WhileIacknowledgethatIwasnotstrongenoughtokeepmymotivesabovethereachofthisinstinctofrevenge,Icanhonestlysaysomethinginmyownfavourontheotherside。NobasespeculationonthefuturerelationsofLauraandmyself,andontheprivateandpersonalconcessionswhichImightforcefromSirPercivalifIoncehadhimatmymercy,everenteredmymind。Ineversaidtomyself,`IfIdosucceed,itshallbeoneresultofmysuccessthatIputitoutofherhusband’spowertotakeherfrommeagain。’Icouldnotlookatherandthinkofthefuturewithsuchthoughtsasthose。Thesadsightofthechangeinherfromherformerself,madetheoneinterestofmyloveaninterestoftendernessandcompassionwhichherfatherorherbrothermighthavefelt,andwhichIfelt,Godknows,inmyinmostheart。Allmyhopeslookednofartheronnowthantothedayofherrecovery。There,tillshewasstrongagainandhappyagain——there,tillshecouldlookatmeasshehadoncelooked,andspeaktomeasshehadoncespoken——thefutureofmyhappiestthoughtsandmydearestwishesended。
  Thesewordsarewrittenundernopromptingofidleself-contemplation。
  Passagesinthisnarrativearesoontocomewhichwillsetthemindsofothersinjudgmentonmyconduct。Itisrightthatthebestandtheworstofmeshouldbefairlybalancedbeforethattime。
  OnthemorningaftermyreturnfromHampshireItookMarianupstairsintomyworking-room,andtherelaidbeforehertheplanthatIhadmaturedthusfar,formasteringtheoneassailablepointinthelifeofSirPercivalGlyde。
  ThewaytotheSecretlaythroughthemystery,hithertoimpenetrabletoallofus,ofthewomaninwhite。TheapproachtothatinitsturnmightbegainedbyobtainingtheassistanceofAnneCatherick’smother,andtheonlyascertainablemeansofprevailingonMrsCathericktoactortospeakinthematterdependedonthechanceofmydiscoveringlocalparticularsandfamilyparticularsfirstofallfromMrsClements。Afterthinkingthesubjectovercarefully,IfeltcertainthatIcouldonlybeginthenewinquiriesbyplacingmyselfincommunicationwiththefaithfulfriendandprotectressofAnneCatherick。
  ThefirstdifficultythenwastofindMrsClements。
  IwasindebtedtoMarian’squickperceptionformeetingthisnecessityatoncebythebestandsimplestmeans。SheproposedtowritetothefarmnearLimmeridgeTodd’sCorner,toinquirewhetherMrsClementshadcommunicatedwithMrsToddduringthepastfewmonths。HowMrsClementshadbeenseparatedfromAnneitwasimpossibleforustosay,butthatseparationonceeffected,itwouldcertainlyoccurtoMrsClementstoinquireafterthemissingwomanintheneighbourhoodofallotherstowhichshewasknowntobemostattached——theneighbourhoodofLimmeridge。IsawdirectlythatMarian’sproposalofferedusaprospectofsuccess,andshewrotetoMrsToddaccordinglybythatday’spost。
  Whilewewerewaitingforthereply,ImademyselfmasterofalltheinformationMariancouldaffordonthesubjectofSirpercival’sfamily,andofhisearlylife。Shecouldonlyspeakonthesetopicsfromheresay,butshewasreasonablycertainofthetruthofwhatlittleshehadtotell。
  SirPercivalwasanonlychild。Hisfather,SirfelixGlyde,hadsufferedfromhisbirthunderapainfulandincurabledeformity,andhadshunnedallsocietyfromhisearliestyears。Hissolehappinesswasintheenjoymentofmusic,andhehadmarriedaladywithtastessimilartohisown,whowassaidtobeamostaccomplishedmusician。HeinheritedtheBlackwaterpropertywhilestillayoungman。Neitherhenorhiswife,aftertakingpossession,madeadvancesofanysorttowardsthesocietyoftheneighbourhood,andnooneendeavouredtotemptthemintoabandoningtheirreserve,withtheonedisastrousexceptionoftherectoroftheparish。
  Therectorwastheworstofallinnocentmischief-makers——anover-zealousman。HehadheardthatSirFelixhadleftCollegewiththecharacterofbeinglittlebetterthanarevolutionistinpoliticsandaninfidelinreligion,andhearrivedconscientiouslyattheconclusionthatitwashisboundendutytosummonthelordofthemanortohearsoundviewsenunciatedintheparishchurch。SirFelixfiercelyresentedtheclergyman’swell-meantbutill-directedinterference,insultinghimsogrosslyandsopublicly,thatthefamiliesintheneighbourhoodsentlettersofindignantremonstrancetothePark,andeventhetenantsoftheBlackwaterpropertyexpressedtheiropinionasstronglyastheydared。Thebaronet,whohadnocountrytastesofanykind,andnoattachmenttotheestateortoanyonelivingonit,declaredthatsocietyatBlackwatershouldneverhaveasecondchanceofannoyinghim,andlefttheplacefromthatmoment。
  AfterashortresidenceinLondonheandhiswifedepartedfortheContinent,andneverreturnedtoEnglandagain。TheylivedpartofthetimeinFranceandpartinGermany——alwayskeepingthemselvesinthestrictretirementwhichthemorbidsenseofhisownpersonaldeformityhadmadeanecessitytoSirFelix。Theirson,Percival,hadbeenbornabroad,andhadbeeneducatedtherebyprivatetutors。Hismotherwasthefirstofhisparentswhomhelost。Hisfatherhaddiedafewyearsafterher,eitherin1825or1826。
  SirPercivalhadbeeninEngland,asayoungman,onceortwicebeforethatperiod,buthisacquaintancewiththelateMrFairliedidnotbegintillafterthetimeofhisfather’sdeath。Theysoonbecameveryintimate,althoughSirPercivalwasseldom,ornever,atLimmeridgeHouseinthosedays。MrFrederickFairliemighthavemethimonceortwiceinMrPhilipFairlie’scompany,buthecouldhaveknownlittleofhimatthatoratanyothertime。SirPercival’sonlyintimatefriendintheFairliefamilyhadbeenLaura’sfather。
  ThesewerealltheparticularsthatIcouldgainfromMarian。Theysuggestednothingwhichwasusefultomypresentpurpose,butInotedthemdowncarefully,intheeventoftheirprovingtobeofimportanceatanyfutureperiod。
  MrsTodd’sreplyaddressed,byourownwish,toapost-officeatsomedistancefromushadarrivedatitsdestinationwhenIwenttoapplyforit。Thechances,whichhadbeenallagainstushitherto,turnedfromthismomentinourfavour。MrsTodd’slettercontainedthefirstitemofinformationofwhichwewereinsearch。
  MrsClements,itappeared,hadaswehadconjecturedwrittentoTodd’sCorner,askingpardoninthefirstplacefortheabruptmannerinwhichsheandAnnehadlefttheirfriendsatthefarm-houseonthemorningafterIhadmetthewomaninwhiteinLimmeridgechurchyard,andtheninformingMrsToddofAnne’sdisappearance,andentreatingthatshewouldcauseinquiriestobemadeintheneighbourhood,onthechancethatthelostwomanmighthavestrayedbacktoLimmeridge。Inmakingthisrequest,MrsClementshadbeencarefultoaddtoittheaddressatwhichshemightalwaysbeheardof,andthataddressMrsToddnowtransmittedtoMarian。ItwasinLondon,andwithinhalfanhour’swalkofourownlodging。
  Inthewordsoftheproverb,Iwasresolvednottoletthegrassgrowundermyfeet。ThenextmorningIsetforthtoseekaninterviewwithMrsClements。Thiswasmyfirststepforwardintheinvestigation。ThestoryofthedesperateattempttowhichInowstoodcommittedbeginshere。VITheaddresscommunicatedbyMrsToddtookmetoalodging-housesituatedinarespectablestreetneartheGray’sInnRoad。
  WhenIknockedthedoorwasopenedbyMrsClementsherself。Shedidnotappeartorememberme,andaskedwhatmybusinesswas。IrecalledtoherourmeetinginLimmeridgechurchyardatthecloseofmyinterviewtherewiththewomaninwhite,takingspecialcaretoremindherthatIwasthepersonwhoassistedAnneCatherickasAnnehadherselfdeclaredtoescapethepursuitfromtheAsylum。ThiswasmyonlyclaimtotheconfidenceofMrsClements。SherememberedthecircumstancethemomentIspokeofit,andaskedmeintotheparlour,inthegreatestanxietytoknowifIhadbroughtheranynewsofAnne。
  Itwasimpossibleformetotellherthewholetruthwithout,atthesametime,enteringintoparticularsonthesubjectoftheconspiracywhichitwouldhavebeendangeroustoconfidetoastranger。Icouldonlyabstainmostcarefullyfromraisinganyfalsehopes,andthenexplainthattheobjectofmyvisitwastodiscoverthepersonswhowerereallyresponsibleforAnne’sdisappearance。Ievenadded,soastoexoneratemyselffromanyafter-reproachofmyownconscience,thatIentertainednottheleasthopeofbeingabletotraceher——thatIbelievedweshouldneverseeheraliveagain——andthatmymaininterestintheaffairwastobringtopunishmenttwomenwhomIsuspectedtobeconcernedinluringheraway,andatwhosehandsIandsomedearfriendsofminehadsufferedagrievouswrong。WiththisexplanationIleftittoMrsClementstosaywhetherourinterestinthematterwhateverdifferencetheremightbeinthemotiveswhichactuateduswasnotthesame,andwhethershefeltanyreluctancetoforwardmyobjectsbygivingmesuchinformationonthesubjectofmyinquiriesasshehappenedtopossess。
  ThePoorwomanwasatfirsttoomuchconfusedandagitatedtounderstandthoroughlywhatIsaidtoher。ShecouldonlyreplythatIwaswelcometoanythingshecouldtellmeinreturnforthekindnessIhadshowntoAnne;butasshewasnotveryquickandready,atthebestoftimes,intalkingtostrangers,shewouldbegmetoputherintherightway,andtosaywhereIwishedhertobegin。
  Knowingbyexperiencethattheplainestnarrativeattainablefrompersonswhoarenotaccustomedtoarrangetheirideas,isthenarrativewhichgoesfarenoughbackatthebeginningtoavoidallimpedimentsofretrospectioninitscourse,IaskedMrsClementstotellmefirstwhathadhappenedaftershehadleftLimmeridge,andso,bywatchfulquestioning,carriedheronfrompointtopoint,tillwereachedtheperiodofAnne’sdisappearance。
  ThesubstanceoftheinformationwhichIthusobtainedwasasfollows:——
  OnleavingthefarmatTodd’sCorner,MrsClementsandAnnehadtravelledthatdayasfarasDerby,andhadremainedthereaweekonAnne’saccount。
  TheyhadthengoneontoLondon,andhadlivedinthelodgingoccupiedbyMrsClementsatthattimeforamonthormore,whencircumstancesconnectedwiththehouseandthelandlordhadobligedthemtochangetheirquarters。
  Anne’sterrorofbeingdiscoveredinLondonoritsneighbourhood,whenevertheyventuredtowalkout,hadgraduallycommunicateditselftoMrsClements,andshehaddeterminedonremovingtooneofthemostout-of-the-wayplacesinEngland——tothetownofGrimsbyinLincolnshire,whereherdeceasedhusbandhadpassedallhisearlylife。Hisrelativeswererespectablepeoplesettledinthetown——theyhadalwaystreatedMrsClementswithgreatkindness,andshethoughtitimpossibletodobetterthangothereandtaketheadviceofherhusband’sfriends。AnnewouldnothearofreturningtohermotheratWelmingham,becauseshehadbeenremovedtotheAsylumfromthatplace,andbecauseSirPercivalwouldbecertaintogobackthereandfindheragain。Therewasseriousweightinthisobjection,andMrsClementsfeltthatitwasnottobeeasilyremoved。
  AtGrimsbythefirstserioussymptomsofillnesshadshownthemselvesinAnne。TheyappearedsoonafterthenewsofLadyGlyde’smarriagehadbeenmadepublicinthenewspapers,andhadreachedherthroughthatmedium。
  Themedicalmanwhowassentfortoattendthesickwomandiscoveredatoncethatshewassufferingfromaseriousaffectionoftheheart。Theillnesslastedlong,leftherveryweak,andreturnedatintervals,thoughwithmitigatedseverity,againandagain。TheyremainedatGrimsby,inconsequence,duringthefirsthalfofthenewyear,andtheretheymightprobablyhavestayedmuchlonger,butforthesuddenresolutionwhichAnnetookatthistimetoventurebacktoHampshire,forthepurposeofobtainingaprivateinterviewwithLadyGlyde。
  MrsClementsdidallinherpowertoopposetheexecutionofthishazardousandunaccountableproject。NoexplanationofhermotiveswasofferedbyAnne,exceptthatshebelievedthedayofherdeathwasnotfaroff,andthatshehadsomethingonhermindwhichmustbecommunicatedtoLadyGlyde,atanyrisk,insecret。HerresolutiontoaccomplishthispurposewassofirmlysettledthatshedeclaredherintentionofgoingtoHampshirebyherselfifMrsClementsfeltanyunwillingnesstogowithher。Thedoctor,onbeingconsulted,wasofopinionthatseriousoppositiontoherwisheswould,inallprobability,produceanotherandperhapsafatalfitofillness,andMrsClements,underthisadvice,yieldedtonecessity,andoncemore,withsadforebodingsoftroubleanddangertocome,allowedAnneCathericktohaveherownway。
  OnthejourneyfromLondontoHampshireMrsClementsdiscoveredthatoneoftheirfellow-passengerswaswellacquaintedwiththeneighbourhoodofBlackwater,andcouldgiveheralltheinformationsheneededonthesubjectoflocalities。Inthiswayshefoundoutthattheonlyplacetheycouldgoto,whichwasnotdangerouslyneartoSirPercival’sresidence,wasalargevillagecalledSandon。ThedistanceherefromBlackwaterParkwasbetweenthreeandfourmiles——andthatdistance,andbackagain,Annehadwalkedoneachoccasionwhenshehadappearedintheneighbourhoodofthelake。
  ForthefewdaysduringwhichtheywereatSandonwithoutbeingdiscoveredtheyhadlivedalittleawayfromthevillage,inthecottageofadecentwidow-womanwhohadabedroomtolet,andwhosediscreetsilenceMrsClementshaddoneherbesttosecure,forthefirstweekatleast。ShehadalsotriedhardtoinduceAnnetobecontentwithwritingtoLadyGlyde,inthefirstinstance;butthefailureofthewarningcontainedintheanonymouslettersenttoLimmeridgehadmadeAnneresolutetospeakthistime,andobstinateinthedeterminationtogoonhererrandalone。