ThoughtsthatIhadhithertorestrained,thoughtsthatmademypositionharderthanevertoendure,crowdedonmenowthatIwasalone。
Shewasengagedtobemarried,andherfuturehusbandwasSirPercivalGlyde。AmanoftherankofBaronet,andtheownerofpropertyinHampshire。
TherewerehundredsofbaronetsinEngland,anddozensoflandownersinHampshire。Judgingbytheordinaryrulesofevidence,Ihadnottheshadowofareason,thusfar,forconnectingSirPercivalGlydewiththesuspiciouswordsofinquirythathadbeenspokentomebythewomaninwhite。Andyet,Ididconnecthimwiththem。WasitbecausehehadnowbecomeassociatedinmymindwithMissFairlie,MissFairliebeing,inherturn,associatedwithAnneCatherick,sincethenightwhenIhaddiscoveredtheominouslikenessbetweenthem?HadtheeventsofthemorningsounnervedmealreadythatIwasatthemercyofanydelusionwhichcommonchancesandcommoncoincidencesmightsuggesttomyimagination?Impossibletosay。IcouldonlyfeelthatwhathadpassedbetweenMissHalcombeandmyself,onourwayfromthesummer-house,hadaffectedmeverystrangely。Theforebodingofsomeundiscoverabledangerlyinghidfromusallinthedarknessofthefuturewasstrongonme。ThedoubtwhetherIwasnotlinkedalreadytoachainofeventswhichevenmyapproachingdeparturefromCumberlandwouldbePowerlesstosnapasunder——thedoubtwhetherweanyofussawtheendastheendwouldreallybe——gatheredmoreandmoredarklyovermymind。Poignantasitwas,thesenseofsufferingcausedbythemiserableendofmybrief,presumptuousloveseemedtobebluntedanddeadenedbythestillstrongersenseofsomethingobscurelyimpending,somethinginvisiblythreatening,thatTimewasholdingoverourheads。
Ihadbeenengagedwiththedrawingslittlemorethanhalfanhour,whentherewasaknockatthedoor。Itopened,onmyanswering;and,tomysurprise,MissHalcombeenteredtheroom。
Hermannerwasangryandagitated。ShecaughtupachairforherselfbeforeIcouldgiveherone,andsatdowninit,closeatmyside。
`MrHartright,’shesaid,`Ihadhopedthatallpainfulsubjectsofconversationwereexhaustedbetweenus,fortodayatleast。Butitisnottobeso。Thereissomeunderhandvillainyatworktofrightenmysisteraboutherapproachingmarriage。Yousawmesendthegardenerontothehouse,withaletteraddressed,inastrangehandwriting,toMissFairlie?’
`Certainly。’
`Theletterisananonymousletter——avileattempttoinjureSirPercivalGlydeinmysister’sestimation。IthassoagitatedandalarmedherthatIhavehadthegreatestpossibledifficultyincomposingherspiritssufficientlytoallowmetoleaveherroomandcomehere。IknowthisisafamilymatteronwhichIoughtnottoconsultyou,andinwhichyoucanfeelnoconcernorinterest——’
`Ibegyourpardon,MissHalcombe。IfeelthestrongestpossibleconcernandinterestinanythingthataffectsMissFairlie’shappinessoryours。’
`Iamgladtohearyousayso。Youaretheonlypersoninthehouse,oroutofit,whocanadviseme。MrFairlie,inhisstateofhealthandwithhishorrorofdifficultiesandmysteriesofallkinds,isnottobethoughtof。Theclergymanisagood,weakman,whoknowsnothingoutoftheroutineofhisduties;andourneighboursarejustthesortofcomfortable,jog-trotacquaintanceswhomonecannotdisturbintimesoftroubleanddanger。WhatIwanttoknowisthis:oughtIatoncetotakesuchstepsasIcantodiscoverthewriteroftheletter?oroughtItowait,andapplytoMrFairlie’slegaladvisertomorrow?Itisaquestion——perhapsaveryimportantone——ofgainingorlosingaday。Tellmewhatyouthink,MrHartright。Ifnecessityhadnotalreadyobligedmetotakeyouintomyconfidenceunderverydelicatecircumstances,evenmyhelplesssituationwould,perhaps,benoexcuseforme。ButasthingsareIcannotsurelybewrong,afterallthathaspassedbetweenus,inforgettingthatyouareafriendofonlythreemonths’standing。’
Shegavemetheletter。Itbeganabruptly,withoutanypreliminaryformofaddress,asfollows——
`Doyoubelieveindreams?Ihope,foryourownsake,thatyoudo。SeewhatScripturesaysaboutdreamsandtheirfulfilmentGenesisxl。8,xli。
25;Danieliv。18-25,andtakethewarningIsendyoubeforeitistoolate。
`LastnightIdreamedaboutyou,MissFairlie。IdreamedthatIwasstandinginsidethecommunionrailsofachurch——Iononesideofthealtar-table,andtheclergyman,withhissurpliceandhisprayer-book,ontheother。
`Afteratimetherewalkedtowardsus,downtheaisleofthechurch,amanandawoman,comingtobemarried。Youwerethewoman。Youlookedsoprettyandinnocentinyourbeautifulwhitesilkdress,andyourlongwhitelaceveil,thatmyheartfeltforyou,andthetearscameintomyeyes。
`Theyweretearsofpity,younglady,thatheavenblesses;andinsteadoffallingfrommyeyesliketheeverydaytearsthatweallofusshed,theyturnedintotworaysoflightwhichslantednearerandnearertothemanstandingatthealtarwithyou,tilltheytouchedhisbreast。Thetworaysspranginarchesliketworainbowsbetweenmeandhim。Ilookedalongthem,andIsawdownintohisinmostheart。
`Theoutsideofthemanyouweremarryingwasfairenoughtosee。Hewasneithertallnorshort——hewasalittlebelowthemiddlesize。A
light,active,high-spiritedman——aboutfive-and-fortyyearsold,tolookat。Hehadapaleface,andwasbaldovertheforehead,buthaddarkhairontherestofhishead。Hisbeardwasshavenonhischin,butwaslettogrow,ofafinerichbrown,onhischeeksandhisupperlip。Hiseyeswerebrowntoo,andverybright;hisnosestraightandhandsome,anddelicateenoughtohavedoneforawoman’s。Hishandsthesame。Hewastroubledfromtimetotimewithadryhackingcough,andwhenheputuphiswhiterighthandtohismouth,heshowedtheredscarofanoldwoundacrossthebackofit。HaveIdreamtoftherightman?Youknowbest,MissFairlie,andyoucansayifIwasdeceivedornot。Readnext,whatIsawbeneaththeoutside——Ientreatyou,read,andprofit。
`Ilookedalongthetworaysoflight,andIsawdownintohisinmostheart。Itwasblackasnight,andonitwerewritten,intheredflamingletterswhicharethehandwritingofthefallenangel,``Withoutpityandwithoutremorse。Hehasstrewnwithmiserythepathsofothers,andhewilllivetostrewwithmiserythepathofthiswomanbyhisside。’’I
readthat,andthentheraysoflightshiftedandpointedoverhisshoulder;
andthere,behindhim,stoodafiendlaughing。Andtheraysoflightshiftedoncemore,andpointedoveryourshoulder;andthere,behindyou,stoodanangelweeping。Andtheraysoflightshiftedforthethirdtime,andpointedstraightbetweenyouandthatman。Theywidenedandwidened,thrustingyoubothasunder,onefromtheother。Andtheclergymanlookedforthemarriage-serviceinvain;itwasgoneoutofthebook,andheshutuptheleaves,andputitfromhimindespair。AndIwokewithmyeyesfulloftearsandmyheartbeating——forIbelieveindreams。
`Believetoo,MissFairlie——Ibegofyou,foryourownsake,believeasIdo。JosephandDaniel,andothersintheScripture,believedindreams。
Inquireintothepastlifeofthatmanwiththescaronhishand,beforeyousaythewordsthatmakeyouhismiserablewife。Idon’tgiveyouthiswarningonmyaccount,butonyours。Ihaveaninterestinyourwell-beingthatwillliveaslongasIdrawbreath。Yourmother’sdaughterhasatenderplaceinmyheart——foryourmotherwasmyfirst,mybest,myonlyfriend。’
Theretheextraordinaryletterended,withoutasignatureofanysort。
Thehandwritingaffordednoprospectofaclue。Itwastracedonruledlines,inthecramped,conventionalcopy-bookcharactertechnicallytermed`mallhand。’Itwasfeebleandfaint,anddefacedbyblots,buthadotherwisenothingtodistinguishit。
`Thatisnotanilliterateletter,’saidMissHalcombe,`andatthesametime,itissurelytooincoherenttobetheletterofaneducatedpersoninthehigherranksoflife。Thereferencetothebridaldressandveil,andotherlittleexpressions,seemtopointtoitastheproductionofsomewoman。Whatdoyouthink,MrHartright?’
`Ithinksotoo。Itseemstometobenotonlytheletterofawoman,butofawomanwhosemindmustbe——’
`Deranged?’suggestedMissHalcombe。`Itstruckmeinthatlighttoo。’
Ididnotanswer。WhileIwasspeaking,myeyesrestedonthelastsentenceoftheletter:`Yourmother’sdaughterhasatenderplaceinmyheart——
foryourmotherwasmyfirst,mybest,myonlyfriend。’Thosewordsandthedoubtwhichhadjustescapedmeastothesanityofthewriteroftheletter,actingtogetheronmymind,suggestedanidea,whichIwasliterallyafraidtoexpressopenly,oreventoencouragesecretly。Ibegantodoubtwhethermyownfacultieswerenotindangeroflosingtheirbalance。Itseemedalmostlikeamonomaniatobetracingbackeverythingstrangethathappened,everythingunexpectedthatwassaid,alwaystothesamehiddensourceandthesamesinisterinfluence。Iresolved,thistime,indefenceofmyowncourageandmyownsense,tocometonodecisionthatplainfactdidnotwarrant,andtoturnmybackresolutelyoneverythingthattemptedmeintheshapeofsurmise。
`Ifwehaveanychanceoftracingthepersonwhohaswrittenthis,’
Isaid,returningthelettertoMissHalcombe,`therecanbenoharminseizingouropportunitythemomentitoffers。Ithinkweoughttospeaktothegardeneragainabouttheelderlywomanwhogavehimtheletter,andthentocontinueourinquiriesinthevillage。Butfirstletmeaskaquestion。YoumentionedjustnowthealternativeofconsultingMrFairlie’slegaladvisertomorrow。Istherenopossibilityofcommunicatingwithhimearlier?Whynottoday?’
`Icanonlyexplain,’repliedMissHalcombe,`byenteringintocertainparticulars,connectedwithmysister’smarriage-engagement,whichIdidnotthinkitnecessaryordesirabletomentiontoyouthismorning。OneofSirPercivalGlyde’sobjectsincominghereonMonday,istofixtheperiodofhismarriage,whichhashithertobeenleftquiteunsettled。Heisanxiousthattheeventshouldtakeplacebeforetheendoftheyear。’
`DoesMissFairlieknowofthatwish?’Iaskedeagerly。
`Shehasnosuspicionofit,andafterwhathashappened,Ishallnottaketheresponsibilityuponmyselfofenlighteningher。SirPercivalhasonlymentionedhisviewstoMrFairlie,whohastoldmehimselfthatheisreadyandanxious,asLaura’sguardian,toforwardthem。HehaswrittentoLondon,tothefamilysolicitor,MrGilmore。MrGilmorehappenstobeawayinGlasgowonbusiness,andhehasrepliedbyproposingtostopatLimmeridgeHouseonhiswaybacktotown。Hewillarrivetomorrow,andwillstaywithusafewdays,soastoallowSirPercivaltimetopleadhisowncause。Ifhesucceeds,MrGilmorewillthenreturntoLondon,takingwithhimhisinstructionsformysister’smarriage-settlement。Youunderstandnow,MrHartright,whyIspeakofwaitingtotakelegaladviceuntiltomorrow?