Laurahadtakenmyarmwhilehewasspeaking,andshepresseditsignificantlywhenhehaddone。Itwouldhavebeenahardtrialtoanywomantostandbyandseetheofficeofapologistforherhusband’smisconductquietlyassumedbyhismalefriendinherownhouse——anditwasatrialtoher。
IthankedtheCountcivilly,andledherout。Yes!Ithankedhim:forI
feltalready,withasenseofinexpressiblehelplessnessandhumiliation,thatitwaseitherhisinterestorhiscapricetomakesureofmycontinuingtoresideatBlackwaterPark,andIknewafterSirPercival’sconducttome,thatwithoutthesupportoftheCount’sinfluence,Icouldnothopetoremainthere。Hisinfluence,theinfluenceofallothersthatIdreadedmost,wasactuallytheonetiewhichnowheldmetoLaurainthehourofherutmostneed!
Weheardthewheelsofthedog-cartcrashingonthegravelofthedriveaswecameintothehall。SirPercivalhadstartedonhisjourney。
`Whereishegoingto,Marian?’Laurawhispered。`Everyfreshthinghedoesseemstoterrifymeaboutthefuture。Haveyouanysuspicions?’
Afterwhatshehadundergonethatmorning,Iwasunwillingtotellhermysuspicions。
`HowshouldIknowhissecrets?’Isaidevasively。
`Iwonderifthehousekeeperknows?’shepersisted。
`Certainlynot,’Ireplied。`Shemustbequiteasignorantasweare。’
Laurashookherheaddoubtfully。
`DidyounothearfromthehousekeeperthattherewasareportofAnneCatherickhavingbeenseeninthisneighbourhood?Don’tyouthinkhemayhavegoneawaytolookforher?’
`Iwouldrathercomposemyself,Laura,bynotthinkingaboutitatall,andafterwhathashappened,youhadbetterfollowmyexample。Comeintomyroom,andrestandquietyourselfalittle。’
Wesatdowntogetherclosetothewindow,andletthefragrantsummerairbreatheoverourfaces。
`Iamashamedtolookatyou,Marian,’shesaid,`afterwhatyousubmittedtodownstairs,formysake。Oh,myownlove,IamalmostheartbrokenwhenIthinkofit!ButIwilltrytomakeituptoyou——Iwillindeed!’
`Hush!hush!’Ireplied;`don’ttalkso。Whatisthetriflingmortificationofmypridecomparedtothedreadfulsacrificeofyourhappiness?’
`Youheardwhathesaidtome?’shewentonquicklyandvehemently。
`Youheardthewords——butyoudon’tknowwhattheymeant——youdon’tknowwhyIthrewdownthepenandturnedmybackonhim。’Sheroseinsuddenagitation,andwalkedabouttheroom。`Ihavekeptmanythingsfromyourknowledge,Marian,forfearofdistressingyou,andmakingyouunhappyattheoutsetofournewlives。Youdon’tknowhowhehasusedme。Andyetyououghttoknow,foryousawhowheusedmetoday。Youheardhimsneeratmypresumingtobescrupulous——youheardhimsayIhadmadeavirtueofnecessityinmarryinghim。’Shesatdownagain,herfaceflusheddeeply,andherhandstwistedandtwinedtogetherinherlap。`Ican’ttellyouaboutitnow,’shesaid;`IshallburstoutcryingifItellyounow——later,Marian,whenIammoresureofmyself。Mypoorheadaches,darling——aches,aches,aches。Whereisyoursmelling-bottle?Letmetalktoyouaboutyourself。IwishIhadgivenhimmysignature,foryoursake。
ShallIgiveittohimtomorrow?Iwouldrathercompromisemyselfthancompromiseyou。Afteryourtakingmypartagainsthim,hewilllayalltheblameonyouifIrefuseagain。Whatshallwedo?Oh,forafriendtohelpusandadviseus!——afriendwecouldreallytrust!’
Shesighedbitterly。IsawinherfacethatshewasthinkingofHartright——sawitthemoreplainlybecauseherlastwordssetmethinkingofhimtoo。Insixmonthsonlyfromhermarriagewewantedthefaithfulservicehehadofferedtousinhisfarewellwords。HowlittleIoncethoughtthatweshouldeverwantitatall!
`Wemustdowhatwecantohelpourselves,’Isaid。`Letustrytotalkitovercalmly,Laura——letusdoallinourpowertodecideforthebest。’
Puttingwhatsheknewofherhusband’sembarrassmentsandwhatIhadheardofhisconversationwiththelawyertogether,wearrivednecessarilyattheconclusionthattheparchmentinthelibraryhadbeendrawnupforthepurposeofborrowingmoney,andthatLaura’ssignaturewasabsolutelynecessarytofititfortheattainmentofSirPercival’sobject。
Thesecondquestion,concerningthenatureofthelegalcontractbywhichthemoneywastobeobtained,andthedegreeofpersonalresponsibilitytowhichLauramightsubjectherselfifshesigneditinthedark,involvedconsiderationswhichlayfarbeyondanyknowledgeandexperiencethateitherofuspossessed。Myownconvictionsledmetobelievethatthehiddencontentsoftheparchmentconcealedatransactionofthemeanestandthemostfraudulentkind。
IhadnotformedthisconclusioninconsequenceofSirPercival’srefusaltoshowthewritingortoexplainit,forthatrefusalmightwellhaveproceededfromhisobstinatedispositionandhisdomineeringtemperalone。
MysolemotivefordistrustinghishonestysprangfromthechangewhichIhadobservedinhislanguageandhismannersatBlackwaterpark,achangewhichconvincedmethathehadbeenactingapartthroughoutthewholeperiodofhisprobationatLimmeridgeHouse。Hiselaboratedelicacy,hisceremoniouspoliteness,whichharmonisedsoagreeablywithMrGilmore’sold-fashionednotions,hismodestywithLaura,hiscandourwithme,hismoderationwithMrFairlie——alltheseweretheartificesofamean,cunning,andbrutalman,whohaddroppedhisdisguisewhenhispractisedduplicityhadgaineditsend,andhadopenlyshownhimselfinthelibraryonthatveryday。IsaynothingofthegriefwhichthisdiscoverycausedmeonLaura’saccount,foritisnottobeexpressedbyanywordsofmine。I
onlyrefertoitatall,becauseitdecidedmetoopposehersigningtheparchment,whatevertheconsequencesmightbe,unlessshewasfirstmadeacquaintedwiththecontents。
Underthesecircumstances,theonechanceforuswhentomorrowcamewastobeprovidedwithanobjectiontogivingthesignature,whichmightrestonsufficientlyfirmcommercialorlegalgroundstoshakeSirPercival’sresolution,andtomakehimsuspectthatwetwowomenunderstoodthelawsandobligationsofbusinessaswellashimself。
Aftersomepondering,Ideterminedtowritetotheonlyhonestmanwithinreachwhomwecouldtrusttohelpusdiscreetlyinourforlornsituation。
ThatmanwasMrGilmore’spartner,MrKyrle,whoconductedthebusinessnowthatouroldfriendhadbeenobligedtowithdrawfromit,andtoleaveLondononaccountofhishealth。IexplainedtoLaurathatIhadMrGilmore’sownauthorityforplacingimplicitconfidenceinhispartner’sintegrity,discretion,andaccurateknowledgeofallheraffairs,andwithherfullapprovalIsatdownatoncetowritetheletter。
IbeganbystatingourpositiontoMrKyrleexactlyasitwas,andthenaskedforhisadviceinreturn,expressedinplain,downrighttermswhichwecouldcomprehendwithoutanydangerofmisinterpretationsandmistakes。
MyletterwasasshortasIcouldpossiblymakeit,andwas,Ihope,unencumberedbyneedlessapologiesandneedlessdetails。
JustasIwasabouttoputtheaddressontheenvelopeanobstaclewasdiscoveredbyLaura,whichintheeffortandpreoccupationofwritinghadescapedmymindaltogether。
`Howarewetogettheanswerintime?’sheasked。`YourletterwillnotbedeliveredinLondonbeforetomorrowmorningandthepostwillnotbringthereplyheretillthemorningafter。’
Theonlywayofovercomingthisdifficultywastohavetheanswerbroughttousfromthelawyer’sofficebyaspecialmessenger。Iwroteapostscripttothateffect,beggingthatthemessengermightbedespatchedwiththereplybytheeleveno’clockmorningtrain,whichwouldbringhimtoourstationattwentyminutespastone,andsoenablehimtoreachBlackwaterParkbytwoo’clockatthelatest。Hewastobedirectedtoaskforme,toanswernoquestionsaddressedtohimbyanyoneelse,andtodeliverhisletterintonohandsbutmine。
`IncaseSirPercivalshouldcomebacktomorrowbeforetwoo’clock,’
IsaidtoLaura,`thewisestplanforyoutoadoptistobeoutinthegroundsallthemorningwithyourbookoryourwork,andnottoappearatthehousetillthemessengerhashadtimetoarrivewiththeletter。
Iwillwaithereforhimallthemorning,toguardagainstanymisadventuresormistakes。ByfollowingthisarrangementIhopeandbelieveweshallavoidbeingtakenbysurprise。Letusgodowntothedrawing-roomnow。
Wemayexcitesuspicionifweremainshutuptogethertoolong。’
`Suspicion?’sherepeated。`Whosesuspicioncanweexcite,nowthatSirPercivalhasleftthehouse?DoyoumeanCountFosco?’
`PerhapsIdo,Laura。’
`YouarebeginningtodislikehimasmuchasIdo,Marian。’
`No,nottodislikehim。Dislikeisalwaysmoreorlessassociatedwithcontempt——IcanseenothingintheCounttodespise。’
`Youarenotafraidofhim,areyou?’
`PerhapsIam——alittle。’
`Afraidofhim,afterhisinterferenceinourfavourtoday!’
`Yes。IammoreafraidofhisinterferencethanIamofSirPercival’sviolence。RememberwhatIsaidtoyouinthelibrary。Whateveryoudo,Laura,don’tmakeanenemyoftheCount!’
Wewentdownstairs。Lauraenteredthedrawing-room,whileIproceededacrossthehall,withmyletterinmyhand,toputitintothepost-bag,17
whichhungagainstthewalloppositetome。
Thehousedoorwasopen,andasIcrossedpastit,IsawCountFoscoandhiswifestandingtalkingtogetheronthestepsoutside,withtheirfacesturnedtowardsme。