THISisthestoryofwhataWoman’spatiencecanendure,andwhataMan’sresolutioncanachieve。
IfthemachineryoftheLawcouldbedependedontofathomeverycaseofsuspicion,andtoconducteveryprocessofinquiry,withmoderateassistanceonlyfromthelubricatinginfluencesofoilofgold,theeventswhichfillthesepagesmighthaveclaimedtheirshareofthepublicattentioninaCourtofJustice。
ButtheLawisstill,incertaininevitablecases,thepre-engagedservantofthelongpurse;andthestoryislefttobetold,forthefirsttime,inthisplace。AstheJudgemightoncehaveheardit,sotheReadershallhearitnow。Nocircumstanceofimportance,fromthebeginningtotheendofthedisclosure,shallberelatedonhearsayevidence。WhenthewriteroftheseintroductorylinesWalterHartrightbynamehappenstobemorecloselyconnectedthanotherswiththeincidentstoberecorded,hewillbethenarrator。Whennot,hewillretirefromthepositionofnarrator;
andhistaskwillbecontinued,fromthepointatwhichhehasleftitoff,byotherpersonswhocanspeaktothecircumstancesundernoticefromtheirownknowledge,justasclearlyandpositivelyashehasspokenbeforethem。
Thus,thestoryherepresentedwillbetoldbymorethanonepen,asthestoryofanoffenceagainstthelawsistoldinCourtbymorethanonewitness——withthesameobjectinbothcases,topresentthetruthalwaysinitsmostdirectandmostintelligibleaspect;andtotracethecourseofonecompleteseriesofevents,bymakingthepersonswhohavebeenmostcloselyconnectedwiththem,ateachsuccessivestage,relatetheirownexperience,wordforword。
LetWalterHartright,teacherofdrawing,agedtwenty-eightyears,beheardfirst。THESTORYBEGUNBYWALTERHARTRIGHTofClement’sinn,TeacherofDrawingIItwasthelastdayofJuly。Thelonghotsummerwasdrawingtoaclose;
andwe,thewearypilgrimsoftheLondonpavement,werebeginningtothinkofthecloud-shadowsonthecorn-fields,andtheautumnbreezesonthesea-shore。
Formyownpoorpart,thefadingsummerleftmeoutofhealth,outofspirits,and,ifthetruthmustbetold,outofmoneyaswell。DuringthepastyearIhadnotmanagedmyprofessionalresourcesascarefullyasusual;
andmyextravagancenowlimitedmetotheprospectofspendingtheautumneconomicallybetweenmymother’scottageatHampsteadandmyownchambersintown。
Theevening,Iremember,wasstillandcloudy;theLondonairwasatitsheaviest;thedistanthumofthestreet-trafficwasatitsfaintest;
thesmallpulseofthelifewithinme,andthegreatheartofthecityaroundme,seemedtobesinkinginunison,languidlyandmorelanguidly,withthesinkingsun。IrousedmyselffromthebookwhichIwasdreamingoverratherthanreading,andleftmychamberstomeetthecoolnightairinthesuburbs。ItwasoneofthetwoeveningsineveryweekWhichIwasaccustomedtospendwithmymotherandmysister。SoIturnedmystepsnorthwardinthedirectionofHampstead。
EventswhichIhaveyettorelatemakeitnecessarytomentioninthisplacethatmyfatherhadbeendeadsomeyearsattheperiodofwhichI
amnowwriting;andthatmysisterSarahandIwerethesolesurvivorsofafamilyoffivechildren。Myfatherwasadrawing-masterbeforeme。
Hisexertionshadmadehimhighlysuccessfulinhisprofession;andhisaffectionateanxietytoprovideforthefutureofthosewhoweredependentonhislabourshadimpelledhim,fromthetimeofhismarriage,todevotetotheinsuringofhislifeamuchlargerportionofhisincomethanmostmenconsideritnecessarytosetasideforthatpurpose。Thankstohisadmirableprudenceandself-denialmymotherandsisterwereleft,afterhisdeath,asindependentoftheworldastheyhadbeenduringhislifetime。
Isucceededtohisconnection,andhadeveryreasontofeelgratefulfortheprospectthatawaitedmeatmystartinginlife。
Thequiettwilightwasstilltremblingonthetopmostridgesoftheheath;andtheviewofLondonbelowmehadsunkintoablackgulfintheshadowofthecloudynight,whenIstoodbeforethegateofmymother’scottage。Ihadhardlyrungthebellbeforethehousedoorwasopenedviolently;
myworthyItalianfriend,ProfessorPesca,appearedintheservant’splace;
anddartedoutjoyouslytoreceiveme,withashrillforeignparodyonanEnglishcheer。
Onhisownaccount,and,Imustbeallowedtoadd,onminealso,theProfessormeritsthehonourofaformalintroduction。Accidenthasmadehimthestarting-pointofthestrangefamilystorywhichitisthepurposeofthesepagestounfold。
IhadfirstbecomeacquaintedwithmyItalianfriendbymeetinghimatcertaingreathouseswherehetaughthisownlanguageandItaughtdrawing。
AllIthenknewofthehistoryofhislifewas,thathehadonceheldasituationintheUniversityofPadua;thathehadleftItalyforpoliticalreasonsthenatureofwhichheuniformlydeclinedtomentiontoanyone;
andthathehadbeenformanyyearsrespectablyestablishedinLondonasateacheroflanguages。
Withoutbeingactuallyadwarf——forhewasperfectlywellproportionedfromheadtofoot——Pescawas,Ithink,thesmallesthumanbeingIeversawoutofashow-room。Remarkableanywhere,byhispersonalappearance,hewasstillfurtherdistinguishedamongtherankandfileofmankindbytheharmlesseccentricityofhischaracter。Therulingideaofhislifeappearedtobe,thathewasboundtoshowhisgratitudetothecountrywhichhadaffordedhimanasylumandameansofsubsistencebydoinghisutmosttoturnhimselfintoanEnglishman。Notcontentwithpayingthenationingeneralthecomplimentofinvariablycarryinganumbrella,andinvariablywearinggaitersandawhitehat,theProfessorfurtheraspiredtobecomeanEnglishmaninhishabitsandamusements,aswellasinhispersonalappearance。Findingusdistinguished,asanation,byourloveofathleticexercises,thelittleman,intheinnocenceofhisheart,devotedhimselfimpromptutoallourEnglishsportsandpastimeswheneverhehadtheopportunityofjoiningthem;firmlypersuadedthathecouldadoptournationalamusementsofthefieldbyaneffortofwillpreciselyashehadadoptedournationalgaitersandournationalwhitehat。
Ihadseenhimriskhislimbsblindlyatafox-huntandinacricket-field;
andsoonafterwardsIsawhimriskhislife,justasblindly,intheseaatBrighton。
Wehadmetthereaccidentally,andwerebathingtogether。Ifwehadbeenengagedinanyexercisepeculiartomyownnationlshould,ofcourse,havelookedafterPescacarefully;butasforeignersaregenerallyquiteaswellabletotakecareofthemselvesinthewaterasEnglishmen,itneveroccurredtomethattheartofswimmingmightmerelyaddonemoretothelistofmanlyexerciseswhichtheprofessorbelievedthathecouldlearnimpromptu。Soonafterwehadbothstruckoutfromshore,Istopped,findingmyfrienddidnotgainonme,andturnedroundtolookforhim。
Tomyhorrorandamazement,Isawnothingbetweenmeandthebeachbuttwolittlewhitearmswhichstruggledforaninstantabovethesurfaceofthewater,andthendisappearedfromview。WhenIdivedforhim,thepoorlittlemanwaslyingquietlycoiledupatthebottom,inahollowofshingle,lookingbymanydegreessmallerthanIhadeverseenhimlookbefore。DuringthefewminutesthatelapsedwhileIwastakinghimin,theairrevivedhim,andheascendedthestepsofthemachinewithmyassistance。
Withthepartialrecoveryofhisanimationcamethereturnofhiswonderfuldelusiononthesubjectofswimming。Assoonashischatteringteethwouldlethimspeak,hesmiledvacantly,andsaidhethoughtitmusthavebeentheCramp。
Whenhehadthoroughlyrecoveredhimself,andhadjoinedmeonthebeach,hiswarmSouthernnaturebrokethroughallartificialEnglishrestraintsinamoment。Heoverwhelmedmewiththewildestexpressionsofaffection——exclaimedpassionately,inhisexaggeratedItalianway,thathewouldholdhislifehenceforthatmydisposal——anddeclaredthatheshouldneverbehappyagainuntilhehadfoundanopportunityofprovinghisgratitudebyrenderingmesomeservicewhichImightremember,onmyside,totheendofmydays。
Ididmybesttostopthetorrentofhistearsandprotestationsbypersistingintreatingthewholeadventureasagoodsubjectforajoke;
andsucceededatlast,asIimagined,inlesseningPesca’soverwhelmingsenseofobligationtome。LittledidIthinkthen——littledidIthinkafterwardswhenourpleasantholidayhaddrawntoanend——thattheopportunityofservingmeforwhichmygratefulcompanionsoardentlylongedwassoontocome;thathewaseagerlytoseizeitontheinstant;andthatbysodoinghewastoturnthewholecurrentofmyexistenceintoanewchannel,andtoaltermetomyselfalmostpastrecognition。
Yetsoitwas。IfIhadnotdivedforProfessorPescawhenhelayunderwateronhisshinglebed,Ishouldinallhumanprobabilityneverhavebeenconnectedwiththestorywhichthesepageswillrelate——Ishouldnever,perhaps,haveheardeventhenameofthewomanwhohaslivedinallmythoughts,whohaspossessedherselfofallmyenergies,whohasbecometheoneguidinginfluencethatnowdirectsthepurposeofmylife。IIPesca’sfaceandmanner,ontheeveningwhenweconfrontedeachotheratmymother’sgate,weremorethansufficienttoinformmethatsomethingextraordinaryhadhappened。Itwasquiteuseless,however,toaskhimforanimmediateexplanation。Icouldonlyconjecture,whilehewasdraggingmeinbybothhands,thatknowingmyhabitshehadcometothecottagetomakesureofmeetingmethatnight,andthathehadsomenewstotellofanunusuallyagreeablekind。
Webothbouncedintotheparlourinahighlyabruptandundignifiedmanner。Mymothersatbytheopenwindowlaughingandfanningherself。
Pescawasoneofherespecialfavourites,andhiswildesteccentricitieswerealwayspardonableinhereyes。Poordearsoul!fromthefirstmomentwhenshefoundoutthatthelittleProfessorwasdeeplyandgratefullyattachedtoherson,sheopenedherhearttohimunreservedly,andtookallhispuzzlingforeignpeculiaritiesforgranted,withoutsomuchasattemptingtounderstandanyoneofthem。
MysisterSarah,withalltheadvantagesofyouth,was,strangelyenough,lesspliable。ShedidfulljusticetoPesca’sexcellentqualitiesofheart;
butshecouldnotaccepthimimplicitly,asmymotheracceptedhimformysake。HerinsularnotionsofproprietyroseinperpetualrevoltagainstPesca’sconstitutionalcontemptforappearances;andshewasalwaysmoreorlessundisguisedlyastonishedathermother’sfamiliaritywiththeeccentriclittleforeigner。Ihaveobserved,notonlyinmysister’scase,butintheinstancesofothers,thatweoftheyounggenerationarenothinglikesoheartyandsoimpulsiveassomeofourelders。lconstantlyseeoldpeopleflushedandexcitedbytheprospectofsomeanticipatedpleasurewhichaltogetherfailstorufflethetranquillityoftheirserenegrandchildren。
Arewe,Iwonder,quitesuchgenuineboysandgirlsnowasourseniorswereintheirtime?Hasthegreatadvanceineducationtakenrathertoolongastride;andarewe,inthesemoderndays,justtheleasttrifleintheworldtoowellbroughtup?
Withoutattemptingtoanswerthosequestionsdecisively,ImayatleastrecordthatIneversawmymotherandmysistertogetherinPesca’ssociety,withoutfindingmymothermuchtheyoungerwomanofthetwo。Onthisoccasion,forexample,whiletheoldladywaslaughingheartilyovertheboyishmannerinwhichwetumbledintotheparlour,Sarahwasperturbedlypickingupthebrokenpiecesofateacup,whichtheProfessorhadknockedoffthetableinhisprecipitateadvancetomeetmeatthedoor。