`Afterreadingitoncethrough,’shereplied,`Itookitintotheboat-housewithmetositdownandlookoveritasecondtime。WhileIwasreadingashadowfellacrossthepaper。Ilookedup,andsawSirPercivalstandinginthedoorwaywatchingme。’
`Didyoutrytohidetheletter?’
`Itried,buthestoppedme。``Youneedn’ttroubletohidethat,’’hesaid。``Ihappentohavereadit。’’Icouldonlylookathimhelplessly——Icouldsaynothing。``Youunderstand?’’hewenton;``Ihavereadit。
Idugitupoutofthesandtwohourssince,andburieditagain,andwrotethewordaboveitagain,andleftitreadytoyourhands。Youcan’tlieyourselfoutofthescrapenow。YousawAnneCatherickinsecretyesterday,andyouhavegotherletterinyourhandatthismoment。Ihavenotcaughtheryet,butIhavecaughtyou。Givemetheletter。’’Hesteppedcloseuptome——Iwasalonewithhim,Marian——whatcouldIdo?——Igavehimtheletter。’
`Whatdidhesaywhenyougaveittohim?’
`Atfirsthesaidnothing。Hetookmebythearm,andledmeoutoftheboat-house,andlookedabouthimonallsides,asifhewasafraidofourbeingseenorheard。Thenheclaspedhishandfastroundmyarm,andwhisperedtome,``WhatdidAnneCathericksaytoyouyesterday?I
insistonhearingeveryword,fromfirsttolast。’’’
`Didyoutellhim?’
`Iwasalonewithhim,Marian——hiscruelhandwasbruisingmyarm——whatcouldIdo?’
`Isthemarkonyourarmstill?Letmeseeit。’
`Whydoyouwanttoseeit?’
`Iwanttoseeit,Laura,becauseourendurancemustend,andourresistancemustbegintoday。Thatmarkisaweapontostrikehimwith。Letmeseeitnow——Imayhavetosweartoitatsomefuturetime。’
`Oh,Marian,don’tlookso——don’ttalksoIItdoesn’thurtmenow!’
`Letmeseeit!’
Sheshowedmethemarks。Iwaspastgrievingoverthem,pastcryingoverthem,pastshudderingoverthem。Theysayweareeitherbetterthanmen,orworse。Ifthetemptationthathasfalleninsomewomen’sway,andmadethemworse,hadfalleninmineatthatmoment——ThankGod!myfacebetrayednothingthathiswifecouldread。Thegentle,innocent,affectionatecreaturethoughtIwasfrightenedforherandsorryforher,andthoughtnomore。
`Don’tthinktooseriouslyofit,Marian,’shesaidsimply,asshepulledhersleevedownagain。`Itdoesn’thurtmenow。’
`Iwilltrytothinkquietlyofit,mylove,foryoursake——Well!
well!AndyoutoldhimallthatAnneCatherickhadsaidtoyou——allthatyoutoldme?
`Yes,all。Heinsistedonit——Iwasalonewithhim——Icouldconcealnothing。’
`Didhesayanythingwhenyouhaddone?’
`Helookedatme,andlaughedtohimselfinmocking,bitterway。``I
meantohavetherestoutofyou,’’hesaid,``doyouhear?——therest。’’
IdeclaredtohimsolemnlythatIhadtoldhimeverythingIknew。``Notyou,`heanswered,``youknowmorethanyouchoosetotell。Won’tyoutellit?Youshall!I’llwringitoutofyouathomeifIcan’twringitoutofyouhere——Heledmeawaybyastrangepaththroughtheplantation——apathwheretherewasnohopeofourmeetingyou——andhespokenomoretillwecamewithinsightofthehouse。Thenhestoppedagain,andsaid,``Willyoutakeasecondchance,ifIgiveittoyou?Willyouthinkbetterofit。andtellmetherest?’’IcouldonlyrepeatthesamewordsIhadspokenbefore。Hecursedmyobstinacy,andwenton,andtookmewithhimtothehouse。``Youcan’tdeceiveme,’’hesaid,``youknowmorethanyouchoosetotell。I’llhaveyoursecretoutofyou,andI’llhaveitoutofthatsisterofyoursaswell。Thereshallbenomoreplottingandwhisperingbetweenyou。Neitheryounorsheshallseeeachotheragaintillyouhaveconfessedthetruth。I’llhaveyouwatchedmorning,noon,andnight,tillyouconfessthetruth。’’HewasdeaftoeverythingIcouldsay。Hetookmestraightupstairsintomyownroom。Fannywassittingthere,doingsomeworkforme,andheinstantlyorderedherout。``I’lltakegoodcareyou’renotmixedupintheconspiracy,`hesaid。``Youshallleavethishousetoday。Ifyourmistresswantsamaid。sheshallhaveoneofmychoosing。’’Hepushedmeintotheroom,andlockedthedooronme。Hesetthatsenselesswomantowatchmeoutside,Marian!Helookedandspokelikeamadman。Youmayhardlyunderstandit——hedidindeed。’
`Idounderstandit,Laura。Heismad——madwiththeterrorsofaguiltyconscience。EverywordyouhavesaidmakesmepositivelycertainthatwhenAnneCatherickleftyouyesterdayyouwereontheeveofdiscoveringasecretwhichmighthavebeenyourvilehusband’sruin,andhethinksyouhavediscoveredit。Nothingyoucansayordowillquietthatguiltydistrust,andconvincehisfalsenatureofyourtruth。Idon’tsaythis,mylove,toalarmyou。Isayittoopenyoureyestoyourposition,andtoconvinceyouoftheurgentnecessityoflettingmeact,asIbestcan,foryourprotectionwhilethechanceisourown。CountFosco’sinterferencehassecuredmeaccesstoyoutoday,buthemaywithdrawthatinterferencetomorrow。
SirPercivalhasalreadydismissedFannybecausesheisaquick-wittedgirl,anddevotedlyattachedtoyou,andhaschosenawomantotakeherplacewhocaresnothingforyourinterests,andwhosedullintelligencelowershertothelevelofthewatch-dogintheyard。Itisimpossibletosaywhatviolentmeasureshemaytakenext,unlesswemakethemostofouropportunitieswhilewehavethem。’
`Whatcanwedo,Marian?Oh,ifwecouldonlyleavethishouse,nevertoseeitagain!’
`Listentome,mylove,andtrytothinkthatyouarenotquitehelplesssolongasIamherewithyou。’
`Iwillthinkso——Idothinkso。Don’taltogetherforgetpoorFannyinthinkingofme。Shewantshelpandcomforttoo。’
`Iwillnotforgether。IsawherbeforeIcameuphere,andIhavearrangedtocommunicatewithhertonight。Lettersarenotsafeinthepost-bagatBlackwaterPark,andIshallhavetwotowritetoday,inyourinterests,whichmustpassthroughnohandsbutFanny’s。’
`Whatletters?’
`Imeantowritefirst,Laura,toMrGilmore’spartner,whohasofferedtohelpusinanyfreshemergency。LittleasIknowofthelaw,Iamcertainthatitcanprotectawomanfromsuchtreatmentasthatruffianhasinflictedonyoutoday。IwillgointonodetailsaboutAnneCatherick,becauseI
havenocertaininformationtogive。Butthelawyershallknowofthosebruisesonyourarm,andoftheviolenceofferedtoyouinthisroom——
heshall,beforeIresttonight!’
`Butthinkoftheexposure,Marian!’
`Iamcalculatingontheexposure。SirPercivalhasmoretodreadfromitthanyouhave。Theprospectofanexposuremaybringhimtotermswhennothingelsewill。’
IroseasIspoke,butLauraentreatedmenottoleaveher。`Youwilldrivehimtodesperation,`shesaid,`andincreaseourdangerstenfold。’
Ifeltthetruth——thedishearteningtruth——ofthosewords。ButI
couldnotbringmyselfplainlytoacknowledgeittoher。Inourdreadfulpositiontherewasnohelpandnohopeforusbutinriskingtheworst。
Isaidsoinguardedterms。Shesighedbitterly,butdidnotcontestthematter。SheonlyaskedaboutthesecondletterthatIhadproposedwriting。
Towhomwasittobeaddressed?
`ToMrFairlie,’Isaid。`Youruncleisyournearestmalerelative,andtheheadofthefamily。Hemustandshallinterfere。’
Laurashookherheadsorrowfully。
`Yes,yes,’Iwenton,`youruncleisaweak,selfish,worldlyman,Iknow,butheisnotSirPercivalGlyde,andhehasnosuchfriendabouthimasCountFosco。Iexpectnothingfromhiskindnessorhistendernessoffeelingtowardsyouortowardsme,buthewilldoanythingtopamperhisownindolence,andtosecurehisownquiet。Letmeonlypersuadehimthathisinterferenceatthismomentwillsavehiminevitabletroubleandwretchednessandresponsibilityhereafter,andhewillbestirhimselfforhisownsake。Iknowhowtodealwithhim,Laura——Ihavehadsomepractice。’
`IfyoucouldonlyprevailonhimtoletmegobacktoLimmeridgeforalittlewhileandstaytherequietlywithyou,Marian,IcouldbealmostashappyagainasIwasbeforeIwasmarried!’
Thosewordssetmethinkinginanewdirection。WoulditbepossibletoplaceSirPercivalbetweenthetwoalternativesofeitherexposinghimselftothescandaloflegalinterferenceonhiswife’sbehalf,orofallowinghertobequietlyseparatedfromhimforatimeunderpretextofavisittoheruncle’shouse?Andcouldhe,inthatcase,bereckonedonaslikelytoacceptthelastresource?Itwasdoubtful——morethandoubtful。Andyet,hopelessastheexperimentseemed,surelyitwasworthtrying。Iresolvedtotryitinsheerdespairofknowingwhatbettertodo。
`Youruncleshallknowthewishyouhavejustexpressed,’Isaid,`andIwillaskthelawyer’sadviceonthesubjectaswell。Goodmaycomeofit——andwillcomeofit,Ihope。’
SayingthatIroseagain,andagainLauratriedtomakemeresumemyseat。
`Don’tleaveme,’shesaiduneasily。`Mydeskisonthattable。Youcanwritehere。’