’Oh!shewereverybadtheothernight,sir,indeedshewere,saidMiggs。’Ifyouhadn’tthesweetnessofanangelinyou,mim,I
don’tthinkyoucouldabearit,Iralydon’t。’
’Miggs,’saidMrsVarden,’you’reprofane。’
’Beggingyourpardon,mim,’returnedMiggs,withshrillrapidity,’suchwasnotmyintentions,andsuchIhopeisnotmycharacter,thoughIambutaservant。’
’Answeringme,Miggs,andprovidingyourself,’retortedhermistress,lookingroundwithdignity,’isoneandthesamething。
Howdareyouspeakofangelsinconnectionwithyoursinfulfellow-beings——mere’——saidMrsVarden,glancingatherselfinaneighbouringmirror,andarrangingtheribbonofhercapinamorebecomingfashion——’merewormsandgrovellersasweare!’
’Ididnotintend,mim,ifyouplease,togiveoffence,’saidMiggs,confidentinthestrengthofhercompliment,anddevelopingstronglyinthethroatasusual,’andIdidnotexpectitwouldbetookassuch。IhopeIknowmyownunworthiness,andthatIhateanddespisemyselfandallmyfellow-creaturesaseverypracticableChristianshould。’
’You’llhavethegoodness,ifyouplease,’saidMrsVarden,loftily,’tostepupstairsandseeifDollyhasfinisheddressing,andtotellherthatthechairthatwasorderedforherwillbehereinaminute,andthatifshekeepsitwaiting,Ishallsenditawaythatinstant——I’msorrytoseethatyoudon’ttakeyourtea,Varden,andthatyoudon’ttakeyours,MrJoseph;thoughofcourseitwouldbefoolishofmetoexpectthatanythingthatcanbehadathome,andinthecompanyoffemales,wouldpleaseYOU。’
Thispronounwasunderstoodinthepluralsense,andincludedbothgentlemen,uponbothofwhomitwasratherhardandundeserved,forGabrielhadappliedhimselftothemealwithaverypromisingappetite,untilitwasspoiltbyMrsVardenherself,andJoehadasgreatalikingforthefemalesocietyofthelocksmith’shouse——orforapartofitatallevents——asmancouldwellentertain。
Buthehadnoopportunitytosayanythinginhisowndefence,foratthatmomentDollyherselfappeared,andstruckhimquitedumbwithherbeauty。NeverhadDollylookedsohandsomeasshedidthen,inalltheglowandgraceofyouth,withallhercharmsincreasedahundredfoldbyamostbecomingdress,byathousandlittlecoquettishwayswhichnobodycouldassumewithabettergrace,andallthesparklingexpectationofthataccursedparty。
ItisimpossibletotellhowJoehatedthatpartywhereveritwas,andalltheotherpeoplewhoweregoingtoit,whoevertheywere。
Andshehardlylookedathim——no,hardlylookedathim。Andwhenthechairwasseenthroughtheopendoorcomingblunderingintotheworkshop,sheactuallyclappedherhandsandseemedgladtogo。
ButJoegaveherhisarm——therewassomecomfortinthat——andhandedherintoit。Toseeherseatherselfinside,withherlaughingeyesbrighterthandiamonds,andherhand——surelyshehadtheprettiesthandintheworld——ontheledgeoftheopenwindow,andherlittlefingerprovokinglyandpertlytiltedup,asifitwonderedwhyJoedidn’tsqueezeorkissit!Tothinkhowwelloneortwoofthemodestsnowdropswouldhavebecomethatdelicatebodice,andhowtheywerelyingneglectedoutsidetheparlourwindow!ToseehowMiggslookedonwithafaceexpressiveofknowinghowallthislovelinesswasgotup,andofbeinginthesecretofeverystringandpinandhookandeye,andofsayingitain’thalfasrealasyouthink,andIcouldlookquiteaswellmyselfifItookthepains!Tohearthatprovokingpreciouslittlescreamwhenthechairwashoistedonitspoles,andtocatchthattransientbutnot-to-be-forgottenvisionofthehappyfacewithin——
whattormentsandaggravations,andyetwhatdelightswerethese!
Theverychairmenseemedfavouredrivalsastheyboreherdownthestreet。
Thereneverwassuchanalterationinasmallroominasmalltimeasinthatparlourwhentheywentbacktofinishtea。Sodark,sodeserted,soperfectlydisenchanted。Itseemedsuchsheernonsensetobesittingtamelythere,whenshewasatadancewithmoreloversthanmancouldcalculateflutteringabouther——withthewholepartydotingonandadoringher,andwantingtomarryher。
Miggswashoveringabouttoo;andthefactofherexistence,themerecircumstanceofhereverhavingbeenborn,appeared,afterDolly,suchanunaccountablepracticaljoke。Itwasimpossibletotalk。Itcouldn’tbedone。Hehadnothingleftforitbuttostirhistearound,andround,andround,andruminateonallthefascinationsofthelocksmith’slovelydaughter。
Gabrielwasdulltoo。ItwasapartofthecertainuncertaintyofMrsVarden’stemper,thatwhentheywereinthiscondition,sheshouldbegayandsprightly。
’Ineedhaveacheerfuldisposition,Iamsure,’saidthesmilinghousewife,’topreserveanyspiritsatall;andhowIdoitIcanscarcelytell。’
’Ah,mim,’sighedMiggs,’beggingyourpardonfortheinterruption,therean’tamanylikeyou。’
’Takeaway,Miggs,’saidMrsVarden,rising,’takeaway,pray。I
knowI’marestrainthere,andasIwisheverybodytoenjoythemselvesastheybestcan,IfeelIhadbettergo。’
’No,no,Martha,’criedthelocksmith。’Stophere。I’msureweshallbeverysorrytoloseyou,ehJoe!’Joestarted,andsaid’Certainly。’
’Thankyou,Varden,mydear,’returnedhiswife;’butIknowyourwishesbetter。Tobaccoandbeer,orspirits,havemuchgreaterattractionsthananyIcanboastof,andthereforeIshallgoandsitupstairsandlookoutofwindow,mylove。Goodnight,MrJoseph。I’mverygladtohaveseenyou,andIonlywishIcouldhaveprovidedsomethingmoresuitabletoyourtaste。RemembermeverykindlyifyoupleasetooldMrWillet,andtellhimthatwheneverhecomeshereIhaveacrowtopluckwithhim。Goodnight!’
Havingutteredthesewordswithgreatsweetnessofmanner,thegoodladydroppedacurtseyremarkableforitscondescension,andserenelywithdrew。
AnditwasforthisJoehadlookedforwardtothetwenty-fifthofMarchforweeksandweeks,andhadgatheredtheflowerswithsomuchcare,andhadcockedhishat,andmadehimselfsosmart!Thiswastheendofallhisbolddetermination,resolveduponforthehundredthtime,tospeakouttoDollyandtellherhowhelovedher!Toseeherforaminute——forbutaminute——tofindhergoingouttoapartyandgladtogo;tobelookeduponasacommonpipe-
smoker,beer-bibber,spirit-guzzler,andtosspot!Hebadefarewelltohisfriendthelocksmith,andhastenedtotakehorseattheBlackLion,thinkingasheturnedtowardshome,asmanyanotherJoehasthoughtbeforeandsince,thatherewasanendtoallhishopes——thatthethingwasimpossibleandnevercouldbe——thatshedidn’tcareforhim——thathewaswretchedforlife——andthattheonlycongenialprospectlefthim,wastogoforasoldierorasailor,andgetsomeobligingenemytoknockhisbrainsoutassoonaspossible。
Chapter14
JoeWilletrodeleisurelyalonginhisdespondingmood,picturingthelocksmith’sdaughtergoingdownlongcountry-dances,andpoussettingdreadfullywithboldstrangers——whichwasalmosttoomuchtobear——whenheheardthetrampofahorse’sfeetbehindhim,andlookingback,sawawell-mountedgentlemanadvancingatasmartcanter。Asthisriderpassed,hecheckedhissteed,andcalledhimoftheMaypolebyhisname。Joesetspurstothegreymare,andwasathissidedirectly。
’Ithoughtitwasyou,sir,’hesaid,touchinghishat。’Afairevening,sir。Gladtoseeyououtofdoorsagain。’
Thegentlemansmiledandnodded。’Whatgaydoingshavebeengoingonto-day,Joe?Issheasprettyasever?Nay,don’tblush,man。’
’IfIcolouredatall,MrEdward,’saidJoe,’whichIdidn’tknowI
did,itwastothinkIshouldhavebeensuchafoolasevertohaveanyhopeofher。She’sasfaroutofmyreachas——asHeavenis。’
’Well,Joe,Ihopethat’snotaltogetherbeyondit,’saidEdward,good-humouredly。’Eh?’
’Ah!’sighedJoe。’It’sallveryfinetalking,sir。Proverbsareeasilymadeincoldblood。Butitcan’tbehelped。Areyouboundforourhouse,sir?’
’Yes。AsIamnotquitestrongyet,Ishallstaythereto-night,andridehomecoollyinthemorning。’
’Ifyou’reinnoparticularhurry,’saidJoeafterashortsilence,’andwillbearwiththepaceofthispoorjade,IshallbegladtorideonwithyoutotheWarren,sir,andholdyourhorsewhenyoudismount。It’llsaveyouhavingtowalkfromtheMaypole,thereandbackagain。Icansparethetimewell,sir,forIamtoosoon。’
’AndsoamI,’returnedEdward,’thoughIwasunconsciouslyridingfastjustnow,incomplimentIsupposetothepaceofmythoughts,whichweretravellingpost。Wewillkeeptogether,Joe,willingly,andbeasgoodcompanyasmaybe。Andcheerup,cheerup,thinkofthelocksmith’sdaughterwithastoutheart,andyoushallwinheryet。’
Joeshookhishead;buttherewassomethingsocheeryinthebuoyanthopefulmannerofthisspeech,thathisspiritsroseunderitsinfluence,andcommunicatedasitwouldseemsomenewimpulseeventothegreymare,who,breakingfromhersoberambleintoagentletrot,emulatedthepaceofEdwardChester’shorse,andappearedtoflatterherselfthathewasdoinghisverybest。
Itwasafinedrynight,andthelightofayoungmoon,whichwasthenjustrising,shedaroundthatpeaceandtranquillitywhichgivestoeveningtimeitsmostdeliciouscharm。Thelengthenedshadowsofthetrees,softenedasifreflectedinstillwater,threwtheircarpetonthepaththetravellerspursued,andthelightwindstirredyetmoresoftlythanbefore,asthoughitweresoothingNatureinhersleep。Bylittleandlittletheyceasedtalking,androdeonsidebysideinapleasantsilence。
’TheMaypolelightsarebrilliantto-night,’saidEdward,astheyrodealongthelanefromwhich,whiletheinterveningtreeswerebareofleaves,thathostelrywasvisible。
’Brilliantindeed,sir,’returnedJoe,risinginhisstirrupstogetabetterview。’Lightsinthelargeroom,andafireglimmeringinthebestbedchamber?Why,whatcompanycanthisbefor,Iwonder!’
’SomebenightedhorsemanwendingtowardsLondon,anddeterredfromgoingonto-nightbythemarvelloustalesofmyfriendthehighwayman,Isuppose,’saidEdward。
’Hemustbeahorsemanofgoodqualitytohavesuchaccommodations。
Yourbedtoo,sir——!’
’Nomatter,Joe。Anyotherroomwilldoforme。Butcome——there’sninestriking。Wemaypushon。’
TheycanteredforwardatasbriskapaceasJoe’schargercouldattain,andpresentlystoppedinthelittlecopsewherehehadleftherinthemorning。Edwarddismounted,gavehisbridletohiscompanion,andwalkedwithalightsteptowardsthehouse。
Afemaleservantwaswaitingatasidegateinthegarden-wall,andadmittedhimwithoutdelay。Hehurriedalongtheterrace-walk,anddartedupaflightofbroadstepsleadingintoanoldandgloomyhall,whosewallswereornamentedwithrustysuitsofarmour,antlers,weaponsofthechase,andsuchlikegarniture。Herehepaused,butnotlong;forashelookedround,asifexpectingtheattendanttohavefollowed,andwonderingshehadnotdoneso,alovelygirlappeared,whosedarkhairnextmomentrestedonhisbreast。Almostatthesameinstantaheavyhandwaslaiduponherarm,Edwardfelthimselfthrustaway,andMrHaredalestoodbetweenthem。
Heregardedtheyoungmansternlywithoutremovinghishat;withonehandclaspedhisniece,andwiththeother,inwhichheheldhisriding-whip,motionedhimtowardsthedoor。Theyoungmandrewhimselfup,andreturnedhisgaze。
’Thisiswelldoneofyou,sir,tocorruptmyservants,andentermyhouseunbiddenandinsecret,likeathief!’saidMrHaredale。
’Leaveit,sir,andreturnnomore。’
’MissHaredale’spresence,’returnedtheyoungman,’andyourrelationshiptoher,giveyoualicencewhich,ifyouareabraveman,youwillnotabuse。Youhavecompelledmetothiscourse,andthefaultisyours——notmine。’
’Itisneithergenerous,norhonourable,northeactofatrueman,sir,’retortedtheother,’totamperwiththeaffectionsofaweak,trustinggirl,whileyoushrink,inyourunworthiness,fromherguardianandprotector,anddarenotmeetthelightofday。
MorethanthisIwillnotsaytoyou,savethatIforbidyouthishouse,andrequireyoutobegone。’
’Itisneithergenerous,norhonourable,northeactofatruemantoplaythespy,’saidEdward。’Yourwordsimplydishonour,andI
rejectthemwiththescorntheymerit。’
’Youwillfind,’saidMrHaredale,calmly,’yourtrustygo-betweeninwaitingatthegatebywhichyouentered。Ihaveplayednospy’spart,sir。Ichancedtoseeyoupassthegate,andfollowed。Youmighthaveheardmeknockingforadmission,hadyoubeenlessswiftoffoot,orlingeredinthegarden。Pleasetowithdraw。Yourpresencehereisoffensivetomeanddistressfultomyniece。’Ashesaidthesewords,hepassedhisarmaboutthewaistoftheterrifiedandweepinggirl,anddrewherclosertohim;andthoughthehabitualseverityofhismannerwasscarcelychanged,therewasyetapparentintheactionanairofkindnessandsympathyforherdistress。
’MrHaredale,’saidEdward,’yourarmencirclesheronwhomIhavesetmyeveryhopeandthought,andtopurchaseoneminute’shappinessforwhomIwouldgladlylaydownmylife;thishouseisthecasketthatholdsthepreciousjewelofmyexistence。Yourniecehasplightedherfaithtome,andIhaveplightedminetoher。WhathaveIdonethatyoushouldholdmeinthislightesteem,andgivemethesediscourteouswords?’
’Youhavedonethat,sir,’answeredMrHaredale,’whichmustheundone。Youhavetiedalover’-knotherewhichmustbecutasunder。TakegoodheedofwhatIsay。Must。Icancelthebondbetweenye。Irejectyou,andallofyourkithandkin——allthefalse,hollow,heartlessstock。’
’Highwords,sir,’saidEdward,scornfully。
’Wordsofpurposeandmeaning,asyouwillfind,’repliedtheother。’Laythemtoheart。’
’Layyouthen,these,’saidEdward。’Yourcoldandsullentemper,whichchillseverybreastaboutyou,whichturnsaffectionintofear,andchangesdutyintodread,hasforcedusonthissecretcourse,repugnanttoournatureandourwish,andfarmoreforeign,sir,tousthanyou。Iamnotafalse,ahollow,oraheartlessman;thecharacterisyours,whopoorlyventureontheseinjuriousterms,againstthetruth,andundertheshelterwhereofIremindedyoujustnow。Youshallnotcancelthebondbetweenus。Iwillnotabandonthispursuit。Irelyuponyourniece’struthandhonour,andsetyourinfluenceatnought。Ileaveherwithaconfidenceinherpurefaith,whichyouwillneverweaken,andwithnoconcernbutthatIdonotleaveherinsomegentlercare。’
Withthat,hepressedhercoldhandtohislips,andoncemoreencounteringandreturningMrHaredale’ssteadylook,withdrew。
AfewwordstoJoeashemountedhishorsesufficientlyexplainedwhathadpassed,andrenewedallthatyounggentleman’sdespondencywithtenfoldaggravation。TheyrodebacktotheMaypolewithoutexchangingasyllable,andarrivedatthedoorwithheavyhearts。
OldJohn,whohadpeepedfrombehindtheredcurtainastheyrodeupshoutingforHugh,wasoutdirectly,andsaidwithgreatimportanceasheheldtheyoungman’sstirrup,’He’scomfortableinbed——thebestbed。Athoroughgentleman;thesmilingest,affablestgentlemanIeverhadtodowith。’
’Who,Willet?’saidEdwardcarelessly,ashedismounted。
’Yourworthyfather,sir,’repliedJohn。’Yourhonourable,venerablefather。’
’Whatdoeshemean?’saidEdward,lookingwithamixtureofalarmanddoubt,atJoe。
’WhatDOyoumean?’saidJoe。’Don’tyouseeMrEdwarddoesn’tunderstand,father?’
’Why,didn’tyouknowofit,sir?’saidJohn,openinghiseyeswide。’Howverysingular!Blessyou,he’sbeenhereeversincenoonto-day,andMrHaredalehasbeenhavingalongtalkwithhim,andhasn’tbeengoneanhour。’
’Myfather,Willet!’
’Yes,sir,hetoldmeso——ahandsome,slim,uprightgentleman,ingreen-and-gold。Inyouroldroomupyonder,sir。Nodoubtyoucangoin,sir,’saidJohn,walkingbackwardsintotheroadandlookingupatthewindow。’Hehasn’tputouthiscandlesyet,I
see。’
Edwardglancedatthewindowalso,andhastilymurmuringthathehadchangedhismind——forgottensomething——andmustreturntoLondon,mountedhishorseagainandrodeaway;leavingtheWillets,fatherandson,lookingateachotherinmuteastonishment。
Chapter15
Atnoonnextday,JohnWillet’sguestsatlingeringoverhisbreakfastinhisownhome,surroundedbyavarietyofcomforts,whichlefttheMaypole’shighestflightandutmoststretchofaccommodationataninfinitedistancebehind,andsuggestedcomparisonsverymuchtothedisadvantageanddisfavourofthatvenerabletavern。
Inthebroadold-fashionedwindow-seat——ascapaciousasmanymodernsofas,andcushionedtoservethepurposeofaluxurioussettee——inthebroadold-fashionedwindow-seatofaroomychamber,MrChesterlounged,verymuchathisease,overawell-furnishedbreakfast-
table。Hehadexchangedhisriding-coatforahandsomemorning-
gown,hisbootsforslippers;hadbeenatgreatpainstoatoneforthehavingbeenobligedtomakehistoiletwhenherosewithouttheaidofdressing-caseandtiringequipage;and,havinggraduallyforgottenthroughthesemeansthediscomfortsofanindifferentnightandanearlyride,wasinastateofperfectcomplacency,indolence,andsatisfaction。
Thesituationinwhichhefoundhimself,indeed,wasparticularlyfavourabletothegrowthofthesefeelings;for,nottomentionthelazyinfluenceofalateandlonelybreakfast,withtheadditionalsedativeofanewspaper,therewasanairofreposeabouthisplaceofresidencepeculiartoitself,andwhichhangsaboutit,eveninthesetimes,whenitismorebustlingandbusythanitwasindaysofyore。
Thereare,still,worseplacesthantheTemple,onasultryday,forbaskinginthesun,orrestingidlyintheshade。Thereisyetadrowsinessinitscourts,andadreamydulnessinitstreesandgardens;thosewhopaceitslanesandsquaresmayyetheartheechoesoftheirfootstepsonthesoundingstones,andreaduponitsgates,inpassingfromthetumultoftheStrandorFleetStreet,’Whoentershereleavesnoisebehind。’ThereisstilltheplashoffallingwaterinfairFountainCourt,andthereareyetnooksandcornerswheredun-hauntedstudentsmaylookdownfromtheirdustygarrets,onavagrantrayofsunlightpatchingtheshadeofthetallhouses,andseldomtroubledtoreflectapassingstranger’sform。Thereisyet,intheTemple,somethingofaclerklymonkishatmosphere,whichpublicofficesoflawhavenotdisturbed,andevenlegalfirmshavefailedtoscareaway。Insummertime,itspumpssuggesttothirstyidlers,springscooler,andmoresparkling,anddeeperthanotherwells;andastheytracethespillingsoffullpitchersontheheatedground,theysnuffthefreshness,and,sighing,castsadlookstowardstheThames,andthinkofbathsandboats,andsaunteron,despondent。
ItwasinaroominPaperBuildings——arowofgoodlytenements,shadedinfrontbyancienttrees,andlooking,attheback,upontheTempleGardens——thatthis,ouridler,lounged;nowtakingupagainthepaperhehadlaiddownahundredtimes;nowtriflingwiththefragmentsofhismeal;nowpullingforthhisgoldentoothpick,andglancingleisurelyabouttheroom,oroutatwindowintothetrimgardenwalks,whereafewearlyloitererswerealreadypacingtoandfro。Hereapairofloversmettoquarrelandmakeup;
thereadark-eyednursery-maidhadbettereyesforTemplarsthanhercharge;onthishandanancientspinster,withherlapdoginastring,regardedbothenormitieswithscornfulsidelonglooks;onthataweazenoldgentleman,oglingthenursery-maid,lookedwithlikescornuponthespinster,andwonderedshedidn’tknowshewasnolongeryoung。Apartfromallthese,ontheriver’smargintwoorthreecoupleofbusiness-talkerswalkedslowlyupanddowninearnestconversation;andoneyoungmansatthoughtfullyonabench,alone。
’Nedisamazinglypatient!’saidMrChester,glancingatthislast-
namedpersonashesetdownhisteacupandpliedthegoldentoothpick,’immenselypatient!HewassittingyonderwhenIbegantodress,andhasscarcelychangedhisposturesince。Amosteccentricdog!’
Ashespoke,thefigurerose,andcametowardshimwitharapidpace。
’Really,asifhehadheardme,’saidthefather,resuminghisnewspaperwithayawn。’DearNed!’
Presentlytheroom-dooropened,andtheyoungmanentered;towhomhisfathergentlywavedhishand,andsmiled。
’Areyouatleisureforalittleconversation,sir?’saidEdward。
’Surely,Ned。Iamalwaysatleisure。Youknowmyconstitution——
Haveyoubreakfasted?’
’Threehoursago。’
’Whataveryearlydog!’criedhisfather,contemplatinghimfrombehindthetoothpick,withalanguidsmile。
’Thetruthis,’saidEdward,bringingachairforward,andseatinghimselfnearthetable,’thatIsleptbutilllastnight,andwasgladtorise。Thecauseofmyuneasinesscannotbutbeknowntoyou,sir;anditisuponthatIwishtospeak。’
’Mydearboy,’returnedhisfather,’confideinme,Ibeg。Butyouknowmyconstitution——don’tbeprosy,Ned。’
’Iwillbeplain,andbrief,’saidEdward。
’Don’tsayyouwill,mygoodfellow,’returnedhisfather,crossinghislegs,’oryoucertainlywillnot。Youaregoingtotellme’——
’Plainlythis,then,’saidtheson,withanairofgreatconcern,’thatIknowwhereyouwerelastnight——frombeingonthespot,indeed——andwhomyousaw,andwhatyourpurposewas。’
’Youdon’tsayso!’criedhisfather。’Iamdelightedtohearit。
Itsavesustheworry,andterriblewearandtearofalongexplanation,andisagreatreliefforboth。Attheveryhouse!
Whydidn’tyoucomeup?Ishouldhavebeencharmedtoseeyou。’
’IknewthatwhatIhadtosaywouldbebettersaidafteranight’sreflection,whenbothofuswerecool,’returnedtheson。
’’ForeGad,Ned,’rejoinedthefather,’Iwascoolenoughlastnight。ThatdetestableMaypole!Bysomeinfernalcontrivanceofthebuilder,itholdsthewind,andkeepsitfresh。Yourememberthesharpeastwindthatblewsohardfiveweeksago?Igiveyoumyhonouritwasrampantinthatoldhouselastnight,thoughoutofdoorstherewasadeadcalm。Butyouweresaying’——
’Iwasabouttosay,Heavenknowshowseriouslyandearnestly,thatyouhavemademewretched,sir。Willyouhearmegravelyforamoment?’
’MydearNed,’saidhisfather,’Iwillhearyouwiththepatienceofananchorite。Obligemewiththemilk。’
’IsawMissHaredalelastnight,’Edwardresumed,whenhehadcompliedwiththisrequest;’heruncle,inherpresence,immediatelyafteryourinterview,and,asofcourseIknow,inconsequenceofit,forbademethehouse,and,withcircumstancesofindignitywhichareofyourcreationIamsure,commandedmetoleaveitontheinstant。’
’Forhismannerofdoingso,Igiveyoumyhonour,Ned,Iamnotaccountable,’saidhisfather。’Thatyoumustexcuse。Heisamereboor,alog,abrute,withnoaddressinlife——Positivelyaflyinthejug。ThefirstIhaveseenthisyear。’
Edwardrose,andpacedtheroom。Hisimperturbableparentsippedhistea。
’Father,’saidtheyoungman,stoppingatlengthbeforehim,’wemustnottrifleinthismatter。Wemustnotdeceiveeachother,orourselves。LetmepursuethemanlyopenpartIwishtotake,anddonotrepelmebythisunkindindifference。’
’WhetherIamindifferentorno,’returnedtheother,’Ileaveyou,mydearboy,tojudge。Arideoftwenty-fiveorthirtymiles,throughmiryroads——aMaypoledinner——atete-a-tetewithHaredale,which,vanityapart,wasquiteaValentineandOrsonbusiness——aMaypolebed——aMaypolelandlord,andaMaypoleretinueofidiotsandcentaurs;——whetherthevoluntaryenduranceofthesethingslookslikeindifference,dearNed,orliketheexcessiveanxiety,anddevotion,andallthatsortofthing,ofaparent,youshalldetermineforyourself。’
’Iwishyoutoconsider,sir,’saidEdward,’inwhatacruelsituationIamplaced。LovingMissHaredaleasIdo’——
’Mydearfellow,’interruptedhisfatherwithacompassionatesmile,’youdonothingofthekind。Youdon’tknowanythingaboutit。There’snosuchthing,Iassureyou。Now,dotakemywordforit。Youhavegoodsense,Ned,——greatgoodsense。Iwonderyoushouldbeguiltyofsuchamazingabsurdities。Youreallysurpriseme。’
’Irepeat,’saidhissonfirmly,’thatIloveher。Youhaveinterposedtopartus,andhave,totheextentIhavejustnowtoldyouof,succeeded。MayIinduceyou,sir,intime,tothinkmorefavourablyofourattachment,orisityourintentionandyourfixeddesigntoholdusasunderifyoucan?’
’MydearNed,’returnedhisfather,takingapinchofsnuffandpushinghisboxtowardshim,’thatismypurposemostundoubtedly。’
’Thetimethathaselapsed,’rejoinedhisson,’sinceIbegantoknowherworth,hasflowninsuchadreamthatuntilnowIhavehardlyoncepausedtoreflectuponmytrueposition。Whatisit?
FrommychildhoodIhavebeenaccustomedtoluxuryandidleness,andhavebeenbredasthoughmyfortunewerelarge,andmyexpectationsalmostwithoutalimit。Theideaofwealthhasbeenfamiliarisedtomefrommycradle。Ihavebeentaughttolookuponthosemeans,bywhichmenraisethemselvestorichesanddistinction,asbeingbeyondmyheeding,andbeneathmycare。I
havebeen,asthephraseis,liberallyeducated,andamfitfornothing。Ifindmyselfatlastwhollydependentuponyou,withnoresourcebutinyourfavour。Inthismomentousquestionofmylifewedonot,anditwouldseemwenevercan,agree。Ihaveshrunkinstinctivelyalikefromthosetowhomyouhaveurgedmetopaycourt,andfromthemotivesofinterestandgainwhichhaverenderedtheminyoureyesvisibleobjectsformysuit。Ifthereneverhasbeenthusmuchplain-speakingbetweenusbefore,sir,thefaulthasnotbeenmine,indeed。IfIseemtospeaktooplainlynow,itis,believemefather,inthehopethattheremaybeafrankerspirit,aworthierreliance,andakinderconfidencebetweenusintimetocome。’
’Mygoodfellow,’saidhissmilingfather,’youquiteaffectme。
Goon,mydearEdward,Ibeg。Butrememberyourpromise。Thereisgreatearnestness,vastcandour,amanifestsincerityinallyousay,butIfearIobservethefaintestindicationsofatendencytoprose。’
’Iamverysorry,sir。’
’Iamverysorry,too,Ned,butyouknowthatIcannotfixmymindforanylongperiodupononesubject。Ifyou’llcometothepointatonce,I’llimagineallthatoughttogobefore,andconcludeitsaid。Obligemewiththemilkagain。Listening,invariablymakesmefeverish。’
’WhatIwouldsaythen,tendstothis,’saidEdward。’Icannotbearthisabsolutedependence,sir,evenuponyou。Timehasbeenlostandopportunitythrownaway,butIamyetayoungman,andmayretrieveit。WillyougivemethemeansofdevotingsuchabilitiesandenergiesasIpossess,tosomeworthypursuit?Willyouletmetrytomakeformyselfanhonourablepathinlife?Foranytermyoupleasetoname——sayforfiveyearsifyouwill——Iwillpledgemyselftomovenofurtherinthematterofourdifferencewithoutyourfallconcurrence。Duringthatperiod,Iwillendeavourearnestlyandpatiently,ifevermandid,toopensomeprospectformyself,andfreeyoufromtheburdenyoufearIshouldbecomeifI
marriedonewhoseworthandbeautyareherchiefendowments。Willyoudothis,sir?Attheexpirationofthetermweagreeupon,letusdiscussthissubjectagain。Tillthen,unlessitisrevivedbyyou,letitneverberenewedbetweenus。’
’MydearNed,’returnedhisfather,layingdownthenewspaperatwhichhehadbeenglancingcarelessly,andthrowinghimselfbackinthewindow-seat,’IbelieveyouknowhowverymuchIdislikewhatarecalledfamilyaffairs,whichareonlyfitforplebeianChristmasdays,andhavenomannerofbusinesswithpeopleofourcondition。Butasyouareproceedinguponamistake,Ned——
altogetheruponamistake——Iwillconquermyrepugnancetoenteringonsuchmatters,andgiveyouaperfectlyplainandcandidanswer,ifyouwilldomethefavourtoshutthedoor。’
Edwardhavingobeyedhim,hetookanelegantlittleknifefromhispocket,andparinghisnails,continued:
’Youhavetothankme,Ned,forbeingofgoodfamily;foryourmother,charmingpersonasshewas,andalmostbroken-hearted,andsoforth,assheleftme,whenshewasprematurelycompelledtobecomeimmortal——hadnothingtoboastofinthatrespect。’
’Herfatherwasatleastaneminentlawyer,sir,’saidEdward。
’Quiteright,Ned;perfectlyso。Hestoodhighatthebar,hadagreatnameandgreatwealth,buthavingrisenfromnothing——Ihavealwaysclosedmyeyestothecircumstanceandsteadilyresisteditscontemplation,butIfearhisfatherdealtinpork,andthathisbusinessdidonceinvolvecow-heelandsausages——hewishedtomarryhisdaughterintoagoodfamily。Hehadhisheart’sdesire,Ned。
Iwasayoungerson’syoungerson,andImarriedher。Weeachhadourobject,andgainedit。Shesteppedatonceintothepolitestandbestcircles,andIsteppedintoafortunewhichIassureyouwasverynecessarytomycomfort——quiteindispensable。Now,mygoodfellow,thatfortuneisamongthethingsthathavebeen。Itisgone,Ned,andhasbeengone——howoldareyou?Ialwaysforget。’
’Seven-and-twenty,sir。’
’Areyouindeed?’criedhisfather,raisinghiseyelidsinalanguishingsurprise。’Somuch!ThenIshouldsay,Ned,thatasnearlyasIremember,itsskirtsvanishedfromhumanknowledge,abouteighteenornineteenyearsago。ItwasaboutthattimewhenIcametoliveinthesechambersonceyourgrandfather’s,andbequeathedbythatextremelyrespectablepersontome,andcommencedtoliveuponaninconsiderableannuityandmypastreputation。’
’Youarejestingwithme,sir,’saidEdward。
’Notintheslightestdegree,Iassureyou,’returnedhisfatherwithgreatcomposure。’Thesefamilytopicsaresoextremelydry,thatIamsorrytosaytheydon’tadmitofanysuchrelief。Itisforthatreason,andbecausetheyhaveanappearanceofbusiness,thatIdislikethemsoverymuch。Well!Youknowtherest。A
son,Ned,unlessheisoldenoughtobeacompanion——thatistosay,unlessheissometwoorthreeandtwenty——isnotthekindofthingtohaveaboutone。Heisarestraintuponhisfather,hisfatherisarestraintuponhim,andtheymakeeachothermutuallyuncomfortable。Therefore,untilwithinthelastfouryearsorso——
Ihaveapoormemoryfordates,andifImistake,youwillcorrectmeinyourownmind——youpursuedyourstudiesatadistance,andpickedupagreatvarietyofaccomplishments。Occasionallywepassedaweekortwotogetherhere,anddisconcertedeachotherasonlysuchnearrelationscan。Atlastyoucamehome。Icandidlytellyou,mydearboy,thatifyouhadbeenawkwardandovergrown,Ishouldhaveexportedyoutosomedistantpartoftheworld。’
’Iwishwithallmysoulyouhad,sir,’saidEdward。
’Noyoudon’t,Ned,’saidhisfathercoolly;’youaremistaken,I
assureyou。Ifoundyouahandsome,prepossessing,elegantfellow,andIthrewyouintothesocietyIcanstillcommand。
Havingdonethat,mydearfellow,IconsiderthatIhaveprovidedforyouinlife,andrelyuponyourdoingsomethingtoprovideformeinreturn。’
’Idonotunderstandyourmeaning,sir。’
’Mymeaning,Ned,isobvious——Iobserveanotherflyinthecream-
jug,buthavethegoodnessnottotakeitoutasyoudidthefirst,fortheirwalkwhentheirlegsaremilky,isextremelyungracefulanddisagreeable——mymeaningis,thatyoumustdoasIdid;thatyoumustmarrywellandmakethemostofyourself。’
’Amerefortune-hunter!’criedtheson,indignantly。
’Whatinthedevil’sname,Ned,wouldyoube!’returnedthefather。
’Allmenarefortune-hunters,aretheynot?Thelaw,thechurch,thecourt,thecamp——seehowtheyareallcrowdedwithfortune-
hunters,jostlingeachotherinthepursuit。Thestock-exchange,thepulpit,thecounting-house,theroyaldrawing-room,thesenate,——whatbutfortune-huntersaretheyfilledwith?Afortune-
hunter!Yes。YouAREone;andyouwouldbenothingelse,mydearNed,ifyouwerethegreatestcourtier,lawyer,legislator,prelate,ormerchant,inexistence。Ifyouaresqueamishandmoral,Ned,consoleyourselfwiththereflectionthatattheveryworstyourfortune-huntingcanmakebutonepersonmiserableorunhappy。Howmanypeopledoyousupposetheseotherkindsofhuntsmencrushinfollowingtheirsport——hundredsatastep?Orthousands?’
Theyoungmanleanthisheaduponhishand,andmadenoanswer。
’Iamquitecharmed,’saidthefatherrising,andwalkingslowlytoandfro——stoppingnowandthentoglanceathimselfinthemirror,orsurveyapicturethroughhisglass,withtheairofaconnoisseur,’thatwehavehadthisconversation,Ned,unpromisingasitwas。Itestablishesaconfidencebetweenuswhichisquitedelightful,andwascertainlynecessary,thoughhowyoucaneverhavemistakenourpositionsanddesigns,IconfessIcannotunderstand。Iconceived,untilIfoundyourfancyforthisgirl,thatallthesepointsweretacitlyagreeduponbetweenus。’
’Iknewyouwereembarrassed,sir,’returnedtheson,raisinghisheadforamoment,andthenfallingintohisformerattitude,’butIhadnoideawewerethebeggaredwretchesyoudescribe。HowcouldIsupposeit,bredasIhavebeen;witnessingthelifeyouhavealwaysled;andtheappearanceyouhavealwaysmade?’
’Mydearchild,’saidthefather——’foryoureallytalksolikeachildthatImustcallyouone——youwerebreduponacarefulprinciple;theverymannerofyoureducation,Iassureyou,maintainedmycreditsurprisingly。AstothelifeIlead,Imustleadit,Ned。Imusthavetheselittlerefinementsaboutme。I
havealwaysbeenusedtothem,andIcannotexistwithoutthem。
Theymustsurroundme,youobserve,andthereforetheyarehere。
Withregardtoourcircumstances,Ned,youmaysetyourmindatrestuponthatscore。Theyaredesperate。Yourownappearanceisbynomeansdespicable,andourjointpocket-moneyalonedevoursourincome。That’sthetruth。’
’WhyhaveIneverknownthisbefore?Whyhaveyouencouragedme,sir,toanexpenditureandmodeoflifetowhichwehavenorightortitle?’
’Mygoodfellow,’returnedhisfathermorecompassionatelythanever,’ifyoumadenoappearance,howcouldyoupossiblysucceedinthepursuitforwhichIdestinedyou?Astoourmodeoflife,everymanhasarighttoliveinthebestwayhecan;andtomakehimselfascomfortableashecan,orheisanunnaturalscoundrel。
Ourdebts,Igrant,areverygreat,andthereforeitthemorebehovesyou,asayoungmanofprincipleandhonour,topaythemoffasspeedilyaspossible。’
’Thevillain’spart,’mutteredEdward,’thatIhaveunconsciouslyplayed!ItowintheheartofEmmaHaredale!Iwould,forhersake,Ihaddiedfirst!’
’Iamgladyousee,Ned,’returnedhisfather,’howperfectlyself-
evidentitis,thatnothingcanbedoneinthatquarter。Butapartfromthis,andthenecessityofyourspeedilybestowingyourselfonanotherasyouknowyoucouldto-morrow,ifyouchose,Iwishyou’dlookuponitpleasantly。Inareligiouspointofviewalone,howcouldyoueverthinkofunitingyourselftoaCatholic,unlessshewasamazinglyrich?YououghttobesoveryProtestant,comingofsuchaProtestantfamilyasyoudo。Letusbemoral,Ned,orwearenothing。Evenifonecouldsetthatobjectionaside,whichisimpossible,wecometoanotherwhichisquiteconclusive。Theveryideaofmarryingagirlwhosefatherwaskilled,likemeat!GoodGod,Ned,howdisagreeable!Considertheimpossibilityofhavinganyrespectforyourfather-in-lawundersuchunpleasantcircumstances——thinkofhishavingbeen“viewed“byjurors,and“satupon“bycoroners,andofhisverydoubtfulpositioninthefamilyeverafterwards。ItseemstomesuchanindelicatesortofthingthatIreallythinkthegirloughttohavebeenputtodeathbythestatetopreventitshappening。ButI
teaseyouperhaps。Youwouldratherbealone?MydearNed,mostwillingly。Godblessyou。Ishallbegoingoutpresently,butweshallmeetto-night,orifnotto-night,certainlyto-morrow。
Takecareofyourselfinthemeantime,forbothoursakes。Youareapersonofgreatconsequencetome,Ned——ofvastconsequenceindeed。Godblessyou!’
Withthesewords,thefather,whohadbeenarranginghiscravatintheglass,whileheutteredtheminadisconnectedcarelessmanner,withdrew,hummingatuneashewent。Theson,whohadappearedsolostinthoughtasnottohearorunderstandthem,remainedquitestillandsilent。Afterthelapseofhalfanhourorso,theelderChester,gailydressed,wentout。Theyoungerstillsatwithhisheadrestingonhishands,inwhatappearedtobeakindofstupor。
Chapter16
AseriesofpicturesrepresentingthestreetsofLondoninthenight,evenatthecomparativelyrecentdateofthistale,wouldpresenttotheeyesomethingsoverydifferentincharacterfromtherealitywhichiswitnessedinthesetimes,thatitwouldbedifficultforthebeholdertorecognisehismostfamiliarwalksinthealteredaspectoflittlemorethanhalfacenturyago。
Theywere,oneandall,fromthebroadestandbesttothenarrowestandleastfrequented,verydark。Theoilandcottonlamps,thoughregularlytrimmedtwiceorthriceinthelongwinternights,burntfeeblyatthebest;andatalatehour,whentheywereunassistedbythelampsandcandlesintheshops,castbutanarrowtrackofdoubtfullightuponthefootway,leavingtheprojectingdoorsandhouse-frontsinthedeepestgloom。Manyofthecourtsandlaneswereleftintotaldarkness;thoseofthemeanersort,whereoneglimmeringlighttwinkledforascoreofhouses,beingfavouredinnoslightdegree。Evenintheseplaces,theinhabitantshadoftengoodreasonforextinguishingtheirlampassoonasitwaslighted;
andthewatchbeingutterlyinefficientandpowerlesstopreventthem,theydidsoattheirpleasure。Thus,inthelightestthoroughfares,therewasateveryturnsomeobscureanddangerousspotwhitherathiefmightflyorshelter,andfewwouldcaretofollow;andthecitybeingbeltedroundbyfields,greenlanes,wastegrounds,andlonelyroads,dividingitatthattimefromthesuburbsthathavejoineditsince,escape,evenwherethepursuitwashot,wasrenderedeasy。
Itisnowonderthatwiththesefavouringcircumstancesinfullandconstantoperation,streetrobberies,oftenaccompaniedbycruelwounds,andnotunfrequentlybylossoflife,shouldhavebeenofnightlyoccurrenceintheveryheartofLondon,orthatquietfolksshouldhavehadgreatdreadoftraversingitsstreetsaftertheshopswereclosed。Itwasnotunusualforthosewhowendedhomealoneatmidnight,tokeepthemiddleoftheroad,thebettertoguardagainstsurprisefromlurkingfootpads;fewwouldventuretorepairatalatehourtoKentishTownorHampstead,oreventoKensingtonorChelsea,unarmedandunattended;whilehewhohadbeenloudestandmostvaliantatthesupper-tableorthetavern,andhadbutamileorsotogo,wasgladtofeealink-boytoescorthimhome。
Thereweremanyothercharacteristics——notquitesodisagreeable——
aboutthethoroughfaresofLondonthen,withwhichtheyhadbeenlongfamiliar。Someoftheshops,especiallythosetotheeastwardofTempleBar,stilladheredtotheoldpracticeofhangingoutasign;andthecreakingandswingingoftheseboardsintheirironframesonwindynights,formedastrangeandmournfalconcertfortheearsofthosewholayawakeinbedorhurriedthroughthestreets。Longstandsofhackney-chairsandgroupsofchairmen,comparedwithwhomthecoachmenofourdayaregentleandpolite,obstructedthewayandfilledtheairwithclamour;night-cellars,indicatedbyalittlestreamoflightcrossingthepavement,andstretchingouthalf-wayintotheroad,andbythestifledroarofvoicesfrombelow,yawnedforthereceptionandentertainmentofthemostabandonedofbothsexes;undereveryshedandbulksmallgroupsoflink-boysgamedawaytheearningsoftheday;oronemorewearythantherest,gavewaytosleep,andletthefragmentofhistorchfallhissingonthepuddledground。
Thentherewasthewatchwithstaffandlanterncryingthehour,andthekindofweather;andthosewhowokeupathisvoiceandturnedthemroundinbed,weregladtohearitrained,orsnowed,orblew,orfroze,forverycomfort’ssake。Thesolitarypassengerwasstartledbythechairmen’scryof’Byyourleavethere!’astwocametrottingpasthimwiththeiremptyvehicle——carriedbackwardstoshowitsbeingdisengaged——andhurriedtotheneareststand。
Manyaprivatechair,too,inclosingsomefinelady,monstrouslyhoopedandfurbelowed,andprecededbyrunning-footmenbearingflambeaux——forwhichextinguishersareyetsuspendedbeforethedoorsofafewhousesofthebettersort——madethewaygayandlightasitdancedalong,anddarkerandmoredismalwhenithadpassed。Itwasnotunusualfortheserunninggentry,whocarrieditwithaveryhighhand,toquarrelintheservants’hallwhilewaitingfortheirmastersandmistresses;and,fallingtoblowseitherthereorinthestreetwithout,tostrewtheplaceofskirmishwithhair-powder,fragmentsofbag-wigs,andscatterednosegays。Gaming,thevicewhichransohighamongallclassesthefashionbeingofcoursesetbytheupper,wasgenerallythecauseofthesedisputes;forcardsanddicewereasopenlyused,andworkedasmuchmischief,andyieldedasmuchexcitementbelowstairs,asabove。Whileincidentslikethese,arisingoutofdrumsandmasqueradesandpartiesatquadrille,werepassingatthewestendofthetown,heavystagecoachesandscarceheavierwaggonswerelumberingslowlytowardsthecity,thecoachmen,guard,andpassengers,armedtotheteeth,andthecoach——adayorsoperhapsbehinditstime,butthatwasnothing——despoiledbyhighwaymen;whomadenoscrupletoattack,aloneandsingle-handed,awholecaravanofgoodsandmen,andsometimesshotapassengerortwo,andweresometimesshotthemselves,asthecasemightbe。Onthemorrow,rumoursofthisnewactofdaringontheroadyieldedmatterforafewhours’conversationthroughthetown,andaPublicProgressofsomefinegentlemanhalf-drunktoTyburn,dressedinthenewestfashion,anddamningtheordinarywithunspeakablegallantryandgrace,furnishedtothepopulace,atonceapleasantexcitementandawholesomeandprofoundexample。
Amongallthedangerouscharacterswho,insuchastateofsociety,prowledandskulkedinthemetropolisatnight,therewasonemanfromwhommanyasuncouthandfierceashe,shrunkwithaninvoluntarydread。Whohewas,orwhencehecame,wasaquestionoftenasked,butwhichnonecouldanswer。Hisnamewasunknown,hehadneverbeenseenuntilwithinabouteightdaysorthereabouts,andwasequallyastrangertotheoldruffians,uponwhosehauntsheventuredfearlessly,astotheyoung。Hecouldbenospy,forheneverremovedhisslouchedhattolookabouthim,enteredintoconversationwithnoman,heedednothingthatpassed,listenedtonodiscourse,regardednobodythatcameorwent。Butsosurelyasthedeadofnightsetin,sosurelythismanwasinthemidstofthelooseconcourseinthenight-cellarwhereoutcastsofeverygraderesorted;andtherehesattillmorning。
Hewasnotonlyaspectreattheirlicentiousfeasts;asomethinginthemidstoftheirrevelryandriotthatchilledandhauntedthem;butoutofdoorshewasthesame。Directlyitwasdark,hewasabroad——neverincompanywithanyone,butalwaysalone;neverlingeringorloitering,butalwayswalkingswiftly;andlookingsotheysaidwhohadseenhimoverhisshoulderfromtimetotime,andashedidsoquickeninghispace。Inthefields,thelanes,theroads,inallquartersofthetown——east,west,north,andsouth——thatmanwasseenglidingonlikeashadow。Hewasalwayshurryingaway。Thosewhoencounteredhim,sawhimstealpast,caughtsightofthebackwardglance,andsolosthiminthedarkness。
Thisconstantrestlessness,andflittingtoandfro,gaverisetostrangestories。Hewasseeninsuchdistantandremoteplaces,attimessonearlytallyingwitheachother,thatsomedoubtedwhethertherewerenottwoofthem,ormore——some,whetherhehadnotunearthlymeansoftravellingfromspottospot。Thefootpadhidinginaditchhadmarkedhimpassinglikeaghostalongitsbrink;thevagranthadmethimonthedarkhigh-road;thebeggarhadseenhimpauseuponthebridgetolookdownatthewater,andthensweeponagain;theywhodealtinbodieswiththesurgeonscouldswearhesleptinchurchyards,andthattheyhadbeheldhimglideawayamongthetombsontheirapproach。Andastheytoldthesestoriestoeachother,onewhohadlookedabouthimwouldpullhisneighbourbythesleeve,andtherehewouldbeamongthem。
Atlast,oneman——hewasoneofthosewhosecommercelayamongthegraves——resolvedtoquestionthisstrangecompanion。Nextnight,whenhehadeathispoormealvoraciouslyhewasaccustomedtodothat,theyhadobserved,asthoughhehadnootherintheday,thisfellowsatdownathiselbow。
’Ablacknight,master!’
’Itisablacknight。’
’Blackerthanlast,thoughthatwaspitchytoo。Didn’tIpassyouneartheturnpikeintheOxfordRoad?’
’It’slikeyoumay。Idon’tknow。’
’Come,come,master,’criedthefellow,urgedonbythelooksofhiscomrades,andslappinghimontheshoulder;’bemorecompanionableandcommunicative。Bemorethegentlemaninthisgoodcompany。Therearetalesamongusthatyouhavesoldyourselftothedevil,andIknownotwhat。’
’Weallhave,havewenot?’returnedthestranger,lookingup。’Ifwewerefewerinnumber,perhapshewouldgivebetterwages。’
’Itgoesratherhardwithyou,indeed,’saidthefellow,asthestrangerdisclosedhishaggardunwashedface,andtornclothes。
’Whatofthat?Bemerry,master。Astaveofaroaringsongnow’——
’Singyou,ifyoudesiretohearone,’repliedtheother,shakinghimroughlyoff;’anddon’ttouchmeifyou’reaprudentman;I
carryarmswhichgooffeasily——theyhavedoneso,beforenow——andmakeitdangerousforstrangerswhodon’tknowthetrickofthem,tolayhandsuponme。’
’Doyouthreaten?’saidthefellow。
’Yes,’returnedtheother,risingandturninguponhim,andlookingfiercelyroundasifinapprehensionofageneralattack。
Hisvoice,andlook,andbearing——allexpressiveofthewildestrecklessnessanddesperation——dauntedwhiletheyrepelledthebystanders。Althoughinaverydifferentsphereofactionnow,theywerenotwithoutmuchoftheeffecttheyhadwroughtattheMaypoleInn。
’Iamwhatyouallare,andliveasyoualldo,’saidthemansternly,afterashortsilence。’Iaminhidinghereliketherest,andifweweresurprisedwouldperhapsdomypartwiththebestofye。Ifit’smyhumourtobelefttomyself,letmehaveit。Otherwise,’——andherehesworeatremendousoath——’there’llbemischiefdoneinthisplace,thoughthereAREoddsofascoreagainstme。’
Alowmurmur,havingitsoriginperhapsinadreadofthemanandthemysterythatsurroundedhim,orperhapsinasincereopiniononthepartofsomeofthosepresent,thatitwouldbeaninconvenientprecedenttomeddletoocuriouslywithagentleman’sprivateaffairsifhesawreasontoconcealthem,warnedthefellowwhohadoccasionedthisdiscussionthathehadbestpursueitnofurther。Afterashorttimethestrangemanlaydownuponabenchtosleep,andwhentheythoughtofhimagain,theyfoundhewasgone。
Nextnight,assoonasitwasdark,hewasabroadagainandtraversingthestreets;hewasbeforethelocksmith’shousemorethanonce,butthefamilywereout,anditwascloseshut。ThisnighthecrossedLondonBridgeandpassedintoSouthwark。Asheglideddownabyestreet,awomanwithalittlebasketonherarm,turnedintoitattheotherend。Directlyheobservedher,hesoughttheshelterofanarchway,andstoodasideuntilshehadpassed。Thenheemergedcautiouslyfromhishiding-place,andfollowed。
Shewentintoseveralshopstopurchasevariouskindsofhouseholdnecessaries,androundeveryplaceatwhichshestoppedhehoveredlikeherevilspirit;followingherwhenshereappeared。Itwasnigheleveno’clock,andthepassengersinthestreetswerethinningfast,whensheturned,doubtlesstogohome。Thephantomstillfollowedher。
Sheturnedintothesamebyestreetinwhichhehadseenherfirst,which,beingfreefromshops,andnarrow,wasextremelydark。Shequickenedherpacehere,asthoughdistrustfulofbeingstopped,androbbedofsuchtriflingpropertyasshecarriedwithher。Hecreptalongontheothersideoftheroad。Hadshebeengiftedwiththespeedofwind,itseemedasifhisterribleshadowwouldhavetrackedherdown。
Atlengththewidow——forsheitwas——reachedherowndoor,and,pantingforbreath,pausedtotakethekeyfromherbasket。Inaflushandglow,withthehasteshehadmade,andthepleasureofbeingsafeathome,shestoopedtodrawitout,when,raisingherhead,shesawhimstandingsilentlybesideher:theapparitionofadream。
Hishandwasonhermouth,butthatwasneedless,forhertongueclovetoitsroof,andherpowerofutterancewasgone。’Ihavebeenlookingforyoumanynights。Isthehouseempty?Answerme。
Isanyoneinside?’
Shecouldonlyanswerbyarattleinherthroat。
’Makemeasign。’
Sheseemedtoindicatethattherewasnoonethere。Hetookthekey,unlockedthedoor,carriedherin,andsecureditcarefullybehindthem。
Chapter17
Itwasachillynight,andthefireinthewidow’sparlourhadburntlow。Herstrangecompanionplacedherinachair,andstoopingdownbeforethehalf-extinguishedashes,rakedthemtogetherandfannedthemwithhishat。Fromtimetotimeheglancedatheroverhisshoulder,asthoughtoassurehimselfofherremainingquietandmakingnoefforttodepart;andthatdone,busiedhimselfaboutthefireagain。
Itwasnotwithoutreasonthathetookthesepains,forhisdresswasdankanddrenchedwithwet,hisjawsrattledwithcold,andheshiveredfromheadtofoot。Ithadrainedhardduringthepreviousnightandforsomehoursinthemorning,butsincenoonithadbeenfine。Wheresoeverhehadpassedthehoursofdarkness,hisconditionsufficientlybetokenedthatmanyofthemhadbeenspentbeneaththeopensky。Besmearedwithmire;hissaturatedclothesclingingwithadampembraceabouthislimbs;hisbeardunshaven,hisfaceunwashed,hismeagrecheekswornintodeephollows,——amoremiserablewretchcouldhardlybe,thanthismanwhonowcowereddownuponthewidow’shearth,andwatchedthestrugglingflamewithbloodshoteyes。
Shehadcoveredherfacewithherhands,fearing,asitseemed,tolooktowardshim。Sotheyremainedforsomeshorttimeinsilence。
Glancingroundagain,heaskedatlength:
’Isthisyourhouse?’
’Itis。Why,inthenameofHeaven,doyoudarkenit?’
’Givememeatanddrink,’heansweredsullenly,’orIdaredomorethanthat。Theverymarrowinmybonesiscold,withwetandhunger。Imusthavewarmthandfood,andIwillhavethemhere。’
’YouweretherobberontheChigwellroad。’
’Iwas。’
’Andnearlyamurdererthen。’
’Thewillwasnotwanting。Therewasonecameuponmeandraisedthehue-and-cry’,thatitwouldhavegonehardwith,butforhisnimbleness。Imadeathrustathim。’
’YouthrustyourswordatHIM!’criedthewidow,lookingupwards。
’Youhearthisman!youhearandsaw!’
Helookedather,as,withherheadthrownback,andherhandstightclenchedtogether,sheutteredthesewordsinanagonyofappeal。Then,startingtohisfeetasshehaddone,headvancedtowardsher。
’Beware!’shecriedinasuppressedvoice,whosefirmnessstoppedhimmidway。’Donotsomuchastouchmewithafinger,oryouarelost;bodyandsoul,youarelost。’
’Hearme,’hereplied,menacingherwithhishand。’I,thatintheformofamanlivethelifeofahuntedbeast;thatinthebodyamaspirit,aghostupontheearth,athingfromwhichallcreaturesshrink,savethosecurstbeingsofanotherworld,whowillnotleaveme;——Iam,inmydesperationofthisnight,pastallfearbutthatofthehellinwhichIexistfromdaytoday。Givethealarm,cryout,refusetoshelterme。Iwillnothurtyou。ButI
willnotbetakenalive;andsosurelyasyouthreatenmeaboveyourbreath,Ifalladeadmanonthisfloor。ThebloodwithwhichIsprinkleit,beonyouandyours,inthenameoftheEvilSpiritthattemptsmentotheirruin!’
Ashespoke,hetookapistolfromhisbreast,andfirmlyclutcheditinhishand。
’Removethismanfromme,goodHeaven!’criedthewidow。’Inthygraceandmercy,givehimoneminute’spenitence,andstrikehimdead!’
’Ithasnosuchpurpose,’hesaid,confrontingher。’Itisdeaf。
Givemetoeatanddrink,lestIdothatitcannothelpmydoing,andwillnotdoforyou。’
’Willyouleaveme,ifIdothusmuch?Willyouleavemeandreturnnomore?’
’Iwillpromisenothing,’herejoined,seatinghimselfatthetable,’nothingbutthis——Iwillexecutemythreatifyoubetrayme。’
Sheroseatlength,andgoingtoaclosetorpantryintheroom,broughtoutsomefragmentsofcoldmeatandbreadandputthemonthetable。Heaskedforbrandy,andforwater。Thesesheproducedlikewise;andheateanddrankwiththevoracityofafamishedhound。Allthetimehewassoengagedshekeptattheuttermostdistanceofthechamber,andsatthereshuddering,butwithherfacetowardshim。Sheneverturnedherbackuponhimonce;andalthoughwhenshepassedhimasshewasobligedtodoingoingtoandfromthecupboardshegatheredtheskirtsofhergarmentabouther,asifevenitstouchinghisbychancewerehorribletothinkof,still,inthemidstofallthisdreadandterror,shekeptherfacetowardshisown,andwatchedhiseverymovement。
Hisrepastended——ifthatcanbecalledone,whichwasamereravenoussatisfyingofthecallsofhunger——hemovedhischairtowardsthefireagain,andwarminghimselfbeforetheblazewhichhadnowsprungbrightlyup,accostedheroncemore。
’Iamanoutcast,towhomaroofabovehisheadisoftenanuncommonluxury,andthefoodabeggarwouldrejectisdelicatefare。Youlivehereatyourease。Doyoulivealone?’
’Idonot,’shemadeanswerwithaneffort。
’Whodwellsherebesides?’
’One——itisnomatterwho。Youhadbestbegone,orhemayfindyouhere。Whydoyoulinger?’
’Forwarmth,’hereplied,spreadingouthishandsbeforethefire。
’Forwarmth。Youarerich,perhaps?’
’Very,’shesaidfaintly。’Veryrich。NodoubtIamveryrich。’
’Atleastyouarenotpenniless。Youhavesomemoney。Youweremakingpurchasesto-night。’
’Ihavealittleleft。Itisbutafewshillings。’
’Givemeyourpurse。Youhaditinyourhandatthedoor。Giveittome。’
Shesteppedtothetableandlaiditdown。Hereachedacross,tookitup,andtoldthecontentsintohishand。Ashewascountingthem,shelistenedforamoment,andsprungtowardshim。
’Takewhatthereis,takeall,takemoreifmorewerethere,butgobeforeitistoolate。Ihaveheardawaywardstepwithout,Iknowfullwell。Itwillreturndirectly。Begone。’
’Whatdoyoumean?’
’Donotstoptoask。Iwillnotanswer。MuchasIdreadtotouchyou,IwoulddragyoutothedoorifIpossessedthestrength,ratherthanyoushouldloseaninstant。Miserablewretch!flyfromthisplace。’
’Iftherearespieswithout,Iamsaferhere,’repliedtheman,standingaghast。’Iwillremainhere,andwillnotflytillthedangerispast。’
’Itistoolate!’criedthewidow,whohadlistenedforthestep,andnottohim。’Harktothatfootupontheground。Doyoutrembletohearit!Itismyson,myidiotson!’
Asshesaidthiswildly,therecameaheavyknockingatthedoor。
Helookedather,andsheathim。
’Lethimcomein,’saidtheman,hoarsely。’Ifearhimlessthanthedark,houselessnight。Heknocksagain。Lethimcomein!’
’Thedreadofthishour,’returnedthewidow,’hasbeenuponmeallmylife,andIwillnot。Evilwillfalluponhim,ifyoustandeyetoeye。Myblightedboy!Oh!allgoodangelswhoknowthetruth——
hearapoormother’sprayer,andsparemyboyfromknowledgeofthisman!’
’Herattlesattheshutters!’criedtheman。’Hecallsyou。Thatvoiceandcry!Itwashewhograppledwithmeintheroad。Wasithe?’
Shehadsunkuponherknees,andsokneltdown,movingherlips,bututteringnosound。Ashegazeduponher,uncertainwhattodoorwheretoturn,theshuttersflewopen。Hehadbarelytimetocatchaknifefromthetable,sheatheitintheloosesleeveofhiscoat,hideinthecloset,anddoallwiththelightning’sspeed,whenBarnabytappedatthebareglass,andraisedthesashexultingly。
’Why,whocankeepoutGripandme!’hecried,thrustinginhishead,andstaringroundtheroom。’Areyouthere,mother?Howlongyoukeepusfromthefireandlight。’
Shestammeredsomeexcuseandtenderedhimherhand。ButBarnabysprunglightlyinwithoutassistance,andputtinghisarmsaboutherneck,kissedherahundredtimes。
’Wehavebeenafield,mother——leapingditches,scramblingthroughhedges,runningdownsteepbanks,upandaway,andhurryingon。
Thewindhasbeenblowing,andtherushesandyoungplantsbowingandbendingtoit,lestitshoulddothemharm,thecowards——andGrip——hahaha!——braveGrip,whocaresfornothing,andwhenthewindrollshimoverinthedust,turnsmanfullytobiteit——Grip,boldGrip,hasquarrelledwitheverylittlebowingtwig——thinking,hetoldme,thatitmockedhim——andhasworrieditlikeabulldog。
Hahaha!’