TheeffectofthiscuriouscapriceoffancyasIthoughtitthenwasnotofanaturetosetmeatmyease,duringafirstinterviewwithMissFairlie。Thefewkindwordsofwelcomewhichshespokefoundmehardlyself-possessedenoughtothankherinthecustomaryphrasesofreply。Observingmyhesitation,andnodoubtattributingit,naturallyenough,tosomemomentaryshynessonmypart,MissHalcombetookthebusinessoftalking,aseasilyandreadilyasusual,intoherownhands。
`Lookthere,MrHartright,’shesaid,pointingtothesketchbookonthetable,andtothelittledelicatewanderinghandthatwasstilltriflingwithit。`Surelyyouwillacknowledgethatyourmodelpupilisfoundatlast?Themomentshehearsthatyouareinthehouse,sheseizesherinestimablesketch-book,looksuniversalNaturestraightintheface,andlongstobegin!’
MissFairlielaughedwithareadygood-humour,whichbrokeoutasbrightlyasifithadbeenpartofthesunshineaboveus,overherlovelyface。
`Imustnottakecredittomyselfwherenocreditisdue,’shesaid,herclear,truthfulblueeyeslookingalternatelyatMissHalcombeandatme。`FondasIamofdrawing,IamsoconsciousofmyownignorancethatIammoreafraidthananxioustobegin。NowIknowyouarehere,MrHartright,Ifindmyselflookingovermysketches,asIusedtolookovermylessonswhenIwasalittlegirl,andwhenIwassadlyafraidthatI
shouldturnoutnotfittobeheard。’
Shemadetheconfessionveryprettilyandsimply,and,withquaint,childishearnestness,drewthesketch-hookawayclosetoherownsideofthetable。MissHalcombecuttheknotofthelittleembarrassmentforthwith,inherresolute,downrightway。
`Good,bad,orindifferent,’shesaid,`thepupil’ssketchesmustpassthroughthefieryordealofthemaster’sjudgment——andthere’sanendtoit。Supposewetakethemwithusinthecarriage,Laura,andletMrHartrightseethem,forthefirsttime,undercircumstancesofperpetualjoltingandinterruption?Ifwecanonlyconfusehimallthroughthedrive,betweenNatureasitis,whenhelooksupattheview,andNatureasitisnot,whenhelooksdownagainatoursketch-books,weshalldrivehimintothelastdesperaterefugeofpayinguscompliments,andshallslipthroughhisprofessionalfingerswithourpetfeathersofvanityallunruffled。’
`IhopeMrHartrightwillpaymenocompliments,’saidMissFairlie,asweallleftthesummer-house。
`MayIventuretoinquirewhyyouexpressthathope?’Iasked。
`BecauseIshallbelieveallthatyousaytome,’sheansweredsimply。
Inthosefewwordssheunconsciouslygavemethekeytoherwholecharacter:
tothatgeneroustrustinotherswhich,inhernature,grewinnocentlyoutofthesenseofherowntruth。Ionlyknewitintuitivelythen。Iknowitbyexperiencenow。
WemerelywaitedtorousegoodMrsVeseyfromtheplacewhichshestilloccupiedatthedesertedluncheon-table,beforeweenteredtheopencarriageforourpromiseddrive。TheoldladyandMissHalcombeoccupiedthebackseat,andMissFairlieandIsattogetherinfront,withthesketch-bookopenbetweenus,fairlyexhibitedatlasttomyprofessionaleyes。Allseriouscriticismonthedrawings,evenifIhadbeendisposedtovolunteerit,wasrenderedimpossiblebyMissHalcombe’slivelyresolutiontoseenothingbuttheridiculoussideoftheFineArts,aspractisedbyherself,hersister,andladiesingeneral。IcanremembertheconversationthatpassedfarmoreeasilythanthesketchesthatImechanicallylookedover。
Thatpartofthetalk,especially,inwhichMissFairlietookanyshare,isstillasvividlyimpressedonmymemoryasifIhadhearditonlyafewhoursago。
Yes!letmeacknowledgethatonthefirstdayIletthecharmofherpresenceluremefromtherecollectionofmyselfandmyposition。Themosttriflingofthequestionsthatsheputtome,onthesubjectofusingherpencilandmixinghercolours;theslightestalterationsofexpressioninthelovelyeyesthatlookedintominewithsuchanearnestdesiretolearnallthatIcouldteach,andtodiscoverallthatIcouldshow,attractedmoreofmyattentionthanthefinestviewwepassedthrough,orthegrandestchangesoflightandshade,astheyflowedintoeachotheroverthewavingmoorlandandthelevelbeach。Atanytime,andunderanycircumstancesofhumaninterest,isitnotstrangetoseehowlittlerealholdtheobjectsofthenaturalworldamidwhichwelivecangainonourheartsandminds?
WegotoNatureforcomfortintrouble,andsympathyinjoy,onlyinbooks。
Admirationofthosebeautiesoftheinanimateworld,whichmodernpoetrysolargelyandsoeloquentlydescribes,isnot,eveninthebestofus,oneoftheoriginalinstinctsofournature。Aschildren,wenoneofuspossessit。Nouninstructedmanorwomanpossessesit。Thosewhoselivesaremostexclusivelypassedamidtheever-changingwondersofseaandlandarealsothosewhoaremostuniversallyinsensibletoeveryaspectofNaturenotdirectlyassociatedwiththehumaninterestoftheircalling。Ourcapacityofappreciatingthebeautiesoftheearthweliveonis,intruth,oneofthecivilisedaccomplishmentswhichwealllearnasanArt;and,more,thatverycapacityisrarelypractisedbyanyofusexceptwhenourmindsaremostindolentandmostunoccupied。HowmuchsharehavetheattractionsofNatureeverhadinthepleasurableorpainfulinterestsandemotionsofourselvesorourfriends?Whatspacedotheyeveroccupyinthethousandlittlenarrativesofpersonalexperiencewhichpasseverydaybywordofmouthfromoneofustotheother?Allthatourmindscancompass,allthatourheartscanlearn,canbeaccomplishedwithequalcertainty,equalprofit,andequalsatisfactiontoourselves,inthepoorestasintherichestprospectthatthefaceoftheearthcanshow。Thereissurelyareasonforthiswantofinbornsympathybetweenthecreatureandthecreationaroundit,areasonwhichmayperhapsbefoundinthewidely-differingdestiniesofmanandhisearthlysphere。Thegrandestmountainprospectthattheeyecanrangeoverisappointedtoannihilation。Thesmallesthumaninterestthatthepureheartcanfeelisappointedtoimmortality。
Wehadbeenoutnearlythreehours,whenthecarriageagainpassedthroughthegatesofLimmeridgeHouse。
OnourwaybackIhadlettheladiessettleforthemselvesthefirstpointofviewwhichtheyweretosketch,undermyinstructions,ontheafternoonofthenextday。Whentheywithdrewtodressfordinner,andwhenIwasaloneagaininmylittlesitting-room,myspiritsseemedtoleavemeonasudden。Ifeltillateaseanddissatisfiedwithmyself,Ihardlyknewwhy。PerhapsIwasnowconsciousforthefirsttimeofhavingenjoyedourdrivetoomuchinthecharacterofaguest,andtoolittleinthecharacterofadrawing-master。Perhapsthatstrangesenseofsomethingwanting,eitherinMissFairlieorinmyself,whichhadperplexedmewhenIwasfirstintroducedtoher,hauntedmestill。Anyhow,itwasarelieftomyspiritswhenthedinner-hourcalledmeoutofmysolitude,andtookmebacktothesocietyoftheladiesofthehouse。
Iwasstruck,onenteringthedrawing-room,bythecuriouscontrast,ratherinmaterialthanincolour,ofthedresseswhichtheynowwore。
WhileMrsVeseyandMissHalcombewererichlycladeachinthemannermostbecomingtoherage,thefirstinsilver-grey,andthesecondinthatdelicateprimrose-yellowcolourwhichmatchessowellwithadarkcomplexionandblackhair,MissFairliewasunpretendinglyandalmostpoorlydressedinplainwhitemuslin。Itwasspotlesslypure:itwasbeautifullyputon;butstillitwasthesortofdresswhichthewifeordaughterofapoormannighthaveworn,anditmadeher,sofarasexternalswent,looklessaffluentincircumstancesthanherowngoverness。Atalaterperiod,whenIlearnttoknowmoreofMissFairlie’scharacter,Idiscoveredthatthiscuriouscontrast,onthewrongside,wasduetohernaturaldelicacyoffeelingandnaturalintensityofaversiontotheslightestpersonaldisplayofherownwealth。NeitherMrsVeseynorMissHalcombecouldeverinducehertolettheadvantageindressdesertthetwoladieswhowerepoor,toleantothesideoftheoneladywhowasrich。
Whenthedinnerwasoverwereturnedtogethertothedrawing-room。AlthoughMrFairlieemulatingthemagnificentcondescensionofthemonarchwhohadpickedupTitian’sbrushforhimhadinstructedhisbutlertoconsultmywishesinrelationtothewinethatImightpreferafterdinner,Iwasresoluteenoughtoresistthetemptationofsittinginsolitarygrandeuramongbottlesofmyownchoosing,andsensibleenoughtoasktheladies’
permissiontoleavethetablewiththemhabitually,onthecivilisedforeignplan,duringtheperiodofmyresidenceatLimmeridgeHouse。
Thedrawing-room,towhichwehadnowwithdrawnfortherestoftheevening,wasontheground-floor,andwasofthesameshapeandsizeasthebreakfast-room。Largeglassdoorsatthelowerendopenedontoaterrace,beautifullyornamentedalongitswholelengthwithaprofusionofflowers。
Thesoft,hazytwilightwasjustshadingleafandblossomalikeintoharmonywithitsownsoberhuesasweenteredtheroom,andthesweeteveningscentoftheflowersmetuswithitsfragrantwelcomethroughtheopenglassdoors。GoodMrsVeseyalwaysthefirstofthepartytositdowntookpossessionofanarmchairinacorner,anddozedoffcomfortablytosleep。
AtmyrequestMissFairlieplacedherselfatthepiano。AsIfollowedhertoaseatneartheinstrument,IsawMissHalcomberetireintoarecessofoneofthesidewindows,toproceedwiththesearchthroughhermother’slettersbythelastquietraysoftheeveninglight。
Howvividlythatpeacefulhome-pictureofthedrawing-roomcomesbacktomewhileIwrite!fromtheplacewhereIsatIcouldseeMissHalcombe’sgracefulfigure,halfofitinsoftlight,halfinmysteriousshadow,bendingintentlyoverthelettersinherlap;while,nearertome,thefairprofileoftheplayeratthepianowasjustdelicatelydefinedagainstthefaintlydeepeningbackgroundoftheinnerwalloftheroom。Outside,ontheterrace,theclusteringflowersandlonggrassesandcreeperswavedsogentlyinthelighteveningair,thatthesoundoftheirrustlingneverreachedus。
Theskywaswithoutacloud,andthedawningmysteryofmoonlightbegantotremblealreadyintheregionoftheeasternheaven。Thesenseofpeaceandseclusionsoothedallthoughtandfeelingintoarapt,unearthlyrepose;
andthebalmyquiet,thatdeepenedeverwiththedeepeninglight,seemedtohoveroveruswithagentlerinfluencestill,whentherestoleuponitfromthepianotheheavenlytendernessofthemusicofMozart。Itwasaneveningofsightsandsoundsnevertoforget。
Weallsatsilentintheplaceswehadchosen——MrsVeseystillsleeping,MissFairliestillplaying,MissHalcombestillreading——tillthelightfailedus。Bythistimethemoonhadstolenroundtotheterrace,andsoft,mysteriousraysoflightwereslantingalreadyacrossthelowerendoftheroom。Thechangefromthetwilightobscuritywassobeautifulthatwebanishedthelamps,bycommonconsent,whentheservantbroughtthemin,andkeptthelargeroomunlighted,exceptbytheglimmerofthetwocandlesatthepiano。