanttotakeinandmakebetter。Andthequestionis,Whatwillshedowhentheysendheroutagain?”
“That’sjustwhatIcan’ttell,thoughI’vebeenthinkingofitoverandover,sir。Hercrossingwastakenlongago,andIcouldn’tbeartoseeNannyfightingforit,especiallywithsuchapoorfellowashastakenit。He’squitelame,sir。”
“Shedoesn’tlookmuchlikefighting,now,doesshe,Diamond?”
“No,sir。Shelookstoolikeanangel。Angelsdon’tfight——
dothey,sir?”
“Nottogetthingsforthemselves,atleast。”saidMr。Raymond。
“Besides。”addedDiamond,“Idon’tquiteseethatshewouldhaveanybetterrighttothecrossingthantheboywhohasgotit。
Nobodygaveittoher;sheonlytookit。Andnowhehastakenit。”
“Ifsheweretosweepacrossing——soonatleast——aftertheillnessshehashad,shewouldbelaidupagaintheveryfirstwetday。”
saidMr。Raymond。
“Andthere’shardlyanymoneytobegotexceptonthewetdays。”
remarkedDiamondreflectively。“Istherenothingelseshecoulddo,sir?”
“Notwithoutbeingtaught,I’mafraid。”
“Well,couldn’tsomebodyteachhersomething?”
“Couldn’tyouteachher,Diamond?”
“Idon’tknowanythingmyself,sir。Icouldteachhertodressthe,baby;butnobodywouldgiveheranythingfordoingthingslikethat:
theyaresoeasy。Therewouldn’tbemuchgoodinteachinghertodriveacab,forwherewouldshegetthecabtodrive?
Thereain’tfathersandoldDiamondseverywhere。AtleastpoorNannycan’tfindanyofthem,Idoubt。”
“Perhapsifsheweretaughttobeniceandclean,andonlyspeakgentlewords“
“Mothercouldteachherthat。”interruptedDiamond。
“Andtodressbabies,andfeedthem,andtakecareofthem。”
Mr。Raymondproceeded,“shemightgetaplaceasanursesomewhere,youknow。Peopledogivemoneyforthat。”
“ThenI’llaskmother。”saidDiamond。
“Butyou’llhavetogiveherherfoodthen;andyourfather,notbeingstrong,hasenoughtodoalreadywithoutthat。”
“Buthere’sme。”saidDiamond:“Ihelphimoutwithit。Whenhe’stiredofdriving,upIget。Itdon’tmakeanydifferencetooldDiamond。
Idon’tmeanhelikesmeaswellasmyfather——ofcoursehecan’t,youknow——nobodycould;buthedoeshisdutyallthesame。
It’sgottobedone,youknow,sir;andDiamond’sagoodhorse——
isn’the,sir?”
“FromyourdescriptionIshouldsaycertainly;butIhavenotthepleasureofhisacquaintancemyself。”
“Don’tyouthinkhewillgotoheaven,sir?”
“ThatIdon’tknowanythingabout。”saidMr。Raymond。“IconfessIshouldbegladtothinkso。”headded,smilingthoughtfully。
“I’msurehe’llgettothebackofthenorthwind,anyhow。”
saidDiamondtohimself;buthehadlearnedtobeverycarefulofsayingsuchthingsaloud。
“Isn’titrathertoomuchforhimtogointhecaballdayandeveryday?”resumedMr。Raymond。
“Sofathersays,whenhefeelshisribsofamorning。Butthenhesaystheoldhorsedoeatwell,andthemomenthe’shadhissupper,downhegoes,andnevergetsuptillhe’scalled;and,forthelegsofhim,fathersaysthatmakesnoendofadiffer。Somehorses,sir!theywon’tliedownallnightlong,butgotosleepontheirfourpins,likeahaystack,fathersays。Ithinkit’sverystupidofthem,andsodoesoldDiamond。ButthenIsupposetheydon’tknowbetter,andsotheycan’thelpit。Wemustn’tbetooharduponthem,fathersays。”
“Yourfathermustbeagoodman,Diamond。”DiamondlookedupinMr。Raymond’sface,wonderingwhathecouldmean。
“Isaidyourfathermustbeagoodman,Diamond。”
“Ofcourse。”saidDiamond。“Howcouldhedriveacabifhewasn’t?”
“Therearesomemenwhodrivecabswhoarenotverygood。”
objectedMr。Raymond。
Diamondrememberedthedrunkencabman,andsawthathisfriendwasright。
“Ah,but。”hereturned,“hemustbe,youknow,withsuchahorseasoldDiamond。”
“Thatdoesmakeadifference。”saidMr。Raymond。“Butitisquiteenoughthatheisagoodmanwithoutourtryingtoaccountforit。
Now,ifyoulike,IwillgiveyouaproofthatIthinkhimagoodman。
IamgoingawayontheContinentforawhile——forthreemonths,Ibelieve——andIamgoingtoletmyhousetoagentlemanwhodoesnotwanttheuseofmybrougham。Myhorseisnearlyasold,Ifancy,asyourDiamond,butIdon’twanttopartwithhim,andIdon’twanthimtobeidle;fornobody,asyousay,oughttobeidle;
butneitherdoIwanthimtobeworkedveryhard。Now,ithascomeintomyheadthatperhapsyourfatherwouldtakechargeofhim,andworkhimundercertainconditions。”
“Myfatherwilldowhat’sright。”saidDiamond。“I’msureofthat。”
“Well,soIthink。Willyouaskhimwhenhecomeshometocallandhavealittlechatwithme——to-day,sometime?”
“Hemusthavehisdinnerfirst。”saidDiamond。“No,he’sgothisdinnerwithhimto-day。Itmustbeafterhe’shadhistea。”
“Ofcourse,ofcourse。Anytimewilldo。Ishallbeathomeallday。”
“Verywell,sir。Iwilltellhim。Youmaybesurehewillcome。
Myfatherthinksyouaverykindgentleman,andIknowheisright,forIknowyourveryownself,sir。”
Mr。Raymondsmiled,andastheyhadnowreachedhisdoor,theyparted,andDiamondwenthome。Assoonashisfatherenteredthehouse,DiamondgavehimMr。Raymond’smessage,andrecountedtheconversationthathadprecededit。Hisfathersaidlittle,buttookthought-saucetohisbreadandbutter,andassoonashehadfinishedhismeal,rose,saying:
“Iwillgotoyourfrienddirectly,Diamond。Itwouldbeagrandthingtogetalittlemoremoney。Wedowantit。”DiamondaccompaniedhisfathertoMr。Raymond’sdoor,andtherelefthim。
HewasshownatonceintoMr。Raymond’sstudy,wherehegazedwithsomewonderatthemultitudeofbooksonthewalls,andthoughtwhatalearnedmanMr。Raymondmustbe。
PresentlyMr。Raymondentered,andaftersayingmuchthesameabouthisoldhorse,madethefollowingdistinctproposal——
onenotover-advantageoustoDiamond’sfather,butforwhichhehadreasons——namely,thatJosephshouldhavetheuseofMr。Raymond’shorsewhilehewasaway,onconditionthatheneverworkedhimmorethansixhoursaday,andfedhimwell,andthat,besides,heshouldtakeNannyhomeassoonasshewasabletoleavethehospital,andprovideforherasoneofhisownchildren,neitherbetternorworse——solong,thatis,ashehadthehorse。
Diamond’sfathercouldnothelpthinkingitaprettyclosebargain。
Heshouldhaveboththegirlandthehorsetofeed,andonlysixhours’
workoutofthehorse。
“Itwillsaveyourownhorse。”saidMr。Raymond。
“Thatistrue。”answeredJoseph;“butallIcangetbymyownhorseisonlyenoughtokeepus,andifIsavehimandfeedyourhorseandthegirl——don’tyousee,sir?”
“Well,youcangohomeandthinkaboutit,andletmeknowbytheendoftheweek。Iaminnohurrybeforethen。”
SoJosephwenthomeandrecountedtheproposaltohiswife,addingthathedidnotthinktherewasmuchadvantagetobegotoutofit。
“Notmuchthatway,husband。”saidDiamond’smother;“buttherewouldbeanadvantage,andwhatmatterwhogetsit!“
“Idon’tseeit。”answeredherhusband。“Mr。Raymondisagentlemanofproperty,andIdon’tdiscoveranymuchgoodinhelpinghimtosavealittlemore。Hewon’teasilygetonetomakesuchabargain,andI
don’tmeanheshallgetme。Itwouldbealossratherthanagain——
Idothink——atleastifItooklessworkoutofourownhorse。”
“OnehourwouldmakeadifferencetooldDiamond。Butthat’snotthemainpoint。Youmustthinkwhatanadvantageitwouldbetothepoorgirlthathasn’tahometogoto!“
“SheisoneofDiamond’sfriends。”thoughthisfather。
“Icouldbekindtoher,youknow。”themotherwenton,“andteachherhousework,andhowtohandleababy;and,besides,shewouldhelpme,andIshouldbethestrongerforit,andabletodoanoddbitofcharingnowandthen,whenIgotthechance。”
“Iwon’thearofthat。”saidherhusband。“Havethegirlbyallmeans。
I’mashamedIdidnotthinkofbothsidesofthethingatonce。
Iwonderifthehorseisagreateater。Tobesure,ifIgaveDiamondtwohours’additionalrest,itwouldbeallthebetterfortheoldbonesofhim,andtherewouldbefourhoursextraoutoftheotherhorse。
ThatwouldgiveDiamondsomethingtodoeveryday。HecoulddriveoldDiamondafterdinner,andIcouldtaketheotherhorseoutforsixhoursaftertea,orinthemorning,asIfoundbest。Itmightpayforthekeepofbothofthem,——thatis,ifIhadgoodluck。
IshouldliketoobligeMr。Raymond,thoughheberatherhard,forhehasbeenverykindtoourDiamond,wife。Hasn’thenow?”
“Hehasindeed,Joseph。”saidhiswife,andtheretheconversationended。
Diamond’sfatherwenttheverynextdaytoMr。Raymond,andacceptedhisproposal;sothattheweekafterhavinggotanotherstallinthesamestable,hehadtwohorsesinsteadofone。Oddlyenough,thenameofthenewhorsewasRuby,forhewasaveryredchestnut。
Diamond’snamecamefromawhitelozengeonhisforehead。
YoungDiamondsaidtheywererichnow,withsuchabigdiamondandsuchabigruby。
CHAPTERXXX
NANNY’SDREAM
NANNYwasnotfittobemovedforsometimeyet,andDiamondwenttoseeherasoftenashecould。Butbeingmoreregularlyengagednow,seeinghewentouteverydayforafewhourswitholdDiamond,andhadhisbabytomind,andoneofthehorsestoattendto,hecouldnotgosooftenashewouldhaveliked。
Oneevening,ashesatbyherbedside,shesaidtohim:
“I’vehadsuchabeautifuldream,Diamond!Ishouldliketotellityou。”
“Oh!do。”saidDiamond;“Iamsofondofdreams!“
“Shemusthavebeentothebackofthenorthwind。”hesaidtohimself。
“Itwasaveryfoolishdream,youknow。Butsomehowitwassopleasant!
Whatagoodthingitisthatyoubelievethedreamallthetimeyouareinit!“
MyreadersmustnotsupposethatpoorNannywasabletosaywhatshemeantsowellasIputitdownhere。Shehadneverbeentoschool,andhadheardverylittleelsethanvulgarspeechuntilshecametothehospital。ButIhavebeentoschool,andalthoughthatcouldnevermakemeabletodreamsowellasNanny,ithasmademeabletotellherdreambetterthanshecouldherself。
AndIamthemoredesirousofdoingthisforherthatIhavealreadydonethebestIcouldforDiamond’sdream,anditwouldbeashametogivetheboyalltheadvantage。
“IwilltellyouallIknowaboutit。”saidNanny。“Thedaybeforeyesterday,aladycametoseeus——averybeautifullady,andverybeautifullydressed。Iheardthematronsaytoherthatitwasverykindofhertocomeinblueandgold;andsheansweredthatsheknewwedidn’tlikedullcolours。Shehadsuchalovelyshawlon,justlikerednessdippedinmilk,andallworkedoverwithflowersofthesamecolour。Itdidn’tshinemuch,itwassilk,butitkeptintheshine。Whenshecametomybedside,shesatdown,justwhereyouaresitting,Diamond,andlaidherhandonthecounterpane。
Iwassittingup,withmytablebeforemereadyformytea。Herhandlookedsoprettyinitsblueglove,thatIwastemptedtostrokeit。
Ithoughtshewouldn’tbeangry,foreverybodythatcomestothehospitaliskind。It’sonlyinthestreetstheyain’tkind。
Butshedrewherhandaway,andIalmostcried,forIthoughtI
hadbeenrude。Insteadofthat,however,itwasonlythatshedidn’tlikegivingmeherglovetostroke,forshedrewitoff,andthenlaidherhandwhereitwasbefore。Iwasn’tsure,butI
venturedtoputoutmyuglyhand。”
“Yourhandain’tugly,Nanny。”saidDiamond;butNannywenton——
“AndIstrokeditagain,andthenshestrokedmine,——thinkofthat!
Andtherewasaringonherfinger,andIlookeddowntoseewhatitwaslike。Andshedrewitoff,andputitupononeofmyfingers。
Itwasaredstone,andshetoldmetheycalleditaruby。”
“Oh,thatisfunny!“saidDiamond。“OurnewhorseiscalledRuby。
We’vegotanotherhorse——aredone——suchabeauty!“
ButNannywentonwithherstory。
“Ilookedattherubyallthetimetheladywastalkingtome,——
itwassobeautiful!AndasshetalkedIkeptseeingdeeperanddeeperintothestone。Atlastsherosetogoaway,andIbegantopulltheringoffmyfinger;andwhatdoyouthinkshesaid?——“Wearitallnight,ifyoulike。Onlyyoumusttakecareofit。
Ican’tgiveityou,forsomeonegaveittome;butyoumaykeepittillto-morrow。”Wasn’titkindofher?Icouldhardlytakemytea,Iwassodelightedtohearit;andIdothinkitwastheringthatsetmedreaming;for,afterIhadtakenmytea,Ileanedback,halflyingandhalfsitting,andlookedattheringonmyfinger。
BydegreesIbegantodream。Theringgrewlargerandlarger,untilatlastIfoundthatIwasnotlookingataredstone,butataredsunset,whichshoneinattheendofalongstreetnearwhereGrannielives。IwasdressedinragsasIusedtobe,andIhadgreatholesinmyshoes,atwhichthenastymudcamethroughtomyfeet。Ididn’tusetominditbefore,butnowIthoughtithorrid。Andtherewasthegreatredsunset,withstreaksofgreenandgoldbetween,standinglookingatme。Whycouldn’tIliveinthesunsetinsteadofinthatdirt?Whywasitsofarawayalways?
Whydiditnevercomeintoourwretchedstreet?Itfadedaway,asthesunsetsalwaysdo,andatlastwentoutaltogether。
Thenacoldwindbegantoblow,andflutterallmyragsabout——“
“ThatwasNorthWindherself。”saidDiamond。
“Eh?”saidNanny,andwentonwithherstory。
“Iturnedmybacktoit,andwanderedaway。IdidnotknowwhereI
wasgoing,onlyitwaswarmertogothatway。Idon’tthinkitwasanorthwind,forIfoundmyselfinthewestendatlast。
Butitdoesn’tmatterinadreamwhichwinditwas。”
“Idon’tknowthat。”saidDiamond。“IbelieveNorthWindcangetintoourdreams——yes,andblowinthem。Sometimesshehasblownmeoutofadreamaltogether。”
“Idon’tknowwhatyoumean,Diamond。”saidNanny。
“Nevermind。”answeredDiamond。“Twopeoplecan’talwaysunderstandeachother。They’dbothbeatthebackofthenorthwinddirectly,andwhatwouldbecomeoftheotherplaceswithoutthem?”
“Youdotalksooddly!“saidNanny。“Isometimesthinktheymusthavebeenrightaboutyou。”
“Whatdidtheysayaboutme?”askedDiamond。
“TheycalledyouGod’sbaby。”
“Howkindofthem!ButIknewthat。”
“Didyouknowwhatitmeant,though?Itmeantthatyouwerenotrightinthehead。”
“Ifeelallright。”saidDiamond,puttingbothhandstohishead,asifithadbeenaglobehecouldtakeoffandsetonagain。
“Well,aslongasyouarepleasedIampleased。”saidNanny。
“Thankyou,Nanny。Dogoonwithyourstory。IthinkIlikedreamsevenbetterthanfairytales。Buttheymustbeniceones,likeyours,youknow。”
“Well,Iwenton,keepingmybacktothewind,untilIcametoafinestreetonthetopofahill。HowithappenedIdon’tknow,butthefrontdoorofoneofthehouseswasopen,andnotonlythefrontdoor,butthebackdooraswell,sothatIcouldseerightthroughthehouse——
andwhatdoyouthinkIsaw?Agardenplacewithgreengrass,andthemoonshininguponit!Thinkofthat!Therewasnomooninthestreet,butthroughthehousetherewasthemoon。Ilookedandtherewasnobodynear:Iwouldnotdoanyharm,andthegrasswassomuchnicerthanthemud!ButIcouldn’tthinkofgoingonthegrasswithsuchdirtyshoes:Ikickedthemoffinthegutter,andraninonmybarefeet,upthesteps,andthroughthehouse,andontothegrass;andthemomentIcameintothemoonlight,Ibegantofeelbetter。”
“That’swhyNorthWindblewyouthere。”saidDiamond。
“ItcameofMr。Raymond’sstoryaboutPrincessDaylight。”returnedNanny。
“Well,IlaydownuponthegrassinthemoonlightwithoutthinkinghowIwastogetoutagain。Somehowthemoonsuitedmeexactly。
Therewasnotabreathofthenorthwindyoutalkabout;itwasquitegone。”
“Youdidn’twantheranymore,justthen。Shenevergoeswhereshe’snotwanted。”saidDiamond。“Butsheblewyouintothemoonlight,anyhow。”
“Well,wewon’tdisputeaboutit。”saidNanny:“you’vegotatileloose,youknow。”
“SupposeIhave。”returnedDiamond,“don’tyouseeitmayletinthemoonlight,orthesunlightforthatmatter?”
“Perhapsyes,perhapsno。”saidNanny。
“Andyou’vegotyourdreams,too,Nanny。”
“Yes,butIknowthey’redreams。”
“SodoI。ButIknowbesidestheyaresomethingmoreaswell。”
“Oh!doyou?”rejoinedNanny。“Idon’t。”
“Allright。”saidDiamond。“Perhapsyouwillsomeday。”
“PerhapsIwon’t。”saidNanny。
Diamondheldhispeace,andNannyresumedherstory。
“Ilayalongtime,andthemoonlightgotinateverytearinmyclothes,andmademefeelsohappy——“
“There,Itellyou!“saidDiamond。
“Whatdoyoutellme?”returnedNanny。
“NorthWind——“
“Itwasthemoonlight,Itellyou。”persistedNanny,andagainDiamondheldhispeace。
“AllatonceIfeltthatthemoonwasnotshiningsostrong。
Ilookedup,andtherewasacloud,allcrapeyandfluffy,tryingtodrownthebeautifulcreature。Butthemoonwassoround,justlikeawholeplate,thatthecloudcouldn’tsticktoher。
Sheshookitoff,andsaidthereandshoneoutclearerandbrighterthanever。Butupcameathickercloud,——and“Youshan’t。”
saidthemoon;and“Iwill。”saidthecloud,——butitcouldn’t:outshonethemoon,quitelaughingatitsimpudence。Iknewherways,forI’vealwaysbeenusedtowatchher。She’stheonlythingworthlookingatinourstreetatnight。”
“Don’tcallityourstreet。”saidDiamond。“You’renotgoingbacktoit。You’recomingtous,youknow。”
“That’stoogoodtobetrue。”saidNanny。
“Thereareveryfewthingsgoodenoughtobetrue。”saidDiamond;
“butIhopethisis。Toogoodtobetrueitcan’tbe。Isn’ttruegood?andisn’tgoodgood?Andhow,then,cananythingbetoogoodtobetrue?That’slikeoldSal——tosaythat。”
“Don’tabuseGrannie,Diamond。She’sahorridoldthing,sheandherginbottle;butshe’llrepentsomeday,andthenyou’llbegladnottohavesaidanythingagainsther。”
“Why?”saidDiamond。
“Becauseyou’llbesorryforher。”
“Iamsorryforhernow。”
“Verywell。That’sright。She’llbesorrytoo。Andthere’llbeanendofit。”
“Allright。Youcometous。”saidDiamond。
“WherewasI?”saidNanny。
“Tellingmehowthemoonservedtheclouds。”
“Yes。Butitwouldn’tdo,allofit。Upcamethecloudsandtheclouds,andtheycamefasterandfaster,untilthemoonwascoveredup。
Youcouldn’texpecthertothrowoffahundredofthematonce——
couldyou?”
“Certainlynot。”saidDiamond。
“Soitgrewverydark;andadogbegantoyelpinthehouse。Ilookedandsawthatthedoortothegardenwasshut。Presentlyitwasopened——
nottoletmeout,buttoletthedogin——yelpingandbounding。
Ithoughtifhecaughtsightofme,Iwasinforabitingfirst,andthepoliceafter。SoIjumpedup,andranforalittlesummer-houseinthecornerofthegarden。Thedogcameafterme,butIshutthedoorinhisface。Itwaswellithadadoor——
wasn’tit?”
“Youdreamedofthedoorbecauseyouwantedit。”saidDiamond。
“No,Ididn’t;itcameofitself。Itwasthere,inthetruedream。”
“There——I’vecaughtyou!“saidDiamond。“IknewyoubelievedinthedreamasmuchasIdo。”
“Oh,well,ifyouwilllaytrapsforabody!“saidNanny。
“Anyhow,Iwassafeinsidethesummer-house。Andwhatdoyouthink?——
Therewasthemoonbeginningtoshineagain——butonlythroughoneofthepanes——andthatonewasjustthecolouroftheruby。
Wasn’titfunny?”
“No,notabitfunny。”saidDiamond。
“Ifyouwillbecontrary!“saidNanny。
“No,no。”saidDiamond;“IonlymeantthatwastheverypaneI
shouldhaveexpectedhertoshinethrough。”
“Oh,verywell!“returnedNanny。
WhatDiamondmeant,Idonotpretendtosay。Hehadcuriousnotionsaboutthings。
“Andnow。”saidNanny,“Ididn’tknowwhattodo,forthedogkeptbarkingatthedoor,andIcouldn’tgetout。ButthemoonwassobeautifulthatIcouldn’tkeepfromlookingatitthroughtheredpane。
AndasIlookeditgotlargerandlargertillitfilledthewholepaneandoutgrewit,sothatIcouldseeitthroughtheotherpanes;
anditgrewtillitfilledthemtooandthewholewindow,sothatthesummer-housewasnearlyasbrightasday。
“Thedogstoppedbarking,andIheardagentletappingatthedoor,likethewindblowingalittlebranchagainstit。”
“Justlikeher。”saidDiamond,whothoughteverythingstrangeandbeautifulmustbedonebyNorthWind。
“SoIturnedfromthewindowandopenedthedoor;andwhatdoyouthinkIsaw?”
“Abeautifullady。”saidDiamond。
“No——themoonitself,asbigasalittlehouse,andasroundasaball,shininglikeyellowsilver。Itstoodonthegrass——
downontheverygrass:Icouldseenothingelseforthebrightnessofit:AndasIstaredandwondered,adooropenedinthesideofit,neartheground,andacuriouslittleoldman,withacrookedthingoverhisshoulder,lookedout,andsaid:
’Comealong,Nanny;myladywantsyou。We’recometofetchyou。”
Iwasn’tabitfrightened。Iwentuptothebeautifulbrightthing,andtheoldmanhelddownhishand,andItookholdofit,andgaveajump,andhegavemealift,andIwasinsidethemoon。
Andwhatdoyouthinkitwaslike?Itwassuchaprettylittlehouse,withbluewindowsandwhitecurtains!Atoneofthewindowssatabeautifullady,withherheadleaningonherhand,lookingout。
Sheseemedrathersad,andIwassorryforher,andstoodstaringather。
“`Youdidn’tthinkIhadsuchabeautifulmistressasthat!’
saidthequeerlittleman。`No,indeed!’Ianswered:`whowouldhavethoughtit?’`Ah!whoindeed?Butyouseeyoudon’tknoweverything。’
Thelittlemanclosedthedoor,andbegantopullataropewhichhungbehinditwithaweightattheend。Afterhehadpulledawhile,hesaid——`There,thatwilldo;we’reallrightnow。’Thenhetookmebythehandandopenedalittletrapinthefloor,andledmedowntwoorthreesteps,andIsawlikeagreatholebelowme。
`Don’tbefrightened,’saidthetittleman。`It’snotahole。
It’sonlyawindow。Putyourfacedownandlookthrough。’Ididashetoldme,andtherewasthegardenandthesummer-house,faraway,lyingatthebottomofthemoonlight。`There!’saidthelittleman;
`we’vebroughtyouoff!Doyouseethelittledogbarkingatusdownthereinthegarden?’ItoldhimIcouldn’tseeanythingsofar。`Canyouseeanythingsosmallandsofaroff?’Isaid。
`Blessyou,child!’saidthelittleman;`IcouldpickupaneedleoutofthegrassifIhadonlyalongenougharm。There’sonelyingbythedoorofthesummer-housenow。’Ilookedathiseyes。
Theywereverysmall,butsobrightthatIthinkhesawbythelightthatwentoutofthem。Thenhetookmeup,andupagainbyalittlestairinacorneroftheroom,andthroughanothertrapdoor,andtherewasonegreatroundwindowaboveus,andIsawtheblueskyandtheclouds,andsuchlotsofstars,allsobigandshiningashardasevertheycould!“
“Thelittlegirl-angelshadbeenpolishingthem。”saidDiamond。
“Whatnonsenseyoudotalk!“saidNanny。
“Butmynonsenseisjustasgoodasyours,Nanny。Whenyouhavedone,I’lltellyoumydream。Thestarsareinit——notthemoon,though。
Shewasawaysomewhere。Perhapsshewasgonetofetchyouthen。
Idon’tthinkthat,though,formydreamwaslongeragothanyours。
Shemighthavebeentofetchsomeoneelse,though;forwecan’tfancyit’sonlyusthatgetsuchfinethingsdoneforthem。
Butdotellmewhatcamenext。”
Perhapsoneofmychild-readersmayrememberwhetherthemooncamedowntofetchhimorherthesamenightthatDiamondhadhisdream。
Icannottell,ofcourse。Iknowshedidnotcometofetchme,thoughIdidthinkIcouldmakeherfollowmewhenIwasaboy——
notaverytinyoneeither。
“Thelittlemantookmeallroundthehouse,andmademelookoutofeverywindow。Oh,itwasbeautiful!Therewewere,allupintheair,insuchanice,cleanlittlehouse!`Yourworkwillbetokeepthewindowsbright,’saidthelittleman。
`Youwon’tfinditverydifficult,forthereain’tmuchdustuphere。
Only,thefrostsettlesonthemsometimes,andthedropsofrainleavemarksonthem。’`Icaneasilycleantheminside,’Isaid;
`buthowamItogetthefrostandrainofftheoutsideofthem?’
`Oh!’hesaid,`it’squiteeasy。Thereareladdersallabout。
You’veonlygottogooutatthedoor,andclimbabout。Thereareagreatmanywindowsyouhaven’tseenyet,andsomeofthemlookintoplacesyoudon’tknowanythingabout。Iusedtocleanthemmyself,butI’mgettingratherold,yousee。Ain’tInow?’`Ican’ttell,’
Ianswered。`YouseeIneversawyouwhenyouwereyounger。’
`Neversawthemaninthemoon?’saidhe。`Notverynear,’
Ianswered,`nottotellhowyoungorhowoldhelooked。Ihaveseenthebundleofsticksonhisback。’ForJimhadpointedthatouttome。Jimwasveryfondoflookingatthemaninthemoon。
PoorJim!Iwonderhehasn’tbeentoseeme。I’mafraidhe’silltoo。”
“I’lltrytofindout。”saidDiamond,“andletyouknow。”
“Thankyou。”saidNanny。“YouandJimoughttobefriends。”
“Butwhatdidthemaninthemoonsay,whenyoutoldhimyouhadseenhimwiththebundleofsticksonhisback?”
“Helaughed。ButIthoughthelookedoffendedtoo。Hislittlenoseturnedupsharper,andhedrewthecornersofhismouthdownfromthetipsofhisearsintohisneck。Buthedidn’tlookcross,youknow。”
“Didn’thesayanything?”
“Oh,yes!Hesaid:`That’sallnonsense。Whatyousawwasmybundleofdusters。Iwasgoingtocleanthewindows。Ittakesagoodmany,youknow。Really,whattheydosayoftheirsuperiorsdownthere!’
`It’sonlybecausetheydon’tknowbetter,’Iventuredtosay。
`Ofcourse,ofcourse,’saidthelittleman。`Nobodyeverdoesknowbetter。Well,Iforgivethem,andthatsetsitallright,Ihope。’`It’sverygoodofyou,’Isaid。`No!’saidhe,`it’snotintheleastgoodofme。Icouldn’tbecomfortableotherwise。’