confessthatIwenttobedwithoutoneworduponthematterofCarthew,butnotwithouthavingcovenantedwithmyrascalforavisittoChesterthenextday。AtChesterwedidtheCathedral,walkedonthewalls,discussedShakespeareandthemusicalglasses——andmadeafreshengagementforthemorrow。
Idonotknow,andIamgladtohaveforgotten,howlongthesetravelswerecontinued。Wevisitedatleast,bysingularzigzags,Stratford,Warwick,Coventry,Gloucester,Bristol,Bath,andWells。Ateachstagewespokedutifullyofthesceneanditsassociations;Isketched,theShysterspoutedpoetryandcopiedepitaphs。WhocoulddoubtweweretheusualAmericans,travellingwithadesignofself-improvement?
Whowastoguessthatonewasablackmailer,tremblingtoapproachthesceneofaction——theotherahelpless,amateurdetective,waitingonevents?
Itisunnecessarytoremarkthatnoneoccurred,ornonetheleastsuitablewithmydesignofprotectingCarthew。Twotrifles,indeed,completedthoughtheyscarcelychangedmyconceptionoftheShyster。ThefirstwasobservedinGloucester,wherewespentSunday,andIproposedweshouldhearserviceinthecathedral。Tomysurprise,thecreaturehadanISMofhisown,towhichhewasloyal;andheleftmetogoalonetothecathedral——orperhapsnottogoatall——andstoleoffdownadesertedalleytosomeBethelorEbenezerofthepropershade。
Whenwemetagainatlunch,Iralliedhim,andhegrewrestive。
“Youneedemploynocircumlocutionswithme,Mr。Dodd。”hesaidsuddenly。“Youregardmybehaviourfromanunfavourablepointofview:youregardme,Imuchfear,ashypocritical。”
Iwassomewhatconfusedbytheattack。“YouknowwhatI
thinkofyourtrade。”Ireplied,lamelyandcoarsely。
“Excuseme,ifIseemtopressthesubject。”hecontinued,“butifyouthinkmylifeerroneous,wouldyouhavemeneglectthemeansofgrace?Becauseyouconsidermeinthewrongononepoint,wouldyouhavemeplacemyselfonthewronginall?
Surely,sir,thechurchisforthesinner。”
“Didyouaskablessingonyourpresententerprise?”Isneered。
HehadabadattackofSt。Vitus,hisfacewaschanged,andhiseyesflashed。“IwilltellyouwhatIdid!”hecried。“Iprayedforanunfortunatemanandawretchedwomanwhomhetriestosupport。”
IcannotpretendthatIfoundanyrepartee。
ThesecondincidentwasatBristol,whereIlostsightofmygentlemansomehours。Fromthiseclipse,hereturnedtomewiththickspeech,wanderingfootsteps,andabackallwhitenedwithplaster。Ihadhalfexpected,yetIcouldhavewepttoseeit。Alldisabilitieswerepiledonthatweakback——
domesticmisfortune,nervousdisease,adispleasingexterior,emptypockets,andtheslaveryofvice。
Iwillneverdenythatourprolongedconjunctionwastheresultofdoublecowardice。Eachwasafraidtoleavetheother,eachwasafraidtospeak,orknewnotwhattosay。Saveformyill-
judgedallusionatGloucester,thesubjectuppermostinbothourmindswasburied。Carthew,Stallbridge-le-Carthew,Stallbridge-Minster——whichwehadlongsinceandseverally
identifiedtobetheneareststation——eventhenameofDorsetshirewasstudiouslyavoided。Andyetweweremakingprogressallthetime,tackingacrossbroadEnglandlikeanunweatherlyvesselonawind;approachingourdestination,notopenly,butbyasortofflyingsap。Andatlength,Icanscarcetellhow,weweresetdownbyadilatorybutt-endoflocaltrainontheuntenantedplatformofStallbridge-Minster。
Thetownwasancientandcompact:adominooftiledhousesandwalledgardens,dwarfedbythedisproportionatebignessofthechurch。Fromthemidstofthethoroughfarewhichdivideditinhalf,fieldsandtreeswerevisibleateitherend;andthroughthesally-portofeverystreet,thereflowedinfromthecountryasilentinvasionofgreengrass。Beesandbirdsappearedtomakethemajorityoftheinhabitants;everygardenhaditsrowofhives,theeavesofeveryhousewereplasteredwiththenestsofswallows,andthepinnaclesofthechurchwereflickeredaboutalldaylongbyamultitudeofwings。ThetownwasofRomanfoundation;andasIlookedoutthatafternoonfromthelowwindowsoftheinn,Ishouldscarcehavebeensurprisedtoseeacenturioncomingupthestreetwithafatiguedraftoflegionaries。Inshort,Stallbridge-
MinsterwasoneofthosetownswhichappeartobemaintainedbyEnglandfortheinstructionanddelightoftheAmericanrambler;towhichheseemsguidedbyaninstinctnotlesssurprisingthanthesetter’s;andwhichhevisitsandquitswithequalenthusiasm。
Iwasnotatallinthehumourofthetourist。Ihadwastedweeksoftimeandaccomplishednothing;wewereontheeveoftheengagement,andIhadneitherplansnorallies。Ihadthrustmyselfintothetradeofprivateprovidenceandamateurdetective;IwasspendingmoneyandIwasreapingdisgrace。
Allthetime,IkepttellingmyselfthatImustatleastspeak;
thatthisignominioussilenceshouldhavebeenbrokenlongago,andmustbebrokennow。IshouldhavebrokenitwhenhefirstproposedtocometoStallbridge-Minster;Ishouldhavebrokenitinthetrain;Ishouldbreakitthereandthen,ontheinndoorstep,astheomnibusrolledoff。Iturnedtowardhimatthethought;heseemedtowince,thewordsdiedonmylips,andIproposedinsteadthatweshouldvisittheMinster。
Whilewewereengageduponthisduty,itcameontoraininamannerworthyofthetropics。Thevaultreverberated;everygargoyleinstantlypoureditsfulldischarge;wewadedbacktotheinn,ankle-deepinimpromptubrooks;andtherestoftheafternoonsatweatherbound,hearkeningtothesonorousdeluge。FortwohoursItalkedofindifferentmatters,laboriouslyfeedingtheconversation;fortwohoursmymindwasquitemadeuptodomydutyinstantly——andateachparticularinstantIpostponedittillthenext。Toscrewupmyfalteringcourage,Icalledatdinnerforsomesparklingwine。Itprovedwhenitcametobedetestable;Icouldnotputittomylips;andBellairs,whohadasmuchpalateasaweevil,waslefttofinishithimself。Doubtlessthewineflushedhim;doubtlesshemayhaveobservedmyembarrassmentoftheafternoon;
doubtlesshewasconsciousthatwewereapproachingacrisis,andthatthatevening,ifIdidnotjoinwithhim,Imustdeclaremyselfanopenenemy。Atleasthefled。Dinnerwasdone;thiswasthetimewhenIhadboundmyselftobreakmysilence;nomoredelaysweretobeallowed,nomoreexcusesreceived。I
wentupstairsaftersometobacco;whichIfelttobeamerenecessityinthecircumstances;andwhenIreturned,themanwasgone。Thewaitertoldmehehadleftthehouse。
Therainstillplumped,likeavastshower-bath,overthedesertedtown。Thenightwasdarkandwindless:thestreetlitglimmeringlyfromendtoend,lamps,housewindows,andthereflectionsintherain-poolsallcontributing。Fromapublic-
houseontheothersideoftheway,Iheardaharptwangandadolefulvoiceupraisedinthe“LarboardWatch。”“TheAnchor’sWeighed。”andothernavalditties。WherehadmyShysterwandered?Inalllikelihoodtothatlyricaltavern;therewasnochoiceofdiversion;incomparisonwithStallbridge-Minsteronarainynight,asheepfoldwouldseemgay。
AgainIpassedinreviewthepointsofmyinterview,onwhichI
wasalwaysconstantlyresolvedsolongasmyadversarywasabsentfromthescene:andagaintheystruckmeasinadequate。
FromthisdispiritingexerciseIturnedtothenativeamusementsoftheinncoffee-room,andstudiedforsometimethemezzotintsthatfrowneduponthewall。Therailwayguide,aftershowingmehowsoonIcouldleaveStallbridgeandhowquicklyIcouldreachParis,failedtoholdmyattention。Anillustratedadvertisementbookofhotelsbroughtmeverylowindeed;andwhenitcametothelocalpaper,Icouldhavewept。
Atthispoint,IfoundapassingsolaceinacopyofWhittaker’sAlmanac,andobtainedinfiftyminutesmoreinformationthanI
haveyetbeenabletouse。
Thenafreshapprehensionassailedme。SupposeBellairshadgivenmetheslip?supposehewasnowrollingontheroadtoStallbridge-le-Carthew?orperhapstherealreadyandlayingbeforeaverywhite-facedauditorhisthreatsandpropositions?
Ahastypersonmighthaveinstantlypursued。WhateverIam,I
amnothasty,andIwasawareofthreegraveobjections。Inthefirstplace,IcouldnotbecertainthatBellairswasgone。Inthesecond,Ihadnotastewhateverforalongdriveatthathourofthenightandinsomercilessarain。Inthethird,IhadnoideahowIwastogetadmittedifIwent,andnoideawhatIshouldsayifIgotadmitted。“Inshort。”Iconcluded,“thewholesituationisthemerestfarce。Youhavethrustyourselfinwhereyouhadnobusinessandhavenopower。YouwouldbequiteasusefulinSanFrancisco;farhappierinParis;andbeingbythewrathofGodatStallbridge-Minster,thewisestthingistogoquietlytobed。”Onthewaytomyroom,Isawinaflash
thatwhichIoughttohavedonelongago,andwhichitwasnowtoolatetothinkof——writtentoCarthew,Imean,detailingthefactsanddescribingBellairs,lettinghimdefendhimselfifhewereable,andgivinghimtimetofleeifhewerenot。Itwasthelastblowtomyself-respect;andIflungmyselfintomybedwithcontumely。
Ihavenoguesswhathouritwas,whenIwaswakenedbytheentranceofBellairscarryingacandle。Hehadbeendrunk,forhewasbedaubedwithmirefromheadtofoot;buthewasnowsoberandundertheempireofsomeviolentemotionwhichhecontrolledwithdifficulty。Hetrembledvisibly;andmorethanonce,duringtheinterviewwhichfollowed,tearssuddenlyandsilentlyoverflowedhischeeks。
“Ihavetoaskyourpardon,sir,forthisuntimelyvisit。”hesaid。
“Imakenodefence,Ihavenoexcuse,Ihavedisgracedmyself,Iamproperlypunished;Iappearbeforeyoutoappealtoyouinmercyforthemosttriflingaidor,Godhelpme!IfearImaygomad。”
“Whatonearthiswrong?”Iasked。
“Ihavebeenrobbed。”hesaid。“Ihavenodefencetooffer;itwasofmyownfault,Iamproperlypunished。”
“But,graciousgoodnessme!”Icried,“whoistheretorobyouinaplacelikethis?”
“Icanformnoopinion。”hereplied。“Ihavenoidea。Iwaslyinginaditchinanimate。Thisisadegradingconfession,sir;
Icanonlysayinself-defencethatperhapsinyourgoodnature
youhavemadeyourselfpartlyresponsibleformyshame。Iamnotusedtotheserichwines。”
“Inwhatformwasyourmoney?Perhapsitmaybetraced。”I
suggested。
“ItwasinEnglishsovereigns。IchangeditinNewYork;Igotverygoodexchange。”hesaid,andthen,withamomentaryoutbreak,“Godinheaven,howItoiledforit!”hecried。
“Thatdoesn’tsoundencouraging。”saidI。“Itmaybeworthwhiletoapplytothepolice,butitdoesn’tsoundahopefulcase。”
“AndIhavenohopeinthatdirection。”saidBellairs。“Myhopes,Mr。Dodd,areallfixeduponyourself。Icouldeasilyconvinceyouthatasmall,averysmalladvance,wouldbeinthenatureofanexcellentinvestment;butIprefertorelyonyourhumanity。Ouracquaintancebeganonanunusualfooting;
butyouhavenowknownmeforsometime,wehavebeensometime——Iwasgoingtosaywehadbeenalmostintimate。
Undertheimpulseofinstinctivesympathy,Ihavebaredmyhearttoyou,Mr。Dodd,asIhavedonetofew;andIbelieve——I
trust——ImaysaythatIfeelsure——youheardmewithakindlysentiment。Thisiswhatbringsmetoyoursideatthismostinexcusablehour。Butputyourselfinmyplace——howcouldI
sleep——howcouldIdreamofsleeping,inthisblacknessofremorseanddespair?Therewasafriendathand——soIventuredtothinkofyou;itwasinstinctive;Ifledtoyourside,asthedrowningmanclutchesatastraw。Theseexpressionsarenotexaggerated,theyscarcelyservetoexpresstheagitationofmymind。Andthink,sir,howeasilyyoucanrestoremetohopeand,Imaysay,toreason。Asmallloan,whichshallbefaithfullyrepaid。Fivehundreddollarswouldbeample。”Hewatchedmewithburningeyes。“Fourhundredwoulddo。I
believe,Mr。Dodd,thatIcouldmanagewitheconomyontwo。”
“AndthenyouwillrepaymeoutofCarthew’spocket?”Isaid。
“Iammuchobliged。ButIwilltellyouwhatIwilldo:Iwillseeyouonboardasteamer,payyourfarethroughtoSanFrancisco,andplacefiftydollarsinthepurser’shands,tobegivenyouinNewYork。”
Hedrankinmywords;hisfacerepresentedanecstasyofcunningthought。Icouldreadthere,plainasprint,thathebutthoughttooverreachme。
“AndwhatamItodoin’Frisco?”heasked。“Iamdisbarred,I
havenotrade,Icannotdig,tobeg——“hepausedinthecitation。“AndyouknowthatIamnotalone。”headded,“othersdependuponme。”
“IwillwritetoPinkerton。”Ireturned。“Ifeelsurehecanhelpyoutosomeemployment,andinthemeantime,andforthreemonthsafteryourarrival,heshallpaytoyourselfpersonally,onthefirstandthefifteenth,twenty-fivedollars。”