Tomyunutterablesurprise,thesewords,harmlessastheyappearedtome,producedthesameastoundingeffectonPescawhichthesightofPescahadproducedontheCount。Therosyfaceofmylittlefriendwhitenedinaninstant,andhedrewbackfrommeslowly,tremblingfromheadtofoot。
`WalterI’hesaid。`Youdon’tknowwhatyouask。’
Hespokeinawhisper——helookedatmeasifIhadsuddenlyrevealedtohimsomehiddendangertobothofus。Inlessthanoneminuteoftimehewassoalteredfromtheeasy,lively,quaintlittlemanofallmypastexperience,thatifIhadmethiminthestreet,changedasIsawhimnow,Ishouldmostcertainlynothaveknownhimagain。
`Forgiveme,ifIhaveunintentionallypainedandshockedyou,’Ireplied。
`RememberthecruelwrongmywifehassufferedatCountFosco’shands。
Rememberthatthewrongcanneverberedressed,unlessthemeansareinmypowerofforcinghimtodoherjustice。Ispokeinherinterests,Pesca——Iaskyouagaintoforgiveme——Icansaynomore。’
Irosetogo。HestoppedmebeforeIreachedthedoor。
`Wait,’hesaid。`YouhaveshakenmefromheadtofootYoudon’tknowhowIleftmycountry,andwhyIleftmycountry。Letmecomposemyself,letmethink,ifIcan。’
Ireturnedtomychair。Hewalkedupanddowntheroom,talkingtohimselfincoherentlyinhisownlanguage。Afterseveralturnsbackwardsandforwards,hesuddenlycameuptome,andlaidhislittlehandswithastrangetendernessandsolemnityonmybreast。
`Onyourheartandsoul,Walter,’hesaid,`istherenootherwaytogettothatmanbutthechance-waythroughme?’
`Thereisnootherway,’Ianswered。
Heleftmeagain,openedthedooroftheroomandlookedoutcautiouslyintothepassage,closeditoncemore,andcameback。
`Youwonyourrightoverme,Walter,’hesaid,`onthedaywhenyousavedmylife。Itwasyoursfromthatmoment,whenyoupleasedtotakeit。Takeitnow。Yes!ImeanwhatIsay。Mynextwords,astrueasthegoodGodisaboveus,willputmylifeintoyourhands。’
Thetremblingearnestnesswithwhichheutteredthisextraordinarywarning,carriedwithit,tomymind,theconvictionthathespokethetruth。
`Mindthis!’hewenton,shakinghishandsatmeinthevehemenceofhisagitation。`Iholdnothread,inmyownmind,betweenthatmanFosco,andthepacttimewhichIcallbacktomeforyoursake。Ifyoufindthethread,keepittoyourself——tellmenothing——onmykneesIbegandpray,letmebeignorant,letmebeinnocent,letmebeblindtoallthefutureasIamnow!’
Hesaidafewwordsmore,hesitatinglyanddisconnectedly,thenstoppedagain。
IsawthattheeffortofexpressinghimselfinEnglish,onanoccasiontonserioustopermithimtheuseofthequaintturnsandphrasesofhisordinaryvocabulary,waspainfullyincreasingthedifficultyhehadfeltfromthefirstinspeakingtomeatall。Havinglearnttoreadandunderstandhisnativelanguagethoughnottospeakit,intheearlierdaysofourintimatecompanionship,InowsuggestedtohimthatheshouldexpresshimselfinItalian,whileIusedEnglishinputtinganyquestionswhichmightbenecessarytomyenlightenment。Heacceptedtheproposal。Inhissmooth-flowinglanguage,spokenwithavehementagitationwhichbetrayeditselfintheperpetualworkingofhisfeatures,inthewildnessandthesuddennessofhisforeigngesticulations,butneverintheraisingofhisvoice,Inowheardthewordswhicharmedmetomeetthelaststruggle,thatisleftforthisstorytorecord。*
`YouknownothingofmymotiveforleavingItaly,’hebegan,`exceptthatitwasforpoliticalreasons。IfIhadbeendriventothiscountrybythepersecutionofmygovernment,Ishouldnothavekeptthosereasonsasecretfromyouorfromanyone。I
*Itisonlyrighttomentionhere,thatIrepeatPesca’sstatementtome,withthecarefulsuppressionsandalterationswhichtheseriousnatureofthesubjectandmyownsenseofdutytomyfrienddemand。Myfirstandlastconcealmentsfromthereaderarethosewhichcautionrendersabsolutelynecessaryinthisportionofthenarrative。haveconcealedthembecausenogovernmentauthorityhaspronouncedthesentenceofmyexile。Youhaveheard,Walter,ofthepoliticalsocietiesthatarehiddenineverygreatcityonthecontinentofEurope?TooneofthosesocietiesIbelongedinItaly——andbelongstillinEngland。WhenIcametothiscountry,Icamebythedirectionofmychief。Iwasover-zealousinmyyoungertime——
Irantheriskofcompromisingmyselfandothers。ForthosereasonsIwasorderedtoemigratetoEnglandandtowait。Iemigrated——Ihavewaited——Iwaitstill。TomorrowImaybecalledaway——tenyearshenceImaybecalledaway。Itisallonetome——Iamhere,Isupportmyselfbyteaching,andIwait。IviolatenooathyoushallhearwhypresentlyinmakingmyconfidencecompletebytellingyouthenameofthesocietytowhichIbelong。AllIdoistoputmylifeinyourhands。IfwhatIsaytoyounowiseverknownbyotherstohavepassedmylips,ascertainlyaswetwosithere,Iamadeadman。’
Hewhisperedthenextwordsinmyear。Ikeepthesecretwhichhethuscommunicated。Thesocietytowhichhebelongedwillbesufficientlyindividualisedforthepurposeofthesepages,ifIcallit`TheBrotherhood’,onthefewoccasionswhenanyreferencetothesubjectwillbeneededinthisplace。
`TheobjectoftheBrotherhood,’pescawenton,`is,briefly,theobjectofotherpoliticalsocietiesofthesamesort——thedestructionoftyrannyandtheassertionoftherightsofthepeople。TheprinciplesoftheBrotherhoodaretwo。Solongasaman’slifeisuseful,orevenharmlessonly,hehastherighttoenjoyit。But,ifhislifeinflictsinjuryonthewell-beingofhisfellow-men,fromthatmomentheforfeitstheright,anditisnotonlynocrime,butapositivemerit,todeprivehimofit。Itisnotformetosayinwhatfrightfulcircumstancesofoppressionandsufferingthissocietytookitsrise。Itisnotforyoutosay——youEnglishmen,whohaveconqueredyourfreedomsolongago,thatyouhaveconvenientlyforgottenwhatbloodyoushed,andwhatextremitiesyouproceededtointheconquering——itisnotforyoutosayhowfartheworstofallexasperationsmay,ormaynot,carrythemaddenedmenofanenslavednation。Theironthathasenteredintooursoulshasgonetoodeepforyoutofindit。Leavetherefugeealone!Laughathim,distrusthim,openyoureyesinwonderatthatsecretselfwhichsmouldersinhim,sometimesundertheevery-dayrespectabilityandtranquillityofamanlikeme——sometimesunderthegrindingpoverty,thefiercesqualor,ofmenlesslucky,lesspliable,lesspatientthanIam——butjudgeusnot!InthetimeofyourfirstCharlesyoumighthavedoneusjustice——thelongluxuryofyourownfreedomhasmadeyouincapableofdoingusjusticenow。’
Allthedeepestfeelingsofhisnatureseemedtoforcethemselvestothesurfaceinthosewords——allhisheartwaspouredouttomeforthefirsttimeinourlives——butstillhisvoiceneverrose,stillhisdreadoftheterriblerevelationhewasmakingtomeneverlefthim。
`Sofar,’heresumed,`youthinkthesocietylikeothersocieties。ItsobjectinyourEnglishopinionisanarchyandrevolution。Ittakesthelifeofabadkingorabadminister,asiftheoneandtheotherweredangerouswildbeaststobeshotatthefirstopportunity。Igrantyouthis。ButthelawsoftheBrotherhoodarethelawsofnootherpoliticalsocietyonthefaceoftheearth。Themembersarenotknowntooneanother。
ThereisapresidentinItaly;therearepresidentsabroad。Eachofthesehashissecretary。Thepresidentsandthesecretariesknowthemembers,butthemembers,amongthemselves,areallstrangers,untiltheirchiefsseefit,inthepoliticalnecessityofthetime,orintheprivatenecessityofthesociety,tomakethemknowntoeachother。Withsuchasafeguardasthisthereisnooathamongusonadmittance。WeareidentifiedwiththeBrotherhoodbyasecretmark,whichweallbear,whichlastswhileourliveslast。Wearetoldtogoaboutourordinarybusiness,andtoreportourselvestothepresident,orthesecretary,fourtimesayear,intheeventofourservicesbeingrequired。Wearewarned,ifwebetraytheBrotherhood,orifweinjureitbyservingotherinterests,thatwediebytheprinciplesoftheBrotherhood——diebythehandofastrangerwhomaybesentfromtheotherendoftheworldtostriketheblow——orbythehandofourownbosom-friend,whomayhavebeenamemberunknowntousthroughalltheyearsofourintimacy。Sometimesthedeathisdelayed——sometimesitfollowscloseonthetreachery。Itisourfirstbusinesstoknowhowtowait——oursecondbusinesstoknowhowtoobeywhenthewordisspoken。
Someofusmaywaitourlivesthrough,andmaynotbewanted。Someofusmaybecalledtothework,ortothepreparationforthework,theverydayofouradmission。Imyself——thelittle,easy,cheerfulmanyouknow,who,ofhisownaccord,wouldhardlyliftuphishandkerchieftostrikedowntheflythatbuzzesabouthisface——I。inmyyoungertime,underprovocationsodreadfulthatIwillnottellyouofit,enteredtheBrotherhoodbyanimpulse,asImighthavekilledmyselfbyanimpulse。Imustremaininitnow——ithasgotme,whateverImaythinkofitinmybettercircumstancesandmycoolermanhood,tomydyingday。WhileIwasstillinItalyIwaschosensecretary,andallthemembersofthattime,whowerebroughtfacetofacewithmypresident,werebroughtfacetofacealsowithme。
Ibegantounderstandhim——Isawtheendtowardswhichhisextraordinarydisclosurewasnowtending。Hewaitedamoment,watchingmeearnestly——
watchingtillhehadevidentlyguessedwhatwaspassinginmymindbeforeheresumed。
`Youhavedrawnyourownconclusionalready,’hesaid。`Iseeitinyourface。Tellmenothing——keepmeoutofthesecretofyourthoughts。
Letmemakemyonelastsacrificeofmyself,foryoursake,andthenhavedonewiththissubject,nevertoreturntoitagain。’
Hesignedtomenottoanswerhim——rose——removedhiscoat——androlleduptheshirt-sleeveonhisleftarm。
`Ipromisedyouthatthisconfidenceshouldbecomplete,’hewhispered,speakingcloseatmyear,withhiseyeslookingwatchfullyatthedoor。
`Whatevercomesofityoushallnotreproachmewithhawinghiddenanythingfromyouwhichitwasnecessarytoyourintereststoknow。IhavesaidthattheBrotherhoodidentifiesitsmembersbyamarkthatlastsforlife。
Seetheplace,andthemarkonitforyourself。’
Heraisedhisbarearm,andshowedme,highontheupperpartofitandintheinnerside,abranddeeplyburntinthefleshandstainedofabrightblood-redcolour。Iabstainfromdescribingthedevicewhichthebrandrepresented。Itwillbesufficienttosaythatitwascircularinform,andsosmallthatitwouldhavebeencompletelycoveredbyashillingcoin。