“Come。”hesaidatlength,turningtowardsatableofrichlyenamelledandmassivesilver,uponwhichwereafewgobletsfantasticallystained,togetherwithtwolargeEtruscanvases,fashionedinthesameextraordinarymodelasthatintheforegroundoftheportrait,andfilledwithwhatIsupposedtobeJohannisberger。“Come。”hesaid,abruptly,“letusdrink!Itisearly-butletusdrink。Itis_indeed_early。”hecontinued,musingly,asacherubwithaheavygoldenhammermadetheapartmentringwiththefirsthouraftersunrise:“Itis_indeed_early-butwhatmattersit?letusdrink!Letuspouroutanofferingtoyonsolemnsunwhichthesegaudylampsandcensersaresoeagertosubdue!”And,havingmademepledgehiminabumper,heswallowedinrapidsuccessionseveralgobletsofthewine。
“Todream。”hecontinued,resumingthetoneofhisdesultoryconversation,ashehelduptotherichlightofacenseroneofthemagnificentvases-“todreamhasbeenthebusinessofmylife。I
havethereforeframedformyself,asyousee,abowerofdreams。IntheheartofVenicecouldIhaveerectedabetter?Youbeholdaroundyou,itistrue,amedleyofarchitecturalembellishments。ThechastityofIoniaisoffendedbyantediluviandevices,andthesphynxesofEgyptareoutstretcheduponcarpetsofgold。Yettheeffectisincongruoustothetimidalone。Proprietiesofplace,andespeciallyoftime,arethebugbearswhichterrifymankindfromthecontemplationofthemagnificent。OnceIwasmyselfadecorist;butthatsublimationoffollyhaspalleduponmysoul。Allthisisnowthefitterformypurpose。Likethesearabesquecensers,myspiritiswrithinginfire,andthedeliriumofthissceneisfashioningmeforthewildervisionsofthatlandofrealdreamswhitherIamnowrapidlydeparting。”Heherepausedabruptly,benthisheadtohisbosom,andseemedtolistentoasoundwhichIcouldnothear。Atlength,erectinghisframe,helookedupwards,andejaculatedthelinesoftheBishopofChichester:
_“Stayformethere!Iwillnotfail_
_Tomeettheeinthathollowvale。”_
Inthenextinstant,confessingthepowerofthewine,hethrewhimselfatfull-lengthuponanottoman。
Aquickstepwasnowhearduponthestaircase,andaloudknockatthedoorrapidlysucceeded。Iwashasteningtoanticipateaseconddisturbance,whenapageofMentoni’shouseholdburstintotheroom,andfalteredout,inavoicechokingwithemotion,theincoherentwords,“Mymistress!-mymistress!-Poisoned!-poisoned!
Oh,beautiful-oh,beautifulAphrodite!”
Bewildered,Iflewtotheottoman,andendeavoredtoarousethesleepertoasenseofthestartlingintelligence。Buthislimbswererigid-hislipswerelivid-hislatelybeamingeyeswererivetedin_death_。Istaggeredbacktowardsthetable-myhandfelluponacrackedandblackenedgoblet-andaconsciousnessoftheentireandterribletruthflashedsuddenlyovermysoul。
ImpiatortorumlongoshicturbafuroresSanguinisinnocui,nonsatiata,aluit。
Sospitenuncpatria,fractonuncfunerisantro,Morsubidirafuitvitasalusquepatent。
[_QuatraincomposedforthegatesofamarkettoheerecteduponthesiteoftheJacobinClubHouseatParis_。]
IWASsicksickuntodeathwiththatlongagony;andwhentheyatlengthunboundme,andIwaspermittedtosit,Ifeltthatmysenseswereleavingme。Thesentencethedreadsentenceofdeathwasthelastofdistinctaccentuationwhichreachedmyears。Afterthat,thesoundoftheinquisitorialvoicesseemedmergedinonedreamyindeterminatehum。Itconveyedtomysoultheideaofrevolution
perhapsfromitsassociationinfancywiththeburrofamillwheel。
Thisonlyforabriefperiod;forpresentlyIheardnomore。Yet,forawhile,Isaw;butwithhowterribleanexaggeration!Isawthelipsoftheblack-robedjudges。TheyappearedtomewhitewhiterthanthesheetuponwhichItracethesewordsandthineventogrotesqueness;thinwiththeintensityoftheirexpressionoffirmnessofimmoveableresolutionofsterncontemptofhumantorture。IsawthatthedecreesofwhattomewasFate,werestillissuingfromthoselips。Isawthemwrithewithadeadlylocution。I
sawthemfashionthesyllablesofmyname;andIshudderedbecausenosoundsucceeded。Isaw,too,forafewmomentsofdelirioushorror,thesoftandnearlyimperceptiblewavingofthesabledraperieswhichenwrappedthewallsoftheapartment。Andthenmyvisionfellupontheseventallcandlesuponthetable。Atfirsttheyworetheaspectofcharity,andseemedwhiteandslenderangelswhowouldsaveme;
butthen,allatonce,therecameamostdeadlynauseaovermyspirit,andIfelteveryfibreinmyframethrillasifIhadtouchedthewireofagalvanicbattery,whiletheangelformsbecamemeaninglessspectres,withheadsofflame,andIsawthatfromthemtherewouldbenohelp。Andthentherestoleintomyfancy,likearichmusicalnote,thethoughtofwhatsweetresttheremustbeinthegrave。Thethoughtcamegentlyandstealthily,anditseemedlongbeforeitattainedfullappreciation;butjustasmyspiritcameatlengthproperlytofeelandentertainit,thefiguresofthejudgesvanished,asifmagically,frombeforeme;thetallcandlessankintonothingness;theirflameswentoututterly;theblacknessofdarknesssupervened;allsensationsappearedswallowedupinamadrushingdescentasofthesoulintoHades。Thensilence,andstillness,nightweretheuniverse。
Ihadswooned;butstillwillnotsaythatallofconsciousnesswaslost。WhatofitthereremainedIwillnotattempttodefine,oreventodescribe;yetallwasnotlost。Inthedeepestslumberno!Indeliriumno!Inaswoonno!Indeathno!eveninthegraveallisnotlost。Elsethereisnoimmortalityforman。Arousingfromthemostprofoundofslumbers,webreakthegossamerwebofsomedream。Yetinasecondafterward,sofrailmaythatwebhavebeen
weremembernotthatwehavedreamed。Inthereturntolifefromtheswoontherearetwostages;first,thatofthesenseofmentalorspiritual;secondly,thatofthesenseofphysical,existence。Itseemsprobablethatif,uponreachingthesecondstage,wecouldrecalltheimpressionsofthefirst,weshouldfindtheseimpressionseloquentinmemoriesofthegulfbeyond。Andthatgulfiswhat?
Howatleastshallwedistinguishitsshadowsfromthoseofthetomb?
ButiftheimpressionsofwhatIhavetermedthefirststage,arenot,atwill,recalled,yet,afterlonginterval,dotheynotcomeunbidden,whilewemarvelwhencetheycome?Hewhohasneverswooned,isnothewhofindsstrangepalacesandwildlyfamiliarfacesincoalsthatglow;isnothewhobeholdsfloatinginmid-airthesadvisionsthatthemanymaynotview;isnothewhopondersovertheperfumeofsomenovelflowerisnothewhosebraingrowsbewilderedwiththemeaningofsomemusicalcadencewhichhasneverbeforearrestedhisattention。
Amidfrequentandthoughtfulendeavorstoremember;amidearneststrugglestoregathersometokenofthestateofseemingnothingnessintowhichmysoulhadlapsed,therehavebeenmomentswhenIhavedreamedofsuccess;therehavebeenbrief,verybriefperiodswhenI
haveconjuredupremembranceswhichthelucidreasonofalaterepochassuresmecouldhavehadreferenceonlytothatconditionofseemingunconsciousness。Theseshadowsofmemorytell,indistinctly,oftallfiguresthatliftedandboremeinsilencedowndownstilldowntillahideousdizzinessoppressedmeatthemereideaoftheinterminablenessofthedescent。Theytellalsoofavaguehorroratmyheart,onaccountofthatheart’sunnaturalstillness。Thencomesasenseofsuddenmotionlessnessthroughoutallthings;asifthosewhoboremeaghastlytrain!hadoutrun,intheirdescent,thelimitsofthelimitless,andpausedfromthewearisomenessoftheirtoil。AfterthisIcalltomindflatnessanddampness;andthenallismadnessthemadnessofamemorywhichbusiesitselfamongforbiddenthings。
Verysuddenlytherecamebacktomysoulmotionandsoundthetumultuousmotionoftheheart,and,inmyears,thesoundofitsbeating。Thenapauseinwhichallisblank。Thenagainsound,andmotion,andtouchatinglingsensationpervadingmyframe。Thenthemereconsciousnessofexistence,withoutthoughtaconditionwhichlastedlong。Then,verysuddenly,thought,andshudderingterror,andearnestendeavortocomprehendmytruestate。Thenastrongdesiretolapseintoinsensibility。Thenarushingrevivalofsoulandasuccessfulefforttomove。Andnowafullmemoryofthetrial,ofthejudges,ofthesabledraperies,ofthesentence,ofthesickness,oftheswoon。Thenentireforgetfulnessofallthatfollowed;ofallthatalaterdayandmuchearnestnessofendeavorhaveenabledmevaguelytorecall。
Sofar,Ihadnotopenedmyeyes。IfeltthatIlayuponmyback,unbound。Ireachedoutmyhand,anditfellheavilyuponsomethingdampandhard。ThereIsufferedittoremainformanyminutes,whileIstrovetoimaginewhereandwhatIcouldbe。Ilonged,yetdarednottoemploymyvision。Idreadedthefirstglanceatobjectsaroundme。ItwasnotthatIfearedtolookuponthingshorrible,butthatI
grewaghastlestthereshouldbenothingtosee。Atlength,withawilddesperationatheart,Iquicklyunclosedmyeyes。Myworstthoughts,then,wereconfirmed。Theblacknessofeternalnightencompassedme。Istruggledforbreath。Theintensityofthedarknessseemedtooppressandstifleme。Theatmospherewasintolerablyclose。Istilllayquietly,andmadeefforttoexercisemyreason。I
broughttomindtheinquisitorialproceedings,andattemptedfromthatpointtodeducemyrealcondition。Thesentencehadpassed;anditappearedtomethataverylongintervaloftimehadsinceelapsed。YetnotforamomentdidIsupposemyselfactuallydead。
Suchasupposition,notwithstandingwhatwereadinfiction,isaltogetherinconsistentwithrealexistence;butwhereandinwhatstatewasI?Thecondemnedtodeath,Iknew,perishedusuallyattheautos-da-fe,andoneofthesehadbeenheldontheverynightofthedayofmytrial。HadIbeenremandedtomydungeon,toawaitthenextsacrifice,whichwouldnottakeplaceformanymonths?ThisIatoncesawcouldnotbe。Victimshadbeeninimmediatedemand。Moreover,mydungeon,aswellasallthecondemnedcellsatToledo,hadstonefloors,andlightwasnotaltogetherexcluded。
Afearfulideanowsuddenlydrovethebloodintorrentsuponmyheart,andforabriefperiod,Ioncemorerelapsedintoinsensibility。Uponrecovering,Iatoncestartedtomyfeet,tremblingconvulsivelyineveryfibre。Ithrustmyarmswildlyaboveandaroundmeinalldirections。Ifeltnothing;yetdreadedtomoveastep,lestIshouldbeimpededbythewallsofatomb。Perspirationburstfromeverypore,andstoodincoldbigbeadsuponmyforehead。
Theagonyofsuspensegrewatlengthintolerable,andIcautiouslymovedforward,withmyarmsextended,andmyeyesstrainingfromtheirsockets,inthehopeofcatchingsomefaintrayoflight。I
proceededformanypaces;butstillallwasblacknessandvacancy。I
breathedmorefreely。Itseemedevidentthatminewasnot,atleast,themosthideousoffates。
Andnow,asIstillcontinuedtostepcautiouslyonward,therecamethronginguponmyrecollectionathousandvaguerumorsofthehorrorsofToledo。Ofthedungeonstherehadbeenstrangethingsnarrated
fablesIhadalwaysdeemedthembutyetstrange,andtooghastlytorepeat,saveinawhisper。WasIlefttoperishofstarvationinthissubterraneanworldofdarkness;orwhatfate,perhapsevenmorefearful,awaitedme?Thattheresultwouldbedeath,andadeathofmorethancustomarybitterness,Iknewtoowellthecharacterofmyjudgestodoubt。Themodeandthehourwereallthatoccupiedordistractedme。
Myoutstretchedhandsatlengthencounteredsomesolidobstruction。
Itwasawall,seeminglyofstonemasonryverysmooth,slimy,andcold。Ifolloweditup;steppingwithallthecarefuldistrustwithwhichcertainantiquenarrativeshadinspiredme。Thisprocess,however,affordedmenomeansofascertainingthedimensionsofmydungeon;asImightmakeitscircuit,andreturntothepointwhenceIsetout,withoutbeingawareofthefact;soperfectlyuniformseemedthewall。Ithereforesoughttheknifewhichhadbeeninmypocket,whenledintotheinquisitorialchamber;butitwasgone;myclotheshadbeenexchangedforawrapperofcoarseserge。Ihadthoughtofforcingthebladeinsomeminutecreviceofthemasonry,soastoidentifymypointofdeparture。Thedifficulty,nevertheless,wasbuttrivial;although,inthedisorderofmyfancy,itseemedatfirstinsuperable。Itoreapartofthehemfromtherobeandplacedthefragmentatfulllength,andatrightanglestothewall。Ingropingmywayaroundtheprison,Icouldnotfailtoencounterthisraguponcompletingthecircuit。So,atleastI
thought:butIhadnotcountedupontheextentofthedungeon,oruponmyownweakness。Thegroundwasmoistandslippery。Istaggeredonwardforsometime,whenIstumbledandfell。Myexcessivefatigueinducedmetoremainprostrate;andsleepsoonovertookmeasIlay。