Theviewwassuchasurprise,andsuchachangetome,aftermywearyLondonexperienceofbrickandmortarlandscape,thatIseemedtoburstintoanewlifeandanewsetofthoughtsthemomentIlookedatit。A
confusedsensationofhavingsuddenlylostmyfamiliaritywiththepast,withoutacquiringanyadditionalclearnessofideainreferencetothepresentorthefuture,tookpossessionofmymind。Circumstancesthatwerebutafewdaysoldfadedbackinmymemory,asiftheyhadhappenedmonthsandmonthssince。Pesca’squaintannouncementofthemeansbywhichhehadprocuredmemypresentemployment;thefarewelleveningIhadpassedwithmymotherandsister;evenmymysteriousadventureonthewayhomefromHampstead——hadallbecomelikeeventswhichmighthaveoccurredatsomeformerepochofmyexistence。Althoughthewomaninwhitewasstillinmymind,theimageofherseemedtohavegrowndullandfaintalready。
Alittlebeforenineo’clock,Idescendedtotheground-floorofthehouse。Thesolemnman-servantofthenightbeforemetmewanderingamongthepassages,andcompassionatelyshowedmethewaytothebreakfast-room。
Myfirstglanceroundme,asthemanopenedthedoor,disclosedawell-furnishedbreakfast-table,standinginthemiddleofalongroom,withmanywindowsinit。Ilookedfromthetabletothewindowfarthestfromme,andsawaladystandingatit,withherbackturnedtowardsme。Theinstantmyeyesrestedonher,Iwasstruckbytherarebeautyofherform,andbytheunaffectedgraceofherattitude。Herfigurewastall,yetnottootall;comelyandwell-developed,yetnotfat;herheadsetonhershoulderswithaneasy,pliantfirmness;herwaist,perfectionintheeyesofaman,foritoccupieditsnaturalplace,itfilledoutitsnaturalcircle,itwasvisiblyanddelightfullyundeformedbystays。Shehadnotheardmyentranceintotheroom;andIallowedmyselftheluxuryofadmiringherforafewmoments,beforeImovedoneofthechairsnearme,astheleastembarrassingmeansofattractingherattention。Sheturnedtowardsmeimmediately。
Theeasyeleganceofeverymovementofherlimbsandbodyassoonasshebegantoadvancefromthefarendoftheroom,setmeinaflutterofexpectationtoseeherfaceclearly。Sheleftthewindow——andIsaidtomyself,Theladyisdark。Shemovedforwardafewsteps——andIsaidtomyself,Theladyisyoung。Sheapproachednearer——andIsaidtomyselfwithasenseofsurprisewhichwordsfailmetoexpress,Theladyisugly!
Neverwastheoldconventionalmaxim,thatNaturecannoterr,moreflatlycontradicted——neverwasthefairpromiseofalovelyfiguremorestrangelyandstartlinglybeliedbythefaceandheadthatcrownedit。Thelady’scomplexionwasalmostswarthy,andthedarkdownonherupperlipwasalmostamoustache。Shehadalarge,firm,masculinemouthandjaw;prominent,piercing,resolutebrowneyes;andthick,coal-blackhair,growingunusuallylowdownonherforehead。Herexpression——brightfrank,andintelligent——appeared,whileshewassilent,tobealtogetherwantinginthosefeminineattractionsofgentlenessandpliability,withoutwhichthebeautyofthehandsomestwomanaliveisbeautyincomplete。Toseesuchafaceasthissetonshouldersthatasculptorwouldhavelongedtomodel——tobecharmedbythemodestgracesofactionthroughwhichthesymmetricallimbsbetrayedtheirbeautywhentheymoved,andthentobealmostrepelledbythemasculineformandmasculinelookofthefeaturesinwhichtheperfectlyshapedfigureended——wastofeelasensationoddlyakintothehelplessdiscomfortfamiliartousallinsleep,whenwerecogniseyetcannotreconciletheanomaliesandcontradictionsofadream。
`MrHartright?’saidtheladyinterrogatively,herdarkfacelightingupwithasmile,andsofteningandgrowingwomanlythemomentshebegantospeak。`Weresignedallhopeofyoulastnight,andwenttobedasusual。
Acceptmyapologiesforourapparentwantofattention;andallowmetointroducemyselfasoneofyourpupils。Shallweshakehands?Isupposewemustcometoitsoonerorlater——andwhynotsooner?’
Theseoddwordsofwelcomewerespokeninaclear,ringing,pleasantvoice。Theofferedhand——ratherlarge,butbeautifullyformed——wasgiventomewiththeeasy,unaffectedself-relianceofahighly-bredwoman。
Wesatdowntogetheratthebreakfast-tableinascordialandcustomaryamannerasifwehadknowneachotherforyears,andhadmetatLimmeridgeHousetotalkoveroldtimesbypreviousappointment。
`Ihopeyoucomeheregood-humouredlydeterminedtomakethehistofyourposition,’continuedthelady。`Youwillhavetobeginthismorningbyputtingupwithnoothercompanyatbreakfastthanmine。Mysisterisinherownroom,nursingthatessentiallyfemininemalady,aslightheadache;
andheroldgoverness,MrsVesey,ischaritablyattendingonherwithrestorativetea。Myuncle,MrFairlie,neverjoinsusatanyofourmeals:heisaninvalid,andkeepsbachelorstateinhisownapartments。Thereisnobodyelseinthehousebutme。Twoyoungladieshavebeenstayinghere,buttheywentawayyesterday,indespair;andnowonder。AllthroughtheirvisitinconsequenceofMrfairlie’sinvalidconditionweproducednosuchconvenienceinthehouseasaflirtable,danceable,small-talkablecreatureofthemalesex;andtheconsequencewas,wedidnothingbutquarrel,especiallyatdinner-time。Howcanyouexpectfourwomentodinetogetheraloneeveryday,andnotquarrel?Wearesuchfools,wecan’tentertaineachotherattable。YouseeIdon’tthinkmuchofmyownsex,MrHartright——whichwillyouhave,teaorcoffee?——nowomandoesthinkmuchofherownsex,althoughfewofthemconfessitasfreelyasIdo。Dearme,youlookpuzzled。Why?Areyouwonderingwhatyouwillhaveforbreakfast?
orareyousurprisedatmycarelesswayoftalking?lnthefirstcase,Iadviseyou,asafriend,tohavenothingtodowiththatcoldhamatyourelbow,andtowaittilltheomelettecomesin。Inthesecondcase,Iwillgiveyousometeatocomposeyourspirits,anddoallawomancanwhichisverylittle,by-the-byetoholdmytongue。’
Shehandedmemycupoftea,laughinggaily。Herlightflowoftalk,andherlivelyfamiliarityofmannerwithatotalstranger,wereaccompaniedbyanunaffectednaturalnessandaneasyinbornconfidenceinherselfandherposition,whichwouldhavesecuredhertherespectofthemostaudaciousmanbreathing。Whileitwasimpossibletobeformalandreservedinhercompany,itwasmorethanimpossibletotakethefaintestvestigeofalibertywithher,eveninthought。Ifeltthisinstinctively,evenwhileIcaughttheinfectionofherownbrightgaietyofspirits——evenwhileIdidmybesttoanswerherinherownfrank,livelyway。
`Yes,yes,’shesaid,whenIhadsuggestedtheonlyexplanationIcouldoffer,toaccountformyperplexedlooks,`Iunderstand。Youaresuchaperfectstrangerinthehouse,thatyouarepuzzledbymyfamiliarreferencestotheworthyinhabitants。Naturalenough:Ioughttohavethoughtofitbefore。Atanyrate,Icansetitrightnow。SupposeIbeginwithmyself,soastogetdonewiththatpartofthesubjectassoonaspossible?MynameisMarianHalcombe;andIamasinaccurateaswomenusuallyare,incallingMrfairliemyuncle,andMissFairliemysister。Mymotherwastwicemarried:thefirsttimetoMrHalcombe,myfather;thesecondtimetoMrFairlie,myhalf-sister’sfather。Exceptthatwearebothorphans,weareineveryrespectasunlikeeachotheraspossible。Myfatherwasapoorman,andMissFairlie’sfatherwasarichman。Ihavegotnothing,andshehasafortune。Iamdarkandugly,andsheisfairandpretty。
Everybodythinksmecrabbedandoddwithperfectjustice;andeverybodythinkshersweet-temperedandcharmingwithmorejusticestill。Inshort,sheisanangel;andIam——Trysomeofthatmarmalade,MrHartright,andfinishthesentence,inthenameoffemalepropriety,foryourself。
WhatamItotellyouaboutMrFairlie?Uponmyhonour,Ihardlyknow。
Heissuretosendforyouafterbreakfast,andyoucanstudyhimforyourself。
Inthemeantime,Imayinformyou,first,thatheisthelateMrFairlie’syoungerbrother;secondly,thatheisasingleman;andthirdly,thatheisMissFairlie’sguardian。Iwon’tlivewithouther,andshecan’tlivewithoutme;andthatishowIcometobeatLimmeridgeHouse。MysisterandIarehonestlyfondofeachother;which,youwillsay,isperfectlyunaccountable,underthecircumstances,andIquiteagreewithyou——butsoitis。Youmustpleasebothofus,MrHartright,orpleaseneitherofus:and,whatisstillmoretrying,youwillbethrownentirelyuponoursociety。MrsVeseyisanexcellentperson,whopossessesallthecardinalvirtues,andcountsfornothing;andMrFairlieistoogreataninvalidtobeacompanionforanybody。Idon’tknowwhatisthematterwithhim,andthedoctorsdon’tknowwhatisthematterwithhim,andhedoesn’tknowhimselfwhatisthematterwithhim。Weallsayit’sonthenerves,andwenoneofusknowwhatwemeanwhenwesayit。However,Iadviseyoutohumourhislittlepeculiarities,whenyouseehimtoday。Admirehiscollectionofcoins,prints,andwater-colourdrawings,andyouwillwinhisheart。Uponmyword,ifyoucanbecontentedwithaquietcountrylife,Idon’tseewhyyoushouldnotgetonverywellhere。frombreakfasttolunch,Mrfairlie’sdrawingswilloccupyyou。Afterlunch,MissFairlieandIshoulderoursketch-books,andgoouttomisrepresentNature,underyourdirections。Drawingisherfavouritewhim,mind,notmine。Womencan’tdraw——theirmindsaretooflighty,andtheireyesaretooinattentive。
Nomatter——mysisterlikesit;soIwastepaintandspoilTaper,forhersake,ascomposedlyasanywomaninEngland。Asfortheevenings,I
thinkwecanhelpyouthroughthem。MissFairlieplaysdelightfully。Formyownpoorpart,Idon’tknowonenoteofmusicfromtheother;butI
canmatchyouatchess,backgammon,é;carté;,andwiththeinevitablefemaledrawbacksevenatbilliardsaswell。Whatdoyouthinkoftheprogramme?Canyoureconcileyourselftoourquiet,regularlife?
ordoyoumeantoberestless,andsecretlythirstforchangeandadventure,inthehumdrumatmosphereofLimmeridgeHouse?’
Shehadrunonthusfar,inhergracefullybanteringway,withnootherinterruptionsonmypartthantheunimportantreplieswhichpolitenessrequiredofme。Theturnoftheexpression,however,inherlastquestion,orrathertheonechanceword,`adventure,’lightlyasitfellfromherlips,recalledmythoughtstomymeetingwiththewomaninwhite,andurgedmetodiscovertheconnectionwhichthestranger’sownreferencetoMrsFairlieinformedmemustoncehaveexistedbetweenthenamelessfugitivefromtheAsylum,andtheformermistressofLunmeridgeHouse。
`EvenifIwerethemostrestlessofmankind,’Isaid,`Ishouldbeinnodangerofthirstingafteradventuresforsometimetocome。TheverynightbeforeIarrivedatthishouse,Imetwithanadventure;andthewonderandexcitementofit,Icanassureyou,MissHalcombe,willlastmeforthewholetermofmystayinCumberland,ifnotforamuchlongerperiod。’
`Youdon’tsayso,MrHartright!MayIhearit?’
`Youhaveaclaimtohearit。Thechiefpersonintheadventurewasatotalstrangertome,andmayperhapsbeatotalstrangertoyou;butshecertainlymentionedthenameofthelateMrsFairlieintermsofthesincerestgratitudeandregard。’
`Mentionedmymother’sname!Youinterestmeindescribably。Praygoon。’