`Myuncleisright,’shesaid。`Ihavecausedtroubleandanxietyenoughtoyou,andtoallaboutme。Letmecausenomore,Marian——letSirPercivaldecide。’
Iremonstratedwarmly,butnothingthatIcouldsaymovedher。
`Iamheldtomyengagement,’shereplied;`Ihavebrokenwithmyoldlife。TheevildaywillnotcomethelesssurelybecauseIputitoff。
No,Marian!onceagainmyuncleisright。Ihavecausedtroubleenoughandanxietyenough,andIwillcausenomore。’
Sheusedtobepliabilityitself,butshewasnowinflexiblypassiveinherresignation——Imightalmostsayinherdespair。DearlyasIloveher,Ishouldhavebeenlesspainedifshehadbeenviolentlyagitated——itwassoshockinglyunlikehernaturalcharactertoseehercoldandinsensibleasIsawhernow。
12th——SirPercivalputsomequestionstomeatbreakfastaboutLaura,whichleftmenochoicebuttotellhimwhatshehadsaid。
Whileweweretalkingsheherselfcamedownandjoinedus。ShewasjustasunnaturallycomPosedinSirPercival’spresenceasshehadbeeninmine。
Whenbreakfastwasoverhehadanopportunityofsayingafewwordstoherprivately,inarecessofoneofthewindows。Theywerenotmorethantwoorthreeminutestogether,andontheirseparatingshelefttheroomwithMrsVesey,whileSirPercivalcametome。Hesaidhehadentreatedhertofavourhimbymaintainingherprivilegeoffixingthetimeforthemarriageatherownwillandpleasure。Inreplyshehadmerelyexpressedheracknowledgments,andhaddesiredhimtomentionwhathiswishesweretoMissHalcombe。
Ihavenopatiencetowritemore。Inthisinstance,asineveryother,SirPercivalhascarriedhispointwiththeutmostpossiblecredittohimself,inspiteofeverythingthatIcansayordo。Hiswishesarenow,whattheywere,ofcourse,whenhefirstcamehere;andLaurahavingresignedherselftotheoneinevitablesacrificeofthemarriage,remainsascoldlyhopelessandenduringasever。InpartingwiththelittleoccupationsandrelicsthatremindedherofHartright,sheseemstohavepartedwithallhertendernessandallherimpressibility。Itisonlythreeo’clockintheafternoonwhileIwritetheselines,andSirPercivalhasleftusalready,inthehappyhurryofabridegroom,toprepareforthebride’sreceptionathishouseinHampshire。Unlesssomeextraordinaryeventhappenstopreventittheywillbemarriedexactlyatthetimewhenhewishedtobemarried——beforetheendoftheyear。MyveryfingersburnasIwriteit!
13th——Asleeplessnight,throughuneasinessaboutLaura。TowardsthemorningIcametoaresolutiontotrywhatchangeofscenewoulddotorouseher。Shecannotsurelyremaininherpresenttorporofinsensibility,ifItakeherawayfromLimmeridgeandsurroundherwiththepleasantfacesofoldfriends?AftersomeconsiderationIdecidedonwritingtotheArnolds,inYorkshire。Theyaresimple,kind-hearted,hospitablepeople,andshehasknownthemfromherchildhood。WhenIhadputtheletterinthepost-bagItoldherwhatIhaddone。Itwouldhavebeenarelieftomeifshehadshownthespirittoresistandobject。Butno——sheonlysaid,`Iwillgoanywherewithyou,Marian。Idaresayyouareright——Idaresaythechangewilldomegood。’
14th——IwrotetoMrGilmore,informinghimthattherewasreallyaprospectofthismiserablemarriagetakingplace,andalsomentioningmyideaoftryingwhatchangeofscenewoulddoforLaura。Ihadnohearttogointoparticulars。Timeenoughforthemwhenwegetnearertotheendoftheyear。
15th——Threelettersforme。Thefirst,fromtheArnolds,fullofdelightattheprospectofseeingLauraandme。Thesecond,fromoneofthegentlementowhomIwroteonWalterHartright’sbehalf,informingmethathehasbeenfortunateenoughtofindanopportunityofcomplyingwithmyrequest。Thethird,fromWalterhimself,thankingme,poorfellow,inthewarmestterms,forgivinghimanopportunityofleavinghishome,hiscountry,andhisfriends。AprivateexpeditiontomakeexcavationsamongtheruinedcitiesofCentralAmericais,itseems,abouttosailfromLiverpool。
Thedraughtsmanwhohadbeenalreadyappointedtoaccompanyithaslostheart,andwithdrawnattheeleventhhour,andWalteristofillhisplace。
Heistobeengagedforsixmonthscertain,fromthetimeofthelandinginHonduras,andforayearafterwards,iftheexcavationsaresuccessful,andifthefundsholdout。Hisletterendswithapromisetowritemeafarewelllinewhentheyareallonboardship,andwhenthepilotleavesthem。IcanonlyhopeandprayearnestlythatheandIarebothactinginthismatterforthebest。Itseemsofitstartlesme。Andyet,inhisunhappyposition,howcanIexpecthimorwishhimtoremainathome?
16th——Thecarriageisatthedoor。LauraandIsetoutonourvisittotheArnoldstoday。POLESDEANLODGE,YORKSHIRE。
23rd——Aweekinthesenewscenesandamongthesekind-heartedpeoplehasdonehersomegood,thoughnotsomuchasIhadhoped。Ihaveresolvedtoprolongourstayforanotherweekatleast。ItisuselesstogobacktoLimmeridgetillthereisanabsolutenecessityforourreturn。
24th——Sadnewsbythismorning’spost。TheexpeditiontoCentralAmericasailedonthetwenty-first。Wehavepartedwithatrueman——wehavelostafaithfulfriend。WalterHartrighthasleftEngland。
25th——Sadnewsyesterday——ominousnewstoday。SirPercivalGlydehaswrittentoMrFairlie,andMrFairliehaswrittentoLauraandme,torecallustoLimmeridgeimmediately。
Whatcanthismean?Hasthedayforthemarriagebeenfixedinourabsence?
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November27th——Myforebodingsarerealised。Themarriageisfixedforthetwenty-secondofDecember。
ThedayafterweleftforPolesdeanLodgeSirPercivalwrote,itseems,toMrFairlie,tosaythatthenecessaryrepairsandalterationsinhishouseinHampshirewouldoccupyamuchlongertimeincompletionthanhehadoriginallyanticipated。Theproperestimatesweretobesubmittedtohimassoonaspossible,anditwouldgreatlyfacilitatehisenteringintodefinitearrangementswiththeworkpeople,ifhecouldbeinformedoftheexactperiodatwhichtheweddingceremonymightbeexpectedtotakeplace。
Hecouldthenmakeallhiscalculationsinreferencetotime,besideswritingthenecessaryapologiestofriendswhohadbeenengagedtovisithimthatwinter,andwhocouldnot,ofcourse,bereceivedwhenthehousewasinthehandsoftheworkmen。
TothisletterMrFairliehadrepliedbyrequestingSirPercivalhimselftosuggestadayforthemarriage,subjecttoMissFairlie’sapproval,whichherguardianwillinglyundertooktodohisbesttoobtain。SirPercivalwrotebackbythenextpost,andproposedinaccordancewithhisownviewsandwishesfromthefirstthelatterpartofDecember——perhapsthetwenty-second,ortwenty-fourth,oranyotherdaythattheladyandherguardianmightprefer。Theladynotbeingathandtospeakforherself,herguardianhaddecided,inherabsence,ontheearliestdaymentioned——thetwenty-secondofDecember,andhadwrittentorecallustoLimmeridgeinconsequence。
Afterexplainingtheseparticularstomeataprivateinterviewyesterday,MrFairliesuggested,inhismostamiablemanner,thatIshouldopenthenecessarynegotiationstoday。Feelingthatresistancewasuseless,unlessIcouldfirstobtainLaura’sauthoritytomakeit,Iconsentedtospeaktoher,butdeclared,atthesametime,thatIwouldonnoconsiderationundertaketogainherconsenttoSirPercival’swishes。MrFairliecomplimentedmeonmy`excellentconscience,’muchashewouldhavecomplimentedme,ifhehadbeenoutwalking,onmy`excellentconstitution,’andseemedperfectlysatisfied,sofar,withhavingsimplyshiftedonemorefamilyresponsibilityfromhisownshoulderstomine。
ThismorningIspoketoLauraasIhadpromised。Thecomposure——I
mayalmostsay,theinsensibility——whichshehassostrangelyandsoresolutelymaintainedeversinceSirPercivalleftus,wasnotproofagainsttheshockofthenewsIhadtotellher。Sheturnedpaleandtrembledviolently。
`Notsosoon!’shepleaded。`Oh,Marian,notsosoon!’
Theslightesthintshecouldgivewasenoughforme。Irosetoleavetheroom,andfightherbattleforheratoncewithMrFairlie。
rustasmyhandwasonthedoor,shecaughtfastholdofmydressandstoppedme。
`Letmego!’Isaid。`MytongueburnstotellyourunclethatheandSirPercivalarenottohaveitalltheirownway。’
Shesighedbitterly,andstillheldmydress。
`No!’shesaidfaintly。`Toolate,Marian,toolate!’
`Notaminutetoolate,’Iretorted。`Thequestionoftimeisourquestion——andtrustme,Laura,totakeawoman’sfulladvantageofit。’
IunclaspedherhandfrommygownwhileIspoke;butsheslippedbothherarmsroundmywaistatthesamemoment,andheldmemoreeffectuallythanever。
`Itwillonlyinvolveusinmoretroubleandmoreconfusion,’shesaid。
`Itwillsetyouandmyuncleatvariance,andbringSirPercivalhereagainwithfreshcausesofcomplaint——’
`Somuchthebetter!’Icriedoutpassionately。`Whocaresforhiscausesofcomplaint?Areyoutobreakyourhearttosethismindatease?Nomanunderheavendeservesthesesacrificesfromuswomen。Men!Theyaretheenemiesofourinnocenceandourpeace——theydragusawayfromourparents’
loveandoursisters’friendship——theytakeusbodyandsoultothemselves,andfastenourhelplesslivestotheirsastheychainupadogtohiskennel。
Andwhatdoesthebestofthemgiveusinreturn?Letmego,Laura——I’mmadwhenIthinkofit!’
Thetears——miserable,weak,women’stearsofvexationandrage——
startedtomyeyes。Shesmiledsadly,andputherhandkerchiefovermyfacetohideformethebetrayalofmyownweakness——theweaknessofallotherswhichsheknewthatImostdespised。
`Oh,Marian!’shesaid。`Youcrying!Thinkwhatyouwouldsaytome,iftheplaceswerechanged,andifthosetearsweremine。Allyourloveandcourageanddevotionwillnotalterwhatmusthappen,soonerorlater。