2Thathewasnever,tomyknowledgeandbelief,leftaloneintheroomwithLadyGlyde。
3ThatIamnotabletosaywhatcausedthesuddenfright,whichmymistressinformedmehadseizedtheladyonherfirstcomingintothehouse。
Thecausewasneverexplained,eithertomeortomyfellow-servant。
Theabovestatementhasbeenreadoverinmypresence。Ihavenothingtoaddtoit,ortotakeawayfromit。Isay,onmyoathasaChristianwoman,thisisthetruth。
SignedHESTERPINHORN,HerMark。2。THENARRATIVEOFTHEDOCTORTotheRegistraroftheSub-Districtinwhichtheundermentioneddeathtookplace——IherebycertifythatIattendedLadyGlyde,agedTwenty-OnelastBirthday;thatIlastsawheronThursdaythe25thJuly1850;thatshediedonthesamedayatNo。5ForestRoad,StJohn’sWood,andthattheCauseofherdeathDurationofdiseaseAneurismNotknownSignedALFREDGOODRICKE。
Prof。Title。M。R。C。S。Eng。,L。S。A。
Address:12CroydonGardens,StJohn’sWood。3。THENARRATIVEOFJANEGOULDIWASthepersonsentinbyMrGoodricketodowhatwasrightandneedfulbytheremainsofaladywhohaddiedatthehousenamedinthecertificatewhichprecedesthis。Ifoundthebodyinchargeoftheservant,HesterPinhorn。Iremainedwithit,andprepareditatthepropertimeforthegrave。Itwaslaidinthecoffininmypresence,andIafterwardssawthecoffinscreweddownprevioustoitsremoval。Whenthathadbeendone,andnotbefore,Ireceivedwhatwasduetomeandleftthehouse。IreferpersonswhomaywishtoinvestigatemycharactertoMrGoodricke。HewillbearwitnessthatIcanbetrustedtotellthetruth。
SignedJANEGOULD。4。THENARRATIVEOFTHETOMBSTONESACREDTOTHEMEMORYOFLAURA,LADYGLYDE,WIFEOFSIRPERCIVALGLYDE,BART。,OFBLACKWATERPARK,HAMPSHIRE,ANDDAUGHTEROFTHELATEPHILIPFAIRLIE,ESQ。,OFLIMMERIDGEHOUSE,INTHISPARISH。BORNMARCH27TH,1829;MARRIEDDECEMBER22ND,1849;DIEDJULY25TH,1850。5。THENARRATIVEOFWALTERHARTRIGHTEARLYinthesummerof1850IandmysurvivingcompanionsleftthewildsandforestsofCentralAmericaforhome。Arrivedatthecoast,wetookshipthereforEngland。ThevesselwaswreckedintheGulfofMexico——
Iwasamongthefewsavedfromthesea。Itwasmythirdescapefromperilofdeath。Deathbydisease,deathbytheIndians,deathbydrowning——
allthreehadapproachedme;allthreehadpassedmeby。
ThesurvivorsofthewreckwererescuedbyanAmericanvesselboundforLiverpool。TheshipreachedherportonthethirteenthdayofOctober1850。Welandedlateintheafternoon,andIarrivedinLondonthesamenight。
Thesepagesarenottherecordofmywanderingsandmydangersawayfromhome。Themotiveswhichledmefrommycountryandmyfriendstoanewworldofadventureandperilareknown。Fromthatself-imposedexileIcameback,asIhadhoped,prayed,believedIshouldcomeback——achangedman。InthewatersofanewlifeIhadtemperedmynatureafresh。Inthesternschoolofextremityanddangermywillhadlearnttobestrong,myhearttoberesolute,mymindtorelyonitself。Ihadgoneouttoflyfrommyownfuture。Icamebacktofaceit,asamanshould。
TofaceitwiththatinevitablesuppressionofmyselfwhichIknewitwoulddemandfromme。Ihadpartedwiththeworstbitternessofthepast,butnotwithmyheart’sremembranceofthesorrowandthetendernessofthatmemorabletime。Ihadnotceasedtofeeltheoneirreparabledisappointmentofmylife——Ihadonlylearnttobearit。LauraFairliewasinallmythoughtswhentheshipboremeaway,andIlookedmylastatEngland。LauraFairliewasinallmythoughtswhentheshipbroughtmeback,andthemorninglightshowedthefriendlyshoreinview。
Mypentracestheoldlettersasmyheartgoesbacktotheoldlove。
IwriteofherasLauraFairliestill。Itishardtothinkofher,itishardtospeakofher,byherhusband’sname。
Therearenomorewordsofexplanationtoaddonmyappearingforthesecondtimeinthesepages。Thisnarrative,ifIhavethestrengthandthecouragetowriteit,maynowgoon。
Myfirstanxietiesandfirsthopeswhenthemorningcamecentredinmymotherandmysister。Ifeltthenecessityofpreparingthemforthejoyandsurpriseofmyreturn,afteranabsenceduringwhichithadbeenimpossibleforthemtoreceiveanytidingsofmeformonthspast。EarlyinthemorningIsentalettertotheHampsteadCottage,andfolloweditmyselfinanhour’stime。
Whenthefirstmeetingwasover,whenourquietandcomposureofotherdaysbegangraduallytoreturntous,Isawsomethinginmymother’sfacewhichtoldmethatasecretoppressionlayheavyonherheart。Therewasmorethanlove——therewassorrowintheanxiouseyesthatlookedonmesotenderly——therewaspityinthekindhandthatslowlyandfondlystrengtheneditsholdonmine。Wehadnoconcealmentsfromeachother。Sheknewhowthehopeofmylifehadbeenwrecked——sheknewwhyIhadlefther。ItwasonmylipstoaskascomposedlyasIcouldifanyletterhadcomeformefromMissHalcombe,iftherewasanynewsofhersisterthatImighthear。ButwhenIlookedinmymother’sfaceIlostcouragetoputthequestioneveninthatguardedform。Icouldonlysay,doubtinglyandrestrainedly——
`Youhavesomethingtotellme。’
Mysister,whohadbeensittingoppositetous,rosesuddenlywithoutawordofexplanation——roseandlefttheroom。
Mymothermovedclosertomeonthesofaandputherarmsroundmyneck。
Thosefondarmstrembled——thetearsflowedfastoverthefaithfullovingface。
`Walter!’shewhispered,`myowndarling!myheartisheavyforyou,Oh,mysonImysonItrytorememberthatIamstillleft!’
Myheadsankonherbosom。Shehadsaidallinsayingthosewords。
Itwasthemorningofthethirddaysincemyreturn——themorningofthesixteenthofOctober。
Ihadremainedwiththematthecottage——Ihadtriedhardnottoembitterthehappinessofmyreturntothemasitwasembitteredtome。I
haddoneallmancouldtoriseaftertheshock,andacceptmyliferesignedly——toletmygreatsorrowcomeintendernesstomyheart,andnotindespair。
Itwasuselessandhopeless。Notearssoothedmyachingeyes,noreliefcametomefrommysister’ssympathyormymother’slove。
OnthatthirdmorningIopenedmyhearttothem。AtlastthewordspassedmylipswhichIhadlongedtospeakonthedaywhenmymothertoldmeofherdeath。
`Letmegoawayaloneforalittlewhile,’Isaid。`IshallbearitbetterwhenIhavelookedoncemoreattheplacewhereIfirstsawher——whenIhavekneltandprayedbythegravewheretheyhavelaidhertorest。’
Idepartedonmyjourney——myjourneytothegraveofLauraFairlie。
ItwasaquietautumnafternoonwhenIstoppedatthesolitarystation,andsetforthaloneonfootbythewell-rememberedroad。Thewaningsunwasshiningfaintlythroughthinwhiteclouds——theairwaswarmandstill——thepeacefulnessofthelonelycountrywasovershadowedandsaddenedbytheinfluenceofthefallingyear。
Ireachedthemoor——Istoodagainonthebrowofthehill——Ilookedonalongthepath——andtherewerethefamiliargardentreesinthedistance,theclearsweepingsemicircleofthedrive,thehighwhitewallsofLimmeridgeHouse。Thechancesandchanges,thewanderingsanddangersofmonthsandmonthspast,allshrankandshrivelledtonothinginmymind。Itwaslikeyesterdaysincemyfeethadlasttroddenthefragrantheathyground。I
thoughtIshouldseehercomingtomeetme,withherlittlestrawhatshadingherface,hersimpledressflutteringintheair,andherwell-filledsketch-bookreadyinherhand。
Oh,death,thouhastthysting!oh,grave,thouhastthyvictory!
Iturnedaside,andtherebelowmeintheglenwasthelonesomegreychurch,thePorchwhereIhadwaitedforthecomingofthewomaninwhite,thehillsencirclingthequietburial-ground,thebrookbubblingcoldoveritsstonybed。Therewasthemarblecross,fairandwhite,attheheadofthetomb——thetombthatnowroseovermotheranddaughteralike。
Iapproachedthegrave。Icrossedoncemorethelowstonestile,andbaredmyheadasItouchedthesacredground。Sacredtogentlenessandgoodness,sacredtoreverenceandgrief。
Istoppedbeforethepedestalfromwhichthecrossrose。Ononesideofit,onthesidenearesttome,thenewly-cutinscriptionmetmyeyes——thehard,clear,cruelblackletterswhichtoldthestoryofherlifeanddeath。Itriedtoreadthem。Ididreadasfarasthename。`SacredtotheMemoryofLaura——’Thekindblueeyesdimwithtears——thefairheaddroopingwearily——theinnocentpartingwordswhichimploredmetoleaveher——oh,forahappierlastmemoryofherthanthis;thememoryItookawaywithme,thememoryIbringbackwithmetohergrave!
AsecondtimeItriedtoreadtheinscription。Isawattheendthedateofherdeath,andaboveit——
Aboveittherewerelinesonthemarble——therewasanameamongthemwhichdisturbedmythoughtsofher。Iwentroundtotheothersideofthegrave,wheretherewasnothingtoread,nothingofearthlyvilenesstoforceitswaybetweenherspiritandmine。
Ikneltdownbythetomb。Ilaidmyhands,Ilaidmyheadonthebroadwhitestone,andclosedmywearyeyesontheeartharound,onthelightabove。Ilethercomebacktome。Oh,mylove!mylove!myheartmayspeaktoyounow!Itisyesterdayagainsinceweparted——yesterday,sinceyourdearhandlayinmine——yesterday,sincemyeyeslookedtheirlastonyou。Mylove!mylove!
Timehadflowedon,andsilencehadfallenlikethicknightoveritscourse。
Thefirstsoundthatcameaftertheheavenlypeacerustledfaintlylikeapassingbreathofairoverthegrassoftheburial-ground。Ihearditnearingmeslowly,untilitcamechangedtomycar——camelikefootstepsmowingonward——thenstopped。
Ilookedup。