Lethimbecontentwithwhathehasgot——withwhatIleaveunmolested,foryoursake,tohimandtoyou。Saytohimwithmycompliments,ifhestirsme,hehasFoscotodealwith。IntheEnglishofthePopularTongue,Iinformhim——Foscosticksatnothing。DearLady,goodmorning。’’Hiscoldgreyeyessettledonmyface——hetookoffhishatsolemnly——bowed,bare-headed——andleftme。’
`Withoutreturning?withoutsayingmorelastwords?’
`Heturnedatthecornerofthestreet,andwavedhishand,andthenstruckittheatricallyonhisbreast。Ilostsightofhimafterthat。Hedisappearedintheoppositedirectiontoourhouse,andIranbacktoLaura。
BeforeIwasindoorsagain,Ihadmadeupmymindthatwemustgo。Thehouseespeciallyinyourabsencewasaplaceofdangerinsteadofaplaceofsafety,nowthattheCounthaddiscoveredit。IfIcouldhavefeltcertainofyourreturn,Ishouldhaveriskedwaitingtillyoucameback。Butlwascertainofnothing,andIactedatonceonmyownimpulse。Youhadspoken,beforeleavingus,ofmovingintoaquieterneighbourhoodandpurerair,forthesakeofLaura’shealth。Ihadonlytoremindherofthat,andtosuggestsurprisingyouandsavingyoutroublebymanagingthemoveinyourabsence,tomakeherquiteasanxiousforthechangeasIwas。
Shehelpedmetopackupyourthings,andshehasarrangedthemallforyouinyournewworking-roomhere。’
`Whatmadeyouthinkofcomingtothisplace?’
`MyignoranceofotherlocalitiesintheneighbourhoodofLondon。I
feltthenecessityofgettingasfarawayaspossiblefromouroldlodgings,andIknewsomethingofFulham,becauseIhadoncebeenatschoolthere。
Idespatchedamessengerwithanote,onthechancethattheschoolmightstillbeinexistence。Itwasinexistence——thedaughtersofmyoldmistresswerecarryingitonforher,andtheyengagedthisplacefromtheinstructionsIhadsent。Itwasjustpost-timewhenthemessengerreturnedtomewiththeaddressofthehouse。Wemovedafterdark——wecameherequiteunobserved。
HaveIdoneright,Walter?HaveIjustifiedyourtrustinme?’
Iansweredherwarmlyandgratefully,asIreallyfelt。ButtheanxiouslookremainedonherfacewhileIwasspeaking,andthefirstquestionsheasked,whenIhaddone,relatedtoCountFosco。
Isawthatshewasthinkingofhimnowwithachangedmind。Nofreshoutbreakofangeragainsthim,nonewappealtometohastenthedayofreckoningescapedher。Herconvictionthattheman’shatefuladmirationofherselfwasreallysincere,seemedtohaveincreasedahundredfoldherdistrustofhisunfathomablecunning,herinborndreadofthewickedenergyandvigilanceofallhisfaculties。Hervoicefelllow,hermannerwashesitating,hereyessearchedintominewithaneagerfearwhensheaskedmewhatIthoughtofhismessage,andwhatImeanttodonextafterhearingit。
`Notmanyweekshavepassed,Marian,’Ianswered,`sincemyinterviewwithMrKyrle。WhenheandIparted,thelastwordsIsaidtohimaboutLaurawerethese:``Heruncle’shouseshallopentoreceiveher,inthepresenceofeverysoulwhofollowedthefalsefuneraltothegrave;theliethatrecordsherdeathshallbepubliclyerasedfromthetombstonebytheauthorityoftheheadofthefamily,andthetwomenwhohavewrongedhershallanswerfortheircrimetoME,thoughthejusticethatsitsintribunalsispowerlesstopursuethem。’’Oneofthosemenisbeyondmortalreach。Theotherremains,andmyresolutionremains。’
Hereyeslitup——hercolourrose。Shesaidnothing,butIsawallhersympathiesgatheringtomineinherface。
`Idon’tdisguisefrommyself,orfromyou,’Iwenton,`thattheprospectbeforeusismorethandoubtful。Theriskswehaverunalreadyare,itmaybe,triflescomparedwiththerisksthatthreatenusinthefuture,buttheventureshallbetried,Marian,forallthat。IamnotrashenoughtomeasuremyselfagainstsuchamanastheCountbeforeIamwellpreparedforhim。Ihavelearntpatience——Icanwaitmytime。Lethimbelievethathismessagehasproduceditseffect——lethimknownothingofus,andhearnothingofus——letusgivehimfulltimetofeelsecure——hisownboastfulnature,unlessIseriouslymistakehim,willhastenthatresult。
Thisisonereasonforwaiting,butthereisanothermoreimportantstill。
Myposition,Marian,towardsyouandtowardsLauraoughttobeastrongeronethanitisnowbeforeItryourlastchance。’
Sheleanedneartome,withalookofsurprise。
`Howcanitbestronger?’sheasked。
`Iwilltellyou,’Ireplied,`whenthetimecomes。Ithasnotcomeyet——itmaynevercomeatall。ImaybesilentaboutittoLauraforever——Imustbesilentnow,eventoyou,tillIseeformyselfthatIcanharmlesslyandhonourablyspeak。Letusleavethatsubject。
Thereisanotherwhichhasmorepressingclaimsonourattention。YouhavekeptLaura,mercifullykepther,inignoranceofherhusband’sdeath——’
`Oh,Walter,surelyitmustbelongyetbeforewetellherofit?’
`No,Marian。Betterthatyoushouldrevealittohernow,thanthataccident,whichnoonecanguardagainst,shouldrevealittoheratsomefuturetime。Spareherallthedetails——breakittoherverytenderly,buttellherthatheisdead。’
`Youhaveareason,Walter,forwishinghertoknowofherhusband’sdeathbesidesthereasonyouhavejustmentioned?’
`Ihave。’
`Areasonconnectedwiththatsubjectwhichmustnotbementionedbetweenusyet?——whichmayneverbementionedtoLauraatall?’
Shedweltonthelastwordsmeaningly。WhenIansweredherintheaffirmative,Idweltonthemtoo。
Herfacegrewpale。Forawhileshelookedatmewithasad,hesitatinginterest。Anunaccustomedtendernesstrembledinherdarkeyesandsoftenedherfirmlips,assheglancedasideattheemptychairinwhichthedearcompanionofallourjoysandsorrowshadbeensitting。
`IthinkIunderstand,’shesaid。`IthinkIoweittoherandtoyou,Walter,totellherofherhusband’sdeath。’
Shesighed,andheldmyhandfastforamoment——thendroppeditabruptly,andlefttheroom。OnthenextdayLauraknewthathisdeathhadreleasedher,andthattheerrorandthecalamityofherlifelayburiedinhistomb。
Hisnamewasmentionedamongusnomore。Thenceforward,weshrankfromtheslightestapproachtothesubjectofhisdeath,andinthesamescrupulousmanner,MarianandIavoidedallfurtherreferencetothatothersubject,which,byherconsentandmine,wasnottobementionedbetweenusyet。
Itwasnotthelesspresentinourminds——itwasratherkeptaliveinthembytherestraintwhichwehadimposedonourselves。WebothwatchedLauramoreanxiouslythanever,sometimeswaitingandhoping,sometimeswaitingandfearing,tillthetimecame。
Bydegreeswereturnedtoouraccustomedwayoflife。Iresumedthedailywork,whichhadbeensuspendedduringmyabsenceinHampshire。Ournewlodgingscostusmorethanthesmallerandlessconvenientroomswhichwehadleft,andtheclaimthusimpliedonmyincreasedexertionswasstrengthenedbythedoubtfulnessofourfutureprospects。Emergenciesmightyethappenwhichwouldexhaustourlittlefundatthebanker’s,andtheworkofmyhandsmightbe,ultimately,allwehadtolooktoforsupport。Morepermanentandmorelucrativeemploymentthanhadyetbeenofferedtomewasanecessityofourposition——anecessityforwhichInowdiligentlysetmyselftoprovide。
ItmustnotbesupposedthattheintervalofrestandseclusionofwhichIamnowwriting,entirelysuspended,onmypart,allpursuitoftheoneabsorbingpurposewithwhichmythoughtsandactionsarcassociatedinthesepages。Thatpurposewas,formonthsandmonthsyet,nevertorelaxitsclaimsonme。Theslowripeningofitstillleftmeameasureofprecautiontotake,anobligationofgratitudetoperform,andadoubtfulquestiontosolve。
Themeasureofprecautionrelated,necessarily,totheCount。Itwasofthelastimportancetoascertain,ifpossible,whetherhisplanscommittedhimtoremaininginEngland——or,inotherwords,toremainingwithinmyreach。Icontrivedtosetthisdoubtatrestbyverysimplemeans。HisaddressinStJohn’sWoodbeingknowntome,Iinquiredintheneighbourhood,andhavingfoundouttheagentwhohadthedisposalofthefurnishedhouseinwhichhelived,Iaskedifnumberfive,ForestRoad,waslikelytobeletwithinareasonabletime。Thereplywasinthenegative。Iwasinformedthattheforeigngentlemanthenresidinginthehousehadrenewedhistermofoccupationforanothersixmonths,andwouldremaininpossessionuntiltheendofJuneinthefollowingyear。WewerethenatthebeginningofDecemberonly。IlefttheagentwithmymindrelievedfromallpresentfearoftheCount’sescapingme。
TheobligationIhadtoperformtookmeoncemoreintothepresenceofMrsClements。Ihadpromisedtoreturn,andtoconfidetoherthoseparticularsrelatingtothedeathandburialofAnneCatherickwhichI
hadbeenobligedtowithholdatourfirstinterview。Changedascircumstancesnowwere,therewasnohindrancetomytrustingthegoodwomanwithasmuchofthestoryoftheconspiracyasitwasnecessarytotell。Ihadeveryreasonthatsympathyandfriendlyfeelingcouldsuggesttourgeonmethespeedyperformanceofmypromise,andIdidconscientiouslyandcarefullyperformit。Thereisnoneedtoburdenthesepageswithanystatementofwhatpassedattheinterview。Itwillbemoretothepurposetosay,thattheinterviewitselfnecessarilybroughttomymindtheonedoubtfulquestionstillremainingtobesolved——thequestionofAnneCatherick’sparentageonthefather’sside。
Amultitudeofsmallconsiderationsinconnectionwiththissubject——triflingenoughinthemselves,butstrikinglyimportantwhenmassedtogether——hadlatterlyledmymindtoaconclusionwhichIresolvedtoverify。IobtainedMarian’spermissiontowritetoMajorDonthorne,ofVarneckHallwhereMrsCatherickhadlivedinserviceforsomeyearsprevioustohermarriage,toaskhimcertainquestions。ImadetheinquiriesinMarian’sname,anddescribedthemasrelatingtomattersofpersonalhistoryinherfamily,whichmightexplainandexcusemyapplication。WhenIwrotetheletterIhadnocertainknowledgethatMajorDonthornewasstillalive——Idespatcheditonthechancethathemightbeliving,andableandwillingtoreply。
Afteralapseoftwodaysproofcame,intheshapeofaletter,thattheMajorwasliving,andthathewasreadytohelpus。