“AndnowImustbeoffuptomybitofafarm;theoldsowisduetolitter,andIwanttoseehowsheisgettingon。PleaseGodshe’llhavethirteenagainanddowell。I’llordertheflytobehereatfive,thoughIshallbebackbeforethen——thatis,ItoldElizabethtodoso。Shehasgoneouttodosomevisitingforme,andtoseeifshecan’tgetintwopoundsfiveoftithethathasbeendueforthreemonths。Ifanybodycangetitit’sElizabeth。Well,good-bye;ifyouaredullandwanttotalktoBeatrice,sheisupandinthere。I
daresayyouwillsuitoneanother。She’saveryqueergirl,Beatrice,quitebeyondmewithherideas,anditwasafunnythingherholdingyousotight,butIsupposeProvidencearrangedthat。Good-byeforthepresent,Mr。Bingham。”andthiscuriousspecimenofaclergymanvanished,leavingGeoffreyquitebreathless。
Itwashalf-pasttwoo’clock,andthedoctorhadtoldhimthathecouldseeMissGrangeratthree。Hewishedthatitwasthree,forhewastiredofhisownthoughtsandcompany,andnaturallyanxioustorenewhisacquaintancewiththestrangegirlwhohadbegunbyimpressinghimsodeeplyandendedbysavinghislife。Therewascompletequietinthehouse;Betty,themaid-of-all-work,wasemployedinthekitchen,boththedoctorshadgone,andElizabethandherfatherwereout。To-daytherewasnowind,ithadblownitselfawayduringthenight,andthesightofthesunbeamsstreamingthroughthewindowsmadeGeoffreylongtobeintheopenair。Hehadnobookathandtoread,andwheneverhetriedtothinkhismindflewbacktothathatefulmatrimonialquarrel。
Itwashardonhim,Geoffreythought,thatheshouldbecalledupontoenduresuchscenes。Hecouldnolongerdisguisethetruthfromhimself——hehadburiedhishappinessonhiswedding-day。Lookingbackacrosstheyears,hewellrememberedhowdifferentalifehehadimaginedforhimself。Inthosedayshewastiredofknockingaboutandofyouthfulescapades;eventhatkindofsocialsuccesswhichmustattendayoungmanwhowashandsome,clever,agoodfellow,andblessedwithlargeexpectations,had,attheageofsix-and-twenty,entirelylostitsattractiveness。Thereforehehadturnednodeafeartohisuncle,SirRobertBingham,whowasthengoingonforseventy,whenhesuggestedthatitmightbewellofGeoffreysettleddown,andintroducedhimtoLadyHonoria。
LadyHonoriawaseighteenthen,andabeautyoftheratherthinbutstatuesquetype,whichattractsmenuptofiveorsixandtwentyandthenfrequentlybores,ifitdoesnotrepelthem。Moreover,shewascleverandwellread,andpretendedtobeintellectuallyandpoeticallyinclined,asladiesnotspeciallyfavouredbyApollosometimesdo——beforetheymarry。Coldshealwayswas;nobodyeverheardofLadyHonoriastretchingtheboundsofpropriety;butGeoffreyputthisdowntoasweetandbecomingmodesty,whichwouldvanishorbetransmutedinitsseason。Alsosheaffectedacharminginnocenceofallvulgarbusinessmatters,whichbothdeceivedandenchantedhim。
Neverbutoncedidshealludetowaysandmeansbeforemarriage,andthenitwastosaythatshewasgladthattheyshouldbesopoortilldearSirRobertdiedhehadpromisedtoallowthemfifteenhundredayear,andtheyhadsevenmorebetweenthem,asthiswouldenablethemtoseesomuchmoreofeachother。
Atlastcamethehappyday,andthiswhitevirginsoulpassedintoGeoffrey’skeeping。Foraweekorsothingswentfairlywell,andthendisenchantmentbegan。Helearnedbyslowbutsuredegreesthathiswifewasvain,selfishandextravagant,and,worstofall,thatshecaredverylittleabouthim。Thefirstshockwaswhenheaccidentallydiscovered,fourorfivedaysaftermarriage,thatHonoriawasintimatelyacquaintedwitheverydetailofSirRobertBingham’sproperty,and,youngasshewas,hadalreadyformedaschemetomakeitmoreproductiveaftertheoldman’sdeath。
TheywenttoliveinLondon,andtherehefoundthatLadyHonoria,althoughbyfartoocoldandprudentawomantodoanythingthatcouldbringabreathofscandaluponhername,wasasfondofadmirationasshewasheartless。ItseemedtoGeoffreythathecouldneverbefreefromthecollectionofyoungmenwhohungaboutherskirts。Someofthemwereverygoodfellowswhomhelikedexceedingly;still,onthewholehewouldhavepreferredtoremainunmarriedandassociatewiththemattheclub。Alsothecontinualroundofsocietyandgoingoutbroughtheavierexpensesonhimthathecouldwellsupport。Andthus,littlebylittle,poorGeoffrey’sdreamofmatrimonialblissfadedintothinair。But,fortunatelyforhimself,hepossessedacertainshareoflogicandsweetreasonableness。Intimehelearnttoseethatthefaultwasnotaltogetherwithhiswife,whowasbynomeansabadsortofwomaninherdegree。Butherdegreedifferedfromhisdegree。
Shehadmarriedforfreedomandwealthandtogainalargerscopewhereintoexercisethosetasteswhichinheriteddispositionandeducationhadgiventoher,asshebelievedthathehadmarriedherbecauseshewasthedaughterofapeer。
LadyHonoria,likemanyanotherwomanofherstamp,wastheoverbred,orsometimestheunderbred,productofatoocivilizedageandclass。
Thoseprimitivepassionsandvirtuesonwhichherhusbandhadreliedtomakethehappinessoftheirmarriedlifesimplydidnotexistforher。Thepassionshadbeenbredandeducatedoutofher;formanygenerationstheyhavebeenfoundinconvenientanddisquietingattributesinwoman。Asfortheoldvirtues,suchasloveofchildrenandtheordinaryroundofdomesticduty,theysimplyboredher。Onthewhole,thoughsharpoftongue,sherarelylosthertemper,forhervices,likehervirtues,wereofasomewhatnegativeorder;butthefurywhichseizedherwhenshelearnedforcertainthatshewastobecomeamotherwasathingthatherunfortunatehusbandneverforgotandneverwishedtoseeagain。Atlengththechildwasborn,afactforwhichGeoffrey,atleast,wasverythankful。
“Takeitaway。Idonotwanttoseeit!“saidLadyHonoriatothescandalisednursewhenthelittlecreaturewasbroughttoher,wrappedinitslongrobes。
“Giveittome,nurse——Ido。”saidherhusband。
FromthatmomentGeoffreygaveallthepent-upaffectionofhisbruisedsoultothislittledaughter,andastheyearswentontheygrewverydeartoeachother。Butanactive-minded,strong-hearted,able-bodiedmancannottakeababeasthesolecompanionofhisexistence。ProbablyGeoffreywouldhavefoundthisoutintime,andmighthavedriftedintosomemodeoflifemoreorlessundesirable,hadnotanaccidentoccurredtopreventit。Inhisdotage,Geoffrey’solduncleSirRobertBinghamfellavictimtothewilesofanadventuressandmarriedher。Thenhepromptlydied,andeightmonthsafterwardsaposthumoussonwasborn。
ToGeoffreythismeantruin。Hisallowancestoppedandhisexpectationsvanishedatonefellswoop。Hepulledhimselftogether,however,asabrave-heartedmandoesundersuchashock,andgoingtohiswifeheexplainedtoherthathemustnowworkforhisliving,begginghertobreakdownthebarrierthatwasbetweenthemandgivehimhersympathyandhelp。Shemethimwithtearsandreproaches。Theonethingthattouchedherkeenly,theonethingwhichshefearedandhatedwaspoverty,andallthatpovertymeanstowomenofherrankandnature。Buttherewasnohelpforit;thecharminghouseinBoltonSteethadtobegivenup,andpurgatorymustbefaced,inaflat,neartheEdgwareRoad。LadyHonoriawasmiserable,indeedhaditnotbeenthatfortunatelyforherselfshepossessedplentyofrelationsmoreorlessgrand,whomshemightcontinuallyvisitforweeksandevenformonthsatastretch,shecouldscarcelyhaveenduredheralteredlife。
ButstrangelyenoughGeoffreysoonfoundthathewashappierthanhehadbeensincehismarriage。Tobeginwith,hesettoworklikeaman,andworkisagreatsourceofhappinesstoallvigorous-mindedfolk。
Itisnot,intruth,aparticularlycheerfuloccupationtopassendlessdaysinhangingaboutlaw-courtsamongstacrowdofunbriefedJuniors,andmanynightsinreadingupthelawonehasforgottenandthreadingthemanyintricaciesoftheJudicatureAct。Butithappenedthathisfather,ayoungerbrotherofSirRobert’s,hadbeenasolicitor,andthoughhewasdead,andalldirectinterestwiththefirmwassevered,yetanotheruncleremainedinit,andthepartnersdidnotforgetGeoffreyinhisdifficulties。
Theysenthimwhatworktheycouldwithoutoffendingtheirstandingcounsel,andhediditwell。Thenbydegreeshebuiltupquitealargegeneralpracticeofthekindknownasdeviling。Nowtherearefewthingsmoreunsatisfactorythandoinganotherman’sworkfornothing,buteverycasefoughtmeansknowledgegained,andwhatismoreitisadvertisement。Soitcametopassthatwithinlessthantwoyearsfromthedateofhismoneymisfortunes,GeoffreyBingham’sdarkhandsomefaceandsquarestrongformbecameverywellknownintheCourts。
“Whatisthatman’sname?”saidonewell-knownQ。C。toanotherstillmorewellknown,astheysatwaitingfortheirchopsintheBarGrillRoom,andsawGeoffrey,hiswigpushedbackfromhisforehead,stridingthroughthedoorwayonthelastdayofthesittingwhichprecededthecommencementofthishistory。
“Bingham。”answeredtheother。“He’sonlybeguntopractiselately,buthe’llbeatthetopofthetreebeforehehasdone。Hemarriedverywell,youknow,oldGarsington’sdaughter,acharmingwoman,andhandsometoo。”
“Helookslikeit。”gruntedthefirst,andasamatteroffactsuchwasthegeneralopinion。
For,asBeatricehadsaid,GeoffreyBinghamwasamanwhohadsuccesswrittenonhisforehead。Itwouldhavebeenalmostimpossibleforhimtofailinwhateverheundertook。
CHAPTERIX
WHATBEATRICEDREAMED
Geoffreylayuponhisback,watchingthestillpatchofsunshineandlisteningtothetickingoftheclock,ashepassedalltheseandmanyothereventsinsolemnreview,tilltheseriesculminatedinhisvividrecollectionofthesceneofthatverymorning。
“Iamsickofit。”hesaidatlastaloud,“sickandtired。Shemakesmylifewretched。Ifitwasn’tforEffieuponmywordI’d……ByJove,itisthreeo’clock;IwillgoandseeMissGranger。She’sawoman,notafemaleghostatanyrate,thoughsheisafreethinker——
which。”headdedasheslowlystruggledoffthecouch,“isaveryfoolishthingtobe。”
Veryshakily,forhewassadlyknockedabout,Geoffreyhobbleddownthelongnarrowroomandthroughthedoor,whichwasajar。Theoppositedoorwasalsosethalfopen。Heknockedsoftly,andgettingnoanswerpusheditwideandlookedin,thinkingthathehad,perhaps,madesomemistakeastotheroom。Onasofaplacedabouttwo-thirdsdownitslength,layBeatriceasleep。Shewaswrappedinakindofdressing-gownofsomesimplebluestuff,andallaboutherbreastandshouldersstreamedherlovelycurlinghair。Hersweetfacewastowardshim,itspallorrelievedonlybythelongshadowofthedarklashesandthebentbowofthelips。Onewhitewristandhandhungdownalmosttothefloor,andbeneaththespreadcurtainofthesunlithairherbosomheavedsoftlyinhersleep。Shelookedsowondrouslybeautifulinherrestthathestoppedalmostawed,andgazed,andgazedagain,feelingasthoughapresentsenseandpowerwerestillinghishearttosilence。Itisdangeroustolookuponsuchquietloveliness,andverydangeroustofeelthatpressureattheheart。A
trulywisemanfeelingitwouldhavefled,knowingthatseedssowninsuchsilencesmaylivetobloomuponabitterday,andshedtheirfruitintothewatersofdesolation。ButGeoffreywasnotwise——whowouldhavebeen?Hestillstoodandgazedtillthesightstampeditselfsodeeplyonthetabletsofhisheartthatthroughalltheyearstocomenoheatsofpassion,nofrostsofdoubt,andnosenseoflosscouldeverdullitsmemory。
Thesilentsunshoneon,thesilentwomanslept,andinsilencethewatchergazed。Andashelookedagreatfear,aprescienceofevilthatshouldcome,enteredintoGeoffreyandtookpossessionofhim。A
cloudwithoutcrossedtherayofsunlightandturnedit。Itwavered,foraseconditrestedonhisbreast,flashedbacktohers,thenwentout;andasitflashedanddied,heseemedtoknowthathenceforth,forlifetilldeath,ay!andbeyond,hisfateandthatsleepingwoman’swereonefate。Itwasbutamomentaryknowledge;thefearshookhim,andwasgonealmostbeforeheunderstooditsfoolishness。
Butithadbeenwithhim,andinafterdaysherememberedit。
JustthenBeatricewoke,openinghergreyeyes。Theirdreamyglancefelluponhim,lookingthroughhimandbeyondhim,ratherthanathim。
Thensheraisedherselfalittleandstretchingoutbothherarmstowardshim,spokealoud。
“Sohaveyouhavecomebacktomeatlast。”shesaid。“IknewthatyouwouldcomeandIhavewaited。”
Hemadenoanswer,hedidnotknowwhattosay;indeedhebegantothinkthathealsomustbedreaming。ForalittlewhileBeatricestilllookedathiminthesameabsentmanner,thensuddenlystartedup,theredbloodstreamingtoherbrow。
“Why,Mr。Bingham。”shesaid,“isitreallyyou?WhatwasitthatI
said?Oh,prayforgiveme,whateveritwas。Ihavebeenasleepdreamingsuchacuriousdream,andtalkinginmysleep。”
“Donotalarmyourself,MissGranger。”heanswered,recoveringhimselfwithajerk;“youdidnotsayanythingdreadful,onlythatyouweregladtoseeme。Whatwereyoudreamingabout?”
Beatricelookedathimdoubtfully;perhapshiswordsdidnotringquitetrue。
“IthinkthatIhadbettertellyouasIhavesaidsomuch。”sheanswered。“Besides,itwasaverycuriousdream,andifIbelievedindreamsitwouldratherfrightenme,onlyfortunatelyIdonot。SitdownandIwilltellittoyoubeforeIforgetit。Itisnotverylong。”
Hetookthechairtowhichshepointed,andshebegan,speakinginthevoiceofoneyetladenwiththememoriesofsleep。
“IdreamedthatIstoodinspace。Fartomyrightwasagreatglobeoflight,andtomyleftwasanotherglobe,andIknewthattheglobeswerenamedLifeandDeath。Fromtheglobeontherighttotheglobeontheleft,andbackagain,agoldenshuttle,inwhichtwoflamingeyeswereset,wasshotcontinually,andIknewalsothatthiswastheshuttleofDestiny,weavingthewebofFate。Presentlytheshuttleflew,leavingbehinditalongsilverthread,andtheeyesintheshuttleweresuchasyoureyes。Againtheshuttlespedthroughspace,andthistimeitseyeswerelikemyeyes,andthethreaditleftbehinditwastwistedfromawoman’shair。HalfwaybetweentheglobesofLifeandDeathmythreadwasbroken,buttheshuttleflewonandvanished。Foramomentthethreadhunginair,thenawindroseandblewit,sothatitfloatedawaylikeaspider’sweb,tillitstruckuponyoursilverthreadoflifeandbegantotwistroundandroundit。
Asittwisteditgrewlargerandheavier,tillatlastitwasthickasagreattressofhair,andthesilverlinebentbeneaththeweightsothatIsawitsoonmustbreak。ThenwhileIwonderedwhatwouldhappen,awhitehandholdingaknifeslidslowlydownthesilverline,andwiththeknifeseveredthewrappingsofwoman’shair,whichfellandfloatedslowlyaway,likealittlecloudtouchedwithsunlight,tilltheywerelostindarkness。Butthethreadofsilverthatwasyourlineoflife,sprangupquiveringandmakingasoundlikesighs,tillatlastitsigheditselftosilence。
“ThenIseemedtosleep,andwhenIwokeIwasfloatinguponsuchamistyseaaswesawlastnight。Ihadlostallsightofland,andI
couldnotrememberwhatthestarswerelike,norhowIhadbeentaughttosteer,norunderstandwhereImustgo。Icalledtothesea,andaskeditofthestars,andtheseaansweredmethus:
“’Hopehasrentherraiment,andthestarsareset。’
“Icalledagain,andaskedofthelandwhereIshouldgo,andthelanddidnotanswer,buttheseaansweredmeasecondtime:
“’Childofthemist,wanderinthemist,andindarknessseekforlight。’
“ThenIweptbecauseHopehadrentherstarrygarmentandindarknessImustseekforlight。AndwhileIstillwept,/you/roseoutoftheseaandsatbeforemeintheboat。Ihadneverseenyoubefore,andstillIfeltthatIhadknownyoualways。Youdidnotspeak,andIdidnotspeak,butyoulookedintomyheartandsawitstrouble。ThenI
lookedintoyourheart,andreadwhatwaswritten。Andthiswaswritten:
“’WomanwhomIknewbeforethePastbegan,andwhomIshallknowwhentheFutureisended,whydoyouweep?’
“Andmyheartanswered,’IweepbecauseIamlostuponthewatersoftheearth,becauseHopehasrentherstarryrobes,andineverlastingdarknessImustseekforlightthatisnot。’Thenyourheartsaid,’/I/willshowyoulight,’andbendingforwardyoutouchedmeonthebreast。
“Andsuddenlyanagonyshookmeliketheagoniesofbirthanddeath,andtheskywasfullofgreat-wingedangelswhorolledupthemistasacloth,anddrewtheveilsfromtheeyesofNight,andthere,herfeetupontheglobe,andherstar-setheadpiercingthefirmamentofheaven,stoodHopebreathingpeaceandbeauty。Shelookednorthandsouthandeastandwest,thenshelookedupwardsthroughthearchingvaultsofheaven,andwherevershesethereyes,brightwithholytears,thedarknessshrivelledandsorrowceased,andfromcorruptionarosetheIncorruptible。Igazedandworshipped,andasIdidso,againtheseaspokeunquestioned:
“’Indarknessthouhastfoundlight,inDeathseekforwisdom。’
“ThenoncemoreHoperentherstarryrobes,andtheangelsdrewdownaveilovertheeyesofNight,andtheseaswallowedme,andIsanktillIreachedthedeepfoundationsofmortaldeath。AndthereintheHallsofDeathIsatforagesuponages,tillatlastIsawyoucome,andonyourlipswasthewordofwisdomthatmakesallthingsclear,butwhatitwasIcannotremember。ThenIstretchedoutmyhandtogreetyou,andwoke,andthatisallmydream。”
Beatriceceased,hergreyeyessetwide,asthoughtheystillstrovetotracetheirspiritualvisionupontheairofearth,herbreastheaving,andherlipsapart。
“Greatheaven!“hesaid,“whatanimaginationyoumusthavetodreamsuchadreamasthat。”
“Imagination。”sheanswered,returningtohernaturalmanner。“Ihavenone,Mr。Bingham。Iusedtohave,butIlostitwhenIlost——
everythingelse。Canyouinterpretmydream?Ofcourseyoucannot;itisnothingbutnonsense——suchstuffasdreamsaremadeof,thatisall。”
“Itmaybenonsense,Idaresayitis,butitisbeautifulnonsense。”
heanswered。“Iwishladieshadmoreofsuchstufftogivetheworld。”
“Ah,well,dreamsmaybewiserthanwakings,andnonsensethanlearnedtalk,forallweknow。Butthere’sanendofit。IdonotknowwhyI
repeatedittoyou。IamsorrythatIdidrepeatit,butitseemedsorealitshookmeoutofmyself。Thisiswhatcomesofbreakinginupontheroutineoflifebybeingthreepartsdrowned。Onefindsqueerthingsatthebottomofthesea,youknow。BythewayIhopethatyouarerecovering。Idonotthinkthatyouwillcaretogocanoeingagainwithme,Mr。Bingham。”
Therewasanopeningforacomplimenthere,butGeoffreyfeltthatitwouldbetoomuchinearnestifspoken,soheresistedthetemptation。
“What,MissGranger。”hesaid,“shouldamansaytoaladywhobutlastnightsavedhislife,attherisk,indeedalmostatthecost,ofherown?”
“Itwasnothing。”sheanswered,colouring;“Iclungtoyou,thatwasall,morebyinstinctthanfromanymotive。IthinkIhadavagueideathatyoumightfloatandsupportme。”
“MissGranger,theoccasionistooseriousforpolitefibs。Iknowhowyousavedmylife。Idonotknowhowtothankyouforit。”
“Thendon’tthankmeatall,Mr。Bingham。Whyshouldyouthankme?I
onlydidwhatIwasboundtodo。Iwouldfarratherdiethandesertacompanionindistress,ofanysort;weallmustdie,butitwouldbedreadfultodieashamed。Youknowwhattheysay,thatifyousaveapersonfromdrowningyouwilldothemaninjuryafterwards。Thatishowtheyputithere;insomepartsthesayingistheotherwayabout,butIamnotlikelyevertodoyouaninjury,soitdoesnotmakemeunhappy。Itwasanawfulexperience:youweresenseless,soyoucannotknowhowstrangeitfeltlyingupontheslipperyrock,andseeingthosegreatwhitewavesrushuponusthroughthegloom,withnothingbutthenightabove,andtheseaaround,anddeathbetweenthetwo。I
havebeenlonelyformanyyears,butIdonotthinkthatIeverquiteunderstoodwhatlonelinessreallymeantbefore。Yousee。”sheaddedbywayofanafterthought,“Ithoughtthatyouweredead,andthereisnotmuchcompanyinacorpse。”
“Well。”hesaid,“onethingis,itwouldhavebeenlonelierifwehadgone。”
“Doyouthinkso?”sheanswered,lookingathiminquiringly。“Idon’tquiteseehowyoumakethatout。Ifyoubelieveinwhatwehavebeentaught,asIthinkyoudo,whereveritwasyoufoundyourselftherewouldbeplentyofcompany,andif,likeme,youdonotbelieveinanything,why,then,youwouldhaveslept,andsleepasksfornothing。”
“Didyoubelieveinnothingwhenyoulayupontherockwaitingtobedrowned,MissGranger?”
“Nothing!“sheanswered;“onlyweakpeoplefindrevelationintheextremitiesoffear。Ifrevelationcomesatall,surelyitmustbebornintheheartandnotinthesenses。Ibelievedinnothing,andI
dreadednothing,excepttheagonyofdeath。WhyshouldIbeafraid?
SupposingthatIammistaken,andthereissomethingbeyond,isitmyfaultthatIcannotbelieve?WhathaveIdonethatIshouldbeafraid?
IhaveneverharmedanybodythatIknowof,andifIcouldbelieveI
would。IwishIhaddied。”shewenton,passionately;“itwouldbeallovernow。Iamtiredoftheworld,tiredofworkandhelplessness,andallthelittleworrieswhichwearoneout。Iamnotwantedhere,I
havenothingtolivefor,andIwishthatIhaddied!“
“Somedayyouwillthinkdifferently,MissGranger。Therearemanythingsthatawomanlikeyourselfcanlivefor——attheleast,thereisyourwork。”
Shelaugheddrearily。“Mywork!Ifyouonlyknewwhatitislikeyouwouldnottalktomeaboutit。EverydayIrollmystoneupthehill,andeverynightitseemstorolldownagain。Butyouhavenevertaughtinavillageschool。Howcanyouknow?Iworkallday,andintheeveningperhapsIhavetomendthetablecloths,or——whatdoyouthink?——
writemyfather’ssermons。Itsoundscurious,doesitnot,thatI
shouldwritesermons?ButIdo。IwrotetheoneheisgoingtopreachnextSunday。Itmakesverylittledifferencetohimwhatitissolongashecanreadit,and,ofcourse,Ineversayanythingwhichcanoffendanybody,andIdonotthinkthattheylistenmuch。VeryfewpeoplegotochurchinBryngelly。”
“Don’tyouevergetanytimetoyourself,then?”
“Oh,yes,sometimesIdo,andthenIgooutinmycanoe,orread,andamalmosthappy。Afterall,Mr。Bingham,itisverywrongandungratefulofmetospeaklikethis。Ihavemoreadvantagesthannine-
tenthsoftheworld,andIoughttomakethebestofthem。Idon’tknowwhyIhavebeenspeakingasIhave,andtoyou,whomIneversawtillyesterday。Ineverdiditbeforetoanylivingsoul,Iassureyou。Itisjustlikethestoryofthemanwhocameherelastyearwiththediviningrod。Thereisacottagedownonthecliff——itbelongstoMr。Davies,wholivesintheCastle。Well,theyhavenodrinkingwaternear,andthenewtenantmadeagreatfussaboutit。SoMr。Davieshiredmen,andtheyduganddugandspentnoendofmoney,butcouldnotcometowater。Atlastthetenantfetchedanoldmanfromsomeparishalongwayoff,whosaidthathecouldfindspringswithadiviningrod。Hewasacuriousoldmanwithacrutch,andhecamewithhisrod,andhobbledabouttillatlasttherodtwitchedjustatthetenant’sbackdoor——atleastthedivinersaiditdid。Atanyrate,theydugthere,andintenminutesstruckaspringofwater,whichbubbledupsostronglythatitrushedintothehouseandfloodedit。
Andwhatdoyouthink?Afterall,thewaterwasbrackish。Youarethemanwiththediviningrod,Mr。Bingham,andyouhavemademetalkagreatdealtoomuch,and,afterall,youseeitisnotnicetalk。Youmustthinkmeaverydisagreeableandwickedyoungwoman,andI
daresayIam。Butsomehowitisarelieftoopenone’smind。Idohope,Mr。Bingham,thatyouwillsee——inshort,thatyouwillnotmisunderstandme。”
“MissGranger。”heanswered,“thereisbetweenusthatwhichwillalwaysentitleustomutualrespectandconfidence——thelinkoflifeanddeath。Haditnotbeenforyou,Ishouldnotsitheretolistentoyourconfidenceto-day。Youmaytellmethatamerenaturalimpulsepromptedyoutodowhatyoudid。Iknowbetter。Itwasyourwillthattriumphedoveryournaturalimpulsetowardsself-preservation。Well,I
willsaynomoreaboutit,exceptthis:Ifeveramanwasboundtoawomanbytiesofgratitudeandrespect,Iamboundtoyou。YouneednotfearthatIshalltakeadvantageoformisinterpretyourconfidence。”Hereheroseandstoodbeforeher,hisdarkhandsomefacebowedinproudhumility。“MissGranger,IlookuponitasanhonourdonetomebyonewhomhenceforthImustreverenceamongallwomen。
Thelifeyougavebacktome,andtheintelligencewhichdirectsit,areindutyboundtoyou,andIshallnotforgetthedebt。”
Beatricelistenedtohiswords,spokeninthatdeepandearnestvoice,whichinafteryearsbecamesofamiliartoHerMajesty’sjudgesandtoParliament——listenedwithanewsenseofpleasurerisinginherheart。
Shewasthisman’sequal;whathecoulddare,shecoulddare;wherehecouldclimb,shecouldfollow——ay,andifneedbe,showthepath,andshefeltthatheacknowledgedit。Inhissightshewassomethingmorethanahandsomegirltobeadmiredanddeferredtoforherbeauty’ssake。Hehadplacedheronanotherlevel——one,perhaps,thatfewwomenwouldhavewishedtooccupy。ButBeatricewasthankfultohim。Itwasthefirsttasteofsupremacythatshehadeverknown。
ItissomethingtostirtheproudheartofsuchawomanasBeatrice,inthatmomentwhenforthefirsttimeshefeelsherselfaconqueror,victorious,notthroughthevulgaradvantageofhersex,notbythesubmissionofman’scoarsersense,butratherbytheoverbalancingweightofmind。
“Doyouknow。”shesaid,suddenlylookingup,“youmakemeveryproud。”andshestretchedoutherhandtohim。
Hetookit,and,bending,toucheditwithhislips。Therewasnopossibilityofmisinterpretingtheaction,andthoughshecolouredalittle——for,tillthen,nomanhadevenkissedthetipofherfinger——
shedidnotmisinterpretit。Itwasanactofhomage,andthatwasall。
Andsotheysealedthecompactoftheirperfectfriendshipforeverandaday。
Thencameamoment’ssilence。ItwasGeoffreywhobrokeit。
“MissGranger。”hesaid,“willyouallowmetopreachyoualecture,averyshortone?”
“Goon。”shesaid。
“Verywell。Donotblamemeifyoudon’tlikeit,anddonotsetmedownasaprig,thoughIamgoingtotellyouyourfaultsasIreadtheminyourownwords。Youareproudandambitious,andthecrampedlinesinwhichyouareforcedtoliveseemtostrangleyou。Youhavesuffered,andhavenotlearnedthelessonofsuffering——humility。YouhavesetyourselfupagainstFate,andFatesweepsyoualonglikesprayuponthegale,yetyougounwilling。Inyourimpatienceyouhaveflowntolearningforrefuge,andithascompletedyouroverthrow,forithasinducedyoutorejectasnon-existentallthatyoucannotunderstand。Becauseyourfinitemindcannotsearchinfinity,becausenoanswerhascometoallyourprayers,becauseyouseemiseryandcannotreaditspurpose,becauseyousufferandhavenotfoundrest,youhavesaidthereisnaughtbutchance,andbecomeanatheist,asmanyhavedonebeforeyou。Isitnottrue?”
“Goon。”sheanswered,bowingherheadtoherbreastsothatthelongripplinghairalmosthidherface。
“Itseemsalittleodd。”Geoffreysaidwithashortlaugh,“thatI,withallmyimperfectionsheapeduponme,shouldpresumetopreachtoyou——butyouwillknowbesthownearorhowfarIamfromthetruth。
SoIwanttosaysomething。Ihavelivedforthirty-fiveyears,andseenagooddealandtriedtolearnfromit,andIknowthis。Inthelongrun,unlessweofourownactputawaytheopportunity,theworldgivesusourdue,whichgenerallyisnotmuch。Somuchforthingstemporal。Ifyouarefittorule,intimeyouwillrule;ifyoudonot,thenbecontentandacknowledgeyourownincapacity。Andasforthingsspiritual,Iamsureofthis——thoughofcourseonedoesnotliketotalkmuchofthesematters——ifyouonlyseekforthemlongenoughinsomeshapeyouwillfindthem,thoughtheshapemaynotbethatwhichisgenerallyrecognisedbyanyparticularreligion。Buttobuildawalldeliberatelybetweenoneselfandtheunseen,andthencomplainthatthewayisbarred,issimplychildish。”
“Andwhatifone’swallisbuilt,Mr。Bingham?”
“Mostofushavedonesomethinginthatlineatdifferenttimes。”heanswered,“andfoundawayroundit。”
“Andifitstretchesfromhorizontohorizon,andishigherthantheclouds,whatthen?”
“Thenyoumustfindwingsandflyoverit。”
“Andwherecananyearthlywomanfindthosespiritualwings?”sheasked,andthensankherheadstilldeeperonherbreasttocoverherconfusion。Forsherememberedthatshehadheardofwanderersintheduskygrovesofhumanpassion,yes,evenM?nadwanderers,whohadsuddenlycomefacetofacewiththeirownsoul;andthatthecruelpathsofearthlylovemayyetleadthefeetwhichtreadthemtotheivorygatesofheaven。
Andrememberingthesebeautifulmyths,thoughshehadnoexperienceoflove,andknewlittleofitsways,Beatricegrewsuddenlysilent。NordidGeoffreygiveherananswer,thoughheneedscarcelyhavefearedtodoso。
Forweretheynotdiscussingapurelyabstractquestion?
CHAPTERX
LADYHONORIAMAKESARRANGEMENTS
Inanothermomentsomebodyenteredtheroom;itwasElizabeth。Shehadreturnedfromhertithecollectingexpedition——withthetithe。Thedoorofthesitting-roomwasstillajar,andGeoffreyhadhisbacktowardsit。SoithappenedthatnobodyheardElizabeth’srathercat-
likestep,andforsomesecondsshestoodinthedoorwaywithoutbeingperceived。Shestoodquitestill,takinginthewholesceneataglance。Shenoticedthathersisterheldherheaddown,sothatherhairshadowedher,andguessedthatshedidsoforsomereason——
probablybecauseshedidnotwishherfacetobeseen。Orwasittoshowoffherlovelyhair?Shenoticedalsothehalfshy,halfamused,andaltogetherinterestedexpressionuponGeoffrey’scountenance——shecouldseethatinthelittlegilt-edgedlooking-glasswhichhungoverthefire-place,nordidsheoverlookthegeneralairofembarrassmentthatpervadedthemboth。
Whenshecamein,ElizabethhadbeenthinkingofOwenDavies,andofwhatmighthavehappenedhadsheneverseenthetideoflifeflowbackintohersister’sveins。Shehaddreamedofitallnightandhadthoughtofitallday;evenintheexcitementofextractingthebacktithefromtherecalcitrantandrathercoarse-mindedWelshfarmer,withstrongviewsonthesubjectoftithe,ithadnotbeenentirelyforgotten。ThefarmerwasatenantofOwenDavies,andwhenhecalledhera“parsoninpetticoats,andwus。”andwenton,indelicatereferencetoherpowersofextractingcash,tolikenhertoa“two-
leggedcorkscrewonlyscrewier。”sheperhapsnotunnaturallyreflected,thatifever——/pace/Beatrice——certainthingsshouldcomeabout,shewouldrememberthatfarmer。ForElizabethwasblessedwithaverylongmemory,assomepeoplehadlearnttotheircost,andgenerally,soonerorlater,shepaidherdebtsinfull,notforgettingtheoverdueinterest。
Andnow,asshestoodinthedoorwayunseenandnotedthesematters,somethingoccurredtoherinconnectionwiththisdominatingidea,which,likeideasingeneral,hadmanysideissues。Atanyratealookofquickintelligenceshoneforamomentinherlighteyes,likeasicklysunbeamonafaintDecembermist;thenshemovedforward,andwhenshewasclosebehindGeoffrey,spokesuddenly。
“Whatareyouboththinkingabout?”shesaidinherclearthinvoice;
“youseemtohaveexhaustedyourconversation。”
Geoffreymadeanexclamationandfairlyjumpedfromhischair,afeatwhichinhisbruisedconditionreallyhurthimverymuch。Beatricetoostartedviolently;sherecoveredherselfalmostinstantly,however。
“Howquietlyyoumove,Elizabeth。”shesaid。
“Notmorequietlythanyousit,Beatrice。Ihavebeenwonderingwhenanybodywasgoingtosayanything,orifyouwerebothasleep。”
ForherpartBeatricespeculatedhowlonghersisterhadbeenintheroom。Theirconversationhadbeeninnocentenough,butitwasnotonethatshewouldwishElizabethtohaveoverheard。AndsomehowElizabethhadaknackofoverhearingthings。
“Yousee,MissGranger。”saidGeoffreycomingtotherescue,“bothourbrainsarestillratherwaterlogged,andthatdoesnottendtoaflowofideas。”
“Quiteso。”saidElizabeth。“MydearBeatrice,whydon’tyoutieupyourhair?YoulooklikeacrazyJane。Notbutwhatyouhaveverynicehair。”sheaddedcritically。“Doyouadmiregoodhair,Mr。Bingham。”
“OfcourseIdo。”heansweredgallantly,“butitisnotcommon。”
OnlyBeatricebitherlipwithvexation。“Ihadalmostforgottenaboutmyhair。”shesaid;“Imustapologiseforappearinginsuchastate。I
wouldhavedoneitupafterdinneronlyIwastoostiff,andwhileI
waswaitingforBetty,Iwenttosleep。”
“Ithinkthereisabitofribboninthatdrawer。Isawyouputitthereyesterday。”answeredthepreciseElizabeth。“Yes,hereitis。Ifyoulike,andMr。Binghamwillexcuseit,Icantieitbackforyou。”
andwithoutwaitingforananswershepassedbehindBeatrice,andgatheringupthedensemassesofhersister’slocks,tiedthemroundinsuchfashionthattheycouldnotfallforward,thoughtheystillrolleddownherback。
JustthenMr。Grangercamebackfromhisvisittothefarm。Hewasinhighgoodhumour。Thepighadevensurpassedherformerefforts,andincreasedinasurprisingmanner,tothenumberoffifteenindeed。
Elizabeththereonproducedthetwopoundsoddshillingswhichshehad“corkscrewed“outoftherecalcitrantdissentingfarmer,andthesightaddedtoMr。Granger’ssatisfaction。
“Wouldyoubelieveit,Mr。Bingham。”hesaid,“inthismiserablypaidparishIhavenearlyahundredpoundsowingtome,ahundredpoundsintithe。ThereisoldJoneswholivesouttowardstheBellRock,heowesthreeyears’tithe——thirty-fourpoundselevenandfourpence。Hecanpayandhewon’tpay——sayshe’saBaptistandisnotgoingtopayparson’sdues——thoughforthematterofthatheisnothingbutanoldbeertubofaheathen。”
“Whydon’tyouproceedagainsthim,then,Mr。Granger?”
“Proceed,Ihaveproceeded。I’vegotjudgment,andImeantoissueexecutioninafewdays。Iwon’tstanditanylonger。”hewenton,workinghimselfupandshakinghisheadashespoketillhisthinwhitehairfellabouthiseyes。“Iwillhavethelawofhimandtheotherstoo。Youarealawyerandyoucanhelpme。Itellyouthere’saspiritabroadwhichjustcomestojust——nomanisn’ttopayhislawfuldebts,exceptofcoursetheparsonandthesquire。Theymustpayorgotothecourt。Butthereislawleft,andI’llhaveit,beforetheyplaytheIrishgameonushere。”Andhebroughtdownhisfistwithabanguponthetable。
Geoffreylistenedwithsomeamusement。Sothiswastheweakoldman’ssorepoint——money。Hewasclearlyverystrongaboutthat——asstrongasLadyHonoriaindeed,butwithmoreexcuse。Elizabethalsolistenedwithevidentapproval,butBeatricelookedpained。
“Don’tgetangry,father。”shesaid;“perhapshewillpayafterall。
Itisbadtotakethelawifyoucanmanageanyotherway——itbreedssomuchillblood。”
“Nonsense,Beatrice。”saidhersistersharply。“Fatherisquiteright。
There’sonlyonewaytodealwiththem,andthatistoseizetheirgoods。Ibelieveyouaresocialistaboutproperty,asyouareabouteverythingelse。Youwanttopulleverythingdown,fromtheQueentothelawsofmarriage,allforthegoodofhumanity,andItellyouthatyourideaswillbeyourruin。Defycustomanditwillcrushyou。
Youarerunningyourheadagainstabrickwall,andonedayyouwillfindwhichistheharder。”
Beatriceflushed,butansweredhersister’sattack,whichwasallthesharperbecauseithadacertainspiceoftruthinit。
“Ineverexpressedanysuchviews,Elizabeth,soIdonotseewhyyoushouldattributethemtome。Ionlysaidthatlegalproceedingsbreedbadbloodinaparish,andthatistrue。”
“Ididnotsayyouexpressedthem。”wentonthevigorousElizabeth;
“youlookthem——theyoozeoutofyourwordslikewaterfromapeatbog。Everybodyknowsyouarearadicalandafreethinkerandeverythingelsethatisbadandmad,andcontrarytothatstateoflifeinwhichithaspleasedGodtocallyou。Theendofitwillbethatyouwilllosethemistresshipoftheschool——andIthinkitisveryhardonfatherandmethatyoushouldbringdisgraceonuswithyourstrangewaysandimmoralviews,andnowyoucanmakewhatyoulikeofit。”
“IwishthatallradicalswerelikeMissBeatrice。”saidGeoffrey,whowasfeelingexceedinglyuncomfortable,withafeebleattemptatpolitejocosity。Butnobodyseemedtohearhim。Elizabeth,whowasnowfairlyinarage,afaintflushuponherpalecheeks,herlighteyesallashine,andherthinfingersclasped,stoodfrontingherbeautifulsister,andbreathingspiteateverypore。ButitwaseasyforGeoffreywhowaswatchinghertoseethatitwasnothersister’sviewsshewasattacking;itwashersister。Itwasthatsoftstronglovelinessandthegloryofthatface;itwasthedeepgentlemind,erringfromitsverygreatness,andthebrightintellectwhichlititlikealamp;itwasthelearningandthepowerthat,givethemplay,wouldsetaworldaflame,aseasilyastheydidtheheartoftheslow-
wittedhermitsquire,whomElizabethcoveted——thesewerethethingsthatElizabethhated,andbitterlyassailed。
Accustomedtoobserve,Geoffreysawthisinstantly,andthenglancedatthefather。Theoldmanwasfrightened;clearlyhewasafraidofElizabeth,anddreadedascene。Hestoodfidgetinghisfeetabout,andtryingtofindsomethingtosay,asheglancedapprehensivelyathiselderdaughter,throughhisthinhanginghair。
Lastly,GeoffreylookedatBeatrice,whowasindeedwellworthlookingat。Herfacewasquitepaleandthecleargreyeyesshoneoutbeneaththeirdarklashes。Shehadrisen,drawingherselftoherfullheight,whichherexquisiteproportionsseemedtoincrease,andwaslookingathersister。Presentlyshesaidonewordandoneonly,butitwasenough。
“/Elizabeth。/“
Hersisteropenedherlipstospeakagain,buthesitated,andchangedhermind。TherewassomethinginBeatrice’smannerthatcheckedher。
“Well。”shesaidatlength,“youshouldnotirritatemeso,Beatrice。”
Beatricemadenoreply。SheonlyturnedtowardsGeoffrey,andwithagracefullittlebow,said:
“Mr。Bingham,Iamsurethatyouwillforgivethisscene。Thefactis,weallsleptbadlylastnight,andithasnotimprovedourtempers。”
Therewasapause,ofwhichMr。Grangertookahurriedandratherundignifiedadvantage。
“Um,ah。”hesaid。“Bytheway,Beatrice,whatwasitIwantedtosay?
Ah,Iknow——haveyouwritten,Imeanwrittenout,thatsermonfornextSunday?Mydaughter。”headded,addressingGeoffreyinexplanation——
“um,copiesmysermonsforme。Shewritesaverygoodhand——“
RememberingBeatrice’sconfidenceastohersermonmanufacturingfunctions,Geoffreyfeltamusedatherfather’s/na?ve/wayofdescribingthem,andBeatricealsosmiledfaintlyassheansweredthatthesermonwasready。Justthentherollofwheelswasheardwithout,andtheonlyflythatBryngellycouldboastpulledupinfrontofthedoor。
“Hereistheflycomeforyou,Mr。Bingham。”saidMr。Granger——“andasIlive,herladyshipwithit。Elizabeth,seeifthereisn’tsometeaready。”andtheoldgentleman,whohadallthetraditionalloveofthelowermiddle-classEnglishmanforatitle,trottedofftowelcome“herladyship。”
PresentlyLadyHonoriaenteredtheroom,asweet,ifratherasetsmileuponherhandsomeface,andwithagracefulmien,thatbecamehertallfigureexceedinglywell。FortodoLadyHonoriajustice,shewasoneofthemostladylikewomeninthecountry,andsofarasherpersonalappearancewent,averyperfecttypeoftheclasstowhichshebelonged。
Geoffreylookedather,sayingtohimselfthatshehadclearlyrecoveredhertemper,andthathewasthankfulforit。Thiswasnotwonderful,foritisobservablethatthemorearistocraticalady’smannersare,themoredisagreeablesheisapttobewhensheiscrossed。
“Well,Geoffreydear。”shesaid,“youseeIhavecometofetchyou。I
wasdeterminedthatyoushouldnotgetyourselfdrownedasecondtimeonyourwayhome。Howareyounow?——butIneednotask,youlookquitewellagain。”
“Itisverykindofyou,Honoria。”saidherhusbandsimply,butitwasdoubtfulifsheheardhim,foratthemomentshewasengagedinsearchingoutthesoulofBeatrice,withoneofthemostpenetratingandcomprehensiveglancesthatyoungladyhadeverenjoyedthehonourofreceiving。Therewasnothingrudeaboutthelook,itwastooquick,butBeatricefeltthatquickasitmightbeitembracedheraltogether。Norwasshewrong。
“Thereisnodoubtaboutit。”LadyHonoriathoughttoherself,“sheislovely——lovelyeverywhere。Itwascleverofhertoleaveherhairdown;itshowstheshapeofherheadsowell,andsheistallenoughtostandit。Thatbluewrappersuitshertoo。Veryfewwomencouldshowsuchafigureashers——likeaGreekstatue。Idon’tlikeher;sheisdifferentfrommostofus;justthesortofgirlmengowildaboutandwomenhate。”
Allthispassedthroughhermindinaflash。ForamomentLadyHonoria’sblueeyesmetBeatrice’sgreyones,andsheknewthatBeatricelikedhernobetterthanshedidBeatrice。Thoseeyeswereatrifletoohonest,and,likethedeepclearwatertheyresembled,apttothrowupshadowsofthepassingthoughtsabove。
“Falseandcoldandheartless。”thoughtBeatrice。“Iwonderhowamanlikethatcouldmarryher;andhowmuchhelovesher。”
Thusthetwowomentookeachother’smeasureataglance,eachfindingtheotherwantingbyherstandard。Nordidtheyeverchangethathastilyformedjudgment。
Itwasalldoneinafewseconds——inthathesitatingmomentbeforethewordswesummonansweronourlips。Thenext,LadyHonoriawassweepingtowardsherwithoutstretchedhand,andhermostgracioussmile。
“MissGranger。”shesaid,“IoweyouadebtInevercanrepay——mydearhusband’slife。Ihaveheardallabouthowyousavedhim;itisthemostwonderfulthing——GraceDarlingbornagain。Ican’tthinkhowyoucoulddoit。IwishIwerehalfasbraveandstrong。”
“Pleasedon’t,LadyHonoria。”saidBeatrice。“Iamsotiredofbeingthankedfordoingnothing,exceptwhatitwasmydutytodo。IfIhadletMr。BinghamgowhileIhadthestrengthtoholdontohimIshouldhavefeltlikeamurderessto-day。Ibegyoutosaynomoreaboutit。”
“Onedoesnotoftenfindsuchmodestyunitedtosomuchcourage,and,ifyouwillallowmetosayit,somuchbeauty。”answeredLadyHonoriagraciously。“Well,Iwilldoasyouwish,butIwarnyouyourfamewillfindyouout。Iheartheyhaveanaccountofthewholeadventureinto-day’spapers,headed,’AWelshHeroine。’“
“Howdidyouhearthat,Honoria?”askedherhusband。
“Oh,IhadatelegramfromGarsington,andhementionsit。”sheansweredcarelessly。
“TelegramfromGarsington!Hencethesesmiles。”thoughthe。“Isupposethatsheisgoingto-morrow。”
“Ihavesomeothernewsforyou,MissGranger。”wentonLadyHonoria。
“Yourcanoehasbeenwashedashore,verylittleinjured。Theoldboatman——Edward,Ithinktheycallhim——hasfoundit;andyourguninittoo,Geoffrey。Ithadstuckundertheseatorsomewhere。ButI
fancythatyoumustbothhavehadenoughcanoeingforthepresent。”
“Idon’tknow,LadyHonoria。”answeredBeatrice。“Onedoesnotoftengetsuchweatheraslastnight’s,andcanoeingisverypleasant。Everysweethasitssalt,youknow;or,inotherwords,onemayalwaysbeupset。”
Atthatmoment,Betty,theawkwardWelshservinglass,withafore-armaboutasshapelyasthehindlegofanelephant,andamostunpleasinghabitofsnortingaudiblyasshemoved,shuffledinwiththetea-tray。
InherwakecametheslimElizabeth,towhomLadyHonoriawasintroduced。
Afterthis,conversationflaggedforawhile,tillLadyHonoria,feelingthatthingsweregettingalittledull,settheballrollingagain。
“Whataprettyviewyouhaveoftheseafromthesewindows。”shesaidinherwell-trainedandmonotonouslymodulatedvoice。“Iamsogladtohaveseenit,for,youknow,Iamgoingawayto-morrow。”
Beatricelookedupquickly。
“Myhusbandisnotgoing。”shewenton,asthoughinanswertoanunspokenquestion。“Iamplayingthepartoftheundutifulwifeandrunningawayfromhim,forexactlythreeweeks。Itisverywickedofme,isn’tit?butIhaveanengagementthatImustkeep。Itismosttiresome。”
Geoffrey,sippinghistea,smiledgrimlybehindtheshelterofhiscup。“Shedoesituncommonlywell。”hethoughttohimself。
“Doesyourlittlegirlgowithyou,LadyHonoria?”askedElizabeth。
“Well,no,Ithinknot。Ican’tbearpartingwithher——youknowhowharditiswhenonehasonlyonechild。ButIthinkshewouldbesoboredwhereIamgoingtostay,fortherearenootherchildrenthere;
andbesides,shepositivelyadoresthesea。SoIshallhavetoleavehertoherfather’stendermercies,poordear。”
“IhopeEffiewillsurviveit,Iamsure。”saidGeoffreylaughing。
“IsupposethatyourhusbandisgoingtostayonatMrs。Jones’s。”
saidtheclergyman。
“Really,Idon’tknow。What/are/yougoingtodo,Geoffrey?Mrs。
Jones’sroomsareratherexpensiveforpeopleinourimpoverishedcondition。Besides,IamsurethatshecannotlookafterEffie。Justthink,shehaseightchildrenofherown,poorolddear。AndImusttakeAnnewithme;sheisEffie’sFrenchnurse,youknow,aperfecttreasure。Iamgoingtostayinabighouse,andmyexperienceofthosebighousesis,thatonenevergetswaitedonatallunlessonetakesamaid。Yousee,whatiseverybody’sbusinessisnobody’sbusiness。I’msureIdon’tknowhowyouwillgetonwiththechild,Geoffrey;shetakessuchalotoflookingafter。”
“Oh,don’ttroubleaboutthat,Honoria。”heanswered。“IdaresaythatEffieandIwillmanagesomehow。”
HereoneofthosepeculiargleamsofintelligencewhichmarkedtheadventofanewideapassedacrossElizabeth’sface。Shewassittingnextherfather,andbending,whisperedtohim。Beatricesawitandmadeamotionasthoughtointerpose,butbeforeshecoulddosoMr。
Grangerspoke。
“Lookhere,Mr。Bingham。”hesaid,“ifyouwanttomove,wouldyoulikearoomhere?Termsstrictlymoderate,butcan’taffordtoputyouupfornothingyouknow,andlivingroughandready。You’dhavetotakeusasyoufindus;butthereisadressing-roomnexttomyroom,whereyourlittlegirlcouldsleep,andmydaughterswouldlookafterherbetweenthem,andbegladofthejob。”
AgainBeatriceopenedherlipsasthoughtospeak,butclosedthemwithoutspeaking。Thusdoouropportunitiespassbeforewerealisethattheyareathand。
InstinctivelyGeoffreyhadglancedtowardsBeatrice。Hedidnotknowifthisideawasagreeabletoher。Heknewthatherworkwashard,andhedidnotwishtoputextratroubleuponher,forheguessedthattheburdenoflookingafterEffiewouldultimatelyfalluponhershoulders。Butherfacetoldhimnothing:itwasquitepassiveandapparentlyindifferent。
“Youareverykind,Mr。Granger。”hesaid,hesitating。“Idon’twanttogoawayfromBryngellyjustatpresent,anditwouldbeagoodplaninsomeways,thatisifthetroubletoyourdaughterswouldnotbetoomuch。”
“Iamsurethatitisanexcellentplan。”brokeinLadyHonoria,whofearedlestdifficultiesshouldariseastoherappropriationofAnne’sservices;“howluckythatIhappenedtomentionit。TherewillbenotroubleaboutourgivinguptheroomsatMrs。Jones’s,becauseI
knowshehasanotherapplicationforthem。”
“Verywell。”saidGeoffrey,notlikingtoraiseobjectionstoaschemethuspubliclyadvocated,althoughhewouldhavepreferredtotaketimetoconsider。SomethingwarnedhimthatBryngellyVicaragewouldproveafatefulabodeforhim。ThenElizabethroseandaskedLadyHonoriaifshewouldliketoseetheroomsherhusbandandEffiewouldoccupy。
Shesaidsheshouldbedelightedandwentoff,followedbyMr。Grangerfussingintherear。
“Don’tyouthinkthatyouwillbealittledullhere,Mr。Bingham?”
saidBeatrice。
“Onthecontrary。”heanswered。“WhyshouldIbedull?IcannotbesodullasIshouldbebymyself。”
Beatricehesitated,andthenspokeagain。“Weareacuriousfamily,Mr。Bingham;youmayhaveseenasmuchthisafternoon。Hadyounotbetterthinkitover?”
“Ifyoumeanthatyoudonotwantmetocome,Iwon’t。”hesaidratherbluntly,andnextsecondfeltthathehadmadeamistake。
“I!“Beatriceanswered,openinghereyes。“Ihavenowishesinthematter。Thefactisthatwearepoor,andletlodgings——thatiswhatitcomesto。Ifyouthinktheywillsuityou,youarequiterighttotakethem。”
Geoffreycoloured。Hewasamanwhocouldnotbeartolayhimselfopentothesmallestrebufffromawoman,andhehadbroughtthisonhimself。Beatricesawitandrelented。
“Ofcourse,Mr。Bingham,sofarasIamconcerned,Ishallbethegainerifyoudocome。IdonotmeetsomanypeoplewithwhomIcaretoassociate,andfromwhomIcanlearn,thatIwishtothrowachanceaway。”
“Ithinkyoumisunderstandmealittle。”hesaid;“IonlymeantthatperhapsyouwouldnotwishtobebotheredwithEffie,MissGranger。”
Shelaughed。“Why,Ilovechildren。ItwillbeagreatpleasuretometolookafterhersofarasIhavetime。”
Justthentheothersreturned,andtheirconversationcametoanend。
“It’squitedelightful,Geoffrey——suchfunnyold-fashionedrooms。I
reallyenvyyou。”IftherewasonethingintheworldthatLadyHonoriahated,itwasanold-fashionedroom。“Well,andnowwemustbegoing。Oh!youpoorcreature,Iforgotthatyouweresoknockedabout。IamsureMr。Grangerwillgiveyouhisarm。”
Mr。Grangerambledforward,andGeoffreyhavingmadehisadieus,andborrowedaclericalhatMr。Granger’sconcessiontocustom,forinmostotherrespectshedressedlikeanordinaryfarmer,wassafelyconveyedtothefly。
AndsoendedGeoffrey’sfirstdayatBryngellyVicarage。
CHAPTERXI
BEATRICEMAKESANAPPOINTMENT
LadyHonorialeanedbackinthecab,andsighedasighofsatisfaction。
“Thatisacapitalidea。”shesaid。“Iwaswonderingwhatarrangementsyoucouldmakeforthenextthreeweeks。ItisridiculoustopaythreeguineasaweekforroomsjustforyouandEffie。Theoldgentlemanonlywantsthatforboardandlodgingtogether,forIaskedhim。”
“Idaresayitwilldo。”saidGeoffrey。“Whenarewetoshift?”
“To-morrow,intimefordinner,orrathersupper:thesebarbarianseatsupper,youknow。Igobythemorningtrain,yousee,soastoreachGarsingtonbytea-time。Idaresayyouwillfinditratherdull,butyoulikebeingdull。Theoldclergymanisalowstampofman,andabore,andasfortheeldestdaughter,Elizabeth,she’stooawful——sheremindsmeofarat。ButBeatriceishandsomeenough,thoughIthinkherhorridtoo。You’llhavetoconsoleyourselfwithher,andI
daresayyouwillsuiteachother。”
“Whydoyouthinkherhorrid,Honoria?”
“Oh,Idon’tknow;sheiscleverandodd,andIhateoddwomen。Whycan’ttheybelikeotherpeople?Thinkofherbeingstrongenoughtosaveyourlifelikethattoo。ShemusthavethemuscleofanAmazon——
it’sdownrightunwomanly。Butthereisnodoubtaboutherbeauty。SheisasnearlyperfectasanygirlIeversaw,thoughtooindependentlooking。Ifonlyonehadadaughterlikethat,howonemightmarryher。Iwouldnotlookatanythingundertwentythousandayear。SheistoogoodforthatlumberingWelshsquireshe’sengagedtoo——themanwholivesintheCastle——thoughtheysaythatheisfairlyrich。”
“Engaged。”saidGeoffrey,“howdoyouknowthatsheisengaged?”
“Oh,Idon’tknowitatall,butIsupposesheis。Ifsheisn’t,shesoonwillbe,foragirlinthatpositionisnotlikelytothrowsuchachanceaway。Atanyrate,he’sheadoverearsinlovewithher。I
sawthatlastnight。Hewashangingaboutforhoursintherain,outsidethedoor,withafacelikeaghost,tillheknewwhethershewasdeadoralive,andhehasbeentheretwicetoinquirethismorning。Mr。Grangertoldme。Butsheistoogoodforhimfromabusinesspointofview。Shemightmarryanybody,ifonlyshewereputinthewayofit。”
Somehow,Geoffrey’slivelyinterestinBeatricesensiblydeclinedonthereceiptofthisintelligence。Ofcourseitwasnothingtohim;
indeedhewasgladtohearthatshewasinthewayofsuchacomfortablesettlement,butitisunfortunatelyafactthatonecannotbequiteasmuchinterestedinayoungandlovelyladywhoisthepotentialpropertyofa“lumberingWelshsquire。”asinonewhobelongstoherself。
TheoldAdamstillsurvivesinmostmen,howeverright-thinkingtheymaybe,andthisisoneofitsmethodsofself-assertion。
“Well。”hesaid,“Iamgladtohearsheisinsuchagoodway;shedeservesit。IthinktheWelshsquireisinluck;MissGrangerisaremarkablewoman。”
“Tooremarkablebyhalf。”saidLadyHonoriadrily。“Hereweare,andthereisEffie,skippingaboutlikeawildthingasusual。Ithinkthatchildisdemented。”
Onthefollowingmorning——itwasFriday——LadyHonoria,accompaniedbyAnne,departedintheverybestoftempers。Forthenextthreeweeks,atanyrate,shewouldbefreefromthegallingassociationsofstraightenedmeans——freetoenjoytheluxuryandrefinedcomforttowhichshehadbeenaccustomed,andforwhichhersoulyearnedwithafiercelongingthatwouldbeincomprehensibletofolkofasimplermind。EverybodyhashisorheridealHeaven,ifonlyonecouldfathomit。Somewouldchooseasublimatedintellectualleisure,madehappybythebestliteratureofalltheplanets;someamodelstatewiththemselvesaspresidents,inwhichthroughtheirbeneficentefforts
thelatestradicalnotionscouldactuallybepersuadedtoworktoeverybody’ssatisfaction;othersahappyhuntingground,wherethegameenjoyedthefunasmuchastheydid;andsoon,/adinfinitum/。
LadyHonoriawasevenmoremodest。Giveherawellappointedtownandcountryhouse,afewpowderedfootmen,plentyofcarriages,andotherneedfulthings,includingofcoursethe/entrée/totheuppercelestialten,andshewouldasknomorefromagetoage。Letushopethatshewillgetitoneday。Itwouldhurtnobody,andsheissuretofindplentyofpeopleofherownwayofthinking——thatis,ifthisworldsuppliestherawmaterial。
SheembracedEffiewithenthusiasm,andherhusbandwithachastenedwarmth,andwent,apiousprayeronherlipsthatshemightneveragainseteyesuponBryngelly。
ItwillnotbenecessaryforustofollowLadyHonoriainhertravels。
ThatafternoonEffieandherfatherhadgreatfun。Theypackedup。
Geoffrey,whowasrapidlyrecoveringfromhisstiffness,pushedthethingsintotheportmanteausandEffiejumpedonthem。Thosewhichwouldnotgointheybundledlooseintothefly,tillthatvehiclelookedlikeanoldclothesship。Then,astherewasnoroomleftfortheminside,theywalkeddowntotheVicaragebythebeach,adistanceofaboutthree-quartersofamile,stoppingontheirwaytoadmirethebeautifulcastle,inonecornerofwhichOwenDavieslivedandmoved。
“Oh,daddy。”saidthechild,“Iwishyouwouldbuyahouselikethatforyouandmetolivein。Whydon’tyou,daddy?”
“Haven’tgotthemoney,dear。”heanswered。
“Willyoueverhavethemoney,daddy?”
“Idon’tknow,dear,perhapsoneday——whenIamtoooldtoenjoyit。”
headdedtohimself。
“Itwouldtakeagreatmanypenniestobuyahouselikethat,wouldn’tit,daddy?”saidEffiesagely。
“Yes,dear,morethanyoucouldcount。”heanswered,andtheconversationdropped。
Presentlytheycametoaboat-shed,placedoppositethevillageandclosetohigh-watermark。Hereaman,itwasoldEdward,wasengagedinmendingacanoe。Geoffreyglancedatitandsawthatitwastheidenticalcanoeoutofwhichhehadsonearlybeendrowned。
“Look,Effie。”saidhe,“thatistheboatoutofwhichIwasupset。”
Effieopenedherwideeyes,andstaredatthefrailcraft。
“Itisahorridboat。”shesaid;“Idon’twanttolookatit。”
“You’requiteright,littlemiss。”saidoldEdward,touchinghiscap。
“Itain’tsafe,andsomebodywillbedrownedoutofitoneofthesedays。Iwishithadgonetothebottom,Ido;butMissBeatrice,sheisthatfoolhardythereain’tnodoingnothingwithher。”
“Ifancythatshehaslearntalesson。”saidGeoffrey。
“Maybe,maybe。”grumbledtheoldman,“butwomenfolkarehardtoteach;theyneverlearnnothingtillit’stoolate,theydon’t,andthenwhenthey’vebeenanddoneitthey’resorry,butwhat’sthegoodo’that?”
Meanwhileanotherconversationwasinprogressnotmorethanaquarterofamileaway。OnthebrowofthecliffstoodthevillageofBryngelly,andatthebackofthevillagewasaschool,aplainwhite-
washedbuilding,roofedwithstone,which,thoughamplysufficientandsuitabletothewantsoftheplace,waslittleshortofanabominationintheeyesofHerMajesty’sschoolinspectors,whofromtimetotimedescendeduponBryngellyforpurposesofexaminationandfault-
finding。Theyyearnedtoseeastatelyred-brickedifice,withallthelatestimprovements,erectedattheexpenseoftherate-payers,butasyettheyyearnedinvain。Theschoolwassupportedbyvoluntarycontributions,andthankstoBeatrice’senergyandgoodteaching,thedreadedBoard,withitsfadsandextravagance,hadnotyetclutchedit。
Beatricehadreturnedtoherdutiesthatafternoon,foranight’srestbroughtbackitsvigourtoherstrongyoungframe。Shehadbeengreetedwithenthusiasmbythechildren,wholovedher,aswelltheymight,forshewasverygentleandsweetwiththem,thoughfewdaredtodisobeyher。Besides,herbeautyimpressedthem,thoughtheydidnotknowit。Beautyofacertainsorthasperhapsmoreeffectonchildrenthanonanyotherclass,heedlessandselfishastheyoftenseemtobe。Theyfeelitspower;itisanoutwardexpressionofthethoughtsanddreamsthatbudintheirunknowinghearts,andissomehowmixedupwiththeirideasofGodandHeaven。ThustherewasinBryngellyalittlegirloften,averycleverandhighlyexcitablechild,JaneLlewellynbyname,bornofparentsofstrictCalvinisticviews。Asitchanced,somemonthsbeforetheopeningofthisstory,atubthumper,ofhighrenownandconsiderablerudeoratoricalforce,visitedtheplace,andtreatedhishearerstoalivelydiscourseonthehorrorsofHell。
Intheveryfrontrow,hereyeswidewithfear,satthispoorlittlechildbetweenherparents,wholistenedtotheMinisterwithmuchsatisfaction,andalittlewaybacksatBeatrice,whohadcomeoutofcuriosity。