`Howdidyoucomehere?’sheasked,withoutnoticingwhatIhadjustsaidtoher。
`Don’tyouremembermytellingyou,whenwelastmet,thatIwasgoingtoCumberland?IhavebeeninCumberlandeversince——IhavebeenstayingallthetimeatLimmeridgeHouse。’
`AtLimmeridgeHouse!’Herpalefacebrightenedassherepeatedthewords,herwanderingeyesfixedonmewithasuddeninterest。`Ah,howhappyyoumusthavebeen!’shesaid,lookingatmeeagerly,withoutashadowofitsformerdistrustleftinherexpression。
Itookadvantageofhernewly-arousedconfidenceinmetoobserveherface,withanattentionandacuriositywhichIhadhithertorestrainedmyselffromshowing,forcaution’ssake。Ilookedather,withmymindfullofthatotherlovelyfacewhichhadsoominouslyrecalledhertomymemoryontheterracebymoonlight。IhadseenAnneCatherick’slikenessinMissFairlie。InowsawMissFairlie’slikenessinAnneCatherick——
sawitallthemoreclearlybecausethepointsofdissimilaritybetweenthetwowerepresentedtomeaswellasthepointsofresemblance。Inthegeneraloutlineofthecountenanceandgeneralproportionofthefeatures——inthecolourofthehairandinthelittlenervousuncertaintyaboutthelips——intheheightandsizeofthefigure,andthecarriageoftheheadandbody,thelikenessappearedevenmorestartlingthanIhadeverfeltittobeyet。Buttheretheresemblanceended,andthedissimilarity,indetails,began。ThedelicatebeautyofMissFairlie’scomplexion,thetransparentclearnessofhereyes,thesmoothpurityofherskin,thetenderbloomofcolouronherlips,wereallmissingfromthewornwearyfacethatwasnowturnedtowardsmine。AlthoughIhatedmyselfevenforthinkingsuchathing,still,whileIlookedatthewomanbeforeme,theideawouldforceitselfintomymindthatonesadchange,inthefuture,wasallthatwaswantingtomakethelikenesscomplete,whichInowsawtobesoimperfectindetail。IfeversorrowandsufferingsettheirprofaningmarksontheyouthandbeautyofMissFairlie’sface,then,andthenonly,AnneCatherickandshewouldbethetwin-sistersofchanceresemblance,thelivingreflectionsofoneanother。
Ishudderedatthethought。Merewassomethinghorribleintheblindunreasoningdistrustofthefuturewhichthemerepassageofitthroughmymindseemedtoimply。ItwasawelcomeinterruptiontoberousedbyfeelingAnneCatherick’shandlaidonmyshoulder。Thetouchwasasstealthyandassuddenasthatothertouchwhichhadpetrifiedmefromheadtofootonthenightwhenwefirstmet。
`Youarelookingatme,andyouarethinkingofsomething,’shesaid,withherstrangebreathlessrapidityofutterance。`Whatisit?’
`Nothingextraordinary,’Ianswered。`Iwasonlywonderinghowyoucamehere。’
`Icamewithafriendwhoisverygoodtome。Ihaveonlybeenheretwodays。’
`Andyoufoundyourwaytothisplaceyesterday?’
`Howdoyouknowthat?’
`Ionlyguessedit。’
Sheturnedfromme,andkneltdownbeforetheinscriptiononcemore。
`WhereshouldIgoifnothere?’shesaid。`ThefriendwhowasbetterthanamothertomeistheonlyfriendIhavetovisitatLimmeridge。Oh,itmakesmyheartachetoseeastainonhertomb!Itoughttobekeptwhiteassnow,forhersake。Iwastemptedtobegincleaningityesterday,andIcan’thelpcomingbacktogoonwithittoday。Isthereanythingwronginthat?Ihopenot。SurelynothingcanbewrongthatIdoforMrsFairlie’ssake?’
Theoldgratefulsenseofherbenefactress’skindnesswasevidentlytherulingideastillinthePoorcreature’smind——thenarrowmindwhichhadbuttooplainlyopenedtonootherlastingimpressionsincethatfirstimpressionofheryoungerandhappierdays。Isawthatmybestchanceofwinningherconfidencelayinencouraginghertoproceedwiththeartlessemploymentwhichshehadcomeintotheburial-groundtopursue。Sheresumeditatonce,onmytellinghershemightdoso,touchingthehardmarbleastenderlyasifithadbeenasentientthing,andwhisperingthewordsoftheinscriptiontoherself,overandoveragain,asifthelostdaysofhergirlhoodhadreturnedandshewaspatientlylearningherlessononcemoreatMrsFairlie’sknees。
`Shouldyouwonderverymuch,’Isaid,preparingthewayascautiouslyasIcouldforthequestionsthatweretocome,`ifIownedthatitisasatisfactiontome,aswellasasurprise,toseeyouhere?Ifeltveryuneasyaboutyouafteryouleftmeinthecab。’
Shelookedupquicklyandsuspiciously。
`Uneasy,’sherepeated。`Why?’
`Astrangethinghappenedafterwepartedthatnight。Twomenovertookmeinachaise。TheydidnotseewhereIwasstanding,buttheystoppednearme,andspoketoapolicemanontheothersideoftheway。’
Sheinstantlysuspendedheremployment。Thehandholdingthedampclothwithwhichshehadbeencleaningtheinscriptiondroppedtoherside。Theotherhandgraspedthemarblecrossattheheadofthegrave。Herfaceturnedtowardsmeslowly,withtheblanklookofterrorsetrigidlyonitoncemore。Iwentonatallhazards——itwastoolatenowtodrawback。
`Thetwomenspoketothepoliceman,’Isaid,`andaskedhimifhehadseenyou。Hehadnotseenyou;andthenoneofthemenspokeagain,andsaidyouhadescapedfromhisAsylum。’
Shesprangtoherfeetasifmylastwordshadsetthepursuersonhertrack。
`Stop!andheartheend,’Icried。`Stop!andyoushallknowhowIbefriendedyou。Awordfrommewouldhavetoldthemenwhichwayyouhadgone——andIneverspokethatword。Ihelpedyourescape——Imadeitsafeandcertain。
Think,trytothink。TrytounderstandwhatItellyou。’
Mymannerseemedtoinfluencehermorethanmywords。Shemadeanefforttograspthenewidea。Herhandsshiftedthedampclothhesitatinglyfromonetotheother,exactlyastheyhadshiftedthelittletravelling-bagonthenightwhenIfirstsawher。Slowlythepurposeofmywordsseemedtoforceitswaythroughtheconfusionandagitationofhermind。Slowlyherfeaturesrelaxed,andhereyeslookedatmewiththeirexpressiongainingincuriositywhatitwasfastlosinginfear。
`Youdon’tthinkIoughttobebackintheAsylum,doyou?’shesaid。
`Certainlynot。Iamgladyouescapedfromit——IamgladIhelpedyou。’
`Yes,yes,youdidhelpmeindeed;youhelpedmeatthehardpart,’
shewentonalittlevacantly。`Itwaseasytoescape,orlshouldnothavegotaway。Theyneversuspectedmeastheysuspectedtheothers。I
wassoquiet,andsoobedient,andsoeasilyfrightened。ThefindingLondonwasthehardpart,andthereyouhelpedme。DidIthankyouatthetime?
Ithankyounowverykindly。’
`WastheAsylumfarfromwhereyoumetme?Come!showthatyoubelievemetobeyourfriend,andtellmewhereitwas。’
Shementionedtheplace——aprivateAsylum,asitssituationinformedme;aprivateAsylumnotveryfarfromthespotwhereIhadseenher——
andthen,withevidentsuspicionoftheusetowhichImightputheranswer,anxiouslyrepeatedherformerinquiry,`Youdon’tthinkIoughttobetakenback,doyou?’
`Onceagain,Iamgladyouescaped——Iamgladyouprosperedwellafteryouleftme,’Ianswered。`YousaidyouhadafriendinLondontogoto。
ridyoufindthefriend?’
`Yes。Itwasverylate,buttherewasagirlupatneedleworkinthehouse,andshehelpedmetorouseMrsClements。MrsClementsismyfriend。
Agood,kindwoman,butnotlikeMrsFairlie。Ahno,nobodyislikeMrsFairlie!’
`IsMrsClementsanoldfriendofyours?Haveyouknownheralongtime?’
`Yes,shewasaneighbourofoursonce,athome,inHampshire,andlikedme,andtookcareofmewhenIwasalittlegirl。Yearsago。whenshewentawayfromus,shewrotedowninmyPrayer-hookformewhereshewasgoingtoliveinLondon,andshesaid,``Ifyouareeverintrouble,Anne,cometome。Ihavenohusbandalivetosaymenay,andnochildrentolookafter,andIwilltakecareofyou。’’Kindwords,weretheynot?IsupposeIrememberthembecausetheywerekind。It’slittleenoughIrememberbesides——littleenough,littleenough!’
`Hadyounofatherormothertotakecareofyou?’
`Father?——Ineversawhim——Ineverheardmotherspeakofhim。father?
Ah,dear!heisdead,Isuppose。’
`Andyourmother?’
`Idon’tgetonwellwithher。Weareatroubleandafeartoeachother。’
Atroubleandafeartoeachother!Atthosewordsthesuspicioncrossedmymind,forthefirsttime,thathermothermightbethepersonwhohadplacedherunderrestraint。
`Don’taskmeaboutmother,’shewenton。`I’drathertalkofMrsClements。
MrsClementsislikeyou,shedoesn’tthinkthatIoughttobebackintheAsylum,andsheisasgladasyouarethatIescapedfromit。Shecriedovermymisfortune,andsaiditmustbekeptsecretfromeverybody。’
Her`misfortune。’Inwhatsensewassheusingthatword?Inasensewhichmightexplainhermotiveinwritingtheanonymousletter?Inasensewhichmightshowittobethetoocommonandtoocustomarymotivethathasledmanyawomantointerposeanonymoushindrancestothemarriageofthemanwhohasruinedher?Iresolvedtoattempttheclearingupofthisdoubtbeforemorewordspassedbetweenusoneitherside。
`Whatmisfortune?’Iasked。