ThiswastheaverageattitudeoffairlyeducatedyoungmenandwomentowardstheMosaiccosmogonyfifty,forty,oreventwentyyearsago。
Thecombatingofinfidelity,therefore,offeredlittlescopeforenterprisingyoungclergymen,norhadtheChurchawakenedtotheactivitywhichshehassincedisplayedamongthepoorinourlargetowns。Thesewerethenleftalmostwithoutaneffortatresistanceorco-operationtothelaboursofthosewhohadsucceededWesley。
Missionaryworkindeedinheathencountrieswasbeingcarriedonwithsomeenergy,butTheobalddidnotfeelanycalltobeamissionary。Christinasuggestedthistohimmorethanonce,andassuredhimoftheunspeakablehappinessitwouldbetohertobethewifeofamissionary,andtosharehisdangers;sheandTheobaldmightevenbemartyred;ofcoursetheywouldbemartyredsimultaneously,andmartyrdommanyyearshenceasregardedfromthearbourintheRectorygardenwasnotpainful,itwouldensurethemagloriousfutureinthenextworld,andatanyrateposthumousrenowninthis——eveniftheywerenotmiraculouslyrestoredtolifeagain——
andsuchthingshadhappenederenowinthecaseofmartyrs。
Theobald,however,hadnotbeenkindledbyChristina’senthusiasm,soshefellbackupontheChurchofRome——anenemymoredangerous,ifpossible,thanpaganismitself。AcombatwithRomanismmightevenyetwinforherandTheobaldthecrownofmartyrdom。True,theChurchofRomewastolerablyquietjustthen,butitwasthecalmbeforethestorm,ofthisshewasassured,withaconvictiondeeperthanshecouldhaveattainedbyanyargumentfoundeduponmerereason。
“We,dearestTheobald。”sheexclaimed,“willbeeverfaithful。Wewillstandfirmandsupportoneanothereveninthehourofdeathitself。Godinhismercymayspareusfrombeingburntalive。Hemayormaynotdoso。OhLord“andsheturnedhereyesprayerfullytoHeaven,“sparemyTheobald,orgrantthathemaybebeheaded。”
“Mydearest。”saidTheobaldgravely,“donotletusagitateourselvesunduly。Ifthehouroftrialcomesweshallbebestpreparedtomeetitbyhavingledaquietunobtrusivelifeofself-
denialanddevotiontoGod’sglory。SuchalifeletusprayGodthatitmaypleaseHimtoenableustopraythatwemaylead。”
“DearestTheobald。”exclaimedChristina,dryingthetearsthathadgatheredinhereyes,“youarealways,alwaysright。Letusbeself-denying,pure,upright,truthfulinwordanddeed。”SheclaspedherhandsandlookeduptoHeavenasshespoke。
“Dearest。”rejoinedherlover,“wehaveeverhithertoendeavouredtobeallofthesethings;wehavenotbeenworldlypeople;letuswatchandpraythatwemaysocontinuetotheend。”
Themoonhadrisenandthearbourwasgettingdamp,sotheyadjournedfurtheraspirationsforamoreconvenientseason。AtothertimesChristinapicturedherselfandTheobaldasbravingthescornofalmosteveryhumanbeingintheachievementofsomemightytaskwhichshouldredoundtothehonourofherRedeemer。Shecouldfaceanythingforthis。ButalwaystowardstheendofhervisiontherecamealittlecoronationscenehighupinthegoldenregionsoftheHeavens,andadiademwassetuponherheadbytheSonofManHimself,amidahostofangelsandarchangelswholookedonwithenvyandadmiration——andhereevenTheobaldhimselfwasoutofit。
IftherecouldbesuchathingastheMammonofRighteousnessChristinawouldhaveassuredlymadefriendswithit。HerpapaandmammawereveryestimablepeopleandwouldinthecourseoftimereceiveHeavenlyMansionsinwhichtheywouldbeexceedinglycomfortable;sodoubtlesswouldhersisters;soperhaps,evenmightherbrothers;butforherselfshefeltthatahigherdestinywaspreparing,whichitwasherdutynevertolosesightof。ThefirststeptowardsitwouldbehermarriagewithTheobald。Inspite,however,oftheseflightsofreligiousromanticism,Christinawasagood-temperedkindly-naturedgirlenough,who,ifshehadmarriedasensiblelayman——wewillsayahotel-keeper——wouldhavedevelopedintoagoodlandladyandbeendeservedlypopularwithherguests。
SuchwasTheobald’sengagedlife。Manyalittlepresentpassedbetweenthepair,andmanyasmallsurprisedidtheypreparepleasantlyforoneanother。Theyneverquarrelled,andneitherofthemeverflirtedwithanyoneelse。MrsAllabyandhisfuturesisters-in-lawidolisedTheobaldinspiteofitsbeingimpossibletogetanotherdeacontocomeandbeplayedforaslongasTheobaldwasabletohelpMrAllaby,whichnowofcoursehedidfreegratisandfornothing;twoofthesisters,however,didmanagetofindhusbandsbeforeChristinawasactuallymarried,andoneachoccasionTheobaldplayedthepartofdecoyelephant。Intheendonlytwooutofthesevendaughtersremainedsingle。
Afterthreeorfouryears,oldMrPontifexbecameaccustomedtohisson’sengagementandlookeduponitasamongthethingswhichhadnowaprescriptiverighttotoleration。Inthespringof1831,morethanfiveyearsafterTheobaldhadfirstwalkedovertoCrampsford,oneofthebestlivingsinthegiftoftheCollegeunexpectedlyfellvacant,andwasforvariousreasonsdeclinedbythetwofellowsseniortoTheobald,whomighteachhavebeenexpectedtotakeit。
ThelivingwasthenofferedtoandofcourseacceptedbyTheobald,beinginvaluenotlessthan500poundsayearwithasuitablehouseandgarden。OldMrPontifexthencamedownmorehandsomelythanwasexpectedandsettled10,000poundsonhissonanddaughter-in-lawforlifewithremaindertosuchoftheirissueastheymightappoint。InthemonthofJuly,1831TheobaldandChristinabecamemanandwife。
AduenumberofoldshoeshadbeenthrownatthecarriageinwhichthehappypairdepartedfromtheRectory,andithadturnedthecorneratthebottomofthevillage。Itcouldthenbeseenfortwoorthreehundredyardscreepingpastafircoppice,andafterthiswaslosttoview。
“John。”saidMrAllabytohisman-servant,“shutthegate;“andhewentindoorswithasighofreliefwhichseemedtosay:“Ihavedoneit,andIamalive。”Thiswasthereactionafteraburstofenthusiasticmerrimentduringwhichtheoldgentlemanhadruntwentyyardsafterthecarriagetoflingaslipperatit——whichhehaddulyflung。
ButwhatwerethefeelingsofTheobaldandChristinawhenthevillagewaspassedandtheywererollingquietlybythefirplantation?Itisatthispointthateventhestoutestheartmustfail,unlessitbeatinthebreastofonewhoisoverheadandearsinlove。Ifayoungmanisinasmallboatonachoppysea,alongwithhisaffiancedbrideandbotharesea-sick,andifthesickswaincanforgethisownanguishinthehappinessofholdingthefairone’sheadwhensheisatherworst——thenheisinlove,andhisheartwillbeinnodangeroffailinghimashepasseshisfirplantation。Otherpeople,andunfortunatelybyfarthegreaternumberofthosewhogetmarriedmustbeclassedamongthe“otherpeople。”willinevitablygothroughaquarterorhalfanhourofgreaterorlessbadnessasthecasemaybe。Takingnumbersintoaccount,IshouldthinkmorementalsufferinghadbeenundergoneinthestreetsleadingfromStGeorge’s,HanoverSquare,thaninthecondemnedcellsofNewgate。ThereisnotimeatwhichwhattheItalianscalllafigliadellaMortelayshercoldhanduponamanmoreawfullythanduringthefirsthalfhourthatheisalonewithawomanwhomhehasmarriedbutnevergenuinelyloved。
Death’sdaughterdidnotspareTheobald。Hehadbehavedverywellhitherto。WhenChristinahadofferedtolethimgo,hehadstucktohispostwithamagnanimityonwhichhehadplumedhimselfeversince。Fromthattimeforwardhehadsaidtohimself:“I,atanyrate,amtheverysoulofhonour;Iamnot。”etc。,etc。True,atthemomentofmagnanimitytheactualcashpayment,sotospeak,wasstilldistant;whenhisfathergaveformalconsenttohismarriagethingsbegantolookmoreserious;whenthecollegelivinghadfallenvacantandbeenacceptedtheylookedmoreseriousstill;butwhenChristinaactuallynamedtheday,thenTheobald’sheartfaintedwithinhim。
Theengagementhadgoneonsolongthathehadgotintoagroove,andtheprospectofchangewasdisconcerting。Christinaandhehadgoton,hethoughttohimself,verynicelyforagreatnumberofyears;why——why——whyshouldtheynotcontinuetogoonastheyweredoingnowfortherestoftheirlives?Buttherewasnomorechanceofescapeforhimthanforthesheepwhichisbeingdriventothebutcher’sbackpremises,andlikethesheephefeltthattherewasnothingtobegainedbyresistance,sohemadenone。Hebehaved,infact,withdecency,andwasdeclaredonallhandstobeoneofthehappiestmenimaginable。
Now,however,tochangethemetaphor,thedrophadactuallyfallen,andthepoorwretchwashanginginmidairalongwiththecreatureofhisaffections。Thiscreaturewasnowthirty-threeyearsold,andlookedit:shehadbeenweeping,andhereyesandnosewerereddish;if“IhavedoneitandIamalive。”waswrittenonMrAllaby’sfaceafterhehadthrowntheshoe,“Ihavedoneit,andI
donotseehowIcanpossiblylivemuchlonger“wasuponthefaceofTheobaldashewasbeingdrivenalongbythefirPlantation。This,however,wasnotapparentattheRectory。Allthatcouldbeseentherewasthebobbingupanddownofthepostilion’shead,whichjustover-toppedthehedgebytheroad-sideasheroseinhisstirrups,andtheblackandyellowbodyofthecarriage。
Forsometimethepairsaidnothing:whattheymusthavefeltduringtheirfirsthalfhour,thereadermustguess,foritisbeyondmypowertotellhim;attheendofthattime,however,TheobaldhadrummagedupaconclusionfromsomeoddcornerofhissoultotheeffectthatnowheandChristinaweremarriedthesoonertheyfellintotheirfuturemutualrelationsthebetter。Ifpeoplewhoareinadifficultywillonlydothefirstlittlereasonablethingwhichtheycanclearlyrecogniseasreasonable,theywillalwaysfindthenextstepmoreeasybothtoseeandtake。What,then,thoughtTheobald,washereatthismomentthefirstandmostobviousmattertobeconsidered,andwhatwouldbeanequitableviewofhisandChristina’srelativepositionsinrespecttoit?Clearlytheirfirstdinnerwastheirfirstjointentryintothedutiesandpleasuresofmarriedlife。NolessclearlyitwasChristina’sdutytoorderit,andhisowntoeatitandpayforit。
Theargumentsleadingtothisconclusion,andtheconclusionitself,flasheduponTheobaldaboutthreeandahalfmilesafterhehadleftCrampsfordontheroadtoNewmarket。Hehadbreakfastedearly,buthisusualappetitehadfailedhim。Theyhadleftthevicarageatnoonwithoutstayingfortheweddingbreakfast。Theobaldlikedanearlydinner;itdawneduponhimthathewasbeginningtobehungry;
fromthistotheconclusionstatedintheprecedingparagraphthestepshadbeeneasy。Afterafewminutes’furtherreflectionhebroachedthemattertohisbride,andthustheicewasbroken。
MrsTheobaldwasnotpreparedforsosuddenanassumptionofimportance。Hernerves,neverofthestrongest,hadbeenstrungtotheirhighesttensionbytheeventofthemorning。Shewantedtoescapeobservation;shewasconsciousoflookingalittleolderthanshequitelikedtolookasabridewhohadbeenmarriedthatmorning;shefearedthelandlady,thechamber-maid,thewaiter——
everybodyandeverything;herheartbeatsofastthatshecouldhardlyspeak,muchlessgothroughtheordealoforderingdinnerinastrangehotelwithastrangelandlady。Shebeggedandprayedtobeletoff。IfTheobaldwouldonlyorderdinnerthisonce,shewouldorderitanydayandeverydayinfuture。