Ilikedtofeelherheartyindignationflashoutonmeinthatway。
Weseesomuchmaliceandsolittleindignationinmyprofession。
`Inthatcase,’Isaid,`excusemeifItellyou,inourlegalphrase,thatyouaretravellingoutoftherecord。Whatevertheconsequencesmaybe,SirPercivalhasarighttoexpectthatyoursistershouldcarefullyconsiderherengagementfromeveryreasonablepointofviewbeforesheclaimsherreleasefromit。Ifthatunluckyletterhasprejudicedheragainsthim,goatonce,andtellherthathehasclearedhimselfinyoureyesandinmine。Whatobjectioncansheurgeagainsthimafterthat?Whatexcusecanshepossiblyhaveforchanginghermindaboutamanwhomshehadvirtuallyacceptedforherhusbandmorethantwoyearsago?’
`Intheeyesoflawandreason,MrGilmore,noexcuse,Idaresay。Ifshestillhesitates,andifIstillhesitate,youmustattributeourstrangeconduct,ifyoulike,tocapriceinbothcases,andwemustbeartheimputationaswellaswecan。’
Withthosewordsshesuddenlyroseandleftme。Whenasensiblewomanhasaseriousquestionputtoher,andevadesitbyaflippantanswer,itisasuresign,inninety-ninecasesoutofahundred,thatshehassomethingtoconceal。Ireturnedtotheperusalofthenewspaper,stronglysuspectingthatMissHalcombeandMissFairliehadasecretbetweenthemwhichtheywerekeepingfromSirPercival,andkeepingfromme。Ithoughtthishardonbothofus,especiallyonSirPercival。
Mydoubts——ortospeakmorecorrectly,myconvictions——wereconfirmedbyMissHalcombe’slanguageandmannerwhenIsawheragainlaterintheday。Shewassuspiciouslybriefandreservedintellingmetheresultofherinterviewwithhersister。MissFairlie,itappeared,hadlistenedquietlywhiletheaffairoftheletterwasplacedbeforeherintherightpointofview,butwhenMissHalcombenextproceededtosaythattheobjectofSirPercival’svisitatLimmeridgewastoprevailonhertoletadaybefixedforthemarriage,shecheckedallfurtherreferencetothesubjectbybeggingfortime。IfSirPercivalwouldconsenttospareherforthepresent,shewouldundertaketogivehimhisfinalanswerbeforetheendoftheyear。Shepleadedforthisdelaywithsuchanxietyandagitation,thatMissHalcombehadpromisedtouseherinfluence,ifnecessary,toobtainit,andthere,atMissFairlie’searnestentreaty,allfurtherdiscussionofthemarriagequestionhadended。
Thepurelytemporaryarrangementthusproposedmighthavebeenconvenientenoughtotheyounglady,butitprovedsomewhatembarrassingtothewriteroftheselines。Thatmorning’sposthadbroughtaletterfrommypartner,whichobligedmetoreturntotownthenextdaybytheafternoontrain。
ItwasextremelyprobablethatIshouldfindnosecondopportunityofpresentingmyselfatLimmeridgeHouseduringtheremainderoftheyear。Inthatcase,supposingMissFairlieultimatelydecidedonholdingtoherengagement,mynecessarypersonalcommunicationwithher,beforeIdrewhersettlement,wouldbecomesomethinglikeadownrightimpossibility,andweshouldbeobligedtocommittowritingquestionswhichoughtalwaystobediscussedonbothsidesbywordofmouth。IsaidnothingaboutthisdifficultyuntilSirPercivalhadbeenconsultedonthesubjectofthedesireddelay。Hewastoogallantagentlemannottogranttherequestimmediately。WhenMissHalcombeinformedmeofthisItoldherthatImustabsolutelyspeaktohersisterbeforeIleftLimmeridge,anditwas,therefore,arrangedthatIshouldseeMissFairlieinherownsitting-roomthenextmorning。
Shedidnotcomedowntodinner,orjoinusintheevening。Indispositionwastheexcuse,andIthoughtSirPercivallooked,aswellhemight,alittleannoyedwhenheheardofit。
Thenextmorning,assoonasbreakfastwasover,IwentuptoMissFairlie’ssitting-room。Thepoorgirllookedsopaleandsad,andcameforwardtowelcomemesoreadilyandprettily,thattheresolutiontolectureheronhercapriceandindecision,whichIhadbeenformingallthewayupstairs,failedmeonthespot。Iledherbacktothechairfromwhichshehadrisen,andplacedmyselfoppositetoher。Hercross-grainedpetgreyhoundwasintheroom,andIfullyexpectedabarkingandsnappingreception。Strangetosay,thewhimsicallittlebrutefalsifiedmyexpectationsbyjumpingintomylapandpokingitssharpmuzzlefamiliarlyintomyhandthemomentIsatdown。
`Youusedoftentositonmykneewhenyouwereachild,mydear,’I
said,`andnowyourlittledogseemsdeterminedtosucceedyouinthevacantthrone。Isthatprettydrawingyourdoing?’
Ipointedtoalittlealbumwhichlayonthetablebyherside,andwhichshehadevidentlybeenlookingoverwhenIcamein。Thepagethatlayopenhadasmallwater-colourlandscapeveryneatlymountedonit。
Thiswasthedrawingwhichhadsuggestedmyquestion——anidlequestionenough——buthowcouldIbegintotalkofbusinesstoherthemomentI
openedmylips?
`No,’shesaid,lookingawayfromthedrawingratherconfusedly,`itisnotmydoing。’
Herfingershadarestlesshabit,whichIrememberedinherasachild,ofalwaysplayingwiththefirstthingthatcametohandwheneveranyonewastalkingtoher-Onthisoccasiontheywanderedtothealbum,andtoyedabsentlyaboutthemarginofthelittlewater-colourdrawing。Theexpressionofmelancholydeepenedonherface。Shedidnotlookatthedrawing,orlookatme。Hereyesmoveduneasilyfromobjecttoobjectintheroom,betrayingplainlythatshesuspectedwhatmypurposewasincomingtospeaktoher。Seeingthat,Ithoughtitbesttogettothepurposewithaslittledelayaspossible。
`Oneoftheerrands,mydear,whichbringsmehereistobidyougood-bye,’
Ibegan。`ImustgetbacktoLondontoday:and,beforeIleave,Iwanttohaveawordwithyouonthesubjectofyourownaffairs。’
`Iamverysorryyouaregoing,MrGilmore,’shesaid,lookingatmekindly。`Itislikethehappyoldtimestohaveyouhere。’
`IhopeImaybeabletocomebackandrecallthosepleasantmemoriesoncemore,’Icontinued;`butasthereissomeuncertaintyaboutthefuture,ImusttakemyopportunitywhenIcangetit,andspeaktoyounow。Iamyouroldlawyerandyouroldfriend,andImayremindyou,Iamsure,withoutoffence,ofthepossibilityofyourmarryingSirPercivalGlyde。’
Shetookherhandoffthelittlealbumassuddenlyasifithadturnedhotandburnther。Herfingerstwinedtogethernervouslyinherlap,hereyeslookeddownagainatthefloor,andanexpressionofconstraintsettledonherfacewhichlookedalmostlikeanexpressionofpain。
`Isitabsolutelynecessarytospeakofmymarriageengagement?’sheaskedinlowtones。
`Itisnecessarytorefertoit,’Ianswered,`butnottodwellonit。
Letusmerelysaythatyoumaymarry,orthatyoumaynotmarry。Inthefirstcase,Imustbeprepared,beforehand,todrawyoursettlement,andIoughtnottodothatwithout,asamatterofpoliteness,firstconsultingyou。Thismaybemyonlychanceofhearingwhatyourwishesare。Letus,therefore,supposethecaseofyourmarrying,andletmeinformyou,inasfewwordsaspossible,whatyourpositionisnow,andwhatyoumaymakeit,ifyouplease,inthefuture。’
Iexplainedtohertheobjectofamarriage-settlement,andthentoldherexactlywhatherprospectswere——inthefirstplace,onhercomingofage,andinthesecondplace,onthedeceaseofheruncle——markingthedistinctionbetweenthepropertyinwhichshehadalife-interestonly,andthepropertywhichwasleftatherowncontrol。Shelistenedattentively,withtheconstrainedexpressionstillonherface,andherhandsstillnervouslyclaspedtogetherinherlap。
`Andnow,’Isaidinconclusion,`tellmeifyoucanthinkofanyconditionwhich,inthecasewehavesupposed,youwouldwishmetomakeforyou——subject,ofcourse,toyourguardian’sapproval,asyouarenotyetofage。’
Shemoveduneasilyinherchair,thenlookedinmyfaceonasuddenveryearnestly。
`Ifitdoeshappen,’shebeganfaintly,`ifIam——’
`Ifyouaremarried,’Iadded,helpingherout。
`Don’tlethimpartmefromMarian,’shecried,withasuddenoutbreakofenergy。`Oh,MrGilmore,praymakeitlawthatMarianistolivewithme!’
UnderothercircumstancesImight,perhaps,havebeenamusedatthisessentiallyfeminineinterpretationofmyquestion,andofthelongexplanationwhichhadprecededit。Butherlooksandtones,whenshespoke,wereofakindtomakememorethanserious——theydistressedme。Herwords,fewastheywere,betrayedadesperateclingingtothepastwhichbodedillforthefuture。
`YourhavingMarianHalcombetolivewithyoucaneasilybesettledbyprivatearrangement,’Isaid。`Youhardlyunderstoodmyquestion,I
think。Itreferredtoyourownproperty——tothedisposalofyourmoney。
Supposingyouweretomakeawillwhenyoucomeofage,whowouldyoulikethemoneytogoto?’
`Marianhasbeenmotherandsisterbothtome,’saidthegood,affectionategirl,herprettyblueeyesglisteningwhileshespoke。`MayIleaveittoMarian,MrGilmore?’
`Certainly,mylove,’Ianswered。`Butrememberwhatalargesumitis-WouldyoulikeitalltogotoMissHalcombe?’
Shehesitated;hercolourcameandwent,andherhandstolebackagaintothelittlealbum。
`Notallofit,’shesaid。`ThereissomeoneelsebesidesMarian——’
Shestopped;hercolourheightened,andthefingersofthehandthatresteduponthealbumbeatgentlyonthemarginofthedrawing,asifhermemoryhadsetthemgoingmechanicallywiththeremembranceofafavouritetune。
`YoumeansomeothermemberofthefamilybesidesMissHalcombe?’I
suggested,seeingheratalosstoproceed,Theheighteningcolourspreadtoherforeheadandherneck,andthenervousfingerssuddenlyclaspedthemselvesfastroundtheedgeofthebook。
`Thereissomeoneelse,’shesaid,notnoticingmylastwords,thoughshehadevidentlyheardthem;`thereissomeoneelsewhomightlikealittlekeepsakeif——ifImightleaveit。TherewouldbenoharmifI