`Amanwhohasthismark,brandedinthisplace,’hesaid,coveringhisarmagain,`isamemberoftheBrotherhood。AmanwhohasbeenfalsetotheBrotherhoodisdiscoveredsoonerorlaterbythechiefswhoknowhim——presidentsorsecretaries,asthecasemaybe。Andamandiscoveredbythechiefsisdead。Nohumanlawscanprotecthim。Rememberwhatyouhaveseenandheard——drawwhatconclusionsyoulike——actasyouplease。But,inthenameofGod,whateveryoudiscover,whateveryoudo,tellmenothing!Letmeremainfreefromaresponsibilitywhichithorrifiesmetothinkof——whichIknow,inmyconscience,isnotmyresponsibilitynow。ForthelasttimeIsayit——onmyhonourasagentleman,onmyoathasaChristian,ifthemanyoupointedoutattheOperaknowsme,heissoaltered,orsodisguised,thatIdonotknowhim。IamignorantofhisproceedingsorhispurposesinEngland。Ineversawhim,Ineverheardthenamehegoesby,tomyknowledge,beforetonight。Isaynomore。
Leavemealittle,Walter。Iamoverpoweredbywhathashappened——IamshakenbywhatIhavesaid。Letmetrytobelikemyselfagainwhenwemeetnext。’
Hedroppedintoachair,andturningawayfromme,hidhisfaceinhishands。Igentlyopenedthedoorsoasnottodisturbhim,andspokemyfewpartingwordsinlowtones,whichhemighthearornot,ashepleased。
`Iwillkeepthememoryoftonightinmyheartofhearts,’Isaid。`Youshallneverrepentthetrustyouhavereposedinme。MayIcometoyoutomorrow?MayIcomeasearlyasnineo’clock?’
`Yes,Walter,’hereplied,lookingupatmekindly,andspeakinginEnglishoncemore,asifhisoneanxietynowwastogetbacktoourformerrelationstowardseachother。`CometomylittlebitofbreakfastbeforeIgomywaysamongthepupilsthatIteach。’
`Goodnight,Pesca。’
`Goodnight,myfriend。’
[NextChapter][TableofContents]WomaninWhite:Chapter39[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter39IVMyfirstconvictionassoonasIfoundmyselfoutsidethehouse,wasthatnoalternativewasleftmebuttoactatonceontheinformationIhadreceived——tomakesureoftheCountthatnight,ortorisktheloss,ifIonlydelayedtillthemorning,ofLaura’slastchance。Ilookedatmywatch——itwasteno’clock。
NottheshadowofadoubtcrossedmymindofthepurposeforwhichtheCounthadleftthetheatre。Hisescapefromus,thatevening,wasbeyondallquestionthepreliminaryonlytohisescapefromLondon。ThemarkoftheBrotherhoodwasonhisarm——Ifeltascertainofitasifhehadshownmethebrand;andthebetrayaloftheBrotherhoodwasonhisconscience——IhadseenitinhisrecognitionofPesca。
Itwaseasytounderstandwhythatrecognitionhadnotbeenmutual。
AmanoftheCount’scharacterwouldneverrisktheterribleconsequencesofturningspywithoutlookingtohispersonalsecurityquiteascarefullyashelookedtohisgoldenreward。Theshavenface,whichIhadpointedoutattheOpera,mighthavebeencoveredbyabeardinPesca’stime——
hisdarkbrownhairmightbeawig——hisnamewasevidentlyafalseone。
Theaccidentoftimemighthavehelpedhimaswell——hisimmensecorpulencemighthavecomewithhislateryears。TherewaseveryreasonwhyPescashouldnothaveknownhimagain——everyreasonalsowhyheshouldhaveknownPesca,whosesingularpersonalappearancemadeamarkedmanofhim,gowherehemight。
IhavesaidthatIfeltcertainofthepurposeintheCount’smindwhenheescapedusatthetheatre。HowcouldIdoubtit,whenIsaw,withmyowneyes,thathebelievedhimself,inspiteofthechangeinhisappearance,tohavebeenrecognisedbyPesca,andtobethereforeindangerofhislife?IfIcouldgetspeechofhimthatnight,ifIcouldshowhimthatI,too,knewofthemortalperilinwhichhestood,whatresultwouldfollow?
Plainlythis。Oneofusmustbemasterofthesituation——oneofusmustinevitablybeatthemercyoftheother。
IowedittomyselftoconsiderthechancesagainstmebeforeIconfrontedthem。Iowedittomywifetodoallthatlayinmypowertolessentherisk。
Thechancesagainstmewantednoreckoningup——theywereallmergedinone-IftheCountdiscovered,bymyownavowal,thatthedirectwaytohissafetylaythroughmylife,hewasprobablythelastmaninexistencewhowouldshrinkfromthrowingmeoffmyguardandtakingthatway,whenhehadmealonewithinhisreach。TheonlymeansofdefenceagainsthimonwhichIcouldatallrelytolessentherisk,presentedthemselves,afteralittlecarefulthinking,clearlyenough。BeforeImadeanypersonalacknowledgmentofmydiscoveryinhispresence,Imustplacethediscoveryitselfwhereitwouldbereadyforinstantuseagainsthim,andsafefromanyattemptatsuppressiononhispart。IfIlaidthemineunderhisfeetbeforeIapproachedhim,andifIleftinstructionswithathirdpersontofireitontheexpirationofacertaintime,unlessdirectionstothecontrarywerepreviouslyreceivedundermyownhand,orfrommyownlips——inthateventtheCount’ssecuritywasabsolutelydependentuponmine,andImightholdthevantagegroundoverhimsecurely,eveninhisownhouse。
ThisideaoccurredtomewhenIwasclosetothenewlodgingswhichwehadtakenonreturningfromthesea-side。Iwentinwithoutdisturbinganyone,bythehelpofmykey。Alightwasinthehall,andIstoleupwithittomyworkroomtomakemypreparations,andabsolutelytocommitmyselftoaninterviewwiththeCount,beforeeitherLauraorMariancouldhavetheslightestsuspicionofwhatIintendedtodo。
AletteraddressedtoPescarepresentedthesurestmeasureofprecautionwhichitwasnowpossibleformetotake。Iwroteasfollows——
`ThemanwhomIpointedouttoyouattheOperaisamemberoftheBrotherhood,andhasbeenfalsetohisLustputboththeseassertionstothetestinstantly。
YouknowthenamehegoesbyinEngland。HisaddressisNo。5ForestRoad,StJohn’sWood。Ontheloveyouonceboreme,usethepowerentrustedtoyouwithoutmercyandwithoutdelayagainstthatman。Ihaveriskedallandlostall——andtheforfeitofmyfailurehasbeenpaidwithmylife。’
Isignedanddatedtheselines,enclosedtheminanenvelope,andsealeditup。OntheoutsideIwrotethisdirection:`Keeptheenclosureunopeneduntilnineo’clocktomorrowmorning。Ifyoudonothearfromme,orseeme,beforethattime,breakthesealwhentheclockstrikes,andreadthecontents。’Iaddedmyinitials,andprotectedthewholebyenclosingitinasecondsealedenvelope,addressedtoPescaathislodgings。
Nothingremainedtobedoneafterthisbuttofindthemeansofsendingmylettertoitsdestinationimmediately。Ishouldthenhaveaccomplishedallthatlayinmypower。&;anythinghappenedtomeintheCount’shouse,Ihadnowprovidedforhisansweringitwithhislife。
Thatthemeansofpreventinghisescape,underanycircumstanceswhatever,wereatPesca’sdisposal,ifhechosetoexertthem,Ididnotforaninstantdoubt。TheextraordinaryanxietywhichhehadexpressedtoremainunenlightenedastotheCount’sidentity——or,inotherwords,tobeleftuncertainenoughaboutfactstojustifyhimtohisownconscienceinremainingpassive——betrayedplainlythatthemeansofexercisingtheterriblejusticeoftheBrotherhoodwerereadytohishand,although,asanaturallyhumaneman,hehadshrunkfromplainlysayingasmuchinmypresence。Thedeadlycertaintywithwhichthevengeanceofforeignpoliticalsocietiescanhuntdownatraitortothecause,hidehimselfwherehemay,hadbeentoooftenexemplified,eveninmysuperficialexperience,toallowofanydoubt。
Consideringthesubjectonlyasareaderofnewspapers,casesrecurredtomymemory,bothinLondonandinParis,offoreignersfoundstabbedinthestreets,whoseassassinscouldneverbetraced——ofbodiesandpartsofbodiesthrownintotheThamesandtheSeine,byhandsthatcouldneverbediscovered——ofdeathsbysecretviolencewhichcouldonlybeaccountedforinoneway。Ihavedisguisednothingrelatingtomyselfinthesepages,andIdonotdisguiseherethatIbelievedIhadwrittenCountFosco’sdeath-warrant,ifthefatalemergencyhappenedwhichauthorisedPescatoopenmyenclosure。
Ileftmyroomtogodowntothegroundfloorofthehouse,andspeaktothelandlordaboutfindingmeamessenger。Hehappenedtobeascendingthestairsatthetime,andwemetonthelanding。Hisson,aquicklad,wasthemessengerheproposedtomeonhearingwhatIwanted。Wehadtheboyupstairs,andIgavehimhisdirections。Hewastotaketheletterinacab,toputitintoProfessorPesca’sownhands,andtobringmebackalineofacknowledgmentfromthatgentleman——returninginthecab,andkeepingitatthedoorformyuse。Itwasthennearlyhalf-pastten。I
calculatedthattheboymightbebackintwentyminutes,andthatImightdrivetoStJohn’sWood,onhisreturn,intwentyminutesmore。
WhentheladhaddepartedonhiserrandIreturnedtomyownroomforalittlewhile,toputcertainpapersinorder,sothattheymightbeeasilyfoundincaseoftheworst。Thekeyoftheold-fashionedbureauinwhichthepaperswerekeptIsealedup,andleftitonmytable,withMarian’snamewrittenontheoutsideofthelittlepacket。Thisdone,Iwentdownstairstothesitting-room,inwhichIexpectedtofindLauraandMarianawaitingmyreturnfromtheOpera。IfeltmyhandtremblingforthefirsttimewhenIlaiditonthelockofthedoor。
NoonewasintheroombutMarian。Shewasreading,andshelookedatherwatch,insurprise,whenIcamein。
`Howearlyyouareback!’’shesaid。`YoumusthavecomeawaybeforetheOperawasover。’
`Yes,’Ireplied,`neitherPescanorIwaitedfortheend。WhereisLaura?’
`Shehadoneofherbadheadachesthisevening,andIadvisedhertogotobedwhenwehaddonetea。’
IlefttheroomagainonthepretextofwishingtoseewhetherLaurawasasleep。Marian’squickeyeswerebeginningtolookinquiringlyatmyface——Marian’squickinstinctwasbeginningtodiscoverthatIhadsomethingweighingonmymind。
WhenIenteredthebedchamber,andsoftlyapproachedthebedsidebythedimflickerofthenight-lamp,mywifewasasleep。
Wehadnotbeenmarriedquiteamonthyet。Ifmyheartwasheavy,ifmyresolutionforamomentfalteredagain,whenIlookedatherfaceturnedfaithfullytomypillowinhersleep——whenIsawherhandrestingopenonthecoverlid,asifitwaswaitingunconsciouslyformine——surelytherewassomeexcuseforme?Ionlyallowedmyselfafewminutestokneeldownatthebedside,andtolookcloseather——soclosethatherbreath,asitcameandwent,flutteredonmyface。Ionlytouchedherhandandhercheekwithmylipsatparting。Shestirredinhersleepandmurmuredmyname,butwithoutwaking。Ilingeredforaninstantatthedoortolookatheragain。`Godblessandkeepyou,mydarling!’Iwhispered,andlefther。