“Theyaren’tmine。”thoughtErnest,“andneverhavebeen“——“andsecondly,thatyoubringnosmellofglueorshavingsintothehousehere,ifyoumakeanypartoftheorganduringyourholidays。”
Ernestwasstilltooyoungtoknowhowunpleasantaletterhewasreceiving。Hebelievedtheinnuendoescontainedinittobeperfectlyjust。Heknewhewassadlydeficientinperseverance。Helikedsomethingsforalittlewhile,andthenfoundhedidnotlikethemanymore——andthiswasasbadasanythingwellcouldbe。Hisfather’slettergavehimoneofhismanyfitsofmelancholyoverhisownworthlessness,butthethoughtoftheorganconsoledhim,andhefeltsurethathereatanyratewassomethingtowhichhecouldapplyhimselfsteadilywithoutgrowingtiredofit。
ItwassettledthattheorganwasnottobebegunbeforetheChristmasholidayswereover,andthattillthenErnestshoulddoalittleplaincarpentering,soastogettoknowhowtousehistools。MissPontifexhadacarpenter’sbenchsetupinanouthouseuponherownpremises,andmadetermswiththemostrespectablecarpenterinRoughborough,bywhichoneofhismenwastocomeforacoupleofhourstwiceaweekandsetErnestontherightway;thenshediscoveredshewantedthisorthatsimplepieceofworkdone,andgavetheboyacommissiontodoit,payinghimhandsomelyaswellasfindinghimintoolsandmaterials。Shenevergavehimasyllableofgoodadvice,ortalkedtohimabouteverything’sdependinguponhisownexertions,butshekissedhimoften,andwouldcomeintotheworkshopandactthepartofonewhotookaninterestinwhatwasbeingdonesocleverlyaserelongtobecomereallyinterested。
Whatboywouldnottakekindlytoalmostanythingwithsuchassistance?Allboyslikemakingthings;theexerciseofsawing,planingandhammering,provedexactlywhathisaunthadwantedtofind——somethingthatshouldexercise,butnottoomuch,andatthesametimeamusehim;whenErnest’ssallowfacewasflushedwithhiswork,andhiseyesweresparklingwithpleasure,helookedquiteadifferentboyfromtheonehisaunthadtakeninhandonlyafewmonthsearlier。Hisinnerselfnevertoldhimthatthiswashumbug,asitdidaboutLatinandGreek。Makingstoolsanddrawerswasworthlivingfor,andafterChristmasthereloomedtheorgan,whichwasscarcelyeverabsentfromhismind。
Hisauntlethiminvitehisfriends,encouraginghimtobringthosewhomherquicksensetoldherwerethemostdesirable。Shesmartenedhimupalsoinhispersonalappearance,alwayswithoutpreachingtohim。Indeedsheworkedwondersduringtheshorttimethatwasallowedher,andifherlifehadbeensparedIcannotthinkthatmyherowouldhavecomeundertheshadowofthatcloudwhichcastsoheavyagloomoverhisyoungermanhood;butunfortunatelyforhimhisgleamofsunshinewastoohotandtoobrillianttolast,andhehadmanyastormyettoweather,beforehebecamefairlyhappy。Forthepresent,however,hewassupremelyso,andhisauntwashappyandgratefulforhishappiness,theimprovementshesawinhim,andhisunrepressedaffectionforherself。Shebecamefonderofhimfromdaytodayinspiteofhismanyfaultsandalmostincrediblefoolishnesses。Itwasperhapsonaccountoftheseverythingsthatshesawhowmuchhehadneedofher;butatanyrate,fromwhatevercause,shebecamestrengthenedinherdeterminationtobetohimintheplaceofparents,andtofindinhimasonratherthananephew。Butstillshemadenowill。
Allwentwellforthefirstpartofthefollowinghalfyear。MissPontifexspentthegreaterpartofherholidaysinLondon,andI
alsosawheratRoughborough,whereIspentafewdays,stayingatthe“Swan。”Iheardallaboutmygodsoninwhom,however,ItooklessinterestthanIsaidIdid。Itookmoreinterestinthestageatthattimethaninanythingelse,andasforErnest,Ifoundhimanuisanceforengrossingsomuchofhisaunt’sattention,andtakinghersomuchfromLondon。Theorganwasbegun,andmadefairprogressduringthefirsttwomonthsofthehalfyear。Ernestwashappierthanhehadeverbeenbefore,andwasstrugglingupwards。
Thebestboystookmorenoticeofhimforhisaunt’ssake,andheconsortedlesswiththosewholedhimintomischief。
ButmuchasMissPontifexhaddone,shecouldnotallatonceundotheeffectofsuchsurroundingsastheboyhadhadatBattersby。
Muchashefearedanddislikedhisfatherthoughhestillknewnothowmuchthiswas,hehadcaughtmuchfromhim;ifTheobaldhadbeenkinderErnestwouldhavemodelledhimselfuponhimentirely,anderelongwouldprobablyhavebecomeasthoroughalittleprigascouldhaveeasilybeenfound。
Fortunatelyhistemperhadcometohimfromhismother,who,whennotfrightened,andwhentherewasnothingonthehorizonwhichmightcrosstheslightestwhimofherhusband,wasanamiable,good-
naturedwoman。Ifitwasnotsuchanawfulthingtosayofanyone,Ishouldsaythatshemeantwell。
Ernesthadalsoinheritedhismother’sloveofbuildingcastlesintheair,and——soIsupposeitmustbecalled——hervanity。Hewasveryfondofshowingoff,and,providedhecouldattractattention,caredlittlefromwhomitcame,norwhatitwasfor。Hecaughtup,parrot-like,whateverjargonheheardfromhiselders,whichhethoughtwasthecorrectthing,andaireditinseasonandoutofseason,asthoughitwerehisown。
MissPontifexwasoldenoughandwiseenoughtoknowthatthisisthewayinwhicheventhegreatestmenasageneralrulebegintodevelop,andwasmorepleasedwithhisreceptivenessandreproductivenessthanalarmedatthethingshecaughtandreproduced。
Shesawthathewasmuchattachedtoherself,andtrustedtothisratherthantoanythingelse。Shesawalsothathisconceitwasnotveryprofound,andthathisfitsofself-abasementwereasextremeashisexaltationhadbeen。Hisimpulsivenessandsanguinetrustfulnessinanyonewhosmiledpleasantlyathim,orindeedwasnotabsolutelyunkindtohim,madehermoreanxiousabouthimthananyotherpointinhischaracter;shesawclearlythathewouldhavetofindhimselfrudelyundeceivedmanyatimeandoft,beforehewouldlearntodistinguishfriendfromfoewithinreasonabletime。
Itwasherperceptionofthiswhichledhertotaketheactionwhichshewassosooncalledupontotake。
Herhealthwasforthemostpartexcellent,andshehadneverhadaseriousillnessinherlife。Onemorning,however,soonafterEaster1850,sheawokefeelingseriouslyunwell。Forsomelittletimetherehadbeenatalkoffeverintheneighbourhood,butinthosedaystheprecautionsthatoughttobetakenagainstthespreadofinfectionwerenotsowellunderstoodasnow,andnobodydidanything。InadayortwoitbecameplainthatMissPontifexhadgotanattackoftyphoidfeverandwasdangerouslyill。Onthisshesentoffamessengertotown,anddesiredhimnottoreturnwithoutherlawyerandmyself。
Wearrivedontheafternoonofthedayonwhichwehadbeensummoned,andfoundherstillfreefromdelirium:indeed,thecheerywayinwhichshereceivedusmadeitdifficulttothinkshecouldbeindanger。Sheatonceexplainedherwishes,whichhadreference,asIexpected,tohernephew,andrepeatedthesubstanceofwhatIhavealreadyreferredtoashermainsourceofuneasinessconcerninghim。Thenshebeggedmebyourlongandcloseintimacy,bythesuddennessofthedangerthathadfallenonherandherpowerlessnesstoavertit,toundertakewhatshesaidshewellknew,ifshedied,wouldbeanunpleasantandinvidioustrust。
Shewantedtoleavethebulkofhermoneyostensiblytome,butinrealitytohernephew,sothatIshouldholditintrustforhimtillhewastwenty-eightyearsold,butneitherhenoranyoneelse,exceptherlawyerandmyself,wastoknowanythingaboutit。Shewouldleave5000poundsinotherlegacies,and15,000poundstoErnest——whichbythetimehewastwenty-eightwouldhaveaccumulatedto,say,30,000pounds。“Selloutthedebentures。”shesaid,“wherethemoneynowis——andputitintoMidlandOrdinary。”
“Lethimmakehismistakes。”shesaid,“uponthemoneyhisgrandfatherlefthim。Iamnoprophet,butevenIcanseethatitwilltakethatboymanyyearstoseethingsashisneighboursseethem。Hewillgetnohelpfromhisfatherandmother,whowouldneverforgivehimforhisgoodluckifIlefthimthemoneyoutright;IdaresayIamwrong,butIthinkhewillhavetolosethegreaterpartorallofwhathehas,beforehewillknowhowtokeepwhathewillgetfromme。”
Supposinghewentbankruptbeforehewastwenty-eightyearsold,themoneywastobemineabsolutely,butshecouldtrustme,shesaid,tohanditovertoErnestinduetime。
“If。”shecontinued,“Iammistaken,theworstthatcanhappenisthathewillcomeintoalargersumattwenty-eightinsteadofasmallersumat,say,twenty-three,forIwouldnevertrusthimwithitearlier,and——ifheknowsnothingaboutithewillnotbeunhappyforthewantofit。”
Shebeggedmetotake2000poundsinreturnforthetroubleIshouldhaveintakingchargeoftheboy’sestate,andasasignofthetestatrix’shopethatIwouldnowandagainlookafterhimwhilehewasstillyoung。Theremaining3000poundsIwastopayinlegaciesandannuitiestofriendsandservants。
Invainbothherlawyerandmyselfremonstratedwithherontheunusualandhazardousnatureofthisarrangement。WetoldherthatsensiblepeoplewillnottakeamoresanguineviewconcerninghumannaturethantheCourtsofChancerydo。Wesaid,infact,everythingthatanyoneelsewouldsay。Sheadmittedeverything,buturgedthathertimewasshort,thatnothingwouldinducehertoleavehermoneytohernephewintheusualway。“Itisanunusuallyfoolishwill。”
shesaid,“butheisanunusuallyfoolishboy;“andshesmiledquitemerrilyatherlittlesally。Likealltherestofherfamily,shewasverystubbornwhenhermindwasmadeup。Sothethingwasdoneasshewishedit。
NoprovisionwasmadeforeithermydeathorErnest’s——MissPontifexhadsettleditthatwewereneitherofusgoingtodie,andwastooilltogointodetails;shewassoanxious,moreover,tosignherwillwhilestillabletodosothatwehadpracticallynoalternativebuttodoasshetoldus。Ifsherecoveredwecouldseethingsputonamoresatisfactoryfooting,andfurtherdiscussionwouldevidentlyimpairherchancesofrecovery;itseemedthenonlytoolikelythatitwasacaseofthiswillornowillatall。
WhenthewillwassignedIwrotealetterinduplicate,sayingthatIheldallMissPontifexhadleftmeintrustforErnestexceptasregards5000pounds,butthathewasnottocomeintothebequest,andwastoknownothingwhateveraboutitdirectlyorindirectly,tillhewastwenty-eightyearsold,andifhewasbankruptbeforehecameintoitthemoneywastobemineabsolutely。AtthefootofeachletterMissPontifexwrote,“TheabovewasmyunderstandingwhenImademywill。”andthensignedhername。Thesolicitorandhisclerkwitnessed;IkeptonecopymyselfandhandedtheothertoMissPontifex’ssolicitor。