WewaitedinvainforthearrivalofthesixthdaythatdaytomehasnotarrivedtotheSwede,neverdidarrive。Thenceforwardwewereenshroudedinpatchydarkness,sothatwecouldnothaveseenanobjectattwentypacesfromtheship。Eternalnightcontinuedtoenvelopus,allunrelievedbythephosphoricsea-brilliancytowhichwehadbeenaccustomedinthetropics。Weobservedtoo,that,althoughthetempestcontinuedtoragewithunabatedviolence,therewasnolongertobediscoveredtheusualappearanceofsurf,orfoam,whichhadhithertoattendedus。Allaroundwerehorror,andthickgloom,andablackswelteringdesertofebony。SuperstitiousterrorcreptbydegreesintothespiritoftheoldSwede,andmyownsoulwaswrappedupinsilentwonder。Weneglectedallcareoftheship,asworsethanuseless,andsecuringourselves,aswellaspossible,tothestumpofthemizen-mast,lookedoutbitterlyintotheworldofocean。Wehadnomeansofcalculatingtime,norcouldweformanyguessofoursituation。Wewere,however,wellawareofhavingmadefarthertothesouthwardthananypreviousnavigators,andfeltgreatamazementatnotmeetingwiththeusualimpedimentsofice。Inthemeantimeeverymomentthreatenedtobeourlasteverymountainousbillowhurriedtooverwhelmus。TheswellsurpassedanythingIhadimaginedpossible,andthatwewerenotinstantlyburiedisamiracle。Mycompanionspokeofthelightnessofourcargo,andremindedmeoftheexcellentqualitiesofourship;butI
couldnothelpfeelingtheutterhopelessnessofhopeitself,andpreparedmyselfgloomilyforthatdeathwhichIthoughtnothingcoulddeferbeyondanhour,as,witheveryknotofwaytheshipmade,theswellingoftheblackstupendousseasbecamemoredismallyappalling。
Attimeswegaspedforbreathatanelevationbeyondthealbatross
attimesbecamedizzywiththevelocityofourdescentintosomewateryhell,wheretheairgrewstagnant,andnosounddisturbedtheslumbersofthekraken。
Wewereatthebottomofoneoftheseabysses,whenaquickscreamfrommycompanionbrokefearfullyuponthenight。“See!see!”criedhe,shriekinginmyears,“AlmightyGod!see!see!”Ashespoke,I
becameawareofadull,sullenglareofredlightwhichstreameddownthesidesofthevastchasmwherewelay,andthrewafitfulbrilliancyuponourdeck。Castingmyeyesupwards,Ibeheldaspectaclewhichfrozethecurrentofmyblood。Ataterrificheightdirectlyaboveus,andupontheveryvergeoftheprecipitousdescent,hoveredagiganticshipof,perhaps,fourthousandtons。
Althoughupreareduponthesummitofawavemorethanahundredtimesherownaltitude,herapparentsizeexceededthatofanyshipofthelineorEastIndiamaninexistence。Herhugehullwasofadeepdingyblack,unrelievedbyanyofthecustomarycarvingsofaship。A
singlerowofbrasscannonprotrudedfromheropenports,anddashedfromtheirpolishedsurfacesthefiresofinnumerablebattle-lanterns,whichswungtoandfroaboutherrigging。Butwhatmainlyinspireduswithhorrorandastonishment,wasthatsheboreupunderapressofsailintheveryteethofthatsupernaturalsea,andofthatungovernablehurricane。Whenwefirstdiscoveredher,herbowswerealonetobeseen,assheroseslowlyfromthedimandhorriblegulfbeyondher。Foramomentofintenseterrorshepauseduponthegiddypinnacle,asifincontemplationofherownsublimity,thentrembledandtottered,andcamedown。
Atthisinstant,Iknownotwhatsuddenself-possessioncameovermyspirit。StaggeringasfaraftasIcould,Iawaitedfearlesslytheruinthatwastooverwhelm。Ourownvesselwasatlengthceasingfromherstruggles,andsinkingwithherheadtothesea。Theshockofthedescendingmassstruckher,consequently,inthatportionofherframewhichwasalreadyunderwater,andtheinevitableresultwastohurlme,withirresistibleviolence,upontheriggingofthestranger。
AsIfell,theshiphoveinstays,andwentabout;andtotheconfusionensuingIattributedmyescapefromthenoticeofthecrew。
WithlittledifficultyImademywayunperceivedtothemainhatchway,whichwaspartiallyopen,andsoonfoundanopportunityofsecretingmyselfinthehold。WhyIdidsoIcanhardlytell。Anindefinitesenseofawe,whichatfirstsightofthenavigatorsoftheshiphadtakenholdofmymind,wasperhapstheprincipleofmyconcealment。Iwasunwillingtotrustmyselfwitharaceofpeoplewhohadoffered,tothecursoryglanceIhadtaken,somanypointsofvaguenovelty,doubt,andapprehension。Ithereforethoughtpropertocontriveahiding-placeinthehold。ThisIdidbyremovingasmallportionoftheshifting-boards,insuchamannerastoaffordmeaconvenientretreatbetweenthehugetimbersoftheship。
Ihadscarcelycompletedmywork,whenafootstepintheholdforcedmetomakeuseofit。Amanpassedbymyplaceofconcealmentwithafeebleandunsteadygait。Icouldnotseehisface,buthadanopportunityofobservinghisgeneralappearance。Therewasaboutitanevidenceofgreatageandinfirmity。Hiskneestotteredbeneathaloadofyears,andhisentireframequiveredundertheburthen。Hemutteredtohimself,inalowbrokentone,somewordsofalanguagewhichIcouldnotunderstand,andgropedinacorneramongapileofsingular-lookinginstruments,anddecayedchartsofnavigation。Hismannerwasawildmixtureofthepeevishnessofsecondchildhood,andthesolemndignityofaGod。Heatlengthwentondeck,andIsawhimnomore。
Afeeling,forwhichIhavenoname,hastakenpossessionofmysoulasensationwhichwilladmitofnoanalysis,towhichthelessonsofbygonetimesareinadequate,andforwhichIfearfuturityitselfwilloffermenokey。Toamindconstitutedlikemyown,thelatterconsiderationisanevil。IshallneverIknowthatIshallneverbesatisfiedwithregardtothenatureofmyconceptions。Yetitisnotwonderfulthattheseconceptionsareindefinite,sincetheyhavetheirorigininsourcessoutterlynovel。Anewsenseanewentityisaddedtomysoul。
ItislongsinceIfirsttrodthedeckofthisterribleship,andtheraysofmydestinyare,Ithink,gatheringtoafocus。
Incomprehensiblemen!WrappedupinmeditationsofakindwhichI
cannotdivine,theypassmebyunnoticed。Concealmentisutterfollyonmypart,forthepeoplewillnotsee。ItwasbutjustnowthatI
passeddirectlybeforetheeyesofthemateitwasnolongwhileagothatIventuredintothecaptain’sownprivatecabin,andtookthencethematerialswithwhichIwrite,andhavewritten。IshallfromtimetotimecontinuethisJournal。ItistruethatImaynotfindanopportunityoftransmittingittotheworld,butIwillnotfalltomaketheendeavour。AtthelastmomentIwillenclosetheMS。
inabottle,andcastitwithinthesea。
Anincidenthasoccurredwhichhasgivenmenewroomformeditation。
AresuchthingstheoperationofungovernedChance?Ihadventuredupondeckandthrownmyselfdown,withoutattractinganynotice,amongapileofratlin-stuffandoldsailsinthebottomoftheyawl。
Whilemusinguponthesingularityofmyfate,Iunwittinglydaubedwithatar-brushtheedgesofaneatly-foldedstudding-sailwhichlaynearmeonabarrel。Thestudding-sailisnowbentupontheship,andthethoughtlesstouchesofthebrusharespreadoutintothewordDISCOVERY。
Ihavemademanyobservationslatelyuponthestructureofthevessel。Althoughwellarmed,sheisnot,Ithink,ashipofwar。Herrigging,build,andgeneralequipment,allnegativeasuppositionofthiskind。Whatsheisnot,IcaneasilyperceivewhatsheisI
fearitisimpossibletosay。Iknownothowitis,butinscrutinizingherstrangemodelandsingularcastofspars,herhugesizeandovergrownsuitsofcanvas,herseverelysimplebowandantiquatedstern,therewilloccasionallyflashacrossmymindasensationoffamiliarthings,andthereisalwaysmixedupwithsuchindistinctshadowsofrecollection,anunaccountablememoryofoldforeignchroniclesandageslongago。
Ihavebeenlookingatthetimbersoftheship。SheisbuiltofamaterialtowhichIamastranger。Thereisapeculiarcharacteraboutthewoodwhichstrikesmeasrenderingitunfitforthepurposetowhichithasbeenapplied。Imeanitsextremeporousness,consideredindependentlybytheworm-eatenconditionwhichisaconsequenceofnavigationintheseseas,andapartfromtherottennessattendantuponage。Itwillappearperhapsanobservationsomewhatover-curious,butthiswoodwouldhaveevery,characteristicofSpanishoak,ifSpanishoakweredistendedbyanyunnaturalmeans。
Inreadingtheabovesentenceacuriousapothegmofanoldweather-beatenDutchnavigatorcomesfulluponmyrecollection。“Itisassure。”hewaswonttosay,whenanydoubtwasentertainedofhisveracity,“assureasthereisaseawheretheshipitselfwillgrowinbulklikethelivingbodyoftheseaman。”
Aboutanhourago,Imadeboldtothrustmyselfamongagroupofthecrew。Theypaidmenomannerofattention,and,althoughIstoodintheverymidstofthemall,seemedutterlyunconsciousofmypresence。LiketheoneIhadatfirstseeninthehold,theyallboreaboutthemthemarksofahoaryoldage。Theirkneestrembledwithinfirmity;theirshoulderswerebentdoublewithdecrepitude;theirshrivelledskinsrattledinthewind;theirvoiceswerelow,tremulousandbroken;theireyesglistenedwiththerheumofyears;
andtheirgrayhairsstreamedterriblyinthetempest。Aroundthem,oneverypartofthedeck,layscatteredmathematicalinstrumentsofthemostquaintandobsoleteconstruction。
Imentionedsometimeagothebendingofastudding-sail。Fromthatperiodtheship,beingthrowndeadoffthewind,hascontinuedherterrificcourseduesouth,witheveryragofcanvaspackeduponher,fromhertruckstoherlowerstudding-sailbooms,androllingeverymomenthertop-gallantyard-armsintothemostappallinghellofwaterwhichitcanenterintothemindofamantoimagine。Ihavejustleftthedeck,whereIfinditimpossibletomaintainafooting,althoughthecrewseemtoexperiencelittleinconvenience。Itappearstomeamiracleofmiraclesthatourenormousbulkisnotswallowedupatonceandforever。WearesurelydoomedtohovercontinuallyuponthebrinkofEternity,withouttakingafinalplungeintotheabyss。FrombillowsathousandtimesmorestupendousthananyIhaveeverseen,weglideawaywiththefacilityofthearrowysea-gull;
andthecolossalwatersreartheirheadsaboveuslikedemonsofthedeep,butlikedemonsconfinedtosimplethreatsandforbiddentodestroy。Iamledtoattributethesefrequentescapestotheonlynaturalcausewhichcanaccountforsucheffect。Imustsupposetheshiptobewithintheinfluenceofsomestrongcurrent,orimpetuousunder-tow。
Ihaveseenthecaptainfacetoface,andinhisowncabinbut,asIexpected,hepaidmenoattention。Althoughinhisappearancethereis,toacasualobserver,nothingwhichmightbespeakhimmoreorlessthanman-stillafeelingofirrepressiblereverenceandawemingledwiththesensationofwonderwithwhichIregardedhim。Instatureheisnearlymyownheight;thatis,aboutfivefeeteightinches。Heisofawell-knitandcompactframeofbody,neitherrobustnorremarkablyotherwise。Butitisthesingularityoftheexpressionwhichreignsuponthefaceitistheintense,thewonderful,thethrillingevidenceofoldage,soutter,soextreme,whichexciteswithinmyspiritasenseasentimentineffable。Hisforehead,althoughlittlewrinkled,seemstobearuponitthestampofamyriadofyears。Hisgrayhairsarerecordsofthepast,andhisgrayereyesareSybilsofthefuture。Thecabinfloorwasthicklystrewnwithstrange,iron-claspedfolios,andmoulderinginstrumentsofscience,andobsoletelong-forgottencharts。Hisheadwasboweddownuponhishands,andhepored,withafieryunquieteye,overapaperwhichItooktobeacommission,andwhich,atallevents,borethesignatureofamonarch。Hemutteredtohimself,asdidthefirstseamanwhomIsawinthehold,somelowpeevishsyllablesofaforeigntongue,andalthoughthespeakerwascloseatmyelbow,hisvoiceseemedtoreachmyearsfromthedistanceofamile。
TheshipandallinitareimbuedwiththespiritofEld。Thecrewglidetoandfroliketheghostsofburiedcenturies;theireyeshaveaneageranduneasymeaning;andwhentheirfingersfallathwartmypathinthewildglareofthebattle-lanterns,IfeelasIhaveneverfeltbefore,althoughIhavebeenallmylifeadealerinantiquities,andhaveimbibedtheshadowsoffallencolumnsatBalbec,andTadmor,andPersepolis,untilmyverysoulhasbecomearuin。
WhenIlookaroundmeIfeelashamedofmyformerapprehensions。IfI
trembledattheblastwhichhashithertoattendedus,shallInotstandaghastatawarringofwindandocean,toconveyanyideaofwhichthewordstornadoandsimoomaretrivialandineffective?Allintheimmediatevicinityoftheshipistheblacknessofeternalnight,andachaosoffoamlesswater;but,aboutaleagueoneithersideofus,maybeseen,indistinctlyandatintervals,stupendousrampartsofice,toweringawayintothedesolatesky,andlookinglikethewallsoftheuniverse。