Theraven,inhislittlebasketathismaster’sback,hearingthisfrequentmentionofhisnameinatoneofexultation,expressedhissympathybycrowinglikeacock,andafterwardsrunningoverhisvariousphrasesofspeechwithsuchrapidity,andinsomanyvarietiesofhoarseness,thattheysoundedlikethemurmursofacrowdofpeople。
’Hetakessuchcareofmebesides!’saidBarnaby。’Suchcare,mother!HewatchesallthetimeIsleep,andwhenIshutmyeyesandmake-believetoslumber,hepractisesnewlearningsoftly;buthekeepshiseyeonmethewhile,andifheseesmelaugh,thoughneversolittle,stopsdirectly。Hewon’tsurprisemetillhe’sperfect。’
Theravencrowedagaininarapturousmannerwhichplainlysaid,’Thosearecertainlysomeofmycharacteristics,andIgloryinthem。’Inthemeantime,Barnabyclosedthewindowandsecuredit,andcomingtothefireplace,preparedtositdownwithhisfacetothecloset。Buthismotherpreventedthis,byhastilytakingthatsideherself,andmotioninghimtowardstheother。
’Howpaleyouareto-night!’saidBarnaby,leaningonhisstick。
’Wehavebeencruel,Grip,andmadeheranxious!’
Anxiousingoodtruth,andsickatheart!Thelistenerheldthedoorofhishiding-placeopenwithhishand,andcloselywatchedherson。Grip——alivetoeverythinghismasterwasunconsciousof——
hadhisheadoutofthebasket,andinreturnwaswatchinghimintentlywithhisglisteningeye。
’Heflapshiswings,’saidBarnaby,turningalmostquicklyenoughtocatchtheretreatingformandclosingdoor,’asiftherewerestrangershere,butGripiswiserthantofancythat。Jumpthen!’
Acceptingthisinvitationwithadignitypeculiartohimself,thebirdhoppeduponhismaster’sshoulder,fromthattohisextendedhand,andsototheground。Barnabyunstrappingthebasketandputtingitdowninacornerwiththelidopen,Grip’sfirstcarewastoshutitdownwithallpossibledespatch,andthentostanduponit。Believing,nodoubt,thathehadnowrendereditutterlyimpossible,andbeyondthepowerofmortalman,toshuthimupinitanymore,hedrewagreatmanycorksintriumph,andutteredacorrespondingnumberofhurrahs。
’Mother!’saidBarnaby,layingasidehishatandstick,andreturningtothechairfromwhichhehadrisen,’I’lltellyouwherewehavebeento-day,andwhatwehavebeendoing,——shallI?’
Shetookhishandinhers,andholdingit,noddedthewordshecouldnotspeak。
’Youmustn’ttell,’saidBarnaby,holdinguphisfinger,’forit’sasecret,mind,andonlyknowntome,andGrip,andHugh。Wehadthedogwithus,buthe’snotlikeGrip,cleverasheis,anddoesn’tguessityet,I’llwager——Whydoyoulookbehindmeso?’
’DidI?’sheansweredfaintly。’Ididn’tknowIdid。Comenearerme。’
’Youarefrightened!’saidBarnaby,changingcolour。’Mother——youdon’tsee’——
’Seewhat?’
’There’s——there’snoneofthisabout,isthere?’heansweredinawhisper,drawingclosertoherandclaspingthemarkuponhiswrist。’Iamafraidthereis,somewhere。Youmakemyhairstandonend,andmyfleshcreep。Whydoyoulooklikethat?IsitintheroomasIhaveseenitinmydreams,dashingtheceilingandthewallswithred?Tellme。Isit?’
Hefellintoashiveringfitasheputthequestion,andshuttingoutthelightwithhishands,satshakingineverylimbuntilithadpassedaway。Afteratime,heraisedhisheadandlookedabouthim。
’Isitgone?’
’Therehasbeennothinghere,’rejoinedhismother,soothinghim。
’Nothingindeed,dearBarnaby。Look!Youseetherearebutyouandme。’
Hegazedathervacantly,and,becomingreassuredbydegrees,burstintoawildlaugh。
’Butletussee,’hesaid,thoughtfully。’Werewetalking?Wasityouandme?Wherehavewebeen?’
’Nowherebuthere。’
’Aye,butHugh,andI,’saidBarnaby,——’that’sit。MaypoleHugh,andI,youknow,andGrip——wehavebeenlyingintheforest,andamongthetreesbytheroadside,withadarklanternafternightcameon,andthedoginanoosereadytosliphimwhenthemancameby。’
’Whatman?’
’Therobber;himthatthestarswinkedat。Wehavewaitedforhimafterdarkthesemanynights,andweshallhavehim。I’dknowhiminathousand。Mother,seehere!Thisistheman。Look!’
Hetwistedhishandkerchiefroundhishead,pulledhishatuponhisbrow,wrappedhiscoatabouthim,andstoodupbeforeher:soliketheoriginalhecounterfeited,thatthedarkfigurepeeringoutbehindhimmighthavepassedforhisownshadow。
’Hahaha!Weshallhavehim,’hecried,riddinghimselfofthesemblanceashastilyashehadassumedit。’Youshallseehim,mother,boundhandandfoot,andbroughttoLondonatasaddle-
girth;andyoushallhearofhimatTyburnTreeifwehaveluck。
SoHughsays。You’repaleagain,andtrembling。AndwhyDOyoulookbehindmeso?’
’Itisnothing,’sheanswered。’Iamnotquitewell。Goyoutobed,dear,andleavemehere。’
’Tobed!’heanswered。’Idon’tlikebed。Iliketoliebeforethefire,watchingtheprospectsintheburningcoals——therivers,hills,anddells,inthedeep,redsunset,andthewildfaces。I
amhungrytoo,andGriphaseatennothingsincebroadnoon。Letustosupper。Grip!Tosupper,lad!’
Theravenflappedhiswings,and,croakinghissatisfaction,hoppedtothefeetofhismaster,andthereheldhisbillopen,readyforsnappingupsuchlumpsofmeatasheshouldthrowhim。Ofthesehereceivedaboutascoreinrapidsuccession,withoutthesmallestdiscomposure。
’That’sall,’saidBarnaby。
’More!’criedGrip。’More!’
Butitappearingforacertaintythatnomorewastobehad,heretreatedwithhisstore;anddisgorgingthemorselsonebyonefromhispouch,hidtheminvariouscorners——takingparticularcare,however,toavoidthecloset,asbeingdoubtfulofthehiddenman’spropensitiesandpowerofresistingtemptation。Whenhehadconcludedthesearrangements,hetookaturnortwoacrosstheroomwithanelaborateassumptionofhavingnothingonhismindbutwithoneeyeharduponhistreasureallthetime,andthen,andnottillthen,begantodragitout,piecebypiece,andeatitwiththeutmostrelish。
Barnaby,forhispart,havingpressedhismothertoeatinvain,madeaheartysuppertoo。Onceduringtheprogressofhismeal,hewantedmorebreadfromtheclosetandrosetogetit。Shehurriedlyinterposedtopreventhim,andsummoningherutmostfortitude,passedintotherecess,andbroughtitoutherself。
’Mother,’saidBarnaby,lookingathersteadfastlyasshesatdownbesidehimafterdoingso;’isto-daymybirthday?’
’To-day!’sheanswered。’Don’tyourecollectitwasbutaweekorsoago,andthatsummer,autumn,andwinterhavetopassbeforeitcomesagain?’
’Irememberthatithasbeensotillnow,’saidBarnaby。’ButI
thinkto-daymustbemybirthdaytoo,forallthat。’
Sheaskedhimwhy?’I’lltellyouwhy,’hesaid。’Ihavealwaysseenyou——Ididn’tletyouknowit,butIhave——ontheeveningofthatdaygrowverysad。IhaveseenyoucrywhenGripandIweremostglad;andlookfrightenedwithnoreason;andIhavetouchedyourhand,andfeltthatitwascold——asitisnow。Once,motheronabirthdaythatwas,also,GripandIthoughtofthisafterwewentupstairstobed,andwhenitwasmidnight,strikingoneo’clock,wecamedowntoyourdoortoseeifyouwerewell。Youwereonyourknees。Iforgetwhatitwasyousaid。Grip,whatwasitweheardhersaythatnight?’
’I’madevil!’rejoinedtheravenpromptly。
’No,no,’saidBarnaby。’Butyousaidsomethinginaprayer;andwhenyouroseandwalkedabout,youlookedasyouhavedoneeversince,mother,towardsnightonmybirthdayjustasyoudonow。I
havefoundthatout,yousee,thoughIamsilly。SoIsayyou’rewrong;andthismustbemybirthday——mybirthday,Grip!’
Thebirdreceivedthisinformationwithacrowofsuchdurationasacock,giftedwithintelligencebeyondallothersofhiskind,mightusherinthelongestdaywith。Then,asifhehadwellconsideredthesentiment,andregardeditasappositetobirthdays,hecried,’Neversaydie!’agreatmanytimes,andflappedhiswingsforemphasis。
ThewidowtriedtomakelightofBarnaby’sremark,andendeavouredtodiverthisattentiontosomenewsubject;tooeasyataskatalltimes,assheknew。Hissupperdone,Barnaby,regardlessofherentreaties,stretchedhimselfonthematbeforethefire;Grippercheduponhisleg,anddividedhistimebetweendozinginthegratefulwarmth,andendeavouringasitpresentlyappearedtorecallanewaccomplishmenthehadbeenstudyingallday。
Alongandprofoundsilenceensued,brokenonlybysomechangeofpositiononthepartofBarnaby,whoseeyeswerestillwideopenandintentlyfixeduponthefire;orbyaneffortofrecollectiononthepartofGrip,whowouldcryinalowvoicefromtimetotime,’Pollyputtheket——’andtherestopshort,forgettingtheremainder,andgooffinadozeagain。
Afteralonginterval,Barnaby’sbreathinggrewmoredeepandregular,andhiseyeswereclosed。Buteventhentheunquietspiritoftheraveninterposed。’Pollyputtheket——’criedGrip,andhismasterwasbroadawakeagain。
AtlengthBarnabysleptsoundly,andthebirdwithhisbillsunkuponhisbreast,hisbreastitselfpuffedoutintoacomfortablealderman-likeform,andhisbrighteyegrowingsmallerandsmaller,reallyseemedtobesubsidingintoastateofrepose。Nowandthenhemutteredinasepulchralvoice,’Pollyputtheket——’butverydrowsily,andmorelikeadrunkenmanthanareflectingraven。
Thewidow,scarcelyventuringtobreathe,rosefromherseat。Themanglidedfromthecloset,andextinguishedthecandle。
’——tleon,’criedGrip,suddenlystruckwithanideaandverymuchexcited。’——tleon。Hurrah!Pollyputtheket-tleon,we’llallhavetea;Pollyputtheket-tleon,we’llallhavetea。Hurrah,hurrah,hurrah!I’madevil,I’madevil,I’maket-tleon,Keepupyourspirits,Neversaydie,Bow,wow,wow,I’madevil,I’maket-tle,I’ma——Pollyputtheket-tleon,we’llallhavetea。’
Theystoodrootedtotheground,asthoughithadbeenavoicefromthegrave。
Buteventhisfailedtoawakenthesleeper。Heturnedovertowardsthefire,hisarmfelltotheground,andhisheaddroopedheavilyuponit。Thewidowandherunwelcomevisitorgazedathimandateachotherforamoment,andthenshemotionedhimtowardsthedoor。
’Stay,’hewhispered。’Youteachyoursonwell。’
’Ihavetaughthimnothingthatyouheardto-night。Departinstantly,orIwillrousehim。’
’Youarefreetodoso。ShallIrousehim?’
’Youdarenotdothat。’
’Idaredoanything,Ihavetoldyou。Heknowsmewell,itseems。
AtleastIwillknowhim。’
’Wouldyoukillhiminhissleep?’criedthewidow,throwingherselfbetweenthem。
’Woman,’hereturnedbetweenhisteeth,ashemotionedheraside,’Iwouldseehimnearer,andIwill。Ifyouwantoneofustokilltheother,wakehim。’
Withthatheadvanced,andbendingdownovertheprostrateform,softlyturnedbacktheheadandlookedintotheface。Thelightofthefirewasuponit,anditseverylineamentwasrevealeddistinctly。Hecontemplateditforabriefspace,andhastilyuprose。
’Observe,’hewhisperedinthewidow’sear:’Inhim,ofwhoseexistenceIwasignorantuntilto-night,Ihaveyouinmypower。
Becarefulhowyouuseme。Becarefulhowyouuseme。Iamdestituteandstarving,andawandererupontheearth。Imaytakeasureandslowrevenge。’
’Thereissomedreadfulmeaninginyourwords。Idonotfathomit。’
’Thereisameaninginthem,andIseeyoufathomittoitsverydepth。Youhaveanticipateditforyears;youhavetoldmeasmuch。Ileaveyoutodigestit。Donotforgetmywarning。’
Hepointed,ashelefther,totheslumberingform,andstealthilywithdrawing,madehiswayintothestreet。Shefellonherkneesbesidethesleeper,andremainedlikeonestrickenintostone,untilthetearswhichfearhadfrozensolong,cametenderlytoherrelief。
’OhThou,’shecried,’whohasttaughtmesuchdeeploveforthisoneremnantofthepromiseofahappylife,outofwhoseaffliction,even,perhapsthecomfortspringsthatheiseverarelying,lovingchildtome——nevergrowingoldorcoldatheart,butneedingmycareanddutyinhismanlystrengthasinhiscradle-time——helphim,inhisdarkenedwalkthroughthissadworld,orheisdoomed,andmypoorheartisbroken!’
Chapter18
Glidingalongthesilentstreets,andholdinghiscoursewheretheyweredarkestandmostgloomy,themanwhohadleftthewidow’shousecrossedLondonBridge,andarrivingintheCity,plungedintothebackways,lanes,andcourts,betweenCornhillandSmithfield;
withnomorefixednessofpurposethantolosehimselfamongtheirwindings,andbafflepursuit,ifanyoneweredogginghissteps。
Itwasthedeadtimeofthenight,andallwasquiet。Nowandthenadrowsywatchman’sfootstepssoundedonthepavement,orthelamplighteronhisroundswentflashingpast,leavingbehindalittletrackofsmokemingledwithglowingmorselsofhishotredlink。Hehidhimselfevenfromthesepartakersofhislonelywalk,and,shrinkinginsomearchordoorwaywhiletheypassed,issuedforthagainwhentheyweregoneandsopursuedhissolitaryway。
Tobeshelterlessandaloneintheopencountry,hearingthewindmoanandwatchingfordaythroughthewholelongwearynight;tolistentothefallingrain,andcrouchforwarmthbeneaththeleeofsomeoldbarnorrick,orinthehollowofatree;aredismalthings——butnotsodismalasthewanderingupanddownwhereshelteris,andbedsandsleepersarebythousands;ahouselessrejectedcreature。Topacetheechoingstonesfromhourtohour,countingthedullchimesoftheclocks;towatchthelightstwinklinginchamberwindows,tothinkwhathappyforgetfulnesseachhouseshutsin;thatherearechildrencoiledtogetherintheirbeds,hereyouth,hereage,herepoverty,herewealth,allequalintheirsleep,andallatrest;tohavenothingincommonwiththeslumberingworldaround,notevensleep,Heaven’sgifttoallitscreatures,andbeakintonothingbutdespair;tofeel,bythewretchedcontrastwitheverythingoneveryhand,moreutterlyaloneandcastawaythaninatracklessdesert;thisisakindofsuffering,onwhichtheriversofgreatcitiesclosefullmanyatime,andwhichthesolitudeincrowdsaloneawakens。
Themiserablemanpacedupanddownthestreets——solong,sowearisome,solikeeachother——andoftencastawistfullooktowardstheeast,hopingtoseethefirstfaintstreaksofday。
Butobduratenighthadyetpossessionofthesky,andhisdisturbedandrestlesswalkfoundnorelief。
Onehouseinabackstreetwasbrightwiththecheerfulglareoflights;therewasthesoundofmusicinittoo,andthetreadofdancers,andtherewerecheerfulvoices,andmanyaburstoflaughter。Tothisplace——tobenearsomethingthatwasawakeandglad——hereturnedagainandagain;andmorethanoneofthosewholeftitwhenthemerrimentwasatitsheight,feltitacheckupontheirmirthfulmoodtoseehimflittingtoandfrolikeanuneasyghost。Atlasttheguestsdeparted,oneandall;andthenthehousewascloseshutup,andbecameasdullandsilentastherest。
Hiswanderingsbroughthimatonetimetothecityjail。Insteadofhasteningfromitasaplaceofillomen,andonehehadcausetoshun,hesatdownonsomestepshardby,andrestinghischinuponhishand,gazeduponitsroughandfrowningwallsasthougheventheybecamearefugeinhisjadedeyes。Hepaceditroundandround,camebacktothesamespot,andsatdownagain。Hedidthisoften,andonce,withahastymovement,crossedtowheresomemenwerewatchingintheprisonlodge,andhadhisfootuponthestepsasthoughdeterminedtoaccostthem。Butlookinground,hesawthatthedaybegantobreak,andfailinginhispurpose,turnedandfled。
Hewassooninthequarterhehadlatelytraversed,andpacingtoandfroagainashehaddonebefore。Hewaspassingdownameanstreet,whenfromanalleycloseathandsomeshoutsofrevelryarose,andtherecamestragglingforthadozenmadcaps,whoopingandcallingtoeachother,who,partingnoisily,tookdifferentwaysanddispersedinsmallergroups。
Hopingthatsomelowplaceofentertainmentwhichwouldaffordhimasaferefugemightbenearathand,heturnedintothiscourtwhentheywereallgone,andlookedaboutforahalf-openeddoor,orlightedwindow,orotherindicationoftheplacewhencetheyhadcome。Itwassoprofoundlydark,however,andsoill-favoured,thatheconcludedtheyhadbutturnedupthere,missingtheirway,andwerepouringoutagainwhenheobservedthem。Withthisimpression,andfindingtherewasnooutletbutthatbywhichhehadentered,hewasabouttoturn,whenfromagratingnearhisfeetasuddenstreamoflightappeared,andthesoundoftalkingcame。Heretreatedintoadoorwaytoseewhothesetalkerswere,andtolistentothem。
Thelightcametothelevelofthepavementashedidthis,andamanascended,bearinginhishandatorch。Thisfigureunlockedandheldopenthegratingasforthepassageofanother,whopresentlyappeared,intheformofayoungmanofsmallstatureanduncommonself-importance,dressedinanobsoleteandverygaudyfashion。
’Goodnight,noblecaptain,’saidhewiththetorch。’Farewell,commander。Goodluck,illustriousgeneral!’
Inreturntothesecomplimentstheotherbadehimholdhistongue,andkeephisnoisetohimself,andlaiduponhimmanysimilarinjunctions,withgreatfluencyofspeechandsternnessofmanner。
’Commendme,captain,tothestrickenMiggs,’returnedthetorch-
bearerinalowervoice。’MycaptainfliesathighergamethanMiggses。Ha,ha,ha!Mycaptainisaneagle,bothasrespectshiseyeandsoaringwings。Mycaptainbreakethheartsasotherbachelorsbreakeggsatbreakfast。’
’Whatafoolyouare,Stagg!’saidMrTappertit,steppingonthepavementofthecourt,andbrushingfromhislegsthedusthehadcontractedinhispassageupward。
’Hispreciouslimbs!’criedStagg,claspingoneofhisankles。
’ShallaMiggsaspiretotheseproportions!No,no,mycaptain。
Wewillinveigleladiesfair,andwedtheminoursecretcavern。
Wewilluniteourselveswithbloomingbeauties,captain。’
’I’lltellyouwhat,mybuck,’saidMrTappertit,releasinghisleg;’I’lltroubleyounottotakeliberties,andnottobroachcertainquestionsunlesscertainquestionsarebroachedtoyou。
Speakwhenyou’respoketoonparticularsubjects,andnototherways。HoldthetorchuptillI’vegottotheendofthecourt,andthenkennelyourself,doyouhear?’
’Ihearyou,noblecaptain。’
’Obeythen,’saidMrTappertithaughtily。’Gentlemen,leadon!’
Withwhichwordofcommandaddressedtoanimaginarystafforretinuehefoldedhisarms,andwalkedwithsurpassingdignitydownthecourt。
Hisobsequiousfollowerstoodholdingthetorchabovehishead,andthentheobserversawforthefirsttime,fromhisplaceofconcealment,thathewasblind。Someinvoluntarymotiononhispartcaughtthequickearoftheblindman,beforehewasconsciousofhavingmovedaninchtowardshim,forheturnedsuddenlyandcried,’Who’sthere?’
’Aman,’saidtheother,advancing。’Afriend。’
’Astranger!’rejoinedtheblindman。’Strangersarenotmyfriends。Whatdoyoudothere?’
’Isawyourcompanycomeout,andwaitedheretilltheyweregone。
Iwantalodging。’
’Alodgingatthistime!’returnedStagg,pointingtowardsthedawnasthoughhesawit。’Doyouknowthedayisbreaking?’
’Iknowit,’rejoinedtheother,’tomycost。Ihavebeentraversingthisiron-heartedtownallnight。’
’Youhadbettertraverseitagain,’saidtheblindman,preparingtodescend,’tillyoufindsomelodgingssuitabletoyourtaste。I
don’tletany。’
’Stay!’criedtheother,holdinghimbythearm。
’I’llbeatthislightaboutthathangdogfaceofyoursforhangdogitis,ifitanswerstoyourvoice,androusetheneighbourhoodbesides,ifyoudetainme,’saidtheblindman。’Letmego。Doyouhear?’
’DoYOUhear!’returnedtheother,chinkingafewshillingstogether,andhurriedlypressingthemintohishand。’Ibegnothingofyou。Iwillpayfortheshelteryougiveme。Death!
Isitmuchtoaskofsuchasyou!Ihavecomefromthecountry,anddesiretorestwheretherearenonetoquestionme。Iamfaint,exhausted,wornout,almostdead。Letmeliedown,likeadog,beforeyourfire。Iasknomorethanthat。Ifyouwouldberidofme,Iwilldepartto-morrow。’
’Ifagentlemanhasbeenunfortunateontheroad,’mutteredStagg,yieldingtotheother,who,pressingonhim,hadalreadygainedafootingonthesteps——’andcanpayforhisaccommodation——’
’IwillpayyouwithallIhave。Iamjustnowpastthewantoffood,Godknows,andwishbuttopurchaseshelter。Whatcompanionhaveyoubelow?’
’None。’
’Thenfastenyourgratethere,andshowmetheway。Quick!’
Theblindmancompliedafteramoment’shesitation,andtheydescendedtogether。Thedialoguehadpassedashurriedlyasthewordscouldbespoken,andtheystoodinhiswretchedroombeforehehadhadtimetorecoverfromhisfirstsurprise。
’MayIseewherethatdoorleadsto,andwhatisbeyond?’saidtheman,glancingkeenlyround。’Youwillnotmindthat?’
’Iwillshowyoumyself。Followme,orgobefore。Takeyourchoice。’
Hebadehimleadtheway,and,bythelightofthetorchwhichhisconductorheldupforthepurpose,inspectedallthreecellarsnarrowly。Assuredthattheblindmanhadspokentruth,andthathelivedtherealone,thevisitorreturnedwithhimtothefirst,inwhichafirewasburning,andflunghimselfwithadeepgroanuponthegroundbeforeit。
Hishostpursuedhisusualoccupationwithoutseemingtoheedhimanyfurther。Butdirectlyhefellasleep——andhenotedhisfallingintoaslumber,asreadilyasthekeenest-sightedmancouldhavedone——hekneltdownbesidehim,andpassedhishandlightlybutcarefullyoverhisfaceandperson。
Hissleepwascheckeredwithstartsandmoans,andsometimeswithamutteredwordortwo。Hishandswereclenched,hisbrowbent,andhismouthfirmlyset。Allthis,theblindmanaccuratelymarked;
andasifhiscuriositywerestronglyawakened,andhehadalreadysomeinklingofhismystery,hesatwatchinghim,iftheexpressionmaybeused,andlistening,untilitwasbroadday。
Chapter19
DollyVarden’sprettylittleheadwasyetbewilderedbyvariousrecollectionsoftheparty,andherbrighteyeswereyetdazzledbyacrowdofimages,dancingbeforethemlikemotesinthesunbeams,amongwhichtheeffigyofonepartnerinparticulardidespeciallyfigure,thesamebeingayoungcoachmakeramasterinhisownrightwhohadgivenhertounderstand,whenhehandedherintothechairatparting,thatitwashisfixedresolvetoneglecthisbusinessfromthattime,anddieslowlyfortheloveofher——
Dolly’shead,andeyes,andthoughts,andsevensenses,wereallinastateofflutterandconfusionforwhichthepartywasaccountable,althoughitwasnowthreedaysold,when,asshewassittinglistlesslyatbreakfast,readingallmanneroffortunesthatistosay,ofmarriedandflourishingfortunesinthegroundsofherteacup,astepwasheardintheworkshop,andMrEdwardChesterwasdescriedthroughtheglassdoor,standingamongtherustylocksandkeys,likeloveamongtheroses——forwhichaptcomparisonthehistorianmaybynomeanstakeanycredittohimself,thesamebeingtheinvention,inasentimentalmood,ofthechasteandmodestMiggs,who,beholdinghimfromthedoorstepsshewasthencleaning,did,inhermaidenmeditation,giveutterancetothesimile。
Thelocksmith,whohappenedatthemomenttohavehiseyesthrownupwardandhisheadbackward,inanintensecommuningwithToby,didnotseehisvisitor,untilMrsVarden,morewatchfulthantherest,haddesiredSimTappertittoopentheglassdoorandgivehimadmission——fromwhichuntowardcircumstancethegoodladyarguedforshecoulddeduceapreciousmoralfromthemosttriflingeventthattotakeadraughtofsmallaleinthemorningwastoobserveapernicious,irreligious,andPagancustom,therelishwhereofshouldbelefttoswine,andSatan,oratleasttoPopishpersons,andshouldbeshunnedbytherighteousasaworkofsinandevil。Shewouldnodoubthavepursuedheradmonitionmuchfurther,andwouldhavefoundedonitalonglistofpreciouspreceptsofinestimablevalue,butthattheyounggentlemanstandingbyinasomewhatuncomfortableanddiscomfitedmannerwhileshereadherspousethislecture,occasionedhertobringittoaprematureconclusion。
’I’msureyou’llexcuseme,sir,’saidMrsVarden,risingandcurtseying。’Vardenissoverythoughtless,andneedssomuchreminding——Sim,bringachairhere。’
MrTappertitobeyed,withaflourishimplyingthathedidso,underprotest。
’Andyoucango,Sim,’saidthelocksmith。
MrTappertitobeyedagain,stillunderprotest;andbetakinghimselftotheworkshop,beganseriouslytofearthathemightfinditnecessarytopoisonhismaster,beforehistimewasout。
Inthemeantime,EdwardreturnedsuitablerepliestoMrsVarden’scourtesies,andthatladybrightenedupverymuch;sothatwhenheacceptedadishofteafromthefairhandsofDolly,shewasperfectlyagreeable。
’Iamsureifthere’sanythingwecando,——Varden,orI,orDollyeither,——toserveyou,sir,atanytime,youhaveonlytosayit,anditshallbedone,’saidMrsV。
’Iammuchobligedtoyou,Iamsure,’returnedEdward。’YouencouragemetosaythatIhavecomeherenow,tobegyourgoodoffices。’
MrsVardenwasdelightedbeyondmeasure。
’ItoccurredtomethatprobablyyourfairdaughtermightbegoingtotheWarren,eitherto-dayorto-morrow,’saidEdward,glancingatDolly;’andifso,andyouwillallowhertotakechargeofthisletter,ma’am,youwillobligememorethanIcantellyou。Thetruthis,thatwhileIamveryanxiousitshouldreachitsdestination,Ihaveparticularreasonsfornottrustingittoanyotherconveyance;sothatwithoutyourhelp,Iamwhollyataloss。’
’Shewasnotgoingthatway,sir,eitherto-day,orto-morrow,norindeedallnextweek,’theladygraciouslyrejoined,’butweshallbeverygladtoputourselvesoutofthewayonyouraccount,andifyouwishit,youmaydependuponitsgoingto-day。Youmightsuppose,’saidMrsVarden,frowningatherhusband,’fromVarden’ssittingtheresoglumandsilent,thatheobjectedtothisarrangement;butyoumustnotmindthat,sir,ifyouplease。It’shiswayathome。Outofdoors,hecanbecheerfulandtalkativeenough。’
Now,thefactwas,thattheunfortunatelocksmith,blessinghisstarstofindhishelpmateinsuchgoodhumour,hadbeensittingwithabeamingface,hearingthisdiscoursewithajoypastallexpression。Whereforethissuddenattackquitetookhimbysurprise。
’MydearMartha——’hesaid。
’Ohyes,Idaresay,’interruptedMrsVarden,withasmileofmingledscornandpleasantry。’Verydear!Weallknowthat。’
’No,butmygoodsoul,’saidGabriel,’youarequitemistaken。Youareindeed。Iwasdelightedtofindyousokindandready。I
waited,mydear,anxiously,Iassureyou,tohearwhatyouwouldsay。’
’Youwaitedanxiously,’repeatedMrsV。’Yes!Thankyou,Varden。
Youwaited,asyoualwaysdo,thatImightbeartheblame,ifanycameofit。ButIamusedtoit,’saidtheladywithakindofsolemntitter,’andthat’smycomfort!’
’Igiveyoumyword,Martha——’saidGabriel。
’LetmegiveyouMYword,mydear,’interposedhiswifewithaChristiansmile,’thatsuchdiscussionsasthesebetweenmarriedpeople,aremuchbetterleftalone。Therefore,ifyouplease,Varden,we’lldropthesubject。Ihavenowishtopursueit。I
could。Imightsayagreatdeal。ButIwouldrathernot。Praydon’tsayanymore。’
’Idon’twanttosayanymore,’rejoinedthegoadedlocksmith。
’Wellthen,don’t,’saidMrsVarden。
’NordidIbeginit,Martha,’addedthelocksmith,good-humouredly,’Imustsaythat。’
’Youdidnotbeginit,Varden!’exclaimedhiswife,openinghereyesverywideandlookingrounduponthecompany,asthoughshewouldsay,Youhearthisman!’Youdidnotbeginit,Varden!ButyoushallnotsayIwasoutoftemper。No,youdidnotbeginit,ohdearno,notyou,mydear!’
’Well,well,’saidthelocksmith。’That’ssettledthen。’
’Ohyes,’rejoinedhiswife,’quite。IfyouliketosayDollybeganit,mydear,Ishallnotcontradictyou。Iknowmyduty。I
needknowit,Iamsure。Iamoftenobligedtobearitinmind,whenmyinclinationperhapswouldbeforthemomenttoforgetit。
Thankyou,Varden。’Andso,withamightyshowofhumilityandforgiveness,shefoldedherhands,andlookedroundagain,withasmilewhichplainlysaid,’Ifyoudesiretoseethefirstandforemostamongfemalemartyrs,heresheis,onview!’
Thislittleincident,illustrativethoughitwasofMrsVarden’sextraordinarysweetnessandamiability,hadsostrongatendencytochecktheconversationandtodisconcertallpartiesbutthatexcellentlady,thatonlyafewmonosyllableswereuttereduntilEdwardwithdrew;whichhepresentlydid,thankingtheladyofthehouseagreatmanytimesforhercondescension,andwhisperinginDolly’searthathewouldcallonthemorrow,incasethereshouldhappentobeananswertothenote——which,indeed,sheknewwithouthistelling,asBarnabyandhisfriendGriphaddroppedinonthepreviousnighttoprepareherforthevisitwhichwasthenterminating。
Gabriel,whohadattendedEdwardtothedoor,camebackwithhishandsinhispockets;and,afterfidgetingabouttheroominaveryuneasymanner,andcastingagreatmanysidelonglooksatMrsVardenwhowiththecalmestcountenanceintheworldwasfivefathomsdeepintheProtestantManual,inquiredofDollyhowshemeanttogo。Dollysupposedbythestage-coach,andlookedatherladymother,whofindingherselfsilentlyappealedto,diveddownatleastanotherfathomintotheManual,andbecameunconsciousofallearthlythings。
’Martha——’saidthelocksmith。
’Ihearyou,Varden,’saidhiswife,withoutrisingtothesurface。
’Iamsorry,mydear,youhavesuchanobjectiontotheMaypoleandoldJohn,forotherwaysasit’saveryfinemorning,andSaturday’snotabusydaywithus,wemighthaveallthreegonetoChigwellinthechaise,andhadquiteahappydayofit。’
MrsVardenimmediatelyclosedtheManual,andburstingintotears,requestedtobeledupstairs。
’Whatisthematternow,Martha?’inquiredthelocksmith。
TowhichMartharejoined,’Oh!don’tspeaktome,’andprotestedinagonythatifanybodyhadtoldherso,shewouldn’thavebelievedit。
’But,Martha,’saidGabriel,puttinghimselfinthewayasshewasmovingoffwiththeaidofDolly’sshoulder,’wouldn’thavebelievedwhat?Tellmewhat’swrongnow。Dotellme。UponmysoulIdon’tknow。Doyouknow,child?Damme!’criedthelocksmith,pluckingathiswiginakindoffrenzy,’nobodydoesknow,Iverilybelieve,butMiggs!’
’Miggs,’saidMrsVardenfaintly,andwithsymptomsofapproachingincoherence,’isattachedtome,andthatissufficienttodrawdownhatreduponherinthishouse。Sheisacomforttome,whatevershemaybetoothers。’
’She’snocomforttome,’criedGabriel,madeboldbydespair。
’She’sthemiseryofmylife。She’salltheplaguesofEgyptinone。’
’She’sconsideredso,Ihavenodoubt,’saidMrsVarden。’Iwaspreparedforthat;it’snatural;it’sofapiecewiththerest。
Whenyoutauntmeasyoudotomyface,howcanIwonderthatyoutauntherbehindherback!’Andheretheincoherencecomingonverystrong,MrsVardenwept,andlaughed,andsobbed,andshivered,andhiccoughed,andchoked;andsaidsheknewitwasveryfoolishbutshecouldn’thelpit;andthatwhenshewasdeadandgone,perhapstheywouldbesorryforit——whichreallyunderthecircumstancesdidnotappearquitesoprobableassheseemedtothink——withagreatdealmoretothesameeffect。Inaword,shepassedwithgreatdecencythroughalltheceremoniesincidentaltosuchoccasions;andbeingsupportedupstairs,wasdepositedinahighlyspasmodicstateonherownbed,whereMissMiggsshortlyafterwardsflungherselfuponthebody。
Thephilosophyofallthiswas,thatMrsVardenwantedtogotoChigwell;thatshedidnotwanttomakeanyconcessionorexplanation;thatshewouldonlygoonbeingimploredandentreatedsotodo;andthatshewouldacceptnootherterms。Accordingly,afteravastamountofmoaningandcryingupstairs,andmuchdampingofforeheads,andvinegaringoftemples,andhartshorningofnoses,andsoforth;andaftermostpatheticadjurationsfromMiggs,assistedbywarmbrandy-and-waternotover-weak,anddiversothercordials,alsoofastimulatingquality,administeredatfirstinteaspoonfulsandafterwardsinincreasingdoses,andofwhichMissMiggsherselfpartookasapreventivemeasureforfaintingisinfectious;afteralltheseremedies,andmanymoretoonumeroustomention,butnottotake,hadbeenapplied;andmanyverbalconsolations,moral,religious,andmiscellaneous,hadbeensuper-addedthereto;thelocksmithhumbledhimself,andtheendwasgained。
’Ifit’sonlyforthesakeofpeaceandquietness,father,’saidDolly,urginghimtogoupstairs。
’Oh,Doll,Doll,’saidhergood-naturedfather。’Ifyoueverhaveahusbandofyourown——’
Dollyglancedattheglass。
’——Well,WHENyouhave,’saidthelocksmith,’neverfaint,mydarling。Moredomesticunhappinesshascomeofeasyfainting,Doll,thanfromallthegreaterpassionsputtogether。Rememberthat,mydear,ifyouwouldbereallyhappy,whichyounevercanbe,ifyourhusbandisn’t。Andawordinyourear,myprecious。
NeverhaveaMiggsaboutyou!’
Withthisadvicehekissedhisbloomingdaughteronthecheek,andslowlyrepairedtoMrsVarden’sroom;wherethatlady,lyingallpaleandlanguidonhercouch,wasrefreshingherselfwithasightofherlastnewbonnet,whichMiggs,asameansofcalmingherscatteredspirits,displayedtothebestadvantageatherbedside。
’Here’smaster,mim,’saidMiggs。’Oh,whatahappinessitiswhenmanandwifecomeroundagain!Ohgracious,tothinkthathimandhershouldeverhaveawordtogether!’Intheenergyofthesesentiments,whichwereutteredasanapostrophetotheHeavensingeneral,MissMiggsperchedthebonnetonthetopofherownhead,andfoldingherhands,turnedonhertears。
’Ican’thelpit,’criedMiggs。’Icouldn’t,ifIwastobedrowndedin’em。Shehassuchaforgivingspirit!She’llforgetallthathaspassed,andgoalongwithyou,sir——Oh,ifitwastotheworld’send,she’dgoalongwithyou。’
MrsVardenwithafaintsmilegentlyreprovedherattendantforthisenthusiasm,andremindedheratthesametimethatshewasfartoounwelltoventureoutthatday。
’Ohno,you’renot,mim,indeedyou’renot,’saidMiggs;’Irepealtomaster;masterknowsyou’renot,mim。Thehair,andmotionoftheshay,willdoyougood,mim,andyoumustnotgiveway,youmustnotraly。Shemustkeepup,mustn’tshe,sir,foralloutsakes?Iwasatellingherthat,justnow。Shemustrememberus,evenifsheforgetsherself。Masterwillpersuadeyou,mim,I’msure。There’sMissDolly’sa-goingyouknow,andmaster,andyou,andallsohappyandsocomfortable。Oh!’criedMiggs,turningonthetearsagain,previoustoquittingtheroomingreatemotion,’I
neverseesuchablessedoneassheisfortheforgivenessofherspirit,Inever,never,neverdid。Notmoredidmasterneither;
no,nornoone——never!’
Forfiveminutesorthereabouts,MrsVardenremainedmildlyopposedtoallherhusband’sprayersthatshewouldobligehimbytakingaday’spleasure,butrelentingatlength,shesufferedherselftobepersuaded,andgrantinghimherfreeforgivenessthemeritwhereof,shemeeklysaid,restedwiththeManualandnotwithher,desiredthatMiggsmightcomeandhelpherdress。Thehandmaidattendedpromptly,anditisbutjusticetotheirjointexertionstorecordthat,whenthegoodladycamedownstairsincourseoftime,completelydeckedoutforthejourney,shereallylookedasifnothinghadhappened,andappearedintheverybesthealthimaginable。
AstoDolly,thereshewasagain,theverypinkandpatternofgoodlooks,inasmartlittlecherry-colouredmantle,withahoodofthesamedrawnoverherhead,anduponthetopofthathood,alittlestrawhattrimmedwithcherry-colouredribbons,andwornthemeresttrifleononeside——justenoughinshorttomakeitthewickedestandmostprovokinghead-dressthatevermaliciousmillinerdevised。Andnottospeakofthemannerinwhichthesecherry-coloureddecorationsbrightenedhereyes,orviedwithherlips,orshedanewbloomonherface,sheworesuchacruellittlemuff,andsuchaheart-rendingpairofshoes,andwassosurroundedandhemmedin,asitwere,byaggravationsofallkinds,thatwhenMrTappettit,holdingthehorse’shead,sawhercomeoutofthehousealone,suchimpulsescameoverhimtodecoyherintothechaiseanddriveofflikemad,thathewouldunquestionablyhavedoneit,butforcertainuneasydoubtsbesettinghimastotheshortestwaytoGretnaGreen;whetheritwasupthestreetordown,oruptheright-handturningortheleft;andwhether,supposingalltheturnpikestobecarriedbystorm,theblacksmithintheendwouldmarrythemoncredit;whichbyreasonofhisclericalofficeappeared,eventohisexcitedimagination,sounlikely,thathehesitated。Andwhilehestoodhesitating,andlookingpost-chaises-and-sixatDolly,outcamehismasterandhismistress,andtheconstantMiggs,andtheopportunitywasgoneforever。Fornowthechaisecreakeduponitssprings,andMrsVardenwasinside;andnowitcreakedagain,andmorethanever,andthelocksmithwasinside;andnowitboundedonce,asifitsheartbeatlightly,andDollywasinside;andnowitwasgoneanditsplacewasempty,andheandthatdrearyMiggswerestandinginthestreettogether。
Theheartylocksmithwasinasgoodahumourasifnothinghadoccurredforthelasttwelvemonthstoputhimoutofhisway,Dollywasallsmilesandgraces,andMrsVardenwasagreeablebeyondallprecedent。Astheyjoggedthroughthestreetstalkingofthisthingandofthat,whoshouldbedescrieduponthepavementbutthatverycoachmaker,lookingsogenteelthatnobodywouldhavebelievedhehadeverhadanythingtodowithacoachbutridinginit,andbowinglikeanynobleman。TobesureDollywasconfusedwhenshebowedagain,andtobesurethecherry-colouredribbonstrembledalittlewhenshemethismournfuleye,whichseemedtosay,’Ihavekeptmyword,Ihavebegun,thebusinessisgoingtothedevil,andyou’rethecauseofit。’Therehestood,rootedtotheground:asDollysaid,likeastatue;andasMrsVardensaid,likeapump;tilltheyturnedthecorner:andwhenherfatherthoughtitwaslikehisimpudence,andhermotherwonderedwhathemeantbyit,Dollyblushedagaintillherveryhoodwaspale。
Butontheywent,notthelessmerrilyforthis,andtherewasthelocksmithintheincautiousfulnessofhisheart’pulling-up’atallmannerofplaces,andevincingamostintimateacquaintancewithallthetavernsontheroad,andallthelandlordsandallthelandladies,withwhom,indeed,thelittlehorsewasonequallyfriendlyterms,forhekeptonstoppingofhisownaccord。NeverwerepeoplesogladtoseeotherpeopleastheselandlordsandlandladiesweretobeholdMrVardenandMrsVardenandMissVarden;
andwouldn’ttheygetout,saidone;andtheyreallymustwalkupstairs,saidanother;andshewouldtakeitillandbequitecertaintheywereproudiftheywouldn’thavealittletasteofsomething,saidathird;andsoon,thatitwasreallyquiteaProgressratherthanaride,andonecontinuedsceneofhospitalityfrombeginningtoend。Itwaspleasantenoughtobeheldinsuchesteem,nottomentiontherefreshments;soMrsVardensaidnothingatthetime,andwasallaffabilityanddelight——butsuchabodyofevidenceasshecollectedagainsttheunfortunatelocksmiththatday,tobeusedthereafterasoccasionmightrequire,neverwasgottogetherformatrimonialpurposes。
Incourseoftime——andincourseofaprettylongtimetoo,fortheseagreeableinterruptionsdelayedthemnotalittle,——theyarrivedupontheskirtsoftheForest,andridingpleasantlyonamongthetrees,cameatlasttotheMaypole,wherethelocksmith’scheerful’Yoho!’speedilybroughttotheporcholdJohn,andafterhimyoungJoe,bothofwhomweresotransfixedatsightoftheladies,thatforamomenttheywereperfectlyunabletogivethemanywelcome,andcoulddonothingbutstare。
Itwasonlyforamoment,however,thatJoeforgothimself,forspeedilyrevivinghethrusthisdrowsyfatheraside——toMrWillet’smightyandinexpressibleindignation——anddartingout,stoodreadytohelpthemtoalight。ItwasnecessaryforDollytogetoutfirst。Joehadherinhisarms;——yes,thoughforaspaceoftimenolongerthanyoucouldcountonein,Joehadherinhisarms。
Herewasaglimpseofhappiness!
ItwouldbedifficulttodescribewhataflatandcommonplaceaffairthehelpingMrsVardenoutafterwardswas,butJoedidit,anddidittoowiththebestgraceintheworld。ThenoldJohn,who,entertainingadullandfoggysortofideathatMrsVardenwasn’tfondofhim,hadbeeninsomedoubtwhethershemightnothavecomeforpurposesofassaultandbattery,tookcourage,hopedshewaswell,andofferedtoconductherintothehouse。Thistenderbeingamicablyreceived,theymarchedintogether;JoeandDollyfollowed,arm-in-arm,happinessagain!andVardenbroughtuptherear。
OldJohnwouldhaveitthattheymustsitinthebar,andnobodyobjecting,intothebartheywent。Allbarsaresnugplaces,buttheMaypole’swastheverysnuggest,cosiest,andcompletestbar,thateverthewitofmandevised。Suchamazingbottlesinoldoakenpigeon-holes;suchgleamingtankardsdanglingfrompegsataboutthesameinclinationasthirstymenwouldholdthemtotheirlips;suchsturdylittleDutchkegsrangedinrowsonshelves;somanylemonshanginginseparatenets,andformingthefragrantgrovealreadymentionedinthischronicle,suggestive,withgoodlyloavesofsnowysugarstowedawayhardby,ofpunch,idealisedbeyondallmortalknowledge;suchclosets,suchpresses,suchdrawersfullofpipes,suchplacesforputtingthingsawayinhollowwindow-seats,allcrammedtothethroatwitheatables,drinkables,orsavourycondiments;lastly,andtocrownall,astypicaloftheimmenseresourcesoftheestablishment,anditsdefiancestoallvisitorstocutandcomeagain,suchastupendouscheese!
Itisapoorheartthatneverrejoices——itmusthavebeenthepoorest,weakest,andmostwateryheartthateverbeat,whichwouldnothavewarmedtowardstheMaypolebar。MrsVarden’sdiddirectly。ShecouldnomorehavereproachedJohnWilletamongthosehouseholdgods,thekegsandbottles,lemons,pipes,andcheese,thanshecouldhavestabbedhimwithhisownbrightcarving-knife。Theorderfordinnertoo——itmighthavesoothedasavage。’Abitoffish,’saidJohntothecook,’andsomelambchopsbreaded,withplentyofketchup,andagoodsalad,andaroastspringchicken,withadishofsausagesandmashedpotatoes,orsomethingofthatsort。’Somethingofthatsort!Theresourcesoftheseinns!Totalkcarelesslyaboutdishes,whichinthemselveswereafirst-rateholidaykindofdinner,suitabletoone’swedding-day,assomethingofthatsort:meaning,ifyoucan’tgetaspringchicken,anyothertrifleinthewayofpoultrywilldo——suchasapeacock,perhaps!Thekitchentoo,withitsgreatbroadcavernouschimney;thekitchen,wherenothinginthewayofcookeryseemedimpossible;whereyoucouldbelieveinanythingtoeat,theychosetotellyouof。MrsVardenreturnedfromthecontemplationofthesewonderstothebaragain,withaheadquitedizzyandbewildered。Herhousekeepingcapacitywasnotlargeenoughtocomprehendthem。Shewasobligedtogotosleep。Wakingwaspain,inthemidstofsuchimmensity。
Dollyinthemeanwhile,whosegayheartandheadranuponothermatters,passedoutatthegardendoor,andglancingbacknowandthenbutofcoursenotwonderingwhetherJoesawher,trippedawaybyapathacrossthefieldswithwhichshewaswellacquainted,todischargehermissionattheWarren;andthisdeponenthathbeeninformedandverilybelieves,thatyoumighthaveseenmanylesspleasantobjectsthanthecherry-colouredmantleandribbons,astheywentflutteringalongthegreenmeadowsinthebrightlightoftheday,likegiddythingsastheywere。
Chapter20
Theproudconsciousnessofhertrust,andthegreatimportanceshederivedfromit,mighthaveadvertisedittoallthehouseifshehadhadtorunthegauntletofitsinhabitants;butasDollyhadplayedineverydullroomandpassagemanyandmanyatime,whenachild,andhadeversincebeenthehumblefriendofMissHaredale,whosefoster-sistershewas,shewasasfreeofthebuildingastheyoungladyherself。So,usingnogreaterprecautionthanholdingherbreathandwalkingontiptoeasshepassedthelibrarydoor,shewentstraighttoEmma’sroomasaprivilegedvisitor。
Itwastheliveliestroominthebuilding。Thechamberwassombreliketherestforthematterofthat,butthepresenceofyouthandbeautywouldmakeaprisoncheerfulsavingalas!thatconfinementwithersthem,andlendsomecharmsoftheirowntothegloomiestscene。Birds,flowers,books,drawing,music,andahundredsuchgracefultokensoffemininelovesandcares,filleditwithmoreoflifeandhumansympathythanthewholehousebesidesseemedmadetohold。Therewasheartintheroom;andwhothathasaheart,everfailstorecognisethesilentpresenceofanother!
Dollyhadoneundoubtedly,anditwasnotatoughoneeither,thoughtherewasalittlemistofcoquettishnessaboutit,suchassometimessurroundsthatsunoflifeinitsmorning,andslightlydimsitslustre。Thus,whenEmmarosetogreether,andkissingheraffectionatelyonthecheek,toldher,inherquietway,thatshehadbeenveryunhappy,thetearsstoodinDolly’seyes,andshefeltmoresorrythanshecouldtell;butnextmomentshehappenedtoraisethemtotheglass,andreallytherewassomethingtheresoexceedinglyagreeable,thatasshesighed,shesmiled,andfeltsurprisinglyconsoled。
’Ihaveheardaboutit,miss,’saidDolly,’andit’sverysadindeed,butwhenthingsareattheworsttheyaresuretomend。’
’Butareyousuretheyareattheworst?’askedEmmawithasmile。
’Why,Idon’tseehowtheycanverywellbemoreunpromisingthantheyare;Ireallydon’t,’saidDolly。’AndIbringsomethingtobeginwith。’
’NotfromEdward?’
Dollynoddedandsmiled,andfeelinginherpocketstherewerepocketsinthosedayswithanaffectationofnotbeingabletofindwhatshewanted,whichgreatlyenhancedherimportance,atlengthproducedtheletter。AsEmmahastilybrokethesealandbecameabsorbedinitscontents,Dolly’seyes,byoneofthosestrangeaccidentsforwhichthereisnoaccounting,wanderedtotheglassagain。Shecouldnothelpwonderingwhetherthecoach-makersufferedverymuch,andquitepitiedthepoorman。
Itwasalongletter——averylongletter,writtencloseonallfoursidesofthesheetofpaper,andcrossedafterwards;butitwasnotaconsolatoryletter,forasEmmareaditshestoppedfromtimetotimetoputherhandkerchieftohereyes。TobesureDollymarvelledgreatlytoseeherinsomuchdistress,fortoherthinkingaloveaffairoughttobeoneofthebestjokes,andtheslyest,merriestkindofthinginlife。ButshesetitdowninherownmindthatallthiscamefromMissHaredale’sbeingsoconstant,andthatifshewouldonlytakeonwithsomeotheryounggentleman——
justinthemostinnocentwaypossible,tokeepherfirstloveruptothemark——shewouldfindherselfinexpressiblycomforted。
’Iamsurethat’swhatIshoulddoifitwasme,’thoughtDolly。
’Tomakeone’ssweetheartmiserableiswellenoughandquiteright,buttobemademiserableone’sselfisalittletoomuch!’
Howeveritwouldn’tdotosayso,andthereforeshesatlookingoninsilence。Sheneededaprettyconsiderablestretchofpatience,forwhenthelongletterhadbeenreadonceallthroughitwasreadagain,andwhenithadbeenreadtwiceallthroughitwasreadagain。Duringthistediousprocess,Dollybeguiledthetimeinthemostimprovingmannerthatoccurredtoher,bycurlingherhaironherfingers,withtheaidofthelooking-glassbeforementioned,andgivingitsomekillingtwists。
Everythinghasanend。Evenyoungladiesinlovecannotreadtheirlettersforever。Incourseoftimethepacketwasfoldedup,anditonlyremainedtowritetheanswer。
Butasthispromisedtobeaworkoftimelikewise,Emmasaidshewouldputitoffuntilafterdinner,andthatDollymustdinewithher。AsDollyhadmadeuphermindtodosobeforehand,sherequiredverylittlepressing;andwhentheyhadsettledthispoint,theywenttowalkinthegarden。
Theystrolledupanddowntheterracewalks,talkingincessantly——
atleast,Dollyneverleftoffonce——andmakingthatquarterofthesadandmournfulhousequitegay。Notthattheytalkedloudlyorlaughedmuch,buttheywerebothsoveryhandsome,anditwassuchabreezyday,andtheirlightdressesanddarkcurlsappearedsofreeandjoyousintheirabandonment,andEmmawassofair,andDollysorosy,andEmmasodelicatelyshaped,andDollysoplump,and——inshort,therearenoflowersforanygardenlikesuchflowers,lethorticulturistssaywhattheymay,andbothhouseandgardenseemedtoknowit,andtobrightenupsensibly。
Afterthis,camethedinnerandtheletterwriting,andsomemoretalking,inthecourseofwhichMissHaredaletookoccasiontochargeuponDollycertainflirtishandinconstantpropensities,whichaccusationsDollyseemedtothinkverycomplimentaryindeed,andtobemightilyamusedwith。Findingherquiteincorrigibleinthisrespect,Emmasufferedhertodepart;butnotbeforeshehadconfidedtoherthatimportantandnever-sufficiently-to-be-taken-
care-ofanswer,andendowedhermoreoverwithaprettylittlebraceletasakeepsake。Havingclaspeditonherarm,andagainadvisedherhalfinjestandhalfinearnesttoamendherroguishways,forsheknewshewasfondofJoeatheartwhichDollystoutlydenied,withagreatmanyhaughtyprotestationsthatshehopedshecoulddobetterthanthatindeed!andsoforth,shebadeherfarewell;andaftercallingherbacktogivehermoresupplementarymessagesforEdward,thananybodywithtenfoldthegravityofDollyVardencouldbereasonablyexpectedtoremember,atlengthdismissedher。
Dollybadehergoodbye,andtrippinglightlydownthestairsarrivedatthedreadedlibrarydoor,andwasabouttopassitagainontiptoe,whenitopened,andbehold!therestoodMrHaredale。
Now,Dollyhadfromherchildhoodassociatedwiththisgentlemantheideaofsomethinggrimandghostly,andbeingatthemomentconscience-strickenbesides,thesightofhimthrewherintosuchaflurrythatshecouldneitheracknowledgehispresencenorrunaway,soshegaveagreatstart,andthenwithdowncasteyesstoodstillandtrembled。
’Comehere,girl,’saidMrHaredale,takingherbythehand。’I
wanttospeaktoyou。’
’Ifyouplease,sir,I’minahurry,’falteredDolly,’and——youhavefrightenedmebycomingsosuddenlyuponme,sir——Iwouldrathergo,sir,ifyou’llbesogoodastoletme。’
’Immediately,’saidMrHaredale,whohadbythistimeledherintotheroomandclosedthedoor。Youshallgodirectly。YouhavejustleftEmma?’
’Yes,sir,justthisminute——Father’swaitingforme,sir,ifyou’llpleasetohavethegoodness——’
Iknow。Iknow,’saidMrHaredale。’Answermeaquestion。Whatdidyoubringhereto-day?’
’Bringhere,sir?’falteredDolly。
’Youwilltellmethetruth,Iamsure。Yes。’
Dollyhesitatedforalittlewhile,andsomewhatemboldenedbyhismanner,saidatlast,’Wellthen,sir。Itwasaletter。’
’FromMrEdwardChester,ofcourse。Andyouarethebeareroftheanswer?’
Dollyhesitatedagain,andnotbeingabletodecideuponanyothercourseofaction,burstintotears。
’Youalarmyourselfwithoutcause,’saidMrHaredale。’Whyareyousofoolish?Surelyyoucananswerme。YouknowthatIhavebuttoputthequestiontoEmmaandlearnthetruthdirectly。Haveyoutheanswerwithyou?’
Dollyhadwhatispopularlycalledaspiritofherown,andbeingnowfairlyatbay,madethebestofit。
’Yes,sir,’sherejoined,tremblingandfrightenedasshewas。
’Yes,sir,Ihave。Youmaykillmeifyouplease,sir,butIwon’tgiveitup。I’mverysorry,——butIwon’t。There,sir。’
’Icommendyourfirmnessandyourplain-speaking,’saidMrHaredale。’RestassuredthatIhaveaslittledesiretotakeyourletterasyourlife。Youareaverydiscreetmessengerandagoodgirl。’
Notfeelingquitecertain,assheafterwardssaid,whetherhemightnotbe’comingoverher’withthesecompliments,Dollykeptasfarfromhimasshecould,criedagain,andresolvedtodefendherpocketfortheletterwastheretothelastextremity。
’Ihavesomedesign,’saidMrHaredaleafterashortsilence,duringwhichasmile,asheregardedher,hadstruggledthroughthegloomandmelancholythatwasnaturaltohisface,’ofprovidingacompanionformyniece;forherlifeisaverylonelyone。Wouldyouliketheoffice?Youaretheoldestfriendshehas,andthebestentitledtoit。’
’Idon’tknow,sir,’answeredDolly,notsurebuthewasbanteringher;’Ican’tsay。Idon’tknowwhattheymightwishathome。I
couldn’tgiveanopinion,sir。’
’Ifyourfriendshadnoobjection,wouldyouhaveany?’saidMrHaredale。’Come。There’saplainquestion;andeasytoanswer。’
’NoneatallthatIknowofsir,’repliedDolly。’IshouldbeverygladtobenearMissEmmaofcourse,andalwaysam。’
’That’swell,’saidMrHaredale。’ThatisallIhadtosay。Youareanxioustogo。Don’tletmedetainyou。’
Dollydidn’tlethim,nordidshewaitforhimtotry,forthewordshadnosoonerpassedhislipsthanshewasoutoftheroom,outofthehouse,andinthefieldsagain。
Thefirstthingtobedone,ofcourse,whenshecametoherselfandconsideredwhataflurryshehadbeenin,wastocryafresh;andthenextthing,whenshereflectedhowwellshehadgotoverit,wastolaughheartily。Thetearsoncebanishedgaveplacetothesmiles,andatlastDollylaughedsomuchthatshewasfaintoleanagainstatree,andgiveventtoherexultation。Whenshecouldlaughnolonger,andwasquitetired,sheputherhead-dresstorights,driedhereyes,lookedbackverymerrilyandtriumphantlyattheWarrenchimneys,whichwerejustvisible,andresumedherwalk。
Thetwilighthadcomeon,anditwasquicklygrowingdusk,butthepathwassofamiliartoherfromfrequenttraversingthatshehardlythoughtofthis,andcertainlyfeltnouneasinessatbeingleftalone。Moreover,therewasthebracelettoadmire;andwhenshehadgivenitagoodrub,andhelditoutatarm’slength,itsparkledandglitteredsobeautifullyonherwrist,thattolookatitineverypointofviewandwitheverypossibleturnofthearm,wasquiteanabsorbingbusiness。Therewasthelettertoo,anditlookedsomysteriousandknowing,whenshetookitoutofherpocket,anditheld,assheknew,somuchinside,thattoturnitoverandover,andthinkaboutit,andwonderhowitbegan,andhowitended,andwhatitsaidallthrough,wasanothermatterofconstantoccupation。Betweenthebraceletandtheletter,therewasquiteenoughtodowithoutthinkingofanythingelse;andadmiringeachbyturns,Dollywentongaily。
Asshepassedthroughawicket-gatetowherethepathwasnarrow,andlaybetweentwohedgesgarnishedhereandtherewithtrees,sheheardarustlingcloseathand,whichbroughthertoasuddenstop。
Shelistened。Allwasveryquiet,andshewentonagain——notabsolutelyfrightened,butalittlequickerthanbeforeperhaps,andpossiblynotquitesomuchatherease,foracheckofthatkindisstartling。
Shehadnosoonermovedonagain,thanshewasconsciousofthesamesound,whichwaslikethatofapersontrampingstealthilyamongbushesandbrushwood。Lookingtowardsthespotwhenceitappearedtocome,shealmostfanciedshecouldmakeoutacrouchingfigure。Shestoppedagain。Allwasquietasbefore。Onshewentoncemore——decidedlyfasternow——andtriedtosingsoftlytoherself。Itmusthethewind。
Buthowcamethewindtoblowonlywhenshewalked,andceasewhenshestoodstill?Shestoppedinvoluntarilyasshemadethereflection,andtherustlingnoisestoppedlikewise。Shewasreallyfrightenednow,andwasyethesitatingwhattodo,whenthebushescrackledandsnapped,andamancameplungingthroughthem,closebeforeher。
Chapter21
ItwasforthemomentaninexpressiblerelieftoDolly,torecogniseinthepersonwhoforcedhimselfintothepathsoabruptly,andnowstooddirectlyinherway,HughoftheMaypole,whosenamesheutteredinatoneofdelightedsurprisethatcamefromherheart。
’Wasityou?’shesaid,’howgladIamtoseeyou!andhowcouldyouterrifymeso!’
Inanswertowhich,hesaidnothingatall,butstoodquitestill,lookingather。
’Didyoucometomeetme?’askedDolly。
Hughnodded,andmutteredsomethingtotheeffectthathehadbeenwaitingforher,andhadexpectedhersooner。
’Ithoughtitlikelytheywouldsend,’saidDolly,greatlyreassuredbythis。
’Nobodysentme,’washissullenanswer。’Icameofmyownaccord。’
Theroughbearingofthisfellow,andhiswild,uncouthappearance,hadoftenfilledthegirlwithavagueapprehensionevenwhenotherpeoplewereby,andhadoccasionedhertoshrinkfromhiminvoluntarily。Thehavinghimforanunbiddencompanioninsosolitaryaplace,withthedarknessfastgatheringaboutthem,renewedandevenincreasedthealarmshehadfeltatfirst。