OngettingbacktothehouseIinformedMissHalcombeofwhatIintendedtodo。ShelookedsurPrisedanduneasywhileIwasexplainingmypurpose,butshemadenopositiveobjectiontotheexecutionofit。Sheonlysaid,`Ihopeitmayendwell。’Justasshewasleavingmeagain,Istoppedhertoinquire,ascalmlyasIcould,afterMissFairlie’shealth。Shewasinbetterspirits,andMissHalcombehopedshemightbeinducedtotakealittlewalkingexercisewhiletheafternoonsunlasted。
Ireturnedtomyownroomtoresumesettingthedrawingsinorder。Itwasnecessarytodothis,anddoublynecessarytokeepmymindemployedonanythingthatwouldhelptodistractmyattentionfrommyself,andfromthehopelessfuturethatlaybeforeme。FromtimetotimeIpausedinmyworktolookoutofwindowandwatchtheskyasthesunsanknearerandnearertothehorizon。OnoneofthoseoccasionsIsawafigureonthebroadgravelwalkundermywindow。ItwasMissFairlie。
Ihadnotseenhersincethemorning,andIhadhardlyspokentoherthen。AnotherdayatLimmeridgewasallthatremainedtome,andafterthatdaymyeyesmightneverlookonheragain。Thisthoughtwasenoughtoholdmeatthewindow。Ihadsufficientconsiderationforhertoarrangetheblindsothatshemightnotseemeifshelookedup,butIhadnostrengthtoresistthetemptationoflettingmyeyes,atleast,followherasfarastheycouldonherwalk。
Shewasdressedinabrowncloak,withaPlainblacksilkgownunderit。Onherheadwasthesamesimplestrawhatwhichshehadwornonthemorningwhenwefirstmet。Aveilwasattachedtoitnowwhichhidherfacefromme。ByhersidetrottedalittleItaliangreyhound,thepetcompanionofallherwalks,smartlydressedinascarletclothwrapper,tokeepthesharpairfromhisdelicateskin。Shedidnotseemtonoticethedog。Shewalkedstraightforward,withherheaddroopingalittle,andherarmsfoldedinhercloak。Thedeadleaves,whichhadwhirledinthewindbeforemewhenIhadheardofhermarriageengagementinthemorning,whirledinthewindbeforeher,androseandfellandscatteredthemselvesatherfeetasshewalkedoninthepalewaningsunlight-Thedogshiveredandtrembled,andpressedagainstherdressimpatientlyfornoticeandencouragement。
Butsheneverheededhim。Shewalkedon,fartherandfartherawayfromme,withthedeadleaveswhirlingaboutheronthepath——walkedon,tillmyachingeyescouldseehernomore,andIwasleftaloneagainwithmyownheavyheart。
Inanotherhour’stimeIhaddonemywork,andthesunsetwasathand。
Igotmyhatandcoatinthehall,andslippedoutofthehousewithoutmeetinganyone。
Thecloudswerewildinthewesternheaven,andthewindblewchillfromthesea。farastheshorewas,thesoundofthesurfsweptovertheinterveningmoorland,andbeatdrearilyinmyearswhenIenteredthechurchyard。
Notalivingcreaturewasinsight。TheplacelookedlonelierthaneverasIchosemyposition,andwaitedandwatched,withmyeyesonthewhitecrossthatroseoverMrsFairlie’sgrave。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]WomaninWhite:Chapter6[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter6XIITheexposedsituationofthechurchyardhadobligedmetobecautiousinchoosingthepositionthatIwastooccupy。
Themainentrancetothechurchwasonthesidenexttotheburial-ground,andthedoorwasscreenedbyaporchwalledinoneitherside。Aftersomelittlehesitation,causedbynaturalreluctancetoconcealmyself,indispensableasthatconcealmentwastotheobjectinview,Ihadresolvedonenteringtheporch。Aloopholewindowwaspiercedineachofitssidewalls。ThroughoneofthesewindowsIcouldseeMrsFairlie’sgrave。Theotherlookedtowardsthestonequarryinwhichthesexton’scottagewasbuilt。Beforeme,frontingtheporchentrance,wasapatchofbareburial-ground,alineoflowstonewall,andastripoflonelybrownhill,withthesunsetcloudssailingheavilyoveritbeforethestrong,steadywind。Nolivingcreaturewasvisibleoraudible——nobirdflewbyme,nodogbarkedfromthesexton’scottage。Thepausesinthedullheatingofthesurfwerefilledupbythedrearyrustlingofthedwarftreesnearthegrave,andthecoldfaintbubbleofthebrookoveritsstonybed。Adrearysceneandadrearyhour。MyspiritssankfastasIcountedouttheminutesoftheeveninginmyhiding-placeunderthechurchporch。
Itwasnottwilightyet——thelightofthesettingsunstilllingeredintheheavens,andlittlemorethanthefirsthalf-hourofmysolitarywatchhadelapsed——whenIheardfootstepsandavoice。Thefootstepswereapproachingfromtheothersideofthechurch,andthevoicewasawoman’s。
`Don’tyoufret,mydear,abouttheletter,’saidthevoice。`Igaveittotheladquitesafe,andtheladhetookitfrommewithoutaword。
HewenthiswayandIwentmine,andnotalivingsoulfollowedmeafterwards——thatI’llwarrant。’
Thesewordsstrungupmyattentiontoapitchofexpectationthatwasalmostpainful。Therewasapauseofsilence,butthefootstepsstilladvanced。
Inanothermomenttwopersons,bothwomen,passedwithinmyrangeofviewfromtheporchwindow。Theywerewalkingstraighttowardsthegrave;andthereforetheyhadtheirbacksturnedtowardsme。
Oneofthewomenwasdressedinabonnetandshawl。Theotherworealongtravelling-cloakofadark-bluecolour,withthehooddrawnoverherhead。Afewinchesofhergownwerevisiblebelowthecloak。MyheartbeatfastasInotedthecolour——itwaswhite。
Afteradvancingabouthalf-waybetweenthechurchandthegravetheystopped,andthewomaninthecloakturnedherheadtowardshercompanion。
Buthersideface,whichabonnetmightnowhaveallowedmetosee,washiddenbytheheavy,projectingedgeofthehood。
`Mindyoukeepthatcomfortablewarmcloakon,’saidthesamevoicewhichIhadalreadyheard——thevoiceofthewomanintheshawl。`MrsToddisrightaboutyourlookingtooparticular,yesterday,allinwhite。
I’llwalkaboutalittlewhileyou’rehere,churchyardsbeingnotatallinmyway,whatevertheymaybeinyours。FinishwhatyouwanttodobeforeIcomeback,andletusbesureandgethomeagainbeforenight。’
Withthosewordssheturnedabout,andretracinghersteps,advancedwithherfacetowardsme。Itwasthefaceofanelderlywoman,brown,rugged,andhealthy,withnothingdishonestorsuspiciousinthelookofit。Closetothechurchshestoppedtopullhershawlcloserroundher。
`Queer,’shesaidtoherself,`alwaysqueer,withherwhimsandherways,eversinceIcanrememberher。Harmless,though——asharmless,poorsoul,asalittlechild。’
Shesighed——lookedabouttheburial-groundnervously——shookherhead,asifthedrearyprospectbynomeanspleasedher,anddisappearedroundthecornerofthechurch。
IdoubtedforamomentwhetherIoughttofollowandspeaktoherornot。Myintenseanxietytofindmyselffacetofacewithhercompanionhelpedmetodecideinthenegative。Icouldensureseeingthewomanintheshawlbywaitingnearthechurchyarduntilshecameback——althoughitseemedmorethandoubtfulwhethershecouldgivemetheinformationofwhichIwasinsearch。Thepersonwhohaddeliveredtheletterwasoflittleconsequence。Thepersonwhohadwrittenitwastheonecentreofinterest,andtheonesourceofinformation,andthatpersonInowfeltconvincedwasbeforemeinthechurchyard。
WhiletheseideaswerepassingthroughmymindIsawthewomaninthecloakapproachclosetothegrave,andstandlookingatitforalittlewhile。Shethenglancedallroundher,andtakingawhitelinenclothorhandkerchieffromunderhercloak,turnedasidetowardsthebrook。Thelittlestreamranintothechurchyardunderatinyarchwayinthebottomofthewall,andranoutagain,afterawindingcourseofafewdozenyards,underasimilaropening。Shedippedtheclothinthewater,andreturnedtothegrave。Isawherkissthewhitecross,thenkneeldownbeforetheinscription,andapplyherwetclothtothecleansingofit。
AfterconsideringhowIcouldshowmyselfwiththeleastpossiblechanceoffrighteningher,Iresolvedtocrossthewallbeforeme,toskirtrounditoutside,andtoenterthechurchyardagainbythestilenearthegrave,inorderthatshemightseemeasIapproached。ShewassoabsorbedoverheremploymentthatshedidnothearmecominguntilIhadsteppedoverthestile。Thenshelookedup,startedtoherfeetwithafaintcry,andstoodfacingmeinspeechlessandmotionlessterror。
`Don’tbefrightened,’Isaid。`Surelyyourememberme?’
IstoppedwhileIspoke——thenadvancedafewstepsgently——thenstoppedagain——andsoapproachedbylittleandlittletillIwasclosetoher。Iftherehadbeenanydoubtstillleftinmymind,itmusthavebeennowsetatrest。There,speakingaffrightedlyforitself——therewasthesamefaceconfrontingmeoverMrsFairlie’sgravewhichhadfirstlookedintomineonthehigh-roadbynight。
`Yourememberme?’Isaid。`Wemetverylate,andIhelpedyoutofindthewaytoLondon。Surelyyouhavenotforgottenthat?’
Herfeaturesrelaxed,andshedrewaheavybreathofrelief。Isawthenewlifeofrecognitionstirringslowlyunderthedeathlikestillnesswhichfearhadsetonherface。
`Don’tattempttospeaktomejustyet,’Iwenton。`Taketimetorecoveryourself——taketimetofeelquitecertainthatIamafriend。’
`Youareverykindtome,’shemurmured。`Askindnowasyouwerethen。’
Shestopped,andIkeptsilenceonmyside。Iwasnotgrantingtimeforcomposuretoheronly,Iwasgainingtimealsoformyself。Underthewanwildeveninglight,thatwomanandIweremettogetheragain,agravebetweenus,thedeadaboutus,thelonesomehillsclosingusroundoneveryside。Thetime,theplace,thecircumstancesunderwhichwenowstoodfacetofaceintheeveningstillnessofthatdrearyvalley——thelifelonginterestswhichmighthangsuspendedonthenextchancewordsthatpassedbetweenus——thesensethat,foraughtIknewtothecontrary,thewholefutureofLauraFairlie’slifemightbedetermined,forgoodorforevil,bymywinningorlosingtheconfidenceoftheforlorncreaturewhostoodtremblingbyhermother’sgrave——allthreatenedtoshakethesteadinessandtheself-controlonwhicheveryinchoftheprogressImightyetmakenowdepended。Itriedhard,asIfeltthis,topossessmyselfofallmyresources;Ididmyutmosttoturnthefewmomentsforreflectiontothebestaccount。
`Areyoucalmernow?’Isaid,assoonasIthoughtittimetospeakagain。`Canyoutalktomewithoutfeelingfrightened,andwithoutforgettingthatIamafriend?’