shoulddiefirst——’
Shepausedagain。Thecolourthathadspreadoverhercheekssuddenly,assuddenlyleftthem。Thehandonthealbumresigneditshold,trembledalittle,andmovedthebookawayfromher。Shelookedatmeforaninstant——thenturnedherheadasideinthechair。Herhandkerchieffelltothefloorasshechangedherposition,andshehurriedlyhidherfacefrommeinherhands。
Sad!Torememberher,asIdid,theliveliest,happiestchildthateverlaughedthedaythrough,andtoseehernow,intheflowerofherageandherbeauty,sobrokenandsobroughtdownasthis!
InthedistressthatshecausedmeIforgottheyearsthathadpassed,andthechangetheyhadmadeinourpositiontowardsoneanother。Imovedmychairclosetoher,andpickedupherhandkerchieffromthecarpet,anddrewherhandsfromherfacegently。`Don’tcry,mylove,’Isaid,anddriedthetearsthatweregatheringinhereyeswithmyownhand,asifshehadbeenthelittleLauraFairlieoftenlongyearsago。
ItwasthebestwayIcouldhavetakentocomposeher。Shelaidherheadonmyshoulder,andsmiledfaintlythroughhertears。
`Iamverysorryforforgettingmyself,’shesaidartlessly。`Ihavenotbeenwell——Ihavefeltsadlyweakandnervouslately,andIoftencrywithoutreasonwhenIamalone。Iambetternow——IcanansweryouasIought,MrGilmore,Icanindeed。’
`No,no,mydear,’Ireplied,`wewillconsiderthesubjectasdonewithforthepresent。Youhavesaidenoughtosanctionmytakingthebestpossiblecareofyourinterests,andwecansettledetailsatanotheropportunity。
Letushavedonewithbusinessnow,andtalkofsomethingelse。’
Iledheratonceintospeakingonothertopics。Intenminutes’timeshewasinbetterspirits,andIrosetotakemyleave。
`Comehereagain,’shesaidearnestly。`Iwilltrytobeworthierofyourkindfeelingformeandformyinterestsifyouwillonlycomeagain。’
Stillclingingtothepast——thatpastwhichIrepresentedtoher,inmyway,asMissHalcombedidinhers!Ittroubledmesorelytoseeherlookingback,atthebeginningofhercareer,justasIlookbackattheendofmine。
`IfIdocomeagain,IhopeIshallfindyoubetter,’Isaid;`betterandhappier。Godblessyou,mydear!’
Sheonlyansweredbyputtinguphercheektometobekissed。Evenlawyershavehearts,andmineachedalittleasItookleaveofher。
Thewholeinterviewbetweenushadhardlylastedmorethanhalfanhour——shehadnotbreathedaword,inmypresence,toexplainthemysteryofherevidentdistressanddismayattheprospectofhermarriage,andyetshehadcontrivedtowinmeovertohersideofthequestion,Ineitherknewhownorwhy。Ihadenteredtheroom,feelingthatSirPercivalGlydehadfairreasontocomplainofthemannerinwhichshewastreatinghim。
Ileftit,secretlyhopingthatmattersmightendinhertakinghimathiswordandclaimingherrelease。Amanofmyageandexperienceoughttohaveknownbetterthantovacillateinthisunreasonablemanner。Icanmakenoexcuseformyself;Icanonlytellthetruth,andsay——soitwas。
Thehourformydeparturewasnowdrawingnear。IsenttoMrFairlietosaythatIwouldwaitonhimtotakeleaveifheliked,butthathemustexcusemybeingratherinahurry。Hesentamessageback,writteninpencilonaslipofpaper:`Kindloveandbestwishes,dearGilmore。
Hurryofanykindisinexpressiblyinjurioustome。Praytakecareofyourself。
Goodbye。’
rustbeforeIleftIsawMissHalcombeforamomentalone。
`HaveyousaidallyouwantedtoLaura?’sheasked。
`Yes,’Ireplied。`Sheisveryweakandnervous——Iamgladshehasyoutotakecareofher。’
MissHalcombe’ssharpeyesstudiedmyfaceattentively。
`YouarealteringyouropinionaboutLaura,’shesaid。`Youarereadiertomakeallowancesforherthanyouwereyesterday。’
Nosensiblemaneverengages,unprepared,inafencingmatchofwordswithawoman。Ionlyanswered——
`Letmeknowwhathappens。IwilldonothingtillIhearfromyou。’
Shestilllookedhardinmyface。`Iwishitwasallover,andwellover,MrGilmore——andsodoyou。’Withthosewordssheleftme。
SirPercivalmostpolitelyinsistedonseeingmetothecarriagedoor。
`Ifyouareeverinmyneighbourhood,’hesaid,`praydon’tforgetthatIamsincerelyanxioustoimproveouracquaintance。Thetriedandtrustedoldfriendofthisfamilywillbealwaysawelcomevisitorinanyhouseofmine。’
Areallyirresistibleman——courteous,considerate,delightfullyfreefrompride——agentleman,everyinchofhim。AsIdroveawaytothestationIfeltasifIcouldcheerfullydoanythingtopromotetheinterestsofSirPercivalGlyde——anythingintheworld,exceptdrawingthemarriagesettlementofhiswife。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]WomaninWhite:Chapter9[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter9IIIAweekpassed,aftermyreturntoLondon,withoutthereceiptofanycommunicationfromMissHalcombe。
Ontheeighthdayaletterinherhandwritingwasplacedamongtheotherlettersonmytable。
ItannouncedthatSirPercivalGlydehadbeendefinitelyaccepted,andthatthemarriagewastotakeplace,ashehadoriginallydesired,beforetheendoftheyear。InallprobabilitytheceremonywouldbeperformedduringthelastfortnightinDecember。MissFairlie’stwenty-firstbirthdaywaslateinMarch。Shewould,therefore,bythisarrangementbecomeSirPercival’swifeaboutthreemonthsbeforeshewasofage。
Ioughtnottohavebeensurprised,Ioughtnottohavebeensorry,butIwassurprisedandsorry,nevertheless。Somelittledisappointment,causedbytheunsatisfactoryshortnessofMissHalcombe’sletter,mingleditselfwiththesefeelings,andcontributeditssharetowardsupsettingmyserenityfortheday。Insixlinesmycorrespondentannouncedtheproposedmarriage——inthreemore,shetoldmethatSirPercivalhadleftCumberlandtoreturntohishouseinHampshire,andintwoconcludingsentencessheinformedme,first,thatLaurawassadlyinwantofchangeandcheerfulsociety;secondly,thatshehadresolvedtotrytheeffectofsomesuchchangeforthwith,bytakinghersisterawaywithheronavisittocertainoldfriendsinYorkshire。Theretheletterended,withoutawordtoexplainwhatthecircumstanceswerewhichhaddecidedMissFairlietoacceptSirPercivalGlydeinoneshortweekfromthetimewhenIhadlastseenher。
Atalaterperiodthecauseofthissuddendeterminationwasfullyexplainedtome。Itisnotmybusinesstorelateitimperfectly,onhearsayevidence。
ThecircumstancescamewithinthepersonalexperienceofMissHalcombe,andwhenhernarrativesucceedsmine,shewilldescribethemineveryparticularexactlyastheyhappened。Inthemeantime,theplaindutyformetoperform——beforeI,inmyturn,laydownmypenandwithdrawfromthestory——
istorelatetheoneremainingeventconnectedwithMissFairlie’sproposedmarriageinwhichIwasconcerned,namely,thedrawingofthesettlement。
Itisimpossibletoreferintelligiblytothisdocumentwithoutfirstenteringintocertainparticularsinrelationtothebride’specuniaryaffairs。Iwilltrytomakemyexplanationbrieflyandplainly,andtokeepitfreefromprofessionalobscuritiesandtechnicalities。Thematterisoftheutmostimportance。IwarnallreadersoftheselinesthatMissFairlie’sinheritanceisaveryseriouspartofMissFairlie’sstory,andthatMrGilmore’sexperience,inthisparticular,mustbetheirexperiencealso,iftheywishtounderstandthenarrativeswhichareyettocome。
MissFairlie’sexpectations,then,wereofatwofoldkind,comprisingherpossibleinheritanceofrealproperty,orland,whenheruncledied,andherabsoluteinheritanceofpersonalproperty,ormoney,whenshecameofage。
Letustakethelandfirst。
InthetimeofMissFairlie’spaternalgrandfatherwhomwewillcallMrFairlie,theeldertheentailedsuccessiontotheLimmeridgeestatestoodthus