Hervoiceroseasthetumultofherrecollectionspresseduponhermind。
  Theinveteratedistrustwhichweighs,nightandday,onmyspiritsinthishouse,instantlyrousedmetowarnher——justasthesightofthebroochhadrousedmetoquestionher,themomentbefore。
  `Speaklow,’Isaid。`Thewindowisopen,andthegardenpathrunsbeneathit。Beginatthebeginning,Laura。Tellme,wordforword,whatpassedbetweenthatwomanandyou。’
  `ShallIclosethewindow?’
  `No,onlyspeaklow——onlyrememberthatAnneCatherickisadangeroussubjectunderyourhusband’sroof。Wheredidyoufirstseeher?’
  `Attheboat-house,Marian。Iwentout,asyouknow,tofindmybrooch,andIwalkedalongthepaththroughtheplantation,lookingdownonthegroundcarefullyateverystep。Inthatwaylgoton,afteralongtime,totheboat-house,andassoonasIwasinsideit,Iwentonmykneestohuntoverthefloor。Iwasstillsearchingwithmybacktothedoorway,whenIheardasoft,strangevoicebehindmesay,``MissFairlie。’’’
  `MissFairlie!’
  `Yes,myoldname——thedear,familiarnamethatIthoughtIhadpartedfromforever。Istartedup——notfrightened,thevoicewastookindandgentletofrightenanybody——butverymuchsurprised。There,lookingatmefromthedoorway,stoodawoman,whosefaceIneverrememberedtohaveseenbefore——’
  `Howwasshedressed?’
  `Shehadaneat,prettywhitegownon,andoveritapoorwornthindarkshawl。Herbonnetwasofbrownstraw,aspoorandwornastheshawl。
  Iwasstruckbythedifferencebetweenhergownandtherestofherdress,andshesawthatInoticedit。``Don’tlookatmybonnetandshawl,’’shesaid,speakinginaquick,breathless,suddenway;``ifImustn’twearwhite,Idon’tcarewhatIwear。Lookatmygownasmuchasyouplease——I’mnotashamedofthat。’’Verystrange,wasitnot?BeforeIcouldsayanythingtosootheher,sheheldoutoneofherhands,andIsawmybroochinit。IwassopleasedandsogratefulthatIwentquiteclosetohertosaywhatIreallyfelt。``Areyouthankfulenoughtodomeonelittlekindness?’’sheasked。``Yes,indeed,’’Ianswered,``anykindnessinmypowerIshallbegladtoshowyou。’’``Thenletmepinyourbroochonforyou,nowIhavefoundit。’’Herrequestwassounexpected,Marian,andshemadeitwithsuchextraordinaryeagerness,thatIdrewbackasteportwo,notwellknowingwhattodo。``Ah!’’shesaid,``yourmotherwouldhaveletmepinonthebrooch。’’Therewassomethinginhervoiceandherlook,aswellasinhermentioningmymotherinthatreproachfulmanner,whichmademeashamedofmydistrust。Itookherhandwiththebroochinit,andputitupgentlyonthebosomofmydress。``Youknewmymother?’’
  Isaid。``Wasitverylongago?haveIeverseenyoubefore?’’Herhandswerebusyfasteningthebrooch:shestoppedandpressedthemagainstmybreast。``Youdon’trememberafinespringdayatLimmeridge,’’shesaid,``andyourmotherwalkingdownthepaththatledtotheschool,withalittlegirloneachsideofher?lhavehadnothingelsetothinkofsince,andIrememberit。Youwereoneofthelittlegirls,andIwastheother。
  Pretty,cleverMissFairlie,andpoordazedAnneCatherickwerenearertoeachotherthenthantheyarenow!’
  `Didyourememberher,Laura,whenshetoldyouhername?’
  `Yes,IrememberedyouraskingmeaboutAnneCatherickatLimmeridge,andyoursayingthatshehadoncebeenconsideredlikeme。’
  `Whatremindedyouofthat,Laura?’
  `Sheremindedme。WhileIwaslookingather,whileshewasveryclosetome,itcameovermymindsuddenlythatwewerelikeeachother!Herfacewaspaleandthinandweary——butthesightofitstartledme,asifithadbeenthesightofmyownfaceintheglassafteralongillness。
  Thediscovery——Idon’tknowwhy——gavemesuchashock,thatIwasperfectlyincapableofspeakingtoherforthemoment。’
  `Didsheseemhurtbyyoursilence?’
  `Iamafraidshewashurtbyit。``Youhavenotgotyourmother’sface,’’
  shesaid,``oryourmother’sheart。Yourmother’sfacewasdark,andyourmother’sheart,MissFairlie,wastheheartofanangel。’’``IamsureIfeelkindlytowardsyou,’’Isaid,``thoughImaynotbeabletoexpressitasIought。WhydoyoucallmeMissFairlie——?’’``BecauseIlovethenameofFairlieandhatethenameofGlyde,——’shebrokeoutviolently。
  Ihadseennothinglikemadnessinherbeforethis,butIfanciedIsawitnowinhereyes。``lonlythoughtyoumightnotknowIwasmarried,’’
  Isaid,rememberingthewildlettershewrotetomeatLimmeridge,andtryingtoquiether。Shesighedbitterly,andturnedawayfromme。``Notknowyouweremarried?’’sherepeated。``Iamherebecauseyouaremarried。
  Iamheretomakeatonementtoyou,beforeImeetyourmotherintheworldbeyondthegrave。’’Shedrewfartherandfartherawayfromme,tillshewasoutoftheboat-house,andthenshewatchedandlistenedforalittlewhile。Whensheturnedroundtospeakagain,insteadofcomingback,shestoppedwhereshewas,lookinginatme,withahandoneachsideoftheentrance。``Didyouseemeatthelakelastnight?’’shesaid。``Didyouhearmefollowingyouinthewood?Ihavebeenwaitingfordaystogethertospeaktoyoualone——IhavelefttheonlyfriendIhaveintheworld,anxiousandfrightenedaboutme——Ihaveriskedbeingshutupagaininthemad-house——andallforyoursake,MissFairlie,allforyoursake。’’
  Herwordsalarmedme,Marian,andyettherewassomethinginthewayshespokethatmademepityherwithallmyheart。Iamsuremypitymusthavebeensincere,foritmademeboldenoughtoaskthepoorcreaturetocomein,andsitdownintheboat-house,bymyside。’
  `Didshedoso?’
  `No。Sheshookherhead,andtoldmeshemuststopwhereshewas,towatchandlisten,andseethatnothirdpersonsurprisedus。Andfromfirsttolast,thereshewaitedattheentrance,withahandoneachsideofit,sometimesbendinginsuddenlytospeaktome,sometimesdrawingbacksuddenlytolookabouther。`Iwashereyesterday,’’shesaid,``beforeitcamedark,andIheardyou,andtheladywithyou,talkingtogether。
  Iheardyoutellheraboutyourhusband。Iheardyousayyouhadnoinfluencetomakehimbelieveyou,andnoinfluencetokeephimsilent。Ah!Iknewwhatthosewordsmeant——myconsciencetoldmewhileIwaslistening。
  WhydidIeverletyoumarryhim!Oh,myfear——mymad,miserable,wickedfear!——’’Shecoveredupherfaceinherpoorwornshawl,andmoanedandmurmuredtoherselfbehindit。IbegantobeafraidshemightbreakoutintosometerribledespairwhichneithershenorIcouldmaster。``Trytoquietyourself,’’Isaid;``trytotellmehowyoumighthavepreventedmymarriage。’’Shetooktheshawlfromherface,andlookedatmevacantly。
  ``IoughttohavehadheartenoughtostopatLimmeridge,’’sheanswered。
  ``Ioughtnevertohaveletthenewsofhiscomingtherefrightenmeaway。
  Ioughttohavewarnedyouandsavedyoubeforeitwastoolate。WhydidIonlyhavecourageenoughtowriteyouthatletter?WhydidIonlydoharm,whenIwantedandmeanttodogood?Oh,myfear——mymad,miserable,wickedfear!’’Sherepeatedthosewordsagain,andhidherfaceagainintheendofherpoorwornshawl。Itwasdreadfultoseeher,anddreadfultohearher。’
  `Surely,Laura,youaskedwhatthefearwaswhichshedweltonsoearnestly?’
  `Yes,Iaskedthat。’
  `Andwhatdidshesay?’
  `Sheaskedmeinreturn,ifIshouldnotbeafraidofamanwhohadshutmeupinamad-house,andwhowouldshutmeupagain,ifhecould?
  Isaid,``Areyouafraidstill?Surelyyouwouldnotbehereifyouwereafraidnow?’’``No,’’shesaid,``Iamnotafraidnow。’’IaskedwhynotShesuddenlybentforwardintotheboat-house,andsaid,``Can’tyouguesswhy?’’Ishookmyhead。``Lookatme,’’shewenton。ItoldherIwasgrievedtoseethatshelookedverysorrowfulandveryill。Shesmiledforthefirsttime。``Ill?’’sherepeated;``I’mdying。YouknowwhyI’mnotafraidofhimnow。DoyouthinkIshallmeetyourmotherinheaven?WillsheforgivemeifIdo?’’Iwassoshockedandsostartled,thatIcouldmakenoreply。
  ``Ihavebeenthinkingofit,’’shewenton,``allthetimeIhavebeeninhidingfromyourhusband,allthetimeIlayill。Mythoughtshavedrivenmehere——Iwanttomakeatonement——IwanttoundoallIcanoftheharmIoncedid。’’IbeggedherasearnestlyasIcouldtotellmewhatshemeant。Shestilllookedatmewithfixedvacanteyes。``ShallIundotheharm?’’shesaidtoherselfdoubtfully。``Youhavefriendstotakeyourpart。IfyouknowhisSecret,hewillbeafraidofyou,hewon’tdareuseyouasheusedme。Hemusttreatyoumercifullyfarhisownsake,ifheisafraidofyouandyourfriends。Andifhetreatsyoumercifully,andifIcansayitwasmydoing——’’Ilistenedeagerlyformore,butshestoppedatthosewords。’
  `Youtriedtomakehergoon?’
  `Itried,butsheonlydrewherselfawayfrommeagain,andleanedherfaceandarmsagainstthesideoftheboat-house。``Oh!’’Iheardhersay,withadreadful,distractedtendernessinhervoice,``oh!ifIcouldonlybeburiedwithyourmother!IfIcouldonlywakeatherside,whentheangel’strumpetsounds,andthegravesgiveuptheirdeadattheresurrection!’’——
  Marian!Itrembledfromheadtofoot——itwashorribletohearher。
  ``Butthereisnohopeofthat,’’shesaid,movingalittle,soastolookatmeagain,``nohopeforapoorstrangerlikeme。IshallnotrestunderthemarblecrossthatIwashedwithmyownhands,andmadesowhiteandpureforhersake。Ohno!ohno!God’smercy,notman’s,willtakemetoher,wherethewickedceasefromtroublingandthewearyareatrest。’’
  Shespokethosewordsquietlyandsorrowfully,withaheavy,hopelesssigh,andthenwaitedalittle。Herfacewasconfusedandtroubled,sheseemedtobethinking,ortryingtothink。``WhatwasitIsaidjustnow?’’sheaskedafterawhile。``Whenyourmotherisinmymind,everythingelsegoesoutofit。WhatwasIsaying?whatwasIsaying?’’Iremindedthepoorcreature,askindlyanddelicatelyasIcould。``Ah,yes,yes,’’shesaid,stillinavacant,perplexedmanner。``Youarehelplesswithyourwickedhusband。Yes。AndImustdowhatIhavecometodohere——Imustmakeituptoyouforhavingbeenafraidtospeakoutatabettertime。’’