Beatricewalkeduptoher,tookthethinlittlehandsinhers,andlookedherfixedlyintheeyes。
“Jane。”shesaid。“Jane,don’tyouknowme?”
“Yes,MissGranger。”shesaid,“Iknowthelesson;Iwillsayitpresently。”
Beatricetookherinherarms,andsatdownonthebed。Quieterandquietergrewthechildtillsuddenlyanawfulchangepassedoverherface。
“Sheisdying。”whisperedthedoctor。
“Holdmeclose,holdmeclose!“saidthechild,whosesensesreturnedbeforethelasteclipse。“Oh,MissGranger,Ishan’tgotohell,shallI?Iamafraidofhell。”
“No,love,no;youwillgotoheaven。”
Janelaystillawhile。Thenseeingthepalelipsmove,Beatriceputhereartothechild’smouth。
“Willyoucomewithme?”shemurmured;“Iamafraidtogoalone。”
AndBeatrice,hergreatgreyeyesfixedsteadilyontheclosingeyesbeneath,whisperedbacksothatnoothersoulcouldhearexceptthedyingchild:
“Yes,Iwillcomepresently。”ButJaneheardandunderstood。
“Promise。”saidthechild。
“Yes,Ipromise。”answeredBeatriceinthesameinaudiblewhisper。
“Sleep,dear,sleep;Iwilljoinyouverysoon。”
Andthechildlookedup,shivered,smiled——andslept。
Beatricegaveitbacktotheweepingparentsandwentherway。“Whatasplendidcreature。”saidthedoctortohimselfashelookedafterher。
“ShehaseyeslikeFate,andthefaceofMotherhoodIncarnate。Agreatwoman,ifeverIsawone,butdifferentfromotherwomen。”
MeanwhileBeatricemadeherwaytooldEdward’sboat-shed。Assheexpected,therewasnobodythere,andnobodyonthebeach。OldEdwardandhissonwereattea,withtherestofBryngelly。Theywouldcomebackafterdarkandlockuptheboat-house。
Shelookedatthesea。Therewerenowaves,butthebreezefreshenedeveryminute,andtherewasalongslowswelluponthewater。TherollerswouldberunningbeyondtheshelterofRumballPoint,fivemilesaway。
Thetidewashigh;itmountedtowithintenyardsoftheendoftheboat-house。Sheopenedthedoor,anddraggedouthercanoe,closingthedooragainafterher。Thecraftwaslight,andshewasstrongforawoman。Closetotheboat-houseoneofthetimberbreakwaters,whicharecommonatsea-sideplaces,randownintothewater。Shedraggedthecanoetoitsside,andthenpusheditdownthebeachtillitsbowwasafloat。Next,mountingonthebreakwater,shecaughtholdofthelittlechaininthebow,andwalkingalongthetimberbaulks,pulledwithallherforcetillthecanoewasquiteafloat。Onshewent,draggingitafterher,tillthewaveswashingoverthebreakwaterwettedhershoes。
Thenshebroughtthecanoequiteclose,and,watchingheropportunity,steppedintoit,nearlyfallingintothewaterasshedidso。Butsherecoveredherbalance,andsatdown。Inanotherminuteshewaspaddlingouttoseawithallherstrength。
Fortwentyminutesormoreshepaddledunceasingly。Thensherestedawhile,onlykeepingthecanoeheadontothesea,which,withoutbeingrough,wasrunningmoreandmorefreshly。There,somemilesaway,wasthedarkmassofRumballPoint。Shemustbeoffitbeforethenightclosedin。Therewouldbeseaenoughthere;nosuchcraftasherscouldliveinitforfiveminutes,andthetidewasontheturn。
Anythingsinkinginthosewaterswouldbecarriedfaraway,andnevercomebacktotheshoreofWales。
SheturnedherheadandlookedatBryngelly,andthelongfamiliarstretchofcliff。Howfairitseemed,bathedinthequietlightsofsummerafternoon。Oh!wasthereanyafternoonwherethechildhadgone,andwhereshewasfollowingfast?——orwasitallnight,black,eternalnight,unbrokenbythedramofdearrememberedthings?
ThereweretheDogRocks,whereshehadstoodonthatmistyautumnday,andseenthevisionofhercoffinedmother’sface。Surelyitwasapresageofherfate。TherebeyondwastheBellRock,whereinthatsamehourGeoffreyandshehadmet,andbehinditwastheAmphitheatre,wheretheyhadtoldtheirlove。Hark!whatwasthatsoundpealingfaintlyatintervalsacrossthedeep?Itwasthegreatship’sbellthat,stirredfromtimetotimebythewashofthehightide,solemnlytolledherpassingsoul。
Shepaddledon;thesoundofthatdeath-knellshookhernerves,andmadeherfeelfaintandweak。Oh,itwouldhavebeeneasierhadshebeenasshewasayearago,beforeshelearnedtolove,andhandinhandhadseenfaithandhopere-arisefromthedepthsofherstirredsoul。Thenbeingbutaheathen,shecouldhavemetherendwithallaheathen’sstrength,knowingwhatshelost,andbelieving,too,thatshewouldfindbutsleep。Andnowitwasotherwise,forinherheartshedidnotbelievethatshewasaboututterlytoperish。What,couldthebodyliveoninathousandforms,changedindeedbutindestructibleandimmortal,whilethespiritualpart,withallitshopesandlovesandfears,meltedintonothingness?Itcouldnotbe;
surelyonsomenewshoresheshouldonceagaingreetherlove。Andifitwasnot,howwouldtheymeetherinthatunderworld,comingself-
murdered,herlife-bloodonherhands?Wouldhermotherturnawayfromher?andthelittlebrother,whomshehadloved,wouldherejecther?
AndwhatVoiceofDoommightstrikeherintoeverlastinghopelessness?
But,bethesinwhatitmight,yetwouldshesinitforthesakeofGeoffrey;ay,evenifshemustreapaharvestofeternalwoe。Shebentherheadandprayed。“Oh,Power,thatartabove,fromwhomIcome,towhomIgo,havemercyonme!Oh,Spirit,ifindeedthynameisLove,weighmyloveinthybalance,andletitliftthescaleofsin。Oh,GodofSacrifice,benotwrothatmydeedofsacrificeandgivemepardon,givemelifeandpeace,thatinatimetocomeImaywinthesightofhimforwhomIdie。”
Asomewhatheathenishprayerindeed,andfartoofullofhumanpassionforoneabouttoleavethehumanshores。But,then——well,itwasBeatricewhoprayed——Beatrice,whocouldrealisenoheavenbeyondthelimitsofherpassion,whostillthoughtmoreofherlovethanofsavingherownsoulalive。Perhapsitfoundahome——perhaps,likeherwhoprayedit,itwaslostuponthepitilessdeep。
ThenBeatriceprayednomore。Shortwashertime。See,theresankthesuninglory;andtherethegreatrollerssweptalongpastthesullenheadland,wheretheundertowmetwindandtide。Shewouldthinknomoreofself;itwas,itseemedtoher,sosmall,thismendicantcallingontheUnseen,notforothers,butforself:aidforself,well-beingforself,salvationforself——thisdoingofgoodthatgoodmightcometoself。Shehadmadeherprayer,andifsheprayedagainitshouldbeforGeoffrey,thathemightprosperandbehappy——thathemightforgivethetroubleherlovehadbroughtintohislife。Thathemightforgethershecouldnotpray。Shehadprayedherprayerandsaidhersay,anditwasdonewith。LetherbejudgedasitseemedgoodtoThosewhojudge!Nowshewouldfixherthoughtsuponherlove,andbyitsstrengthwouldshetriumphoverthebitternessofdeath。
Hereyesflashedandherbreastheaved:furtherouttosea,furtheryet——shewouldmeetthoserollersaknotormorefromthepointoftheheadland,thatnorecordmightremain。
Wasitherwrongifshelovedhim?Shecouldnothelpit,andshewasproudtolovehim。Evennow,shewouldnotundothepast。WhatwerethelinesthatGeoffreyhadreadtoher。Theyhauntedhermindwithastrangepersistence——theytooktimetothebeatofherfallingpaddle,andwouldnotleaveher:
“Ofoncesownseed,whoknowethwhatthecropis?
Alas,mylove,Love’seyesareveryblind!
Whatwouldtheyhaveusdo?SunflowersandpoppiesStooptothewind——“[*]
[*]OliverMadoxBrown。
Yes,yes,Love’seyesareveryblind,butintheirblindnesstherewasmorelightthaninallotherearthlythings。Oh,shecouldnotliveforhim,andwithhim——itwasdeniedtoher——butshestillcoulddieforhim,herdarling,herdarling!
“Geoffrey,hearme——Idieforyou;acceptmysacrifice,andforgetmenot。”So!——sheisintherollers——howsolemntheyarewiththeirhoaryheadsoffoam,asonebyonetheymovedownuponher。
Thefirst!ittowershigh,butthecanoeridesitlikeacork。Look!
thedayisdyingonthedistantland,butstillhisgloryshinesacrossthesea。Presentlyallwillbefinished。Herethebreezeisstrong;ittearsthebonnetfromherhead,itunwindsthecoronetofbraidedlocks,andherbrighthairstreamsoutbehindher。Feelhowthespraystings,strikinglikeawhip。No,notthiswave,sheridesthatalso;shewilldieasshehaslived——fightingtothelast;andoncemore,neverfaltering,shesetsherfacetowardstherollersandconsignshersoultodoom。
Ah!thatstruckherfull。Oh,see!Geoffrey’sringhasslippedfromherwethand,fallingintothebottomoftheboat。Cansheregainit?
shewoulddiewiththatringuponherfinger——itishermarriage-ring,weddingherthroughdeathtoGeoffrey,uponthealtarofthesea。Shestoops!oh,whatashockofwateratherbreast!Whatwasit——whatwasit?——/Ofoncesownseed,whoknowethwhatthecropis?/Shemustsoonlearnnow!
“Geoffrey!hearme,Geoffrey!——Idie,Idieforyou!Iwillwaitforyouatthefoundationsofthesea,onthetopmostheightsofheaven,inthelowestdeepsofhell——whereverIamIwillalwayswaitforyou!“
Itsinks——ithassunk——sheisalonewithGod,andthecruelwaters。
Thesungoesout!Lookonthatgreatwhitewaveseethingthroughthedeepeninggloom;hearitrushingtowardsher,bigwithfate。
“Geoffrey,mydarling——Iwillwait——“
FarewelltoBeatrice!Thelightwentoutoftheskyanddarknessgatheredonthewelteringsea。FarewelltoBeatrice,andallherloveandallhersin。
CHAPTERXXIX
AWOMAN’SLASTWORD
Geoffreycamedowntobreakfastabouteleveno’clockonthemorningofthatdaythefirsthoursofwhichhehadspentatEustonStation。NotseeingEffie,heaskedLadyHonoriawhereshewas,andwasinformedthatAnne,theFrench/bonne/,saidthechildwasnotwellandthatshehadkeptherinbedtobreakfast。
“Doyoumeantosaythatyouhavenotbeenuptoseewhatisthematterwithher?”askedGeoffrey。
“No,notyet。”answeredhiswife。“Ihavehadthedressmakerherewithmynewdressfortheduchess’sballto-morrow;it’slovely,butI
thinkthatthereisalittletoomuchofthatcreamylaceaboutit。”
Withanexclamationofimpatience,Geoffreyroseandwentupstairs。HefoundEffietossingaboutinbed,herfaceflushed,hereyeswideopen,andherlittlehandsquitehot。
“Sendforthedoctoratonce。”hesaid。
Thedoctorcameandexaminedthechild,askingherifshehadwetherfeetlately。
“Yes,Idid,twodaysago。Iwetmyfeetinapuddleinthestreet。”
sheanswered。“ButAnnedidsaythattheywouldsoongetdry,ifI
heldthemtothefire,becausemyotherbootswasnotclean。Oh,myheaddoesache,daddie。”
“Ah。”saidthedoctor,andthencoveringthechildup,tookGeoffreyasideandtoldhimthathisdaughterhadamildattackofinflammationofthelungs。Therewasnocauseforanxiety,onlyshemustbelookedafterandguardedfromchills。
Geoffreyaskedifheshouldsendforatrainednurse。
“Oh,no。”saidthedoctor。“Idonotthinkitisnecessary,atanyrateatpresent。Iwilltellthenursewhattodo,anddoubtlessyourwifewillkeepaneyeonher。”
SoAnnewascalledup,andvowedthatshewouldguardthecherishedchildliketheappleofhereye。Indeed,no,thebootswerenotwet——
therewasalittle,averylittlemudonthem,thatwasall。
“Well,don’ttalksomuch,butseethatyouattendtoherproperly。”
saidGeoffrey,feelingratherdoubtful,forhedidnottrustAnne。
However,hethoughthewouldseehimselfthattherewasnoneglect。
Whensheheardwhatwasthematter,LadyHonoriawasmuchputout。
“Really。”shesaid,“childrenarethemostvexatiouscreaturesintheworld。Theideaofhergettinginflammationofthelungsinthisunprovokedfashion。TheendofitwillbethatIshallnotbeabletogototheduchess’sballto-morrownight,andshewassokindaboutit,shemadequiteapointofmycoming。BesidesIhaveboughtthatlovelynewdressonpurpose。Ishouldneverhavedreamedofgoingtosomuchexpenseforanythingelse。”
“Don’ttroubleyourself。”saidGeoffrey。“TheHousedoesnotsitto-morrow;Iwilllookafterher。UnlessEffiediesintheinterval,youwillcertainlybeabletogototheball。”
“Dies——whatnonsense!Thedoctorsaysthatitisaveryslightattack。
Whyshouldshedie?”
“IamsureIhopethatthereisnofearofanythingofthesort,Honoria。Onlyshemustbeproperlylookedafter。IdonottrustthiswomanAnne。Ihavehalfamindtogetinatrainednurseafterall。”
“Well,ifyoudo,shewillhavetosleepoutofthehouse,that’sall。
AmeliaLadyGarsingtoniscomingupto-night,andImusthavesomewheretoputhermaid,andthereisnoroomforanotherbedinEffie’sroom。”
“Oh,verywell,verywell。”saidGeoffrey,“Idaresaythatitwillbeallright,butifEffiegetsanyworse,youwillpleaseunderstandthatroommustbemade。”
ButEffiedidnotgetworse。Sheremainedmuchaboutthesame。
Geoffreysatathomealldayandemployedhimselfinreadingbriefs;
fortunatelyhehadnottogotocourt。Aboutsixo’clockhewentdowntotheHouse,andhavingdinedverysimplyandquietly,tookhisseatandlistenedtosomedrearytalk,whichwasbeingcarriedonforthebenefitofthereporters,abouttheadoptionoftheWelshlanguageinthelawcourtsofWales。
Suddenlyhebecameawareofamostextraordinarysenseofoppression。
Anindefinitedreadtookholdofhim,hisverysoulwasfilledwithterribleapprehensionsandalarm。Somethingdreadfulseemedtoknockattheportalsofhissense,ahorrorwhichhecouldnotgrasp。Hismindwasconfused,butlittlebylittleitgrewclearer,andhebegantounderstandthatadangerthreatenedBeatrice,thatshewasingreatperil。Hewassureofit。Heragoniseddyingcriesreachedhimwherehewas,thoughinnoformwhichhecouldunderstand;oncemoreherthoughtbeatonhisthought——oncemoreandforthelasttimeherspiritspoketohis。
Thensuddenlyacoldwindseemedtobreatheuponhisfaceandlifthishair,andeverythingwasgone。Hismindwasasithadbeen;againheheardthedrearyoratorandsawthemembersslippingawaytodinner。
Theconditionsthatdisturbedhimhadpassed,thingswereastheyhadbeen。Norwasthisstrange!Forthelinkwasbroken。Beatricewas/dead/。Shehadpassedintothedomainsofimpenetrablesilence。
Geoffreysatupwithagasp,andashedidsoaletterwasplacedinhishand。ItwasaddressedinBeatrice’shandwritingandboretheChesterpostmark。Achillfearseizedhim。Whatdiditcontain?Hehurriedwithitintoaprivateroomandopenedit。ItwasdatedfromBryngellyonthepreviousSundayandhadseveralinclosures。
“MydearestGeoffrey。”itbegan,“Ihaveneverbeforeaddressedyouthusonpaper,norshouldIdosonow,knowingtowhatriskssuchwrittenwordsmightputyou,wereitnotthatoccasionsmayariseasinthiscasewhichseemtojustifytherisk。Forwhenallthingsareendedbetweenamanandawomanwhoaretoeachotherwhatwehavebeen,thenitiswellthattheonewhogoesshouldspeakplainlybeforespeechbecomesimpossible,ifonlythattheonewhoisleftshouldnotmisunderstandthatwhichhasbeendone。
“Geoffrey,itisprobable——itisalmostcertain——thatbeforeyoureyesreadthesewordsIshallbewhereinthebodytheycanneverseememore。Iwritetoyoufromthebrinkofthegrave;whenyoureadit,itwillhaveclosedoverme。
“Geoffrey,Ishallbedead。
“IreceivedyourdearletteritisdestroyednowinwhichyouexpressedawishthatIshouldcomeawaywithyoutosomeothercountry,andIanswereditineightbriefwords。Idarednottrustmyselftowritemore,norhadIanytime。HowcouldyouthinkthatIshouldeveracceptsuchanofferformyownsake,whentodosowouldhavebeentoruinyou?ButfirstIwilltellyouallthathashappenedhere。”Herefollowedalongandexactdescriptionofthoseeventswithwhichwearealreadyacquainted,includingthedenunciationofBeatricebyhersister,thethreatsofOwenDaviesasregardsGeoffreyhimself,andthemeasureswhichshehadadoptedtogaintime。
“Further。”thelettercontinued,“Iincloseyouyourwife’slettertome。AndhereIwishtostatethatIhavenotonewordtosayagainstLadyHonoriaorherletter。Ithinkthatshewasperfectlyjustifiedinwritingasshedid,forafterall,dearGeoffrey,youareherhusband,andinlovingeachotherwehaveoffendedagainsther。Shetellsmetrulythatitismydutytomakeallfurthercommunicationsbetweenusimpossible。Thereisonlyonewaytodothis,andItakeit。
“AndnowIhavespokenenoughaboutmyself,nordoIwishtoenterintodetailsthatcouldonlygiveyoupain。Therewillbenoscandal,dear,andifanywordshouldberaisedagainstyouafterIamgone,IhaveprovidedananswerinthesecondletterwhichI
haveinclosed。Youcanprintitifnecessary;itwillbeasufficientreplytoanytalk。Nobodyafterreadingitcanbelievethatyouwereinanywayconnectedwiththeaccidentwhichwillhappen。Dear,onewordmore——stillaboutmyself,yousee!Donotblameyourselfinthismatter,foryouarenottoblame;ofmyownfreewillIdoit,becauseintheextremityofthecircumstancesI
thinkitbestthatoneshouldgoandtheotherbesaved,ratherthanthatbothshouldbeinvolvedinacommonruin。
“Dear,doyourememberhowinthatstrangevisionofmine,I
dreamedthatyoucameandtouchedmeonthebreastandshowedmelight?Soithascometopass,foryouhavegivenmelove——thatislight;andnowindeathIshallseekforwisdom。Andthisbeingfulfilled,shallnottherestbefulfilledinitsseason?ShallI
notsitinthosecloudyhallstillIseeyoucometoseekme,thewordofwisdomonyourlips?AndsinceIcannothaveyoutomyself,andbeallinalltoyou,whyIamgladtogo。Forhereontheworldisneitherrestnorhappiness;asinmydream,toooftendoes’Hopeseemtorendherstarryrobes。’
“Iamgladtogofromsuchaworld,inwhichbutonehappythinghasfoundme——theblessingofyourlove。Iamwornoutwiththewearinessandstruggle,andnowthatIhavelostyouIlongforrest。IdonotknowifIsininwhatIdo;ifso,mayIbeforgiven。Ifforgivenessisimpossible,sobeit!Youwillforgiveme,Geoffrey,andyouwillalwaysloveme,howeverwickedImaybe;evenif,atthelast,yougowhereIamnot,youwillrememberandlovetheerringwomantowhom,beingsolittle,youstillwereallinall。Wearenotmarried,Geoffrey,accordingtothecustomsoftheworld,buttwoshortdayshenceIshallcelebrateaservicethatisgreaterandmoresolemnthananyoftheearth。ForDeathwillbethePriestandthatoathwhichIshalltakewillbetoalleternity。Whocanprophesyofthatwhereofmanhasnosureknowledge?YetIdobelievethatinatimetocomeweshalllookagainintoeachother’seyes,andkisseachother’slips,andbeoneforevermore。Ifthisisso,itisworthwhiletohavelivedanddied;ifnot,then,Geoffrey,farewell!
“IfImayIwillalwaysbenearyou。Listentothenightwindandyoushallhearmyvoice;lookonthestars,youwillseemyeyes;
andmyloveshallbeastheairyoubreathe。Andwhenatlasttheendcomes,rememberme,forifIliveatallIshallbeaboutyouthen。WhathaveImoretosay?Somuch,mydear,thatwordscannotconveyit。Letitbeuntold;butwheneveryouhearorreadthatwhichisbeautifulortender,think’thisiswhatBeatricewouldhavesaidtomeandcouldnot!’
“Youwillbeagreatman,dear,theforemostoroneoftheforemostofyourage。Youhavealreadypromisedmetoperseveretothisend:Iwillnotaskyoutopromiseafresh。Donotbecontenttoaccepttheworldaswomenmust。Greatmendonotaccepttheworld;
theyreformit——andyouareoftheirnumber。Andwhenyouaregreat,Geoffrey,youwilluseyourpower,notforself-interest,buttolargeandworthyends;youwillalwaysstrivetohelpthepoor,tobreakdownoppressionfromthosewhohavetobarit,andtoadvancethehonourofyourcountry。YouwilldoallthisfromyourownheartandnotbecauseIaskitofyou,butrememberthatyourfamewillbemybestmonument——thoughnoneshalleverknowthegraveitcovers。
“Farewell,farewell,farewell!Oh,Geoffrey,mydarling,towhomI
haveneverbeenawife,towhomIammorethananywife——donotforgetmeinthelongyearswhicharetocome。Remembermewhenothersforsakeyou。Donotforgetmewhenothersflatteryouandtrytowinyourlove,fornonecanbetoyouwhatIhavebeen——
nonecaneverloveyoumorethanthatlostBeatricewhowritestheseheavywordsto-night,andwhowillpassawayblessingyouwithherlastbreath,toawaityou,ifshemay,inthelandtowhichyourfeetalsodrawdailyon。”
Thencameatear-stainedpostscriptinpencildatedfromPaddingtonStationonthatverymorning。
“IjourneyedtoLondontoseeyou,Geoffrey。Icouldnotdiewithoutlookingonyourfaceoncemore。IwasinthegalleryoftheHouseandheardyourgreatspeech。Yourfriendfoundmeaplace。AfterwardsItouchedyourcoatasyoupassedbythepillarofthegateway。ThenIranawaybecauseIsawyourfriendturnandlookatme。Ishallkissthisletter——justherebeforeIcloseit——kissittheretoo——itisourlastcoldembrace。BeforetheendI
shallputontheringyougaveme——onmyhand,Imean。Ihavealwayswornituponmybreast。WhenItouchedyouasyoupassedthroughthegatewayIthoughtthatIshouldhavebrokendownandcalledtoyou——butIfoundstrengthnottodoso。Myheartisbreakingandmyeyesareblindwithtears;Icanwritenomore;I
havenomoretosay。Nowonceagaingood-bye。/Aveatquevale/——
oh,mylove!——B。”
Thesecondletterwasadummy。Thatistosayitpurportedtobesuchanepistleasanyyoungladymighthavewrittentoagentlemanfriend。
Itbegan,“DearMr。Bingham。”andended,“Yourssincerely,BeatriceGranger。”wasfilledwithchit-chat,andexpressedhopesthathewouldbeabletocomedowntoBryngellyagainlaterinthesummer,whentheywouldgocanoeing。
Itwasobvious,thoughtBeatrice,thatifGeoffreywasaccusedbyOwenDaviesoranybodyelseofbeingconcernedwithhermysteriousend,theproductionofsuchafrankepistlewrittentwodayspreviouslywoulddemonstratetheabsurdityoftheidea。PoorBeatrice,shewasfullofprecautions!
LethimwhomayimaginetheeffectproduceduponGeoffreybythisheartrendingandastoundingepistle!CouldBeatricehaveseenhisfacewhenhehadfinishedreadingitshewouldneverhavecommittedsuicide。Inaminuteitbecamelikethatofanoldman。Asthewholetruthsankintohismind,suchanagonyofhorror,ofremorse,ofunavailingwoeandhopelessnesssweptacrosshissoul,thatforamomenthethoughthisvitalforcesmustgivewaybeneathit,andthatheshoulddie,asindeedinthisdarkhourhewouldhaverejoicedtodo。Oh,howpitifulitwas——howpitifulandhowawful!Tothinkofthislove,sopassionatelypure,wastedonhisownunworthiness。Tothinkofthisdivinewomangoingdowntolonelydeathforhim——astrongman;topicturehercrouchingbehindthatgatewaypillarandtouchinghimashepassed,whilehe,thethriceaccursedfool,knewnothingtilltoolate;toknowthathehadgonetoEustonandnottoPaddington;torememberthematchlessstrengthandbeautyofthelovewhichhehadlost,andthatfacewhichheshouldneverseeagain!
Surelyhisheartwouldbreak。Nomancouldbearit!
Andofthosecowardswhohoundedhertodeath,ifindeedshewasalreadydead!Oh,hewouldkillOwenDavies——yes,andElizabethtoo,wereitnotthatshewasawoman;andasforHonoriahehaddonewithher。Scandal,whatdidhecareforscandal?Ifhehadhiswillthereshouldbeascandalindeed,forhewouldbeatthisOwenDavies,thisreptile,whodidnothesitatetouseawoman’sterrorstoprosperthefulfillingofhislust——yes,andthendraghimtotheContinentandkillhimthere。Onlyvengeancewaslefttohim!
Stop,hemustnotgiveway——perhapsshewasnotdead——perhapsthathorriblepresageofevilwhichhadstruckhimlikeastormwasbutadream。Couldhetelegraph?No,itwastoolate;theofficeatBryngellywouldbeclosed——itwaspasteightnow。Buthecouldgo。
Therewasatrainleavingalittleafternine——heshouldbetherebyhalf-pastsixto-morrow。AndEffiewasill——well,surelytheycouldlookafterherfortwenty-fourhours;shewasinnodanger,andhemustgo——hecouldnotbearthistorturingsuspense。GreatGod!howhadshedonethedeed!
Geoffreysnatchedasheetofpaperandtriedtowrite。Hecouldnot,hishandshookso。Withagroanherose,andgoingtotherefreshmentroomswallowedtwoglassesofbrandyoneafteranother。Thespirittookeffectonhim;hecouldwritenow。Rapidlyhescribbledonasheetofpaper:
“IhavebeencalledawayuponimportantbusinessandshallprobablynotbebacktillThursdaymorning。SeethatEffieisproperlyattendedto。IfIamnotbackyoumustnotgototheduchess’sball——GeoffreyBingham。”
ThenheaddressedthelettertoLadyHonoriaanddispatchedacommissionairewithit。Thisdone,hecalledacabandbadethecabmandrivetoEustonasfastashishorsecouldgo。
CHAPTERXXX
AVEATQUEVALE
Thatfrightfuljourney——nonightmarewaseverhalfsoawful!Butitcametoanendatlast——therewastheBryngellyStation。Geoffreysprangfromthetrain,andgavehistickettotheporter,glancinginhisfaceashedidso。Surelyiftherehadbeenatragedythemanwouldknowofit,andshowsignsofhalf-joyousemotionasisthefashionofsuchpeoplewhensomethingawfulandmysterioushashappenedtosomebodyelse。Butheshowednosuchsymptoms,andaglimmerofhopefounditswayintoGeoffrey’stormentedbreast。
HeleftthestationandwalkedrapidlytowardstheVicarage。Thosewhoknowwhatapitchofhorrorsuspensecanreachmayimaginehisfeelingsashedidso。Butitwassoontobeputanendtonow。AshedrewneartheVicaragegatehemetthefatWelshservantgirlBettyrunningtowardshim。ThenhopeleftGeoffrey。
Thegirlrecognisedhim,andinherconfusiondidnotseemintheleastastonishedtoseehimwalkingthereataquartertosevenonasummermorning。Indeed,evenshevaguelyconnectedGeoffreywithBeatriceinhermind,forsheatoncesaidinherthickEnglish:
“Oh,sir,doyouknowwhereMissBeatriceis?”
“No。”heanswered,catchingatarailingforsupport。“Whydoyouask?
Ihavenotseenherforweeks。”
Thenthegirlplungedintoalongstory。Mr。GrangerandMissGrangerwereawayfromhome,andwouldnotbebackforanothertwohours。MissBeatricehadgoneoutyesterdayafternoon,andhadnotcomebacktotea。She,Betty,hadnotthoughtmuchofit,believingthatshehadstoppedtospendtheeveningsomewhere,and,beingverytired,hadgonetobedabouteight,leavingthedoorunlocked。Thismorning,whenshewoke,itwastofindthatMissBeatricehadnotsleptinthehousethatnight,andshecameouttoseeifshecouldfindher。
“Wherewasshegoingwhenshewentout?”Geoffreyasked。
Shedidnotknow,butshethoughtthatMissBeatricewasgoingoutinthecanoe。Leastwaysshehadputonhertennisshoes,whichshealwaysworewhenshewentoutboating。
Geoffreyunderstooditallnow。“Cometotheboat-house。”hesaid。
Theywentdowntothebeach,whereasyetnonewereaboutexceptafewworkingpeople。Neartheboat-houseGeoffreymetoldEdwardwalkingalongwithakeyinhishand。
“Lord,sir!“hesaid。“Youhere,sir!andinthattherequeerhat,too。Whatisit,sir?”
“DidMissBeatricegooutinhercanoeyesterdayevening,Edward?”
Geoffreyaskedhoarsely。
“No,sir;notasIknowon。Myboylockeduptheboat-houselastnight,andIsupposehelookedinitfirst。What!Youdon’tmeantosay——Stop;we’llsoonknow。Oh,Goad!thecanoe’sgone!“
Therewasasilence,anawfulsilence。OldEdwardbrokeit。
“She’sdrowned,sir——that’swhatsheis——drownedatlast;andshethefinestwomaninWales。Iknewedshewouldbeoneday,poordear!andshethebeautythatshewas;andallalongofthatdamnedunluckylittlecraft。Goadhelpher!She’sdrowned,Isay——“
Bettyburstoutintoloudweepingathiswords。
“Stopthatnoise,girl。”saidGeoffrey,turninghispalefacetowardsher。“GobacktotheVicarage,andifMr。GrangercomeshomebeforeI
getback,tellhimwhatwefear。Edward,sendsomementosearchtheshoretowardsCoed,andsomemoreinasailingboat。IwillwalktowardstheBellRock——youcanfollowme。”
Hestartedandswiftlytrampedalongthesands,searchingtheseawithhiseye。Onhewalkedsullenly,desperatelystrivingtohopeagainsthope。On,pasttheDogRocks,roundthelongcurveofbeachtillhecametotheAmphitheatre。Thetidewashighagain;hecouldbarelypasstheprojectingpoint。Hewasroundit,andhisheartstoodstill。
Forthere,bottomupwards,andgentlyswayingtoandfroasthespentwavesrockedit,wasBeatrice’scanoe。
Sadly,hopelessly,heavily,Geoffreywadedkneedeepintothewater,andcatchingthebowofthecanoe,draggeditashore。Therewas,orappearedtobe,nothinginit;ofcoursehecouldnotexpectanythingelse。Itsoccupanthadsunkandbeencarriedouttoseabytheebb,whereasthecanoehaddriftedbacktoshorewiththemorningtide。
Herearedituponitsendtoletthewaterdrainoutofit,andfromthehollowofthebowarchsomethingcamerollingdown,somethingbrightandheavy,followedbyabrownobject。Hastilyheloweredthecanoeagain,andpickedupthebrighttrinket。Itwashisownringcomebacktohim——theRomanringhehadgivenBeatrice,andwhichshetoldhiminthelettershewouldwearinherhourofdeath。Hetoucheditwithhislipsandplaceditbackuponhishand,thistokenfromthebeloveddead,vowingthatitshouldneverleavehishandinlife,andthatafterdeathitshouldbeburiedonhim。Andsoitwillbe,perhapstobedugupagainthousandsofyearshence,andoncemoretoplayapartintheromanceofunbornages。
/Aveatquevale/——thatwastheinscriptionrudelycutwithinitsround。Greetingandfarewell——herownlastwordstohim。Oh,Beatrice,Beatrice!toyoualso/aveatquevale/。Youcouldnothavesentafittermessage。Greetingandfarewell!Diditnotsumitall?Withinthecircleofthislittleringwaswrittheepitomeofhumanlife:
herewerethebeginningandtheendofLoveandHate,ofHopeandfear,ofJoyandSorrow。
Beatrice,hail!Beatrice,farewell!tillperchanceaSpiritrushingearthwardshallcry“/Greeting/。”inanothertongue,andDeath,descendingtohisownplace,shakingfromhiswingsthedewoftears,shallanswer“/FarewelltomeandNight,yeChildrenofEternalDay!/“
Andwhatwasthisotherrelic?Heliftedit——itwasBeatrice’stennisshoe,washedfromherfoot——Geoffreyknewit,foroncehehadtiedit。
ThenGeoffreybrokedown——itwastoomuch。Hethrewhimselfuponthegreatrockandsobbed——thatrockwherehehadsatwithherandHeavenhadopenedtotheirsight。Butmenarenotgiventosuchexhibitionsofemotion,andfortunatelyforhimtheparoxysmdidnotlast。Hecouldnothaveborneitforlong。
Heroseandwentagaintotheedgeofthesea。AtthismomentoldEdwardandhissonarrived。Geoffreypointedtotheboat,thenheldupthelittleshoe。
“Ah。”saidtheoldman,“asIthought。Goadhelpher!She’sgone;
she’llnevercomeashorenomore,shewon’t。She’stwentymilesawaybynow,sheis,breastup,withthegullsa-screamingoverher。It’sthattheredamnedcanoe,that’swhatitis。IwishtoGoadIhadbrokeituplongago。I’dratherhavebuiltheraboatfornothing,Iwould。
Damntheunluckycraft!“screamedtheoldmanatthetopofhisvoice,andturninghisheadtohidethetearsthatwerestreamingdownhisruggedface。“AndherthatInursedandpulledoutofthewatersonceallbutdead。Damnit,Isay!There,takethat,youSeaWitch,you!“
andhepickedupagreatboulderandcrasheditthroughthebottomofthecanoewithallhisstrength。“Youshan’tneverdrownnomore。Butithasbroughtyougoodluck,ithas,sir;you’llbeafortunitmanallyourlifenow。Ithasbroughtyouthe/DrownedOne’sshoe/。”
“Don’tbreakitanymore。”saidGeoffrey。“Sheusedtovalueit。Youhadbetterbringitalongbetweenyou——itmaybewanted。IamgoingtotheVicarage。”
Hewalkedback。Mr。GrangerandElizabethhadnotyetarrived,buttheywereexpectedeveryminute。Hewentintothesitting-room。ItwasfullofmemoriesandtokensofBeatrice。Therelayanovelwhichhehadgivenher,andtherewasyesterday’spaperthatshehadbroughtfromtown,the/Standard/,withhisspeechinit。
Geoffreycoveredhiseyeswithhishand,andthought。Noneknewthatshehadcommittedsuicideexcepthimself。Ifherevealeditthingsmightbesaidofher;hedidnotcarewhatwassaidofhim,buthewasjealousofherdeadname。Itmightbesaid,forinstance,thatthewholetalewastrue,andthatBeatricediedbecauseshecouldnolongerfacelifewithoutbeingputtoanopenshame。Yes,hehadbetterholdhistongueastohowandwhyshedied。Shewasdead——
nothingcouldbringherback。Buthowthenshouldheaccountforhispresencethere?Easilyenough。HewouldsayfranklythathecamebecauseBeatricehadwrittentohimofthechargesmadeagainstherandthethreatsagainsthimself——cametofindherdead。AndonthatpointhewouldstillhaveawordwithOwenDaviesandElizabeth。
ScarcelyhadhemadeuphismindwhenElizabethandherfatherentered。Clearlyfromtheirfacestheyhadasyetheardnothing。
Geoffreyrose,andElizabethcaughtsightofhimstandingwithglowingeyesandafacelikethatofDeathhimself。Sherecoiledinalarm。
“Whatbringsyouhere,Mr。Bingham?”shesaid,inherhardvoice。
“Cannotyouguess,MissGranger?”hesaidsternly。“AfewdaysbackyoumadecertainchargesagainstyoursisterandmyselfinthepresenceofyourfatherandMr。OwenDavies。Thesechargeshavebeencommunicatedtome,andIhavecometoanswerthemandtodemandsatisfactionforthem。”
Mr。Grangerfidgetednervouslyandlookedasthoughhewouldliketoescape,butElizabeth,withcharacteristiccourage,shutthedoorandfacedthestorm。
“Yes,Ididmakethosecharges,Mr。Bingham。”shesaid,“andtheyaretruecharges。Butstop,wehadbettersendforBeatricefirst。”
“Youmaysend,butyouwillnotfindher。”
“Whatdoyoumean?——whatdoyoumean?”askedherfatherapprehensively。
“Itmeansthathehashiddenheraway,Isuppose。”saidElizabethwithasneer。
“Imean,Mr。Granger,thatyourdaughterBeatriceis/dead/。”
Foroncestartledoutofherself-command,Elizabethgavealittlecry,whileherfatherstaggeredbackagainstthewall。
“Dead!dead!Whatdoyoumean?Howdidshedie?”heasked。
“ThatisknowntoGodandheralone。”answeredGeoffrey。“Shewentoutlasteveninginhercanoe。WhenIarrivedherethismorningshewasmissedforthefirsttime。Iwalkedalongthebeachandfoundthecanoeandthisinsideofit。”andheplacedthesoddenshoeuponthetable。
Therewasasilence。Inthemidstofit,OwenDaviesburstintotheroomwithwildeyesanddishevelledhair。
“Isittrue?”hecried,“tellme——itcannotbetruethatBeatriceisdrowned。ShecannothavebeentakenfrommejustwhenIwasgoingtomarryher。Saythatitisnottrue!“
AgreatfuryfilledGeoffrey’sheart。Hewalkeddowntheroomandshutthedoor,aredlightswimmingbeforehiseyes。ThenheturnedandgrippedOwenDavies’sshoulderlikeavice。
“Youaccursedblackguard——youunmanlycur!“hesaid;“youandthatwickedwoman。”andheshookhishandatElizabeth,“conspiredtogethertobringasluruponBeatrice。Youdidmore:youthreatenedtoattackme,totryandruinmeifshewouldnotgiveherselfuptoyou。Youloathsomehypocrite,youtorturedherandfrightenedher;nowIamheretofrighten/you/。Yousaidthatyouwouldmakethecountryringwithyourtales。Itellyouthis——areyoulisteningtome?Ifyoudaretomentionhernameinsuchasense,orifthatwomandares,Iwillbreakeveryboneinyourwretchedbody——byHeavenIwillkillyou!“
andhecastDaviesfromhim,andashedidso,struckhimheavilyacrossthefacewiththebackofhishand。
Themantooknonoticeeitherofhiswordsorofthedeadlyinsultoftheblow。
“Isittrue?”hescreamed,“isittruethatsheisdead?”
“Yes。”saidGeoffrey,followinghim,andbendinghistallsquareframeoverhim,forDavieshadfallenagainstthewall,“yes,itistrue——
sheisdead——andbeyondyourreachforever。PraytoGodthatyoumaynotonedaybecalledhermurderers,allofyou——youshamelesscowards。”
OwenDaviesgaveoneshrillcryandsankinahuddledheapupontheground。
“ThereisnoGod。”hemoaned;“Godpromisedhertome,tobemyown——
youhavekilledher;you——youseducedherfirstandthenyoukilledher。Ibelieveyoukilledher。Oh,Ishallgomad!“
“Madorsane。”saidGeoffrey,“saythosewordsoncemoreandIwillstampthelifeoutofyouwhereyouare。YousaythatGodpromisedhertoyou——promisedthatwomantoahoundlikeyou。Ah,becareful!“
OwenDaviesmadenoanswer。Crouchedthereuponthegroundherockedhimselftoandfro,andmoanedinthemadnessofhisbaulkeddesire。
“Thisman。”saidGeoffrey,turningtowardsandpointingtoElizabeth,whowasglaringathimlikeawildcatfromthecorneroftheroom,“saidthatthereisnoGod。IsaythatthereisaGod,andthatoneday,soonorlate,vengeancewillfindyouout——youmurderess,youwriterofanonymousletters;youwho,toadvanceyourownwickedendswhatevertheymaybe,werenotashamedtotrytodragyourinnocentsister’snameintothedirt。Ineverbelievedinahelltillnow,buttheremustbeahellforsuchasyou,ElizabethGranger。Goyourways;
liveoutyourtime;butliveeveryhourofitinterrorofthevengeancethatshallcomesosurelyasyoushalldie。
“Nowforyou,sir。”hewenton,addressingthetremblingfather。“Idonotblameyousomuch,becauseIbelievethatthisviperpoisonedyourmind。Youmighthavethoughtthatthetalewastrue。Itisnottrue;
itwasalie。Beatrice,whonowisdead,cameintomyroominhersleep,andwascarriedfromitasshecame。Andyou,herfather,allowedthisvillainandyourdaughtertouseherdistressagainsther;youallowedhimtomakealeverofit,withwhichtoforceherintoamarriagethatsheloathed。Yes,coverupyourface——youmaywelldoso。Doyourworst,oneandallofyou,butrememberthatthistimeyouhavetodealwithamanwhocanandwillstrikeback,notapoorfriendlessgirl。”
“BeforeHeaven,itwasnotmyfault,Mr。Bingham。”gaspedtheoldman。
“Iaminnocentofit。ThatJudas-womanElizabethbetrayedhersisterbecauseshewantedtomarryhimherself。”andhepointedtotheHeapuponthefloor。“ShethoughtthatitwouldprejudicehimagainstBeatrice,andhe——hebelievedthatshewasattachedtoyou,andtriedtoworkuponherattachment。”
“So。”saidGeoffrey,“nowwehaveitall。Andyou,sir,stoodbyandsawthisdone。Youstoodbythinkingthatyouwouldmakeaprofitofheragony。NowIwilltellyouwhatImeanttohidefromyou。Ididloveher。Idoloveher——asshelovedme。Ibelievethatbetweenyou,youdrovehertohergrave。Herbloodbeonyourheadsforeverandforever!“
“Oh,takemehome。”groanedtheHeapuponthefloor——“takemehome,Elizabeth!Idaren’tgoalone。Beatricewillhauntme。Mybraingoesroundandround。Takemeaway,Elizabeth,andstopwithme。Youarenotafraidofher,youareafraidofnothing。”
Elizabethsidleduptohim,keepingherfierceeyesonGeoffreyallthetime。Shewasutterlycowedandterrified,butshecouldstilllookfierce。ShetooktheHeapbythehandanddrewhimthencestillmoaningandquitecrazed。Sheledhimawaytohiscastleandhiswealth。Sixmonthsafterwardsshecameforthwithhimtomarryhim,half-wittedashewas。Ayearandeightmonthsafterwardsshecameoutagaintoburyhim,andfoundherselftherichestwidowinWales。
Theywentforth,leavingGeoffreyandMr。Grangeralone。Theoldmanrestedhisheaduponthetableandweptbitterly。
“Bemerciful。”hesaid,“donotsaysuchwordstome。Ilovedher,indeedIdid,butElizabethwastoomuchforme,andIamsopoor。Oh,ifyoulovedheralso,bemerciful!Idonotreproachyoubecauseyoulovedher,althoughyouhadnorighttoloveher。Ifyouhadnotlovedher,andmadeherloveyou,allthiswouldneverhavehappened。Whydoyousaysuchdreadfulthingstome,Mr。Bingham?”
“Ilovedher,sir。”answeredGeoffrey,humblyenoughnowthathisfuryhadpassed,“becausebeingwhatshewasallwholookedonhermustloveher。Thereisnowomanleftlikeherintheworld。ButwhoamI
thatIshouldblameyou?Godforgiveusall!IonlylivehenceforthinthehopethatImayonedayrejoinherwhereshehasgone。”
Therewasapause。
“Mr。Granger。”saidGeoffreypresently,“nevertroubleyourselfaboutmoney。Youwereherfather;anythingyouwantandwhatIhaveisyours。Letusshakehandsandsaygood-bye,andletusnevermeetagain。AsIsaid,Godforgiveusall!“
“Thankyou——thankyou。”saidtheoldman,lookingupthroughthewhitehairthatfellabouthiseyes。“Itisastrangeworldandweareallmiserablesinners。Ihopethereisabettersomewhere。I’mwell-nightiredofthis,especiallynowthatBeatricehasgone。Poorgirl,shewasagooddaughterandafinewoman。Good-bye。Good-bye!“
ThenGeoffreywent。
CHAPTERXXXI
THEDUCHESS’SBALL
GeoffreyreachedTownalittlebeforeeleveno’clockthatnight——ahauntedman——hauntedforlifebyavisionofthatfacestilllovelyindeath,floatingaloneuponthedeep,andcompanionedonlybythescreamingmews——orperchancenowsinkingorsunktoanunfathomablegrave。Wellmightsuchavisionhauntaman,themanwhomaloneofallmenthosecoldlipshadkissed,andforwhosedearsakethisdreadfulthingwasdone。
HetookacabdirectingthedrivertogotoBoltonStreetandtostopathisclubashepassed。Theremightbelettersforhimthere,hethought——somethingwhichwoulddistracthismindalittle。Asitchancedtherewasaletter,marked“private。”andatelegram;bothhadbeendeliveredthatevening,theportersaid,theformeraboutanhouragobyhand。
Idlyheopenedthetelegram——itwasfromhislawyers:“Yourcousin,thechildGeorgeBingham,is,aswehavejustheard,dead。Pleasecallonusearlyto-morrowmorning。”
Hestartedalittle,forthismeantagooddealtoGeoffrey。Itmeantabaronetcyandeightthousandayear,moreorless。HowdelightedHonoriawouldbe,hethoughtwithasadsmile;thelossofthatlargeincomehadalwaysbeenabitterpilltoher,andonewhichshehadmadehimswallowagainandagain。Well,thereitwas。Poorboy,hehadalwaysbeenailing——anoldman’schild!
Heputthetelegraminhispocketandgotintothehansomagain。Therewasalampinitandbyitslighthereadtheletter。ItwasfromthePrimeMinisterandranthus:
“MydearBingham,——IhavenotseenyousinceMondaytothankyouforthemagnificentspeechyoumadeonthatnight。Allowmetoaddmycongratulationstothoseofeverybodyelse。Asyouknow,theUnderSecretaryshipoftheHomeOfficeisvacant。OnbehalfofmycolleaguesandmyselfIwritetoaskifyouwillconsenttofillitforatime,forwedonotinanywayconsiderthatthepostisonecommensuratewithyourabilities。Itwill,however,servetogiveyoupracticalexperienceofadministration,andustheadvantageofyourgreattalentstoanevenlargerextentthanwenowenjoy。Forthefuture,itmustofcoursetakecareofitself;
but,asyouknow,Sir——’shealthisnotallthatcouldbedesired,andtheotherdayhetoldmethatitwasdoubtfulifhewouldbeabletocarryonthedutiesoftheAttorney-Generalshipforverymuchlonger。InviewofthiscontingencyIventuretosuggestthatyouwoulddowelltoapplyforsilkassoonaspossible。IhavespokentotheLordChancelloraboutit,andhesaysthattherewillbenodifficulty,asalthoughyouhaveonlybeeninactivepracticeforsoshortawhile,youhaveagoodmanyyears’standingasabarrister。OrifthisprospectdoesnotpleasedoubtlesssomeotheropeningtotheCabinetcanbefoundintime。Thefactis,thatwecannotinourowninterestoverlookyouforlong。”
Geoffreysmiledagainashefinishedthisletter。Whocouldhavebelievedayearagothathewouldhavebeento-dayinapositiontoreceivesuchanepistlefromthePrimeMinisterofEngland?Ah,herewastheluckoftheDrownedOne’sshoewithavengeance。Andwhatwasitallworthtohimnow?
Heputtheletterinhispocketwiththetelegramandlookedout。TheywereturningintoBoltonStreet。HowwaslittleEffie,hewondered?
Thechildseemedallthatwaslefthimtocarefor。Ifanythinghappenedtoher——bah,hewouldnotthinkofit!
Hewastherenow。“HowisMissEffie?”heaskedoftheservantwhoopenedthedoor。Atthatmomenthisattentionwasattractedbythedimformsoftwopeople,amanandawoman,whowerestandingnotfarfromtheareagate,themanwithhisarmroundthewoman’swaist。Suddenlythewomanappearedtocatchsightofthecabandretiredswiftlydownthearea。ItcrossedhismindthatherfigurewasverylikethatofAnne,theFrenchnurse。
“MissEffieisdoingnicely,sir,I’mtold。”answeredtheman。
Geoffreybreathedmorefreely。“Whereisherladyship?”heasked。“InEffie’sroom?”
“No,sir。”answeredtheman,“herladyshiphasgonetoaball。Sheleftthisnoteforyouincaseyoushouldcomein。”
Hetookthenotefromthehalltableandopenedit。
“DearGeoffrey。”itran,“EffieissomuchbetterthatIhavemadeupmymindtogototheduchess’sballafterall。ShewouldbesodisappointedifIdidnotcome,andmydressisquite/lovely/。
Hadyourmysteriousbusinessanythingtodowith/Bryngelly/?——
Yours,Honoria。”
“Shewouldgoontoaballfromhermother’sfuneral。”saidGeoffreytohimself,ashewalkeduptoEffie’sroom;“well,itishernatureandthere’sanendofit。”
HeknockedatthedoorofEffie’sroom。Therewasnoanswer,sohewalkedin。Theroomwaslitbutempty——no,notquite!Onthefloor,clothedonlyinherwhitenight-shirt,layhislittledaughter,toallappearancedead。
Withsomethinglikeanoathhesprangtoherandliftedher。Thefacewaspaleandthesmallhandswerecold,butthebreastwasstillhotandfevered,andtheheartbeat。Aglanceshowedhimwhathadhappened。Thechildbeingleftalone,andfeelingthirsty,hadgotoutofbedandgonetothewaterbottle——therewasthetumbleronthefloor。Thenweaknesshadovercomeherandshehadfainted——fainteduponthecoldfloorwiththeinflammationstillonher。
AtthatmomentAnneenteredtheroomsweetlymurmuring,“?avabien,chérie?”
“Helpmetoputthechildintobed。”saidGeoffreysternly。“Nowringthebell——ringitagain。
“Andnow,woman——go。Leavethishouseatonce,thisverynight。Doyouhearme?No,don’tstoptoargue。Lookhere!IfthatchilddiesIwillprosecuteyouformanslaughter;yes,Isawyouinthestreet。”andhetookasteptowardsher。ThenAnnefled,andherfacewasseennomoreinBoltonStreetorindeedinthiscountry。
“James。”saidGeoffreytotheservant,“sendthecookuphere——sheisasensiblewoman;anddoyoutakeahansomanddrivetothedoctor,andtellhimtocomehereatonce,andifyoucannotfindhimgoforanotherdoctor。ThengototheNurses’Home,nearSt。James’Station,andgetatrainednurse——tellthemonemustbehadfromsomewhereinstantly。”
“Yes,sir。AndshallIcallforherladyshipattheduchess’s,sir?”
“No。”heanswered,frowningheavily,“donotdisturbherladyship。Gonow。”
“Thatsettlesit。”saidGeoffrey,asthemanwent。“Whateverhappens,HonoriaandImustpart。Ihavedonewithher。”
Hehadindeed,thoughnotinthewayhemeant。ItwouldhavebeenwellforHonoriaifherhusband’scontempthadnotpreventedhimfromsummoningherfromherpleasure。
Thecookcameup,andbetweenthemtheybroughtthechildbacktolife。
Sheopenedhereyesandsmiled。“Isthatyou,daddy。”shewhispered,“ordoIdreams?”
“Yes,dear,itisI。”
“Wherehasyoubeen,daddy——toseeAuntieBeatrice?”
“Yes,love。”hesaid,withagasp。
“Oh,daddy,myheaddofeelfunny;butIdon’tmindnowyouiscomeback。Youwon’tgoawaynomore,willyou,daddy?”
“No,dear,nomore。”
Afterthatshebegantowanderalittle,andfinallydroppedintoatroubledsleep。
Withinhalfanhourboththedoctorandthenursearrived。TheformerlistenedtoGeoffrey’staleandexaminedthechild。
“Shemaypullthroughit。”hesaid,“shehasgotacapitalconstitution;butI’lltellyouwhatitis——ifshehadlainanotherfiveminutesinthatdraughttherewouldhavebeenanendofher。Youcameinthenickoftime。AndnowifIwereyouIshouldgotobed。
Youcandonogoodhere,andyoulookdreadfullyillyourself。”
ButGeoffreyshookhishead。Hesaidhewouldgodownstairsandsmokeapipe。Hedidnotwanttogotobedatpresent;hewastootired。
Meanwhiletheballwentmerrily。LadyHonorianeverenjoyedherselfmoreinherlife。Sherevelledintheluxuriousgaietyaroundherlikeabutterflyinthesunshine。Howgooditallwas——theflashofdiamonds,theodourofcostlyflowers,thehomageofwell-bredmen,theenvyofotherwomen。Oh!itwasadelightfulworldafterall——thatiswhenonedidnothavetoexistinaflatneartheEdgwareRoad。ButHeavenbepraised!thankstoGeoffrey’stalents,therewasanendofflatsandmisery。Afterall,hewasnotabadsortofhusband,thoughinmanywaysaperfectmysterytoher。AsforhislittleweaknessfortheWelshgirl,really,providedthattherewasnoscandal,shedidnotcaretwopenceaboutit。
“Yes,Iamsogladyouadmireit。Ithinkitisratheranicedress,butthenIalwayssaythatnobodyinLondoncanmakeadresslikeMadameJules。Oh,no,Geoffreydidnotchooseit;hethinksofotherthings。”
“Well,I’msureyououghttobeproudofhim,LadyHonoria。”saidthehandsomeGuardsmantowhomshewastalking;“theysayatmessthatheisoneofthecleverestmeninEngland。IonlywishIhadafiftiethpartofhisbrains。”
“Oh,pleasedonotbecomeclever,LordAtleigh;pleasedon’t,orI
shallreallygiveyouup。Clevernessisallverywell,butitisn’teverything,youknow。Yes,Iwilldanceifyoulike,butyoumustgoslowly;tobequitehonest,Iamafraidoftearingmylaceinthiscrush。Why,IdeclarethereisGarsington,mybrother,youknow。”andshepointedtoasmallred-hairedmanwhowaselbowinghiswaytowardsthem。“Iwonderwhathewants;itisnotatallinhislinetocometoballs。Youknowhim,don’tyou?heisalwaysracinghorses,likeyou。”
ButtheGuardsmanhadvanished。ForreasonsofhisownhedidnotwishtomeetGarsington。Perhapshetoohadbeenamemberofacertainclub。
“Oh,thereyouare,Honoria。”saidherbrother,“IthoughtthatI
shouldbesuretofindyousomewhereinthisbeastlysquash。Lookhere,Ihavesomethingtotellyou。”
“Goodnewsorbad?”saidLadyHonoria,playingwithherfan。“Ifitisbad,keepit,forIamenjoyingmyselfverymuch,andIdon’twantmyeveningspoilt。”
“Trustyouforthat,Honoria;butlookhere,it’sjollygood,aboutasgoodascanbeforthatprigofahusbandofyours。Whatdoyouthink?
thatbratofaboy,thesonofoldSirRobertBinghamandthecookorsomeone,youknow,is——“
“Notdead,notdead?”saidHonoriaindeepagitation。
“Deadasditch-water。”repliedhislordship。“Ihearditattheclub。
Therewasalawyerfellowtherediningwithsomebodythere,andtheygottalkingaboutBingham,whenthelawyersaid,’Oh,he’sSirGeoffreyBinghamnow。OldSirRobert’sheirisdead。Isawthetelegrammyself。’“
“Oh,thisisalmosttoogoodtobetrue。”saidHonoria。“Why,itmeanseightthousandayeartous。”
“Itoldyouitwasprettygood。”saidherbrother。“Yououghttostandmeacommissionoutoftheswag。Atanyrate,let’sgoanddrinktothenews。Comeon,itistimeforsupperandIamawfullydone。Imustscrewmyselfup。”
LadyHonoriatookhisarm。Astheywalkeddownthewideflower-hungstairtheymetaverygreatPersonindeed,comingup。
“Ah,LadyHonoria。”saidthegreatPerson,“Ihavesomethingtosaythatwillpleaseyou,Ithink。”andhebenttowardsher,andspokeverylow,then,withalittlebow,passedon。
“Whatistheoldboytalkingabout?”askedherbrother。
“Why,whatdoyouthink?Weareinluck’swayto-night。HesaysthattheyareofferingGeoffreytheUnderSecretaryshipoftheHomeOffice。”
“He’llbeabiggerprigthanevernow。”growledLordGarsington。“Yes,itisluckthough;letushopeitwon’tturn。”
Theysatdowntosupper,andLordGarsington,whohadalreadybeendining,helpedhimselfprettyfreelytochampagne。Beforethemwasasilvercandelabraandoneachofthecandleswasfixedalittlepaintedpapershade。Oneofthemgotwrong,andafootmantriedtoreachoverLordGarsington’sheadtoputitstraight。
“I’lldoit。”saidhe。
“No,no;lettheman。”saidLadyHonoria。“Look!itisgoingtocatchfire!“
“Nonsense。”heanswered,risingsolemnlyandreachinghisarmtowardstheshade。Ashetouchedit,itcaughtfire;indeed,bytouchingithecausedittocatchfire。Heseizedholdofit,andmadeanefforttoputitout,butitburnthisfingers。
“Cursethething!“hesaidaloud,andthrewitfromhim。Itfellflaminginhissister’sdressamongthethickestofthefilmylaces;
theycaught,andinstantlytwowreathingsnakesoffireshotupher。
Shesprangfromherseatandrushedscreamingdowntheroom,anawfulmassofflame!
IntenmoreminutesLadyHonoriahadleftthisworldanditspleasurestothosewhostilllivedtotastethem。
Anhourpassed。GeoffreystillsatbroodingheavilyoverhispipeinthestudyinBoltonStreetandwaitingforHonoria,whenaknockcametohisdoor。Theservantshadallgonetobed,allexceptthesicknurse。Heroseandopenedithimself。Alittlered-haired,pale-facedmanstaggeredin。
“Why,Garsington,isityou?Whatdoyouwantatthishour?”
“Screwyourselfup,Bingham,I’vesomethingtotellyou。”heansweredinathickvoice。
“Whatisit?anotherdisaster,Isuppose。Issomebodyelsedead?”
“Yes;somebodyis。Honoria’sdead。Burnttodeathattheball。”
“GreatGod!Honoriaburnttodeath。Ihadbettergo——“
“Iadviseyounot,Bingham。Iwouldn’tgotothehospitalifIwereyou。Screwyourselfup,andifyoucan,givemesomethingtodrink——
I’maboutdone——Imustscrewmyselfup。”
Andherewemayleavethismostfortunateandgiftedman。FarewelltoGeoffreyBingham。
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Thus,then,didthesehumanatomsworkouttheirdestinies,theselittlegrainsofanimateddust,blownhitherandthitherbyabreathwhichcametheyknewnotwhence。
IftherebeanymaliciousPrincipleamongthePowersaroundusthatdeignstofindamusementinthefutilevagariesofman,wellmightitlaugh,andlaughagain,atthegreatresultsofallthisscheming,ofallthesedesires,lovesandhates;andiftherebeanypitifulPrinciple,wellmightitsighovertheinfinitepathosofhumanhelplessness。OwenDavieslostinhisownpassion;Geoffreycrownedwithprosperityandhauntedbyundyingsorrow;Honoriaperishingwretchedlyinherhourofsatisfiedambition;Beatricesacrificingherselfinloveandblindness,andtherebycastingoutherjoy。
Oh,ifshehadbeencontenttohumblytrustintheProvidenceaboveher;ifshehadbutleftthatdeedundaredforoneshortweek!
ButGeoffreystilllived,andthechildrecovered,afterhangingforawhilebetweenlifeanddeath,andwaslefttocomforthim。Mayshesurvivetobeahappywifeandmother,livingunderconditionsmorefavourabletoherwell-beingthanthosewhichtrampledoutthelifeofthatmistakenwoman,theill-starred,great-souledBeatrice,andbrokeherfather’sheart。
Say——whatarewe?Wearebutarrowswingedwithfearsandshotfromdarknessintodarkness;weareblindleadersoftheblind,aimlessbeatersofthiswintryair;losttravellersbymanystonypathsendinginoneend。Tellus,you,whohaveoutwornthecommontragedyandpassedthenarrowway,whatliesbeyonditsgate?Youaredumb,orwecannothearyouspeak。
ButBeatriceknowsto-day!
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